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  1. The Project Gutenberg EBook of Little Women, by Louisa May Alcott
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  6. Title: Little Women
  7. Author: Louisa May Alcott
  8. Posting Date: September 13, 2008 [EBook #514]
  9. Release Date: May, 1996
  10. [This file last updated on August 19, 2010]
  11. Language: English
  12. *** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK LITTLE WOMEN ***
  13. LITTLE WOMEN
  14. by
  15. Louisa May Alcott
  16. CONTENTS
  17. PART 1
  18. ONE PLAYING PILGRIMS
  19. TWO A MERRY CHRISTMAS
  20. THREE THE LAURENCE BOY
  21. FOUR BURDENS
  22. FIVE BEING NEIGHBORLY
  23. SIX BETH FINDS THE PALACE BEAUTIFUL
  24. SEVEN AMY'S VALLEY OF HUMILIATION
  25. EIGHT JO MEETS APOLLYON
  26. NINE MEG GOES TO VANITY FAIR
  27. TEN THE P.C. AND P.O.
  28. ELEVEN EXPERIMENTS
  29. TWELVE CAMP LAURENCE
  30. THIRTEEN CASTLES IN THE AIR
  31. FOURTEEN SECRETS
  32. FIFTEEN A TELEGRAM
  33. SIXTEEN LETTERS
  34. SEVENTEEN LITTLE FAITHFUL
  35. EIGHTEEN DARK DAYS
  36. NINETEEN AMY'S WILL
  37. TWENTY CONFIDENTIAL
  38. TWENTY-ONE LAURIE MAKES MISCHIEF, AND JO MAKES PEACE
  39. TWENTY-TWO PLEASANT MEADOWS
  40. TWENTY-THREE AUNT MARCH SETTLES THE QUESTION
  41. PART 2
  42. TWENTY-FOUR GOSSIP
  43. TWENTY-FIVE THE FIRST WEDDING
  44. TWENTY-SIX ARTISTIC ATTEMPTS
  45. TWENTY-SEVEN LITERARY LESSONS
  46. TWENTY-EIGHT DOMESTIC EXPERIENCES
  47. TWENTY-NINE CALLS
  48. THIRTY CONSEQUENCES
  49. THIRTY-ONE OUR FOREIGN CORRESPONDENT
  50. THIRTY-TWO TENDER TROUBLES
  51. THIRTY-THREE JO'S JOURNAL
  52. THIRTY-FOUR FRIEND
  53. THIRTY-FIVE HEARTACHE
  54. THIRTY-SIX BETH'S SECRET
  55. THIRTY-SEVEN NEW IMPRESSIONS
  56. THIRTY-EIGHT ON THE SHELF
  57. THIRTY-NINE LAZY LAURENCE
  58. FORTY THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW
  59. FORTY-ONE LEARNING TO FORGET
  60. FORTY-TWO ALL ALONE
  61. FORTY-THREE SURPRISES
  62. FORTY-FOUR MY LORD AND LADY
  63. FORTY-FIVE DAISY AND DEMI
  64. FORTY-SIX UNDER THE UMBRELLA
  65. FORTY-SEVEN HARVEST TIME
  66. CHAPTER ONE
  67. PLAYING PILGRIMS
  68. "Christmas won't be Christmas without any presents," grumbled Jo, lying
  69. on the rug.
  70. "It's so dreadful to be poor!" sighed Meg, looking down at her old
  71. dress.
  72. "I don't think it's fair for some girls to have plenty of pretty
  73. things, and other girls nothing at all," added little Amy, with an
  74. injured sniff.
  75. "We've got Father and Mother, and each other," said Beth contentedly
  76. from her corner.
  77. The four young faces on which the firelight shone brightened at the
  78. cheerful words, but darkened again as Jo said sadly, "We haven't got
  79. Father, and shall not have him for a long time." She didn't say
  80. "perhaps never," but each silently added it, thinking of Father far
  81. away, where the fighting was.
  82. Nobody spoke for a minute; then Meg said in an altered tone, "You know
  83. the reason Mother proposed not having any presents this Christmas was
  84. because it is going to be a hard winter for everyone; and she thinks we
  85. ought not to spend money for pleasure, when our men are suffering so in
  86. the army. We can't do much, but we can make our little sacrifices, and
  87. ought to do it gladly. But I am afraid I don't," and Meg shook her
  88. head, as she thought regretfully of all the pretty things she wanted.
  89. "But I don't think the little we should spend would do any good. We've
  90. each got a dollar, and the army wouldn't be much helped by our giving
  91. that. I agree not to expect anything from Mother or you, but I do want
  92. to buy _Undine and Sintran_ for myself. I've wanted it so long," said
  93. Jo, who was a bookworm.
  94. "I planned to spend mine in new music," said Beth, with a little sigh,
  95. which no one heard but the hearth brush and kettle-holder.
  96. "I shall get a nice box of Faber's drawing pencils; I really need
  97. them," said Amy decidedly.
  98. "Mother didn't say anything about our money, and she won't wish us to
  99. give up everything. Let's each buy what we want, and have a little
  100. fun; I'm sure we work hard enough to earn it," cried Jo, examining the
  101. heels of her shoes in a gentlemanly manner.
  102. "I know I do--teaching those tiresome children nearly all day, when I'm
  103. longing to enjoy myself at home," began Meg, in the complaining tone
  104. again.
  105. "You don't have half such a hard time as I do," said Jo. "How would you
  106. like to be shut up for hours with a nervous, fussy old lady, who keeps
  107. you trotting, is never satisfied, and worries you till you're ready to
  108. fly out the window or cry?"
  109. "It's naughty to fret, but I do think washing dishes and keeping things
  110. tidy is the worst work in the world. It makes me cross, and my hands
  111. get so stiff, I can't practice well at all." And Beth looked at her
  112. rough hands with a sigh that any one could hear that time.
  113. "I don't believe any of you suffer as I do," cried Amy, "for you don't
  114. have to go to school with impertinent girls, who plague you if you
  115. don't know your lessons, and laugh at your dresses, and label your
  116. father if he isn't rich, and insult you when your nose isn't nice."
  117. "If you mean libel, I'd say so, and not talk about labels, as if Papa
  118. was a pickle bottle," advised Jo, laughing.
  119. "I know what I mean, and you needn't be statirical about it. It's
  120. proper to use good words, and improve your vocabilary," returned Amy,
  121. with dignity.
  122. "Don't peck at one another, children. Don't you wish we had the money
  123. Papa lost when we were little, Jo? Dear me! How happy and good we'd
  124. be, if we had no worries!" said Meg, who could remember better times.
  125. "You said the other day you thought we were a deal happier than the
  126. King children, for they were fighting and fretting all the time, in
  127. spite of their money."
  128. "So I did, Beth. Well, I think we are. For though we do have to work,
  129. we make fun of ourselves, and are a pretty jolly set, as Jo would say."
  130. "Jo does use such slang words!" observed Amy, with a reproving look at
  131. the long figure stretched on the rug.
  132. Jo immediately sat up, put her hands in her pockets, and began to
  133. whistle.
  134. "Don't, Jo. It's so boyish!"
  135. "That's why I do it."
  136. "I detest rude, unladylike girls!"
  137. "I hate affected, niminy-piminy chits!"
  138. "Birds in their little nests agree," sang Beth, the peacemaker, with
  139. such a funny face that both sharp voices softened to a laugh, and the
  140. "pecking" ended for that time.
  141. "Really, girls, you are both to be blamed," said Meg, beginning to
  142. lecture in her elder-sisterly fashion. "You are old enough to leave off
  143. boyish tricks, and to behave better, Josephine. It didn't matter so
  144. much when you were a little girl, but now you are so tall, and turn up
  145. your hair, you should remember that you are a young lady."
  146. "I'm not! And if turning up my hair makes me one, I'll wear it in two
  147. tails till I'm twenty," cried Jo, pulling off her net, and shaking down
  148. a chestnut mane. "I hate to think I've got to grow up, and be Miss
  149. March, and wear long gowns, and look as prim as a China Aster! It's
  150. bad enough to be a girl, anyway, when I like boy's games and work and
  151. manners! I can't get over my disappointment in not being a boy. And
  152. it's worse than ever now, for I'm dying to go and fight with Papa. And
  153. I can only stay home and knit, like a poky old woman!"
  154. And Jo shook the blue army sock till the needles rattled like
  155. castanets, and her ball bounded across the room.
  156. "Poor Jo! It's too bad, but it can't be helped. So you must try to be
  157. contented with making your name boyish, and playing brother to us
  158. girls," said Beth, stroking the rough head with a hand that all the
  159. dish washing and dusting in the world could not make ungentle in its
  160. touch.
  161. "As for you, Amy," continued Meg, "you are altogether too particular
  162. and prim. Your airs are funny now, but you'll grow up an affected
  163. little goose, if you don't take care. I like your nice manners and
  164. refined ways of speaking, when you don't try to be elegant. But your
  165. absurd words are as bad as Jo's slang."
  166. "If Jo is a tomboy and Amy a goose, what am I, please?" asked Beth,
  167. ready to share the lecture.
  168. "You're a dear, and nothing else," answered Meg warmly, and no one
  169. contradicted her, for the 'Mouse' was the pet of the family.
  170. As young readers like to know 'how people look', we will take this
  171. moment to give them a little sketch of the four sisters, who sat
  172. knitting away in the twilight, while the December snow fell quietly
  173. without, and the fire crackled cheerfully within. It was a comfortable
  174. room, though the carpet was faded and the furniture very plain, for a
  175. good picture or two hung on the walls, books filled the recesses,
  176. chrysanthemums and Christmas roses bloomed in the windows, and a
  177. pleasant atmosphere of home peace pervaded it.
  178. Margaret, the eldest of the four, was sixteen, and very pretty, being
  179. plump and fair, with large eyes, plenty of soft brown hair, a sweet
  180. mouth, and white hands, of which she was rather vain. Fifteen-year-old
  181. Jo was very tall, thin, and brown, and reminded one of a colt, for she
  182. never seemed to know what to do with her long limbs, which were very
  183. much in her way. She had a decided mouth, a comical nose, and sharp,
  184. gray eyes, which appeared to see everything, and were by turns fierce,
  185. funny, or thoughtful. Her long, thick hair was her one beauty, but it
  186. was usually bundled into a net, to be out of her way. Round shoulders
  187. had Jo, big hands and feet, a flyaway look to her clothes, and the
  188. uncomfortable appearance of a girl who was rapidly shooting up into a
  189. woman and didn't like it. Elizabeth, or Beth, as everyone called her,
  190. was a rosy, smooth-haired, bright-eyed girl of thirteen, with a shy
  191. manner, a timid voice, and a peaceful expression which was seldom
  192. disturbed. Her father called her 'Little Miss Tranquility', and the
  193. name suited her excellently, for she seemed to live in a happy world of
  194. her own, only venturing out to meet the few whom she trusted and loved.
  195. Amy, though the youngest, was a most important person, in her own
  196. opinion at least. A regular snow maiden, with blue eyes, and yellow
  197. hair curling on her shoulders, pale and slender, and always carrying
  198. herself like a young lady mindful of her manners. What the characters
  199. of the four sisters were we will leave to be found out.
  200. The clock struck six and, having swept up the hearth, Beth put a pair
  201. of slippers down to warm. Somehow the sight of the old shoes had a
  202. good effect upon the girls, for Mother was coming, and everyone
  203. brightened to welcome her. Meg stopped lecturing, and lighted the
  204. lamp, Amy got out of the easy chair without being asked, and Jo forgot
  205. how tired she was as she sat up to hold the slippers nearer to the
  206. blaze.
  207. "They are quite worn out. Marmee must have a new pair."
  208. "I thought I'd get her some with my dollar," said Beth.
  209. "No, I shall!" cried Amy.
  210. "I'm the oldest," began Meg, but Jo cut in with a decided, "I'm the man
  211. of the family now Papa is away, and I shall provide the slippers, for
  212. he told me to take special care of Mother while he was gone."
  213. "I'll tell you what we'll do," said Beth, "let's each get her something
  214. for Christmas, and not get anything for ourselves."
  215. "That's like you, dear! What will we get?" exclaimed Jo.
  216. Everyone thought soberly for a minute, then Meg announced, as if the
  217. idea was suggested by the sight of her own pretty hands, "I shall give
  218. her a nice pair of gloves."
  219. "Army shoes, best to be had," cried Jo.
  220. "Some handkerchiefs, all hemmed," said Beth.
  221. "I'll get a little bottle of cologne. She likes it, and it won't cost
  222. much, so I'll have some left to buy my pencils," added Amy.
  223. "How will we give the things?" asked Meg.
  224. "Put them on the table, and bring her in and see her open the bundles.
  225. Don't you remember how we used to do on our birthdays?" answered Jo.
  226. "I used to be so frightened when it was my turn to sit in the chair
  227. with the crown on, and see you all come marching round to give the
  228. presents, with a kiss. I liked the things and the kisses, but it was
  229. dreadful to have you sit looking at me while I opened the bundles,"
  230. said Beth, who was toasting her face and the bread for tea at the same
  231. time.
  232. "Let Marmee think we are getting things for ourselves, and then
  233. surprise her. We must go shopping tomorrow afternoon, Meg. There is so
  234. much to do about the play for Christmas night," said Jo, marching up
  235. and down, with her hands behind her back, and her nose in the air.
  236. "I don't mean to act any more after this time. I'm getting too old for
  237. such things," observed Meg, who was as much a child as ever about
  238. 'dressing-up' frolics.
  239. "You won't stop, I know, as long as you can trail round in a white gown
  240. with your hair down, and wear gold-paper jewelry. You are the best
  241. actress we've got, and there'll be an end of everything if you quit the
  242. boards," said Jo. "We ought to rehearse tonight. Come here, Amy, and
  243. do the fainting scene, for you are as stiff as a poker in that."
  244. "I can't help it. I never saw anyone faint, and I don't choose to make
  245. myself all black and blue, tumbling flat as you do. If I can go down
  246. easily, I'll drop. If I can't, I shall fall into a chair and be
  247. graceful. I don't care if Hugo does come at me with a pistol,"
  248. returned Amy, who was not gifted with dramatic power, but was chosen
  249. because she was small enough to be borne out shrieking by the villain
  250. of the piece.
  251. "Do it this way. Clasp your hands so, and stagger across the room,
  252. crying frantically, 'Roderigo! Save me! Save me!'" and away went Jo,
  253. with a melodramatic scream which was truly thrilling.
  254. Amy followed, but she poked her hands out stiffly before her, and
  255. jerked herself along as if she went by machinery, and her "Ow!" was
  256. more suggestive of pins being run into her than of fear and anguish.
  257. Jo gave a despairing groan, and Meg laughed outright, while Beth let
  258. her bread burn as she watched the fun with interest. "It's no use! Do
  259. the best you can when the time comes, and if the audience laughs, don't
  260. blame me. Come on, Meg."
  261. Then things went smoothly, for Don Pedro defied the world in a speech
  262. of two pages without a single break. Hagar, the witch, chanted an
  263. awful incantation over her kettleful of simmering toads, with weird
  264. effect. Roderigo rent his chains asunder manfully, and Hugo died in
  265. agonies of remorse and arsenic, with a wild, "Ha! Ha!"
  266. "It's the best we've had yet," said Meg, as the dead villain sat up and
  267. rubbed his elbows.
  268. "I don't see how you can write and act such splendid things, Jo.
  269. You're a regular Shakespeare!" exclaimed Beth, who firmly believed that
  270. her sisters were gifted with wonderful genius in all things.
  271. "Not quite," replied Jo modestly. "I do think _The Witches Curse, an
  272. Operatic Tragedy_ is rather a nice thing, but I'd like to try
  273. _Macbeth_, if we only had a trapdoor for Banquo. I always wanted to do
  274. the killing part. 'Is that a dagger that I see before me?" muttered
  275. Jo, rolling her eyes and clutching at the air, as she had seen a famous
  276. tragedian do.
  277. "No, it's the toasting fork, with Mother's shoe on it instead of the
  278. bread. Beth's stage-struck!" cried Meg, and the rehearsal ended in a
  279. general burst of laughter.
  280. "Glad to find you so merry, my girls," said a cheery voice at the door,
  281. and actors and audience turned to welcome a tall, motherly lady with a
  282. 'can I help you' look about her which was truly delightful. She was not
  283. elegantly dressed, but a noble-looking woman, and the girls thought the
  284. gray cloak and unfashionable bonnet covered the most splendid mother in
  285. the world.
  286. "Well, dearies, how have you got on today? There was so much to do,
  287. getting the boxes ready to go tomorrow, that I didn't come home to
  288. dinner. Has anyone called, Beth? How is your cold, Meg? Jo, you look
  289. tired to death. Come and kiss me, baby."
  290. While making these maternal inquiries Mrs. March got her wet things
  291. off, her warm slippers on, and sitting down in the easy chair, drew Amy
  292. to her lap, preparing to enjoy the happiest hour of her busy day. The
  293. girls flew about, trying to make things comfortable, each in her own
  294. way. Meg arranged the tea table, Jo brought wood and set chairs,
  295. dropping, over-turning, and clattering everything she touched. Beth
  296. trotted to and fro between parlor kitchen, quiet and busy, while Amy
  297. gave directions to everyone, as she sat with her hands folded.
  298. As they gathered about the table, Mrs. March said, with a particularly
  299. happy face, "I've got a treat for you after supper."
  300. A quick, bright smile went round like a streak of sunshine. Beth
  301. clapped her hands, regardless of the biscuit she held, and Jo tossed up
  302. her napkin, crying, "A letter! A letter! Three cheers for Father!"
  303. "Yes, a nice long letter. He is well, and thinks he shall get through
  304. the cold season better than we feared. He sends all sorts of loving
  305. wishes for Christmas, and an especial message to you girls," said Mrs.
  306. March, patting her pocket as if she had got a treasure there.
  307. "Hurry and get done! Don't stop to quirk your little finger and simper
  308. over your plate, Amy," cried Jo, choking on her tea and dropping her
  309. bread, butter side down, on the carpet in her haste to get at the treat.
  310. Beth ate no more, but crept away to sit in her shadowy corner and brood
  311. over the delight to come, till the others were ready.
  312. "I think it was so splendid in Father to go as chaplain when he was too
  313. old to be drafted, and not strong enough for a soldier," said Meg
  314. warmly.
  315. "Don't I wish I could go as a drummer, a vivan--what's its name? Or a
  316. nurse, so I could be near him and help him," exclaimed Jo, with a groan.
  317. "It must be very disagreeable to sleep in a tent, and eat all sorts of
  318. bad-tasting things, and drink out of a tin mug," sighed Amy.
  319. "When will he come home, Marmee?" asked Beth, with a little quiver in
  320. her voice.
  321. "Not for many months, dear, unless he is sick. He will stay and do his
  322. work faithfully as long as he can, and we won't ask for him back a
  323. minute sooner than he can be spared. Now come and hear the letter."
  324. They all drew to the fire, Mother in the big chair with Beth at her
  325. feet, Meg and Amy perched on either arm of the chair, and Jo leaning on
  326. the back, where no one would see any sign of emotion if the letter
  327. should happen to be touching. Very few letters were written in those
  328. hard times that were not touching, especially those which fathers sent
  329. home. In this one little was said of the hardships endured, the
  330. dangers faced, or the homesickness conquered. It was a cheerful,
  331. hopeful letter, full of lively descriptions of camp life, marches, and
  332. military news, and only at the end did the writer's heart over-flow
  333. with fatherly love and longing for the little girls at home.
  334. "Give them all of my dear love and a kiss. Tell them I think of them
  335. by day, pray for them by night, and find my best comfort in their
  336. affection at all times. A year seems very long to wait before I see
  337. them, but remind them that while we wait we may all work, so that these
  338. hard days need not be wasted. I know they will remember all I said to
  339. them, that they will be loving children to you, will do their duty
  340. faithfully, fight their bosom enemies bravely, and conquer themselves
  341. so beautifully that when I come back to them I may be fonder and
  342. prouder than ever of my little women." Everybody sniffed when they came
  343. to that part. Jo wasn't ashamed of the great tear that dropped off the
  344. end of her nose, and Amy never minded the rumpling of her curls as she
  345. hid her face on her mother's shoulder and sobbed out, "I am a selfish
  346. girl! But I'll truly try to be better, so he mayn't be disappointed in
  347. me by-and-by."
  348. "We all will," cried Meg. "I think too much of my looks and hate to
  349. work, but won't any more, if I can help it."
  350. "I'll try and be what he loves to call me, 'a little woman' and not be
  351. rough and wild, but do my duty here instead of wanting to be somewhere
  352. else," said Jo, thinking that keeping her temper at home was a much
  353. harder task than facing a rebel or two down South.
  354. Beth said nothing, but wiped away her tears with the blue army sock and
  355. began to knit with all her might, losing no time in doing the duty that
  356. lay nearest her, while she resolved in her quiet little soul to be all
  357. that Father hoped to find her when the year brought round the happy
  358. coming home.
  359. Mrs. March broke the silence that followed Jo's words, by saying in her
  360. cheery voice, "Do you remember how you used to play Pilgrims Progress
  361. when you were little things? Nothing delighted you more than to have
  362. me tie my piece bags on your backs for burdens, give you hats and
  363. sticks and rolls of paper, and let you travel through the house from
  364. the cellar, which was the City of Destruction, up, up, to the housetop,
  365. where you had all the lovely things you could collect to make a
  366. Celestial City."
  367. "What fun it was, especially going by the lions, fighting Apollyon, and
  368. passing through the valley where the hob-goblins were," said Jo.
  369. "I liked the place where the bundles fell off and tumbled downstairs,"
  370. said Meg.
  371. "I don't remember much about it, except that I was afraid of the cellar
  372. and the dark entry, and always liked the cake and milk we had up at the
  373. top. If I wasn't too old for such things, I'd rather like to play it
  374. over again," said Amy, who began to talk of renouncing childish things
  375. at the mature age of twelve.
  376. "We never are too old for this, my dear, because it is a play we are
  377. playing all the time in one way or another. Our burdens are here, our
  378. road is before us, and the longing for goodness and happiness is the
  379. guide that leads us through many troubles and mistakes to the peace
  380. which is a true Celestial City. Now, my little pilgrims, suppose you
  381. begin again, not in play, but in earnest, and see how far on you can
  382. get before Father comes home."
  383. "Really, Mother? Where are our bundles?" asked Amy, who was a very
  384. literal young lady.
  385. "Each of you told what your burden was just now, except Beth. I rather
  386. think she hasn't got any," said her mother.
  387. "Yes, I have. Mine is dishes and dusters, and envying girls with nice
  388. pianos, and being afraid of people."
  389. Beth's bundle was such a funny one that everybody wanted to laugh, but
  390. nobody did, for it would have hurt her feelings very much.
  391. "Let us do it," said Meg thoughtfully. "It is only another name for
  392. trying to be good, and the story may help us, for though we do want to
  393. be good, it's hard work and we forget, and don't do our best."
  394. "We were in the Slough of Despond tonight, and Mother came and pulled
  395. us out as Help did in the book. We ought to have our roll of
  396. directions, like Christian. What shall we do about that?" asked Jo,
  397. delighted with the fancy which lent a little romance to the very dull
  398. task of doing her duty.
  399. "Look under your pillows Christmas morning, and you will find your
  400. guidebook," replied Mrs. March.
  401. They talked over the new plan while old Hannah cleared the table, then
  402. out came the four little work baskets, and the needles flew as the
  403. girls made sheets for Aunt March. It was uninteresting sewing, but
  404. tonight no one grumbled. They adopted Jo's plan of dividing the long
  405. seams into four parts, and calling the quarters Europe, Asia, Africa,
  406. and America, and in that way got on capitally, especially when they
  407. talked about the different countries as they stitched their way through
  408. them.
  409. At nine they stopped work, and sang, as usual, before they went to bed.
  410. No one but Beth could get much music out of the old piano, but she had
  411. a way of softly touching the yellow keys and making a pleasant
  412. accompaniment to the simple songs they sang. Meg had a voice like a
  413. flute, and she and her mother led the little choir. Amy chirped like a
  414. cricket, and Jo wandered through the airs at her own sweet will, always
  415. coming out at the wrong place with a croak or a quaver that spoiled the
  416. most pensive tune. They had always done this from the time they could
  417. lisp...
  418. Crinkle, crinkle, 'ittle 'tar,
  419. and it had become a household custom, for the mother was a born singer.
  420. The first sound in the morning was her voice as she went about the
  421. house singing like a lark, and the last sound at night was the same
  422. cheery sound, for the girls never grew too old for that familiar
  423. lullaby.
  424. CHAPTER TWO
  425. A MERRY CHRISTMAS
  426. Jo was the first to wake in the gray dawn of Christmas morning. No
  427. stockings hung at the fireplace, and for a moment she felt as much
  428. disappointed as she did long ago, when her little sock fell down
  429. because it was crammed so full of goodies. Then she remembered her
  430. mother's promise and, slipping her hand under her pillow, drew out a
  431. little crimson-covered book. She knew it very well, for it was that
  432. beautiful old story of the best life ever lived, and Jo felt that it
  433. was a true guidebook for any pilgrim going on a long journey. She woke
  434. Meg with a "Merry Christmas," and bade her see what was under her
  435. pillow. A green-covered book appeared, with the same picture inside,
  436. and a few words written by their mother, which made their one present
  437. very precious in their eyes. Presently Beth and Amy woke to rummage
  438. and find their little books also, one dove-colored, the other blue, and
  439. all sat looking at and talking about them, while the east grew rosy
  440. with the coming day.
  441. In spite of her small vanities, Margaret had a sweet and pious nature,
  442. which unconsciously influenced her sisters, especially Jo, who loved
  443. her very tenderly, and obeyed her because her advice was so gently
  444. given.
  445. "Girls," said Meg seriously, looking from the tumbled head beside her
  446. to the two little night-capped ones in the room beyond, "Mother wants
  447. us to read and love and mind these books, and we must begin at once.
  448. We used to be faithful about it, but since Father went away and all
  449. this war trouble unsettled us, we have neglected many things. You can
  450. do as you please, but I shall keep my book on the table here and read a
  451. little every morning as soon as I wake, for I know it will do me good
  452. and help me through the day."
  453. Then she opened her new book and began to read. Jo put her arm round
  454. her and, leaning cheek to cheek, read also, with the quiet expression
  455. so seldom seen on her restless face.
  456. "How good Meg is! Come, Amy, let's do as they do. I'll help you with
  457. the hard words, and they'll explain things if we don't understand,"
  458. whispered Beth, very much impressed by the pretty books and her
  459. sisters' example.
  460. "I'm glad mine is blue," said Amy. and then the rooms were very still
  461. while the pages were softly turned, and the winter sunshine crept in to
  462. touch the bright heads and serious faces with a Christmas greeting.
  463. "Where is Mother?" asked Meg, as she and Jo ran down to thank her for
  464. their gifts, half an hour later.
  465. "Goodness only knows. Some poor creeter came a-beggin', and your ma
  466. went straight off to see what was needed. There never was such a woman
  467. for givin' away vittles and drink, clothes and firin'," replied Hannah,
  468. who had lived with the family since Meg was born, and was considered by
  469. them all more as a friend than a servant.
  470. "She will be back soon, I think, so fry your cakes, and have everything
  471. ready," said Meg, looking over the presents which were collected in a
  472. basket and kept under the sofa, ready to be produced at the proper
  473. time. "Why, where is Amy's bottle of cologne?" she added, as the
  474. little flask did not appear.
  475. "She took it out a minute ago, and went off with it to put a ribbon on
  476. it, or some such notion," replied Jo, dancing about the room to take
  477. the first stiffness off the new army slippers.
  478. "How nice my handkerchiefs look, don't they? Hannah washed and ironed
  479. them for me, and I marked them all myself," said Beth, looking proudly
  480. at the somewhat uneven letters which had cost her such labor.
  481. "Bless the child! She's gone and put 'Mother' on them instead of 'M.
  482. March'. How funny!" cried Jo, taking one up.
  483. "Isn't that right? I thought it was better to do it so, because Meg's
  484. initials are M.M., and I don't want anyone to use these but Marmee,"
  485. said Beth, looking troubled.
  486. "It's all right, dear, and a very pretty idea, quite sensible too, for
  487. no one can ever mistake now. It will please her very much, I know,"
  488. said Meg, with a frown for Jo and a smile for Beth.
  489. "There's Mother. Hide the basket, quick!" cried Jo, as a door slammed
  490. and steps sounded in the hall.
  491. Amy came in hastily, and looked rather abashed when she saw her sisters
  492. all waiting for her.
  493. "Where have you been, and what are you hiding behind you?" asked Meg,
  494. surprised to see, by her hood and cloak, that lazy Amy had been out so
  495. early.
  496. "Don't laugh at me, Jo! I didn't mean anyone should know till the time
  497. came. I only meant to change the little bottle for a big one, and I
  498. gave all my money to get it, and I'm truly trying not to be selfish any
  499. more."
  500. As she spoke, Amy showed the handsome flask which replaced the cheap
  501. one, and looked so earnest and humble in her little effort to forget
  502. herself that Meg hugged her on the spot, and Jo pronounced her 'a
  503. trump', while Beth ran to the window, and picked her finest rose to
  504. ornament the stately bottle.
  505. "You see I felt ashamed of my present, after reading and talking about
  506. being good this morning, so I ran round the corner and changed it the
  507. minute I was up, and I'm so glad, for mine is the handsomest now."
  508. Another bang of the street door sent the basket under the sofa, and the
  509. girls to the table, eager for breakfast.
  510. "Merry Christmas, Marmee! Many of them! Thank you for our books. We
  511. read some, and mean to every day," they all cried in chorus.
  512. "Merry Christmas, little daughters! I'm glad you began at once, and
  513. hope you will keep on. But I want to say one word before we sit down.
  514. Not far away from here lies a poor woman with a little newborn baby.
  515. Six children are huddled into one bed to keep from freezing, for they
  516. have no fire. There is nothing to eat over there, and the oldest boy
  517. came to tell me they were suffering hunger and cold. My girls, will
  518. you give them your breakfast as a Christmas present?"
  519. They were all unusually hungry, having waited nearly an hour, and for a
  520. minute no one spoke, only a minute, for Jo exclaimed impetuously, "I'm
  521. so glad you came before we began!"
  522. "May I go and help carry the things to the poor little children?" asked
  523. Beth eagerly.
  524. "I shall take the cream and the muffings," added Amy, heroically giving
  525. up the article she most liked.
  526. Meg was already covering the buckwheats, and piling the bread into one
  527. big plate.
  528. "I thought you'd do it," said Mrs. March, smiling as if satisfied. "You
  529. shall all go and help me, and when we come back we will have bread and
  530. milk for breakfast, and make it up at dinnertime."
  531. They were soon ready, and the procession set out. Fortunately it was
  532. early, and they went through back streets, so few people saw them, and
  533. no one laughed at the queer party.
  534. A poor, bare, miserable room it was, with broken windows, no fire,
  535. ragged bedclothes, a sick mother, wailing baby, and a group of pale,
  536. hungry children cuddled under one old quilt, trying to keep warm.
  537. How the big eyes stared and the blue lips smiled as the girls went in.
  538. "Ach, mein Gott! It is good angels come to us!" said the poor woman,
  539. crying for joy.
  540. "Funny angels in hoods and mittens," said Jo, and set them to laughing.
  541. In a few minutes it really did seem as if kind spirits had been at work
  542. there. Hannah, who had carried wood, made a fire, and stopped up the
  543. broken panes with old hats and her own cloak. Mrs. March gave the
  544. mother tea and gruel, and comforted her with promises of help, while
  545. she dressed the little baby as tenderly as if it had been her own. The
  546. girls meantime spread the table, set the children round the fire, and
  547. fed them like so many hungry birds, laughing, talking, and trying to
  548. understand the funny broken English.
  549. "Das ist gut!" "Die Engel-kinder!" cried the poor things as they ate
  550. and warmed their purple hands at the comfortable blaze. The girls had
  551. never been called angel children before, and thought it very agreeable,
  552. especially Jo, who had been considered a 'Sancho' ever since she was
  553. born. That was a very happy breakfast, though they didn't get any of
  554. it. And when they went away, leaving comfort behind, I think there
  555. were not in all the city four merrier people than the hungry little
  556. girls who gave away their breakfasts and contented themselves with
  557. bread and milk on Christmas morning.
  558. "That's loving our neighbor better than ourselves, and I like it," said
  559. Meg, as they set out their presents while their mother was upstairs
  560. collecting clothes for the poor Hummels.
  561. Not a very splendid show, but there was a great deal of love done up in
  562. the few little bundles, and the tall vase of red roses, white
  563. chrysanthemums, and trailing vines, which stood in the middle, gave
  564. quite an elegant air to the table.
  565. "She's coming! Strike up, Beth! Open the door, Amy! Three cheers for
  566. Marmee!" cried Jo, prancing about while Meg went to conduct Mother to
  567. the seat of honor.
  568. Beth played her gayest march, Amy threw open the door, and Meg enacted
  569. escort with great dignity. Mrs. March was both surprised and touched,
  570. and smiled with her eyes full as she examined her presents and read the
  571. little notes which accompanied them. The slippers went on at once, a
  572. new handkerchief was slipped into her pocket, well scented with Amy's
  573. cologne, the rose was fastened in her bosom, and the nice gloves were
  574. pronounced a perfect fit.
  575. There was a good deal of laughing and kissing and explaining, in the
  576. simple, loving fashion which makes these home festivals so pleasant at
  577. the time, so sweet to remember long afterward, and then all fell to
  578. work.
  579. The morning charities and ceremonies took so much time that the rest of
  580. the day was devoted to preparations for the evening festivities. Being
  581. still too young to go often to the theater, and not rich enough to
  582. afford any great outlay for private performances, the girls put their
  583. wits to work, and necessity being the mother of invention, made
  584. whatever they needed. Very clever were some of their productions,
  585. pasteboard guitars, antique lamps made of old-fashioned butter boats
  586. covered with silver paper, gorgeous robes of old cotton, glittering
  587. with tin spangles from a pickle factory, and armor covered with the
  588. same useful diamond shaped bits left in sheets when the lids of
  589. preserve pots were cut out. The big chamber was the scene of many
  590. innocent revels.
  591. No gentleman were admitted, so Jo played male parts to her heart's
  592. content and took immense satisfaction in a pair of russet leather boots
  593. given her by a friend, who knew a lady who knew an actor. These boots,
  594. an old foil, and a slashed doublet once used by an artist for some
  595. picture, were Jo's chief treasures and appeared on all occasions. The
  596. smallness of the company made it necessary for the two principal actors
  597. to take several parts apiece, and they certainly deserved some credit
  598. for the hard work they did in learning three or four different parts,
  599. whisking in and out of various costumes, and managing the stage
  600. besides. It was excellent drill for their memories, a harmless
  601. amusement, and employed many hours which otherwise would have been
  602. idle, lonely, or spent in less profitable society.
  603. On Christmas night, a dozen girls piled onto the bed which was the
  604. dress circle, and sat before the blue and yellow chintz curtains in a
  605. most flattering state of expectancy. There was a good deal of rustling
  606. and whispering behind the curtain, a trifle of lamp smoke, and an
  607. occasional giggle from Amy, who was apt to get hysterical in the
  608. excitement of the moment. Presently a bell sounded, the curtains flew
  609. apart, and the _operatic tragedy_ began.
  610. "A gloomy wood," according to the one playbill, was represented by a
  611. few shrubs in pots, green baize on the floor, and a cave in the
  612. distance. This cave was made with a clothes horse for a roof, bureaus
  613. for walls, and in it was a small furnace in full blast, with a black
  614. pot on it and an old witch bending over it. The stage was dark and the
  615. glow of the furnace had a fine effect, especially as real steam issued
  616. from the kettle when the witch took off the cover. A moment was
  617. allowed for the first thrill to subside, then Hugo, the villain,
  618. stalked in with a clanking sword at his side, a slouching hat, black
  619. beard, mysterious cloak, and the boots. After pacing to and fro in
  620. much agitation, he struck his forehead, and burst out in a wild strain,
  621. singing of his hatred for Roderigo, his love for Zara, and his pleasing
  622. resolution to kill the one and win the other. The gruff tones of Hugo's
  623. voice, with an occasional shout when his feelings overcame him, were
  624. very impressive, and the audience applauded the moment he paused for
  625. breath. Bowing with the air of one accustomed to public praise, he
  626. stole to the cavern and ordered Hagar to come forth with a commanding,
  627. "What ho, minion! I need thee!"
  628. Out came Meg, with gray horsehair hanging about her face, a red and
  629. black robe, a staff, and cabalistic signs upon her cloak. Hugo
  630. demanded a potion to make Zara adore him, and one to destroy Roderigo.
  631. Hagar, in a fine dramatic melody, promised both, and proceeded to call
  632. up the spirit who would bring the love philter.
  633. Hither, hither, from thy home,
  634. Airy sprite, I bid thee come!
  635. Born of roses, fed on dew,
  636. Charms and potions canst thou brew?
  637. Bring me here, with elfin speed,
  638. The fragrant philter which I need.
  639. Make it sweet and swift and strong,
  640. Spirit, answer now my song!
  641. A soft strain of music sounded, and then at the back of the cave
  642. appeared a little figure in cloudy white, with glittering wings, golden
  643. hair, and a garland of roses on its head. Waving a wand, it sang...
  644. Hither I come,
  645. From my airy home,
  646. Afar in the silver moon.
  647. Take the magic spell,
  648. And use it well,
  649. Or its power will vanish soon!
  650. And dropping a small, gilded bottle at the witch's feet, the spirit
  651. vanished. Another chant from Hagar produced another apparition, not a
  652. lovely one, for with a bang an ugly black imp appeared and, having
  653. croaked a reply, tossed a dark bottle at Hugo and disappeared with a
  654. mocking laugh. Having warbled his thanks and put the potions in his
  655. boots, Hugo departed, and Hagar informed the audience that as he had
  656. killed a few of her friends in times past, she had cursed him, and
  657. intends to thwart his plans, and be revenged on him. Then the curtain
  658. fell, and the audience reposed and ate candy while discussing the
  659. merits of the play.
  660. A good deal of hammering went on before the curtain rose again, but
  661. when it became evident what a masterpiece of stage carpentery had been
  662. got up, no one murmured at the delay. It was truly superb. A tower
  663. rose to the ceiling, halfway up appeared a window with a lamp burning
  664. in it, and behind the white curtain appeared Zara in a lovely blue and
  665. silver dress, waiting for Roderigo. He came in gorgeous array, with
  666. plumed cap, red cloak, chestnut lovelocks, a guitar, and the boots, of
  667. course. Kneeling at the foot of the tower, he sang a serenade in
  668. melting tones. Zara replied and, after a musical dialogue, consented
  669. to fly. Then came the grand effect of the play. Roderigo produced a
  670. rope ladder, with five steps to it, threw up one end, and invited Zara
  671. to descend. Timidly she crept from her lattice, put her hand on
  672. Roderigo's shoulder, and was about to leap gracefully down when "Alas!
  673. Alas for Zara!" she forgot her train. It caught in the window, the
  674. tower tottered, leaned forward, fell with a crash, and buried the
  675. unhappy lovers in the ruins.
  676. A universal shriek arose as the russet boots waved wildly from the
  677. wreck and a golden head emerged, exclaiming, "I told you so! I told
  678. you so!" With wonderful presence of mind, Don Pedro, the cruel sire,
  679. rushed in, dragged out his daughter, with a hasty aside...
  680. "Don't laugh! Act as if it was all right!" and, ordering Roderigo up,
  681. banished him from the kingdom with wrath and scorn. Though decidedly
  682. shaken by the fall from the tower upon him, Roderigo defied the old
  683. gentleman and refused to stir. This dauntless example fired Zara. She
  684. also defied her sire, and he ordered them both to the deepest dungeons
  685. of the castle. A stout little retainer came in with chains and led
  686. them away, looking very much frightened and evidently forgetting the
  687. speech he ought to have made.
  688. Act third was the castle hall, and here Hagar appeared, having come to
  689. free the lovers and finish Hugo. She hears him coming and hides, sees
  690. him put the potions into two cups of wine and bid the timid little
  691. servant, "Bear them to the captives in their cells, and tell them I
  692. shall come anon." The servant takes Hugo aside to tell him something,
  693. and Hagar changes the cups for two others which are harmless.
  694. Ferdinando, the 'minion', carries them away, and Hagar puts back the
  695. cup which holds the poison meant for Roderigo. Hugo, getting thirsty
  696. after a long warble, drinks it, loses his wits, and after a good deal
  697. of clutching and stamping, falls flat and dies, while Hagar informs him
  698. what she has done in a song of exquisite power and melody.
  699. This was a truly thrilling scene, though some persons might have
  700. thought that the sudden tumbling down of a quantity of long red hair
  701. rather marred the effect of the villain's death. He was called before
  702. the curtain, and with great propriety appeared, leading Hagar, whose
  703. singing was considered more wonderful than all the rest of the
  704. performance put together.
  705. Act fourth displayed the despairing Roderigo on the point of stabbing
  706. himself because he has been told that Zara has deserted him. Just as
  707. the dagger is at his heart, a lovely song is sung under his window,
  708. informing him that Zara is true but in danger, and he can save her if
  709. he will. A key is thrown in, which unlocks the door, and in a spasm of
  710. rapture he tears off his chains and rushes away to find and rescue his
  711. lady love.
  712. Act fifth opened with a stormy scene between Zara and Don Pedro. He
  713. wishes her to go into a convent, but she won't hear of it, and after a
  714. touching appeal, is about to faint when Roderigo dashes in and demands
  715. her hand. Don Pedro refuses, because he is not rich. They shout and
  716. gesticulate tremendously but cannot agree, and Rodrigo is about to bear
  717. away the exhausted Zara, when the timid servant enters with a letter
  718. and a bag from Hagar, who has mysteriously disappeared. The latter
  719. informs the party that she bequeaths untold wealth to the young pair
  720. and an awful doom to Don Pedro, if he doesn't make them happy. The bag
  721. is opened, and several quarts of tin money shower down upon the stage
  722. till it is quite glorified with the glitter. This entirely softens the
  723. stern sire. He consents without a murmur, all join in a joyful chorus,
  724. and the curtain falls upon the lovers kneeling to receive Don Pedro's
  725. blessing in attitudes of the most romantic grace.
  726. Tumultuous applause followed but received an unexpected check, for the
  727. cot bed, on which the dress circle was built, suddenly shut up and
  728. extinguished the enthusiastic audience. Roderigo and Don Pedro flew to
  729. the rescue, and all were taken out unhurt, though many were speechless
  730. with laughter. The excitement had hardly subsided when Hannah
  731. appeared, with "Mrs. March's compliments, and would the ladies walk
  732. down to supper."
  733. This was a surprise even to the actors, and when they saw the table,
  734. they looked at one another in rapturous amazement. It was like Marmee
  735. to get up a little treat for them, but anything so fine as this was
  736. unheard of since the departed days of plenty. There was ice cream,
  737. actually two dishes of it, pink and white, and cake and fruit and
  738. distracting French bonbons and, in the middle of the table, four great
  739. bouquets of hot house flowers.
  740. It quite took their breath away, and they stared first at the table and
  741. then at their mother, who looked as if she enjoyed it immensely.
  742. "Is it fairies?" asked Amy.
  743. "Santa Claus," said Beth.
  744. "Mother did it." And Meg smiled her sweetest, in spite of her gray
  745. beard and white eyebrows.
  746. "Aunt March had a good fit and sent the supper," cried Jo, with a
  747. sudden inspiration.
  748. "All wrong. Old Mr. Laurence sent it," replied Mrs. March.
  749. "The Laurence boy's grandfather! What in the world put such a thing
  750. into his head? We don't know him!" exclaimed Meg.
  751. "Hannah told one of his servants about your breakfast party. He is an
  752. odd old gentleman, but that pleased him. He knew my father years ago,
  753. and he sent me a polite note this afternoon, saying he hoped I would
  754. allow him to express his friendly feeling toward my children by sending
  755. them a few trifles in honor of the day. I could not refuse, and so you
  756. have a little feast at night to make up for the bread-and-milk
  757. breakfast."
  758. "That boy put it into his head, I know he did! He's a capital fellow,
  759. and I wish we could get acquainted. He looks as if he'd like to know
  760. us but he's bashful, and Meg is so prim she won't let me speak to him
  761. when we pass," said Jo, as the plates went round, and the ice began to
  762. melt out of sight, with ohs and ahs of satisfaction.
  763. "You mean the people who live in the big house next door, don't you?"
  764. asked one of the girls. "My mother knows old Mr. Laurence, but says
  765. he's very proud and doesn't like to mix with his neighbors. He keeps
  766. his grandson shut up, when he isn't riding or walking with his tutor,
  767. and makes him study very hard. We invited him to our party, but he
  768. didn't come. Mother says he's very nice, though he never speaks to us
  769. girls."
  770. "Our cat ran away once, and he brought her back, and we talked over the
  771. fence, and were getting on capitally, all about cricket, and so on,
  772. when he saw Meg coming, and walked off. I mean to know him some day,
  773. for he needs fun, I'm sure he does," said Jo decidedly.
  774. "I like his manners, and he looks like a little gentleman, so I've no
  775. objection to your knowing him, if a proper opportunity comes. He
  776. brought the flowers himself, and I should have asked him in, if I had
  777. been sure what was going on upstairs. He looked so wistful as he went
  778. away, hearing the frolic and evidently having none of his own."
  779. "It's a mercy you didn't, Mother!" laughed Jo, looking at her boots.
  780. "But we'll have another play sometime that he can see. Perhaps he'll
  781. help act. Wouldn't that be jolly?"
  782. "I never had such a fine bouquet before! How pretty it is!" And Meg
  783. examined her flowers with great interest.
  784. "They are lovely. But Beth's roses are sweeter to me," said Mrs.
  785. March, smelling the half-dead posy in her belt.
  786. Beth nestled up to her, and whispered softly, "I wish I could send my
  787. bunch to Father. I'm afraid he isn't having such a merry Christmas as
  788. we are."
  789. CHAPTER THREE
  790. THE LAURENCE BOY
  791. "Jo! Jo! Where are you?" cried Meg at the foot of the garret stairs.
  792. "Here!" answered a husky voice from above, and, running up, Meg found
  793. her sister eating apples and crying over the Heir of Redclyffe, wrapped
  794. up in a comforter on an old three-legged sofa by the sunny window.
  795. This was Jo's favorite refuge, and here she loved to retire with half a
  796. dozen russets and a nice book, to enjoy the quiet and the society of a
  797. pet rat who lived near by and didn't mind her a particle. As Meg
  798. appeared, Scrabble whisked into his hole. Jo shook the tears off her
  799. cheeks and waited to hear the news.
  800. "Such fun! Only see! A regular note of invitation from Mrs. Gardiner
  801. for tomorrow night!" cried Meg, waving the precious paper and then
  802. proceeding to read it with girlish delight.
  803. "'Mrs. Gardiner would be happy to see Miss March and Miss Josephine at
  804. a little dance on New Year's Eve.' Marmee is willing we should go, now
  805. what shall we wear?"
  806. "What's the use of asking that, when you know we shall wear our
  807. poplins, because we haven't got anything else?" answered Jo with her
  808. mouth full.
  809. "If I only had a silk!" sighed Meg. "Mother says I may when I'm
  810. eighteen perhaps, but two years is an everlasting time to wait."
  811. "I'm sure our pops look like silk, and they are nice enough for us.
  812. Yours is as good as new, but I forgot the burn and the tear in mine.
  813. Whatever shall I do? The burn shows badly, and I can't take any out."
  814. "You must sit still all you can and keep your back out of sight. The
  815. front is all right. I shall have a new ribbon for my hair, and Marmee
  816. will lend me her little pearl pin, and my new slippers are lovely, and
  817. my gloves will do, though they aren't as nice as I'd like."
  818. "Mine are spoiled with lemonade, and I can't get any new ones, so I
  819. shall have to go without," said Jo, who never troubled herself much
  820. about dress.
  821. "You must have gloves, or I won't go," cried Meg decidedly. "Gloves are
  822. more important than anything else. You can't dance without them, and
  823. if you don't I should be so mortified."
  824. "Then I'll stay still. I don't care much for company dancing. It's no
  825. fun to go sailing round. I like to fly about and cut capers."
  826. "You can't ask Mother for new ones, they are so expensive, and you are
  827. so careless. She said when you spoiled the others that she shouldn't
  828. get you any more this winter. Can't you make them do?"
  829. "I can hold them crumpled up in my hand, so no one will know how
  830. stained they are. That's all I can do. No! I'll tell you how we can
  831. manage, each wear one good one and carry a bad one. Don't you see?"
  832. "Your hands are bigger than mine, and you will stretch my glove
  833. dreadfully," began Meg, whose gloves were a tender point with her.
  834. "Then I'll go without. I don't care what people say!" cried Jo, taking
  835. up her book.
  836. "You may have it, you may! Only don't stain it, and do behave nicely.
  837. Don't put your hands behind you, or stare, or say 'Christopher
  838. Columbus!' will you?"
  839. "Don't worry about me. I'll be as prim as I can and not get into any
  840. scrapes, if I can help it. Now go and answer your note, and let me
  841. finish this splendid story."
  842. So Meg went away to 'accept with thanks', look over her dress, and sing
  843. blithely as she did up her one real lace frill, while Jo finished her
  844. story, her four apples, and had a game of romps with Scrabble.
  845. On New Year's Eve the parlor was deserted, for the two younger girls
  846. played dressing maids and the two elder were absorbed in the
  847. all-important business of 'getting ready for the party'. Simple as the
  848. toilets were, there was a great deal of running up and down, laughing
  849. and talking, and at one time a strong smell of burned hair pervaded the
  850. house. Meg wanted a few curls about her face, and Jo undertook to
  851. pinch the papered locks with a pair of hot tongs.
  852. "Ought they to smoke like that?" asked Beth from her perch on the bed.
  853. "It's the dampness drying," replied Jo.
  854. "What a queer smell! It's like burned feathers," observed Amy,
  855. smoothing her own pretty curls with a superior air.
  856. "There, now I'll take off the papers and you'll see a cloud of little
  857. ringlets," said Jo, putting down the tongs.
  858. She did take off the papers, but no cloud of ringlets appeared, for the
  859. hair came with the papers, and the horrified hairdresser laid a row of
  860. little scorched bundles on the bureau before her victim.
  861. "Oh, oh, oh! What have you done? I'm spoiled! I can't go! My hair,
  862. oh, my hair!" wailed Meg, looking with despair at the uneven frizzle on
  863. her forehead.
  864. "Just my luck! You shouldn't have asked me to do it. I always spoil
  865. everything. I'm so sorry, but the tongs were too hot, and so I've made
  866. a mess," groaned poor Jo, regarding the little black pancakes with
  867. tears of regret.
  868. "It isn't spoiled. Just frizzle it, and tie your ribbon so the ends
  869. come on your forehead a bit, and it will look like the last fashion.
  870. I've seen many girls do it so," said Amy consolingly.
  871. "Serves me right for trying to be fine. I wish I'd let my hair alone,"
  872. cried Meg petulantly.
  873. "So do I, it was so smooth and pretty. But it will soon grow out
  874. again," said Beth, coming to kiss and comfort the shorn sheep.
  875. After various lesser mishaps, Meg was finished at last, and by the
  876. united exertions of the entire family Jo's hair was got up and her
  877. dress on. They looked very well in their simple suits, Meg's in
  878. silvery drab, with a blue velvet snood, lace frills, and the pearl pin.
  879. Jo in maroon, with a stiff, gentlemanly linen collar, and a white
  880. chrysanthemum or two for her only ornament. Each put on one nice light
  881. glove, and carried one soiled one, and all pronounced the effect "quite
  882. easy and fine". Meg's high-heeled slippers were very tight and hurt
  883. her, though she would not own it, and Jo's nineteen hairpins all seemed
  884. stuck straight into her head, which was not exactly comfortable, but,
  885. dear me, let us be elegant or die.
  886. "Have a good time, dearies!" said Mrs. March, as the sisters went
  887. daintily down the walk. "Don't eat much supper, and come away at
  888. eleven when I send Hannah for you." As the gate clashed behind them, a
  889. voice cried from a window...
  890. "Girls, girls! Have you you both got nice pocket handkerchiefs?"
  891. "Yes, yes, spandy nice, and Meg has cologne on hers," cried Jo, adding
  892. with a laugh as they went on, "I do believe Marmee would ask that if we
  893. were all running away from an earthquake."
  894. "It is one of her aristocratic tastes, and quite proper, for a real
  895. lady is always known by neat boots, gloves, and handkerchief," replied
  896. Meg, who had a good many little 'aristocratic tastes' of her own.
  897. "Now don't forget to keep the bad breadth out of sight, Jo. Is my sash
  898. right? And does my hair look very bad?" said Meg, as she turned from
  899. the glass in Mrs. Gardiner's dressing room after a prolonged prink.
  900. "I know I shall forget. If you see me doing anything wrong, just
  901. remind me by a wink, will you?" returned Jo, giving her collar a twitch
  902. and her head a hasty brush.
  903. "No, winking isn't ladylike. I'll lift my eyebrows if any thing is
  904. wrong, and nod if you are all right. Now hold your shoulder straight,
  905. and take short steps, and don't shake hands if you are introduced to
  906. anyone. It isn't the thing."
  907. "How do you learn all the proper ways? I never can. Isn't that music
  908. gay?"
  909. Down they went, feeling a trifle timid, for they seldom went to
  910. parties, and informal as this little gathering was, it was an event to
  911. them. Mrs. Gardiner, a stately old lady, greeted them kindly and
  912. handed them over to the eldest of her six daughters. Meg knew Sallie
  913. and was at her ease very soon, but Jo, who didn't care much for girls
  914. or girlish gossip, stood about, with her back carefully against the
  915. wall, and felt as much out of place as a colt in a flower garden. Half
  916. a dozen jovial lads were talking about skates in another part of the
  917. room, and she longed to go and join them, for skating was one of the
  918. joys of her life. She telegraphed her wish to Meg, but the eyebrows
  919. went up so alarmingly that she dared not stir. No one came to talk to
  920. her, and one by one the group dwindled away till she was left alone.
  921. She could not roam about and amuse herself, for the burned breadth
  922. would show, so she stared at people rather forlornly till the dancing
  923. began. Meg was asked at once, and the tight slippers tripped about so
  924. briskly that none would have guessed the pain their wearer suffered
  925. smilingly. Jo saw a big red headed youth approaching her corner, and
  926. fearing he meant to engage her, she slipped into a curtained recess,
  927. intending to peep and enjoy herself in peace. Unfortunately, another
  928. bashful person had chosen the same refuge, for, as the curtain fell
  929. behind her, she found herself face to face with the 'Laurence boy'.
  930. "Dear me, I didn't know anyone was here!" stammered Jo, preparing to
  931. back out as speedily as she had bounced in.
  932. But the boy laughed and said pleasantly, though he looked a little
  933. startled, "Don't mind me, stay if you like."
  934. "Shan't I disturb you?"
  935. "Not a bit. I only came here because I don't know many people and felt
  936. rather strange at first, you know."
  937. "So did I. Don't go away, please, unless you'd rather."
  938. The boy sat down again and looked at his pumps, till Jo said, trying to
  939. be polite and easy, "I think I've had the pleasure of seeing you
  940. before. You live near us, don't you?"
  941. "Next door." And he looked up and laughed outright, for Jo's prim
  942. manner was rather funny when he remembered how they had chatted about
  943. cricket when he brought the cat home.
  944. That put Jo at her ease and she laughed too, as she said, in her
  945. heartiest way, "We did have such a good time over your nice Christmas
  946. present."
  947. "Grandpa sent it."
  948. "But you put it into his head, didn't you, now?"
  949. "How is your cat, Miss March?" asked the boy, trying to look sober
  950. while his black eyes shone with fun.
  951. "Nicely, thank you, Mr. Laurence. But I am not Miss March, I'm only
  952. Jo," returned the young lady.
  953. "I'm not Mr. Laurence, I'm only Laurie."
  954. "Laurie Laurence, what an odd name."
  955. "My first name is Theodore, but I don't like it, for the fellows called
  956. me Dora, so I made them say Laurie instead."
  957. "I hate my name, too, so sentimental! I wish every one would say Jo
  958. instead of Josephine. How did you make the boys stop calling you Dora?"
  959. "I thrashed 'em."
  960. "I can't thrash Aunt March, so I suppose I shall have to bear it." And
  961. Jo resigned herself with a sigh.
  962. "Don't you like to dance, Miss Jo?" asked Laurie, looking as if he
  963. thought the name suited her.
  964. "I like it well enough if there is plenty of room, and everyone is
  965. lively. In a place like this I'm sure to upset something, tread on
  966. people's toes, or do something dreadful, so I keep out of mischief and
  967. let Meg sail about. Don't you dance?"
  968. "Sometimes. You see I've been abroad a good many years, and haven't
  969. been into company enough yet to know how you do things here."
  970. "Abroad!" cried Jo. "Oh, tell me about it! I love dearly to hear
  971. people describe their travels."
  972. Laurie didn't seem to know where to begin, but Jo's eager questions
  973. soon set him going, and he told her how he had been at school in Vevay,
  974. where the boys never wore hats and had a fleet of boats on the lake,
  975. and for holiday fun went on walking trips about Switzerland with their
  976. teachers.
  977. "Don't I wish I'd been there!" cried Jo. "Did you go to Paris?"
  978. "We spent last winter there."
  979. "Can you talk French?"
  980. "We were not allowed to speak anything else at Vevay."
  981. "Do say some! I can read it, but can't pronounce."
  982. "Quel nom a cette jeune demoiselle en les pantoufles jolis?"
  983. "How nicely you do it! Let me see ... you said, 'Who is the young lady
  984. in the pretty slippers', didn't you?"
  985. "Oui, mademoiselle."
  986. "It's my sister Margaret, and you knew it was! Do you think she is
  987. pretty?"
  988. "Yes, she makes me think of the German girls, she looks so fresh and
  989. quiet, and dances like a lady."
  990. Jo quite glowed with pleasure at this boyish praise of her sister, and
  991. stored it up to repeat to Meg. Both peeped and criticized and chatted
  992. till they felt like old acquaintances. Laurie's bashfulness soon wore
  993. off, for Jo's gentlemanly demeanor amused and set him at his ease, and
  994. Jo was her merry self again, because her dress was forgotten and nobody
  995. lifted their eyebrows at her. She liked the 'Laurence boy' better than
  996. ever and took several good looks at him, so that she might describe him
  997. to the girls, for they had no brothers, very few male cousins, and boys
  998. were almost unknown creatures to them.
  999. "Curly black hair, brown skin, big black eyes, handsome nose, fine
  1000. teeth, small hands and feet, taller than I am, very polite, for a boy,
  1001. and altogether jolly. Wonder how old he is?"
  1002. It was on the tip of Jo's tongue to ask, but she checked herself in
  1003. time and, with unusual tact, tried to find out in a round-about way.
  1004. "I suppose you are going to college soon? I see you pegging away at
  1005. your books, no, I mean studying hard." And Jo blushed at the dreadful
  1006. 'pegging' which had escaped her.
  1007. Laurie smiled but didn't seem shocked, and answered with a shrug. "Not
  1008. for a year or two. I won't go before seventeen, anyway."
  1009. "Aren't you but fifteen?" asked Jo, looking at the tall lad, whom she
  1010. had imagined seventeen already.
  1011. "Sixteen, next month."
  1012. "How I wish I was going to college! You don't look as if you liked it."
  1013. "I hate it! Nothing but grinding or skylarking. And I don't like the
  1014. way fellows do either, in this country."
  1015. "What do you like?"
  1016. "To live in Italy, and to enjoy myself in my own way."
  1017. Jo wanted very much to ask what his own way was, but his black brows
  1018. looked rather threatening as he knit them, so she changed the subject
  1019. by saying, as her foot kept time, "That's a splendid polka! Why don't
  1020. you go and try it?"
  1021. "If you will come too," he answered, with a gallant little bow.
  1022. "I can't, for I told Meg I wouldn't, because..." There Jo stopped, and
  1023. looked undecided whether to tell or to laugh.
  1024. "Because, what?"
  1025. "You won't tell?"
  1026. "Never!"
  1027. "Well, I have a bad trick of standing before the fire, and so I burn my
  1028. frocks, and I scorched this one, and though it's nicely mended, it
  1029. shows, and Meg told me to keep still so no one would see it. You may
  1030. laugh, if you want to. It is funny, I know."
  1031. But Laurie didn't laugh. He only looked down a minute, and the
  1032. expression of his face puzzled Jo when he said very gently, "Never mind
  1033. that. I'll tell you how we can manage. There's a long hall out there,
  1034. and we can dance grandly, and no one will see us. Please come."
  1035. Jo thanked him and gladly went, wishing she had two neat gloves when
  1036. she saw the nice, pearl-colored ones her partner wore. The hall was
  1037. empty, and they had a grand polka, for Laurie danced well, and taught
  1038. her the German step, which delighted Jo, being full of swing and
  1039. spring. When the music stopped, they sat down on the stairs to get
  1040. their breath, and Laurie was in the midst of an account of a students'
  1041. festival at Heidelberg when Meg appeared in search of her sister. She
  1042. beckoned, and Jo reluctantly followed her into a side room, where she
  1043. found her on a sofa, holding her foot, and looking pale.
  1044. "I've sprained my ankle. That stupid high heel turned and gave me a
  1045. sad wrench. It aches so, I can hardly stand, and I don't know how I'm
  1046. ever going to get home," she said, rocking to and fro in pain.
  1047. "I knew you'd hurt your feet with those silly shoes. I'm sorry. But I
  1048. don't see what you can do, except get a carriage, or stay here all
  1049. night," answered Jo, softly rubbing the poor ankle as she spoke.
  1050. "I can't have a carriage without its costing ever so much. I dare say
  1051. I can't get one at all, for most people come in their own, and it's a
  1052. long way to the stable, and no one to send."
  1053. "I'll go."
  1054. "No, indeed! It's past nine, and dark as Egypt. I can't stop here,
  1055. for the house is full. Sallie has some girls staying with her. I'll
  1056. rest till Hannah comes, and then do the best I can."
  1057. "I'll ask Laurie. He will go," said Jo, looking relieved as the idea
  1058. occurred to her.
  1059. "Mercy, no! Don't ask or tell anyone. Get me my rubbers, and put
  1060. these slippers with our things. I can't dance anymore, but as soon as
  1061. supper is over, watch for Hannah and tell me the minute she comes."
  1062. "They are going out to supper now. I'll stay with you. I'd rather."
  1063. "No, dear, run along, and bring me some coffee. I'm so tired I can't
  1064. stir."
  1065. So Meg reclined, with rubbers well hidden, and Jo went blundering away
  1066. to the dining room, which she found after going into a china closet,
  1067. and opening the door of a room where old Mr. Gardiner was taking a
  1068. little private refreshment. Making a dart at the table, she secured
  1069. the coffee, which she immediately spilled, thereby making the front of
  1070. her dress as bad as the back.
  1071. "Oh, dear, what a blunderbuss I am!" exclaimed Jo, finishing Meg's
  1072. glove by scrubbing her gown with it.
  1073. "Can I help you?" said a friendly voice. And there was Laurie, with a
  1074. full cup in one hand and a plate of ice in the other.
  1075. "I was trying to get something for Meg, who is very tired, and someone
  1076. shook me, and here I am in a nice state," answered Jo, glancing
  1077. dismally from the stained skirt to the coffee-colored glove.
  1078. "Too bad! I was looking for someone to give this to. May I take it
  1079. to your sister?"
  1080. "Oh, thank you! I'll show you where she is. I don't offer to take it
  1081. myself, for I should only get into another scrape if I did."
  1082. Jo led the way, and as if used to waiting on ladies, Laurie drew up a
  1083. little table, brought a second installment of coffee and ice for Jo,
  1084. and was so obliging that even particular Meg pronounced him a 'nice
  1085. boy'. They had a merry time over the bonbons and mottoes, and were in
  1086. the midst of a quiet game of _Buzz_, with two or three other young
  1087. people who had strayed in, when Hannah appeared. Meg forgot her foot
  1088. and rose so quickly that she was forced to catch hold of Jo, with an
  1089. exclamation of pain.
  1090. "Hush! Don't say anything," she whispered, adding aloud, "It's
  1091. nothing. I turned my foot a little, that's all," and limped upstairs
  1092. to put her things on.
  1093. Hannah scolded, Meg cried, and Jo was at her wits' end, till she
  1094. decided to take things into her own hands. Slipping out, she ran down
  1095. and, finding a servant, asked if he could get her a carriage. It
  1096. happened to be a hired waiter who knew nothing about the neighborhood
  1097. and Jo was looking round for help when Laurie, who had heard what she
  1098. said, came up and offered his grandfather's carriage, which had just
  1099. come for him, he said.
  1100. "It's so early! You can't mean to go yet?" began Jo, looking relieved
  1101. but hesitating to accept the offer.
  1102. "I always go early, I do, truly! Please let me take you home. It's all
  1103. on my way, you know, and it rains, they say."
  1104. That settled it, and telling him of Meg's mishap, Jo gratefully
  1105. accepted and rushed up to bring down the rest of the party. Hannah
  1106. hated rain as much as a cat does so she made no trouble, and they
  1107. rolled away in the luxurious close carriage, feeling very festive and
  1108. elegant. Laurie went on the box so Meg could keep her foot up, and the
  1109. girls talked over their party in freedom.
  1110. "I had a capital time. Did you?" asked Jo, rumpling up her hair, and
  1111. making herself comfortable.
  1112. "Yes, till I hurt myself. Sallie's friend, Annie Moffat, took a fancy
  1113. to me, and asked me to come and spend a week with her when Sallie does.
  1114. She is going in the spring when the opera comes, and it will be
  1115. perfectly splendid, if Mother only lets me go," answered Meg, cheering
  1116. up at the thought.
  1117. "I saw you dancing with the red headed man I ran away from. Was he
  1118. nice?"
  1119. "Oh, very! His hair is auburn, not red, and he was very polite, and I
  1120. had a delicious redowa with him."
  1121. "He looked like a grasshopper in a fit when he did the new step. Laurie
  1122. and I couldn't help laughing. Did you hear us?"
  1123. "No, but it was very rude. What were you about all that time, hidden
  1124. away there?"
  1125. Jo told her adventures, and by the time she had finished they were at
  1126. home. With many thanks, they said good night and crept in, hoping to
  1127. disturb no one, but the instant their door creaked, two little
  1128. nightcaps bobbed up, and two sleepy but eager voices cried out...
  1129. "Tell about the party! Tell about the party!"
  1130. With what Meg called 'a great want of manners' Jo had saved some
  1131. bonbons for the little girls, and they soon subsided, after hearing the
  1132. most thrilling events of the evening.
  1133. "I declare, it really seems like being a fine young lady, to come home
  1134. from the party in a carriage and sit in my dressing gown with a maid to
  1135. wait on me," said Meg, as Jo bound up her foot with arnica and brushed
  1136. her hair.
  1137. "I don't believe fine young ladies enjoy themselves a bit more than we
  1138. do, in spite of our burned hair, old gowns, one glove apiece and tight
  1139. slippers that sprain our ankles when we are silly enough to wear them."
  1140. And I think Jo was quite right.
  1141. CHAPTER FOUR
  1142. BURDENS
  1143. "Oh, dear, how hard it does seem to take up our packs and go on,"
  1144. sighed Meg the morning after the party, for now the holidays were over,
  1145. the week of merrymaking did not fit her for going on easily with the
  1146. task she never liked.
  1147. "I wish it was Christmas or New Year's all the time. Wouldn't it be
  1148. fun?" answered Jo, yawning dismally.
  1149. "We shouldn't enjoy ourselves half so much as we do now. But it does
  1150. seem so nice to have little suppers and bouquets, and go to parties,
  1151. and drive home, and read and rest, and not work. It's like other
  1152. people, you know, and I always envy girls who do such things, I'm so
  1153. fond of luxury," said Meg, trying to decide which of two shabby gowns
  1154. was the least shabby.
  1155. "Well, we can't have it, so don't let us grumble but shoulder our
  1156. bundles and trudge along as cheerfully as Marmee does. I'm sure Aunt
  1157. March is a regular Old Man of the Sea to me, but I suppose when I've
  1158. learned to carry her without complaining, she will tumble off, or get
  1159. so light that I shan't mind her."
  1160. This idea tickled Jo's fancy and put her in good spirits, but Meg
  1161. didn't brighten, for her burden, consisting of four spoiled children,
  1162. seemed heavier than ever. She had not heart enough even to make herself
  1163. pretty as usual by putting on a blue neck ribbon and dressing her hair
  1164. in the most becoming way.
  1165. "Where's the use of looking nice, when no one sees me but those cross
  1166. midgets, and no one cares whether I'm pretty or not?" she muttered,
  1167. shutting her drawer with a jerk. "I shall have to toil and moil all my
  1168. days, with only little bits of fun now and then, and get old and ugly
  1169. and sour, because I'm poor and can't enjoy my life as other girls do.
  1170. It's a shame!"
  1171. So Meg went down, wearing an injured look, and wasn't at all agreeable
  1172. at breakfast time. Everyone seemed rather out of sorts and inclined to
  1173. croak.
  1174. Beth had a headache and lay on the sofa, trying to comfort herself with
  1175. the cat and three kittens. Amy was fretting because her lessons were
  1176. not learned, and she couldn't find her rubbers. Jo would whistle and
  1177. make a great racket getting ready.
  1178. Mrs. March was very busy trying to finish a letter, which must go at
  1179. once, and Hannah had the grumps, for being up late didn't suit her.
  1180. "There never was such a cross family!" cried Jo, losing her temper when
  1181. she had upset an inkstand, broken both boot lacings, and sat down upon
  1182. her hat.
  1183. "You're the crossest person in it!" returned Amy, washing out the sum
  1184. that was all wrong with the tears that had fallen on her slate.
  1185. "Beth, if you don't keep these horrid cats down cellar I'll have them
  1186. drowned," exclaimed Meg angrily as she tried to get rid of the kitten
  1187. which had scrambled up her back and stuck like a burr just out of reach.
  1188. Jo laughed, Meg scolded, Beth implored, and Amy wailed because she
  1189. couldn't remember how much nine times twelve was.
  1190. "Girls, girls, do be quiet one minute! I must get this off by the
  1191. early mail, and you drive me distracted with your worry," cried Mrs.
  1192. March, crossing out the third spoiled sentence in her letter.
  1193. There was a momentary lull, broken by Hannah, who stalked in, laid two
  1194. hot turnovers on the table, and stalked out again. These turnovers were
  1195. an institution, and the girls called them 'muffs', for they had no
  1196. others and found the hot pies very comforting to their hands on cold
  1197. mornings.
  1198. Hannah never forgot to make them, no matter how busy or grumpy she
  1199. might be, for the walk was long and bleak. The poor things got no other
  1200. lunch and were seldom home before two.
  1201. "Cuddle your cats and get over your headache, Bethy. Goodbye, Marmee.
  1202. We are a set of rascals this morning, but we'll come home regular
  1203. angels. Now then, Meg!" And Jo tramped away, feeling that the
  1204. pilgrims were not setting out as they ought to do.
  1205. They always looked back before turning the corner, for their mother was
  1206. always at the window to nod and smile, and wave her hand to them.
  1207. Somehow it seemed as if they couldn't have got through the day without
  1208. that, for whatever their mood might be, the last glimpse of that
  1209. motherly face was sure to affect them like sunshine.
  1210. "If Marmee shook her fist instead of kissing her hand to us, it would
  1211. serve us right, for more ungrateful wretches than we are were never
  1212. seen," cried Jo, taking a remorseful satisfaction in the snowy walk and
  1213. bitter wind.
  1214. "Don't use such dreadful expressions," replied Meg from the depths of
  1215. the veil in which she had shrouded herself like a nun sick of the world.
  1216. "I like good strong words that mean something," replied Jo, catching
  1217. her hat as it took a leap off her head preparatory to flying away
  1218. altogether.
  1219. "Call yourself any names you like, but I am neither a rascal nor a
  1220. wretch and I don't choose to be called so."
  1221. "You're a blighted being, and decidedly cross today because you can't
  1222. sit in the lap of luxury all the time. Poor dear, just wait till I
  1223. make my fortune, and you shall revel in carriages and ice cream and
  1224. high-heeled slippers, and posies, and red-headed boys to dance with."
  1225. "How ridiculous you are, Jo!" But Meg laughed at the nonsense and felt
  1226. better in spite of herself.
  1227. "Lucky for you I am, for if I put on crushed airs and tried to be
  1228. dismal, as you do, we should be in a nice state. Thank goodness, I can
  1229. always find something funny to keep me up. Don't croak any more, but
  1230. come home jolly, there's a dear."
  1231. Jo gave her sister an encouraging pat on the shoulder as they parted
  1232. for the day, each going a different way, each hugging her little warm
  1233. turnover, and each trying to be cheerful in spite of wintry weather,
  1234. hard work, and the unsatisfied desires of pleasure-loving youth.
  1235. When Mr. March lost his property in trying to help an unfortunate
  1236. friend, the two oldest girls begged to be allowed to do something
  1237. toward their own support, at least. Believing that they could not
  1238. begin too early to cultivate energy, industry, and independence, their
  1239. parents consented, and both fell to work with the hearty good will
  1240. which in spite of all obstacles is sure to succeed at last.
  1241. Margaret found a place as nursery governess and felt rich with her
  1242. small salary. As she said, she was 'fond of luxury', and her chief
  1243. trouble was poverty. She found it harder to bear than the others
  1244. because she could remember a time when home was beautiful, life full of
  1245. ease and pleasure, and want of any kind unknown. She tried not to be
  1246. envious or discontented, but it was very natural that the young girl
  1247. should long for pretty things, gay friends, accomplishments, and a
  1248. happy life. At the Kings' she daily saw all she wanted, for the
  1249. children's older sisters were just out, and Meg caught frequent
  1250. glimpses of dainty ball dresses and bouquets, heard lively gossip about
  1251. theaters, concerts, sleighing parties, and merrymakings of all kinds,
  1252. and saw money lavished on trifles which would have been so precious to
  1253. her. Poor Meg seldom complained, but a sense of injustice made her
  1254. feel bitter toward everyone sometimes, for she had not yet learned to
  1255. know how rich she was in the blessings which alone can make life happy.
  1256. Jo happened to suit Aunt March, who was lame and needed an active
  1257. person to wait upon her. The childless old lady had offered to adopt
  1258. one of the girls when the troubles came, and was much offended because
  1259. her offer was declined. Other friends told the Marches that they had
  1260. lost all chance of being remembered in the rich old lady's will, but
  1261. the unworldly Marches only said...
  1262. "We can't give up our girls for a dozen fortunes. Rich or poor, we
  1263. will keep together and be happy in one another."
  1264. The old lady wouldn't speak to them for a time, but happening to meet
  1265. Jo at a friend's, something in her comical face and blunt manners
  1266. struck the old lady's fancy, and she proposed to take her for a
  1267. companion. This did not suit Jo at all, but she accepted the place
  1268. since nothing better appeared and, to every one's surprise, got on
  1269. remarkably well with her irascible relative. There was an occasional
  1270. tempest, and once Jo marched home, declaring she couldn't bear it
  1271. longer, but Aunt March always cleared up quickly, and sent for her to
  1272. come back again with such urgency that she could not refuse, for in her
  1273. heart she rather liked the peppery old lady.
  1274. I suspect that the real attraction was a large library of fine books,
  1275. which was left to dust and spiders since Uncle March died. Jo
  1276. remembered the kind old gentleman, who used to let her build railroads
  1277. and bridges with his big dictionaries, tell her stories about queer
  1278. pictures in his Latin books, and buy her cards of gingerbread whenever
  1279. he met her in the street. The dim, dusty room, with the busts staring
  1280. down from the tall bookcases, the cozy chairs, the globes, and best of
  1281. all, the wilderness of books in which she could wander where she liked,
  1282. made the library a region of bliss to her.
  1283. The moment Aunt March took her nap, or was busy with company, Jo
  1284. hurried to this quiet place, and curling herself up in the easy chair,
  1285. devoured poetry, romance, history, travels, and pictures like a regular
  1286. bookworm. But, like all happiness, it did not last long, for as sure
  1287. as she had just reached the heart of the story, the sweetest verse of a
  1288. song, or the most perilous adventure of her traveler, a shrill voice
  1289. called, "Josy-phine! Josy-phine!" and she had to leave her paradise to
  1290. wind yarn, wash the poodle, or read Belsham's Essays by the hour
  1291. together.
  1292. Jo's ambition was to do something very splendid. What it was, she had
  1293. no idea as yet, but left it for time to tell her, and meanwhile, found
  1294. her greatest affliction in the fact that she couldn't read, run, and
  1295. ride as much as she liked. A quick temper, sharp tongue, and restless
  1296. spirit were always getting her into scrapes, and her life was a series
  1297. of ups and downs, which were both comic and pathetic. But the training
  1298. she received at Aunt March's was just what she needed, and the thought
  1299. that she was doing something to support herself made her happy in spite
  1300. of the perpetual "Josy-phine!"
  1301. Beth was too bashful to go to school. It had been tried, but she
  1302. suffered so much that it was given up, and she did her lessons at home
  1303. with her father. Even when he went away, and her mother was called to
  1304. devote her skill and energy to Soldiers' Aid Societies, Beth went
  1305. faithfully on by herself and did the best she could. She was a
  1306. housewifely little creature, and helped Hannah keep home neat and
  1307. comfortable for the workers, never thinking of any reward but to be
  1308. loved. Long, quiet days she spent, not lonely nor idle, for her little
  1309. world was peopled with imaginary friends, and she was by nature a busy
  1310. bee. There were six dolls to be taken up and dressed every morning,
  1311. for Beth was a child still and loved her pets as well as ever. Not one
  1312. whole or handsome one among them, all were outcasts till Beth took them
  1313. in, for when her sisters outgrew these idols, they passed to her
  1314. because Amy would have nothing old or ugly. Beth cherished them all the
  1315. more tenderly for that very reason, and set up a hospital for infirm
  1316. dolls. No pins were ever stuck into their cotton vitals, no harsh
  1317. words or blows were ever given them, no neglect ever saddened the heart
  1318. of the most repulsive, but all were fed and clothed, nursed and
  1319. caressed with an affection which never failed. One forlorn fragment of
  1320. dollanity had belonged to Jo and, having led a tempestuous life, was
  1321. left a wreck in the rag bag, from which dreary poorhouse it was rescued
  1322. by Beth and taken to her refuge. Having no top to its head, she tied
  1323. on a neat little cap, and as both arms and legs were gone, she hid
  1324. these deficiencies by folding it in a blanket and devoting her best bed
  1325. to this chronic invalid. If anyone had known the care lavished on that
  1326. dolly, I think it would have touched their hearts, even while they
  1327. laughed. She brought it bits of bouquets, she read to it, took it out
  1328. to breathe fresh air, hidden under her coat, she sang it lullabies and
  1329. never went to bed without kissing its dirty face and whispering
  1330. tenderly, "I hope you'll have a good night, my poor dear."
  1331. Beth had her troubles as well as the others, and not being an angel but
  1332. a very human little girl, she often 'wept a little weep' as Jo said,
  1333. because she couldn't take music lessons and have a fine piano. She
  1334. loved music so dearly, tried so hard to learn, and practiced away so
  1335. patiently at the jingling old instrument, that it did seem as if
  1336. someone (not to hint Aunt March) ought to help her. Nobody did,
  1337. however, and nobody saw Beth wipe the tears off the yellow keys, that
  1338. wouldn't keep in tune, when she was all alone. She sang like a little
  1339. lark about her work, never was too tired for Marmee and the girls, and
  1340. day after day said hopefully to herself, "I know I'll get my music some
  1341. time, if I'm good."
  1342. There are many Beths in the world, shy and quiet, sitting in corners
  1343. till needed, and living for others so cheerfully that no one sees the
  1344. sacrifices till the little cricket on the hearth stops chirping, and
  1345. the sweet, sunshiny presence vanishes, leaving silence and shadow
  1346. behind.
  1347. If anybody had asked Amy what the greatest trial of her life was, she
  1348. would have answered at once, "My nose." When she was a baby, Jo had
  1349. accidently dropped her into the coal hod, and Amy insisted that the
  1350. fall had ruined her nose forever. It was not big nor red, like poor
  1351. 'Petrea's', it was only rather flat, and all the pinching in the world
  1352. could not give it an aristocratic point. No one minded it but herself,
  1353. and it was doing its best to grow, but Amy felt deeply the want of a
  1354. Grecian nose, and drew whole sheets of handsome ones to console herself.
  1355. "Little Raphael," as her sisters called her, had a decided talent for
  1356. drawing, and was never so happy as when copying flowers, designing
  1357. fairies, or illustrating stories with queer specimens of art. Her
  1358. teachers complained that instead of doing her sums she covered her
  1359. slate with animals, the blank pages of her atlas were used to copy maps
  1360. on, and caricatures of the most ludicrous description came fluttering
  1361. out of all her books at unlucky moments. She got through her lessons
  1362. as well as she could, and managed to escape reprimands by being a model
  1363. of deportment. She was a great favorite with her mates, being
  1364. good-tempered and possessing the happy art of pleasing without effort.
  1365. Her little airs and graces were much admired, so were her
  1366. accomplishments, for besides her drawing, she could play twelve tunes,
  1367. crochet, and read French without mispronouncing more than two-thirds of
  1368. the words. She had a plaintive way of saying, "When Papa was rich we
  1369. did so-and-so," which was very touching, and her long words were
  1370. considered 'perfectly elegant' by the girls.
  1371. Amy was in a fair way to be spoiled, for everyone petted her, and her
  1372. small vanities and selfishnesses were growing nicely. One thing,
  1373. however, rather quenched the vanities. She had to wear her cousin's
  1374. clothes. Now Florence's mama hadn't a particle of taste, and Amy
  1375. suffered deeply at having to wear a red instead of a blue bonnet,
  1376. unbecoming gowns, and fussy aprons that did not fit. Everything was
  1377. good, well made, and little worn, but Amy's artistic eyes were much
  1378. afflicted, especially this winter, when her school dress was a dull
  1379. purple with yellow dots and no trimming.
  1380. "My only comfort," she said to Meg, with tears in her eyes, "is that
  1381. Mother doesn't take tucks in my dresses whenever I'm naughty, as Maria
  1382. Parks's mother does. My dear, it's really dreadful, for sometimes she
  1383. is so bad her frock is up to her knees, and she can't come to school.
  1384. When I think of this _deggerredation_, I feel that I can bear even my
  1385. flat nose and purple gown with yellow sky-rockets on it."
  1386. Meg was Amy's confidant and monitor, and by some strange attraction of
  1387. opposites Jo was gentle Beth's. To Jo alone did the shy child tell her
  1388. thoughts, and over her big harum-scarum sister Beth unconsciously
  1389. exercised more influence than anyone in the family. The two older
  1390. girls were a great deal to one another, but each took one of the
  1391. younger sisters into her keeping and watched over her in her own way,
  1392. 'playing mother' they called it, and put their sisters in the places of
  1393. discarded dolls with the maternal instinct of little women.
  1394. "Has anybody got anything to tell? It's been such a dismal day I'm
  1395. really dying for some amusement," said Meg, as they sat sewing together
  1396. that evening.
  1397. "I had a queer time with Aunt today, and, as I got the best of it, I'll
  1398. tell you about it," began Jo, who dearly loved to tell stories. "I was
  1399. reading that everlasting Belsham, and droning away as I always do, for
  1400. Aunt soon drops off, and then I take out some nice book, and read like
  1401. fury till she wakes up. I actually made myself sleepy, and before she
  1402. began to nod, I gave such a gape that she asked me what I meant by
  1403. opening my mouth wide enough to take the whole book in at once."
  1404. "I wish I could, and be done with it," said I, trying not to be saucy.
  1405. "Then she gave me a long lecture on my sins, and told me to sit and
  1406. think them over while she just 'lost' herself for a moment. She never
  1407. finds herself very soon, so the minute her cap began to bob like a
  1408. top-heavy dahlia, I whipped the _Vicar of Wakefield_ out of my pocket,
  1409. and read away, with one eye on him and one on Aunt. I'd just got to
  1410. where they all tumbled into the water when I forgot and laughed out
  1411. loud. Aunt woke up and, being more good-natured after her nap, told me
  1412. to read a bit and show what frivolous work I preferred to the worthy
  1413. and instructive Belsham. I did my very best, and she liked it, though
  1414. she only said...
  1415. "'I don't understand what it's all about. Go back and begin it,
  1416. child.'"
  1417. "Back I went, and made the Primroses as interesting as ever I could.
  1418. Once I was wicked enough to stop in a thrilling place, and say meekly,
  1419. 'I'm afraid it tires you, ma'am. Shan't I stop now?'"
  1420. "She caught up her knitting, which had dropped out of her hands, gave
  1421. me a sharp look through her specs, and said, in her short way, 'Finish
  1422. the chapter, and don't be impertinent, miss'."
  1423. "Did she own she liked it?" asked Meg.
  1424. "Oh, bless you, no! But she let old Belsham rest, and when I ran back
  1425. after my gloves this afternoon, there she was, so hard at the Vicar
  1426. that she didn't hear me laugh as I danced a jig in the hall because of
  1427. the good time coming. What a pleasant life she might have if only she
  1428. chose! I don't envy her much, in spite of her money, for after all
  1429. rich people have about as many worries as poor ones, I think," added Jo.
  1430. "That reminds me," said Meg, "that I've got something to tell. It isn't
  1431. funny, like Jo's story, but I thought about it a good deal as I came
  1432. home. At the Kings' today I found everybody in a flurry, and one of
  1433. the children said that her oldest brother had done something dreadful,
  1434. and Papa had sent him away. I heard Mrs. King crying and Mr. King
  1435. talking very loud, and Grace and Ellen turned away their faces when
  1436. they passed me, so I shouldn't see how red and swollen their eyes were.
  1437. I didn't ask any questions, of course, but I felt so sorry for them and
  1438. was rather glad I hadn't any wild brothers to do wicked things and
  1439. disgrace the family."
  1440. "I think being disgraced in school is a great deal try_inger_ than
  1441. anything bad boys can do," said Amy, shaking her head, as if her
  1442. experience of life had been a deep one. "Susie Perkins came to school
  1443. today with a lovely red carnelian ring. I wanted it dreadfully, and
  1444. wished I was her with all my might. Well, she drew a picture of Mr.
  1445. Davis, with a monstrous nose and a hump, and the words, 'Young ladies,
  1446. my eye is upon you!' coming out of his mouth in a balloon thing. We
  1447. were laughing over it when all of a sudden his eye _was_ on us, and he
  1448. ordered Susie to bring up her slate. She was _parry_lized with fright,
  1449. but she went, and oh, what _do_ you think he did? He took her by the
  1450. ear--the ear! Just fancy how horrid!--and led her to the recitation
  1451. platform, and made her stand there half an hour, holding the slate so
  1452. everyone could see."
  1453. "Didn't the girls laugh at the picture?" asked Jo, who relished the
  1454. scrape.
  1455. "Laugh? Not one! They sat still as mice, and Susie cried quarts, I know
  1456. she did. I didn't envy her then, for I felt that millions of carnelian
  1457. rings wouldn't have made me happy after that. I never, never should
  1458. have got over such a agonizing mortification." And Amy went on with her
  1459. work, in the proud consciousness of virtue and the successful utterance
  1460. of two long words in a breath.
  1461. "I saw something I liked this morning, and I meant to tell it at
  1462. dinner, but I forgot," said Beth, putting Jo's topsy-turvy basket in
  1463. order as she talked. "When I went to get some oysters for Hannah, Mr.
  1464. Laurence was in the fish shop, but he didn't see me, for I kept behind
  1465. the fish barrel, and he was busy with Mr. Cutter the fish-man. A poor
  1466. woman came in with a pail and a mop, and asked Mr. Cutter if he would
  1467. let her do some scrubbing for a bit of fish, because she hadn't any
  1468. dinner for her children, and had been disappointed of a day's work.
  1469. Mr. Cutter was in a hurry and said 'No', rather crossly, so she was
  1470. going away, looking hungry and sorry, when Mr. Laurence hooked up a big
  1471. fish with the crooked end of his cane and held it out to her. She was
  1472. so glad and surprised she took it right into her arms, and thanked him
  1473. over and over. He told her to 'go along and cook it', and she hurried
  1474. off, so happy! Wasn't it good of him? Oh, she did look so funny,
  1475. hugging the big, slippery fish, and hoping Mr. Laurence's bed in heaven
  1476. would be 'aisy'."
  1477. When they had laughed at Beth's story, they asked their mother for one,
  1478. and after a moments thought, she said soberly, "As I sat cutting out
  1479. blue flannel jackets today at the rooms, I felt very anxious about
  1480. Father, and thought how lonely and helpless we should be, if anything
  1481. happened to him. It was not a wise thing to do, but I kept on worrying
  1482. till an old man came in with an order for some clothes. He sat down
  1483. near me, and I began to talk to him, for he looked poor and tired and
  1484. anxious.
  1485. "'Have you sons in the army?' I asked, for the note he brought was not
  1486. to me."
  1487. "Yes, ma'am. I had four, but two were killed, one is a prisoner, and
  1488. I'm going to the other, who is very sick in a Washington hospital.' he
  1489. answered quietly."
  1490. "'You have done a great deal for your country, sir,' I said, feeling
  1491. respect now, instead of pity."
  1492. "'Not a mite more than I ought, ma'am. I'd go myself, if I was any
  1493. use. As I ain't, I give my boys, and give 'em free.'"
  1494. "He spoke so cheerfully, looked so sincere, and seemed so glad to give
  1495. his all, that I was ashamed of myself. I'd given one man and thought
  1496. it too much, while he gave four without grudging them. I had all my
  1497. girls to comfort me at home, and his last son was waiting, miles away,
  1498. to say good-by to him, perhaps! I felt so rich, so happy thinking of
  1499. my blessings, that I made him a nice bundle, gave him some money, and
  1500. thanked him heartily for the lesson he had taught me."
  1501. "Tell another story, Mother, one with a moral to it, like this. I like
  1502. to think about them afterward, if they are real and not too preachy,"
  1503. said Jo, after a minute's silence.
  1504. Mrs. March smiled and began at once, for she had told stories to this
  1505. little audience for many years, and knew how to please them.
  1506. "Once upon a time, there were four girls, who had enough to eat and
  1507. drink and wear, a good many comforts and pleasures, kind friends and
  1508. parents who loved them dearly, and yet they were not contented." (Here
  1509. the listeners stole sly looks at one another, and began to sew
  1510. diligently.) "These girls were anxious to be good and made many
  1511. excellent resolutions, but they did not keep them very well, and were
  1512. constantly saying, 'If only we had this,' or 'If we could only do
  1513. that,' quite forgetting how much they already had, and how many things
  1514. they actually could do. So they asked an old woman what spell they
  1515. could use to make them happy, and she said, 'When you feel
  1516. discontented, think over your blessings, and be grateful.'" (Here Jo
  1517. looked up quickly, as if about to speak, but changed her mind, seeing
  1518. that the story was not done yet.)
  1519. "Being sensible girls, they decided to try her advice, and soon were
  1520. surprised to see how well off they were. One discovered that money
  1521. couldn't keep shame and sorrow out of rich people's houses, another
  1522. that, though she was poor, she was a great deal happier, with her
  1523. youth, health, and good spirits, than a certain fretful, feeble old
  1524. lady who couldn't enjoy her comforts, a third that, disagreeable as it
  1525. was to help get dinner, it was harder still to go begging for it and
  1526. the fourth, that even carnelian rings were not so valuable as good
  1527. behavior. So they agreed to stop complaining, to enjoy the blessings
  1528. already possessed, and try to deserve them, lest they should be taken
  1529. away entirely, instead of increased, and I believe they were never
  1530. disappointed or sorry that they took the old woman's advice."
  1531. "Now, Marmee, that is very cunning of you to turn our own stories
  1532. against us, and give us a sermon instead of a romance!" cried Meg.
  1533. "I like that kind of sermon. It's the sort Father used to tell us,"
  1534. said Beth thoughtfully, putting the needles straight on Jo's cushion.
  1535. "I don't complain near as much as the others do, and I shall be more
  1536. careful than ever now, for I've had warning from Susie's downfall,"
  1537. said Amy morally.
  1538. "We needed that lesson, and we won't forget it. If we do so, you just
  1539. say to us, as old Chloe did in _Uncle Tom_, 'Tink ob yer marcies,
  1540. chillen!' 'Tink ob yer marcies!'" added Jo, who could not, for the life
  1541. of her, help getting a morsel of fun out of the little sermon, though
  1542. she took it to heart as much as any of them.
  1543. CHAPTER FIVE
  1544. BEING NEIGHBORLY
  1545. "What in the world are you going to do now, Jo?" asked Meg one snowy
  1546. afternoon, as her sister came tramping through the hall, in rubber
  1547. boots, old sack, and hood, with a broom in one hand and a shovel in the
  1548. other.
  1549. "Going out for exercise," answered Jo with a mischievous twinkle in her
  1550. eyes.
  1551. "I should think two long walks this morning would have been enough!
  1552. It's cold and dull out, and I advise you to stay warm and dry by the
  1553. fire, as I do," said Meg with a shiver.
  1554. "Never take advice! Can't keep still all day, and not being a
  1555. pussycat, I don't like to doze by the fire. I like adventures, and I'm
  1556. going to find some."
  1557. Meg went back to toast her feet and read _Ivanhoe_, and Jo began to dig
  1558. paths with great energy. The snow was light, and with her broom she
  1559. soon swept a path all round the garden, for Beth to walk in when the
  1560. sun came out and the invalid dolls needed air. Now, the garden
  1561. separated the Marches' house from that of Mr. Laurence. Both stood in
  1562. a suburb of the city, which was still country-like, with groves and
  1563. lawns, large gardens, and quiet streets. A low hedge parted the two
  1564. estates. On one side was an old, brown house, looking rather bare and
  1565. shabby, robbed of the vines that in summer covered its walls and the
  1566. flowers, which then surrounded it. On the other side was a stately
  1567. stone mansion, plainly betokening every sort of comfort and luxury,
  1568. from the big coach house and well-kept grounds to the conservatory and
  1569. the glimpses of lovely things one caught between the rich curtains.
  1570. Yet it seemed a lonely, lifeless sort of house, for no children
  1571. frolicked on the lawn, no motherly face ever smiled at the windows, and
  1572. few people went in and out, except the old gentleman and his grandson.
  1573. To Jo's lively fancy, this fine house seemed a kind of enchanted
  1574. palace, full of splendors and delights which no one enjoyed. She had
  1575. long wanted to behold these hidden glories, and to know the Laurence
  1576. boy, who looked as if he would like to be known, if he only knew how to
  1577. begin. Since the party, she had been more eager than ever, and had
  1578. planned many ways of making friends with him, but he had not been seen
  1579. lately, and Jo began to think he had gone away, when she one day spied
  1580. a brown face at an upper window, looking wistfully down into their
  1581. garden, where Beth and Amy were snow-balling one another.
  1582. "That boy is suffering for society and fun," she said to herself. "His
  1583. grandpa does not know what's good for him, and keeps him shut up all
  1584. alone. He needs a party of jolly boys to play with, or somebody young
  1585. and lively. I've a great mind to go over and tell the old gentleman
  1586. so!"
  1587. The idea amused Jo, who liked to do daring things and was always
  1588. scandalizing Meg by her queer performances. The plan of 'going over'
  1589. was not forgotten. And when the snowy afternoon came, Jo resolved to
  1590. try what could be done. She saw Mr. Lawrence drive off, and then
  1591. sallied out to dig her way down to the hedge, where she paused and took
  1592. a survey. All quiet, curtains down at the lower windows, servants out
  1593. of sight, and nothing human visible but a curly black head leaning on a
  1594. thin hand at the upper window.
  1595. "There he is," thought Jo, "Poor boy! All alone and sick this dismal
  1596. day. It's a shame! I'll toss up a snowball and make him look out, and
  1597. then say a kind word to him."
  1598. Up went a handful of soft snow, and the head turned at once, showing a
  1599. face which lost its listless look in a minute, as the big eyes
  1600. brightened and the mouth began to smile. Jo nodded and laughed, and
  1601. flourished her broom as she called out...
  1602. "How do you do? Are you sick?"
  1603. Laurie opened the window, and croaked out as hoarsely as a raven...
  1604. "Better, thank you. I've had a bad cold, and been shut up a week."
  1605. "I'm sorry. What do you amuse yourself with?"
  1606. "Nothing. It's dull as tombs up here."
  1607. "Don't you read?"
  1608. "Not much. They won't let me."
  1609. "Can't somebody read to you?"
  1610. "Grandpa does sometimes, but my books don't interest him, and I hate to
  1611. ask Brooke all the time."
  1612. "Have someone come and see you then."
  1613. "There isn't anyone I'd like to see. Boys make such a row, and my head
  1614. is weak."
  1615. "Isn't there some nice girl who'd read and amuse you? Girls are quiet
  1616. and like to play nurse."
  1617. "Don't know any."
  1618. "You know us," began Jo, then laughed and stopped.
  1619. "So I do! Will you come, please?" cried Laurie.
  1620. "I'm not quiet and nice, but I'll come, if Mother will let me. I'll go
  1621. ask her. Shut the window, like a good boy, and wait till I come."
  1622. With that, Jo shouldered her broom and marched into the house,
  1623. wondering what they would all say to her. Laurie was in a flutter of
  1624. excitement at the idea of having company, and flew about to get ready,
  1625. for as Mrs. March said, he was 'a little gentleman', and did honor to
  1626. the coming guest by brushing his curly pate, putting on a fresh color,
  1627. and trying to tidy up the room, which in spite of half a dozen
  1628. servants, was anything but neat. Presently there came a loud ring,
  1629. than a decided voice, asking for 'Mr. Laurie', and a surprised-looking
  1630. servant came running up to announce a young lady.
  1631. "All right, show her up, it's Miss Jo," said Laurie, going to the door
  1632. of his little parlor to meet Jo, who appeared, looking rosy and quite
  1633. at her ease, with a covered dish in one hand and Beth's three kittens
  1634. in the other.
  1635. "Here I am, bag and baggage," she said briskly. "Mother sent her love,
  1636. and was glad if I could do anything for you. Meg wanted me to bring
  1637. some of her blanc mange, she makes it very nicely, and Beth thought her
  1638. cats would be comforting. I knew you'd laugh at them, but I couldn't
  1639. refuse, she was so anxious to do something."
  1640. It so happened that Beth's funny loan was just the thing, for in
  1641. laughing over the kits, Laurie forgot his bashfulness, and grew
  1642. sociable at once.
  1643. "That looks too pretty to eat," he said, smiling with pleasure, as Jo
  1644. uncovered the dish, and showed the blanc mange, surrounded by a garland
  1645. of green leaves, and the scarlet flowers of Amy's pet geranium.
  1646. "It isn't anything, only they all felt kindly and wanted to show it.
  1647. Tell the girl to put it away for your tea. It's so simple you can eat
  1648. it, and being soft, it will slip down without hurting your sore throat.
  1649. What a cozy room this is!"
  1650. "It might be if it was kept nice, but the maids are lazy, and I don't
  1651. know how to make them mind. It worries me though."
  1652. "I'll right it up in two minutes, for it only needs to have the hearth
  1653. brushed, so--and the things made straight on the mantelpiece, so--and
  1654. the books put here, and the bottles there, and your sofa turned from
  1655. the light, and the pillows plumped up a bit. Now then, you're fixed."
  1656. And so he was, for, as she laughed and talked, Jo had whisked things
  1657. into place and given quite a different air to the room. Laurie watched
  1658. her in respectful silence, and when she beckoned him to his sofa, he
  1659. sat down with a sigh of satisfaction, saying gratefully...
  1660. "How kind you are! Yes, that's what it wanted. Now please take the
  1661. big chair and let me do something to amuse my company."
  1662. "No, I came to amuse you. Shall I read aloud?" and Jo looked
  1663. affectionately toward some inviting books near by.
  1664. "Thank you! I've read all those, and if you don't mind, I'd rather
  1665. talk," answered Laurie.
  1666. "Not a bit. I'll talk all day if you'll only set me going. Beth says I
  1667. never know when to stop."
  1668. "Is Beth the rosy one, who stays at home good deal and sometimes goes
  1669. out with a little basket?" asked Laurie with interest.
  1670. "Yes, that's Beth. She's my girl, and a regular good one she is, too."
  1671. "The pretty one is Meg, and the curly-haired one is Amy, I believe?"
  1672. "How did you find that out?"
  1673. Laurie colored up, but answered frankly, "Why, you see I often hear you
  1674. calling to one another, and when I'm alone up here, I can't help
  1675. looking over at your house, you always seem to be having such good
  1676. times. I beg your pardon for being so rude, but sometimes you forget
  1677. to put down the curtain at the window where the flowers are. And when
  1678. the lamps are lighted, it's like looking at a picture to see the fire,
  1679. and you all around the table with your mother. Her face is right
  1680. opposite, and it looks so sweet behind the flowers, I can't help
  1681. watching it. I haven't got any mother, you know." And Laurie poked the
  1682. fire to hide a little twitching of the lips that he could not control.
  1683. The solitary, hungry look in his eyes went straight to Jo's warm heart.
  1684. She had been so simply taught that there was no nonsense in her head,
  1685. and at fifteen she was as innocent and frank as any child. Laurie was
  1686. sick and lonely, and feeling how rich she was in home and happiness,
  1687. she gladly tried to share it with him. Her face was very friendly and
  1688. her sharp voice unusually gentle as she said...
  1689. "We'll never draw that curtain any more, and I give you leave to look
  1690. as much as you like. I just wish, though, instead of peeping, you'd
  1691. come over and see us. Mother is so splendid, she'd do you heaps of
  1692. good, and Beth would sing to you if I begged her to, and Amy would
  1693. dance. Meg and I would make you laugh over our funny stage properties,
  1694. and we'd have jolly times. Wouldn't your grandpa let you?"
  1695. "I think he would, if your mother asked him. He's very kind, though he
  1696. does not look so, and he lets me do what I like, pretty much, only he's
  1697. afraid I might be a bother to strangers," began Laurie, brightening
  1698. more and more.
  1699. "We are not strangers, we are neighbors, and you needn't think you'd be
  1700. a bother. We want to know you, and I've been trying to do it this ever
  1701. so long. We haven't been here a great while, you know, but we have got
  1702. acquainted with all our neighbors but you."
  1703. "You see, Grandpa lives among his books, and doesn't mind much what
  1704. happens outside. Mr. Brooke, my tutor, doesn't stay here, you know,
  1705. and I have no one to go about with me, so I just stop at home and get
  1706. on as I can."
  1707. "That's bad. You ought to make an effort and go visiting everywhere
  1708. you are asked, then you'll have plenty of friends, and pleasant places
  1709. to go to. Never mind being bashful. It won't last long if you keep
  1710. going."
  1711. Laurie turned red again, but wasn't offended at being accused of
  1712. bashfulness, for there was so much good will in Jo it was impossible
  1713. not to take her blunt speeches as kindly as they were meant.
  1714. "Do you like your school?" asked the boy, changing the subject, after a
  1715. little pause, during which he stared at the fire and Jo looked about
  1716. her, well pleased.
  1717. "Don't go to school, I'm a businessman--girl, I mean. I go to wait on
  1718. my great-aunt, and a dear, cross old soul she is, too," answered Jo.
  1719. Laurie opened his mouth to ask another question, but remembering just
  1720. in time that it wasn't manners to make too many inquiries into people's
  1721. affairs, he shut it again, and looked uncomfortable.
  1722. Jo liked his good breeding, and didn't mind having a laugh at Aunt
  1723. March, so she gave him a lively description of the fidgety old lady,
  1724. her fat poodle, the parrot that talked Spanish, and the library where
  1725. she reveled.
  1726. Laurie enjoyed that immensely, and when she told about the prim old
  1727. gentleman who came once to woo Aunt March, and in the middle of a fine
  1728. speech, how Poll had tweaked his wig off to his great dismay, the boy
  1729. lay back and laughed till the tears ran down his cheeks, and a maid
  1730. popped her head in to see what was the matter.
  1731. "Oh! That does me no end of good. Tell on, please," he said, taking
  1732. his face out of the sofa cushion, red and shining with merriment.
  1733. Much elated with her success, Jo did 'tell on', all about their plays
  1734. and plans, their hopes and fears for Father, and the most interesting
  1735. events of the little world in which the sisters lived. Then they got
  1736. to talking about books, and to Jo's delight, she found that Laurie
  1737. loved them as well as she did, and had read even more than herself.
  1738. "If you like them so much, come down and see ours. Grandfather is out,
  1739. so you needn't be afraid," said Laurie, getting up.
  1740. "I'm not afraid of anything," returned Jo, with a toss of the head.
  1741. "I don't believe you are!" exclaimed the boy, looking at her with much
  1742. admiration, though he privately thought she would have good reason to
  1743. be a trifle afraid of the old gentleman, if she met him in some of his
  1744. moods.
  1745. The atmosphere of the whole house being summerlike, Laurie led the way
  1746. from room to room, letting Jo stop to examine whatever struck her
  1747. fancy. And so, at last they came to the library, where she clapped her
  1748. hands and pranced, as she always did when especially delighted. It was
  1749. lined with books, and there were pictures and statues, and distracting
  1750. little cabinets full of coins and curiosities, and Sleepy Hollow
  1751. chairs, and queer tables, and bronzes, and best of all, a great open
  1752. fireplace with quaint tiles all round it.
  1753. "What richness!" sighed Jo, sinking into the depth of a velour chair
  1754. and gazing about her with an air of intense satisfaction. "Theodore
  1755. Laurence, you ought to be the happiest boy in the world," she added
  1756. impressively.
  1757. "A fellow can't live on books," said Laurie, shaking his head as he
  1758. perched on a table opposite.
  1759. Before he could more, a bell rang, and Jo flew up, exclaiming with
  1760. alarm, "Mercy me! It's your grandpa!"
  1761. "Well, what if it is? You are not afraid of anything, you know,"
  1762. returned the boy, looking wicked.
  1763. "I think I am a little bit afraid of him, but I don't know why I should
  1764. be. Marmee said I might come, and I don't think you're any the worse
  1765. for it," said Jo, composing herself, though she kept her eyes on the
  1766. door.
  1767. "I'm a great deal better for it, and ever so much obliged. I'm only
  1768. afraid you are very tired of talking to me. It was so pleasant, I
  1769. couldn't bear to stop," said Laurie gratefully.
  1770. "The doctor to see you, sir," and the maid beckoned as she spoke.
  1771. "Would you mind if I left you for a minute? I suppose I must see him,"
  1772. said Laurie.
  1773. "Don't mind me. I'm happy as a cricket here," answered Jo.
  1774. Laurie went away, and his guest amused herself in her own way. She was
  1775. standing before a fine portrait of the old gentleman when the door
  1776. opened again, and without turning, she said decidedly, "I'm sure now
  1777. that I shouldn't be afraid of him, for he's got kind eyes, though his
  1778. mouth is grim, and he looks as if he had a tremendous will of his own.
  1779. He isn't as handsome as my grandfather, but I like him."
  1780. "Thank you, ma'am," said a gruff voice behind her, and there, to her
  1781. great dismay, stood old Mr. Laurence.
  1782. Poor Jo blushed till she couldn't blush any redder, and her heart began
  1783. to beat uncomfortably fast as she thought what she had said. For a
  1784. minute a wild desire to run away possessed her, but that was cowardly,
  1785. and the girls would laugh at her, so she resolved to stay and get out
  1786. of the scrape as she could. A second look showed her that the living
  1787. eyes, under the bushy eyebrows, were kinder even than the painted ones,
  1788. and there was a sly twinkle in them, which lessened her fear a good
  1789. deal. The gruff voice was gruffer than ever, as the old gentleman said
  1790. abruptly, after the dreadful pause, "So you're not afraid of me, hey?"
  1791. "Not much, sir."
  1792. "And you don't think me as handsome as your grandfather?"
  1793. "Not quite, sir."
  1794. "And I've got a tremendous will, have I?"
  1795. "I only said I thought so."
  1796. "But you like me in spite of it?"
  1797. "Yes, I do, sir."
  1798. That answer pleased the old gentleman. He gave a short laugh, shook
  1799. hands with her, and, putting his finger under her chin, turned up her
  1800. face, examined it gravely, and let it go, saying with a nod, "You've
  1801. got your grandfather's spirit, if you haven't his face. He was a fine
  1802. man, my dear, but what is better, he was a brave and an honest one, and
  1803. I was proud to be his friend."
  1804. "Thank you, sir," And Jo was quite comfortable after that, for it
  1805. suited her exactly.
  1806. "What have you been doing to this boy of mine, hey?" was the next
  1807. question, sharply put.
  1808. "Only trying to be neighborly, sir." And Jo told how her visit came
  1809. about.
  1810. "You think he needs cheering up a bit, do you?"
  1811. "Yes, sir, he seems a little lonely, and young folks would do him good
  1812. perhaps. We are only girls, but we should be glad to help if we could,
  1813. for we don't forget the splendid Christmas present you sent us," said
  1814. Jo eagerly.
  1815. "Tut, tut, tut! That was the boy's affair. How is the poor woman?"
  1816. "Doing nicely, sir." And off went Jo, talking very fast, as she told
  1817. all about the Hummels, in whom her mother had interested richer friends
  1818. than they were.
  1819. "Just her father's way of doing good. I shall come and see your mother
  1820. some fine day. Tell her so. There's the tea bell, we have it early on
  1821. the boy's account. Come down and go on being neighborly."
  1822. "If you'd like to have me, sir."
  1823. "Shouldn't ask you, if I didn't." And Mr. Laurence offered her his arm
  1824. with old-fashioned courtesy.
  1825. "What would Meg say to this?" thought Jo, as she was marched away,
  1826. while her eyes danced with fun as she imagined herself telling the
  1827. story at home.
  1828. "Hey! Why, what the dickens has come to the fellow?" said the old
  1829. gentleman, as Laurie came running downstairs and brought up with a
  1830. start of surprise at the astounding sight of Jo arm in arm with his
  1831. redoubtable grandfather.
  1832. "I didn't know you'd come, sir," he began, as Jo gave him a triumphant
  1833. little glance.
  1834. "That's evident, by the way you racket downstairs. Come to your tea,
  1835. sir, and behave like a gentleman." And having pulled the boy's hair by
  1836. way of a caress, Mr. Laurence walked on, while Laurie went through a
  1837. series of comic evolutions behind their backs, which nearly produced an
  1838. explosion of laughter from Jo.
  1839. The old gentleman did not say much as he drank his four cups of tea,
  1840. but he watched the young people, who soon chatted away like old
  1841. friends, and the change in his grandson did not escape him. There was
  1842. color, light, and life in the boy's face now, vivacity in his manner,
  1843. and genuine merriment in his laugh.
  1844. "She's right, the lad is lonely. I'll see what these little girls can
  1845. do for him," thought Mr. Laurence, as he looked and listened. He liked
  1846. Jo, for her odd, blunt ways suited him, and she seemed to understand
  1847. the boy almost as well as if she had been one herself.
  1848. If the Laurences had been what Jo called 'prim and poky', she would not
  1849. have got on at all, for such people always made her shy and awkward.
  1850. But finding them free and easy, she was so herself, and made a good
  1851. impression. When they rose she proposed to go, but Laurie said he had
  1852. something more to show her, and took her away to the conservatory,
  1853. which had been lighted for her benefit. It seemed quite fairylike to
  1854. Jo, as she went up and down the walks, enjoying the blooming walls on
  1855. either side, the soft light, the damp sweet air, and the wonderful
  1856. vines and trees that hung about her, while her new friend cut the
  1857. finest flowers till his hands were full. Then he tied them up, saying,
  1858. with the happy look Jo liked to see, "Please give these to your mother,
  1859. and tell her I like the medicine she sent me very much."
  1860. They found Mr. Laurence standing before the fire in the great drawing
  1861. room, but Jo's attention was entirely absorbed by a grand piano, which
  1862. stood open.
  1863. "Do you play?" she asked, turning to Laurie with a respectful
  1864. expression.
  1865. "Sometimes," he answered modestly.
  1866. "Please do now. I want to hear it, so I can tell Beth."
  1867. "Won't you first?"
  1868. "Don't know how. Too stupid to learn, but I love music dearly."
  1869. So Laurie played and Jo listened, with her nose luxuriously buried in
  1870. heliotrope and tea roses. Her respect and regard for the 'Laurence'
  1871. boy increased very much, for he played remarkably well and didn't put
  1872. on any airs. She wished Beth could hear him, but she did not say so,
  1873. only praised him till he was quite abashed, and his grandfather came to
  1874. his rescue.
  1875. "That will do, that will do, young lady. Too many sugarplums are not
  1876. good for him. His music isn't bad, but I hope he will do as well in
  1877. more important things. Going? well, I'm much obliged to you, and I
  1878. hope you'll come again. My respects to your mother. Good night, Doctor
  1879. Jo."
  1880. He shook hands kindly, but looked as if something did not please him.
  1881. When they got into the hall, Jo asked Laurie if she had said something
  1882. amiss. He shook his head.
  1883. "No, it was me. He doesn't like to hear me play."
  1884. "Why not?"
  1885. "I'll tell you some day. John is going home with you, as I can't."
  1886. "No need of that. I am not a young lady, and it's only a step. Take
  1887. care of yourself, won't you?"
  1888. "Yes, but you will come again, I hope?"
  1889. "If you promise to come and see us after you are well."
  1890. "I will."
  1891. "Good night, Laurie!"
  1892. "Good night, Jo, good night!"
  1893. When all the afternoon's adventures had been told, the family felt
  1894. inclined to go visiting in a body, for each found something very
  1895. attractive in the big house on the other side of the hedge. Mrs. March
  1896. wanted to talk of her father with the old man who had not forgotten
  1897. him, Meg longed to walk in the conservatory, Beth sighed for the grand
  1898. piano, and Amy was eager to see the fine pictures and statues.
  1899. "Mother, why didn't Mr. Laurence like to have Laurie play?" asked Jo,
  1900. who was of an inquiring disposition.
  1901. "I am not sure, but I think it was because his son, Laurie's father,
  1902. married an Italian lady, a musician, which displeased the old man, who
  1903. is very proud. The lady was good and lovely and accomplished, but he
  1904. did not like her, and never saw his son after he married. They both
  1905. died when Laurie was a little child, and then his grandfather took him
  1906. home. I fancy the boy, who was born in Italy, is not very strong, and
  1907. the old man is afraid of losing him, which makes him so careful.
  1908. Laurie comes naturally by his love of music, for he is like his mother,
  1909. and I dare say his grandfather fears that he may want to be a musician.
  1910. At any rate, his skill reminds him of the woman he did not like, and so
  1911. he 'glowered' as Jo said."
  1912. "Dear me, how romantic!" exclaimed Meg.
  1913. "How silly!" said Jo. "Let him be a musician if he wants to, and not
  1914. plague his life out sending him to college, when he hates to go."
  1915. "That's why he has such handsome black eyes and pretty manners, I
  1916. suppose. Italians are always nice," said Meg, who was a little
  1917. sentimental.
  1918. "What do you know about his eyes and his manners? You never spoke to
  1919. him, hardly," cried Jo, who was not sentimental.
  1920. "I saw him at the party, and what you tell shows that he knows how to
  1921. behave. That was a nice little speech about the medicine Mother sent
  1922. him."
  1923. "He meant the blanc mange, I suppose."
  1924. "How stupid you are, child! He meant you, of course."
  1925. "Did he?" And Jo opened her eyes as if it had never occurred to her
  1926. before.
  1927. "I never saw such a girl! You don't know a compliment when you get
  1928. it," said Meg, with the air of a young lady who knew all about the
  1929. matter.
  1930. "I think they are great nonsense, and I'll thank you not to be silly
  1931. and spoil my fun. Laurie's a nice boy and I like him, and I won't have
  1932. any sentimental stuff about compliments and such rubbish. We'll all be
  1933. good to him because he hasn't got any mother, and he may come over and
  1934. see us, mayn't he, Marmee?"
  1935. "Yes, Jo, your little friend is very welcome, and I hope Meg will
  1936. remember that children should be children as long as they can."
  1937. "I don't call myself a child, and I'm not in my teens yet," observed
  1938. Amy. "What do you say, Beth?"
  1939. "I was thinking about our '_Pilgrim's Progress_'," answered Beth, who
  1940. had not heard a word. "How we got out of the Slough and through the
  1941. Wicket Gate by resolving to be good, and up the steep hill by trying,
  1942. and that maybe the house over there, full of splendid things, is going
  1943. to be our Palace Beautiful."
  1944. "We have got to get by the lions first," said Jo, as if she rather
  1945. liked the prospect.
  1946. CHAPTER SIX
  1947. BETH FINDS THE PALACE BEAUTIFUL
  1948. The big house did prove a Palace Beautiful, though it took some time
  1949. for all to get in, and Beth found it very hard to pass the lions. Old
  1950. Mr. Laurence was the biggest one, but after he had called, said
  1951. something funny or kind to each one of the girls, and talked over old
  1952. times with their mother, nobody felt much afraid of him, except timid
  1953. Beth. The other lion was the fact that they were poor and Laurie rich,
  1954. for this made them shy of accepting favors which they could not return.
  1955. But, after a while, they found that he considered them the benefactors,
  1956. and could not do enough to show how grateful he was for Mrs. March's
  1957. motherly welcome, their cheerful society, and the comfort he took in
  1958. that humble home of theirs. So they soon forgot their pride and
  1959. interchanged kindnesses without stopping to think which was the greater.
  1960. All sorts of pleasant things happened about that time, for the new
  1961. friendship flourished like grass in spring. Every one liked Laurie,
  1962. and he privately informed his tutor that "the Marches were regularly
  1963. splendid girls." With the delightful enthusiasm of youth, they took
  1964. the solitary boy into their midst and made much of him, and he found
  1965. something very charming in the innocent companionship of these
  1966. simple-hearted girls. Never having known mother or sisters, he was
  1967. quick to feel the influences they brought about him, and their busy,
  1968. lively ways made him ashamed of the indolent life he led. He was tired
  1969. of books, and found people so interesting now that Mr. Brooke was
  1970. obliged to make very unsatisfactory reports, for Laurie was always
  1971. playing truant and running over to the Marches'.
  1972. "Never mind, let him take a holiday, and make it up afterward," said
  1973. the old gentleman. "The good lady next door says he is studying too
  1974. hard and needs young society, amusement, and exercise. I suspect she
  1975. is right, and that I've been coddling the fellow as if I'd been his
  1976. grandmother. Let him do what he likes, as long as he is happy. He
  1977. can't get into mischief in that little nunnery over there, and Mrs.
  1978. March is doing more for him than we can."
  1979. What good times they had, to be sure. Such plays and tableaux, such
  1980. sleigh rides and skating frolics, such pleasant evenings in the old
  1981. parlor, and now and then such gay little parties at the great house.
  1982. Meg could walk in the conservatory whenever she liked and revel in
  1983. bouquets, Jo browsed over the new library voraciously, and convulsed
  1984. the old gentleman with her criticisms, Amy copied pictures and enjoyed
  1985. beauty to her heart's content, and Laurie played 'lord of the manor' in
  1986. the most delightful style.
  1987. But Beth, though yearning for the grand piano, could not pluck up
  1988. courage to go to the 'Mansion of Bliss', as Meg called it. She went
  1989. once with Jo, but the old gentleman, not being aware of her infirmity,
  1990. stared at her so hard from under his heavy eyebrows, and said "Hey!" so
  1991. loud, that he frightened her so much her 'feet chattered on the floor',
  1992. she never told her mother, and she ran away, declaring she would never
  1993. go there any more, not even for the dear piano. No persuasions or
  1994. enticements could overcome her fear, till, the fact coming to Mr.
  1995. Laurence's ear in some mysterious way, he set about mending matters.
  1996. During one of the brief calls he made, he artfully led the conversation
  1997. to music, and talked away about great singers whom he had seen, fine
  1998. organs he had heard, and told such charming anecdotes that Beth found
  1999. it impossible to stay in her distant corner, but crept nearer and
  2000. nearer, as if fascinated. At the back of his chair she stopped and
  2001. stood listening, with her great eyes wide open and her cheeks red with
  2002. excitement of this unusual performance. Taking no more notice of her
  2003. than if she had been a fly, Mr. Laurence talked on about Laurie's
  2004. lessons and teachers. And presently, as if the idea had just occurred
  2005. to him, he said to Mrs. March...
  2006. "The boy neglects his music now, and I'm glad of it, for he was getting
  2007. too fond of it. But the piano suffers for want of use. Wouldn't some
  2008. of your girls like to run over, and practice on it now and then, just
  2009. to keep it in tune, you know, ma'am?"
  2010. Beth took a step forward, and pressed her hands tightly together to
  2011. keep from clapping them, for this was an irresistible temptation, and
  2012. the thought of practicing on that splendid instrument quite took her
  2013. breath away. Before Mrs. March could reply, Mr. Laurence went on with
  2014. an odd little nod and smile...
  2015. "They needn't see or speak to anyone, but run in at any time. For I'm
  2016. shut up in my study at the other end of the house, Laurie is out a
  2017. great deal, and the servants are never near the drawing room after nine
  2018. o'clock."
  2019. Here he rose, as if going, and Beth made up her mind to speak, for that
  2020. last arrangement left nothing to be desired. "Please, tell the young
  2021. ladies what I say, and if they don't care to come, why, never mind."
  2022. Here a little hand slipped into his, and Beth looked up at him with a
  2023. face full of gratitude, as she said, in her earnest yet timid way...
  2024. "Oh sir, they do care, very very much!"
  2025. "Are you the musical girl?" he asked, without any startling "Hey!" as
  2026. he looked down at her very kindly.
  2027. "I'm Beth. I love it dearly, and I'll come, if you are quite sure
  2028. nobody will hear me, and be disturbed," she added, fearing to be rude,
  2029. and trembling at her own boldness as she spoke.
  2030. "Not a soul, my dear. The house is empty half the day, so come and
  2031. drum away as much as you like, and I shall be obliged to you."
  2032. "How kind you are, sir!"
  2033. Beth blushed like a rose under the friendly look he wore, but she was
  2034. not frightened now, and gave the hand a grateful squeeze because she
  2035. had no words to thank him for the precious gift he had given her. The
  2036. old gentleman softly stroked the hair off her forehead, and, stooping
  2037. down, he kissed her, saying, in a tone few people ever heard...
  2038. "I had a little girl once, with eyes like these. God bless you, my
  2039. dear! Good day, madam." And away he went, in a great hurry.
  2040. Beth had a rapture with her mother, and then rushed up to impart the
  2041. glorious news to her family of invalids, as the girls were not home.
  2042. How blithely she sang that evening, and how they all laughed at her
  2043. because she woke Amy in the night by playing the piano on her face in
  2044. her sleep. Next day, having seen both the old and young gentleman out
  2045. of the house, Beth, after two or three retreats, fairly got in at the
  2046. side door, and made her way as noiselessly as any mouse to the drawing
  2047. room where her idol stood. Quite by accident, of course, some pretty,
  2048. easy music lay on the piano, and with trembling fingers and frequent
  2049. stops to listen and look about, Beth at last touched the great
  2050. instrument, and straightway forgot her fear, herself, and everything
  2051. else but the unspeakable delight which the music gave her, for it was
  2052. like the voice of a beloved friend.
  2053. She stayed till Hannah came to take her home to dinner, but she had no
  2054. appetite, and could only sit and smile upon everyone in a general state
  2055. of beatitude.
  2056. After that, the little brown hood slipped through the hedge nearly
  2057. every day, and the great drawing room was haunted by a tuneful spirit
  2058. that came and went unseen. She never knew that Mr. Laurence opened his
  2059. study door to hear the old-fashioned airs he liked. She never saw
  2060. Laurie mount guard in the hall to warn the servants away. She never
  2061. suspected that the exercise books and new songs which she found in the
  2062. rack were put there for her especial benefit, and when he talked to her
  2063. about music at home, she only thought how kind he was to tell things
  2064. that helped her so much. So she enjoyed herself heartily, and found,
  2065. what isn't always the case, that her granted wish was all she had
  2066. hoped. Perhaps it was because she was so grateful for this blessing
  2067. that a greater was given her. At any rate she deserved both.
  2068. "Mother, I'm going to work Mr. Laurence a pair of slippers. He is so
  2069. kind to me, I must thank him, and I don't know any other way. Can I do
  2070. it?" asked Beth, a few weeks after that eventful call of his.
  2071. "Yes, dear. It will please him very much, and be a nice way of
  2072. thanking him. The girls will help you about them, and I will pay for
  2073. the making up," replied Mrs. March, who took peculiar pleasure in
  2074. granting Beth's requests because she so seldom asked anything for
  2075. herself.
  2076. After many serious discussions with Meg and Jo, the pattern was chosen,
  2077. the materials bought, and the slippers begun. A cluster of grave yet
  2078. cheerful pansies on a deeper purple ground was pronounced very
  2079. appropriate and pretty, and Beth worked away early and late, with
  2080. occasional lifts over hard parts. She was a nimble little needlewoman,
  2081. and they were finished before anyone got tired of them. Then she wrote
  2082. a short, simple note, and with Laurie's help, got them smuggled onto
  2083. the study table one morning before the old gentleman was up.
  2084. When this excitement was over, Beth waited to see what would happen.
  2085. All day passed and a part of the next before any acknowledgement
  2086. arrived, and she was beginning to fear she had offended her crochety
  2087. friend. On the afternoon of the second day, she went out to do an
  2088. errand, and give poor Joanna, the invalid doll, her daily exercise. As
  2089. she came up the street, on her return, she saw three, yes, four heads
  2090. popping in and out of the parlor windows, and the moment they saw her,
  2091. several hands were waved, and several joyful voices screamed...
  2092. "Here's a letter from the old gentleman! Come quick, and read it!"
  2093. "Oh, Beth, he's sent you..." began Amy, gesticulating with unseemly
  2094. energy, but she got no further, for Jo quenched her by slamming down
  2095. the window.
  2096. Beth hurried on in a flutter of suspense. At the door her sisters
  2097. seized and bore her to the parlor in a triumphal procession, all
  2098. pointing and all saying at once, "Look there! Look there!" Beth did
  2099. look, and turned pale with delight and surprise, for there stood a
  2100. little cabinet piano, with a letter lying on the glossy lid, directed
  2101. like a sign board to "Miss Elizabeth March."
  2102. "For me?" gasped Beth, holding onto Jo and feeling as if she should
  2103. tumble down, it was such an overwhelming thing altogether.
  2104. "Yes, all for you, my precious! Isn't it splendid of him? Don't you
  2105. think he's the dearest old man in the world? Here's the key in the
  2106. letter. We didn't open it, but we are dying to know what he says,"
  2107. cried Jo, hugging her sister and offering the note.
  2108. "You read it! I can't, I feel so queer! Oh, it is too lovely!" and
  2109. Beth hid her face in Jo's apron, quite upset by her present.
  2110. Jo opened the paper and began to laugh, for the first words she saw
  2111. were...
  2112. "Miss March: "Dear Madam--"
  2113. "How nice it sounds! I wish someone would write to me so!" said Amy,
  2114. who thought the old-fashioned address very elegant.
  2115. "'I have had many pairs of slippers in my life, but I never had any
  2116. that suited me so well as yours,'" continues Jo. "'Heart's-ease is my
  2117. favorite flower, and these will always remind me of the gentle giver.
  2118. I like to pay my debts, so I know you will allow 'the old gentleman' to
  2119. send you something which once belonged to the little grand daughter he
  2120. lost. With hearty thanks and best wishes, I remain "'Your grateful
  2121. friend and humble servant, 'JAMES LAURENCE'."
  2122. "There, Beth, that's an honor to be proud of, I'm sure! Laurie told me
  2123. how fond Mr. Laurence used to be of the child who died, and how he kept
  2124. all her little things carefully. Just think, he's given you her piano.
  2125. That comes of having big blue eyes and loving music," said Jo, trying
  2126. to soothe Beth, who trembled and looked more excited than she had ever
  2127. been before.
  2128. "See the cunning brackets to hold candles, and the nice green silk,
  2129. puckered up, with a gold rose in the middle, and the pretty rack and
  2130. stool, all complete," added Meg, opening the instrument and displaying
  2131. its beauties.
  2132. "'Your humble servant, James Laurence'. Only think of his writing that
  2133. to you. I'll tell the girls. They'll think it's splendid," said Amy,
  2134. much impressed by the note.
  2135. "Try it, honey. Let's hear the sound of the baby pianny," said Hannah,
  2136. who always took a share in the family joys and sorrows.
  2137. So Beth tried it, and everyone pronounced it the most remarkable piano
  2138. ever heard. It had evidently been newly tuned and put in apple-pie
  2139. order, but, perfect as it was, I think the real charm lay in the
  2140. happiest of all happy faces which leaned over it, as Beth lovingly
  2141. touched the beautiful black and white keys and pressed the bright
  2142. pedals.
  2143. "You'll have to go and thank him," said Jo, by way of a joke, for the
  2144. idea of the child's really going never entered her head.
  2145. "Yes, I mean to. I guess I'll go now, before I get frightened thinking
  2146. about it." And, to the utter amazement of the assembled family, Beth
  2147. walked deliberately down the garden, through the hedge, and in at the
  2148. Laurences' door.
  2149. "Well, I wish I may die if it ain't the queerest thing I ever see! The
  2150. pianny has turned her head! She'd never have gone in her right mind,"
  2151. cried Hannah, staring after her, while the girls were rendered quite
  2152. speechless by the miracle.
  2153. They would have been still more amazed if they had seen what Beth did
  2154. afterward. If you will believe me, she went and knocked at the study
  2155. door before she gave herself time to think, and when a gruff voice
  2156. called out, "come in!" she did go in, right up to Mr. Laurence, who
  2157. looked quite taken aback, and held out her hand, saying, with only a
  2158. small quaver in her voice, "I came to thank you, sir, for..." But she
  2159. didn't finish, for he looked so friendly that she forgot her speech
  2160. and, only remembering that he had lost the little girl he loved, she
  2161. put both arms round his neck and kissed him.
  2162. If the roof of the house had suddenly flown off, the old gentleman
  2163. wouldn't have been more astonished. But he liked it. Oh, dear, yes, he
  2164. liked it amazingly! And was so touched and pleased by that confiding
  2165. little kiss that all his crustiness vanished, and he just set her on
  2166. his knee, and laid his wrinkled cheek against her rosy one, feeling as
  2167. if he had got his own little granddaughter back again. Beth ceased to
  2168. fear him from that moment, and sat there talking to him as cozily as if
  2169. she had known him all her life, for love casts out fear, and gratitude
  2170. can conquer pride. When she went home, he walked with her to her own
  2171. gate, shook hands cordially, and touched his hat as he marched back
  2172. again, looking very stately and erect, like a handsome, soldierly old
  2173. gentleman, as he was.
  2174. When the girls saw that performance, Jo began to dance a jig, by way of
  2175. expressing her satisfaction, Amy nearly fell out of the window in her
  2176. surprise, and Meg exclaimed, with up-lifted hands, "Well, I do believe
  2177. the world is coming to an end."
  2178. CHAPTER SEVEN
  2179. AMY'S VALLEY OF HUMILIATION
  2180. "That boy is a perfect cyclops, isn't he?" said Amy one day, as Laurie
  2181. clattered by on horseback, with a flourish of his whip as he passed.
  2182. "How dare you say so, when he's got both his eyes? And very handsome
  2183. ones they are, too," cried Jo, who resented any slighting remarks about
  2184. her friend.
  2185. "I didn't say anything about his eyes, and I don't see why you need
  2186. fire up when I admire his riding."
  2187. "Oh, my goodness! That little goose means a centaur, and she called
  2188. him a Cyclops," exclaimed Jo, with a burst of laughter.
  2189. "You needn't be so rude, it's only a 'lapse of lingy', as Mr. Davis
  2190. says," retorted Amy, finishing Jo with her Latin. "I just wish I had a
  2191. little of the money Laurie spends on that horse," she added, as if to
  2192. herself, yet hoping her sisters would hear.
  2193. "Why?" asked Meg kindly, for Jo had gone off in another laugh at Amy's
  2194. second blunder.
  2195. "I need it so much. I'm dreadfully in debt, and it won't be my turn to
  2196. have the rag money for a month."
  2197. "In debt, Amy? What do you mean?" And Meg looked sober.
  2198. "Why, I owe at least a dozen pickled limes, and I can't pay them, you
  2199. know, till I have money, for Marmee forbade my having anything charged
  2200. at the shop."
  2201. "Tell me all about it. Are limes the fashion now? It used to be
  2202. pricking bits of rubber to make balls." And Meg tried to keep her
  2203. countenance, Amy looked so grave and important.
  2204. "Why, you see, the girls are always buying them, and unless you want to
  2205. be thought mean, you must do it too. It's nothing but limes now, for
  2206. everyone is sucking them in their desks in schooltime, and trading them
  2207. off for pencils, bead rings, paper dolls, or something else, at recess.
  2208. If one girl likes another, she gives her a lime. If she's mad with
  2209. her, she eats one before her face, and doesn't offer even a suck. They
  2210. treat by turns, and I've had ever so many but haven't returned them,
  2211. and I ought for they are debts of honor, you know."
  2212. "How much will pay them off and restore your credit?" asked Meg, taking
  2213. out her purse.
  2214. "A quarter would more than do it, and leave a few cents over for a
  2215. treat for you. Don't you like limes?"
  2216. "Not much. You may have my share. Here's the money. Make it last as
  2217. long as you can, for it isn't very plenty, you know."
  2218. "Oh, thank you! It must be so nice to have pocket money! I'll have a
  2219. grand feast, for I haven't tasted a lime this week. I felt delicate
  2220. about taking any, as I couldn't return them, and I'm actually suffering
  2221. for one."
  2222. Next day Amy was rather late at school, but could not resist the
  2223. temptation of displaying, with pardonable pride, a moist brown-paper
  2224. parcel, before she consigned it to the inmost recesses of her desk.
  2225. During the next few minutes the rumor that Amy March had got
  2226. twenty-four delicious limes (she ate one on the way) and was going to
  2227. treat circulated through her 'set', and the attentions of her friends
  2228. became quite overwhelming. Katy Brown invited her to her next party on
  2229. the spot. Mary Kingsley insisted on lending her her watch till recess,
  2230. and Jenny Snow, a satirical young lady, who had basely twitted Amy upon
  2231. her limeless state, promptly buried the hatchet and offered to furnish
  2232. answers to certain appalling sums. But Amy had not forgotten Miss
  2233. Snow's cutting remarks about 'some persons whose noses were not too
  2234. flat to smell other people's limes, and stuck-up people who were not
  2235. too proud to ask for them', and she instantly crushed 'that Snow
  2236. girl's' hopes by the withering telegram, "You needn't be so polite all
  2237. of a sudden, for you won't get any."
  2238. A distinguished personage happened to visit the school that morning,
  2239. and Amy's beautifully drawn maps received praise, which honor to her
  2240. foe rankled in the soul of Miss Snow, and caused Miss March to assume
  2241. the airs of a studious young peacock. But, alas, alas! Pride goes
  2242. before a fall, and the revengeful Snow turned the tables with
  2243. disastrous success. No sooner had the guest paid the usual stale
  2244. compliments and bowed himself out, than Jenny, under pretense of asking
  2245. an important question, informed Mr. Davis, the teacher, that Amy March
  2246. had pickled limes in her desk.
  2247. Now Mr. Davis had declared limes a contraband article, and solemnly
  2248. vowed to publicly ferrule the first person who was found breaking the
  2249. law. This much-enduring man had succeeded in banishing chewing gum
  2250. after a long and stormy war, had made a bonfire of the confiscated
  2251. novels and newspapers, had suppressed a private post office, had
  2252. forbidden distortions of the face, nicknames, and caricatures, and done
  2253. all that one man could do to keep half a hundred rebellious girls in
  2254. order. Boys are trying enough to human patience, goodness knows, but
  2255. girls are infinitely more so, especially to nervous gentlemen with
  2256. tyrannical tempers and no more talent for teaching than Dr. Blimber.
  2257. Mr. Davis knew any quantity of Greek, Latin, algebra, and ologies of
  2258. all sorts so he was called a fine teacher, and manners, morals,
  2259. feelings, and examples were not considered of any particular
  2260. importance. It was a most unfortunate moment for denouncing Amy, and
  2261. Jenny knew it. Mr. Davis had evidently taken his coffee too strong
  2262. that morning, there was an east wind, which always affected his
  2263. neuralgia, and his pupils had not done him the credit which he felt he
  2264. deserved. Therefore, to use the expressive, if not elegant, language
  2265. of a schoolgirl, "He was as nervous as a witch and as cross as a bear".
  2266. The word 'limes' was like fire to powder, his yellow face flushed, and
  2267. he rapped on his desk with an energy which made Jenny skip to her seat
  2268. with unusual rapidity.
  2269. "Young ladies, attention, if you please!"
  2270. At the stern order the buzz ceased, and fifty pairs of blue, black,
  2271. gray, and brown eyes were obediently fixed upon his awful countenance.
  2272. "Miss March, come to the desk."
  2273. Amy rose to comply with outward composure, but a secret fear oppressed
  2274. her, for the limes weighed upon her conscience.
  2275. "Bring with you the limes you have in your desk," was the unexpected
  2276. command which arrested her before she got out of her seat.
  2277. "Don't take all." whispered her neighbor, a young lady of great
  2278. presence of mind.
  2279. Amy hastily shook out half a dozen and laid the rest down before Mr.
  2280. Davis, feeling that any man possessing a human heart would relent when
  2281. that delicious perfume met his nose. Unfortunately, Mr. Davis
  2282. particularly detested the odor of the fashionable pickle, and disgust
  2283. added to his wrath.
  2284. "Is that all?"
  2285. "Not quite," stammered Amy.
  2286. "Bring the rest immediately."
  2287. With a despairing glance at her set, she obeyed.
  2288. "You are sure there are no more?"
  2289. "I never lie, sir."
  2290. "So I see. Now take these disgusting things two by two, and throw them
  2291. out of the window."
  2292. There was a simultaneous sigh, which created quite a little gust, as
  2293. the last hope fled, and the treat was ravished from their longing lips.
  2294. Scarlet with shame and anger, Amy went to and fro six dreadful times,
  2295. and as each doomed couple, looking oh, so plump and juicy, fell from
  2296. her reluctant hands, a shout from the street completed the anguish of
  2297. the girls, for it told them that their feast was being exulted over by
  2298. the little Irish children, who were their sworn foes. This--this was
  2299. too much. All flashed indignant or appealing glances at the inexorable
  2300. Davis, and one passionate lime lover burst into tears.
  2301. As Amy returned from her last trip, Mr. Davis gave a portentous "Hem!"
  2302. and said, in his most impressive manner...
  2303. "Young ladies, you remember what I said to you a week ago. I am sorry
  2304. this has happened, but I never allow my rules to be infringed, and I
  2305. never break my word. Miss March, hold out your hand."
  2306. Amy started, and put both hands behind her, turning on him an imploring
  2307. look which pleaded for her better than the words she could not utter.
  2308. She was rather a favorite with 'old Davis', as, of course, he was
  2309. called, and it's my private belief that he would have broken his word
  2310. if the indignation of one irrepressible young lady had not found vent
  2311. in a hiss. That hiss, faint as it was, irritated the irascible
  2312. gentleman, and sealed the culprit's fate.
  2313. "Your hand, Miss March!" was the only answer her mute appeal received,
  2314. and too proud to cry or beseech, Amy set her teeth, threw back her head
  2315. defiantly, and bore without flinching several tingling blows on her
  2316. little palm. They were neither many nor heavy, but that made no
  2317. difference to her. For the first time in her life she had been struck,
  2318. and the disgrace, in her eyes, was as deep as if he had knocked her
  2319. down.
  2320. "You will now stand on the platform till recess," said Mr. Davis,
  2321. resolved to do the thing thoroughly, since he had begun.
  2322. That was dreadful. It would have been bad enough to go to her seat,
  2323. and see the pitying faces of her friends, or the satisfied ones of her
  2324. few enemies, but to face the whole school, with that shame fresh upon
  2325. her, seemed impossible, and for a second she felt as if she could only
  2326. drop down where she stood, and break her heart with crying. A bitter
  2327. sense of wrong and the thought of Jenny Snow helped her to bear it,
  2328. and, taking the ignominious place, she fixed her eyes on the stove
  2329. funnel above what now seemed a sea of faces, and stood there, so
  2330. motionless and white that the girls found it hard to study with that
  2331. pathetic figure before them.
  2332. During the fifteen minutes that followed, the proud and sensitive
  2333. little girl suffered a shame and pain which she never forgot. To
  2334. others it might seem a ludicrous or trivial affair, but to her it was a
  2335. hard experience, for during the twelve years of her life she had been
  2336. governed by love alone, and a blow of that sort had never touched her
  2337. before. The smart of her hand and the ache of her heart were forgotten
  2338. in the sting of the thought, "I shall have to tell at home, and they
  2339. will be so disappointed in me!"
  2340. The fifteen minutes seemed an hour, but they came to an end at last,
  2341. and the word 'Recess!' had never seemed so welcome to her before.
  2342. "You can go, Miss March," said Mr. Davis, looking, as he felt,
  2343. uncomfortable.
  2344. He did not soon forget the reproachful glance Amy gave him, as she
  2345. went, without a word to anyone, straight into the anteroom, snatched
  2346. her things, and left the place "forever," as she passionately declared
  2347. to herself. She was in a sad state when she got home, and when the
  2348. older girls arrived, some time later, an indignation meeting was held
  2349. at once. Mrs. March did not say much but looked disturbed, and
  2350. comforted her afflicted little daughter in her tenderest manner. Meg
  2351. bathed the insulted hand with glycerine and tears, Beth felt that even
  2352. her beloved kittens would fail as a balm for griefs like this, Jo
  2353. wrathfully proposed that Mr. Davis be arrested without delay, and
  2354. Hannah shook her fist at the 'villain' and pounded potatoes for dinner
  2355. as if she had him under her pestle.
  2356. No notice was taken of Amy's flight, except by her mates, but the
  2357. sharp-eyed demoiselles discovered that Mr. Davis was quite benignant in
  2358. the afternoon, also unusually nervous. Just before school closed, Jo
  2359. appeared, wearing a grim expression as she stalked up to the desk, and
  2360. delivered a letter from her mother, then collected Amy's property, and
  2361. departed, carefully scraping the mud from her boots on the door mat, as
  2362. if she shook the dust of the place off her feet.
  2363. "Yes, you can have a vacation from school, but I want you to study a
  2364. little every day with Beth," said Mrs. March that evening. "I don't
  2365. approve of corporal punishment, especially for girls. I dislike Mr.
  2366. Davis's manner of teaching and don't think the girls you associate with
  2367. are doing you any good, so I shall ask your father's advice before I
  2368. send you anywhere else."
  2369. "That's good! I wish all the girls would leave, and spoil his old
  2370. school. It's perfectly maddening to think of those lovely limes,"
  2371. sighed Amy, with the air of a martyr.
  2372. "I am not sorry you lost them, for you broke the rules, and deserved
  2373. some punishment for disobedience," was the severe reply, which rather
  2374. disappointed the young lady, who expected nothing but sympathy.
  2375. "Do you mean you are glad I was disgraced before the whole school?"
  2376. cried Amy.
  2377. "I should not have chosen that way of mending a fault," replied her
  2378. mother, "but I'm not sure that it won't do you more good than a bolder
  2379. method. You are getting to be rather conceited, my dear, and it is
  2380. quite time you set about correcting it. You have a good many little
  2381. gifts and virtues, but there is no need of parading them, for conceit
  2382. spoils the finest genius. There is not much danger that real talent or
  2383. goodness will be overlooked long, even if it is, the consciousness of
  2384. possessing and using it well should satisfy one, and the great charm of
  2385. all power is modesty."
  2386. "So it is!" cried Laurie, who was playing chess in a corner with Jo.
  2387. "I knew a girl once, who had a really remarkable talent for music, and
  2388. she didn't know it, never guessed what sweet little things she composed
  2389. when she was alone, and wouldn't have believed it if anyone had told
  2390. her."
  2391. "I wish I'd known that nice girl. Maybe she would have helped me, I'm
  2392. so stupid," said Beth, who stood beside him, listening eagerly.
  2393. "You do know her, and she helps you better than anyone else could,"
  2394. answered Laurie, looking at her with such mischievous meaning in his
  2395. merry black eyes that Beth suddenly turned very red, and hid her face
  2396. in the sofa cushion, quite overcome by such an unexpected discovery.
  2397. Jo let Laurie win the game to pay for that praise of her Beth, who
  2398. could not be prevailed upon to play for them after her compliment. So
  2399. Laurie did his best, and sang delightfully, being in a particularly
  2400. lively humor, for to the Marches he seldom showed the moody side of his
  2401. character. When he was gone, Amy, who had been pensive all evening,
  2402. said suddenly, as if busy over some new idea, "Is Laurie an
  2403. accomplished boy?"
  2404. "Yes, he has had an excellent education, and has much talent. He will
  2405. make a fine man, if not spoiled by petting," replied her mother.
  2406. "And he isn't conceited, is he?" asked Amy.
  2407. "Not in the least. That is why he is so charming and we all like him
  2408. so much."
  2409. "I see. It's nice to have accomplishments and be elegant, but not to
  2410. show off or get perked up," said Amy thoughtfully.
  2411. "These things are always seen and felt in a person's manner and
  2412. conversations, if modestly used, but it is not necessary to display
  2413. them," said Mrs. March.
  2414. "Any more than it's proper to wear all your bonnets and gowns and
  2415. ribbons at once, that folks may know you've got them," added Jo, and
  2416. the lecture ended in a laugh.
  2417. CHAPTER EIGHT
  2418. JO MEETS APOLLYON
  2419. "Girls, where are you going?" asked Amy, coming into their room one
  2420. Saturday afternoon, and finding them getting ready to go out with an
  2421. air of secrecy which excited her curiosity.
  2422. "Never mind. Little girls shouldn't ask questions," returned Jo
  2423. sharply.
  2424. Now if there is anything mortifying to our feelings when we are young,
  2425. it is to be told that, and to be bidden to "run away, dear" is still
  2426. more trying to us. Amy bridled up at this insult, and determined to
  2427. find out the secret, if she teased for an hour. Turning to Meg, who
  2428. never refused her anything very long, she said coaxingly, "Do tell me!
  2429. I should think you might let me go, too, for Beth is fussing over her
  2430. piano, and I haven't got anything to do, and am so lonely."
  2431. "I can't, dear, because you aren't invited," began Meg, but Jo broke in
  2432. impatiently, "Now, Meg, be quiet or you will spoil it all. You can't
  2433. go, Amy, so don't be a baby and whine about it."
  2434. "You are going somewhere with Laurie, I know you are. You were
  2435. whispering and laughing together on the sofa last night, and you
  2436. stopped when I came in. Aren't you going with him?"
  2437. "Yes, we are. Now do be still, and stop bothering."
  2438. Amy held her tongue, but used her eyes, and saw Meg slip a fan into her
  2439. pocket.
  2440. "I know! I know! You're going to the theater to see the _Seven
  2441. Castles!_" she cried, adding resolutely, "and I shall go, for Mother
  2442. said I might see it, and I've got my rag money, and it was mean not to
  2443. tell me in time."
  2444. "Just listen to me a minute, and be a good child," said Meg soothingly.
  2445. "Mother doesn't wish you to go this week, because your eyes are not
  2446. well enough yet to bear the light of this fairy piece. Next week you
  2447. can go with Beth and Hannah, and have a nice time."
  2448. "I don't like that half as well as going with you and Laurie. Please
  2449. let me. I've been sick with this cold so long, and shut up, I'm dying
  2450. for some fun. Do, Meg! I'll be ever so good," pleaded Amy, looking as
  2451. pathetic as she could.
  2452. "Suppose we take her. I don't believe Mother would mind, if we bundle
  2453. her up well," began Meg.
  2454. "If she goes I shan't, and if I don't, Laurie won't like it, and it
  2455. will be very rude, after he invited only us, to go and drag in Amy. I
  2456. should think she'd hate to poke herself where she isn't wanted," said
  2457. Jo crossly, for she disliked the trouble of overseeing a fidgety child
  2458. when she wanted to enjoy herself.
  2459. Her tone and manner angered Amy, who began to put her boots on, saying,
  2460. in her most aggravating way, "I shall go. Meg says I may, and if I pay
  2461. for myself, Laurie hasn't anything to do with it."
  2462. "You can't sit with us, for our seats are reserved, and you mustn't sit
  2463. alone, so Laurie will give you his place, and that will spoil our
  2464. pleasure. Or he'll get another seat for you, and that isn't proper
  2465. when you weren't asked. You shan't stir a step, so you may just stay
  2466. where you are," scolded Jo, crosser than ever, having just pricked her
  2467. finger in her hurry.
  2468. Sitting on the floor with one boot on, Amy began to cry and Meg to
  2469. reason with her, when Laurie called from below, and the two girls
  2470. hurried down, leaving their sister wailing. For now and then she
  2471. forgot her grown-up ways and acted like a spoiled child. Just as the
  2472. party was setting out, Amy called over the banisters in a threatening
  2473. tone, "You'll be sorry for this, Jo March, see if you ain't."
  2474. "Fiddlesticks!" returned Jo, slamming the door.
  2475. They had a charming time, for _The Seven Castles Of The Diamond Lake_
  2476. was as brilliant and wonderful as heart could wish. But in spite of the
  2477. comical red imps, sparkling elves, and the gorgeous princes and
  2478. princesses, Jo's pleasure had a drop of bitterness in it. The fairy
  2479. queen's yellow curls reminded her of Amy, and between the acts she
  2480. amused herself with wondering what her sister would do to make her
  2481. 'sorry for it'. She and Amy had had many lively skirmishes in the
  2482. course of their lives, for both had quick tempers and were apt to be
  2483. violent when fairly roused. Amy teased Jo, and Jo irritated Amy, and
  2484. semioccasional explosions occurred, of which both were much ashamed
  2485. afterward. Although the oldest, Jo had the least self-control, and had
  2486. hard times trying to curb the fiery spirit which was continually
  2487. getting her into trouble. Her anger never lasted long, and having
  2488. humbly confessed her fault, she sincerely repented and tried to do
  2489. better. Her sisters used to say that they rather liked to get Jo into a
  2490. fury because she was such an angel afterward. Poor Jo tried
  2491. desperately to be good, but her bosom enemy was always ready to flame
  2492. up and defeat her, and it took years of patient effort to subdue it.
  2493. When they got home, they found Amy reading in the parlor. She assumed
  2494. an injured air as they came in, never lifted her eyes from her book, or
  2495. asked a single question. Perhaps curiosity might have conquered
  2496. resentment, if Beth had not been there to inquire and receive a glowing
  2497. description of the play. On going up to put away her best hat, Jo's
  2498. first look was toward the bureau, for in their last quarrel Amy had
  2499. soothed her feelings by turning Jo's top drawer upside down on the
  2500. floor. Everything was in its place, however, and after a hasty glance
  2501. into her various closets, bags, and boxes, Jo decided that Amy had
  2502. forgiven and forgotten her wrongs.
  2503. There Jo was mistaken, for next day she made a discovery which produced
  2504. a tempest. Meg, Beth, and Amy were sitting together, late in the
  2505. afternoon, when Jo burst into the room, looking excited and demanding
  2506. breathlessly, "Has anyone taken my book?"
  2507. Meg and Beth said, "No." at once, and looked surprised. Amy poked the
  2508. fire and said nothing. Jo saw her color rise and was down upon her in
  2509. a minute.
  2510. "Amy, you've got it!"
  2511. "No, I haven't."
  2512. "You know where it is, then!"
  2513. "No, I don't."
  2514. "That's a fib!" cried Jo, taking her by the shoulders, and looking
  2515. fierce enough to frighten a much braver child than Amy.
  2516. "It isn't. I haven't got it, don't know where it is now, and don't
  2517. care."
  2518. "You know something about it, and you'd better tell at once, or I'll
  2519. make you." And Jo gave her a slight shake.
  2520. "Scold as much as you like, you'll never see your silly old book
  2521. again," cried Amy, getting excited in her turn.
  2522. "Why not?"
  2523. "I burned it up."
  2524. "What! My little book I was so fond of, and worked over, and meant to
  2525. finish before Father got home? Have you really burned it?" said Jo,
  2526. turning very pale, while her eyes kindled and her hands clutched Amy
  2527. nervously.
  2528. "Yes, I did! I told you I'd make you pay for being so cross yesterday,
  2529. and I have, so..."
  2530. Amy got no farther, for Jo's hot temper mastered her, and she shook Amy
  2531. till her teeth chattered in her head, crying in a passion of grief and
  2532. anger...
  2533. "You wicked, wicked girl! I never can write it again, and I'll never
  2534. forgive you as long as I live."
  2535. Meg flew to rescue Amy, and Beth to pacify Jo, but Jo was quite beside
  2536. herself, and with a parting box on her sister's ear, she rushed out of
  2537. the room up to the old sofa in the garret, and finished her fight alone.
  2538. The storm cleared up below, for Mrs. March came home, and, having heard
  2539. the story, soon brought Amy to a sense of the wrong she had done her
  2540. sister. Jo's book was the pride of her heart, and was regarded by her
  2541. family as a literary sprout of great promise. It was only half a dozen
  2542. little fairy tales, but Jo had worked over them patiently, putting her
  2543. whole heart into her work, hoping to make something good enough to
  2544. print. She had just copied them with great care, and had destroyed the
  2545. old manuscript, so that Amy's bonfire had consumed the loving work of
  2546. several years. It seemed a small loss to others, but to Jo it was a
  2547. dreadful calamity, and she felt that it never could be made up to her.
  2548. Beth mourned as for a departed kitten, and Meg refused to defend her
  2549. pet. Mrs. March looked grave and grieved, and Amy felt that no one
  2550. would love her till she had asked pardon for the act which she now
  2551. regretted more than any of them.
  2552. When the tea bell rang, Jo appeared, looking so grim and unapproachable
  2553. that it took all Amy's courage to say meekly...
  2554. "Please forgive me, Jo. I'm very, very sorry."
  2555. "I never shall forgive you," was Jo's stern answer, and from that
  2556. moment she ignored Amy entirely.
  2557. No one spoke of the great trouble, not even Mrs. March, for all had
  2558. learned by experience that when Jo was in that mood words were wasted,
  2559. and the wisest course was to wait till some little accident, or her own
  2560. generous nature, softened Jo's resentment and healed the breach. It
  2561. was not a happy evening, for though they sewed as usual, while their
  2562. mother read aloud from Bremer, Scott, or Edgeworth, something was
  2563. wanting, and the sweet home peace was disturbed. They felt this most
  2564. when singing time came, for Beth could only play, Jo stood dumb as a
  2565. stone, and Amy broke down, so Meg and Mother sang alone. But in spite
  2566. of their efforts to be as cheery as larks, the flutelike voices did not
  2567. seem to chord as well as usual, and all felt out of tune.
  2568. As Jo received her good-night kiss, Mrs. March whispered gently, "My
  2569. dear, don't let the sun go down upon your anger. Forgive each other,
  2570. help each other, and begin again tomorrow."
  2571. Jo wanted to lay her head down on that motherly bosom, and cry her
  2572. grief and anger all away, but tears were an unmanly weakness, and she
  2573. felt so deeply injured that she really couldn't quite forgive yet. So
  2574. she winked hard, shook her head, and said gruffly because Amy was
  2575. listening, "It was an abominable thing, and she doesn't deserve to be
  2576. forgiven."
  2577. With that she marched off to bed, and there was no merry or
  2578. confidential gossip that night.
  2579. Amy was much offended that her overtures of peace had been repulsed,
  2580. and began to wish she had not humbled herself, to feel more injured
  2581. than ever, and to plume herself on her superior virtue in a way which
  2582. was particularly exasperating. Jo still looked like a thunder cloud,
  2583. and nothing went well all day. It was bitter cold in the morning, she
  2584. dropped her precious turnover in the gutter, Aunt March had an attack
  2585. of the fidgets, Meg was sensitive, Beth would look grieved and wistful
  2586. when she got home, and Amy kept making remarks about people who were
  2587. always talking about being good and yet wouldn't even try when other
  2588. people set them a virtuous example.
  2589. "Everybody is so hateful, I'll ask Laurie to go skating. He is always
  2590. kind and jolly, and will put me to rights, I know," said Jo to herself,
  2591. and off she went.
  2592. Amy heard the clash of skates, and looked out with an impatient
  2593. exclamation.
  2594. "There! She promised I should go next time, for this is the last ice
  2595. we shall have. But it's no use to ask such a crosspatch to take me."
  2596. "Don't say that. You were very naughty, and it is hard to forgive the
  2597. loss of her precious little book, but I think she might do it now, and
  2598. I guess she will, if you try her at the right minute," said Meg. "Go
  2599. after them. Don't say anything till Jo has got good-natured with
  2600. Laurie, than take a quiet minute and just kiss her, or do some kind
  2601. thing, and I'm sure she'll be friends again with all her heart."
  2602. "I'll try," said Amy, for the advice suited her, and after a flurry to
  2603. get ready, she ran after the friends, who were just disappearing over
  2604. the hill.
  2605. It was not far to the river, but both were ready before Amy reached
  2606. them. Jo saw her coming, and turned her back. Laurie did not see, for
  2607. he was carefully skating along the shore, sounding the ice, for a warm
  2608. spell had preceded the cold snap.
  2609. "I'll go on to the first bend, and see if it's all right before we
  2610. begin to race," Amy heard him say, as he shot away, looking like a
  2611. young Russian in his fur-trimmed coat and cap.
  2612. Jo heard Amy panting after her run, stamping her feet and blowing on
  2613. her fingers as she tried to put her skates on, but Jo never turned and
  2614. went slowly zigzagging down the river, taking a bitter, unhappy sort of
  2615. satisfaction in her sister's troubles. She had cherished her anger till
  2616. it grew strong and took possession of her, as evil thoughts and
  2617. feelings always do unless cast out at once. As Laurie turned the bend,
  2618. he shouted back...
  2619. "Keep near the shore. It isn't safe in the middle." Jo heard, but Amy
  2620. was struggling to her feet and did not catch a word. Jo glanced over
  2621. her shoulder, and the little demon she was harboring said in her ear...
  2622. "No matter whether she heard or not, let her take care of herself."
  2623. Laurie had vanished round the bend, Jo was just at the turn, and Amy,
  2624. far behind, striking out toward the smoother ice in the middle of the
  2625. river. For a minute Jo stood still with a strange feeling in her
  2626. heart, then she resolved to go on, but something held and turned her
  2627. round, just in time to see Amy throw up her hands and go down, with a
  2628. sudden crash of rotten ice, the splash of water, and a cry that made
  2629. Jo's heart stand still with fear. She tried to call Laurie, but her
  2630. voice was gone. She tried to rush forward, but her feet seemed to have
  2631. no strength in them, and for a second, she could only stand motionless,
  2632. staring with a terror-stricken face at the little blue hood above the
  2633. black water. Something rushed swiftly by her, and Laurie's voice cried
  2634. out...
  2635. "Bring a rail. Quick, quick!"
  2636. How she did it, she never knew, but for the next few minutes she worked
  2637. as if possessed, blindly obeying Laurie, who was quite self-possessed,
  2638. and lying flat, held Amy up by his arm and hockey stick till Jo dragged
  2639. a rail from the fence, and together they got the child out, more
  2640. frightened than hurt.
  2641. "Now then, we must walk her home as fast as we can. Pile our things on
  2642. her, while I get off these confounded skates," cried Laurie, wrapping
  2643. his coat round Amy, and tugging away at the straps which never seemed
  2644. so intricate before.
  2645. Shivering, dripping, and crying, they got Amy home, and after an
  2646. exciting time of it, she fell asleep, rolled in blankets before a hot
  2647. fire. During the bustle Jo had scarcely spoken but flown about,
  2648. looking pale and wild, with her things half off, her dress torn, and
  2649. her hands cut and bruised by ice and rails and refractory buckles. When
  2650. Amy was comfortably asleep, the house quiet, and Mrs. March sitting by
  2651. the bed, she called Jo to her and began to bind up the hurt hands.
  2652. "Are you sure she is safe?" whispered Jo, looking remorsefully at the
  2653. golden head, which might have been swept away from her sight forever
  2654. under the treacherous ice.
  2655. "Quite safe, dear. She is not hurt, and won't even take cold, I think,
  2656. you were so sensible in covering and getting her home quickly," replied
  2657. her mother cheerfully.
  2658. "Laurie did it all. I only let her go. Mother, if she should die, it
  2659. would be my fault." And Jo dropped down beside the bed in a passion of
  2660. penitent tears, telling all that had happened, bitterly condemning her
  2661. hardness of heart, and sobbing out her gratitude for being spared the
  2662. heavy punishment which might have come upon her.
  2663. "It's my dreadful temper! I try to cure it, I think I have, and then
  2664. it breaks out worse than ever. Oh, Mother, what shall I do? What
  2665. shall I do?" cried poor Jo, in despair.
  2666. "Watch and pray, dear, never get tired of trying, and never think it is
  2667. impossible to conquer your fault," said Mrs. March, drawing the blowzy
  2668. head to her shoulder and kissing the wet cheek so tenderly that Jo
  2669. cried even harder.
  2670. "You don't know, you can't guess how bad it is! It seems as if I could
  2671. do anything when I'm in a passion. I get so savage, I could hurt
  2672. anyone and enjoy it. I'm afraid I shall do something dreadful some
  2673. day, and spoil my life, and make everybody hate me. Oh, Mother, help
  2674. me, do help me!"
  2675. "I will, my child, I will. Don't cry so bitterly, but remember this
  2676. day, and resolve with all your soul that you will never know another
  2677. like it. Jo, dear, we all have our temptations, some far greater than
  2678. yours, and it often takes us all our lives to conquer them. You think
  2679. your temper is the worst in the world, but mine used to be just like
  2680. it."
  2681. "Yours, Mother? Why, you are never angry!" And for the moment Jo
  2682. forgot remorse in surprise.
  2683. "I've been trying to cure it for forty years, and have only succeeded
  2684. in controlling it. I am angry nearly every day of my life, Jo, but I
  2685. have learned not to show it, and I still hope to learn not to feel it,
  2686. though it may take me another forty years to do so."
  2687. The patience and the humility of the face she loved so well was a
  2688. better lesson to Jo than the wisest lecture, the sharpest reproof. She
  2689. felt comforted at once by the sympathy and confidence given her. The
  2690. knowledge that her mother had a fault like hers, and tried to mend it,
  2691. made her own easier to bear and strengthened her resolution to cure it,
  2692. though forty years seemed rather a long time to watch and pray to a
  2693. girl of fifteen.
  2694. "Mother, are you angry when you fold your lips tight together and go
  2695. out of the room sometimes, when Aunt March scolds or people worry you?"
  2696. asked Jo, feeling nearer and dearer to her mother than ever before.
  2697. "Yes, I've learned to check the hasty words that rise to my lips, and
  2698. when I feel that they mean to break out against my will, I just go away
  2699. for a minute, and give myself a little shake for being so weak and
  2700. wicked," answered Mrs. March with a sigh and a smile, as she smoothed
  2701. and fastened up Jo's disheveled hair.
  2702. "How did you learn to keep still? That is what troubles me, for the
  2703. sharp words fly out before I know what I'm about, and the more I say
  2704. the worse I get, till it's a pleasure to hurt people's feelings and say
  2705. dreadful things. Tell me how you do it, Marmee dear."
  2706. "My good mother used to help me..."
  2707. "As you do us..." interrupted Jo, with a grateful kiss.
  2708. "But I lost her when I was a little older than you are, and for years
  2709. had to struggle on alone, for I was too proud to confess my weakness to
  2710. anyone else. I had a hard time, Jo, and shed a good many bitter tears
  2711. over my failures, for in spite of my efforts I never seemed to get on.
  2712. Then your father came, and I was so happy that I found it easy to be
  2713. good. But by-and-by, when I had four little daughters round me and we
  2714. were poor, then the old trouble began again, for I am not patient by
  2715. nature, and it tried me very much to see my children wanting anything."
  2716. "Poor Mother! What helped you then?"
  2717. "Your father, Jo. He never loses patience, never doubts or complains,
  2718. but always hopes, and works and waits so cheerfully that one is ashamed
  2719. to do otherwise before him. He helped and comforted me, and showed me
  2720. that I must try to practice all the virtues I would have my little
  2721. girls possess, for I was their example. It was easier to try for your
  2722. sakes than for my own. A startled or surprised look from one of you
  2723. when I spoke sharply rebuked me more than any words could have done,
  2724. and the love, respect, and confidence of my children was the sweetest
  2725. reward I could receive for my efforts to be the woman I would have them
  2726. copy."
  2727. "Oh, Mother, if I'm ever half as good as you, I shall be satisfied,"
  2728. cried Jo, much touched.
  2729. "I hope you will be a great deal better, dear, but you must keep watch
  2730. over your 'bosom enemy', as father calls it, or it may sadden, if not
  2731. spoil your life. You have had a warning. Remember it, and try with
  2732. heart and soul to master this quick temper, before it brings you
  2733. greater sorrow and regret than you have known today."
  2734. "I will try, Mother, I truly will. But you must help me, remind me,
  2735. and keep me from flying out. I used to see Father sometimes put his
  2736. finger on his lips, and look at you with a very kind but sober face,
  2737. and you always folded your lips tight and went away. Was he reminding
  2738. you then?" asked Jo softly.
  2739. "Yes. I asked him to help me so, and he never forgot it, but saved me
  2740. from many a sharp word by that little gesture and kind look."
  2741. Jo saw that her mother's eyes filled and her lips trembled as she
  2742. spoke, and fearing that she had said too much, she whispered anxiously,
  2743. "Was it wrong to watch you and to speak of it? I didn't mean to be
  2744. rude, but it's so comfortable to say all I think to you, and feel so
  2745. safe and happy here."
  2746. "My Jo, you may say anything to your mother, for it is my greatest
  2747. happiness and pride to feel that my girls confide in me and know how
  2748. much I love them."
  2749. "I thought I'd grieved you."
  2750. "No, dear, but speaking of Father reminded me how much I miss him, how
  2751. much I owe him, and how faithfully I should watch and work to keep his
  2752. little daughters safe and good for him."
  2753. "Yet you told him to go, Mother, and didn't cry when he went, and never
  2754. complain now, or seem as if you needed any help," said Jo, wondering.
  2755. "I gave my best to the country I love, and kept my tears till he was
  2756. gone. Why should I complain, when we both have merely done our duty
  2757. and will surely be the happier for it in the end? If I don't seem to
  2758. need help, it is because I have a better friend, even than Father, to
  2759. comfort and sustain me. My child, the troubles and temptations of your
  2760. life are beginning and may be many, but you can overcome and outlive
  2761. them all if you learn to feel the strength and tenderness of your
  2762. Heavenly Father as you do that of your earthly one. The more you love
  2763. and trust Him, the nearer you will feel to Him, and the less you will
  2764. depend on human power and wisdom. His love and care never tire or
  2765. change, can never be taken from you, but may become the source of
  2766. lifelong peace, happiness, and strength. Believe this heartily, and go
  2767. to God with all your little cares, and hopes, and sins, and sorrows, as
  2768. freely and confidingly as you come to your mother."
  2769. Jo's only answer was to hold her mother close, and in the silence which
  2770. followed the sincerest prayer she had ever prayed left her heart
  2771. without words. For in that sad yet happy hour, she had learned not
  2772. only the bitterness of remorse and despair, but the sweetness of
  2773. self-denial and self-control, and led by her mother's hand, she had
  2774. drawn nearer to the Friend who always welcomes every child with a love
  2775. stronger than that of any father, tenderer than that of any mother.
  2776. Amy stirred and sighed in her sleep, and as if eager to begin at once
  2777. to mend her fault, Jo looked up with an expression on her face which it
  2778. had never worn before.
  2779. "I let the sun go down on my anger. I wouldn't forgive her, and today,
  2780. if it hadn't been for Laurie, it might have been too late! How could I
  2781. be so wicked?" said Jo, half aloud, as she leaned over her sister
  2782. softly stroking the wet hair scattered on the pillow.
  2783. As if she heard, Amy opened her eyes, and held out her arms, with a
  2784. smile that went straight to Jo's heart. Neither said a word, but they
  2785. hugged one another close, in spite of the blankets, and everything was
  2786. forgiven and forgotten in one hearty kiss.
  2787. CHAPTER NINE
  2788. MEG GOES TO VANITY FAIR
  2789. "I do think it was the most fortunate thing in the world that those
  2790. children should have the measles just now," said Meg, one April day, as
  2791. she stood packing the 'go abroady' trunk in her room, surrounded by her
  2792. sisters.
  2793. "And so nice of Annie Moffat not to forget her promise. A whole
  2794. fortnight of fun will be regularly splendid," replied Jo, looking like
  2795. a windmill as she folded skirts with her long arms.
  2796. "And such lovely weather, I'm so glad of that," added Beth, tidily
  2797. sorting neck and hair ribbons in her best box, lent for the great
  2798. occasion.
  2799. "I wish I was going to have a fine time and wear all these nice
  2800. things," said Amy with her mouth full of pins, as she artistically
  2801. replenished her sister's cushion.
  2802. "I wish you were all going, but as you can't, I shall keep my
  2803. adventures to tell you when I come back. I'm sure it's the least I can
  2804. do when you have been so kind, lending me things and helping me get
  2805. ready," said Meg, glancing round the room at the very simple outfit,
  2806. which seemed nearly perfect in their eyes.
  2807. "What did Mother give you out of the treasure box?" asked Amy, who had
  2808. not been present at the opening of a certain cedar chest in which Mrs.
  2809. March kept a few relics of past splendor, as gifts for her girls when
  2810. the proper time came.
  2811. "A pair of silk stockings, that pretty carved fan, and a lovely blue
  2812. sash. I wanted the violet silk, but there isn't time to make it over,
  2813. so I must be contented with my old tarlaton."
  2814. "It will look nice over my new muslin skirt, and the sash will set it
  2815. off beautifully. I wish I hadn't smashed my coral bracelet, for you
  2816. might have had it," said Jo, who loved to give and lend, but whose
  2817. possessions were usually too dilapidated to be of much use.
  2818. "There is a lovely old-fashioned pearl set in the treasure chest, but
  2819. Mother said real flowers were the prettiest ornament for a young girl,
  2820. and Laurie promised to send me all I want," replied Meg. "Now, let me
  2821. see, there's my new gray walking suit, just curl up the feather in my
  2822. hat, Beth, then my poplin for Sunday and the small party, it looks
  2823. heavy for spring, doesn't it? The violet silk would be so nice. Oh,
  2824. dear!"
  2825. "Never mind, you've got the tarlaton for the big party, and you always
  2826. look like an angel in white," said Amy, brooding over the little store
  2827. of finery in which her soul delighted.
  2828. "It isn't low-necked, and it doesn't sweep enough, but it will have to
  2829. do. My blue housedress looks so well, turned and freshly trimmed, that
  2830. I feel as if I'd got a new one. My silk sacque isn't a bit the
  2831. fashion, and my bonnet doesn't look like Sallie's. I didn't like to
  2832. say anything, but I was sadly disappointed in my umbrella. I told
  2833. Mother black with a white handle, but she forgot and bought a green one
  2834. with a yellowish handle. It's strong and neat, so I ought not to
  2835. complain, but I know I shall feel ashamed of it beside Annie's silk one
  2836. with a gold top," sighed Meg, surveying the little umbrella with great
  2837. disfavor.
  2838. "Change it," advised Jo.
  2839. "I won't be so silly, or hurt Marmee's feelings, when she took so much
  2840. pains to get my things. It's a nonsensical notion of mine, and I'm not
  2841. going to give up to it. My silk stockings and two pairs of new gloves
  2842. are my comfort. You are a dear to lend me yours, Jo. I feel so rich
  2843. and sort of elegant, with two new pairs, and the old ones cleaned up
  2844. for common." And Meg took a refreshing peep at her glove box.
  2845. "Annie Moffat has blue and pink bows on her nightcaps. Would you put
  2846. some on mine?" she asked, as Beth brought up a pile of snowy muslins,
  2847. fresh from Hannah's hands.
  2848. "No, I wouldn't, for the smart caps won't match the plain gowns without
  2849. any trimming on them. Poor folks shouldn't rig," said Jo decidedly.
  2850. "I wonder if I shall ever be happy enough to have real lace on my
  2851. clothes and bows on my caps?" said Meg impatiently.
  2852. "You said the other day that you'd be perfectly happy if you could only
  2853. go to Annie Moffat's," observed Beth in her quiet way.
  2854. "So I did! Well, I am happy, and I won't fret, but it does seem as if
  2855. the more one gets the more one wants, doesn't it? There now, the trays
  2856. are ready, and everything in but my ball dress, which I shall leave for
  2857. Mother to pack," said Meg, cheering up, as she glanced from the
  2858. half-filled trunk to the many times pressed and mended white tarlaton,
  2859. which she called her 'ball dress' with an important air.
  2860. The next day was fine, and Meg departed in style for a fortnight of
  2861. novelty and pleasure. Mrs. March had consented to the visit rather
  2862. reluctantly, fearing that Margaret would come back more discontented
  2863. than she went. But she begged so hard, and Sallie had promised to take
  2864. good care of her, and a little pleasure seemed so delightful after a
  2865. winter of irksome work that the mother yielded, and the daughter went
  2866. to take her first taste of fashionable life.
  2867. The Moffats were very fashionable, and simple Meg was rather daunted,
  2868. at first, by the splendor of the house and the elegance of its
  2869. occupants. But they were kindly people, in spite of the frivolous life
  2870. they led, and soon put their guest at her ease. Perhaps Meg felt,
  2871. without understanding why, that they were not particularly cultivated
  2872. or intelligent people, and that all their gilding could not quite
  2873. conceal the ordinary material of which they were made. It certainly
  2874. was agreeable to fare sumptuously, drive in a fine carriage, wear her
  2875. best frock every day, and do nothing but enjoy herself. It suited her
  2876. exactly, and soon she began to imitate the manners and conversation of
  2877. those about her, to put on little airs and graces, use French phrases,
  2878. crimp her hair, take in her dresses, and talk about the fashions as
  2879. well as she could. The more she saw of Annie Moffat's pretty things,
  2880. the more she envied her and sighed to be rich. Home now looked bare
  2881. and dismal as she thought of it, work grew harder than ever, and she
  2882. felt that she was a very destitute and much-injured girl, in spite of
  2883. the new gloves and silk stockings.
  2884. She had not much time for repining, however, for the three young girls
  2885. were busily employed in 'having a good time'. They shopped, walked,
  2886. rode, and called all day, went to theaters and operas or frolicked at
  2887. home in the evening, for Annie had many friends and knew how to
  2888. entertain them. Her older sisters were very fine young ladies, and one
  2889. was engaged, which was extremely interesting and romantic, Meg thought.
  2890. Mr. Moffat was a fat, jolly old gentleman, who knew her father, and
  2891. Mrs. Moffat, a fat, jolly old lady, who took as great a fancy to Meg as
  2892. her daughter had done. Everyone petted her, and 'Daisey', as they
  2893. called her, was in a fair way to have her head turned.
  2894. When the evening for the small party came, she found that the poplin
  2895. wouldn't do at all, for the other girls were putting on thin dresses
  2896. and making themselves very fine indeed. So out came the tarlatan,
  2897. looking older, limper, and shabbier than ever beside Sallie's crisp new
  2898. one. Meg saw the girls glance at it and then at one another, and her
  2899. cheeks began to burn, for with all her gentleness she was very proud.
  2900. No one said a word about it, but Sallie offered to dress her hair, and
  2901. Annie to tie her sash, and Belle, the engaged sister, praised her white
  2902. arms. But in their kindness Meg saw only pity for her poverty, and her
  2903. heart felt very heavy as she stood by herself, while the others
  2904. laughed, chattered, and flew about like gauzy butterflies. The hard,
  2905. bitter feeling was getting pretty bad, when the maid brought in a box
  2906. of flowers. Before she could speak, Annie had the cover off, and all
  2907. were exclaiming at the lovely roses, heath, and fern within.
  2908. "It's for Belle, of course, George always sends her some, but these are
  2909. altogether ravishing," cried Annie, with a great sniff.
  2910. "They are for Miss March, the man said. And here's a note," put in the
  2911. maid, holding it to Meg.
  2912. "What fun! Who are they from? Didn't know you had a lover," cried the
  2913. girls, fluttering about Meg in a high state of curiosity and surprise.
  2914. "The note is from Mother, and the flowers from Laurie," said Meg
  2915. simply, yet much gratified that he had not forgotten her.
  2916. "Oh, indeed!" said Annie with a funny look, as Meg slipped the note
  2917. into her pocket as a sort of talisman against envy, vanity, and false
  2918. pride, for the few loving words had done her good, and the flowers
  2919. cheered her up by their beauty.
  2920. Feeling almost happy again, she laid by a few ferns and roses for
  2921. herself, and quickly made up the rest in dainty bouquets for the
  2922. breasts, hair, or skirts of her friends, offering them so prettily that
  2923. Clara, the elder sister, told her she was 'the sweetest little thing
  2924. she ever saw', and they looked quite charmed with her small attention.
  2925. Somehow the kind act finished her despondency, and when all the rest
  2926. went to show themselves to Mrs. Moffat, she saw a happy, bright-eyed
  2927. face in the mirror, as she laid her ferns against her rippling hair and
  2928. fastened the roses in the dress that didn't strike her as so very
  2929. shabby now.
  2930. She enjoyed herself very much that evening, for she danced to her
  2931. heart's content. Everyone was very kind, and she had three
  2932. compliments. Annie made her sing, and some one said she had a
  2933. remarkably fine voice. Major Lincoln asked who 'the fresh little girl
  2934. with the beautiful eyes' was, and Mr. Moffat insisted on dancing with
  2935. her because she 'didn't dawdle, but had some spring in her', as he
  2936. gracefully expressed it. So altogether she had a very nice time, till
  2937. she overheard a bit of conversation, which disturbed her extremely.
  2938. She was sitting just inside the conservatory, waiting for her partner
  2939. to bring her an ice, when she heard a voice ask on the other side of
  2940. the flowery wall...
  2941. "How old is he?"
  2942. "Sixteen or seventeen, I should say," replied another voice.
  2943. "It would be a grand thing for one of those girls, wouldn't it? Sallie
  2944. says they are very intimate now, and the old man quite dotes on them."
  2945. "Mrs. M. has made her plans, I dare say, and will play her cards well,
  2946. early as it is. The girl evidently doesn't think of it yet," said Mrs.
  2947. Moffat.
  2948. "She told that fib about her momma, as if she did know, and colored up
  2949. when the flowers came quite prettily. Poor thing! She'd be so nice if
  2950. she was only got up in style. Do you think she'd be offended if we
  2951. offered to lend her a dress for Thursday?" asked another voice.
  2952. "She's proud, but I don't believe she'd mind, for that dowdy tarlaton
  2953. is all she has got. She may tear it tonight, and that will be a good
  2954. excuse for offering a decent one."
  2955. Here Meg's partner appeared, to find her looking much flushed and
  2956. rather agitated. She was proud, and her pride was useful just then,
  2957. for it helped her hide her mortification, anger, and disgust at what
  2958. she had just heard. For, innocent and unsuspicious as she was, she
  2959. could not help understanding the gossip of her friends. She tried to
  2960. forget it, but could not, and kept repeating to herself, "Mrs. M. has
  2961. made her plans," "that fib about her mamma," and "dowdy tarlaton," till
  2962. she was ready to cry and rush home to tell her troubles and ask for
  2963. advice. As that was impossible, she did her best to seem gay, and
  2964. being rather excited, she succeeded so well that no one dreamed what an
  2965. effort she was making. She was very glad when it was all over and she
  2966. was quiet in her bed, where she could think and wonder and fume till
  2967. her head ached and her hot cheeks were cooled by a few natural tears.
  2968. Those foolish, yet well meant words, had opened a new world to Meg, and
  2969. much disturbed the peace of the old one in which till now she had lived
  2970. as happily as a child. Her innocent friendship with Laurie was spoiled
  2971. by the silly speeches she had overheard. Her faith in her mother was a
  2972. little shaken by the worldly plans attributed to her by Mrs. Moffat,
  2973. who judged others by herself, and the sensible resolution to be
  2974. contented with the simple wardrobe which suited a poor man's daughter
  2975. was weakened by the unnecessary pity of girls who thought a shabby
  2976. dress one of the greatest calamities under heaven.
  2977. Poor Meg had a restless night, and got up heavy-eyed, unhappy, half
  2978. resentful toward her friends, and half ashamed of herself for not
  2979. speaking out frankly and setting everything right. Everybody dawdled
  2980. that morning, and it was noon before the girls found energy enough even
  2981. to take up their worsted work. Something in the manner of her friends
  2982. struck Meg at once. They treated her with more respect, she thought,
  2983. took quite a tender interest in what she said, and looked at her with
  2984. eyes that plainly betrayed curiosity. All this surprised and flattered
  2985. her, though she did not understand it till Miss Belle looked up from
  2986. her writing, and said, with a sentimental air...
  2987. "Daisy, dear, I've sent an invitation to your friend, Mr. Laurence, for
  2988. Thursday. We should like to know him, and it's only a proper
  2989. compliment to you."
  2990. Meg colored, but a mischievous fancy to tease the girls made her reply
  2991. demurely, "You are very kind, but I'm afraid he won't come."
  2992. "Why not, Cherie?" asked Miss Belle.
  2993. "He's too old."
  2994. "My child, what do you mean? What is his age, I beg to know!" cried
  2995. Miss Clara.
  2996. "Nearly seventy, I believe," answered Meg, counting stitches to hide
  2997. the merriment in her eyes.
  2998. "You sly creature! Of course we meant the young man," exclaimed Miss
  2999. Belle, laughing.
  3000. "There isn't any, Laurie is only a little boy." And Meg laughed also
  3001. at the queer look which the sisters exchanged as she thus described her
  3002. supposed lover.
  3003. "About your age," Nan said.
  3004. "Nearer my sister Jo's; I am seventeen in August," returned Meg,
  3005. tossing her head.
  3006. "It's very nice of him to send you flowers, isn't it?" said Annie,
  3007. looking wise about nothing.
  3008. "Yes, he often does, to all of us, for their house is full, and we are
  3009. so fond of them. My mother and old Mr. Laurence are friends, you know,
  3010. so it is quite natural that we children should play together," and Meg
  3011. hoped they would say no more.
  3012. "It's evident Daisy isn't out yet," said Miss Clara to Belle with a nod.
  3013. "Quite a pastoral state of innocence all round," returned Miss Belle
  3014. with a shrug.
  3015. "I'm going out to get some little matters for my girls. Can I do
  3016. anything for you, young ladies?" asked Mrs. Moffat, lumbering in like
  3017. an elephant in silk and lace.
  3018. "No, thank you, ma'am," replied Sallie. "I've got my new pink silk for
  3019. Thursday and don't want a thing."
  3020. "Nor I..." began Meg, but stopped because it occurred to her that she
  3021. did want several things and could not have them.
  3022. "What shall you wear?" asked Sallie.
  3023. "My old white one again, if I can mend it fit to be seen, it got sadly
  3024. torn last night," said Meg, trying to speak quite easily, but feeling
  3025. very uncomfortable.
  3026. "Why don't you send home for another?" said Sallie, who was not an
  3027. observing young lady.
  3028. "I haven't got any other." It cost Meg an effort to say that, but
  3029. Sallie did not see it and exclaimed in amiable surprise, "Only that?
  3030. How funny..." She did not finish her speech, for Belle shook her head
  3031. at her and broke in, saying kindly...
  3032. "Not at all. Where is the use of having a lot of dresses when she
  3033. isn't out yet? There's no need of sending home, Daisy, even if you had
  3034. a dozen, for I've got a sweet blue silk laid away, which I've outgrown,
  3035. and you shall wear it to please me, won't you, dear?"
  3036. "You are very kind, but I don't mind my old dress if you don't, it does
  3037. well enough for a little girl like me," said Meg.
  3038. "Now do let me please myself by dressing you up in style. I admire to
  3039. do it, and you'd be a regular little beauty with a touch here and
  3040. there. I shan't let anyone see you till you are done, and then we'll
  3041. burst upon them like Cinderella and her godmother going to the ball,"
  3042. said Belle in her persuasive tone.
  3043. Meg couldn't refuse the offer so kindly made, for a desire to see if
  3044. she would be 'a little beauty' after touching up caused her to accept
  3045. and forget all her former uncomfortable feelings toward the Moffats.
  3046. On the Thursday evening, Belle shut herself up with her maid, and
  3047. between them they turned Meg into a fine lady. They crimped and curled
  3048. her hair, they polished her neck and arms with some fragrant powder,
  3049. touched her lips with coralline salve to make them redder, and Hortense
  3050. would have added 'a soupcon of rouge', if Meg had not rebelled. They
  3051. laced her into a sky-blue dress, which was so tight she could hardly
  3052. breathe and so low in the neck that modest Meg blushed at herself in
  3053. the mirror. A set of silver filagree was added, bracelets, necklace,
  3054. brooch, and even earrings, for Hortense tied them on with a bit of pink
  3055. silk which did not show. A cluster of tea-rose buds at the bosom, and
  3056. a ruche, reconciled Meg to the display of her pretty, white shoulders,
  3057. and a pair of high-heeled silk boots satisfied the last wish of her
  3058. heart. A lace handkerchief, a plumy fan, and a bouquet in a shoulder
  3059. holder finished her off, and Miss Belle surveyed her with the
  3060. satisfaction of a little girl with a newly dressed doll.
  3061. "Mademoiselle is charmante, tres jolie, is she not?" cried Hortense,
  3062. clasping her hands in an affected rapture.
  3063. "Come and show yourself," said Miss Belle, leading the way to the room
  3064. where the others were waiting.
  3065. As Meg went rustling after, with her long skirts trailing, her earrings
  3066. tinkling, her curls waving, and her heart beating, she felt as if her
  3067. fun had really begun at last, for the mirror had plainly told her that
  3068. she was 'a little beauty'. Her friends repeated the pleasing phrase
  3069. enthusiastically, and for several minutes she stood, like a jackdaw in
  3070. the fable, enjoying her borrowed plumes, while the rest chattered like
  3071. a party of magpies.
  3072. "While I dress, do you drill her, Nan, in the management of her skirt
  3073. and those French heels, or she will trip herself up. Take your silver
  3074. butterfly, and catch up that long curl on the left side of her head,
  3075. Clara, and don't any of you disturb the charming work of my hands,"
  3076. said Belle, as she hurried away, looking well pleased with her success.
  3077. "You don't look a bit like yourself, but you are very nice. I'm nowhere
  3078. beside you, for Belle has heaps of taste, and you're quite French, I
  3079. assure you. Let your flowers hang, don't be so careful of them, and be
  3080. sure you don't trip," returned Sallie, trying not to care that Meg was
  3081. prettier than herself.
  3082. Keeping that warning carefully in mind, Margaret got safely down stairs
  3083. and sailed into the drawing rooms where the Moffats and a few early
  3084. guests were assembled. She very soon discovered that there is a charm
  3085. about fine clothes which attracts a certain class of people and secures
  3086. their respect. Several young ladies, who had taken no notice of her
  3087. before, were very affectionate all of a sudden. Several young
  3088. gentlemen, who had only stared at her at the other party, now not only
  3089. stared, but asked to be introduced, and said all manner of foolish but
  3090. agreeable things to her, and several old ladies, who sat on the sofas,
  3091. and criticized the rest of the party, inquired who she was with an air
  3092. of interest. She heard Mrs. Moffat reply to one of them...
  3093. "Daisy March--father a colonel in the army--one of our first families,
  3094. but reverses of fortune, you know; intimate friends of the Laurences;
  3095. sweet creature, I assure you; my Ned is quite wild about her."
  3096. "Dear me!" said the old lady, putting up her glass for another
  3097. observation of Meg, who tried to look as if she had not heard and been
  3098. rather shocked at Mrs. Moffat's fibs. The 'queer feeling' did not pass
  3099. away, but she imagined herself acting the new part of fine lady and so
  3100. got on pretty well, though the tight dress gave her a side-ache, the
  3101. train kept getting under her feet, and she was in constant fear lest
  3102. her earrings should fly off and get lost or broken. She was flirting
  3103. her fan and laughing at the feeble jokes of a young gentleman who tried
  3104. to be witty, when she suddenly stopped laughing and looked confused,
  3105. for just opposite, she saw Laurie. He was staring at her with
  3106. undisguised surprise, and disapproval also, she thought, for though he
  3107. bowed and smiled, yet something in his honest eyes made her blush and
  3108. wish she had her old dress on. To complete her confusion, she saw Belle
  3109. nudge Annie, and both glance from her to Laurie, who, she was happy to
  3110. see, looked unusually boyish and shy.
  3111. "Silly creatures, to put such thoughts into my head. I won't care for
  3112. it, or let it change me a bit," thought Meg, and rustled across the
  3113. room to shake hands with her friend.
  3114. "I'm glad you came, I was afraid you wouldn't." she said, with her most
  3115. grown-up air.
  3116. "Jo wanted me to come, and tell her how you looked, so I did," answered
  3117. Laurie, without turning his eyes upon her, though he half smiled at her
  3118. maternal tone.
  3119. "What shall you tell her?" asked Meg, full of curiosity to know his
  3120. opinion of her, yet feeling ill at ease with him for the first time.
  3121. "I shall say I didn't know you, for you look so grown-up and unlike
  3122. yourself, I'm quite afraid of you," he said, fumbling at his glove
  3123. button.
  3124. "How absurd of you! The girls dressed me up for fun, and I rather like
  3125. it. Wouldn't Jo stare if she saw me?" said Meg, bent on making him say
  3126. whether he thought her improved or not.
  3127. "Yes, I think she would," returned Laurie gravely.
  3128. "Don't you like me so?" asked Meg.
  3129. "No, I don't," was the blunt reply.
  3130. "Why not?" in an anxious tone.
  3131. He glanced at her frizzled head, bare shoulders, and fantastically
  3132. trimmed dress with an expression that abashed her more than his answer,
  3133. which had not a particle of his usual politeness in it.
  3134. "I don't like fuss and feathers."
  3135. That was altogether too much from a lad younger than herself, and Meg
  3136. walked away, saying petulantly, "You are the rudest boy I ever saw."
  3137. Feeling very much ruffled, she went and stood at a quiet window to cool
  3138. her cheeks, for the tight dress gave her an uncomfortably brilliant
  3139. color. As she stood there, Major Lincoln passed by, and a minute after
  3140. she heard him saying to his mother...
  3141. "They are making a fool of that little girl. I wanted you to see her,
  3142. but they have spoiled her entirely. She's nothing but a doll tonight."
  3143. "Oh, dear!" sighed Meg. "I wish I'd been sensible and worn my own
  3144. things, then I should not have disgusted other people, or felt so
  3145. uncomfortable and ashamed of myself."
  3146. She leaned her forehead on the cool pane, and stood half hidden by the
  3147. curtains, never minding that her favorite waltz had begun, till some
  3148. one touched her, and turning, she saw Laurie, looking penitent, as he
  3149. said, with his very best bow and his hand out...
  3150. "Please forgive my rudeness, and come and dance with me."
  3151. "I'm afraid it will be too disagreeable to you," said Meg, trying to
  3152. look offended and failing entirely.
  3153. "Not a bit of it, I'm dying to do it. Come, I'll be good. I don't like
  3154. your gown, but I do think you are just splendid." And he waved his
  3155. hands, as if words failed to express his admiration.
  3156. Meg smiled and relented, and whispered as they stood waiting to catch
  3157. the time, "Take care my skirt doesn't trip you up. It's the plague of
  3158. my life and I was a goose to wear it."
  3159. "Pin it round your neck, and then it will be useful," said Laurie,
  3160. looking down at the little blue boots, which he evidently approved of.
  3161. Away they went fleetly and gracefully, for having practiced at home,
  3162. they were well matched, and the blithe young couple were a pleasant
  3163. sight to see, as they twirled merrily round and round, feeling more
  3164. friendly than ever after their small tiff.
  3165. "Laurie, I want you to do me a favor, will you?" said Meg, as he stood
  3166. fanning her when her breath gave out, which it did very soon though she
  3167. would not own why.
  3168. "Won't I!" said Laurie, with alacrity.
  3169. "Please don't tell them at home about my dress tonight. They won't
  3170. understand the joke, and it will worry Mother."
  3171. "Then why did you do it?" said Laurie's eyes, so plainly that Meg
  3172. hastily added...
  3173. "I shall tell them myself all about it, and 'fess' to Mother how silly
  3174. I've been. But I'd rather do it myself. So you'll not tell, will you?"
  3175. "I give you my word I won't, only what shall I say when they ask me?"
  3176. "Just say I looked pretty well and was having a good time."
  3177. "I'll say the first with all my heart, but how about the other? You
  3178. don't look as if you were having a good time. Are you?" And Laurie
  3179. looked at her with an expression which made her answer in a whisper...
  3180. "No, not just now. Don't think I'm horrid. I only wanted a little
  3181. fun, but this sort doesn't pay, I find, and I'm getting tired of it."
  3182. "Here comes Ned Moffat. What does he want?" said Laurie, knitting his
  3183. black brows as if he did not regard his young host in the light of a
  3184. pleasant addition to the party.
  3185. "He put his name down for three dances, and I suppose he's coming for
  3186. them. What a bore!" said Meg, assuming a languid air which amused
  3187. Laurie immensely.
  3188. He did not speak to her again till suppertime, when he saw her drinking
  3189. champagne with Ned and his friend Fisher, who were behaving 'like a
  3190. pair of fools', as Laurie said to himself, for he felt a brotherly sort
  3191. of right to watch over the Marches and fight their battles whenever a
  3192. defender was needed.
  3193. "You'll have a splitting headache tomorrow, if you drink much of that.
  3194. I wouldn't, Meg, your mother doesn't like it, you know," he whispered,
  3195. leaning over her chair, as Ned turned to refill her glass and Fisher
  3196. stooped to pick up her fan.
  3197. "I'm not Meg tonight, I'm 'a doll' who does all sorts of crazy things.
  3198. Tomorrow I shall put away my 'fuss and feathers' and be desperately
  3199. good again," she answered with an affected little laugh.
  3200. "Wish tomorrow was here, then," muttered Laurie, walking off,
  3201. ill-pleased at the change he saw in her.
  3202. Meg danced and flirted, chattered and giggled, as the other girls did.
  3203. After supper she undertook the German, and blundered through it, nearly
  3204. upsetting her partner with her long skirt, and romping in a way that
  3205. scandalized Laurie, who looked on and meditated a lecture. But he got
  3206. no chance to deliver it, for Meg kept away from him till he came to say
  3207. good night.
  3208. "Remember!" she said, trying to smile, for the splitting headache had
  3209. already begun.
  3210. "Silence a la mort," replied Laurie, with a melodramatic flourish, as
  3211. he went away.
  3212. This little bit of byplay excited Annie's curiosity, but Meg was too
  3213. tired for gossip and went to bed, feeling as if she had been to a
  3214. masquerade and hadn't enjoyed herself as much as she expected. She was
  3215. sick all the next day, and on Saturday went home, quite used up with
  3216. her fortnight's fun and feeling that she had 'sat in the lap of luxury'
  3217. long enough.
  3218. "It does seem pleasant to be quiet, and not have company manners on all
  3219. the time. Home is a nice place, though it isn't splendid," said Meg,
  3220. looking about her with a restful expression, as she sat with her mother
  3221. and Jo on the Sunday evening.
  3222. "I'm glad to hear you say so, dear, for I was afraid home would seem
  3223. dull and poor to you after your fine quarters," replied her mother, who
  3224. had given her many anxious looks that day. For motherly eyes are quick
  3225. to see any change in children's faces.
  3226. Meg had told her adventures gayly and said over and over what a
  3227. charming time she had had, but something still seemed to weigh upon her
  3228. spirits, and when the younger girls were gone to bed, she sat
  3229. thoughtfully staring at the fire, saying little and looking worried.
  3230. As the clock struck nine and Jo proposed bed, Meg suddenly left her
  3231. chair and, taking Beth's stool, leaned her elbows on her mother's knee,
  3232. saying bravely...
  3233. "Marmee, I want to 'fess'."
  3234. "I thought so. What is it, dear?"
  3235. "Shall I go away?" asked Jo discreetly.
  3236. "Of course not. Don't I always tell you everything? I was ashamed to
  3237. speak of it before the younger children, but I want you to know all the
  3238. dreadful things I did at the Moffats'."
  3239. "We are prepared," said Mrs. March, smiling but looking a little
  3240. anxious.
  3241. "I told you they dressed me up, but I didn't tell you that they
  3242. powdered and squeezed and frizzled, and made me look like a
  3243. fashion-plate. Laurie thought I wasn't proper. I know he did, though
  3244. he didn't say so, and one man called me 'a doll'. I knew it was silly,
  3245. but they flattered me and said I was a beauty, and quantities of
  3246. nonsense, so I let them make a fool of me."
  3247. "Is that all?" asked Jo, as Mrs. March looked silently at the downcast
  3248. face of her pretty daughter, and could not find it in her heart to
  3249. blame her little follies.
  3250. "No, I drank champagne and romped and tried to flirt, and was
  3251. altogether abominable," said Meg self-reproachfully.
  3252. "There is something more, I think." And Mrs. March smoothed the soft
  3253. cheek, which suddenly grew rosy as Meg answered slowly...
  3254. "Yes. It's very silly, but I want to tell it, because I hate to have
  3255. people say and think such things about us and Laurie."
  3256. Then she told the various bits of gossip she had heard at the Moffats',
  3257. and as she spoke, Jo saw her mother fold her lips tightly, as if ill
  3258. pleased that such ideas should be put into Meg's innocent mind.
  3259. "Well, if that isn't the greatest rubbish I ever heard," cried Jo
  3260. indignantly. "Why didn't you pop out and tell them so on the spot?"
  3261. "I couldn't, it was so embarrassing for me. I couldn't help hearing at
  3262. first, and then I was so angry and ashamed, I didn't remember that I
  3263. ought to go away."
  3264. "Just wait till I see Annie Moffat, and I'll show you how to settle
  3265. such ridiculous stuff. The idea of having 'plans' and being kind to
  3266. Laurie because he's rich and may marry us by-and-by! Won't he shout
  3267. when I tell him what those silly things say about us poor children?"
  3268. And Jo laughed, as if on second thoughts the thing struck her as a good
  3269. joke.
  3270. "If you tell Laurie, I'll never forgive you! She mustn't, must she,
  3271. Mother?" said Meg, looking distressed.
  3272. "No, never repeat that foolish gossip, and forget it as soon as you
  3273. can," said Mrs. March gravely. "I was very unwise to let you go among
  3274. people of whom I know so little, kind, I dare say, but worldly,
  3275. ill-bred, and full of these vulgar ideas about young people. I am more
  3276. sorry than I can express for the mischief this visit may have done you,
  3277. Meg."
  3278. "Don't be sorry, I won't let it hurt me. I'll forget all the bad and
  3279. remember only the good, for I did enjoy a great deal, and thank you
  3280. very much for letting me go. I'll not be sentimental or dissatisfied,
  3281. Mother. I know I'm a silly little girl, and I'll stay with you till
  3282. I'm fit to take care of myself. But it is nice to be praised and
  3283. admired, and I can't help saying I like it," said Meg, looking half
  3284. ashamed of the confession.
  3285. "That is perfectly natural, and quite harmless, if the liking does not
  3286. become a passion and lead one to do foolish or unmaidenly things.
  3287. Learn to know and value the praise which is worth having, and to excite
  3288. the admiration of excellent people by being modest as well as pretty,
  3289. Meg."
  3290. Margaret sat thinking a moment, while Jo stood with her hands behind
  3291. her, looking both interested and a little perplexed, for it was a new
  3292. thing to see Meg blushing and talking about admiration, lovers, and
  3293. things of that sort. And Jo felt as if during that fortnight her
  3294. sister had grown up amazingly, and was drifting away from her into a
  3295. world where she could not follow.
  3296. "Mother, do you have 'plans', as Mrs. Moffat said?" asked Meg bashfully.
  3297. "Yes, my dear, I have a great many, all mothers do, but mine differ
  3298. somewhat from Mrs. Moffat's, I suspect. I will tell you some of them,
  3299. for the time has come when a word may set this romantic little head and
  3300. heart of yours right, on a very serious subject. You are young, Meg,
  3301. but not too young to understand me, and mothers' lips are the fittest
  3302. to speak of such things to girls like you. Jo, your turn will come in
  3303. time, perhaps, so listen to my 'plans' and help me carry them out, if
  3304. they are good."
  3305. Jo went and sat on one arm of the chair, looking as if she thought they
  3306. were about to join in some very solemn affair. Holding a hand of each,
  3307. and watching the two young faces wistfully, Mrs. March said, in her
  3308. serious yet cheery way...
  3309. "I want my daughters to be beautiful, accomplished, and good. To be
  3310. admired, loved, and respected. To have a happy youth, to be well and
  3311. wisely married, and to lead useful, pleasant lives, with as little care
  3312. and sorrow to try them as God sees fit to send. To be loved and chosen
  3313. by a good man is the best and sweetest thing which can happen to a
  3314. woman, and I sincerely hope my girls may know this beautiful
  3315. experience. It is natural to think of it, Meg, right to hope and wait
  3316. for it, and wise to prepare for it, so that when the happy time comes,
  3317. you may feel ready for the duties and worthy of the joy. My dear
  3318. girls, I am ambitious for you, but not to have you make a dash in the
  3319. world, marry rich men merely because they are rich, or have splendid
  3320. houses, which are not homes because love is wanting. Money is a
  3321. needful and precious thing, and when well used, a noble thing, but I
  3322. never want you to think it is the first or only prize to strive for.
  3323. I'd rather see you poor men's wives, if you were happy, beloved,
  3324. contented, than queens on thrones, without self-respect and peace."
  3325. "Poor girls don't stand any chance, Belle says, unless they put
  3326. themselves forward," sighed Meg.
  3327. "Then we'll be old maids," said Jo stoutly.
  3328. "Right, Jo. Better be happy old maids than unhappy wives, or
  3329. unmaidenly girls, running about to find husbands," said Mrs. March
  3330. decidedly. "Don't be troubled, Meg, poverty seldom daunts a sincere
  3331. lover. Some of the best and most honored women I know were poor girls,
  3332. but so love-worthy that they were not allowed to be old maids. Leave
  3333. these things to time. Make this home happy, so that you may be fit for
  3334. homes of your own, if they are offered you, and contented here if they
  3335. are not. One thing remember, my girls. Mother is always ready to be
  3336. your confidant, Father to be your friend, and both of us hope and trust
  3337. that our daughters, whether married or single, will be the pride and
  3338. comfort of our lives."
  3339. "We will, Marmee, we will!" cried both, with all their hearts, as she
  3340. bade them good night.
  3341. CHAPTER TEN
  3342. THE P.C. AND P.O.
  3343. As spring came on, a new set of amusements became the fashion, and the
  3344. lengthening days gave long afternoons for work and play of all sorts.
  3345. The garden had to be put in order, and each sister had a quarter of the
  3346. little plot to do what she liked with. Hannah used to say, "I'd know
  3347. which each of them gardings belonged to, ef I see 'em in Chiny," and so
  3348. she might, for the girls' tastes differed as much as their characters.
  3349. Meg's had roses and heliotrope, myrtle, and a little orange tree in it.
  3350. Jo's bed was never alike two seasons, for she was always trying
  3351. experiments. This year it was to be a plantation of sun flowers, the
  3352. seeds of which cheerful land aspiring plant were to feed Aunt
  3353. Cockle-top and her family of chicks. Beth had old-fashioned fragrant
  3354. flowers in her garden, sweet peas and mignonette, larkspur, pinks,
  3355. pansies, and southernwood, with chickweed for the birds and catnip for
  3356. the pussies. Amy had a bower in hers, rather small and earwiggy, but
  3357. very pretty to look at, with honeysuckle and morning-glories hanging
  3358. their colored horns and bells in graceful wreaths all over it, tall
  3359. white lilies, delicate ferns, and as many brilliant, picturesque plants
  3360. as would consent to blossom there.
  3361. Gardening, walks, rows on the river, and flower hunts employed the fine
  3362. days, and for rainy ones, they had house diversions, some old, some
  3363. new, all more or less original. One of these was the 'P.C.', for as
  3364. secret societies were the fashion, it was thought proper to have one,
  3365. and as all of the girls admired Dickens, they called themselves the
  3366. Pickwick Club. With a few interruptions, they had kept this up for a
  3367. year, and met every Saturday evening in the big garret, on which
  3368. occasions the ceremonies were as follows: Three chairs were arranged
  3369. in a row before a table on which was a lamp, also four white badges,
  3370. with a big 'P.C.' in different colors on each, and the weekly newspaper
  3371. called, The Pickwick Portfolio, to which all contributed something,
  3372. while Jo, who reveled in pens and ink, was the editor. At seven
  3373. o'clock, the four members ascended to the clubroom, tied their badges
  3374. round their heads, and took their seats with great solemnity. Meg, as
  3375. the eldest, was Samuel Pickwick, Jo, being of a literary turn, Augustus
  3376. Snodgrass, Beth, because she was round and rosy, Tracy Tupman, and Amy,
  3377. who was always trying to do what she couldn't, was Nathaniel Winkle.
  3378. Pickwick, the president, read the paper, which was filled with original
  3379. tales, poetry, local news, funny advertisements, and hints, in which
  3380. they good-naturedly reminded each other of their faults and short
  3381. comings. On one occasion, Mr. Pickwick put on a pair of spectacles
  3382. without any glass, rapped upon the table, hemmed, and having stared
  3383. hard at Mr. Snodgrass, who was tilting back in his chair, till he
  3384. arranged himself properly, began to read:
  3385. _________________________________________________
  3386. "THE PICKWICK PORTFOLIO"
  3387. MAY 20, 18--
  3388. POET'S CORNER
  3389. ANNIVERSARY ODE
  3390. Again we meet to celebrate
  3391. With badge and solemn rite,
  3392. Our fifty-second anniversary,
  3393. In Pickwick Hall, tonight.
  3394. We all are here in perfect health,
  3395. None gone from our small band:
  3396. Again we see each well-known face,
  3397. And press each friendly hand.
  3398. Our Pickwick, always at his post,
  3399. With reverence we greet,
  3400. As, spectacles on nose, he reads
  3401. Our well-filled weekly sheet.
  3402. Although he suffers from a cold,
  3403. We joy to hear him speak,
  3404. For words of wisdom from him fall,
  3405. In spite of croak or squeak.
  3406. Old six-foot Snodgrass looms on high,
  3407. With elephantine grace,
  3408. And beams upon the company,
  3409. With brown and jovial face.
  3410. Poetic fire lights up his eye,
  3411. He struggles 'gainst his lot.
  3412. Behold ambition on his brow,
  3413. And on his nose, a blot.
  3414. Next our peaceful Tupman comes,
  3415. So rosy, plump, and sweet,
  3416. Who chokes with laughter at the puns,
  3417. And tumbles off his seat.
  3418. Prim little Winkle too is here,
  3419. With every hair in place,
  3420. A model of propriety,
  3421. Though he hates to wash his face.
  3422. The year is gone, we still unite
  3423. To joke and laugh and read,
  3424. And tread the path of literature
  3425. That doth to glory lead.
  3426. Long may our paper prosper well,
  3427. Our club unbroken be,
  3428. And coming years their blessings pour
  3429. On the useful, gay 'P. C.'.
  3430. A. SNODGRASS
  3431. ________
  3432. THE MASKED MARRIAGE
  3433. (A Tale Of Venice)
  3434. Gondola after gondola swept up to the marble
  3435. steps, and left its lovely load to swell the
  3436. brilliant throng that filled the stately halls of Count
  3437. Adelon. Knights and ladies, elves and pages, monks
  3438. and flower girls, all mingled gaily in the dance.
  3439. Sweet voices and rich melody filled the air, and so
  3440. with mirth and music the masquerade went on.
  3441. "Has your Highness seen the Lady Viola tonight?"
  3442. asked a gallant troubadour of the fairy queen who
  3443. floated down the hall upon his arm.
  3444. "Yes, is she not lovely, though so sad! Her
  3445. dress is well chosen, too, for in a week she weds
  3446. Count Antonio, whom she passionately hates."
  3447. "By my faith, I envy him. Yonder he comes,
  3448. arrayed like a bridegroom, except the black mask.
  3449. When that is off we shall see how he regards the
  3450. fair maid whose heart he cannot win, though her
  3451. stern father bestows her hand," returned the troubadour.
  3452. "Tis whispered that she loves the young English
  3453. artist who haunts her steps, and is spurned by the
  3454. old Count," said the lady, as they joined the dance.
  3455. The revel was at its height when a priest
  3456. appeared, and withdrawing the young pair to an alcove,
  3457. hung with purple velvet, he motioned them to kneel.
  3458. Instant silence fell on the gay throng, and not a
  3459. sound, but the dash of fountains or the rustle of
  3460. orange groves sleeping in the moonlight, broke the
  3461. hush, as Count de Adelon spoke thus:
  3462. "My lords and ladies, pardon the ruse by which
  3463. I have gathered you here to witness the marriage of
  3464. my daughter. Father, we wait your services."
  3465. All eyes turned toward the bridal party, and a
  3466. murmur of amazement went through the throng, for
  3467. neither bride nor groom removed their masks. Curiosity
  3468. and wonder possessed all hearts, but respect restrained
  3469. all tongues till the holy rite was over. Then the
  3470. eager spectators gathered round the count, demanding
  3471. an explanation.
  3472. "Gladly would I give it if I could, but I only
  3473. know that it was the whim of my timid Viola, and I
  3474. yielded to it. Now, my children, let the play end.
  3475. Unmask and receive my blessing."
  3476. But neither bent the knee, for the young bridegroom
  3477. replied in a tone that startled all listeners
  3478. as the mask fell, disclosing the noble face of Ferdinand
  3479. Devereux, the artist lover, and leaning on the
  3480. breast where now flashed the star of an English earl
  3481. was the lovely Viola, radiant with joy and beauty.
  3482. "My lord, you scornfully bade me claim your
  3483. daughter when I could boast as high a name and vast a
  3484. fortune as the Count Antonio. I can do more, for even
  3485. your ambitious soul cannot refuse the Earl of Devereux
  3486. and De Vere, when he gives his ancient name and boundless
  3487. wealth in return for the beloved hand of this fair lady,
  3488. now my wife."
  3489. The count stood like one changed to stone, and
  3490. turning to the bewildered crowd, Ferdinand added, with
  3491. a gay smile of triumph, "To you, my gallant friends, I
  3492. can only wish that your wooing may prosper as mine has
  3493. done, and that you may all win as fair a bride as I have
  3494. by this masked marriage."
  3495. S. PICKWICK
  3496. Why is the P. C. like the Tower of Babel?
  3497. It is full of unruly members.
  3498. _________
  3499. THE HISTORY OF A SQUASH
  3500. Once upon a time a farmer planted a little seed
  3501. in his garden, and after a while it sprouted and became
  3502. a vine and bore many squashes. One day in October,
  3503. when they were ripe, he picked one and took it
  3504. to market. A grocerman bought and put it in his shop.
  3505. That same morning, a little girl in a brown hat
  3506. and blue dress, with a round face and snub nose, went
  3507. and bought it for her mother. She lugged it home, cut
  3508. it up, and boiled it in the big pot, mashed some of it
  3509. with salt and butter, for dinner. And to the rest she added
  3510. a pint of milk, two eggs, four spoons of sugar, nutmeg,
  3511. and some crackers, put it in a deep dish, and baked it
  3512. till it was brown and nice, and next day it was eaten
  3513. by a family named March.
  3514. T. TUPMAN
  3515. _________
  3516. Mr. Pickwick, Sir:--
  3517. I address you upon the subject of sin the sinner
  3518. I mean is a man named Winkle who makes trouble in his
  3519. club by laughing and sometimes won't write his piece in
  3520. this fine paper I hope you will pardon his badness and
  3521. let him send a French fable because he can't write out
  3522. of his head as he has so many lessons to do and no brains
  3523. in future I will try to take time by the fetlock and
  3524. prepare some work which will be all commy la fo that
  3525. means all right I am in haste as it is nearly school
  3526. time.
  3527. Yours respectably,
  3528. N. WINKLE
  3529. [The above is a manly and handsome acknowledgment of past
  3530. misdemeanors. If our young friend studied punctuation, it
  3531. would be well.]
  3532. _________
  3533. A SAD ACCIDENT
  3534. On Friday last, we were startled by a violent shock
  3535. in our basement, followed by cries of distress.
  3536. On rushing in a body to the cellar, we discovered our beloved
  3537. President prostrate upon the floor, having tripped and
  3538. fallen while getting wood for domestic purposes. A perfect
  3539. scene of ruin met our eyes, for in his fall Mr. Pickwick
  3540. had plunged his head and shoulders into a tub of water,
  3541. upset a keg of soft soap upon his manly form, and torn
  3542. his garments badly. On being removed from this perilous
  3543. situation, it was discovered that he had suffered
  3544. no injury but several bruises, and we are happy to add,
  3545. is now doing well.
  3546. ED.
  3547. _________
  3548. THE PUBLIC BEREAVEMENT
  3549. It is our painful duty to record the sudden and
  3550. mysterious disappearance of our cherished friend, Mrs.
  3551. Snowball Pat Paw. This lovely and beloved cat was the
  3552. pet of a large circle of warm and admiring friends; for
  3553. her beauty attracted all eyes, her graces and virtues
  3554. endeared her to all hearts, and her loss is deeply felt
  3555. by the whole community.
  3556. When last seen, she was sitting at the gate, watching
  3557. the butcher's cart, and it is feared that some villain,
  3558. tempted by her charms, basely stole her. Weeks have passed,
  3559. but no trace of her has been discovered, and we relinquish
  3560. all hope, tie a black ribbon to her basket, set aside her
  3561. dish, and weep for her as one lost to us forever.
  3562. _________
  3563. A sympathizing friend sends the following gem:
  3564. A LAMENT
  3565. (FOR S. B. PAT PAW)
  3566. We mourn the loss of our little pet,
  3567. And sigh o'er her hapless fate,
  3568. For never more by the fire she'll sit,
  3569. Nor play by the old green gate.
  3570. The little grave where her infant sleeps
  3571. Is 'neath the chestnut tree.
  3572. But o'er her grave we may not weep,
  3573. We know not where it may be.
  3574. Her empty bed, her idle ball,
  3575. Will never see her more;
  3576. No gentle tap, no loving purr
  3577. Is heard at the parlor door.
  3578. Another cat comes after her mice,
  3579. A cat with a dirty face,
  3580. But she does not hunt as our darling did,
  3581. Nor play with her airy grace.
  3582. Her stealthy paws tread the very hall
  3583. Where Snowball used to play,
  3584. But she only spits at the dogs our pet
  3585. So gallantly drove away.
  3586. She is useful and mild, and does her best,
  3587. But she is not fair to see,
  3588. And we cannot give her your place dear,
  3589. Nor worship her as we worship thee.
  3590. A.S.
  3591. _________
  3592. ADVERTISEMENTS
  3593. MISS ORANTHY BLUGGAGE, the accomplished
  3594. strong-minded lecturer, will deliver her
  3595. famous lecture on "WOMAN AND HER POSITION"
  3596. at Pickwick Hall, next Saturday Evening,
  3597. after the usual performances.
  3598. A WEEKLY MEETING will be held at Kitchen
  3599. Place, to teach young ladies how to cook.
  3600. Hannah Brown will preside, and all are
  3601. invited to attend.
  3602. The DUSTPAN SOCIETY will meet on Wednesday
  3603. next, and parade in the upper story of the
  3604. Club House. All members to appear in uniform
  3605. and shoulder their brooms at nine precisely.
  3606. Mrs. BETH BOUNCER will open her new
  3607. assortment of Doll's Millinery next week.
  3608. The latest Paris fashions have arrived,
  3609. and orders are respectfully solicited.
  3610. A NEW PLAY will appear at the Barnville
  3611. Theatre, in the course of a few weeks, which
  3612. will surpass anything ever seen on the American stage.
  3613. "The Greek Slave, or Constantine the Avenger," is the name
  3614. of this thrilling drama!!!
  3615. HINTS
  3616. If S.P. didn't use so much soap on his hands,
  3617. he wouldn't always be late at breakfast. A.S.
  3618. is requested not to whistle in the street. T.T.
  3619. please don't forget Amy's napkin. N.W. must
  3620. not fret because his dress has not nine tucks.
  3621. WEEKLY REPORT
  3622. Meg--Good.
  3623. Jo--Bad.
  3624. Beth--Very Good.
  3625. Amy--Middling.
  3626. _________________________________________________
  3627. As the President finished reading the paper (which I beg leave to
  3628. assure my readers is a bona fide copy of one written by bona fide girls
  3629. once upon a time), a round of applause followed, and then Mr. Snodgrass
  3630. rose to make a proposition.
  3631. "Mr. President and gentlemen," he began, assuming a parliamentary
  3632. attitude and tone, "I wish to propose the admission of a new
  3633. member--one who highly deserves the honor, would be deeply grateful for
  3634. it, and would add immensely to the spirit of the club, the literary
  3635. value of the paper, and be no end jolly and nice. I propose Mr.
  3636. Theodore Laurence as an honorary member of the P. C. Come now, do
  3637. have him."
  3638. Jo's sudden change of tone made the girls laugh, but all looked rather
  3639. anxious, and no one said a word as Snodgrass took his seat.
  3640. "We'll put it to a vote," said the President. "All in favor of this
  3641. motion please to manifest it by saying, 'Aye'."
  3642. A loud response from Snodgrass, followed, to everybody's surprise, by a
  3643. timid one from Beth.
  3644. "Contrary-minded say, 'No'."
  3645. Meg and Amy were contrary-minded, and Mr. Winkle rose to say with great
  3646. elegance, "We don't wish any boys, they only joke and bounce about.
  3647. This is a ladies' club, and we wish to be private and proper."
  3648. "I'm afraid he'll laugh at our paper, and make fun of us afterward,"
  3649. observed Pickwick, pulling the little curl on her forehead, as she
  3650. always did when doubtful.
  3651. Up rose Snodgrass, very much in earnest. "Sir, I give you my word as a
  3652. gentleman, Laurie won't do anything of the sort. He likes to write,
  3653. and he'll give a tone to our contributions and keep us from being
  3654. sentimental, don't you see? We can do so little for him, and he does
  3655. so much for us, I think the least we can do is to offer him a place
  3656. here, and make him welcome if he comes."
  3657. This artful allusion to benefits conferred brought Tupman to his feet,
  3658. looking as if he had quite made up his mind.
  3659. "Yes; we ought to do it, even if we are afraid. I say he may come, and
  3660. his grandpa, too, if he likes."
  3661. This spirited burst from Beth electrified the club, and Jo left her
  3662. seat to shake hands approvingly. "Now then, vote again. Everybody
  3663. remember it's our Laurie, and say, 'Aye!'" cried Snodgrass excitedly.
  3664. "Aye! Aye! Aye!" replied three voices at once.
  3665. "Good! Bless you! Now, as there's nothing like 'taking time by the
  3666. fetlock', as Winkle characteristically observes, allow me to present
  3667. the new member." And, to the dismay of the rest of the club, Jo threw
  3668. open the door of the closet, and displayed Laurie sitting on a rag bag,
  3669. flushed and twinkling with suppressed laughter.
  3670. "You rogue! You traitor! Jo, how could you?" cried the three girls,
  3671. as Snodgrass led her friend triumphantly forth, and producing both a
  3672. chair and a badge, installed him in a jiffy.
  3673. "The coolness of you two rascals is amazing," began Mr. Pickwick,
  3674. trying to get up an awful frown and only succeeding in producing an
  3675. amiable smile. But the new member was equal to the occasion, and
  3676. rising, with a grateful salutation to the Chair, said in the most
  3677. engaging manner, "Mr. President and ladies--I beg pardon,
  3678. gentlemen--allow me to introduce myself as Sam Weller, the very humble
  3679. servant of the club."
  3680. "Good! Good!" cried Jo, pounding with the handle of the old warming
  3681. pan on which she leaned.
  3682. "My faithful friend and noble patron," continued Laurie with a wave of
  3683. the hand, "who has so flatteringly presented me, is not to be blamed
  3684. for the base stratagem of tonight. I planned it, and she only gave in
  3685. after lots of teasing."
  3686. "Come now, don't lay it all on yourself. You know I proposed the
  3687. cupboard," broke in Snodgrass, who was enjoying the joke amazingly.
  3688. "Never mind what she says. I'm the wretch that did it, sir," said the
  3689. new member, with a Welleresque nod to Mr. Pickwick. "But on my honor,
  3690. I never will do so again, and henceforth devote myself to the interest
  3691. of this immortal club."
  3692. "Hear! Hear!" cried Jo, clashing the lid of the warming pan like a
  3693. cymbal.
  3694. "Go on, go on!" added Winkle and Tupman, while the President bowed
  3695. benignly.
  3696. "I merely wish to say, that as a slight token of my gratitude for the
  3697. honor done me, and as a means of promoting friendly relations between
  3698. adjoining nations, I have set up a post office in the hedge in the
  3699. lower corner of the garden, a fine, spacious building with padlocks on
  3700. the doors and every convenience for the mails, also the females, if I
  3701. may be allowed the expression. It's the old martin house, but I've
  3702. stopped up the door and made the roof open, so it will hold all sorts
  3703. of things, and save our valuable time. Letters, manuscripts, books,
  3704. and bundles can be passed in there, and as each nation has a key, it
  3705. will be uncommonly nice, I fancy. Allow me to present the club key,
  3706. and with many thanks for your favor, take my seat."
  3707. Great applause as Mr. Weller deposited a little key on the table and
  3708. subsided, the warming pan clashed and waved wildly, and it was some
  3709. time before order could be restored. A long discussion followed, and
  3710. everyone came out surprising, for everyone did her best. So it was an
  3711. unusually lively meeting, and did not adjourn till a late hour, when it
  3712. broke up with three shrill cheers for the new member.
  3713. No one ever regretted the admittance of Sam Weller, for a more devoted,
  3714. well-behaved, and jovial member no club could have. He certainly did
  3715. add 'spirit' to the meetings, and 'a tone' to the paper, for his
  3716. orations convulsed his hearers and his contributions were excellent,
  3717. being patriotic, classical, comical, or dramatic, but never
  3718. sentimental. Jo regarded them as worthy of Bacon, Milton, or
  3719. Shakespeare, and remodeled her own works with good effect, she thought.
  3720. The P. O. was a capital little institution, and flourished
  3721. wonderfully, for nearly as many queer things passed through it as
  3722. through the real post office. Tragedies and cravats, poetry and
  3723. pickles, garden seeds and long letters, music and gingerbread, rubbers,
  3724. invitations, scoldings, and puppies. The old gentleman liked the fun,
  3725. and amused himself by sending odd bundles, mysterious messages, and
  3726. funny telegrams, and his gardener, who was smitten with Hannah's
  3727. charms, actually sent a love letter to Jo's care. How they laughed
  3728. when the secret came out, never dreaming how many love letters that
  3729. little post office would hold in the years to come.
  3730. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  3731. EXPERIMENTS
  3732. "The first of June! The Kings are off to the seashore tomorrow, and
  3733. I'm free. Three months' vacation--how I shall enjoy it!" exclaimed
  3734. Meg, coming home one warm day to find Jo laid upon the sofa in an
  3735. unusual state of exhaustion, while Beth took off her dusty boots, and
  3736. Amy made lemonade for the refreshment of the whole party.
  3737. "Aunt March went today, for which, oh, be joyful!" said Jo. "I was
  3738. mortally afraid she'd ask me to go with her. If she had, I should have
  3739. felt as if I ought to do it, but Plumfield is about as gay as a
  3740. churchyard, you know, and I'd rather be excused. We had a flurry
  3741. getting the old lady off, and I had a fright every time she spoke to
  3742. me, for I was in such a hurry to be through that I was uncommonly
  3743. helpful and sweet, and feared she'd find it impossible to part from me.
  3744. I quaked till she was fairly in the carriage, and had a final fright,
  3745. for as it drove of, she popped out her head, saying, 'Josyphine, won't
  3746. you--?' I didn't hear any more, for I basely turned and fled. I did
  3747. actually run, and whisked round the corner where I felt safe."
  3748. "Poor old Jo! She came in looking as if bears were after her," said
  3749. Beth, as she cuddled her sister's feet with a motherly air.
  3750. "Aunt March is a regular samphire, is she not?" observed Amy, tasting
  3751. her mixture critically.
  3752. "She means vampire, not seaweed, but it doesn't matter. It's too warm
  3753. to be particular about one's parts of speech," murmured Jo.
  3754. "What shall you do all your vacation?" asked Amy, changing the subject
  3755. with tact.
  3756. "I shall lie abed late, and do nothing," replied Meg, from the depths
  3757. of the rocking chair. "I've been routed up early all winter and had to
  3758. spend my days working for other people, so now I'm going to rest and
  3759. revel to my heart's content."
  3760. "No," said Jo, "that dozy way wouldn't suit me. I've laid in a heap of
  3761. books, and I'm going to improve my shining hours reading on my perch in
  3762. the old apple tree, when I'm not having l----"
  3763. "Don't say 'larks!'" implored Amy, as a return snub for the 'samphire'
  3764. correction.
  3765. "I'll say 'nightingales' then, with Laurie. That's proper and
  3766. appropriate, since he's a warbler."
  3767. "Don't let us do any lessons, Beth, for a while, but play all the time
  3768. and rest, as the girls mean to," proposed Amy.
  3769. "Well, I will, if Mother doesn't mind. I want to learn some new songs,
  3770. and my children need fitting up for the summer. They are dreadfully
  3771. out of order and really suffering for clothes."
  3772. "May we, Mother?" asked Meg, turning to Mrs. March, who sat sewing in
  3773. what they called 'Marmee's corner'.
  3774. "You may try your experiment for a week and see how you like it. I
  3775. think by Saturday night you will find that all play and no work is as
  3776. bad as all work and no play."
  3777. "Oh, dear, no! It will be delicious, I'm sure," said Meg complacently.
  3778. "I now propose a toast, as my 'friend and pardner, Sairy Gamp', says.
  3779. Fun forever, and no grubbing!" cried Jo, rising, glass in hand, as the
  3780. lemonade went round.
  3781. They all drank it merrily, and began the experiment by lounging for the
  3782. rest of the day. Next morning, Meg did not appear till ten o'clock.
  3783. Her solitary breakfast did not taste good, and the room seemed lonely
  3784. and untidy, for Jo had not filled the vases, Beth had not dusted, and
  3785. Amy's books lay scattered about. Nothing was neat and pleasant but
  3786. 'Marmee's corner', which looked as usual. And there Meg sat, to 'rest
  3787. and read', which meant to yawn and imagine what pretty summer dresses
  3788. she would get with her salary. Jo spent the morning on the river with
  3789. Laurie and the afternoon reading and crying over _The Wide, Wide
  3790. World_, up in the apple tree. Beth began by rummaging everything out
  3791. of the big closet where her family resided, but getting tired before
  3792. half done, she left her establishment topsy-turvy and went to her
  3793. music, rejoicing that she had no dishes to wash. Amy arranged her
  3794. bower, put on her best white frock, smoothed her curls, and sat down to
  3795. draw under the honeysuckle, hoping someone would see and inquire who
  3796. the young artist was. As no one appeared but an inquisitive
  3797. daddy-longlegs, who examined her work with interest, she went to walk,
  3798. got caught in a shower, and came home dripping.
  3799. At teatime they compared notes, and all agreed that it had been a
  3800. delightful, though unusually long day. Meg, who went shopping in the
  3801. afternoon and got a 'sweet blue muslin', had discovered, after she had
  3802. cut the breadths off, that it wouldn't wash, which mishap made her
  3803. slightly cross. Jo had burned the skin off her nose boating, and got a
  3804. raging headache by reading too long. Beth was worried by the confusion
  3805. of her closet and the difficulty of learning three or four songs at
  3806. once, and Amy deeply regretted the damage done her frock, for Katy
  3807. Brown's party was to be the next day and now like Flora McFlimsey, she
  3808. had 'nothing to wear'. But these were mere trifles, and they assured
  3809. their mother that the experiment was working finely. She smiled, said
  3810. nothing, and with Hannah's help did their neglected work, keeping home
  3811. pleasant and the domestic machinery running smoothly. It was
  3812. astonishing what a peculiar and uncomfortable state of things was
  3813. produced by the 'resting and reveling' process. The days kept getting
  3814. longer and longer, the weather was unusually variable and so were
  3815. tempers; an unsettled feeling possessed everyone, and Satan found
  3816. plenty of mischief for the idle hands to do. As the height of luxury,
  3817. Meg put out some of her sewing, and then found time hang so heavily,
  3818. that she fell to snipping and spoiling her clothes in her attempts to
  3819. furbish them up a la Moffat. Jo read till her eyes gave out and she
  3820. was sick of books, got so fidgety that even good-natured Laurie had a
  3821. quarrel with her, and so reduced in spirits that she desperately wished
  3822. she had gone with Aunt March. Beth got on pretty well, for she was
  3823. constantly forgetting that it was to be all play and no work, and fell
  3824. back into her old ways now and then. But something in the air affected
  3825. her, and more than once her tranquility was much disturbed, so much so
  3826. that on one occasion she actually shook poor dear Joanna and told her
  3827. she was 'a fright'. Amy fared worst of all, for her resources were
  3828. small, and when her sisters left her to amuse herself, she soon found
  3829. that accomplished and important little self a great burden. She didn't
  3830. like dolls, fairy tales were childish, and one couldn't draw all the
  3831. time. Tea parties didn't amount to much, neither did picnics, unless
  3832. very well conducted. "If one could have a fine house, full of nice
  3833. girls, or go traveling, the summer would be delightful, but to stay at
  3834. home with three selfish sisters and a grown-up boy was enough to try
  3835. the patience of a Boaz," complained Miss Malaprop, after several days
  3836. devoted to pleasure, fretting, and ennui.
  3837. No one would own that they were tired of the experiment, but by Friday
  3838. night each acknowledged to herself that she was glad the week was
  3839. nearly done. Hoping to impress the lesson more deeply, Mrs. March, who
  3840. had a good deal of humor, resolved to finish off the trial in an
  3841. appropriate manner, so she gave Hannah a holiday and let the girls
  3842. enjoy the full effect of the play system.
  3843. When they got up on Saturday morning, there was no fire in the kitchen,
  3844. no breakfast in the dining room, and no mother anywhere to be seen.
  3845. "Mercy on us! What has happened?" cried Jo, staring about her in
  3846. dismay.
  3847. Meg ran upstairs and soon came back again, looking relieved but rather
  3848. bewildered, and a little ashamed.
  3849. "Mother isn't sick, only very tired, and she says she is going to stay
  3850. quietly in her room all day and let us do the best we can. It's a very
  3851. queer thing for her to do, she doesn't act a bit like herself. But she
  3852. says it has been a hard week for her, so we mustn't grumble but take
  3853. care of ourselves."
  3854. "That's easy enough, and I like the idea, I'm aching for something to
  3855. do, that is, some new amusement, you know," added Jo quickly.
  3856. In fact it was an immense relief to them all to have a little work, and
  3857. they took hold with a will, but soon realized the truth of Hannah's
  3858. saying, "Housekeeping ain't no joke." There was plenty of food in the
  3859. larder, and while Beth and Amy set the table, Meg and Jo got breakfast,
  3860. wondering as they did why servants ever talked about hard work.
  3861. "I shall take some up to Mother, though she said we were not to think
  3862. of her, for she'd take care of herself," said Meg, who presided and
  3863. felt quite matronly behind the teapot.
  3864. So a tray was fitted out before anyone began, and taken up with the
  3865. cook's compliments. The boiled tea was very bitter, the omelet
  3866. scorched, and the biscuits speckled with saleratus, but Mrs. March
  3867. received her repast with thanks and laughed heartily over it after Jo
  3868. was gone.
  3869. "Poor little souls, they will have a hard time, I'm afraid, but they
  3870. won't suffer, and it will do them good," she said, producing the more
  3871. palatable viands with which she had provided herself, and disposing of
  3872. the bad breakfast, so that their feelings might not be hurt, a motherly
  3873. little deception for which they were grateful.
  3874. Many were the complaints below, and great the chagrin of the head cook
  3875. at her failures. "Never mind, I'll get the dinner and be servant, you
  3876. be mistress, keep your hands nice, see company, and give orders," said
  3877. Jo, who knew still less than Meg about culinary affairs.
  3878. This obliging offer was gladly accepted, and Margaret retired to the
  3879. parlor, which she hastily put in order by whisking the litter under the
  3880. sofa and shutting the blinds to save the trouble of dusting. Jo, with
  3881. perfect faith in her own powers and a friendly desire to make up the
  3882. quarrel, immediately put a note in the office, inviting Laurie to
  3883. dinner.
  3884. "You'd better see what you have got before you think of having
  3885. company," said Meg, when informed of the hospitable but rash act.
  3886. "Oh, there's corned beef and plenty of potatoes, and I shall get some
  3887. asparagus and a lobster, 'for a relish', as Hannah says. We'll have
  3888. lettuce and make a salad. I don't know how, but the book tells. I'll
  3889. have blanc mange and strawberries for dessert, and coffee too, if you
  3890. want to be elegant."
  3891. "Don't try too many messes, Jo, for you can't make anything but
  3892. gingerbread and molasses candy fit to eat. I wash my hands of the
  3893. dinner party, and since you have asked Laurie on your own
  3894. responsibility, you may just take care of him."
  3895. "I don't want you to do anything but be civil to him and help to the
  3896. pudding. You'll give me your advice if I get in a muddle, won't you?"
  3897. asked Jo, rather hurt.
  3898. "Yes, but I don't know much, except about bread and a few trifles. You
  3899. had better ask Mother's leave before you order anything," returned Meg
  3900. prudently.
  3901. "Of course I shall. I'm not a fool." And Jo went off in a huff at the
  3902. doubts expressed of her powers.
  3903. "Get what you like, and don't disturb me. I'm going out to dinner and
  3904. can't worry about things at home," said Mrs. March, when Jo spoke to
  3905. her. "I never enjoyed housekeeping, and I'm going to take a vacation
  3906. today, and read, write, go visiting, and amuse myself."
  3907. The unusual spectacle of her busy mother rocking comfortably and
  3908. reading early in the morning made Jo feel as if some unnatural
  3909. phenomenon had occurred, for an eclipse, an earthquake, or a volcanic
  3910. eruption would hardly have seemed stranger.
  3911. "Everything is out of sorts, somehow," she said to herself, going
  3912. downstairs. "There's Beth crying, that's a sure sign that something is
  3913. wrong in this family. If Amy is bothering, I'll shake her."
  3914. Feeling very much out of sorts herself, Jo hurried into the parlor to
  3915. find Beth sobbing over Pip, the canary, who lay dead in the cage with
  3916. his little claws pathetically extended, as if imploring the food for
  3917. want of which he had died.
  3918. "It's all my fault, I forgot him, there isn't a seed or a drop left.
  3919. Oh, Pip! Oh, Pip! How could I be so cruel to you?" cried Beth, taking
  3920. the poor thing in her hands and trying to restore him.
  3921. Jo peeped into his half-open eye, felt his little heart, and finding
  3922. him stiff and cold, shook her head, and offered her domino box for a
  3923. coffin.
  3924. "Put him in the oven, and maybe he will get warm and revive," said Amy
  3925. hopefully.
  3926. "He's been starved, and he shan't be baked now he's dead. I'll make
  3927. him a shroud, and he shall be buried in the garden, and I'll never have
  3928. another bird, never, my Pip! for I am too bad to own one," murmured
  3929. Beth, sitting on the floor with her pet folded in her hands.
  3930. "The funeral shall be this afternoon, and we will all go. Now, don't
  3931. cry, Bethy. It's a pity, but nothing goes right this week, and Pip has
  3932. had the worst of the experiment. Make the shroud, and lay him in my
  3933. box, and after the dinner party, we'll have a nice little funeral,"
  3934. said Jo, beginning to feel as if she had undertaken a good deal.
  3935. Leaving the others to console Beth, she departed to the kitchen, which
  3936. was in a most discouraging state of confusion. Putting on a big apron,
  3937. she fell to work and got the dishes piled up ready for washing, when
  3938. she discovered that the fire was out.
  3939. "Here's a sweet prospect!" muttered Jo, slamming the stove door open,
  3940. and poking vigorously among the cinders.
  3941. Having rekindled the fire, she thought she would go to market while the
  3942. water heated. The walk revived her spirits, and flattering herself
  3943. that she had made good bargains, she trudged home again, after buying a
  3944. very young lobster, some very old asparagus, and two boxes of acid
  3945. strawberries. By the time she got cleared up, the dinner arrived and
  3946. the stove was red-hot. Hannah had left a pan of bread to rise, Meg had
  3947. worked it up early, set it on the hearth for a second rising, and
  3948. forgotten it. Meg was entertaining Sallie Gardiner in the parlor, when
  3949. the door flew open and a floury, crocky, flushed, and disheveled figure
  3950. appeared, demanding tartly...
  3951. "I say, isn't bread 'riz' enough when it runs over the pans?"
  3952. Sallie began to laugh, but Meg nodded and lifted her eyebrows as high
  3953. as they would go, which caused the apparition to vanish and put the
  3954. sour bread into the oven without further delay. Mrs. March went out,
  3955. after peeping here and there to see how matters went, also saying a
  3956. word of comfort to Beth, who sat making a winding sheet, while the dear
  3957. departed lay in state in the domino box. A straLanguage cannot describe
  3958. nge sense of
  3959. helplessness fell upon the girls as the gray bonnet vanished round the
  3960. corner, and despair seized them when a few minutes later Miss Crocker
  3961. appeared, and said she'd come to dinner. Now this lady was a thin,
  3962. yellow spinster, with a sharp nose and inquisitive eyes, who saw
  3963. everything and gossiped about all she saw. They disliked her, but had
  3964. been taught to be kind to her, simply because she was old and poor and
  3965. had few friends. So Meg gave her the easy chair and tried to entertain
  3966. her, while she asked questions, criticized everything, and told stories
  3967. of the people whom she knew.
  3968. Language cannot describe the anxieties, experiences, and exertions
  3969. which Jo underwent that morning, and the dinner she served up became a
  3970. standing joke. Fearing to ask any more advice, she did her best alone,
  3971. and discovered that something more than energy and good will is
  3972. necessary to make a cook. She boiled the asparagus for an hour and was
  3973. grieved to find the heads cooked off and the stalks harder than ever.
  3974. The bread burned black; for the salad dressing so aggravated her that
  3975. she could not make it fit to eat. The lobster was a scarlet mystery to
  3976. her, but she hammered and poked till it was unshelled and its meager
  3977. proportions concealed in a grove of lettuce leaves. The potatoes had
  3978. to be hurried, not to keep the asparagus waiting, and were not done at
  3979. the last. The blanc mange was lumpy, and the strawberries not as ripe
  3980. as they looked, having been skilfully 'deaconed'.
  3981. "Well, they can eat beef and bread and butter, if they are hungry, only
  3982. it's mortifying to have to spend your whole morning for nothing,"
  3983. thought Jo, as she rang the bell half an hour later than usual, and
  3984. stood, hot, tired, and dispirited, surveying the feast spread before
  3985. Laurie, accustomed to all sorts of elegance, and Miss Crocker, whose
  3986. tattling tongue would report them far and wide.
  3987. Poor Jo would gladly have gone under the table, as one thing after
  3988. another was tasted and left, while Amy giggled, Meg looked distressed,
  3989. Miss Crocker pursed her lips, and Laurie talked and laughed with all
  3990. his might to give a cheerful tone to the festive scene. Jo's one
  3991. strong point was the fruit, for she had sugared it well, and had a
  3992. pitcher of rich cream to eat with it. Her hot cheeks cooled a trifle,
  3993. and she drew a long breath as the pretty glass plates went round, and
  3994. everyone looked graciously at the little rosy islands floating in a sea
  3995. of cream. Miss Crocker tasted first, made a wry face, and drank some
  3996. water hastily. Jo, who refused, thinking there might not be enough,
  3997. for they dwindled sadly after the picking over, glanced at Laurie, but
  3998. he was eating away manfully, though there was a slight pucker about his
  3999. mouth and he kept his eye fixed on his plate. Amy, who was fond of
  4000. delicate fare, took a heaping spoonful, choked, hid her face in her
  4001. napkin, and left the table precipitately.
  4002. "Oh, what is it?" exclaimed Jo, trembling.
  4003. "Salt instead of sugar, and the cream is sour," replied Meg with a
  4004. tragic gesture.
  4005. Jo uttered a groan and fell back in her chair, remembering that she had
  4006. given a last hasty powdering to the berries out of one of the two boxes
  4007. on the kitchen table, and had neglected to put the milk in the
  4008. refrigerator. She turned scarlet and was on the verge of crying, when
  4009. she met Laurie's eyes, which would look merry in spite of his heroic
  4010. efforts. The comical side of the affair suddenly struck her, and she
  4011. laughed till the tears ran down her cheeks. So did everyone else, even
  4012. 'Croaker' as the girls called the old lady, and the unfortunate dinner
  4013. ended gaily, with bread and butter, olives and fun.
  4014. "I haven't strength of mind enough to clear up now, so we will sober
  4015. ourselves with a funeral," said Jo, as they rose, and Miss Crocker made
  4016. ready to go, being eager to tell the new story at another friend's
  4017. dinner table.
  4018. They did sober themselves for Beth's sake. Laurie dug a grave under
  4019. the ferns in the grove, little Pip was laid in, with many tears by his
  4020. tender-hearted mistress, and covered with moss, while a wreath of
  4021. violets and chickweed was hung on the stone which bore his epitaph,
  4022. composed by Jo while she struggled with the dinner.
  4023. Here lies Pip March,
  4024. Who died the 7th of June;
  4025. Loved and lamented sore,
  4026. And not forgotten soon.
  4027. At the conclusion of the ceremonies, Beth retired to her room, overcome
  4028. with emotion and lobster, but there was no place of repose, for the
  4029. beds were not made, and she found her grief much assuaged by beating up
  4030. the pillows and putting things in order. Meg helped Jo clear away the
  4031. remains of the feast, which took half the afternoon and left them so
  4032. tired that they agreed to be contented with tea and toast for supper.
  4033. Laurie took Amy to drive, which was a deed of charity, for the sour
  4034. cream seemed to have had a bad effect upon her temper. Mrs. March came
  4035. home to find the three older girls hard at work in the middle of the
  4036. afternoon, and a glance at the closet gave her an idea of the success
  4037. of one part of the experiment.
  4038. Before the housewives could rest, several people called, and there was
  4039. a scramble to get ready to see them. Then tea must be got, errands
  4040. done, and one or two necessary bits of sewing neglected until the last
  4041. minute. As twilight fell, dewy and still, one by one they gathered on
  4042. the porch where the June roses were budding beautifully, and each
  4043. groaned or sighed as she sat down, as if tired or troubled.
  4044. "What a dreadful day this has been!" began Jo, usually the first to
  4045. speak.
  4046. "It has seemed shorter than usual, but so uncomfortable," said Meg.
  4047. "Not a bit like home," added Amy.
  4048. "It can't seem so without Marmee and little Pip," sighed Beth, glancing
  4049. with full eyes at the empty cage above her head.
  4050. "Here's Mother, dear, and you shall have another bird tomorrow, if you
  4051. want it."
  4052. As she spoke, Mrs. March came and took her place among them, looking as
  4053. if her holiday had not been much pleasanter than theirs.
  4054. "Are you satisfied with your experiment, girls, or do you want another
  4055. week of it?" she asked, as Beth nestled up to her and the rest turned
  4056. toward her with brightening faces, as flowers turn toward the sun.
  4057. "I don't!" cried Jo decidedly.
  4058. "Nor I," echoed the others.
  4059. "You think then, that it is better to have a few duties and live a
  4060. little for others, do you?"
  4061. "Lounging and larking doesn't pay," observed Jo, shaking her head. "I'm
  4062. tired of it and mean to go to work at something right off."
  4063. "Suppose you learn plain cooking. That's a useful accomplishment,
  4064. which no woman should be without," said Mrs. March, laughing inaudibly
  4065. at the recollection of Jo's dinner party, for she had met Miss Crocker
  4066. and heard her account of it.
  4067. "Mother, did you go away and let everything be, just to see how we'd
  4068. get on?" cried Meg, who had had suspicions all day.
  4069. "Yes, I wanted you to see how the comfort of all depends on each doing
  4070. her share faithfully. While Hannah and I did your work, you got on
  4071. pretty well, though I don't think you were very happy or amiable. So I
  4072. thought, as a little lesson, I would show you what happens when
  4073. everyone thinks only of herself. Don't you feel that it is pleasanter
  4074. to help one another, to have daily duties which make leisure sweet when
  4075. it comes, and to bear and forbear, that home may be comfortable and
  4076. lovely to us all?"
  4077. "We do, Mother, we do!" cried the girls.
  4078. "Then let me advise you to take up your little burdens again, for
  4079. though they seem heavy sometimes, they are good for us, and lighten as
  4080. we learn to carry them. Work is wholesome, and there is plenty for
  4081. everyone. It keeps us from ennui and mischief, is good for health and
  4082. spirits, and gives us a sense of power and independence better than
  4083. money or fashion."
  4084. "We'll work like bees, and love it too, see if we don't," said Jo.
  4085. "I'll learn plain cooking for my holiday task, and the next dinner
  4086. party I have shall be a success."
  4087. "I'll make the set of shirts for father, instead of letting you do it,
  4088. Marmee. I can and I will, though I'm not fond of sewing. That will be
  4089. better than fussing over my own things, which are plenty nice enough as
  4090. they are." said Meg.
  4091. "I'll do my lessons every day, and not spend so much time with my music
  4092. and dolls. I am a stupid thing, and ought to be studying, not
  4093. playing," was Beth's resolution, while Amy followed their example by
  4094. heroically declaring, "I shall learn to make buttonholes, and attend to
  4095. my parts of speech."
  4096. "Very good! Then I am quite satisfied with the experiment, and fancy
  4097. that we shall not have to repeat it, only don't go to the other extreme
  4098. and delve like slaves. Have regular hours for work and play, make each
  4099. day both useful and pleasant, and prove that you understand the worth
  4100. of time by employing it well. Then youth will be delightful, old age
  4101. will bring few regrets, and life become a beautiful success, in spite
  4102. of poverty."
  4103. "We'll remember, Mother!" and they did.
  4104. CHAPTER TWELVE
  4105. CAMP LAURENCE
  4106. Beth was postmistress, for, being most at home, she could attend to it
  4107. regularly, and dearly liked the daily task of unlocking the little door
  4108. and distributing the mail. One July day she came in with her hands
  4109. full, and went about the house leaving letters and parcels like the
  4110. penny post.
  4111. "Here's your posy, Mother! Laurie never forgets that," she said,
  4112. putting the fresh nosegay in the vase that stood in 'Marmee's corner',
  4113. and was kept supplied by the affectionate boy.
  4114. "Miss Meg March, one letter and a glove," continued Beth, delivering
  4115. the articles to her sister, who sat near her mother, stitching
  4116. wristbands.
  4117. "Why, I left a pair over there, and here is only one," said Meg,
  4118. looking at the gray cotton glove. "Didn't you drop the other in the
  4119. garden?"
  4120. "No, I'm sure I didn't, for there was only one in the office."
  4121. "I hate to have odd gloves! Never mind, the other may be found. My
  4122. letter is only a translation of the German song I wanted. I think Mr.
  4123. Brooke did it, for this isn't Laurie's writing."
  4124. Mrs. March glanced at Meg, who was looking very pretty in her gingham
  4125. morning gown, with the little curls blowing about her forehead, and
  4126. very womanly, as she sat sewing at her little worktable, full of tidy
  4127. white rolls, so unconscious of the thought in her mother's mind as she
  4128. sewed and sang, while her fingers flew and her thoughts were busied
  4129. with girlish fancies as innocent and fresh as the pansies in her belt,
  4130. that Mrs. March smiled and was satisfied.
  4131. "Two letters for Doctor Jo, a book, and a funny old hat, which covered
  4132. the whole post office and stuck outside," said Beth, laughing as she
  4133. went into the study where Jo sat writing.
  4134. "What a sly fellow Laurie is! I said I wished bigger hats were the
  4135. fashion, because I burn my face every hot day. He said, 'Why mind the
  4136. fashion? Wear a big hat, and be comfortable!' I said I would if I had
  4137. one, and he has sent me this, to try me. I'll wear it for fun, and
  4138. show him I don't care for the fashion." And hanging the antique
  4139. broad-brim on a bust of Plato, Jo read her letters.
  4140. One from her mother made her cheeks glow and her eyes fill, for it said
  4141. to her...
  4142. My Dear:
  4143. I write a little word to tell you with how much satisfaction I watch
  4144. your efforts to control your temper. You say nothing about your
  4145. trials, failures, or successes, and think, perhaps, that no one sees
  4146. them but the Friend whose help you daily ask, if I may trust the
  4147. well-worn cover of your guidebook. I, too, have seen them all, and
  4148. heartily believe in the sincerity of your resolution, since it begins
  4149. to bear fruit. Go on, dear, patiently and bravely, and always believe
  4150. that no one sympathizes more tenderly with you than your loving...
  4151. Mother
  4152. "That does me good! That's worth millions of money and pecks of
  4153. praise. Oh, Marmee, I do try! I will keep on trying, and not get
  4154. tired, since I have you to help me."
  4155. Laying her head on her arms, Jo wet her little romance with a few happy
  4156. tears, for she had thought that no one saw and appreciated her efforts
  4157. to be good, and this assurance was doubly precious, doubly encouraging,
  4158. because unexpected and from the person whose commendation she most
  4159. valued. Feeling stronger than ever to meet and subdue her Apollyon,
  4160. she pinned the note inside her frock, as a shield and a reminder, lest
  4161. she be taken unaware, and proceeded to open her other letter, quite
  4162. ready for either good or bad news. In a big, dashing hand, Laurie
  4163. wrote...
  4164. Dear Jo, What ho!
  4165. Some English girls and boys are coming to see me tomorrow and I want to
  4166. have a jolly time. If it's fine, I'm going to pitch my tent in
  4167. Longmeadow, and row up the whole crew to lunch and croquet--have a
  4168. fire, make messes, gypsy fashion, and all sorts of larks. They are
  4169. nice people, and like such things. Brooke will go to keep us boys
  4170. steady, and Kate Vaughn will play propriety for the girls. I want you
  4171. all to come, can't let Beth off at any price, and nobody shall worry
  4172. her. Don't bother about rations, I'll see to that and everything else,
  4173. only do come, there's a good fellow!
  4174. In a tearing hurry, Yours ever, Laurie.
  4175. "Here's richness!" cried Jo, flying in to tell the news to Meg.
  4176. "Of course we can go, Mother? It will be such a help to Laurie, for I
  4177. can row, and Meg see to the lunch, and the children be useful in some
  4178. way."
  4179. "I hope the Vaughns are not fine grown-up people. Do you know anything
  4180. about them, Jo?" asked Meg.
  4181. "Only that there are four of them. Kate is older than you, Fred and
  4182. Frank (twins) about my age, and a little girl (Grace), who is nine or
  4183. ten. Laurie knew them abroad, and liked the boys. I fancied, from the
  4184. way he primmed up his mouth in speaking of her, that he didn't admire
  4185. Kate much."
  4186. "I'm so glad my French print is clean, it's just the thing and so
  4187. becoming!" observed Meg complacently. "Have you anything decent, Jo?"
  4188. "Scarlet and gray boating suit, good enough for me. I shall row and
  4189. tramp about, so I don't want any starch to think of. You'll come,
  4190. Betty?"
  4191. "If you won't let any boys talk to me."
  4192. "Not a boy!"
  4193. "I like to please Laurie, and I'm not afraid of Mr. Brooke, he is so
  4194. kind. But I don't want to play, or sing, or say anything. I'll work
  4195. hard and not trouble anyone, and you'll take care of me, Jo, so I'll
  4196. go."
  4197. "That's my good girl. You do try to fight off your shyness, and I love
  4198. you for it. Fighting faults isn't easy, as I know, and a cheery word
  4199. kind of gives a lift. Thank you, Mother," And Jo gave the thin cheek a
  4200. grateful kiss, more precious to Mrs. March than if it had given back
  4201. the rosy roundness of her youth.
  4202. "I had a box of chocolate drops, and the picture I wanted to copy,"
  4203. said Amy, showing her mail.
  4204. "And I got a note from Mr. Laurence, asking me to come over and play to
  4205. him tonight, before the lamps are lighted, and I shall go," added Beth,
  4206. whose friendship with the old gentleman prospered finely.
  4207. "Now let's fly round, and do double duty today, so that we can play
  4208. tomorrow with free minds," said Jo, preparing to replace her pen with a
  4209. broom.
  4210. When the sun peeped into the girls' room early next morning to promise
  4211. them a fine day, he saw a comical sight. Each had made such
  4212. preparation for the fete as seemed necessary and proper. Meg had an
  4213. extra row of little curlpapers across her forehead, Jo had copiously
  4214. anointed her afflicted face with cold cream, Beth had taken Joanna to
  4215. bed with her to atone for the approaching separation, and Amy had
  4216. capped the climax by putting a clothespin on her nose to uplift the
  4217. offending feature. It was one of the kind artists use to hold the
  4218. paper on their drawing boards, therefore quite appropriate and
  4219. effective for the purpose it was now being put. This funny spectacle
  4220. appeared to amuse the sun, for he burst out with such radiance that Jo
  4221. woke up and roused her sisters by a hearty laugh at Amy's ornament.
  4222. Sunshine and laughter were good omens for a pleasure party, and soon a
  4223. lively bustle began in both houses. Beth, who was ready first, kept
  4224. reporting what went on next door, and enlivened her sisters' toilets by
  4225. frequent telegrams from the window.
  4226. "There goes the man with the tent! I see Mrs. Barker doing up the
  4227. lunch in a hamper and a great basket. Now Mr. Laurence is looking up
  4228. at the sky and the weathercock. I wish he would go too. There's
  4229. Laurie, looking like a sailor, nice boy! Oh, mercy me! Here's a
  4230. carriage full of people, a tall lady, a little girl, and two dreadful
  4231. boys. One is lame, poor thing, he's got a crutch. Laurie didn't tell
  4232. us that. Be quick, girls! It's getting late. Why, there is Ned
  4233. Moffat, I do declare. Meg, isn't that the man who bowed to you one day
  4234. when we were shopping?"
  4235. "So it is. How queer that he should come. I thought he was at the
  4236. mountains. There is Sallie. I'm glad she got back in time. Am I all
  4237. right, Jo?" cried Meg in a flutter.
  4238. "A regular daisy. Hold up your dress and put your hat on straight, it
  4239. looks sentimental tipped that way and will fly off at the first puff.
  4240. Now then, come on!"
  4241. "Oh, Jo, you are not going to wear that awful hat? It's too absurd!
  4242. You shall not make a guy of yourself," remonstrated Meg, as Jo tied
  4243. down with a red ribbon the broad-brimmed, old-fashioned leghorn Laurie
  4244. had sent for a joke.
  4245. "I just will, though, for it's capital, so shady, light, and big. It
  4246. will make fun, and I don't mind being a guy if I'm comfortable." With
  4247. that Jo marched straight away and the rest followed, a bright little
  4248. band of sisters, all looking their best in summer suits, with happy
  4249. faces under the jaunty hatbrims.
  4250. Laurie ran to meet and present them to his friends in the most cordial
  4251. manner. The lawn was the reception room, and for several minutes a
  4252. lively scene was enacted there. Meg was grateful to see that Miss
  4253. Kate, though twenty, was dressed with a simplicity which American girls
  4254. would do well to imitate, and who was much flattered by Mr. Ned's
  4255. assurances that he came especially to see her. Jo understood why
  4256. Laurie 'primmed up his mouth' when speaking of Kate, for that young
  4257. lady had a standoff-don't-touch-me air, which contrasted strongly with
  4258. the free and easy demeanor of the other girls. Beth took an
  4259. observation of the new boys and decided that the lame one was not
  4260. 'dreadful', but gentle and feeble, and she would be kind to him on that
  4261. account. Amy found Grace a well-mannered, merry, little person, and
  4262. after staring dumbly at one another for a few minutes, they suddenly
  4263. became very good friends.
  4264. Tents, lunch, and croquet utensils having been sent on beforehand, the
  4265. party was soon embarked, and the two boats pushed off together, leaving
  4266. Mr. Laurence waving his hat on the shore. Laurie and Jo rowed one
  4267. boat, Mr. Brooke and Ned the other, while Fred Vaughn, the riotous
  4268. twin, did his best to upset both by paddling about in a wherry like a
  4269. disturbed water bug. Jo's funny hat deserved a vote of thanks, for it
  4270. was of general utility. It broke the ice in the beginning by producing
  4271. a laugh, it created quite a refreshing breeze, flapping to and fro as
  4272. she rowed, and would make an excellent umbrella for the whole party, if
  4273. a shower came up, she said. Miss Kate decided that she was 'odd', but
  4274. rather clever, and smiled upon her from afar.
  4275. Meg, in the other boat, was delightfully situated, face to face with
  4276. the rowers, who both admired the prospect and feathered their oars with
  4277. uncommon 'skill and dexterity'. Mr. Brooke was a grave, silent young
  4278. man, with handsome brown eyes and a pleasant voice. Meg liked his
  4279. quiet manners and considered him a walking encyclopedia of useful
  4280. knowledge. He never talked to her much, but he looked at her a good
  4281. deal, and she felt sure that he did not regard her with aversion. Ned,
  4282. being in college, of course put on all the airs which freshmen think it
  4283. their bounden duty to assume. He was not very wise, but very
  4284. good-natured, and altogether an excellent person to carry on a picnic.
  4285. Sallie Gardiner was absorbed in keeping her white pique dress clean and
  4286. chattering with the ubiquitous Fred, who kept Beth in constant terror
  4287. by his pranks.
  4288. It was not far to Longmeadow, but the tent was pitched and the wickets
  4289. down by the time they arrived. A pleasant green field, with three
  4290. wide-spreading oaks in the middle and a smooth strip of turf for
  4291. croquet.
  4292. "Welcome to Camp Laurence!" said the young host, as they landed with
  4293. exclamations of delight.
  4294. "Brooke is commander in chief, I am commissary general, the other
  4295. fellows are staff officers, and you, ladies, are company. The tent is
  4296. for your especial benefit and that oak is your drawing room, this is
  4297. the messroom and the third is the camp kitchen. Now, let's have a game
  4298. before it gets hot, and then we'll see about dinner."
  4299. Frank, Beth, Amy, and Grace sat down to watch the game played by the
  4300. other eight. Mr. Brooke chose Meg, Kate, and Fred. Laurie took Sallie,
  4301. Jo, and Ned. The English played well, but the Americans played better,
  4302. and contested every inch of the ground as strongly as if the spirit of
  4303. '76 inspired them. Jo and Fred had several skirmishes and once
  4304. narrowly escaped high words. Jo was through the last wicket and had
  4305. missed the stroke, which failure ruffled her a good deal. Fred was
  4306. close behind her and his turn came before hers. He gave a stroke, his
  4307. ball hit the wicket, and stopped an inch on the wrong side. No one was
  4308. very near, and running up to examine, he gave it a sly nudge with his
  4309. toe, which put it just an inch on the right side.
  4310. "I'm through! Now, Miss Jo, I'll settle you, and get in first," cried
  4311. the young gentleman, swinging his mallet for another blow.
  4312. "You pushed it. I saw you. It's my turn now," said Jo sharply.
  4313. "Upon my word, I didn't move it. It rolled a bit, perhaps, but that is
  4314. allowed. So, stand off please, and let me have a go at the stake."
  4315. "We don't cheat in America, but you can, if you choose," said Jo
  4316. angrily.
  4317. "Yankees are a deal the most tricky, everybody knows. There you go!"
  4318. returned Fred, croqueting her ball far away.
  4319. Jo opened her lips to say something rude, but checked herself in time,
  4320. colored up to her forehead and stood a minute, hammering down a wicket
  4321. with all her might, while Fred hit the stake and declared himself out
  4322. with much exultation. She went off to get her ball, and was a long
  4323. time finding it among the bushes, but she came back, looking cool and
  4324. quiet, and waited her turn patiently. It took several strokes to
  4325. regain the place she had lost, and when she got there, the other side
  4326. had nearly won, for Kate's ball was the last but one and lay near the
  4327. stake.
  4328. "By George, it's all up with us! Goodbye, Kate. Miss Jo owes me one,
  4329. so you are finished," cried Fred excitedly, as they all drew near to
  4330. see the finish.
  4331. "Yankees have a trick of being generous to their enemies," said Jo,
  4332. with a look that made the lad redden, "especially when they beat them,"
  4333. she added, as, leaving Kate's ball untouched, she won the game by a
  4334. clever stroke.
  4335. Laurie threw up his hat, then remembered that it wouldn't do to exult
  4336. over the defeat of his guests, and stopped in the middle of the cheer
  4337. to whisper to his friend, "Good for you, Jo! He did cheat, I saw him.
  4338. We can't tell him so, but he won't do it again, take my word for it."
  4339. Meg drew her aside, under pretense of pinning up a loose braid, and
  4340. said approvingly, "It was dreadfully provoking, but you kept your
  4341. temper, and I'm so glad, Jo."
  4342. "Don't praise me, Meg, for I could box his ears this minute. I should
  4343. certainly have boiled over if I hadn't stayed among the nettles till I
  4344. got my rage under control enough to hold my tongue. It's simmering now,
  4345. so I hope he'll keep out of my way," returned Jo, biting her lips as
  4346. she glowered at Fred from under her big hat.
  4347. "Time for lunch," said Mr. Brooke, looking at his watch. "Commissary
  4348. general, will you make the fire and get water, while Miss March, Miss
  4349. Sallie, and I spread the table? Who can make good coffee?"
  4350. "Jo can," said Meg, glad to recommend her sister. So Jo, feeling that
  4351. her late lessons in cookery were to do her honor, went to preside over
  4352. the coffeepot, while the children collected dry sticks, and the boys
  4353. made a fire and got water from a spring near by. Miss Kate sketched
  4354. and Frank talked to Beth, who was making little mats of braided rushes
  4355. to serve as plates.
  4356. The commander in chief and his aides soon spread the tablecloth with an
  4357. inviting array of eatables and drinkables, prettily decorated with
  4358. green leaves. Jo announced that the coffee was ready, and everyone
  4359. settled themselves to a hearty meal, for youth is seldom dyspeptic, and
  4360. exercise develops wholesome appetites. A very merry lunch it was, for
  4361. everything seemed fresh and funny, and frequent peals of laughter
  4362. startled a venerable horse who fed near by. There was a pleasing
  4363. inequality in the table, which produced many mishaps to cups and
  4364. plates, acorns dropped in the milk, little black ants partook of the
  4365. refreshments without being invited, and fuzzy caterpillars swung down
  4366. from the tree to see what was going on. Three white-headed children
  4367. peeped over the fence, and an objectionable dog barked at them from the
  4368. other side of the river with all his might and main.
  4369. "There's salt here," said Laurie, as he handed Jo a saucer of berries.
  4370. "Thank you, I prefer spiders," she replied, fishing up two unwary
  4371. little ones who had gone to a creamy death. "How dare you remind me of
  4372. that horrid dinner party, when yours is so nice in every way?" added
  4373. Jo, as they both laughed and ate out of one plate, the china having run
  4374. short.
  4375. "I had an uncommonly good time that day, and haven't got over it yet.
  4376. This is no credit to me, you know, I don't do anything. It's you and
  4377. Meg and Brooke who make it all go, and I'm no end obliged to you. What
  4378. shall we do when we can't eat anymore?" asked Laurie, feeling that his
  4379. trump card had been played when lunch was over.
  4380. "Have games till it's cooler. I brought Authors, and I dare say Miss
  4381. Kate knows something new and nice. Go and ask her. She's company, and
  4382. you ought to stay with her more."
  4383. "Aren't you company too? I thought she'd suit Brooke, but he keeps
  4384. talking to Meg, and Kate just stares at them through that ridiculous
  4385. glass of hers. I'm going, so you needn't try to preach propriety, for
  4386. you can't do it, Jo."
  4387. Miss Kate did know several new games, and as the girls would not, and
  4388. the boys could not, eat any more, they all adjourned to the drawing
  4389. room to play Rig-marole.
  4390. "One person begins a story, any nonsense you like, and tells as long as
  4391. he pleases, only taking care to stop short at some exciting point, when
  4392. the next takes it up and does the same. It's very funny when well
  4393. done, and makes a perfect jumble of tragical comical stuff to laugh
  4394. over. Please start it, Mr. Brooke," said Kate, with a commanding air,
  4395. which surprised Meg, who treated the tutor with as much respect as any
  4396. other gentleman.
  4397. Lying on the grass at the feet of the two young ladies, Mr. Brooke
  4398. obediently began the story, with the handsome brown eyes steadily fixed
  4399. upon the sunshiny river.
  4400. "Once on a time, a knight went out into the world to seek his fortune,
  4401. for he had nothing but his sword and his shield. He traveled a long
  4402. while, nearly eight-and-twenty years, and had a hard time of it, till
  4403. he came to the palace of a good old king, who had offered a reward to
  4404. anyone who could tame and train a fine but unbroken colt, of which he
  4405. was very fond. The knight agreed to try, and got on slowly but surely,
  4406. for the colt was a gallant fellow, and soon learned to love his new
  4407. master, though he was freakish and wild. Every day, when he gave his
  4408. lessons to this pet of the king's, the knight rode him through the
  4409. city, and as he rode, he looked everywhere for a certain beautiful
  4410. face, which he had seen many times in his dreams, but never found. One
  4411. day, as he went prancing down a quiet street, he saw at the window of a
  4412. ruinous castle the lovely face. He was delighted, inquired who lived
  4413. in this old castle, and was told that several captive princesses were
  4414. kept there by a spell, and spun all day to lay up money to buy their
  4415. liberty. The knight wished intensely that he could free them, but he
  4416. was poor and could only go by each day, watching for the sweet face and
  4417. longing to see it out in the sunshine. At last he resolved to get into
  4418. the castle and ask how he could help them. He went and knocked. The
  4419. great door flew open, and he beheld..."
  4420. "A ravishingly lovely lady, who exclaimed, with a cry of rapture, 'At
  4421. last! At last!'" continued Kate, who had read French novels, and
  4422. admired the style. "'Tis she!' cried Count Gustave, and fell at her
  4423. feet in an ecstasy of joy. 'Oh, rise!' she said, extending a hand of
  4424. marble fairness. 'Never! Till you tell me how I may rescue you,' swore
  4425. the knight, still kneeling. 'Alas, my cruel fate condemns me to remain
  4426. here till my tyrant is destroyed.' 'Where is the villain?' 'In the
  4427. mauve salon. Go, brave heart, and save me from despair.' 'I obey, and
  4428. return victorious or dead!' With these thrilling words he rushed away,
  4429. and flinging open the door of the mauve salon, was about to enter, when
  4430. he received..."
  4431. "A stunning blow from the big Greek lexicon, which an old fellow in a
  4432. black gown fired at him," said Ned. "Instantly, Sir What's-his-name
  4433. recovered himself, pitched the tyrant out of the window, and turned to
  4434. join the lady, victorious, but with a bump on his brow, found the door
  4435. locked, tore up the curtains, made a rope ladder, got halfway down when
  4436. the ladder broke, and he went headfirst into the moat, sixty feet
  4437. below. Could swim like a duck, paddled round the castle till he came
  4438. to a little door guarded by two stout fellows, knocked their heads
  4439. together till they cracked like a couple of nuts, then, by a trifling
  4440. exertion of his prodigious strength, he smashed in the door, went up a
  4441. pair of stone steps covered with dust a foot thick, toads as big as
  4442. your fist, and spiders that would frighten you into hysterics, Miss
  4443. March. At the top of these steps he came plump upon a sight that took
  4444. his breath away and chilled his blood..."
  4445. "A tall figure, all in white with a veil over its face and a lamp in
  4446. its wasted hand," went on Meg. "It beckoned, gliding noiselessly
  4447. before him down a corridor as dark and cold as any tomb. Shadowy
  4448. effigies in armor stood on either side, a dead silence reigned, the
  4449. lamp burned blue, and the ghostly figure ever and anon turned its face
  4450. toward him, showing the glitter of awful eyes through its white veil.
  4451. They reached a curtained door, behind which sounded lovely music. He
  4452. sprang forward to enter, but the specter plucked him back, and waved
  4453. threateningly before him a..."
  4454. "Snuffbox," said Jo, in a sepulchral tone, which convulsed the
  4455. audience. "'Thankee,' said the knight politely, as he took a pinch and
  4456. sneezed seven times so violently that his head fell off. 'Ha! Ha!'
  4457. laughed the ghost, and having peeped through the keyhole at the
  4458. princesses spinning away for dear life, the evil spirit picked up her
  4459. victim and put him in a large tin box, where there were eleven other
  4460. knights packed together without their heads, like sardines, who all
  4461. rose and began to..."
  4462. "Dance a hornpipe," cut in Fred, as Jo paused for breath, "and, as they
  4463. danced, the rubbishy old castle turned to a man-of-war in full sail.
  4464. 'Up with the jib, reef the tops'l halliards, helm hard alee, and man
  4465. the guns!' roared the captain, as a Portuguese pirate hove in sight,
  4466. with a flag black as ink flying from her foremast. 'Go in and win, my
  4467. hearties!' says the captain, and a tremendous fight began. Of course
  4468. the British beat--they always do."
  4469. "No, they don't!" cried Jo, aside.
  4470. "Having taken the pirate captain prisoner, sailed slap over the
  4471. schooner, whose decks were piled high with dead and whose lee scuppers
  4472. ran blood, for the order had been 'Cutlasses, and die hard!' 'Bosun's
  4473. mate, take a bight of the flying-jib sheet, and start this villain if
  4474. he doesn't confess his sins double quick,' said the British captain.
  4475. The Portuguese held his tongue like a brick, and walked the plank,
  4476. while the jolly tars cheered like mad. But the sly dog dived, came up
  4477. under the man-of-war, scuttled her, and down she went, with all sail
  4478. set, 'To the bottom of the sea, sea, sea' where..."
  4479. "Oh, gracious! What shall I say?" cried Sallie, as Fred ended his
  4480. rigmarole, in which he had jumbled together pell-mell nautical phrases
  4481. and facts out of one of his favorite books. "Well, they went to the
  4482. bottom, and a nice mermaid welcomed them, but was much grieved on
  4483. finding the box of headless knights, and kindly pickled them in brine,
  4484. hoping to discover the mystery about them, for being a woman, she was
  4485. curious. By-and-by a diver came down, and the mermaid said, 'I'll give
  4486. you a box of pearls if you can take it up,' for she wanted to restore
  4487. the poor things to life, and couldn't raise the heavy load herself. So
  4488. the diver hoisted it up, and was much disappointed on opening it to
  4489. find no pearls. He left it in a great lonely field, where it was found
  4490. by a..."
  4491. "Little goose girl, who kept a hundred fat geese in the field," said
  4492. Amy, when Sallie's invention gave out. "The little girl was sorry for
  4493. them, and asked an old woman what she should do to help them. 'Your
  4494. geese will tell you, they know everything.' said the old woman. So she
  4495. asked what she should use for new heads, since the old ones were lost,
  4496. and all the geese opened their hundred mouths and screamed..."
  4497. "'Cabbages!'" continued Laurie promptly. "'Just the thing,' said the
  4498. girl, and ran to get twelve fine ones from her garden. She put them on,
  4499. the knights revived at once, thanked her, and went on their way
  4500. rejoicing, never knowing the difference, for there were so many other
  4501. heads like them in the world that no one thought anything of it. The
  4502. knight in whom I'm interested went back to find the pretty face, and
  4503. learned that the princesses had spun themselves free and all gone and
  4504. married, but one. He was in a great state of mind at that, and
  4505. mounting the colt, who stood by him through thick and thin, rushed to
  4506. the castle to see which was left. Peeping over the hedge, he saw the
  4507. queen of his affections picking flowers in her garden. 'Will you give
  4508. me a rose?' said he. 'You must come and get it. I can't come to you,
  4509. it isn't proper,' said she, as sweet as honey. He tried to climb over
  4510. the hedge, but it seemed to grow higher and higher. Then he tried to
  4511. push through, but it grew thicker and thicker, and he was in despair.
  4512. So he patiently broke twig after twig till he had made a little hole
  4513. through which he peeped, saying imploringly, 'Let me in! Let me in!'
  4514. But the pretty princess did not seem to understand, for she picked her
  4515. roses quietly, and left him to fight his way in. Whether he did or
  4516. not, Frank will tell you."
  4517. "I can't. I'm not playing, I never do," said Frank, dismayed at the
  4518. sentimental predicament out of which he was to rescue the absurd
  4519. couple. Beth had disappeared behind Jo, and Grace was asleep.
  4520. "So the poor knight is to be left sticking in the hedge, is he?" asked
  4521. Mr. Brooke, still watching the river, and playing with the wild rose in
  4522. his buttonhole.
  4523. "I guess the princess gave him a posy, and opened the gate after a
  4524. while," said Laurie, smiling to himself, as he threw acorns at his
  4525. tutor.
  4526. "What a piece of nonsense we have made! With practice we might do
  4527. something quite clever. Do you know Truth?"
  4528. "I hope so," said Meg soberly.
  4529. "The game, I mean?"
  4530. "What is it?" said Fred.
  4531. "Why, you pile up your hands, choose a number, and draw out in turn,
  4532. and the person who draws at the number has to answer truly any question
  4533. put by the rest. It's great fun."
  4534. "Let's try it," said Jo, who liked new experiments.
  4535. Miss Kate and Mr. Brooke, Meg, and Ned declined, but Fred, Sallie, Jo,
  4536. and Laurie piled and drew, and the lot fell to Laurie.
  4537. "Who are your heroes?" asked Jo.
  4538. "Grandfather and Napoleon."
  4539. "Which lady here do you think prettiest?" said Sallie.
  4540. "Margaret."
  4541. "Which do you like best?" from Fred.
  4542. "Jo, of course."
  4543. "What silly questions you ask!" And Jo gave a disdainful shrug as the
  4544. rest laughed at Laurie's matter-of-fact tone.
  4545. "Try again. Truth isn't a bad game," said Fred.
  4546. "It's a very good one for you," retorted Jo in a low voice. Her turn
  4547. came next.
  4548. "What is your greatest fault?" asked Fred, by way of testing in her the
  4549. virtue he lacked himself.
  4550. "A quick temper."
  4551. "What do you most wish for?" said Laurie.
  4552. "A pair of boot lacings," returned Jo, guessing and defeating his
  4553. purpose.
  4554. "Not a true answer. You must say what you really do want most."
  4555. "Genius. Don't you wish you could give it to me, Laurie?" And she
  4556. slyly smiled in his disappointed face.
  4557. "What virtues do you most admire in a man?" asked Sallie.
  4558. "Courage and honesty."
  4559. "Now my turn," said Fred, as his hand came last.
  4560. "Let's give it to him," whispered Laurie to Jo, who nodded and asked at
  4561. once...
  4562. "Didn't you cheat at croquet?"
  4563. "Well, yes, a little bit."
  4564. "Good! Didn't you take your story out of _The Sea Lion?_" said Laurie.
  4565. "Rather."
  4566. "Don't you think the English nation perfect in every respect?" asked
  4567. Sallie.
  4568. "I should be ashamed of myself if I didn't."
  4569. "He's a true John Bull. Now, Miss Sallie, you shall have a chance
  4570. without waiting to draw. I'll harrrow up your feelings first by asking
  4571. if you don't think you are something of a flirt," said Laurie, as Jo
  4572. nodded to Fred as a sign that peace was declared.
  4573. "You impertinent boy! Of course I'm not," exclaimed Sallie, with an
  4574. air that proved the contrary.
  4575. "What do you hate most?" asked Fred.
  4576. "Spiders and rice pudding."
  4577. "What do you like best?" asked Jo.
  4578. "Dancing and French gloves."
  4579. "Well, I think Truth is a very silly play. Let's have a sensible game
  4580. of Authors to refresh our minds," proposed Jo.
  4581. Ned, Frank, and the little girls joined in this, and while it went on,
  4582. the three elders sat apart, talking. Miss Kate took out her sketch
  4583. again, and Margaret watched her, while Mr. Brooke lay on the grass with
  4584. a book, which he did not read.
  4585. "How beautifully you do it! I wish I could draw," said Meg, with
  4586. mingled admiration and regret in her voice.
  4587. "Why don't you learn? I should think you had taste and talent for it,"
  4588. replied Miss Kate graciously.
  4589. "I haven't time."
  4590. "Your mamma prefers other accomplishments, I fancy. So did mine, but I
  4591. proved to her that I had talent by taking a few lessons privately, and
  4592. then she was quite willing I should go on. Can't you do the same with
  4593. your governess?"
  4594. "I have none."
  4595. "I forgot young ladies in America go to school more than with us. Very
  4596. fine schools they are, too, Papa says. You go to a private one, I
  4597. suppose?"
  4598. "I don't go at all. I am a governess myself."
  4599. "Oh, indeed!" said Miss Kate, but she might as well have said, "Dear
  4600. me, how dreadful!" for her tone implied it, and something in her face
  4601. made Meg color, and wish she had not been so frank.
  4602. Mr. Brooke looked up and said quickly, "Young ladies in America love
  4603. independence as much as their ancestors did, and are admired and
  4604. respected for supporting themselves."
  4605. "Oh, yes, of course it's very nice and proper in them to do so. We
  4606. have many most respectable and worthy young women who do the same and
  4607. are employed by the nobility, because, being the daughters of
  4608. gentlemen, they are both well bred and accomplished, you know," said
  4609. Miss Kate in a patronizing tone that hurt Meg's pride, and made her
  4610. work seem not only more distasteful, but degrading.
  4611. "Did the German song suit, Miss March?" inquired Mr. Brooke, breaking
  4612. an awkward pause.
  4613. "Oh, yes! It was very sweet, and I'm much obliged to whoever
  4614. translated it for me." And Meg's downcast face brightened as she spoke.
  4615. "Don't you read German?" asked Miss Kate with a look of surprise.
  4616. "Not very well. My father, who taught me, is away, and I don't get on
  4617. very fast alone, for I've no one to correct my pronunciation."
  4618. "Try a little now. Here is Schiller's Mary Stuart and a tutor who
  4619. loves to teach." And Mr. Brooke laid his book on her lap with an
  4620. inviting smile.
  4621. "It's so hard I'm afraid to try," said Meg, grateful, but bashful in
  4622. the presence of the accomplished young lady beside her.
  4623. "I'll read a bit to encourage you." And Miss Kate read one of the most
  4624. beautiful passages in a perfectly correct but perfectly expressionless
  4625. manner.
  4626. Mr. Brooke made no comment as she returned the book to Meg, who said
  4627. innocently, "I thought it was poetry."
  4628. "Some of it is. Try this passage."
  4629. There was a queer smile about Mr. Brooke's mouth as he opened at poor
  4630. Mary's lament.
  4631. Meg obediently following the long grass-blade which her new tutor used
  4632. to point with, read slowly and timidly, unconsciously making poetry of
  4633. the hard words by the soft intonation of her musical voice. Down the
  4634. page went the green guide, and presently, forgetting her listener in
  4635. the beauty of the sad scene, Meg read as if alone, giving a little
  4636. touch of tragedy to the words of the unhappy queen. If she had seen
  4637. the brown eyes then, she would have stopped short, but she never looked
  4638. up, and the lesson was not spoiled for her.
  4639. "Very well indeed!" said Mr. Brooke, as she paused, quite ignoring her
  4640. many mistakes, and looking as if he did indeed love to teach.
  4641. Miss Kate put up her glass, and, having taken a survey of the little
  4642. tableau before her, shut her sketch book, saying with condescension,
  4643. "You've a nice accent and in time will be a clever reader. I advise
  4644. you to learn, for German is a valuable accomplishment to teachers. I
  4645. must look after Grace, she is romping." And Miss Kate strolled away,
  4646. adding to herself with a shrug, "I didn't come to chaperone a
  4647. governess, though she is young and pretty. What odd people these
  4648. Yankees are. I'm afraid Laurie will be quite spoiled among them."
  4649. "I forgot that English people rather turn up their noses at governesses
  4650. and don't treat them as we do," said Meg, looking after the retreating
  4651. figure with an annoyed expression.
  4652. "Tutors also have rather a hard time of it there, as I know to my
  4653. sorrow. There's no place like America for us workers, Miss Margaret."
  4654. And Mr. Brooke looked so contented and cheerful that Meg was ashamed to
  4655. lament her hard lot.
  4656. "I'm glad I live in it then. I don't like my work, but I get a good
  4657. deal of satisfaction out of it after all, so I won't complain. I only
  4658. wished I liked teaching as you do."
  4659. "I think you would if you had Laurie for a pupil. I shall be very
  4660. sorry to lose him next year," said Mr. Brooke, busily punching holes in
  4661. the turf.
  4662. "Going to college, I suppose?" Meg's lips asked the question, but her
  4663. eyes added, "And what becomes of you?"
  4664. "Yes, it's high time he went, for he is ready, and as soon as he is
  4665. off, I shall turn soldier. I am needed."
  4666. "I am glad of that!" exclaimed Meg. "I should think every young man
  4667. would want to go, though it is hard for the mothers and sisters who
  4668. stay at home," she added sorrowfully.
  4669. "I have neither, and very few friends to care whether I live or die,"
  4670. said Mr. Brooke rather bitterly as he absently put the dead rose in the
  4671. hole he had made and covered it up, like a little grave.
  4672. "Laurie and his grandfather would care a great deal, and we should all
  4673. be very sorry to have any harm happen to you," said Meg heartily.
  4674. "Thank you, that sounds pleasant," began Mr. Brooke, looking cheerful
  4675. again, but before he could finish his speech, Ned, mounted on the old
  4676. horse, came lumbering up to display his equestrian skill before the
  4677. young ladies, and there was no more quiet that day.
  4678. "Don't you love to ride?" asked Grace of Amy, as they stood resting
  4679. after a race round the field with the others, led by Ned.
  4680. "I dote upon it. My sister, Meg, used to ride when Papa was rich, but
  4681. we don't keep any horses now, except Ellen Tree," added Amy, laughing.
  4682. "Tell me about Ellen Tree. Is it a donkey?" asked Grace curiously.
  4683. "Why, you see, Jo is crazy about horses and so am I, but we've only got
  4684. an old sidesaddle and no horse. Out in our garden is an apple tree
  4685. that has a nice low branch, so Jo put the saddle on it, fixed some
  4686. reins on the part that turns up, and we bounce away on Ellen Tree
  4687. whenever we like."
  4688. "How funny!" laughed Grace. "I have a pony at home, and ride nearly
  4689. every day in the park with Fred and Kate. It's very nice, for my
  4690. friends go too, and the Row is full of ladies and gentlemen."
  4691. "Dear, how charming! I hope I shall go abroad some day, but I'd rather
  4692. go to Rome than the Row," said Amy, who had not the remotest idea what
  4693. the Row was and wouldn't have asked for the world.
  4694. Frank, sitting just behind the little girls, heard what they were
  4695. saying, and pushed his crutch away from him with an impatient gesture
  4696. as he watched the active lads going through all sorts of comical
  4697. gymnastics. Beth, who was collecting the scattered Author cards,
  4698. looked up and said, in her shy yet friendly way, "I'm afraid you are
  4699. tired. Can I do anything for you?"
  4700. "Talk to me, please. It's dull, sitting by myself," answered Frank,
  4701. who had evidently been used to being made much of at home.
  4702. If he asked her to deliver a Latin oration, it would not have seemed a
  4703. more impossible task to bashful Beth, but there was no place to run to,
  4704. no Jo to hide behind now, and the poor boy looked so wistfully at her
  4705. that she bravely resolved to try.
  4706. "What do you like to talk about?" she asked, fumbling over the cards
  4707. and dropping half as she tried to tie them up.
  4708. "Well, I like to hear about cricket and boating and hunting," said
  4709. Frank, who had not yet learned to suit his amusements to his strength.
  4710. My heart! What shall I do? I don't know anything about them, thought
  4711. Beth, and forgetting the boy's misfortune in her flurry, she said,
  4712. hoping to make him talk, "I never saw any hunting, but I suppose you
  4713. know all about it."
  4714. "I did once, but I can never hunt again, for I got hurt leaping a
  4715. confounded five-barred gate, so there are no more horses and hounds for
  4716. me," said Frank with a sigh that made Beth hate herself for her
  4717. innocent blunder.
  4718. "Your deer are much prettier than our ugly buffaloes," she said,
  4719. turning to the prairies for help and feeling glad that she had read one
  4720. of the boys' books in which Jo delighted.
  4721. Buffaloes proved soothing and satisfactory, and in her eagerness to
  4722. amuse another, Beth forgot herself, and was quite unconscious of her
  4723. sisters' surprise and delight at the unusual spectacle of Beth talking
  4724. away to one of the dreadful boys, against whom she had begged
  4725. protection.
  4726. "Bless her heart! She pities him, so she is good to him," said Jo,
  4727. beaming at her from the croquet ground.
  4728. "I always said she was a little saint," added Meg, as if there could be
  4729. no further doubt of it.
  4730. "I haven't heard Frank laugh so much for ever so long," said Grace to
  4731. Amy, as they sat discussing dolls and making tea sets out of the acorn
  4732. cups.
  4733. "My sister Beth is a very fastidious girl, when she likes to be," said
  4734. Amy, well pleased at Beth's success. She meant 'facinating', but as
  4735. Grace didn't know the exact meaning of either word, fastidious sounded
  4736. well and made a good impression.
  4737. An impromptu circus, fox and geese, and an amicable game of croquet
  4738. finished the afternoon. At sunset the tent was struck, hampers packed,
  4739. wickets pulled up, boats loaded, and the whole party floated down the
  4740. river, singing at the tops of their voices. Ned, getting sentimental,
  4741. warbled a serenade with the pensive refrain...
  4742. Alone, alone, ah! Woe, alone,
  4743. and at the lines...
  4744. We each are young, we each have a heart,
  4745. Oh, why should we stand thus coldly apart?
  4746. he looked at Meg with such a lackadiasical expression that she laughed
  4747. outright and spoiled his song.
  4748. "How can you be so cruel to me?" he whispered, under cover of a lively
  4749. chorus. "You've kept close to that starched-up Englishwoman all day,
  4750. and now you snub me."
  4751. "I didn't mean to, but you looked so funny I really couldn't help it,"
  4752. replied Meg, passing over the first part of his reproach, for it was
  4753. quite true that she had shunned him, remembering the Moffat party and
  4754. the talk after it.
  4755. Ned was offended and turned to Sallie for consolation, saying to her
  4756. rather pettishly, "There isn't a bit of flirt in that girl, is there?"
  4757. "Not a particle, but she's a dear," returned Sallie, defending her
  4758. friend even while confessing her shortcomings.
  4759. "She's not a stricken deer anyway," said Ned, trying to be witty, and
  4760. succeeding as well as very young gentlemen usually do.
  4761. On the lawn where it had gathered, the little party separated with
  4762. cordial good nights and good-byes, for the Vaughns were going to Canada.
  4763. As the four sisters went home through the garden, Miss Kate looked
  4764. after them, saying, without the patronizing tone in her voice, "In
  4765. spite of their demonstrative manners, American girls are very nice when
  4766. one knows them."
  4767. "I quite agree with you," said Mr. Brooke.
  4768. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  4769. CASTLES IN THE AIR
  4770. Laurie lay luxuriously swinging to and fro in his hammock one warm
  4771. September afternoon, wondering what his neighbors were about, but too
  4772. lazy to go and find out. He was in one of his moods, for the day had
  4773. been both unprofitable and unsatisfactory, and he was wishing he could
  4774. live it over again. The hot weather made him indolent, and he had
  4775. shirked his studies, tried Mr. Brooke's patience to the utmost,
  4776. displeased his grandfather by practicing half the afternoon, frightened
  4777. the maidservants half out of their wits by mischievously hinting that
  4778. one of his dogs was going mad, and, after high words with the stableman
  4779. about some fancied neglect of his horse, he had flung himself into his
  4780. hammock to fume over the stupidity of the world in general, till the
  4781. peace of the lovely day quieted him in spite of himself. Staring up
  4782. into the green gloom of the horse-chestnut trees above him, he dreamed
  4783. dreams of all sorts, and was just imagining himself tossing on the
  4784. ocean in a voyage round the world, when the sound of voices brought him
  4785. ashore in a flash. Peeping through the meshes of the hammock, he saw
  4786. the Marches coming out, as if bound on some expedition.
  4787. "What in the world are those girls about now?" thought Laurie, opening
  4788. his sleepy eyes to take a good look, for there was something rather
  4789. peculiar in the appearance of his neighbors. Each wore a large,
  4790. flapping hat, a brown linen pouch slung over one shoulder, and carried
  4791. a long staff. Meg had a cushion, Jo a book, Beth a basket, and Amy a
  4792. portfolio. All walked quietly through the garden, out at the little
  4793. back gate, and began to climb the hill that lay between the house and
  4794. river.
  4795. "Well, that's cool," said Laurie to himself, "to have a picnic and
  4796. never ask me! They can't be going in the boat, for they haven't got
  4797. the key. Perhaps they forgot it. I'll take it to them, and see what's
  4798. going on."
  4799. Though possessed of half a dozen hats, it took him some time to find
  4800. one, then there was a hunt for the key, which was at last discovered in
  4801. his pocket, so that the girls were quite out of sight when he leaped
  4802. the fence and ran after them. Taking the shortest way to the
  4803. boathouse, he waited for them to appear, but no one came, and he went
  4804. up the hill to take an observation. A grove of pines covered one part
  4805. of it, and from the heart of this green spot came a clearer sound than
  4806. the soft sigh of the pines or the drowsy chirp of the crickets.
  4807. "Here's a landscape!" thought Laurie, peeping through the bushes, and
  4808. looking wide-awake and good-natured already.
  4809. It was a rather pretty little picture, for the sisters sat together in
  4810. the shady nook, with sun and shadow flickering over them, the aromatic
  4811. wind lifting their hair and cooling their hot cheeks, and all the
  4812. little wood people going on with their affairs as if these were no
  4813. strangers but old friends. Meg sat upon her cushion, sewing daintily
  4814. with her white hands, and looking as fresh and sweet as a rose in her
  4815. pink dress among the green. Beth was sorting the cones that lay thick
  4816. under the hemlock near by, for she made pretty things with them. Amy
  4817. was sketching a group of ferns, and Jo was knitting as she read aloud.
  4818. A shadow passed over the boy's face as he watched them, feeling that he
  4819. ought to go away because uninvited; yet lingering because home seemed
  4820. very lonely and this quiet party in the woods most attractive to his
  4821. restless spirit. He stood so still that a squirrel, busy with its
  4822. harvesting, ran down a pine close beside him, saw him suddenly and
  4823. skipped back, scolding so shrilly that Beth looked up, espied the
  4824. wistful face behind the birches, and beckoned with a reassuring smile.
  4825. "May I come in, please? Or shall I be a bother?" he asked, advancing
  4826. slowly.
  4827. Meg lifted her eyebrows, but Jo scowled at her defiantly and said at
  4828. once, "Of course you may. We should have asked you before, only we
  4829. thought you wouldn't care for such a girl's game as this."
  4830. "I always like your games, but if Meg doesn't want me, I'll go away."
  4831. "I've no objection, if you do something. It's against the rules to be
  4832. idle here," replied Meg gravely but graciously.
  4833. "Much obliged. I'll do anything if you'll let me stop a bit, for it's
  4834. as dull as the Desert of Sahara down there. Shall I sew, read, cone,
  4835. draw, or do all at once? Bring on your bears. I'm ready." And Laurie
  4836. sat down with a submissive expression delightful to behold.
  4837. "Finish this story while I set my heel," said Jo, handing him the book.
  4838. "Yes'm." was the meek answer, as he began, doing his best to prove his
  4839. gratitude for the favor of admission into the 'Busy Bee Society'.
  4840. The story was not a long one, and when it was finished, he ventured to
  4841. ask a few questions as a reward of merit.
  4842. "Please, ma'am, could I inquire if this highly instructive and charming
  4843. institution is a new one?"
  4844. "Would you tell him?" asked Meg of her sisters.
  4845. "He'll laugh," said Amy warningly.
  4846. "Who cares?" said Jo.
  4847. "I guess he'll like it," added Beth.
  4848. "Of course I shall! I give you my word I won't laugh. Tell away, Jo,
  4849. and don't be afraid."
  4850. "The idea of being afraid of you! Well, you see we used to play
  4851. Pilgrim's Progress, and we have been going on with it in earnest, all
  4852. winter and summer."
  4853. "Yes, I know," said Laurie, nodding wisely.
  4854. "Who told you?" demanded Jo.
  4855. "Spirits."
  4856. "No, I did. I wanted to amuse him one night when you were all away,
  4857. and he was rather dismal. He did like it, so don't scold, Jo," said
  4858. Beth meekly.
  4859. "You can't keep a secret. Never mind, it saves trouble now."
  4860. "Go on, please," said Laurie, as Jo became absorbed in her work,
  4861. looking a trifle displeased.
  4862. "Oh, didn't she tell you about this new plan of ours? Well, we have
  4863. tried not to waste our holiday, but each has had a task and worked at
  4864. it with a will. The vacation is nearly over, the stints are all done,
  4865. and we are ever so glad that we didn't dawdle."
  4866. "Yes, I should think so," and Laurie thought regretfully of his own
  4867. idle days.
  4868. "Mother likes to have us out-of-doors as much as possible, so we bring
  4869. our work here and have nice times. For the fun of it we bring our
  4870. things in these bags, wear the old hats, use poles to climb the hill,
  4871. and play pilgrims, as we used to do years ago. We call this hill the
  4872. Delectable Mountain, for we can look far away and see the country where
  4873. we hope to live some time."
  4874. Jo pointed, and Laurie sat up to examine, for through an opening in the
  4875. wood one could look cross the wide, blue river, the meadows on the
  4876. other side, far over the outskirts of the great city, to the green
  4877. hills that rose to meet the sky. The sun was low, and the heavens
  4878. glowed with the splendor of an autumn sunset. Gold and purple clouds
  4879. lay on the hilltops, and rising high into the ruddy light were silvery
  4880. white peaks that shone like the airy spires of some Celestial City.
  4881. "How beautiful that is!" said Laurie softly, for he was quick to see
  4882. and feel beauty of any kind.
  4883. "It's often so, and we like to watch it, for it is never the same, but
  4884. always splendid," replied Amy, wishing she could paint it.
  4885. "Jo talks about the country where we hope to live sometime--the real
  4886. country, she means, with pigs and chickens and haymaking. It would be
  4887. nice, but I wish the beautiful country up there was real, and we could
  4888. ever go to it," said Beth musingly.
  4889. "There is a lovelier country even than that, where we shall go,
  4890. by-and-by, when we are good enough," answered Meg with her sweetest
  4891. voice.
  4892. "It seems so long to wait, so hard to do. I want to fly away at once,
  4893. as those swallows fly, and go in at that splendid gate."
  4894. "You'll get there, Beth, sooner or later, no fear of that," said Jo.
  4895. "I'm the one that will have to fight and work, and climb and wait, and
  4896. maybe never get in after all."
  4897. "You'll have me for company, if that's any comfort. I shall have to do
  4898. a deal of traveling before I come in sight of your Celestial City. If
  4899. I arrive late, you'll say a good word for me, won't you, Beth?"
  4900. Something in the boy's face troubled his little friend, but she said
  4901. cheerfully, with her quiet eyes on the changing clouds, "If people
  4902. really want to go, and really try all their lives, I think they will
  4903. get in, for I don't believe there are any locks on that door or any
  4904. guards at the gate. I always imagine it is as it is in the picture,
  4905. where the shining ones stretch out their hands to welcome poor
  4906. Christian as he comes up from the river."
  4907. "Wouldn't it be fun if all the castles in the air which we make could
  4908. come true, and we could live in them?" said Jo, after a little pause.
  4909. "I've made such quantities it would be hard to choose which I'd have,"
  4910. said Laurie, lying flat and throwing cones at the squirrel who had
  4911. betrayed him.
  4912. "You'd have to take your favorite one. What is it?" asked Meg.
  4913. "If I tell mine, will you tell yours?"
  4914. "Yes, if the girls will too."
  4915. "We will. Now, Laurie."
  4916. "After I'd seen as much of the world as I want to, I'd like to settle
  4917. in Germany and have just as much music as I choose. I'm to be a famous
  4918. musician myself, and all creation is to rush to hear me. And I'm never
  4919. to be bothered about money or business, but just enjoy myself and live
  4920. for what I like. That's my favorite castle. What's yours, Meg?"
  4921. Margaret seemed to find it a little hard to tell hers, and waved a
  4922. brake before her face, as if to disperse imaginary gnats, while she
  4923. said slowly, "I should like a lovely house, full of all sorts of
  4924. luxurious things--nice food, pretty clothes, handsome furniture,
  4925. pleasant people, and heaps of money. I am to be mistress of it, and
  4926. manage it as I like, with plenty of servants, so I never need work a
  4927. bit. How I should enjoy it! For I wouldn't be idle, but do good, and
  4928. make everyone love me dearly."
  4929. "Wouldn't you have a master for your castle in the air?" asked Laurie
  4930. slyly.
  4931. "I said 'pleasant people', you know," and Meg carefully tied up her
  4932. shoe as she spoke, so that no one saw her face.
  4933. "Why don't you say you'd have a splendid, wise, good husband and some
  4934. angelic little children? You know your castle wouldn't be perfect
  4935. without," said blunt Jo, who had no tender fancies yet, and rather
  4936. scorned romance, except in books.
  4937. "You'd have nothing but horses, inkstands, and novels in yours,"
  4938. answered Meg petulantly.
  4939. "Wouldn't I though? I'd have a stable full of Arabian steeds, rooms
  4940. piled high with books, and I'd write out of a magic inkstand, so that
  4941. my works should be as famous as Laurie's music. I want to do something
  4942. splendid before I go into my castle, something heroic or wonderful that
  4943. won't be forgotten after I'm dead. I don't know what, but I'm on the
  4944. watch for it, and mean to astonish you all some day. I think I shall
  4945. write books, and get rich and famous, that would suit me, so that is my
  4946. favorite dream."
  4947. "Mine is to stay at home safe with Father and Mother, and help take
  4948. care of the family," said Beth contentedly.
  4949. "Don't you wish for anything else?" asked Laurie.
  4950. "Since I had my little piano, I am perfectly satisfied. I only wish we
  4951. may all keep well and be together, nothing else."
  4952. "I have ever so many wishes, but the pet one is to be an artist, and go
  4953. to Rome, and do fine pictures, and be the best artist in the whole
  4954. world," was Amy's modest desire.
  4955. "We're an ambitious set, aren't we? Every one of us, but Beth, wants
  4956. to be rich and famous, and gorgeous in every respect. I do wonder if
  4957. any of us will ever get our wishes," said Laurie, chewing grass like a
  4958. meditative calf.
  4959. "I've got the key to my castle in the air, but whether I can unlock the
  4960. door remains to be seen," observed Jo mysteriously.
  4961. "I've got the key to mine, but I'm not allowed to try it. Hang
  4962. college!" muttered Laurie with an impatient sigh.
  4963. "Here's mine!" and Amy waved her pencil.
  4964. "I haven't got any," said Meg forlornly.
  4965. "Yes, you have," said Laurie at once.
  4966. "Where?"
  4967. "In your face."
  4968. "Nonsense, that's of no use."
  4969. "Wait and see if it doesn't bring you something worth having," replied
  4970. the boy, laughing at the thought of a charming little secret which he
  4971. fancied he knew.
  4972. Meg colored behind the brake, but asked no questions and looked across
  4973. the river with the same expectant expression which Mr. Brooke had worn
  4974. when he told the story of the knight.
  4975. "If we are all alive ten years hence, let's meet, and see how many of
  4976. us have got our wishes, or how much nearer we are then than now," said
  4977. Jo, always ready with a plan.
  4978. "Bless me! How old I shall be, twenty-seven!" exclaimed Meg, who felt
  4979. grown up already, having just reached seventeen.
  4980. "You and I will be twenty-six, Teddy, Beth twenty-four, and Amy
  4981. twenty-two. What a venerable party!" said Jo.
  4982. "I hope I shall have done something to be proud of by that time, but
  4983. I'm such a lazy dog, I'm afraid I shall dawdle, Jo."
  4984. "You need a motive, Mother says, and when you get it, she is sure
  4985. you'll work splendidly."
  4986. "Is she? By Jupiter, I will, if I only get the chance!" cried Laurie,
  4987. sitting up with sudden energy. "I ought to be satisfied to please
  4988. Grandfather, and I do try, but it's working against the grain, you see,
  4989. and comes hard. He wants me to be an India merchant, as he was, and
  4990. I'd rather be shot. I hate tea and silk and spices, and every sort of
  4991. rubbish his old ships bring, and I don't care how soon they go to the
  4992. bottom when I own them. Going to college ought to satisfy him, for if
  4993. I give him four years he ought to let me off from the business. But
  4994. he's set, and I've got to do just as he did, unless I break away and
  4995. please myself, as my father did. If there was anyone left to stay with
  4996. the old gentleman, I'd do it tomorrow."
  4997. Laurie spoke excitedly, and looked ready to carry his threat into
  4998. execution on the slightest provocation, for he was growing up very fast
  4999. and, in spite of his indolent ways, had a young man's hatred of
  5000. subjection, a young man's restless longing to try the world for himself.
  5001. "I advise you to sail away in one of your ships, and never come home
  5002. again till you have tried your own way," said Jo, whose imagination was
  5003. fired by the thought of such a daring exploit, and whose sympathy was
  5004. excited by what she called 'Teddy's Wrongs'.
  5005. "That's not right, Jo. You mustn't talk in that way, and Laurie
  5006. mustn't take your bad advice. You should do just what your grandfather
  5007. wishes, my dear boy," said Meg in her most maternal tone. "Do your best
  5008. at college, and when he sees that you try to please him, I'm sure he
  5009. won't be hard on you or unjust to you. As you say, there is no one
  5010. else to stay with and love him, and you'd never forgive yourself if you
  5011. left him without his permission. Don't be dismal or fret, but do your
  5012. duty and you'll get your reward, as good Mr. Brooke has, by being
  5013. respected and loved."
  5014. "What do you know about him?" asked Laurie, grateful for the good
  5015. advice, but objecting to the lecture, and glad to turn the conversation
  5016. from himself after his unusual outbreak.
  5017. "Only what your grandpa told us about him, how he took good care of his
  5018. own mother till she died, and wouldn't go abroad as tutor to some nice
  5019. person because he wouldn't leave her. And how he provides now for an
  5020. old woman who nursed his mother, and never tells anyone, but is just as
  5021. generous and patient and good as he can be."
  5022. "So he is, dear old fellow!" said Laurie heartily, as Meg paused,
  5023. looking flushed and earnest with her story. "It's like Grandpa to find
  5024. out all about him without letting him know, and to tell all his
  5025. goodness to others, so that they might like him. Brooke couldn't
  5026. understand why your mother was so kind to him, asking him over with me
  5027. and treating him in her beautiful friendly way. He thought she was
  5028. just perfect, and talked about it for days and days, and went on about
  5029. you all in flaming style. If ever I do get my wish, you see what I'll
  5030. do for Brooke."
  5031. "Begin to do something now by not plaguing his life out," said Meg
  5032. sharply.
  5033. "How do you know I do, Miss?"
  5034. "I can always tell by his face when he goes away. If you have been
  5035. good, he looks satisfied and walks briskly. If you have plagued him,
  5036. he's sober and walks slowly, as if he wanted to go back and do his work
  5037. better."
  5038. "Well, I like that? So you keep an account of my good and bad marks in
  5039. Brooke's face, do you? I see him bow and smile as he passes your
  5040. window, but I didn't know you'd got up a telegraph."
  5041. "We haven't. Don't be angry, and oh, don't tell him I said anything!
  5042. It was only to show that I cared how you get on, and what is said here
  5043. is said in confidence, you know," cried Meg, much alarmed at the
  5044. thought of what might follow from her careless speech.
  5045. "I don't tell tales," replied Laurie, with his 'high and mighty' air,
  5046. as Jo called a certain expression which he occasionally wore. "Only if
  5047. Brooke is going to be a thermometer, I must mind and have fair weather
  5048. for him to report."
  5049. "Please don't be offended. I didn't mean to preach or tell tales or be
  5050. silly. I only thought Jo was encouraging you in a feeling which you'd
  5051. be sorry for by-and-by. You are so kind to us, we feel as if you were
  5052. our brother and say just what we think. Forgive me, I meant it kindly."
  5053. And Meg offered her hand with a gesture both affectionate and timid.
  5054. Ashamed of his momentary pique, Laurie squeezed the kind little hand,
  5055. and said frankly, "I'm the one to be forgiven. I'm cross and have been
  5056. out of sorts all day. I like to have you tell me my faults and be
  5057. sisterly, so don't mind if I am grumpy sometimes. I thank you all the
  5058. same."
  5059. Bent on showing that he was not offended, he made himself as agreeable
  5060. as possible, wound cotton for Meg, recited poetry to please Jo, shook
  5061. down cones for Beth, and helped Amy with her ferns, proving himself a
  5062. fit person to belong to the 'Busy Bee Society'. In the midst of an
  5063. animated discussion on the domestic habits of turtles (one of those
  5064. amiable creatures having strolled up from the river), the faint sound
  5065. of a bell warned them that Hannah had put the tea 'to draw', and they
  5066. would just have time to get home to supper.
  5067. "May I come again?" asked Laurie.
  5068. "Yes, if you are good, and love your book, as the boys in the primer
  5069. are told to do," said Meg, smiling.
  5070. "I'll try."
  5071. "Then you may come, and I'll teach you to knit as the Scotchmen do.
  5072. There's a demand for socks just now," added Jo, waving hers like a big
  5073. blue worsted banner as they parted at the gate.
  5074. That night, when Beth played to Mr. Laurence in the twilight, Laurie,
  5075. standing in the shadow of the curtain, listened to the little David,
  5076. whose simple music always quieted his moody spirit, and watched the old
  5077. man, who sat with his gray head on his hand, thinking tender thoughts
  5078. of the dead child he had loved so much. Remembering the conversation of
  5079. the afternoon, the boy said to himself, with the resolve to make the
  5080. sacrifice cheerfully, "I'll let my castle go, and stay with the dear
  5081. old gentleman while he needs me, for I am all he has."
  5082. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  5083. SECRETS
  5084. Jo was very busy in the garret, for the October days began to grow
  5085. chilly, and the afternoons were short. For two or three hours the sun
  5086. lay warmly in the high window, showing Jo seated on the old sofa,
  5087. writing busily, with her papers spread out upon a trunk before her,
  5088. while Scrabble, the pet rat, promenaded the beams overhead, accompanied
  5089. by his oldest son, a fine young fellow, who was evidently very proud of
  5090. his whiskers. Quite absorbed in her work, Jo scribbled away till the
  5091. last page was filled, when she signed her name with a flourish and
  5092. threw down her pen, exclaiming...
  5093. "There, I've done my best! If this won't suit I shall have to wait
  5094. till I can do better."
  5095. Lying back on the sofa, she read the manuscript carefully through,
  5096. making dashes here and there, and putting in many exclamation points,
  5097. which looked like little balloons. Then she tied it up with a smart
  5098. red ribbon, and sat a minute looking at it with a sober, wistful
  5099. expression, which plainly showed how earnest her work had been. Jo's
  5100. desk up here was an old tin kitchen which hung against the wall. In it
  5101. she kept her papers, and a few books, safely shut away from Scrabble,
  5102. who, being likewise of a literary turn, was fond of making a
  5103. circulating library of such books as were left in his way by eating the
  5104. leaves. From this tin receptacle Jo produced another manuscript, and
  5105. putting both in her pocket, crept quietly downstairs, leaving her
  5106. friends to nibble on her pens and taste her ink.
  5107. She put on her hat and jacket as noiselessly as possible, and going to
  5108. the back entry window, got out upon the roof of a low porch, swung
  5109. herself down to the grassy bank, and took a roundabout way to the road.
  5110. Once there, she composed herself, hailed a passing omnibus, and rolled
  5111. away to town, looking very merry and mysterious.
  5112. If anyone had been watching her, he would have thought her movements
  5113. decidedly peculiar, for on alighting, she went off at a great pace till
  5114. she reached a certain number in a certain busy street. Having found
  5115. the place with some difficulty, she went into the doorway, looked up
  5116. the dirty stairs, and after standing stock still a minute, suddenly
  5117. dived into the street and walked away as rapidly as she came. This
  5118. maneuver she repeated several times, to the great amusement of a
  5119. black-eyed young gentleman lounging in the window of a building
  5120. opposite. On returning for the third time, Jo gave herself a shake,
  5121. pulled her hat over her eyes, and walked up the stairs, looking as if
  5122. she were going to have all her teeth out.
  5123. There was a dentist's sign, among others, which adorned the entrance,
  5124. and after staring a moment at the pair of artificial jaws which slowly
  5125. opened and shut to draw attention to a fine set of teeth, the young
  5126. gentleman put on his coat, took his hat, and went down to post himself
  5127. in the opposite doorway, saying with a smile and a shiver, "It's like
  5128. her to come alone, but if she has a bad time she'll need someone to
  5129. help her home."
  5130. In ten minutes Jo came running downstairs with a very red face and the
  5131. general appearance of a person who had just passed through a trying
  5132. ordeal of some sort. When she saw the young gentleman she looked
  5133. anything but pleased, and passed him with a nod. But he followed,
  5134. asking with an air of sympathy, "Did you have a bad time?"
  5135. "Not very."
  5136. "You got through quickly."
  5137. "Yes, thank goodness!"
  5138. "Why did you go alone?"
  5139. "Didn't want anyone to know."
  5140. "You're the oddest fellow I ever saw. How many did you have out?"
  5141. Jo looked at her friend as if she did not understand him, then began to
  5142. laugh as if mightily amused at something.
  5143. "There are two which I want to have come out, but I must wait a week."
  5144. "What are you laughing at? You are up to some mischief, Jo," said
  5145. Laurie, looking mystified.
  5146. "So are you. What were you doing, sir, up in that billiard saloon?"
  5147. "Begging your pardon, ma'am, it wasn't a billiard saloon, but a
  5148. gymnasium, and I was taking a lesson in fencing."
  5149. "I'm glad of that."
  5150. "Why?"
  5151. "You can teach me, and then when we play _Hamlet_, you can be Laertes,
  5152. and we'll make a fine thing of the fencing scene."
  5153. Laurie burst out with a hearty boy's laugh, which made several
  5154. passers-by smile in spite of themselves.
  5155. "I'll teach you whether we play _Hamlet_ or not. It's grand fun and
  5156. will straighten you up capitally. But I don't believe that was your
  5157. only reason for saying 'I'm glad' in that decided way, was it now?"
  5158. "No, I was glad that you were not in the saloon, because I hope you
  5159. never go to such places. Do you?"
  5160. "Not often."
  5161. "I wish you wouldn't."
  5162. "It's no harm, Jo. I have billiards at home, but it's no fun unless
  5163. you have good players, so, as I'm fond of it, I come sometimes and have
  5164. a game with Ned Moffat or some of the other fellows."
  5165. "Oh, dear, I'm so sorry, for you'll get to liking it better and better,
  5166. and will waste time and money, and grow like those dreadful boys. I
  5167. did hope you'd stay respectable and be a satisfaction to your friends,"
  5168. said Jo, shaking her head.
  5169. "Can't a fellow take a little innocent amusement now and then without
  5170. losing his respectability?" asked Laurie, looking nettled.
  5171. "That depends upon how and where he takes it. I don't like Ned and his
  5172. set, and wish you'd keep out of it. Mother won't let us have him at
  5173. our house, though he wants to come. And if you grow like him she won't
  5174. be willing to have us frolic together as we do now."
  5175. "Won't she?" asked Laurie anxiously.
  5176. "No, she can't bear fashionable young men, and she'd shut us all up in
  5177. bandboxes rather than have us associate with them."
  5178. "Well, she needn't get out her bandboxes yet. I'm not a fashionable
  5179. party and don't mean to be, but I do like harmless larks now and then,
  5180. don't you?"
  5181. "Yes, nobody minds them, so lark away, but don't get wild, will you?
  5182. Or there will be an end of all our good times."
  5183. "I'll be a double distilled saint."
  5184. "I can't bear saints. Just be a simple, honest, respectable boy, and
  5185. we'll never desert you. I don't know what I should do if you acted
  5186. like Mr. King's son. He had plenty of money, but didn't know how to
  5187. spend it, and got tipsy and gambled, and ran away, and forged his
  5188. father's name, I believe, and was altogether horrid."
  5189. "You think I'm likely to do the same? Much obliged."
  5190. "No, I don't--oh, dear, no!--but I hear people talking about money
  5191. being such a temptation, and I sometimes wish you were poor. I
  5192. shouldn't worry then."
  5193. "Do you worry about me, Jo?"
  5194. "A little, when you look moody and discontented, as you sometimes do,
  5195. for you've got such a strong will, if you once get started wrong, I'm
  5196. afraid it would be hard to stop you."
  5197. Laurie walked in silence a few minutes, and Jo watched him, wishing she
  5198. had held her tongue, for his eyes looked angry, though his lips smiled
  5199. as if at her warnings.
  5200. "Are you going to deliver lectures all the way home?" he asked
  5201. presently.
  5202. "Of course not. Why?"
  5203. "Because if you are, I'll take a bus. If you're not, I'd like to walk
  5204. with you and tell you something very interesting."
  5205. "I won't preach any more, and I'd like to hear the news immensely."
  5206. "Very well, then, come on. It's a secret, and if I tell you, you must
  5207. tell me yours."
  5208. "I haven't got any," began Jo, but stopped suddenly, remembering that
  5209. she had.
  5210. "You know you have--you can't hide anything, so up and 'fess, or I
  5211. won't tell," cried Laurie.
  5212. "Is your secret a nice one?"
  5213. "Oh, isn't it! All about people you know, and such fun! You ought to
  5214. hear it, and I've been aching to tell it this long time. Come, you
  5215. begin."
  5216. "You'll not say anything about it at home, will you?"
  5217. "Not a word."
  5218. "And you won't tease me in private?"
  5219. "I never tease."
  5220. "Yes, you do. You get everything you want out of people. I don't know
  5221. how you do it, but you are a born wheedler."
  5222. "Thank you. Fire away."
  5223. "Well, I've left two stories with a newspaperman, and he's to give his
  5224. answer next week," whispered Jo, in her confidant's ear.
  5225. "Hurrah for Miss March, the celebrated American authoress!" cried
  5226. Laurie, throwing up his hat and catching it again, to the great delight
  5227. of two ducks, four cats, five hens, and half a dozen Irish children,
  5228. for they were out of the city now.
  5229. "Hush! It won't come to anything, I dare say, but I couldn't rest till
  5230. I had tried, and I said nothing about it because I didn't want anyone
  5231. else to be disappointed."
  5232. "It won't fail. Why, Jo, your stories are works of Shakespeare
  5233. compared to half the rubbish that is published every day. Won't it be
  5234. fun to see them in print, and shan't we feel proud of our authoress?"
  5235. Jo's eyes sparkled, for it is always pleasant to be believed in, and a
  5236. friend's praise is always sweeter than a dozen newspaper puffs.
  5237. "Where's your secret? Play fair, Teddy, or I'll never believe you
  5238. again," she said, trying to extinguish the brilliant hopes that blazed
  5239. up at a word of encouragement.
  5240. "I may get into a scrape for telling, but I didn't promise not to, so I
  5241. will, for I never feel easy in my mind till I've told you any plummy
  5242. bit of news I get. I know where Meg's glove is."
  5243. "Is that all?" said Jo, looking disappointed, as Laurie nodded and
  5244. twinkled with a face full of mysterious intelligence.
  5245. "It's quite enough for the present, as you'll agree when I tell you
  5246. where it is."
  5247. "Tell, then."
  5248. Laurie bent, and whispered three words in Jo's ear, which produced a
  5249. comical change. She stood and stared at him for a minute, looking both
  5250. surprised and displeased, then walked on, saying sharply, "How do you
  5251. know?"
  5252. "Saw it."
  5253. "Where?"
  5254. "Pocket."
  5255. "All this time?"
  5256. "Yes, isn't that romantic?"
  5257. "No, it's horrid."
  5258. "Don't you like it?"
  5259. "Of course I don't. It's ridiculous, it won't be allowed. My
  5260. patience! What would Meg say?"
  5261. "You are not to tell anyone. Mind that."
  5262. "I didn't promise."
  5263. "That was understood, and I trusted you."
  5264. "Well, I won't for the present, anyway, but I'm disgusted, and wish you
  5265. hadn't told me."
  5266. "I thought you'd be pleased."
  5267. "At the idea of anybody coming to take Meg away? No, thank you."
  5268. "You'll feel better about it when somebody comes to take you away."
  5269. "I'd like to see anyone try it," cried Jo fiercely.
  5270. "So should I!" and Laurie chuckled at the idea.
  5271. "I don't think secrets agree with me, I feel rumpled up in my mind
  5272. since you told me that," said Jo rather ungratefully.
  5273. "Race down this hill with me, and you'll be all right," suggested
  5274. Laurie.
  5275. No one was in sight, the smooth road sloped invitingly before her, and
  5276. finding the temptation irresistible, Jo darted away, soon leaving hat
  5277. and comb behind her and scattering hairpins as she ran. Laurie reached
  5278. the goal first and was quite satisfied with the success of his
  5279. treatment, for his Atlanta came panting up with flying hair, bright
  5280. eyes, ruddy cheeks, and no signs of dissatisfaction in her face.
  5281. "I wish I was a horse, then I could run for miles in this splendid air,
  5282. and not lose my breath. It was capital, but see what a guy it's made
  5283. me. Go, pick up my things, like a cherub, as you are," said Jo,
  5284. dropping down under a maple tree, which was carpeting the bank with
  5285. crimson leaves.
  5286. Laurie leisurely departed to recover the lost property, and Jo bundled
  5287. up her braids, hoping no one would pass by till she was tidy again.
  5288. But someone did pass, and who should it be but Meg, looking
  5289. particularly ladylike in her state and festival suit, for she had been
  5290. making calls.
  5291. "What in the world are you doing here?" she asked, regarding her
  5292. disheveled sister with well-bred surprise.
  5293. "Getting leaves," meekly answered Jo, sorting the rosy handful she had
  5294. just swept up.
  5295. "And hairpins," added Laurie, throwing half a dozen into Jo's lap.
  5296. "They grow on this road, Meg, so do combs and brown straw hats."
  5297. "You have been running, Jo. How could you? When will you stop such
  5298. romping ways?" said Meg reprovingly, as she settled her cuffs and
  5299. smoothed her hair, with which the wind had taken liberties.
  5300. "Never till I'm stiff and old and have to use a crutch. Don't try to
  5301. make me grow up before my time, Meg. It's hard enough to have you
  5302. change all of a sudden. Let me be a little girl as long as I can."
  5303. As she spoke, Jo bent over the leaves to hide the trembling of her
  5304. lips, for lately she had felt that Margaret was fast getting to be a
  5305. woman, and Laurie's secret made her dread the separation which must
  5306. surely come some time and now seemed very near. He saw the trouble in
  5307. her face and drew Meg's attention from it by asking quickly, "Where
  5308. have you been calling, all so fine?"
  5309. "At the Gardiners', and Sallie has been telling me all about Belle
  5310. Moffat's wedding. It was very splendid, and they have gone to spend
  5311. the winter in Paris. Just think how delightful that must be!"
  5312. "Do you envy her, Meg?" said Laurie.
  5313. "I'm afraid I do."
  5314. "I'm glad of it!" muttered Jo, tying on her hat with a jerk.
  5315. "Why?" asked Meg, looking surprised.
  5316. "Because if you care much about riches, you will never go and marry a
  5317. poor man," said Jo, frowning at Laurie, who was mutely warning her to
  5318. mind what she said.
  5319. "I shall never '_go_ and marry' anyone," observed Meg, walking on with
  5320. great dignity while the others followed, laughing, whispering, skipping
  5321. stones, and 'behaving like children', as Meg said to herself, though
  5322. she might have been tempted to join them if she had not had her best
  5323. dress on.
  5324. For a week or two, Jo behaved so queerly that her sisters were quite
  5325. bewildered. She rushed to the door when the postman rang, was rude to
  5326. Mr. Brooke whenever they met, would sit looking at Meg with a
  5327. woe-begone face, occasionally jumping up to shake and then kiss her in
  5328. a very mysterious manner. Laurie and she were always making signs to
  5329. one another, and talking about 'Spread Eagles' till the girls declared
  5330. they had both lost their wits. On the second Saturday after Jo got out
  5331. of the window, Meg, as she sat sewing at her window, was scandalized by
  5332. the sight of Laurie chasing Jo all over the garden and finally
  5333. capturing her in Amy's bower. What went on there, Meg could not see,
  5334. but shrieks of laughter were heard, followed by the murmur of voices
  5335. and a great flapping of newspapers.
  5336. "What shall we do with that girl? She never _will_ behave like a young
  5337. lady," sighed Meg, as she watched the race with a disapproving face.
  5338. "I hope she won't. She is so funny and dear as she is," said Beth, who
  5339. had never betrayed that she was a little hurt at Jo's having secrets
  5340. with anyone but her.
  5341. "It's very trying, but we never can make her _commy la fo_," added Amy,
  5342. who sat making some new frills for herself, with her curls tied up in a
  5343. very becoming way, two agreeable things that made her feel unusually
  5344. elegant and ladylike.
  5345. In a few minutes Jo bounced in, laid herself on the sofa, and affected
  5346. to read.
  5347. "Have you anything interesting there?" asked Meg, with condescension.
  5348. "Nothing but a story, won't amount to much, I guess," returned Jo,
  5349. carefully keeping the name of the paper out of sight.
  5350. "You'd better read it aloud. That will amuse us and keep you out of
  5351. mischief," said Amy in her most grown-up tone.
  5352. "What's the name?" asked Beth, wondering why Jo kept her face behind
  5353. the sheet.
  5354. "The Rival Painters."
  5355. "That sounds well. Read it," said Meg.
  5356. With a loud "Hem!" and a long breath, Jo began to read very fast. The
  5357. girls listened with interest, for the tale was romantic, and somewhat
  5358. pathetic, as most of the characters died in the end. "I like that about
  5359. the splendid picture," was Amy's approving remark, as Jo paused.
  5360. "I prefer the lovering part. Viola and Angelo are two of our favorite
  5361. names, isn't that queer?" said Meg, wiping her eyes, for the lovering
  5362. part was tragical.
  5363. "Who wrote it?" asked Beth, who had caught a glimpse of Jo's face.
  5364. The reader suddenly sat up, cast away the paper, displaying a flushed
  5365. countenance, and with a funny mixture of solemnity and excitement
  5366. replied in a loud voice, "Your sister."
  5367. "You?" cried Meg, dropping her work.
  5368. "It's very good," said Amy critically.
  5369. "I knew it! I knew it! Oh, my Jo, I am so proud!" and Beth ran to hug
  5370. her sister and exult over this splendid success.
  5371. Dear me, how delighted they all were, to be sure! How Meg wouldn't
  5372. believe it till she saw the words. "Miss Josephine March," actually
  5373. printed in the paper. How graciously Amy criticized the artistic parts
  5374. of the story, and offered hints for a sequel, which unfortunately
  5375. couldn't be carried out, as the hero and heroine were dead. How Beth
  5376. got excited, and skipped and sang with joy. How Hannah came in to
  5377. exclaim, "Sakes alive, well I never!" in great astonishment at 'that
  5378. Jo's doin's'. How proud Mrs. March was when she knew it. How Jo
  5379. laughed, with tears in her eyes, as she declared she might as well be a
  5380. peacock and done with it, and how the 'Spread Eagle' might be said to
  5381. flap his wings triumphantly over the House of March, as the paper
  5382. passed from hand to hand.
  5383. "Tell us about it." "When did it come?" "How much did you get for it?"
  5384. "What will Father say?" "Won't Laurie laugh?" cried the family, all in
  5385. one breath as they clustered about Jo, for these foolish, affectionate
  5386. people made a jubilee of every little household joy.
  5387. "Stop jabbering, girls, and I'll tell you everything," said Jo,
  5388. wondering if Miss Burney felt any grander over her Evelina than she did
  5389. over her 'Rival Painters'. Having told how she disposed of her tales,
  5390. Jo added, "And when I went to get my answer, the man said he liked them
  5391. both, but didn't pay beginners, only let them print in his paper, and
  5392. noticed the stories. It was good practice, he said, and when the
  5393. beginners improved, anyone would pay. So I let him have the two
  5394. stories, and today this was sent to me, and Laurie caught me with it
  5395. and insisted on seeing it, so I let him. And he said it was good, and
  5396. I shall write more, and he's going to get the next paid for, and I am
  5397. so happy, for in time I may be able to support myself and help the
  5398. girls."
  5399. Jo's breath gave out here, and wrapping her head in the paper, she
  5400. bedewed her little story with a few natural tears, for to be
  5401. independent and earn the praise of those she loved were the dearest
  5402. wishes of her heart, and this seemed to be the first step toward that
  5403. happy end.
  5404. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  5405. A TELEGRAM
  5406. "November is the most disagreeable month in the whole year," said
  5407. Margaret, standing at the window one dull afternoon, looking out at the
  5408. frostbitten garden.
  5409. "That's the reason I was born in it," observed Jo pensively, quite
  5410. unconscious of the blot on her nose.
  5411. "If something very pleasant should happen now, we should think it a
  5412. delightful month," said Beth, who took a hopeful view of everything,
  5413. even November.
  5414. "I dare say, but nothing pleasant ever does happen in this family,"
  5415. said Meg, who was out of sorts. "We go grubbing along day after day,
  5416. without a bit of change, and very little fun. We might as well be in a
  5417. treadmill."
  5418. "My patience, how blue we are!" cried Jo. "I don't much wonder, poor
  5419. dear, for you see other girls having splendid times, while you grind,
  5420. grind, year in and year out. Oh, don't I wish I could manage things
  5421. for you as I do for my heroines! You're pretty enough and good enough
  5422. already, so I'd have some rich relation leave you a fortune
  5423. unexpectedly. Then you'd dash out as an heiress, scorn everyone who
  5424. has slighted you, go abroad, and come home my Lady Something in a blaze
  5425. of splendor and elegance."
  5426. "People don't have fortunes left them in that style nowadays, men have
  5427. to work and women marry for money. It's a dreadfully unjust world,"
  5428. said Meg bitterly.
  5429. "Jo and I are going to make fortunes for you all. Just wait ten years,
  5430. and see if we don't," said Amy, who sat in a corner making mud pies, as
  5431. Hannah called her little clay models of birds, fruit, and faces.
  5432. "Can't wait, and I'm afraid I haven't much faith in ink and dirt,
  5433. though I'm grateful for your good intentions."
  5434. Meg sighed, and turned to the frostbitten garden again. Jo groaned and
  5435. leaned both elbows on the table in a despondent attitude, but Amy
  5436. spatted away energetically, and Beth, who sat at the other window,
  5437. said, smiling, "Two pleasant things are going to happen right away.
  5438. Marmee is coming down the street, and Laurie is tramping through the
  5439. garden as if he had something nice to tell."
  5440. In they both came, Mrs. March with her usual question, "Any letter from
  5441. Father, girls?" and Laurie to say in his persuasive way, "Won't some of
  5442. you come for a drive? I've been working away at mathematics till my
  5443. head is in a muddle, and I'm going to freshen my wits by a brisk turn.
  5444. It's a dull day, but the air isn't bad, and I'm going to take Brooke
  5445. home, so it will be gay inside, if it isn't out. Come, Jo, you and
  5446. Beth will go, won't you?"
  5447. "Of course we will."
  5448. "Much obliged, but I'm busy." And Meg whisked out her workbasket, for
  5449. she had agreed with her mother that it was best, for her at least, not
  5450. to drive too often with the young gentleman.
  5451. "We three will be ready in a minute," cried Amy, running away to wash
  5452. her hands.
  5453. "Can I do anything for you, Madam Mother?" asked Laurie, leaning over
  5454. Mrs. March's chair with the affectionate look and tone he always gave
  5455. her.
  5456. "No, thank you, except call at the office, if you'll be so kind, dear.
  5457. It's our day for a letter, and the postman hasn't been. Father is as
  5458. regular as the sun, but there's some delay on the way, perhaps."
  5459. A sharp ring interrupted her, and a minute after Hannah came in with a
  5460. letter.
  5461. "It's one of them horrid telegraph things, mum," she said, handling it
  5462. as if she was afraid it would explode and do some damage.
  5463. At the word 'telegraph', Mrs. March snatched it, read the two lines it
  5464. contained, and dropped back into her chair as white as if the little
  5465. paper had sent a bullet to her heart. Laurie dashed downstairs for
  5466. water, while Meg and Hannah supported her, and Jo read aloud, in a
  5467. frightened voice...
  5468. Mrs. March:
  5469. Your husband is very ill. Come at once.
  5470. S. HALE
  5471. Blank Hospital, Washington.
  5472. How still the room was as they listened breathlessly, how strangely the
  5473. day darkened outside, and how suddenly the whole world seemed to
  5474. change, as the girls gathered about their mother, feeling as if all the
  5475. happiness and support of their lives was about to be taken from them.
  5476. Mrs. March was herself again directly, read the message over, and
  5477. stretched out her arms to her daughters, saying, in a tone they never
  5478. forgot, "I shall go at once, but it may be too late. Oh, children,
  5479. children, help me to bear it!"
  5480. For several minutes there was nothing but the sound of sobbing in the
  5481. room, mingled with broken words of comfort, tender assurances of help,
  5482. and hopeful whispers that died away in tears. Poor Hannah was the
  5483. first to recover, and with unconscious wisdom she set all the rest a
  5484. good example, for with her, work was panacea for most afflictions.
  5485. "The Lord keep the dear man! I won't waste no time a-cryin', but git
  5486. your things ready right away, mum," she said heartily, as she wiped her
  5487. face on her apron, gave her mistress a warm shake of the hand with her
  5488. own hard one, and went away to work like three women in one.
  5489. "She's right, there's no time for tears now. Be calm, girls, and let
  5490. me think."
  5491. They tried to be calm, poor things, as their mother sat up, looking
  5492. pale but steady, and put away her grief to think and plan for them.
  5493. "Where's Laurie?" she asked presently, when she had collected her
  5494. thoughts and decided on the first duties to be done.
  5495. "Here, ma'am. Oh, let me do something!" cried the boy, hurrying from
  5496. the next room whither he had withdrawn, feeling that their first sorrow
  5497. was too sacred for even his friendly eyes to see.
  5498. "Send a telegram saying I will come at once. The next train goes early
  5499. in the morning. I'll take that."
  5500. "What else? The horses are ready. I can go anywhere, do anything," he
  5501. said, looking ready to fly to the ends of the earth.
  5502. "Leave a note at Aunt March's. Jo, give me that pen and paper."
  5503. Tearing off the blank side of one of her newly copied pages, Jo drew
  5504. the table before her mother, well knowing that money for the long, sad
  5505. journey must be borrowed, and feeling as if she could do anything to
  5506. add a little to the sum for her father.
  5507. "Now go, dear, but don't kill yourself driving at a desperate pace.
  5508. There is no need of that."
  5509. Mrs. March's warning was evidently thrown away, for five minutes later
  5510. Laurie tore by the window on his own fleet horse, riding as if for his
  5511. life.
  5512. "Jo, run to the rooms, and tell Mrs. King that I can't come. On the way
  5513. get these things. I'll put them down, they'll be needed and I must go
  5514. prepared for nursing. Hospital stores are not always good. Beth, go
  5515. and ask Mr. Laurence for a couple of bottles of old wine. I'm not too
  5516. proud to beg for Father. He shall have the best of everything. Amy,
  5517. tell Hannah to get down the black trunk, and Meg, come and help me find
  5518. my things, for I'm half bewildered."
  5519. Writing, thinking, and directing all at once might well bewilder the
  5520. poor lady, and Meg begged her to sit quietly in her room for a little
  5521. while, and let them work. Everyone scattered like leaves before a gust
  5522. of wind, and the quiet, happy household was broken up as suddenly as if
  5523. the paper had been an evil spell.
  5524. Mr. Laurence came hurrying back with Beth, bringing every comfort the
  5525. kind old gentleman could think of for the invalid, and friendliest
  5526. promises of protection for the girls during the mother's absence, which
  5527. comforted her very much. There was nothing he didn't offer, from his
  5528. own dressing gown to himself as escort. But the last was impossible.
  5529. Mrs. March would not hear of the old gentleman's undertaking the long
  5530. journey, yet an expression of relief was visible when he spoke of it,
  5531. for anxiety ill fits one for traveling. He saw the look, knit his heavy
  5532. eyebrows, rubbed his hands, and marched abruptly away, saying he'd be
  5533. back directly. No one had time to think of him again till, as Meg ran
  5534. through the entry, with a pair of rubbers in one hand and a cup of tea
  5535. in the other, she came suddenly upon Mr. Brooke.
  5536. "I'm very sorry to hear of this, Miss March," he said, in the kind,
  5537. quiet tone which sounded very pleasantly to her perturbed spirit. "I
  5538. came to offer myself as escort to your mother. Mr. Laurence has
  5539. commissions for me in Washington, and it will give me real satisfaction
  5540. to be of service to her there."
  5541. Down dropped the rubbers, and the tea was very near following, as Meg
  5542. put out her hand, with a face so full of gratitude that Mr. Brooke
  5543. would have felt repaid for a much greater sacrifice than the trifling
  5544. one of time and comfort which he was about to take.
  5545. "How kind you all are! Mother will accept, I'm sure, and it will be
  5546. such a relief to know that she has someone to take care of her. Thank
  5547. you very, very much!"
  5548. Meg spoke earnestly, and forgot herself entirely till something in the
  5549. brown eyes looking down at her made her remember the cooling tea, and
  5550. lead the way into the parlor, saying she would call her mother.
  5551. Everything was arranged by the time Laurie returned with a note from
  5552. Aunt March, enclosing the desired sum, and a few lines repeating what
  5553. she had often said before, that she had always told them it was absurd
  5554. for March to go into the army, always predicted that no good would come
  5555. of it, and she hoped they would take her advice the next time. Mrs.
  5556. March put the note in the fire, the money in her purse, and went on
  5557. with her preparations, with her lips folded tightly in a way which Jo
  5558. would have understood if she had been there.
  5559. The short afternoon wore away. All other errands were done, and Meg
  5560. and her mother busy at some necessary needlework, while Beth and Amy
  5561. got tea, and Hannah finished her ironing with what she called a 'slap
  5562. and a bang', but still Jo did not come. They began to get anxious, and
  5563. Laurie went off to find her, for no one knew what freak Jo might take
  5564. into her head. He missed her, however, and she came walking in with a
  5565. very queer expression of countenance, for there was a mixture of fun
  5566. and fear, satisfaction and regret in it, which puzzled the family as
  5567. much as did the roll of bills she laid before her mother, saying with a
  5568. little choke in her voice, "That's my contribution toward making Father
  5569. comfortable and bringing him home!"
  5570. "My dear, where did you get it? Twenty-five dollars! Jo, I hope you
  5571. haven't done anything rash?"
  5572. "No, it's mine honestly. I didn't beg, borrow, or steal it. I earned
  5573. it, and I don't think you'll blame me, for I only sold what was my own."
  5574. As she spoke, Jo took off her bonnet, and a general outcry arose, for
  5575. all her abundant hair was cut short.
  5576. "Your hair! Your beautiful hair!" "Oh, Jo, how could you? Your one
  5577. beauty." "My dear girl, there was no need of this." "She doesn't look
  5578. like my Jo any more, but I love her dearly for it!"
  5579. As everyone exclaimed, and Beth hugged the cropped head tenderly, Jo
  5580. assumed an indifferent air, which did not deceive anyone a particle,
  5581. and said, rumpling up the brown bush and trying to look as if she liked
  5582. it, "It doesn't affect the fate of the nation, so don't wail, Beth. It
  5583. will be good for my vanity, I was getting too proud of my wig. It will
  5584. do my brains good to have that mop taken off. My head feels
  5585. deliciously light and cool, and the barber said I could soon have a
  5586. curly crop, which will be boyish, becoming, and easy to keep in order.
  5587. I'm satisfied, so please take the money and let's have supper."
  5588. "Tell me all about it, Jo. I am not quite satisfied, but I can't blame
  5589. you, for I know how willingly you sacrificed your vanity, as you call
  5590. it, to your love. But, my dear, it was not necessary, and I'm afraid
  5591. you will regret it one of these days," said Mrs. March.
  5592. "No, I won't!" returned Jo stoutly, feeling much relieved that her
  5593. prank was not entirely condemned.
  5594. "What made you do it?" asked Amy, who would as soon have thought of
  5595. cutting off her head as her pretty hair.
  5596. "Well, I was wild to do something for Father," replied Jo, as they
  5597. gathered about the table, for healthy young people can eat even in the
  5598. midst of trouble. "I hate to borrow as much as Mother does, and I knew
  5599. Aunt March would croak, she always does, if you ask for a ninepence.
  5600. Meg gave all her quarterly salary toward the rent, and I only got some
  5601. clothes with mine, so I felt wicked, and was bound to have some money,
  5602. if I sold the nose off my face to get it."
  5603. "You needn't feel wicked, my child! You had no winter things and got
  5604. the simplest with your own hard earnings," said Mrs. March with a look
  5605. that warmed Jo's heart.
  5606. "I hadn't the least idea of selling my hair at first, but as I went
  5607. along I kept thinking what I could do, and feeling as if I'd like to
  5608. dive into some of the rich stores and help myself. In a barber's
  5609. window I saw tails of hair with the prices marked, and one black tail,
  5610. not so thick as mine, was forty dollars. It came to me all of a sudden
  5611. that I had one thing to make money out of, and without stopping to
  5612. think, I walked in, asked if they bought hair, and what they would give
  5613. for mine."
  5614. "I don't see how you dared to do it," said Beth in a tone of awe.
  5615. "Oh, he was a little man who looked as if he merely lived to oil his
  5616. hair. He rather stared at first, as if he wasn't used to having girls
  5617. bounce into his shop and ask him to buy their hair. He said he didn't
  5618. care about mine, it wasn't the fashionable color, and he never paid
  5619. much for it in the first place. The work put into it made it dear, and
  5620. so on. It was getting late, and I was afraid if it wasn't done right
  5621. away that I shouldn't have it done at all, and you know when I start to
  5622. do a thing, I hate to give it up. So I begged him to take it, and told
  5623. him why I was in such a hurry. It was silly, I dare say, but it
  5624. changed his mind, for I got rather excited, and told the story in my
  5625. topsy-turvy way, and his wife heard, and said so kindly, 'Take it,
  5626. Thomas, and oblige the young lady. I'd do as much for our Jimmy any
  5627. day if I had a spire of hair worth selling."
  5628. "Who was Jimmy?" asked Amy, who liked to have things explained as they
  5629. went along.
  5630. "Her son, she said, who was in the army. How friendly such things make
  5631. strangers feel, don't they? She talked away all the time the man
  5632. clipped, and diverted my mind nicely."
  5633. "Didn't you feel dreadfully when the first cut came?" asked Meg, with a
  5634. shiver.
  5635. "I took a last look at my hair while the man got his things, and that
  5636. was the end of it. I never snivel over trifles like that. I will
  5637. confess, though, I felt queer when I saw the dear old hair laid out on
  5638. the table, and felt only the short rough ends of my head. It almost
  5639. seemed as if I'd an arm or leg off. The woman saw me look at it, and
  5640. picked out a long lock for me to keep. I'll give it to you, Marmee,
  5641. just to remember past glories by, for a crop is so comfortable I don't
  5642. think I shall ever have a mane again."
  5643. Mrs. March folded the wavy chestnut lock, and laid it away with a short
  5644. gray one in her desk. She only said, "Thank you, deary," but something
  5645. in her face made the girls change the subject, and talk as cheerfully
  5646. as they could about Mr. Brooke's kindness, the prospect of a fine day
  5647. tomorrow, and the happy times they would have when Father came home to
  5648. be nursed.
  5649. No one wanted to go to bed when at ten o'clock Mrs. March put by the
  5650. last finished job, and said, "Come girls." Beth went to the piano and
  5651. played the father's favorite hymn. All began bravely, but broke down
  5652. one by one till Beth was left alone, singing with all her heart, for to
  5653. her music was always a sweet consoler.
  5654. "Go to bed and don't talk, for we must be up early and shall need all
  5655. the sleep we can get. Good night, my darlings," said Mrs. March, as
  5656. the hymn ended, for no one cared to try another.
  5657. They kissed her quietly, and went to bed as silently as if the dear
  5658. invalid lay in the next room. Beth and Amy soon fell asleep in spite
  5659. of the great trouble, but Meg lay awake, thinking the most serious
  5660. thoughts she had ever known in her short life. Jo lay motionless, and
  5661. her sister fancied that she was asleep, till a stifled sob made her
  5662. exclaim, as she touched a wet cheek...
  5663. "Jo, dear, what is it? Are you crying about father?"
  5664. "No, not now."
  5665. "What then?"
  5666. "My... My hair!" burst out poor Jo, trying vainly to smother her
  5667. emotion in the pillow.
  5668. It did not seem at all comical to Meg, who kissed and caressed the
  5669. afflicted heroine in the tenderest manner.
  5670. "I'm not sorry," protested Jo, with a choke. "I'd do it again
  5671. tomorrow, if I could. It's only the vain part of me that goes and
  5672. cries in this silly way. Don't tell anyone, it's all over now. I
  5673. thought you were asleep, so I just made a little private moan for my
  5674. one beauty. How came you to be awake?"
  5675. "I can't sleep, I'm so anxious," said Meg.
  5676. "Think about something pleasant, and you'll soon drop off."
  5677. "I tried it, but felt wider awake than ever."
  5678. "What did you think of?"
  5679. "Handsome faces--eyes particularly," answered Meg, smiling to herself
  5680. in the dark.
  5681. "What color do you like best?"
  5682. "Brown, that is, sometimes. Blue are lovely."
  5683. Jo laughed, and Meg sharply ordered her not to talk, then amiably
  5684. promised to make her hair curl, and fell asleep to dream of living in
  5685. her castle in the air.
  5686. The clocks were striking midnight and the rooms were very still as a
  5687. figure glided quietly from bed to bed, smoothing a coverlet here,
  5688. settling a pillow there, and pausing to look long and tenderly at each
  5689. unconscious face, to kiss each with lips that mutely blessed, and to
  5690. pray the fervent prayers which only mothers utter. As she lifted the
  5691. curtain to look out into the dreary night, the moon broke suddenly from
  5692. behind the clouds and shone upon her like a bright, benignant face,
  5693. which seemed to whisper in the silence, "Be comforted, dear soul!
  5694. There is always light behind the clouds."
  5695. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  5696. LETTERS
  5697. In the cold gray dawn the sisters lit their lamp and read their chapter
  5698. with an earnestness never felt before. For now the shadow of a real
  5699. trouble had come, the little books were full of help and comfort, and
  5700. as they dressed, they agreed to say goodbye cheerfully and hopefully,
  5701. and send their mother on her anxious journey unsaddened by tears or
  5702. complaints from them. Everything seemed very strange when they went
  5703. down, so dim and still outside, so full of light and bustle within.
  5704. Breakfast at that early hour seemed odd, and even Hannah's familiar
  5705. face looked unnatural as she flew about her kitchen with her nightcap
  5706. on. The big trunk stood ready in the hall, Mother's cloak and bonnet
  5707. lay on the sofa, and Mother herself sat trying to eat, but looking so
  5708. pale and worn with sleeplessness and anxiety that the girls found it
  5709. very hard to keep their resolution. Meg's eyes kept filling in spite
  5710. of herself, Jo was obliged to hide her face in the kitchen roller more
  5711. than once, and the little girls wore a grave, troubled expression, as
  5712. if sorrow was a new experience to them.
  5713. Nobody talked much, but as the time drew very near and they sat waiting
  5714. for the carriage, Mrs. March said to the girls, who were all busied
  5715. about her, one folding her shawl, another smoothing out the strings of
  5716. her bonnet, a third putting on her overshoes, and a fourth fastening up
  5717. her travelling bag...
  5718. "Children, I leave you to Hannah's care and Mr. Laurence's protection.
  5719. Hannah is faithfulness itself, and our good neighbor will guard you as
  5720. if you were his own. I have no fears for you, yet I am anxious that
  5721. you should take this trouble rightly. Don't grieve and fret when I am
  5722. gone, or think that you can be idle and comfort yourselves by being
  5723. idle and trying to forget. Go on with your work as usual, for work is
  5724. a blessed solace. Hope and keep busy, and whatever happens, remember
  5725. that you never can be fatherless."
  5726. "Yes, Mother."
  5727. "Meg, dear, be prudent, watch over your sisters, consult Hannah, and in
  5728. any perplexity, go to Mr. Laurence. Be patient, Jo, don't get
  5729. despondent or do rash things, write to me often, and be my brave girl,
  5730. ready to help and cheer all. Beth, comfort yourself with your music,
  5731. and be faithful to the little home duties, and you, Amy, help all you
  5732. can, be obedient, and keep happy safe at home."
  5733. "We will, Mother! We will!"
  5734. The rattle of an approaching carriage made them all start and listen.
  5735. That was the hard minute, but the girls stood it well. No one cried,
  5736. no one ran away or uttered a lamentation, though their hearts were very
  5737. heavy as they sent loving messages to Father, remembering, as they
  5738. spoke that it might be too late to deliver them. They kissed their
  5739. mother quietly, clung about her tenderly, and tried to wave their hands
  5740. cheerfully when she drove away.
  5741. Laurie and his grandfather came over to see her off, and Mr. Brooke
  5742. looked so strong and sensible and kind that the girls christened him
  5743. 'Mr. Greatheart' on the spot.
  5744. "Good-by, my darlings! God bless and keep us all!" whispered Mrs.
  5745. March, as she kissed one dear little face after the other, and hurried
  5746. into the carriage.
  5747. As she rolled away, the sun came out, and looking back, she saw it
  5748. shining on the group at the gate like a good omen. They saw it also,
  5749. and smiled and waved their hands, and the last thing she beheld as she
  5750. turned the corner was the four bright faces, and behind them like a
  5751. bodyguard, old Mr. Laurence, faithful Hannah, and devoted Laurie.
  5752. "How kind everyone is to us!" she said, turning to find fresh proof of
  5753. it in the respectful sympathy of the young man's face.
  5754. "I don't see how they can help it," returned Mr. Brooke, laughing so
  5755. infectiously that Mrs. March could not help smiling. And so the journey
  5756. began with the good omens of sunshine, smiles, and cheerful words.
  5757. "I feel as if there had been an earthquake," said Jo, as their
  5758. neighbors went home to breakfast, leaving them to rest and refresh
  5759. themselves.
  5760. "It seems as if half the house was gone," added Meg forlornly.
  5761. Beth opened her lips to say something, but could only point to the pile
  5762. of nicely mended hose which lay on Mother's table, showing that even in
  5763. her last hurried moments she had thought and worked for them. It was a
  5764. little thing, but it went straight to their hearts, and in spite of
  5765. their brave resolutions, they all broke down and cried bitterly.
  5766. Hannah wisely allowed them to relieve their feelings, and when the
  5767. shower showed signs of clearing up, she came to the rescue, armed with
  5768. a coffeepot.
  5769. "Now, my dear young ladies, remember what your ma said, and don't fret.
  5770. Come and have a cup of coffee all round, and then let's fall to work
  5771. and be a credit to the family."
  5772. Coffee was a treat, and Hannah showed great tact in making it that
  5773. morning. No one could resist her persuasive nods, or the fragrant
  5774. invitation issuing from the nose of the coffee pot. They drew up to
  5775. the table, exchanged their handkerchiefs for napkins, and in ten
  5776. minutes were all right again.
  5777. "'Hope and keep busy', that's the motto for us, so let's see who will
  5778. remember it best. I shall go to Aunt March, as usual. Oh, won't she
  5779. lecture though!" said Jo, as she sipped with returning spirit.
  5780. "I shall go to my Kings, though I'd much rather stay at home and attend
  5781. to things here," said Meg, wishing she hadn't made her eyes so red.
  5782. "No need of that. Beth and I can keep house perfectly well," put in
  5783. Amy, with an important air.
  5784. "Hannah will tell us what to do, and we'll have everything nice when
  5785. you come home," added Beth, getting out her mop and dish tub without
  5786. delay.
  5787. "I think anxiety is very interesting," observed Amy, eating sugar
  5788. pensively.
  5789. The girls couldn't help laughing, and felt better for it, though Meg
  5790. shook her head at the young lady who could find consolation in a sugar
  5791. bowl.
  5792. The sight of the turnovers made Jo sober again; and when the two went
  5793. out to their daily tasks, they looked sorrowfully back at the window
  5794. where they were accustomed to see their mother's face. It was gone,
  5795. but Beth had remembered the little household ceremony, and there she
  5796. was, nodding away at them like a rosyfaced mandarin.
  5797. "That's so like my Beth!" said Jo, waving her hat, with a grateful
  5798. face. "Goodbye, Meggy, I hope the Kings won't strain today. Don't
  5799. fret about Father, dear," she added, as they parted.
  5800. "And I hope Aunt March won't croak. Your hair is becoming, and it
  5801. looks very boyish and nice," returned Meg, trying not to smile at the
  5802. curly head, which looked comically small on her tall sister's shoulders.
  5803. "That's my only comfort." And, touching her hat a la Laurie, away went
  5804. Jo, feeling like a shorn sheep on a wintry day.
  5805. News from their father comforted the girls very much, for though
  5806. dangerously ill, the presence of the best and tenderest of nurses had
  5807. already done him good. Mr. Brooke sent a bulletin every day, and as
  5808. the head of the family, Meg insisted on reading the dispatches, which
  5809. grew more cheerful as the week passed. At first, everyone was eager to
  5810. write, and plump envelopes were carefully poked into the letter box by
  5811. one or other of the sisters, who felt rather important with their
  5812. Washington correspondence. As one of these packets contained
  5813. characteristic notes from the party, we will rob an imaginary mail, and
  5814. read them.
  5815. My dearest Mother:
  5816. It is impossible to tell you how happy your last letter made us, for
  5817. the news was so good we couldn't help laughing and crying over it. How
  5818. very kind Mr. Brooke is, and how fortunate that Mr. Laurence's business
  5819. detains him near you so long, since he is so useful to you and Father.
  5820. The girls are all as good as gold. Jo helps me with the sewing, and
  5821. insists on doing all sorts of hard jobs. I should be afraid she might
  5822. overdo, if I didn't know her 'moral fit' wouldn't last long. Beth is
  5823. as regular about her tasks as a clock, and never forgets what you told
  5824. her. She grieves about Father, and looks sober except when she is at
  5825. her little piano. Amy minds me nicely, and I take great care of her.
  5826. She does her own hair, and I am teaching her to make buttonholes and
  5827. mend her stockings. She tries very hard, and I know you will be pleased
  5828. with her improvement when you come. Mr. Laurence watches over us like
  5829. a motherly old hen, as Jo says, and Laurie is very kind and neighborly.
  5830. He and Jo keep us merry, for we get pretty blue sometimes, and feel
  5831. like orphans, with you so far away. Hannah is a perfect saint. She
  5832. does not scold at all, and always calls me Miss Margaret, which is
  5833. quite proper, you know, and treats me with respect. We are all well
  5834. and busy, but we long, day and night, to have you back. Give my
  5835. dearest love to Father, and believe me, ever your own...
  5836. MEG
  5837. This note, prettily written on scented paper, was a great contrast to
  5838. the next, which was scribbled on a big sheet of thin foreign paper,
  5839. ornamented with blots and all manner of flourishes and curly-tailed
  5840. letters.
  5841. My precious Marmee:
  5842. Three cheers for dear Father! Brooke was a trump to telegraph right
  5843. off, and let us know the minute he was better. I rushed up garret when
  5844. the letter came, and tried to thank god for being so good to us, but I
  5845. could only cry, and say, "I'm glad! I'm glad!" Didn't that do as well
  5846. as a regular prayer? For I felt a great many in my heart. We have
  5847. such funny times, and now I can enjoy them, for everyone is so
  5848. desperately good, it's like living in a nest of turtledoves. You'd
  5849. laugh to see Meg head the table and try to be motherish. She gets
  5850. prettier every day, and I'm in love with her sometimes. The children
  5851. are regular archangels, and I--well, I'm Jo, and never shall be
  5852. anything else. Oh, I must tell you that I came near having a quarrel
  5853. with Laurie. I freed my mind about a silly little thing, and he was
  5854. offended. I was right, but didn't speak as I ought, and he marched
  5855. home, saying he wouldn't come again till I begged pardon. I declared I
  5856. wouldn't and got mad. It lasted all day. I felt bad and wanted you
  5857. very much. Laurie and I are both so proud, it's hard to beg pardon.
  5858. But I thought he'd come to it, for I was in the right. He didn't come,
  5859. and just at night I remembered what you said when Amy fell into the
  5860. river. I read my little book, felt better, resolved not to let the sun
  5861. set on my anger, and ran over to tell Laurie I was sorry. I met him at
  5862. the gate, coming for the same thing. We both laughed, begged each
  5863. other's pardon, and felt all good and comfortable again.
  5864. I made a 'pome' yesterday, when I was helping Hannah wash, and as
  5865. Father likes my silly little things, I put it in to amuse him. Give
  5866. him my lovingest hug that ever was, and kiss yourself a dozen times for
  5867. your...
  5868. TOPSY-TURVY JO
  5869. A SONG FROM THE SUDS
  5870. Queen of my tub, I merrily sing,
  5871. While the white foam rises high,
  5872. And sturdily wash and rinse and wring,
  5873. And fasten the clothes to dry.
  5874. Then out in the free fresh air they swing,
  5875. Under the sunny sky.
  5876. I wish we could wash from our hearts and souls
  5877. The stains of the week away,
  5878. And let water and air by their magic make
  5879. Ourselves as pure as they.
  5880. Then on the earth there would be indeed,
  5881. A glorious washing day!
  5882. Along the path of a useful life,
  5883. Will heart's-ease ever bloom.
  5884. The busy mind has no time to think
  5885. Of sorrow or care or gloom.
  5886. And anxious thoughts may be swept away,
  5887. As we bravely wield a broom.
  5888. I am glad a task to me is given,
  5889. To labor at day by day,
  5890. For it brings me health and strength and hope,
  5891. And I cheerfully learn to say,
  5892. "Head, you may think, Heart, you may feel,
  5893. But, Hand, you shall work alway!"
  5894. Dear Mother,
  5895. There is only room for me to send my love, and some pressed pansies
  5896. from the root I have been keeping safe in the house for Father to see.
  5897. I read every morning, try to be good all day, and sing myself to sleep
  5898. with Father's tune. I can't sing 'LAND OF THE LEAL' now, it makes me
  5899. cry. Everyone is very kind, and we are as happy as we can be without
  5900. you. Amy wants the rest of the page, so I must stop. I didn't forget
  5901. to cover the holders, and I wind the clock and air the rooms every day.
  5902. Kiss dear Father on the cheek he calls mine. Oh, do come soon to your
  5903. loving...
  5904. LITTLE BETH
  5905. Ma Chere Mamma,
  5906. We are all well I do my lessons always and never corroberate the
  5907. girls--Meg says I mean contradick so I put in both words and you can
  5908. take the properest. Meg is a great comfort to me and lets me have
  5909. jelly every night at tea its so good for me Jo says because it keeps me
  5910. sweet tempered. Laurie is not as respeckful as he ought to be now I am
  5911. almost in my teens, he calls me Chick and hurts my feelings by talking
  5912. French to me very fast when I say Merci or Bon jour as Hattie King
  5913. does. The sleeves of my blue dress were all worn out, and Meg put in
  5914. new ones, but the full front came wrong and they are more blue than the
  5915. dress. I felt bad but did not fret I bear my troubles well but I do
  5916. wish Hannah would put more starch in my aprons and have buckwheats
  5917. every day. Can't she? Didn't I make that interrigation point nice?
  5918. Meg says my punchtuation and spelling are disgraceful and I am
  5919. mortyfied but dear me I have so many things to do, I can't stop.
  5920. Adieu, I send heaps of love to Papa. Your affectionate daughter...
  5921. AMY CURTIS MARCH
  5922. Dear Mis March,
  5923. I jes drop a line to say we git on fust rate. The girls is clever and
  5924. fly round right smart. Miss Meg is going to make a proper good
  5925. housekeeper. She hes the liking for it, and gits the hang of things
  5926. surprisin quick. Jo doos beat all for goin ahead, but she don't stop
  5927. to cal'k'late fust, and you never know where she's like to bring up.
  5928. She done out a tub of clothes on Monday, but she starched 'em afore
  5929. they was wrenched, and blued a pink calico dress till I thought I
  5930. should a died a laughin. Beth is the best of little creeters, and a
  5931. sight of help to me, bein so forehanded and dependable. She tries to
  5932. learn everything, and really goes to market beyond her years, likewise
  5933. keeps accounts, with my help, quite wonderful. We have got on very
  5934. economical so fur. I don't let the girls hev coffee only once a week,
  5935. accordin to your wish, and keep em on plain wholesome vittles. Amy
  5936. does well without frettin, wearin her best clothes and eatin sweet
  5937. stuff. Mr. Laurie is as full of didoes as usual, and turns the house
  5938. upside down frequent, but he heartens the girls, so I let em hev full
  5939. swing. The old gentleman sends heaps of things, and is rather wearin,
  5940. but means wal, and it aint my place to say nothin. My bread is riz, so
  5941. no more at this time. I send my duty to Mr. March, and hope he's seen
  5942. the last of his Pewmonia.
  5943. Yours respectful,
  5944. Hannah Mullet
  5945. Head Nurse of Ward No. 2,
  5946. All serene on the Rappahannock, troops in fine condition, commisary
  5947. department well conducted, the Home Guard under Colonel Teddy always on
  5948. duty, Commander in Chief General Laurence reviews the army daily,
  5949. Quartermaster Mullet keeps order in camp, and Major Lion does picket
  5950. duty at night. A salute of twenty-four guns was fired on receipt of
  5951. good news from Washington, and a dress parade took place at
  5952. headquarters. Commander in chief sends best wishes, in which he is
  5953. heartily joined by...
  5954. COLONEL TEDDY
  5955. Dear Madam:
  5956. The little girls are all well. Beth and my boy report daily. Hannah is
  5957. a model servant, and guards pretty Meg like a dragon. Glad the fine
  5958. weather holds. Pray make Brooke useful, and draw on me for funds if
  5959. expenses exceed your estimate. Don't let your husband want anything.
  5960. Thank God he is mending.
  5961. Your sincere friend and servant, JAMES LAURENCE
  5962. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  5963. LITTLE FAITHFUL
  5964. For a week the amount of virtue in the old house would have supplied
  5965. the neighborhood. It was really amazing, for everyone seemed in a
  5966. heavenly frame of mind, and self-denial was all the fashion. Relieved
  5967. of their first anxiety about their father, the girls insensibly relaxed
  5968. their praiseworthy efforts a little, and began to fall back into old
  5969. ways. They did not forget their motto, but hoping and keeping busy
  5970. seemed to grow easier, and after such tremendous exertions, they felt
  5971. that Endeavor deserved a holiday, and gave it a good many.
  5972. Jo caught a bad cold through neglect to cover the shorn head enough,
  5973. and was ordered to stay at home till she was better, for Aunt March
  5974. didn't like to hear people read with colds in their heads. Jo liked
  5975. this, and after an energetic rummage from garret to cellar, subsided on
  5976. the sofa to nurse her cold with arsenicum and books. Amy found that
  5977. housework and art did not go well together, and returned to her mud
  5978. pies. Meg went daily to her pupils, and sewed, or thought she did, at
  5979. home, but much time was spent in writing long letters to her mother, or
  5980. reading the Washington dispatches over and over. Beth kept on, with
  5981. only slight relapses into idleness or grieving.
  5982. All the little duties were faithfully done each day, and many of her
  5983. sisters' also, for they were forgetful, and the house seemed like a
  5984. clock whose pendulum was gone a-visiting. When her heart got heavy
  5985. with longings for Mother or fears for Father, she went away into a
  5986. certain closet, hid her face in the folds of a dear old gown, and made
  5987. her little moan and prayed her little prayer quietly by herself.
  5988. Nobody knew what cheered her up after a sober fit, but everyone felt
  5989. how sweet and helpful Beth was, and fell into a way of going to her for
  5990. comfort or advice in their small affairs.
  5991. All were unconscious that this experience was a test of character, and
  5992. when the first excitement was over, felt that they had done well and
  5993. deserved praise. So they did, but their mistake was in ceasing to do
  5994. well, and they learned this lesson through much anxiety and regret.
  5995. "Meg, I wish you'd go and see the Hummels. You know Mother told us not
  5996. to forget them." said Beth, ten days after Mrs. March's departure.
  5997. "I'm too tired to go this afternoon," replied Meg, rocking comfortably
  5998. as she sewed.
  5999. "Can't you, Jo?" asked Beth.
  6000. "Too stormy for me with my cold."
  6001. "I thought it was almost well."
  6002. "It's well enough for me to go out with Laurie, but not well enough to
  6003. go to the Hummels'," said Jo, laughing, but looking a little ashamed of
  6004. her inconsistency.
  6005. "Why don't you go yourself?" asked Meg.
  6006. "I have been every day, but the baby is sick, and I don't know what to
  6007. do for it. Mrs. Hummel goes away to work, and Lottchen takes care of
  6008. it. But it gets sicker and sicker, and I think you or Hannah ought to
  6009. go."
  6010. Beth spoke earnestly, and Meg promised she would go tomorrow.
  6011. "Ask Hannah for some nice little mess, and take it round, Beth, the air
  6012. will do you good," said Jo, adding apologetically, "I'd go but I want
  6013. to finish my writing."
  6014. "My head aches and I'm tired, so I thought maybe some of you would go,"
  6015. said Beth.
  6016. "Amy will be in presently, and she will run down for us," suggested Meg.
  6017. So Beth lay down on the sofa, the others returned to their work, and
  6018. the Hummels were forgotten. An hour passed. Amy did not come, Meg
  6019. went to her room to try on a new dress, Jo was absorbed in her story,
  6020. and Hannah was sound asleep before the kitchen fire, when Beth quietly
  6021. put on her hood, filled her basket with odds and ends for the poor
  6022. children, and went out into the chilly air with a heavy head and a
  6023. grieved look in her patient eyes. It was late when she came back, and
  6024. no one saw her creep upstairs and shut herself into her mother's room.
  6025. Half an hour after, Jo went to 'Mother's closet' for something, and
  6026. there found little Beth sitting on the medicine chest, looking very
  6027. grave, with red eyes and a camphor bottle in her hand.
  6028. "Christopher Columbus! What's the matter?" cried Jo, as Beth put out
  6029. her hand as if to warn her off, and asked quickly. . .
  6030. "You've had the scarlet fever, haven't you?"
  6031. "Years ago, when Meg did. Why?"
  6032. "Then I'll tell you. Oh, Jo, the baby's dead!"
  6033. "What baby?"
  6034. "Mrs. Hummel's. It died in my lap before she got home," cried Beth
  6035. with a sob.
  6036. "My poor dear, how dreadful for you! I ought to have gone," said Jo,
  6037. taking her sister in her arms as she sat down in her mother's big
  6038. chair, with a remorseful face.
  6039. "It wasn't dreadful, Jo, only so sad! I saw in a minute it was sicker,
  6040. but Lottchen said her mother had gone for a doctor, so I took Baby and
  6041. let Lotty rest. It seemed asleep, but all of a sudden if gave a little
  6042. cry and trembled, and then lay very still. I tried to warm its feet,
  6043. and Lotty gave it some milk, but it didn't stir, and I knew it was
  6044. dead."
  6045. "Don't cry, dear! What did you do?"
  6046. "I just sat and held it softly till Mrs. Hummel came with the doctor.
  6047. He said it was dead, and looked at Heinrich and Minna, who have sore
  6048. throats. 'Scarlet fever, ma'am. Ought to have called me before,' he
  6049. said crossly. Mrs. Hummel told him she was poor, and had tried to cure
  6050. baby herself, but now it was too late, and she could only ask him to
  6051. help the others and trust to charity for his pay. He smiled then, and
  6052. was kinder, but it was very sad, and I cried with them till he turned
  6053. round all of a sudden, and told me to go home and take belladonna right
  6054. away, or I'd have the fever."
  6055. "No, you won't!" cried Jo, hugging her close, with a frightened look.
  6056. "Oh, Beth, if you should be sick I never could forgive myself! What
  6057. shall we do?"
  6058. "Don't be frightened, I guess I shan't have it badly. I looked in
  6059. Mother's book, and saw that it begins with headache, sore throat, and
  6060. queer feelings like mine, so I did take some belladonna, and I feel
  6061. better," said Beth, laying her cold hands on her hot forehead and
  6062. trying to look well.
  6063. "If Mother was only at home!" exclaimed Jo, seizing the book, and
  6064. feeling that Washington was an immense way off. She read a page,
  6065. looked at Beth, felt her head, peeped into her throat, and then said
  6066. gravely, "You've been over the baby every day for more than a week, and
  6067. among the others who are going to have it, so I'm afraid you are going
  6068. to have it, Beth. I'll call Hannah, she knows all about sickness."
  6069. "Don't let Amy come. She never had it, and I should hate to give it to
  6070. her. Can't you and Meg have it over again?" asked Beth, anxiously.
  6071. "I guess not. Don't care if I do. Serve me right, selfish pig, to let
  6072. you go, and stay writing rubbish myself!" muttered Jo, as she went to
  6073. consult Hannah.
  6074. The good soul was wide awake in a minute, and took the lead at once,
  6075. assuring that there was no need to worry; every one had scarlet fever,
  6076. and if rightly treated, nobody died, all of which Jo believed, and felt
  6077. much relieved as they went up to call Meg.
  6078. "Now I'll tell you what we'll do," said Hannah, when she had examined
  6079. and questioned Beth, "we will have Dr. Bangs, just to take a look at
  6080. you, dear, and see that we start right. Then we'll send Amy off to
  6081. Aunt March's for a spell, to keep her out of harm's way, and one of you
  6082. girls can stay at home and amuse Beth for a day or two."
  6083. "I shall stay, of course, I'm oldest," began Meg, looking anxious and
  6084. self-reproachful.
  6085. "I shall, because it's my fault she is sick. I told Mother I'd do the
  6086. errands, and I haven't," said Jo decidedly.
  6087. "Which will you have, Beth? There ain't no need of but one," aid
  6088. Hannah.
  6089. "Jo, please." And Beth leaned her head against her sister with a
  6090. contented look, which effectually settled that point.
  6091. "I'll go and tell Amy," said Meg, feeling a little hurt, yet rather
  6092. relieved on the whole, for she did not like nursing, and Jo did.
  6093. Amy rebelled outright, and passionately declared that she had rather
  6094. have the fever than go to Aunt March. Meg reasoned, pleaded, and
  6095. commanded, all in vain. Amy protested that she would not go, and Meg
  6096. left her in despair to ask Hannah what should be done. Before she came
  6097. back, Laurie walked into the parlor to find Amy sobbing, with her head
  6098. in the sofa cushions. She told her story, expecting to be consoled,
  6099. but Laurie only put his hands in his pockets and walked about the room,
  6100. whistling softly, as he knit his brows in deep thought. Presently he
  6101. sat down beside her, and said, in his most wheedlesome tone, "Now be a
  6102. sensible little woman, and do as they say. No, don't cry, but hear what
  6103. a jolly plan I've got. You go to Aunt March's, and I'll come and take
  6104. you out every day, driving or walking, and we'll have capital times.
  6105. Won't that be better than moping here?"
  6106. "I don't wish to be sent off as if I was in the way," began Amy, in an
  6107. injured voice.
  6108. "Bless your heart, child, it's to keep you well. You don't want to be
  6109. sick, do you?"
  6110. "No, I'm sure I don't, but I dare say I shall be, for I've been with
  6111. Beth all the time."
  6112. "That's the very reason you ought to go away at once, so that you may
  6113. escape it. Change of air and care will keep you well, I dare say, or
  6114. if it does not entirely, you will have the fever more lightly. I
  6115. advise you to be off as soon as you can, for scarlet fever is no joke,
  6116. miss."
  6117. "But it's dull at Aunt March's, and she is so cross," said Amy, looking
  6118. rather frightened.
  6119. "It won't be dull with me popping in every day to tell you how Beth is,
  6120. and take you out gallivanting. The old lady likes me, and I'll be as
  6121. sweet as possible to her, so she won't peck at us, whatever we do."
  6122. "Will you take me out in the trotting wagon with Puck?"
  6123. "On my honor as a gentleman."
  6124. "And come every single day?"
  6125. "See if I don't!"
  6126. "And bring me back the minute Beth is well?"
  6127. "The identical minute."
  6128. "And go to the theater, truly?"
  6129. "A dozen theaters, if we may."
  6130. "Well--I guess I will," said Amy slowly.
  6131. "Good girl! Call Meg, and tell her you'll give in," said Laurie, with
  6132. an approving pat, which annoyed Amy more than the 'giving in'.
  6133. Meg and Jo came running down to behold the miracle which had been
  6134. wrought, and Amy, feeling very precious and self-sacrificing, promised
  6135. to go, if the doctor said Beth was going to be ill.
  6136. "How is the little dear?" asked Laurie, for Beth was his especial pet,
  6137. and he felt more anxious about her than he liked to show.
  6138. "She is lying down on Mother's bed, and feels better. The baby's death
  6139. troubled her, but I dare say she has only got cold. Hannah says she
  6140. thinks so, but she looks worried, and that makes me fidgety," answered
  6141. Meg.
  6142. "What a trying world it is!" said Jo, rumpling up her hair in a fretful
  6143. way. "No sooner do we get out of one trouble than down comes another.
  6144. There doesn't seem to be anything to hold on to when Mother's gone, so
  6145. I'm all at sea."
  6146. "Well, don't make a porcupine of yourself, it isn't becoming. Settle
  6147. your wig, Jo, and tell me if I shall telegraph to your mother, or do
  6148. anything?" asked Laurie, who never had been reconciled to the loss of
  6149. his friend's one beauty.
  6150. "That is what troubles me," said Meg. "I think we ought to tell her if
  6151. Beth is really ill, but Hannah says we mustn't, for Mother can't leave
  6152. Father, and it will only make them anxious. Beth won't be sick long,
  6153. and Hannah knows just what to do, and Mother said we were to mind her,
  6154. so I suppose we must, but it doesn't seem quite right to me."
  6155. "Hum, well, I can't say. Suppose you ask Grandfather after the doctor
  6156. has been."
  6157. "We will. Jo, go and get Dr. Bangs at once," commanded Meg. "We can't
  6158. decide anything till he has been."
  6159. "Stay where you are, Jo. I'm errand boy to this establishment," said
  6160. Laurie, taking up his cap.
  6161. "I'm afraid you are busy," began Meg.
  6162. "No, I've done my lessons for the day."
  6163. "Do you study in vacation time?" asked Jo.
  6164. "I follow the good example my neighbors set me," was Laurie's answer,
  6165. as he swung himself out of the room.
  6166. "I have great hopes for my boy," observed Jo, watching him fly over the
  6167. fence with an approving smile.
  6168. "He does very well, for a boy," was Meg's somewhat ungracious answer,
  6169. for the subject did not interest her.
  6170. Dr. Bangs came, said Beth had symptoms of the fever, but he thought she
  6171. would have it lightly, though he looked sober over the Hummel story.
  6172. Amy was ordered off at once, and provided with something to ward off
  6173. danger, she departed in great state, with Jo and Laurie as escort.
  6174. Aunt March received them with her usual hospitality.
  6175. "What do you want now?" she asked, looking sharply over her spectacles,
  6176. while the parrot, sitting on the back of her chair, called out...
  6177. "Go away. No boys allowed here."
  6178. Laurie retired to the window, and Jo told her story.
  6179. "No more than I expected, if you are allowed to go poking about among
  6180. poor folks. Amy can stay and make herself useful if she isn't sick,
  6181. which I've no doubt she will be, looks like it now. Don't cry, child,
  6182. it worries me to hear people sniff."
  6183. Amy was on the point of crying, but Laurie slyly pulled the parrot's
  6184. tail, which caused Polly to utter an astonished croak and call out,
  6185. "Bless my boots!" in such a funny way, that she laughed instead.
  6186. "What do you hear from your mother?" asked the old lady gruffly.
  6187. "Father is much better," replied Jo, trying to keep sober.
  6188. "Oh, is he? Well, that won't last long, I fancy. March never had any
  6189. stamina," was the cheerful reply.
  6190. "Ha, ha! Never say die, take a pinch of snuff, goodbye, goodbye!"
  6191. squalled Polly, dancing on her perch, and clawing at the old lady's cap
  6192. as Laurie tweaked him in the rear.
  6193. "Hold your tongue, you disrespectful old bird! And, Jo, you'd better
  6194. go at once. It isn't proper to be gadding about so late with a
  6195. rattlepated boy like..."
  6196. "Hold your tongue, you disrespectful old bird!" cried Polly, tumbling
  6197. off the chair with a bounce, and running to peck the 'rattlepated' boy,
  6198. who was shaking with laughter at the last speech.
  6199. "I don't think I can bear it, but I'll try," thought Amy, as she was
  6200. left alone with Aunt March.
  6201. "Get along, you fright!" screamed Polly, and at that rude speech Amy
  6202. could not restrain a sniff.
  6203. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  6204. DARK DAYS
  6205. Beth did have the fever, and was much sicker than anyone but Hannah and
  6206. the doctor suspected. The girls knew nothing about illness, and Mr.
  6207. Laurence was not allowed to see her, so Hannah had everything her own
  6208. way, and busy Dr. Bangs did his best, but left a good deal to the
  6209. excellent nurse. Meg stayed at home, lest she should infect the Kings,
  6210. and kept house, feeling very anxious and a little guilty when she wrote
  6211. letters in which no mention was made of Beth's illness. She could not
  6212. think it right to deceive her mother, but she had been bidden to mind
  6213. Hannah, and Hannah wouldn't hear of 'Mrs. March bein' told, and worried
  6214. just for sech a trifle.'
  6215. Jo devoted herself to Beth day and night, not a hard task, for Beth was
  6216. very patient, and bore her pain uncomplainingly as long as she could
  6217. control herself. But there came a time when during the fever fits she
  6218. began to talk in a hoarse, broken voice, to play on the coverlet as if
  6219. on her beloved little piano, and try to sing with a throat so swollen
  6220. that there was no music left, a time when she did not know the familiar
  6221. faces around her, but addressed them by wrong names, and called
  6222. imploringly for her mother. Then Jo grew frightened, Meg begged to be
  6223. allowed to write the truth, and even Hannah said she 'would think of
  6224. it, though there was no danger yet'. A letter from Washington added to
  6225. their trouble, for Mr. March had had a relapse, and could not think of
  6226. coming home for a long while.
  6227. How dark the days seemed now, how sad and lonely the house, and how
  6228. heavy were the hearts of the sisters as they worked and waited, while
  6229. the shadow of death hovered over the once happy home. Then it was that
  6230. Margaret, sitting alone with tears dropping often on her work, felt how
  6231. rich she had been in things more precious than any luxuries money could
  6232. buy--in love, protection, peace, and health, the real blessings of
  6233. life. Then it was that Jo, living in the darkened room, with that
  6234. suffering little sister always before her eyes and that pathetic voice
  6235. sounding in her ears, learned to see the beauty and the sweetness of
  6236. Beth's nature, to feel how deep and tender a place she filled in all
  6237. hearts, and to acknowledge the worth of Beth's unselfish ambition to
  6238. live for others, and make home happy by that exercise of those simple
  6239. virtues which all may possess, and which all should love and value more
  6240. than talent, wealth, or beauty. And Amy, in her exile, longed eagerly
  6241. to be at home, that she might work for Beth, feeling now that no
  6242. service would be hard or irksome, and remembering, with regretful
  6243. grief, how many neglected tasks those willing hands had done for her.
  6244. Laurie haunted the house like a restless ghost, and Mr. Laurence locked
  6245. the grand piano, because he could not bear to be reminded of the young
  6246. neighbor who used to make the twilight pleasant for him. Everyone
  6247. missed Beth. The milkman, baker, grocer, and butcher inquired how she
  6248. did, poor Mrs. Hummel came to beg pardon for her thoughtlessness and to
  6249. get a shroud for Minna, the neighbors sent all sorts of comforts and
  6250. good wishes, and even those who knew her best were surprised to find
  6251. how many friends shy little Beth had made.
  6252. Meanwhile she lay on her bed with old Joanna at her side, for even in
  6253. her wanderings she did not forget her forlorn protege. She longed for
  6254. her cats, but would not have them brought, lest they should get sick,
  6255. and in her quiet hours she was full of anxiety about Jo. She sent
  6256. loving messages to Amy, bade them tell her mother that she would write
  6257. soon, and often begged for pencil and paper to try to say a word, that
  6258. Father might not think she had neglected him. But soon even these
  6259. intervals of consciousness ended, and she lay hour after hour, tossing
  6260. to and fro, with incoherent words on her lips, or sank into a heavy
  6261. sleep which brought her no refreshment. Dr. Bangs came twice a day,
  6262. Hannah sat up at night, Meg kept a telegram in her desk all ready to
  6263. send off at any minute, and Jo never stirred from Beth's side.
  6264. The first of December was a wintry day indeed to them, for a bitter
  6265. wind blew, snow fell fast, and the year seemed getting ready for its
  6266. death. When Dr. Bangs came that morning, he looked long at Beth, held
  6267. the hot hand in both his own for a minute, and laid it gently down,
  6268. saying, in a low voice to Hannah, "If Mrs. March can leave her husband
  6269. she'd better be sent for."
  6270. Hannah nodded without speaking, for her lips twitched nervously, Meg
  6271. dropped down into a chair as the strength seemed to go out of her limbs
  6272. at the sound of those words, and Jo, standing with a pale face for a
  6273. minute, ran to the parlor, snatched up the telegram, and throwing on
  6274. her things, rushed out into the storm. She was soon back, and while
  6275. noiselessly taking off her cloak, Laurie came in with a letter, saying
  6276. that Mr. March was mending again. Jo read it thankfully, but the heavy
  6277. weight did not seem lifted off her heart, and her face was so full of
  6278. misery that Laurie asked quickly, "What is it? Is Beth worse?"
  6279. "I've sent for Mother," said Jo, tugging at her rubber boots with a
  6280. tragic expression.
  6281. "Good for you, Jo! Did you do it on your own responsibility?" asked
  6282. Laurie, as he seated her in the hall chair and took off the rebellious
  6283. boots, seeing how her hands shook.
  6284. "No. The doctor told us to."
  6285. "Oh, Jo, it's not so bad as that?" cried Laurie, with a startled face.
  6286. "Yes, it is. She doesn't know us, she doesn't even talk about the
  6287. flocks of green doves, as she calls the vine leaves on the wall. She
  6288. doesn't look like my Beth, and there's nobody to help us bear it.
  6289. Mother and father both gone, and God seems so far away I can't find
  6290. Him."
  6291. As the tears streamed fast down poor Jo's cheeks, she stretched out her
  6292. hand in a helpless sort of way, as if groping in the dark, and Laurie
  6293. took it in his, whispering as well as he could with a lump in his
  6294. throat, "I'm here. Hold on to me, Jo, dear!"
  6295. She could not speak, but she did 'hold on', and the warm grasp of the
  6296. friendly human hand comforted her sore heart, and seemed to lead her
  6297. nearer to the Divine arm which alone could uphold her in her trouble.
  6298. Laurie longed to say something tender and comfortable, but no fitting
  6299. words came to him, so he stood silent, gently stroking her bent head as
  6300. her mother used to do. It was the best thing he could have done, far
  6301. more soothing than the most eloquent words, for Jo felt the unspoken
  6302. sympathy, and in the silence learned the sweet solace which affection
  6303. administers to sorrow. Soon she dried the tears which had relieved
  6304. her, and looked up with a grateful face.
  6305. "Thank you, Teddy, I'm better now. I don't feel so forlorn, and will
  6306. try to bear it if it comes."
  6307. "Keep hoping for the best, that will help you, Jo. Soon your mother
  6308. will be here, and then everything will be all right."
  6309. "I'm so glad Father is better. Now she won't feel so bad about leaving
  6310. him. Oh, me! It does seem as if all the troubles came in a heap, and
  6311. I got the heaviest part on my shoulders," sighed Jo, spreading her wet
  6312. handkerchief over her knees to dry.
  6313. "Doesn't Meg pull fair?" asked Laurie, looking indignant.
  6314. "Oh, yes, she tries to, but she can't love Bethy as I do, and she won't
  6315. miss her as I shall. Beth is my conscience, and I can't give her up.
  6316. I can't! I can't!"
  6317. Down went Jo's face into the wet handkerchief, and she cried
  6318. despairingly, for she had kept up bravely till now and never shed a
  6319. tear. Laurie drew his hand across his eyes, but could not speak till
  6320. he had subdued the choky feeling in his throat and steadied his lips.
  6321. It might be unmanly, but he couldn't help it, and I am glad of it.
  6322. Presently, as Jo's sobs quieted, he said hopefully, "I don't think she
  6323. will die. She's so good, and we all love her so much, I don't believe
  6324. God will take her away yet."
  6325. "The good and dear people always do die," groaned Jo, but she stopped
  6326. crying, for her friend's words cheered her up in spite of her own
  6327. doubts and fears.
  6328. "Poor girl, you're worn out. It isn't like you to be forlorn. Stop a
  6329. bit. I'll hearten you up in a jiffy."
  6330. Laurie went off two stairs at a time, and Jo laid her wearied head down
  6331. on Beth's little brown hood, which no one had thought of moving from
  6332. the table where she left it. It must have possessed some magic, for
  6333. the submissive spirit of its gentle owner seemed to enter into Jo, and
  6334. when Laurie came running down with a glass of wine, she took it with a
  6335. smile, and said bravely, "I drink-- Health to my Beth! You are a good
  6336. doctor, Teddy, and such a comfortable friend. How can I ever pay you?"
  6337. she added, as the wine refreshed her body, as the kind words had done
  6338. her troubled mind.
  6339. "I'll send my bill, by-and-by, and tonight I'll give you something that
  6340. will warm the cockles of your heart better than quarts of wine," said
  6341. Laurie, beaming at her with a face of suppressed satisfaction at
  6342. something.
  6343. "What is it?" cried Jo, forgetting her woes for a minute in her wonder.
  6344. "I telegraphed to your mother yesterday, and Brooke answered she'd come
  6345. at once, and she'll be here tonight, and everything will be all right.
  6346. Aren't you glad I did it?"
  6347. Laurie spoke very fast, and turned red and excited all in a minute, for
  6348. he had kept his plot a secret, for fear of disappointing the girls or
  6349. harming Beth. Jo grew quite white, flew out of her chair, and the
  6350. moment he stopped speaking she electrified him by throwing her arms
  6351. round his neck, and crying out, with a joyful cry, "Oh, Laurie! Oh,
  6352. Mother! I am so glad!" She did not weep again, but laughed
  6353. hysterically, and trembled and clung to her friend as if she was a
  6354. little bewildered by the sudden news.
  6355. Laurie, though decidedly amazed, behaved with great presence of mind.
  6356. He patted her back soothingly, and finding that she was recovering,
  6357. followed it up by a bashful kiss or two, which brought Jo round at
  6358. once. Holding on to the banisters, she put him gently away, saying
  6359. breathlessly, "Oh, don't! I didn't mean to, it was dreadful of me, but
  6360. you were such a dear to go and do it in spite of Hannah that I couldn't
  6361. help flying at you. Tell me all about it, and don't give me wine
  6362. again, it makes me act so."
  6363. "I don't mind," laughed Laurie, as he settled his tie. "Why, you see I
  6364. got fidgety, and so did Grandpa. We thought Hannah was overdoing the
  6365. authority business, and your mother ought to know. She'd never forgive
  6366. us if Beth... Well, if anything happened, you know. So I got grandpa
  6367. to say it was high time we did something, and off I pelted to the
  6368. office yesterday, for the doctor looked sober, and Hannah most took my
  6369. head off when I proposed a telegram. I never can bear to be 'lorded
  6370. over', so that settled my mind, and I did it. Your mother will come, I
  6371. know, and the late train is in at two A.M. I shall go for her, and
  6372. you've only got to bottle up your rapture, and keep Beth quiet till
  6373. that blessed lady gets here."
  6374. "Laurie, you're an angel! How shall I ever thank you?"
  6375. "Fly at me again. I rather liked it," said Laurie, looking
  6376. mischievous, a thing he had not done for a fortnight.
  6377. "No, thank you. I'll do it by proxy, when your grandpa comes. Don't
  6378. tease, but go home and rest, for you'll be up half the night. Bless
  6379. you, Teddy, bless you!"
  6380. Jo had backed into a corner, and as she finished her speech, she
  6381. vanished precipitately into the kitchen, where she sat down upon a
  6382. dresser and told the assembled cats that she was "happy, oh, so happy!"
  6383. while Laurie departed, feeling that he had made a rather neat thing of
  6384. it.
  6385. "That's the interferingest chap I ever see, but I forgive him and do
  6386. hope Mrs. March is coming right away," said Hannah, with an air of
  6387. relief, when Jo told the good news.
  6388. Meg had a quiet rapture, and then brooded over the letter, while Jo set
  6389. the sickroom in order, and Hannah "knocked up a couple of pies in case
  6390. of company unexpected". A breath of fresh air seemed to blow through
  6391. the house, and something better than sunshine brightened the quiet
  6392. rooms. Everything appeared to feel the hopeful change. Beth's bird
  6393. began to chirp again, and a half-blown rose was discovered on Amy's
  6394. bush in the window. The fires seemed to burn with unusual cheeriness,
  6395. and every time the girls met, their pale faces broke into smiles as
  6396. they hugged one another, whispering encouragingly, "Mother's coming,
  6397. dear! Mother's coming!" Every one rejoiced but Beth. She lay in that
  6398. heavy stupor, alike unconscious of hope and joy, doubt and danger. It
  6399. was a piteous sight, the once rosy face so changed and vacant, the once
  6400. busy hands so weak and wasted, the once smiling lips quite dumb, and
  6401. the once pretty, well-kept hair scattered rough and tangled on the
  6402. pillow. All day she lay so, only rousing now and then to mutter,
  6403. "Water!" with lips so parched they could hardly shape the word. All
  6404. day Jo and Meg hovered over her, watching, waiting, hoping, and
  6405. trusting in God and Mother, and all day the snow fell, the bitter wind
  6406. raged, and the hours dragged slowly by. But night came at last, and
  6407. every time the clock struck, the sisters, still sitting on either side
  6408. of the bed, looked at each other with brightening eyes, for each hour
  6409. brought help nearer. The doctor had been in to say that some change,
  6410. for better or worse, would probably take place about midnight, at which
  6411. time he would return.
  6412. Hannah, quite worn out, lay down on the sofa at the bed's foot and fell
  6413. fast asleep, Mr. Laurence marched to and fro in the parlor, feeling
  6414. that he would rather face a rebel battery than Mrs. March's countenance
  6415. as she entered. Laurie lay on the rug, pretending to rest, but staring
  6416. into the fire with the thoughtful look which made his black eyes
  6417. beautifully soft and clear.
  6418. The girls never forgot that night, for no sleep came to them as they
  6419. kept their watch, with that dreadful sense of powerlessness which comes
  6420. to us in hours like those.
  6421. "If God spares Beth, I never will complain again," whispered Meg
  6422. earnestly.
  6423. "If god spares Beth, I'll try to love and serve Him all my life,"
  6424. answered Jo, with equal fervor.
  6425. "I wish I had no heart, it aches so," sighed Meg, after a pause.
  6426. "If life is often as hard as this, I don't see how we ever shall get
  6427. through it," added her sister despondently.
  6428. Here the clock struck twelve, and both forgot themselves in watching
  6429. Beth, for they fancied a change passed over her wan face. The house was
  6430. still as death, and nothing but the wailing of the wind broke the deep
  6431. hush. Weary Hannah slept on, and no one but the sisters saw the pale
  6432. shadow which seemed to fall upon the little bed. An hour went by, and
  6433. nothing happened except Laurie's quiet departure for the station.
  6434. Another hour, still no one came, and anxious fears of delay in the
  6435. storm, or accidents by the way, or, worst of all, a great grief at
  6436. Washington, haunted the girls.
  6437. It was past two, when Jo, who stood at the window thinking how dreary
  6438. the world looked in its winding sheet of snow, heard a movement by the
  6439. bed, and turning quickly, saw Meg kneeling before their mother's easy
  6440. chair with her face hidden. A dreadful fear passed coldly over Jo, as
  6441. she thought, "Beth is dead, and Meg is afraid to tell me."
  6442. She was back at her post in an instant, and to her excited eyes a great
  6443. change seemed to have taken place. The fever flush and the look of
  6444. pain were gone, and the beloved little face looked so pale and peaceful
  6445. in its utter repose that Jo felt no desire to weep or to lament.
  6446. Leaning low over this dearest of her sisters, she kissed the damp
  6447. forehead with her heart on her lips, and softly whispered, "Good-by, my
  6448. Beth. Good-by!"
  6449. As if awaked by the stir, Hannah started out of her sleep, hurried to
  6450. the bed, looked at Beth, felt her hands, listened at her lips, and
  6451. then, throwing her apron over her head, sat down to rock to and fro,
  6452. exclaiming, under her breath, "The fever's turned, she's sleepin'
  6453. nat'ral, her skin's damp, and she breathes easy. Praise be given! Oh,
  6454. my goodness me!"
  6455. Before the girls could believe the happy truth, the doctor came to
  6456. confirm it. He was a homely man, but they thought his face quite
  6457. heavenly when he smiled and said, with a fatherly look at them, "Yes,
  6458. my dears, I think the little girl will pull through this time. Keep
  6459. the house quiet, let her sleep, and when she wakes, give her..."
  6460. What they were to give, neither heard, for both crept into the dark
  6461. hall, and, sitting on the stairs, held each other close, rejoicing with
  6462. hearts too full for words. When they went back to be kissed and
  6463. cuddled by faithful Hannah, they found Beth lying, as she used to do,
  6464. with her cheek pillowed on her hand, the dreadful pallor gone, and
  6465. breathing quietly, as if just fallen asleep.
  6466. "If Mother would only come now!" said Jo, as the winter night began to
  6467. wane.
  6468. "See," said Meg, coming up with a white, half-opened rose, "I thought
  6469. this would hardly be ready to lay in Beth's hand tomorrow if she--went
  6470. away from us. But it has blossomed in the night, and now I mean to put
  6471. it in my vase here, so that when the darling wakes, the first thing she
  6472. sees will be the little rose, and Mother's face."
  6473. Never had the sun risen so beautifully, and never had the world seemed
  6474. so lovely as it did to the heavy eyes of Meg and Jo, as they looked out
  6475. in the early morning, when their long, sad vigil was done.
  6476. "It looks like a fairy world," said Meg, smiling to herself, as she
  6477. stood behind the curtain, watching the dazzling sight.
  6478. "Hark!" cried Jo, starting to her feet.
  6479. Yes, there was a sound of bells at the door below, a cry from Hannah,
  6480. and then Laurie's voice saying in a joyful whisper, "Girls, she's come!
  6481. She's come!"
  6482. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  6483. AMY'S WILL
  6484. While these things were happening at home, Amy was having hard times at
  6485. Aunt March's. She felt her exile deeply, and for the first time in her
  6486. life, realized how much she was beloved and petted at home. Aunt March
  6487. never petted any one; she did not approve of it, but she meant to be
  6488. kind, for the well-behaved little girl pleased her very much, and Aunt
  6489. March had a soft place in her old heart for her nephew's children,
  6490. though she didn't think it proper to confess it. She really did her
  6491. best to make Amy happy, but, dear me, what mistakes she made. Some old
  6492. people keep young at heart in spite of wrinkles and gray hairs, can
  6493. sympathize with children's little cares and joys, make them feel at
  6494. home, and can hide wise lessons under pleasant plays, giving and
  6495. receiving friendship in the sweetest way. But Aunt March had not this
  6496. gift, and she worried Amy very much with her rules and orders, her prim
  6497. ways, and long, prosy talks. Finding the child more docile and amiable
  6498. than her sister, the old lady felt it her duty to try and counteract,
  6499. as far as possible, the bad effects of home freedom and indulgence. So
  6500. she took Amy by the hand, and taught her as she herself had been taught
  6501. sixty years ago, a process which carried dismay to Amy's soul, and made
  6502. her feel like a fly in the web of a very strict spider.
  6503. She had to wash the cups every morning, and polish up the old-fashioned
  6504. spoons, the fat silver teapot, and the glasses till they shone. Then
  6505. she must dust the room, and what a trying job that was. Not a speck
  6506. escaped Aunt March's eye, and all the furniture had claw legs and much
  6507. carving, which was never dusted to suit. Then Polly had to be fed, the
  6508. lap dog combed, and a dozen trips upstairs and down to get things or
  6509. deliver orders, for the old lady was very lame and seldom left her big
  6510. chair. After these tiresome labors, she must do her lessons, which was
  6511. a daily trial of every virtue she possessed. Then she was allowed one
  6512. hour for exercise or play, and didn't she enjoy it?
  6513. Laurie came every day, and wheedled Aunt March till Amy was allowed to
  6514. go out with him, when they walked and rode and had capital times.
  6515. After dinner, she had to read aloud, and sit still while the old lady
  6516. slept, which she usually did for an hour, as she dropped off over the
  6517. first page. Then patchwork or towels appeared, and Amy sewed with
  6518. outward meekness and inward rebellion till dusk, when she was allowed
  6519. to amuse herself as she liked till teatime. The evenings were the
  6520. worst of all, for Aunt March fell to telling long stories about her
  6521. youth, which were so unutterably dull that Amy was always ready to go
  6522. to bed, intending to cry over her hard fate, but usually going to sleep
  6523. before she had squeezed out more than a tear or two.
  6524. If it had not been for Laurie, and old Esther, the maid, she felt that
  6525. she never could have got through that dreadful time. The parrot alone
  6526. was enough to drive her distracted, for he soon felt that she did not
  6527. admire him, and revenged himself by being as mischievous as possible.
  6528. He pulled her hair whenever she came near him, upset his bread and milk
  6529. to plague her when she had newly cleaned his cage, made Mop bark by
  6530. pecking at him while Madam dozed, called her names before company, and
  6531. behaved in all respects like an reprehensible old bird. Then she could
  6532. not endure the dog, a fat, cross beast who snarled and yelped at her
  6533. when she made his toilet, and who lay on his back with all his legs in
  6534. the air and a most idiotic expression of countenance when he wanted
  6535. something to eat, which was about a dozen times a day. The cook was
  6536. bad-tempered, the old coachman was deaf, and Esther the only one who
  6537. ever took any notice of the young lady.
  6538. Esther was a Frenchwoman, who had lived with 'Madame', as she called her
  6539. mistress, for many years, and who rather tyrannized over the old lady,
  6540. who could not get along without her. Her real name was Estelle, but
  6541. Aunt March ordered her to change it, and she obeyed, on condition that
  6542. she was never asked to change her religion. She took a fancy to
  6543. Mademoiselle, and amused her very much with odd stories of her life in
  6544. France, when Amy sat with her while she got up Madame's laces. She
  6545. also allowed her to roam about the great house, and examine the curious
  6546. and pretty things stored away in the big wardrobes and the ancient
  6547. chests, for Aunt March hoarded like a magpie. Amy's chief delight was
  6548. an Indian cabinet, full of queer drawers, little pigeonholes, and
  6549. secret places, in which were kept all sorts of ornaments, some
  6550. precious, some merely curious, all more or less antique. To examine and
  6551. arrange these things gave Amy great satisfaction, especially the jewel
  6552. cases, in which on velvet cushions reposed the ornaments which had
  6553. adorned a belle forty years ago. There was the garnet set which Aunt
  6554. March wore when she came out, the pearls her father gave her on her
  6555. wedding day, her lover's diamonds, the jet mourning rings and pins, the
  6556. queer lockets, with portraits of dead friends and weeping willows made
  6557. of hair inside, the baby bracelets her one little daughter had worn,
  6558. Uncle March's big watch, with the red seal so many childish hands had
  6559. played with, and in a box all by itself lay Aunt March's wedding ring,
  6560. too small now for her fat finger, but put carefully away like the most
  6561. precious jewel of them all.
  6562. "Which would Mademoiselle choose if she had her will?" asked Esther,
  6563. who always sat near to watch over and lock up the valuables.
  6564. "I like the diamonds best, but there is no necklace among them, and I'm
  6565. fond of necklaces, they are so becoming. I should choose this if I
  6566. might," replied Amy, looking with great admiration at a string of gold
  6567. and ebony beads from which hung a heavy cross of the same.
  6568. "I, too, covet that, but not as a necklace. Ah, no! To me it is a
  6569. rosary, and as such I should use it like a good catholic," said Esther,
  6570. eyeing the handsome thing wistfully.
  6571. "Is it meant to use as you use the string of good-smelling wooden beads
  6572. hanging over your glass?" asked Amy.
  6573. "Truly, yes, to pray with. It would be pleasing to the saints if one
  6574. used so fine a rosary as this, instead of wearing it as a vain bijou."
  6575. "You seem to take a great deal of comfort in your prayers, Esther, and
  6576. always come down looking quiet and satisfied. I wish I could."
  6577. "If Mademoiselle was a Catholic, she would find true comfort, but as
  6578. that is not to be, it would be well if you went apart each day to
  6579. meditate and pray, as did the good mistress whom I served before
  6580. Madame. She had a little chapel, and in it found solacement for much
  6581. trouble."
  6582. "Would it be right for me to do so too?" asked Amy, who in her
  6583. loneliness felt the need of help of some sort, and found that she was
  6584. apt to forget her little book, now that Beth was not there to remind
  6585. her of it.
  6586. "It would be excellent and charming, and I shall gladly arrange the
  6587. little dressing room for you if you like it. Say nothing to Madame,
  6588. but when she sleeps go you and sit alone a while to think good
  6589. thoughts, and pray the dear God preserve your sister."
  6590. Esther was truly pious, and quite sincere in her advice, for she had an
  6591. affectionate heart, and felt much for the sisters in their anxiety.
  6592. Amy liked the idea, and gave her leave to arrange the light closet next
  6593. her room, hoping it would do her good.
  6594. "I wish I knew where all these pretty things would go when Aunt March
  6595. dies," she said, as she slowly replaced the shining rosary and shut the
  6596. jewel cases one by one.
  6597. "To you and your sisters. I know it, Madame confides in me. I
  6598. witnessed her will, and it is to be so," whispered Esther smiling.
  6599. "How nice! But I wish she'd let us have them now. Procrastination is
  6600. not agreeable," observed Amy, taking a last look at the diamonds.
  6601. "It is too soon yet for the young ladies to wear these things. The
  6602. first one who is affianced will have the pearls, Madame has said it,
  6603. and I have a fancy that the little turquoise ring will be given to you
  6604. when you go, for Madame approves your good behavior and charming
  6605. manners."
  6606. "Do you think so? Oh, I'll be a lamb, if I can only have that lovely
  6607. ring! It's ever so much prettier than Kitty Bryant's. I do like Aunt
  6608. March after all." And Amy tried on the blue ring with a delighted face
  6609. and a firm resolve to earn it.
  6610. From that day she was a model of obedience, and the old lady
  6611. complacently admired the success of her training. Esther fitted up the
  6612. closet with a little table, placed a footstool before it, and over it a
  6613. picture taken from one of the shut-up rooms. She thought it was of no
  6614. great value, but, being appropriate, she borrowed it, well knowing that
  6615. Madame would never know it, nor care if she did. It was, however, a
  6616. very valuable copy of one of the famous pictures of the world, and
  6617. Amy's beauty-loving eyes were never tired of looking up at the sweet
  6618. face of the Divine Mother, while her tender thoughts of her own were
  6619. busy at her heart. On the table she laid her little testament and
  6620. hymnbook, kept a vase always full of the best flowers Laurie brought
  6621. her, and came every day to 'sit alone' thinking good thoughts, and
  6622. praying the dear God to preserve her sister. Esther had given her a
  6623. rosary of black beads with a silver cross, but Amy hung it up and did
  6624. not use it, feeling doubtful as to its fitness for Protestant prayers.
  6625. The little girl was very sincere in all this, for being left alone
  6626. outside the safe home nest, she felt the need of some kind hand to hold
  6627. by so sorely that she instinctively turned to the strong and tender
  6628. Friend, whose fatherly love most closely surrounds His little children.
  6629. She missed her mother's help to understand and rule herself, but having
  6630. been taught where to look, she did her best to find the way and walk in
  6631. it confidingly. But, Amy was a young pilgrim, and just now her burden
  6632. seemed very heavy. She tried to forget herself, to keep cheerful, and
  6633. be satisfied with doing right, though no one saw or praised her for it.
  6634. In her first effort at being very, very good, she decided to make her
  6635. will, as Aunt March had done, so that if she did fall ill and die, her
  6636. possessions might be justly and generously divided. It cost her a pang
  6637. even to think of giving up the little treasures which in her eyes were
  6638. as precious as the old lady's jewels.
  6639. During one of her play hours she wrote out the important document as
  6640. well as she could, with some help from Esther as to certain legal
  6641. terms, and when the good-natured Frenchwoman had signed her name, Amy
  6642. felt relieved and laid it by to show Laurie, whom she wanted as a
  6643. second witness. As it was a rainy day, she went upstairs to amuse
  6644. herself in one of the large chambers, and took Polly with her for
  6645. company. In this room there was a wardrobe full of old-fashioned
  6646. costumes with which Esther allowed her to play, and it was her favorite
  6647. amusement to array herself in the faded brocades, and parade up and
  6648. down before the long mirror, making stately curtsies, and sweeping her
  6649. train about with a rustle which delighted her ears. So busy was she on
  6650. this day that she did not hear Laurie's ring nor see his face peeping
  6651. in at her as she gravely promenaded to and fro, flirting her fan and
  6652. tossing her head, on which she wore a great pink turban, contrasting
  6653. oddly with her blue brocade dress and yellow quilted petticoat. She
  6654. was obliged to walk carefully, for she had on high-heeled shoes, and, as
  6655. Laurie told Jo afterward, it was a comical sight to see her mince along
  6656. in her gay suit, with Polly sidling and bridling just behind her,
  6657. imitating her as well as he could, and occasionally stopping to laugh
  6658. or exclaim, "Ain't we fine? Get along, you fright! Hold your tongue!
  6659. Kiss me, dear! Ha! Ha!"
  6660. Having with difficulty restrained an explosion of merriment, lest it
  6661. should offend her majesty, Laurie tapped and was graciously received.
  6662. "Sit down and rest while I put these things away, then I want to
  6663. consult you about a very serious matter," said Amy, when she had shown
  6664. her splendor and driven Polly into a corner. "That bird is the trial
  6665. of my life," she continued, removing the pink mountain from her head,
  6666. while Laurie seated himself astride a chair.
  6667. "Yesterday, when Aunt was asleep and I was trying to be as still as a
  6668. mouse, Polly began to squall and flap about in his cage, so I went to
  6669. let him out, and found a big spider there. I poked it out, and it ran
  6670. under the bookcase. Polly marched straight after it, stooped down and
  6671. peeped under the bookcase, saying, in his funny way, with a cock of his
  6672. eye, 'Come out and take a walk, my dear.' I couldn't help laughing,
  6673. which made Poll swear, and Aunt woke up and scolded us both."
  6674. "Did the spider accept the old fellow's invitation?" asked Laurie,
  6675. yawning.
  6676. "Yes, out it came, and away ran Polly, frightened to death, and
  6677. scrambled up on Aunt's chair, calling out, 'Catch her! Catch her! Catch
  6678. her!' as I chased the spider."
  6679. "That's a lie! Oh, lor!" cried the parrot, pecking at Laurie's toes.
  6680. "I'd wring your neck if you were mine, you old torment," cried Laurie,
  6681. shaking his fist at the bird, who put his head on one side and gravely
  6682. croaked, "Allyluyer! bless your buttons, dear!"
  6683. "Now I'm ready," said Amy, shutting the wardrobe and taking a piece of
  6684. paper out of her pocket. "I want you to read that, please, and tell me
  6685. if it is legal and right. I felt I ought to do it, for life is
  6686. uncertain and I don't want any ill feeling over my tomb."
  6687. Laurie bit his lips, and turning a little from the pensive speaker,
  6688. read the following document, with praiseworthy gravity, considering the
  6689. spelling:
  6690. MY LAST WILL AND TESTIMENT
  6691. I, Amy Curtis March, being in my sane mind, go give and bequeethe all
  6692. my earthly property--viz. to wit:--namely
  6693. To my father, my best pictures, sketches, maps, and works of art,
  6694. including frames. Also my $100, to do what he likes with.
  6695. To my mother, all my clothes, except the blue apron with pockets--also
  6696. my likeness, and my medal, with much love.
  6697. To my dear sister Margaret, I give my turkquoise ring (if I get it),
  6698. also my green box with the doves on it, also my piece of real lace for
  6699. her neck, and my sketch of her as a memorial of her 'little girl'.
  6700. To Jo I leave my breastpin, the one mended with sealing wax, also my
  6701. bronze inkstand--she lost the cover--and my most precious plaster
  6702. rabbit, because I am sorry I burned up her story.
  6703. To Beth (if she lives after me) I give my dolls and the little bureau,
  6704. my fan, my linen collars and my new slippers if she can wear them being
  6705. thin when she gets well. And I herewith also leave her my regret that
  6706. I ever made fun of old Joanna.
  6707. To my friend and neighbor Theodore Laurence I bequeethe my paper mashay
  6708. portfolio, my clay model of a horse though he did say it hadn't any
  6709. neck. Also in return for his great kindness in the hour of affliction
  6710. any one of my artistic works he likes, Noter Dame is the best.
  6711. To our venerable benefactor Mr. Laurence I leave my purple box with a
  6712. looking glass in the cover which will be nice for his pens and remind
  6713. him of the departed girl who thanks him for his favors to her family,
  6714. especially Beth.
  6715. I wish my favorite playmate Kitty Bryant to have the blue silk apron
  6716. and my gold-bead ring with a kiss.
  6717. To Hannah I give the bandbox she wanted and all the patchwork I leave
  6718. hoping she 'will remember me, when it you see'.
  6719. And now having disposed of my most valuable property I hope all will be
  6720. satisfied and not blame the dead. I forgive everyone, and trust we may
  6721. all meet when the trump shall sound. Amen.
  6722. To this will and testiment I set my hand and seal on this 20th day of
  6723. Nov. Anni Domino 1861.
  6724. Amy Curtis March
  6725. Witnesses:
  6726. Estelle Valnor, Theodore Laurence.
  6727. The last name was written in pencil, and Amy explained that he was to
  6728. rewrite it in ink and seal it up for her properly.
  6729. "What put it into your head? Did anyone tell you about Beth's giving
  6730. away her things?" asked Laurie soberly, as Amy laid a bit of red tape,
  6731. with sealing wax, a taper, and a standish before him.
  6732. She explained and then asked anxiously, "What about Beth?"
  6733. "I'm sorry I spoke, but as I did, I'll tell you. She felt so ill one
  6734. day that she told Jo she wanted to give her piano to Meg, her cats to
  6735. you, and the poor old doll to Jo, who would love it for her sake. She
  6736. was sorry she had so little to give, and left locks of hair to the rest
  6737. of us, and her best love to Grandpa. She never thought of a will."
  6738. Laurie was signing and sealing as he spoke, and did not look up till a
  6739. great tear dropped on the paper. Amy's face was full of trouble, but
  6740. she only said, "Don't people put sort of postscripts to their wills,
  6741. sometimes?"
  6742. "Yes, 'codicils', they call them."
  6743. "Put one in mine then, that I wish all my curls cut off, and given
  6744. round to my friends. I forgot it, but I want it done though it will
  6745. spoil my looks."
  6746. Laurie added it, smiling at Amy's last and greatest sacrifice. Then he
  6747. amused her for an hour, and was much interested in all her trials. But
  6748. when he came to go, Amy held him back to whisper with trembling lips,
  6749. "Is there really any danger about Beth?"
  6750. "I'm afraid there is, but we must hope for the best, so don't cry,
  6751. dear." And Laurie put his arm about her with a brotherly gesture which
  6752. was very comforting.
  6753. When he had gone, she went to her little chapel, and sitting in the
  6754. twilight, prayed for Beth, with streaming tears and an aching heart,
  6755. feeling that a million turquoise rings would not console her for the
  6756. loss of her gentle little sister.
  6757. CHAPTER TWENTY
  6758. CONFIDENTIAL
  6759. I don't think I have any words in which to tell the meeting of the
  6760. mother and daughters. Such hours are beautiful to live, but very hard
  6761. to describe, so I will leave it to the imagination of my readers,
  6762. merely saying that the house was full of genuine happiness, and that
  6763. Meg's tender hope was realized, for when Beth woke from that long,
  6764. healing sleep, the first objects on which her eyes fell were the little
  6765. rose and Mother's face. Too weak to wonder at anything, she only
  6766. smiled and nestled close in the loving arms about her, feeling that the
  6767. hungry longing was satisfied at last. Then she slept again, and the
  6768. girls waited upon their mother, for she would not unclasp the thin hand
  6769. which clung to hers even in sleep.
  6770. Hannah had 'dished up' an astonishing breakfast for the traveler,
  6771. finding it impossible to vent her excitement in any other way, and Meg
  6772. and Jo fed their mother like dutiful young storks, while they listened
  6773. to her whispered account of Father's state, Mr. Brooke's promise to
  6774. stay and nurse him, the delays which the storm occasioned on the
  6775. homeward journey, and the unspeakable comfort Laurie's hopeful face had
  6776. given her when she arrived, worn out with fatigue, anxiety, and cold.
  6777. What a strange yet pleasant day that was. So brilliant and gay
  6778. without, for all the world seemed abroad to welcome the first snow. So
  6779. quiet and reposeful within, for everyone slept, spent with watching,
  6780. and a Sabbath stillness reigned through the house, while nodding Hannah
  6781. mounted guard at the door. With a blissful sense of burdens lifted
  6782. off, Meg and Jo closed their weary eyes, and lay at rest, like
  6783. storm-beaten boats safe at anchor in a quiet harbor. Mrs. March would
  6784. not leave Beth's side, but rested in the big chair, waking often to
  6785. look at, touch, and brood over her child, like a miser over some
  6786. recovered treasure.
  6787. Laurie meanwhile posted off to comfort Amy, and told his story so well
  6788. that Aunt March actually 'sniffed' herself, and never once said "I told
  6789. you so". Amy came out so strong on this occasion that I think the good
  6790. thoughts in the little chapel really began to bear fruit. She dried
  6791. her tears quickly, restrained her impatience to see her mother, and
  6792. never even thought of the turquoise ring, when the old lady heartily
  6793. agreed in Laurie's opinion, that she behaved 'like a capital little
  6794. woman'. Even Polly seemed impressed, for he called her a good girl,
  6795. blessed her buttons, and begged her to "come and take a walk, dear", in
  6796. his most affable tone. She would very gladly have gone out to enjoy
  6797. the bright wintry weather, but discovering that Laurie was dropping
  6798. with sleep in spite of manful efforts to conceal the fact, she
  6799. persuaded him to rest on the sofa, while she wrote a note to her
  6800. mother. She was a long time about it, and when she returned, he was
  6801. stretched out with both arms under his head, sound asleep, while Aunt
  6802. March had pulled down the curtains and sat doing nothing in an unusual
  6803. fit of benignity.
  6804. After a while, they began to think he was not going to wake up till
  6805. night, and I'm not sure that he would, had he not been effectually
  6806. roused by Amy's cry of joy at sight of her mother. There probably were
  6807. a good many happy little girls in and about the city that day, but it
  6808. is my private opinion that Amy was the happiest of all, when she sat in
  6809. her mother's lap and told her trials, receiving consolation and
  6810. compensation in the shape of approving smiles and fond caresses. They
  6811. were alone together in the chapel, to which her mother did not object
  6812. when its purpose was explained to her.
  6813. "On the contrary, I like it very much, dear," looking from the dusty
  6814. rosary to the well-worn little book, and the lovely picture with its
  6815. garland of evergreen. "It is an excellent plan to have some place
  6816. where we can go to be quiet, when things vex or grieve us. There are a
  6817. good many hard times in this life of ours, but we can always bear them
  6818. if we ask help in the right way. I think my little girl is learning
  6819. this."
  6820. "Yes, Mother, and when I go home I mean to have a corner in the big
  6821. closet to put my books and the copy of that picture which I've tried to
  6822. make. The woman's face is not good, it's too beautiful for me to draw,
  6823. but the baby is done better, and I love it very much. I like to think
  6824. He was a little child once, for then I don't seem so far away, and that
  6825. helps me."
  6826. As Amy pointed to the smiling Christ child on his Mother's knee, Mrs.
  6827. March saw something on the lifted hand that made her smile. She said
  6828. nothing, but Amy understood the look, and after a minute's pause, she
  6829. added gravely, "I wanted to speak to you about this, but I forgot it.
  6830. Aunt gave me the ring today. She called me to her and kissed me, and
  6831. put it on my finger, and said I was a credit to her, and she'd like to
  6832. keep me always. She gave that funny guard to keep the turquoise on, as
  6833. it's too big. I'd like to wear them Mother, can I?"
  6834. "They are very pretty, but I think you're rather too young for such
  6835. ornaments, Amy," said Mrs. March, looking at the plump little hand,
  6836. with the band of sky-blue stones on the forefinger, and the quaint
  6837. guard formed of two tiny golden hands clasped together.
  6838. "I'll try not to be vain," said Amy. "I don't think I like it only
  6839. because it's so pretty, but I want to wear it as the girl in the story
  6840. wore her bracelet, to remind me of something."
  6841. "Do you mean Aunt March?" asked her mother, laughing.
  6842. "No, to remind me not to be selfish." Amy looked so earnest and
  6843. sincere about it that her mother stopped laughing, and listened
  6844. respectfully to the little plan.
  6845. "I've thought a great deal lately about my 'bundle of naughties', and
  6846. being selfish is the largest one in it, so I'm going to try hard to
  6847. cure it, if I can. Beth isn't selfish, and that's the reason everyone
  6848. loves her and feels so bad at the thoughts of losing her. People
  6849. wouldn't feel so bad about me if I was sick, and I don't deserve to
  6850. have them, but I'd like to be loved and missed by a great many friends,
  6851. so I'm going to try and be like Beth all I can. I'm apt to forget my
  6852. resolutions, but if I had something always about me to remind me, I
  6853. guess I should do better. May we try this way?"
  6854. "Yes, but I have more faith in the corner of the big closet. Wear your
  6855. ring, dear, and do your best. I think you will prosper, for the
  6856. sincere wish to be good is half the battle. Now I must go back to
  6857. Beth. Keep up your heart, little daughter, and we will soon have you
  6858. home again."
  6859. That evening while Meg was writing to her father to report the
  6860. traveler's safe arrival, Jo slipped upstairs into Beth's room, and
  6861. finding her mother in her usual place, stood a minute twisting her
  6862. fingers in her hair, with a worried gesture and an undecided look.
  6863. "What is it, deary?" asked Mrs. March, holding out her hand, with a
  6864. face which invited confidence.
  6865. "I want to tell you something, Mother."
  6866. "About Meg?"
  6867. "How quickly you guessed! Yes, it's about her, and though it's a
  6868. little thing, it fidgets me."
  6869. "Beth is asleep. Speak low, and tell me all about it. That Moffat
  6870. hasn't been here, I hope?" asked Mrs. March rather sharply.
  6871. "No. I should have shut the door in his face if he had," said Jo,
  6872. settling herself on the floor at her mother's feet. "Last summer Meg
  6873. left a pair of gloves over at the Laurences' and only one was returned.
  6874. We forgot about it, till Teddy told me that Mr. Brooke owned that he
  6875. liked Meg but didn't dare say so, she was so young and he so poor.
  6876. Now, isn't it a dreadful state of things?"
  6877. "Do you think Meg cares for him?" asked Mrs. March, with an anxious
  6878. look.
  6879. "Mercy me! I don't know anything about love and such nonsense!" cried
  6880. Jo, with a funny mixture of interest and contempt. "In novels, the
  6881. girls show it by starting and blushing, fainting away, growing thin,
  6882. and acting like fools. Now Meg does not do anything of the sort. She
  6883. eats and drinks and sleeps like a sensible creature, she looks straight
  6884. in my face when I talk about that man, and only blushes a little bit
  6885. when Teddy jokes about lovers. I forbid him to do it, but he doesn't
  6886. mind me as he ought."
  6887. "Then you fancy that Meg is not interested in John?"
  6888. "Who?" cried Jo, staring.
  6889. "Mr. Brooke. I call him 'John' now. We fell into the way of doing so
  6890. at the hospital, and he likes it."
  6891. "Oh, dear! I know you'll take his part. He's been good to Father, and
  6892. you won't send him away, but let Meg marry him, if she wants to. Mean
  6893. thing! To go petting Papa and helping you, just to wheedle you into
  6894. liking him." And Jo pulled her hair again with a wrathful tweak.
  6895. "My dear, don't get angry about it, and I will tell you how it
  6896. happened. John went with me at Mr. Laurence's request, and was so
  6897. devoted to poor Father that we couldn't help getting fond of him. He
  6898. was perfectly open and honorable about Meg, for he told us he loved
  6899. her, but would earn a comfortable home before he asked her to marry
  6900. him. He only wanted our leave to love her and work for her, and the
  6901. right to make her love him if he could. He is a truly excellent young
  6902. man, and we could not refuse to listen to him, but I will not consent
  6903. to Meg's engaging herself so young."
  6904. "Of course not. It would be idiotic! I knew there was mischief
  6905. brewing. I felt it, and now it's worse than I imagined. I just wish I
  6906. could marry Meg myself, and keep her safe in the family."
  6907. This odd arrangement made Mrs. March smile, but she said gravely, "Jo,
  6908. I confide in you and don't wish you to say anything to Meg yet. When
  6909. John comes back, and I see them together, I can judge better of her
  6910. feelings toward him."
  6911. "She'll see those handsome eyes that she talks about, and then it will
  6912. be all up with her. She's got such a soft heart, it will melt like
  6913. butter in the sun if anyone looks sentimentlly at her. She read the
  6914. short reports he sent more than she did your letters, and pinched me
  6915. when I spoke of it, and likes brown eyes, and doesn't think John an
  6916. ugly name, and she'll go and fall in love, and there's an end of peace
  6917. and fun, and cozy times together. I see it all! They'll go lovering
  6918. around the house, and we shall have to dodge. Meg will be absorbed and
  6919. no good to me any more. Brooke will scratch up a fortune somehow, carry
  6920. her off, and make a hole in the family, and I shall break my heart, and
  6921. everything will be abominably uncomfortable. Oh, dear me! Why weren't
  6922. we all boys, then there wouldn't be any bother."
  6923. Jo leaned her chin on her knees in a disconsolate attitude and shook
  6924. her fist at the reprehensible John. Mrs. March sighed, and Jo looked
  6925. up with an air of relief.
  6926. "You don't like it, Mother? I'm glad of it. Let's send him about his
  6927. business, and not tell Meg a word of it, but all be happy together as
  6928. we always have been."
  6929. "I did wrong to sigh, Jo. It is natural and right you should all go to
  6930. homes of your own in time, but I do want to keep my girls as long as I
  6931. can, and I am sorry that this happened so soon, for Meg is only
  6932. seventeen and it will be some years before John can make a home for
  6933. her. Your father and I have agreed that she shall not bind herself in
  6934. any way, nor be married, before twenty. If she and John love one
  6935. another, they can wait, and test the love by doing so. She is
  6936. conscientious, and I have no fear of her treating him unkindly. My
  6937. pretty, tender hearted girl! I hope things will go happily with her."
  6938. "Hadn't you rather have her marry a rich man?" asked Jo, as her
  6939. mother's voice faltered a little over the last words.
  6940. "Money is a good and useful thing, Jo, and I hope my girls will never
  6941. feel the need of it too bitterly, nor be tempted by too much. I should
  6942. like to know that John was firmly established in some good business,
  6943. which gave him an income large enough to keep free from debt and make
  6944. Meg comfortable. I'm not ambitious for a splendid fortune, a
  6945. fashionable position, or a great name for my girls. If rank and money
  6946. come with love and virtue, also, I should accept them gratefully, and
  6947. enjoy your good fortune, but I know, by experience, how much genuine
  6948. happiness can be had in a plain little house, where the daily bread is
  6949. earned, and some privations give sweetness to the few pleasures. I am
  6950. content to see Meg begin humbly, for if I am not mistaken, she will be
  6951. rich in the possession of a good man's heart, and that is better than a
  6952. fortune."
  6953. "I understand, Mother, and quite agree, but I'm disappointed about Meg,
  6954. for I'd planned to have her marry Teddy by-and-by and sit in the lap of
  6955. luxury all her days. Wouldn't it be nice?" asked Jo, looking up with a
  6956. brighter face.
  6957. "He is younger than she, you know," began Mrs. March, but Jo broke in...
  6958. "Only a little, he's old for his age, and tall, and can be quite
  6959. grown-up in his manners if he likes. Then he's rich and generous and
  6960. good, and loves us all, and I say it's a pity my plan is spoiled."
  6961. "I'm afraid Laurie is hardly grown-up enough for Meg, and altogether
  6962. too much of a weathercock just now for anyone to depend on. Don't make
  6963. plans, Jo, but let time and their own hearts mate your friends. We
  6964. can't meddle safely in such matters, and had better not get 'romantic
  6965. rubbish' as you call it, into our heads, lest it spoil our friendship."
  6966. "Well, I won't, but I hate to see things going all crisscross and
  6967. getting snarled up, when a pull here and a snip there would straighten
  6968. it out. I wish wearing flatirons on our heads would keep us from
  6969. growing up. But buds will be roses, and kittens cats, more's the pity!"
  6970. "What's that about flatirons and cats?" asked Meg, as she crept into
  6971. the room with the finished letter in her hand.
  6972. "Only one of my stupid speeches. I'm going to bed. Come, Peggy," said
  6973. Jo, unfolding herself like an animated puzzle.
  6974. "Quite right, and beautifully written. Please add that I send my love
  6975. to John," said Mrs. March, as she glanced over the letter and gave it
  6976. back.
  6977. "Do you call him 'John'?" asked Meg, smiling, with her innocent eyes
  6978. looking down into her mother's.
  6979. "Yes, he has been like a son to us, and we are very fond of him,"
  6980. replied Mrs. March, returning the look with a keen one.
  6981. "I'm glad of that, he is so lonely. Good night, Mother, dear. It is
  6982. so inexpressibly comfortable to have you here," was Meg's answer.
  6983. The kiss her mother gave her was a very tender one, and as she went
  6984. away, Mrs. March said, with a mixture of satisfaction and regret, "She
  6985. does not love John yet, but will soon learn to."
  6986. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  6987. LAURIE MAKES MISCHIEF, AND JO MAKES PEACE
  6988. Jo's face was a study next day, for the secret rather weighed upon her,
  6989. and she found it hard not to look mysterious and important. Meg
  6990. observed it, but did not trouble herself to make inquiries, for she had
  6991. learned that the best way to manage Jo was by the law of contraries, so
  6992. she felt sure of being told everything if she did not ask. She was
  6993. rather surprised, therefore, when the silence remained unbroken, and Jo
  6994. assumed a patronizing air, which decidedly aggravated Meg, who in turn
  6995. assumed an air of dignified reserve and devoted herself to her mother.
  6996. This left Jo to her own devices, for Mrs. March had taken her place as
  6997. nurse, and bade her rest, exercise, and amuse herself after her long
  6998. confinement. Amy being gone, Laurie was her only refuge, and much as
  6999. she enjoyed his society, she rather dreaded him just then, for he was
  7000. an incorrigible tease, and she feared he would coax the secret from her.
  7001. She was quite right, for the mischief-loving lad no sooner suspected a
  7002. mystery than he set himself to find it out, and led Jo a trying life of
  7003. it. He wheedled, bribed, ridiculed, threatened, and scolded; affected
  7004. indifference, that he might surprise the truth from her; declared he
  7005. knew, then that he didn't care; and at last, by dint of perseverance,
  7006. he satisfied himself that it concerned Meg and Mr. Brooke. Feeling
  7007. indignant that he was not taken into his tutor's confidence, he set his
  7008. wits to work to devise some proper retaliation for the slight.
  7009. Meg meanwhile had apparently forgotten the matter and was absorbed in
  7010. preparations for her father's return, but all of a sudden a change
  7011. seemed to come over her, and, for a day or two, she was quite unlike
  7012. herself. She started when spoken to, blushed when looked at, was very
  7013. quiet, and sat over her sewing, with a timid, troubled look on her
  7014. face. To her mother's inquiries she answered that she was quite well,
  7015. and Jo's she silenced by begging to be let alone.
  7016. "She feels it in the air--love, I mean--and she's going very fast.
  7017. She's got most of the symptoms--is twittery and cross, doesn't eat,
  7018. lies awake, and mopes in corners. I caught her singing that song he
  7019. gave her, and once she said 'John', as you do, and then turned as red
  7020. as a poppy. Whatever shall we do?" said Jo, looking ready for any
  7021. measures, however violent.
  7022. "Nothing but wait. Let her alone, be kind and patient, and Father's
  7023. coming will settle everything," replied her mother.
  7024. "Here's a note to you, Meg, all sealed up. How odd! Teddy never seals
  7025. mine," said Jo next day, as she distributed the contents of the little
  7026. post office.
  7027. Mrs. March and Jo were deep in their own affairs, when a sound from Meg
  7028. made them look up to see her staring at her note with a frightened face.
  7029. "My child, what is it?" cried her mother, running to her, while Jo
  7030. tried to take the paper which had done the mischief.
  7031. "It's all a mistake, he didn't send it. Oh, Jo, how could you do it?"
  7032. and Meg hid her face in her hands, crying as if her heart were quite
  7033. broken.
  7034. "Me! I've done nothing! What's she talking about?" cried Jo,
  7035. bewildered.
  7036. Meg's mild eyes kindled with anger as she pulled a crumpled note from
  7037. her pocket and threw it at Jo, saying reproachfully, "You wrote it, and
  7038. that bad boy helped you. How could you be so rude, so mean, and cruel
  7039. to us both?"
  7040. Jo hardly heard her, for she and her mother were reading the note,
  7041. which was written in a peculiar hand.
  7042. "My Dearest Margaret,
  7043. "I can no longer restrain my passion, and must know my fate before I
  7044. return. I dare not tell your parents yet, but I think they would
  7045. consent if they knew that we adored one another. Mr. Laurence will
  7046. help me to some good place, and then, my sweet girl, you will make me
  7047. happy. I implore you to say nothing to your family yet, but to send
  7048. one word of hope through Laurie to,
  7049. "Your devoted John."
  7050. "Oh, the little villain! That's the way he meant to pay me for keeping
  7051. my word to Mother. I'll give him a hearty scolding and bring him over
  7052. to beg pardon," cried Jo, burning to execute immediate justice. But
  7053. her mother held her back, saying, with a look she seldom wore...
  7054. "Stop, Jo, you must clear yourself first. You have played so many
  7055. pranks that I am afraid you have had a hand in this."
  7056. "On my word, Mother, I haven't! I never saw that note before, and
  7057. don't know anything about it, as true as I live!" said Jo, so earnestly
  7058. that they believed her. "If I had taken part in it I'd have done it
  7059. better than this, and have written a sensible note. I should think
  7060. you'd have known Mr. Brooke wouldn't write such stuff as that," she
  7061. added, scornfully tossing down the paper.
  7062. "It's like his writing," faltered Meg, comparing it with the note in
  7063. her hand.
  7064. "Oh, Meg, you didn't answer it?" cried Mrs. March quickly.
  7065. "Yes, I did!" and Meg hid her face again, overcome with shame.
  7066. "Here's a scrape! Do let me bring that wicked boy over to explain and
  7067. be lectured. I can't rest till I get hold of him." And Jo made for the
  7068. door again.
  7069. "Hush! Let me handle this, for it is worse than I thought. Margaret,
  7070. tell me the whole story," commanded Mrs. March, sitting down by Meg,
  7071. yet keeping hold of Jo, lest she should fly off.
  7072. "I received the first letter from Laurie, who didn't look as if he knew
  7073. anything about it," began Meg, without looking up. "I was worried at
  7074. first and meant to tell you, then I remembered how you liked Mr.
  7075. Brooke, so I thought you wouldn't mind if I kept my little secret for a
  7076. few days. I'm so silly that I liked to think no one knew, and while I
  7077. was deciding what to say, I felt like the girls in books, who have such
  7078. things to do. Forgive me, Mother, I'm paid for my silliness now. I
  7079. never can look him in the face again."
  7080. "What did you say to him?" asked Mrs. March.
  7081. "I only said I was too young to do anything about it yet, that I didn't
  7082. wish to have secrets from you, and he must speak to father. I was very
  7083. grateful for his kindness, and would be his friend, but nothing more,
  7084. for a long while."
  7085. Mrs. March smiled, as if well pleased, and Jo clapped her hands,
  7086. exclaiming, with a laugh, "You are almost equal to Caroline Percy, who
  7087. was a pattern of prudence! Tell on, Meg. What did he say to that?"
  7088. "He writes in a different way entirely, telling me that he never sent
  7089. any love letter at all, and is very sorry that my roguish sister, Jo,
  7090. should take liberties with our names. It's very kind and respectful,
  7091. but think how dreadful for me!"
  7092. Meg leaned against her mother, looking the image of despair, and Jo
  7093. tramped about the room, calling Laurie names. All of a sudden she
  7094. stopped, caught up the two notes, and after looking at them closely,
  7095. said decidedly, "I don't believe Brooke ever saw either of these
  7096. letters. Teddy wrote both, and keeps yours to crow over me with
  7097. because I wouldn't tell him my secret."
  7098. "Don't have any secrets, Jo. Tell it to Mother and keep out of
  7099. trouble, as I should have done," said Meg warningly.
  7100. "Bless you, child! Mother told me."
  7101. "That will do, Jo. I'll comfort Meg while you go and get Laurie. I
  7102. shall sift the matter to the bottom, and put a stop to such pranks at
  7103. once."
  7104. Away ran Jo, and Mrs. March gently told Meg Mr. Brooke's real feelings.
  7105. "Now, dear, what are your own? Do you love him enough to wait till he
  7106. can make a home for you, or will you keep yourself quite free for the
  7107. present?"
  7108. "I've been so scared and worried, I don't want to have anything to do
  7109. with lovers for a long while, perhaps never," answered Meg petulantly.
  7110. "If John doesn't know anything about this nonsense, don't tell him, and
  7111. make Jo and Laurie hold their tongues. I won't be deceived and plagued
  7112. and made a fool of. It's a shame!"
  7113. Seeing Meg's usually gentle temper was roused and her pride hurt by
  7114. this mischievous joke, Mrs. March soothed her by promises of entire
  7115. silence and great discretion for the future. The instant Laurie's step
  7116. was heard in the hall, Meg fled into the study, and Mrs. March received
  7117. the culprit alone. Jo had not told him why he was wanted, fearing he
  7118. wouldn't come, but he knew the minute he saw Mrs. March's face, and
  7119. stood twirling his hat with a guilty air which convicted him at once.
  7120. Jo was dismissed, but chose to march up and down the hall like a
  7121. sentinel, having some fear that the prisoner might bolt. The sound of
  7122. voices in the parlor rose and fell for half an hour, but what happened
  7123. during that interview the girls never knew.
  7124. When they were called in, Laurie was standing by their mother with such
  7125. a penitent face that Jo forgave him on the spot, but did not think it
  7126. wise to betray the fact. Meg received his humble apology, and was much
  7127. comforted by the assurance that Brooke knew nothing of the joke.
  7128. "I'll never tell him to my dying day, wild horses shan't drag it out of
  7129. me, so you'll forgive me, Meg, and I'll do anything to show how
  7130. out-and-out sorry I am," he added, looking very much ashamed of himself.
  7131. "I'll try, but it was a very ungentlemanly thing to do, I didn't think
  7132. you could be so sly and malicious, Laurie," replied Meg, trying to hide
  7133. her maidenly confusion under a gravely reproachful air.
  7134. "It was altogether abominable, and I don't deserve to be spoken to for
  7135. a month, but you will, though, won't you?" And Laurie folded his hands
  7136. together with such and imploring gesture, as he spoke in his
  7137. irresistibly persuasive tone, that it was impossible to frown upon him
  7138. in spite of his scandalous behavior.
  7139. Meg pardoned him, and Mrs. March's grave face relaxed, in spite of her
  7140. efforts to keep sober, when she heard him declare that he would atone
  7141. for his sins by all sorts of penances, and abase himself like a worm
  7142. before the injured damsel.
  7143. Jo stood aloof, meanwhile, trying to harden her heart against him, and
  7144. succeeding only in primming up her face into an expression of entire
  7145. disapprobation. Laurie looked at her once or twice, but as she showed
  7146. no sign of relenting, he felt injured, and turned his back on her till
  7147. the others were done with him, when he made her a low bow and walked
  7148. off without a word.
  7149. As soon as he had gone, she wished she had been more forgiving, and
  7150. when Meg and her mother went upstairs, she felt lonely and longed for
  7151. Teddy. After resisting for some time, she yielded to the impulse, and
  7152. armed with a book to return, went over to the big house.
  7153. "Is Mr. Laurence in?" asked Jo, of a housemaid, who was coming
  7154. downstairs.
  7155. "Yes, Miss, but I don't believe he's seeable just yet."
  7156. "Why not? Is he ill?"
  7157. "La, no Miss, but he's had a scene with Mr. Laurie, who is in one of
  7158. his tantrums about something, which vexes the old gentleman, so I
  7159. dursn't go nigh him."
  7160. "Where is Laurie?"
  7161. "Shut up in his room, and he won't answer, though I've been a-tapping.
  7162. I don't know what's to become of the dinner, for it's ready, and
  7163. there's no one to eat it."
  7164. "I'll go and see what the matter is. I'm not afraid of either of them."
  7165. Up went Jo, and knocked smartly on the door of Laurie's little study.
  7166. "Stop that, or I'll open the door and make you!" called out the young
  7167. gentleman in a threatening tone.
  7168. Jo immediately knocked again. The door flew open, and in she bounced
  7169. before Laurie could recover from his surprise. Seeing that he really
  7170. was out of temper, Jo, who knew how to manage him, assumed a contrite
  7171. expression, and going artistically down upon her knees, said meekly,
  7172. "Please forgive me for being so cross. I came to make it up, and can't
  7173. go away till I have."
  7174. "It's all right. Get up, and don't be a goose, Jo," was the cavalier
  7175. reply to her petition.
  7176. "Thank you, I will. Could I ask what's the matter? You don't look
  7177. exactly easy in your mind."
  7178. "I've been shaken, and I won't bear it!" growled Laurie indignantly.
  7179. "Who did it?" demanded Jo.
  7180. "Grandfather. If it had been anyone else I'd have..." And the injured
  7181. youth finished his sentence by an energetic gesture of the right arm.
  7182. "That's nothing. I often shake you, and you don't mind," said Jo
  7183. soothingly.
  7184. "Pooh! You're a girl, and it's fun, but I'll allow no man to shake me!"
  7185. "I don't think anyone would care to try it, if you looked as much like
  7186. a thundercloud as you do now. Why were you treated so?"
  7187. "Just because I wouldn't say what your mother wanted me for. I'd
  7188. promised not to tell, and of course I wasn't going to break my word."
  7189. "Couldn't you satisfy your grandpa in any other way?"
  7190. "No, he would have the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the
  7191. truth. I'd have told my part of the scrape, if I could without
  7192. bringing Meg in. As I couldn't, I held my tongue, and bore the
  7193. scolding till the old gentleman collared me. Then I bolted, for fear I
  7194. should forget myself."
  7195. "It wasn't nice, but he's sorry, I know, so go down and make up. I'll
  7196. help you."
  7197. "Hanged if I do! I'm not going to be lectured and pummelled by
  7198. everyone, just for a bit of a frolic. I was sorry about Meg, and
  7199. begged pardon like a man, but I won't do it again, when I wasn't in the
  7200. wrong."
  7201. "He didn't know that."
  7202. "He ought to trust me, and not act as if I was a baby. It's no use,
  7203. Jo, he's got to learn that I'm able to take care of myself, and don't
  7204. need anyone's apron string to hold on by."
  7205. "What pepper pots you are!" sighed Jo. "How do you mean to settle this
  7206. affair?"
  7207. "Well, he ought to beg pardon, and believe me when I say I can't tell
  7208. him what the fuss's about."
  7209. "Bless you! He won't do that."
  7210. "I won't go down till he does."
  7211. "Now, Teddy, be sensible. Let it pass, and I'll explain what I can.
  7212. You can't stay here, so what's the use of being melodramatic?"
  7213. "I don't intend to stay here long, anyway. I'll slip off and take a
  7214. journey somewhere, and when Grandpa misses me he'll come round fast
  7215. enough."
  7216. "I dare say, but you ought not to go and worry him."
  7217. "Don't preach. I'll go to Washington and see Brooke. It's gay there,
  7218. and I'll enjoy myself after the troubles."
  7219. "What fun you'd have! I wish I could run off too," said Jo, forgetting
  7220. her part of mentor in lively visions of martial life at the capital.
  7221. "Come on, then! Why not? You go and surprise your father, and I'll
  7222. stir up old Brooke. It would be a glorious joke. Let's do it, Jo.
  7223. We'll leave a letter saying we are all right, and trot off at once.
  7224. I've got money enough. It will do you good, and no harm, as you go to
  7225. your father."
  7226. For a moment Jo looked as if she would agree, for wild as the plan was,
  7227. it just suited her. She was tired of care and confinement, longed for
  7228. change, and thoughts of her father blended temptingly with the novel
  7229. charms of camps and hospitals, liberty and fun. Her eyes kindled as
  7230. they turned wistfully toward the window, but they fell on the old house
  7231. opposite, and she shook her head with sorrowful decision.
  7232. "If I was a boy, we'd run away together, and have a capital time, but
  7233. as I'm a miserable girl, I must be proper and stop at home. Don't tempt
  7234. me, Teddy, it's a crazy plan."
  7235. "That's the fun of it," began Laurie, who had got a willful fit on him
  7236. and was possessed to break out of bounds in some way.
  7237. "Hold your tongue!" cried Jo, covering her ears. "'Prunes and prisms'
  7238. are my doom, and I may as well make up my mind to it. I came here to
  7239. moralize, not to hear things that make me skip to think of."
  7240. "I know Meg would wet-blanket such a proposal, but I thought you had
  7241. more spirit," began Laurie insinuatingly.
  7242. "Bad boy, be quiet! Sit down and think of your own sins, don't go
  7243. making me add to mine. If I get your grandpa to apologize for the
  7244. shaking, will you give up running away?" asked Jo seriously.
  7245. "Yes, but you won't do it," answered Laurie, who wished to make up, but
  7246. felt that his outraged dignity must be appeased first.
  7247. "If I can manage the young one, I can the old one," muttered Jo, as she
  7248. walked away, leaving Laurie bent over a railroad map with his head
  7249. propped up on both hands.
  7250. "Come in!" and Mr. Laurence's gruff voice sounded gruffer than ever, as
  7251. Jo tapped at his door.
  7252. "It's only me, Sir, come to return a book," she said blandly, as she
  7253. entered.
  7254. "Want any more?" asked the old gentleman, looking grim and vexed, but
  7255. trying not to show it.
  7256. "Yes, please. I like old Sam so well, I think I'll try the second
  7257. volume," returned Jo, hoping to propitiate him by accepting a second
  7258. dose of Boswell's Johnson, as he had recommended that lively work.
  7259. The shaggy eyebrows unbent a little as he rolled the steps toward the
  7260. shelf where the Johnsonian literature was placed. Jo skipped up, and
  7261. sitting on the top step, affected to be searching for her book, but was
  7262. really wondering how best to introduce the dangerous object of her
  7263. visit. Mr. Laurence seemed to suspect that something was brewing in
  7264. her mind, for after taking several brisk turns about the room, he faced
  7265. round on her, speaking so abruptly that Rasselas tumbled face downward
  7266. on the floor.
  7267. "What has that boy been about? Don't try to shield him. I know he has
  7268. been in mischief by the way he acted when he came home. I can't get a
  7269. word from him, and when I threatened to shake the truth out of him he
  7270. bolted upstairs and locked himself into his room."
  7271. "He did wrong, but we forgave him, and all promised not to say a word
  7272. to anyone," began Jo reluctantly.
  7273. "That won't do. He shall not shelter himself behind a promise from you
  7274. softhearted girls. If he's done anything amiss, he shall confess, beg
  7275. pardon, and be punished. Out with it, Jo. I won't be kept in the dark."
  7276. Mr. Laurence looked so alarming and spoke so sharply that Jo would have
  7277. gladly run away, if she could, but she was perched aloft on the steps,
  7278. and he stood at the foot, a lion in the path, so she had to stay and
  7279. brave it out.
  7280. "Indeed, Sir, I cannot tell. Mother forbade it. Laurie has confessed,
  7281. asked pardon, and been punished quite enough. We don't keep silence to
  7282. shield him, but someone else, and it will make more trouble if you
  7283. interfere. Please don't. It was partly my fault, but it's all right
  7284. now. So let's forget it, and talk about the _Rambler_ or something
  7285. pleasant."
  7286. "Hang the _Rambler!_ Come down and give me your word that this
  7287. harum-scarum boy of mine hasn't done anything ungrateful or
  7288. impertinent. If he has, after all your kindness to him, I'll thrash
  7289. him with my own hands."
  7290. The threat sounded awful, but did not alarm Jo, for she knew the
  7291. irascible old gentleman would never lift a finger against his grandson,
  7292. whatever he might say to the contrary. She obediently descended, and
  7293. made as light of the prank as she could without betraying Meg or
  7294. forgetting the truth.
  7295. "Hum... ha... well, if the boy held his tongue because he promised, and
  7296. not from obstinacy, I'll forgive him. He's a stubborn fellow and hard
  7297. to manage," said Mr. Laurence, rubbing up his hair till it looked as if
  7298. he had been out in a gale, and smoothing the frown from his brow with
  7299. an air of relief.
  7300. "So am I, but a kind word will govern me when all the king's horses and
  7301. all the king's men couldn't," said Jo, trying to say a kind word for
  7302. her friend, who seemed to get out of one scrape only to fall into
  7303. another.
  7304. "You think I'm not kind to him, hey?" was the sharp answer.
  7305. "Oh, dear no, Sir. You are rather too kind sometimes, and then just a
  7306. trifle hasty when he tries your patience. Don't you think you are?"
  7307. Jo was determined to have it out now, and tried to look quite placid,
  7308. though she quaked a little after her bold speech. To her great relief
  7309. and surprise, the old gentleman only threw his spectacles onto the
  7310. table with a rattle and exclaimed frankly, "You're right, girl, I am!
  7311. I love the boy, but he tries my patience past bearing, and I know how
  7312. it will end, if we go on so."
  7313. "I'll tell you, he'll run away." Jo was sorry for that speech the
  7314. minute it was made. She meant to warn him that Laurie would not bear
  7315. much restraint, and hoped he would be more forebearing with the lad.
  7316. Mr. Laurence's ruddy face changed suddenly, and he sat down, with a
  7317. troubled glance at the picture of a handsome man, which hung over his
  7318. table. It was Laurie's father, who had run away in his youth, and
  7319. married against the imperious old man's will. Jo fancied he remembered
  7320. and regretted the past, and she wished she had held her tongue.
  7321. "He won't do it unless he is very much worried, and only threatens it
  7322. sometimes, when he gets tired of studying. I often think I should like
  7323. to, especially since my hair was cut, so if you ever miss us, you may
  7324. advertise for two boys and look among the ships bound for India."
  7325. She laughed as she spoke, and Mr. Laurence looked relieved, evidently
  7326. taking the whole as a joke.
  7327. "You hussy, how dare you talk in that way? Where's your respect for
  7328. me, and your proper bringing up? Bless the boys and girls! What
  7329. torments they are, yet we can't do without them," he said, pinching her
  7330. cheeks good-humoredly. "Go and bring that boy down to his dinner, tell
  7331. him it's all right, and advise him not to put on tragedy airs with his
  7332. grandfather. I won't bear it."
  7333. "He won't come, Sir. He feels badly because you didn't believe him
  7334. when he said he couldn't tell. I think the shaking hurt his feelings
  7335. very much."
  7336. Jo tried to look pathetic but must have failed, for Mr. Laurence began
  7337. to laugh, and she knew the day was won.
  7338. "I'm sorry for that, and ought to thank him for not shaking me, I
  7339. suppose. What the dickens does the fellow expect?" and the old
  7340. gentleman looked a trifle ashamed of his own testiness.
  7341. "If I were you, I'd write him an apology, Sir. He says he won't come
  7342. down till he has one, and talks about Washington, and goes on in an
  7343. absurd way. A formal apology will make him see how foolish he is, and
  7344. bring him down quite amiable. Try it. He likes fun, and this way is
  7345. better than talking. I'll carry it up, and teach him his duty."
  7346. Mr. Laurence gave her a sharp look, and put on his spectacles, saying
  7347. slowly, "You're a sly puss, but I don't mind being managed by you and
  7348. Beth. Here, give me a bit of paper, and let us have done with this
  7349. nonsense."
  7350. The note was written in the terms which one gentleman would use to
  7351. another after offering some deep insult. Jo dropped a kiss on the top
  7352. of Mr. Laurence's bald head, and ran up to slip the apology under
  7353. Laurie's door, advising him through the keyhole to be submissive,
  7354. decorous, and a few other agreeable impossibilities. Finding the door
  7355. locked again, she left the note to do its work, and was going quietly
  7356. away, when the young gentleman slid down the banisters, and waited for
  7357. her at the bottom, saying, with his most virtuous expression of
  7358. countenance, "What a good fellow you are, Jo! Did you get blown up?" he
  7359. added, laughing.
  7360. "No, he was pretty mild, on the whole."
  7361. "Ah! I got it all round. Even you cast me off over there, and I felt
  7362. just ready to go to the deuce," he began apologetically.
  7363. "Don't talk that way, turn over a new leaf and begin again, Teddy, my
  7364. son."
  7365. "I keep turning over new leaves, and spoiling them, as I used to spoil
  7366. my copybooks, and I make so many beginnings there never will be an
  7367. end," he said dolefully.
  7368. "Go and eat your dinner, you'll feel better after it. Men always croak
  7369. when they are hungry," and Jo whisked out at the front door after that.
  7370. "That's a 'label' on my 'sect'," answered Laurie, quoting Amy, as he
  7371. went to partake of humble pie dutifully with his grandfather, who was
  7372. quite saintly in temper and overwhelmingly respectful in manner all the
  7373. rest of the day.
  7374. Everyone thought the matter ended and the little cloud blown over, but
  7375. the mischief was done, for though others forgot it, Meg remembered.
  7376. She never alluded to a certain person, but she thought of him a good
  7377. deal, dreamed dreams more than ever, and once Jo, rummaging her
  7378. sister's desk for stamps, found a bit of paper scribbled over with the
  7379. words, 'Mrs. John Brooke', whereat she groaned tragically and cast it
  7380. into the fire, feeling that Laurie's prank had hastened the evil day
  7381. for her.
  7382. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  7383. PLEASANT MEADOWS
  7384. Like sunshine after a storm were the peaceful weeks which followed.
  7385. The invalids improved rapidly, and Mr. March began to talk of returning
  7386. early in the new year. Beth was soon able to lie on the study sofa all
  7387. day, amusing herself with the well-beloved cats at first, and in time
  7388. with doll's sewing, which had fallen sadly behind-hand. Her once
  7389. active limbs were so stiff and feeble that Jo took her for a daily
  7390. airing about the house in her strong arms. Meg cheerfully blackened
  7391. and burned her white hands cooking delicate messes for 'the dear',
  7392. while Amy, a loyal slave of the ring, celebrated her return by giving
  7393. away as many of her treasures as she could prevail on her sisters to
  7394. accept.
  7395. As Christmas approached, the usual mysteries began to haunt the house,
  7396. and Jo frequently convulsed the family by proposing utterly impossible
  7397. or magnificently absurd ceremonies, in honor of this unusually merry
  7398. Christmas. Laurie was equally impracticable, and would have had
  7399. bonfires, skyrockets, and triumphal arches, if he had had his own way.
  7400. After many skirmishes and snubbings, the ambitious pair were considered
  7401. effectually quenched and went about with forlorn faces, which were
  7402. rather belied by explosions of laughter when the two got together.
  7403. Several days of unusually mild weather fitly ushered in a splendid
  7404. Christmas Day. Hannah 'felt in her bones' that it was going to be an
  7405. unusually fine day, and she proved herself a true prophetess, for
  7406. everybody and everything seemed bound to produce a grand success. To
  7407. begin with, Mr. March wrote that he should soon be with them, then Beth
  7408. felt uncommonly well that morning, and, being dressed in her mother's
  7409. gift, a soft crimson merino wrapper, was borne in high triumph to the
  7410. window to behold the offering of Jo and Laurie. The Unquenchables had
  7411. done their best to be worthy of the name, for like elves they had
  7412. worked by night and conjured up a comical surprise. Out in the garden
  7413. stood a stately snow maiden, crowned with holly, bearing a basket of
  7414. fruit and flowers in one hand, a great roll of music in the other, a
  7415. perfect rainbow of an Afghan round her chilly shoulders, and a
  7416. Christmas carol issuing from her lips on a pink paper streamer.
  7417. THE JUNGFRAU TO BETH
  7418. God bless you, dear Queen Bess!
  7419. May nothing you dismay,
  7420. But health and peace and happiness
  7421. Be yours, this Christmas day.
  7422. Here's fruit to feed our busy bee,
  7423. And flowers for her nose.
  7424. Here's music for her pianee,
  7425. An afghan for her toes,
  7426. A portrait of Joanna, see,
  7427. By Raphael No. 2,
  7428. Who laboured with great industry
  7429. To make it fair and true.
  7430. Accept a ribbon red, I beg,
  7431. For Madam Purrer's tail,
  7432. And ice cream made by lovely Peg,
  7433. A Mont Blanc in a pail.
  7434. Their dearest love my makers laid
  7435. Within my breast of snow.
  7436. Accept it, and the Alpine maid,
  7437. From Laurie and from Jo.
  7438. How Beth laughed when she saw it, how Laurie ran up and down to bring
  7439. in the gifts, and what ridiculous speeches Jo made as she presented
  7440. them.
  7441. "I'm so full of happiness, that if Father was only here, I couldn't
  7442. hold one drop more," said Beth, quite sighing with contentment as Jo
  7443. carried her off to the study to rest after the excitement, and to
  7444. refresh herself with some of the delicious grapes the 'Jungfrau' had
  7445. sent her.
  7446. "So am I," added Jo, slapping the pocket wherein reposed the
  7447. long-desired _Undine and Sintram_.
  7448. "I'm sure I am," echoed Amy, poring over the engraved copy of the
  7449. Madonna and Child, which her mother had given her in a pretty frame.
  7450. "Of course I am!" cried Meg, smoothing the silvery folds of her first
  7451. silk dress, for Mr. Laurence had insisted on giving it. "How can I be
  7452. otherwise?" said Mrs. March gratefully, as her eyes went from her
  7453. husband's letter to Beth's smiling face, and her hand caressed the
  7454. brooch made of gray and golden, chestnut and dark brown hair, which the
  7455. girls had just fastened on her breast.
  7456. Now and then, in this workaday world, things do happen in the
  7457. delightful storybook fashion, and what a comfort it is. Half an hour
  7458. after everyone had said they were so happy they could only hold one
  7459. drop more, the drop came. Laurie opened the parlor door and popped his
  7460. head in very quietly. He might just as well have turned a somersault
  7461. and uttered an Indian war whoop, for his face was so full of suppressed
  7462. excitement and his voice so treacherously joyful that everyone jumped
  7463. up, though he only said, in a queer, breathless voice, "Here's another
  7464. Christmas present for the March family."
  7465. Before the words were well out of his mouth, he was whisked away
  7466. somehow, and in his place appeared a tall man, muffled up to the eyes,
  7467. leaning on the arm of another tall man, who tried to say something and
  7468. couldn't. Of course there was a general stampede, and for several
  7469. minutes everybody seemed to lose their wits, for the strangest things
  7470. were done, and no one said a word.
  7471. Mr. March became invisible in the embrace of four pairs of loving arms.
  7472. Jo disgraced herself by nearly fainting away, and had to be doctored by
  7473. Laurie in the china closet. Mr. Brooke kissed Meg entirely by mistake,
  7474. as he somewhat incoherently explained. And Amy, the dignified, tumbled
  7475. over a stool, and never stopping to get up, hugged and cried over her
  7476. father's boots in the most touching manner. Mrs. March was the first
  7477. to recover herself, and held up her hand with a warning, "Hush!
  7478. Remember Beth."
  7479. But it was too late. The study door flew open, the little red wrapper
  7480. appeared on the threshold, joy put strength into the feeble limbs, and
  7481. Beth ran straight into her father's arms. Never mind what happened
  7482. just after that, for the full hearts overflowed, washing away the
  7483. bitterness of the past and leaving only the sweetness of the present.
  7484. It was not at all romantic, but a hearty laugh set everybody straight
  7485. again, for Hannah was discovered behind the door, sobbing over the fat
  7486. turkey, which she had forgotten to put down when she rushed up from the
  7487. kitchen. As the laugh subsided, Mrs. March began to thank Mr. Brooke
  7488. for his faithful care of her husband, at which Mr. Brooke suddenly
  7489. remembered that Mr. March needed rest, and seizing Laurie, he
  7490. precipitately retired. Then the two invalids were ordered to repose,
  7491. which they did, by both sitting in one big chair and talking hard.
  7492. Mr. March told how he had longed to surprise them, and how, when the
  7493. fine weather came, he had been allowed by his doctor to take advantage
  7494. of it, how devoted Brooke had been, and how he was altogether a most
  7495. estimable and upright young man. Why Mr. March paused a minute just
  7496. there, and after a glance at Meg, who was violently poking the fire,
  7497. looked at his wife with an inquiring lift of the eyebrows, I leave you
  7498. to imagine. Also why Mrs. March gently nodded her head and asked,
  7499. rather abruptly, if he wouldn't like to have something to eat. Jo saw
  7500. and understood the look, and she stalked grimly away to get wine and
  7501. beef tea, muttering to herself as she slammed the door, "I hate
  7502. estimable young men with brown eyes!"
  7503. There never was such a Christmas dinner as they had that day. The fat
  7504. turkey was a sight to behold, when Hannah sent him up, stuffed,
  7505. browned, and decorated. So was the plum pudding, which melted in one's
  7506. mouth, likewise the jellies, in which Amy reveled like a fly in a
  7507. honeypot. Everything turned out well, which was a mercy, Hannah said,
  7508. "For my mind was that flustered, Mum, that it's a merrycle I didn't
  7509. roast the pudding, and stuff the turkey with raisins, let alone bilin'
  7510. of it in a cloth."
  7511. Mr. Laurence and his grandson dined with them, also Mr. Brooke, at whom
  7512. Jo glowered darkly, to Laurie's infinite amusement. Two easy chairs
  7513. stood side by side at the head of the table, in which sat Beth and her
  7514. father, feasting modestly on chicken and a little fruit. They drank
  7515. healths, told stories, sang songs, 'reminisced', as the old folks say,
  7516. and had a thoroughly good time. A sleigh ride had been planned, but the
  7517. girls would not leave their father, so the guests departed early, and
  7518. as twilight gathered, the happy family sat together round the fire.
  7519. "Just a year ago we were groaning over the dismal Christmas we expected
  7520. to have. Do you remember?" asked Jo, breaking a short pause which had
  7521. followed a long conversation about many things.
  7522. "Rather a pleasant year on the whole!" said Meg, smiling at the fire,
  7523. and congratulating herself on having treated Mr. Brooke with dignity.
  7524. "I think it's been a pretty hard one," observed Amy, watching the light
  7525. shine on her ring with thoughtful eyes.
  7526. "I'm glad it's over, because we've got you back," whispered Beth, who
  7527. sat on her father's knee.
  7528. "Rather a rough road for you to travel, my little pilgrims, especially
  7529. the latter part of it. But you have got on bravely, and I think the
  7530. burdens are in a fair way to tumble off very soon," said Mr. March,
  7531. looking with fatherly satisfaction at the four young faces gathered
  7532. round him.
  7533. "How do you know? Did Mother tell you?" asked Jo.
  7534. "Not much. Straws show which way the wind blows, and I've made several
  7535. discoveries today."
  7536. "Oh, tell us what they are!" cried Meg, who sat beside him.
  7537. "Here is one." And taking up the hand which lay on the arm of his
  7538. chair, he pointed to the roughened forefinger, a burn on the back, and
  7539. two or three little hard spots on the palm. "I remember a time when
  7540. this hand was white and smooth, and your first care was to keep it so.
  7541. It was very pretty then, but to me it is much prettier now, for in this
  7542. seeming blemishes I read a little history. A burnt offering has been
  7543. made to vanity, this hardened palm has earned something better than
  7544. blisters, and I'm sure the sewing done by these pricked fingers will
  7545. last a long time, so much good will went into the stitches. Meg, my
  7546. dear, I value the womanly skill which keeps home happy more than white
  7547. hands or fashionable accomplishments. I'm proud to shake this good,
  7548. industrious little hand, and hope I shall not soon be asked to give it
  7549. away."
  7550. If Meg had wanted a reward for hours of patient labor, she received it
  7551. in the hearty pressure of her father's hand and the approving smile he
  7552. gave her.
  7553. "What about Jo? Please say something nice, for she has tried so hard
  7554. and been so very, very good to me," said Beth in her father's ear.
  7555. He laughed and looked across at the tall girl who sat opposite, with an
  7556. unusually mild expression in her face.
  7557. "In spite of the curly crop, I don't see the 'son Jo' whom I left a
  7558. year ago," said Mr. March. "I see a young lady who pins her collar
  7559. straight, laces her boots neatly, and neither whistles, talks slang,
  7560. nor lies on the rug as she used to do. Her face is rather thin and
  7561. pale just now, with watching and anxiety, but I like to look at it, for
  7562. it has grown gentler, and her voice is lower. She doesn't bounce, but
  7563. moves quietly, and takes care of a certain little person in a motherly
  7564. way which delights me. I rather miss my wild girl, but if I get a
  7565. strong, helpful, tenderhearted woman in her place, I shall feel quite
  7566. satisfied. I don't know whether the shearing sobered our black sheep,
  7567. but I do know that in all Washington I couldn't find anything beautiful
  7568. enough to be bought with the five-and-twenty dollars my good girl sent
  7569. me."
  7570. Jo's keen eyes were rather dim for a minute, and her thin face grew
  7571. rosy in the firelight as she received her father's praise, feeling that
  7572. she did deserve a portion of it.
  7573. "Now, Beth," said Amy, longing for her turn, but ready to wait.
  7574. "There's so little of her, I'm afraid to say much, for fear she will
  7575. slip away altogether, though she is not so shy as she used to be,"
  7576. began their father cheerfully. But recollecting how nearly he had lost
  7577. her, he held her close, saying tenderly, with her cheek against his
  7578. own, "I've got you safe, my Beth, and I'll keep you so, please God."
  7579. After a minute's silence, he looked down at Amy, who sat on the cricket
  7580. at his feet, and said, with a caress of the shining hair...
  7581. "I observed that Amy took drumsticks at dinner, ran errands for her
  7582. mother all the afternoon, gave Meg her place tonight, and has waited on
  7583. every one with patience and good humor. I also observe that she does
  7584. not fret much nor look in the glass, and has not even mentioned a very
  7585. pretty ring which she wears, so I conclude that she has learned to
  7586. think of other people more and of herself less, and has decided to try
  7587. and mold her character as carefully as she molds her little clay
  7588. figures. I am glad of this, for though I should be very proud of a
  7589. graceful statue made by her, I shall be infinitely prouder of a lovable
  7590. daughter with a talent for making life beautiful to herself and others."
  7591. "What are you thinking of, Beth?" asked Jo, when Amy had thanked her
  7592. father and told about her ring.
  7593. "I read in _Pilgrim's Progress_ today how, after many troubles,
  7594. Christian and Hopeful came to a pleasant green meadow where lilies
  7595. bloomed all year round, and there they rested happily, as we do now,
  7596. before they went on to their journey's end," answered Beth, adding, as
  7597. she slipped out of her father's arms and went to the instrument, "It's
  7598. singing time now, and I want to be in my old place. I'll try to sing
  7599. the song of the shepherd boy which the Pilgrims heard. I made the
  7600. music for Father, because he likes the verses."
  7601. So, sitting at the dear little piano, Beth softly touched the keys, and
  7602. in the sweet voice they had never thought to hear again, sang to her
  7603. own accompaniment the quaint hymn, which was a singularly fitting song
  7604. for her.
  7605. He that is down need fear no fall,
  7606. He that is low no pride.
  7607. He that is humble ever shall
  7608. Have God to be his guide.
  7609. I am content with what I have,
  7610. Little be it, or much.
  7611. And, Lord! Contentment still I crave,
  7612. Because Thou savest such.
  7613. Fulness to them a burden is,
  7614. That go on pilgrimage.
  7615. Here little, and hereafter bliss,
  7616. Is best from age to age!
  7617. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  7618. AUNT MARCH SETTLES THE QUESTION
  7619. Like bees swarming after their queen, mother and daughters hovered
  7620. about Mr. March the next day, neglecting everything to look at, wait
  7621. upon, and listen to the new invalid, who was in a fair way to be killed
  7622. by kindness. As he sat propped up in a big chair by Beth's sofa, with
  7623. the other three close by, and Hannah popping in her head now and then
  7624. 'to peek at the dear man', nothing seemed needed to complete their
  7625. happiness. But something was needed, and the elder ones felt it,
  7626. though none confessed the fact. Mr. and Mrs. March looked at one
  7627. another with an anxious expression, as their eyes followed Meg. Jo had
  7628. sudden fits of sobriety, and was seen to shake her fist at Mr. Brooke's
  7629. umbrella, which had been left in the hall. Meg was absent-minded, shy,
  7630. and silent, started when the bell rang, and colored when John's name
  7631. was mentioned. Amy said, "Everyone seemed waiting for something, and
  7632. couldn't settle down, which was queer, since Father was safe at home,"
  7633. and Beth innocently wondered why their neighbors didn't run over as
  7634. usual.
  7635. Laurie went by in the afternoon, and seeing Meg at the window, seemed
  7636. suddenly possessed with a melodramatic fit, for he fell down on one
  7637. knee in the snow, beat his breast, tore his hair, and clasped his hands
  7638. imploringly, as if begging some boon. And when Meg told him to behave
  7639. himself and go away, he wrung imaginary tears out of his handkerchief,
  7640. and staggered round the corner as if in utter despair.
  7641. "What does the goose mean?" said Meg, laughing and trying to look
  7642. unconscious.
  7643. "He's showing you how your John will go on by-and-by. Touching, isn't
  7644. it?" answered Jo scornfully.
  7645. "Don't say my John, it isn't proper or true," but Meg's voice lingered
  7646. over the words as if they sounded pleasant to her. "Please don't
  7647. plague me, Jo, I've told you I don't care much about him, and there
  7648. isn't to be anything said, but we are all to be friendly, and go on as
  7649. before."
  7650. "We can't, for something has been said, and Laurie's mischief has
  7651. spoiled you for me. I see it, and so does Mother. You are not like
  7652. your old self a bit, and seem ever so far away from me. I don't mean
  7653. to plague you and will bear it like a man, but I do wish it was all
  7654. settled. I hate to wait, so if you mean ever to do it, make haste and
  7655. have it over quickly," said Jo pettishly.
  7656. "I can't say anything till he speaks, and he won't, because Father said
  7657. I was too young," began Meg, bending over her work with a queer little
  7658. smile, which suggested that she did not quite agree with her father on
  7659. that point.
  7660. "If he did speak, you wouldn't know what to say, but would cry or
  7661. blush, or let him have his own way, instead of giving a good, decided
  7662. no."
  7663. "I'm not so silly and weak as you think. I know just what I should
  7664. say, for I've planned it all, so I needn't be taken unawares. There's
  7665. no knowing what may happen, and I wished to be prepared."
  7666. Jo couldn't help smiling at the important air which Meg had
  7667. unconsciously assumed and which was as becoming as the pretty color
  7668. varying in her cheeks.
  7669. "Would you mind telling me what you'd say?" asked Jo more respectfully.
  7670. "Not at all. You are sixteen now, quite old enough to be my confidant,
  7671. and my experience will be useful to you by-and-by, perhaps, in your own
  7672. affairs of this sort."
  7673. "Don't mean to have any. It's fun to watch other people philander, but
  7674. I should feel like a fool doing it myself," said Jo, looking alarmed at
  7675. the thought.
  7676. "I think not, if you liked anyone very much, and he liked you." Meg
  7677. spoke as if to herself, and glanced out at the lane where she had often
  7678. seen lovers walking together in the summer twilight.
  7679. "I thought you were going to tell your speech to that man," said Jo,
  7680. rudely shortening her sister's little reverie.
  7681. "Oh, I should merely say, quite calmly and decidedly, 'Thank you, Mr.
  7682. Brooke, you are very kind, but I agree with Father that I am too young
  7683. to enter into any engagement at present, so please say no more, but let
  7684. us be friends as we were.'"
  7685. "Hum, that's stiff and cool enough! I don't believe you'll ever say
  7686. it, and I know he won't be satisfied if you do. If he goes on like the
  7687. rejected lovers in books, you'll give in, rather than hurt his
  7688. feelings."
  7689. "No, I won't. I shall tell him I've made up my mind, and shall walk
  7690. out of the room with dignity."
  7691. Meg rose as she spoke, and was just going to rehearse the dignified
  7692. exit, when a step in the hall made her fly into her seat and begin to
  7693. sew as fast as if her life depended on finishing that particular seam
  7694. in a given time. Jo smothered a laugh at the sudden change, and when
  7695. someone gave a modest tap, opened the door with a grim aspect which was
  7696. anything but hospitable.
  7697. "Good afternoon. I came to get my umbrella, that is, to see how your
  7698. father finds himself today," said Mr. Brooke, getting a trifle confused
  7699. as his eyes went from one telltale face to the other.
  7700. "It's very well, he's in the rack. I'll get him, and tell it you are
  7701. here." And having jumbled her father and the umbrella well together in
  7702. her reply, Jo slipped out of the room to give Meg a chance to make her
  7703. speech and air her dignity. But the instant she vanished, Meg began to
  7704. sidle toward the door, murmuring...
  7705. "Mother will like to see you. Pray sit down, I'll call her."
  7706. "Don't go. Are you afraid of me, Margaret?" and Mr. Brooke looked so
  7707. hurt that Meg thought she must have done something very rude. She
  7708. blushed up to the little curls on her forehead, for he had never called
  7709. her Margaret before, and she was surprised to find how natural and
  7710. sweet it seemed to hear him say it. Anxious to appear friendly and at
  7711. her ease, she put out her hand with a confiding gesture, and said
  7712. gratefully...
  7713. "How can I be afraid when you have been so kind to Father? I only wish
  7714. I could thank you for it."
  7715. "Shall I tell you how?" asked Mr. Brooke, holding the small hand fast
  7716. in both his own, and looking down at Meg with so much love in the brown
  7717. eyes that her heart began to flutter, and she both longed to run away
  7718. and to stop and listen.
  7719. "Oh no, please don't, I'd rather not," she said, trying to withdraw her
  7720. hand, and looking frightened in spite of her denial.
  7721. "I won't trouble you. I only want to know if you care for me a little,
  7722. Meg. I love you so much, dear," added Mr. Brooke tenderly.
  7723. This was the moment for the calm, proper speech, but Meg didn't make
  7724. it. She forgot every word of it, hung her head, and answered, "I don't
  7725. know," so softly that John had to stoop down to catch the foolish
  7726. little reply.
  7727. He seemed to think it was worth the trouble, for he smiled to himself
  7728. as if quite satisfied, pressed the plump hand gratefully, and said in
  7729. his most persuasive tone, "Will you try and find out? I want to know
  7730. so much, for I can't go to work with any heart until I learn whether I
  7731. am to have my reward in the end or not."
  7732. "I'm too young," faltered Meg, wondering why she was so fluttered, yet
  7733. rather enjoying it.
  7734. "I'll wait, and in the meantime, you could be learning to like me.
  7735. Would it be a very hard lesson, dear?"
  7736. "Not if I chose to learn it, but. . ."
  7737. "Please choose to learn, Meg. I love to teach, and this is easier than
  7738. German," broke in John, getting possession of the other hand, so that
  7739. she had no way of hiding her face as he bent to look into it.
  7740. His tone was properly beseeching, but stealing a shy look at him, Meg
  7741. saw that his eyes were merry as well as tender, and that he wore the
  7742. satisfied smile of one who had no doubt of his success. This nettled
  7743. her. Annie Moffat's foolish lessons in coquetry came into her mind,
  7744. and the love of power, which sleeps in the bosoms of the best of little
  7745. women, woke up all of a sudden and took possession of her. She felt
  7746. excited and strange, and not knowing what else to do, followed a
  7747. capricious impulse, and, withdrawing her hands, said petulantly, "I
  7748. don't choose. Please go away and let me be!"
  7749. Poor Mr. Brooke looked as if his lovely castle in the air was tumbling
  7750. about his ears, for he had never seen Meg in such a mood before, and it
  7751. rather bewildered him.
  7752. "Do you really mean that?" he asked anxiously, following her as she
  7753. walked away.
  7754. "Yes, I do. I don't want to be worried about such things. Father says
  7755. I needn't, it's too soon and I'd rather not."
  7756. "Mayn't I hope you'll change your mind by-and-by? I'll wait and say
  7757. nothing till you have had more time. Don't play with me, Meg. I
  7758. didn't think that of you."
  7759. "Don't think of me at all. I'd rather you wouldn't," said Meg, taking
  7760. a naughty satisfaction in trying her lover's patience and her own power.
  7761. He was grave and pale now, and looked decidedly more like the novel
  7762. heroes whom she admired, but he neither slapped his forehead nor
  7763. tramped about the room as they did. He just stood looking at her so
  7764. wistfully, so tenderly, that she found her heart relenting in spite of
  7765. herself. What would have happened next I cannot say, if Aunt March had
  7766. not come hobbling in at this interesting minute.
  7767. The old lady couldn't resist her longing to see her nephew, for she had
  7768. met Laurie as she took her airing, and hearing of Mr. March's arrival,
  7769. drove straight out to see him. The family were all busy in the back
  7770. part of the house, and she had made her way quietly in, hoping to
  7771. surprise them. She did surprise two of them so much that Meg started
  7772. as if she had seen a ghost, and Mr. Brooke vanished into the study.
  7773. "Bless me, what's all this?" cried the old lady with a rap of her cane
  7774. as she glanced from the pale young gentleman to the scarlet young lady.
  7775. "It's Father's friend. I'm so surprised to see you!" stammered Meg,
  7776. feeling that she was in for a lecture now.
  7777. "That's evident," returned Aunt March, sitting down. "But what is
  7778. Father's friend saying to make you look like a peony? There's mischief
  7779. going on, and I insist upon knowing what it is," with another rap.
  7780. "We were only talking. Mr. Brooke came for his umbrella," began Meg,
  7781. wishing that Mr. Brooke and the umbrella were safely out of the house.
  7782. "Brooke? That boy's tutor? Ah! I understand now. I know all about
  7783. it. Jo blundered into a wrong message in one of your Father's letters,
  7784. and I made her tell me. You haven't gone and accepted him, child?"
  7785. cried Aunt March, looking scandalized.
  7786. "Hush! He'll hear. Shan't I call Mother?" said Meg, much troubled.
  7787. "Not yet. I've something to say to you, and I must free my mind at
  7788. once. Tell me, do you mean to marry this Cook? If you do, not one
  7789. penny of my money ever goes to you. Remember that, and be a sensible
  7790. girl," said the old lady impressively.
  7791. Now Aunt March possessed in perfection the art of rousing the spirit of
  7792. opposition in the gentlest people, and enjoyed doing it. The best of
  7793. us have a spice of perversity in us, especially when we are young and
  7794. in love. If Aunt March had begged Meg to accept John Brooke, she would
  7795. probably have declared she couldn't think of it, but as she was
  7796. preemptorily ordered not to like him, she immediately made up her mind
  7797. that she would. Inclination as well as perversity made the decision
  7798. easy, and being already much excited, Meg opposed the old lady with
  7799. unusual spirit.
  7800. "I shall marry whom I please, Aunt March, and you can leave your money
  7801. to anyone you like," she said, nodding her head with a resolute air.
  7802. "Highty-tighty! Is that the way you take my advice, Miss? You'll be
  7803. sorry for it by-and-by, when you've tried love in a cottage and found
  7804. it a failure."
  7805. "It can't be a worse one than some people find in big houses," retorted
  7806. Meg.
  7807. Aunt March put on her glasses and took a look at the girl, for she did
  7808. not know her in this new mood. Meg hardly knew herself, she felt so
  7809. brave and independent, so glad to defend John and assert her right to
  7810. love him, if she liked. Aunt March saw that she had begun wrong, and
  7811. after a little pause, made a fresh start, saying as mildly as she
  7812. could, "Now, Meg, my dear, be reasonable and take my advice. I mean it
  7813. kindly, and don't want you to spoil your whole life by making a mistake
  7814. at the beginning. You ought to marry well and help your family. It's
  7815. your duty to make a rich match and it ought to be impressed upon you."
  7816. "Father and Mother don't think so. They like John though he is poor."
  7817. "Your parents, my dear, have no more worldly wisdom than a pair of
  7818. babies."
  7819. "I'm glad of it," cried Meg stoutly.
  7820. Aunt March took no notice, but went on with her lecture. "This Rook is
  7821. poor and hasn't got any rich relations, has he?"
  7822. "No, but he has many warm friends."
  7823. "You can't live on friends, try it and see how cool they'll grow. He
  7824. hasn't any business, has he?"
  7825. "Not yet. Mr. Laurence is going to help him."
  7826. "That won't last long. James Laurence is a crotchety old fellow and
  7827. not to be depended on. So you intend to marry a man without money,
  7828. position, or business, and go on working harder than you do now, when
  7829. you might be comfortable all your days by minding me and doing better?
  7830. I thought you had more sense, Meg."
  7831. "I couldn't do better if I waited half my life! John is good and wise,
  7832. he's got heaps of talent, he's willing to work and sure to get on, he's
  7833. so energetic and brave. Everyone likes and respects him, and I'm proud
  7834. to think he cares for me, though I'm so poor and young and silly," said
  7835. Meg, looking prettier than ever in her earnestness.
  7836. "He knows you have got rich relations, child. That's the secret of his
  7837. liking, I suspect."
  7838. "Aunt March, how dare you say such a thing? John is above such
  7839. meanness, and I won't listen to you a minute if you talk so," cried Meg
  7840. indignantly, forgetting everything but the injustice of the old lady's
  7841. suspicions. "My John wouldn't marry for money, any more than I would.
  7842. We are willing to work and we mean to wait. I'm not afraid of being
  7843. poor, for I've been happy so far, and I know I shall be with him
  7844. because he loves me, and I..."
  7845. Meg stopped there, remembering all of a sudden that she hadn't made up
  7846. her mind, that she had told 'her John' to go away, and that he might be
  7847. overhearing her inconsistent remarks.
  7848. Aunt March was very angry, for she had set her heart on having her
  7849. pretty niece make a fine match, and something in the girl's happy young
  7850. face made the lonely old woman feel both sad and sour.
  7851. "Well, I wash my hands of the whole affair! You are a willful child,
  7852. and you've lost more than you know by this piece of folly. No, I won't
  7853. stop. I'm disappointed in you, and haven't spirits to see your father
  7854. now. Don't expect anything from me when you are married. Your Mr.
  7855. Brooke's friends must take care of you. I'm done with you forever."
  7856. And slamming the door in Meg's face, Aunt March drove off in high
  7857. dudgeon. She seemed to take all the girl's courage with her, for when
  7858. left alone, Meg stood for a moment, undecided whether to laugh or cry.
  7859. Before she could make up her mind, she was taken possession of by Mr.
  7860. Brooke, who said all in one breath, "I couldn't help hearing, Meg.
  7861. Thank you for defending me, and Aunt March for proving that you do care
  7862. for me a little bit."
  7863. "I didn't know how much till she abused you," began Meg.
  7864. "And I needn't go away, but may stay and be happy, may I, dear?"
  7865. Here was another fine chance to make the crushing speech and the
  7866. stately exit, but Meg never thought of doing either, and disgraced
  7867. herself forever in Jo's eyes by meekly whispering, "Yes, John," and
  7868. hiding her face on Mr. Brooke's waistcoat.
  7869. Fifteen minutes after Aunt March's departure, Jo came softly
  7870. downstairs, paused an instant at the parlor door, and hearing no sound
  7871. within, nodded and smiled with a satisfied expression, saying to
  7872. herself, "She has seen him away as we planned, and that affair is
  7873. settled. I'll go and hear the fun, and have a good laugh over it."
  7874. But poor Jo never got her laugh, for she was transfixed upon the
  7875. threshold by a spectacle which held her there, staring with her mouth
  7876. nearly as wide open as her eyes. Going in to exult over a fallen enemy
  7877. and to praise a strong-minded sister for the banishment of an
  7878. objectionable lover, it certainly was a shock to behold the aforesaid
  7879. enemy serenely sitting on the sofa, with the strongminded sister
  7880. enthroned upon his knee and wearing an expression of the most abject
  7881. submission. Jo gave a sort of gasp, as if a cold shower bath had
  7882. suddenly fallen upon her, for such an unexpected turning of the tables
  7883. actually took her breath away. At the odd sound the lovers turned and
  7884. saw her. Meg jumped up, looking both proud and shy, but 'that man', as
  7885. Jo called him, actually laughed and said coolly, as he kissed the
  7886. astonished newcomer, "Sister Jo, congratulate us!"
  7887. That was adding insult to injury, it was altogether too much, and
  7888. making some wild demonstration with her hands, Jo vanished without a
  7889. word. Rushing upstairs, she startled the invalids by exclaiming
  7890. tragically as she burst into the room, "Oh, do somebody go down quick!
  7891. John Brooke is acting dreadfully, and Meg likes it!"
  7892. Mr. and Mrs. March left the room with speed, and casting herself upon
  7893. the bed, Jo cried and scolded tempestuously as she told the awful news
  7894. to Beth and Amy. The little girls, however, considered it a most
  7895. agreeable and interesting event, and Jo got little comfort from them,
  7896. so she went up to her refuge in the garret, and confided her troubles
  7897. to the rats.
  7898. Nobody ever knew what went on in the parlor that afternoon, but a great
  7899. deal of talking was done, and quiet Mr. Brooke astonished his friends
  7900. by the eloquence and spirit with which he pleaded his suit, told his
  7901. plans, and persuaded them to arrange everything just as he wanted it.
  7902. The tea bell rang before he had finished describing the paradise which
  7903. he meant to earn for Meg, and he proudly took her in to supper, both
  7904. looking so happy that Jo hadn't the heart to be jealous or dismal. Amy
  7905. was very much impressed by John's devotion and Meg's dignity, Beth
  7906. beamed at them from a distance, while Mr. and Mrs. March surveyed the
  7907. young couple with such tender satisfaction that it was perfectly
  7908. evident Aunt March was right in calling them as 'unworldly as a pair of
  7909. babies'. No one ate much, but everyone looked very happy, and the old
  7910. room seemed to brighten up amazingly when the first romance of the
  7911. family began there.
  7912. "You can't say nothing pleasant ever happens now, can you, Meg?" said
  7913. Amy, trying to decide how she would group the lovers in a sketch she
  7914. was planning to make.
  7915. "No, I'm sure I can't. How much has happened since I said that! It
  7916. seems a year ago," answered Meg, who was in a blissful dream lifted far
  7917. above such common things as bread and butter.
  7918. "The joys come close upon the sorrows this time, and I rather think the
  7919. changes have begun," said Mrs. March. "In most families there comes,
  7920. now and then, a year full of events. This has been such a one, but it
  7921. ends well, after all."
  7922. "Hope the next will end better," muttered Jo, who found it very hard to
  7923. see Meg absorbed in a stranger before her face, for Jo loved a few
  7924. persons very dearly and dreaded to have their affection lost or
  7925. lessened in any way.
  7926. "I hope the third year from this will end better. I mean it shall, if
  7927. I live to work out my plans," said Mr. Brooke, smiling at Meg, as if
  7928. everything had become possible to him now.
  7929. "Doesn't it seem very long to wait?" asked Amy, who was in a hurry for
  7930. the wedding.
  7931. "I've got so much to learn before I shall be ready, it seems a short
  7932. time to me," answered Meg, with a sweet gravity in her face never seen
  7933. there before.
  7934. "You have only to wait, I am to do the work," said John beginning his
  7935. labors by picking up Meg's napkin, with an expression which caused Jo
  7936. to shake her head, and then say to herself with an air of relief as the
  7937. front door banged, "Here comes Laurie. Now we shall have some sensible
  7938. conversation."
  7939. But Jo was mistaken, for Laurie came prancing in, overflowing with good
  7940. spirits, bearing a great bridal-looking bouquet for 'Mrs. John Brooke',
  7941. and evidently laboring under the delusion that the whole affair had
  7942. been brought about by his excellent management.
  7943. "I knew Brooke would have it all his own way, he always does, for when
  7944. he makes up his mind to accomplish anything, it's done though the sky
  7945. falls," said Laurie, when he had presented his offering and his
  7946. congratulations.
  7947. "Much obliged for that recommendation. I take it as a good omen for
  7948. the future and invite you to my wedding on the spot," answered Mr.
  7949. Brooke, who felt at peace with all mankind, even his mischievous pupil.
  7950. "I'll come if I'm at the ends of the earth, for the sight of Jo's face
  7951. alone on that occasion would be worth a long journey. You don't look
  7952. festive, ma'am, what's the matter?" asked Laurie, following her into a
  7953. corner of the parlor, whither all had adjourned to greet Mr. Laurence.
  7954. "I don't approve of the match, but I've made up my mind to bear it, and
  7955. shall not say a word against it," said Jo solemnly. "You can't know
  7956. how hard it is for me to give up Meg," she continued with a little
  7957. quiver in her voice.
  7958. "You don't give her up. You only go halves," said Laurie consolingly.
  7959. "It can never be the same again. I've lost my dearest friend," sighed
  7960. Jo.
  7961. "You've got me, anyhow. I'm not good for much, I know, but I'll stand
  7962. by you, Jo, all the days of my life. Upon my word I will!" and Laurie
  7963. meant what he said.
  7964. "I know you will, and I'm ever so much obliged. You are always a great
  7965. comfort to me, Teddy," returned Jo, gratefully shaking hands.
  7966. "Well, now, don't be dismal, there's a good fellow. It's all right you
  7967. see. Meg is happy, Brooke will fly round and get settled immediately,
  7968. Grandpa will attend to him, and it will be very jolly to see Meg in her
  7969. own little house. We'll have capital times after she is gone, for I
  7970. shall be through college before long, and then we'll go abroad on some
  7971. nice trip or other. Wouldn't that console you?"
  7972. "I rather think it would, but there's no knowing what may happen in
  7973. three years," said Jo thoughtfully.
  7974. "That's true. Don't you wish you could take a look forward and see
  7975. where we shall all be then? I do," returned Laurie.
  7976. "I think not, for I might see something sad, and everyone looks so
  7977. happy now, I don't believe they could be much improved." And Jo's eyes
  7978. went slowly round the room, brightening as they looked, for the
  7979. prospect was a pleasant one.
  7980. Father and Mother sat together, quietly reliving the first chapter of
  7981. the romance which for them began some twenty years ago. Amy was drawing
  7982. the lovers, who sat apart in a beautiful world of their own, the light
  7983. of which touched their faces with a grace the little artist could not
  7984. copy. Beth lay on her sofa, talking cheerily with her old friend, who
  7985. held her little hand as if he felt that it possessed the power to lead
  7986. him along the peaceful way she walked. Jo lounged in her favorite low
  7987. seat, with the grave quiet look which best became her, and Laurie,
  7988. leaning on the back of her chair, his chin on a level with her curly
  7989. head, smiled with his friendliest aspect, and nodded at her in the long
  7990. glass which reflected them both.
  7991. So the curtain falls upon Meg, Jo, Beth, and Amy. Whether it ever
  7992. rises again, depends upon the reception given the first act of the
  7993. domestic drama called _Little Women_.
  7994. LITTLE WOMEN PART 2
  7995. In order that we may start afresh and go to Meg's wedding...
  7996. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  7997. GOSSIP
  7998. In order that we may start afresh and go to Meg's wedding with free
  7999. minds, it will be well to begin with a little gossip about the Marches.
  8000. And here let me premise that if any of the elders think there is too
  8001. much 'lovering' in the story, as I fear they may (I'm not afraid the
  8002. young folks will make that objection), I can only say with Mrs. March,
  8003. "What can you expect when I have four gay girls in the house, and a
  8004. dashing young neighbor over the way?"
  8005. The three years that have passed have brought but few changes to the
  8006. quiet family. The war is over, and Mr. March safely at home, busy with
  8007. his books and the small parish which found in him a minister by nature
  8008. as by grace, a quiet, studious man, rich in the wisdom that is better
  8009. than learning, the charity which calls all mankind 'brother', the piety
  8010. that blossoms into character, making it august and lovely.
  8011. These attributes, in spite of poverty and the strict integrity which
  8012. shut him out from the more worldly successes, attracted to him many
  8013. admirable persons, as naturally as sweet herbs draw bees, and as
  8014. naturally he gave them the honey into which fifty years of hard
  8015. experience had distilled no bitter drop. Earnest young men found the
  8016. gray-headed scholar as young at heart as they; thoughtful or troubled
  8017. women instinctively brought their doubts to him, sure of finding the
  8018. gentlest sympathy, the wisest counsel. Sinners told their sins to the
  8019. pure-hearted old man and were both rebuked and saved. Gifted men found
  8020. a companion in him. Ambitious men caught glimpses of nobler ambitions
  8021. than their own, and even worldlings confessed that his beliefs were
  8022. beautiful and true, although 'they wouldn't pay'.
  8023. To outsiders the five energetic women seemed to rule the house, and so
  8024. they did in many things, but the quiet scholar, sitting among his
  8025. books, was still the head of the family, the household conscience,
  8026. anchor, and comforter, for to him the busy, anxious women always turned
  8027. in troublous times, finding him, in the truest sense of those sacred
  8028. words, husband and father.
  8029. The girls gave their hearts into their mother's keeping, their souls
  8030. into their father's, and to both parents, who lived and labored so
  8031. faithfully for them, they gave a love that grew with their growth and
  8032. bound them tenderly together by the sweetest tie which blesses life and
  8033. outlives death.
  8034. Mrs. March is as brisk and cheery, though rather grayer, than when we
  8035. saw her last, and just now so absorbed in Meg's affairs that the
  8036. hospitals and homes still full of wounded 'boys' and soldiers' widows,
  8037. decidedly miss the motherly missionary's visits.
  8038. John Brooke did his duty manfully for a year, got wounded, was sent
  8039. home, and not allowed to return. He received no stars or bars, but he
  8040. deserved them, for he cheerfully risked all he had, and life and love
  8041. are very precious when both are in full bloom. Perfectly resigned to
  8042. his discharge, he devoted himself to getting well, preparing for
  8043. business, and earning a home for Meg. With the good sense and sturdy
  8044. independence that characterized him, he refused Mr. Laurence's more
  8045. generous offers, and accepted the place of bookkeeper, feeling better
  8046. satisfied to begin with an honestly earned salary than by running any
  8047. risks with borrowed money.
  8048. Meg had spent the time in working as well as waiting, growing womanly
  8049. in character, wise in housewifely arts, and prettier than ever, for
  8050. love is a great beautifier. She had her girlish ambitions and hopes,
  8051. and felt some disappointment at the humble way in which the new life
  8052. must begin. Ned Moffat had just married Sallie Gardiner, and Meg
  8053. couldn't help contrasting their fine house and carriage, many gifts,
  8054. and splendid outfit with her own, and secretly wishing she could have
  8055. the same. But somehow envy and discontent soon vanished when she
  8056. thought of all the patient love and labor John had put into the little
  8057. home awaiting her, and when they sat together in the twilight, talking
  8058. over their small plans, the future always grew so beautiful and bright
  8059. that she forgot Sallie's splendor and felt herself the richest,
  8060. happiest girl in Christendom.
  8061. Jo never went back to Aunt March, for the old lady took such a fancy to
  8062. Amy that she bribed her with the offer of drawing lessons from one of
  8063. the best teachers going, and for the sake of this advantage, Amy would
  8064. have served a far harder mistress. So she gave her mornings to duty,
  8065. her afternoons to pleasure, and prospered finely. Jo meantime devoted
  8066. herself to literature and Beth, who remained delicate long after the
  8067. fever was a thing of the past. Not an invalid exactly, but never again
  8068. the rosy, healthy creature she had been, yet always hopeful, happy, and
  8069. serene, and busy with the quiet duties she loved, everyone's friend,
  8070. and an angel in the house, long before those who loved her most had
  8071. learned to know it.
  8072. As long as _The Spread Eagle_ paid her a dollar a column for her
  8073. 'rubbish', as she called it, Jo felt herself a woman of means, and spun
  8074. her little romances diligently. But great plans fermented in her busy
  8075. brain and ambitious mind, and the old tin kitchen in the garret held a
  8076. slowly increasing pile of blotted manuscript, which was one day to
  8077. place the name of March upon the roll of fame.
  8078. Laurie, having dutifully gone to college to please his grandfather, was
  8079. now getting through it in the easiest possible manner to please
  8080. himself. A universal favorite, thanks to money, manners, much talent,
  8081. and the kindest heart that ever got its owner into scrapes by trying to
  8082. get other people out of them, he stood in great danger of being
  8083. spoiled, and probably would have been, like many another promising boy,
  8084. if he had not possessed a talisman against evil in the memory of the
  8085. kind old man who was bound up in his success, the motherly friend who
  8086. watched over him as if he were her son, and last, but not least by any
  8087. means, the knowledge that four innocent girls loved, admired, and
  8088. believed in him with all their hearts.
  8089. Being only 'a glorious human boy', of course he frolicked and flirted,
  8090. grew dandified, aquatic, sentimental, or gymnastic, as college fashions
  8091. ordained, hazed and was hazed, talked slang, and more than once came
  8092. perilously near suspension and expulsion. But as high spirits and the
  8093. love of fun were the causes of these pranks, he always managed to save
  8094. himself by frank confession, honorable atonement, or the irresistible
  8095. power of persuasion which he possessed in perfection. In fact, he
  8096. rather prided himself on his narrow escapes, and liked to thrill the
  8097. girls with graphic accounts of his triumphs over wrathful tutors,
  8098. dignified professors, and vanquished enemies. The 'men of my class',
  8099. were heroes in the eyes of the girls, who never wearied of the exploits
  8100. of 'our fellows', and were frequently allowed to bask in the smiles of
  8101. these great creatures, when Laurie brought them home with him.
  8102. Amy especially enjoyed this high honor, and became quite a belle among
  8103. them, for her ladyship early felt and learned to use the gift of
  8104. fascination with which she was endowed. Meg was too much absorbed in
  8105. her private and particular John to care for any other lords of
  8106. creation, and Beth too shy to do more than peep at them and wonder how
  8107. Amy dared to order them about so, but Jo felt quite in her own element,
  8108. and found it very difficult to refrain from imitating the gentlemanly
  8109. attitudes, phrases, and feats, which seemed more natural to her than
  8110. the decorums prescribed for young ladies. They all liked Jo immensely,
  8111. but never fell in love with her, though very few escaped without paying
  8112. the tribute of a sentimental sigh or two at Amy's shrine. And speaking
  8113. of sentiment brings us very naturally to the 'Dovecote'.
  8114. That was the name of the little brown house Mr. Brooke had prepared for
  8115. Meg's first home. Laurie had christened it, saying it was highly
  8116. appropriate to the gentle lovers who 'went on together like a pair of
  8117. turtledoves, with first a bill and then a coo'. It was a tiny house,
  8118. with a little garden behind and a lawn about as big as a pocket
  8119. handkerchief in the front. Here Meg meant to have a fountain,
  8120. shrubbery, and a profusion of lovely flowers, though just at present
  8121. the fountain was represented by a weather-beaten urn, very like a
  8122. dilapidated slopbowl, the shrubbery consisted of several young larches,
  8123. undecided whether to live or die, and the profusion of flowers was
  8124. merely hinted by regiments of sticks to show where seeds were planted.
  8125. But inside, it was altogether charming, and the happy bride saw no
  8126. fault from garret to cellar. To be sure, the hall was so narrow it was
  8127. fortunate that they had no piano, for one never could have been got in
  8128. whole, the dining room was so small that six people were a tight fit,
  8129. and the kitchen stairs seemed built for the express purpose of
  8130. precipitating both servants and china pell-mell into the coalbin. But
  8131. once get used to these slight blemishes and nothing could be more
  8132. complete, for good sense and good taste had presided over the
  8133. furnishing, and the result was highly satisfactory. There were no
  8134. marble-topped tables, long mirrors, or lace curtains in the little
  8135. parlor, but simple furniture, plenty of books, a fine picture or two, a
  8136. stand of flowers in the bay window, and, scattered all about, the
  8137. pretty gifts which came from friendly hands and were the fairer for the
  8138. loving messages they brought.
  8139. I don't think the Parian Psyche Laurie gave lost any of its beauty
  8140. because John put up the bracket it stood upon, that any upholsterer
  8141. could have draped the plain muslin curtains more gracefully than Amy's
  8142. artistic hand, or that any store-room was ever better provided with
  8143. good wishes, merry words, and happy hopes than that in which Jo and her
  8144. mother put away Meg's few boxes, barrels, and bundles, and I am morally
  8145. certain that the spandy new kitchen never could have looked so cozy and
  8146. neat if Hannah had not arranged every pot and pan a dozen times over,
  8147. and laid the fire all ready for lighting the minute 'Mis. Brooke came
  8148. home'. I also doubt if any young matron ever began life with so rich a
  8149. supply of dusters, holders, and piece bags, for Beth made enough to
  8150. last till the silver wedding came round, and invented three different
  8151. kinds of dishcloths for the express service of the bridal china.
  8152. People who hire all these things done for them never know what they
  8153. lose, for the homeliest tasks get beautified if loving hands do them,
  8154. and Meg found so many proofs of this that everything in her small nest,
  8155. from the kitchen roller to the silver vase on her parlor table, was
  8156. eloquent of home love and tender forethought.
  8157. What happy times they had planning together, what solemn shopping
  8158. excursions, what funny mistakes they made, and what shouts of laughter
  8159. arose over Laurie's ridiculous bargains. In his love of jokes, this
  8160. young gentleman, though nearly through college, was a much of a boy as
  8161. ever. His last whim had been to bring with him on his weekly visits
  8162. some new, useful, and ingenious article for the young housekeeper. Now
  8163. a bag of remarkable clothespins, next, a wonderful nutmeg grater which
  8164. fell to pieces at the first trial, a knife cleaner that spoiled all the
  8165. knives, or a sweeper that picked the nap neatly off the carpet and left
  8166. the dirt, labor-saving soap that took the skin off one's hands,
  8167. infallible cements which stuck firmly to nothing but the fingers of the
  8168. deluded buyer, and every kind of tinware, from a toy savings bank for
  8169. odd pennies, to a wonderful boiler which would wash articles in its own
  8170. steam with every prospect of exploding in the process.
  8171. In vain Meg begged him to stop. John laughed at him, and Jo called him
  8172. 'Mr. Toodles'. He was possessed with a mania for patronizing Yankee
  8173. ingenuity, and seeing his friends fitly furnished forth. So each week
  8174. beheld some fresh absurdity.
  8175. Everything was done at last, even to Amy's arranging different colored
  8176. soaps to match the different colored rooms, and Beth's setting the
  8177. table for the first meal.
  8178. "Are you satisfied? Does it seem like home, and do you feel as if you
  8179. should be happy here?" asked Mrs. March, as she and her daughter went
  8180. through the new kingdom arm in arm, for just then they seemed to cling
  8181. together more tenderly than ever.
  8182. "Yes, Mother, perfectly satisfied, thanks to you all, and so happy that
  8183. I can't talk about it," with a look that was far better than words.
  8184. "If she only had a servant or two it would be all right," said Amy,
  8185. coming out of the parlor, where she had been trying to decide whether
  8186. the bronze Mercury looked best on the whatnot or the mantlepiece.
  8187. "Mother and I have talked that over, and I have made up my mind to try
  8188. her way first. There will be so little to do that with Lotty to run my
  8189. errands and help me here and there, I shall only have enough work to
  8190. keep me from getting lazy or homesick," answered Meg tranquilly.
  8191. "Sallie Moffat has four," began Amy.
  8192. "If Meg had four, the house wouldn't hold them, and master and missis
  8193. would have to camp in the garden," broke in Jo, who, enveloped in a big
  8194. blue pinafore, was giving the last polish to the door handles.
  8195. "Sallie isn't a poor man's wife, and many maids are in keeping with her
  8196. fine establishment. Meg and John begin humbly, but I have a feeling
  8197. that there will be quite as much happiness in the little house as in
  8198. the big one. It's a great mistake for young girls like Meg to leave
  8199. themselves nothing to do but dress, give orders, and gossip. When I
  8200. was first married, I used to long for my new clothes to wear out or get
  8201. torn, so that I might have the pleasure of mending them, for I got
  8202. heartily sick of doing fancywork and tending my pocket handkerchief."
  8203. "Why didn't you go into the kitchen and make messes, as Sallie says she
  8204. does to amuse herself, though they never turn out well and the servants
  8205. laugh at her," said Meg.
  8206. "I did after a while, not to 'mess' but to learn of Hannah how things
  8207. should be done, that my servants need not laugh at me. It was play
  8208. then, but there came a time when I was truly grateful that I not only
  8209. possessed the will but the power to cook wholesome food for my little
  8210. girls, and help myself when I could no longer afford to hire help. You
  8211. begin at the other end, Meg, dear, but the lessons you learn now will
  8212. be of use to you by-and-by when John is a richer man, for the mistress
  8213. of a house, however splendid, should know how work ought to be done, if
  8214. she wishes to be well and honestly served."
  8215. "Yes, Mother, I'm sure of that," said Meg, listening respectfully to
  8216. the little lecture, for the best of women will hold forth upon the all
  8217. absorbing subject of house keeping. "Do you know I like this room most
  8218. of all in my baby house," added Meg, a minute after, as they went
  8219. upstairs and she looked into her well-stored linen closet.
  8220. Beth was there, laying the snowy piles smoothly on the shelves and
  8221. exulting over the goodly array. All three laughed as Meg spoke, for
  8222. that linen closet was a joke. You see, having said that if Meg married
  8223. 'that Brooke' she shouldn't have a cent of her money, Aunt March was
  8224. rather in a quandary when time had appeased her wrath and made her
  8225. repent her vow. She never broke her word, and was much exercised in
  8226. her mind how to get round it, and at last devised a plan whereby she
  8227. could satisfy herself. Mrs. Carrol, Florence's mamma, was ordered to
  8228. buy, have made, and marked a generous supply of house and table linen,
  8229. and send it as her present, all of which was faithfully done, but the
  8230. secret leaked out, and was greatly enjoyed by the family, for Aunt
  8231. March tried to look utterly unconscious, and insisted that she could
  8232. give nothing but the old-fashioned pearls long promised to the first
  8233. bride.
  8234. "That's a housewifely taste which I am glad to see. I had a young
  8235. friend who set up housekeeping with six sheets, but she had finger
  8236. bowls for company and that satisfied her," said Mrs. March, patting the
  8237. damask tablecloths, with a truly feminine appreciation of their
  8238. fineness.
  8239. "I haven't a single finger bowl, but this is a setout that will last me
  8240. all my days, Hannah says." And Meg looked quite contented, as well she
  8241. might.
  8242. A tall, broad-shouldered young fellow, with a cropped head, a felt
  8243. basin of a hat, and a flyaway coat, came tramping down the road at a
  8244. great pace, walked over the low fence without stopping to open the
  8245. gate, straight up to Mrs. March, with both hands out and a hearty...
  8246. "Here I am, Mother! Yes, it's all right."
  8247. The last words were in answer to the look the elder lady gave him, a
  8248. kindly questioning look which the handsome eyes met so frankly that the
  8249. little ceremony closed, as usual, with a motherly kiss.
  8250. "For Mrs. John Brooke, with the maker's congratulations and
  8251. compliments. Bless you, Beth! What a refreshing spectacle you are,
  8252. Jo. Amy, you are getting altogether too handsome for a single lady."
  8253. As Laurie spoke, he delivered a brown paper parcel to Meg, pulled
  8254. Beth's hair ribbon, stared at Jo's big pinafore, and fell into an
  8255. attitude of mock rapture before Amy, then shook hands all round, and
  8256. everyone began to talk.
  8257. "Where is John?" asked Meg anxiously.
  8258. "Stopped to get the license for tomorrow, ma'am."
  8259. "Which side won the last match, Teddy?" inquired Jo, who persisted in
  8260. feeling an interest in manly sports despite her nineteen years.
  8261. "Ours, of course. Wish you'd been there to see."
  8262. "How is the lovely Miss Randal?" asked Amy with a significant smile.
  8263. "More cruel than ever. Don't you see how I'm pining away?" and Laurie
  8264. gave his broad chest a sounding slap and heaved a melodramatic sigh.
  8265. "What's the last joke? Undo the bundle and see, Meg," said Beth, eying
  8266. the knobby parcel with curiosity.
  8267. "It's a useful thing to have in the house in case of fire or thieves,"
  8268. observed Laurie, as a watchman's rattle appeared, amid the laughter of
  8269. the girls.
  8270. "Any time when John is away and you get frightened, Mrs. Meg, just
  8271. swing that out of the front window, and it will rouse the neighborhood
  8272. in a jiffy. Nice thing, isn't it?" and Laurie gave them a sample of
  8273. its powers that made them cover up their ears.
  8274. "There's gratitude for you! And speaking of gratitude reminds me to
  8275. mention that you may thank Hannah for saving your wedding cake from
  8276. destruction. I saw it going into your house as I came by, and if she
  8277. hadn't defended it manfully I'd have had a pick at it, for it looked
  8278. like a remarkably plummy one."
  8279. "I wonder if you will ever grow up, Laurie," said Meg in a matronly
  8280. tone.
  8281. "I'm doing my best, ma'am, but can't get much higher, I'm afraid, as
  8282. six feet is about all men can do in these degenerate days," responded
  8283. the young gentleman, whose head was about level with the little
  8284. chandelier.
  8285. "I suppose it would be profanation to eat anything in this
  8286. spick-and-span bower, so as I'm tremendously hungry, I propose an
  8287. adjournment," he added presently.
  8288. "Mother and I are going to wait for John. There are some last things
  8289. to settle," said Meg, bustling away.
  8290. "Beth and I are going over to Kitty Bryant's to get more flowers for
  8291. tomorrow," added Amy, tying a picturesque hat over her picturesque
  8292. curls, and enjoying the effect as much as anybody.
  8293. "Come, Jo, don't desert a fellow. I'm in such a state of exhaustion I
  8294. can't get home without help. Don't take off your apron, whatever you
  8295. do, it's peculiarly becoming," said Laurie, as Jo bestowed his especial
  8296. aversion in her capacious pocket and offered her arm to support his
  8297. feeble steps.
  8298. "Now, Teddy, I want to talk seriously to you about tomorrow," began Jo,
  8299. as they strolled away together. "You must promise to behave well, and
  8300. not cut up any pranks, and spoil our plans."
  8301. "Not a prank."
  8302. "And don't say funny things when we ought to be sober."
  8303. "I never do. You are the one for that."
  8304. "And I implore you not to look at me during the ceremony. I shall
  8305. certainly laugh if you do."
  8306. "You won't see me, you'll be crying so hard that the thick fog round
  8307. you will obscure the prospect."
  8308. "I never cry unless for some great affliction."
  8309. "Such as fellows going to college, hey?" cut in Laurie, with suggestive
  8310. laugh.
  8311. "Don't be a peacock. I only moaned a trifle to keep the girls company."
  8312. "Exactly. I say, Jo, how is Grandpa this week? Pretty amiable?"
  8313. "Very. Why, have you got into a scrape and want to know how he'll take
  8314. it?" asked Jo rather sharply.
  8315. "Now, Jo, do you think I'd look your mother in the face and say 'All
  8316. right', if it wasn't?" and Laurie stopped short, with an injured air.
  8317. "No, I don't."
  8318. "Then don't go and be suspicious. I only want some money," said
  8319. Laurie, walking on again, appeased by her hearty tone.
  8320. "You spend a great deal, Teddy."
  8321. "Bless you, I don't spend it, it spends itself somehow, and is gone
  8322. before I know it."
  8323. "You are so generous and kind-hearted that you let people borrow, and
  8324. can't say 'No' to anyone. We heard about Henshaw and all you did for
  8325. him. If you always spent money in that way, no one would blame you,"
  8326. said Jo warmly.
  8327. "Oh, he made a mountain out of a molehill. You wouldn't have me let
  8328. that fine fellow work himself to death just for want of a little help,
  8329. when he is worth a dozen of us lazy chaps, would you?"
  8330. "Of course not, but I don't see the use of your having seventeen
  8331. waistcoats, endless neckties, and a new hat every time you come home. I
  8332. thought you'd got over the dandy period, but every now and then it
  8333. breaks out in a new spot. Just now it's the fashion to be hideous, to
  8334. make your head look like a scrubbing brush, wear a strait jacket,
  8335. orange gloves, and clumping square-toed boots. If it was cheap
  8336. ugliness, I'd say nothing, but it costs as much as the other, and I
  8337. don't get any satisfaction out of it."
  8338. Laurie threw back his head, and laughed so heartily at this attack,
  8339. that the felt hat fell off, and Jo walked on it, which insult only
  8340. afforded him an opportunity for expatiating on the advantages of a
  8341. rough-and-ready costume, as he folded up the maltreated hat, and
  8342. stuffed it into his pocket.
  8343. "Don't lecture any more, there's a good soul! I have enough all
  8344. through the week, and like to enjoy myself when I come home. I'll get
  8345. myself up regardless of expense tomorrow and be a satisfaction to my
  8346. friends."
  8347. "I'll leave you in peace if you'll only let your hair grow. I'm not
  8348. aristocratic, but I do object to being seen with a person who looks
  8349. like a young prize fighter," observed Jo severely.
  8350. "This unassuming style promotes study, that's why we adopt it,"
  8351. returned Laurie, who certainly could not be accused of vanity, having
  8352. voluntarily sacrificed a handsome curly crop to the demand for
  8353. quarter-inch-long stubble.
  8354. "By the way, Jo, I think that little Parker is really getting desperate
  8355. about Amy. He talks of her constantly, writes poetry, and moons about
  8356. in a most suspicious manner. He'd better nip his little passion in the
  8357. bud, hadn't he?" added Laurie, in a confidential, elder brotherly tone,
  8358. after a minute's silence.
  8359. "Of course he had. We don't want any more marrying in this family for
  8360. years to come. Mercy on us, what are the children thinking of?" and Jo
  8361. looked as much scandalized as if Amy and little Parker were not yet in
  8362. their teens.
  8363. "It's a fast age, and I don't know what we are coming to, ma'am. You
  8364. are a mere infant, but you'll go next, Jo, and we'll be left
  8365. lamenting," said Laurie, shaking his head over the degeneracy of the
  8366. times.
  8367. "Don't be alarmed. I'm not one of the agreeable sort. Nobody will
  8368. want me, and it's a mercy, for there should always be one old maid in a
  8369. family."
  8370. "You won't give anyone a chance," said Laurie, with a sidelong glance
  8371. and a little more color than before in his sunburned face. "You won't
  8372. show the soft side of your character, and if a fellow gets a peep at it
  8373. by accident and can't help showing that he likes it, you treat him as
  8374. Mrs. Gummidge did her sweetheart, throw cold water over him, and get so
  8375. thorny no one dares touch or look at you."
  8376. "I don't like that sort of thing. I'm too busy to be worried with
  8377. nonsense, and I think it's dreadful to break up families so. Now don't
  8378. say any more about it. Meg's wedding has turned all our heads, and we
  8379. talk of nothing but lovers and such absurdities. I don't wish to get
  8380. cross, so let's change the subject;" and Jo looked quite ready to
  8381. fling cold water on the slightest provocation.
  8382. Whatever his feelings might have been, Laurie found a vent for them in
  8383. a long low whistle and the fearful prediction as they parted at the
  8384. gate, "Mark my words, Jo, you'll go next."
  8385. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  8386. THE FIRST WEDDING
  8387. The June roses over the porch were awake bright and early on that
  8388. morning, rejoicing with all their hearts in the cloudless sunshine,
  8389. like friendly little neighbors, as they were. Quite flushed with
  8390. excitement were their ruddy faces, as they swung in the wind,
  8391. whispering to one another what they had seen, for some peeped in at the
  8392. dining room windows where the feast was spread, some climbed up to nod
  8393. and smile at the sisters as they dressed the bride, others waved a
  8394. welcome to those who came and went on various errands in garden, porch,
  8395. and hall, and all, from the rosiest full-blown flower to the palest
  8396. baby bud, offered their tribute of beauty and fragrance to the gentle
  8397. mistress who had loved and tended them so long.
  8398. Meg looked very like a rose herself, for all that was best and sweetest
  8399. in heart and soul seemed to bloom into her face that day, making it
  8400. fair and tender, with a charm more beautiful than beauty. Neither silk,
  8401. lace, nor orange flowers would she have. "I don't want a fashionable
  8402. wedding, but only those about me whom I love, and to them I wish to
  8403. look and be my familiar self."
  8404. So she made her wedding gown herself, sewing into it the tender hopes
  8405. and innocent romances of a girlish heart. Her sisters braided up her
  8406. pretty hair, and the only ornaments she wore were the lilies of the
  8407. valley, which 'her John' liked best of all the flowers that grew.
  8408. "You do look just like our own dear Meg, only so very sweet and lovely
  8409. that I should hug you if it wouldn't crumple your dress," cried Amy,
  8410. surveying her with delight when all was done.
  8411. "Then I am satisfied. But please hug and kiss me, everyone, and don't
  8412. mind my dress. I want a great many crumples of this sort put into it
  8413. today," and Meg opened her arms to her sisters, who clung about her
  8414. with April faces for a minute, feeling that the new love had not
  8415. changed the old.
  8416. "Now I'm going to tie John's cravat for him, and then to stay a few
  8417. minutes with Father quietly in the study," and Meg ran down to perform
  8418. these little ceremonies, and then to follow her mother wherever she
  8419. went, conscious that in spite of the smiles on the motherly face, there
  8420. was a secret sorrow hid in the motherly heart at the flight of the
  8421. first bird from the nest.
  8422. As the younger girls stand together, giving the last touches to their
  8423. simple toilet, it may be a good time to tell of a few changes which
  8424. three years have wrought in their appearance, for all are looking their
  8425. best just now.
  8426. Jo's angles are much softened, she has learned to carry herself with
  8427. ease, if not grace. The curly crop has lengthened into a thick coil,
  8428. more becoming to the small head atop of the tall figure. There is a
  8429. fresh color in her brown cheeks, a soft shine in her eyes, and only
  8430. gentle words fall from her sharp tongue today.
  8431. Beth has grown slender, pale, and more quiet than ever. The beautiful,
  8432. kind eyes are larger, and in them lies an expression that saddens one,
  8433. although it is not sad itself. It is the shadow of pain which touches
  8434. the young face with such pathetic patience, but Beth seldom complains
  8435. and always speaks hopefully of 'being better soon'.
  8436. Amy is with truth considered 'the flower of the family', for at sixteen
  8437. she has the air and bearing of a full-grown woman, not beautiful, but
  8438. possessed of that indescribable charm called grace. One saw it in the
  8439. lines of her figure, the make and motion of her hands, the flow of her
  8440. dress, the droop of her hair, unconscious yet harmonious, and as
  8441. attractive to many as beauty itself. Amy's nose still afflicted her,
  8442. for it never would grow Grecian, so did her mouth, being too wide, and
  8443. having a decided chin. These offending features gave character to her
  8444. whole face, but she never could see it, and consoled herself with her
  8445. wonderfully fair complexion, keen blue eyes, and curls more golden and
  8446. abundant than ever.
  8447. All three wore suits of thin silver gray (their best gowns for the
  8448. summer), with blush roses in hair and bosom, and all three looked just
  8449. what they were, fresh-faced, happy-hearted girls, pausing a moment in
  8450. their busy lives to read with wistful eyes the sweetest chapter in the
  8451. romance of womanhood.
  8452. There were to be no ceremonious performances, everything was to be as
  8453. natural and homelike as possible, so when Aunt March arrived, she was
  8454. scandalized to see the bride come running to welcome and lead her in,
  8455. to find the bridegroom fastening up a garland that had fallen down, and
  8456. to catch a glimpse of the paternal minister marching upstairs with a
  8457. grave countenance and a wine bottle under each arm.
  8458. "Upon my word, here's a state of things!" cried the old lady, taking
  8459. the seat of honor prepared for her, and settling the folds of her
  8460. lavender moire with a great rustle. "You oughtn't to be seen till the
  8461. last minute, child."
  8462. "I'm not a show, Aunty, and no one is coming to stare at me, to
  8463. criticize my dress, or count the cost of my luncheon. I'm too happy to
  8464. care what anyone says or thinks, and I'm going to have my little
  8465. wedding just as I like it. John, dear, here's your hammer." And away
  8466. went Meg to help 'that man' in his highly improper employment.
  8467. Mr. Brooke didn't even say, "Thank you," but as he stooped for the
  8468. unromantic tool, he kissed his little bride behind the folding door,
  8469. with a look that made Aunt March whisk out her pocket handkerchief with
  8470. a sudden dew in her sharp old eyes.
  8471. A crash, a cry, and a laugh from Laurie, accompanied by the indecorous
  8472. exclamation, "Jupiter Ammon! Jo's upset the cake again!" caused a
  8473. momentary flurry, which was hardly over when a flock of cousins
  8474. arrived, and 'the party came in', as Beth used to say when a child.
  8475. "Don't let that young giant come near me, he worries me worse than
  8476. mosquitoes," whispered the old lady to Amy, as the rooms filled and
  8477. Laurie's black head towered above the rest.
  8478. "He has promised to be very good today, and he can be perfectly elegant
  8479. if he likes," returned Amy, and gliding away to warn Hercules to beware
  8480. of the dragon, which warning caused him to haunt the old lady with a
  8481. devotion that nearly distracted her.
  8482. There was no bridal procession, but a sudden silence fell upon the room
  8483. as Mr. March and the young couple took their places under the green
  8484. arch. Mother and sisters gathered close, as if loath to give Meg up.
  8485. The fatherly voice broke more than once, which only seemed to make the
  8486. service more beautiful and solemn. The bridegroom's hand trembled
  8487. visibly, and no one heard his replies. But Meg looked straight up in
  8488. her husband's eyes, and said, "I will!" with such tender trust in her
  8489. own face and voice that her mother's heart rejoiced and Aunt March
  8490. sniffed audibly.
  8491. Jo did not cry, though she was very near it once, and was only saved
  8492. from a demonstration by the consciousness that Laurie was staring
  8493. fixedly at her, with a comical mixture of merriment and emotion in his
  8494. wicked black eyes. Beth kept her face hidden on her mother's shoulder,
  8495. but Amy stood like a graceful statue, with a most becoming ray of
  8496. sunshine touching her white forehead and the flower in her hair.
  8497. It wasn't at all the thing, I'm afraid, but the minute she was fairly
  8498. married, Meg cried, "The first kiss for Marmee!" and turning, gave it
  8499. with her heart on her lips. During the next fifteen minutes she looked
  8500. more like a rose than ever, for everyone availed themselves of their
  8501. privileges to the fullest extent, from Mr. Laurence to old Hannah, who,
  8502. adorned with a headdress fearfully and wonderfully made, fell upon her
  8503. in the hall, crying with a sob and a chuckle, "Bless you, deary, a
  8504. hundred times! The cake ain't hurt a mite, and everything looks
  8505. lovely."
  8506. Everybody cleared up after that, and said something brilliant, or tried
  8507. to, which did just as well, for laughter is ready when hearts are
  8508. light. There was no display of gifts, for they were already in the
  8509. little house, nor was there an elaborate breakfast, but a plentiful
  8510. lunch of cake and fruit, dressed with flowers. Mr. Laurence and Aunt
  8511. March shrugged and smiled at one another when water, lemonade, and
  8512. coffee were found to be to only sorts of nectar which the three Hebes
  8513. carried round. No one said anything, till Laurie, who insisted on
  8514. serving the bride, appeared before her, with a loaded salver in his
  8515. hand and a puzzled expression on his face.
  8516. "Has Jo smashed all the bottles by accident?" he whispered, "or am I
  8517. merely laboring under a delusion that I saw some lying about loose this
  8518. morning?"
  8519. "No, your grandfather kindly offered us his best, and Aunt March
  8520. actually sent some, but Father put away a little for Beth, and
  8521. dispatched the rest to the Soldier's Home. You know he thinks that
  8522. wine should be used only in illness, and Mother says that neither she
  8523. nor her daughters will ever offer it to any young man under her roof."
  8524. Meg spoke seriously and expected to see Laurie frown or laugh, but he
  8525. did neither, for after a quick look at her, he said, in his impetuous
  8526. way, "I like that! For I've seen enough harm done to wish other women
  8527. would think as you do."
  8528. "You are not made wise by experience, I hope?" and there was an anxious
  8529. accent in Meg's voice.
  8530. "No. I give you my word for it. Don't think too well of me, either,
  8531. this is not one of my temptations. Being brought up where wine is as
  8532. common as water and almost as harmless, I don't care for it, but when a
  8533. pretty girl offers it, one doesn't like to refuse, you see."
  8534. "But you will, for the sake of others, if not for your own. Come,
  8535. Laurie, promise, and give me one more reason to call this the happiest
  8536. day of my life."
  8537. A demand so sudden and so serious made the young man hesitate a moment,
  8538. for ridicule is often harder to bear than self-denial. Meg knew that if
  8539. he gave the promise he would keep it at all costs, and feeling her
  8540. power, used it as a woman may for her friend's good. She did not speak,
  8541. but she looked up at him with a face made very eloquent by happiness,
  8542. and a smile which said, "No one can refuse me anything today."
  8543. Laurie certainly could not, and with an answering smile, he gave her
  8544. his hand, saying heartily, "I promise, Mrs. Brooke!"
  8545. "I thank you, very, very much."
  8546. "And I drink 'long life to your resolution', Teddy," cried Jo,
  8547. baptizing him with a splash of lemonade, as she waved her glass and
  8548. beamed approvingly upon him.
  8549. So the toast was drunk, the pledge made and loyally kept in spite of
  8550. many temptations, for with instinctive wisdom, the girls seized a happy
  8551. moment to do their friend a service, for which he thanked them all his
  8552. life.
  8553. After lunch, people strolled about, by twos and threes, through the
  8554. house and garden, enjoying the sunshine without and within. Meg and
  8555. John happened to be standing together in the middle of the grass plot,
  8556. when Laurie was seized with an inspiration which put the finishing
  8557. touch to this unfashionable wedding.
  8558. "All the married people take hands and dance round the new-made husband
  8559. and wife, as the Germans do, while we bachelors and spinsters prance in
  8560. couples outside!" cried Laurie, promenading down the path with Amy,
  8561. with such infectious spirit and skill that everyone else followed their
  8562. example without a murmur. Mr. and Mrs. March, Aunt and Uncle Carrol
  8563. began it, others rapidly joined in, even Sallie Moffat, after a
  8564. moment's hesitation, threw her train over her arm and whisked Ned into
  8565. the ring. But the crowning joke was Mr. Laurence and Aunt March, for
  8566. when the stately old gentleman chasseed solemnly up to the old lady,
  8567. she just tucked her cane under her arm, and hopped briskly away to join
  8568. hands with the rest and dance about the bridal pair, while the young
  8569. folks pervaded the garden like butterflies on a midsummer day.
  8570. Want of breath brought the impromptu ball to a close, and then people
  8571. began to go.
  8572. "I wish you well, my dear, I heartily wish you well, but I think you'll
  8573. be sorry for it," said Aunt March to Meg, adding to the bridegroom, as
  8574. he led her to the carriage, "You've got a treasure, young man, see that
  8575. you deserve it."
  8576. "That is the prettiest wedding I've been to for an age, Ned, and I
  8577. don't see why, for there wasn't a bit of style about it," observed Mrs.
  8578. Moffat to her husband, as they drove away.
  8579. "Laurie, my lad, if you ever want to indulge in this sort of thing, get
  8580. one of those little girls to help you, and I shall be perfectly
  8581. satisfied," said Mr. Laurence, settling himself in his easy chair to
  8582. rest after the excitement of the morning.
  8583. "I'll do my best to gratify you, Sir," was Laurie's unusually dutiful
  8584. reply, as he carefully unpinned the posy Jo had put in his buttonhole.
  8585. The little house was not far away, and the only bridal journey Meg had
  8586. was the quiet walk with John from the old home to the new. When she
  8587. came down, looking like a pretty Quakeress in her dove-colored suit and
  8588. straw bonnet tied with white, they all gathered about her to say
  8589. 'good-by', as tenderly as if she had been going to make the grand tour.
  8590. "Don't feel that I am separated from you, Marmee dear, or that I love
  8591. you any the less for loving John so much," she said, clinging to her
  8592. mother, with full eyes for a moment. "I shall come every day, Father,
  8593. and expect to keep my old place in all your hearts, though I am
  8594. married. Beth is going to be with me a great deal, and the other girls
  8595. will drop in now and then to laugh at my housekeeping struggles. Thank
  8596. you all for my happy wedding day. Good-by, good-by!"
  8597. They stood watching her, with faces full of love and hope and tender
  8598. pride as she walked away, leaning on her husband's arm, with her hands
  8599. full of flowers and the June sunshine brightening her happy face--and
  8600. so Meg's married life began.
  8601. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  8602. ARTISTIC ATTEMPTS
  8603. It takes people a long time to learn the difference between talent and
  8604. genius, especially ambitious young men and women. Amy was learning
  8605. this distinction through much tribulation, for mistaking enthusiasm for
  8606. inspiration, she attempted every branch of art with youthful audacity.
  8607. For a long time there was a lull in the 'mud-pie' business, and she
  8608. devoted herself to the finest pen-and-ink drawing, in which she showed
  8609. such taste and skill that her graceful handiwork proved both pleasant
  8610. and profitable. But over-strained eyes caused pen and ink to be laid
  8611. aside for a bold attempt at poker-sketching. While this attack lasted,
  8612. the family lived in constant fear of a conflagration, for the odor of
  8613. burning wood pervaded the house at all hours, smoke issued from attic
  8614. and shed with alarming frequency, red-hot pokers lay about
  8615. promiscuously, and Hannah never went to bed without a pail of water and
  8616. the dinner bell at her door in case of fire. Raphael's face was found
  8617. boldly executed on the underside of the moulding board, and Bacchus on
  8618. the head of a beer barrel. A chanting cherub adorned the cover of the
  8619. sugar bucket, and attempts to portray Romeo and Juliet supplied
  8620. kindling for some time.
  8621. From fire to oil was a natural transition for burned fingers, and Amy
  8622. fell to painting with undiminished ardor. An artist friend fitted her
  8623. out with his castoff palettes, brushes, and colors, and she daubed
  8624. away, producing pastoral and marine views such as were never seen on
  8625. land or sea. Her monstrosities in the way of cattle would have taken
  8626. prizes at an agricultural fair, and the perilous pitching of her
  8627. vessels would have produced seasickness in the most nautical observer,
  8628. if the utter disregard to all known rules of shipbuilding and rigging
  8629. had not convulsed him with laughter at the first glance. Swarthy boys
  8630. and dark-eyed Madonnas, staring at you from one corner of the studio,
  8631. suggested Murillo; oily brown shadows of faces with a lurid streak in
  8632. the wrong place, meant Rembrandt; buxom ladies and dropiscal infants,
  8633. Rubens; and Turner appeared in tempests of blue thunder, orange
  8634. lightning, brown rain, and purple clouds, with a tomato-colored splash
  8635. in the middle, which might be the sun or a bouy, a sailor's shirt or a
  8636. king's robe, as the spectator pleased.
  8637. Charcoal portraits came next, and the entire family hung in a row,
  8638. looking as wild and crocky as if just evoked from a coalbin. Softened
  8639. into crayon sketches, they did better, for the likenesses were good,
  8640. and Amy's hair, Jo's nose, Meg's mouth, and Laurie's eyes were
  8641. pronounced 'wonderfully fine'. A return to clay and plaster followed,
  8642. and ghostly casts of her acquaintances haunted corners of the house, or
  8643. tumbled off closet shelves onto people's heads. Children were enticed
  8644. in as models, till their incoherent accounts of her mysterious doings
  8645. caused Miss Amy to be regarded in the light of a young ogress. Her
  8646. efforts in this line, however, were brought to an abrupt close by an
  8647. untoward accident, which quenched her ardor. Other models failing her
  8648. for a time, she undertook to cast her own pretty foot, and the family
  8649. were one day alarmed by an unearthly bumping and screaming and running
  8650. to the rescue, found the young enthusiast hopping wildly about the shed
  8651. with her foot held fast in a pan full of plaster, which had hardened
  8652. with unexpected rapidity. With much difficulty and some danger she was
  8653. dug out, for Jo was so overcome with laughter while she excavated that
  8654. her knife went too far, cut the poor foot, and left a lasting memorial
  8655. of one artistic attempt, at least.
  8656. After this Amy subsided, till a mania for sketching from nature set her
  8657. to haunting river, field, and wood, for picturesque studies, and
  8658. sighing for ruins to copy. She caught endless colds sitting on damp
  8659. grass to book 'a delicious bit', composed of a stone, a stump, one
  8660. mushroom, and a broken mullein stalk, or 'a heavenly mass of clouds',
  8661. that looked like a choice display of featherbeds when done. She
  8662. sacrificed her complexion floating on the river in the midsummer sun to
  8663. study light and shade, and got a wrinkle over her nose trying after
  8664. 'points of sight', or whatever the squint-and-string performance is
  8665. called.
  8666. If 'genius is eternal patience', as Michelangelo affirms, Amy had some
  8667. claim to the divine attribute, for she persevered in spite of all
  8668. obstacles, failures, and discouragements, firmly believing that in time
  8669. she should do something worthy to be called 'high art'.
  8670. She was learning, doing, and enjoying other things, meanwhile, for she
  8671. had resolved to be an attractive and accomplished woman, even if she
  8672. never became a great artist. Here she succeeded better, for she was
  8673. one of those happily created beings who please without effort, make
  8674. friends everywhere, and take life so gracefully and easily that less
  8675. fortunate souls are tempted to believe that such are born under a lucky
  8676. star. Everybody liked her, for among her good gifts was tact. She had
  8677. an instinctive sense of what was pleasing and proper, always said the
  8678. right thing to the right person, did just what suited the time and
  8679. place, and was so self-possessed that her sisters used to say, "If Amy
  8680. went to court without any rehearsal beforehand, she'd know exactly what
  8681. to do."
  8682. One of her weaknesses was a desire to move in 'our best society',
  8683. without being quite sure what the best really was. Money, position,
  8684. fashionable accomplishments, and elegant manners were most desirable
  8685. things in her eyes, and she liked to associate with those who possessed
  8686. them, often mistaking the false for the true, and admiring what was not
  8687. admirable. Never forgetting that by birth she was a gentlewoman, she
  8688. cultivated her aristocratic tastes and feelings, so that when the
  8689. opportunity came she might be ready to take the place from which
  8690. poverty now excluded her.
  8691. "My lady," as her friends called her, sincerely desired to be a genuine
  8692. lady, and was so at heart, but had yet to learn that money cannot buy
  8693. refinement of nature, that rank does not always confer nobility, and
  8694. that true breeding makes itself felt in spite of external drawbacks.
  8695. "I want to ask a favor of you, Mamma," Amy said, coming in with an
  8696. important air one day.
  8697. "Well, little girl, what is it?" replied her mother, in whose eyes the
  8698. stately young lady still remained 'the baby'.
  8699. "Our drawing class breaks up next week, and before the girls separate
  8700. for the summer, I want to ask them out here for a day. They are wild
  8701. to see the river, sketch the broken bridge, and copy some of the things
  8702. they admire in my book. They have been very kind to me in many ways,
  8703. and I am grateful, for they are all rich and I know I am poor, yet they
  8704. never made any difference."
  8705. "Why should they?" and Mrs. March put the question with what the girls
  8706. called her 'Maria Theresa air'.
  8707. "You know as well as I that it does make a difference with nearly
  8708. everyone, so don't ruffle up like a dear, motherly hen, when your
  8709. chickens get pecked by smarter birds. The ugly duckling turned out a
  8710. swan, you know." and Amy smiled without bitterness, for she possessed
  8711. a happy temper and hopeful spirit.
  8712. Mrs. March laughed, and smoothed down her maternal pride as she asked,
  8713. "Well, my swan, what is your plan?"
  8714. "I should like to ask the girls out to lunch next week, to take them
  8715. for a drive to the places they want to see, a row on the river,
  8716. perhaps, and make a little artistic fete for them."
  8717. "That looks feasible. What do you want for lunch? Cake, sandwiches,
  8718. fruit, and coffee will be all that is necessary, I suppose?"
  8719. "Oh, dear, no! We must have cold tongue and chicken, French chocolate
  8720. and ice cream, besides. The girls are used to such things, and I want
  8721. my lunch to be proper and elegant, though I do work for my living."
  8722. "How many young ladies are there?" asked her mother, beginning to look
  8723. sober.
  8724. "Twelve or fourteen in the class, but I dare say they won't all come."
  8725. "Bless me, child, you will have to charter an omnibus to carry them
  8726. about."
  8727. "Why, Mother, how can you think of such a thing? Not more than six or
  8728. eight will probably come, so I shall hire a beach wagon and borrow Mr.
  8729. Laurence's cherry-bounce." (Hannah's pronunciation of char-a-banc.)
  8730. "All of this will be expensive, Amy."
  8731. "Not very. I've calculated the cost, and I'll pay for it myself."
  8732. "Don't you think, dear, that as these girls are used to such things,
  8733. and the best we can do will be nothing new, that some simpler plan
  8734. would be pleasanter to them, as a change if nothing more, and much
  8735. better for us than buying or borrowing what we don't need, and
  8736. attempting a style not in keeping with our circumstances?"
  8737. "If I can't have it as I like, I don't care to have it at all. I know
  8738. that I can carry it out perfectly well, if you and the girls will help
  8739. a little, and I don't see why I can't if I'm willing to pay for it,"
  8740. said Amy, with the decision which opposition was apt to change into
  8741. obstinacy.
  8742. Mrs. March knew that experience was an excellent teacher, and when it
  8743. was possible she left her children to learn alone the lessons which she
  8744. would gladly have made easier, if they had not objected to taking
  8745. advice as much as they did salts and senna.
  8746. "Very well, Amy, if your heart is set upon it, and you see your way
  8747. through without too great an outlay of money, time, and temper, I'll
  8748. say no more. Talk it over with the girls, and whichever way you
  8749. decide, I'll do my best to help you."
  8750. "Thanks, Mother, you are always so kind." and away went Amy to lay her
  8751. plan before her sisters.
  8752. Meg agreed at once, and promised her aid, gladly offering anything she
  8753. possessed, from her little house itself to her very best saltspoons.
  8754. But Jo frowned upon the whole project and would have nothing to do with
  8755. it at first.
  8756. "Why in the world should you spend your money, worry your family, and
  8757. turn the house upside down for a parcel of girls who don't care a
  8758. sixpence for you? I thought you had too much pride and sense to
  8759. truckle to any mortal woman just because she wears French boots and
  8760. rides in a coupe," said Jo, who, being called from the tragic climax of
  8761. her novel, was not in the best mood for social enterprises.
  8762. "I don't truckle, and I hate being patronized as much as you do!"
  8763. returned Amy indignantly, for the two still jangled when such questions
  8764. arose. "The girls do care for me, and I for them, and there's a great
  8765. deal of kindness and sense and talent among them, in spite of what you
  8766. call fashionable nonsense. You don't care to make people like you, to
  8767. go into good society, and cultivate your manners and tastes. I do, and
  8768. I mean to make the most of every chance that comes. You can go through
  8769. the world with your elbows out and your nose in the air, and call it
  8770. independence, if you like. That's not my way."
  8771. When Amy had whetted her tongue and freed her mind she usually got the
  8772. best of it, for she seldom failed to have common sense on her side,
  8773. while Jo carried her love of liberty and hate of conventionalities to
  8774. such an unlimited extent that she naturally found herself worsted in an
  8775. argument. Amy's definition of Jo's idea of independence was such a
  8776. good hit that both burst out laughing, and the discussion took a more
  8777. amiable turn. Much against her will, Jo at length consented to
  8778. sacrifice a day to Mrs. Grundy, and help her sister through what she
  8779. regarded as 'a nonsensical business'.
  8780. The invitations were sent, nearly all accepted, and the following
  8781. Monday was set apart for the grand event. Hannah was out of humor
  8782. because her week's work was deranged, and prophesied that "ef the
  8783. washin' and ironin' warn't done reg'lar, nothin' would go well
  8784. anywheres". This hitch in the mainspring of the domestic machinery had
  8785. a bad effect upon the whole concern, but Amy's motto was 'Nil
  8786. desperandum', and having made up her mind what to do, she proceeded to
  8787. do it in spite of all obstacles. To begin with, Hannah's cooking
  8788. didn't turn out well. The chicken was tough, the tongue too salty, and
  8789. the chocolate wouldn't froth properly. Then the cake and ice cost more
  8790. than Amy expected, so did the wagon, and various other expenses, which
  8791. seemed trifling at the outset, counted up rather alarmingly afterward.
  8792. Beth got a cold and took to her bed. Meg had an unusual number of
  8793. callers to keep her at home, and Jo was in such a divided state of mind
  8794. that her breakages, accidents, and mistakes were uncommonly numerous,
  8795. serious, and trying.
  8796. If it was not fair on Monday, the young ladies were to come on Tuesday,
  8797. an arrangement which aggravated Jo and Hannah to the last degree. On
  8798. Monday morning the weather was in that undecided state which is more
  8799. exasperating than a steady pour. It drizzled a little, shone a little,
  8800. blew a little, and didn't make up its mind till it was too late for
  8801. anyone else to make up theirs. Amy was up at dawn, hustling people out
  8802. of their beds and through their breakfasts, that the house might be got
  8803. in order. The parlor struck her as looking uncommonly shabby, but
  8804. without stopping to sigh for what she had not, she skillfully made the
  8805. best of what she had, arranging chairs over the worn places in the
  8806. carpet, covering stains on the walls with homemade statuary, which gave
  8807. an artistic air to the room, as did the lovely vases of flowers Jo
  8808. scattered about.
  8809. The lunch looked charming, and as she surveyed it, she sincerely hoped
  8810. it would taste well, and that the borrowed glass, china, and silver
  8811. would get safely home again. The carriages were promised, Meg and
  8812. Mother were all ready to do the honors, Beth was able to help Hannah
  8813. behind the scenes, Jo had engaged to be as lively and amiable as an
  8814. absent mind, and aching head, and a very decided disapproval of
  8815. everybody and everything would allow, and as she wearily dressed, Amy
  8816. cheered herself with anticipations of the happy moment when, lunch
  8817. safely over, she should drive away with her friends for an afternoon of
  8818. artistic delights, for the 'cherry bounce' and the broken bridge were
  8819. her strong points.
  8820. Then came the hours of suspense, during which she vibrated from parlor
  8821. to porch, while public opinion varied like the weathercock. A smart
  8822. shower at eleven had evidently quenched the enthusiasm of the young
  8823. ladies who were to arrive at twelve, for nobody came, and at two the
  8824. exhausted family sat down in a blaze of sunshine to consume the
  8825. perishable portions of the feast, that nothing might be lost.
  8826. "No doubt about the weather today, they will certainly come, so we must
  8827. fly round and be ready for them," said Amy, as the sun woke her next
  8828. morning. She spoke briskly, but in her secret soul she wished she had
  8829. said nothing about Tuesday, for her interest like her cake was getting
  8830. a little stale.
  8831. "I can't get any lobsters, so you will have to do without salad today,"
  8832. said Mr. March, coming in half an hour later, with an expression of
  8833. placid despair.
  8834. "Use the chicken then, the toughness won't matter in a salad," advised
  8835. his wife.
  8836. "Hannah left it on the kitchen table a minute, and the kittens got at
  8837. it. I'm very sorry, Amy," added Beth, who was still a patroness of
  8838. cats.
  8839. "Then I must have a lobster, for tongue alone won't do," said Amy
  8840. decidedly.
  8841. "Shall I rush into town and demand one?" asked Jo, with the magnanimity
  8842. of a martyr.
  8843. "You'd come bringing it home under your arm without any paper, just to
  8844. try me. I'll go myself," answered Amy, whose temper was beginning to
  8845. fail.
  8846. Shrouded in a thick veil and armed with a genteel traveling basket, she
  8847. departed, feeling that a cool drive would soothe her ruffled spirit and
  8848. fit her for the labors of the day. After some delay, the object of her
  8849. desire was procured, likewise a bottle of dressing to prevent further
  8850. loss of time at home, and off she drove again, well pleased with her
  8851. own forethought.
  8852. As the omnibus contained only one other passenger, a sleepy old lady,
  8853. Amy pocketed her veil and beguiled the tedium of the way by trying to
  8854. find out where all her money had gone to. So busy was she with her
  8855. card full of refractory figures that she did not observe a newcomer,
  8856. who entered without stopping the vehicle, till a masculine voice said,
  8857. "Good morning, Miss March," and, looking up, she beheld one of Laurie's
  8858. most elegant college friends. Fervently hoping that he would get out
  8859. before she did, Amy utterly ignored the basket at her feet, and
  8860. congratulating herself that she had on her new traveling dress,
  8861. returned the young man's greeting with her usual suavity and spirit.
  8862. They got on excellently, for Amy's chief care was soon set at rest by
  8863. learning that the gentleman would leave first, and she was chatting
  8864. away in a peculiarly lofty strain, when the old lady got out. In
  8865. stumbling to the door, she upset the basket, and--oh horror!--the
  8866. lobster, in all its vulgar size and brilliancy, was revealed to the
  8867. highborn eyes of a Tudor!
  8868. "By Jove, she's forgotten her dinner!" cried the unconscious youth,
  8869. poking the scarlet monster into its place with his cane, and preparing
  8870. to hand out the basket after the old lady.
  8871. "Please don't--it's--it's mine," murmured Amy, with a face nearly as
  8872. red as her fish.
  8873. "Oh, really, I beg pardon. It's an uncommonly fine one, isn't it?"
  8874. said Tudor, with great presence of mind, and an air of sober interest
  8875. that did credit to his breeding.
  8876. Amy recovered herself in a breath, set her basket boldly on the seat,
  8877. and said, laughing, "Don't you wish you were to have some of the salad
  8878. he's going to make, and to see the charming young ladies who are to eat
  8879. it?"
  8880. Now that was tact, for two of the ruling foibles of the masculine mind
  8881. were touched. The lobster was instantly surrounded by a halo of
  8882. pleasing reminiscences, and curiosity about 'the charming young ladies'
  8883. diverted his mind from the comical mishap.
  8884. "I suppose he'll laugh and joke over it with Laurie, but I shan't see
  8885. them, that's a comfort," thought Amy, as Tudor bowed and departed.
  8886. She did not mention this meeting at home (though she discovered that,
  8887. thanks to the upset, her new dress was much damaged by the rivulets of
  8888. dressing that meandered down the skirt), but went through with the
  8889. preparations which now seemed more irksome than before, and at twelve
  8890. o'clock all was ready again. Feeling that the neighbors were
  8891. interested in her movements, she wished to efface the memory of
  8892. yesterday's failure by a grand success today, so she ordered the
  8893. 'cherry bounce', and drove away in state to meet and escort her guests
  8894. to the banquet.
  8895. "There's the rumble, they're coming! I'll go onto the porch and meet
  8896. them. It looks hospitable, and I want the poor child to have a good
  8897. time after all her trouble," said Mrs. March, suiting the action to the
  8898. word. But after one glance, she retired, with an indescribable
  8899. expression, for looking quite lost in the big carriage, sat Amy and one
  8900. young lady.
  8901. "Run, Beth, and help Hannah clear half the things off the table. It
  8902. will be too absurd to put a luncheon for twelve before a single girl,"
  8903. cried Jo, hurrying away to the lower regions, too excited to stop even
  8904. for a laugh.
  8905. In came Amy, quite calm and delightfully cordial to the one guest who
  8906. had kept her promise. The rest of the family, being of a dramatic
  8907. turn, played their parts equally well, and Miss Eliott found them a
  8908. most hilarious set, for it was impossible to control entirely the
  8909. merriment which possessed them. The remodeled lunch being gaily
  8910. partaken of, the studio and garden visited, and art discussed with
  8911. enthusiasm, Amy ordered a buggy (alas for the elegant cherry-bounce),
  8912. and drove her friend quietly about the neighborhood till sunset, when
  8913. 'the party went out'.
  8914. As she came walking in, looking very tired but as composed as ever, she
  8915. observed that every vestige of the unfortunate fete had disappeared,
  8916. except a suspicious pucker about the corners of Jo's mouth.
  8917. "You've had a loverly afternoon for your drive, dear," said her mother,
  8918. as respectfully as if the whole twelve had come.
  8919. "Miss Eliott is a very sweet girl, and seemed to enjoy herself, I
  8920. thought," observed Beth, with unusual warmth.
  8921. "Could you spare me some of your cake? I really need some, I have so
  8922. much company, and I can't make such delicious stuff as yours," asked
  8923. Meg soberly.
  8924. "Take it all. I'm the only one here who likes sweet things, and it
  8925. will mold before I can dispose of it," answered Amy, thinking with a
  8926. sigh of the generous store she had laid in for such an end as this.
  8927. "It's a pity Laurie isn't here to help us," began Jo, as they sat down
  8928. to ice cream and salad for the second time in two days.
  8929. A warning look from her mother checked any further remarks, and the
  8930. whole family ate in heroic silence, till Mr. March mildly observed,
  8931. "salad was one of the favorite dishes of the ancients, and Evelyn..."
  8932. Here a general explosion of laughter cut short the 'history of salads',
  8933. to the great surprise of the learned gentleman.
  8934. "Bundle everything into a basket and send it to the Hummels. Germans
  8935. like messes. I'm sick of the sight of this, and there's no reason you
  8936. should all die of a surfeit because I've been a fool," cried Amy,
  8937. wiping her eyes.
  8938. "I thought I should have died when I saw you two girls rattling about
  8939. in the what-you-call-it, like two little kernels in a very big
  8940. nutshell, and Mother waiting in state to receive the throng," sighed
  8941. Jo, quite spent with laughter.
  8942. "I'm very sorry you were disappointed, dear, but we all did our best to
  8943. satisfy you," said Mrs. March, in a tone full of motherly regret.
  8944. "I am satisfied. I've done what I undertook, and it's not my fault
  8945. that it failed. I comfort myself with that," said Amy with a little
  8946. quiver in her voice. "I thank you all very much for helping me, and
  8947. I'll thank you still more if you won't allude to it for a month, at
  8948. least."
  8949. No one did for several months, but the word 'fete' always produced a
  8950. general smile, and Laurie's birthday gift to Amy was a tiny coral
  8951. lobster in the shape of a charm for her watch guard.
  8952. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  8953. LITERARY LESSONS
  8954. Fortune suddenly smiled upon Jo, and dropped a good luck penny in her
  8955. path. Not a golden penny, exactly, but I doubt if half a million would
  8956. have given more real happiness then did the little sum that came to her
  8957. in this wise.
  8958. Every few weeks she would shut herself up in her room, put on her
  8959. scribbling suit, and 'fall into a vortex', as she expressed it, writing
  8960. away at her novel with all her heart and soul, for till that was
  8961. finished she could find no peace. Her 'scribbling suit' consisted of a
  8962. black woolen pinafore on which she could wipe her pen at will, and a
  8963. cap of the same material, adorned with a cheerful red bow, into which
  8964. she bundled her hair when the decks were cleared for action. This cap
  8965. was a beacon to the inquiring eyes of her family, who during these
  8966. periods kept their distance, merely popping in their heads
  8967. semi-occasionally to ask, with interest, "Does genius burn, Jo?" They
  8968. did not always venture even to ask this question, but took an
  8969. observation of the cap, and judged accordingly. If this expressive
  8970. article of dress was drawn low upon the forehead, it was a sign that
  8971. hard work was going on, in exciting moments it was pushed rakishly
  8972. askew, and when despair seized the author it was plucked wholly off,
  8973. and cast upon the floor. At such times the intruder silently withdrew,
  8974. and not until the red bow was seen gaily erect upon the gifted brow,
  8975. did anyone dare address Jo.
  8976. She did not think herself a genius by any means, but when the writing
  8977. fit came on, she gave herself up to it with entire abandon, and led a
  8978. blissful life, unconscious of want, care, or bad weather, while she sat
  8979. safe and happy in an imaginary world, full of friends almost as real
  8980. and dear to her as any in the flesh. Sleep forsook her eyes, meals
  8981. stood untasted, day and night were all too short to enjoy the happiness
  8982. which blessed her only at such times, and made these hours worth
  8983. living, even if they bore no other fruit. The divine afflatus usually
  8984. lasted a week or two, and then she emerged from her 'vortex', hungry,
  8985. sleepy, cross, or despondent.
  8986. She was just recovering from one of these attacks when she was
  8987. prevailed upon to escort Miss Crocker to a lecture, and in return for
  8988. her virtue was rewarded with a new idea. It was a People's Course, the
  8989. lecture on the Pyramids, and Jo rather wondered at the choice of such a
  8990. subject for such an audience, but took it for granted that some great
  8991. social evil would be remedied or some great want supplied by unfolding
  8992. the glories of the Pharaohs to an audience whose thoughts were busy
  8993. with the price of coal and flour, and whose lives were spent in trying
  8994. to solve harder riddles than that of the Sphinx.
  8995. They were early, and while Miss Crocker set the heel of her stocking,
  8996. Jo amused herself by examining the faces of the people who occupied the
  8997. seat with them. On her left were two matrons, with massive foreheads
  8998. and bonnets to match, discussing Women's Rights and making tatting.
  8999. Beyond sat a pair of humble lovers, artlessly holding each other by the
  9000. hand, a somber spinster eating peppermints out of a paper bag, and an
  9001. old gentleman taking his preparatory nap behind a yellow bandanna. On
  9002. her right, her only neighbor was a studious looking lad absorbed in a
  9003. newspaper.
  9004. It was a pictorial sheet, and Jo examined the work of art nearest her,
  9005. idly wondering what fortuitous concatenation of circumstances needed
  9006. the melodramatic illustration of an Indian in full war costume,
  9007. tumbling over a precipice with a wolf at his throat, while two
  9008. infuriated young gentlemen, with unnaturally small feet and big eyes,
  9009. were stabbing each other close by, and a disheveled female was flying
  9010. away in the background with her mouth wide open. Pausing to turn a
  9011. page, the lad saw her looking and, with boyish good nature offered half
  9012. his paper, saying bluntly, "want to read it? That's a first-rate story."
  9013. Jo accepted it with a smile, for she had never outgrown her liking for
  9014. lads, and soon found herself involved in the usual labyrinth of love,
  9015. mystery, and murder, for the story belonged to that class of light
  9016. literature in which the passions have a holiday, and when the author's
  9017. invention fails, a grand catastrophe clears the stage of one half the
  9018. dramatis personae, leaving the other half to exult over their downfall.
  9019. "Prime, isn't it?" asked the boy, as her eye went down the last
  9020. paragraph of her portion.
  9021. "I think you and I could do as well as that if we tried," returned Jo,
  9022. amused at his admiration of the trash.
  9023. "I should think I was a pretty lucky chap if I could. She makes a good
  9024. living out of such stories, they say." and he pointed to the name of
  9025. Mrs. S.L.A.N.G. Northbury, under the title of the tale.
  9026. "Do you know her?" asked Jo, with sudden interest.
  9027. "No, but I read all her pieces, and I know a fellow who works in the
  9028. office where this paper is printed."
  9029. "Do you say she makes a good living out of stories like this?" and Jo
  9030. looked more respectfully at the agitated group and thickly sprinkled
  9031. exclamation points that adorned the page.
  9032. "Guess she does! She knows just what folks like, and gets paid well
  9033. for writing it."
  9034. Here the lecture began, but Jo heard very little of it, for while
  9035. Professor Sands was prosing away about Belzoni, Cheops, scarabei, and
  9036. hieroglyphics, she was covertly taking down the address of the paper,
  9037. and boldly resolving to try for the hundred-dollar prize offered in its
  9038. columns for a sensational story. By the time the lecture ended and the
  9039. audience awoke, she had built up a splendid fortune for herself (not
  9040. the first founded on paper), and was already deep in the concoction of
  9041. her story, being unable to decide whether the duel should come before
  9042. the elopement or after the murder.
  9043. She said nothing of her plan at home, but fell to work next day, much
  9044. to the disquiet of her mother, who always looked a little anxious when
  9045. 'genius took to burning'. Jo had never tried this style before,
  9046. contenting herself with very mild romances for _The Spread Eagle_. Her
  9047. experience and miscellaneous reading were of service now, for they gave
  9048. her some idea of dramatic effect, and supplied plot, language, and
  9049. costumes. Her story was as full of desperation and despair as her
  9050. limited acquaintance with those uncomfortable emotions enabled her to
  9051. make it, and having located it in Lisbon, she wound up with an
  9052. earthquake, as a striking and appropriate denouement. The manuscript
  9053. was privately dispatched, accompanied by a note, modestly saying that
  9054. if the tale didn't get the prize, which the writer hardly dared expect,
  9055. she would be very glad to receive any sum it might be considered worth.
  9056. Six weeks is a long time to wait, and a still longer time for a girl to
  9057. keep a secret, but Jo did both, and was just beginning to give up all
  9058. hope of ever seeing her manuscript again, when a letter arrived which
  9059. almost took her breath away, for on opening it, a check for a hundred
  9060. dollars fell into her lap. For a minute she stared at it as if it had
  9061. been a snake, then she read her letter and began to cry. If the
  9062. amiable gentleman who wrote that kindly note could have known what
  9063. intense happiness he was giving a fellow creature, I think he would
  9064. devote his leisure hours, if he has any, to that amusement, for Jo
  9065. valued the letter more than the money, because it was encouraging, and
  9066. after years of effort it was so pleasant to find that she had learned
  9067. to do something, though it was only to write a sensation story.
  9068. A prouder young woman was seldom seen than she, when, having composed
  9069. herself, she electrified the family by appearing before them with the
  9070. letter in one hand, the check in the other, announcing that she had won
  9071. the prize. Of course there was a great jubilee, and when the story
  9072. came everyone read and praised it, though after her father had told her
  9073. that the language was good, the romance fresh and hearty, and the
  9074. tragedy quite thrilling, he shook his head, and said in his unworldly
  9075. way...
  9076. "You can do better than this, Jo. Aim at the highest, and never mind
  9077. the money."
  9078. "I think the money is the best part of it. What will you do with such
  9079. a fortune?" asked Amy, regarding the magic slip of paper with a
  9080. reverential eye.
  9081. "Send Beth and Mother to the seaside for a month or two," answered Jo
  9082. promptly.
  9083. To the seaside they went, after much discussion, and though Beth didn't
  9084. come home as plump and rosy as could be desired, she was much better,
  9085. while Mrs. March declared she felt ten years younger. So Jo was
  9086. satisfied with the investment of her prize money, and fell to work with
  9087. a cheery spirit, bent on earning more of those delightful checks. She
  9088. did earn several that year, and began to feel herself a power in the
  9089. house, for by the magic of a pen, her 'rubbish' turned into comforts
  9090. for them all. The Duke's Daughter paid the butcher's bill, A Phantom
  9091. Hand put down a new carpet, and the Curse of the Coventrys proved the
  9092. blessing of the Marches in the way of groceries and gowns.
  9093. Wealth is certainly a most desirable thing, but poverty has its sunny
  9094. side, and one of the sweet uses of adversity is the genuine
  9095. satisfaction which comes from hearty work of head or hand, and to the
  9096. inspiration of necessity, we owe half the wise, beautiful, and useful
  9097. blessings of the world. Jo enjoyed a taste of this satisfaction, and
  9098. ceased to envy richer girls, taking great comfort in the knowledge that
  9099. she could supply her own wants, and need ask no one for a penny.
  9100. Little notice was taken of her stories, but they found a market, and
  9101. encouraged by this fact, she resolved to make a bold stroke for fame
  9102. and fortune. Having copied her novel for the fourth time, read it to
  9103. all her confidential friends, and submitted it with fear and trembling
  9104. to three publishers, she at last disposed of it, on condition that she
  9105. would cut it down one third, and omit all the parts which she
  9106. particularly admired.
  9107. "Now I must either bundle it back in to my tin kitchen to mold, pay for
  9108. printing it myself, or chop it up to suit purchasers and get what I can
  9109. for it. Fame is a very good thing to have in the house, but cash is
  9110. more convenient, so I wish to take the sense of the meeting on this
  9111. important subject," said Jo, calling a family council.
  9112. "Don't spoil your book, my girl, for there is more in it than you know,
  9113. and the idea is well worked out. Let it wait and ripen," was her
  9114. father's advice, and he practiced what he preached, having waited
  9115. patiently thirty years for fruit of his own to ripen, and being in no
  9116. haste to gather it even now when it was sweet and mellow.
  9117. "It seems to me that Jo will profit more by taking the trial than by
  9118. waiting," said Mrs. March. "Criticism is the best test of such work,
  9119. for it will show her both unsuspected merits and faults, and help her
  9120. to do better next time. We are too partial, but the praise and blame
  9121. of outsiders will prove useful, even if she gets but little money."
  9122. "Yes," said Jo, knitting her brows, "that's just it. I've been fussing
  9123. over the thing so long, I really don't know whether it's good, bad, or
  9124. indifferent. It will be a great help to have cool, impartial persons
  9125. take a look at it, and tell me what they think of it."
  9126. "I wouldn't leave a word out of it. You'll spoil it if you do, for the
  9127. interest of the story is more in the minds than in the actions of the
  9128. people, and it will be all a muddle if you don't explain as you go on,"
  9129. said Meg, who firmly believed that this book was the most remarkable
  9130. novel ever written.
  9131. "But Mr. Allen says, 'Leave out the explanations, make it brief and
  9132. dramatic, and let the characters tell the story'," interrupted Jo,
  9133. turning to the publisher's note.
  9134. "Do as he tells you. He knows what will sell, and we don't. Make a
  9135. good, popular book, and get as much money as you can. By-and-by, when
  9136. you've got a name, you can afford to digress, and have philosophical
  9137. and metaphysical people in your novels," said Amy, who took a strictly
  9138. practical view of the subject.
  9139. "Well," said Jo, laughing, "if my people are 'philosophical and
  9140. metaphysical', it isn't my fault, for I know nothing about such things,
  9141. except what I hear father say, sometimes. If I've got some of his wise
  9142. ideas jumbled up with my romance, so much the better for me. Now,
  9143. Beth, what do you say?"
  9144. "I should so like to see it printed soon," was all Beth said, and
  9145. smiled in saying it. But there was an unconscious emphasis on the last
  9146. word, and a wistful look in the eyes that never lost their childlike
  9147. candor, which chilled Jo's heart for a minute with a forboding fear,
  9148. and decided her to make her little venture 'soon'.
  9149. So, with Spartan firmness, the young authoress laid her first-born on
  9150. her table, and chopped it up as ruthlessly as any ogre. In the hope of
  9151. pleasing everyone, she took everyone's advice, and like the old man and
  9152. his donkey in the fable suited nobody.
  9153. Her father liked the metaphysical streak which had unconsciously got
  9154. into it, so that was allowed to remain though she had her doubts about
  9155. it. Her mother thought that there was a trifle too much description.
  9156. Out, therefore it came, and with it many necessary links in the story.
  9157. Meg admired the tragedy, so Jo piled up the agony to suit her, while
  9158. Amy objected to the fun, and, with the best intentions in life, Jo
  9159. quenched the spritly scenes which relieved the somber character of the
  9160. story. Then, to complicate the ruin, she cut it down one third, and
  9161. confidingly sent the poor little romance, like a picked robin, out into
  9162. the big, busy world to try its fate.
  9163. Well, it was printed, and she got three hundred dollars for it,
  9164. likewise plenty of praise and blame, both so much greater than she
  9165. expected that she was thrown into a state of bewilderment from which it
  9166. took her some time to recover.
  9167. "You said, Mother, that criticism would help me. But how can it, when
  9168. it's so contradictory that I don't know whether I've written a
  9169. promising book or broken all the ten commandments?" cried poor Jo,
  9170. turning over a heap of notices, the perusal of which filled her with
  9171. pride and joy one minute, wrath and dismay the next. "This man says,
  9172. 'An exquisite book, full of truth, beauty, and earnestness.' 'All is
  9173. sweet, pure, and healthy.'" continued the perplexed authoress. "The
  9174. next, 'The theory of the book is bad, full of morbid fancies,
  9175. spiritualistic ideas, and unnatural characters.' Now, as I had no
  9176. theory of any kind, don't believe in Spiritualism, and copied my
  9177. characters from life, I don't see how this critic can be right.
  9178. Another says, 'It's one of the best American novels which has appeared
  9179. for years.' (I know better than that), and the next asserts that
  9180. 'Though it is original, and written with great force and feeling, it is
  9181. a dangerous book.' 'Tisn't! Some make fun of it, some overpraise, and
  9182. nearly all insist that I had a deep theory to expound, when I only
  9183. wrote it for the pleasure and the money. I wish I'd printed the whole
  9184. or not at all, for I do hate to be so misjudged."
  9185. Her family and friends administered comfort and commendation liberally.
  9186. Yet it was a hard time for sensitive, high-spirited Jo, who meant so
  9187. well and had apparently done so ill. But it did her good, for those
  9188. whose opinion had real value gave her the criticism which is an
  9189. author's best education, and when the first soreness was over, she
  9190. could laugh at her poor little book, yet believe in it still, and feel
  9191. herself the wiser and stronger for the buffeting she had received.
  9192. "Not being a genius, like Keats, it won't kill me," she said stoutly,
  9193. "and I've got the joke on my side, after all, for the parts that were
  9194. taken straight out of real life are denounced as impossible and absurd,
  9195. and the scenes that I made up out of my own silly head are pronounced
  9196. 'charmingly natural, tender, and true'. So I'll comfort myself with
  9197. that, and when I'm ready, I'll up again and take another."
  9198. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  9199. DOMESTIC EXPERIENCES
  9200. Like most other young matrons, Meg began her married life with the
  9201. determination to be a model housekeeper. John should find home a
  9202. paradise, he should always see a smiling face, should fare sumptuously
  9203. every day, and never know the loss of a button. She brought so much
  9204. love, energy, and cheerfulness to the work that she could not but
  9205. succeed, in spite of some obstacles. Her paradise was not a tranquil
  9206. one, for the little woman fussed, was over-anxious to please, and
  9207. bustled about like a true Martha, cumbered with many cares. She was
  9208. too tired, sometimes, even to smile, John grew dyspeptic after a course
  9209. of dainty dishes and ungratefully demanded plain fare. As for buttons,
  9210. she soon learned to wonder where they went, to shake her head over the
  9211. carelessness of men, and to threaten to make him sew them on himself,
  9212. and see if his work would stand impatient and clumsy fingers any better
  9213. than hers.
  9214. They were very happy, even after they discovered that they couldn't
  9215. live on love alone. John did not find Meg's beauty diminished, though
  9216. she beamed at him from behind the familiar coffee pot. Nor did Meg
  9217. miss any of the romance from the daily parting, when her husband
  9218. followed up his kiss with the tender inquiry, "Shall I send some veal
  9219. or mutton for dinner, darling?" The little house ceased to be a
  9220. glorified bower, but it became a home, and the young couple soon felt
  9221. that it was a change for the better. At first they played keep-house,
  9222. and frolicked over it like children. Then John took steadily to
  9223. business, feeling the cares of the head of a family upon his shoulders,
  9224. and Meg laid by her cambric wrappers, put on a big apron, and fell to
  9225. work, as before said, with more energy than discretion.
  9226. While the cooking mania lasted she went through Mrs. Cornelius's
  9227. Receipt Book as if it were a mathematical exercise, working out the
  9228. problems with patience and care. Sometimes her family were invited in
  9229. to help eat up a too bounteous feast of successes, or Lotty would be
  9230. privately dispatched with a batch of failures, which were to be
  9231. concealed from all eyes in the convenient stomachs of the little
  9232. Hummels. An evening with John over the account books usually produced
  9233. a temporary lull in the culinary enthusiasm, and a frugal fit would
  9234. ensue, during which the poor man was put through a course of bread
  9235. pudding, hash, and warmed-over coffee, which tried his soul, although
  9236. he bore it with praiseworthy fortitude. Before the golden mean was
  9237. found, however, Meg added to her domestic possessions what young
  9238. couples seldom get on long without, a family jar.
  9239. Fired a with housewifely wish to see her storeroom stocked with
  9240. homemade preserves, she undertook to put up her own currant jelly. John
  9241. was requested to order home a dozen or so of little pots and an extra
  9242. quantity of sugar, for their own currants were ripe and were to be
  9243. attended to at once. As John firmly believed that 'my wife' was equal
  9244. to anything, and took a natural pride in her skill, he resolved that
  9245. she should be gratified, and their only crop of fruit laid by in a most
  9246. pleasing form for winter use. Home came four dozen delightful little
  9247. pots, half a barrel of sugar, and a small boy to pick the currants for
  9248. her. With her pretty hair tucked into a little cap, arms bared to the
  9249. elbow, and a checked apron which had a coquettish look in spite of the
  9250. bib, the young housewife fell to work, feeling no doubts about her
  9251. success, for hadn't she seen Hannah do it hundreds of times? The array
  9252. of pots rather amazed her at first, but John was so fond of jelly, and
  9253. the nice little jars would look so well on the top shelf, that Meg
  9254. resolved to fill them all, and spent a long day picking, boiling,
  9255. straining, and fussing over her jelly. She did her best, she asked
  9256. advice of Mrs. Cornelius, she racked her brain to remember what Hannah
  9257. did that she left undone, she reboiled, resugared, and restrained, but
  9258. that dreadful stuff wouldn't 'jell'.
  9259. She longed to run home, bib and all, and ask Mother to lend her a hand,
  9260. but John and she had agreed that they would never annoy anyone with
  9261. their private worries, experiments, or quarrels. They had laughed over
  9262. that last word as if the idea it suggested was a most preposterous one,
  9263. but they had held to their resolve, and whenever they could get on
  9264. without help they did so, and no one interfered, for Mrs. March had
  9265. advised the plan. So Meg wrestled alone with the refractory sweetmeats
  9266. all that hot summer day, and at five o'clock sat down in her
  9267. topsy-turvey kitchen, wrung her bedaubed hands, lifted up her voice and
  9268. wept.
  9269. Now, in the first flush of the new life, she had often said, "My
  9270. husband shall always feel free to bring a friend home whenever he
  9271. likes. I shall always be prepared. There shall be no flurry, no
  9272. scolding, no discomfort, but a neat house, a cheerful wife, and a good
  9273. dinner. John, dear, never stop to ask my leave, invite whom you
  9274. please, and be sure of a welcome from me."
  9275. How charming that was, to be sure! John quite glowed with pride to
  9276. hear her say it, and felt what a blessed thing it was to have a
  9277. superior wife. But, although they had had company from time to time,
  9278. it never happened to be unexpected, and Meg had never had an
  9279. opportunity to distinguish herself till now. It always happens so in
  9280. this vale of tears, there is an inevitability about such things which
  9281. we can only wonder at, deplore, and bear as we best can.
  9282. If John had not forgotten all about the jelly, it really would have
  9283. been unpardonable in him to choose that day, of all the days in the
  9284. year, to bring a friend home to dinner unexpectedly. Congratulating
  9285. himself that a handsome repast had been ordered that morning, feeling
  9286. sure that it would be ready to the minute, and indulging in pleasant
  9287. anticipations of the charming effect it would produce, when his pretty
  9288. wife came running out to meet him, he escorted his friend to his
  9289. mansion, with the irrepressible satisfaction of a young host and
  9290. husband.
  9291. It is a world of disappointments, as John discovered when he reached
  9292. the Dovecote. The front door usually stood hospitably open. Now it was
  9293. not only shut, but locked, and yesterday's mud still adorned the steps.
  9294. The parlor windows were closed and curtained, no picture of the pretty
  9295. wife sewing on the piazza, in white, with a distracting little bow in
  9296. her hair, or a bright-eyed hostess, smiling a shy welcome as she
  9297. greeted her guest. Nothing of the sort, for not a soul appeared but a
  9298. sanginary-looking boy asleep under the current bushes.
  9299. "I'm afraid something has happened. Step into the garden, Scott, while
  9300. I look up Mrs. Brooke," said John, alarmed at the silence and solitude.
  9301. Round the house he hurried, led by a pungent smell of burned sugar, and
  9302. Mr. Scott strolled after him, with a queer look on his face. He paused
  9303. discreetly at a distance when Brooke disappeared, but he could both see
  9304. and hear, and being a bachelor, enjoyed the prospect mightily.
  9305. In the kitchen reigned confusion and despair. One edition of jelly was
  9306. trickled from pot to pot, another lay upon the floor, and a third was
  9307. burning gaily on the stove. Lotty, with Teutonic phlegm, was calmly
  9308. eating bread and currant wine, for the jelly was still in a hopelessly
  9309. liquid state, while Mrs. Brooke, with her apron over her head, sat
  9310. sobbing dismally.
  9311. "My dearest girl, what is the matter?" cried John, rushing in, with
  9312. awful visions of scalded hands, sudden news of affliction, and secret
  9313. consternation at the thought of the guest in the garden.
  9314. "Oh, John, I am so tired and hot and cross and worried! I've been at
  9315. it till I'm all worn out. Do come and help me or I shall die!" and the
  9316. exhausted housewife cast herself upon his breast, giving him a sweet
  9317. welcome in every sense of the word, for her pinafore had been baptized
  9318. at the same time as the floor.
  9319. "What worries you dear? Has anything dreadful happened?" asked the
  9320. anxious John, tenderly kissing the crown of the little cap, which was
  9321. all askew.
  9322. "Yes," sobbed Meg despairingly.
  9323. "Tell me quick, then. Don't cry. I can bear anything better than
  9324. that. Out with it, love."
  9325. "The... The jelly won't jell and I don't know what to do!"
  9326. John Brooke laughed then as he never dared to laugh afterward, and the
  9327. derisive Scott smiled involuntarily as he heard the hearty peal, which
  9328. put the finishing stroke to poor Meg's woe.
  9329. "Is that all? Fling it out of the window, and don't bother any more
  9330. about it. I'll buy you quarts if you want it, but for heaven's sake
  9331. don't have hysterics, for I've brought Jack Scott home to dinner,
  9332. and..."
  9333. John got no further, for Meg cast him off, and clasped her hands with a
  9334. tragic gesture as she fell into a chair, exclaiming in a tone of
  9335. mingled indignation, reproach, and dismay...
  9336. "A man to dinner, and everything in a mess! John Brooke, how could you
  9337. do such a thing?"
  9338. "Hush, he's in the garden! I forgot the confounded jelly, but it can't
  9339. be helped now," said John, surveying the prospect with an anxious eye.
  9340. "You ought to have sent word, or told me this morning, and you ought to
  9341. have remembered how busy I was," continued Meg petulantly, for even
  9342. turtledoves will peck when ruffled.
  9343. "I didn't know it this morning, and there was no time to send word, for
  9344. I met him on the way out. I never thought of asking leave, when you
  9345. have always told me to do as I liked. I never tried it before, and
  9346. hang me if I ever do again!" added John, with an aggrieved air.
  9347. "I should hope not! Take him away at once. I can't see him, and there
  9348. isn't any dinner."
  9349. "Well, I like that! Where's the beef and vegetables I sent home, and
  9350. the pudding you promised?" cried John, rushing to the larder.
  9351. "I hadn't time to cook anything. I meant to dine at Mother's. I'm
  9352. sorry, but I was so busy," and Meg's tears began again.
  9353. John was a mild man, but he was human, and after a long day's work to
  9354. come home tired, hungry, and hopeful, to find a chaotic house, an empty
  9355. table, and a cross wife was not exactly conducive to repose of mind or
  9356. manner. He restrained himself however, and the little squall would
  9357. have blown over, but for one unlucky word.
  9358. "It's a scrape, I acknowledge, but if you will lend a hand, we'll pull
  9359. through and have a good time yet. Don't cry, dear, but just exert
  9360. yourself a bit, and fix us up something to eat. We're both as hungry
  9361. as hunters, so we shan't mind what it is. Give us the cold meat, and
  9362. bread and cheese. We won't ask for jelly."
  9363. He meant it to be a good-natured joke, but that one word sealed his
  9364. fate. Meg thought it was too cruel to hint about her sad failure, and
  9365. the last atom of patience vanished as he spoke.
  9366. "You must get yourself out of the scrape as you can. I'm too used up
  9367. to 'exert' myself for anyone. It's like a man to propose a bone and
  9368. vulgar bread and cheese for company. I won't have anything of the sort
  9369. in my house. Take that Scott up to Mother's, and tell him I'm away,
  9370. sick, dead, anything. I won't see him, and you two can laugh at me and
  9371. my jelly as much as you like. You won't have anything else here." and
  9372. having delivered her defiance all on one breath, Meg cast away her
  9373. pinafore and precipitately left the field to bemoan herself in her own
  9374. room.
  9375. What those two creatures did in her absence, she never knew, but Mr.
  9376. Scott was not taken 'up to Mother's', and when Meg descended, after
  9377. they had strolled away together, she found traces of a promiscuous
  9378. lunch which filled her with horror. Lotty reported that they had eaten
  9379. "a much, and greatly laughed, and the master bid her throw away all the
  9380. sweet stuff, and hide the pots."
  9381. Meg longed to go and tell Mother, but a sense of shame at her own
  9382. short-comings, of loyalty to John, "who might be cruel, but nobody
  9383. should know it," restrained her, and after a summary cleaning up, she
  9384. dressed herself prettily, and sat down to wait for John to come and be
  9385. forgiven.
  9386. Unfortunately, John didn't come, not seeing the matter in that light.
  9387. He had carried it off as a good joke with Scott, excused his little
  9388. wife as well as he could, and played the host so hospitably that his
  9389. friend enjoyed the impromptu dinner, and promised to come again, but
  9390. John was angry, though he did not show it, he felt that Meg had
  9391. deserted him in his hour of need. "It wasn't fair to tell a man to
  9392. bring folks home any time, with perfect freedom, and when he took you
  9393. at your word, to flame up and blame him, and leave him in the lurch, to
  9394. be laughed at or pitied. No, by George, it wasn't! And Meg must know
  9395. it."
  9396. He had fumed inwardly during the feast, but when the flurry was over
  9397. and he strolled home after seeing Scott off, a milder mood came over
  9398. him. "Poor little thing! It was hard upon her when she tried so
  9399. heartily to please me. She was wrong, of course, but then she was
  9400. young. I must be patient and teach her." He hoped she had not gone
  9401. home--he hated gossip and interference. For a minute he was ruffled
  9402. again at the mere thought of it, and then the fear that Meg would cry
  9403. herself sick softened his heart, and sent him on at a quicker pace,
  9404. resolving to be calm and kind, but firm, quite firm, and show her where
  9405. she had failed in her duty to her spouse.
  9406. Meg likewise resolved to be 'calm and kind, but firm', and show him his
  9407. duty. She longed to run to meet him, and beg pardon, and be kissed and
  9408. comforted, as she was sure of being, but, of course, she did nothing of
  9409. the sort, and when she saw John coming, began to hum quite naturally,
  9410. as she rocked and sewed, like a lady of leisure in her best parlor.
  9411. John was a little disappointed not to find a tender Niobe, but feeling
  9412. that his dignity demanded the first apology, he made none, only came
  9413. leisurely in and laid himself upon the sofa with the singularly
  9414. relevant remark, "We are going to have a new moon, my dear."
  9415. "I've no objection," was Meg's equally soothing remark. A few other
  9416. topics of general interest were introduced by Mr. Brooke and
  9417. wet-blanketed by Mrs. Brooke, and conversation languished. John went
  9418. to one window, unfolded his paper, and wrapped himself in it,
  9419. figuratively speaking. Meg went to the other window, and sewed as if
  9420. new rosettes for slippers were among the necessaries of life. Neither
  9421. spoke. Both looked quite 'calm and firm', and both felt desperately
  9422. uncomfortable.
  9423. "Oh, dear," thought Meg, "married life is very trying, and does need
  9424. infinite patience as well as love, as Mother says." The word 'Mother'
  9425. suggested other maternal counsels given long ago, and received with
  9426. unbelieving protests.
  9427. "John is a good man, but he has his faults, and you must learn to see
  9428. and bear with them, remembering your own. He is very decided, but
  9429. never will be obstinate, if you reason kindly, not oppose impatiently.
  9430. He is very accurate, and particular about the truth--a good trait,
  9431. though you call him 'fussy'. Never deceive him by look or word, Meg,
  9432. and he will give you the confidence you deserve, the support you need.
  9433. He has a temper, not like ours--one flash and then all over--but the
  9434. white, still anger that is seldom stirred, but once kindled is hard to
  9435. quench. Be careful, be very careful, not to wake his anger against
  9436. yourself, for peace and happiness depend on keeping his respect. Watch
  9437. yourself, be the first to ask pardon if you both err, and guard against
  9438. the little piques, misunderstandings, and hasty words that often pave
  9439. the way for bitter sorrow and regret."
  9440. These words came back to Meg, as she sat sewing in the sunset,
  9441. especially the last. This was the first serious disagreement, her own
  9442. hasty speeches sounded both silly and unkind, as she recalled them, her
  9443. own anger looked childish now, and thoughts of poor John coming home to
  9444. such a scene quite melted her heart. She glanced at him with tears in
  9445. her eyes, but he did not see them. She put down her work and got up,
  9446. thinking, "I will be the first to say, 'Forgive me'", but he did not
  9447. seem to hear her. She went very slowly across the room, for pride was
  9448. hard to swallow, and stood by him, but he did not turn his head. For a
  9449. minute she felt as if she really couldn't do it, then came the thought,
  9450. "This is the beginning. I'll do my part, and have nothing to reproach
  9451. myself with," and stooping down, she softly kissed her husband on the
  9452. forehead. Of course that settled it. The penitent kiss was better than
  9453. a world of words, and John had her on his knee in a minute, saying
  9454. tenderly...
  9455. "It was too bad to laugh at the poor little jelly pots. Forgive me,
  9456. dear. I never will again!"
  9457. But he did, oh bless you, yes, hundreds of times, and so did Meg, both
  9458. declaring that it was the sweetest jelly they ever made, for family
  9459. peace was preserved in that little family jar.
  9460. After this, Meg had Mr. Scott to dinner by special invitation, and
  9461. served him up a pleasant feast without a cooked wife for the first
  9462. course, on which occasion she was so gay and gracious, and made
  9463. everything go off so charmingly, that Mr. Scott told John he was a
  9464. lucky fellow, and shook his head over the hardships of bachelorhood all
  9465. the way home.
  9466. In the autumn, new trials and experiences came to Meg. Sallie Moffat
  9467. renewed her friendship, was always running out for a dish of gossip at
  9468. the little house, or inviting 'that poor dear' to come in and spend the
  9469. day at the big house. It was pleasant, for in dull weather Meg often
  9470. felt lonely. All were busy at home, John absent till night, and
  9471. nothing to do but sew, or read, or potter about. So it naturally fell
  9472. out that Meg got into the way of gadding and gossiping with her friend.
  9473. Seeing Sallie's pretty things made her long for such, and pity herself
  9474. because she had not got them. Sallie was very kind, and often offered
  9475. her the coveted trifles, but Meg declined them, knowing that John
  9476. wouldn't like it, and then this foolish little woman went and did what
  9477. John disliked even worse.
  9478. She knew her husband's income, and she loved to feel that he trusted
  9479. her, not only with his happiness, but what some men seem to value
  9480. more--his money. She knew where it was, was free to take what she
  9481. liked, and all he asked was that she should keep account of every
  9482. penny, pay bills once a month, and remember that she was a poor man's
  9483. wife. Till now she had done well, been prudent and exact, kept her
  9484. little account books neatly, and showed them to him monthly without
  9485. fear. But that autumn the serpent got into Meg's paradise, and tempted
  9486. her like many a modern Eve, not with apples, but with dress. Meg
  9487. didn't like to be pitied and made to feel poor. It irritated her, but
  9488. she was ashamed to confess it, and now and then she tried to console
  9489. herself by buying something pretty, so that Sallie needn't think she
  9490. had to economize. She always felt wicked after it, for the pretty
  9491. things were seldom necessaries, but then they cost so little, it wasn't
  9492. worth worrying about, so the trifles increased unconsciously, and in
  9493. the shopping excursions she was no longer a passive looker-on.
  9494. But the trifles cost more than one would imagine, and when she cast up
  9495. her accounts at the end of the month the sum total rather scared her.
  9496. John was busy that month and left the bills to her, the next month he
  9497. was absent, but the third he had a grand quarterly settling up, and Meg
  9498. never forgot it. A few days before she had done a dreadful thing, and
  9499. it weighed upon her conscience. Sallie had been buying silks, and Meg
  9500. longed for a new one, just a handsome light one for parties, her black
  9501. silk was so common, and thin things for evening wear were only proper
  9502. for girls. Aunt March usually gave the sisters a present of
  9503. twenty-five dollars apiece at New Year's. That was only a month to
  9504. wait, and here was a lovely violet silk going at a bargain, and she had
  9505. the money, if she only dared to take it. John always said what was his
  9506. was hers, but would he think it right to spend not only the prospective
  9507. five-and-twenty, but another five-and-twenty out of the household fund?
  9508. That was the question. Sallie had urged her to do it, had offered to
  9509. lend the money, and with the best intentions in life had tempted Meg
  9510. beyond her strength. In an evil moment the shopman held up the lovely,
  9511. shimmering folds, and said, "A bargain, I assure, you, ma'am." She
  9512. answered, "I'll take it," and it was cut off and paid for, and Sallie
  9513. had exulted, and she had laughed as if it were a thing of no
  9514. consequence, and driven away, feeling as if she had stolen something,
  9515. and the police were after her.
  9516. When she got home, she tried to assuage the pangs of remorse by
  9517. spreading forth the lovely silk, but it looked less silvery now, didn't
  9518. become her, after all, and the words 'fifty dollars' seemed stamped
  9519. like a pattern down each breadth. She put it away, but it haunted her,
  9520. not delightfully as a new dress should, but dreadfully like the ghost
  9521. of a folly that was not easily laid. When John got out his books that
  9522. night, Meg's heart sank, and for the first time in her married life,
  9523. she was afraid of her husband. The kind, brown eyes looked as if they
  9524. could be stern, and though he was unusually merry, she fancied he had
  9525. found her out, but didn't mean to let her know it. The house bills
  9526. were all paid, the books all in order. John had praised her, and was
  9527. undoing the old pocketbook which they called the 'bank', when Meg,
  9528. knowing that it was quite empty, stopped his hand, saying nervously...
  9529. "You haven't seen my private expense book yet."
  9530. John never asked to see it, but she always insisted on his doing so,
  9531. and used to enjoy his masculine amazement at the queer things women
  9532. wanted, and made him guess what piping was, demand fiercely the meaning
  9533. of a hug-me-tight, or wonder how a little thing composed of three
  9534. rosebuds, a bit of velvet, and a pair of strings, could possibly be a
  9535. bonnet, and cost six dollars. That night he looked as if he would like
  9536. the fun of quizzing her figures and pretending to be horrified at her
  9537. extravagance, as he often did, being particularly proud of his prudent
  9538. wife.
  9539. The little book was brought slowly out and laid down before him. Meg
  9540. got behind his chair under pretense of smoothing the wrinkles out of
  9541. his tired forehead, and standing there, she said, with her panic
  9542. increasing with every word...
  9543. "John, dear, I'm ashamed to show you my book, for I've really been
  9544. dreadfully extravagant lately. I go about so much I must have things,
  9545. you know, and Sallie advised my getting it, so I did, and my New Year's
  9546. money will partly pay for it, but I was sorry after I had done it, for
  9547. I knew you'd think it wrong in me."
  9548. John laughed, and drew her round beside him, saying goodhumoredly,
  9549. "Don't go and hide. I won't beat you if you have got a pair of killing
  9550. boots. I'm rather proud of my wife's feet, and don't mind if she does
  9551. pay eight or nine dollars for her boots, if they are good ones."
  9552. That had been one of her last 'trifles', and John's eye had fallen on
  9553. it as he spoke. "Oh, what will he say when he comes to that awful
  9554. fifty dollars!" thought Meg, with a shiver.
  9555. "It's worse than boots, it's a silk dress," she said, with the calmness
  9556. of desperation, for she wanted the worst over.
  9557. "Well, dear, what is the 'dem'd total', as Mr. Mantalini says?"
  9558. That didn't sound like John, and she knew he was looking up at her with
  9559. the straightforward look that she had always been ready to meet and
  9560. answer with one as frank till now. She turned the page and her head at
  9561. the same time, pointing to the sum which would have been bad enough
  9562. without the fifty, but which was appalling to her with that added. For
  9563. a minute the room was very still, then John said slowly--but she could
  9564. feel it cost him an effort to express no displeasure--. . .
  9565. "Well, I don't know that fifty is much for a dress, with all the
  9566. furbelows and notions you have to have to finish it off these days."
  9567. "It isn't made or trimmed," sighed Meg, faintly, for a sudden
  9568. recollection of the cost still to be incurred quite overwhelmed her.
  9569. "Twenty-five yards of silk seems a good deal to cover one small woman,
  9570. but I've no doubt my wife will look as fine as Ned Moffat's when she
  9571. gets it on," said John dryly.
  9572. "I know you are angry, John, but I can't help it. I don't mean to
  9573. waste your money, and I didn't think those little things would count up
  9574. so. I can't resist them when I see Sallie buying all she wants, and
  9575. pitying me because I don't. I try to be contented, but it is hard, and
  9576. I'm tired of being poor."
  9577. The last words were spoken so low she thought he did not hear them, but
  9578. he did, and they wounded him deeply, for he had denied himself many
  9579. pleasures for Meg's sake. She could have bitten her tongue out the
  9580. minute she had said it, for John pushed the books away and got up,
  9581. saying with a little quiver in his voice, "I was afraid of this. I do
  9582. my best, Meg." If he had scolded her, or even shaken her, it would not
  9583. have broken her heart like those few words. She ran to him and held
  9584. him close, crying, with repentant tears, "Oh, John, my dear, kind,
  9585. hard-working boy. I didn't mean it! It was so wicked, so untrue and
  9586. ungrateful, how could I say it! Oh, how could I say it!"
  9587. He was very kind, forgave her readily, and did not utter one reproach,
  9588. but Meg knew that she had done and said a thing which would not be
  9589. forgotten soon, although he might never allude to it again. She had
  9590. promised to love him for better or worse, and then she, his wife, had
  9591. reproached him with his poverty, after spending his earnings
  9592. recklessly. It was dreadful, and the worst of it was John went on so
  9593. quietly afterward, just as if nothing had happened, except that he
  9594. stayed in town later, and worked at night when she had gone to cry
  9595. herself to sleep. A week of remorse nearly made Meg sick, and the
  9596. discovery that John had countermanded the order for his new greatcoat
  9597. reduced her to a state of despair which was pathetic to behold. He had
  9598. simply said, in answer to her surprised inquiries as to the change, "I
  9599. can't afford it, my dear."
  9600. Meg said no more, but a few minutes after he found her in the hall with
  9601. her face buried in the old greatcoat, crying as if her heart would
  9602. break.
  9603. They had a long talk that night, and Meg learned to love her husband
  9604. better for his poverty, because it seemed to have made a man of him,
  9605. given him the strength and courage to fight his own way, and taught him
  9606. a tender patience with which to bear and comfort the natural longings
  9607. and failures of those he loved.
  9608. Next day she put her pride in her pocket, went to Sallie, told the
  9609. truth, and asked her to buy the silk as a favor. The good-natured Mrs.
  9610. Moffat willingly did so, and had the delicacy not to make her a present
  9611. of it immediately afterward. Then Meg ordered home the greatcoat, and
  9612. when John arrived, she put it on, and asked him how he liked her new
  9613. silk gown. One can imagine what answer he made, how he received his
  9614. present, and what a blissful state of things ensued. John came home
  9615. early, Meg gadded no more, and that greatcoat was put on in the morning
  9616. by a very happy husband, and taken off at night by a most devoted
  9617. little wife. So the year rolled round, and at midsummer there came to
  9618. Meg a new experience, the deepest and tenderest of a woman's life.
  9619. Laurie came sneaking into the kitchen of the Dovecote one Saturday,
  9620. with an excited face, and was received with the clash of cymbals, for
  9621. Hannah clapped her hands with a saucepan in one and the cover in the
  9622. other.
  9623. "How's the little mamma? Where is everybody? Why didn't you tell me
  9624. before I came home?" began Laurie in a loud whisper.
  9625. "Happy as a queen, the dear! Every soul of 'em is upstairs a
  9626. worshipin'. We didn't want no hurrycanes round. Now you go into the
  9627. parlor, and I'll send 'em down to you," with which somewhat involved
  9628. reply Hannah vanished, chuckling ecstatically.
  9629. Presently Jo appeared, proudly bearing a flannel bundle laid forth upon
  9630. a large pillow. Jo's face was very sober, but her eyes twinkled, and
  9631. there was an odd sound in her voice of repressed emotion of some sort.
  9632. "Shut your eyes and hold out your arms," she said invitingly.
  9633. Laurie backed precipitately into a corner, and put his hands behind him
  9634. with an imploring gesture. "No, thank you. I'd rather not. I shall
  9635. drop it or smash it, as sure as fate."
  9636. "Then you shan't see your nevvy," said Jo decidedly, turning as if to
  9637. go.
  9638. "I will, I will! Only you must be responsible for damages." and
  9639. obeying orders, Laurie heroically shut his eyes while something was put
  9640. into his arms. A peal of laughter from Jo, Amy, Mrs. March, Hannah,
  9641. and John caused him to open them the next minute, to find himself
  9642. invested with two babies instead of one.
  9643. No wonder they laughed, for the expression of his face was droll enough
  9644. to convulse a Quaker, as he stood and stared wildly from the
  9645. unconscious innocents to the hilarious spectators with such dismay that
  9646. Jo sat down on the floor and screamed.
  9647. "Twins, by Jupiter!" was all he said for a minute, then turning to the
  9648. women with an appealing look that was comically piteous, he added,
  9649. "Take 'em quick, somebody! I'm going to laugh, and I shall drop 'em."
  9650. Jo rescued his babies, and marched up and down, with one on each arm,
  9651. as if already initiated into the mysteries of babytending, while Laurie
  9652. laughed till the tears ran down his cheeks.
  9653. "It's the best joke of the season, isn't it? I wouldn't have told you,
  9654. for I set my heart on surprising you, and I flatter myself I've done
  9655. it," said Jo, when she got her breath.
  9656. "I never was more staggered in my life. Isn't it fun? Are they boys?
  9657. What are you going to name them? Let's have another look. Hold me up,
  9658. Jo, for upon my life it's one too many for me," returned Laurie,
  9659. regarding the infants with the air of a big, benevolent Newfoundland
  9660. looking at a pair of infantile kittens.
  9661. "Boy and girl. Aren't they beauties?" said the proud papa, beaming
  9662. upon the little red squirmers as if they were unfledged angels.
  9663. "Most remarkable children I ever saw. Which is which?" and Laurie bent
  9664. like a well-sweep to examine the prodigies.
  9665. "Amy put a blue ribbon on the boy and a pink on the girl, French
  9666. fashion, so you can always tell. Besides, one has blue eyes and one
  9667. brown. Kiss them, Uncle Teddy," said wicked Jo.
  9668. "I'm afraid they mightn't like it," began Laurie, with unusual timidity
  9669. in such matters.
  9670. "Of course they will, they are used to it now. Do it this minute,
  9671. sir!" commanded Jo, fearing he might propose a proxy.
  9672. Laurie screwed up his face and obeyed with a gingerly peck at each
  9673. little cheek that produced another laugh, and made the babies squeal.
  9674. "There, I knew they didn't like it! That's the boy, see him kick, he
  9675. hits out with his fists like a good one. Now then, young Brooke, pitch
  9676. into a man of your own size, will you?" cried Laurie, delighted with a
  9677. poke in the face from a tiny fist, flapping aimlessly about.
  9678. "He's to be named John Laurence, and the girl Margaret, after mother
  9679. and grandmother. We shall call her Daisey, so as not to have two Megs,
  9680. and I suppose the mannie will be Jack, unless we find a better name,"
  9681. said Amy, with aunt-like interest.
  9682. "Name him Demijohn, and call him Demi for short," said Laurie.
  9683. "Daisy and Demi, just the thing! I knew Teddy would do it," cried Jo
  9684. clapping her hands.
  9685. Teddy certainly had done it that time, for the babies were 'Daisy' and
  9686. 'Demi' to the end of the chapter.
  9687. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  9688. CALLS
  9689. "Come, Jo, it's time."
  9690. "For what?"
  9691. "You don't mean to say you have forgotten that you promised to make
  9692. half a dozen calls with me today?"
  9693. "I've done a good many rash and foolish things in my life, but I don't
  9694. think I ever was mad enough to say I'd make six calls in one day, when
  9695. a single one upsets me for a week."
  9696. "Yes, you did, it was a bargain between us. I was to finish the crayon
  9697. of Beth for you, and you were to go properly with me, and return our
  9698. neighbors' visits."
  9699. "If it was fair, that was in the bond, and I stand to the letter of my
  9700. bond, Shylock. There is a pile of clouds in the east, it's not fair,
  9701. and I don't go."
  9702. "Now, that's shirking. It's a lovely day, no prospect of rain, and you
  9703. pride yourself on keeping promises, so be honorable, come and do your
  9704. duty, and then be at peace for another six months."
  9705. At that minute Jo was particularly absorbed in dressmaking, for she was
  9706. mantua-maker general to the family, and took especial credit to herself
  9707. because she could use a needle as well as a pen. It was very provoking
  9708. to be arrested in the act of a first trying-on, and ordered out to make
  9709. calls in her best array on a warm July day. She hated calls of the
  9710. formal sort, and never made any till Amy compelled her with a bargain,
  9711. bribe, or promise. In the present instance there was no escape, and
  9712. having clashed her scissors rebelliously, while protesting that she
  9713. smelled thunder, she gave in, put away her work, and taking up her hat
  9714. and gloves with an air of resignation, told Amy the victim was ready.
  9715. "Jo March, you are perverse enough to provoke a saint! You don't
  9716. intend to make calls in that state, I hope," cried Amy, surveying her
  9717. with amazement.
  9718. "Why not? I'm neat and cool and comfortable, quite proper for a dusty
  9719. walk on a warm day. If people care more for my clothes than they do
  9720. for me, I don't wish to see them. You can dress for both, and be as
  9721. elegant as you please. It pays for you to be fine. It doesn't for me,
  9722. and furbelows only worry me."
  9723. "Oh, dear!" sighed Amy, "now she's in a contrary fit, and will drive me
  9724. distracted before I can get her properly ready. I'm sure it's no
  9725. pleasure to me to go today, but it's a debt we owe society, and there's
  9726. no one to pay it but you and me. I'll do anything for you, Jo, if
  9727. you'll only dress yourself nicely, and come and help me do the civil.
  9728. You can talk so well, look so aristocratic in your best things, and
  9729. behave so beautifully, if you try, that I'm proud of you. I'm afraid
  9730. to go alone, do come and take care of me."
  9731. "You're an artful little puss to flatter and wheedle your cross old
  9732. sister in that way. The idea of my being aristocratic and well-bred,
  9733. and your being afraid to go anywhere alone! I don't know which is the
  9734. most absurd. Well, I'll go if I must, and do my best. You shall be
  9735. commander of the expedition, and I'll obey blindly, will that satisfy
  9736. you?" said Jo, with a sudden change from perversity to lamblike
  9737. submission.
  9738. "You're a perfect cherub! Now put on all your best things, and I'll
  9739. tell you how to behave at each place, so that you will make a good
  9740. impression. I want people to like you, and they would if you'd only
  9741. try to be a little more agreeable. Do your hair the pretty way, and
  9742. put the pink rose in your bonnet. It's becoming, and you look too
  9743. sober in your plain suit. Take your light gloves and the embroidered
  9744. handkerchief. We'll stop at Meg's, and borrow her white sunshade, and
  9745. then you can have my dove-colored one."
  9746. While Amy dressed, she issued her orders, and Jo obeyed them, not
  9747. without entering her protest, however, for she sighed as she rustled
  9748. into her new organdie, frowned darkly at herself as she tied her bonnet
  9749. strings in an irreproachable bow, wrestled viciously with pins as she
  9750. put on her collar, wrinkled up her features generally as she shook out
  9751. the handkerchief, whose embroidery was as irritating to her nose as the
  9752. present mission was to her feelings, and when she had squeezed her
  9753. hands into tight gloves with three buttons and a tassel, as the last
  9754. touch of elegance, she turned to Amy with an imbecile expression of
  9755. countenance, saying meekly...
  9756. "I'm perfectly miserable, but if you consider me presentable, I die
  9757. happy."
  9758. "You're highly satisfactory. Turn slowly round, and let me get a
  9759. careful view." Jo revolved, and Amy gave a touch here and there, then
  9760. fell back, with her head on one side, observing graciously, "Yes,
  9761. you'll do. Your head is all I could ask, for that white bonnet with
  9762. the rose is quite ravishing. Hold back your shoulders, and carry your
  9763. hands easily, no matter if your gloves do pinch. There's one thing you
  9764. can do well, Jo, that is, wear a shawl. I can't, but it's very nice to
  9765. see you, and I'm so glad Aunt March gave you that lovely one. It's
  9766. simple, but handsome, and those folds over the arm are really artistic.
  9767. Is the point of my mantle in the middle, and have I looped my dress
  9768. evenly? I like to show my boots, for my feet are pretty, though my nose
  9769. isn't."
  9770. "You are a thing of beauty and a joy forever," said Jo, looking through
  9771. her hand with the air of a connoisseur at the blue feather against the
  9772. golden hair. "Am I to drag my best dress through the dust, or loop it
  9773. up, please, ma'am?"
  9774. "Hold it up when you walk, but drop it in the house. The sweeping
  9775. style suits you best, and you must learn to trail your skirts
  9776. gracefully. You haven't half buttoned one cuff, do it at once. You'll
  9777. never look finished if you are not careful about the little details,
  9778. for they make up the pleasing whole."
  9779. Jo sighed, and proceeded to burst the buttons off her glove, in doing
  9780. up her cuff, but at last both were ready, and sailed away, looking as
  9781. 'pretty as picters', Hannah said, as she hung out of the upper window
  9782. to watch them.
  9783. "Now, Jo dear, the Chesters consider themselves very elegant people, so
  9784. I want you to put on your best deportment. Don't make any of your
  9785. abrupt remarks, or do anything odd, will you? Just be calm, cool, and
  9786. quiet, that's safe and ladylike, and you can easily do it for fifteen
  9787. minutes," said Amy, as they approached the first place, having borrowed
  9788. the white parasol and been inspected by Meg, with a baby on each arm.
  9789. "Let me see. 'Calm, cool, and quiet', yes, I think I can promise that.
  9790. I've played the part of a prim young lady on the stage, and I'll try it
  9791. off. My powers are great, as you shall see, so be easy in your mind,
  9792. my child."
  9793. Amy looked relieved, but naughty Jo took her at her word, for during
  9794. the first call she sat with every limb gracefully composed, every fold
  9795. correctly draped, calm as a summer sea, cool as a snowbank, and as
  9796. silent as the sphinx. In vain Mrs. Chester alluded to her 'charming
  9797. novel', and the Misses Chester introduced parties, picnics, the opera,
  9798. and the fashions. Each and all were answered by a smile, a bow, and a
  9799. demure "Yes" or "No" with the chill on. In vain Amy telegraphed the
  9800. word 'talk', tried to draw her out, and administered covert pokes with
  9801. her foot. Jo sat as if blandly unconscious of it all, with deportment
  9802. like Maud's face, 'icily regular, splendidly null'.
  9803. "What a haughty, uninteresting creature that oldest Miss March is!" was
  9804. the unfortunately audible remark of one of the ladies, as the door
  9805. closed upon their guests. Jo laughed noiselessly all through the hall,
  9806. but Amy looked disgusted at the failure of her instructions, and very
  9807. naturally laid the blame upon Jo.
  9808. "How could you mistake me so? I merely meant you to be properly
  9809. dignified and composed, and you made yourself a perfect stock and
  9810. stone. Try to be sociable at the Lambs'. Gossip as other girls do,
  9811. and be interested in dress and flirtations and whatever nonsense comes
  9812. up. They move in the best society, are valuable persons for us to
  9813. know, and I wouldn't fail to make a good impression there for anything."
  9814. "I'll be agreeable. I'll gossip and giggle, and have horrors and
  9815. raptures over any trifle you like. I rather enjoy this, and now I'll
  9816. imitate what is called 'a charming girl'. I can do it, for I have May
  9817. Chester as a model, and I'll improve upon her. See if the Lambs don't
  9818. say, 'What a lively, nice creature that Jo March is!"
  9819. Amy felt anxious, as well she might, for when Jo turned freakish there
  9820. was no knowing where she would stop. Amy's face was a study when she
  9821. saw her sister skim into the next drawing room, kiss all the young
  9822. ladies with effusion, beam graciously upon the young gentlemen, and
  9823. join in the chat with a spirit which amazed the beholder. Amy was taken
  9824. possession of by Mrs. Lamb, with whom she was a favorite, and forced to
  9825. hear a long account of Lucretia's last attack, while three delightful
  9826. young gentlemen hovered near, waiting for a pause when they might rush
  9827. in and rescue her. So situated, she was powerless to check Jo, who
  9828. seemed possessed by a spirit of mischief, and talked away as volubly as
  9829. the lady. A knot of heads gathered about her, and Amy strained her
  9830. ears to hear what was going on, for broken sentences filled her with
  9831. curiosity, and frequent peals of laughter made her wild to share the
  9832. fun. One may imagine her suffering on overhearing fragments of this
  9833. sort of conversation.
  9834. "She rides splendidly. Who taught her?"
  9835. "No one. She used to practice mounting, holding the reins, and sitting
  9836. straight on an old saddle in a tree. Now she rides anything, for she
  9837. doesn't know what fear is, and the stableman lets her have horses cheap
  9838. because she trains them to carry ladies so well. She has such a
  9839. passion for it, I often tell her if everything else fails, she can be a
  9840. horsebreaker, and get her living so."
  9841. At this awful speech Amy contained herself with difficulty, for the
  9842. impression was being given that she was rather a fast young lady, which
  9843. was her especial aversion. But what could she do? For the old lady
  9844. was in the middle of her story, and long before it was done, Jo was off
  9845. again, making more droll revelations and committing still more fearful
  9846. blunders.
  9847. "Yes, Amy was in despair that day, for all the good beasts were gone,
  9848. and of three left, one was lame, one blind, and the other so balky that
  9849. you had to put dirt in his mouth before he would start. Nice animal for
  9850. a pleasure party, wasn't it?"
  9851. "Which did she choose?" asked one of the laughing gentlemen, who
  9852. enjoyed the subject.
  9853. "None of them. She heard of a young horse at the farm house over the
  9854. river, and though a lady had never ridden him, she resolved to try,
  9855. because he was handsome and spirited. Her struggles were really
  9856. pathetic. There was no one to bring the horse to the saddle, so she
  9857. took the saddle to the horse. My dear creature, she actually rowed it
  9858. over the river, put it on her head, and marched up to the barn to the
  9859. utter amazement of the old man!"
  9860. "Did she ride the horse?"
  9861. "Of course she did, and had a capital time. I expected to see her
  9862. brought home in fragments, but she managed him perfectly, and was the
  9863. life of the party."
  9864. "Well, I call that plucky!" and young Mr. Lamb turned an approving
  9865. glance upon Amy, wondering what his mother could be saying to make the
  9866. girl look so red and uncomfortable.
  9867. She was still redder and more uncomfortable a moment after, when a
  9868. sudden turn in the conversation introduced the subject of dress. One
  9869. of the young ladies asked Jo where she got the pretty drab hat she wore
  9870. to the picnic and stupid Jo, instead of mentioning the place where it
  9871. was bought two years ago, must needs answer with unnecessary frankness,
  9872. "Oh, Amy painted it. You can't buy those soft shades, so we paint ours
  9873. any color we like. It's a great comfort to have an artistic sister."
  9874. "Isn't that an original idea?" cried Miss Lamb, who found Jo great fun.
  9875. "That's nothing compared to some of her brilliant performances. There's
  9876. nothing the child can't do. Why, she wanted a pair of blue boots for
  9877. Sallie's party, so she just painted her soiled white ones the loveliest
  9878. shade of sky blue you ever saw, and they looked exactly like satin,"
  9879. added Jo, with an air of pride in her sister's accomplishments that
  9880. exasperated Amy till she felt that it would be a relief to throw her
  9881. cardcase at her.
  9882. "We read a story of yours the other day, and enjoyed it very much,"
  9883. observed the elder Miss Lamb, wishing to compliment the literary lady,
  9884. who did not look the character just then, it must be confessed.
  9885. Any mention of her 'works' always had a bad effect upon Jo, who either
  9886. grew rigid and looked offended, or changed the subject with a brusque
  9887. remark, as now. "Sorry you could find nothing better to read. I write
  9888. that rubbish because it sells, and ordinary people like it. Are you
  9889. going to New York this winter?"
  9890. As Miss Lamb had 'enjoyed' the story, this speech was not exactly
  9891. grateful or complimentary. The minute it was made Jo saw her mistake,
  9892. but fearing to make the matter worse, suddenly remembered that it was
  9893. for her to make the first move toward departure, and did so with an
  9894. abruptness that left three people with half-finished sentences in their
  9895. mouths.
  9896. "Amy, we must go. Good-by, dear, do come and see us. We are pining
  9897. for a visit. I don't dare to ask you, Mr. Lamb, but if you should
  9898. come, I don't think I shall have the heart to send you away."
  9899. Jo said this with such a droll imitation of May Chester's gushing style
  9900. that Amy got out of the room as rapidly as possible, feeling a strong
  9901. desire to laugh and cry at the same time.
  9902. "Didn't I do well?" asked Jo, with a satisfied air as they walked away.
  9903. "Nothing could have been worse," was Amy's crushing reply. "What
  9904. possessed you to tell those stories about my saddle, and the hats and
  9905. boots, and all the rest of it?"
  9906. "Why, it's funny, and amuses people. They know we are poor, so it's no
  9907. use pretending that we have grooms, buy three or four hats a season,
  9908. and have things as easy and fine as they do."
  9909. "You needn't go and tell them all our little shifts, and expose our
  9910. poverty in that perfectly unnecessary way. You haven't a bit of proper
  9911. pride, and never will learn when to hold your tongue and when to
  9912. speak," said Amy despairingly.
  9913. Poor Jo looked abashed, and silently chafed the end of her nose with
  9914. the stiff handkerchief, as if performing a penance for her misdemeanors.
  9915. "How shall I behave here?" she asked, as they approached the third
  9916. mansion.
  9917. "Just as you please. I wash my hands of you," was Amy's short answer.
  9918. "Then I'll enjoy myself. The boys are at home, and we'll have a
  9919. comfortable time. Goodness knows I need a little change, for elegance
  9920. has a bad effect upon my constitution," returned Jo gruffly, being
  9921. disturbed by her failure to suit.
  9922. An enthusiastic welcome from three big boys and several pretty children
  9923. speedily soothed her ruffled feelings, and leaving Amy to entertain the
  9924. hostess and Mr. Tudor, who happened to be calling likewise, Jo devoted
  9925. herself to the young folks and found the change refreshing. She
  9926. listened to college stories with deep interest, caressed pointers and
  9927. poodles without a murmur, agreed heartily that "Tom Brown was a brick,"
  9928. regardless of the improper form of praise, and when one lad proposed a
  9929. visit to his turtle tank, she went with an alacrity which caused Mamma
  9930. to smile upon her, as that motherly lady settled the cap which was left
  9931. in a ruinous condition by filial hugs, bearlike but affectionate, and
  9932. dearer to her than the most faultless coiffure from the hands of an
  9933. inspired Frenchwoman.
  9934. Leaving her sister to her own devices, Amy proceeded to enjoy herself
  9935. to her heart's content. Mr. Tudor's uncle had married an English lady
  9936. who was third cousin to a living lord, and Amy regarded the whole
  9937. family with great respect, for in spite of her American birth and
  9938. breeding, she possessed that reverence for titles which haunts the best
  9939. of us--that unacknowledged loyalty to the early faith in kings which
  9940. set the most democratic nation under the sun in ferment at the coming
  9941. of a royal yellow-haired laddie, some years ago, and which still has
  9942. something to do with the love the young country bears the old, like
  9943. that of a big son for an imperious little mother, who held him while
  9944. she could, and let him go with a farewell scolding when he rebelled.
  9945. But even the satisfaction of talking with a distant connection of the
  9946. British nobility did not render Amy forgetful of time, and when the
  9947. proper number of minutes had passed, she reluctantly tore herself from
  9948. this aristocratic society, and looked about for Jo, fervently hoping
  9949. that her incorrigible sister would not be found in any position which
  9950. should bring disgrace upon the name of March.
  9951. It might have been worse, but Amy considered it bad. For Jo sat on the
  9952. grass, with an encampment of boys about her, and a dirty-footed dog
  9953. reposing on the skirt of her state and festival dress, as she related
  9954. one of Laurie's pranks to her admiring audience. One small child was
  9955. poking turtles with Amy's cherished parasol, a second was eating
  9956. gingerbread over Jo's best bonnet, and a third playing ball with her
  9957. gloves, but all were enjoying themselves, and when Jo collected her
  9958. damaged property to go, her escort accompanied her, begging her to come
  9959. again, "It was such fun to hear about Laurie's larks."
  9960. "Capital boys, aren't they? I feel quite young and brisk again after
  9961. that." said Jo, strolling along with her hands behind her, partly from
  9962. habit, partly to conceal the bespattered parasol.
  9963. "Why do you always avoid Mr. Tudor?" asked Amy, wisely refraining from
  9964. any comment upon Jo's dilapidated appearance.
  9965. "Don't like him, he puts on airs, snubs his sisters, worries his
  9966. father, and doesn't speak respectfully of his mother. Laurie says he
  9967. is fast, and I don't consider him a desirable acquaintance, so I let
  9968. him alone."
  9969. "You might treat him civilly, at least. You gave him a cool nod, and
  9970. just now you bowed and smiled in the politest way to Tommy Chamberlain,
  9971. whose father keeps a grocery store. If you had just reversed the nod
  9972. and the bow, it would have been right," said Amy reprovingly.
  9973. "No, it wouldn't," returned Jo, "I neither like, respect, nor admire
  9974. Tudor, though his grandfather's uncle's nephew's niece was a third
  9975. cousin to a lord. Tommy is poor and bashful and good and very clever.
  9976. I think well of him, and like to show that I do, for he is a gentleman
  9977. in spite of the brown paper parcels."
  9978. "It's no use trying to argue with you," began Amy.
  9979. "Not the least, my dear," interrupted Jo, "so let us look amiable, and
  9980. drop a card here, as the Kings are evidently out, for which I'm deeply
  9981. grateful."
  9982. The family cardcase having done its duty the girls walked on, and Jo
  9983. uttered another thanksgiving on reaching the fifth house, and being
  9984. told that the young ladies were engaged.
  9985. "Now let us go home, and never mind Aunt March today. We can run down
  9986. there any time, and it's really a pity to trail through the dust in our
  9987. best bibs and tuckers, when we are tired and cross."
  9988. "Speak for yourself, if you please. Aunt March likes to have us pay
  9989. her the compliment of coming in style, and making a formal call. It's a
  9990. little thing to do, but it gives her pleasure, and I don't believe it
  9991. will hurt your things half so much as letting dirty dogs and clumping
  9992. boys spoil them. Stoop down, and let me take the crumbs off of your
  9993. bonnet."
  9994. "What a good girl you are, Amy!" said Jo, with a repentant glance from
  9995. her own damaged costume to that of her sister, which was fresh and
  9996. spotless still. "I wish it was as easy for me to do little things to
  9997. please people as it is for you. I think of them, but it takes too much
  9998. time to do them, so I wait for a chance to confer a great favor, and
  9999. let the small ones slip, but they tell best in the end, I fancy."
  10000. Amy smiled and was mollified at once, saying with a maternal air,
  10001. "Women should learn to be agreeable, particularly poor ones, for they
  10002. have no other way of repaying the kindnesses they receive. If you'd
  10003. remember that, and practice it, you'd be better liked than I am,
  10004. because there is more of you."
  10005. "I'm a crotchety old thing, and always shall be, but I'm willing to own
  10006. that you are right, only it's easier for me to risk my life for a
  10007. person than to be pleasant to him when I don't feel like it. It's a
  10008. great misfortune to have such strong likes and dislikes, isn't it?"
  10009. "It's a greater not to be able to hide them. I don't mind saying that
  10010. I don't approve of Tudor any more than you do, but I'm not called upon
  10011. to tell him so. Neither are you, and there is no use in making
  10012. yourself disagreeable because he is."
  10013. "But I think girls ought to show when they disapprove of young men, and
  10014. how can they do it except by their manners? Preaching does not do any
  10015. good, as I know to my sorrow, since I've had Teddie to manage. But
  10016. there are many little ways in which I can influence him without a word,
  10017. and I say we ought to do it to others if we can."
  10018. "Teddy is a remarkable boy, and can't be taken as a sample of other
  10019. boys," said Amy, in a tone of solemn conviction, which would have
  10020. convulsed the 'remarkable boy' if he had heard it. "If we were belles,
  10021. or women of wealth and position, we might do something, perhaps, but
  10022. for us to frown at one set of young gentlemen because we don't approve
  10023. of them, and smile upon another set because we do, wouldn't have a
  10024. particle of effect, and we should only be considered odd and
  10025. puritanical."
  10026. "So we are to countenance things and people which we detest, merely
  10027. because we are not belles and millionaires, are we? That's a nice sort
  10028. of morality."
  10029. "I can't argue about it, I only know that it's the way of the world,
  10030. and people who set themselves against it only get laughed at for their
  10031. pains. I don't like reformers, and I hope you never try to be one."
  10032. "I do like them, and I shall be one if I can, for in spite of the
  10033. laughing the world would never get on without them. We can't agree
  10034. about that, for you belong to the old set, and I to the new. You will
  10035. get on the best, but I shall have the liveliest time of it. I should
  10036. rather enjoy the brickbats and hooting, I think."
  10037. "Well, compose yourself now, and don't worry Aunt with your new ideas."
  10038. "I'll try not to, but I'm always possessed to burst out with some
  10039. particularly blunt speech or revolutionary sentiment before her. It's
  10040. my doom, and I can't help it."
  10041. They found Aunt Carrol with the old lady, both absorbed in some very
  10042. interesting subject, but they dropped it as the girls came in, with a
  10043. conscious look which betrayed that they had been talking about their
  10044. nieces. Jo was not in a good humor, and the perverse fit returned, but
  10045. Amy, who had virtuously done her duty, kept her temper and pleased
  10046. everybody, was in a most angelic frame of mind. This amiable spirit
  10047. was felt at once, and both aunts 'my deared' her affectionately,
  10048. looking what they afterward said emphatically, "That child improves
  10049. every day."
  10050. "Are you going to help about the fair, dear?" asked Mrs. Carrol, as Amy
  10051. sat down beside her with the confiding air elderly people like so well
  10052. in the young.
  10053. "Yes, Aunt. Mrs. Chester asked me if I would, and I offered to tend a
  10054. table, as I have nothing but my time to give."
  10055. "I'm not," put in Jo decidedly. "I hate to be patronized, and the
  10056. Chesters think it's a great favor to allow us to help with their highly
  10057. connected fair. I wonder you consented, Amy, they only want you to
  10058. work."
  10059. "I am willing to work. It's for the freedmen as well as the Chesters,
  10060. and I think it very kind of them to let me share the labor and the fun.
  10061. Patronage does not trouble me when it is well meant."
  10062. "Quite right and proper. I like your grateful spirit, my dear. It's a
  10063. pleasure to help people who appreciate our efforts. Some do not, and
  10064. that is trying," observed Aunt March, looking over her spectacles at
  10065. Jo, who sat apart, rocking herself, with a somewhat morose expression.
  10066. If Jo had only known what a great happiness was wavering in the balance
  10067. for one of them, she would have turned dove-like in a minute, but
  10068. unfortunately, we don't have windows in our breasts, and cannot see
  10069. what goes on in the minds of our friends. Better for us that we cannot
  10070. as a general thing, but now and then it would be such a comfort, such a
  10071. saving of time and temper. By her next speech, Jo deprived herself of
  10072. several years of pleasure, and received a timely lesson in the art of
  10073. holding her tongue.
  10074. "I don't like favors, they oppress and make me feel like a slave. I'd
  10075. rather do everything for myself, and be perfectly independent."
  10076. "Ahem!" coughed Aunt Carrol softly, with a look at Aunt March.
  10077. "I told you so," said Aunt March, with a decided nod to Aunt Carrol.
  10078. Mercifully unconscious of what she had done, Jo sat with her nose in
  10079. the air, and a revolutionary aspect which was anything but inviting.
  10080. "Do you speak French, dear?" asked Mrs. Carrol, laying a hand on Amy's.
  10081. "Pretty well, thanks to Aunt March, who lets Esther talk to me as often
  10082. as I like," replied Amy, with a grateful look, which caused the old
  10083. lady to smile affably.
  10084. "How are you about languages?" asked Mrs. Carrol of Jo.
  10085. "Don't know a word. I'm very stupid about studying anything, can't
  10086. bear French, it's such a slippery, silly sort of language," was the
  10087. brusque reply.
  10088. Another look passed between the ladies, and Aunt March said to Amy,
  10089. "You are quite strong and well now, dear, I believe? Eyes don't
  10090. trouble you any more, do they?"
  10091. "Not at all, thank you, ma'am. I'm very well, and mean to do great
  10092. things next winter, so that I may be ready for Rome, whenever that
  10093. joyful time arrives."
  10094. "Good girl! You deserve to go, and I'm sure you will some day," said
  10095. Aunt March, with an approving pat on the head, as Amy picked up her
  10096. ball for her.
  10097. Crosspatch, draw the latch,
  10098. Sit by the fire and spin,
  10099. squalled Polly, bending down from his perch on the back of her chair to
  10100. peep into Jo's face, with such a comical air of impertinent inquiry
  10101. that it was impossible to help laughing.
  10102. "Most observing bird," said the old lady.
  10103. "Come and take a walk, my dear?" cried Polly, hopping toward the china
  10104. closet, with a look suggestive of a lump of sugar.
  10105. "Thank you, I will. Come Amy." and Jo brought the visit to an end,
  10106. feeling more strongly than ever that calls did have a bad effect upon
  10107. her constitution. She shook hands in a gentlemanly manner, but Amy
  10108. kissed both the aunts, and the girls departed, leaving behind them the
  10109. impression of shadow and sunshine, which impression caused Aunt March
  10110. to say, as they vanished...
  10111. "You'd better do it, Mary. I'll supply the money." and Aunt Carrol to
  10112. reply decidedly, "I certainly will, if her father and mother consent."
  10113. CHAPTER THIRTY
  10114. CONSEQUENCES
  10115. Mrs. Chester's fair was so very elegant and select that it was
  10116. considered a great honor by the young ladies of the neighborhood to be
  10117. invited to take a table, and everyone was much interested in the
  10118. matter. Amy was asked, but Jo was not, which was fortunate for all
  10119. parties, as her elbows were decidedly akimbo at this period of her
  10120. life, and it took a good many hard knocks to teach her how to get on
  10121. easily. The 'haughty, uninteresting creature' was let severely alone,
  10122. but Amy's talent and taste were duly complimented by the offer of the
  10123. art table, and she exerted herself to prepare and secure appropriate
  10124. and valuable contributions to it.
  10125. Everything went on smoothly till the day before the fair opened, then
  10126. there occurred one of the little skirmishes which it is almost
  10127. impossible to avoid, when some five-and-twenty women, old and young,
  10128. with all their private piques and prejudices, try to work together.
  10129. May Chester was rather jealous of Amy because the latter was a greater
  10130. favorite than herself, and just at this time several trifling
  10131. circumstances occurred to increase the feeling. Amy's dainty
  10132. pen-and-ink work entirely eclipsed May's painted vases--that was one
  10133. thorn. Then the all conquering Tudor had danced four times with Amy at
  10134. a late party and only once with May--that was thorn number two. But
  10135. the chief grievance that rankled in her soul, and gave an excuse for
  10136. her unfriendly conduct, was a rumor which some obliging gossip had
  10137. whispered to her, that the March girls had made fun of her at the
  10138. Lambs'. All the blame of this should have fallen upon Jo, for her
  10139. naughty imitation had been too lifelike to escape detection, and the
  10140. frolicsome Lambs had permitted the joke to escape. No hint of this had
  10141. reached the culprits, however, and Amy's dismay can be imagined, when,
  10142. the very evening before the fair, as she was putting the last touches
  10143. to her pretty table, Mrs. Chester, who, of course, resented the
  10144. supposed ridicule of her daughter, said, in a bland tone, but with a
  10145. cold look...
  10146. "I find, dear, that there is some feeling among the young ladies about
  10147. my giving this table to anyone but my girls. As this is the most
  10148. prominent, and some say the most attractive table of all, and they are
  10149. the chief getters-up of the fair, it is thought best for them to take
  10150. this place. I'm sorry, but I know you are too sincerely interested in
  10151. the cause to mind a little personal disappointment, and you shall have
  10152. another table if you like."
  10153. Mrs. Chester fancied beforehand that it would be easy to deliver this
  10154. little speech, but when the time came, she found it rather difficult to
  10155. utter it naturally, with Amy's unsuspicious eyes looking straight at
  10156. her full of surprise and trouble.
  10157. Amy felt that there was something behind this, but could not guess
  10158. what, and said quietly, feeling hurt, and showing that she did,
  10159. "Perhaps you had rather I took no table at all?"
  10160. "Now, my dear, don't have any ill feeling, I beg. It's merely a matter
  10161. of expediency, you see, my girls will naturally take the lead, and this
  10162. table is considered their proper place. I think it very appropriate to
  10163. you, and feel very grateful for your efforts to make it so pretty, but
  10164. we must give up our private wishes, of course, and I will see that you
  10165. have a good place elsewhere. Wouldn't you like the flower table? The
  10166. little girls undertook it, but they are discouraged. You could make a
  10167. charming thing of it, and the flower table is always attractive you
  10168. know."
  10169. "Especially to gentlemen," added May, with a look which enlightened Amy
  10170. as to one cause of her sudden fall from favor. She colored angrily,
  10171. but took no other notice of that girlish sarcasm, and answered with
  10172. unexpected amiability...
  10173. "It shall be as you please, Mrs. Chester. I'll give up my place here
  10174. at once, and attend to the flowers, if you like."
  10175. "You can put your own things on your own table, if you prefer," began
  10176. May, feeling a little conscience-stricken, as she looked at the pretty
  10177. racks, the painted shells, and quaint illuminations Amy had so
  10178. carefully made and so gracefully arranged. She meant it kindly, but
  10179. Amy mistook her meaning, and said quickly...
  10180. "Oh, certainly, if they are in your way," and sweeping her
  10181. contributions into her apron, pell-mell, she walked off, feeling that
  10182. herself and her works of art had been insulted past forgiveness.
  10183. "Now she's mad. Oh, dear, I wish I hadn't asked you to speak, Mama,"
  10184. said May, looking disconsolately at the empty spaces on her table.
  10185. "Girls' quarrels are soon over," returned her mother, feeling a trifle
  10186. ashamed of her own part in this one, as well she might.
  10187. The little girls hailed Amy and her treasures with delight, which
  10188. cordial reception somewhat soothed her perturbed spirit, and she fell
  10189. to work, determined to succeed florally, if she could not artistically.
  10190. But everything seemed against her. It was late, and she was tired.
  10191. Everyone was too busy with their own affairs to help her, and the
  10192. little girls were only hindrances, for the dears fussed and chattered
  10193. like so many magpies, making a great deal of confusion in their artless
  10194. efforts to preserve the most perfect order. The evergreen arch
  10195. wouldn't stay firm after she got it up, but wiggled and threatened to
  10196. tumble down on her head when the hanging baskets were filled. Her best
  10197. tile got a splash of water, which left a sepia tear on the Cupid's
  10198. cheek. She bruised her hands with hammering, and got cold working in a
  10199. draft, which last affliction filled her with apprehensions for the
  10200. morrow. Any girl reader who has suffered like afflictions will
  10201. sympathize with poor Amy and wish her well through her task.
  10202. There was great indignation at home when she told her story that
  10203. evening. Her mother said it was a shame, but told her she had done
  10204. right. Beth declared she wouldn't go to the fair at all, and Jo
  10205. demanded why she didn't take all her pretty things and leave those mean
  10206. people to get on without her.
  10207. "Because they are mean is no reason why I should be. I hate such
  10208. things, and though I think I've a right to be hurt, I don't intend to
  10209. show it. They will feel that more than angry speeches or huffy
  10210. actions, won't they, Marmee?"
  10211. "That's the right spirit, my dear. A kiss for a blow is always best,
  10212. though it's not very easy to give it sometimes," said her mother, with
  10213. the air of one who had learned the difference between preaching and
  10214. practicing.
  10215. In spite of various very natural temptations to resent and retaliate,
  10216. Amy adhered to her resolution all the next day, bent on conquering her
  10217. enemy by kindness. She began well, thanks to a silent reminder that
  10218. came to her unexpectedly, but most opportunely. As she arranged her
  10219. table that morning, while the little girls were in the anteroom filling
  10220. the baskets, she took up her pet production, a little book, the antique
  10221. cover of which her father had found among his treasures, and in which
  10222. on leaves of vellum she had beautifully illuminated different texts.
  10223. As she turned the pages rich in dainty devices with very pardonable
  10224. pride, her eye fell upon one verse that made her stop and think.
  10225. Framed in a brilliant scrollwork of scarlet, blue and gold, with little
  10226. spirits of good will helping one another up and down among the thorns
  10227. and flowers, were the words, "Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself."
  10228. "I ought, but I don't," thought Amy, as her eye went from the bright
  10229. page to May's discontented face behind the big vases, that could not
  10230. hide the vacancies her pretty work had once filled. Amy stood a
  10231. minute, turning the leaves in her hand, reading on each some sweet
  10232. rebuke for all heartburnings and uncharitableness of spirit. Many wise
  10233. and true sermons are preached us every day by unconscious ministers in
  10234. street, school, office, or home. Even a fair table may become a
  10235. pulpit, if it can offer the good and helpful words which are never out
  10236. of season. Amy's conscience preached her a little sermon from that
  10237. text, then and there, and she did what many of us do not always do,
  10238. took the sermon to heart, and straightway put it in practice.
  10239. A group of girls were standing about May's table, admiring the pretty
  10240. things, and talking over the change of saleswomen. They dropped their
  10241. voices, but Amy knew they were speaking of her, hearing one side of the
  10242. story and judging accordingly. It was not pleasant, but a better
  10243. spirit had come over her, and presently a chance offered for proving
  10244. it. She heard May say sorrowfully...
  10245. "It's too bad, for there is no time to make other things, and I don't
  10246. want to fill up with odds and ends. The table was just complete then.
  10247. Now it's spoiled."
  10248. "I dare say she'd put them back if you asked her," suggested someone.
  10249. "How could I after all the fuss?" began May, but she did not finish,
  10250. for Amy's voice came across the hall, saying pleasantly...
  10251. "You may have them, and welcome, without asking, if you want them. I
  10252. was just thinking I'd offer to put them back, for they belong to your
  10253. table rather than mine. Here they are, please take them, and forgive
  10254. me if I was hasty in carrying them away last night."
  10255. As she spoke, Amy returned her contribution, with a nod and a smile,
  10256. and hurried away again, feeling that it was easier to do a friendly
  10257. thing than it was to stay and be thanked for it.
  10258. "Now, I call that lovely of her, don't you?" cried one girl.
  10259. May's answer was inaudible, but another young lady, whose temper was
  10260. evidently a little soured by making lemonade, added, with a
  10261. disagreeable laugh, "Very lovely, for she knew she wouldn't sell them
  10262. at her own table."
  10263. Now, that was hard. When we make little sacrifices we like to have
  10264. them appreciated, at least, and for a minute Amy was sorry she had done
  10265. it, feeling that virtue was not always its own reward. But it is, as
  10266. she presently discovered, for her spirits began to rise, and her table
  10267. to blossom under her skillful hands, the girls were very kind, and that
  10268. one little act seemed to have cleared the atmosphere amazingly.
  10269. It was a very long day and a hard one for Amy, as she sat behind her
  10270. table, often quite alone, for the little girls deserted very soon. Few
  10271. cared to buy flowers in summer, and her bouquets began to droop long
  10272. before night.
  10273. The art table was the most attractive in the room. There was a crowd
  10274. about it all day long, and the tenders were constantly flying to and
  10275. fro with important faces and rattling money boxes. Amy often looked
  10276. wistfully across, longing to be there, where she felt at home and
  10277. happy, instead of in a corner with nothing to do. It might seem no
  10278. hardship to some of us, but to a pretty, blithe young girl, it was not
  10279. only tedious, but very trying, and the thought of Laurie and his
  10280. friends made it a real martyrdom.
  10281. She did not go home till night, and then she looked so pale and quiet
  10282. that they knew the day had been a hard one, though she made no
  10283. complaint, and did not even tell what she had done. Her mother gave
  10284. her an extra cordial cup of tea. Beth helped her dress, and made a
  10285. charming little wreath for her hair, while Jo astonished her family by
  10286. getting herself up with unusual care, and hinting darkly that the
  10287. tables were about to be turned.
  10288. "Don't do anything rude, pray Jo; I won't have any fuss made, so let it
  10289. all pass and behave yourself," begged Amy, as she departed early,
  10290. hoping to find a reinforcement of flowers to refresh her poor little
  10291. table.
  10292. "I merely intend to make myself entrancingly agreeable to every one I
  10293. know, and to keep them in your corner as long as possible. Teddy and
  10294. his boys will lend a hand, and we'll have a good time yet." returned
  10295. Jo, leaning over the gate to watch for Laurie. Presently the familiar
  10296. tramp was heard in the dusk, and she ran out to meet him.
  10297. "Is that my boy?"
  10298. "As sure as this is my girl!" and Laurie tucked her hand under his arm
  10299. with the air of a man whose every wish was gratified.
  10300. "Oh, Teddy, such doings!" and Jo told Amy's wrongs with sisterly zeal.
  10301. "A flock of our fellows are going to drive over by-and-by, and I'll be
  10302. hanged if I don't make them buy every flower she's got, and camp down
  10303. before her table afterward," said Laurie, espousing her cause with
  10304. warmth.
  10305. "The flowers are not at all nice, Amy says, and the fresh ones may not
  10306. arrive in time. I don't wish to be unjust or suspicious, but I
  10307. shouldn't wonder if they never came at all. When people do one mean
  10308. thing they are very likely to do another," observed Jo in a disgusted
  10309. tone.
  10310. "Didn't Hayes give you the best out of our gardens? I told him to."
  10311. "I didn't know that, he forgot, I suppose, and, as your grandpa was
  10312. poorly, I didn't like to worry him by asking, though I did want some."
  10313. "Now, Jo, how could you think there was any need of asking? They are
  10314. just as much yours as mine. Don't we always go halves in everything?"
  10315. began Laurie, in the tone that always made Jo turn thorny.
  10316. "Gracious, I hope not! Half of some of your things wouldn't suit me at
  10317. all. But we mustn't stand philandering here. I've got to help Amy, so
  10318. you go and make yourself splendid, and if you'll be so very kind as to
  10319. let Hayes take a few nice flowers up to the Hall, I'll bless you
  10320. forever."
  10321. "Couldn't you do it now?" asked Laurie, so suggestively that Jo shut
  10322. the gate in his face with inhospitable haste, and called through the
  10323. bars, "Go away, Teddy, I'm busy."
  10324. Thanks to the conspirators, the tables were turned that night, for
  10325. Hayes sent up a wilderness of flowers, with a loverly basket arranged
  10326. in his best manner for a centerpiece. Then the March family turned out
  10327. en masse, and Jo exerted herself to some purpose, for people not only
  10328. came, but stayed, laughing at her nonsense, admiring Amy's taste, and
  10329. apparently enjoying themselves very much. Laurie and his friends
  10330. gallantly threw themselves into the breach, bought up the bouquets,
  10331. encamped before the table, and made that corner the liveliest spot in
  10332. the room. Amy was in her element now, and out of gratitude, if nothing
  10333. more, was as spritely and gracious as possible, coming to the
  10334. conclusion, about that time, that virtue was its own reward, after all.
  10335. Jo behaved herself with exemplary propriety, and when Amy was happily
  10336. surrounded by her guard of honor, Jo circulated about the Hall, picking
  10337. up various bits of gossip, which enlightened her upon the subject of
  10338. the Chester change of base. She reproached herself for her share of
  10339. the ill feeling and resolved to exonerate Amy as soon as possible. She
  10340. also discovered what Amy had done about the things in the morning, and
  10341. considered her a model of magnanimity. As she passed the art table,
  10342. she glanced over it for her sister's things, but saw no sign of them.
  10343. "Tucked away out of sight, I dare say," thought Jo, who could forgive
  10344. her own wrongs, but hotly resented any insult offered her family.
  10345. "Good evening, Miss Jo. How does Amy get on?" asked May with a
  10346. conciliatory air, for she wanted to show that she also could be
  10347. generous.
  10348. "She has sold everything she had that was worth selling, and now she is
  10349. enjoying herself. The flower table is always attractive, you know,
  10350. 'especially to gentlemen'." Jo couldn't resist giving that little slap,
  10351. but May took it so meekly she regretted it a minute after, and fell to
  10352. praising the great vases, which still remained unsold.
  10353. "Is Amy's illumination anywhere about? I took a fancy to buy that for
  10354. Father," said Jo, very anxious to learn the fate of her sister's work.
  10355. "Everything of Amy's sold long ago. I took care that the right people
  10356. saw them, and they made a nice little sum of money for us," returned
  10357. May, who had overcome sundry small temptations, as well as Amy had,
  10358. that day.
  10359. Much gratified, Jo rushed back to tell the good news, and Amy looked
  10360. both touched and surprised by the report of May's word and manner.
  10361. "Now, gentlemen, I want you to go and do your duty by the other tables
  10362. as generously as you have by mine, especially the art table," she said,
  10363. ordering out 'Teddy's own', as the girls called the college friends.
  10364. "'Charge, Chester, charge!' is the motto for that table, but do your
  10365. duty like men, and you'll get your money's worth of art in every sense
  10366. of the word," said the irrepressible Jo, as the devoted phalanx
  10367. prepared to take the field.
  10368. "To hear is to obey, but March is fairer far than May," said little
  10369. Parker, making a frantic effort to be both witty and tender, and
  10370. getting promptly quenched by Laurie, who said...
  10371. "Very well, my son, for a small boy!" and walked him off, with a
  10372. paternal pat on the head.
  10373. "Buy the vases," whispered Amy to Laurie, as a final heaping of coals
  10374. of fire on her enemy's head.
  10375. To May's great delight, Mr. Laurence not only bought the vases, but
  10376. pervaded the hall with one under each arm. The other gentlemen
  10377. speculated with equal rashness in all sorts of frail trifles, and
  10378. wandered helplessly about afterward, burdened with wax flowers, painted
  10379. fans, filigree portfolios, and other useful and appropriate purchases.
  10380. Aunt Carrol was there, heard the story, looked pleased, and said
  10381. something to Mrs. March in a corner, which made the latter lady beam
  10382. with satisfaction, and watch Amy with a face full of mingled pride and
  10383. anxiety, though she did not betray the cause of her pleasure till
  10384. several days later.
  10385. The fair was pronounced a success, and when May bade Amy goodnight, she
  10386. did not gush as usual, but gave her an affectionate kiss, and a look
  10387. which said 'forgive and forget'. That satisfied Amy, and when she got
  10388. home she found the vases paraded on the parlor chimney piece with a
  10389. great bouquet in each. "The reward of merit for a magnanimous March,"
  10390. as Laurie announced with a flourish.
  10391. "You've a deal more principle and generosity and nobleness of character
  10392. than I ever gave you credit for, Amy. You've behaved sweetly, and I
  10393. respect you with all my heart," said Jo warmly, as they brushed their
  10394. hair together late that night.
  10395. "Yes, we all do, and love her for being so ready to forgive. It must
  10396. have been dreadfully hard, after working so long and setting your heart
  10397. on selling your own pretty things. I don't believe I could have done
  10398. it as kindly as you did," added Beth from her pillow.
  10399. "Why, girls, you needn't praise me so. I only did as I'd be done by.
  10400. You laugh at me when I say I want to be a lady, but I mean a true
  10401. gentlewoman in mind and manners, and I try to do it as far as I know
  10402. how. I can't explain exactly, but I want to be above the little
  10403. meannesses and follies and faults that spoil so many women. I'm far
  10404. from it now, but I do my best, and hope in time to be what Mother is."
  10405. Amy spoke earnestly, and Jo said, with a cordial hug, "I understand now
  10406. what you mean, and I'll never laugh at you again. You are getting on
  10407. faster than you think, and I'll take lessons of you in true politeness,
  10408. for you've learned the secret, I believe. Try away, deary, you'll get
  10409. your reward some day, and no one will be more delighted than I shall."
  10410. A week later Amy did get her reward, and poor Jo found it hard to be
  10411. delighted. A letter came from Aunt Carrol, and Mrs. March's face was
  10412. illuminated to such a degree when she read it that Jo and Beth, who
  10413. were with her, demanded what the glad tidings were.
  10414. "Aunt Carrol is going abroad next month, and wants..."
  10415. "Me to go with her!" burst in Jo, flying out of her chair in an
  10416. uncontrollable rapture.
  10417. "No, dear, not you. It's Amy."
  10418. "Oh, Mother! She's too young, it's my turn first. I've wanted it so
  10419. long. It would do me so much good, and be so altogether splendid. I
  10420. must go!"
  10421. "I'm afraid it's impossible, Jo. Aunt says Amy, decidedly, and it is
  10422. not for us to dictate when she offers such a favor."
  10423. "It's always so. Amy has all the fun and I have all the work. It isn't
  10424. fair, oh, it isn't fair!" cried Jo passionately.
  10425. "I'm afraid it's partly your own fault, dear. When Aunt spoke to me
  10426. the other day, she regretted your blunt manners and too independent
  10427. spirit, and here she writes, as if quoting something you had said--'I
  10428. planned at first to ask Jo, but as 'favors burden her', and she 'hates
  10429. French', I think I won't venture to invite her. Amy is more docile,
  10430. will make a good companion for Flo, and receive gratefully any help the
  10431. trip may give her."
  10432. "Oh, my tongue, my abominable tongue! Why can't I learn to keep it
  10433. quiet?" groaned Jo, remembering words which had been her undoing. When
  10434. she had heard the explanation of the quoted phrases, Mrs. March said
  10435. sorrowfully...
  10436. "I wish you could have gone, but there is no hope of it this time, so
  10437. try to bear it cheerfully, and don't sadden Amy's pleasure by
  10438. reproaches or regrets."
  10439. "I'll try," said Jo, winking hard as she knelt down to pick up the
  10440. basket she had joyfully upset. "I'll take a leaf out of her book, and
  10441. try not only to seem glad, but to be so, and not grudge her one minute
  10442. of happiness. But it won't be easy, for it is a dreadful
  10443. disappointment," and poor Jo bedewed the little fat pincushion she held
  10444. with several very bitter tears.
  10445. "Jo, dear, I'm very selfish, but I couldn't spare you, and I'm glad you
  10446. are not going quite yet," whispered Beth, embracing her, basket and
  10447. all, with such a clinging touch and loving face that Jo felt comforted
  10448. in spite of the sharp regret that made her want to box her own ears,
  10449. and humbly beg Aunt Carrol to burden her with this favor, and see how
  10450. gratefully she would bear it.
  10451. By the time Amy came in, Jo was able to take her part in the family
  10452. jubilation, not quite as heartily as usual, perhaps, but without
  10453. repinings at Amy's good fortune. The young lady herself received the
  10454. news as tidings of great joy, went about in a solemn sort of rapture,
  10455. and began to sort her colors and pack her pencils that evening, leaving
  10456. such trifles as clothes, money, and passports to those less absorbed in
  10457. visions of art than herself.
  10458. "It isn't a mere pleasure trip to me, girls," she said impressively, as
  10459. she scraped her best palette. "It will decide my career, for if I have
  10460. any genius, I shall find it out in Rome, and will do something to prove
  10461. it."
  10462. "Suppose you haven't?" said Jo, sewing away, with red eyes, at the new
  10463. collars which were to be handed over to Amy.
  10464. "Then I shall come home and teach drawing for my living," replied the
  10465. aspirant for fame, with philosophic composure. But she made a wry face
  10466. at the prospect, and scratched away at her palette as if bent on
  10467. vigorous measures before she gave up her hopes.
  10468. "No, you won't. You hate hard work, and you'll marry some rich man,
  10469. and come home to sit in the lap of luxury all your days," said Jo.
  10470. "Your predictions sometimes come to pass, but I don't believe that one
  10471. will. I'm sure I wish it would, for if I can't be an artist myself, I
  10472. should like to be able to help those who are," said Amy, smiling, as if
  10473. the part of Lady Bountiful would suit her better than that of a poor
  10474. drawing teacher.
  10475. "Hum!" said Jo, with a sigh. "If you wish it you'll have it, for your
  10476. wishes are always granted--mine never."
  10477. "Would you like to go?" asked Amy, thoughtfully patting her nose with
  10478. her knife.
  10479. "Rather!"
  10480. "Well, in a year or two I'll send for you, and we'll dig in the Forum
  10481. for relics, and carry out all the plans we've made so many times."
  10482. "Thank you. I'll remind you of your promise when that joyful day
  10483. comes, if it ever does," returned Jo, accepting the vague but
  10484. magnificent offer as gratefully as she could.
  10485. There was not much time for preparation, and the house was in a ferment
  10486. till Amy was off. Jo bore up very well till the last flutter of blue
  10487. ribbon vanished, when she retired to her refuge, the garret, and cried
  10488. till she couldn't cry any more. Amy likewise bore up stoutly till the
  10489. steamer sailed. Then just as the gangway was about to be withdrawn, it
  10490. suddenly came over her that a whole ocean was soon to roll between her
  10491. and those who loved her best, and she clung to Laurie, the last
  10492. lingerer, saying with a sob...
  10493. "Oh, take care of them for me, and if anything should happen..."
  10494. "I will, dear, I will, and if anything happens, I'll come and comfort
  10495. you," whispered Laurie, little dreaming that he would be called upon to
  10496. keep his word.
  10497. So Amy sailed away to find the Old World, which is always new and
  10498. beautiful to young eyes, while her father and friend watched her from
  10499. the shore, fervently hoping that none but gentle fortunes would befall
  10500. the happy-hearted girl, who waved her hand to them till they could see
  10501. nothing but the summer sunshine dazzling on the sea.
  10502. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  10503. OUR FOREIGN CORRESPONDENT
  10504. London
  10505. Dearest People, Here I really sit at a front window of the Bath Hotel,
  10506. Piccadilly. It's not a fashionable place, but Uncle stopped here years
  10507. ago, and won't go anywhere else. However, we don't mean to stay long,
  10508. so it's no great matter. Oh, I can't begin to tell you how I enjoy it
  10509. all! I never can, so I'll only give you bits out of my notebook, for
  10510. I've done nothing but sketch and scribble since I started.
  10511. I sent a line from Halifax, when I felt pretty miserable, but after
  10512. that I got on delightfully, seldom ill, on deck all day, with plenty of
  10513. pleasant people to amuse me. Everyone was very kind to me, especially
  10514. the officers. Don't laugh, Jo, gentlemen really are very necessary
  10515. aboard ship, to hold on to, or to wait upon one, and as they have
  10516. nothing to do, it's a mercy to make them useful, otherwise they would
  10517. smoke themselves to death, I'm afraid.
  10518. Aunt and Flo were poorly all the way, and liked to be let alone, so
  10519. when I had done what I could for them, I went and enjoyed myself. Such
  10520. walks on deck, such sunsets, such splendid air and waves! It was
  10521. almost as exciting as riding a fast horse, when we went rushing on so
  10522. grandly. I wish Beth could have come, it would have done her so much
  10523. good. As for Jo, she would have gone up and sat on the maintop jib, or
  10524. whatever the high thing is called, made friends with the engineers, and
  10525. tooted on the captain's speaking trumpet, she'd have been in such a
  10526. state of rapture.
  10527. It was all heavenly, but I was glad to see the Irish coast, and found
  10528. it very lovely, so green and sunny, with brown cabins here and there,
  10529. ruins on some of the hills, and gentlemen's countryseats in the
  10530. valleys, with deer feeding in the parks. It was early in the morning,
  10531. but I didn't regret getting up to see it, for the bay was full of
  10532. little boats, the shore so picturesque, and a rosy sky overhead. I
  10533. never shall forget it.
  10534. At Queenstown one of my new acquaintances left us, Mr. Lennox, and when
  10535. I said something about the Lakes of Killarney, he sighed, and sung,
  10536. with a look at me...
  10537. "Oh, have you e'er heard of Kate Kearney?
  10538. She lives on the banks of Killarney;
  10539. From the glance of her eye,
  10540. Shun danger and fly,
  10541. For fatal's the glance of Kate Kearney."
  10542. Wasn't that nonsensical?
  10543. We only stopped at Liverpool a few hours. It's a dirty, noisy place,
  10544. and I was glad to leave it. Uncle rushed out and bought a pair of
  10545. dogskin gloves, some ugly, thick shoes, and an umbrella, and got shaved
  10546. _à la_ mutton chop, the first thing. Then he flattered himself that he
  10547. looked like a true Briton, but the first time he had the mud cleaned
  10548. off his shoes, the little bootblack knew that an American stood in
  10549. them, and said, with a grin, "There yer har, sir. I've given 'em the
  10550. latest Yankee shine." It amused Uncle immensely. Oh, I must tell you
  10551. what that absurd Lennox did! He got his friend Ward, who came on with
  10552. us, to order a bouquet for me, and the first thing I saw in my room was
  10553. a lovely one, with "Robert Lennox's compliments," on the card. Wasn't
  10554. that fun, girls? I like traveling.
  10555. I never shall get to London if I don't hurry. The trip was like riding
  10556. through a long picture gallery, full of lovely landscapes. The
  10557. farmhouses were my delight, with thatched roofs, ivy up to the eaves,
  10558. latticed windows, and stout women with rosy children at the doors. The
  10559. very cattle looked more tranquil than ours, as they stood knee-deep in
  10560. clover, and the hens had a contented cluck, as if they never got
  10561. nervous like Yankee biddies. Such perfect color I never saw, the grass
  10562. so green, sky so blue, grain so yellow, woods so dark, I was in a
  10563. rapture all the way. So was Flo, and we kept bouncing from one side to
  10564. the other, trying to see everything while we were whisking along at the
  10565. rate of sixty miles an hour. Aunt was tired and went to sleep, but
  10566. Uncle read his guidebook, and wouldn't be astonished at anything. This
  10567. is the way we went on. Amy, flying up--"Oh, that must be Kenilworth,
  10568. that gray place among the trees!" Flo, darting to my window--"How
  10569. sweet! We must go there sometime, won't we Papa?" Uncle, calmly
  10570. admiring his boots--"No, my dear, not unless you want beer, that's a
  10571. brewery."
  10572. A pause--then Flo cried out, "Bless me, there's a gallows and a man
  10573. going up." "Where, where?" shrieks Amy, staring out at two tall posts
  10574. with a crossbeam and some dangling chains. "A colliery," remarks
  10575. Uncle, with a twinkle of the eye. "Here's a lovely flock of lambs all
  10576. lying down," says Amy. "See, Papa, aren't they pretty?" added Flo
  10577. sentimentally. "Geese, young ladies," returns Uncle, in a tone that
  10578. keeps us quiet till Flo settles down to enjoy the _Flirtations of
  10579. Captain Cavendish_, and I have the scenery all to myself.
  10580. Of course it rained when we got to London, and there was nothing to be
  10581. seen but fog and umbrellas. We rested, unpacked, and shopped a little
  10582. between the showers. Aunt Mary got me some new things, for I came off
  10583. in such a hurry I wasn't half ready. A white hat and blue feather, a
  10584. muslin dress to match, and the loveliest mantle you ever saw. Shopping
  10585. in Regent Street is perfectly splendid. Things seem so cheap, nice
  10586. ribbons only sixpence a yard. I laid in a stock, but shall get my
  10587. gloves in Paris. Doesn't that sound sort of elegant and rich?
  10588. Flo and I, for the fun of it, ordered a hansom cab, while Aunt and
  10589. Uncle were out, and went for a drive, though we learned afterward that
  10590. it wasn't the thing for young ladies to ride in them alone. It was so
  10591. droll! For when we were shut in by the wooden apron, the man drove so
  10592. fast that Flo was frightened, and told me to stop him, but he was up
  10593. outside behind somewhere, and I couldn't get at him. He didn't hear me
  10594. call, nor see me flap my parasol in front, and there we were, quite
  10595. helpless, rattling away, and whirling around corners at a breakneck
  10596. pace. At last, in my despair, I saw a little door in the roof, and on
  10597. poking it open, a red eye appeared, and a beery voice said...
  10598. "Now, then, mum?"
  10599. I gave my order as soberly as I could, and slamming down the door, with
  10600. an "Aye, aye, mum," the man made his horse walk, as if going to a
  10601. funeral. I poked again and said, "A little faster," then off he went,
  10602. helter-skelter as before, and we resigned ourselves to our fate.
  10603. Today was fair, and we went to Hyde Park, close by, for we are more
  10604. aristocratic than we look. The Duke of Devonshire lives near. I often
  10605. see his footmen lounging at the back gate, and the Duke of Wellington's
  10606. house is not far off. Such sights as I saw, my dear! It was as good
  10607. as Punch, for there were fat dowagers rolling about in their red and
  10608. yellow coaches, with gorgeous Jeameses in silk stockings and velvet
  10609. coats, up behind, and powdered coachmen in front. Smart maids, with
  10610. the rosiest children I ever saw, handsome girls, looking half asleep,
  10611. dandies in queer English hats and lavender kids lounging about, and
  10612. tall soldiers, in short red jackets and muffin caps stuck on one side,
  10613. looking so funny I longed to sketch them.
  10614. Rotten Row means 'Route de Roi', or the king's way, but now it's more
  10615. like a riding school than anything else. The horses are splendid, and
  10616. the men, especially the grooms, ride well, but the women are stiff, and
  10617. bounce, which isn't according to our rules. I longed to show them a
  10618. tearing American gallop, for they trotted solemnly up and down, in
  10619. their scant habits and high hats, looking like the women in a toy
  10620. Noah's Ark. Everyone rides--old men, stout ladies, little
  10621. children--and the young folks do a deal of flirting here, I saw a pair
  10622. exchange rose buds, for it's the thing to wear one in the button-hole,
  10623. and I thought it rather a nice little idea.
  10624. In the P.M. to Westminster Abbey, but don't expect me to describe it,
  10625. that's impossible, so I'll only say it was sublime! This evening we are
  10626. going to see Fechter, which will be an appropriate end to the happiest
  10627. day of my life.
  10628. It's very late, but I can't let my letter go in the morning without
  10629. telling you what happened last evening. Who do you think came in, as
  10630. we were at tea? Laurie's English friends, Fred and Frank Vaughn! I
  10631. was so surprised, for I shouldn't have known them but for the cards.
  10632. Both are tall fellows with whiskers, Fred handsome in the English
  10633. style, and Frank much better, for he only limps slightly, and uses no
  10634. crutches. They had heard from Laurie where we were to be, and came to
  10635. ask us to their house, but Uncle won't go, so we shall return the call,
  10636. and see them as we can. They went to the theater with us, and we did
  10637. have such a good time, for Frank devoted himself to Flo, and Fred and I
  10638. talked over past, present, and future fun as if we had known each other
  10639. all our days. Tell Beth Frank asked for her, and was sorry to hear of
  10640. her ill health. Fred laughed when I spoke of Jo, and sent his
  10641. 'respectful compliments to the big hat'. Neither of them had forgotten
  10642. Camp Laurence, or the fun we had there. What ages ago it seems,
  10643. doesn't it?
  10644. Aunt is tapping on the wall for the third time, so I must stop. I
  10645. really feel like a dissipated London fine lady, writing here so late,
  10646. with my room full of pretty things, and my head a jumble of parks,
  10647. theaters, new gowns, and gallant creatures who say "Ah!" and twirl
  10648. their blond mustaches with the true English lordliness. I long to see
  10649. you all, and in spite of my nonsense am, as ever, your loving...
  10650. AMY
  10651. PARIS
  10652. Dear girls,
  10653. In my last I told you about our London visit, how kind the Vaughns
  10654. were, and what pleasant parties they made for us. I enjoyed the trips
  10655. to Hampton Court and the Kensington Museum more than anything else, for
  10656. at Hampton I saw Raphael's cartoons, and at the Museum, rooms full of
  10657. pictures by Turner, Lawrence, Reynolds, Hogarth, and the other great
  10658. creatures. The day in Richmond Park was charming, for we had a regular
  10659. English picnic, and I had more splendid oaks and groups of deer than I
  10660. could copy, also heard a nightingale, and saw larks go up. We 'did'
  10661. London to our heart's content, thanks to Fred and Frank, and were sorry
  10662. to go away, for though English people are slow to take you in, when
  10663. they once make up their minds to do it they cannot be outdone in
  10664. hospitality, I think. The Vaughns hope to meet us in Rome next winter,
  10665. and I shall be dreadfully disappointed if they don't, for Grace and I
  10666. are great friends, and the boys very nice fellows, especially Fred.
  10667. Well, we were hardly settled here, when he turned up again, saying he
  10668. had come for a holiday, and was going to Switzerland. Aunt looked sober
  10669. at first, but he was so cool about it she couldn't say a word. And now
  10670. we get on nicely, and are very glad he came, for he speaks French like
  10671. a native, and I don't know what we should do without him. Uncle
  10672. doesn't know ten words, and insists on talking English very loud, as if
  10673. it would make people understand him. Aunt's pronunciation is
  10674. old-fashioned, and Flo and I, though we flattered ourselves that we
  10675. knew a good deal, find we don't, and are very grateful to have Fred do
  10676. the '_parley vooing_', as Uncle calls it.
  10677. Such delightful times as we are having! Sight-seeing from morning till
  10678. night, stopping for nice lunches in the gay _cafes_, and meeting with
  10679. all sorts of droll adventures. Rainy days I spend in the Louvre,
  10680. revelling in pictures. Jo would turn up her naughty nose at some of
  10681. the finest, because she has no soul for art, but I have, and I'm
  10682. cultivating eye and taste as fast as I can. She would like the relics
  10683. of great people better, for I've seen her Napoleon's cocked hat and
  10684. gray coat, his baby's cradle and his old toothbrush, also Marie
  10685. Antoinette's little shoe, the ring of Saint Denis, Charlemagne's sword,
  10686. and many other interesting things. I'll talk for hours about them when
  10687. I come, but haven't time to write.
  10688. The Palais Royale is a heavenly place, so full of _bijouterie_ and
  10689. lovely things that I'm nearly distracted because I can't buy them.
  10690. Fred wanted to get me some, but of course I didn't allow it. Then the
  10691. Bois and Champs Elysees are _tres magnifique_. I've seen the imperial
  10692. family several times, the emperor an ugly, hard-looking man, the
  10693. empress pale and pretty, but dressed in bad taste, I thought--purple
  10694. dress, green hat, and yellow gloves. Little Nap is a handsome boy, who
  10695. sits chatting to his tutor, and kisses his hand to the people as he
  10696. passes in his four-horse barouche, with postilions in red satin jackets
  10697. and a mounted guard before and behind.
  10698. We often walk in the Tuileries Gardens, for they are lovely, though the
  10699. antique Luxembourg Gardens suit me better. Pere la Chaise is very
  10700. curious, for many of the tombs are like small rooms, and looking in,
  10701. one sees a table, with images or pictures of the dead, and chairs for
  10702. the mourners to sit in when they come to lament. That is so Frenchy.
  10703. Our rooms are on the Rue de Rivoli, and sitting on the balcony, we look
  10704. up and down the long, brilliant street. It is so pleasant that we
  10705. spend our evenings talking there when too tired with our day's work to
  10706. go out. Fred is very entertaining, and is altogether the most
  10707. agreeable young man I ever knew--except Laurie, whose manners are more
  10708. charming. I wish Fred was dark, for I don't fancy light men, however,
  10709. the Vaughns are very rich and come of an excellent family, so I won't
  10710. find fault with their yellow hair, as my own is yellower.
  10711. Next week we are off to Germany and Switzerland, and as we shall travel
  10712. fast, I shall only be able to give you hasty letters. I keep my diary,
  10713. and try to 'remember correctly and describe clearly all that I see and
  10714. admire', as Father advised. It is good practice for me, and with my
  10715. sketchbook will give you a better idea of my tour than these scribbles.
  10716. Adieu, I embrace you tenderly. _"Votre Amie."_
  10717. HEIDELBERG
  10718. My dear Mamma,
  10719. Having a quiet hour before we leave for Berne, I'll try to tell you
  10720. what has happened, for some of it is very important, as you will see.
  10721. The sail up the Rhine was perfect, and I just sat and enjoyed it with
  10722. all my might. Get Father's old guidebooks and read about it. I
  10723. haven't words beautiful enough to describe it. At Coblentz we had a
  10724. lovely time, for some students from Bonn, with whom Fred got acquainted
  10725. on the boat, gave us a serenade. It was a moonlight night, and about
  10726. one o'clock Flo and I were waked by the most delicious music under our
  10727. windows. We flew up, and hid behind the curtains, but sly peeps showed
  10728. us Fred and the students singing away down below. It was the most
  10729. romantic thing I ever saw--the river, the bridge of boats, the great
  10730. fortress opposite, moonlight everywhere, and music fit to melt a heart
  10731. of stone.
  10732. When they were done we threw down some flowers, and saw them scramble
  10733. for them, kiss their hands to the invisible ladies, and go laughing
  10734. away, to smoke and drink beer, I suppose. Next morning Fred showed me
  10735. one of the crumpled flowers in his vest pocket, and looked very
  10736. sentimental. I laughed at him, and said I didn't throw it, but Flo,
  10737. which seemed to disgust him, for he tossed it out of the window, and
  10738. turned sensible again. I'm afraid I'm going to have trouble with that
  10739. boy, it begins to look like it.
  10740. The baths at Nassau were very gay, so was Baden-Baden, where Fred lost
  10741. some money, and I scolded him. He needs someone to look after him when
  10742. Frank is not with him. Kate said once she hoped he'd marry soon, and I
  10743. quite agree with her that it would be well for him. Frankfurt was
  10744. delightful. I saw Goethe's house, Schiller's statue, and Dannecker's
  10745. famous 'Ariadne.' It was very lovely, but I should have enjoyed it
  10746. more if I had known the story better. I didn't like to ask, as
  10747. everyone knew it or pretended they did. I wish Jo would tell me all
  10748. about it. I ought to have read more, for I find I don't know anything,
  10749. and it mortifies me.
  10750. Now comes the serious part, for it happened here, and Fred has just
  10751. gone. He has been so kind and jolly that we all got quite fond of him.
  10752. I never thought of anything but a traveling friendship till the
  10753. serenade night. Since then I've begun to feel that the moonlight
  10754. walks, balcony talks, and daily adventures were something more to him
  10755. than fun. I haven't flirted, Mother, truly, but remembered what you
  10756. said to me, and have done my very best. I can't help it if people like
  10757. me. I don't try to make them, and it worries me if I don't care for
  10758. them, though Jo says I haven't got any heart. Now I know Mother will
  10759. shake her head, and the girls say, "Oh, the mercenary little wretch!",
  10760. but I've made up my mind, and if Fred asks me, I shall accept him,
  10761. though I'm not madly in love. I like him, and we get on comfortably
  10762. together. He is handsome, young, clever enough, and very rich--ever so
  10763. much richer than the Laurences. I don't think his family would object,
  10764. and I should be very happy, for they are all kind, well-bred, generous
  10765. people, and they like me. Fred, as the eldest twin, will have the
  10766. estate, I suppose, and such a splendid one it is! A city house in a
  10767. fashionable street, not so showy as our big houses, but twice as
  10768. comfortable and full of solid luxury, such as English people believe
  10769. in. I like it, for it's genuine. I've seen the plate, the family
  10770. jewels, the old servants, and pictures of the country place, with its
  10771. park, great house, lovely grounds, and fine horses. Oh, it would be
  10772. all I should ask! And I'd rather have it than any title such as girls
  10773. snap up so readily, and find nothing behind. I may be mercenary, but I
  10774. hate poverty, and don't mean to bear it a minute longer than I can
  10775. help. One of us _must_ marry well. Meg didn't, Jo won't, Beth can't
  10776. yet, so I shall, and make everything okay all round. I wouldn't marry
  10777. a man I hated or despised. You may be sure of that, and though Fred is
  10778. not my model hero, he does very well, and in time I should get fond
  10779. enough of him if he was very fond of me, and let me do just as I liked.
  10780. So I've been turning the matter over in my mind the last week, for it
  10781. was impossible to help seeing that Fred liked me. He said nothing, but
  10782. little things showed it. He never goes with Flo, always gets on my
  10783. side of the carriage, table, or promenade, looks sentimental when we
  10784. are alone, and frowns at anyone else who ventures to speak to me.
  10785. Yesterday at dinner, when an Austrian officer stared at us and then
  10786. said something to his friend, a rakish-looking baron, about '_ein
  10787. wonderschones Blondchen'_, Fred looked as fierce as a lion, and cut his
  10788. meat so savagely it nearly flew off his plate. He isn't one of the
  10789. cool, stiff Englishmen, but is rather peppery, for he has Scotch blood
  10790. in him, as one might guess from his bonnie blue eyes.
  10791. Well, last evening we went up to the castle about sunset, at least all
  10792. of us but Fred, who was to meet us there after going to the Post
  10793. Restante for letters. We had a charming time poking about the ruins,
  10794. the vaults where the monster tun is, and the beautiful gardens made by
  10795. the elector long ago for his English wife. I liked the great terrace
  10796. best, for the view was divine, so while the rest went to see the rooms
  10797. inside, I sat there trying to sketch the gray stone lion's head on the
  10798. wall, with scarlet woodbine sprays hanging round it. I felt as if I'd
  10799. got into a romance, sitting there, watching the Neckar rolling through
  10800. the valley, listening to the music of the Austrian band below, and
  10801. waiting for my lover, like a real storybook girl. I had a feeling that
  10802. something was going to happen and I was ready for it. I didn't feel
  10803. blushy or quakey, but quite cool and only a little excited.
  10804. By-and-by I heard Fred's voice, and then he came hurrying through the
  10805. great arch to find me. He looked so troubled that I forgot all about
  10806. myself, and asked what the matter was. He said he'd just got a letter
  10807. begging him to come home, for Frank was very ill. So he was going at
  10808. once on the night train and only had time to say good-by. I was very
  10809. sorry for him, and disappointed for myself, but only for a minute
  10810. because he said, as he shook hands, and said it in a way that I could
  10811. not mistake, "I shall soon come back, you won't forget me, Amy?"
  10812. I didn't promise, but I looked at him, and he seemed satisfied, and
  10813. there was no time for anything but messages and good-byes, for he was
  10814. off in an hour, and we all miss him very much. I know he wanted to
  10815. speak, but I think, from something he once hinted, that he had promised
  10816. his father not to do anything of the sort yet a while, for he is a rash
  10817. boy, and the old gentleman dreads a foreign daughter-in-law. We shall
  10818. soon meet in Rome, and then, if I don't change my mind, I'll say "Yes,
  10819. thank you," when he says "Will you, please?"
  10820. Of course this is all _very private_, but I wished you to know what was
  10821. going on. Don't be anxious about me, remember I am your 'prudent Amy',
  10822. and be sure I will do nothing rashly. Send me as much advice as you
  10823. like. I'll use it if I can. I wish I could see you for a good talk,
  10824. Marmee. Love and trust me.
  10825. Ever your AMY
  10826. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  10827. TENDER TROUBLES
  10828. "Jo, I'm anxious about Beth."
  10829. "Why, Mother, she has seemed unusually well since the babies came."
  10830. "It's not her health that troubles me now, it's her spirits. I'm sure
  10831. there is something on her mind, and I want you to discover what it is."
  10832. "What makes you think so, Mother?"
  10833. "She sits alone a good deal, and doesn't talk to her father as much as
  10834. she used. I found her crying over the babies the other day. When she
  10835. sings, the songs are always sad ones, and now and then I see a look in
  10836. her face that I don't understand. This isn't like Beth, and it worries
  10837. me."
  10838. "Have you asked her about it?"
  10839. "I have tried once or twice, but she either evaded my questions or
  10840. looked so distressed that I stopped. I never force my children's
  10841. confidence, and I seldom have to wait for long."
  10842. Mrs. March glanced at Jo as she spoke, but the face opposite seemed
  10843. quite unconscious of any secret disquietude but Beth's, and after
  10844. sewing thoughtfully for a minute, Jo said, "I think she is growing up,
  10845. and so begins to dream dreams, and have hopes and fears and fidgets,
  10846. without knowing why or being able to explain them. Why, Mother, Beth's
  10847. eighteen, but we don't realize it, and treat her like a child,
  10848. forgetting she's a woman."
  10849. "So she is. Dear heart, how fast you do grow up," returned her mother
  10850. with a sigh and a smile.
  10851. "Can't be helped, Marmee, so you must resign yourself to all sorts of
  10852. worries, and let your birds hop out of the nest, one by one. I promise
  10853. never to hop very far, if that is any comfort to you."
  10854. "It's a great comfort, Jo. I always feel strong when you are at home,
  10855. now Meg is gone. Beth is too feeble and Amy too young to depend upon,
  10856. but when the tug comes, you are always ready."
  10857. "Why, you know I don't mind hard jobs much, and there must always be
  10858. one scrub in a family. Amy is splendid in fine works and I'm not, but
  10859. I feel in my element when all the carpets are to be taken up, or half
  10860. the family fall sick at once. Amy is distinguishing herself abroad, but
  10861. if anything is amiss at home, I'm your man."
  10862. "I leave Beth to your hands, then, for she will open her tender little
  10863. heart to her Jo sooner than to anyone else. Be very kind, and don't
  10864. let her think anyone watches or talks about her. If she only would get
  10865. quite strong and cheerful again, I shouldn't have a wish in the world."
  10866. "Happy woman! I've got heaps."
  10867. "My dear, what are they?"
  10868. "I'll settle Bethy's troubles, and then I'll tell you mine. They are
  10869. not very wearing, so they'll keep." and Jo stitched away, with a wise
  10870. nod which set her mother's heart at rest about her for the present at
  10871. least.
  10872. While apparently absorbed in her own affairs, Jo watched Beth, and
  10873. after many conflicting conjectures, finally settled upon one which
  10874. seemed to explain the change in her. A slight incident gave Jo the
  10875. clue to the mystery, she thought, and lively fancy, loving heart did
  10876. the rest. She was affecting to write busily one Saturday afternoon,
  10877. when she and Beth were alone together. Yet as she scribbled, she kept
  10878. her eye on her sister, who seemed unusually quiet. Sitting at the
  10879. window, Beth's work often dropped into her lap, and she leaned her head
  10880. upon her hand, in a dejected attitude, while her eyes rested on the
  10881. dull, autumnal landscape. Suddenly some one passed below, whistling
  10882. like an operatic blackbird, and a voice called out, "All serene! Coming
  10883. in tonight."
  10884. Beth started, leaned forward, smiled and nodded, watched the passer-by
  10885. till his quick tramp died away, then said softly as if to herself, "How
  10886. strong and well and happy that dear boy looks."
  10887. "Hum!" said Jo, still intent upon her sister's face, for the bright
  10888. color faded as quickly as it came, the smile vanished, and presently a
  10889. tear lay shining on the window ledge. Beth whisked it off, and in her
  10890. half-averted face read a tender sorrow that made her own eyes fill.
  10891. Fearing to betray herself, she slipped away, murmuring something about
  10892. needing more paper.
  10893. "Mercy on me, Beth loves Laurie!" she said, sitting down in her own
  10894. room, pale with the shock of the discovery which she believed she had
  10895. just made. "I never dreamed of such a thing. What will Mother say? I
  10896. wonder if her..." there Jo stopped and turned scarlet with a sudden
  10897. thought. "If he shouldn't love back again, how dreadful it would be.
  10898. He must. I'll make him!" and she shook her head threateningly at the
  10899. picture of the mischievous-looking boy laughing at her from the wall.
  10900. "Oh dear, we are growing up with a vengeance. Here's Meg married and a
  10901. mamma, Amy flourishing away at Paris, and Beth in love. I'm the only
  10902. one that has sense enough to keep out of mischief." Jo thought intently
  10903. for a minute with her eyes fixed on the picture, then she smoothed out
  10904. her wrinkled forehead and said, with a decided nod at the face
  10905. opposite, "No thank you, sir, you're very charming, but you've no more
  10906. stability than a weathercock. So you needn't write touching notes and
  10907. smile in that insinuating way, for it won't do a bit of good, and I
  10908. won't have it."
  10909. Then she sighed, and fell into a reverie from which she did not wake
  10910. till the early twilight sent her down to take new observations, which
  10911. only confirmed her suspicion. Though Laurie flirted with Amy and joked
  10912. with Jo, his manner to Beth had always been peculiarly kind and gentle,
  10913. but so was everybody's. Therefore, no one thought of imagining that he
  10914. cared more for her than for the others. Indeed, a general impression
  10915. had prevailed in the family of late that 'our boy' was getting fonder
  10916. than ever of Jo, who, however, wouldn't hear a word upon the subject
  10917. and scolded violently if anyone dared to suggest it. If they had known
  10918. the various tender passages which had been nipped in the bud, they
  10919. would have had the immense satisfaction of saying, "I told you so."
  10920. But Jo hated 'philandering', and wouldn't allow it, always having a
  10921. joke or a smile ready at the least sign of impending danger.
  10922. When Laurie first went to college, he fell in love about once a month,
  10923. but these small flames were as brief as ardent, did no damage, and much
  10924. amused Jo, who took great interest in the alternations of hope,
  10925. despair, and resignation, which were confided to her in their weekly
  10926. conferences. But there came a time when Laurie ceased to worship at
  10927. many shrines, hinted darkly at one all-absorbing passion, and indulged
  10928. occasionally in Byronic fits of gloom. Then he avoided the tender
  10929. subject altogether, wrote philosophical notes to Jo, turned studious,
  10930. and gave out that he was going to 'dig', intending to graduate in a
  10931. blaze of glory. This suited the young lady better than twilight
  10932. confidences, tender pressures of the hand, and eloquent glances of the
  10933. eye, for with Jo, brain developed earlier than heart, and she preferred
  10934. imaginary heroes to real ones, because when tired of them, the former
  10935. could be shut up in the tin kitchen till called for, and the latter
  10936. were less manageable.
  10937. Things were in this state when the grand discovery was made, and Jo
  10938. watched Laurie that night as she had never done before. If she had not
  10939. got the new idea into her head, she would have seen nothing unusual in
  10940. the fact that Beth was very quiet, and Laurie very kind to her. But
  10941. having given the rein to her lively fancy, it galloped away with her at
  10942. a great pace, and common sense, being rather weakened by a long course
  10943. of romance writing, did not come to the rescue. As usual Beth lay on
  10944. the sofa and Laurie sat in a low chair close by, amusing her with all
  10945. sorts of gossip, for she depended on her weekly 'spin', and he never
  10946. disappointed her. But that evening Jo fancied that Beth's eyes rested
  10947. on the lively, dark face beside her with peculiar pleasure, and that
  10948. she listened with intense interest to an account of some exciting
  10949. cricket match, though the phrases, 'caught off a tice', 'stumped off
  10950. his ground', and 'the leg hit for three', were as intelligible to her
  10951. as Sanskrit. She also fancied, having set her heart upon seeing it,
  10952. that she saw a certain increase of gentleness in Laurie's manner, that
  10953. he dropped his voice now and then, laughed less than usual, was a
  10954. little absent-minded, and settled the afghan over Beth's feet with an
  10955. assiduity that was really almost tender.
  10956. "Who knows? Stranger things have happened," thought Jo, as she fussed
  10957. about the room. "She will make quite an angel of him, and he will make
  10958. life delightfully easy and pleasant for the dear, if they only love
  10959. each other. I don't see how he can help it, and I do believe he would
  10960. if the rest of us were out of the way."
  10961. As everyone was out of the way but herself, Jo began to feel that she
  10962. ought to dispose of herself with all speed. But where should she go?
  10963. And burning to lay herself upon the shrine of sisterly devotion, she
  10964. sat down to settle that point.
  10965. Now, the old sofa was a regular patriarch of a sofa--long, broad,
  10966. well-cushioned, and low, a trifle shabby, as well it might be, for the
  10967. girls had slept and sprawled on it as babies, fished over the back,
  10968. rode on the arms, and had menageries under it as children, and rested
  10969. tired heads, dreamed dreams, and listened to tender talk on it as young
  10970. women. They all loved it, for it was a family refuge, and one corner
  10971. had always been Jo's favorite lounging place. Among the many pillows
  10972. that adorned the venerable couch was one, hard, round, covered with
  10973. prickly horsehair, and furnished with a knobby button at each end.
  10974. This repulsive pillow was her especial property, being used as a weapon
  10975. of defense, a barricade, or a stern preventive of too much slumber.
  10976. Laurie knew this pillow well, and had cause to regard it with deep
  10977. aversion, having been unmercifully pummeled with it in former days when
  10978. romping was allowed, and now frequently debarred by it from the seat he
  10979. most coveted next to Jo in the sofa corner. If 'the sausage' as they
  10980. called it, stood on end, it was a sign that he might approach and
  10981. repose, but if it lay flat across the sofa, woe to man, woman, or child
  10982. who dared disturb it! That evening Jo forgot to barricade her corner,
  10983. and had not been in her seat five minutes, before a massive form
  10984. appeared beside her, and with both arms spread over the sofa back, both
  10985. long legs stretched out before him, Laurie exclaimed, with a sigh of
  10986. satisfaction...
  10987. "Now, this is filling at the price."
  10988. "No slang," snapped Jo, slamming down the pillow. But it was too late,
  10989. there was no room for it, and coasting onto the floor, it disappeared
  10990. in a most mysterious manner.
  10991. "Come, Jo, don't be thorny. After studying himself to a skeleton all
  10992. the week, a fellow deserves petting and ought to get it."
  10993. "Beth will pet you. I'm busy."
  10994. "No, she's not to be bothered with me, but you like that sort of thing,
  10995. unless you've suddenly lost your taste for it. Have you? Do you hate
  10996. your boy, and want to fire pillows at him?"
  10997. Anything more wheedlesome than that touching appeal was seldom heard,
  10998. but Jo quenched 'her boy' by turning on him with a stern query, "How
  10999. many bouquets have you sent Miss Randal this week?"
  11000. "Not one, upon my word. She's engaged. Now then."
  11001. "I'm glad of it, that's one of your foolish extravagances, sending
  11002. flowers and things to girls for whom you don't care two pins,"
  11003. continued Jo reprovingly.
  11004. "Sensible girls for whom I do care whole papers of pins won't let me
  11005. send them 'flowers and things', so what can I do? My feelings need a
  11006. 'vent'."
  11007. "Mother doesn't approve of flirting even in fun, and you do flirt
  11008. desperately, Teddy."
  11009. "I'd give anything if I could answer, 'So do you'. As I can't, I'll
  11010. merely say that I don't see any harm in that pleasant little game, if
  11011. all parties understand that it's only play."
  11012. "Well, it does look pleasant, but I can't learn how it's done. I've
  11013. tried, because one feels awkward in company not to do as everybody else
  11014. is doing, but I don't seem to get on", said Jo, forgetting to play
  11015. mentor.
  11016. "Take lessons of Amy, she has a regular talent for it."
  11017. "Yes, she does it very prettily, and never seems to go too far. I
  11018. suppose it's natural to some people to please without trying, and
  11019. others to always say and do the wrong thing in the wrong place."
  11020. "I'm glad you can't flirt. It's really refreshing to see a sensible,
  11021. straightforward girl, who can be jolly and kind without making a fool
  11022. of herself. Between ourselves, Jo, some of the girls I know really do
  11023. go on at such a rate I'm ashamed of them. They don't mean any harm, I'm
  11024. sure, but if they knew how we fellows talked about them afterward,
  11025. they'd mend their ways, I fancy."
  11026. "They do the same, and as their tongues are the sharpest, you fellows
  11027. get the worst of it, for you are as silly as they, every bit. If you
  11028. behaved properly, they would, but knowing you like their nonsense, they
  11029. keep it up, and then you blame them."
  11030. "Much you know about it, ma'am," said Laurie in a superior tone. "We
  11031. don't like romps and flirts, though we may act as if we did sometimes.
  11032. The pretty, modest girls are never talked about, except respectfully,
  11033. among gentleman. Bless your innocent soul! If you could be in my place
  11034. for a month you'd see things that would astonish you a trifle. Upon my
  11035. word, when I see one of those harum-scarum girls, I always want to say
  11036. with our friend Cock Robin...
  11037. "Out upon you, fie upon you,
  11038. Bold-faced jig!"
  11039. It was impossible to help laughing at the funny conflict between
  11040. Laurie's chivalrous reluctance to speak ill of womankind, and his very
  11041. natural dislike of the unfeminine folly of which fashionable society
  11042. showed him many samples. Jo knew that 'young Laurence' was regarded as
  11043. a most eligible parti by worldly mamas, was much smiled upon by their
  11044. daughters, and flattered enough by ladies of all ages to make a coxcomb
  11045. of him, so she watched him rather jealously, fearing he would be
  11046. spoiled, and rejoiced more than she confessed to find that he still
  11047. believed in modest girls. Returning suddenly to her admonitory tone,
  11048. she said, dropping her voice, "If you must have a 'vent', Teddy, go and
  11049. devote yourself to one of the 'pretty, modest girls' whom you do
  11050. respect, and not waste your time with the silly ones."
  11051. "You really advise it?" and Laurie looked at her with an odd mixture of
  11052. anxiety and merriment in his face.
  11053. "Yes, I do, but you'd better wait till you are through college, on the
  11054. whole, and be fitting yourself for the place meantime. You're not half
  11055. good enough for--well, whoever the modest girl may be." and Jo looked a
  11056. little queer likewise, for a name had almost escaped her.
  11057. "That I'm not!" acquiesced Laurie, with an expression of humility quite
  11058. new to him, as he dropped his eyes and absently wound Jo's apron tassel
  11059. round his finger.
  11060. "Mercy on us, this will never do," thought Jo, adding aloud, "Go and
  11061. sing to me. I'm dying for some music, and always like yours."
  11062. "I'd rather stay here, thank you."
  11063. "Well, you can't, there isn't room. Go and make yourself useful, since
  11064. you are too big to be ornamental. I thought you hated to be tied to a
  11065. woman's apron string?" retorted Jo, quoting certain rebellious words of
  11066. his own.
  11067. "Ah, that depends on who wears the apron!" and Laurie gave an audacious
  11068. tweak at the tassel.
  11069. "Are you going?" demanded Jo, diving for the pillow.
  11070. He fled at once, and the minute it was well, "Up with the bonnets of
  11071. bonnie Dundee," she slipped away to return no more till the young
  11072. gentleman departed in high dudgeon.
  11073. Jo lay long awake that night, and was just dropping off when the sound
  11074. of a stifled sob made her fly to Beth's bedside, with the anxious
  11075. inquiry, "What is it, dear?"
  11076. "I thought you were asleep," sobbed Beth.
  11077. "Is it the old pain, my precious?"
  11078. "No, it's a new one, but I can bear it," and Beth tried to check her
  11079. tears.
  11080. "Tell me all about it, and let me cure it as I often did the other."
  11081. "You can't, there is no cure." There Beth's voice gave way, and
  11082. clinging to her sister, she cried so despairingly that Jo was
  11083. frightened.
  11084. "Where is it? Shall I call Mother?"
  11085. "No, no, don't call her, don't tell her. I shall be better soon. Lie
  11086. down here and 'poor' my head. I'll be quiet and go to sleep, indeed I
  11087. will."
  11088. Jo obeyed, but as her hand went softly to and fro across Beth's hot
  11089. forehead and wet eyelids, her heart was very full and she longed to
  11090. speak. But young as she was, Jo had learned that hearts, like flowers,
  11091. cannot be rudely handled, but must open naturally, so though she
  11092. believed she knew the cause of Beth's new pain, she only said, in her
  11093. tenderest tone, "Does anything trouble you, deary?"
  11094. "Yes, Jo," after a long pause.
  11095. "Wouldn't it comfort you to tell me what it is?"
  11096. "Not now, not yet."
  11097. "Then I won't ask, but remember, Bethy, that Mother and Jo are always
  11098. glad to hear and help you, if they can."
  11099. "I know it. I'll tell you by-and-by."
  11100. "Is the pain better now?"
  11101. "Oh, yes, much better, you are so comfortable, Jo."
  11102. "Go to sleep, dear. I'll stay with you."
  11103. So cheek to cheek they fell asleep, and on the morrow Beth seemed quite
  11104. herself again, for at eighteen neither heads nor hearts ache long, and
  11105. a loving word can medicine most ills.
  11106. But Jo had made up her mind, and after pondering over a project for
  11107. some days, she confided it to her mother.
  11108. "You asked me the other day what my wishes were. I'll tell you one of
  11109. them, Marmee," she began, as they sat along together. "I want to go
  11110. away somewhere this winter for a change."
  11111. "Why, Jo?" and her mother looked up quickly, as if the words suggested
  11112. a double meaning.
  11113. With her eyes on her work Jo answered soberly, "I want something new.
  11114. I feel restless and anxious to be seeing, doing, and learning more than
  11115. I am. I brood too much over my own small affairs, and need stirring
  11116. up, so as I can be spared this winter, I'd like to hop a little way and
  11117. try my wings."
  11118. "Where will you hop?"
  11119. "To New York. I had a bright idea yesterday, and this is it. You know
  11120. Mrs. Kirke wrote to you for some respectable young person to teach her
  11121. children and sew. It's rather hard to find just the thing, but I think
  11122. I should suit if I tried."
  11123. "My dear, go out to service in that great boarding house!" and Mrs.
  11124. March looked surprised, but not displeased.
  11125. "It's not exactly going out to service, for Mrs. Kirke is your
  11126. friend--the kindest soul that ever lived--and would make things
  11127. pleasant for me, I know. Her family is separate from the rest, and no
  11128. one knows me there. Don't care if they do. It's honest work, and I'm
  11129. not ashamed of it."
  11130. "Nor I. But your writing?"
  11131. "All the better for the change. I shall see and hear new things, get
  11132. new ideas, and even if I haven't much time there, I shall bring home
  11133. quantities of material for my rubbish."
  11134. "I have no doubt of it, but are these your only reasons for this sudden
  11135. fancy?"
  11136. "No, Mother."
  11137. "May I know the others?"
  11138. Jo looked up and Jo looked down, then said slowly, with sudden color in
  11139. her cheeks. "It may be vain and wrong to say it, but--I'm
  11140. afraid--Laurie is getting too fond of me."
  11141. "Then you don't care for him in the way it is evident he begins to care
  11142. for you?" and Mrs. March looked anxious as she put the question.
  11143. "Mercy, no! I love the dear boy, as I always have, and am immensely
  11144. proud of him, but as for anything more, it's out of the question."
  11145. "I'm glad of that, Jo."
  11146. "Why, please?"
  11147. "Because, dear, I don't think you suited to one another. As friends
  11148. you are very happy, and your frequent quarrels soon blow over, but I
  11149. fear you would both rebel if you were mated for life. You are too much
  11150. alike and too fond of freedom, not to mention hot tempers and strong
  11151. wills, to get on happily together, in a relation which needs infinite
  11152. patience and forbearance, as well as love."
  11153. "That's just the feeling I had, though I couldn't express it. I'm glad
  11154. you think he is only beginning to care for me. It would trouble me
  11155. sadly to make him unhappy, for I couldn't fall in love with the dear
  11156. old fellow merely out of gratitude, could I?"
  11157. "You are sure of his feeling for you?"
  11158. The color deepened in Jo's cheeks as she answered, with the look of
  11159. mingled pleasure, pride, and pain which young girls wear when speaking
  11160. of first lovers, "I'm afraid it is so, Mother. He hasn't said
  11161. anything, but he looks a great deal. I think I had better go away
  11162. before it comes to anything."
  11163. "I agree with you, and if it can be managed you shall go."
  11164. Jo looked relieved, and after a pause, said, smiling, "How Mrs. Moffat
  11165. would wonder at your want of management, if she knew, and how she will
  11166. rejoice that Annie may still hope."
  11167. "Ah, Jo, mothers may differ in their management, but the hope is the
  11168. same in all--the desire to see their children happy. Meg is so, and I
  11169. am content with her success. You I leave to enjoy your liberty till
  11170. you tire of it, for only then will you find that there is something
  11171. sweeter. Amy is my chief care now, but her good sense will help her.
  11172. For Beth, I indulge no hopes except that she may be well. By the way,
  11173. she seems brighter this last day or two. Have you spoken to her?'
  11174. "Yes, she owned she had a trouble, and promised to tell me by-and-by.
  11175. I said no more, for I think I know it," and Jo told her little story.
  11176. Mrs. March shook her head, and did not take so romantic a view of the
  11177. case, but looked grave, and repeated her opinion that for Laurie's sake
  11178. Jo should go away for a time.
  11179. "Let us say nothing about it to him till the plan is settled, then I'll
  11180. run away before he can collect his wits and be tragic. Beth must think
  11181. I'm going to please myself, as I am, for I can't talk about Laurie to
  11182. her. But she can pet and comfort him after I'm gone, and so cure him
  11183. of this romantic notion. He's been through so many little trials of
  11184. the sort, he's used to it, and will soon get over his lovelornity."
  11185. Jo spoke hopefully, but could not rid herself of the foreboding fear
  11186. that this 'little trial' would be harder than the others, and that
  11187. Laurie would not get over his 'lovelornity' as easily as heretofore.
  11188. The plan was talked over in a family council and agreed upon, for Mrs.
  11189. Kirke gladly accepted Jo, and promised to make a pleasant home for her.
  11190. The teaching would render her independent, and such leisure as she got
  11191. might be made profitable by writing, while the new scenes and society
  11192. would be both useful and agreeable. Jo liked the prospect and was
  11193. eager to be gone, for the home nest was growing too narrow for her
  11194. restless nature and adventurous spirit. When all was settled, with
  11195. fear and trembling she told Laurie, but to her surprise he took it very
  11196. quietly. He had been graver than usual of late, but very pleasant, and
  11197. when jokingly accused of turning over a new leaf, he answered soberly,
  11198. "So I am, and I mean this one shall stay turned."
  11199. Jo was very much relieved that one of his virtuous fits should come on
  11200. just then, and made her preparations with a lightened heart, for Beth
  11201. seemed more cheerful, and hoped she was doing the best for all.
  11202. "One thing I leave in your especial care," she said, the night before
  11203. she left.
  11204. "You mean your papers?" asked Beth.
  11205. "No, my boy. Be very good to him, won't you?"
  11206. "Of course I will, but I can't fill your place, and he'll miss you
  11207. sadly."
  11208. "It won't hurt him, so remember, I leave him in your charge, to plague,
  11209. pet, and keep in order."
  11210. "I'll do my best, for your sake," promised Beth, wondering why Jo
  11211. looked at her so queerly.
  11212. When Laurie said good-by, he whispered significantly, "It won't do a
  11213. bit of good, Jo. My eye is on you, so mind what you do, or I'll come
  11214. and bring you home."
  11215. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  11216. JO'S JOURNAL
  11217. New York, November
  11218. Dear Marmee and Beth,
  11219. I'm going to write you a regular volume, for I've got heaps to tell,
  11220. though I'm not a fine young lady traveling on the continent. When I
  11221. lost sight of Father's dear old face, I felt a trifle blue, and might
  11222. have shed a briny drop or two, if an Irish lady with four small
  11223. children, all crying more or less, hadn't diverted my mind, for I
  11224. amused myself by dropping gingerbread nuts over the seat every time
  11225. they opened their mouths to roar.
  11226. Soon the sun came out, and taking it as a good omen, I cleared up
  11227. likewise and enjoyed my journey with all my heart.
  11228. Mrs. Kirke welcomed me so kindly I felt at home at once, even in that
  11229. big house full of strangers. She gave me a funny little sky
  11230. parlor--all she had, but there is a stove in it, and a nice table in a
  11231. sunny window, so I can sit here and write whenever I like. A fine view
  11232. and a church tower opposite atone for the many stairs, and I took a
  11233. fancy to my den on the spot. The nursery, where I am to teach and sew,
  11234. is a pleasant room next Mrs. Kirke's private parlor, and the two little
  11235. girls are pretty children, rather spoiled, I fancy, but they took to me
  11236. after telling them The Seven Bad Pigs, and I've no doubt I shall make a
  11237. model governess.
  11238. I am to have my meals with the children, if I prefer it to the great
  11239. table, and for the present I do, for I am bashful, though no one will
  11240. believe it.
  11241. "Now, my dear, make yourself at home," said Mrs. K. in her motherly
  11242. way, "I'm on the drive from morning to night, as you may suppose with
  11243. such a family, but a great anxiety will be off my mind if I know the
  11244. children are safe with you. My rooms are always open to you, and your
  11245. own shall be as comfortable as I can make it. There are some pleasant
  11246. people in the house if you feel sociable, and your evenings are always
  11247. free. Come to me if anything goes wrong, and be as happy as you can.
  11248. There's the tea bell, I must run and change my cap." And off she
  11249. bustled, leaving me to settle myself in my new nest.
  11250. As I went downstairs soon after, I saw something I liked. The flights
  11251. are very long in this tall house, and as I stood waiting at the head of
  11252. the third one for a little servant girl to lumber up, I saw a gentleman
  11253. come along behind her, take the heavy hod of coal out of her hand,
  11254. carry it all the way up, put it down at a door near by, and walk away,
  11255. saying, with a kind nod and a foreign accent, "It goes better so. The
  11256. little back is too young to haf such heaviness."
  11257. Wasn't it good of him? I like such things, for as Father says, trifles
  11258. show character. When I mentioned it to Mrs. K., that evening, she
  11259. laughed, and said, "That must have been Professor Bhaer, he's always
  11260. doing things of that sort."
  11261. Mrs. K. told me he was from Berlin, very learned and good, but poor as
  11262. a church mouse, and gives lessons to support himself and two little
  11263. orphan nephews whom he is educating here, according to the wishes of
  11264. his sister, who married an American. Not a very romantic story, but it
  11265. interested me, and I was glad to hear that Mrs. K. lends him her
  11266. parlor for some of his scholars. There is a glass door between it and
  11267. the nursery, and I mean to peep at him, and then I'll tell you how he
  11268. looks. He's almost forty, so it's no harm, Marmee.
  11269. After tea and a go-to-bed romp with the little girls, I attacked the
  11270. big workbasket, and had a quiet evening chatting with my new friend. I
  11271. shall keep a journal-letter, and send it once a week, so goodnight, and
  11272. more tomorrow.
  11273. Tuesday Eve
  11274. Had a lively time in my seminary this morning, for the children acted
  11275. like Sancho, and at one time I really thought I should shake them all
  11276. round. Some good angel inspired me to try gymnastics, and I kept it up
  11277. till they were glad to sit down and keep still. After luncheon, the
  11278. girl took them out for a walk, and I went to my needlework like little
  11279. Mabel 'with a willing mind'. I was thanking my stars that I'd learned
  11280. to make nice buttonholes, when the parlor door opened and shut, and
  11281. someone began to hum, Kennst Du Das Land, like a big bumblebee. It was
  11282. dreadfully improper, I know, but I couldn't resist the temptation, and
  11283. lifting one end of the curtain before the glass door, I peeped in.
  11284. Professor Bhaer was there, and while he arranged his books, I took a
  11285. good look at him. A regular German--rather stout, with brown hair
  11286. tumbled all over his head, a bushy beard, good nose, the kindest eyes I
  11287. ever saw, and a splendid big voice that does one's ears good, after our
  11288. sharp or slipshod American gabble. His clothes were rusty, his hands
  11289. were large, and he hadn't a really handsome feature in his face, except
  11290. his beautiful teeth, yet I liked him, for he had a fine head, his linen
  11291. was very nice, and he looked like a gentleman, though two buttons were
  11292. off his coat and there was a patch on one shoe. He looked sober in
  11293. spite of his humming, till he went to the window to turn the hyacinth
  11294. bulbs toward the sun, and stroke the cat, who received him like an old
  11295. friend. Then he smiled, and when a tap came at the door, called out in
  11296. a loud, brisk tone, "Herein!"
  11297. I was just going to run, when I caught sight of a morsel of a child
  11298. carrying a big book, and stopped, to see what was going on.
  11299. "Me wants me Bhaer," said the mite, slamming down her book and running
  11300. to meet him.
  11301. "Thou shalt haf thy Bhaer. Come, then, and take a goot hug from him,
  11302. my Tina," said the Professor, catching her up with a laugh, and holding
  11303. her so high over his head that she had to stoop her little face to kiss
  11304. him.
  11305. "Now me mus tuddy my lessin," went on the funny little thing. So he
  11306. put her up at the table, opened the great dictionary she had brought,
  11307. and gave her a paper and pencil, and she scribbled away, turning a leaf
  11308. now and then, and passing her little fat finger down the page, as if
  11309. finding a word, so soberly that I nearly betrayed myself by a laugh,
  11310. while Mr. Bhaer stood stroking her pretty hair with a fatherly look
  11311. that made me think she must be his own, though she looked more French
  11312. than German.
  11313. Another knock and the appearance of two young ladies sent me back to my
  11314. work, and there I virtuously remained through all the noise and
  11315. gabbling that went on next door. One of the girls kept laughing
  11316. affectedly, and saying, "Now Professor," in a coquettish tone, and the
  11317. other pronounced her German with an accent that must have made it hard
  11318. for him to keep sober.
  11319. Both seemed to try his patience sorely, for more than once I heard him
  11320. say emphatically, "No, no, it is not so, you haf not attend to what I
  11321. say," and once there was a loud rap, as if he struck the table with his
  11322. book, followed by the despairing exclamation, "Prut! It all goes bad
  11323. this day."
  11324. Poor man, I pitied him, and when the girls were gone, took just one
  11325. more peep to see if he survived it. He seemed to have thrown himself
  11326. back in his chair, tired out, and sat there with his eyes shut till the
  11327. clock struck two, when he jumped up, put his books in his pocket, as if
  11328. ready for another lesson, and taking little Tina who had fallen asleep
  11329. on the sofa in his arms, he carried her quietly away. I fancy he has a
  11330. hard life of it. Mrs. Kirke asked me if I wouldn't go down to the five
  11331. o'clock dinner, and feeling a little bit homesick, I thought I would,
  11332. just to see what sort of people are under the same roof with me. So I
  11333. made myself respectable and tried to slip in behind Mrs. Kirke, but as
  11334. she is short and I'm tall, my efforts at concealment were rather a
  11335. failure. She gave me a seat by her, and after my face cooled off, I
  11336. plucked up courage and looked about me. The long table was full, and
  11337. every one intent on getting their dinner, the gentlemen especially, who
  11338. seemed to be eating on time, for they bolted in every sense of the
  11339. word, vanishing as soon as they were done. There was the usual
  11340. assortment of young men absorbed in themselves, young couples absorbed
  11341. in each other, married ladies in their babies, and old gentlemen in
  11342. politics. I don't think I shall care to have much to do with any of
  11343. them, except one sweetfaced maiden lady, who looks as if she had
  11344. something in her.
  11345. Cast away at the very bottom of the table was the Professor, shouting
  11346. answers to the questions of a very inquisitive, deaf old gentleman on
  11347. one side, and talking philosophy with a Frenchman on the other. If Amy
  11348. had been here, she'd have turned her back on him forever because, sad
  11349. to relate, he had a great appetite, and shoveled in his dinner in a
  11350. manner which would have horrified 'her ladyship'. I didn't mind, for I
  11351. like 'to see folks eat with a relish', as Hannah says, and the poor man
  11352. must have needed a deal of food after teaching idiots all day.
  11353. As I went upstairs after dinner, two of the young men were settling
  11354. their hats before the hall mirror, and I heard one say low to the
  11355. other, "Who's the new party?"
  11356. "Governess, or something of that sort."
  11357. "What the deuce is she at our table for?"
  11358. "Friend of the old lady's."
  11359. "Handsome head, but no style."
  11360. "Not a bit of it. Give us a light and come on."
  11361. I felt angry at first, and then I didn't care, for a governess is as
  11362. good as a clerk, and I've got sense, if I haven't style, which is more
  11363. than some people have, judging from the remarks of the elegant beings
  11364. who clattered away, smoking like bad chimneys. I hate ordinary people!
  11365. Thursday
  11366. Yesterday was a quiet day spent in teaching, sewing, and writing in my
  11367. little room, which is very cozy, with a light and fire. I picked up a
  11368. few bits of news and was introduced to the Professor. It seems that
  11369. Tina is the child of the Frenchwoman who does the fine ironing in the
  11370. laundry here. The little thing has lost her heart to Mr. Bhaer, and
  11371. follows him about the house like a dog whenever he is at home, which
  11372. delights him, as he is very fond of children, though a 'bacheldore'.
  11373. Kitty and Minnie Kirke likewise regard him with affection, and tell all
  11374. sorts of stories about the plays he invents, the presents he brings,
  11375. and the splendid tales he tells. The younger men quiz him, it seems,
  11376. call him Old Fritz, Lager Beer, Ursa Major, and make all manner of
  11377. jokes on his name. But he enjoys it like a boy, Mrs. Kirke says, and
  11378. takes it so good-naturedly that they all like him in spite of his
  11379. foreign ways.
  11380. The maiden lady is a Miss Norton, rich, cultivated, and kind. She
  11381. spoke to me at dinner today (for I went to table again, it's such fun
  11382. to watch people), and asked me to come and see her at her room. She
  11383. has fine books and pictures, knows interesting persons, and seems
  11384. friendly, so I shall make myself agreeable, for I do want to get into
  11385. good society, only it isn't the same sort that Amy likes.
  11386. I was in our parlor last evening when Mr. Bhaer came in with some
  11387. newspapers for Mrs. Kirke. She wasn't there, but Minnie, who is a
  11388. little old woman, introduced me very prettily. "This is Mamma's friend,
  11389. Miss March."
  11390. "Yes, and she's jolly and we like her lots," added Kitty, who is an
  11391. 'enfant terrible'.
  11392. We both bowed, and then we laughed, for the prim introduction and the
  11393. blunt addition were rather a comical contrast.
  11394. "Ah, yes, I hear these naughty ones go to vex you, Mees Marsch. If so
  11395. again, call at me and I come," he said, with a threatening frown that
  11396. delighted the little wretches.
  11397. I promised I would, and he departed, but it seems as if I was doomed to
  11398. see a good deal of him, for today as I passed his door on my way out,
  11399. by accident I knocked against it with my umbrella. It flew open, and
  11400. there he stood in his dressing gown, with a big blue sock on one hand
  11401. and a darning needle in the other. He didn't seem at all ashamed of
  11402. it, for when I explained and hurried on, he waved his hand, sock and
  11403. all, saying in his loud, cheerful way...
  11404. "You haf a fine day to make your walk. Bon voyage, Mademoiselle."
  11405. I laughed all the way downstairs, but it was a little pathetic, also to
  11406. think of the poor man having to mend his own clothes. The German
  11407. gentlemen embroider, I know, but darning hose is another thing and not
  11408. so pretty.
  11409. Saturday
  11410. Nothing has happened to write about, except a call on Miss Norton, who
  11411. has a room full of pretty things, and who was very charming, for she
  11412. showed me all her treasures, and asked me if I would sometimes go with
  11413. her to lectures and concerts, as her escort, if I enjoyed them. She
  11414. put it as a favor, but I'm sure Mrs. Kirke has told her about us, and
  11415. she does it out of kindness to me. I'm as proud as Lucifer, but such
  11416. favors from such people don't burden me, and I accepted gratefully.
  11417. When I got back to the nursery there was such an uproar in the parlor
  11418. that I looked in, and there was Mr. Bhaer down on his hands and knees,
  11419. with Tina on his back, Kitty leading him with a jump rope, and Minnie
  11420. feeding two small boys with seedcakes, as they roared and ramped in
  11421. cages built of chairs.
  11422. "We are playing nargerie," explained Kitty.
  11423. "Dis is mine effalunt!" added Tina, holding on by the Professor's hair.
  11424. "Mamma always allows us to do what we like Saturday afternoon, when
  11425. Franz and Emil come, doesn't she, Mr. Bhaer?" said Minnie.
  11426. The 'effalunt' sat up, looking as much in earnest as any of them, and
  11427. said soberly to me, "I gif you my wort it is so, if we make too large a
  11428. noise you shall say Hush! to us, and we go more softly."
  11429. I promised to do so, but left the door open and enjoyed the fun as much
  11430. as they did, for a more glorious frolic I never witnessed. They played
  11431. tag and soldiers, danced and sang, and when it began to grow dark they
  11432. all piled onto the sofa about the Professor, while he told charming
  11433. fairy stories of the storks on the chimney tops, and the little
  11434. 'koblods', who ride the snowflakes as they fall. I wish Americans were
  11435. as simple and natural as Germans, don't you?
  11436. I'm so fond of writing, I should go spinning on forever if motives of
  11437. economy didn't stop me, for though I've used thin paper and written
  11438. fine, I tremble to think of the stamps this long letter will need.
  11439. Pray forward Amy's as soon as you can spare them. My small news will
  11440. sound very flat after her splendors, but you will like them, I know.
  11441. Is Teddy studying so hard that he can't find time to write to his
  11442. friends? Take good care of him for me, Beth, and tell me all about the
  11443. babies, and give heaps of love to everyone. From your faithful Jo.
  11444. P.S. On reading over my letter, it strikes me as rather Bhaery, but I
  11445. am always interested in odd people, and I really had nothing else to
  11446. write about. Bless you!
  11447. DECEMBER
  11448. My Precious Betsey,
  11449. As this is to be a scribble-scrabble letter, I direct it to you, for it
  11450. may amuse you, and give you some idea of my goings on, for though
  11451. quiet, they are rather amusing, for which, oh, be joyful! After what
  11452. Amy would call Herculaneum efforts, in the way of mental and moral
  11453. agriculture, my young ideas begin to shoot and my little twigs to bend
  11454. as I could wish. They are not so interesting to me as Tina and the
  11455. boys, but I do my duty by them, and they are fond of me. Franz and
  11456. Emil are jolly little lads, quite after my own heart, for the mixture
  11457. of German and American spirit in them produces a constant state of
  11458. effervescence. Saturday afternoons are riotous times, whether spent in
  11459. the house or out, for on pleasant days they all go to walk, like a
  11460. seminary, with the Professor and myself to keep order, and then such
  11461. fun!
  11462. We are very good friends now, and I've begun to take lessons. I really
  11463. couldn't help it, and it all came about in such a droll way that I must
  11464. tell you. To begin at the beginning, Mrs. Kirke called to me one day
  11465. as I passed Mr. Bhaer's room where she was rummaging.
  11466. "Did you ever see such a den, my dear? Just come and help me put these
  11467. books to rights, for I've turned everything upside down, trying to
  11468. discover what he has done with the six new handkerchiefs I gave him not
  11469. long ago."
  11470. I went in, and while we worked I looked about me, for it was 'a den' to
  11471. be sure. Books and papers everywhere, a broken meerschaum, and an old
  11472. flute over the mantlepiece as if done with, a ragged bird without any
  11473. tail chirped on one window seat, and a box of white mice adorned the
  11474. other. Half-finished boats and bits of string lay among the
  11475. manuscripts. Dirty little boots stood drying before the fire, and
  11476. traces of the dearly beloved boys, for whom he makes a slave of
  11477. himself, were to be seen all over the room. After a grand rummage
  11478. three of the missing articles were found, one over the bird cage, one
  11479. covered with ink, and a third burned brown, having been used as a
  11480. holder.
  11481. "Such a man!" laughed good-natured Mrs. K., as she put the relics in
  11482. the rag bay. "I suppose the others are torn up to rig ships, bandage
  11483. cut fingers, or make kite tails. It's dreadful, but I can't scold him.
  11484. He's so absent-minded and goodnatured, he lets those boys ride over him
  11485. roughshod. I agreed to do his washing and mending, but he forgets to
  11486. give out his things and I forget to look them over, so he comes to a
  11487. sad pass sometimes."
  11488. "Let me mend them," said I. "I don't mind it, and he needn't know.
  11489. I'd like to, he's so kind to me about bringing my letters and lending
  11490. books."
  11491. So I have got his things in order, and knit heels into two pairs of the
  11492. socks, for they were boggled out of shape with his queer darns.
  11493. Nothing was said, and I hoped he wouldn't find it out, but one day last
  11494. week he caught me at it. Hearing the lessons he gives to others has
  11495. interested and amused me so much that I took a fancy to learn, for Tina
  11496. runs in and out, leaving the door open, and I can hear. I had been
  11497. sitting near this door, finishing off the last sock, and trying to
  11498. understand what he said to a new scholar, who is as stupid as I am.
  11499. The girl had gone, and I thought he had also, it was so still, and I
  11500. was busily gabbling over a verb, and rocking to and fro in a most
  11501. absurd way, when a little crow made me look up, and there was Mr. Bhaer
  11502. looking and laughing quietly, while he made signs to Tina not to betray
  11503. him.
  11504. "So!" he said, as I stopped and stared like a goose, "you peep at me, I
  11505. peep at you, and this is not bad, but see, I am not pleasanting when I
  11506. say, haf you a wish for German?"
  11507. "Yes, but you are too busy. I am too stupid to learn," I blundered
  11508. out, as red as a peony.
  11509. "Prut! We will make the time, and we fail not to find the sense. At
  11510. efening I shall gif a little lesson with much gladness, for look you,
  11511. Mees Marsch, I haf this debt to pay." And he pointed to my work 'Yes,'
  11512. they say to one another, these so kind ladies, 'he is a stupid old
  11513. fellow, he will see not what we do, he will never observe that his sock
  11514. heels go not in holes any more, he will think his buttons grow out new
  11515. when they fall, and believe that strings make theirselves.' "Ah! But I
  11516. haf an eye, and I see much. I haf a heart, and I feel thanks for this.
  11517. Come, a little lesson then and now, or--no more good fairy works for me
  11518. and mine."
  11519. Of course I couldn't say anything after that, and as it really is a
  11520. splendid opportunity, I made the bargain, and we began. I took four
  11521. lessons, and then I stuck fast in a grammatical bog. The Professor was
  11522. very patient with me, but it must have been torment to him, and now and
  11523. then he'd look at me with such an expression of mild despair that it
  11524. was a toss-up with me whether to laugh or cry. I tried both ways, and
  11525. when it came to a sniff or utter mortification and woe, he just threw
  11526. the grammar on to the floor and marched out of the room. I felt myself
  11527. disgraced and deserted forever, but didn't blame him a particle, and
  11528. was scrambling my papers together, meaning to rush upstairs and shake
  11529. myself hard, when in he came, as brisk and beaming as if I'd covered
  11530. myself in glory.
  11531. "Now we shall try a new way. You and I will read these pleasant little
  11532. _marchen_ together, and dig no more in that dry book, that goes in the
  11533. corner for making us trouble."
  11534. He spoke so kindly, and opened Hans Anderson's fairy tales so
  11535. invitingly before me, that I was more ashamed than ever, and went at my
  11536. lesson in a neck-or-nothing style that seemed to amuse him immensely.
  11537. I forgot my bashfulness, and pegged away (no other word will express
  11538. it) with all my might, tumbling over long words, pronouncing according
  11539. to inspiration of the minute, and doing my very best. When I finished
  11540. reading my first page, and stopped for breath, he clapped his hands and
  11541. cried out in his hearty way, "Das ist gut! Now we go well! My turn. I
  11542. do him in German, gif me your ear." And away he went, rumbling out the
  11543. words with his strong voice and a relish which was good to see as well
  11544. as hear. Fortunately the story was _The Constant Tin Soldier_, which
  11545. is droll, you know, so I could laugh, and I did, though I didn't
  11546. understand half he read, for I couldn't help it, he was so earnest, I
  11547. so excited, and the whole thing so comical.
  11548. After that we got on better, and now I read my lessons pretty well, for
  11549. this way of studying suits me, and I can see that the grammar gets
  11550. tucked into the tales and poetry as one gives pills in jelly. I like
  11551. it very much, and he doesn't seem tired of it yet, which is very good
  11552. of him, isn't it? I mean to give him something on Christmas, for I
  11553. dare not offer money. Tell me something nice, Marmee.
  11554. I'm glad Laurie seems so happy and busy, that he has given up smoking
  11555. and lets his hair grow. You see Beth manages him better than I did.
  11556. I'm not jealous, dear, do your best, only don't make a saint of him.
  11557. I'm afraid I couldn't like him without a spice of human naughtiness.
  11558. Read him bits of my letters. I haven't time to write much, and that
  11559. will do just as well. Thank Heaven Beth continues so comfortable.
  11560. JANUARY
  11561. A Happy New Year to you all, my dearest family, which of course
  11562. includes Mr. L. and a young man by the name of Teddy. I can't tell you
  11563. how much I enjoyed your Christmas bundle, for I didn't get it till
  11564. night and had given up hoping. Your letter came in the morning, but
  11565. you said nothing about a parcel, meaning it for a surprise, so I was
  11566. disappointed, for I'd had a 'kind of feeling' that you wouldn't forget
  11567. me. I felt a little low in my mind as I sat up in my room after tea,
  11568. and when the big, muddy, battered-looking bundle was brought to me, I
  11569. just hugged it and pranced. It was so homey and refreshing that I sat
  11570. down on the floor and read and looked and ate and laughed and cried, in
  11571. my usual absurd way. The things were just what I wanted, and all the
  11572. better for being made instead of bought. Beth's new 'ink bib' was
  11573. capital, and Hannah's box of hard gingerbread will be a treasure. I'll
  11574. be sure and wear the nice flannels you sent, Marmee, and read carefully
  11575. the books Father has marked. Thank you all, heaps and heaps!
  11576. Speaking of books reminds me that I'm getting rich in that line, for on
  11577. New Year's Day Mr. Bhaer gave me a fine Shakespeare. It is one he
  11578. values much, and I've often admired it, set up in the place of honor
  11579. with his German Bible, Plato, Homer, and Milton, so you may imagine how
  11580. I felt when he brought it down, without its cover, and showed me my own
  11581. name in it, "from my friend Friedrich Bhaer".
  11582. "You say often you wish a library. Here I gif you one, for between
  11583. these lids (he meant covers) is many books in one. Read him well, and
  11584. he will help you much, for the study of character in this book will
  11585. help you to read it in the world and paint it with your pen."
  11586. I thanked him as well as I could, and talk now about 'my library', as
  11587. if I had a hundred books. I never knew how much there was in
  11588. Shakespeare before, but then I never had a Bhaer to explain it to me.
  11589. Now don't laugh at his horrid name. It isn't pronounced either Bear or
  11590. Beer, as people will say it, but something between the two, as only
  11591. Germans can give it. I'm glad you both like what I tell you about him,
  11592. and hope you will know him some day. Mother would admire his warm
  11593. heart, Father his wise head. I admire both, and feel rich in my new
  11594. 'friend Friedrich Bhaer'.
  11595. Not having much money, or knowing what he'd like, I got several little
  11596. things, and put them about the room, where he would find them
  11597. unexpectedly. They were useful, pretty, or funny, a new standish on
  11598. his table, a little vase for his flower, he always has one, or a bit of
  11599. green in a glass, to keep him fresh, he says, and a holder for his
  11600. blower, so that he needn't burn up what Amy calls 'mouchoirs'. I made
  11601. it like those Beth invented, a big butterfly with a fat body, and black
  11602. and yellow wings, worsted feelers, and bead eyes. It took his fancy
  11603. immensely, and he put it on his mantlepiece as an article of virtue, so
  11604. it was rather a failure after all. Poor as he is, he didn't forget a
  11605. servant or a child in the house, and not a soul here, from the French
  11606. laundrywoman to Miss Norton forgot him. I was so glad of that.
  11607. They got up a masquerade, and had a gay time New Year's Eve. I didn't
  11608. mean to go down, having no dress. But at the last minute, Mrs. Kirke
  11609. remembered some old brocades, and Miss Norton lent me lace and
  11610. feathers. So I dressed up as Mrs. Malaprop, and sailed in with a mask
  11611. on. No one knew me, for I disguised my voice, and no one dreamed of
  11612. the silent, haughty Miss March (for they think I am very stiff and
  11613. cool, most of them, and so I am to whippersnappers) could dance and
  11614. dress, and burst out into a 'nice derangement of epitaphs, like an
  11615. allegory on the banks of the Nile'. I enjoyed it very much, and when
  11616. we unmasked it was fun to see them stare at me. I heard one of the
  11617. young men tell another that he knew I'd been an actress, in fact, he
  11618. thought he remembered seeing me at one of the minor theaters. Meg will
  11619. relish that joke. Mr. Bhaer was Nick Bottom, and Tina was Titania, a
  11620. perfect little fairy in his arms. To see them dance was 'quite a
  11621. landscape', to use a Teddyism.
  11622. I had a very happy New Year, after all, and when I thought it over in
  11623. my room, I felt as if I was getting on a little in spite of my many
  11624. failures, for I'm cheerful all the time now, work with a will, and take
  11625. more interest in other people than I used to, which is satisfactory.
  11626. Bless you all! Ever your loving... Jo
  11627. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  11628. FRIEND
  11629. Though very happy in the social atmosphere about her, and very busy
  11630. with the daily work that earned her bread and made it sweeter for the
  11631. effort, Jo still found time for literary labors. The purpose which now
  11632. took possession of her was a natural one to a poor and ambitious girl,
  11633. but the means she took to gain her end were not the best. She saw that
  11634. money conferred power, money and power, therefore, she resolved to
  11635. have, not to be used for herself alone, but for those whom she loved
  11636. more than life. The dream of filling home with comforts, giving Beth
  11637. everything she wanted, from strawberries in winter to an organ in her
  11638. bedroom, going abroad herself, and always having more than enough, so
  11639. that she might indulge in the luxury of charity, had been for years
  11640. Jo's most cherished castle in the air.
  11641. The prize-story experience had seemed to open a way which might, after
  11642. long traveling and much uphill work, lead to this delightful chateau en
  11643. Espagne. But the novel disaster quenched her courage for a time, for
  11644. public opinion is a giant which has frightened stouter-hearted Jacks on
  11645. bigger beanstalks than hers. Like that immortal hero, she reposed
  11646. awhile after the first attempt, which resulted in a tumble and the
  11647. least lovely of the giant's treasures, if I remember rightly. But the
  11648. 'up again and take another' spirit was as strong in Jo as in Jack, so
  11649. she scrambled up on the shady side this time and got more booty, but
  11650. nearly left behind her what was far more precious than the moneybags.
  11651. She took to writing sensation stories, for in those dark ages, even
  11652. all-perfect America read rubbish. She told no one, but concocted a
  11653. 'thrilling tale', and boldly carried it herself to Mr. Dashwood, editor
  11654. of the Weekly Volcano. She had never read Sartor Resartus, but she had
  11655. a womanly instinct that clothes possess an influence more powerful over
  11656. many than the worth of character or the magic of manners. So she
  11657. dressed herself in her best, and trying to persuade herself that she
  11658. was neither excited nor nervous, bravely climbed two pairs of dark and
  11659. dirty stairs to find herself in a disorderly room, a cloud of cigar
  11660. smoke, and the presence of three gentlemen, sitting with their heels
  11661. rather higher than their hats, which articles of dress none of them
  11662. took the trouble to remove on her appearance. Somewhat daunted by this
  11663. reception, Jo hesitated on the threshold, murmuring in much
  11664. embarrassment...
  11665. "Excuse me, I was looking for the Weekly Volcano office. I wished to
  11666. see Mr. Dashwood."
  11667. Down went the highest pair of heels, up rose the smokiest gentleman,
  11668. and carefully cherishing his cigar between his fingers, he advanced
  11669. with a nod and a countenance expressive of nothing but sleep. Feeling
  11670. that she must get through the matter somehow, Jo produced her
  11671. manuscript and, blushing redder and redder with each sentence,
  11672. blundered out fragments of the little speech carefully prepared for the
  11673. occasion.
  11674. "A friend of mine desired me to offer--a story--just as an
  11675. experiment--would like your opinion--be glad to write more if this
  11676. suits."
  11677. While she blushed and blundered, Mr. Dashwood had taken the manuscript,
  11678. and was turning over the leaves with a pair of rather dirty fingers,
  11679. and casting critical glances up and down the neat pages.
  11680. "Not a first attempt, I take it?" observing that the pages were
  11681. numbered, covered only on one side, and not tied up with a ribbon--sure
  11682. sign of a novice.
  11683. "No, sir. She has had some experience, and got a prize for a tale in
  11684. the _Blarneystone Banner_."
  11685. "Oh, did she?" and Mr. Dashwood gave Jo a quick look, which seemed to
  11686. take note of everything she had on, from the bow in her bonnet to the
  11687. buttons on her boots. "Well, you can leave it, if you like. We've
  11688. more of this sort of thing on hand than we know what to do with at
  11689. present, but I'll run my eye over it, and give you an answer next week."
  11690. Now, Jo did _not_ like to leave it, for Mr. Dashwood didn't suit her at
  11691. all, but, under the circumstances, there was nothing for her to do but
  11692. bow and walk away, looking particularly tall and dignified, as she was
  11693. apt to do when nettled or abashed. Just then she was both, for it was
  11694. perfectly evident from the knowing glances exchanged among the
  11695. gentlemen that her little fiction of 'my friend' was considered a good
  11696. joke, and a laugh, produced by some inaudible remark of the editor, as
  11697. he closed the door, completed her discomfiture. Half resolving never
  11698. to return, she went home, and worked off her irritation by stitching
  11699. pinafores vigorously, and in an hour or two was cool enough to laugh
  11700. over the scene and long for next week.
  11701. When she went again, Mr. Dashwood was alone, whereat she rejoiced. Mr.
  11702. Dashwood was much wider awake than before, which was agreeable, and Mr.
  11703. Dashwood was not too deeply absorbed in a cigar to remember his
  11704. manners, so the second interview was much more comfortable than the
  11705. first.
  11706. "We'll take this (editors never say I), if you don't object to a few
  11707. alterations. It's too long, but omitting the passages I've marked will
  11708. make it just the right length," he said, in a businesslike tone.
  11709. Jo hardly knew her own MS. again, so crumpled and underscored were its
  11710. pages and paragraphs, but feeling as a tender parent might on being
  11711. asked to cut off her baby's legs in order that it might fit into a new
  11712. cradle, she looked at the marked passages and was surprised to find
  11713. that all the moral reflections--which she had carefully put in as
  11714. ballast for much romance--had been stricken out.
  11715. "But, Sir, I thought every story should have some sort of a moral, so I
  11716. took care to have a few of my sinners repent."
  11717. Mr. Dashwoods's editorial gravity relaxed into a smile, for Jo had
  11718. forgotten her 'friend', and spoken as only an author could.
  11719. "People want to be amused, not preached at, you know. Morals don't
  11720. sell nowadays." Which was not quite a correct statement, by the way.
  11721. "You think it would do with these alterations, then?"
  11722. "Yes, it's a new plot, and pretty well worked up--language good, and so
  11723. on," was Mr. Dashwood's affable reply.
  11724. "What do you--that is, what compensation--" began Jo, not exactly
  11725. knowing how to express herself.
  11726. "Oh, yes, well, we give from twenty-five to thirty for things of this
  11727. sort. Pay when it comes out," returned Mr. Dashwood, as if that point
  11728. had escaped him. Such trifles do escape the editorial mind, it is said.
  11729. "Very well, you can have it," said Jo, handing back the story with a
  11730. satisfied air, for after the dollar-a-column work, even twenty-five
  11731. seemed good pay.
  11732. "Shall I tell my friend you will take another if she has one better
  11733. than this?" asked Jo, unconscious of her little slip of the tongue, and
  11734. emboldened by her success.
  11735. "Well, we'll look at it. Can't promise to take it. Tell her to make
  11736. it short and spicy, and never mind the moral. What name would your
  11737. friend like to put on it?" in a careless tone.
  11738. "None at all, if you please, she doesn't wish her name to appear and
  11739. has no nom de plume," said Jo, blushing in spite of herself.
  11740. "Just as she likes, of course. The tale will be out next week. Will
  11741. you call for the money, or shall I send it?" asked Mr. Dashwood, who
  11742. felt a natural desire to know who his new contributor might be.
  11743. "I'll call. Good morning, Sir."
  11744. As she departed, Mr. Dashwood put up his feet, with the graceful
  11745. remark, "Poor and proud, as usual, but she'll do."
  11746. Following Mr. Dashwood's directions, and making Mrs. Northbury her
  11747. model, Jo rashly took a plunge into the frothy sea of sensational
  11748. literature, but thanks to the life preserver thrown her by a friend,
  11749. she came up again not much the worse for her ducking.
  11750. Like most young scribblers, she went abroad for her characters and
  11751. scenery, and banditti, counts, gypsies, nuns, and duchesses appeared
  11752. upon her stage, and played their parts with as much accuracy and spirit
  11753. as could be expected. Her readers were not particular about such
  11754. trifles as grammar, punctuation, and probability, and Mr. Dashwood
  11755. graciously permitted her to fill his columns at the lowest prices, not
  11756. thinking it necessary to tell her that the real cause of his
  11757. hospitality was the fact that one of his hacks, on being offered higher
  11758. wages, had basely left him in the lurch.
  11759. She soon became interested in her work, for her emaciated purse grew
  11760. stout, and the little hoard she was making to take Beth to the
  11761. mountains next summer grew slowly but surely as the weeks passed. One
  11762. thing disturbed her satisfaction, and that was that she did not tell
  11763. them at home. She had a feeling that Father and Mother would not
  11764. approve, and preferred to have her own way first, and beg pardon
  11765. afterward. It was easy to keep her secret, for no name appeared with
  11766. her stories. Mr. Dashwood had of course found it out very soon, but
  11767. promised to be dumb, and for a wonder kept his word.
  11768. She thought it would do her no harm, for she sincerely meant to write
  11769. nothing of which she would be ashamed, and quieted all pricks of
  11770. conscience by anticipations of the happy minute when she should show
  11771. her earnings and laugh over her well-kept secret.
  11772. But Mr. Dashwood rejected any but thrilling tales, and as thrills could
  11773. not be produced except by harrowing up the souls of the readers,
  11774. history and romance, land and sea, science and art, police records and
  11775. lunatic asylums, had to be ransacked for the purpose. Jo soon found
  11776. that her innocent experience had given her but few glimpses of the
  11777. tragic world which underlies society, so regarding it in a business
  11778. light, she set about supplying her deficiencies with characteristic
  11779. energy. Eager to find material for stories, and bent on making them
  11780. original in plot, if not masterly in execution, she searched newspapers
  11781. for accidents, incidents, and crimes. She excited the suspicions of
  11782. public librarians by asking for works on poisons. She studied faces in
  11783. the street, and characters, good, bad, and indifferent, all about her.
  11784. She delved in the dust of ancient times for facts or fictions so old
  11785. that they were as good as new, and introduced herself to folly, sin,
  11786. and misery, as well as her limited opportunities allowed. She thought
  11787. she was prospering finely, but unconsciously she was beginning to
  11788. desecrate some of the womanliest attributes of a woman's character.
  11789. She was living in bad society, and imaginary though it was, its
  11790. influence affected her, for she was feeding heart and fancy on
  11791. dangerous and unsubstantial food, and was fast brushing the innocent
  11792. bloom from her nature by a premature acquaintance with the darker side
  11793. of life, which comes soon enough to all of us.
  11794. She was beginning to feel rather than see this, for much describing of
  11795. other people's passions and feelings set her to studying and
  11796. speculating about her own, a morbid amusement in which healthy young
  11797. minds do not voluntarily indulge. Wrongdoing always brings its own
  11798. punishment, and when Jo most needed hers, she got it.
  11799. I don't know whether the study of Shakespeare helped her to read
  11800. character, or the natural instinct of a woman for what was honest,
  11801. brave, and strong, but while endowing her imaginary heroes with every
  11802. perfection under the sun, Jo was discovering a live hero, who
  11803. interested her in spite of many human imperfections. Mr. Bhaer, in one
  11804. of their conversations, had advised her to study simple, true, and
  11805. lovely characters, wherever she found them, as good training for a
  11806. writer. Jo took him at his word, for she coolly turned round and
  11807. studied him--a proceeding which would have much surprised him, had he
  11808. known it, for the worthy Professor was very humble in his own conceit.
  11809. Why everybody liked him was what puzzled Jo, at first. He was neither
  11810. rich nor great, young nor handsome, in no respect what is called
  11811. fascinating, imposing, or brilliant, and yet he was as attractive as a
  11812. genial fire, and people seemed to gather about him as naturally as
  11813. about a warm hearth. He was poor, yet always appeared to be giving
  11814. something away; a stranger, yet everyone was his friend; no longer
  11815. young, but as happy-hearted as a boy; plain and peculiar, yet his face
  11816. looked beautiful to many, and his oddities were freely forgiven for his
  11817. sake. Jo often watched him, trying to discover the charm, and at last
  11818. decided that it was benevolence which worked the miracle. If he had
  11819. any sorrow, 'it sat with its head under its wing', and he turned only
  11820. his sunny side to the world. There were lines upon his forehead, but
  11821. Time seemed to have touched him gently, remembering how kind he was to
  11822. others. The pleasant curves about his mouth were the memorials of many
  11823. friendly words and cheery laughs, his eyes were never cold or hard, and
  11824. his big hand had a warm, strong grasp that was more expressive than
  11825. words.
  11826. His very clothes seemed to partake of the hospitable nature of the
  11827. wearer. They looked as if they were at ease, and liked to make him
  11828. comfortable. His capacious waistcoat was suggestive of a large heart
  11829. underneath. His rusty coat had a social air, and the baggy pockets
  11830. plainly proved that little hands often went in empty and came out full.
  11831. His very boots were benevolent, and his collars never stiff and raspy
  11832. like other people's.
  11833. "That's it!" said Jo to herself, when she at length discovered that
  11834. genuine good will toward one's fellow men could beautify and dignify
  11835. even a stout German teacher, who shoveled in his dinner, darned his own
  11836. socks, and was burdened with the name of Bhaer.
  11837. Jo valued goodness highly, but she also possessed a most feminine
  11838. respect for intellect, and a little discovery which she made about the
  11839. Professor added much to her regard for him. He never spoke of himself,
  11840. and no one ever knew that in his native city he had been a man much
  11841. honored and esteemed for learning and integrity, till a countryman came
  11842. to see him. He never spoke of himself, and in a conversation with Miss
  11843. Norton divulged the pleasing fact. From her Jo learned it, and liked
  11844. it all the better because Mr. Bhaer had never told it. She felt proud
  11845. to know that he was an honored Professor in Berlin, though only a poor
  11846. language-master in America, and his homely, hard-working life was much
  11847. beautified by the spice of romance which this discovery gave it.
  11848. Another and a better gift than intellect was shown her in a most
  11849. unexpected manner. Miss Norton had the entree into most society, which
  11850. Jo would have had no chance of seeing but for her. The solitary woman
  11851. felt an interest in the ambitious girl, and kindly conferred many
  11852. favors of this sort both on Jo and the Professor. She took them with
  11853. her one night to a select symposium, held in honor of several
  11854. celebrities.
  11855. Jo went prepared to bow down and adore the mighty ones whom she had
  11856. worshiped with youthful enthusiasm afar off. But her reverence for
  11857. genius received a severe shock that night, and it took her some time to
  11858. recover from the discovery that the great creatures were only men and
  11859. women after all. Imagine her dismay, on stealing a glance of timid
  11860. admiration at the poet whose lines suggested an ethereal being fed on
  11861. 'spirit, fire, and dew', to behold him devouring his supper with an
  11862. ardor which flushed his intellectual countenance. Turning as from a
  11863. fallen idol, she made other discoveries which rapidly dispelled her
  11864. romantic illusions. The great novelist vibrated between two decanters
  11865. with the regularity of a pendulum; the famous divine flirted openly
  11866. with one of the Madame de Staels of the age, who looked daggers at
  11867. another Corinne, who was amiably satirizing her, after outmaneuvering
  11868. her in efforts to absorb the profound philosopher, who imbibed tea
  11869. Johnsonianly and appeared to slumber, the loquacity of the lady
  11870. rendering speech impossible. The scientific celebrities, forgetting
  11871. their mollusks and glacial periods, gossiped about art, while devoting
  11872. themselves to oysters and ices with characteristic energy; the young
  11873. musician, who was charming the city like a second Orpheus, talked
  11874. horses; and the specimen of the British nobility present happened to be
  11875. the most ordinary man of the party.
  11876. Before the evening was half over, Jo felt so completely disillusioned,
  11877. that she sat down in a corner to recover herself. Mr. Bhaer soon joined
  11878. her, looking rather out of his element, and presently several of the
  11879. philosophers, each mounted on his hobby, came ambling up to hold an
  11880. intellectual tournament in the recess. The conversations were miles
  11881. beyond Jo's comprehension, but she enjoyed it, though Kant and Hegel
  11882. were unknown gods, the Subjective and Objective unintelligible terms,
  11883. and the only thing 'evolved from her inner consciousness' was a bad
  11884. headache after it was all over. It dawned upon her gradually that the
  11885. world was being picked to pieces, and put together on new and,
  11886. according to the talkers, on infinitely better principles than before,
  11887. that religion was in a fair way to be reasoned into nothingness, and
  11888. intellect was to be the only God. Jo knew nothing about philosophy or
  11889. metaphysics of any sort, but a curious excitement, half pleasurable,
  11890. half painful, came over her as she listened with a sense of being
  11891. turned adrift into time and space, like a young balloon out on a
  11892. holiday.
  11893. She looked round to see how the Professor liked it, and found him
  11894. looking at her with the grimmest expression she had ever seen him wear.
  11895. He shook his head and beckoned her to come away, but she was fascinated
  11896. just then by the freedom of Speculative Philosophy, and kept her seat,
  11897. trying to find out what the wise gentlemen intended to rely upon after
  11898. they had annihilated all the old beliefs.
  11899. Now, Mr. Bhaer was a diffident man and slow to offer his own opinions,
  11900. not because they were unsettled, but too sincere and earnest to be
  11901. lightly spoken. As he glanced from Jo to several other young people,
  11902. attracted by the brilliancy of the philosophic pyrotechnics, he knit
  11903. his brows and longed to speak, fearing that some inflammable young soul
  11904. would be led astray by the rockets, to find when the display was over
  11905. that they had only an empty stick or a scorched hand.
  11906. He bore it as long as he could, but when he was appealed to for an
  11907. opinion, he blazed up with honest indignation and defended religion
  11908. with all the eloquence of truth--an eloquence which made his broken
  11909. English musical and his plain face beautiful. He had a hard fight, for
  11910. the wise men argued well, but he didn't know when he was beaten and
  11911. stood to his colors like a man. Somehow, as he talked, the world got
  11912. right again to Jo. The old beliefs, that had lasted so long, seemed
  11913. better than the new. God was not a blind force, and immortality was
  11914. not a pretty fable, but a blessed fact. She felt as if she had solid
  11915. ground under her feet again, and when Mr. Bhaer paused, outtalked but
  11916. not one whit convinced, Jo wanted to clap her hands and thank him.
  11917. She did neither, but she remembered the scene, and gave the Professor
  11918. her heartiest respect, for she knew it cost him an effort to speak out
  11919. then and there, because his conscience would not let him be silent.
  11920. She began to see that character is a better possession than money,
  11921. rank, intellect, or beauty, and to feel that if greatness is what a
  11922. wise man has defined it to be, 'truth, reverence, and good will', then
  11923. her friend Friedrich Bhaer was not only good, but great.
  11924. This belief strengthened daily. She valued his esteem, she coveted his
  11925. respect, she wanted to be worthy of his friendship, and just when the
  11926. wish was sincerest, she came near to losing everything. It all grew
  11927. out of a cocked hat, for one evening the Professor came in to give Jo
  11928. her lesson with a paper soldier cap on his head, which Tina had put
  11929. there and he had forgotten to take off.
  11930. "It's evident he doesn't look in his glass before coming down," thought
  11931. Jo, with a smile, as he said "Goot efening," and sat soberly down,
  11932. quite unconscious of the ludicrous contrast between his subject and his
  11933. headgear, for he was going to read her the Death of Wallenstein.
  11934. She said nothing at first, for she liked to hear him laugh out his big,
  11935. hearty laugh when anything funny happened, so she left him to discover
  11936. it for himself, and presently forgot all about it, for to hear a German
  11937. read Schiller is rather an absorbing occupation. After the reading
  11938. came the lesson, which was a lively one, for Jo was in a gay mood that
  11939. night, and the cocked hat kept her eyes dancing with merriment. The
  11940. Professor didn't know what to make of her, and stopped at last to ask
  11941. with an air of mild surprise that was irresistible. . .
  11942. "Mees Marsch, for what do you laugh in your master's face? Haf you no
  11943. respect for me, that you go on so bad?"
  11944. "How can I be respectful, Sir, when you forget to take your hat off?"
  11945. said Jo.
  11946. Lifting his hand to his head, the absent-minded Professor gravely felt
  11947. and removed the little cocked hat, looked at it a minute, and then
  11948. threw back his head and laughed like a merry bass viol.
  11949. "Ah! I see him now, it is that imp Tina who makes me a fool with my
  11950. cap. Well, it is nothing, but see you, if this lesson goes not well,
  11951. you too shall wear him."
  11952. But the lesson did not go at all for a few minutes because Mr. Bhaer
  11953. caught sight of a picture on the hat, and unfolding it, said with great
  11954. disgust, "I wish these papers did not come in the house. They are not
  11955. for children to see, nor young people to read. It is not well, and I
  11956. haf no patience with those who make this harm."
  11957. Jo glanced at the sheet and saw a pleasing illustration composed of a
  11958. lunatic, a corpse, a villain, and a viper. She did not like it, but
  11959. the impulse that made her turn it over was not one of displeasure but
  11960. fear, because for a minute she fancied the paper was the Volcano. It
  11961. was not, however, and her panic subsided as she remembered that even if
  11962. it had been and one of her own tales in it, there would have been no
  11963. name to betray her. She had betrayed herself, however, by a look and a
  11964. blush, for though an absent man, the Professor saw a good deal more
  11965. than people fancied. He knew that Jo wrote, and had met her down among
  11966. the newspaper offices more than once, but as she never spoke of it, he
  11967. asked no questions in spite of a strong desire to see her work. Now it
  11968. occurred to him that she was doing what she was ashamed to own, and it
  11969. troubled him. He did not say to himself, "It is none of my business.
  11970. I've no right to say anything," as many people would have done. He
  11971. only remembered that she was young and poor, a girl far away from
  11972. mother's love and father's care, and he was moved to help her with an
  11973. impulse as quick and natural as that which would prompt him to put out
  11974. his hand to save a baby from a puddle. All this flashed through his
  11975. mind in a minute, but not a trace of it appeared in his face, and by
  11976. the time the paper was turned, and Jo's needle threaded, he was ready
  11977. to say quite naturally, but very gravely...
  11978. "Yes, you are right to put it from you. I do not think that good young
  11979. girls should see such things. They are made pleasant to some, but I
  11980. would more rather give my boys gunpowder to play with than this bad
  11981. trash."
  11982. "All may not be bad, only silly, you know, and if there is a demand for
  11983. it, I don't see any harm in supplying it. Many very respectable people
  11984. make an honest living out of what are called sensation stories," said
  11985. Jo, scratching gathers so energetically that a row of little slits
  11986. followed her pin.
  11987. "There is a demand for whisky, but I think you and I do not care to
  11988. sell it. If the respectable people knew what harm they did, they would
  11989. not feel that the living was honest. They haf no right to put poison
  11990. in the sugarplum, and let the small ones eat it. No, they should think
  11991. a little, and sweep mud in the street before they do this thing."
  11992. Mr. Bhaer spoke warmly, and walked to the fire, crumpling the paper in
  11993. his hands. Jo sat still, looking as if the fire had come to her, for
  11994. her cheeks burned long after the cocked hat had turned to smoke and
  11995. gone harmlessly up the chimney.
  11996. "I should like much to send all the rest after him," muttered the
  11997. Professor, coming back with a relieved air.
  11998. Jo thought what a blaze her pile of papers upstairs would make, and her
  11999. hard-earned money lay rather heavily on her conscience at that minute.
  12000. Then she thought consolingly to herself, "Mine are not like that, they
  12001. are only silly, never bad, so I won't be worried," and taking up her
  12002. book, she said, with a studious face, "Shall we go on, Sir? I'll be
  12003. very good and proper now."
  12004. "I shall hope so," was all he said, but he meant more than she
  12005. imagined, and the grave, kind look he gave her made her feel as if the
  12006. words Weekly Volcano were printed in large type on her forehead.
  12007. As soon as she went to her room, she got out her papers, and carefully
  12008. reread every one of her stories. Being a little shortsighted, Mr.
  12009. Bhaer sometimes used eye glasses, and Jo had tried them once, smiling
  12010. to see how they magnified the fine print of her book. Now she seemed
  12011. to have on the Professor's mental or moral spectacles also, for the
  12012. faults of these poor stories glared at her dreadfully and filled her
  12013. with dismay.
  12014. "They are trash, and will soon be worse trash if I go on, for each is
  12015. more sensational than the last. I've gone blindly on, hurting myself
  12016. and other people, for the sake of money. I know it's so, for I can't
  12017. read this stuff in sober earnest without being horribly ashamed of it,
  12018. and what should I do if they were seen at home or Mr. Bhaer got hold of
  12019. them?"
  12020. Jo turned hot at the bare idea, and stuffed the whole bundle into her
  12021. stove, nearly setting the chimney afire with the blaze.
  12022. "Yes, that's the best place for such inflammable nonsense. I'd better
  12023. burn the house down, I suppose, than let other people blow themselves
  12024. up with my gunpowder," she thought as she watched the Demon of the Jura
  12025. whisk away, a little black cinder with fiery eyes.
  12026. But when nothing remained of all her three month's work except a heap
  12027. of ashes and the money in her lap, Jo looked sober, as she sat on the
  12028. floor, wondering what she ought to do about her wages.
  12029. "I think I haven't done much harm yet, and may keep this to pay for my
  12030. time," she said, after a long meditation, adding impatiently, "I almost
  12031. wish I hadn't any conscience, it's so inconvenient. If I didn't care
  12032. about doing right, and didn't feel uncomfortable when doing wrong, I
  12033. should get on capitally. I can't help wishing sometimes, that Mother
  12034. and Father hadn't been so particular about such things."
  12035. Ah, Jo, instead of wishing that, thank God that 'Father and Mother were
  12036. particular', and pity from your heart those who have no such guardians
  12037. to hedge them round with principles which may seem like prison walls to
  12038. impatient youth, but which will prove sure foundations to build
  12039. character upon in womanhood.
  12040. Jo wrote no more sensational stories, deciding that the money did not
  12041. pay for her share of the sensation, but going to the other extreme, as
  12042. is the way with people of her stamp, she took a course of Mrs.
  12043. Sherwood, Miss Edgeworth, and Hannah More, and then produced a tale
  12044. which might have been more properly called an essay or a sermon, so
  12045. intensely moral was it. She had her doubts about it from the
  12046. beginning, for her lively fancy and girlish romance felt as ill at ease
  12047. in the new style as she would have done masquerading in the stiff and
  12048. cumbrous costume of the last century. She sent this didactic gem to
  12049. several markets, but it found no purchaser, and she was inclined to
  12050. agree with Mr. Dashwood that morals didn't sell.
  12051. Then she tried a child's story, which she could easily have disposed of
  12052. if she had not been mercenary enough to demand filthy lucre for it.
  12053. The only person who offered enough to make it worth her while to try
  12054. juvenile literature was a worthy gentleman who felt it his mission to
  12055. convert all the world to his particular belief. But much as she liked
  12056. to write for children, Jo could not consent to depict all her naughty
  12057. boys as being eaten by bears or tossed by mad bulls because they did
  12058. not go to a particular Sabbath school, nor all the good infants who did
  12059. go as rewarded by every kind of bliss, from gilded gingerbread to
  12060. escorts of angels when they departed this life with psalms or sermons
  12061. on their lisping tongues. So nothing came of these trials, and Jo
  12062. corked up her inkstand, and said in a fit of very wholesome humility...
  12063. "I don't know anything. I'll wait until I do before I try again, and
  12064. meantime, 'sweep mud in the street' if I can't do better, that's
  12065. honest, at least." Which decision proved that her second tumble down
  12066. the beanstalk had done her some good.
  12067. While these internal revolutions were going on, her external life had
  12068. been as busy and uneventful as usual, and if she sometimes looked
  12069. serious or a little sad no one observed it but Professor Bhaer. He did
  12070. it so quietly that Jo never knew he was watching to see if she would
  12071. accept and profit by his reproof, but she stood the test, and he was
  12072. satisfied, for though no words passed between them, he knew that she
  12073. had given up writing. Not only did he guess it by the fact that the
  12074. second finger of her right hand was no longer inky, but she spent her
  12075. evenings downstairs now, was met no more among newspaper offices, and
  12076. studied with a dogged patience, which assured him that she was bent on
  12077. occupying her mind with something useful, if not pleasant.
  12078. He helped her in many ways, proving himself a true friend, and Jo was
  12079. happy, for while her pen lay idle, she was learning other lessons
  12080. besides German, and laying a foundation for the sensation story of her
  12081. own life.
  12082. It was a pleasant winter and a long one, for she did not leave Mrs.
  12083. Kirke till June. Everyone seemed sorry when the time came. The
  12084. children were inconsolable, and Mr. Bhaer's hair stuck straight up all
  12085. over his head, for he always rumpled it wildly when disturbed in mind.
  12086. "Going home? Ah, you are happy that you haf a home to go in," he said,
  12087. when she told him, and sat silently pulling his beard in the corner,
  12088. while she held a little levee on that last evening.
  12089. She was going early, so she bade them all goodbye overnight, and when
  12090. his turn came, she said warmly, "Now, Sir, you won't forget to come and
  12091. see us, if you ever travel our way, will you? I'll never forgive you if
  12092. you do, for I want them all to know my friend."
  12093. "Do you? Shall I come?" he asked, looking down at her with an eager
  12094. expression which she did not see.
  12095. "Yes, come next month. Laurie graduates then, and you'd enjoy
  12096. commencement as something new."
  12097. "That is your best friend, of whom you speak?" he said in an altered
  12098. tone.
  12099. "Yes, my boy Teddy. I'm very proud of him and should like you to see
  12100. him."
  12101. Jo looked up then, quite unconscious of anything but her own pleasure
  12102. in the prospect of showing them to one another. Something in Mr.
  12103. Bhaer's face suddenly recalled the fact that she might find Laurie more
  12104. than a 'best friend', and simply because she particularly wished not to
  12105. look as if anything was the matter, she involuntarily began to blush,
  12106. and the more she tried not to, the redder she grew. If it had not been
  12107. for Tina on her knee. She didn't know what would have become of her.
  12108. Fortunately the child was moved to hug her, so she managed to hide her
  12109. face an instant, hoping the Professor did not see it. But he did, and
  12110. his own changed again from that momentary anxiety to its usual
  12111. expression, as he said cordially...
  12112. "I fear I shall not make the time for that, but I wish the friend much
  12113. success, and you all happiness. Gott bless you!" And with that, he
  12114. shook hands warmly, shouldered Tina, and went away.
  12115. But after the boys were abed, he sat long before his fire with the
  12116. tired look on his face and the 'heimweh', or homesickness, lying heavy
  12117. at his heart. Once, when he remembered Jo as she sat with the little
  12118. child in her lap and that new softness in her face, he leaned his head
  12119. on his hands a minute, and then roamed about the room, as if in search
  12120. of something that he could not find.
  12121. "It is not for me, I must not hope it now," he said to himself, with a
  12122. sigh that was almost a groan. Then, as if reproaching himself for the
  12123. longing that he could not repress, he went and kissed the two tousled
  12124. heads upon the pillow, took down his seldom-used meerschaum, and opened
  12125. his Plato.
  12126. He did his best and did it manfully, but I don't think he found that a
  12127. pair of rampant boys, a pipe, or even the divine Plato, were very
  12128. satisfactory substitutes for wife and child at home.
  12129. Early as it was, he was at the station next morning to see Jo off, and
  12130. thanks to him, she began her solitary journey with the pleasant memory
  12131. of a familiar face smiling its farewell, a bunch of violets to keep her
  12132. company, and best of all, the happy thought, "Well, the winter's gone,
  12133. and I've written no books, earned no fortune, but I've made a friend
  12134. worth having and I'll try to keep him all my life."
  12135. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  12136. HEARTACHE
  12137. Whatever his motive might have been, Laurie studied to some purpose
  12138. that year, for he graduated with honor, and gave the Latin oration with
  12139. the grace of a Phillips and the eloquence of a Demosthenes, so his
  12140. friends said. They were all there, his grandfather--oh, so proud--Mr.
  12141. and Mrs. March, John and Meg, Jo and Beth, and all exulted over him
  12142. with the sincere admiration which boys make light of at the time, but
  12143. fail to win from the world by any after-triumphs.
  12144. "I've got to stay for this confounded supper, but I shall be home early
  12145. tomorrow. You'll come and meet me as usual, girls?" Laurie said, as he
  12146. put the sisters into the carriage after the joys of the day were over.
  12147. He said 'girls', but he meant Jo, for she was the only one who kept up
  12148. the old custom. She had not the heart to refuse her splendid,
  12149. successful boy anything, and answered warmly...
  12150. "I'll come, Teddy, rain or shine, and march before you, playing 'Hail
  12151. the conquering hero comes' on a jew's-harp."
  12152. Laurie thanked her with a look that made her think in a sudden panic,
  12153. "Oh, deary me! I know he'll say something, and then what shall I do?"
  12154. Evening meditation and morning work somewhat allayed her fears, and
  12155. having decided that she wouldn't be vain enough to think people were
  12156. going to propose when she had given them every reason to know what her
  12157. answer would be, she set forth at the appointed time, hoping Teddy
  12158. wouldn't do anything to make her hurt his poor feelings. A call at
  12159. Meg's, and a refreshing sniff and sip at the Daisy and Demijohn, still
  12160. further fortified her for the tete-a-tete, but when she saw a stalwart
  12161. figure looming in the distance, she had a strong desire to turn about
  12162. and run away.
  12163. "Where's the jew's-harp, Jo?" cried Laurie, as soon as he was within
  12164. speaking distance.
  12165. "I forgot it." And Jo took heart again, for that salutation could not
  12166. be called lover-like.
  12167. She always used to take his arm on these occasions, now she did not,
  12168. and he made no complaint, which was a bad sign, but talked on rapidly
  12169. about all sorts of faraway subjects, till they turned from the road
  12170. into the little path that led homeward through the grove. Then he
  12171. walked more slowly, suddenly lost his fine flow of language, and now
  12172. and then a dreadful pause occurred. To rescue the conversation from
  12173. one of the wells of silence into which it kept falling, Jo said
  12174. hastily, "Now you must have a good long holiday!"
  12175. "I intend to."
  12176. Something in his resolute tone made Jo look up quickly to find him
  12177. looking down at her with an expression that assured her the dreaded
  12178. moment had come, and made her put out her hand with an imploring, "No,
  12179. Teddy. Please don't!"
  12180. "I will, and you must hear me. It's no use, Jo, we've got to have it
  12181. out, and the sooner the better for both of us," he answered, getting
  12182. flushed and excited all at once.
  12183. "Say what you like then. I'll listen," said Jo, with a desperate sort
  12184. of patience.
  12185. Laurie was a young lover, but he was in earnest, and meant to 'have it
  12186. out', if he died in the attempt, so he plunged into the subject with
  12187. characteristic impetuousity, saying in a voice that would get choky now
  12188. and then, in spite of manful efforts to keep it steady...
  12189. "I've loved you ever since I've known you, Jo, couldn't help it, you've
  12190. been so good to me. I've tried to show it, but you wouldn't let me.
  12191. Now I'm going to make you hear, and give me an answer, for I can't go
  12192. on so any longer."
  12193. "I wanted to save you this. I thought you'd understand..." began Jo,
  12194. finding it a great deal harder than she expected.
  12195. "I know you did, but the girls are so queer you never know what they
  12196. mean. They say no when they mean yes, and drive a man out of his wits
  12197. just for the fun of it," returned Laurie, entrenching himself behind an
  12198. undeniable fact.
  12199. "I don't. I never wanted to make you care for me so, and I went away
  12200. to keep you from it if I could."
  12201. "I thought so. It was like you, but it was no use. I only loved you
  12202. all the more, and I worked hard to please you, and I gave up billiards
  12203. and everything you didn't like, and waited and never complained, for I
  12204. hoped you'd love me, though I'm not half good enough..." Here there was
  12205. a choke that couldn't be controlled, so he decapitated buttercups while
  12206. he cleared his 'confounded throat'.
  12207. "You, you are, you're a great deal too good for me, and I'm so grateful
  12208. to you, and so proud and fond of you, I don't know why I can't love you
  12209. as you want me to. I've tried, but I can't change the feeling, and it
  12210. would be a lie to say I do when I don't."
  12211. "Really, truly, Jo?"
  12212. He stopped short, and caught both her hands as he put his question with
  12213. a look that she did not soon forget.
  12214. "Really, truly, dear."
  12215. They were in the grove now, close by the stile, and when the last words
  12216. fell reluctantly from Jo's lips, Laurie dropped her hands and turned as
  12217. if to go on, but for once in his life the fence was too much for him.
  12218. So he just laid his head down on the mossy post, and stood so still
  12219. that Jo was frightened.
  12220. "Oh, Teddy, I'm sorry, so desperately sorry, I could kill myself if it
  12221. would do any good! I wish you wouldn't take it so hard, I can't help
  12222. it. You know it's impossible for people to make themselves love other
  12223. people if they don't," cried Jo inelegantly but remorsefully, as she
  12224. softly patted his shoulder, remembering the time when he had comforted
  12225. her so long ago.
  12226. "They do sometimes," said a muffled voice from the post. "I don't
  12227. believe it's the right sort of love, and I'd rather not try it," was
  12228. the decided answer.
  12229. There was a long pause, while a blackbird sung blithely on the willow
  12230. by the river, and the tall grass rustled in the wind. Presently Jo said
  12231. very soberly, as she sat down on the step of the stile, "Laurie, I want
  12232. to tell you something."
  12233. He started as if he had been shot, threw up his head, and cried out in
  12234. a fierce tone, "Don't tell me that, Jo, I can't bear it now!"
  12235. "Tell what?" she asked, wondering at his violence.
  12236. "That you love that old man."
  12237. "What old man?" demanded Jo, thinking he must mean his grandfather.
  12238. "That devilish Professor you were always writing about. If you say you
  12239. love him, I know I shall do something desperate;" and he looked as if
  12240. he would keep his word, as he clenched his hands with a wrathful spark
  12241. in his eyes.
  12242. Jo wanted to laugh, but restrained herself and said warmly, for she
  12243. too, was getting excited with all this, "Don't swear, Teddy! He isn't
  12244. old, nor anything bad, but good and kind, and the best friend I've got,
  12245. next to you. Pray, don't fly into a passion. I want to be kind, but I
  12246. know I shall get angry if you abuse my Professor. I haven't the least
  12247. idea of loving him or anybody else."
  12248. "But you will after a while, and then what will become of me?"
  12249. "You'll love someone else too, like a sensible boy, and forget all this
  12250. trouble."
  12251. "I can't love anyone else, and I'll never forget you, Jo, Never!
  12252. Never!" with a stamp to emphasize his passionate words.
  12253. "What shall I do with him?" sighed Jo, finding that emotions were more
  12254. unmanagable than she expected. "You haven't heard what I wanted to
  12255. tell you. Sit down and listen, for indeed I want to do right and make
  12256. you happy," she said, hoping to soothe him with a little reason, which
  12257. proved that she knew nothing about love.
  12258. Seeing a ray of hope in that last speech, Laurie threw himself down on
  12259. the grass at her feet, leaned his arm on the lower step of the stile,
  12260. and looked up at her with an expectant face. Now that arrangement was
  12261. not conducive to calm speech or clear thought on Jo's part, for how
  12262. could she say hard things to her boy while he watched her with eyes
  12263. full of love and longing, and lashes still wet with the bitter drop or
  12264. two her hardness of heart had wrung from him? She gently turned his
  12265. head away, saying, as she stroked the wavy hair which had been allowed
  12266. to grow for her sake--how touching that was, to be sure! "I agree with
  12267. Mother that you and I are not suited to each other, because our quick
  12268. tempers and strong wills would probably make us very miserable, if we
  12269. were so foolish as to..." Jo paused a little over the last word, but
  12270. Laurie uttered it with a rapturous expression.
  12271. "Marry--no we shouldn't! If you loved me, Jo, I should be a perfect
  12272. saint, for you could make me anything you like."
  12273. "No, I can't. I've tried and failed, and I won't risk our happiness by
  12274. such a serious experiment. We don't agree and we never shall, so we'll
  12275. be good friends all our lives, but we won't go and do anything rash."
  12276. "Yes, we will if we get the chance," muttered Laurie rebelliously.
  12277. "Now do be reasonable, and take a sensible view of the case," implored
  12278. Jo, almost at her wit's end.
  12279. "I won't be reasonable. I don't want to take what you call 'a sensible
  12280. view'. It won't help me, and it only makes it harder. I don't believe
  12281. you've got any heart."
  12282. "I wish I hadn't."
  12283. There was a little quiver in Jo's voice, and thinking it a good omen,
  12284. Laurie turned round, bringing all his persuasive powers to bear as he
  12285. said, in the wheedlesome tone that had never been so dangerously
  12286. wheedlesome before, "Don't disappoint us, dear! Everyone expects it.
  12287. Grandpa has set his heart upon it, your people like it, and I can't get
  12288. on without you. Say you will, and let's be happy. Do, do!"
  12289. Not until months afterward did Jo understand how she had the strength
  12290. of mind to hold fast to the resolution she had made when she decided
  12291. that she did not love her boy, and never could. It was very hard to
  12292. do, but she did it, knowing that delay was both useless and cruel.
  12293. "I can't say 'yes' truly, so I won't say it at all. You'll see that
  12294. I'm right, by-and-by, and thank me for it..." she began solemnly.
  12295. "I'll be hanged if I do!" and Laurie bounced up off the grass, burning
  12296. with indignation at the very idea.
  12297. "Yes, you will!" persisted Jo. "You'll get over this after a while,
  12298. and find some lovely accomplished girl, who will adore you, and make a
  12299. fine mistress for your fine house. I shouldn't. I'm homely and awkward
  12300. and odd and old, and you'd be ashamed of me, and we should quarrel--we
  12301. can't help it even now, you see--and I shouldn't like elegant society
  12302. and you would, and you'd hate my scribbling, and I couldn't get on
  12303. without it, and we should be unhappy, and wish we hadn't done it, and
  12304. everything would be horrid!"
  12305. "Anything more?" asked Laurie, finding it hard to listen patiently to
  12306. this prophetic burst.
  12307. "Nothing more, except that I don't believe I shall ever marry. I'm
  12308. happy as I am, and love my liberty too well to be in a hurry to give it
  12309. up for any mortal man."
  12310. "I know better!" broke in Laurie. "You think so now, but there'll come
  12311. a time when you will care for somebody, and you'll love him
  12312. tremendously, and live and die for him. I know you will, it's your
  12313. way, and I shall have to stand by and see it," and the despairing lover
  12314. cast his hat upon the ground with a gesture that would have seemed
  12315. comical, if his face had not been so tragic.
  12316. "Yes, I will live and die for him, if he ever comes and makes me love
  12317. him in spite of myself, and you must do the best you can!" cried Jo,
  12318. losing patience with poor Teddy. "I've done my best, but you won't be
  12319. reasonable, and it's selfish of you to keep teasing for what I can't
  12320. give. I shall always be fond of you, very fond indeed, as a friend,
  12321. but I'll never marry you, and the sooner you believe it the better for
  12322. both of us--so now!"
  12323. That speech was like gunpowder. Laurie looked at her a minute as if he
  12324. did not quite know what to do with himself, then turned sharply away,
  12325. saying in a desperate sort of tone, "You'll be sorry some day, Jo."
  12326. "Oh, where are you going?" she cried, for his face frightened her.
  12327. "To the devil!" was the consoling answer.
  12328. For a minute Jo's heart stood still, as he swung himself down the bank
  12329. toward the river, but it takes much folly, sin or misery to send a
  12330. young man to a violent death, and Laurie was not one of the weak sort
  12331. who are conquered by a single failure. He had no thought of a
  12332. melodramatic plunge, but some blind instinct led him to fling hat and
  12333. coat into his boat, and row away with all his might, making better time
  12334. up the river than he had done in any race. Jo drew a long breath and
  12335. unclasped her hands as she watched the poor fellow trying to outstrip
  12336. the trouble which he carried in his heart.
  12337. "That will do him good, and he'll come home in such a tender, penitent
  12338. state of mind, that I shan't dare to see him," she said, adding, as she
  12339. went slowly home, feeling as if she had murdered some innocent thing,
  12340. and buried it under the leaves. "Now I must go and prepare Mr.
  12341. Laurence to be very kind to my poor boy. I wish he'd love Beth,
  12342. perhaps he may in time, but I begin to think I was mistaken about her.
  12343. Oh dear! How can girls like to have lovers and refuse them? I think
  12344. it's dreadful."
  12345. Being sure that no one could do it so well as herself, she went
  12346. straight to Mr. Laurence, told the hard story bravely through, and then
  12347. broke down, crying so dismally over her own insensibility that the kind
  12348. old gentleman, though sorely disappointed, did not utter a reproach.
  12349. He found it difficult to understand how any girl could help loving
  12350. Laurie, and hoped she would change her mind, but he knew even better
  12351. than Jo that love cannot be forced, so he shook his head sadly and
  12352. resolved to carry his boy out of harm's way, for Young Impetuosity's
  12353. parting words to Jo disturbed him more than he would confess.
  12354. When Laurie came home, dead tired but quite composed, his grandfather
  12355. met him as if he knew nothing, and kept up the delusion very
  12356. successfully for an hour or two. But when they sat together in the
  12357. twilight, the time they used to enjoy so much, it was hard work for the
  12358. old man to ramble on as usual, and harder still for the young one to
  12359. listen to praises of the last year's success, which to him now seemed
  12360. like love's labor lost. He bore it as long as he could, then went to
  12361. his piano and began to play. The windows were open, and Jo, walking
  12362. in the garden with Beth, for once understood music better than her
  12363. sister, for he played the '_Sonata Pathetique_', and played it as he
  12364. never did before.
  12365. "That's very fine, I dare say, but it's sad enough to make one cry.
  12366. Give us something gayer, lad," said Mr. Laurence, whose kind old heart
  12367. was full of sympathy, which he longed to show but knew not how.
  12368. Laurie dashed into a livelier strain, played stormily for several
  12369. minutes, and would have got through bravely, if in a momentary lull
  12370. Mrs. March's voice had not been heard calling, "Jo, dear, come in. I
  12371. want you."
  12372. Just what Laurie longed to say, with a different meaning! As he
  12373. listened, he lost his place, the music ended with a broken chord, and
  12374. the musician sat silent in the dark.
  12375. "I can't stand this," muttered the old gentleman. Up he got, groped
  12376. his way to the piano, laid a kind hand on either of the broad
  12377. shoulders, and said, as gently as a woman, "I know, my boy, I know."
  12378. No answer for an instant, then Laurie asked sharply, "Who told you?"
  12379. "Jo herself."
  12380. "Then there's an end of it!" And he shook off his grandfather's hands
  12381. with an impatient motion, for though grateful for the sympathy, his
  12382. man's pride could not bear a man's pity.
  12383. "Not quite. I want to say one thing, and then there shall be an end of
  12384. it," returned Mr. Laurence with unusual mildness. "You won't care to
  12385. stay at home now, perhaps?"
  12386. "I don't intend to run away from a girl. Jo can't prevent my seeing
  12387. her, and I shall stay and do it as long as I like," interrupted Laurie
  12388. in a defiant tone.
  12389. "Not if you are the gentleman I think you. I'm disappointed, but the
  12390. girl can't help it, and the only thing left for you to do is to go away
  12391. for a time. Where will you go?"
  12392. "Anywhere. I don't care what becomes of me," and Laurie got up with a
  12393. reckless laugh that grated on his grandfather's ear.
  12394. "Take it like a man, and don't do anything rash, for God's sake. Why
  12395. not go abroad, as you planned, and forget it?"
  12396. "I can't."
  12397. "But you've been wild to go, and I promised you should when you got
  12398. through college."
  12399. "Ah, but I didn't mean to go alone!" and Laurie walked fast through the
  12400. room with an expression which it was well his grandfather did not see.
  12401. "I don't ask you to go alone. There's someone ready and glad to go
  12402. with you, anywhere in the world."
  12403. "Who, Sir?" stopping to listen.
  12404. "Myself."
  12405. Laurie came back as quickly as he went, and put out his hand, saying
  12406. huskily, "I'm a selfish brute, but--you know--Grandfather--"
  12407. "Lord help me, yes, I do know, for I've been through it all before,
  12408. once in my own young days, and then with your father. Now, my dear boy,
  12409. just sit quietly down and hear my plan. It's all settled, and can be
  12410. carried out at once," said Mr. Laurence, keeping hold of the young man,
  12411. as if fearful that he would break away as his father had done before
  12412. him.
  12413. "Well, sir, what is it?" and Laurie sat down, without a sign of
  12414. interest in face or voice.
  12415. "There is business in London that needs looking after. I meant you
  12416. should attend to it, but I can do it better myself, and things here
  12417. will get on very well with Brooke to manage them. My partners do
  12418. almost everything, I'm merely holding on until you take my place, and
  12419. can be off at any time."
  12420. "But you hate traveling, Sir. I can't ask it of you at your age,"
  12421. began Laurie, who was grateful for the sacrifice, but much preferred to
  12422. go alone, if he went at all.
  12423. The old gentleman knew that perfectly well, and particularly desired to
  12424. prevent it, for the mood in which he found his grandson assured him
  12425. that it would not be wise to leave him to his own devices. So,
  12426. stifling a natural regret at the thought of the home comforts he would
  12427. leave behind him, he said stoutly, "Bless your soul, I'm not
  12428. superannuated yet. I quite enjoy the idea. It will do me good, and my
  12429. old bones won't suffer, for traveling nowadays is almost as easy as
  12430. sitting in a chair."
  12431. A restless movement from Laurie suggested that his chair was not easy,
  12432. or that he did not like the plan, and made the old man add hastily, "I
  12433. don't mean to be a marplot or a burden. I go because I think you'd feel
  12434. happier than if I was left behind. I don't intend to gad about with
  12435. you, but leave you free to go where you like, while I amuse myself in
  12436. my own way. I've friends in London and Paris, and should like to visit
  12437. them. Meantime you can go to Italy, Germany, Switzerland, where you
  12438. will, and enjoy pictures, music, scenery, and adventures to your
  12439. heart's content."
  12440. Now, Laurie felt just then that his heart was entirely broken and the
  12441. world a howling wilderness, but at the sound of certain words which the
  12442. old gentleman artfully introduced into his closing sentence, the broken
  12443. heart gave an unexpected leap, and a green oasis or two suddenly
  12444. appeared in the howling wilderness. He sighed, and then said, in a
  12445. spiritless tone, "Just as you like, Sir. It doesn't matter where I go
  12446. or what I do."
  12447. "It does to me, remember that, my lad. I give you entire liberty, but
  12448. I trust you to make an honest use of it. Promise me that, Laurie."
  12449. "Anything you like, Sir."
  12450. "Good," thought the old gentleman. "You don't care now, but there'll
  12451. come a time when that promise will keep you out of mischief, or I'm
  12452. much mistaken."
  12453. Being an energetic individual, Mr. Laurence struck while the iron was
  12454. hot, and before the blighted being recovered spirit enough to rebel,
  12455. they were off. During the time necessary for preparation, Laurie bore
  12456. himself as young gentleman usually do in such cases. He was moody,
  12457. irritable, and pensive by turns, lost his appetite, neglected his dress
  12458. and devoted much time to playing tempestuously on his piano, avoided
  12459. Jo, but consoled himself by staring at her from his window, with a
  12460. tragic face that haunted her dreams by night and oppressed her with a
  12461. heavy sense of guilt by day. Unlike some sufferers, he never spoke of
  12462. his unrequited passion, and would allow no one, not even Mrs. March, to
  12463. attempt consolation or offer sympathy. On some accounts, this was a
  12464. relief to his friends, but the weeks before his departure were very
  12465. uncomfortable, and everyone rejoiced that the 'poor, dear fellow was
  12466. going away to forget his trouble, and come home happy'. Of course, he
  12467. smiled darkly at their delusion, but passed it by with the sad
  12468. superiority of one who knew that his fidelity like his love was
  12469. unalterable.
  12470. When the parting came he affected high spirits, to conceal certain
  12471. inconvenient emotions which seemed inclined to assert themselves. This
  12472. gaiety did not impose upon anybody, but they tried to look as if it did
  12473. for his sake, and he got on very well till Mrs. March kissed him, with
  12474. a whisper full of motherly solicitude. Then feeling that he was going
  12475. very fast, he hastily embraced them all round, not forgetting the
  12476. afflicted Hannah, and ran downstairs as if for his life. Jo followed a
  12477. minute after to wave her hand to him if he looked round. He did look
  12478. round, came back, put his arms about her as she stood on the step above
  12479. him, and looked up at her with a face that made his short appeal
  12480. eloquent and pathetic.
  12481. "Oh, Jo, can't you?"
  12482. "Teddy, dear, I wish I could!"
  12483. That was all, except a little pause. Then Laurie straightened himself
  12484. up, said, "It's all right, never mind," and went away without another
  12485. word. Ah, but it wasn't all right, and Jo did mind, for while the
  12486. curly head lay on her arm a minute after her hard answer, she felt as
  12487. if she had stabbed her dearest friend, and when he left her without a
  12488. look behind him, she knew that the boy Laurie never would come again.
  12489. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  12490. BETH'S SECRET
  12491. When Jo came home that spring, she had been struck with the change in
  12492. Beth. No one spoke of it or seemed aware of it, for it had come too
  12493. gradually to startle those who saw her daily, but to eyes sharpened by
  12494. absence, it was very plain and a heavy weight fell on Jo's heart as she
  12495. saw her sister's face. It was no paler and but littler thinner than in
  12496. the autumn, yet there was a strange, transparent look about it, as if
  12497. the mortal was being slowly refined away, and the immortal shining
  12498. through the frail flesh with an indescribably pathetic beauty. Jo saw
  12499. and felt it, but said nothing at the time, and soon the first
  12500. impression lost much of its power, for Beth seemed happy, no one
  12501. appeared to doubt that she was better, and presently in other cares Jo
  12502. for a time forgot her fear.
  12503. But when Laurie was gone, and peace prevailed again, the vague anxiety
  12504. returned and haunted her. She had confessed her sins and been
  12505. forgiven, but when she showed her savings and proposed a mountain trip,
  12506. Beth had thanked her heartily, but begged not to go so far away from
  12507. home. Another little visit to the seashore would suit her better, and
  12508. as Grandma could not be prevailed upon to leave the babies, Jo took
  12509. Beth down to the quiet place, where she could live much in the open
  12510. air, and let the fresh sea breezes blow a little color into her pale
  12511. cheeks.
  12512. It was not a fashionable place, but even among the pleasant people
  12513. there, the girls made few friends, preferring to live for one another.
  12514. Beth was too shy to enjoy society, and Jo too wrapped up in her to care
  12515. for anyone else. So they were all in all to each other, and came and
  12516. went, quite unconscious of the interest they excited in those about
  12517. them, who watched with sympathetic eyes the strong sister and the
  12518. feeble one, always together, as if they felt instinctively that a long
  12519. separation was not far away.
  12520. They did feel it, yet neither spoke of it, for often between ourselves
  12521. and those nearest and dearest to us there exists a reserve which it is
  12522. very hard to overcome. Jo felt as if a veil had fallen between her
  12523. heart and Beth's, but when she put out her hand to lift it up, there
  12524. seemed something sacred in the silence, and she waited for Beth to
  12525. speak. She wondered, and was thankful also, that her parents did not
  12526. seem to see what she saw, and during the quiet weeks when the shadows
  12527. grew so plain to her, she said nothing of it to those at home,
  12528. believing that it would tell itself when Beth came back no better. She
  12529. wondered still more if her sister really guessed the hard truth, and
  12530. what thoughts were passing through her mind during the long hours when
  12531. she lay on the warm rocks with her head in Jo's lap, while the winds
  12532. blew healthfully over her and the sea made music at her feet.
  12533. One day Beth told her. Jo thought she was asleep, she lay so still,
  12534. and putting down her book, sat looking at her with wistful eyes, trying
  12535. to see signs of hope in the faint color on Beth's cheeks. But she
  12536. could not find enough to satisfy her, for the cheeks were very thin,
  12537. and the hands seemed too feeble to hold even the rosy little shells
  12538. they had been collecting. It came to her then more bitterly than ever
  12539. that Beth was slowly drifting away from her, and her arms instinctively
  12540. tightened their hold upon the dearest treasure she possessed. For a
  12541. minute her eyes were too dim for seeing, and when they cleared, Beth
  12542. was looking up at her so tenderly that there was hardly any need for
  12543. her to say, "Jo, dear, I'm glad you know it. I've tried to tell you,
  12544. but I couldn't."
  12545. There was no answer except her sister's cheek against her own, not even
  12546. tears, for when most deeply moved, Jo did not cry. She was the weaker
  12547. then, and Beth tried to comfort and sustain her, with her arms about
  12548. her and the soothing words she whispered in her ear.
  12549. "I've known it for a good while, dear, and now I'm used to it, it isn't
  12550. hard to think of or to bear. Try to see it so and don't be troubled
  12551. about me, because it's best, indeed it is."
  12552. "Is this what made you so unhappy in the autumn, Beth? You did not feel
  12553. it then, and keep it to yourself so long, did you?" asked Jo, refusing
  12554. to see or say that it was best, but glad to know that Laurie had no
  12555. part in Beth's trouble.
  12556. "Yes, I gave up hoping then, but I didn't like to own it. I tried to
  12557. think it was a sick fancy, and would not let it trouble anyone. But
  12558. when I saw you all so well and strong and full of happy plans, it was
  12559. hard to feel that I could never be like you, and then I was miserable,
  12560. Jo."
  12561. "Oh, Beth, and you didn't tell me, didn't let me comfort and help you?
  12562. How could you shut me out, bear it all alone?"
  12563. Jo's voice was full of tender reproach, and her heart ached to think of
  12564. the solitary struggle that must have gone on while Beth learned to say
  12565. goodbye to health, love, and life, and take up her cross so cheerfully.
  12566. "Perhaps it was wrong, but I tried to do right. I wasn't sure, no one
  12567. said anything, and I hoped I was mistaken. It would have been selfish
  12568. to frighten you all when Marmee was so anxious about Meg, and Amy away,
  12569. and you so happy with Laurie--at least I thought so then."
  12570. "And I thought you loved him, Beth, and I went away because I
  12571. couldn't," cried Jo, glad to say all the truth.
  12572. Beth looked so amazed at the idea that Jo smiled in spite of her pain,
  12573. and added softly, "Then you didn't, dearie? I was afraid it was so, and
  12574. imagined your poor little heart full of lovelornity all that while."
  12575. "Why, Jo, how could I, when he was so fond of you?" asked Beth, as
  12576. innocently as a child. "I do love him dearly. He is so good to me,
  12577. how can I help It? But he could never be anything to me but my
  12578. brother. I hope he truly will be, sometime."
  12579. "Not through me," said Jo decidedly. "Amy is left for him, and they
  12580. would suit excellently, but I have no heart for such things, now. I
  12581. don't care what becomes of anybody but you, Beth. You must get well."
  12582. "I want to, oh, so much! I try, but every day I lose a little, and
  12583. feel more sure that I shall never gain it back. It's like the tide,
  12584. Jo, when it turns, it goes slowly, but it can't be stopped."
  12585. "It shall be stopped, your tide must not turn so soon, nineteen is too
  12586. young, Beth. I can't let you go. I'll work and pray and fight against
  12587. it. I'll keep you in spite of everything. There must be ways, it
  12588. can't be too late. God won't be so cruel as to take you from me,"
  12589. cried poor Jo rebelliously, for her spirit was far less piously
  12590. submissive than Beth's.
  12591. Simple, sincere people seldom speak much of their piety. It shows
  12592. itself in acts rather than in words, and has more influence than
  12593. homilies or protestations. Beth could not reason upon or explain the
  12594. faith that gave her courage and patience to give up life, and
  12595. cheerfully wait for death. Like a confiding child, she asked no
  12596. questions, but left everything to God and nature, Father and Mother of
  12597. us all, feeling sure that they, and they only, could teach and
  12598. strengthen heart and spirit for this life and the life to come. She
  12599. did not rebuke Jo with saintly speeches, only loved her better for her
  12600. passionate affection, and clung more closely to the dear human love,
  12601. from which our Father never means us to be weaned, but through which He
  12602. draws us closer to Himself. She could not say, "I'm glad to go," for
  12603. life was very sweet for her. She could only sob out, "I try to be
  12604. willing," while she held fast to Jo, as the first bitter wave of this
  12605. great sorrow broke over them together.
  12606. By and by Beth said, with recovered serenity, "You'll tell them this
  12607. when we go home?"
  12608. "I think they will see it without words," sighed Jo, for now it seemed
  12609. to her that Beth changed every day.
  12610. "Perhaps not. I've heard that the people who love best are often
  12611. blindest to such things. If they don't see it, you will tell them for
  12612. me. I don't want any secrets, and it's kinder to prepare them. Meg
  12613. has John and the babies to comfort her, but you must stand by Father
  12614. and Mother, won't you Jo?"
  12615. "If I can. But, Beth, I don't give up yet. I'm going to believe that
  12616. it is a sick fancy, and not let you think it's true." said Jo, trying
  12617. to speak cheerfully.
  12618. Beth lay a minute thinking, and then said in her quiet way, "I don't
  12619. know how to express myself, and shouldn't try to anyone but you,
  12620. because I can't speak out except to my Jo. I only mean to say that I
  12621. have a feeling that it never was intended I should live long. I'm not
  12622. like the rest of you. I never made any plans about what I'd do when I
  12623. grew up. I never thought of being married, as you all did. I couldn't
  12624. seem to imagine myself anything but stupid little Beth, trotting about
  12625. at home, of no use anywhere but there. I never wanted to go away, and
  12626. the hard part now is the leaving you all. I'm not afraid, but it seems
  12627. as if I should be homesick for you even in heaven."
  12628. Jo could not speak, and for several minutes there was no sound but the
  12629. sigh of the wind and the lapping of the tide. A white-winged gull flew
  12630. by, with the flash of sunshine on its silvery breast. Beth watched it
  12631. till it vanished, and her eyes were full of sadness. A little
  12632. gray-coated sand bird came tripping over the beach 'peeping' softly to
  12633. itself, as if enjoying the sun and sea. It came quite close to Beth,
  12634. and looked at her with a friendly eye and sat upon a warm stone,
  12635. dressing its wet feathers, quite at home. Beth smiled and felt
  12636. comforted, for the tiny thing seemed to offer its small friendship and
  12637. remind her that a pleasant world was still to be enjoyed.
  12638. "Dear little bird! See, Jo, how tame it is. I like peeps better than
  12639. the gulls. They are not so wild and handsome, but they seem happy,
  12640. confiding little things. I used to call them my birds last summer, and
  12641. Mother said they reminded her of me--busy, quaker-colored creatures,
  12642. always near the shore, and always chirping that contented little song
  12643. of theirs. You are the gull, Jo, strong and wild, fond of the storm
  12644. and the wind, flying far out to sea, and happy all alone. Meg is the
  12645. turtledove, and Amy is like the lark she writes about, trying to get up
  12646. among the clouds, but always dropping down into its nest again. Dear
  12647. little girl! She's so ambitious, but her heart is good and tender, and
  12648. no matter how high she flies, she never will forget home. I hope I
  12649. shall see her again, but she seems so far away."
  12650. "She is coming in the spring, and I mean that you shall be all ready to
  12651. see and enjoy her. I'm going to have you well and rosy by that time,"
  12652. began Jo, feeling that of all the changes in Beth, the talking change
  12653. was the greatest, for it seemed to cost no effort now, and she thought
  12654. aloud in a way quite unlike bashful Beth.
  12655. "Jo, dear, don't hope any more. It won't do any good. I'm sure of
  12656. that. We won't be miserable, but enjoy being together while we wait.
  12657. We'll have happy times, for I don't suffer much, and I think the tide
  12658. will go out easily, if you help me."
  12659. Jo leaned down to kiss the tranquil face, and with that silent kiss,
  12660. she dedicated herself soul and body to Beth.
  12661. She was right. There was no need of any words when they got home, for
  12662. Father and Mother saw plainly now what they had prayed to be saved from
  12663. seeing. Tired with her short journey, Beth went at once to bed, saying
  12664. how glad she was to be home, and when Jo went down, she found that she
  12665. would be spared the hard task of telling Beth's secret. Her father
  12666. stood leaning his head on the mantelpiece and did not turn as she came
  12667. in, but her mother stretched out her arms as if for help, and Jo went
  12668. to comfort her without a word.
  12669. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  12670. NEW IMPRESSIONS
  12671. At three o'clock in the afternoon, all the fashionable world at Nice
  12672. may be seen on the Promenade des Anglais--a charming place, for the
  12673. wide walk, bordered with palms, flowers, and tropical shrubs, is
  12674. bounded on one side by the sea, on the other by the grand drive, lined
  12675. with hotels and villas, while beyond lie orange orchards and the hills.
  12676. Many nations are represented, many languages spoken, many costumes
  12677. worn, and on a sunny day the spectacle is as gay and brilliant as a
  12678. carnival. Haughty English, lively French, sober Germans, handsome
  12679. Spaniards, ugly Russians, meek Jews, free-and-easy Americans, all
  12680. drive, sit, or saunter here, chatting over the news, and criticizing
  12681. the latest celebrity who has arrived--Ristori or Dickens, Victor
  12682. Emmanuel or the Queen of the Sandwich Islands. The equipages are as
  12683. varied as the company and attract as much attention, especially the low
  12684. basket barouches in which ladies drive themselves, with a pair of
  12685. dashing ponies, gay nets to keep their voluminous flounces from
  12686. overflowing the diminutive vehicles, and little grooms on the perch
  12687. behind.
  12688. Along this walk, on Christmas Day, a tall young man walked slowly, with
  12689. his hands behind him, and a somewhat absent expression of countenance.
  12690. He looked like an Italian, was dressed like an Englishman, and had the
  12691. independent air of an American--a combination which caused sundry pairs
  12692. of feminine eyes to look approvingly after him, and sundry dandies in
  12693. black velvet suits, with rose-colored neckties, buff gloves, and orange
  12694. flowers in their buttonholes, to shrug their shoulders, and then envy
  12695. him his inches. There were plenty of pretty faces to admire, but the
  12696. young man took little notice of them, except to glance now and then at
  12697. some blonde girl in blue. Presently he strolled out of the promenade
  12698. and stood a moment at the crossing, as if undecided whether to go and
  12699. listen to the band in the Jardin Publique, or to wander along the beach
  12700. toward Castle Hill. The quick trot of ponies' feet made him look up,
  12701. as one of the little carriages, containing a single young lady, came
  12702. rapidly down the street. The lady was young, blonde, and dressed in
  12703. blue. He stared a minute, then his whole face woke up, and, waving his
  12704. hat like a boy, he hurried forward to meet her.
  12705. "Oh, Laurie, is it really you? I thought you'd never come!" cried Amy,
  12706. dropping the reins and holding out both hands, to the great
  12707. scandalization of a French mamma, who hastened her daughter's steps,
  12708. lest she should be demoralized by beholding the free manners of these
  12709. 'mad English'.
  12710. "I was detained by the way, but I promised to spend Christmas with you,
  12711. and here I am."
  12712. "How is your grandfather? When did you come? Where are you staying?"
  12713. "Very well--last night--at the Chauvain. I called at your hotel, but
  12714. you were out."
  12715. "I have so much to say, I don't know where to begin! Get in and we can
  12716. talk at our ease. I was going for a drive and longing for company.
  12717. Flo's saving up for tonight."
  12718. "What happens then, a ball?"
  12719. "A Christmas party at our hotel. There are many Americans there, and
  12720. they give it in honor of the day. You'll go with us, of course? Aunt
  12721. will be charmed."
  12722. "Thank you. Where now?" asked Laurie, leaning back and folding his
  12723. arms, a proceeding which suited Amy, who preferred to drive, for her
  12724. parasol whip and blue reins over the white ponies' backs afforded her
  12725. infinite satisfaction.
  12726. "I'm going to the bankers first for letters, and then to Castle Hill.
  12727. The view is so lovely, and I like to feed the peacocks. Have you ever
  12728. been there?"
  12729. "Often, years ago, but I don't mind having a look at it."
  12730. "Now tell me all about yourself. The last I heard of you, your
  12731. grandfather wrote that he expected you from Berlin."
  12732. "Yes, I spent a month there and then joined him in Paris, where he has
  12733. settled for the winter. He has friends there and finds plenty to amuse
  12734. him, so I go and come, and we get on capitally."
  12735. "That's a sociable arrangement," said Amy, missing something in
  12736. Laurie's manner, though she couldn't tell what.
  12737. "Why, you see, he hates to travel, and I hate to keep still, so we each
  12738. suit ourselves, and there is no trouble. I am often with him, and he
  12739. enjoys my adventures, while I like to feel that someone is glad to see
  12740. me when I get back from my wanderings. Dirty old hole, isn't it?" he
  12741. added, with a look of disgust as they drove along the boulevard to the
  12742. Place Napoleon in the old city.
  12743. "The dirt is picturesque, so I don't mind. The river and the hills are
  12744. delicious, and these glimpses of the narrow cross streets are my
  12745. delight. Now we shall have to wait for that procession to pass. It's
  12746. going to the Church of St. John."
  12747. While Laurie listlessly watched the procession of priests under their
  12748. canopies, white-veiled nuns bearing lighted tapers, and some
  12749. brotherhood in blue chanting as they walked, Amy watched him, and felt
  12750. a new sort of shyness steal over her, for he was changed, and she could
  12751. not find the merry-faced boy she left in the moody-looking man beside
  12752. her. He was handsomer than ever and greatly improved, she thought, but
  12753. now that the flush of pleasure at meeting her was over, he looked tired
  12754. and spiritless--not sick, nor exactly unhappy, but older and graver
  12755. than a year or two of prosperous life should have made him. She
  12756. couldn't understand it and did not venture to ask questions, so she
  12757. shook her head and touched up her ponies, as the procession wound away
  12758. across the arches of the Paglioni bridge and vanished in the church.
  12759. "Que pensez-vous?" she said, airing her French, which had improved in
  12760. quantity, if not in quality, since she came abroad.
  12761. "That mademoiselle has made good use of her time, and the result is
  12762. charming," replied Laurie, bowing with his hand on his heart and an
  12763. admiring look.
  12764. She blushed with pleasure, but somehow the compliment did not satisfy
  12765. her like the blunt praises he used to give her at home, when he
  12766. promenaded round her on festival occasions, and told her she was
  12767. 'altogether jolly', with a hearty smile and an approving pat on the
  12768. head. She didn't like the new tone, for though not blase, it sounded
  12769. indifferent in spite of the look.
  12770. "If that's the way he's going to grow up, I wish he'd stay a boy," she
  12771. thought, with a curious sense of disappointment and discomfort, trying
  12772. meantime to seem quite easy and gay.
  12773. At Avigdor's she found the precious home letters and, giving the reins
  12774. to Laurie, read them luxuriously as they wound up the shady road
  12775. between green hedges, where tea roses bloomed as freshly as in June.
  12776. "Beth is very poorly, Mother says. I often think I ought to go home,
  12777. but they all say 'stay'. So I do, for I shall never have another
  12778. chance like this," said Amy, looking sober over one page.
  12779. "I think you are right, there. You could do nothing at home, and it is
  12780. a great comfort to them to know that you are well and happy, and
  12781. enjoying so much, my dear."
  12782. He drew a little nearer, and looked more like his old self as he said
  12783. that, and the fear that sometimes weighed on Amy's heart was lightened,
  12784. for the look, the act, the brotherly 'my dear', seemed to assure her
  12785. that if any trouble did come, she would not be alone in a strange land.
  12786. Presently she laughed and showed him a small sketch of Jo in her
  12787. scribbling suit, with the bow rampantly erect upon her cap, and issuing
  12788. from her mouth the words, 'Genius burns!'.
  12789. Laurie smiled, took it, put it in his vest pocket 'to keep it from
  12790. blowing away', and listened with interest to the lively letter Amy read
  12791. him.
  12792. "This will be a regularly merry Christmas to me, with presents in the
  12793. morning, you and letters in the afternoon, and a party at night," said
  12794. Amy, as they alighted among the ruins of the old fort, and a flock of
  12795. splendid peacocks came trooping about them, tamely waiting to be fed.
  12796. While Amy stood laughing on the bank above him as she scattered crumbs
  12797. to the brilliant birds, Laurie looked at her as she had looked at him,
  12798. with a natural curiosity to see what changes time and absence had
  12799. wrought. He found nothing to perplex or disappoint, much to admire and
  12800. approve, for overlooking a few little affectations of speech and
  12801. manner, she was as sprightly and graceful as ever, with the addition of
  12802. that indescribable something in dress and bearing which we call
  12803. elegance. Always mature for her age, she had gained a certain aplomb
  12804. in both carriage and conversation, which made her seem more of a woman
  12805. of the world than she was, but her old petulance now and then showed
  12806. itself, her strong will still held its own, and her native frankness
  12807. was unspoiled by foreign polish.
  12808. Laurie did not read all this while he watched her feed the peacocks,
  12809. but he saw enough to satisfy and interest him, and carried away a
  12810. pretty little picture of a bright-faced girl standing in the sunshine,
  12811. which brought out the soft hue of her dress, the fresh color of her
  12812. cheeks, the golden gloss of her hair, and made her a prominent figure
  12813. in the pleasant scene.
  12814. As they came up onto the stone plateau that crowns the hill, Amy waved
  12815. her hand as if welcoming him to her favorite haunt, and said, pointing
  12816. here and there, "Do you remember the Cathedral and the Corso, the
  12817. fishermen dragging their nets in the bay, and the lovely road to Villa
  12818. Franca, Schubert's Tower, just below, and best of all, that speck far
  12819. out to sea which they say is Corsica?"
  12820. "I remember. It's not much changed," he answered without enthusiasm.
  12821. "What Jo would give for a sight of that famous speck!" said Amy,
  12822. feeling in good spirits and anxious to see him so also.
  12823. "Yes," was all he said, but he turned and strained his eyes to see the
  12824. island which a greater usurper than even Napoleon now made interesting
  12825. in his sight.
  12826. "Take a good look at it for her sake, and then come and tell me what
  12827. you have been doing with yourself all this while," said Amy, seating
  12828. herself, ready for a good talk.
  12829. But she did not get it, for though he joined her and answered all her
  12830. questions freely, she could only learn that he had roved about the
  12831. Continent and been to Greece. So after idling away an hour, they drove
  12832. home again, and having paid his respects to Mrs. Carrol, Laurie left
  12833. them, promising to return in the evening.
  12834. It must be recorded of Amy that she deliberately prinked that night.
  12835. Time and absence had done its work on both the young people. She had
  12836. seen her old friend in a new light, not as 'our boy', but as a handsome
  12837. and agreeable man, and she was conscious of a very natural desire to
  12838. find favor in his sight. Amy knew her good points, and made the most
  12839. of them with the taste and skill which is a fortune to a poor and
  12840. pretty woman.
  12841. Tarlatan and tulle were cheap at Nice, so she enveloped herself in them
  12842. on such occasions, and following the sensible English fashion of simple
  12843. dress for young girls, got up charming little toilettes with fresh
  12844. flowers, a few trinkets, and all manner of dainty devices, which were
  12845. both inexpensive and effective. It must be confessed that the artist
  12846. sometimes got possession of the woman, and indulged in antique
  12847. coiffures, statuesque attitudes, and classic draperies. But, dear
  12848. heart, we all have our little weaknesses, and find it easy to pardon
  12849. such in the young, who satisfy our eyes with their comeliness, and keep
  12850. our hearts merry with their artless vanities.
  12851. "I do want him to think I look well, and tell them so at home," said
  12852. Amy to herself, as she put on Flo's old white silk ball dress, and
  12853. covered it with a cloud of fresh illusion, out of which her white
  12854. shoulders and golden head emerged with a most artistic effect. Her hair
  12855. she had the sense to let alone, after gathering up the thick waves and
  12856. curls into a Hebe-like knot at the back of her head.
  12857. "It's not the fashion, but it's becoming, and I can't afford to make a
  12858. fright of myself," she used to say, when advised to frizzle, puff, or
  12859. braid, as the latest style commanded.
  12860. Having no ornaments fine enough for this important occasion, Amy looped
  12861. her fleecy skirts with rosy clusters of azalea, and framed the white
  12862. shoulders in delicate green vines. Remembering the painted boots, she
  12863. surveyed her white satin slippers with girlish satisfaction, and
  12864. chassed down the room, admiring her aristocratic feet all by herself.
  12865. "My new fan just matches my flowers, my gloves fit to a charm, and the
  12866. real lace on Aunt's mouchoir gives an air to my whole dress. If I only
  12867. had a classical nose and mouth I should be perfectly happy," she said,
  12868. surveying herself with a critical eye and a candle in each hand.
  12869. In spite of this affliction, she looked unusually gay and graceful as
  12870. she glided away. She seldom ran--it did not suit her style, she
  12871. thought, for being tall, the stately and Junoesque was more appropriate
  12872. than the sportive or piquante. She walked up and down the long saloon
  12873. while waiting for Laurie, and once arranged herself under the
  12874. chandelier, which had a good effect upon her hair, then she thought
  12875. better of it, and went away to the other end of the room, as if ashamed
  12876. of the girlish desire to have the first view a propitious one. It so
  12877. happened that she could not have done a better thing, for Laurie came
  12878. in so quietly she did not hear him, and as she stood at the distant
  12879. window, with her head half turned and one hand gathering up her dress,
  12880. the slender, white figure against the red curtains was as effective as
  12881. a well-placed statue.
  12882. "Good evening, Diana!" said Laurie, with the look of satisfaction she
  12883. liked to see in his eyes when they rested on her.
  12884. "Good evening, Apollo!" she answered, smiling back at him, for he too
  12885. looked unusually debonair, and the thought of entering the ballroom on
  12886. the arm of such a personable man caused Amy to pity the four plain
  12887. Misses Davis from the bottom of her heart.
  12888. "Here are your flowers. I arranged them myself, remembering that you
  12889. didn't like what Hannah calls a 'sot-bookay'," said Laurie, handing her
  12890. a delicate nosegay, in a holder that she had long coveted as she daily
  12891. passed it in Cardiglia's window.
  12892. "How kind you are!" she exclaimed gratefully. "If I'd known you were
  12893. coming I'd have had something ready for you today, though not as pretty
  12894. as this, I'm afraid."
  12895. "Thank you. It isn't what it should be, but you have improved it," he
  12896. added, as she snapped the silver bracelet on her wrist.
  12897. "Please don't."
  12898. "I thought you liked that sort of thing."
  12899. "Not from you, it doesn't sound natural, and I like your old bluntness
  12900. better."
  12901. "I'm glad of it," he answered, with a look of relief, then buttoned her
  12902. gloves for her, and asked if his tie was straight, just as he used to
  12903. do when they went to parties together at home.
  12904. The company assembled in the long salle a manger, that evening, was
  12905. such as one sees nowhere but on the Continent. The hospitable
  12906. Americans had invited every acquaintance they had in Nice, and having
  12907. no prejudice against titles, secured a few to add luster to their
  12908. Christmas ball.
  12909. A Russian prince condescended to sit in a corner for an hour and talk
  12910. with a massive lady, dressed like Hamlet's mother in black velvet with
  12911. a pearl bridle under her chin. A Polish count, aged eighteen, devoted
  12912. himself to the ladies, who pronounced him, 'a fascinating dear', and a
  12913. German Serene Something, having come to supper alone, roamed vaguely
  12914. about, seeking what he might devour. Baron Rothschild's private
  12915. secretary, a large-nosed Jew in tight boots, affably beamed upon the
  12916. world, as if his master's name crowned him with a golden halo. A stout
  12917. Frenchman, who knew the Emperor, came to indulge his mania for dancing,
  12918. and Lady de Jones, a British matron, adorned the scene with her little
  12919. family of eight. Of course, there were many light-footed,
  12920. shrill-voiced American girls, handsome, lifeless-looking English ditto,
  12921. and a few plain but piquante French demoiselles, likewise the usual set
  12922. of traveling young gentlemen who disported themselves gaily, while
  12923. mammas of all nations lined the walls and smiled upon them benignly
  12924. when they danced with their daughters.
  12925. Any young girl can imagine Amy's state of mind when she 'took the
  12926. stage' that night, leaning on Laurie's arm. She knew she looked well,
  12927. she loved to dance, she felt that her foot was on her native heath in a
  12928. ballroom, and enjoyed the delightful sense of power which comes when
  12929. young girls first discover the new and lovely kingdom they are born to
  12930. rule by virtue of beauty, youth, and womanhood. She did pity the Davis
  12931. girls, who were awkward, plain, and destitute of escort, except a grim
  12932. papa and three grimmer maiden aunts, and she bowed to them in her
  12933. friendliest manner as she passed, which was good of her, as it
  12934. permitted them to see her dress, and burn with curiosity to know who
  12935. her distinguished-looking friend might be. With the first burst of the
  12936. band, Amy's color rose, her eyes began to sparkle, and her feet to tap
  12937. the floor impatiently, for she danced well and wanted Laurie to know
  12938. it. Therefore the shock she received can better be imagined than
  12939. described, when he said in a perfectly tranquil tone, "Do you care to
  12940. dance?"
  12941. "One usually does at a ball."
  12942. Her amazed look and quick answer caused Laurie to repair his error as
  12943. fast as possible.
  12944. "I meant the first dance. May I have the honor?"
  12945. "I can give you one if I put off the Count. He dances divinely, but he
  12946. will excuse me, as you are an old friend," said Amy, hoping that the
  12947. name would have a good effect, and show Laurie that she was not to be
  12948. trifled with.
  12949. "Nice little boy, but rather a short Pole to support...
  12950. A daughter of the gods,
  12951. Devinely tall, and most divinely fair,"
  12952. was all the satisfaction she got, however.
  12953. The set in which they found themselves was composed of English, and Amy
  12954. was compelled to walk decorously through a cotillion, feeling all the
  12955. while as if she could dance the tarantella with relish. Laurie
  12956. resigned her to the 'nice little boy', and went to do his duty to Flo,
  12957. without securing Amy for the joys to come, which reprehensible want of
  12958. forethought was properly punished, for she immediately engaged herself
  12959. till supper, meaning to relent if he then gave any signs penitence. She
  12960. showed him her ball book with demure satisfaction when he strolled
  12961. instead of rushed up to claim her for the next, a glorious polka
  12962. redowa. But his polite regrets didn't impose upon her, and when she
  12963. galloped away with the Count, she saw Laurie sit down by her aunt with
  12964. an actual expression of relief.
  12965. That was unpardonable, and Amy took no more notice of him for a long
  12966. while, except a word now and then when she came to her chaperon between
  12967. the dances for a necessary pin or a moment's rest. Her anger had a
  12968. good effect, however, for she hid it under a smiling face, and seemed
  12969. unusually blithe and brilliant. Laurie's eyes followed her with
  12970. pleasure, for she neither romped nor sauntered, but danced with spirit
  12971. and grace, making the delightsome pastime what it should be. He very
  12972. naturally fell to studying her from this new point of view, and before
  12973. the evening was half over, had decided that 'little Amy was going to
  12974. make a very charming woman'.
  12975. It was a lively scene, for soon the spirit of the social season took
  12976. possession of everyone, and Christmas merriment made all faces shine,
  12977. hearts happy, and heels light. The musicians fiddled, tooted, and
  12978. banged as if they enjoyed it, everybody danced who could, and those who
  12979. couldn't admired their neighbors with uncommon warmth. The air was
  12980. dark with Davises, and many Joneses gamboled like a flock of young
  12981. giraffes. The golden secretary darted through the room like a meteor
  12982. with a dashing French-woman who carpeted the floor with her pink satin
  12983. train. The serene Teuton found the supper-table and was happy, eating
  12984. steadily through the bill of fare, and dismayed the garcons by the
  12985. ravages he committed. But the Emperor's friend covered himself with
  12986. glory, for he danced everything, whether he knew it or not, and
  12987. introduced impromptu pirouettes when the figures bewildered him. The
  12988. boyish abandon of that stout man was charming to behold, for though he
  12989. 'carried weight', he danced like an India-rubber ball. He ran, he
  12990. flew, he pranced, his face glowed, his bald head shown, his coattails
  12991. waved wildly, his pumps actually twinkled in the air, and when the
  12992. music stopped, he wiped the drops from his brow, and beamed upon his
  12993. fellow men like a French Pickwick without glasses.
  12994. Amy and her Pole distinguished themselves by equal enthusiasm but more
  12995. graceful agility, and Laurie found himself involuntarily keeping time
  12996. to the rhythmic rise and fall of the white slippers as they flew by as
  12997. indefatigably as if winged. When little Vladimir finally relinquished
  12998. her, with assurances that he was 'desolated to leave so early', she was
  12999. ready to rest, and see how her recreant knight had borne his punishment.
  13000. It had been successful, for at three-and-twenty, blighted affections
  13001. find a balm in friendly society, and young nerves will thrill, young
  13002. blood dance, and healthy young spirits rise, when subjected to the
  13003. enchantment of beauty, light, music, and motion. Laurie had a waked-up
  13004. look as he rose to give her his seat, and when he hurried away to bring
  13005. her some supper, she said to herself, with a satisfied smile, "Ah, I
  13006. thought that would do him good!"
  13007. "You look like Balzac's '_Femme Peinte Par Elle-Meme_'," he said, as he
  13008. fanned her with one hand and held her coffee cup in the other.
  13009. "My rouge won't come off." and Amy rubbed her brilliant cheek, and
  13010. showed him her white glove with a sober simplicity that made him laugh
  13011. outright.
  13012. "What do you call this stuff?" he asked, touching a fold of her dress
  13013. that had blown over his knee.
  13014. "Illusion."
  13015. "Good name for it. It's very pretty--new thing, isn't it?"
  13016. "It's as old as the hills. You have seen it on dozens of girls, and
  13017. you never found out that it was pretty till now--stupide!"
  13018. "I never saw it on you before, which accounts for the mistake, you see."
  13019. "None of that, it is forbidden. I'd rather take coffee than
  13020. compliments just now. No, don't lounge, it makes me nervous."
  13021. Laurie sat bold upright, and meekly took her empty plate feeling an odd
  13022. sort of pleasure in having 'little Amy' order him about, for she had
  13023. lost her shyness now, and felt an irrestible desire to trample on him,
  13024. as girls have a delightful way of doing when lords of creation show any
  13025. signs of subjection.
  13026. "Where did you learn all this sort of thing?" he asked with a quizzical
  13027. look.
  13028. "As 'this sort of thing' is rather a vague expression, would you kindly
  13029. explain?" returned Amy, knowing perfectly well what he meant, but
  13030. wickedly leaving him to describe what is indescribable.
  13031. "Well--the general air, the style, the self-possession,
  13032. the--the--illusion--you know", laughed Laurie, breaking down and
  13033. helping himself out of his quandary with the new word.
  13034. Amy was gratified, but of course didn't show it, and demurely answered,
  13035. "Foreign life polishes one in spite of one's self. I study as well as
  13036. play, and as for this"--with a little gesture toward her dress--"why,
  13037. tulle is cheap, posies to be had for nothing, and I am used to making
  13038. the most of my poor little things."
  13039. Amy rather regretted that last sentence, fearing it wasn't in good
  13040. taste, but Laurie liked her better for it, and found himself both
  13041. admiring and respecting the brave patience that made the most of
  13042. opportunity, and the cheerful spirit that covered poverty with flowers.
  13043. Amy did not know why he looked at her so kindly, nor why he filled up
  13044. her book with his own name, and devoted himself to her for the rest of
  13045. the evening in the most delightful manner; but the impulse that wrought
  13046. this agreeable change was the result of one of the new impressions
  13047. which both of them were unconsciously giving and receiving.
  13048. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  13049. ON THE SHELF
  13050. In France the young girls have a dull time of it till they are married,
  13051. when 'Vive la liberte!' becomes their motto. In America, as everyone
  13052. knows, girls early sign the declaration of independence, and enjoy
  13053. their freedom with republican zest, but the young matrons usually
  13054. abdicate with the first heir to the throne and go into a seclusion
  13055. almost as close as a French nunnery, though by no means as quiet.
  13056. Whether they like it or not, they are virtually put upon the shelf as
  13057. soon as the wedding excitement is over, and most of them might exclaim,
  13058. as did a very pretty woman the other day, "I'm as handsome as ever, but
  13059. no one takes any notice of me because I'm married."
  13060. Not being a belle or even a fashionable lady, Meg did not experience
  13061. this affliction till her babies were a year old, for in her little
  13062. world primitive customs prevailed, and she found herself more admired
  13063. and beloved than ever.
  13064. As she was a womanly little woman, the maternal instinct was very
  13065. strong, and she was entirely absorbed in her children, to the utter
  13066. exclusion of everything and everybody else. Day and night she brooded
  13067. over them with tireless devotion and anxiety, leaving John to the
  13068. tender mercies of the help, for an Irish lady now presided over the
  13069. kitchen department. Being a domestic man, John decidedly missed the
  13070. wifely attentions he had been accustomed to receive, but as he adored
  13071. his babies, he cheerfully relinquished his comfort for a time,
  13072. supposing with masculine ignorance that peace would soon be restored.
  13073. But three months passed, and there was no return of repose. Meg looked
  13074. worn and nervous, the babies absorbed every minute of her time, the
  13075. house was neglected, and Kitty, the cook, who took life 'aisy', kept
  13076. him on short commons. When he went out in the morning he was
  13077. bewildered by small commissions for the captive mamma, if he came gaily
  13078. in at night, eager to embrace his family, he was quenched by a "Hush!
  13079. They are just asleep after worrying all day." If he proposed a little
  13080. amusement at home, "No, it would disturb the babies." If he hinted at
  13081. a lecture or a concert, he was answered with a reproachful look, and a
  13082. decided--"Leave my children for pleasure, never!" His sleep was broken
  13083. by infant wails and visions of a phantom figure pacing noiselessly to
  13084. and fro in the watches of the night. His meals were interrupted by the
  13085. frequent flight of the presiding genius, who deserted him, half-helped,
  13086. if a muffled chirp sounded from the nest above. And when he read his
  13087. paper of an evening, Demi's colic got into the shipping list and
  13088. Daisy's fall affected the price of stocks, for Mrs. Brooke was only
  13089. interested in domestic news.
  13090. The poor man was very uncomfortable, for the children had bereft him of
  13091. his wife, home was merely a nursery and the perpetual 'hushing' made
  13092. him feel like a brutal intruder whenever he entered the sacred
  13093. precincts of Babyland. He bore it very patiently for six months, and
  13094. when no signs of amendment appeared, he did what other paternal exiles
  13095. do--tried to get a little comfort elsewhere. Scott had married and
  13096. gone to housekeeping not far off, and John fell into the way of running
  13097. over for an hour or two of an evening, when his own parlor was empty,
  13098. and his own wife singing lullabies that seemed to have no end. Mrs.
  13099. Scott was a lively, pretty girl, with nothing to do but be agreeable,
  13100. and she performed her mission most successfully. The parlor was always
  13101. bright and attractive, the chessboard ready, the piano in tune, plenty
  13102. of gay gossip, and a nice little supper set forth in tempting style.
  13103. John would have preferred his own fireside if it had not been so
  13104. lonely, but as it was he gratefully took the next best thing and
  13105. enjoyed his neighbor's society.
  13106. Meg rather approved of the new arrangement at first, and found it a
  13107. relief to know that John was having a good time instead of dozing in
  13108. the parlor, or tramping about the house and waking the children. But
  13109. by-and-by, when the teething worry was over and the idols went to sleep
  13110. at proper hours, leaving Mamma time to rest, she began to miss John,
  13111. and find her workbasket dull company, when he was not sitting opposite
  13112. in his old dressing gown, comfortably scorching his slippers on the
  13113. fender. She would not ask him to stay at home, but felt injured
  13114. because he did not know that she wanted him without being told,
  13115. entirely forgetting the many evenings he had waited for her in vain.
  13116. She was nervous and worn out with watching and worry, and in that
  13117. unreasonable frame of mind which the best of mothers occasionally
  13118. experience when domestic cares oppress them. Want of exercise robs
  13119. them of cheerfulness, and too much devotion to that idol of American
  13120. women, the teapot, makes them feel as if they were all nerve and no
  13121. muscle.
  13122. "Yes," she would say, looking in the glass, "I'm getting old and ugly.
  13123. John doesn't find me interesting any longer, so he leaves his faded
  13124. wife and goes to see his pretty neighbor, who has no incumbrances.
  13125. Well, the babies love me, they don't care if I am thin and pale and
  13126. haven't time to crimp my hair, they are my comfort, and some day John
  13127. will see what I've gladly sacrificed for them, won't he, my precious?"
  13128. To which pathetic appeal Daisy would answer with a coo, or Demi with a
  13129. crow, and Meg would put by her lamentations for a maternal revel, which
  13130. soothed her solitude for the time being. But the pain increased as
  13131. politics absorbed John, who was always running over to discuss
  13132. interesting points with Scott, quite unconscious that Meg missed him.
  13133. Not a word did she say, however, till her mother found her in tears one
  13134. day, and insisted on knowing what the matter was, for Meg's drooping
  13135. spirits had not escaped her observation.
  13136. "I wouldn't tell anyone except you, Mother, but I really do need
  13137. advice, for if John goes on much longer I might as well be widowed,"
  13138. replied Mrs. Brooke, drying her tears on Daisy's bib with an injured
  13139. air.
  13140. "Goes on how, my dear?" asked her mother anxiously.
  13141. "He's away all day, and at night when I want to see him, he is
  13142. continually going over to the Scotts'. It isn't fair that I should
  13143. have the hardest work, and never any amusement. Men are very selfish,
  13144. even the best of them."
  13145. "So are women. Don't blame John till you see where you are wrong
  13146. yourself."
  13147. "But it can't be right for him to neglect me."
  13148. "Don't you neglect him?"
  13149. "Why, Mother, I thought you'd take my part!"
  13150. "So I do, as far as sympathizing goes, but I think the fault is yours,
  13151. Meg."
  13152. "I don't see how."
  13153. "Let me show you. Did John ever neglect you, as you call it, while you
  13154. made it a point to give him your society of an evening, his only
  13155. leisure time?"
  13156. "No, but I can't do it now, with two babies to tend."
  13157. "I think you could, dear, and I think you ought. May I speak quite
  13158. freely, and will you remember that it's Mother who blames as well as
  13159. Mother who sympathizes?"
  13160. "Indeed I will! Speak to me as if I were little Meg again. I often
  13161. feel as if I needed teaching more than ever since these babies look to
  13162. me for everything."
  13163. Meg drew her low chair beside her mother's, and with a little
  13164. interruption in either lap, the two women rocked and talked lovingly
  13165. together, feeling that the tie of motherhood made them more one than
  13166. ever.
  13167. "You have only made the mistake that most young wives make--forgotten
  13168. your duty to your husband in your love for your children. A very
  13169. natural and forgivable mistake, Meg, but one that had better be
  13170. remedied before you take to different ways, for children should draw
  13171. you nearer than ever, not separate you, as if they were all yours, and
  13172. John had nothing to do but support them. I've seen it for some weeks,
  13173. but have not spoken, feeling sure it would come right in time."
  13174. "I'm afraid it won't. If I ask him to stay, he'll think I'm jealous,
  13175. and I wouldn't insult him by such an idea. He doesn't see that I want
  13176. him, and I don't know how to tell him without words."
  13177. "Make it so pleasant he won't want to go away. My dear, he's longing
  13178. for his little home, but it isn't home without you, and you are always
  13179. in the nursery."
  13180. "Oughtn't I to be there?"
  13181. "Not all the time, too much confinement makes you nervous, and then you
  13182. are unfitted for everything. Besides, you owe something to John as
  13183. well as to the babies. Don't neglect husband for children, don't shut
  13184. him out of the nursery, but teach him how to help in it. His place is
  13185. there as well as yours, and the children need him. Let him feel that
  13186. he has a part to do, and he will do it gladly and faithfully, and it
  13187. will be better for you all."
  13188. "You really think so, Mother?"
  13189. "I know it, Meg, for I've tried it, and I seldom give advice unless
  13190. I've proved its practicability. When you and Jo were little, I went on
  13191. just as you are, feeling as if I didn't do my duty unless I devoted
  13192. myself wholly to you. Poor Father took to his books, after I had
  13193. refused all offers of help, and left me to try my experiment alone. I
  13194. struggled along as well as I could, but Jo was too much for me. I
  13195. nearly spoiled her by indulgence. You were poorly, and I worried about
  13196. you till I fell sick myself. Then Father came to the rescue, quietly
  13197. managed everything, and made himself so helpful that I saw my mistake,
  13198. and never have been able to get on without him since. That is the
  13199. secret of our home happiness. He does not let business wean him from
  13200. the little cares and duties that affect us all, and I try not to let
  13201. domestic worries destroy my interest in his pursuits. Each do our part
  13202. alone in many things, but at home we work together, always."
  13203. "It is so, Mother, and my great wish is to be to my husband and
  13204. children what you have been to yours. Show me how, I'll do anything
  13205. you say."
  13206. "You always were my docile daughter. Well, dear, if I were you, I'd
  13207. let John have more to do with the management of Demi, for the boy needs
  13208. training, and it's none too soon to begin. Then I'd do what I have
  13209. often proposed, let Hannah come and help you. She is a capital nurse,
  13210. and you may trust the precious babies to her while you do more
  13211. housework. You need the exercise, Hannah would enjoy the rest, and
  13212. John would find his wife again. Go out more, keep cheerful as well as
  13213. busy, for you are the sunshine-maker of the family, and if you get
  13214. dismal there is no fair weather. Then I'd try to take an interest in
  13215. whatever John likes--talk with him, let him read to you, exchange
  13216. ideas, and help each other in that way. Don't shut yourself up in a
  13217. bandbox because you are a woman, but understand what is going on, and
  13218. educate yourself to take your part in the world's work, for it all
  13219. affects you and yours."
  13220. "John is so sensible, I'm afraid he will think I'm stupid if I ask
  13221. questions about politics and things."
  13222. "I don't believe he would. Love covers a multitude of sins, and of
  13223. whom could you ask more freely than of him? Try it, and see if he
  13224. doesn't find your society far more agreeable than Mrs. Scott's suppers."
  13225. "I will. Poor John! I'm afraid I have neglected him sadly, but I
  13226. thought I was right, and he never said anything."
  13227. "He tried not to be selfish, but he has felt rather forlorn, I fancy.
  13228. This is just the time, Meg, when young married people are apt to grow
  13229. apart, and the very time when they ought to be most together, for the
  13230. first tenderness soon wears off, unless care is taken to preserve it.
  13231. And no time is so beautiful and precious to parents as the first years
  13232. of the little lives given to them to train. Don't let John be a
  13233. stranger to the babies, for they will do more to keep him safe and
  13234. happy in this world of trial and temptation than anything else, and
  13235. through them you will learn to know and love one another as you should.
  13236. Now, dear, good-by. Think over Mother's preachment, act upon it if it
  13237. seems good, and God bless you all."
  13238. Meg did think it over, found it good, and acted upon it, though the
  13239. first attempt was not made exactly as she planned to have it. Of
  13240. course the children tyrannized over her, and ruled the house as soon as
  13241. they found out that kicking and squalling brought them whatever they
  13242. wanted. Mamma was an abject slave to their caprices, but Papa was not
  13243. so easily subjugated, and occasionally afflicted his tender spouse by
  13244. an attempt at paternal discipline with his obstreperous son. For Demi
  13245. inherited a trifle of his sire's firmness of character, we won't call
  13246. it obstinacy, and when he made up his little mind to have or to do
  13247. anything, all the king's horses and all the king's men could not change
  13248. that pertinacious little mind. Mamma thought the dear too young to be
  13249. taught to conquer his prejudices, but Papa believed that it never was
  13250. too soon to learn obedience. So Master Demi early discovered that when
  13251. he undertook to 'wrastle' with 'Parpar', he always got the worst of it,
  13252. yet like the Englishman, baby respected the man who conquered him, and
  13253. loved the father whose grave "No, no," was more impressive than all
  13254. Mamma's love pats.
  13255. A few days after the talk with her mother, Meg resolved to try a social
  13256. evening with John, so she ordered a nice supper, set the parlor in
  13257. order, dressed herself prettily, and put the children to bed early,
  13258. that nothing should interfere with her experiment. But unfortunately
  13259. Demi's most unconquerable prejudice was against going to bed, and that
  13260. night he decided to go on a rampage. So poor Meg sang and rocked, told
  13261. stories and tried every sleep-prevoking wile she could devise, but all
  13262. in vain, the big eyes wouldn't shut, and long after Daisy had gone to
  13263. byelow, like the chubby little bunch of good nature she was, naughty
  13264. Demi lay staring at the light, with the most discouragingly wide-awake
  13265. expression of countenance.
  13266. "Will Demi lie still like a good boy, while Mamma runs down and gives
  13267. poor Papa his tea?" asked Meg, as the hall door softly closed, and the
  13268. well-known step went tip-toeing into the dining room.
  13269. "Me has tea!" said Demi, preparing to join in the revel.
  13270. "No, but I'll save you some little cakies for breakfast, if you'll go
  13271. bye-bye like Daisy. Will you, lovey?"
  13272. "Iss!" and Demi shut his eyes tight, as if to catch sleep and hurry the
  13273. desired day.
  13274. Taking advantage of the propitious moment, Meg slipped away and ran
  13275. down to greet her husband with a smiling face and the little blue bow
  13276. in her hair which was his especial admiration. He saw it at once and
  13277. said with pleased surprise, "Why, little mother, how gay we are
  13278. tonight. Do you expect company?"
  13279. "Only you, dear."
  13280. "Is it a birthday, anniversary, or anything?"
  13281. "No, I'm tired of being dowdy, so I dressed up as a change. You always
  13282. make yourself nice for table, no matter how tired you are, so why
  13283. shouldn't I when I have the time?"
  13284. "I do it out of respect for you, my dear," said old-fashioned John.
  13285. "Ditto, ditto, Mr. Brooke," laughed Meg, looking young and pretty
  13286. again, as she nodded to him over the teapot.
  13287. "Well, it's altogether delightful, and like old times. This tastes
  13288. right. I drink your health, dear." and John sipped his tea with an air
  13289. of reposeful rapture, which was of very short duration however, for as
  13290. he put down his cup, the door handle rattled mysteriously, and a little
  13291. voice was heard, saying impatiently...
  13292. "Opy doy. Me's tummin!"
  13293. "It's that naughty boy. I told him to go to sleep alone, and here he
  13294. is, downstairs, getting his death a-cold pattering over that canvas,"
  13295. said Meg, answering the call.
  13296. "Mornin' now," announced Demi in joyful tone as he entered, with his
  13297. long nightgown gracefully festooned over his arm and every curl bobbing
  13298. gayly as he pranced about the table, eyeing the 'cakies' with loving
  13299. glances.
  13300. "No, it isn't morning yet. You must go to bed, and not trouble poor
  13301. Mamma. Then you can have the little cake with sugar on it."
  13302. "Me loves Parpar," said the artful one, preparing to climb the paternal
  13303. knee and revel in forbidden joys. But John shook his head, and said to
  13304. Meg...
  13305. "If you told him to stay up there, and go to sleep alone, make him do
  13306. it, or he will never learn to mind you."
  13307. "Yes, of course. Come, Demi," and Meg led her son away, feeling a
  13308. strong desire to spank the little marplot who hopped beside her,
  13309. laboring under the delusion that the bribe was to be administered as
  13310. soon as they reached the nursery.
  13311. Nor was he disappointed, for that shortsighted woman actually gave him
  13312. a lump of sugar, tucked him into his bed, and forbade any more
  13313. promenades till morning.
  13314. "Iss!" said Demi the perjured, blissfully sucking his sugar, and
  13315. regarding his first attempt as eminently successful.
  13316. Meg returned to her place, and supper was progressing pleasantly, when
  13317. the little ghost walked again, and exposed the maternal delinquencies
  13318. by boldly demanding, "More sudar, Marmar."
  13319. "Now this won't do," said John, hardening his heart against the
  13320. engaging little sinner. "We shall never know any peace till that child
  13321. learns to go to bed properly. You have made a slave of yourself long
  13322. enough. Give him one lesson, and then there will be an end of it. Put
  13323. him in his bed and leave him, Meg."
  13324. "He won't stay there, he never does unless I sit by him."
  13325. "I'll manage him. Demi, go upstairs, and get into your bed, as Mamma
  13326. bids you."
  13327. "S'ant!" replied the young rebel, helping himself to the coveted
  13328. 'cakie', and beginning to eat the same with calm audacity.
  13329. "You must never say that to Papa. I shall carry you if you don't go
  13330. yourself."
  13331. "Go 'way, me don't love Parpar." and Demi retired to his mother's
  13332. skirts for protection.
  13333. But even that refuge proved unavailing, for he was delivered over to
  13334. the enemy, with a "Be gentle with him, John," which struck the culprit
  13335. with dismay, for when Mamma deserted him, then the judgment day was at
  13336. hand. Bereft of his cake, defrauded of his frolic, and borne away by a
  13337. strong hand to that detested bed, poor Demi could not restrain his
  13338. wrath, but openly defied Papa, and kicked and screamed lustily all the
  13339. way upstairs. The minute he was put into bed on one side, he rolled
  13340. out on the other, and made for the door, only to be ignominiously
  13341. caught up by the tail of his little toga and put back again, which
  13342. lively performance was kept up till the young man's strength gave out,
  13343. when he devoted himself to roaring at the top of his voice. This vocal
  13344. exercise usually conquered Meg, but John sat as unmoved as the post
  13345. which is popularly believed to be deaf. No coaxing, no sugar, no
  13346. lullaby, no story, even the light was put out and only the red glow of
  13347. the fire enlivened the 'big dark' which Demi regarded with curiosity
  13348. rather than fear. This new order of things disgusted him, and he
  13349. howled dismally for 'Marmar', as his angry passions subsided, and
  13350. recollections of his tender bondwoman returned to the captive autocrat.
  13351. The plaintive wail which succeeded the passionate roar went to Meg's
  13352. heart, and she ran up to say beseechingly...
  13353. "Let me stay with him, he'll be good now, John."
  13354. "No, my dear. I've told him he must go to sleep, as you bid him, and
  13355. he must, if I stay here all night."
  13356. "But he'll cry himself sick," pleaded Meg, reproaching herself for
  13357. deserting her boy.
  13358. "No, he won't, he's so tired he will soon drop off and then the matter
  13359. is settled, for he will understand that he has got to mind. Don't
  13360. interfere, I'll manage him."
  13361. "He's my child, and I can't have his spirit broken by harshness."
  13362. "He's my child, and I won't have his temper spoiled by indulgence. Go
  13363. down, my dear, and leave the boy to me."
  13364. When John spoke in that masterful tone, Meg always obeyed, and never
  13365. regretted her docility.
  13366. "Please let me kiss him once, John?"
  13367. "Certainly. Demi, say good night to Mamma, and let her go and rest,
  13368. for she is very tired with taking care of you all day."
  13369. Meg always insisted upon it that the kiss won the victory, for after it
  13370. was given, Demi sobbed more quietly, and lay quite still at the bottom
  13371. of the bed, whither he had wriggled in his anguish of mind.
  13372. "Poor little man, he's worn out with sleep and crying. I'll cover him
  13373. up, and then go and set Meg's heart at rest," thought John, creeping to
  13374. the bedside, hoping to find his rebellious heir asleep.
  13375. But he wasn't, for the moment his father peeped at him, Demi's eyes
  13376. opened, his little chin began to quiver, and he put up his arms, saying
  13377. with a penitent hiccough, "Me's dood, now."
  13378. Sitting on the stairs outside Meg wondered at the long silence which
  13379. followed the uproar, and after imagining all sorts of impossible
  13380. accidents, she slipped into the room to set her fears at rest. Demi
  13381. lay fast asleep, not in his usual spreadeagle attitude, but in a
  13382. subdued bunch, cuddled close in the circle of his father's arm and
  13383. holding his father's finger, as if he felt that justice was tempered
  13384. with mercy, and had gone to sleep a sadder and wiser baby. So held,
  13385. John had waited with a womanly patience till the little hand relaxed
  13386. its hold, and while waiting had fallen asleep, more tired by that
  13387. tussle with his son than with his whole day's work.
  13388. As Meg stood watching the two faces on the pillow, she smiled to
  13389. herself, and then slipped away again, saying in a satisfied tone, "I
  13390. never need fear that John will be too harsh with my babies. He does
  13391. know how to manage them, and will be a great help, for Demi is getting
  13392. too much for me."
  13393. When John came down at last, expecting to find a pensive or reproachful
  13394. wife, he was agreeably surprised to find Meg placidly trimming a
  13395. bonnet, and to be greeted with the request to read something about the
  13396. election, if he was not too tired. John saw in a minute that a
  13397. revolution of some kind was going on, but wisely asked no questions,
  13398. knowing that Meg was such a transparent little person, she couldn't
  13399. keep a secret to save her life, and therefore the clue would soon
  13400. appear. He read a long debate with the most amiable readiness and then
  13401. explained it in his most lucid manner, while Meg tried to look deeply
  13402. interested, to ask intelligent questions, and keep her thoughts from
  13403. wandering from the state of the nation to the state of her bonnet. In
  13404. her secret soul, however, she decided that politics were as bad as
  13405. mathematics, and that the mission of politicians seemed to be calling
  13406. each other names, but she kept these feminine ideas to herself, and
  13407. when John paused, shook her head and said with what she thought
  13408. diplomatic ambiguity, "Well, I really don't see what we are coming to."
  13409. John laughed, and watched her for a minute, as she poised a pretty
  13410. little preparation of lace and flowers on her hand, and regarded it
  13411. with the genuine interest which his harangue had failed to waken.
  13412. "She is trying to like politics for my sake, so I'll try and like
  13413. millinery for hers, that's only fair," thought John the Just, adding
  13414. aloud, "That's very pretty. Is it what you call a breakfast cap?"
  13415. "My dear man, it's a bonnet! My very best go-to-concert-and-theater
  13416. bonnet."
  13417. "I beg your pardon, it was so small, I naturally mistook it for one of
  13418. the flyaway things you sometimes wear. How do you keep it on?"
  13419. "These bits of lace are fastened under the chin with a rosebud, so,"
  13420. and Meg illustrated by putting on the bonnet and regarding him with an
  13421. air of calm satisfaction that was irresistible.
  13422. "It's a love of a bonnet, but I prefer the face inside, for it looks
  13423. young and happy again," and John kissed the smiling face, to the great
  13424. detriment of the rosebud under the chin.
  13425. "I'm glad you like it, for I want you to take me to one of the new
  13426. concerts some night. I really need some music to put me in tune. Will
  13427. you, please?"
  13428. "Of course I will, with all my heart, or anywhere else you like. You
  13429. have been shut up so long, it will do you no end of good, and I shall
  13430. enjoy it, of all things. What put it into your head, little mother?"
  13431. "Well, I had a talk with Marmee the other day, and told her how nervous
  13432. and cross and out of sorts I felt, and she said I needed change and
  13433. less care, so Hannah is to help me with the children, and I'm to see to
  13434. things about the house more, and now and then have a little fun, just
  13435. to keep me from getting to be a fidgety, broken-down old woman before
  13436. my time. It's only an experiment, John, and I want to try it for your
  13437. sake as much as for mine, because I've neglected you shamefully lately,
  13438. and I'm going to make home what it used to be, if I can. You don't
  13439. object, I hope?"
  13440. Never mind what John said, or what a very narrow escape the little
  13441. bonnet had from utter ruin. All that we have any business to know is
  13442. that John did not appear to object, judging from the changes which
  13443. gradually took place in the house and its inmates. It was not all
  13444. Paradise by any means, but everyone was better for the division of
  13445. labor system. The children throve under the paternal rule, for
  13446. accurate, steadfast John brought order and obedience into Babydom, while
  13447. Meg recovered her spirits and composed her nerves by plenty of
  13448. wholesome exercise, a little pleasure, and much confidential
  13449. conversation with her sensible husband. Home grew homelike again, and
  13450. John had no wish to leave it, unless he took Meg with him. The Scotts
  13451. came to the Brookes' now, and everyone found the little house a
  13452. cheerful place, full of happiness, content, and family love. Even
  13453. Sallie Moffatt liked to go there. "It is always so quiet and pleasant
  13454. here, it does me good, Meg," she used to say, looking about her with
  13455. wistful eyes, as if trying to discover the charm, that she might use it
  13456. in her great house, full of splendid loneliness, for there were no
  13457. riotous, sunny-faced babies there, and Ned lived in a world of his own,
  13458. where there was no place for her.
  13459. This household happiness did not come all at once, but John and Meg had
  13460. found the key to it, and each year of married life taught them how to
  13461. use it, unlocking the treasuries of real home love and mutual
  13462. helpfulness, which the poorest may possess, and the richest cannot buy.
  13463. This is the sort of shelf on which young wives and mothers may consent
  13464. to be laid, safe from the restless fret and fever of the world, finding
  13465. loyal lovers in the little sons and daughters who cling to them,
  13466. undaunted by sorrow, poverty, or age, walking side by side, through
  13467. fair and stormy weather, with a faithful friend, who is, in the true
  13468. sense of the good old Saxon word, the 'house-band', and learning, as
  13469. Meg learned, that a woman's happiest kingdom is home, her highest honor
  13470. the art of ruling it not as a queen, but as a wise wife and mother.
  13471. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  13472. LAZY LAURENCE
  13473. Laurie went to Nice intending to stay a week, and remained a month. He
  13474. was tired of wandering about alone, and Amy's familiar presence seemed
  13475. to give a homelike charm to the foreign scenes in which she bore a
  13476. part. He rather missed the 'petting' he used to receive, and enjoyed a
  13477. taste of it again, for no attentions, however flattering, from
  13478. strangers, were half so pleasant as the sisterly adoration of the girls
  13479. at home. Amy never would pet him like the others, but she was very
  13480. glad to see him now, and quite clung to him, feeling that he was the
  13481. representative of the dear family for whom she longed more than she
  13482. would confess. They naturally took comfort in each other's society and
  13483. were much together, riding, walking, dancing, or dawdling, for at Nice
  13484. no one can be very industrious during the gay season. But, while
  13485. apparently amusing themselves in the most careless fashion, they were
  13486. half-consciously making discoveries and forming opinions about each
  13487. other. Amy rose daily in the estimation of her friend, but he sank in
  13488. hers, and each felt the truth before a word was spoken. Amy tried to
  13489. please, and succeeded, for she was grateful for the many pleasures he
  13490. gave her, and repaid him with the little services to which womanly
  13491. women know how to lend an indescribable charm. Laurie made no effort
  13492. of any kind, but just let himself drift along as comfortably as
  13493. possible, trying to forget, and feeling that all women owed him a kind
  13494. word because one had been cold to him. It cost him no effort to be
  13495. generous, and he would have given Amy all the trinkets in Nice if she
  13496. would have taken them, but at the same time he felt that he could not
  13497. change the opinion she was forming of him, and he rather dreaded the
  13498. keen blue eyes that seemed to watch him with such half-sorrowful,
  13499. half-scornful surprise.
  13500. "All the rest have gone to Monaco for the day. I preferred to stay at
  13501. home and write letters. They are done now, and I am going to Valrosa
  13502. to sketch, will you come?" said Amy, as she joined Laurie one lovely
  13503. day when he lounged in as usual, about noon.
  13504. "Well, yes, but isn't it rather warm for such a long walk?" he answered
  13505. slowly, for the shaded salon looked inviting after the glare without.
  13506. "I'm going to have the little carriage, and Baptiste can drive, so
  13507. you'll have nothing to do but hold your umbrella, and keep your gloves
  13508. nice," returned Amy, with a sarcastic glance at the immaculate kids,
  13509. which were a weak point with Laurie.
  13510. "Then I'll go with pleasure." and he put out his hand for her
  13511. sketchbook. But she tucked it under her arm with a sharp...
  13512. "Don't trouble yourself. It's no exertion to me, but you don't look
  13513. equal to it."
  13514. Laurie lifted his eyebrows and followed at a leisurely pace as she ran
  13515. downstairs, but when they got into the carriage he took the reins
  13516. himself, and left little Baptiste nothing to do but fold his arms and
  13517. fall asleep on his perch.
  13518. The two never quarreled. Amy was too well-bred, and just now Laurie
  13519. was too lazy, so in a minute he peeped under her hatbrim with an
  13520. inquiring air. She answered him with a smile, and they went on
  13521. together in the most amicable manner.
  13522. It was a lovely drive, along winding roads rich in the picturesque
  13523. scenes that delight beauty-loving eyes. Here an ancient monastery,
  13524. whence the solemn chanting of the monks came down to them. There a
  13525. bare-legged shepherd, in wooden shoes, pointed hat, and rough jacket
  13526. over one shoulder, sat piping on a stone while his goats skipped among
  13527. the rocks or lay at his feet. Meek, mouse-colored donkeys, laden with
  13528. panniers of freshly cut grass passed by, with a pretty girl in a
  13529. capaline sitting between the green piles, or an old woman spinning with
  13530. a distaff as she went. Brown, soft-eyed children ran out from the
  13531. quaint stone hovels to offer nosegays, or bunches of oranges still on
  13532. the bough. Gnarled olive trees covered the hills with their dusky
  13533. foliage, fruit hung golden in the orchard, and great scarlet anemones
  13534. fringed the roadside, while beyond green slopes and craggy heights, the
  13535. Maritime Alps rose sharp and white against the blue Italian sky.
  13536. Valrosa well deserved its name, for in that climate of perpetual summer
  13537. roses blossomed everywhere. They overhung the archway, thrust
  13538. themselves between the bars of the great gate with a sweet welcome to
  13539. passers-by, and lined the avenue, winding through lemon trees and
  13540. feathery palms up to the villa on the hill. Every shadowy nook, where
  13541. seats invited one to stop and rest, was a mass of bloom, every cool
  13542. grotto had its marble nymph smiling from a veil of flowers and every
  13543. fountain reflected crimson, white, or pale pink roses, leaning down to
  13544. smile at their own beauty. Roses covered the walls of the house, draped
  13545. the cornices, climbed the pillars, and ran riot over the balustrade of
  13546. the wide terrace, whence one looked down on the sunny Mediterranean,
  13547. and the white-walled city on its shore.
  13548. "This is a regular honeymoon paradise, isn't it? Did you ever see such
  13549. roses?" asked Amy, pausing on the terrace to enjoy the view, and a
  13550. luxurious whiff of perfume that came wandering by.
  13551. "No, nor felt such thorns," returned Laurie, with his thumb in his
  13552. mouth, after a vain attempt to capture a solitary scarlet flower that
  13553. grew just beyond his reach.
  13554. "Try lower down, and pick those that have no thorns," said Amy,
  13555. gathering three of the tiny cream-colored ones that starred the wall
  13556. behind her. She put them in his buttonhole as a peace offering, and he
  13557. stood a minute looking down at them with a curious expression, for in
  13558. the Italian part of his nature there was a touch of superstition, and
  13559. he was just then in that state of half-sweet, half-bitter melancholy,
  13560. when imaginative young men find significance in trifles and food for
  13561. romance everywhere. He had thought of Jo in reaching after the thorny
  13562. red rose, for vivid flowers became her, and she had often worn ones
  13563. like that from the greenhouse at home. The pale roses Amy gave him
  13564. were the sort that the Italians lay in dead hands, never in bridal
  13565. wreaths, and for a moment he wondered if the omen was for Jo or for
  13566. himself, but the next instant his American common sense got the better
  13567. of sentimentality, and he laughed a heartier laugh than Amy had heard
  13568. since he came.
  13569. "It's good advice, you'd better take it and save your fingers," she
  13570. said, thinking her speech amused him.
  13571. "Thank you, I will," he answered in jest, and a few months later he did
  13572. it in earnest.
  13573. "Laurie, when are you going to your grandfather?" she asked presently,
  13574. as she settled herself on a rustic seat.
  13575. "Very soon."
  13576. "You have said that a dozen times within the last three weeks."
  13577. "I dare say, short answers save trouble."
  13578. "He expects you, and you really ought to go."
  13579. "Hospitable creature! I know it."
  13580. "Then why don't you do it?"
  13581. "Natural depravity, I suppose."
  13582. "Natural indolence, you mean. It's really dreadful!" and Amy looked
  13583. severe.
  13584. "Not so bad as it seems, for I should only plague him if I went, so I
  13585. might as well stay and plague you a little longer, you can bear it
  13586. better, in fact I think it agrees with you excellently," and Laurie
  13587. composed himself for a lounge on the broad ledge of the balustrade.
  13588. Amy shook her head and opened her sketchbook with an air of
  13589. resignation, but she had made up her mind to lecture 'that boy' and in
  13590. a minute she began again.
  13591. "What are you doing just now?"
  13592. "Watching lizards."
  13593. "No, no. I mean what do you intend and wish to do?"
  13594. "Smoke a cigarette, if you'll allow me."
  13595. "How provoking you are! I don't approve of cigars and I will only
  13596. allow it on condition that you let me put you into my sketch. I need a
  13597. figure."
  13598. "With all the pleasure in life. How will you have me, full length or
  13599. three-quarters, on my head or my heels? I should respectfully suggest
  13600. a recumbent posture, then put yourself in also and call it 'Dolce far
  13601. niente'."
  13602. "Stay as you are, and go to sleep if you like. I intend to work hard,"
  13603. said Amy in her most energetic tone.
  13604. "What delightful enthusiasm!" and he leaned against a tall urn with an
  13605. air of entire satisfaction.
  13606. "What would Jo say if she saw you now?" asked Amy impatiently, hoping
  13607. to stir him up by the mention of her still more energetic sister's name.
  13608. "As usual, 'Go away, Teddy. I'm busy!'" He laughed as he spoke, but
  13609. the laugh was not natural, and a shade passed over his face, for the
  13610. utterance of the familiar name touched the wound that was not healed
  13611. yet. Both tone and shadow struck Amy, for she had seen and heard them
  13612. before, and now she looked up in time to catch a new expression on
  13613. Laurie's face--a hard bitter look, full of pain, dissatisfaction, and
  13614. regret. It was gone before she could study it and the listless
  13615. expression back again. She watched him for a moment with artistic
  13616. pleasure, thinking how like an Italian he looked, as he lay basking in
  13617. the sun with uncovered head and eyes full of southern dreaminess, for
  13618. he seemed to have forgotten her and fallen into a reverie.
  13619. "You look like the effigy of a young knight asleep on his tomb," she
  13620. said, carefully tracing the well-cut profile defined against the dark
  13621. stone.
  13622. "Wish I was!"
  13623. "That's a foolish wish, unless you have spoiled your life. You are so
  13624. changed, I sometimes think--" there Amy stopped, with a half-timid,
  13625. half-wistful look, more significant than her unfinished speech.
  13626. Laurie saw and understood the affectionate anxiety which she hesitated
  13627. to express, and looking straight into her eyes, said, just as he used
  13628. to say it to her mother, "It's all right, ma'am."
  13629. That satisfied her and set at rest the doubts that had begun to worry
  13630. her lately. It also touched her, and she showed that it did, by the
  13631. cordial tone in which she said...
  13632. "I'm glad of that! I didn't think you'd been a very bad boy, but I
  13633. fancied you might have wasted money at that wicked Baden-Baden, lost
  13634. your heart to some charming Frenchwoman with a husband, or got into
  13635. some of the scrapes that young men seem to consider a necessary part of
  13636. a foreign tour. Don't stay out there in the sun, come and lie on the
  13637. grass here and 'let us be friendly', as Jo used to say when we got in
  13638. the sofa corner and told secrets."
  13639. Laurie obediently threw himself down on the turf, and began to amuse
  13640. himself by sticking daisies into the ribbons of Amy's hat, that lay
  13641. there.
  13642. "I'm all ready for the secrets." and he glanced up with a decided
  13643. expression of interest in his eyes.
  13644. "I've none to tell. You may begin."
  13645. "Haven't one to bless myself with. I thought perhaps you'd had some
  13646. news from home.."
  13647. "You have heard all that has come lately. Don't you hear often? I
  13648. fancied Jo would send you volumes."
  13649. "She's very busy. I'm roving about so, it's impossible to be regular,
  13650. you know. When do you begin your great work of art, Raphaella?" he
  13651. asked, changing the subject abruptly after another pause, in which he
  13652. had been wondering if Amy knew his secret and wanted to talk about it.
  13653. "Never," she answered, with a despondent but decided air. "Rome took
  13654. all the vanity out of me, for after seeing the wonders there, I felt
  13655. too insignificant to live and gave up all my foolish hopes in despair."
  13656. "Why should you, with so much energy and talent?"
  13657. "That's just why, because talent isn't genius, and no amount of energy
  13658. can make it so. I want to be great, or nothing. I won't be a
  13659. common-place dauber, so I don't intend to try any more."
  13660. "And what are you going to do with yourself now, if I may ask?"
  13661. "Polish up my other talents, and be an ornament to society, if I get
  13662. the chance."
  13663. It was a characteristic speech, and sounded daring, but audacity
  13664. becomes young people, and Amy's ambition had a good foundation. Laurie
  13665. smiled, but he liked the spirit with which she took up a new purpose
  13666. when a long-cherished one died, and spent no time lamenting.
  13667. "Good! And here is where Fred Vaughn comes in, I fancy."
  13668. Amy preserved a discreet silence, but there was a conscious look in her
  13669. downcast face that made Laurie sit up and say gravely, "Now I'm going
  13670. to play brother, and ask questions. May I?"
  13671. "I don't promise to answer."
  13672. "Your face will, if your tongue won't. You aren't woman of the world
  13673. enough yet to hide your feelings, my dear. I heard rumors about Fred
  13674. and you last year, and it's my private opinion that if he had not been
  13675. called home so suddenly and detained so long, something would have come
  13676. of it, hey?"
  13677. "That's not for me to say," was Amy's grim reply, but her lips would
  13678. smile, and there was a traitorous sparkle of the eye which betrayed
  13679. that she knew her power and enjoyed the knowledge.
  13680. "You are not engaged, I hope?" and Laurie looked very elder-brotherly
  13681. and grave all of a sudden.
  13682. "No."
  13683. "But you will be, if he comes back and goes properly down on his knees,
  13684. won't you?"
  13685. "Very likely."
  13686. "Then you are fond of old Fred?"
  13687. "I could be, if I tried."
  13688. "But you don't intend to try till the proper moment? Bless my soul,
  13689. what unearthly prudence! He's a good fellow, Amy, but not the man I
  13690. fancied you'd like."
  13691. "He is rich, a gentleman, and has delightful manners," began Amy,
  13692. trying to be quite cool and dignified, but feeling a little ashamed of
  13693. herself, in spite of the sincerity of her intentions.
  13694. "I understand. Queens of society can't get on without money, so you
  13695. mean to make a good match, and start in that way? Quite right and
  13696. proper, as the world goes, but it sounds odd from the lips of one of
  13697. your mother's girls."
  13698. "True, nevertheless."
  13699. A short speech, but the quiet decision with which it was uttered
  13700. contrasted curiously with the young speaker. Laurie felt this
  13701. instinctively and laid himself down again, with a sense of
  13702. disappointment which he could not explain. His look and silence, as
  13703. well as a certain inward self-disapproval, ruffled Amy, and made her
  13704. resolve to deliver her lecture without delay.
  13705. "I wish you'd do me the favor to rouse yourself a little," she said
  13706. sharply.
  13707. "Do it for me, there's a dear girl."
  13708. "I could, if I tried." and she looked as if she would like doing it in
  13709. the most summary style.
  13710. "Try, then. I give you leave," returned Laurie, who enjoyed having
  13711. someone to tease, after his long abstinence from his favorite pastime.
  13712. "You'd be angry in five minutes."
  13713. "I'm never angry with you. It takes two flints to make a fire. You are
  13714. as cool and soft as snow."
  13715. "You don't know what I can do. Snow produces a glow and a tingle, if
  13716. applied rightly. Your indifference is half affectation, and a good
  13717. stirring up would prove it."
  13718. "Stir away, it won't hurt me and it may amuse you, as the big man said
  13719. when his little wife beat him. Regard me in the light of a husband or
  13720. a carpet, and beat till you are tired, if that sort of exercise agrees
  13721. with you."
  13722. Being decidedly nettled herself, and longing to see him shake off the
  13723. apathy that so altered him, Amy sharpened both tongue and pencil, and
  13724. began.
  13725. "Flo and I have got a new name for you. It's Lazy Laurence. How do you
  13726. like it?"
  13727. She thought it would annoy him, but he only folded his arms under his
  13728. head, with an imperturbable, "That's not bad. Thank you, ladies."
  13729. "Do you want to know what I honestly think of you?"
  13730. "Pining to be told."
  13731. "Well, I despise you."
  13732. If she had even said 'I hate you' in a petulant or coquettish tone, he
  13733. would have laughed and rather liked it, but the grave, almost sad,
  13734. accent in her voice made him open his eyes, and ask quickly...
  13735. "Why, if you please?"
  13736. "Because, with every chance for being good, useful, and happy, you are
  13737. faulty, lazy, and miserable."
  13738. "Strong language, mademoiselle."
  13739. "If you like it, I'll go on."
  13740. "Pray do, it's quite interesting."
  13741. "I thought you'd find it so. Selfish people always like to talk about
  13742. themselves."
  13743. "Am I selfish?" the question slipped out involuntarily and in a tone of
  13744. surprise, for the one virtue on which he prided himself was generosity.
  13745. "Yes, very selfish," continued Amy, in a calm, cool voice, twice as
  13746. effective just then as an angry one. "I'll show you how, for I've
  13747. studied you while we were frolicking, and I'm not at all satisfied with
  13748. you. Here you have been abroad nearly six months, and done nothing but
  13749. waste time and money and disappoint your friends."
  13750. "Isn't a fellow to have any pleasure after a four-year grind?"
  13751. "You don't look as if you'd had much. At any rate, you are none the
  13752. better for it, as far as I can see. I said when we first met that you
  13753. had improved. Now I take it all back, for I don't think you half so
  13754. nice as when I left you at home. You have grown abominably lazy, you
  13755. like gossip, and waste time on frivolous things, you are contented to
  13756. be petted and admired by silly people, instead of being loved and
  13757. respected by wise ones. With money, talent, position, health, and
  13758. beauty, ah you like that old Vanity! But it's the truth, so I can't
  13759. help saying it, with all these splendid things to use and enjoy, you
  13760. can find nothing to do but dawdle, and instead of being the man you
  13761. ought to be, you are only..." there she stopped, with a look that had
  13762. both pain and pity in it.
  13763. "Saint Laurence on a gridiron," added Laurie, blandly finishing the
  13764. sentence. But the lecture began to take effect, for there was a
  13765. wide-awake sparkle in his eyes now and a half-angry, half-injured
  13766. expression replaced the former indifference.
  13767. "I supposed you'd take it so. You men tell us we are angels, and say
  13768. we can make you what we will, but the instant we honestly try to do you
  13769. good, you laugh at us and won't listen, which proves how much your
  13770. flattery is worth." Amy spoke bitterly, and turned her back on the
  13771. exasperating martyr at her feet.
  13772. In a minute a hand came down over the page, so that she could not draw,
  13773. and Laurie's voice said, with a droll imitation of a penitent child, "I
  13774. will be good, oh, I will be good!"
  13775. But Amy did not laugh, for she was in earnest, and tapping on the
  13776. outspread hand with her pencil, said soberly, "Aren't you ashamed of a
  13777. hand like that? It's as soft and white as a woman's, and looks as if
  13778. it never did anything but wear Jouvin's best gloves and pick flowers
  13779. for ladies. You are not a dandy, thank Heaven, so I'm glad to see
  13780. there are no diamonds or big seal rings on it, only the little old one
  13781. Jo gave you so long ago. Dear soul, I wish she was here to help me!"
  13782. "So do I!"
  13783. The hand vanished as suddenly as it came, and there was energy enough
  13784. in the echo of her wish to suit even Amy. She glanced down at him with
  13785. a new thought in her mind, but he was lying with his hat half over his
  13786. face, as if for shade, and his mustache hid his mouth. She only saw
  13787. his chest rise and fall, with a long breath that might have been a
  13788. sigh, and the hand that wore the ring nestled down into the grass, as
  13789. if to hide something too precious or too tender to be spoken of. All in
  13790. a minute various hints and trifles assumed shape and significance in
  13791. Amy's mind, and told her what her sister never had confided to her.
  13792. She remembered that Laurie never spoke voluntarily of Jo, she recalled
  13793. the shadow on his face just now, the change in his character, and the
  13794. wearing of the little old ring which was no ornament to a handsome
  13795. hand. Girls are quick to read such signs and feel their eloquence.
  13796. Amy had fancied that perhaps a love trouble was at the bottom of the
  13797. alteration, and now she was sure of it. Her keen eyes filled, and when
  13798. she spoke again, it was in a voice that could be beautifully soft and
  13799. kind when she chose to make it so.
  13800. "I know I have no right to talk so to you, Laurie, and if you weren't
  13801. the sweetest-tempered fellow in the world, you'd be very angry with me.
  13802. But we are all so fond and proud of you, I couldn't bear to think they
  13803. should be disappointed in you at home as I have been, though, perhaps
  13804. they would understand the change better than I do."
  13805. "I think they would," came from under the hat, in a grim tone, quite as
  13806. touching as a broken one.
  13807. "They ought to have told me, and not let me go blundering and scolding,
  13808. when I should have been more kind and patient than ever. I never did
  13809. like that Miss Randal and now I hate her!" said artful Amy, wishing to
  13810. be sure of her facts this time.
  13811. "Hang Miss Randal!" and Laurie knocked the hat off his face with a look
  13812. that left no doubt of his sentiments toward that young lady.
  13813. "I beg pardon, I thought..." and there she paused diplomatically.
  13814. "No, you didn't, you knew perfectly well I never cared for anyone but
  13815. Jo," Laurie said that in his old, impetuous tone, and turned his face
  13816. away as he spoke.
  13817. "I did think so, but as they never said anything about it, and you came
  13818. away, I supposed I was mistaken. And Jo wouldn't be kind to you? Why,
  13819. I was sure she loved you dearly."
  13820. "She was kind, but not in the right way, and it's lucky for her she
  13821. didn't love me, if I'm the good-for-nothing fellow you think me. It's
  13822. her fault though, and you may tell her so."
  13823. The hard, bitter look came back again as he said that, and it troubled
  13824. Amy, for she did not know what balm to apply.
  13825. "I was wrong, I didn't know. I'm very sorry I was so cross, but I
  13826. can't help wishing you'd bear it better, Teddy, dear."
  13827. "Don't, that's her name for me!" and Laurie put up his hand with a
  13828. quick gesture to stop the words spoken in Jo's half-kind,
  13829. half-reproachful tone. "Wait till you've tried it yourself," he added
  13830. in a low voice, as he pulled up the grass by the handful.
  13831. "I'd take it manfully, and be respected if I couldn't be loved," said
  13832. Amy, with the decision of one who knew nothing about it.
  13833. Now, Laurie flattered himself that he had borne it remarkably well,
  13834. making no moan, asking no sympathy, and taking his trouble away to live
  13835. it down alone. Amy's lecture put the matter in a new light, and for
  13836. the first time it did look weak and selfish to lose heart at the first
  13837. failure, and shut himself up in moody indifference. He felt as if
  13838. suddenly shaken out of a pensive dream and found it impossible to go to
  13839. sleep again. Presently he sat up and asked slowly, "Do you think Jo
  13840. would despise me as you do?"
  13841. "Yes, if she saw you now. She hates lazy people. Why don't you do
  13842. something splendid, and make her love you?"
  13843. "I did my best, but it was no use."
  13844. "Graduating well, you mean? That was no more than you ought to have
  13845. done, for your grandfather's sake. It would have been shameful to fail
  13846. after spending so much time and money, when everyone knew that you
  13847. could do well."
  13848. "I did fail, say what you will, for Jo wouldn't love me," began Laurie,
  13849. leaning his head on his hand in a despondent attitude.
  13850. "No, you didn't, and you'll say so in the end, for it did you good, and
  13851. proved that you could do something if you tried. If you'd only set
  13852. about another task of some sort, you'd soon be your hearty, happy self
  13853. again, and forget your trouble."
  13854. "That's impossible."
  13855. "Try it and see. You needn't shrug your shoulders, and think, 'Much
  13856. she knows about such things'. I don't pretend to be wise, but I am
  13857. observing, and I see a great deal more than you'd imagine. I'm
  13858. interested in other people's experiences and inconsistencies, and
  13859. though I can't explain, I remember and use them for my own benefit.
  13860. Love Jo all your days, if you choose, but don't let it spoil you, for
  13861. it's wicked to throw away so many good gifts because you can't have the
  13862. one you want. There, I won't lecture any more, for I know you'll wake
  13863. up and be a man in spite of that hardhearted girl."
  13864. Neither spoke for several minutes. Laurie sat turning the little ring
  13865. on his finger, and Amy put the last touches to the hasty sketch she had
  13866. been working at while she talked. Presently she put it on his knee,
  13867. merely saying, "How do you like that?"
  13868. He looked and then he smiled, as he could not well help doing, for it
  13869. was capitally done, the long, lazy figure on the grass, with listless
  13870. face, half-shut eyes, and one hand holding a cigar, from which came the
  13871. little wreath of smoke that encircled the dreamer's head.
  13872. "How well you draw!" he said, with a genuine surprise and pleasure at
  13873. her skill, adding, with a half-laugh, "Yes, that's me."
  13874. "As you are. This is as you were." and Amy laid another sketch beside
  13875. the one he held.
  13876. It was not nearly so well done, but there was a life and spirit in it
  13877. which atoned for many faults, and it recalled the past so vividly that
  13878. a sudden change swept over the young man's face as he looked. Only a
  13879. rough sketch of Laurie taming a horse. Hat and coat were off, and
  13880. every line of the active figure, resolute face, and commanding attitude
  13881. was full of energy and meaning. The handsome brute, just subdued,
  13882. stood arching his neck under the tightly drawn rein, with one foot
  13883. impatiently pawing the ground, and ears pricked up as if listening for
  13884. the voice that had mastered him. In the ruffled mane, the rider's
  13885. breezy hair and erect attitude, there was a suggestion of suddenly
  13886. arrested motion, of strength, courage, and youthful buoyancy that
  13887. contrasted sharply with the supine grace of the '_Dolce far Niente_'
  13888. sketch. Laurie said nothing but as his eye went from one to the other,
  13889. Amy saw him flush up and fold his lips together as if he read and
  13890. accepted the little lesson she had given him. That satisfied her, and
  13891. without waiting for him to speak, she said, in her sprightly way...
  13892. "Don't you remember the day you played Rarey with Puck, and we all
  13893. looked on? Meg and Beth were frightened, but Jo clapped and pranced,
  13894. and I sat on the fence and drew you. I found that sketch in my
  13895. portfolio the other day, touched it up, and kept it to show you."
  13896. "Much obliged. You've improved immensely since then, and I
  13897. congratulate you. May I venture to suggest in 'a honeymoon paradise'
  13898. that five o'clock is the dinner hour at your hotel?"
  13899. Laurie rose as he spoke, returned the pictures with a smile and a bow
  13900. and looked at his watch, as if to remind her that even moral lectures
  13901. should have an end. He tried to resume his former easy, indifferent
  13902. air, but it was an affectation now, for the rousing had been more
  13903. effacious than he would confess. Amy felt the shade of coldness in his
  13904. manner, and said to herself...
  13905. "Now, I've offended him. Well, if it does him good, I'm glad, if it
  13906. makes him hate me, I'm sorry, but it's true, and I can't take back a
  13907. word of it."
  13908. They laughed and chatted all the way home, and little Baptiste, up
  13909. behind, thought that monsieur and madamoiselle were in charming
  13910. spirits. But both felt ill at ease. The friendly frankness was
  13911. disturbed, the sunshine had a shadow over it, and despite their
  13912. apparent gaiety, there was a secret discontent in the heart of each.
  13913. "Shall we see you this evening, mon frere?" asked Amy, as they parted
  13914. at her aunt's door.
  13915. "Unfortunately I have an engagement. Au revoir, madamoiselle," and
  13916. Laurie bent as if to kiss her hand, in the foreign fashion, which
  13917. became him better than many men. Something in his face made Amy say
  13918. quickly and warmly...
  13919. "No, be yourself with me, Laurie, and part in the good old way. I'd
  13920. rather have a hearty English handshake than all the sentimental
  13921. salutations in France."
  13922. "Goodbye, dear," and with these words, uttered in the tone she liked,
  13923. Laurie left her, after a handshake almost painful in its heartiness.
  13924. Next morning, instead of the usual call, Amy received a note which made
  13925. her smile at the beginning and sigh at the end.
  13926. My Dear Mentor, Please make my adieux to your aunt, and exult within
  13927. yourself, for 'Lazy Laurence' has gone to his grandpa, like the best of
  13928. boys. A pleasant winter to you, and may the gods grant you a blissful
  13929. honeymoon at Valrosa! I think Fred would be benefited by a rouser.
  13930. Tell him so, with my congratulations.
  13931. Yours gratefully, Telemachus
  13932. "Good boy! I'm glad he's gone," said Amy, with an approving smile. The
  13933. next minute her face fell as she glanced about the empty room, adding,
  13934. with an involuntary sigh, "Yes, I am glad, but how I shall miss him."
  13935. CHAPTER FORTY
  13936. THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW
  13937. When the first bitterness was over, the family accepted the inevitable,
  13938. and tried to bear it cheerfully, helping one another by the increased
  13939. affection which comes to bind households tenderly together in times of
  13940. trouble. They put away their grief, and each did his or her part
  13941. toward making that last year a happy one.
  13942. The pleasantest room in the house was set apart for Beth, and in it was
  13943. gathered everything that she most loved, flowers, pictures, her piano,
  13944. the little worktable, and the beloved pussies. Father's best books
  13945. found their way there, Mother's easy chair, Jo's desk, Amy's finest
  13946. sketches, and every day Meg brought her babies on a loving pilgrimage,
  13947. to make sunshine for Aunty Beth. John quietly set apart a little sum,
  13948. that he might enjoy the pleasure of keeping the invalid supplied with
  13949. the fruit she loved and longed for. Old Hannah never wearied of
  13950. concocting dainty dishes to tempt a capricious appetite, dropping tears
  13951. as she worked, and from across the sea came little gifts and cheerful
  13952. letters, seeming to bring breaths of warmth and fragrance from lands
  13953. that know no winter.
  13954. Here, cherished like a household saint in its shrine, sat Beth,
  13955. tranquil and busy as ever, for nothing could change the sweet,
  13956. unselfish nature, and even while preparing to leave life, she tried to
  13957. make it happier for those who should remain behind. The feeble fingers
  13958. were never idle, and one of her pleasures was to make little things for
  13959. the school children daily passing to and fro, to drop a pair of mittens
  13960. from her window for a pair of purple hands, a needlebook for some small
  13961. mother of many dolls, penwipers for young penmen toiling through
  13962. forests of pothooks, scrapbooks for picture-loving eyes, and all manner
  13963. of pleasant devices, till the reluctant climbers of the ladder of
  13964. learning found their way strewn with flowers, as it were, and came to
  13965. regard the gentle giver as a sort of fairy godmother, who sat above
  13966. there, and showered down gifts miraculously suited to their tastes and
  13967. needs. If Beth had wanted any reward, she found it in the bright
  13968. little faces always turned up to her window, with nods and smiles, and
  13969. the droll little letters which came to her, full of blots and gratitude.
  13970. The first few months were very happy ones, and Beth often used to look
  13971. round, and say "How beautiful this is!" as they all sat together in her
  13972. sunny room, the babies kicking and crowing on the floor, mother and
  13973. sisters working near, and father reading, in his pleasant voice, from
  13974. the wise old books which seemed rich in good and comfortable words, as
  13975. applicable now as when written centuries ago, a little chapel, where a
  13976. paternal priest taught his flock the hard lessons all must learn,
  13977. trying to show them that hope can comfort love, and faith make
  13978. resignation possible. Simple sermons, that went straight to the souls
  13979. of those who listened, for the father's heart was in the minister's
  13980. religion, and the frequent falter in the voice gave a double eloquence
  13981. to the words he spoke or read.
  13982. It was well for all that this peaceful time was given them as
  13983. preparation for the sad hours to come, for by-and-by, Beth said the
  13984. needle was 'so heavy', and put it down forever. Talking wearied her,
  13985. faces troubled her, pain claimed her for its own, and her tranquil
  13986. spirit was sorrowfully perturbed by the ills that vexed her feeble
  13987. flesh. Ah me! Such heavy days, such long, long nights, such aching
  13988. hearts and imploring prayers, when those who loved her best were forced
  13989. to see the thin hands stretched out to them beseechingly, to hear the
  13990. bitter cry, "Help me, help me!" and to feel that there was no help. A
  13991. sad eclipse of the serene soul, a sharp struggle of the young life with
  13992. death, but both were mercifully brief, and then the natural rebellion
  13993. over, the old peace returned more beautiful than ever. With the wreck
  13994. of her frail body, Beth's soul grew strong, and though she said little,
  13995. those about her felt that she was ready, saw that the first pilgrim
  13996. called was likewise the fittest, and waited with her on the shore,
  13997. trying to see the Shining Ones coming to receive her when she crossed
  13998. the river.
  13999. Jo never left her for an hour since Beth had said "I feel stronger when
  14000. you are here." She slept on a couch in the room, waking often to renew
  14001. the fire, to feed, lift, or wait upon the patient creature who seldom
  14002. asked for anything, and 'tried not to be a trouble'. All day she
  14003. haunted the room, jealous of any other nurse, and prouder of being
  14004. chosen then than of any honor her life ever brought her. Precious and
  14005. helpful hours to Jo, for now her heart received the teaching that it
  14006. needed. Lessons in patience were so sweetly taught her that she could
  14007. not fail to learn them, charity for all, the lovely spirit that can
  14008. forgive and truly forget unkindness, the loyalty to duty that makes the
  14009. hardest easy, and the sincere faith that fears nothing, but trusts
  14010. undoubtingly.
  14011. Often when she woke Jo found Beth reading in her well-worn little book,
  14012. heard her singing softly, to beguile the sleepless night, or saw her
  14013. lean her face upon her hands, while slow tears dropped through the
  14014. transparent fingers, and Jo would lie watching her with thoughts too
  14015. deep for tears, feeling that Beth, in her simple, unselfish way, was
  14016. trying to wean herself from the dear old life, and fit herself for the
  14017. life to come, by sacred words of comfort, quiet prayers, and the music
  14018. she loved so well.
  14019. Seeing this did more for Jo than the wisest sermons, the saintliest
  14020. hymns, the most fervent prayers that any voice could utter. For with
  14021. eyes made clear by many tears, and a heart softened by the tenderest
  14022. sorrow, she recognized the beauty of her sister's life--uneventful,
  14023. unambitious, yet full of the genuine virtues which 'smell sweet, and
  14024. blossom in the dust', the self-forgetfulness that makes the humblest on
  14025. earth remembered soonest in heaven, the true success which is possible
  14026. to all.
  14027. One night when Beth looked among the books upon her table, to find
  14028. something to make her forget the mortal weariness that was almost as
  14029. hard to bear as pain, as she turned the leaves of her old favorite,
  14030. Pilgrims's Progress, she found a little paper, scribbled over in Jo's
  14031. hand. The name caught her eye and the blurred look of the lines made
  14032. her sure that tears had fallen on it.
  14033. "Poor Jo! She's fast asleep, so I won't wake her to ask leave. She
  14034. shows me all her things, and I don't think she'll mind if I look at
  14035. this", thought Beth, with a glance at her sister, who lay on the rug,
  14036. with the tongs beside her, ready to wake up the minute the log fell
  14037. apart.
  14038. MY BETH
  14039. Sitting patient in the shadow
  14040. Till the blessed light shall come,
  14041. A serene and saintly presence
  14042. Sanctifies our troubled home.
  14043. Earthly joys and hopes and sorrows
  14044. Break like ripples on the strand
  14045. Of the deep and solemn river
  14046. Where her willing feet now stand.
  14047. O my sister, passing from me,
  14048. Out of human care and strife,
  14049. Leave me, as a gift, those virtues
  14050. Which have beautified your life.
  14051. Dear, bequeath me that great patience
  14052. Which has power to sustain
  14053. A cheerful, uncomplaining spirit
  14054. In its prison-house of pain.
  14055. Give me, for I need it sorely,
  14056. Of that courage, wise and sweet,
  14057. Which has made the path of duty
  14058. Green beneath your willing feet.
  14059. Give me that unselfish nature,
  14060. That with charity divine
  14061. Can pardon wrong for love's dear sake--
  14062. Meek heart, forgive me mine!
  14063. Thus our parting daily loseth
  14064. Something of its bitter pain,
  14065. And while learning this hard lesson,
  14066. My great loss becomes my gain.
  14067. For the touch of grief will render
  14068. My wild nature more serene,
  14069. Give to life new aspirations,
  14070. A new trust in the unseen.
  14071. Henceforth, safe across the river,
  14072. I shall see forever more
  14073. A beloved, household spirit
  14074. Waiting for me on the shore.
  14075. Hope and faith, born of my sorrow,
  14076. Guardian angels shall become,
  14077. And the sister gone before me
  14078. By their hands shall lead me home.
  14079. Blurred and blotted, faulty and feeble as the lines were, they brought
  14080. a look of inexpressible comfort to Beth's face, for her one regret had
  14081. been that she had done so little, and this seemed to assure her that
  14082. her life had not been useless, that her death would not bring the
  14083. despair she feared. As she sat with the paper folded between her
  14084. hands, the charred log fell asunder. Jo started up, revived the blaze,
  14085. and crept to the bedside, hoping Beth slept.
  14086. "Not asleep, but so happy, dear. See, I found this and read it. I knew
  14087. you wouldn't care. Have I been all that to you, Jo?" she asked, with
  14088. wistful, humble earnestness.
  14089. "_Oh_, Beth, so much, so much!" and Jo's head went down upon the pillow
  14090. beside her sister's.
  14091. "Then I don't feel as if I'd wasted my life. I'm not so good as you
  14092. make me, but I have tried to do right. And now, when it's too late to
  14093. begin even to do better, it's such a comfort to know that someone loves
  14094. me so much, and feels as if I'd helped them."
  14095. "More than any one in the world, Beth. I used to think I couldn't let
  14096. you go, but I'm learning to feel that I don't lose you, that you'll be
  14097. more to me than ever, and death can't part us, though it seems to."
  14098. "I know it cannot, and I don't fear it any longer, for I'm sure I shall
  14099. be your Beth still, to love and help you more than ever. You must take
  14100. my place, Jo, and be everything to Father and Mother when I'm gone.
  14101. They will turn to you, don't fail them, and if it's hard to work alone,
  14102. remember that I don't forget you, and that you'll be happier in doing
  14103. that than writing splendid books or seeing all the world, for love is
  14104. the only thing that we can carry with us when we go, and it makes the
  14105. end so easy."
  14106. "I'll try, Beth." and then and there Jo renounced her old ambition,
  14107. pledged herself to a new and better one, acknowledging the poverty of
  14108. other desires, and feeling the blessed solace of a belief in the
  14109. immortality of love.
  14110. So the spring days came and went, the sky grew clearer, the earth
  14111. greener, the flowers were up fairly early, and the birds came back in
  14112. time to say goodbye to Beth, who, like a tired but trustful child,
  14113. clung to the hands that had led her all her life, as Father and Mother
  14114. guided her tenderly through the Valley of the Shadow, and gave her up
  14115. to God.
  14116. Seldom except in books do the dying utter memorable words, see visions,
  14117. or depart with beatified countenances, and those who have sped many
  14118. parting souls know that to most the end comes as naturally and simply
  14119. as sleep. As Beth had hoped, the 'tide went out easily', and in the
  14120. dark hour before dawn, on the bosom where she had drawn her first
  14121. breath, she quietly drew her last, with no farewell but one loving
  14122. look, one little sigh.
  14123. With tears and prayers and tender hands, Mother and sisters made her
  14124. ready for the long sleep that pain would never mar again, seeing with
  14125. grateful eyes the beautiful serenity that soon replaced the pathetic
  14126. patience that had wrung their hearts so long, and feeling with reverent
  14127. joy that to their darling death was a benignant angel, not a phantom
  14128. full of dread.
  14129. When morning came, for the first time in many months the fire was out,
  14130. Jo's place was empty, and the room was very still. But a bird sang
  14131. blithely on a budding bough, close by, the snowdrops blossomed freshly
  14132. at the window, and the spring sunshine streamed in like a benediction
  14133. over the placid face upon the pillow, a face so full of painless peace
  14134. that those who loved it best smiled through their tears, and thanked
  14135. God that Beth was well at last.
  14136. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  14137. LEARNING TO FORGET
  14138. Amy's lecture did Laurie good, though, of course, he did not own it
  14139. till long afterward. Men seldom do, for when women are the advisers,
  14140. the lords of creation don't take the advice till they have persuaded
  14141. themselves that it is just what they intended to do. Then they act
  14142. upon it, and, if it succeeds, they give the weaker vessel half the
  14143. credit of it. If it fails, they generously give her the whole. Laurie
  14144. went back to his grandfather, and was so dutifully devoted for several
  14145. weeks that the old gentleman declared the climate of Nice had improved
  14146. him wonderfully, and he had better try it again. There was nothing the
  14147. young gentleman would have liked better, but elephants could not have
  14148. dragged him back after the scolding he had received. Pride forbid, and
  14149. whenever the longing grew very strong, he fortified his resolution by
  14150. repeating the words that had made the deepest impression--"I despise
  14151. you." "Go and do something splendid that will make her love you."
  14152. Laurie turned the matter over in his mind so often that he soon brought
  14153. himself to confess that he had been selfish and lazy, but then when a
  14154. man has a great sorrow, he should be indulged in all sorts of vagaries
  14155. till he has lived it down. He felt that his blighted affections were
  14156. quite dead now, and though he should never cease to be a faithful
  14157. mourner, there was no occasion to wear his weeds ostentatiously. Jo
  14158. wouldn't love him, but he might make her respect and admire him by
  14159. doing something which should prove that a girl's 'No' had not spoiled
  14160. his life. He had always meant to do something, and Amy's advice was
  14161. quite unnecessary. He had only been waiting till the aforesaid
  14162. blighted affections were decently interred. That being done, he felt
  14163. that he was ready to 'hide his stricken heart, and still toil on'.
  14164. As Goethe, when he had a joy or a grief, put it into a song, so Laurie
  14165. resolved to embalm his love sorrow in music, and to compose a Requiem
  14166. which should harrow up Jo's soul and melt the heart of every hearer.
  14167. Therefore the next time the old gentleman found him getting restless
  14168. and moody and ordered him off, he went to Vienna, where he had musical
  14169. friends, and fell to work with the firm determination to distinguish
  14170. himself. But whether the sorrow was too vast to be embodied in music,
  14171. or music too ethereal to uplift a mortal woe, he soon discovered that
  14172. the Requiem was beyond him just at present. It was evident that his
  14173. mind was not in working order yet, and his ideas needed clarifying, for
  14174. often in the middle of a plaintive strain, he would find himself
  14175. humming a dancing tune that vividly recalled the Christmas ball at
  14176. Nice, especially the stout Frenchman, and put an effectual stop to
  14177. tragic composition for the time being.
  14178. Then he tried an opera, for nothing seemed impossible in the beginning,
  14179. but here again unforeseen difficulties beset him. He wanted Jo for his
  14180. heroine, and called upon his memory to supply him with tender
  14181. recollections and romantic visions of his love. But memory turned
  14182. traitor, and as if possessed by the perverse spirit of the girl, would
  14183. only recall Jo's oddities, faults, and freaks, would only show her in
  14184. the most unsentimental aspects--beating mats with her head tied up in a
  14185. bandanna, barricading herself with the sofa pillow, or throwing cold
  14186. water over his passion a la Gummidge--and an irresistable laugh spoiled
  14187. the pensive picture he was endeavoring to paint. Jo wouldn't be put
  14188. into the opera at any price, and he had to give her up with a "Bless
  14189. that girl, what a torment she is!" and a clutch at his hair, as became
  14190. a distracted composer.
  14191. When he looked about him for another and a less intractable damsel to
  14192. immortalize in melody, memory produced one with the most obliging
  14193. readiness. This phantom wore many faces, but it always had golden
  14194. hair, was enveloped in a diaphanous cloud, and floated airily before
  14195. his mind's eye in a pleasing chaos of roses, peacocks, white ponies,
  14196. and blue ribbons. He did not give the complacent wraith any name, but
  14197. he took her for his heroine and grew quite fond of her, as well he
  14198. might, for he gifted her with every gift and grace under the sun, and
  14199. escorted her, unscathed, through trials which would have annihilated
  14200. any mortal woman.
  14201. Thanks to this inspiration, he got on swimmingly for a time, but
  14202. gradually the work lost its charm, and he forgot to compose, while he
  14203. sat musing, pen in hand, or roamed about the gay city to get some new
  14204. ideas and refresh his mind, which seemed to be in a somewhat unsettled
  14205. state that winter. He did not do much, but he thought a great deal and
  14206. was conscious of a change of some sort going on in spite of himself.
  14207. "It's genius simmering, perhaps. I'll let it simmer, and see what
  14208. comes of it," he said, with a secret suspicion all the while that it
  14209. wasn't genius, but something far more common. Whatever it was, it
  14210. simmered to some purpose, for he grew more and more discontented with
  14211. his desultory life, began to long for some real and earnest work to go
  14212. at, soul and body, and finally came to the wise conclusion that
  14213. everyone who loved music was not a composer. Returning from one of
  14214. Mozart's grand operas, splendidly performed at the Royal Theatre, he
  14215. looked over his own, played a few of the best parts, sat staring at the
  14216. busts of Mendelssohn, Beethoven, and Bach, who stared benignly back
  14217. again. Then suddenly he tore up his music sheets, one by one, and as
  14218. the last fluttered out of his hand, he said soberly to himself...
  14219. "She is right! Talent isn't genius, and you can't make it so. That
  14220. music has taken the vanity out of me as Rome took it out of her, and I
  14221. won't be a humbug any longer. Now what shall I do?"
  14222. That seemed a hard question to answer, and Laurie began to wish he had
  14223. to work for his daily bread. Now if ever, occurred an eligible
  14224. opportunity for 'going to the devil', as he once forcibly expressed it,
  14225. for he had plenty of money and nothing to do, and Satan is proverbially
  14226. fond of providing employment for full and idle hands. The poor fellow
  14227. had temptations enough from without and from within, but he withstood
  14228. them pretty well, for much as he valued liberty, he valued good faith
  14229. and confidence more, so his promise to his grandfather, and his desire
  14230. to be able to look honestly into the eyes of the women who loved him,
  14231. and say "All's well," kept him safe and steady.
  14232. Very likely some Mrs. Grundy will observe, "I don't believe it, boys
  14233. will be boys, young men must sow their wild oats, and women must not
  14234. expect miracles." I dare say you don't, Mrs. Grundy, but it's true
  14235. nevertheless. Women work a good many miracles, and I have a persuasion
  14236. that they may perform even that of raising the standard of manhood by
  14237. refusing to echo such sayings. Let the boys be boys, the longer the
  14238. better, and let the young men sow their wild oats if they must. But
  14239. mothers, sisters, and friends may help to make the crop a small one,
  14240. and keep many tares from spoiling the harvest, by believing, and
  14241. showing that they believe, in the possibility of loyalty to the virtues
  14242. which make men manliest in good women's eyes. If it is a feminine
  14243. delusion, leave us to enjoy it while we may, for without it half the
  14244. beauty and the romance of life is lost, and sorrowful forebodings would
  14245. embitter all our hopes of the brave, tenderhearted little lads, who
  14246. still love their mothers better than themselves and are not ashamed to
  14247. own it.
  14248. Laurie thought that the task of forgetting his love for Jo would absorb
  14249. all his powers for years, but to his great surprise he discovered it
  14250. grew easier every day. He refused to believe it at first, got angry
  14251. with himself, and couldn't understand it, but these hearts of ours are
  14252. curious and contrary things, and time and nature work their will in
  14253. spite of us. Laurie's heart wouldn't ache. The wound persisted in
  14254. healing with a rapidity that astonished him, and instead of trying to
  14255. forget, he found himself trying to remember. He had not foreseen this
  14256. turn of affairs, and was not prepared for it. He was disgusted with
  14257. himself, surprised at his own fickleness, and full of a queer mixture
  14258. of disappointment and relief that he could recover from such a
  14259. tremendous blow so soon. He carefully stirred up the embers of his
  14260. lost love, but they refused to burst into a blaze. There was only a
  14261. comfortable glow that warmed and did him good without putting him into
  14262. a fever, and he was reluctantly obliged to confess that the boyish
  14263. passion was slowly subsiding into a more tranquil sentiment, very
  14264. tender, a little sad and resentful still, but that was sure to pass
  14265. away in time, leaving a brotherly affection which would last unbroken
  14266. to the end.
  14267. As the word 'brotherly' passed through his mind in one of his reveries,
  14268. he smiled, and glanced up at the picture of Mozart that was before
  14269. him...
  14270. "Well, he was a great man, and when he couldn't have one sister he took
  14271. the other, and was happy."
  14272. Laurie did not utter the words, but he thought them, and the next
  14273. instant kissed the little old ring, saying to himself, "No, I won't! I
  14274. haven't forgotten, I never can. I'll try again, and if that fails, why
  14275. then..."
  14276. Leaving his sentence unfinished, he seized pen and paper and wrote to
  14277. Jo, telling her that he could not settle to anything while there was
  14278. the least hope of her changing her mind. Couldn't she, wouldn't
  14279. she--and let him come home and be happy? While waiting for an answer he
  14280. did nothing, but he did it energetically, for he was in a fever of
  14281. impatience. It came at last, and settled his mind effectually on one
  14282. point, for Jo decidedly couldn't and wouldn't. She was wrapped up in
  14283. Beth, and never wished to hear the word love again. Then she begged
  14284. him to be happy with somebody else, but always keep a little corner of
  14285. his heart for his loving sister Jo. In a postscript she desired him
  14286. not to tell Amy that Beth was worse, she was coming home in the spring
  14287. and there was no need of saddening the remainder of her stay. That
  14288. would be time enough, please God, but Laurie must write to her often,
  14289. and not let her feel lonely, homesick or anxious.
  14290. "So I will, at once. Poor little girl, it will be a sad going home for
  14291. her, I'm afraid," and Laurie opened his desk, as if writing to Amy had
  14292. been the proper conclusion of the sentence left unfinished some weeks
  14293. before.
  14294. But he did not write the letter that day, for as he rummaged out his
  14295. best paper, he came across something which changed his purpose.
  14296. Tumbling about in one part of the desk among bills, passports, and
  14297. business documents of various kinds were several of Jo's letters, and
  14298. in another compartment were three notes from Amy, carefully tied up
  14299. with one of her blue ribbons and sweetly suggestive of the little dead
  14300. roses put away inside. With a half-repentant, half-amused expression,
  14301. Laurie gathered up all Jo's letters, smoothed, folded, and put them
  14302. neatly into a small drawer of the desk, stood a minute turning the ring
  14303. thoughtfully on his finger, then slowly drew it off, laid it with the
  14304. letters, locked the drawer, and went out to hear High Mass at Saint
  14305. Stefan's, feeling as if there had been a funeral, and though not
  14306. overwhelmed with affliction, this seemed a more proper way to spend the
  14307. rest of the day than in writing letters to charming young ladies.
  14308. The letter went very soon, however, and was promptly answered, for Amy
  14309. was homesick, and confessed it in the most delightfully confiding
  14310. manner. The correspondence flourished famously, and letters flew to
  14311. and fro with unfailing regularity all through the early spring. Laurie
  14312. sold his busts, made allumettes of his opera, and went back to Paris,
  14313. hoping somebody would arrive before long. He wanted desperately to go
  14314. to Nice, but would not till he was asked, and Amy would not ask him,
  14315. for just then she was having little experiences of her own, which made
  14316. her rather wish to avoid the quizzical eyes of 'our boy'.
  14317. Fred Vaughn had returned, and put the question to which she had once
  14318. decided to answer, "Yes, thank you," but now she said, "No, thank you,"
  14319. kindly but steadily, for when the time came, her courage failed her,
  14320. and she found that something more than money and position was needed to
  14321. satisfy the new longing that filled her heart so full of tender hopes
  14322. and fears. The words, "Fred is a good fellow, but not at all the man I
  14323. fancied you would ever like," and Laurie's face when he uttered them,
  14324. kept returning to her as pertinaciously as her own did when she said in
  14325. look, if not in words, "I shall marry for money." It troubled her to
  14326. remember that now, she wished she could take it back, it sounded so
  14327. unwomanly. She didn't want Laurie to think her a heartless, worldly
  14328. creature. She didn't care to be a queen of society now half so much as
  14329. she did to be a lovable woman. She was so glad he didn't hate her for
  14330. the dreadful things she said, but took them so beautifully and was
  14331. kinder than ever. His letters were such a comfort, for the home
  14332. letters were very irregular and not half so satisfactory as his when
  14333. they did come. It was not only a pleasure, but a duty to answer them,
  14334. for the poor fellow was forlorn, and needed petting, since Jo persisted
  14335. in being stonyhearted. She ought to have made an effort and tried to
  14336. love him. It couldn't be very hard, many people would be proud and
  14337. glad to have such a dear boy care for them. But Jo never would act
  14338. like other girls, so there was nothing to do but be very kind and treat
  14339. him like a brother.
  14340. If all brothers were treated as well as Laurie was at this period, they
  14341. would be a much happier race of beings than they are. Amy never
  14342. lectured now. She asked his opinion on all subjects, she was
  14343. interested in everything he did, made charming little presents for him,
  14344. and sent him two letters a week, full of lively gossip, sisterly
  14345. confidences, and captivating sketches of the lovely scenes about her.
  14346. As few brothers are complimented by having their letters carried about
  14347. in their sister's pockets, read and reread diligently, cried over when
  14348. short, kissed when long, and treasured carefully, we will not hint that
  14349. Amy did any of these fond and foolish things. But she certainly did
  14350. grow a little pale and pensive that spring, lost much of her relish for
  14351. society, and went out sketching alone a good deal. She never had much
  14352. to show when she came home, but was studying nature, I dare say, while
  14353. she sat for hours, with her hands folded, on the terrace at Valrosa, or
  14354. absently sketched any fancy that occurred to her, a stalwart knight
  14355. carved on a tomb, a young man asleep in the grass, with his hat over
  14356. his eyes, or a curly haired girl in gorgeous array, promenading down a
  14357. ballroom on the arm of a tall gentleman, both faces being left a blur
  14358. according to the last fashion in art, which was safe but not altogether
  14359. satisfactory.
  14360. Her aunt thought that she regretted her answer to Fred, and finding
  14361. denials useless and explanations impossible, Amy left her to think what
  14362. she liked, taking care that Laurie should know that Fred had gone to
  14363. Egypt. That was all, but he understood it, and looked relieved, as he
  14364. said to himself, with a venerable air...
  14365. "I was sure she would think better of it. Poor old fellow! I've been
  14366. through it all, and I can sympathize."
  14367. With that he heaved a great sigh, and then, as if he had discharged his
  14368. duty to the past, put his feet up on the sofa and enjoyed Amy's letter
  14369. luxuriously.
  14370. While these changes were going on abroad, trouble had come at home.
  14371. But the letter telling that Beth was failing never reached Amy, and
  14372. when the next found her at Vevay, for the heat had driven them from
  14373. Nice in May, and they had travelled slowly to Switzerland, by way of
  14374. Genoa and the Italian lakes. She bore it very well, and quietly
  14375. submitted to the family decree that she should not shorten her visit,
  14376. for since it was too late to say goodbye to Beth, she had better stay,
  14377. and let absence soften her sorrow. But her heart was very heavy, she
  14378. longed to be at home, and every day looked wistfully across the lake,
  14379. waiting for Laurie to come and comfort her.
  14380. He did come very soon, for the same mail brought letters to them both,
  14381. but he was in Germany, and it took some days to reach him. The moment
  14382. he read it, he packed his knapsack, bade adieu to his fellow
  14383. pedestrians, and was off to keep his promise, with a heart full of joy
  14384. and sorrow, hope and suspense.
  14385. He knew Vevay well, and as soon as the boat touched the little quay, he
  14386. hurried along the shore to La Tour, where the Carrols were living en
  14387. pension. The garcon was in despair that the whole family had gone to
  14388. take a promenade on the lake, but no, the blonde mademoiselle might be
  14389. in the chateau garden. If monsieur would give himself the pain of
  14390. sitting down, a flash of time should present her. But monsieur could
  14391. not wait even a 'flash of time', and in the middle of the speech
  14392. departed to find mademoiselle himself.
  14393. A pleasant old garden on the borders of the lovely lake, with chestnuts
  14394. rustling overhead, ivy climbing everywhere, and the black shadow of the
  14395. tower falling far across the sunny water. At one corner of the wide,
  14396. low wall was a seat, and here Amy often came to read or work, or
  14397. console herself with the beauty all about her. She was sitting here
  14398. that day, leaning her head on her hand, with a homesick heart and heavy
  14399. eyes, thinking of Beth and wondering why Laurie did not come. She did
  14400. not hear him cross the courtyard beyond, nor see him pause in the
  14401. archway that led from the subterranean path into the garden. He stood
  14402. a minute looking at her with new eyes, seeing what no one had ever seen
  14403. before, the tender side of Amy's character. Everything about her mutely
  14404. suggested love and sorrow, the blotted letters in her lap, the black
  14405. ribbon that tied up her hair, the womanly pain and patience in her
  14406. face, even the little ebony cross at her throat seemed pathetic to
  14407. Laurie, for he had given it to her, and she wore it as her only
  14408. ornament. If he had any doubts about the reception she would give him,
  14409. they were set at rest the minute she looked up and saw him, for
  14410. dropping everything, she ran to him, exclaiming in a tone of
  14411. unmistakable love and longing...
  14412. "Oh, Laurie, Laurie, I knew you'd come to me!"
  14413. I think everything was said and settled then, for as they stood
  14414. together quite silent for a moment, with the dark head bent down
  14415. protectingly over the light one, Amy felt that no one could comfort and
  14416. sustain her so well as Laurie, and Laurie decided that Amy was the only
  14417. woman in the world who could fill Jo's place and make him happy. He
  14418. did not tell her so, but she was not disappointed, for both felt the
  14419. truth, were satisfied, and gladly left the rest to silence.
  14420. In a minute Amy went back to her place, and while she dried her tears,
  14421. Laurie gathered up the scattered papers, finding in the sight of sundry
  14422. well-worn letters and suggestive sketches good omens for the future.
  14423. As he sat down beside her, Amy felt shy again, and turned rosy red at
  14424. the recollection of her impulsive greeting.
  14425. "I couldn't help it, I felt so lonely and sad, and was so very glad to
  14426. see you. It was such a surprise to look up and find you, just as I was
  14427. beginning to fear you wouldn't come," she said, trying in vain to speak
  14428. quite naturally.
  14429. "I came the minute I heard. I wish I could say something to comfort
  14430. you for the loss of dear little Beth, but I can only feel, and..." He
  14431. could not get any further, for he too turned bashful all of a sudden,
  14432. and did not quite know what to say. He longed to lay Amy's head down
  14433. on his shoulder, and tell her to have a good cry, but he did not dare,
  14434. so took her hand instead, and gave it a sympathetic squeeze that was
  14435. better than words.
  14436. "You needn't say anything, this comforts me," she said softly. "Beth
  14437. is well and happy, and I mustn't wish her back, but I dread the going
  14438. home, much as I long to see them all. We won't talk about it now, for
  14439. it makes me cry, and I want to enjoy you while you stay. You needn't
  14440. go right back, need you?"
  14441. "Not if you want me, dear."
  14442. "I do, so much. Aunt and Flo are very kind, but you seem like one of
  14443. the family, and it would be so comfortable to have you for a little
  14444. while."
  14445. Amy spoke and looked so like a homesick child whose heart was full that
  14446. Laurie forgot his bashfulness all at once, and gave her just what she
  14447. wanted--the petting she was used to and the cheerful conversation she
  14448. needed.
  14449. "Poor little soul, you look as if you'd grieved yourself half sick!
  14450. I'm going to take care of you, so don't cry any more, but come and walk
  14451. about with me, the wind is too chilly for you to sit still," he said,
  14452. in the half-caressing, half-commanding way that Amy liked, as he tied
  14453. on her hat, drew her arm through his, and began to pace up and down the
  14454. sunny walk under the new-leaved chestnuts. He felt more at ease upon
  14455. his legs, and Amy found it pleasant to have a strong arm to lean upon,
  14456. a familiar face to smile at her, and a kind voice to talk delightfully
  14457. for her alone.
  14458. The quaint old garden had sheltered many pairs of lovers, and seemed
  14459. expressly made for them, so sunny and secluded was it, with nothing but
  14460. the tower to overlook them, and the wide lake to carry away the echo of
  14461. their words, as it rippled by below. For an hour this new pair walked
  14462. and talked, or rested on the wall, enjoying the sweet influences which
  14463. gave such a charm to time and place, and when an unromantic dinner bell
  14464. warned them away, Amy felt as if she left her burden of loneliness and
  14465. sorrow behind her in the chateau garden.
  14466. The moment Mrs. Carrol saw the girl's altered face, she was illuminated
  14467. with a new idea, and exclaimed to herself, "Now I understand it
  14468. all--the child has been pining for young Laurence. Bless my heart, I
  14469. never thought of such a thing!"
  14470. With praiseworthy discretion, the good lady said nothing, and betrayed
  14471. no sign of enlightenment, but cordially urged Laurie to stay and begged
  14472. Amy to enjoy his society, for it would do her more good than so much
  14473. solitude. Amy was a model of docility, and as her aunt was a good deal
  14474. occupied with Flo, she was left to entertain her friend, and did it
  14475. with more than her usual success.
  14476. At Nice, Laurie had lounged and Amy had scolded. At Vevay, Laurie was
  14477. never idle, but always walking, riding, boating, or studying in the
  14478. most energetic manner, while Amy admired everything he did and followed
  14479. his example as far and as fast as she could. He said the change was
  14480. owing to the climate, and she did not contradict him, being glad of a
  14481. like excuse for her own recovered health and spirits.
  14482. The invigorating air did them both good, and much exercise worked
  14483. wholesome changes in minds as well as bodies. They seemed to get
  14484. clearer views of life and duty up there among the everlasting hills.
  14485. The fresh winds blew away desponding doubts, delusive fancies, and
  14486. moody mists. The warm spring sunshine brought out all sorts of
  14487. aspiring ideas, tender hopes, and happy thoughts. The lake seemed to
  14488. wash away the troubles of the past, and the grand old mountains to look
  14489. benignly down upon them saying, "Little children, love one another."
  14490. In spite of the new sorrow, it was a very happy time, so happy that
  14491. Laurie could not bear to disturb it by a word. It took him a little
  14492. while to recover from his surprise at the cure of his first, and as he
  14493. had firmly believed, his last and only love. He consoled himself for
  14494. the seeming disloyalty by the thought that Jo's sister was almost the
  14495. same as Jo's self, and the conviction that it would have been
  14496. impossible to love any other woman but Amy so soon and so well. His
  14497. first wooing had been of the tempestuous order, and he looked back upon
  14498. it as if through a long vista of years with a feeling of compassion
  14499. blended with regret. He was not ashamed of it, but put it away as one
  14500. of the bitter-sweet experiences of his life, for which he could be
  14501. grateful when the pain was over. His second wooing, he resolved, should
  14502. be as calm and simple as possible. There was no need of having a
  14503. scene, hardly any need of telling Amy that he loved her, she knew it
  14504. without words and had given him his answer long ago. It all came about
  14505. so naturally that no one could complain, and he knew that everybody
  14506. would be pleased, even Jo. But when our first little passion has been
  14507. crushed, we are apt to be wary and slow in making a second trial, so
  14508. Laurie let the days pass, enjoying every hour, and leaving to chance
  14509. the utterance of the word that would put an end to the first and
  14510. sweetest part of his new romance.
  14511. He had rather imagined that the denoument would take place in the
  14512. chateau garden by moonlight, and in the most graceful and decorous
  14513. manner, but it turned out exactly the reverse, for the matter was
  14514. settled on the lake at noonday in a few blunt words. They had been
  14515. floating about all the morning, from gloomy St. Gingolf to sunny
  14516. Montreux, with the Alps of Savoy on one side, Mont St. Bernard and the
  14517. Dent du Midi on the other, pretty Vevay in the valley, and Lausanne
  14518. upon the hill beyond, a cloudless blue sky overhead, and the bluer lake
  14519. below, dotted with the picturesque boats that look like white-winged
  14520. gulls.
  14521. They had been talking of Bonnivard, as they glided past Chillon, and of
  14522. Rousseau, as they looked up at Clarens, where he wrote his Heloise.
  14523. Neither had read it, but they knew it was a love story, and each
  14524. privately wondered if it was half as interesting as their own. Amy had
  14525. been dabbling her hand in the water during the little pause that fell
  14526. between them, and when she looked up, Laurie was leaning on his oars
  14527. with an expression in his eyes that made her say hastily, merely for
  14528. the sake of saying something...
  14529. "You must be tired. Rest a little, and let me row. It will do me
  14530. good, for since you came I have been altogether lazy and luxurious."
  14531. "I'm not tired, but you may take an oar, if you like. There's room
  14532. enough, though I have to sit nearly in the middle, else the boat won't
  14533. trim," returned Laurie, as if he rather liked the arrangement.
  14534. Feeling that she had not mended matters much, Amy took the offered
  14535. third of a seat, shook her hair over her face, and accepted an oar.
  14536. She rowed as well as she did many other things, and though she used
  14537. both hands, and Laurie but one, the oars kept time, and the boat went
  14538. smoothly through the water.
  14539. "How well we pull together, don't we?" said Amy, who objected to
  14540. silence just then.
  14541. "So well that I wish we might always pull in the same boat. Will you,
  14542. Amy?" very tenderly.
  14543. "Yes, Laurie," very low.
  14544. Then they both stopped rowing, and unconsciously added a pretty little
  14545. tableau of human love and happiness to the dissolving views reflected
  14546. in the lake.
  14547. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  14548. ALL ALONE
  14549. It was easy to promise self-abnegation when self was wrapped up in
  14550. another, and heart and soul were purified by a sweet example. But when
  14551. the helpful voice was silent, the daily lesson over, the beloved
  14552. presence gone, and nothing remained but loneliness and grief, then Jo
  14553. found her promise very hard to keep. How could she 'comfort Father and
  14554. Mother' when her own heart ached with a ceaseless longing for her
  14555. sister, how could she 'make the house cheerful' when all its light and
  14556. warmth and beauty seemed to have deserted it when Beth left the old
  14557. home for the new, and where in all the world could she 'find some
  14558. useful, happy work to do', that would take the place of the loving
  14559. service which had been its own reward? She tried in a blind, hopeless
  14560. way to do her duty, secretly rebelling against it all the while, for it
  14561. seemed unjust that her few joys should be lessened, her burdens made
  14562. heavier, and life get harder and harder as she toiled along. Some
  14563. people seemed to get all sunshine, and some all shadow. It was not
  14564. fair, for she tried more than Amy to be good, but never got any reward,
  14565. only disappointment, trouble and hard work.
  14566. Poor Jo, these were dark days to her, for something like despair came
  14567. over her when she thought of spending all her life in that quiet house,
  14568. devoted to humdrum cares, a few small pleasures, and the duty that
  14569. never seemed to grow any easier. "I can't do it. I wasn't meant for a
  14570. life like this, and I know I shall break away and do something
  14571. desperate if somebody doesn't come and help me," she said to herself,
  14572. when her first efforts failed and she fell into the moody, miserable
  14573. state of mind which often comes when strong wills have to yield to the
  14574. inevitable.
  14575. But someone did come and help her, though Jo did not recognize her good
  14576. angels at once because they wore familiar shapes and used the simple
  14577. spells best fitted to poor humanity. Often she started up at night,
  14578. thinking Beth called her, and when the sight of the little empty bed
  14579. made her cry with the bitter cry of unsubmissive sorrow, "Oh, Beth,
  14580. come back! Come back!" she did not stretch out her yearning arms in
  14581. vain. For, as quick to hear her sobbing as she had been to hear her
  14582. sister's faintest whisper, her mother came to comfort her, not with
  14583. words only, but the patient tenderness that soothes by a touch, tears
  14584. that were mute reminders of a greater grief than Jo's, and broken
  14585. whispers, more eloquent than prayers, because hopeful resignation went
  14586. hand-in-hand with natural sorrow. Sacred moments, when heart talked to
  14587. heart in the silence of the night, turning affliction to a blessing,
  14588. which chastened grief and strengthened love. Feeling this, Jo's burden
  14589. seemed easier to bear, duty grew sweeter, and life looked more
  14590. endurable, seen from the safe shelter of her mother's arms.
  14591. When aching heart was a little comforted, troubled mind likewise found
  14592. help, for one day she went to the study, and leaning over the good gray
  14593. head lifted to welcome her with a tranquil smile, she said very humbly,
  14594. "Father, talk to me as you did to Beth. I need it more than she did,
  14595. for I'm all wrong."
  14596. "My dear, nothing can comfort me like this," he answered, with a falter
  14597. in his voice, and both arms round her, as if he too, needed help, and
  14598. did not fear to ask for it.
  14599. Then, sitting in Beth's little chair close beside him, Jo told her
  14600. troubles, the resentful sorrow for her loss, the fruitless efforts that
  14601. discouraged her, the want of faith that made life look so dark, and all
  14602. the sad bewilderment which we call despair. She gave him entire
  14603. confidence, he gave her the help she needed, and both found consolation
  14604. in the act. For the time had come when they could talk together not
  14605. only as father and daughter, but as man and woman, able and glad to
  14606. serve each other with mutual sympathy as well as mutual love. Happy,
  14607. thoughtful times there in the old study which Jo called 'the church of
  14608. one member', and from which she came with fresh courage, recovered
  14609. cheerfulness, and a more submissive spirit. For the parents who had
  14610. taught one child to meet death without fear, were trying now to teach
  14611. another to accept life without despondency or distrust, and to use its
  14612. beautiful opportunities with gratitude and power.
  14613. Other helps had Jo--humble, wholesome duties and delights that would
  14614. not be denied their part in serving her, and which she slowly learned
  14615. to see and value. Brooms and dishcloths never could be as distasteful
  14616. as they once had been, for Beth had presided over both, and something
  14617. of her housewifely spirit seemed to linger around the little mop and
  14618. the old brush, never thrown away. As she used them, Jo found herself
  14619. humming the songs Beth used to hum, imitating Beth's orderly ways, and
  14620. giving the little touches here and there that kept everything fresh and
  14621. cozy, which was the first step toward making home happy, though she
  14622. didn't know it till Hannah said with an approving squeeze of the hand...
  14623. "You thoughtful creeter, you're determined we shan't miss that dear
  14624. lamb ef you can help it. We don't say much, but we see it, and the
  14625. Lord will bless you for't, see ef He don't."
  14626. As they sat sewing together, Jo discovered how much improved her sister
  14627. Meg was, how well she could talk, how much she knew about good, womanly
  14628. impulses, thoughts, and feelings, how happy she was in husband and
  14629. children, and how much they were all doing for each other.
  14630. "Marriage is an excellent thing, after all. I wonder if I should
  14631. blossom out half as well as you have, if I tried it?, always
  14632. _'perwisin'_ I could," said Jo, as she constructed a kite for Demi in
  14633. the topsy-turvy nursery.
  14634. "It's just what you need to bring out the tender womanly half of your
  14635. nature, Jo. You are like a chestnut burr, prickly outside, but
  14636. silky-soft within, and a sweet kernal, if one can only get at it. Love
  14637. will make you show your heart one day, and then the rough burr will
  14638. fall off."
  14639. "Frost opens chestnut burrs, ma'am, and it takes a good shake to bring
  14640. them down. Boys go nutting, and I don't care to be bagged by them,"
  14641. returned Jo, pasting away at the kite which no wind that blows would
  14642. ever carry up, for Daisy had tied herself on as a bob.
  14643. Meg laughed, for she was glad to see a glimmer of Jo's old spirit, but
  14644. she felt it her duty to enforce her opinion by every argument in her
  14645. power, and the sisterly chats were not wasted, especially as two of
  14646. Meg's most effective arguments were the babies, whom Jo loved tenderly.
  14647. Grief is the best opener of some hearts, and Jo's was nearly ready for
  14648. the bag. A little more sunshine to ripen the nut, then, not a boy's
  14649. impatient shake, but a man's hand reached up to pick it gently from the
  14650. burr, and find the kernal sound and sweet. If she suspected this, she
  14651. would have shut up tight, and been more prickly than ever, fortunately
  14652. she wasn't thinking about herself, so when the time came, down she
  14653. dropped.
  14654. Now, if she had been the heroine of a moral storybook, she ought at
  14655. this period of her life to have become quite saintly, renounced the
  14656. world, and gone about doing good in a mortified bonnet, with tracts in
  14657. her pocket. But, you see, Jo wasn't a heroine, she was only a
  14658. struggling human girl like hundreds of others, and she just acted out
  14659. her nature, being sad, cross, listless, or energetic, as the mood
  14660. suggested. It's highly virtuous to say we'll be good, but we can't do
  14661. it all at once, and it takes a long pull, a strong pull, and a pull all
  14662. together before some of us even get our feet set in the right way. Jo
  14663. had got so far, she was learning to do her duty, and to feel unhappy if
  14664. she did not, but to do it cheerfully, ah, that was another thing! She
  14665. had often said she wanted to do something splendid, no matter how hard,
  14666. and now she had her wish, for what could be more beautiful than to
  14667. devote her life to Father and Mother, trying to make home as happy to
  14668. them as they had to her? And if difficulties were necessary to
  14669. increase the splendor of the effort, what could be harder for a
  14670. restless, ambitious girl than to give up her own hopes, plans, and
  14671. desires, and cheerfully live for others?
  14672. Providence had taken her at her word. Here was the task, not what she
  14673. had expected, but better because self had no part in it. Now, could she
  14674. do it? She decided that she would try, and in her first attempt she
  14675. found the helps I have suggested. Still another was given her, and she
  14676. took it, not as a reward, but as a comfort, as Christian took the
  14677. refreshment afforded by the little arbor where he rested, as he climbed
  14678. the hill called Difficulty.
  14679. "Why don't you write? That always used to make you happy," said her
  14680. mother once, when the desponding fit over-shadowed Jo.
  14681. "I've no heart to write, and if I had, nobody cares for my things."
  14682. "We do. Write something for us, and never mind the rest of the world.
  14683. Try it, dear. I'm sure it would do you good, and please us very much."
  14684. "Don't believe I can." But Jo got out her desk and began to overhaul
  14685. her half-finished manuscripts.
  14686. An hour afterward her mother peeped in and there she was, scratching
  14687. away, with her black pinafore on, and an absorbed expression, which
  14688. caused Mrs. March to smile and slip away, well pleased with the success
  14689. of her suggestion. Jo never knew how it happened, but something got
  14690. into that story that went straight to the hearts of those who read it,
  14691. for when her family had laughed and cried over it, her father sent it,
  14692. much against her will, to one of the popular magazines, and to her
  14693. utter surprise, it was not only paid for, but others requested.
  14694. Letters from several persons, whose praise was honor, followed the
  14695. appearance of the little story, newspapers copied it, and strangers as
  14696. well as friends admired it. For a small thing it was a great success,
  14697. and Jo was more astonished than when her novel was commended and
  14698. condemned all at once.
  14699. "I don't understand it. What can there be in a simple little story
  14700. like that to make people praise it so?" she said, quite bewildered.
  14701. "There is truth in it, Jo, that's the secret. Humor and pathos make it
  14702. alive, and you have found your style at last. You wrote with no
  14703. thoughts of fame and money, and put your heart into it, my daughter.
  14704. You have had the bitter, now comes the sweet. Do your best, and grow
  14705. as happy as we are in your success."
  14706. "If there is anything good or true in what I write, it isn't mine. I
  14707. owe it all to you and Mother and Beth," said Jo, more touched by her
  14708. father's words than by any amount of praise from the world.
  14709. So taught by love and sorrow, Jo wrote her little stories, and sent
  14710. them away to make friends for themselves and her, finding it a very
  14711. charitable world to such humble wanderers, for they were kindly
  14712. welcomed, and sent home comfortable tokens to their mother, like
  14713. dutiful children whom good fortune overtakes.
  14714. When Amy and Laurie wrote of their engagement, Mrs. March feared that
  14715. Jo would find it difficult to rejoice over it, but her fears were soon
  14716. set at rest, for though Jo looked grave at first, she took it very
  14717. quietly, and was full of hopes and plans for 'the children' before she
  14718. read the letter twice. It was a sort of written duet, wherein each
  14719. glorified the other in loverlike fashion, very pleasant to read and
  14720. satisfactory to think of, for no one had any objection to make.
  14721. "You like it, Mother?" said Jo, as they laid down the closely written
  14722. sheets and looked at one another.
  14723. "Yes, I hoped it would be so, ever since Amy wrote that she had refused
  14724. Fred. I felt sure then that something better than what you call the
  14725. 'mercenary spirit' had come over her, and a hint here and there in her
  14726. letters made me suspect that love and Laurie would win the day."
  14727. "How sharp you are, Marmee, and how silent! You never said a word to
  14728. me."
  14729. "Mothers have need of sharp eyes and discreet tongues when they have
  14730. girls to manage. I was half afraid to put the idea into your head,
  14731. lest you should write and congratulate them before the thing was
  14732. settled."
  14733. "I'm not the scatterbrain I was. You may trust me. I'm sober and
  14734. sensible enough for anyone's confidante now."
  14735. "So you are, my dear, and I should have made you mine, only I fancied
  14736. it might pain you to learn that your Teddy loved someone else."
  14737. "Now, Mother, did you really think I could be so silly and selfish,
  14738. after I'd refused his love, when it was freshest, if not best?"
  14739. "I knew you were sincere then, Jo, but lately I have thought that if he
  14740. came back, and asked again, you might perhaps, feel like giving another
  14741. answer. Forgive me, dear, I can't help seeing that you are very
  14742. lonely, and sometimes there is a hungry look in your eyes that goes to
  14743. my heart. So I fancied that your boy might fill the empty place if he
  14744. tried now."
  14745. "No, Mother, it is better as it is, and I'm glad Amy has learned to
  14746. love him. But you are right in one thing. I am lonely, and perhaps if
  14747. Teddy had tried again, I might have said 'Yes', not because I love him
  14748. any more, but because I care more to be loved than when he went away."
  14749. "I'm glad of that, Jo, for it shows that you are getting on. There are
  14750. plenty to love you, so try to be satisfied with Father and Mother,
  14751. sisters and brothers, friends and babies, till the best lover of all
  14752. comes to give you your reward."
  14753. "Mothers are the best lovers in the world, but I don't mind whispering
  14754. to Marmee that I'd like to try all kinds. It's very curious, but the
  14755. more I try to satisfy myself with all sorts of natural affections, the
  14756. more I seem to want. I'd no idea hearts could take in so many. Mine
  14757. is so elastic, it never seems full now, and I used to be quite
  14758. contented with my family. I don't understand it."
  14759. "I do," and Mrs. March smiled her wise smile, as Jo turned back the
  14760. leaves to read what Amy said of Laurie.
  14761. "It is so beautiful to be loved as Laurie loves me. He isn't
  14762. sentimental, doesn't say much about it, but I see and feel it in all he
  14763. says and does, and it makes me so happy and so humble that I don't seem
  14764. to be the same girl I was. I never knew how good and generous and
  14765. tender he was till now, for he lets me read his heart, and I find it
  14766. full of noble impulses and hopes and purposes, and am so proud to know
  14767. it's mine. He says he feels as if he 'could make a prosperous voyage
  14768. now with me aboard as mate, and lots of love for ballast'. I pray he
  14769. may, and try to be all he believes me, for I love my gallant captain
  14770. with all my heart and soul and might, and never will desert him, while
  14771. God lets us be together. Oh, Mother, I never knew how much like heaven
  14772. this world could be, when two people love and live for one another!"
  14773. "And that's our cool, reserved, and worldly Amy! Truly, love does work
  14774. miracles. How very, very happy they must be!" and Jo laid the rustling
  14775. sheets together with a careful hand, as one might shut the covers of a
  14776. lovely romance, which holds the reader fast till the end comes, and he
  14777. finds himself alone in the workaday world again.
  14778. By-and-by Jo roamed away upstairs, for it was rainy, and she could not
  14779. walk. A restless spirit possessed her, and the old feeling came again,
  14780. not bitter as it once was, but a sorrowfully patient wonder why one
  14781. sister should have all she asked, the other nothing. It was not true,
  14782. she knew that and tried to put it away, but the natural craving for
  14783. affection was strong, and Amy's happiness woke the hungry longing for
  14784. someone to 'love with heart and soul, and cling to while God let them
  14785. be together'. Up in the garret, where Jo's unquiet wanderings ended
  14786. stood four little wooden chests in a row, each marked with its owners
  14787. name, and each filled with relics of the childhood and girlhood ended
  14788. now for all. Jo glanced into them, and when she came to her own,
  14789. leaned her chin on the edge, and stared absently at the chaotic
  14790. collection, till a bundle of old exercise books caught her eye. She
  14791. drew them out, turned them over, and relived that pleasant winter at
  14792. kind Mrs. Kirke's. She had smiled at first, then she looked
  14793. thoughtful, next sad, and when she came to a little message written in
  14794. the Professor's hand, her lips began to tremble, the books slid out of
  14795. her lap, and she sat looking at the friendly words, as they took a new
  14796. meaning, and touched a tender spot in her heart.
  14797. "Wait for me, my friend. I may be a little late, but I shall surely
  14798. come."
  14799. "Oh, if he only would! So kind, so good, so patient with me always, my
  14800. dear old Fritz. I didn't value him half enough when I had him, but now
  14801. how I should love to see him, for everyone seems going away from me,
  14802. and I'm all alone."
  14803. And holding the little paper fast, as if it were a promise yet to be
  14804. fulfilled, Jo laid her head down on a comfortable rag bag, and cried,
  14805. as if in opposition to the rain pattering on the roof.
  14806. Was it all self-pity, loneliness, or low spirits? Or was it the waking
  14807. up of a sentiment which had bided its time as patiently as its
  14808. inspirer? Who shall say?
  14809. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  14810. SURPRISES
  14811. Jo was alone in the twilight, lying on the old sofa, looking at the
  14812. fire, and thinking. It was her favorite way of spending the hour of
  14813. dusk. No one disturbed her, and she used to lie there on Beth's little
  14814. red pillow, planning stories, dreaming dreams, or thinking tender
  14815. thoughts of the sister who never seemed far away. Her face looked
  14816. tired, grave, and rather sad, for tomorrow was her birthday, and she
  14817. was thinking how fast the years went by, how old she was getting, and
  14818. how little she seemed to have accomplished. Almost twenty-five, and
  14819. nothing to show for it. Jo was mistaken in that. There was a good
  14820. deal to show, and by-and-by she saw, and was grateful for it.
  14821. "An old maid, that's what I'm to be. A literary spinster, with a pen
  14822. for a spouse, a family of stories for children, and twenty years hence
  14823. a morsel of fame, perhaps, when, like poor Johnson, I'm old and can't
  14824. enjoy it, solitary, and can't share it, independent, and don't need it.
  14825. Well, I needn't be a sour saint nor a selfish sinner, and, I dare say,
  14826. old maids are very comfortable when they get used to it, but..." and
  14827. there Jo sighed, as if the prospect was not inviting.
  14828. It seldom is, at first, and thirty seems the end of all things to
  14829. five-and-twenty. But it's not as bad as it looks, and one can get on
  14830. quite happily if one has something in one's self to fall back upon. At
  14831. twenty-five, girls begin to talk about being old maids, but secretly
  14832. resolve that they never will be. At thirty they say nothing about it,
  14833. but quietly accept the fact, and if sensible, console themselves by
  14834. remembering that they have twenty more useful, happy years, in which
  14835. they may be learning to grow old gracefully. Don't laugh at the
  14836. spinsters, dear girls, for often very tender, tragic romances are
  14837. hidden away in the hearts that beat so quietly under the sober gowns,
  14838. and many silent sacrifices of youth, health, ambition, love itself,
  14839. make the faded faces beautiful in God's sight. Even the sad, sour
  14840. sisters should be kindly dealt with, because they have missed the
  14841. sweetest part of life, if for no other reason. And looking at them
  14842. with compassion, not contempt, girls in their bloom should remember
  14843. that they too may miss the blossom time. That rosy cheeks don't last
  14844. forever, that silver threads will come in the bonnie brown hair, and
  14845. that, by-and-by, kindness and respect will be as sweet as love and
  14846. admiration now.
  14847. Gentlemen, which means boys, be courteous to the old maids, no matter
  14848. how poor and plain and prim, for the only chivalry worth having is that
  14849. which is the readiest to pay deference to the old, protect the feeble,
  14850. and serve womankind, regardless of rank, age, or color. Just recollect
  14851. the good aunts who have not only lectured and fussed, but nursed and
  14852. petted, too often without thanks, the scrapes they have helped you out
  14853. of, the tips they have given you from their small store, the stitches
  14854. the patient old fingers have set for you, the steps the willing old
  14855. feet have taken, and gratefully pay the dear old ladies the little
  14856. attentions that women love to receive as long as they live. The
  14857. bright-eyed girls are quick to see such traits, and will like you all
  14858. the better for them, and if death, almost the only power that can part
  14859. mother and son, should rob you of yours, you will be sure to find a
  14860. tender welcome and maternal cherishing from some Aunt Priscilla, who
  14861. has kept the warmest corner of her lonely old heart for 'the best nevvy
  14862. in the world'.
  14863. Jo must have fallen asleep (as I dare say my reader has during this
  14864. little homily), for suddenly Laurie's ghost seemed to stand before her,
  14865. a substantial, lifelike ghost, leaning over her with the very look he
  14866. used to wear when he felt a good deal and didn't like to show it. But,
  14867. like Jenny in the ballad...
  14868. "She could not think it he,"
  14869. and lay staring up at him in startled silence, till he stooped and
  14870. kissed her. Then she knew him, and flew up, crying joyfully...
  14871. "Oh my Teddy! Oh my Teddy!"
  14872. "Dear Jo, you are glad to see me, then?"
  14873. "Glad! My blessed boy, words can't express my gladness. Where's Amy?"
  14874. "Your mother has got her down at Meg's. We stopped there by the way,
  14875. and there was no getting my wife out of their clutches."
  14876. "Your what?" cried Jo, for Laurie uttered those two words with an
  14877. unconscious pride and satisfaction which betrayed him.
  14878. "Oh, the dickens! Now I've done it," and he looked so guilty that Jo
  14879. was down on him like a flash.
  14880. "You've gone and got married!"
  14881. "Yes, please, but I never will again," and he went down upon his knees,
  14882. with a penitent clasping of hands, and a face full of mischief, mirth,
  14883. and triumph.
  14884. "Actually married?"
  14885. "Very much so, thank you."
  14886. "Mercy on us. What dreadful thing will you do next?" and Jo fell into
  14887. her seat with a gasp.
  14888. "A characteristic, but not exactly complimentary, congratulation,"
  14889. returned Laurie, still in an abject attitude, but beaming with
  14890. satisfaction.
  14891. "What can you expect, when you take one's breath away, creeping in like
  14892. a burglar, and letting cats out of bags like that? Get up, you
  14893. ridiculous boy, and tell me all about it."
  14894. "Not a word, unless you let me come in my old place, and promise not to
  14895. barricade."
  14896. Jo laughed at that as she had not done for many a long day, and patted
  14897. the sofa invitingly, as she said in a cordial tone, "The old pillow is
  14898. up garret, and we don't need it now. So, come and 'fess, Teddy."
  14899. "How good it sounds to hear you say 'Teddy'! No one ever calls me that
  14900. but you," and Laurie sat down with an air of great content.
  14901. "What does Amy call you?"
  14902. "My lord."
  14903. "That's like her. Well, you look it," and Jo's eye plainly betrayed
  14904. that she found her boy comelier than ever.
  14905. The pillow was gone, but there was a barricade, nevertheless, a natural
  14906. one, raised by time, absence, and change of heart. Both felt it, and
  14907. for a minute looked at one another as if that invisible barrier cast a
  14908. little shadow over them. It was gone directly however, for Laurie
  14909. said, with a vain attempt at dignity...
  14910. "Don't I look like a married man and the head of a family?"
  14911. "Not a bit, and you never will. You've grown bigger and bonnier, but
  14912. you are the same scapegrace as ever."
  14913. "Now really, Jo, you ought to treat me with more respect," began
  14914. Laurie, who enjoyed it all immensely.
  14915. "How can I, when the mere idea of you, married and settled, is so
  14916. irresistibly funny that I can't keep sober!" answered Jo, smiling all
  14917. over her face, so infectiously that they had another laugh, and then
  14918. settled down for a good talk, quite in the pleasant old fashion.
  14919. "It's no use your going out in the cold to get Amy, for they are all
  14920. coming up presently. I couldn't wait. I wanted to be the one to tell
  14921. you the grand surprise, and have 'first skim' as we used to say when we
  14922. squabbled about the cream."
  14923. "Of course you did, and spoiled your story by beginning at the wrong
  14924. end. Now, start right, and tell me how it all happened. I'm pining to
  14925. know."
  14926. "Well, I did it to please Amy," began Laurie, with a twinkle that made
  14927. Jo exclaim...
  14928. "Fib number one. Amy did it to please you. Go on, and tell the truth,
  14929. if you can, sir."
  14930. "Now she's beginning to marm it. Isn't it jolly to hear her?" said
  14931. Laurie to the fire, and the fire glowed and sparkled as if it quite
  14932. agreed. "It's all the same, you know, she and I being one. We planned
  14933. to come home with the Carrols, a month or more ago, but they suddenly
  14934. changed their minds, and decided to pass another winter in Paris. But
  14935. Grandpa wanted to come home. He went to please me, and I couldn't let
  14936. him go alone, neither could I leave Amy, and Mrs. Carrol had got
  14937. English notions about chaperons and such nonsense, and wouldn't let Amy
  14938. come with us. So I just settled the difficulty by saying, 'Let's be
  14939. married, and then we can do as we like'."
  14940. "Of course you did. You always have things to suit you."
  14941. "Not always," and something in Laurie's voice made Jo say hastily...
  14942. "How did you ever get Aunt to agree?"
  14943. "It was hard work, but between us, we talked her over, for we had heaps
  14944. of good reasons on our side. There wasn't time to write and ask leave,
  14945. but you all liked it, had consented to it by-and-by, and it was only
  14946. 'taking time by the fetlock', as my wife says."
  14947. "Aren't we proud of those two words, and don't we like to say them?"
  14948. interrupted Jo, addressing the fire in her turn, and watching with
  14949. delight the happy light it seemed to kindle in the eyes that had been
  14950. so tragically gloomy when she saw them last.
  14951. "A trifle, perhaps, she's such a captivating little woman I can't help
  14952. being proud of her. Well, then Uncle and Aunt were there to play
  14953. propriety. We were so absorbed in one another we were of no mortal use
  14954. apart, and that charming arrangement would make everything easy all
  14955. round, so we did it."
  14956. "When, where, how?" asked Jo, in a fever of feminine interest and
  14957. curiosity, for she could not realize it a particle.
  14958. "Six weeks ago, at the American consul's, in Paris, a very quiet
  14959. wedding of course, for even in our happiness we didn't forget dear
  14960. little Beth."
  14961. Jo put her hand in his as he said that, and Laurie gently smoothed the
  14962. little red pillow, which he remembered well.
  14963. "Why didn't you let us know afterward?" asked Jo, in a quieter tone,
  14964. when they had sat quite still a minute.
  14965. "We wanted to surprise you. We thought we were coming directly home,
  14966. at first, but the dear old gentleman, as soon as we were married, found
  14967. he couldn't be ready under a month, at least, and sent us off to spend
  14968. our honeymoon wherever we liked. Amy had once called Valrosa a regular
  14969. honeymoon home, so we went there, and were as happy as people are but
  14970. once in their lives. My faith! Wasn't it love among the roses!"
  14971. Laurie seemed to forget Jo for a minute, and Jo was glad of it, for the
  14972. fact that he told her these things so freely and so naturally assured
  14973. her that he had quite forgiven and forgotten. She tried to draw away
  14974. her hand, but as if he guessed the thought that prompted the
  14975. half-involuntary impulse, Laurie held it fast, and said, with a manly
  14976. gravity she had never seen in him before...
  14977. "Jo, dear, I want to say one thing, and then we'll put it by forever.
  14978. As I told you in my letter when I wrote that Amy had been so kind to
  14979. me, I never shall stop loving you, but the love is altered, and I have
  14980. learned to see that it is better as it is. Amy and you changed places
  14981. in my heart, that's all. I think it was meant to be so, and would have
  14982. come about naturally, if I had waited, as you tried to make me, but I
  14983. never could be patient, and so I got a heartache. I was a boy then,
  14984. headstrong and violent, and it took a hard lesson to show me my
  14985. mistake. For it was one, Jo, as you said, and I found it out, after
  14986. making a fool of myself. Upon my word, I was so tumbled up in my mind,
  14987. at one time, that I didn't know which I loved best, you or Amy, and
  14988. tried to love you both alike. But I couldn't, and when I saw her in
  14989. Switzerland, everything seemed to clear up all at once. You both got
  14990. into your right places, and I felt sure that it was well off with the
  14991. old love before it was on with the new, that I could honestly share my
  14992. heart between sister Jo and wife Amy, and love them dearly. Will you
  14993. believe it, and go back to the happy old times when we first knew one
  14994. another?"
  14995. "I'll believe it, with all my heart, but, Teddy, we never can be boy
  14996. and girl again. The happy old times can't come back, and we mustn't
  14997. expect it. We are man and woman now, with sober work to do, for
  14998. playtime is over, and we must give up frolicking. I'm sure you feel
  14999. this. I see the change in you, and you'll find it in me. I shall miss
  15000. my boy, but I shall love the man as much, and admire him more, because
  15001. he means to be what I hoped he would. We can't be little playmates any
  15002. longer, but we will be brother and sister, to love and help one another
  15003. all our lives, won't we, Laurie?"
  15004. He did not say a word, but took the hand she offered him, and laid his
  15005. face down on it for a minute, feeling that out of the grave of a boyish
  15006. passion, there had risen a beautiful, strong friendship to bless them
  15007. both. Presently Jo said cheerfully, for she didn't want the coming
  15008. home to be a sad one, "I can't make it true that you children are
  15009. really married and going to set up housekeeping. Why, it seems only
  15010. yesterday that I was buttoning Amy's pinafore, and pulling your hair
  15011. when you teased. Mercy me, how time does fly!"
  15012. "As one of the children is older than yourself, you needn't talk so
  15013. like a grandma. I flatter myself I'm a 'gentleman growed' as Peggotty
  15014. said of David, and when you see Amy, you'll find her rather a
  15015. precocious infant," said Laurie, looking amused at her maternal air.
  15016. "You may be a little older in years, but I'm ever so much older in
  15017. feeling, Teddy. Women always are, and this last year has been such a
  15018. hard one that I feel forty."
  15019. "Poor Jo! We left you to bear it alone, while we went pleasuring. You
  15020. are older. Here's a line, and there's another. Unless you smile, your
  15021. eyes look sad, and when I touched the cushion, just now, I found a tear
  15022. on it. You've had a great deal to bear, and had to bear it all alone.
  15023. What a selfish beast I've been!" and Laurie pulled his own hair, with a
  15024. remorseful look.
  15025. But Jo only turned over the traitorous pillow, and answered, in a tone
  15026. which she tried to make more cheerful, "No, I had Father and Mother to
  15027. help me, and the dear babies to comfort me, and the thought that you
  15028. and Amy were safe and happy, to make the troubles here easier to bear.
  15029. I am lonely, sometimes, but I dare say it's good for me, and..."
  15030. "You never shall be again," broke in Laurie, putting his arm about her,
  15031. as if to fence out every human ill. "Amy and I can't get on without
  15032. you, so you must come and teach 'the children' to keep house, and go
  15033. halves in everything, just as we used to do, and let us pet you, and
  15034. all be blissfully happy and friendly together."
  15035. "If I shouldn't be in the way, it would be very pleasant. I begin to
  15036. feel quite young already, for somehow all my troubles seemed to fly
  15037. away when you came. You always were a comfort, Teddy," and Jo leaned
  15038. her head on his shoulder, just as she did years ago, when Beth lay ill
  15039. and Laurie told her to hold on to him.
  15040. He looked down at her, wondering if she remembered the time, but Jo was
  15041. smiling to herself, as if in truth her troubles had all vanished at his
  15042. coming.
  15043. "You are the same Jo still, dropping tears about one minute, and
  15044. laughing the next. You look a little wicked now. What is it, Grandma?"
  15045. "I was wondering how you and Amy get on together."
  15046. "Like angels!"
  15047. "Yes, of course, but which rules?"
  15048. "I don't mind telling you that she does now, at least I let her think
  15049. so, it pleases her, you know. By-and-by we shall take turns, for
  15050. marriage, they say, halves one's rights and doubles one's duties."
  15051. "You'll go on as you begin, and Amy will rule you all the days of your
  15052. life."
  15053. "Well, she does it so imperceptibly that I don't think I shall mind
  15054. much. She is the sort of woman who knows how to rule well. In fact, I
  15055. rather like it, for she winds one round her finger as softly and
  15056. prettily as a skein of silk, and makes you feel as if she was doing you
  15057. a favor all the while."
  15058. "That ever I should live to see you a henpecked husband and enjoying
  15059. it!" cried Jo, with uplifted hands.
  15060. It was good to see Laurie square his shoulders, and smile with
  15061. masculine scorn at that insinuation, as he replied, with his "high and
  15062. mighty" air, "Amy is too well-bred for that, and I am not the sort of
  15063. man to submit to it. My wife and I respect ourselves and one another
  15064. too much ever to tyrannize or quarrel."
  15065. Jo liked that, and thought the new dignity very becoming, but the boy
  15066. seemed changing very fast into the man, and regret mingled with her
  15067. pleasure.
  15068. "I am sure of that. Amy and you never did quarrel as we used to. She
  15069. is the sun and I the wind, in the fable, and the sun managed the man
  15070. best, you remember."
  15071. "She can blow him up as well as shine on him," laughed Laurie. "Such a
  15072. lecture as I got at Nice! I give you my word it was a deal worse than
  15073. any of your scoldings, a regular rouser. I'll tell you all about it
  15074. sometime, she never will, because after telling me that she despised
  15075. and was ashamed of me, she lost her heart to the despicable party and
  15076. married the good-for-nothing."
  15077. "What baseness! Well, if she abuses you, come to me, and I'll defend
  15078. you."
  15079. "I look as if I needed it, don't I?" said Laurie, getting up and
  15080. striking an attitude which suddenly changed from the imposing to the
  15081. rapturous, as Amy's voice was heard calling, "Where is she? Where's my
  15082. dear old Jo?"
  15083. In trooped the whole family, and everyone was hugged and kissed all
  15084. over again, and after several vain attempts, the three wanderers were
  15085. set down to be looked at and exulted over. Mr. Laurence, hale and
  15086. hearty as ever, was quite as much improved as the others by his foreign
  15087. tour, for the crustiness seemed to be nearly gone, and the
  15088. old-fashioned courtliness had received a polish which made it kindlier
  15089. than ever. It was good to see him beam at 'my children', as he called
  15090. the young pair. It was better still to see Amy pay him the daughterly
  15091. duty and affection which completely won his old heart, and best of all,
  15092. to watch Laurie revolve about the two, as if never tired of enjoying
  15093. the pretty picture they made.
  15094. The minute she put her eyes upon Amy, Meg became conscious that her own
  15095. dress hadn't a Parisian air, that young Mrs. Moffat would be entirely
  15096. eclipsed by young Mrs. Laurence, and that 'her ladyship' was altogether
  15097. a most elegant and graceful woman. Jo thought, as she watched the
  15098. pair, "How well they look together! I was right, and Laurie has found
  15099. the beautiful, accomplished girl who will become his home better than
  15100. clumsy old Jo, and be a pride, not a torment to him." Mrs. March and
  15101. her husband smiled and nodded at each other with happy faces, for they
  15102. saw that their youngest had done well, not only in worldly things, but
  15103. the better wealth of love, confidence, and happiness.
  15104. For Amy's face was full of the soft brightness which betokens a
  15105. peaceful heart, her voice had a new tenderness in it, and the cool,
  15106. prim carriage was changed to a gentle dignity, both womanly and
  15107. winning. No little affectations marred it, and the cordial sweetness of
  15108. her manner was more charming than the new beauty or the old grace, for
  15109. it stamped her at once with the unmistakable sign of the true
  15110. gentlewoman she had hoped to become.
  15111. "Love has done much for our little girl," said her mother softly.
  15112. "She has had a good example before her all her life, my dear," Mr.
  15113. March whispered back, with a loving look at the worn face and gray head
  15114. beside him.
  15115. Daisy found it impossible to keep her eyes off her 'pitty aunty', but
  15116. attached herself like a lap dog to the wonderful chatelaine full of
  15117. delightful charms. Demi paused to consider the new relationship before
  15118. he compromised himself by the rash acceptance of a bribe, which took
  15119. the tempting form of a family of wooden bears from Berne. A flank
  15120. movement produced an unconditional surrender, however, for Laurie knew
  15121. where to have him.
  15122. "Young man, when I first had the honor of making your acquaintance you
  15123. hit me in the face. Now I demand the satisfaction of a gentleman," and
  15124. with that the tall uncle proceeded to toss and tousle the small nephew
  15125. in a way that damaged his philosophical dignity as much as it delighted
  15126. his boyish soul.
  15127. "Blest if she ain't in silk from head to foot; ain't it a relishin'
  15128. sight to see her settin' there as fine as a fiddle, and hear folks
  15129. calling little Amy 'Mis. Laurence!'" muttered old Hannah, who could
  15130. not resist frequent "peeks" through the slide as she set the table in a
  15131. most decidedly promiscuous manner.
  15132. Mercy on us, how they did talk! first one, then the other, then all
  15133. burst out together--trying to tell the history of three years in half
  15134. an hour. It was fortunate that tea was at hand, to produce a lull and
  15135. provide refreshment--for they would have been hoarse and faint if they
  15136. had gone on much longer. Such a happy procession as filed away into
  15137. the little dining room! Mr. March proudly escorted Mrs. Laurence. Mrs.
  15138. March as proudly leaned on the arm of 'my son'. The old gentleman took
  15139. Jo, with a whispered, "You must be my girl now," and a glance at the
  15140. empty corner by the fire, that made Jo whisper back, "I'll try to fill
  15141. her place, sir."
  15142. The twins pranced behind, feeling that the millennium was at hand, for
  15143. everyone was so busy with the newcomers that they were left to revel at
  15144. their own sweet will, and you may be sure they made the most of the
  15145. opportunity. Didn't they steal sips of tea, stuff gingerbread ad
  15146. libitum, get a hot biscuit apiece, and as a crowning trespass, didn't
  15147. they each whisk a captivating little tart into their tiny pockets,
  15148. there to stick and crumble treacherously, teaching them that both human
  15149. nature and a pastry are frail? Burdened with the guilty consciousness
  15150. of the sequestered tarts, and fearing that Dodo's sharp eyes would
  15151. pierce the thin disguise of cambric and merino which hid their booty,
  15152. the little sinners attached themselves to 'Dranpa', who hadn't his
  15153. spectacles on. Amy, who was handed about like refreshments, returned
  15154. to the parlor on Father Laurence's arm. The others paired off as
  15155. before, and this arrangement left Jo companionless. She did not mind
  15156. it at the minute, for she lingered to answer Hannah's eager inquiry.
  15157. "Will Miss Amy ride in her coop (coupe), and use all them lovely silver
  15158. dishes that's stored away over yander?"
  15159. "Shouldn't wonder if she drove six white horses, ate off gold plate,
  15160. and wore diamonds and point lace every day. Teddy thinks nothing too
  15161. good for her," returned Jo with infinite satisfaction.
  15162. "No more there is! Will you have hash or fishballs for breakfast?"
  15163. asked Hannah, who wisely mingled poetry and prose.
  15164. "I don't care," and Jo shut the door, feeling that food was an
  15165. uncongenial topic just then. She stood a minute looking at the party
  15166. vanishing above, and as Demi's short plaid legs toiled up the last
  15167. stair, a sudden sense of loneliness came over her so strongly that she
  15168. looked about her with dim eyes, as if to find something to lean upon,
  15169. for even Teddy had deserted her. If she had known what birthday gift
  15170. was coming every minute nearer and nearer, she would not have said to
  15171. herself, "I'll weep a little weep when I go to bed. It won't do to be
  15172. dismal now." Then she drew her hand over her eyes, for one of her
  15173. boyish habits was never to know where her handkerchief was, and had
  15174. just managed to call up a smile when there came a knock at the porch
  15175. door.
  15176. She opened with hospitable haste, and started as if another ghost had
  15177. come to surprise her, for there stood a tall bearded gentleman, beaming
  15178. on her from the darkness like a midnight sun.
  15179. "Oh, Mr. Bhaer, I am so glad to see you!" cried Jo, with a clutch, as
  15180. if she feared the night would swallow him up before she could get him
  15181. in.
  15182. "And I to see Miss Marsch, but no, you haf a party," and the Professor
  15183. paused as the sound of voices and the tap of dancing feet came down to
  15184. them.
  15185. "No, we haven't, only the family. My sister and friends have just come
  15186. home, and we are all very happy. Come in, and make one of us."
  15187. Though a very social man, I think Mr. Bhaer would have gone decorously
  15188. away, and come again another day, but how could he, when Jo shut the
  15189. door behind him, and bereft him of his hat? Perhaps her face had
  15190. something to do with it, for she forgot to hide her joy at seeing him,
  15191. and showed it with a frankness that proved irresistible to the solitary
  15192. man, whose welcome far exceeded his boldest hopes.
  15193. "If I shall not be Monsieur de Trop, I will so gladly see them all.
  15194. You haf been ill, my friend?"
  15195. He put the question abruptly, for, as Jo hung up his coat, the light
  15196. fell on her face, and he saw a change in it.
  15197. "Not ill, but tired and sorrowful. We have had trouble since I saw you
  15198. last."
  15199. "Ah, yes, I know. My heart was sore for you when I heard that," and he
  15200. shook hands again, with such a sympathetic face that Jo felt as if no
  15201. comfort could equal the look of the kind eyes, the grasp of the big,
  15202. warm hand.
  15203. "Father, Mother, this is my friend, Professor Bhaer," she said, with a
  15204. face and tone of such irrepressible pride and pleasure that she might
  15205. as well have blown a trumpet and opened the door with a flourish.
  15206. If the stranger had any doubts about his reception, they were set at
  15207. rest in a minute by the cordial welcome he received. Everyone greeted
  15208. him kindly, for Jo's sake at first, but very soon they liked him for
  15209. his own. They could not help it, for he carried the talisman that
  15210. opens all hearts, and these simple people warmed to him at once,
  15211. feeling even the more friendly because he was poor. For poverty
  15212. enriches those who live above it, and is a sure passport to truly
  15213. hospitable spirits. Mr. Bhaer sat looking about him with the air of a
  15214. traveler who knocks at a strange door, and when it opens, finds himself
  15215. at home. The children went to him like bees to a honeypot, and
  15216. establishing themselves on each knee, proceeded to captivate him by
  15217. rifling his pockets, pulling his beard, and investigating his watch,
  15218. with juvenile audacity. The women telegraphed their approval to one
  15219. another, and Mr. March, feeling that he had got a kindred spirit,
  15220. opened his choicest stores for his guest's benefit, while silent John
  15221. listened and enjoyed the talk, but said not a word, and Mr. Laurence
  15222. found it impossible to go to sleep.
  15223. If Jo had not been otherwise engaged, Laurie's behavior would have
  15224. amused her, for a faint twinge, not of jealousy, but something like
  15225. suspicion, caused that gentleman to stand aloof at first, and observe
  15226. the newcomer with brotherly circumspection. But it did not last long.
  15227. He got interested in spite of himself, and before he knew it, was drawn
  15228. into the circle. For Mr. Bhaer talked well in this genial atmosphere,
  15229. and did himself justice. He seldom spoke to Laurie, but he looked at
  15230. him often, and a shadow would pass across his face, as if regretting
  15231. his own lost youth, as he watched the young man in his prime. Then his
  15232. eyes would turn to Jo so wistfully that she would have surely answered
  15233. the mute inquiry if she had seen it. But Jo had her own eyes to take
  15234. care of, and feeling that they could not be trusted, she prudently kept
  15235. them on the little sock she was knitting, like a model maiden aunt.
  15236. A stealthy glance now and then refreshed her like sips of fresh water
  15237. after a dusty walk, for the sidelong peeps showed her several
  15238. propitious omens. Mr. Bhaer's face had lost the absent-minded
  15239. expression, and looked all alive with interest in the present moment,
  15240. actually young and handsome, she thought, forgetting to compare him
  15241. with Laurie, as she usually did strange men, to their great detriment.
  15242. Then he seemed quite inspired, though the burial customs of the
  15243. ancients, to which the conversation had strayed, might not be
  15244. considered an exhilarating topic. Jo quite glowed with triumph when
  15245. Teddy got quenched in an argument, and thought to herself, as she
  15246. watched her father's absorbed face, "How he would enjoy having such a
  15247. man as my Professor to talk with every day!" Lastly, Mr. Bhaer was
  15248. dressed in a new suit of black, which made him look more like a
  15249. gentleman than ever. His bushy hair had been cut and smoothly brushed,
  15250. but didn't stay in order long, for in exciting moments, he rumpled it
  15251. up in the droll way he used to do, and Jo liked it rampantly erect
  15252. better than flat, because she thought it gave his fine forehead a
  15253. Jove-like aspect. Poor Jo, how she did glorify that plain man, as she
  15254. sat knitting away so quietly, yet letting nothing escape her, not even
  15255. the fact that Mr. Bhaer actually had gold sleeve-buttons in his
  15256. immaculate wristbands.
  15257. "Dear old fellow! He couldn't have got himself up with more care if
  15258. he'd been going a-wooing," said Jo to herself, and then a sudden
  15259. thought born of the words made her blush so dreadfully that she had to
  15260. drop her ball, and go down after it to hide her face.
  15261. The maneuver did not succeed as well as she expected, however, for
  15262. though just in the act of setting fire to a funeral pyre, the Professor
  15263. dropped his torch, metaphorically speaking, and made a dive after the
  15264. little blue ball. Of course they bumped their heads smartly together,
  15265. saw stars, and both came up flushed and laughing, without the ball, to
  15266. resume their seats, wishing they had not left them.
  15267. Nobody knew where the evening went to, for Hannah skillfully abstracted
  15268. the babies at an early hour, nodding like two rosy poppies, and Mr.
  15269. Laurence went home to rest. The others sat round the fire, talking
  15270. away, utterly regardless of the lapse of time, till Meg, whose maternal
  15271. mind was impressed with a firm conviction that Daisy had tumbled out of
  15272. bed, and Demi set his nightgown afire studying the structure of
  15273. matches, made a move to go.
  15274. "We must have our sing, in the good old way, for we are all together
  15275. again once more," said Jo, feeling that a good shout would be a safe
  15276. and pleasant vent for the jubilant emotions of her soul.
  15277. They were not all there. But no one found the words thoughtless or
  15278. untrue, for Beth still seemed among them, a peaceful presence,
  15279. invisible, but dearer than ever, since death could not break the
  15280. household league that love made dissoluble. The little chair stood in
  15281. its old place. The tidy basket, with the bit of work she left
  15282. unfinished when the needle grew 'so heavy', was still on its accustomed
  15283. shelf. The beloved instrument, seldom touched now had not been moved,
  15284. and above it Beth's face, serene and smiling, as in the early days,
  15285. looked down upon them, seeming to say, "Be happy. I am here."
  15286. "Play something, Amy. Let them hear how much you have improved," said
  15287. Laurie, with pardonable pride in his promising pupil.
  15288. But Amy whispered, with full eyes, as she twirled the faded stool, "Not
  15289. tonight, dear. I can't show off tonight."
  15290. But she did show something better than brilliancy or skill, for she
  15291. sang Beth's songs with a tender music in her voice which the best
  15292. master could not have taught, and touched the listener's hearts with a
  15293. sweeter power than any other inspiration could have given her. The
  15294. room was very still, when the clear voice failed suddenly at the last
  15295. line of Beth's favorite hymn. It was hard to say...
  15296. Earth hath no sorrow that heaven cannot heal;
  15297. and Amy leaned against her husband, who stood behind her, feeling that
  15298. her welcome home was not quite perfect without Beth's kiss.
  15299. "Now, we must finish with Mignon's song, for Mr. Bhaer sings that,"
  15300. said Jo, before the pause grew painful. And Mr. Bhaer cleared his
  15301. throat with a gratified "Hem!" as he stepped into the corner where Jo
  15302. stood, saying...
  15303. "You will sing with me? We go excellently well together."
  15304. A pleasing fiction, by the way, for Jo had no more idea of music than a
  15305. grasshopper. But she would have consented if he had proposed to sing a
  15306. whole opera, and warbled away, blissfully regardless of time and tune.
  15307. It didn't much matter, for Mr. Bhaer sang like a true German, heartily
  15308. and well, and Jo soon subsided into a subdued hum, that she might
  15309. listen to the mellow voice that seemed to sing for her alone.
  15310. Know'st thou the land where the citron blooms,
  15311. used to be the Professor's favorite line, for 'das land' meant Germany
  15312. to him, but now he seemed to dwell, with peculiar warmth and melody,
  15313. upon the words...
  15314. There, oh there, might I with thee,
  15315. O, my beloved, go
  15316. and one listener was so thrilled by the tender invitation that she
  15317. longed to say she did know the land, and would joyfully depart thither
  15318. whenever he liked.
  15319. The song was considered a great success, and the singer retired covered
  15320. with laurels. But a few minutes afterward, he forgot his manners
  15321. entirely, and stared at Amy putting on her bonnet, for she had been
  15322. introduced simply as 'my sister', and no one had called her by her new
  15323. name since he came. He forgot himself still further when Laurie said,
  15324. in his most gracious manner, at parting...
  15325. "My wife and I are very glad to meet you, sir. Please remember that
  15326. there is always a welcome waiting for you over the way."
  15327. Then the Professor thanked him so heartily, and looked so suddenly
  15328. illuminated with satisfaction, that Laurie thought him the most
  15329. delightfully demonstrative old fellow he ever met.
  15330. "I too shall go, but I shall gladly come again, if you will gif me
  15331. leave, dear madame, for a little business in the city will keep me here
  15332. some days."
  15333. He spoke to Mrs. March, but he looked at Jo, and the mother's voice
  15334. gave as cordial an assent as did the daughter's eyes, for Mrs. March
  15335. was not so blind to her children's interest as Mrs. Moffat supposed.
  15336. "I suspect that is a wise man," remarked Mr. March, with placid
  15337. satisfaction, from the hearthrug, after the last guest had gone.
  15338. "I know he is a good one," added Mrs. March, with decided approval, as
  15339. she wound up the clock.
  15340. "I thought you'd like him," was all Jo said, as she slipped away to her
  15341. bed.
  15342. She wondered what the business was that brought Mr. Bhaer to the city,
  15343. and finally decided that he had been appointed to some great honor,
  15344. somewhere, but had been too modest to mention the fact. If she had
  15345. seen his face when, safe in his own room, he looked at the picture of a
  15346. severe and rigid young lady, with a good deal of hair, who appeared to
  15347. be gazing darkly into futurity, it might have thrown some light upon
  15348. the subject, especially when he turned off the gas, and kissed the
  15349. picture in the dark.
  15350. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  15351. MY LORD AND LADY
  15352. "Please, Madam Mother, could you lend me my wife for half an hour? The
  15353. luggage has come, and I've been making hay of Amy's Paris finery,
  15354. trying to find some things I want," said Laurie, coming in the next day
  15355. to find Mrs. Laurence sitting in her mother's lap, as if being made
  15356. 'the baby' again.
  15357. "Certainly. Go, dear, I forgot that you have any home but this," and
  15358. Mrs. March pressed the white hand that wore the wedding ring, as if
  15359. asking pardon for her maternal covetousness.
  15360. "I shouldn't have come over if I could have helped it, but I can't get
  15361. on without my little woman any more than a..."
  15362. "Weathercock can without the wind," suggested Jo, as he paused for a
  15363. simile. Jo had grown quite her own saucy self again since Teddy came
  15364. home.
  15365. "Exactly, for Amy keeps me pointing due west most of the time, with
  15366. only an occasional whiffle round to the south, and I haven't had an
  15367. easterly spell since I was married. Don't know anything about the
  15368. north, but am altogether salubrious and balmy, hey, my lady?"
  15369. "Lovely weather so far. I don't know how long it will last, but I'm
  15370. not afraid of storms, for I'm learning how to sail my ship. Come home,
  15371. dear, and I'll find your bootjack. I suppose that's what you are
  15372. rummaging after among my things. Men are so helpless, Mother," said
  15373. Amy, with a matronly air, which delighted her husband.
  15374. "What are you going to do with yourselves after you get settled?" asked
  15375. Jo, buttoning Amy's cloak as she used to button her pinafores.
  15376. "We have our plans. We don't mean to say much about them yet, because
  15377. we are such very new brooms, but we don't intend to be idle. I'm going
  15378. into business with a devotion that shall delight Grandfather, and prove
  15379. to him that I'm not spoiled. I need something of the sort to keep me
  15380. steady. I'm tired of dawdling, and mean to work like a man."
  15381. "And Amy, what is she going to do?" asked Mrs. March, well pleased at
  15382. Laurie's decision and the energy with which he spoke.
  15383. "After doing the civil all round, and airing our best bonnet, we shall
  15384. astonish you by the elegant hospitalities of our mansion, the brilliant
  15385. society we shall draw about us, and the beneficial influence we shall
  15386. exert over the world at large. That's about it, isn't it, Madame
  15387. Recamier?" asked Laurie with a quizzical look at Amy.
  15388. "Time will show. Come away, Impertinence, and don't shock my family by
  15389. calling me names before their faces," answered Amy, resolving that
  15390. there should be a home with a good wife in it before she set up a salon
  15391. as a queen of society.
  15392. "How happy those children seem together!" observed Mr. March, finding
  15393. it difficult to become absorbed in his Aristotle after the young couple
  15394. had gone.
  15395. "Yes, and I think it will last," added Mrs. March, with the restful
  15396. expression of a pilot who has brought a ship safely into port.
  15397. "I know it will. Happy Amy!" and Jo sighed, then smiled brightly as
  15398. Professor Bhaer opened the gate with an impatient push.
  15399. Later in the evening, when his mind had been set at rest about the
  15400. bootjack, Laurie said suddenly to his wife, "Mrs. Laurence."
  15401. "My Lord!"
  15402. "That man intends to marry our Jo!"
  15403. "I hope so, don't you, dear?"
  15404. "Well, my love, I consider him a trump, in the fullest sense of that
  15405. expressive word, but I do wish he was a little younger and a good deal
  15406. richer."
  15407. "Now, Laurie, don't be too fastidious and worldly-minded. If they love
  15408. one another it doesn't matter a particle how old they are nor how poor.
  15409. Women never should marry for money..." Amy caught herself up short as
  15410. the words escaped her, and looked at her husband, who replied, with
  15411. malicious gravity...
  15412. "Certainly not, though you do hear charming girls say that they intend
  15413. to do it sometimes. If my memory serves me, you once thought it your
  15414. duty to make a rich match. That accounts, perhaps, for your marrying a
  15415. good-for-nothing like me."
  15416. "Oh, my dearest boy, don't, don't say that! I forgot you were rich
  15417. when I said 'Yes'. I'd have married you if you hadn't a penny, and I
  15418. sometimes wish you were poor that I might show how much I love you."
  15419. And Amy, who was very dignified in public and very fond in private,
  15420. gave convincing proofs of the truth of her words.
  15421. "You don't really think I am such a mercenary creature as I tried to be
  15422. once, do you? It would break my heart if you didn't believe that I'd
  15423. gladly pull in the same boat with you, even if you had to get your
  15424. living by rowing on the lake."
  15425. "Am I an idiot and a brute? How could I think so, when you refused a
  15426. richer man for me, and won't let me give you half I want to now, when I
  15427. have the right? Girls do it every day, poor things, and are taught to
  15428. think it is their only salvation, but you had better lessons, and
  15429. though I trembled for you at one time, I was not disappointed, for the
  15430. daughter was true to the mother's teaching. I told Mamma so yesterday,
  15431. and she looked as glad and grateful as if I'd given her a check for a
  15432. million, to be spent in charity. You are not listening to my moral
  15433. remarks, Mrs. Laurence," and Laurie paused, for Amy's eyes had an
  15434. absent look, though fixed upon his face.
  15435. "Yes, I am, and admiring the mole in your chin at the same time. I
  15436. don't wish to make you vain, but I must confess that I'm prouder of my
  15437. handsome husband than of all his money. Don't laugh, but your nose is
  15438. such a comfort to me," and Amy softly caressed the well-cut feature
  15439. with artistic satisfaction.
  15440. Laurie had received many compliments in his life, but never one that
  15441. suited him better, as he plainly showed though he did laugh at his
  15442. wife's peculiar taste, while she said slowly, "May I ask you a
  15443. question, dear?"
  15444. "Of course, you may."
  15445. "Shall you care if Jo does marry Mr. Bhaer?"
  15446. "Oh, that's the trouble is it? I thought there was something in the
  15447. dimple that didn't quite suit you. Not being a dog in the manger, but
  15448. the happiest fellow alive, I assure you I can dance at Jo's wedding
  15449. with a heart as light as my heels. Do you doubt it, my darling?"
  15450. Amy looked up at him, and was satisfied. Her little jealous fear
  15451. vanished forever, and she thanked him, with a face full of love and
  15452. confidence.
  15453. "I wish we could do something for that capital old Professor. Couldn't
  15454. we invent a rich relation, who shall obligingly die out there in
  15455. Germany, and leave him a tidy little fortune?" said Laurie, when they
  15456. began to pace up and down the long drawing room, arm in arm, as they
  15457. were fond of doing, in memory of the chateau garden.
  15458. "Jo would find us out, and spoil it all. She is very proud of him,
  15459. just as he is, and said yesterday that she thought poverty was a
  15460. beautiful thing."
  15461. "Bless her dear heart! She won't think so when she has a literary
  15462. husband, and a dozen little professors and professorins to support. We
  15463. won't interfere now, but watch our chance, and do them a good turn in
  15464. spite of themselves. I owe Jo for a part of my education, and she
  15465. believes in people's paying their honest debts, so I'll get round her
  15466. in that way."
  15467. "How delightful it is to be able to help others, isn't it? That was
  15468. always one of my dreams, to have the power of giving freely, and thanks
  15469. to you, the dream has come true."
  15470. "Ah, we'll do quantities of good, won't we? There's one sort of
  15471. poverty that I particularly like to help. Out-and-out beggars get
  15472. taken care of, but poor gentle folks fare badly, because they won't
  15473. ask, and people don't dare to offer charity. Yet there are a thousand
  15474. ways of helping them, if one only knows how to do it so delicately that
  15475. it does not offend. I must say, I like to serve a decayed gentleman
  15476. better than a blarnerying beggar. I suppose it's wrong, but I do,
  15477. though it is harder."
  15478. "Because it takes a gentleman to do it," added the other member of the
  15479. domestic admiration society.
  15480. "Thank you, I'm afraid I don't deserve that pretty compliment. But I
  15481. was going to say that while I was dawdling about abroad, I saw a good
  15482. many talented young fellows making all sorts of sacrifices, and
  15483. enduring real hardships, that they might realize their dreams. Splendid
  15484. fellows, some of them, working like heros, poor and friendless, but so
  15485. full of courage, patience, and ambition that I was ashamed of myself,
  15486. and longed to give them a right good lift. Those are people whom it's
  15487. a satisfaction to help, for if they've got genius, it's an honor to be
  15488. allowed to serve them, and not let it be lost or delayed for want of
  15489. fuel to keep the pot boiling. If they haven't, it's a pleasure to
  15490. comfort the poor souls, and keep them from despair when they find it
  15491. out."
  15492. "Yes, indeed, and there's another class who can't ask, and who suffer
  15493. in silence. I know something of it, for I belonged to it before you
  15494. made a princess of me, as the king does the beggarmaid in the old
  15495. story. Ambitious girls have a hard time, Laurie, and often have to see
  15496. youth, health, and precious opportunities go by, just for want of a
  15497. little help at the right minute. People have been very kind to me, and
  15498. whenever I see girls struggling along, as we used to do, I want to put
  15499. out my hand and help them, as I was helped."
  15500. "And so you shall, like an angel as you are!" cried Laurie, resolving,
  15501. with a glow of philanthropic zeal, to found and endow an institution
  15502. for the express benefit of young women with artistic tendencies. "Rich
  15503. people have no right to sit down and enjoy themselves, or let their
  15504. money accumulate for others to waste. It's not half so sensible to
  15505. leave legacies when one dies as it is to use the money wisely while
  15506. alive, and enjoy making one's fellow creatures happy with it. We'll
  15507. have a good time ourselves, and add an extra relish to our own pleasure
  15508. by giving other people a generous taste. Will you be a little Dorcas,
  15509. going about emptying a big basket of comforts, and filling it up with
  15510. good deeds?"
  15511. "With all my heart, if you will be a brave St. Martin, stopping as you
  15512. ride gallantly through the world to share your cloak with the beggar."
  15513. "It's a bargain, and we shall get the best of it!"
  15514. So the young pair shook hands upon it, and then paced happily on again,
  15515. feeling that their pleasant home was more homelike because they hoped
  15516. to brighten other homes, believing that their own feet would walk more
  15517. uprightly along the flowery path before them, if they smoothed rough
  15518. ways for other feet, and feeling that their hearts were more closely
  15519. knit together by a love which could tenderly remember those less blest
  15520. than they.
  15521. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  15522. DAISY AND DEMI
  15523. I cannot feel that I have done my duty as humble historian of the March
  15524. family, without devoting at least one chapter to the two most precious
  15525. and important members of it. Daisy and Demi had now arrived at years
  15526. of discretion, for in this fast age babies of three or four assert
  15527. their rights, and get them, too, which is more than many of their
  15528. elders do. If there ever were a pair of twins in danger of being
  15529. utterly spoiled by adoration, it was these prattling Brookes. Of
  15530. course they were the most remarkable children ever born, as will be
  15531. shown when I mention that they walked at eight months, talked fluently
  15532. at twelve months, and at two years they took their places at table, and
  15533. behaved with a propriety which charmed all beholders. At three, Daisy
  15534. demanded a 'needler', and actually made a bag with four stitches in it.
  15535. She likewise set up housekeeping in the sideboard, and managed a
  15536. microscopic cooking stove with a skill that brought tears of pride to
  15537. Hannah's eyes, while Demi learned his letters with his grandfather, who
  15538. invented a new mode of teaching the alphabet by forming letters with
  15539. his arms and legs, thus uniting gymnastics for head and heels. The boy
  15540. early developed a mechanical genius which delighted his father and
  15541. distracted his mother, for he tried to imitate every machine he saw,
  15542. and kept the nursery in a chaotic condition, with his 'sewinsheen', a
  15543. mysterious structure of string, chairs, clothespins, and spools, for
  15544. wheels to go 'wound and wound'. Also a basket hung over the back of a
  15545. chair, in which he vainly tried to hoist his too confiding sister, who,
  15546. with feminine devotion, allowed her little head to be bumped till
  15547. rescued, when the young inventor indignantly remarked, "Why, Marmar,
  15548. dat's my lellywaiter, and me's trying to pull her up."
  15549. Though utterly unlike in character, the twins got on remarkably well
  15550. together, and seldom quarreled more than thrice a day. Of course, Demi
  15551. tyrannized over Daisy, and gallantly defended her from every other
  15552. aggressor, while Daisy made a galley slave of herself, and adored her
  15553. brother as the one perfect being in the world. A rosy, chubby,
  15554. sunshiny little soul was Daisy, who found her way to everybody's heart,
  15555. and nestled there. One of the captivating children, who seem made to
  15556. be kissed and cuddled, adorned and adored like little goddesses, and
  15557. produced for general approval on all festive occasions. Her small
  15558. virtues were so sweet that she would have been quite angelic if a few
  15559. small naughtinesses had not kept her delightfully human. It was all
  15560. fair weather in her world, and every morning she scrambled up to the
  15561. window in her little nightgown to look out, and say, no matter whether
  15562. it rained or shone, "Oh, pitty day, oh, pitty day!" Everyone was a
  15563. friend, and she offered kisses to a stranger so confidingly that the
  15564. most inveterate bachelor relented, and baby-lovers became faithful
  15565. worshipers.
  15566. "Me loves evvybody," she once said, opening her arms, with her spoon in
  15567. one hand, and her mug in the other, as if eager to embrace and nourish
  15568. the whole world.
  15569. As she grew, her mother began to feel that the Dovecote would be
  15570. blessed by the presence of an inmate as serene and loving as that which
  15571. had helped to make the old house home, and to pray that she might be
  15572. spared a loss like that which had lately taught them how long they had
  15573. entertained an angel unawares. Her grandfather often called her
  15574. 'Beth', and her grandmother watched over her with untiring devotion, as
  15575. if trying to atone for some past mistake, which no eye but her own
  15576. could see.
  15577. Demi, like a true Yankee, was of an inquiring turn, wanting to know
  15578. everything, and often getting much disturbed because he could not get
  15579. satisfactory answers to his perpetual "What for?"
  15580. He also possessed a philosophic bent, to the great delight of his
  15581. grandfather, who used to hold Socratic conversations with him, in which
  15582. the precocious pupil occasionally posed his teacher, to the undisguised
  15583. satisfaction of the womenfolk.
  15584. "What makes my legs go, Dranpa?" asked the young philosopher, surveying
  15585. those active portions of his frame with a meditative air, while resting
  15586. after a go-to-bed frolic one night.
  15587. "It's your little mind, Demi," replied the sage, stroking the yellow
  15588. head respectfully.
  15589. "What is a little mine?"
  15590. "It is something which makes your body move, as the spring made the
  15591. wheels go in my watch when I showed it to you."
  15592. "Open me. I want to see it go wound."
  15593. "I can't do that any more than you could open the watch. God winds you
  15594. up, and you go till He stops you."
  15595. "Does I?" and Demi's brown eyes grew big and bright as he took in the
  15596. new thought. "Is I wounded up like the watch?"
  15597. "Yes, but I can't show you how, for it is done when we don't see."
  15598. Demi felt his back, as if expecting to find it like that of the watch,
  15599. and then gravely remarked, "I dess Dod does it when I's asleep."
  15600. A careful explanation followed, to which he listened so attentively
  15601. that his anxious grandmother said, "My dear, do you think it wise to
  15602. talk about such things to that baby? He's getting great bumps over his
  15603. eyes, and learning to ask the most unanswerable questions."
  15604. "If he is old enough to ask the question he is old enough to receive
  15605. true answers. I am not putting the thoughts into his head, but helping
  15606. him unfold those already there. These children are wiser than we are,
  15607. and I have no doubt the boy understands every word I have said to him.
  15608. Now, Demi, tell me where you keep your mind."
  15609. If the boy had replied like Alcibiades, "By the gods, Socrates, I
  15610. cannot tell," his grandfather would not have been surprised, but when,
  15611. after standing a moment on one leg, like a meditative young stork, he
  15612. answered, in a tone of calm conviction, "In my little belly," the old
  15613. gentleman could only join in Grandma's laugh, and dismiss the class in
  15614. metaphysics.
  15615. There might have been cause for maternal anxiety, if Demi had not given
  15616. convincing proofs that he was a true boy, as well as a budding
  15617. philosopher, for often, after a discussion which caused Hannah to
  15618. prophesy, with ominous nods, "That child ain't long for this world," he
  15619. would turn about and set her fears at rest by some of the pranks with
  15620. which dear, dirty, naughty little rascals distract and delight their
  15621. parent's souls.
  15622. Meg made many moral rules, and tried to keep them, but what mother was
  15623. ever proof against the winning wiles, the ingenious evasions, or the
  15624. tranquil audacity of the miniature men and women who so early show
  15625. themselves accomplished Artful Dodgers?
  15626. "No more raisins, Demi. They'll make you sick," says Mamma to the
  15627. young person who offers his services in the kitchen with unfailing
  15628. regularity on plum-pudding day.
  15629. "Me likes to be sick."
  15630. "I don't want to have you, so run away and help Daisy make patty cakes."
  15631. He reluctantly departs, but his wrongs weigh upon his spirit, and
  15632. by-and-by when an opportunity comes to redress them, he outwits Mamma
  15633. by a shrewd bargain.
  15634. "Now you have been good children, and I'll play anything you like,"
  15635. says Meg, as she leads her assistant cooks upstairs, when the pudding
  15636. is safely bouncing in the pot.
  15637. "Truly, Marmar?" asks Demi, with a brilliant idea in his well-powdered
  15638. head.
  15639. "Yes, truly. Anything you say," replies the shortsighted parent,
  15640. preparing herself to sing, "The Three Little Kittens" half a dozen
  15641. times over, or to take her family to "Buy a penny bun," regardless of
  15642. wind or limb. But Demi corners her by the cool reply...
  15643. "Then we'll go and eat up all the raisins."
  15644. Aunt Dodo was chief playmate and confidante of both children, and the
  15645. trio turned the little house topsy-turvy. Aunt Amy was as yet only a
  15646. name to them, Aunt Beth soon faded into a pleasantly vague memory, but
  15647. Aunt Dodo was a living reality, and they made the most of her, for
  15648. which compliment she was deeply grateful. But when Mr. Bhaer came, Jo
  15649. neglected her playfellows, and dismay and desolation fell upon their
  15650. little souls. Daisy, who was fond of going about peddling kisses, lost
  15651. her best customer and became bankrupt. Demi, with infantile
  15652. penetration, soon discovered that Dodo like to play with 'the bear-man'
  15653. better than she did him, but though hurt, he concealed his anguish, for
  15654. he hadn't the heart to insult a rival who kept a mine of chocolate
  15655. drops in his waistcoat pocket, and a watch that could be taken out of
  15656. its case and freely shaken by ardent admirers.
  15657. Some persons might have considered these pleasing liberties as bribes,
  15658. but Demi didn't see it in that light, and continued to patronize the
  15659. 'the bear-man' with pensive affability, while Daisy bestowed her small
  15660. affections upon him at the third call, and considered his shoulder her
  15661. throne, his arm her refuge, his gifts treasures surpassing worth.
  15662. Gentlemen are sometimes seized with sudden fits of admiration for the
  15663. young relatives of ladies whom they honor with their regard, but this
  15664. counterfeit philoprogenitiveness sits uneasily upon them, and does not
  15665. deceive anybody a particle. Mr. Bhaer's devotion was sincere, however
  15666. likewise effective--for honesty is the best policy in love as in law.
  15667. He was one of the men who are at home with children, and looked
  15668. particularly well when little faces made a pleasant contrast with his
  15669. manly one. His business, whatever it was, detained him from day to
  15670. day, but evening seldom failed to bring him out to see--well, he always
  15671. asked for Mr. March, so I suppose he was the attraction. The excellent
  15672. papa labored under the delusion that he was, and reveled in long
  15673. discussions with the kindred spirit, till a chance remark of his more
  15674. observing grandson suddenly enlightened him.
  15675. Mr. Bhaer came in one evening to pause on the threshold of the study,
  15676. astonished by the spectacle that met his eye. Prone upon the floor lay
  15677. Mr. March, with his respectable legs in the air, and beside him,
  15678. likewise prone, was Demi, trying to imitate the attitude with his own
  15679. short, scarlet-stockinged legs, both grovelers so seriously absorbed
  15680. that they were unconscious of spectators, till Mr. Bhaer laughed his
  15681. sonorous laugh, and Jo cried out, with a scandalized face...
  15682. "Father, Father, here's the Professor!"
  15683. Down went the black legs and up came the gray head, as the preceptor
  15684. said, with undisturbed dignity, "Good evening, Mr. Bhaer. Excuse me for
  15685. a moment. We are just finishing our lesson. Now, Demi, make the
  15686. letter and tell its name."
  15687. "I knows him!" and, after a few convulsive efforts, the red legs took
  15688. the shape of a pair of compasses, and the intelligent pupil
  15689. triumphantly shouted, "It's a We, Dranpa, it's a We!"
  15690. "He's a born Weller," laughed Jo, as her parent gathered himself up,
  15691. and her nephew tried to stand on his head, as the only mode of
  15692. expressing his satisfaction that school was over.
  15693. "What have you been at today, bubchen?" asked Mr. Bhaer, picking up the
  15694. gymnast.
  15695. "Me went to see little Mary."
  15696. "And what did you there?"
  15697. "I kissed her," began Demi, with artless frankness.
  15698. "Prut! Thou beginnest early. What did the little Mary say to that?"
  15699. asked Mr. Bhaer, continuing to confess the young sinner, who stood upon
  15700. the knee, exploring the waistcoat pocket.
  15701. "Oh, she liked it, and she kissed me, and I liked it. Don't little
  15702. boys like little girls?" asked Demi, with his mouth full, and an air of
  15703. bland satisfaction.
  15704. "You precocious chick! Who put that into your head?" said Jo, enjoying
  15705. the innocent revelation as much as the Professor.
  15706. "'Tisn't in mine head, it's in mine mouf," answered literal Demi,
  15707. putting out his tongue, with a chocolate drop on it, thinking she
  15708. alluded to confectionery, not ideas.
  15709. "Thou shouldst save some for the little friend. Sweets to the sweet,
  15710. mannling," and Mr. Bhaer offered Jo some, with a look that made her
  15711. wonder if chocolate was not the nectar drunk by the gods. Demi also
  15712. saw the smile, was impressed by it, and artlessy inquired. ..
  15713. "Do great boys like great girls, to, 'Fessor?"
  15714. Like young Washington, Mr. Bhaer 'couldn't tell a lie', so he gave the
  15715. somewhat vague reply that he believed they did sometimes, in a tone
  15716. that made Mr. March put down his clothesbrush, glance at Jo's retiring
  15717. face, and then sink into his chair, looking as if the 'precocious
  15718. chick' had put an idea into his head that was both sweet and sour.
  15719. Why Dodo, when she caught him in the china closet half an hour
  15720. afterward, nearly squeezed the breath out of his little body with a
  15721. tender embrace, instead of shaking him for being there, and why she
  15722. followed up this novel performance by the unexpected gift of a big
  15723. slice of bread and jelly, remained one of the problems over which Demi
  15724. puzzled his small wits, and was forced to leave unsolved forever.
  15725. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  15726. UNDER THE UMBRELLA
  15727. While Laurie and Amy were taking conjugal strolls over velvet carpets,
  15728. as they set their house in order, and planned a blissful future, Mr.
  15729. Bhaer and Jo were enjoying promenades of a different sort, along muddy
  15730. roads and sodden fields.
  15731. "I always do take a walk toward evening, and I don't know why I should
  15732. give it up, just because I happen to meet the Professor on his way
  15733. out," said Jo to herself, after two or three encounters, for though
  15734. there were two paths to Meg's whichever one she took she was sure to
  15735. meet him, either going or returning. He was always walking rapidly, and
  15736. never seemed to see her until quite close, when he would look as if his
  15737. short-sighted eyes had failed to recognize the approaching lady till
  15738. that moment. Then, if she was going to Meg's he always had something
  15739. for the babies. If her face was turned homeward, he had merely
  15740. strolled down to see the river, and was just returning, unless they
  15741. were tired of his frequent calls.
  15742. Under the circumstances, what could Jo do but greet him civilly, and
  15743. invite him in? If she was tired of his visits, she concealed her
  15744. weariness with perfect skill, and took care that there should be coffee
  15745. for supper, "as Friedrich--I mean Mr. Bhaer--doesn't like tea."
  15746. By the second week, everyone knew perfectly well what was going on, yet
  15747. everyone tried to look as if they were stone-blind to the changes in
  15748. Jo's face. They never asked why she sang about her work, did up her
  15749. hair three times a day, and got so blooming with her evening exercise.
  15750. And no one seemed to have the slightest suspicion that Professor Bhaer,
  15751. while talking philosophy with the father, was giving the daughter
  15752. lessons in love.
  15753. Jo couldn't even lose her heart in a decorous manner, but sternly tried
  15754. to quench her feelings, and failing to do so, led a somewhat agitated
  15755. life. She was mortally afraid of being laughed at for surrendering,
  15756. after her many and vehement declarations of independence. Laurie was
  15757. her especial dread, but thanks to the new manager, he behaved with
  15758. praiseworthy propriety, never called Mr. Bhaer 'a capital old fellow'
  15759. in public, never alluded, in the remotest manner, to Jo's improved
  15760. appearance, or expressed the least surprise at seeing the Professor's
  15761. hat on the Marches' table nearly every evening. But he exulted in
  15762. private and longed for the time to come when he could give Jo a piece
  15763. of plate, with a bear and a ragged staff on it as an appropriate coat
  15764. of arms.
  15765. For a fortnight, the Professor came and went with lover-like
  15766. regularity. Then he stayed away for three whole days, and made no
  15767. sign, a proceeding which caused everybody to look sober, and Jo to
  15768. become pensive, at first, and then--alas for romance--very cross.
  15769. "Disgusted, I dare say, and gone home as suddenly as he came. It's
  15770. nothing to me, of course, but I should think he would have come and bid
  15771. us goodbye like a gentleman," she said to herself, with a despairing
  15772. look at the gate, as she put on her things for the customary walk one
  15773. dull afternoon.
  15774. "You'd better take the little umbrella, dear. It looks like rain,"
  15775. said her mother, observing that she had on her new bonnet, but not
  15776. alluding to the fact.
  15777. "Yes, Marmee, do you want anything in town? I've got to run in and get
  15778. some paper," returned Jo, pulling out the bow under her chin before the
  15779. glass as an excuse for not looking at her mother.
  15780. "Yes, I want some twilled silesia, a paper of number nine needles, and
  15781. two yards of narrow lavender ribbon. Have you got your thick boots on,
  15782. and something warm under your cloak?"
  15783. "I believe so," answered Jo absently.
  15784. "If you happen to meet Mr. Bhaer, bring him home to tea. I quite long
  15785. to see the dear man," added Mrs. March.
  15786. Jo heard that, but made no answer, except to kiss her mother, and walk
  15787. rapidly away, thinking with a glow of gratitude, in spite of her
  15788. heartache, "How good she is to me! What do girls do who haven't any
  15789. mothers to help them through their troubles?"
  15790. The dry-goods stores were not down among the counting-houses, banks,
  15791. and wholesale warerooms, where gentlemen most do congregate, but Jo
  15792. found herself in that part of the city before she did a single errand,
  15793. loitering along as if waiting for someone, examining engineering
  15794. instruments in one window and samples of wool in another, with most
  15795. unfeminine interest, tumbling over barrels, being half-smothered by
  15796. descending bales, and hustled unceremoniously by busy men who looked as
  15797. if they wondered 'how the deuce she got there'. A drop of rain on her
  15798. cheek recalled her thoughts from baffled hopes to ruined ribbons. For
  15799. the drops continued to fall, and being a woman as well as a lover, she
  15800. felt that, though it was too late to save her heart, she might her
  15801. bonnet. Now she remembered the little umbrella, which she had
  15802. forgotten to take in her hurry to be off, but regret was unavailing,
  15803. and nothing could be done but borrow one or submit to a drenching. She
  15804. looked up at the lowering sky, down at the crimson bow already flecked
  15805. with black, forward along the muddy street, then one long, lingering
  15806. look behind, at a certain grimy warehouse, with 'Hoffmann, Swartz, &
  15807. Co.' over the door, and said to herself, with a sternly reproachful
  15808. air...
  15809. "It serves me right! what business had I to put on all my best things
  15810. and come philandering down here, hoping to see the Professor? Jo, I'm
  15811. ashamed of you! No, you shall not go there to borrow an umbrella, or
  15812. find out where he is, from his friends. You shall trudge away, and do
  15813. your errands in the rain, and if you catch your death and ruin your
  15814. bonnet, it's no more than you deserve. Now then!"
  15815. With that she rushed across the street so impetuously that she narrowly
  15816. escaped annihilation from a passing truck, and precipitated herself
  15817. into the arms of a stately old gentleman, who said, "I beg pardon,
  15818. ma'am," and looked mortally offended. Somewhat daunted, Jo righted
  15819. herself, spread her handkerchief over the devoted ribbons, and putting
  15820. temptation behind her, hurried on, with increasing dampness about the
  15821. ankles, and much clashing of umbrellas overhead. The fact that a
  15822. somewhat dilapidated blue one remained stationary above the unprotected
  15823. bonnet attracted her attention, and looking up, she saw Mr. Bhaer
  15824. looking down.
  15825. "I feel to know the strong-minded lady who goes so bravely under many
  15826. horse noses, and so fast through much mud. What do you down here, my
  15827. friend?"
  15828. "I'm shopping."
  15829. Mr. Bhaer smiled, as he glanced from the pickle factory on one side to
  15830. the wholesale hide and leather concern on the other, but he only said
  15831. politely, "You haf no umbrella. May I go also, and take for you the
  15832. bundles?"
  15833. "Yes, thank you."
  15834. Jo's cheeks were as red as her ribbon, and she wondered what he thought
  15835. of her, but she didn't care, for in a minute she found herself walking
  15836. away arm in arm with her Professor, feeling as if the sun had suddenly
  15837. burst out with uncommon brilliancy, that the world was all right again,
  15838. and that one thoroughly happy woman was paddling through the wet that
  15839. day.
  15840. "We thought you had gone," said Jo hastily, for she knew he was looking
  15841. at her. Her bonnet wasn't big enough to hide her face, and she feared
  15842. he might think the joy it betrayed unmaidenly.
  15843. "Did you believe that I should go with no farewell to those who haf
  15844. been so heavenly kind to me?" he asked so reproachfully that she felt
  15845. as if she had insulted him by the suggestion, and answered heartily...
  15846. "No, I didn't. I knew you were busy about your own affairs, but we
  15847. rather missed you, Father and Mother especially."
  15848. "And you?"
  15849. "I'm always glad to see you, sir."
  15850. In her anxiety to keep her voice quite calm, Jo made it rather cool,
  15851. and the frosty little monosyllable at the end seemed to chill the
  15852. Professor, for his smile vanished, as he said gravely...
  15853. "I thank you, and come one more time before I go."
  15854. "You are going, then?"
  15855. "I haf no longer any business here, it is done."
  15856. "Successfully, I hope?" said Jo, for the bitterness of disappointment
  15857. was in that short reply of his.
  15858. "I ought to think so, for I haf a way opened to me by which I can make
  15859. my bread and gif my Junglings much help."
  15860. "Tell me, please! I like to know all about the--the boys," said Jo
  15861. eagerly.
  15862. "That is so kind, I gladly tell you. My friends find for me a place in
  15863. a college, where I teach as at home, and earn enough to make the way
  15864. smooth for Franz and Emil. For this I should be grateful, should I
  15865. not?"
  15866. "Indeed you should. How splendid it will be to have you doing what you
  15867. like, and be able to see you often, and the boys!" cried Jo, clinging
  15868. to the lads as an excuse for the satisfaction she could not help
  15869. betraying.
  15870. "Ah! But we shall not meet often, I fear, this place is at the West."
  15871. "So far away!" and Jo left her skirts to their fate, as if it didn't
  15872. matter now what became of her clothes or herself.
  15873. Mr. Bhaer could read several languages, but he had not learned to read
  15874. women yet. He flattered himself that he knew Jo pretty well, and was,
  15875. therefore, much amazed by the contradictions of voice, face, and
  15876. manner, which she showed him in rapid succession that day, for she was
  15877. in half a dozen different moods in the course of half an hour. When
  15878. she met him she looked surprised, though it was impossible to help
  15879. suspecting that she had come for that express purpose. When he offered
  15880. her his arm, she took it with a look that filled him with delight, but
  15881. when he asked if she missed him, she gave such a chilly, formal reply
  15882. that despair fell upon him. On learning his good fortune she almost
  15883. clapped her hands. Was the joy all for the boys? Then on hearing his
  15884. destination, she said, "So far away!" in a tone of despair that lifted
  15885. him on to a pinnacle of hope, but the next minute she tumbled him down
  15886. again by observing, like one entirely absorbed in the matter...
  15887. "Here's the place for my errands. Will you come in? It won't take
  15888. long."
  15889. Jo rather prided herself upon her shopping capabilities, and
  15890. particularly wished to impress her escort with the neatness and
  15891. dispatch with which she would accomplish the business. But owing to the
  15892. flutter she was in, everything went amiss. She upset the tray of
  15893. needles, forgot the silesia was to be 'twilled' till it was cut off,
  15894. gave the wrong change, and covered herself with confusion by asking for
  15895. lavender ribbon at the calico counter. Mr. Bhaer stood by, watching
  15896. her blush and blunder, and as he watched, his own bewilderment seemed
  15897. to subside, for he was beginning to see that on some occasions, women,
  15898. like dreams, go by contraries.
  15899. When they came out, he put the parcel under his arm with a more
  15900. cheerful aspect, and splashed through the puddles as if he rather
  15901. enjoyed it on the whole.
  15902. "Should we no do a little what you call shopping for the babies, and
  15903. haf a farewell feast tonight if I go for my last call at your so
  15904. pleasant home?" he asked, stopping before a window full of fruit and
  15905. flowers.
  15906. "What will we buy?" asked Jo, ignoring the latter part of his speech,
  15907. and sniffing the mingled odors with an affectation of delight as they
  15908. went in.
  15909. "May they haf oranges and figs?" asked Mr. Bhaer, with a paternal air.
  15910. "They eat them when they can get them."
  15911. "Do you care for nuts?"
  15912. "Like a squirrel."
  15913. "Hamburg grapes. Yes, we shall drink to the Fatherland in those?"
  15914. Jo frowned upon that piece of extravagance, and asked why he didn't buy
  15915. a frail of dates, a cask of raisins, and a bag of almonds, and be done
  15916. with it? Whereat Mr. Bhaer confiscated her purse, produced his own,
  15917. and finished the marketing by buying several pounds of grapes, a pot of
  15918. rosy daisies, and a pretty jar of honey, to be regarded in the light of
  15919. a demijohn. Then distorting his pockets with knobby bundles, and
  15920. giving her the flowers to hold, he put up the old umbrella, and they
  15921. traveled on again.
  15922. "Miss Marsch, I haf a great favor to ask of you," began the Professor,
  15923. after a moist promenade of half a block.
  15924. "Yes, sir?" and Jo's heart began to beat so hard she was afraid he
  15925. would hear it.
  15926. "I am bold to say it in spite of the rain, because so short a time
  15927. remains to me."
  15928. "Yes, sir," and Jo nearly crushed the small flowerpot with the sudden
  15929. squeeze she gave it.
  15930. "I wish to get a little dress for my Tina, and I am too stupid to go
  15931. alone. Will you kindly gif me a word of taste and help?"
  15932. "Yes, sir," and Jo felt as calm and cool all of a sudden as if she had
  15933. stepped into a refrigerator.
  15934. "Perhaps also a shawl for Tina's mother, she is so poor and sick, and
  15935. the husband is such a care. Yes, yes, a thick, warm shawl would be a
  15936. friendly thing to take the little mother."
  15937. "I'll do it with pleasure, Mr. Bhaer." "I'm going very fast, and he's
  15938. getting dearer every minute," added Jo to herself, then with a mental
  15939. shake she entered into the business with an energy that was pleasant to
  15940. behold.
  15941. Mr. Bhaer left it all to her, so she chose a pretty gown for Tina, and
  15942. then ordered out the shawls. The clerk, being a married man,
  15943. condescended to take an interest in the couple, who appeared to be
  15944. shopping for their family.
  15945. "Your lady may prefer this. It's a superior article, a most desirable
  15946. color, quite chaste and genteel," he said, shaking out a comfortable
  15947. gray shawl, and throwing it over Jo's shoulders.
  15948. "Does this suit you, Mr. Bhaer?" she asked, turning her back to him,
  15949. and feeling deeply grateful for the chance of hiding her face.
  15950. "Excellently well, we will haf it," answered the Professor, smiling to
  15951. himself as he paid for it, while Jo continued to rummage the counters
  15952. like a confirmed bargain-hunter.
  15953. "Now shall we go home?" he asked, as if the words were very pleasant to
  15954. him.
  15955. "Yes, it's late, and I'm _so_ tired." Jo's voice was more pathetic than
  15956. she knew. For now the sun seemed to have gone in as suddenly as it
  15957. came out, and the world grew muddy and miserable again, and for the
  15958. first time she discovered that her feet were cold, her head ached, and
  15959. that her heart was colder than the former, fuller of pain than the
  15960. latter. Mr. Bhaer was going away, he only cared for her as a friend,
  15961. it was all a mistake, and the sooner it was over the better. With this
  15962. idea in her head, she hailed an approaching omnibus with such a hasty
  15963. gesture that the daisies flew out of the pot and were badly damaged.
  15964. "This is not our omniboos," said the Professor, waving the loaded
  15965. vehicle away, and stopping to pick up the poor little flowers.
  15966. "I beg your pardon. I didn't see the name distinctly. Never mind, I
  15967. can walk. I'm used to plodding in the mud," returned Jo, winking hard,
  15968. because she would have died rather than openly wipe her eyes.
  15969. Mr. Bhaer saw the drops on her cheeks, though she turned her head away.
  15970. The sight seemed to touch him very much, for suddenly stooping down, he
  15971. asked in a tone that meant a great deal, "Heart's dearest, why do you
  15972. cry?"
  15973. Now, if Jo had not been new to this sort of thing she would have said
  15974. she wasn't crying, had a cold in her head, or told any other feminine
  15975. fib proper to the occasion. Instead of which, that undignified
  15976. creature answered, with an irrepressible sob, "Because you are going
  15977. away."
  15978. "Ach, mein Gott, that is so good!" cried Mr. Bhaer, managing to clasp
  15979. his hands in spite of the umbrella and the bundles, "Jo, I haf nothing
  15980. but much love to gif you. I came to see if you could care for it, and
  15981. I waited to be sure that I was something more than a friend. Am I?
  15982. Can you make a little place in your heart for old Fritz?" he added, all
  15983. in one breath.
  15984. "Oh, yes!" said Jo, and he was quite satisfied, for she folded both
  15985. hands over his arm, and looked up at him with an expression that
  15986. plainly showed how happy she would be to walk through life beside him,
  15987. even though she had no better shelter than the old umbrella, if he
  15988. carried it.
  15989. It was certainly proposing under difficulties, for even if he had
  15990. desired to do so, Mr. Bhaer could not go down upon his knees, on
  15991. account of the mud. Neither could he offer Jo his hand, except
  15992. figuratively, for both were full. Much less could he indulge in tender
  15993. remonstrations in the open street, though he was near it. So the only
  15994. way in which he could express his rapture was to look at her, with an
  15995. expression which glorified his face to such a degree that there
  15996. actually seemed to be little rainbows in the drops that sparkled on his
  15997. beard. If he had not loved Jo very much, I don't think he could have
  15998. done it then, for she looked far from lovely, with her skirts in a
  15999. deplorable state, her rubber boots splashed to the ankle, and her
  16000. bonnet a ruin. Fortunately, Mr. Bhaer considered her the most
  16001. beautiful woman living, and she found him more "Jove-like" than ever,
  16002. though his hatbrim was quite limp with the little rills trickling
  16003. thence upon his shoulders (for he held the umbrella all over Jo), and
  16004. every finger of his gloves needed mending.
  16005. Passers-by probably thought them a pair of harmless lunatics, for they
  16006. entirely forgot to hail a bus, and strolled leisurely along, oblivious
  16007. of deepening dusk and fog. Little they cared what anybody thought, for
  16008. they were enjoying the happy hour that seldom comes but once in any
  16009. life, the magical moment which bestows youth on the old, beauty on the
  16010. plain, wealth on the poor, and gives human hearts a foretaste of
  16011. heaven. The Professor looked as if he had conquered a kingdom, and the
  16012. world had nothing more to offer him in the way of bliss. While Jo
  16013. trudged beside him, feeling as if her place had always been there, and
  16014. wondering how she ever could have chosen any other lot. Of course, she
  16015. was the first to speak--intelligibly, I mean, for the emotional remarks
  16016. which followed her impetuous "Oh, yes!" were not of a coherent or
  16017. reportable character.
  16018. "Friedrich, why didn't you..."
  16019. "Ah, heaven, she gifs me the name that no one speaks since Minna died!"
  16020. cried the Professor, pausing in a puddle to regard her with grateful
  16021. delight.
  16022. "I always call you so to myself--I forgot, but I won't unless you like
  16023. it."
  16024. "Like it? It is more sweet to me than I can tell. Say 'thou', also,
  16025. and I shall say your language is almost as beautiful as mine."
  16026. "Isn't 'thou' a little sentimental?" asked Jo, privately thinking it a
  16027. lovely monosyllable.
  16028. "Sentimental? Yes. Thank Gott, we Germans believe in sentiment, and
  16029. keep ourselves young mit it. Your English 'you' is so cold, say
  16030. 'thou', heart's dearest, it means so much to me," pleaded Mr. Bhaer,
  16031. more like a romantic student than a grave professor.
  16032. "Well, then, why didn't thou tell me all this sooner?" asked Jo
  16033. bashfully.
  16034. "Now I shall haf to show thee all my heart, and I so gladly will,
  16035. because thou must take care of it hereafter. See, then, my Jo--ah, the
  16036. dear, funny little name--I had a wish to tell something the day I said
  16037. goodbye in New York, but I thought the handsome friend was betrothed to
  16038. thee, and so I spoke not. Wouldst thou have said 'Yes', then, if I had
  16039. spoken?"
  16040. "I don't know. I'm afraid not, for I didn't have any heart just then."
  16041. "Prut! That I do not believe. It was asleep till the fairy prince
  16042. came through the wood, and waked it up. Ah, well, 'Die erste Liebe ist
  16043. die beste', but that I should not expect."
  16044. "Yes, the first love is the best, but be so contented, for I never had
  16045. another. Teddy was only a boy, and soon got over his little fancy,"
  16046. said Jo, anxious to correct the Professor's mistake.
  16047. "Good! Then I shall rest happy, and be sure that thou givest me all.
  16048. I haf waited so long, I am grown selfish, as thou wilt find,
  16049. Professorin."
  16050. "I like that," cried Jo, delighted with her new name. "Now tell me
  16051. what brought you, at last, just when I wanted you?"
  16052. "This," and Mr. Bhaer took a little worn paper out of his waistcoat
  16053. pocket.
  16054. Jo unfolded it, and looked much abashed, for it was one of her own
  16055. contributions to a paper that paid for poetry, which accounted for her
  16056. sending it an occasional attempt.
  16057. "How could that bring you?" she asked, wondering what he meant.
  16058. "I found it by chance. I knew it by the names and the initials, and in
  16059. it there was one little verse that seemed to call me. Read and find
  16060. him. I will see that you go not in the wet."
  16061. IN THE GARRET
  16062. Four little chests all in a row,
  16063. Dim with dust, and worn by time,
  16064. All fashioned and filled, long ago,
  16065. By children now in their prime.
  16066. Four little keys hung side by side,
  16067. With faded ribbons, brave and gay
  16068. When fastened there, with childish pride,
  16069. Long ago, on a rainy day.
  16070. Four little names, one on each lid,
  16071. Carved out by a boyish hand,
  16072. And underneath there lieth hid
  16073. Histories of the happy band
  16074. Once playing here, and pausing oft
  16075. To hear the sweet refrain,
  16076. That came and went on the roof aloft,
  16077. In the falling summer rain.
  16078. "Meg" on the first lid, smooth and fair.
  16079. I look in with loving eyes,
  16080. For folded here, with well-known care,
  16081. A goodly gathering lies,
  16082. The record of a peaceful life--
  16083. Gifts to gentle child and girl,
  16084. A bridal gown, lines to a wife,
  16085. A tiny shoe, a baby curl.
  16086. No toys in this first chest remain,
  16087. For all are carried away,
  16088. In their old age, to join again
  16089. In another small Meg's play.
  16090. Ah, happy mother! Well I know
  16091. You hear, like a sweet refrain,
  16092. Lullabies ever soft and low
  16093. In the falling summer rain.
  16094. "Jo" on the next lid, scratched and worn,
  16095. And within a motley store
  16096. Of headless dolls, of schoolbooks torn,
  16097. Birds and beasts that speak no more,
  16098. Spoils brought home from the fairy ground
  16099. Only trod by youthful feet,
  16100. Dreams of a future never found,
  16101. Memories of a past still sweet,
  16102. Half-writ poems, stories wild,
  16103. April letters, warm and cold,
  16104. Diaries of a wilful child,
  16105. Hints of a woman early old,
  16106. A woman in a lonely home,
  16107. Hearing, like a sad refrain--
  16108. "Be worthy, love, and love will come,"
  16109. In the falling summer rain.
  16110. My Beth! the dust is always swept
  16111. From the lid that bears your name,
  16112. As if by loving eyes that wept,
  16113. By careful hands that often came.
  16114. Death canonized for us one saint,
  16115. Ever less human than divine,
  16116. And still we lay, with tender plaint,
  16117. Relics in this household shrine--
  16118. The silver bell, so seldom rung,
  16119. The little cap which last she wore,
  16120. The fair, dead Catherine that hung
  16121. By angels borne above her door.
  16122. The songs she sang, without lament,
  16123. In her prison-house of pain,
  16124. Forever are they sweetly blent
  16125. With the falling summer rain.
  16126. Upon the last lid's polished field--
  16127. Legend now both fair and true
  16128. A gallant knight bears on his shield,
  16129. "Amy" in letters gold and blue.
  16130. Within lie snoods that bound her hair,
  16131. Slippers that have danced their last,
  16132. Faded flowers laid by with care,
  16133. Fans whose airy toils are past,
  16134. Gay valentines, all ardent flames,
  16135. Trifles that have borne their part
  16136. In girlish hopes and fears and shames,
  16137. The record of a maiden heart
  16138. Now learning fairer, truer spells,
  16139. Hearing, like a blithe refrain,
  16140. The silver sound of bridal bells
  16141. In the falling summer rain.
  16142. Four little chests all in a row,
  16143. Dim with dust, and worn by time,
  16144. Four women, taught by weal and woe
  16145. To love and labor in their prime.
  16146. Four sisters, parted for an hour,
  16147. None lost, one only gone before,
  16148. Made by love's immortal power,
  16149. Nearest and dearest evermore.
  16150. Oh, when these hidden stores of ours
  16151. Lie open to the Father's sight,
  16152. May they be rich in golden hours,
  16153. Deeds that show fairer for the light,
  16154. Lives whose brave music long shall ring,
  16155. Like a spirit-stirring strain,
  16156. Souls that shall gladly soar and sing
  16157. In the long sunshine after rain.
  16158. "It's very bad poetry, but I felt it when I wrote it, one day when I
  16159. was very lonely, and had a good cry on a rag bag. I never thought it
  16160. would go where it could tell tales," said Jo, tearing up the verses the
  16161. Professor had treasured so long.
  16162. "Let it go, it has done its duty, and I will haf a fresh one when I
  16163. read all the brown book in which she keeps her little secrets," said
  16164. Mr. Bhaer with a smile as he watched the fragments fly away on the
  16165. wind. "Yes," he added earnestly, "I read that, and I think to myself,
  16166. She has a sorrow, she is lonely, she would find comfort in true love.
  16167. I haf a heart full, full for her. Shall I not go and say, 'If this is
  16168. not too poor a thing to gif for what I shall hope to receive, take it
  16169. in Gott's name?'"
  16170. "And so you came to find that it was not too poor, but the one precious
  16171. thing I needed," whispered Jo.
  16172. "I had no courage to think that at first, heavenly kind as was your
  16173. welcome to me. But soon I began to hope, and then I said, 'I will haf
  16174. her if I die for it,' and so I will!" cried Mr. Bhaer, with a defiant
  16175. nod, as if the walls of mist closing round them were barriers which he
  16176. was to surmount or valiantly knock down.
  16177. Jo thought that was splendid, and resolved to be worthy of her knight,
  16178. though he did not come prancing on a charger in gorgeous array.
  16179. "What made you stay away so long?" she asked presently, finding it so
  16180. pleasant to ask confidential questions and get delightful answers that
  16181. she could not keep silent.
  16182. "It was not easy, but I could not find the heart to take you from that
  16183. so happy home until I could haf a prospect of one to gif you, after
  16184. much time, perhaps, and hard work. How could I ask you to gif up so
  16185. much for a poor old fellow, who has no fortune but a little learning?"
  16186. "I'm glad you are poor. I couldn't bear a rich husband," said Jo
  16187. decidedly, adding in a softer tone, "Don't fear poverty. I've known it
  16188. long enough to lose my dread and be happy working for those I love, and
  16189. don't call yourself old--forty is the prime of life. I couldn't help
  16190. loving you if you were seventy!"
  16191. The Professor found that so touching that he would have been glad of
  16192. his handkerchief, if he could have got at it. As he couldn't, Jo wiped
  16193. his eyes for him, and said, laughing, as she took away a bundle or
  16194. two...
  16195. "I may be strong-minded, but no one can say I'm out of my sphere now,
  16196. for woman's special mission is supposed to be drying tears and bearing
  16197. burdens. I'm to carry my share, Friedrich, and help to earn the home.
  16198. Make up your mind to that, or I'll never go," she added resolutely, as
  16199. he tried to reclaim his load.
  16200. "We shall see. Haf you patience to wait a long time, Jo? I must go
  16201. away and do my work alone. I must help my boys first, because, even
  16202. for you, I may not break my word to Minna. Can you forgif that, and be
  16203. happy while we hope and wait?"
  16204. "Yes, I know I can, for we love one another, and that makes all the
  16205. rest easy to bear. I have my duty, also, and my work. I couldn't enjoy
  16206. myself if I neglected them even for you, so there's no need of hurry or
  16207. impatience. You can do your part out West, I can do mine here, and
  16208. both be happy hoping for the best, and leaving the future to be as God
  16209. wills."
  16210. "Ah! Thou gifest me such hope and courage, and I haf nothing to gif
  16211. back but a full heart and these empty hands," cried the Professor,
  16212. quite overcome.
  16213. Jo never, never would learn to be proper, for when he said that as they
  16214. stood upon the steps, she just put both hands into his, whispering
  16215. tenderly, "Not empty now," and stooping down, kissed her Friedrich
  16216. under the umbrella. It was dreadful, but she would have done it if the
  16217. flock of draggle-tailed sparrows on the hedge had been human beings,
  16218. for she was very far gone indeed, and quite regardless of everything
  16219. but her own happiness. Though it came in such a very simple guise, that
  16220. was the crowning moment of both their lives, when, turning from the
  16221. night and storm and loneliness to the household light and warmth and
  16222. peace waiting to receive them, with a glad "Welcome home!" Jo led her
  16223. lover in, and shut the door.
  16224. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  16225. HARVEST TIME
  16226. For a year Jo and her Professor worked and waited, hoped and loved, met
  16227. occasionally, and wrote such voluminous letters that the rise in the
  16228. price of paper was accounted for, Laurie said. The second year began
  16229. rather soberly, for their prospects did not brighten, and Aunt March
  16230. died suddenly. But when their first sorrow was over--for they loved
  16231. the old lady in spite of her sharp tongue--they found they had cause
  16232. for rejoicing, for she had left Plumfield to Jo, which made all sorts
  16233. of joyful things possible.
  16234. "It's a fine old place, and will bring a handsome sum, for of course
  16235. you intend to sell it," said Laurie, as they were all talking the
  16236. matter over some weeks later.
  16237. "No, I don't," was Jo's decided answer, as she petted the fat poodle,
  16238. whom she had adopted, out of respect to his former mistress.
  16239. "You don't mean to live there?"
  16240. "Yes, I do."
  16241. "But, my dear girl, it's an immense house, and will take a power of
  16242. money to keep it in order. The garden and orchard alone need two or
  16243. three men, and farming isn't in Bhaer's line, I take it."
  16244. "He'll try his hand at it there, if I propose it."
  16245. "And you expect to live on the produce of the place? Well, that sounds
  16246. paradisiacal, but you'll find it desperate hard work."
  16247. "The crop we are going to raise is a profitable one," and Jo laughed.
  16248. "Of what is this fine crop to consist, ma'am?"
  16249. "Boys. I want to open a school for little lads--a good, happy,
  16250. homelike school, with me to take care of them and Fritz to teach them."
  16251. "That's a truly Joian plan for you! Isn't that just like her?" cried
  16252. Laurie, appealing to the family, who looked as much surprised as he.
  16253. "I like it," said Mrs. March decidedly.
  16254. "So do I," added her husband, who welcomed the thought of a chance for
  16255. trying the Socratic method of education on modern youth.
  16256. "It will be an immense care for Jo," said Meg, stroking the head of her
  16257. one all-absorbing son.
  16258. "Jo can do it, and be happy in it. It's a splendid idea. Tell us all
  16259. about it," cried Mr. Laurence, who had been longing to lend the lovers
  16260. a hand, but knew that they would refuse his help.
  16261. "I knew you'd stand by me, sir. Amy does too--I see it in her eyes,
  16262. though she prudently waits to turn it over in her mind before she
  16263. speaks. Now, my dear people," continued Jo earnestly, "just understand
  16264. that this isn't a new idea of mine, but a long cherished plan. Before
  16265. my Fritz came, I used to think how, when I'd made my fortune, and no
  16266. one needed me at home, I'd hire a big house, and pick up some poor,
  16267. forlorn little lads who hadn't any mothers, and take care of them, and
  16268. make life jolly for them before it was too late. I see so many going
  16269. to ruin for want of help at the right minute, I love so to do anything
  16270. for them, I seem to feel their wants, and sympathize with their
  16271. troubles, and oh, I should so like to be a mother to them!"
  16272. Mrs. March held out her hand to Jo, who took it, smiling, with tears in
  16273. her eyes, and went on in the old enthusiastic way, which they had not
  16274. seen for a long while.
  16275. "I told my plan to Fritz once, and he said it was just what he would
  16276. like, and agreed to try it when we got rich. Bless his dear heart,
  16277. he's been doing it all his life--helping poor boys, I mean, not getting
  16278. rich, that he'll never be. Money doesn't stay in his pocket long
  16279. enough to lay up any. But now, thanks to my good old aunt, who loved
  16280. me better than I ever deserved, I'm rich, at least I feel so, and we
  16281. can live at Plumfield perfectly well, if we have a flourishing school.
  16282. It's just the place for boys, the house is big, and the furniture
  16283. strong and plain. There's plenty of room for dozens inside, and
  16284. splendid grounds outside. They could help in the garden and orchard.
  16285. Such work is healthy, isn't it, sir? Then Fritz could train and teach
  16286. in his own way, and Father will help him. I can feed and nurse and pet
  16287. and scold them, and Mother will be my stand-by. I've always longed for
  16288. lots of boys, and never had enough, now I can fill the house full and
  16289. revel in the little dears to my heart's content. Think what luxury--
  16290. Plumfield my own, and a wilderness of boys to enjoy it with me."
  16291. As Jo waved her hands and gave a sigh of rapture, the family went off
  16292. into a gale of merriment, and Mr. Laurence laughed till they thought
  16293. he'd have an apoplectic fit.
  16294. "I don't see anything funny," she said gravely, when she could be
  16295. heard. "Nothing could be more natural and proper than for my Professor
  16296. to open a school, and for me to prefer to reside in my own estate."
  16297. "She is putting on airs already," said Laurie, who regarded the idea in
  16298. the light of a capital joke. "But may I inquire how you intend to
  16299. support the establishment? If all the pupils are little ragamuffins,
  16300. I'm afraid your crop won't be profitable in a worldly sense, Mrs.
  16301. Bhaer."
  16302. "Now don't be a wet-blanket, Teddy. Of course I shall have rich
  16303. pupils, also--perhaps begin with such altogether. Then, when I've got
  16304. a start, I can take in a ragamuffin or two, just for a relish. Rich
  16305. people's children often need care and comfort, as well as poor. I've
  16306. seen unfortunate little creatures left to servants, or backward ones
  16307. pushed forward, when it's real cruelty. Some are naughty through
  16308. mismanagment or neglect, and some lose their mothers. Besides, the best
  16309. have to get through the hobbledehoy age, and that's the very time they
  16310. need most patience and kindness. People laugh at them, and hustle them
  16311. about, try to keep them out of sight, and expect them to turn all at
  16312. once from pretty children into fine young men. They don't complain
  16313. much--plucky little souls--but they feel it. I've been through
  16314. something of it, and I know all about it. I've a special interest in
  16315. such young bears, and like to show them that I see the warm, honest,
  16316. well-meaning boys' hearts, in spite of the clumsy arms and legs and the
  16317. topsy-turvy heads. I've had experience, too, for haven't I brought up
  16318. one boy to be a pride and honor to his family?"
  16319. "I'll testify that you tried to do it," said Laurie with a grateful
  16320. look.
  16321. "And I've succeeded beyond my hopes, for here you are, a steady,
  16322. sensible businessman, doing heaps of good with your money, and laying
  16323. up the blessings of the poor, instead of dollars. But you are not
  16324. merely a businessman, you love good and beautiful things, enjoy them
  16325. yourself, and let others go halves, as you always did in the old times.
  16326. I am proud of you, Teddy, for you get better every year, and everyone
  16327. feels it, though you won't let them say so. Yes, and when I have my
  16328. flock, I'll just point to you, and say 'There's your model, my lads'."
  16329. Poor Laurie didn't know where to look, for, man though he was,
  16330. something of the old bashfulness came over him as this burst of praise
  16331. made all faces turn approvingly upon him.
  16332. "I say, Jo, that's rather too much," he began, just in his old boyish
  16333. way. "You have all done more for me than I can ever thank you for,
  16334. except by doing my best not to disappoint you. You have rather cast me
  16335. off lately, Jo, but I've had the best of help, nevertheless. So, if
  16336. I've got on at all, you may thank these two for it," and he laid one
  16337. hand gently on his grandfather's head, and the other on Amy's golden
  16338. one, for the three were never far apart.
  16339. "I do think that families are the most beautiful things in all the
  16340. world!" burst out Jo, who was in an unusually up-lifted frame of mind
  16341. just then. "When I have one of my own, I hope it will be as happy as
  16342. the three I know and love the best. If John and my Fritz were only
  16343. here, it would be quite a little heaven on earth," she added more
  16344. quietly. And that night when she went to her room after a blissful
  16345. evening of family counsels, hopes, and plans, her heart was so full of
  16346. happiness that she could only calm it by kneeling beside the empty bed
  16347. always near her own, and thinking tender thoughts of Beth.
  16348. It was a very astonishing year altogether, for things seemed to happen
  16349. in an unusually rapid and delightful manner. Almost before she knew
  16350. where she was, Jo found herself married and settled at Plumfield. Then
  16351. a family of six or seven boys sprung up like mushrooms, and flourished
  16352. surprisingly, poor boys as well as rich, for Mr. Laurence was
  16353. continually finding some touching case of destitution, and begging the
  16354. Bhaers to take pity on the child, and he would gladly pay a trifle for
  16355. its support. In this way, the sly old gentleman got round proud Jo,
  16356. and furnished her with the style of boy in which she most delighted.
  16357. Of course it was uphill work at first, and Jo made queer mistakes, but
  16358. the wise Professor steered her safely into calmer waters, and the most
  16359. rampant ragamuffin was conquered in the end. How Jo did enjoy her
  16360. 'wilderness of boys', and how poor, dear Aunt March would have lamented
  16361. had she been there to see the sacred precincts of prim, well-ordered
  16362. Plumfield overrun with Toms, Dicks, and Harrys! There was a sort of
  16363. poetic justice about it, after all, for the old lady had been the
  16364. terror of the boys for miles around, and now the exiles feasted freely
  16365. on forbidden plums, kicked up the gravel with profane boots unreproved,
  16366. and played cricket in the big field where the irritable 'cow with a
  16367. crumpled horn' used to invite rash youths to come and be tossed. It
  16368. became a sort of boys' paradise, and Laurie suggested that it should be
  16369. called the 'Bhaer-garten', as a compliment to its master and
  16370. appropriate to its inhabitants.
  16371. It never was a fashionable school, and the Professor did not lay up a
  16372. fortune, but it was just what Jo intended it to be--'a happy, homelike
  16373. place for boys, who needed teaching, care, and kindness'. Every room
  16374. in the big house was soon full. Every little plot in the garden soon
  16375. had its owner. A regular menagerie appeared in barn and shed, for pet
  16376. animals were allowed. And three times a day, Jo smiled at her Fritz
  16377. from the head of a long table lined on either side with rows of happy
  16378. young faces, which all turned to her with affectionate eyes, confiding
  16379. words, and grateful hearts, full of love for 'Mother Bhaer'. She had
  16380. boys enough now, and did not tire of them, though they were not angels,
  16381. by any means, and some of them caused both Professor and Professorin
  16382. much trouble and anxiety. But her faith in the good spot which exists
  16383. in the heart of the naughtiest, sauciest, most tantalizing little
  16384. ragamuffin gave her patience, skill, and in time success, for no mortal
  16385. boy could hold out long with Father Bhaer shining on him as
  16386. benevolently as the sun, and Mother Bhaer forgiving him seventy times
  16387. seven. Very precious to Jo was the friendship of the lads, their
  16388. penitent sniffs and whispers after wrongdoing, their droll or touching
  16389. little confidences, their pleasant enthusiasms, hopes, and plans, even
  16390. their misfortunes, for they only endeared them to her all the more.
  16391. There were slow boys and bashful boys, feeble boys and riotous boys,
  16392. boys that lisped and boys that stuttered, one or two lame ones, and a
  16393. merry little quadroon, who could not be taken in elsewhere, but who was
  16394. welcome to the 'Bhaer-garten', though some people predicted that his
  16395. admission would ruin the school.
  16396. Yes, Jo was a very happy woman there, in spite of hard work, much
  16397. anxiety, and a perpetual racket. She enjoyed it heartily and found the
  16398. applause of her boys more satisfying than any praise of the world, for
  16399. now she told no stories except to her flock of enthusiastic believers
  16400. and admirers. As the years went on, two little lads of her own came to
  16401. increase her happiness--Rob, named for Grandpa, and Teddy, a
  16402. happy-go-lucky baby, who seemed to have inherited his papa's sunshiny
  16403. temper as well as his mother's lively spirit. How they ever grew up
  16404. alive in that whirlpool of boys was a mystery to their grandma and
  16405. aunts, but they flourished like dandelions in spring, and their rough
  16406. nurses loved and served them well.
  16407. There were a great many holidays at Plumfield, and one of the most
  16408. delightful was the yearly apple-picking. For then the Marches,
  16409. Laurences, Brookes and Bhaers turned out in full force and made a day
  16410. of it. Five years after Jo's wedding, one of these fruitful festivals
  16411. occurred, a mellow October day, when the air was full of an
  16412. exhilarating freshness which made the spirits rise and the blood dance
  16413. healthily in the veins. The old orchard wore its holiday attire.
  16414. Goldenrod and asters fringed the mossy walls. Grasshoppers skipped
  16415. briskly in the sere grass, and crickets chirped like fairy pipers at a
  16416. feast. Squirrels were busy with their small harvesting. Birds
  16417. twittered their adieux from the alders in the lane, and every tree
  16418. stood ready to send down its shower of red or yellow apples at the
  16419. first shake. Everybody was there. Everybody laughed and sang, climbed
  16420. up and tumbled down. Everybody declared that there never had been such
  16421. a perfect day or such a jolly set to enjoy it, and everyone gave
  16422. themselves up to the simple pleasures of the hour as freely as if there
  16423. were no such things as care or sorrow in the world.
  16424. Mr. March strolled placidly about, quoting Tusser, Cowley, and
  16425. Columella to Mr. Laurence, while enjoying...
  16426. The gentle apple's winey juice.
  16427. The Professor charged up and down the green aisles like a stout
  16428. Teutonic knight, with a pole for a lance, leading on the boys, who made
  16429. a hook and ladder company of themselves, and performed wonders in the
  16430. way of ground and lofty tumbling. Laurie devoted himself to the little
  16431. ones, rode his small daughter in a bushel-basket, took Daisy up among
  16432. the bird's nests, and kept adventurous Rob from breaking his neck.
  16433. Mrs. March and Meg sat among the apple piles like a pair of Pomonas,
  16434. sorting the contributions that kept pouring in, while Amy with a
  16435. beautiful motherly expression in her face sketched the various groups,
  16436. and watched over one pale lad, who sat adoring her with his little
  16437. crutch beside him.
  16438. Jo was in her element that day, and rushed about, with her gown pinned
  16439. up, and her hat anywhere but on her head, and her baby tucked under her
  16440. arm, ready for any lively adventure which might turn up. Little Teddy
  16441. bore a charmed life, for nothing ever happened to him, and Jo never
  16442. felt any anxiety when he was whisked up into a tree by one lad,
  16443. galloped off on the back of another, or supplied with sour russets by
  16444. his indulgent papa, who labored under the Germanic delusion that babies
  16445. could digest anything, from pickled cabbage to buttons, nails, and
  16446. their own small shoes. She knew that little Ted would turn up again in
  16447. time, safe and rosy, dirty and serene, and she always received him back
  16448. with a hearty welcome, for Jo loved her babies tenderly.
  16449. At four o'clock a lull took place, and baskets remained empty, while
  16450. the apple pickers rested and compared rents and bruises. Then Jo and
  16451. Meg, with a detachment of the bigger boys, set forth the supper on the
  16452. grass, for an out-of-door tea was always the crowning joy of the day.
  16453. The land literally flowed with milk and honey on such occasions, for
  16454. the lads were not required to sit at table, but allowed to partake of
  16455. refreshment as they liked--freedom being the sauce best beloved by the
  16456. boyish soul. They availed themselves of the rare privilege to the
  16457. fullest extent, for some tried the pleasing experiment of drinking milk
  16458. while standing on their heads, others lent a charm to leapfrog by
  16459. eating pie in the pauses of the game, cookies were sown broadcast over
  16460. the field, and apple turnovers roosted in the trees like a new style of
  16461. bird. The little girls had a private tea party, and Ted roved among
  16462. the edibles at his own sweet will.
  16463. When no one could eat any more, the Professor proposed the first
  16464. regular toast, which was always drunk at such times--"Aunt March, God
  16465. bless her!" A toast heartily given by the good man, who never forgot
  16466. how much he owed her, and quietly drunk by the boys, who had been
  16467. taught to keep her memory green.
  16468. "Now, Grandma's sixtieth birthday! Long life to her, with three times
  16469. three!"
  16470. That was given with a will, as you may well believe, and the cheering
  16471. once begun, it was hard to stop it. Everybody's health was proposed,
  16472. from Mr. Laurence, who was considered their special patron, to the
  16473. astonished guinea pig, who had strayed from its proper sphere in search
  16474. of its young master. Demi, as the oldest grandchild, then presented
  16475. the queen of the day with various gifts, so numerous that they were
  16476. transported to the festive scene in a wheelbarrow. Funny presents,
  16477. some of them, but what would have been defects to other eyes were
  16478. ornaments to Grandma's--for the children's gifts were all their own.
  16479. Every stitch Daisy's patient little fingers had put into the
  16480. handkerchiefs she hemmed was better than embroidery to Mrs. March.
  16481. Demi's miracle of mechanical skill, though the cover wouldn't shut,
  16482. Rob's footstool had a wiggle in its uneven legs that she declared was
  16483. soothing, and no page of the costly book Amy's child gave her was so
  16484. fair as that on which appeared in tipsy capitals, the words--"To dear
  16485. Grandma, from her little Beth."
  16486. During the ceremony the boys had mysteriously disappeared, and when
  16487. Mrs. March had tried to thank her children, and broken down, while
  16488. Teddy wiped her eyes on his pinafore, the Professor suddenly began to
  16489. sing. Then, from above him, voice after voice took up the words, and
  16490. from tree to tree echoed the music of the unseen choir, as the boys
  16491. sang with all their hearts the little song that Jo had written, Laurie
  16492. set to music, and the Professor trained his lads to give with the best
  16493. effect. This was something altogether new, and it proved a grand
  16494. success, for Mrs. March couldn't get over her surprise, and insisted on
  16495. shaking hands with every one of the featherless birds, from tall Franz
  16496. and Emil to the little quadroon, who had the sweetest voice of all.
  16497. After this, the boys dispersed for a final lark, leaving Mrs. March and
  16498. her daughters under the festival tree.
  16499. "I don't think I ever ought to call myself 'unlucky Jo' again, when my
  16500. greatest wish has been so beautifully gratified," said Mrs. Bhaer,
  16501. taking Teddy's little fist out of the milk pitcher, in which he was
  16502. rapturously churning.
  16503. "And yet your life is very different from the one you pictured so long
  16504. ago. Do you remember our castles in the air?" asked Amy, smiling as
  16505. she watched Laurie and John playing cricket with the boys.
  16506. "Dear fellows! It does my heart good to see them forget business and
  16507. frolic for a day," answered Jo, who now spoke in a maternal way of all
  16508. mankind. "Yes, I remember, but the life I wanted then seems selfish,
  16509. lonely, and cold to me now. I haven't given up the hope that I may
  16510. write a good book yet, but I can wait, and I'm sure it will be all the
  16511. better for such experiences and illustrations as these," and Jo pointed
  16512. from the lively lads in the distance to her father, leaning on the
  16513. Professor's arm, as they walked to and fro in the sunshine, deep in one
  16514. of the conversations which both enjoyed so much, and then to her
  16515. mother, sitting enthroned among her daughters, with their children in
  16516. her lap and at her feet, as if all found help and happiness in the face
  16517. which never could grow old to them.
  16518. "My castle was the most nearly realized of all. I asked for splendid
  16519. things, to be sure, but in my heart I knew I should be satisfied, if I
  16520. had a little home, and John, and some dear children like these. I've
  16521. got them all, thank God, and am the happiest woman in the world," and
  16522. Meg laid her hand on her tall boy's head, with a face full of tender
  16523. and devout content.
  16524. "My castle is very different from what I planned, but I would not alter
  16525. it, though, like Jo, I don't relinquish all my artistic hopes, or
  16526. confine myself to helping others fulfill their dreams of beauty. I've
  16527. begun to model a figure of baby, and Laurie says it is the best thing
  16528. I've ever done. I think so, myself, and mean to do it in marble, so
  16529. that, whatever happens, I may at least keep the image of my little
  16530. angel."
  16531. As Amy spoke, a great tear dropped on the golden hair of the sleeping
  16532. child in her arms, for her one well-beloved daughter was a frail little
  16533. creature and the dread of losing her was the shadow over Amy's
  16534. sunshine. This cross was doing much for both father and mother, for
  16535. one love and sorrow bound them closely together. Amy's nature was
  16536. growing sweeter, deeper, and more tender. Laurie was growing more
  16537. serious, strong, and firm, and both were learning that beauty, youth,
  16538. good fortune, even love itself, cannot keep care and pain, loss and
  16539. sorrow, from the most blessed for ...
  16540. Into each life some rain must fall,
  16541. Some days must be dark and sad and dreary.
  16542. "She is growing better, I am sure of it, my dear. Don't despond, but
  16543. hope and keep happy," said Mrs. March, as tenderhearted Daisy stooped
  16544. from her knee to lay her rosy cheek against her little cousin's pale
  16545. one.
  16546. "I never ought to, while I have you to cheer me up, Marmee, and Laurie
  16547. to take more than half of every burden," replied Amy warmly. "He never
  16548. lets me see his anxiety, but is so sweet and patient with me, so
  16549. devoted to Beth, and such a stay and comfort to me always that I can't
  16550. love him enough. So, in spite of my one cross, I can say with Meg,
  16551. 'Thank God, I'm a happy woman.'"
  16552. "There's no need for me to say it, for everyone can see that I'm far
  16553. happier than I deserve," added Jo, glancing from her good husband to
  16554. her chubby children, tumbling on the grass beside her. "Fritz is
  16555. getting gray and stout. I'm growing as thin as a shadow, and am
  16556. thirty. We never shall be rich, and Plumfield may burn up any night,
  16557. for that incorrigible Tommy Bangs will smoke sweet-fern cigars under
  16558. the bed-clothes, though he's set himself afire three times already.
  16559. But in spite of these unromantic facts, I have nothing to complain of,
  16560. and never was so jolly in my life. Excuse the remark, but living among
  16561. boys, I can't help using their expressions now and then."
  16562. "Yes, Jo, I think your harvest will be a good one," began Mrs. March,
  16563. frightening away a big black cricket that was staring Teddy out of
  16564. countenance.
  16565. "Not half so good as yours, Mother. Here it is, and we never can thank
  16566. you enough for the patient sowing and reaping you have done," cried Jo,
  16567. with the loving impetuosity which she never would outgrow.
  16568. "I hope there will be more wheat and fewer tares every year," said Amy
  16569. softly.
  16570. "A large sheaf, but I know there's room in your heart for it, Marmee
  16571. dear," added Meg's tender voice.
  16572. Touched to the heart, Mrs. March could only stretch out her arms, as if
  16573. to gather children and grandchildren to herself, and say, with face and
  16574. voice full of motherly love, gratitude, and humility...
  16575. "Oh, my girls, however long you may live, I never can wish you a
  16576. greater happiness than this!"
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