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- The Project Gutenberg EBook of Little Women, by Louisa May Alcott
- This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with
- almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or
- re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included
- with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.net
- Title: Little Women
- Author: Louisa May Alcott
- Posting Date: September 13, 2008 [EBook #514]
- Release Date: May, 1996
- [This file last updated on August 19, 2010]
- Language: English
- *** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK LITTLE WOMEN ***
- LITTLE WOMEN
- by
- Louisa May Alcott
- CONTENTS
- PART 1
- ONE PLAYING PILGRIMS
- TWO A MERRY CHRISTMAS
- THREE THE LAURENCE BOY
- FOUR BURDENS
- FIVE BEING NEIGHBORLY
- SIX BETH FINDS THE PALACE BEAUTIFUL
- SEVEN AMY'S VALLEY OF HUMILIATION
- EIGHT JO MEETS APOLLYON
- NINE MEG GOES TO VANITY FAIR
- TEN THE P.C. AND P.O.
- ELEVEN EXPERIMENTS
- TWELVE CAMP LAURENCE
- THIRTEEN CASTLES IN THE AIR
- FOURTEEN SECRETS
- FIFTEEN A TELEGRAM
- SIXTEEN LETTERS
- SEVENTEEN LITTLE FAITHFUL
- EIGHTEEN DARK DAYS
- NINETEEN AMY'S WILL
- TWENTY CONFIDENTIAL
- TWENTY-ONE LAURIE MAKES MISCHIEF, AND JO MAKES PEACE
- TWENTY-TWO PLEASANT MEADOWS
- TWENTY-THREE AUNT MARCH SETTLES THE QUESTION
- PART 2
- TWENTY-FOUR GOSSIP
- TWENTY-FIVE THE FIRST WEDDING
- TWENTY-SIX ARTISTIC ATTEMPTS
- TWENTY-SEVEN LITERARY LESSONS
- TWENTY-EIGHT DOMESTIC EXPERIENCES
- TWENTY-NINE CALLS
- THIRTY CONSEQUENCES
- THIRTY-ONE OUR FOREIGN CORRESPONDENT
- THIRTY-TWO TENDER TROUBLES
- THIRTY-THREE JO'S JOURNAL
- THIRTY-FOUR FRIEND
- THIRTY-FIVE HEARTACHE
- THIRTY-SIX BETH'S SECRET
- THIRTY-SEVEN NEW IMPRESSIONS
- THIRTY-EIGHT ON THE SHELF
- THIRTY-NINE LAZY LAURENCE
- FORTY THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW
- FORTY-ONE LEARNING TO FORGET
- FORTY-TWO ALL ALONE
- FORTY-THREE SURPRISES
- FORTY-FOUR MY LORD AND LADY
- FORTY-FIVE DAISY AND DEMI
- FORTY-SIX UNDER THE UMBRELLA
- FORTY-SEVEN HARVEST TIME
- CHAPTER ONE
- PLAYING PILGRIMS
- "Christmas won't be Christmas without any presents," grumbled Jo, lying
- on the rug.
- "It's so dreadful to be poor!" sighed Meg, looking down at her old
- dress.
- "I don't think it's fair for some girls to have plenty of pretty
- things, and other girls nothing at all," added little Amy, with an
- injured sniff.
- "We've got Father and Mother, and each other," said Beth contentedly
- from her corner.
- The four young faces on which the firelight shone brightened at the
- cheerful words, but darkened again as Jo said sadly, "We haven't got
- Father, and shall not have him for a long time." She didn't say
- "perhaps never," but each silently added it, thinking of Father far
- away, where the fighting was.
- Nobody spoke for a minute; then Meg said in an altered tone, "You know
- the reason Mother proposed not having any presents this Christmas was
- because it is going to be a hard winter for everyone; and she thinks we
- ought not to spend money for pleasure, when our men are suffering so in
- the army. We can't do much, but we can make our little sacrifices, and
- ought to do it gladly. But I am afraid I don't," and Meg shook her
- head, as she thought regretfully of all the pretty things she wanted.
- "But I don't think the little we should spend would do any good. We've
- each got a dollar, and the army wouldn't be much helped by our giving
- that. I agree not to expect anything from Mother or you, but I do want
- to buy _Undine and Sintran_ for myself. I've wanted it so long," said
- Jo, who was a bookworm.
- "I planned to spend mine in new music," said Beth, with a little sigh,
- which no one heard but the hearth brush and kettle-holder.
- "I shall get a nice box of Faber's drawing pencils; I really need
- them," said Amy decidedly.
- "Mother didn't say anything about our money, and she won't wish us to
- give up everything. Let's each buy what we want, and have a little
- fun; I'm sure we work hard enough to earn it," cried Jo, examining the
- heels of her shoes in a gentlemanly manner.
- "I know I do--teaching those tiresome children nearly all day, when I'm
- longing to enjoy myself at home," began Meg, in the complaining tone
- again.
- "You don't have half such a hard time as I do," said Jo. "How would you
- like to be shut up for hours with a nervous, fussy old lady, who keeps
- you trotting, is never satisfied, and worries you till you're ready to
- fly out the window or cry?"
- "It's naughty to fret, but I do think washing dishes and keeping things
- tidy is the worst work in the world. It makes me cross, and my hands
- get so stiff, I can't practice well at all." And Beth looked at her
- rough hands with a sigh that any one could hear that time.
- "I don't believe any of you suffer as I do," cried Amy, "for you don't
- have to go to school with impertinent girls, who plague you if you
- don't know your lessons, and laugh at your dresses, and label your
- father if he isn't rich, and insult you when your nose isn't nice."
- "If you mean libel, I'd say so, and not talk about labels, as if Papa
- was a pickle bottle," advised Jo, laughing.
- "I know what I mean, and you needn't be statirical about it. It's
- proper to use good words, and improve your vocabilary," returned Amy,
- with dignity.
- "Don't peck at one another, children. Don't you wish we had the money
- Papa lost when we were little, Jo? Dear me! How happy and good we'd
- be, if we had no worries!" said Meg, who could remember better times.
- "You said the other day you thought we were a deal happier than the
- King children, for they were fighting and fretting all the time, in
- spite of their money."
- "So I did, Beth. Well, I think we are. For though we do have to work,
- we make fun of ourselves, and are a pretty jolly set, as Jo would say."
- "Jo does use such slang words!" observed Amy, with a reproving look at
- the long figure stretched on the rug.
- Jo immediately sat up, put her hands in her pockets, and began to
- whistle.
- "Don't, Jo. It's so boyish!"
- "That's why I do it."
- "I detest rude, unladylike girls!"
- "I hate affected, niminy-piminy chits!"
- "Birds in their little nests agree," sang Beth, the peacemaker, with
- such a funny face that both sharp voices softened to a laugh, and the
- "pecking" ended for that time.
- "Really, girls, you are both to be blamed," said Meg, beginning to
- lecture in her elder-sisterly fashion. "You are old enough to leave off
- boyish tricks, and to behave better, Josephine. It didn't matter so
- much when you were a little girl, but now you are so tall, and turn up
- your hair, you should remember that you are a young lady."
- "I'm not! And if turning up my hair makes me one, I'll wear it in two
- tails till I'm twenty," cried Jo, pulling off her net, and shaking down
- a chestnut mane. "I hate to think I've got to grow up, and be Miss
- March, and wear long gowns, and look as prim as a China Aster! It's
- bad enough to be a girl, anyway, when I like boy's games and work and
- manners! I can't get over my disappointment in not being a boy. And
- it's worse than ever now, for I'm dying to go and fight with Papa. And
- I can only stay home and knit, like a poky old woman!"
- And Jo shook the blue army sock till the needles rattled like
- castanets, and her ball bounded across the room.
- "Poor Jo! It's too bad, but it can't be helped. So you must try to be
- contented with making your name boyish, and playing brother to us
- girls," said Beth, stroking the rough head with a hand that all the
- dish washing and dusting in the world could not make ungentle in its
- touch.
- "As for you, Amy," continued Meg, "you are altogether too particular
- and prim. Your airs are funny now, but you'll grow up an affected
- little goose, if you don't take care. I like your nice manners and
- refined ways of speaking, when you don't try to be elegant. But your
- absurd words are as bad as Jo's slang."
- "If Jo is a tomboy and Amy a goose, what am I, please?" asked Beth,
- ready to share the lecture.
- "You're a dear, and nothing else," answered Meg warmly, and no one
- contradicted her, for the 'Mouse' was the pet of the family.
- As young readers like to know 'how people look', we will take this
- moment to give them a little sketch of the four sisters, who sat
- knitting away in the twilight, while the December snow fell quietly
- without, and the fire crackled cheerfully within. It was a comfortable
- room, though the carpet was faded and the furniture very plain, for a
- good picture or two hung on the walls, books filled the recesses,
- chrysanthemums and Christmas roses bloomed in the windows, and a
- pleasant atmosphere of home peace pervaded it.
- Margaret, the eldest of the four, was sixteen, and very pretty, being
- plump and fair, with large eyes, plenty of soft brown hair, a sweet
- mouth, and white hands, of which she was rather vain. Fifteen-year-old
- Jo was very tall, thin, and brown, and reminded one of a colt, for she
- never seemed to know what to do with her long limbs, which were very
- much in her way. She had a decided mouth, a comical nose, and sharp,
- gray eyes, which appeared to see everything, and were by turns fierce,
- funny, or thoughtful. Her long, thick hair was her one beauty, but it
- was usually bundled into a net, to be out of her way. Round shoulders
- had Jo, big hands and feet, a flyaway look to her clothes, and the
- uncomfortable appearance of a girl who was rapidly shooting up into a
- woman and didn't like it. Elizabeth, or Beth, as everyone called her,
- was a rosy, smooth-haired, bright-eyed girl of thirteen, with a shy
- manner, a timid voice, and a peaceful expression which was seldom
- disturbed. Her father called her 'Little Miss Tranquility', and the
- name suited her excellently, for she seemed to live in a happy world of
- her own, only venturing out to meet the few whom she trusted and loved.
- Amy, though the youngest, was a most important person, in her own
- opinion at least. A regular snow maiden, with blue eyes, and yellow
- hair curling on her shoulders, pale and slender, and always carrying
- herself like a young lady mindful of her manners. What the characters
- of the four sisters were we will leave to be found out.
- The clock struck six and, having swept up the hearth, Beth put a pair
- of slippers down to warm. Somehow the sight of the old shoes had a
- good effect upon the girls, for Mother was coming, and everyone
- brightened to welcome her. Meg stopped lecturing, and lighted the
- lamp, Amy got out of the easy chair without being asked, and Jo forgot
- how tired she was as she sat up to hold the slippers nearer to the
- blaze.
- "They are quite worn out. Marmee must have a new pair."
- "I thought I'd get her some with my dollar," said Beth.
- "No, I shall!" cried Amy.
- "I'm the oldest," began Meg, but Jo cut in with a decided, "I'm the man
- of the family now Papa is away, and I shall provide the slippers, for
- he told me to take special care of Mother while he was gone."
- "I'll tell you what we'll do," said Beth, "let's each get her something
- for Christmas, and not get anything for ourselves."
- "That's like you, dear! What will we get?" exclaimed Jo.
- Everyone thought soberly for a minute, then Meg announced, as if the
- idea was suggested by the sight of her own pretty hands, "I shall give
- her a nice pair of gloves."
- "Army shoes, best to be had," cried Jo.
- "Some handkerchiefs, all hemmed," said Beth.
- "I'll get a little bottle of cologne. She likes it, and it won't cost
- much, so I'll have some left to buy my pencils," added Amy.
- "How will we give the things?" asked Meg.
- "Put them on the table, and bring her in and see her open the bundles.
- Don't you remember how we used to do on our birthdays?" answered Jo.
- "I used to be so frightened when it was my turn to sit in the chair
- with the crown on, and see you all come marching round to give the
- presents, with a kiss. I liked the things and the kisses, but it was
- dreadful to have you sit looking at me while I opened the bundles,"
- said Beth, who was toasting her face and the bread for tea at the same
- time.
- "Let Marmee think we are getting things for ourselves, and then
- surprise her. We must go shopping tomorrow afternoon, Meg. There is so
- much to do about the play for Christmas night," said Jo, marching up
- and down, with her hands behind her back, and her nose in the air.
- "I don't mean to act any more after this time. I'm getting too old for
- such things," observed Meg, who was as much a child as ever about
- 'dressing-up' frolics.
- "You won't stop, I know, as long as you can trail round in a white gown
- with your hair down, and wear gold-paper jewelry. You are the best
- actress we've got, and there'll be an end of everything if you quit the
- boards," said Jo. "We ought to rehearse tonight. Come here, Amy, and
- do the fainting scene, for you are as stiff as a poker in that."
- "I can't help it. I never saw anyone faint, and I don't choose to make
- myself all black and blue, tumbling flat as you do. If I can go down
- easily, I'll drop. If I can't, I shall fall into a chair and be
- graceful. I don't care if Hugo does come at me with a pistol,"
- returned Amy, who was not gifted with dramatic power, but was chosen
- because she was small enough to be borne out shrieking by the villain
- of the piece.
- "Do it this way. Clasp your hands so, and stagger across the room,
- crying frantically, 'Roderigo! Save me! Save me!'" and away went Jo,
- with a melodramatic scream which was truly thrilling.
- Amy followed, but she poked her hands out stiffly before her, and
- jerked herself along as if she went by machinery, and her "Ow!" was
- more suggestive of pins being run into her than of fear and anguish.
- Jo gave a despairing groan, and Meg laughed outright, while Beth let
- her bread burn as she watched the fun with interest. "It's no use! Do
- the best you can when the time comes, and if the audience laughs, don't
- blame me. Come on, Meg."
- Then things went smoothly, for Don Pedro defied the world in a speech
- of two pages without a single break. Hagar, the witch, chanted an
- awful incantation over her kettleful of simmering toads, with weird
- effect. Roderigo rent his chains asunder manfully, and Hugo died in
- agonies of remorse and arsenic, with a wild, "Ha! Ha!"
- "It's the best we've had yet," said Meg, as the dead villain sat up and
- rubbed his elbows.
- "I don't see how you can write and act such splendid things, Jo.
- You're a regular Shakespeare!" exclaimed Beth, who firmly believed that
- her sisters were gifted with wonderful genius in all things.
- "Not quite," replied Jo modestly. "I do think _The Witches Curse, an
- Operatic Tragedy_ is rather a nice thing, but I'd like to try
- _Macbeth_, if we only had a trapdoor for Banquo. I always wanted to do
- the killing part. 'Is that a dagger that I see before me?" muttered
- Jo, rolling her eyes and clutching at the air, as she had seen a famous
- tragedian do.
- "No, it's the toasting fork, with Mother's shoe on it instead of the
- bread. Beth's stage-struck!" cried Meg, and the rehearsal ended in a
- general burst of laughter.
- "Glad to find you so merry, my girls," said a cheery voice at the door,
- and actors and audience turned to welcome a tall, motherly lady with a
- 'can I help you' look about her which was truly delightful. She was not
- elegantly dressed, but a noble-looking woman, and the girls thought the
- gray cloak and unfashionable bonnet covered the most splendid mother in
- the world.
- "Well, dearies, how have you got on today? There was so much to do,
- getting the boxes ready to go tomorrow, that I didn't come home to
- dinner. Has anyone called, Beth? How is your cold, Meg? Jo, you look
- tired to death. Come and kiss me, baby."
- While making these maternal inquiries Mrs. March got her wet things
- off, her warm slippers on, and sitting down in the easy chair, drew Amy
- to her lap, preparing to enjoy the happiest hour of her busy day. The
- girls flew about, trying to make things comfortable, each in her own
- way. Meg arranged the tea table, Jo brought wood and set chairs,
- dropping, over-turning, and clattering everything she touched. Beth
- trotted to and fro between parlor kitchen, quiet and busy, while Amy
- gave directions to everyone, as she sat with her hands folded.
- As they gathered about the table, Mrs. March said, with a particularly
- happy face, "I've got a treat for you after supper."
- A quick, bright smile went round like a streak of sunshine. Beth
- clapped her hands, regardless of the biscuit she held, and Jo tossed up
- her napkin, crying, "A letter! A letter! Three cheers for Father!"
- "Yes, a nice long letter. He is well, and thinks he shall get through
- the cold season better than we feared. He sends all sorts of loving
- wishes for Christmas, and an especial message to you girls," said Mrs.
- March, patting her pocket as if she had got a treasure there.
- "Hurry and get done! Don't stop to quirk your little finger and simper
- over your plate, Amy," cried Jo, choking on her tea and dropping her
- bread, butter side down, on the carpet in her haste to get at the treat.
- Beth ate no more, but crept away to sit in her shadowy corner and brood
- over the delight to come, till the others were ready.
- "I think it was so splendid in Father to go as chaplain when he was too
- old to be drafted, and not strong enough for a soldier," said Meg
- warmly.
- "Don't I wish I could go as a drummer, a vivan--what's its name? Or a
- nurse, so I could be near him and help him," exclaimed Jo, with a groan.
- "It must be very disagreeable to sleep in a tent, and eat all sorts of
- bad-tasting things, and drink out of a tin mug," sighed Amy.
- "When will he come home, Marmee?" asked Beth, with a little quiver in
- her voice.
- "Not for many months, dear, unless he is sick. He will stay and do his
- work faithfully as long as he can, and we won't ask for him back a
- minute sooner than he can be spared. Now come and hear the letter."
- They all drew to the fire, Mother in the big chair with Beth at her
- feet, Meg and Amy perched on either arm of the chair, and Jo leaning on
- the back, where no one would see any sign of emotion if the letter
- should happen to be touching. Very few letters were written in those
- hard times that were not touching, especially those which fathers sent
- home. In this one little was said of the hardships endured, the
- dangers faced, or the homesickness conquered. It was a cheerful,
- hopeful letter, full of lively descriptions of camp life, marches, and
- military news, and only at the end did the writer's heart over-flow
- with fatherly love and longing for the little girls at home.
- "Give them all of my dear love and a kiss. Tell them I think of them
- by day, pray for them by night, and find my best comfort in their
- affection at all times. A year seems very long to wait before I see
- them, but remind them that while we wait we may all work, so that these
- hard days need not be wasted. I know they will remember all I said to
- them, that they will be loving children to you, will do their duty
- faithfully, fight their bosom enemies bravely, and conquer themselves
- so beautifully that when I come back to them I may be fonder and
- prouder than ever of my little women." Everybody sniffed when they came
- to that part. Jo wasn't ashamed of the great tear that dropped off the
- end of her nose, and Amy never minded the rumpling of her curls as she
- hid her face on her mother's shoulder and sobbed out, "I am a selfish
- girl! But I'll truly try to be better, so he mayn't be disappointed in
- me by-and-by."
- "We all will," cried Meg. "I think too much of my looks and hate to
- work, but won't any more, if I can help it."
- "I'll try and be what he loves to call me, 'a little woman' and not be
- rough and wild, but do my duty here instead of wanting to be somewhere
- else," said Jo, thinking that keeping her temper at home was a much
- harder task than facing a rebel or two down South.
- Beth said nothing, but wiped away her tears with the blue army sock and
- began to knit with all her might, losing no time in doing the duty that
- lay nearest her, while she resolved in her quiet little soul to be all
- that Father hoped to find her when the year brought round the happy
- coming home.
- Mrs. March broke the silence that followed Jo's words, by saying in her
- cheery voice, "Do you remember how you used to play Pilgrims Progress
- when you were little things? Nothing delighted you more than to have
- me tie my piece bags on your backs for burdens, give you hats and
- sticks and rolls of paper, and let you travel through the house from
- the cellar, which was the City of Destruction, up, up, to the housetop,
- where you had all the lovely things you could collect to make a
- Celestial City."
- "What fun it was, especially going by the lions, fighting Apollyon, and
- passing through the valley where the hob-goblins were," said Jo.
- "I liked the place where the bundles fell off and tumbled downstairs,"
- said Meg.
- "I don't remember much about it, except that I was afraid of the cellar
- and the dark entry, and always liked the cake and milk we had up at the
- top. If I wasn't too old for such things, I'd rather like to play it
- over again," said Amy, who began to talk of renouncing childish things
- at the mature age of twelve.
- "We never are too old for this, my dear, because it is a play we are
- playing all the time in one way or another. Our burdens are here, our
- road is before us, and the longing for goodness and happiness is the
- guide that leads us through many troubles and mistakes to the peace
- which is a true Celestial City. Now, my little pilgrims, suppose you
- begin again, not in play, but in earnest, and see how far on you can
- get before Father comes home."
- "Really, Mother? Where are our bundles?" asked Amy, who was a very
- literal young lady.
- "Each of you told what your burden was just now, except Beth. I rather
- think she hasn't got any," said her mother.
- "Yes, I have. Mine is dishes and dusters, and envying girls with nice
- pianos, and being afraid of people."
- Beth's bundle was such a funny one that everybody wanted to laugh, but
- nobody did, for it would have hurt her feelings very much.
- "Let us do it," said Meg thoughtfully. "It is only another name for
- trying to be good, and the story may help us, for though we do want to
- be good, it's hard work and we forget, and don't do our best."
- "We were in the Slough of Despond tonight, and Mother came and pulled
- us out as Help did in the book. We ought to have our roll of
- directions, like Christian. What shall we do about that?" asked Jo,
- delighted with the fancy which lent a little romance to the very dull
- task of doing her duty.
- "Look under your pillows Christmas morning, and you will find your
- guidebook," replied Mrs. March.
- They talked over the new plan while old Hannah cleared the table, then
- out came the four little work baskets, and the needles flew as the
- girls made sheets for Aunt March. It was uninteresting sewing, but
- tonight no one grumbled. They adopted Jo's plan of dividing the long
- seams into four parts, and calling the quarters Europe, Asia, Africa,
- and America, and in that way got on capitally, especially when they
- talked about the different countries as they stitched their way through
- them.
- At nine they stopped work, and sang, as usual, before they went to bed.
- No one but Beth could get much music out of the old piano, but she had
- a way of softly touching the yellow keys and making a pleasant
- accompaniment to the simple songs they sang. Meg had a voice like a
- flute, and she and her mother led the little choir. Amy chirped like a
- cricket, and Jo wandered through the airs at her own sweet will, always
- coming out at the wrong place with a croak or a quaver that spoiled the
- most pensive tune. They had always done this from the time they could
- lisp...
- Crinkle, crinkle, 'ittle 'tar,
- and it had become a household custom, for the mother was a born singer.
- The first sound in the morning was her voice as she went about the
- house singing like a lark, and the last sound at night was the same
- cheery sound, for the girls never grew too old for that familiar
- lullaby.
- CHAPTER TWO
- A MERRY CHRISTMAS
- Jo was the first to wake in the gray dawn of Christmas morning. No
- stockings hung at the fireplace, and for a moment she felt as much
- disappointed as she did long ago, when her little sock fell down
- because it was crammed so full of goodies. Then she remembered her
- mother's promise and, slipping her hand under her pillow, drew out a
- little crimson-covered book. She knew it very well, for it was that
- beautiful old story of the best life ever lived, and Jo felt that it
- was a true guidebook for any pilgrim going on a long journey. She woke
- Meg with a "Merry Christmas," and bade her see what was under her
- pillow. A green-covered book appeared, with the same picture inside,
- and a few words written by their mother, which made their one present
- very precious in their eyes. Presently Beth and Amy woke to rummage
- and find their little books also, one dove-colored, the other blue, and
- all sat looking at and talking about them, while the east grew rosy
- with the coming day.
- In spite of her small vanities, Margaret had a sweet and pious nature,
- which unconsciously influenced her sisters, especially Jo, who loved
- her very tenderly, and obeyed her because her advice was so gently
- given.
- "Girls," said Meg seriously, looking from the tumbled head beside her
- to the two little night-capped ones in the room beyond, "Mother wants
- us to read and love and mind these books, and we must begin at once.
- We used to be faithful about it, but since Father went away and all
- this war trouble unsettled us, we have neglected many things. You can
- do as you please, but I shall keep my book on the table here and read a
- little every morning as soon as I wake, for I know it will do me good
- and help me through the day."
- Then she opened her new book and began to read. Jo put her arm round
- her and, leaning cheek to cheek, read also, with the quiet expression
- so seldom seen on her restless face.
- "How good Meg is! Come, Amy, let's do as they do. I'll help you with
- the hard words, and they'll explain things if we don't understand,"
- whispered Beth, very much impressed by the pretty books and her
- sisters' example.
- "I'm glad mine is blue," said Amy. and then the rooms were very still
- while the pages were softly turned, and the winter sunshine crept in to
- touch the bright heads and serious faces with a Christmas greeting.
- "Where is Mother?" asked Meg, as she and Jo ran down to thank her for
- their gifts, half an hour later.
- "Goodness only knows. Some poor creeter came a-beggin', and your ma
- went straight off to see what was needed. There never was such a woman
- for givin' away vittles and drink, clothes and firin'," replied Hannah,
- who had lived with the family since Meg was born, and was considered by
- them all more as a friend than a servant.
- "She will be back soon, I think, so fry your cakes, and have everything
- ready," said Meg, looking over the presents which were collected in a
- basket and kept under the sofa, ready to be produced at the proper
- time. "Why, where is Amy's bottle of cologne?" she added, as the
- little flask did not appear.
- "She took it out a minute ago, and went off with it to put a ribbon on
- it, or some such notion," replied Jo, dancing about the room to take
- the first stiffness off the new army slippers.
- "How nice my handkerchiefs look, don't they? Hannah washed and ironed
- them for me, and I marked them all myself," said Beth, looking proudly
- at the somewhat uneven letters which had cost her such labor.
- "Bless the child! She's gone and put 'Mother' on them instead of 'M.
- March'. How funny!" cried Jo, taking one up.
- "Isn't that right? I thought it was better to do it so, because Meg's
- initials are M.M., and I don't want anyone to use these but Marmee,"
- said Beth, looking troubled.
- "It's all right, dear, and a very pretty idea, quite sensible too, for
- no one can ever mistake now. It will please her very much, I know,"
- said Meg, with a frown for Jo and a smile for Beth.
- "There's Mother. Hide the basket, quick!" cried Jo, as a door slammed
- and steps sounded in the hall.
- Amy came in hastily, and looked rather abashed when she saw her sisters
- all waiting for her.
- "Where have you been, and what are you hiding behind you?" asked Meg,
- surprised to see, by her hood and cloak, that lazy Amy had been out so
- early.
- "Don't laugh at me, Jo! I didn't mean anyone should know till the time
- came. I only meant to change the little bottle for a big one, and I
- gave all my money to get it, and I'm truly trying not to be selfish any
- more."
- As she spoke, Amy showed the handsome flask which replaced the cheap
- one, and looked so earnest and humble in her little effort to forget
- herself that Meg hugged her on the spot, and Jo pronounced her 'a
- trump', while Beth ran to the window, and picked her finest rose to
- ornament the stately bottle.
- "You see I felt ashamed of my present, after reading and talking about
- being good this morning, so I ran round the corner and changed it the
- minute I was up, and I'm so glad, for mine is the handsomest now."
- Another bang of the street door sent the basket under the sofa, and the
- girls to the table, eager for breakfast.
- "Merry Christmas, Marmee! Many of them! Thank you for our books. We
- read some, and mean to every day," they all cried in chorus.
- "Merry Christmas, little daughters! I'm glad you began at once, and
- hope you will keep on. But I want to say one word before we sit down.
- Not far away from here lies a poor woman with a little newborn baby.
- Six children are huddled into one bed to keep from freezing, for they
- have no fire. There is nothing to eat over there, and the oldest boy
- came to tell me they were suffering hunger and cold. My girls, will
- you give them your breakfast as a Christmas present?"
- They were all unusually hungry, having waited nearly an hour, and for a
- minute no one spoke, only a minute, for Jo exclaimed impetuously, "I'm
- so glad you came before we began!"
- "May I go and help carry the things to the poor little children?" asked
- Beth eagerly.
- "I shall take the cream and the muffings," added Amy, heroically giving
- up the article she most liked.
- Meg was already covering the buckwheats, and piling the bread into one
- big plate.
- "I thought you'd do it," said Mrs. March, smiling as if satisfied. "You
- shall all go and help me, and when we come back we will have bread and
- milk for breakfast, and make it up at dinnertime."
- They were soon ready, and the procession set out. Fortunately it was
- early, and they went through back streets, so few people saw them, and
- no one laughed at the queer party.
- A poor, bare, miserable room it was, with broken windows, no fire,
- ragged bedclothes, a sick mother, wailing baby, and a group of pale,
- hungry children cuddled under one old quilt, trying to keep warm.
- How the big eyes stared and the blue lips smiled as the girls went in.
- "Ach, mein Gott! It is good angels come to us!" said the poor woman,
- crying for joy.
- "Funny angels in hoods and mittens," said Jo, and set them to laughing.
- In a few minutes it really did seem as if kind spirits had been at work
- there. Hannah, who had carried wood, made a fire, and stopped up the
- broken panes with old hats and her own cloak. Mrs. March gave the
- mother tea and gruel, and comforted her with promises of help, while
- she dressed the little baby as tenderly as if it had been her own. The
- girls meantime spread the table, set the children round the fire, and
- fed them like so many hungry birds, laughing, talking, and trying to
- understand the funny broken English.
- "Das ist gut!" "Die Engel-kinder!" cried the poor things as they ate
- and warmed their purple hands at the comfortable blaze. The girls had
- never been called angel children before, and thought it very agreeable,
- especially Jo, who had been considered a 'Sancho' ever since she was
- born. That was a very happy breakfast, though they didn't get any of
- it. And when they went away, leaving comfort behind, I think there
- were not in all the city four merrier people than the hungry little
- girls who gave away their breakfasts and contented themselves with
- bread and milk on Christmas morning.
- "That's loving our neighbor better than ourselves, and I like it," said
- Meg, as they set out their presents while their mother was upstairs
- collecting clothes for the poor Hummels.
- Not a very splendid show, but there was a great deal of love done up in
- the few little bundles, and the tall vase of red roses, white
- chrysanthemums, and trailing vines, which stood in the middle, gave
- quite an elegant air to the table.
- "She's coming! Strike up, Beth! Open the door, Amy! Three cheers for
- Marmee!" cried Jo, prancing about while Meg went to conduct Mother to
- the seat of honor.
- Beth played her gayest march, Amy threw open the door, and Meg enacted
- escort with great dignity. Mrs. March was both surprised and touched,
- and smiled with her eyes full as she examined her presents and read the
- little notes which accompanied them. The slippers went on at once, a
- new handkerchief was slipped into her pocket, well scented with Amy's
- cologne, the rose was fastened in her bosom, and the nice gloves were
- pronounced a perfect fit.
- There was a good deal of laughing and kissing and explaining, in the
- simple, loving fashion which makes these home festivals so pleasant at
- the time, so sweet to remember long afterward, and then all fell to
- work.
- The morning charities and ceremonies took so much time that the rest of
- the day was devoted to preparations for the evening festivities. Being
- still too young to go often to the theater, and not rich enough to
- afford any great outlay for private performances, the girls put their
- wits to work, and necessity being the mother of invention, made
- whatever they needed. Very clever were some of their productions,
- pasteboard guitars, antique lamps made of old-fashioned butter boats
- covered with silver paper, gorgeous robes of old cotton, glittering
- with tin spangles from a pickle factory, and armor covered with the
- same useful diamond shaped bits left in sheets when the lids of
- preserve pots were cut out. The big chamber was the scene of many
- innocent revels.
- No gentleman were admitted, so Jo played male parts to her heart's
- content and took immense satisfaction in a pair of russet leather boots
- given her by a friend, who knew a lady who knew an actor. These boots,
- an old foil, and a slashed doublet once used by an artist for some
- picture, were Jo's chief treasures and appeared on all occasions. The
- smallness of the company made it necessary for the two principal actors
- to take several parts apiece, and they certainly deserved some credit
- for the hard work they did in learning three or four different parts,
- whisking in and out of various costumes, and managing the stage
- besides. It was excellent drill for their memories, a harmless
- amusement, and employed many hours which otherwise would have been
- idle, lonely, or spent in less profitable society.
- On Christmas night, a dozen girls piled onto the bed which was the
- dress circle, and sat before the blue and yellow chintz curtains in a
- most flattering state of expectancy. There was a good deal of rustling
- and whispering behind the curtain, a trifle of lamp smoke, and an
- occasional giggle from Amy, who was apt to get hysterical in the
- excitement of the moment. Presently a bell sounded, the curtains flew
- apart, and the _operatic tragedy_ began.
- "A gloomy wood," according to the one playbill, was represented by a
- few shrubs in pots, green baize on the floor, and a cave in the
- distance. This cave was made with a clothes horse for a roof, bureaus
- for walls, and in it was a small furnace in full blast, with a black
- pot on it and an old witch bending over it. The stage was dark and the
- glow of the furnace had a fine effect, especially as real steam issued
- from the kettle when the witch took off the cover. A moment was
- allowed for the first thrill to subside, then Hugo, the villain,
- stalked in with a clanking sword at his side, a slouching hat, black
- beard, mysterious cloak, and the boots. After pacing to and fro in
- much agitation, he struck his forehead, and burst out in a wild strain,
- singing of his hatred for Roderigo, his love for Zara, and his pleasing
- resolution to kill the one and win the other. The gruff tones of Hugo's
- voice, with an occasional shout when his feelings overcame him, were
- very impressive, and the audience applauded the moment he paused for
- breath. Bowing with the air of one accustomed to public praise, he
- stole to the cavern and ordered Hagar to come forth with a commanding,
- "What ho, minion! I need thee!"
- Out came Meg, with gray horsehair hanging about her face, a red and
- black robe, a staff, and cabalistic signs upon her cloak. Hugo
- demanded a potion to make Zara adore him, and one to destroy Roderigo.
- Hagar, in a fine dramatic melody, promised both, and proceeded to call
- up the spirit who would bring the love philter.
- Hither, hither, from thy home,
- Airy sprite, I bid thee come!
- Born of roses, fed on dew,
- Charms and potions canst thou brew?
- Bring me here, with elfin speed,
- The fragrant philter which I need.
- Make it sweet and swift and strong,
- Spirit, answer now my song!
- A soft strain of music sounded, and then at the back of the cave
- appeared a little figure in cloudy white, with glittering wings, golden
- hair, and a garland of roses on its head. Waving a wand, it sang...
- Hither I come,
- From my airy home,
- Afar in the silver moon.
- Take the magic spell,
- And use it well,
- Or its power will vanish soon!
- And dropping a small, gilded bottle at the witch's feet, the spirit
- vanished. Another chant from Hagar produced another apparition, not a
- lovely one, for with a bang an ugly black imp appeared and, having
- croaked a reply, tossed a dark bottle at Hugo and disappeared with a
- mocking laugh. Having warbled his thanks and put the potions in his
- boots, Hugo departed, and Hagar informed the audience that as he had
- killed a few of her friends in times past, she had cursed him, and
- intends to thwart his plans, and be revenged on him. Then the curtain
- fell, and the audience reposed and ate candy while discussing the
- merits of the play.
- A good deal of hammering went on before the curtain rose again, but
- when it became evident what a masterpiece of stage carpentery had been
- got up, no one murmured at the delay. It was truly superb. A tower
- rose to the ceiling, halfway up appeared a window with a lamp burning
- in it, and behind the white curtain appeared Zara in a lovely blue and
- silver dress, waiting for Roderigo. He came in gorgeous array, with
- plumed cap, red cloak, chestnut lovelocks, a guitar, and the boots, of
- course. Kneeling at the foot of the tower, he sang a serenade in
- melting tones. Zara replied and, after a musical dialogue, consented
- to fly. Then came the grand effect of the play. Roderigo produced a
- rope ladder, with five steps to it, threw up one end, and invited Zara
- to descend. Timidly she crept from her lattice, put her hand on
- Roderigo's shoulder, and was about to leap gracefully down when "Alas!
- Alas for Zara!" she forgot her train. It caught in the window, the
- tower tottered, leaned forward, fell with a crash, and buried the
- unhappy lovers in the ruins.
- A universal shriek arose as the russet boots waved wildly from the
- wreck and a golden head emerged, exclaiming, "I told you so! I told
- you so!" With wonderful presence of mind, Don Pedro, the cruel sire,
- rushed in, dragged out his daughter, with a hasty aside...
- "Don't laugh! Act as if it was all right!" and, ordering Roderigo up,
- banished him from the kingdom with wrath and scorn. Though decidedly
- shaken by the fall from the tower upon him, Roderigo defied the old
- gentleman and refused to stir. This dauntless example fired Zara. She
- also defied her sire, and he ordered them both to the deepest dungeons
- of the castle. A stout little retainer came in with chains and led
- them away, looking very much frightened and evidently forgetting the
- speech he ought to have made.
- Act third was the castle hall, and here Hagar appeared, having come to
- free the lovers and finish Hugo. She hears him coming and hides, sees
- him put the potions into two cups of wine and bid the timid little
- servant, "Bear them to the captives in their cells, and tell them I
- shall come anon." The servant takes Hugo aside to tell him something,
- and Hagar changes the cups for two others which are harmless.
- Ferdinando, the 'minion', carries them away, and Hagar puts back the
- cup which holds the poison meant for Roderigo. Hugo, getting thirsty
- after a long warble, drinks it, loses his wits, and after a good deal
- of clutching and stamping, falls flat and dies, while Hagar informs him
- what she has done in a song of exquisite power and melody.
- This was a truly thrilling scene, though some persons might have
- thought that the sudden tumbling down of a quantity of long red hair
- rather marred the effect of the villain's death. He was called before
- the curtain, and with great propriety appeared, leading Hagar, whose
- singing was considered more wonderful than all the rest of the
- performance put together.
- Act fourth displayed the despairing Roderigo on the point of stabbing
- himself because he has been told that Zara has deserted him. Just as
- the dagger is at his heart, a lovely song is sung under his window,
- informing him that Zara is true but in danger, and he can save her if
- he will. A key is thrown in, which unlocks the door, and in a spasm of
- rapture he tears off his chains and rushes away to find and rescue his
- lady love.
- Act fifth opened with a stormy scene between Zara and Don Pedro. He
- wishes her to go into a convent, but she won't hear of it, and after a
- touching appeal, is about to faint when Roderigo dashes in and demands
- her hand. Don Pedro refuses, because he is not rich. They shout and
- gesticulate tremendously but cannot agree, and Rodrigo is about to bear
- away the exhausted Zara, when the timid servant enters with a letter
- and a bag from Hagar, who has mysteriously disappeared. The latter
- informs the party that she bequeaths untold wealth to the young pair
- and an awful doom to Don Pedro, if he doesn't make them happy. The bag
- is opened, and several quarts of tin money shower down upon the stage
- till it is quite glorified with the glitter. This entirely softens the
- stern sire. He consents without a murmur, all join in a joyful chorus,
- and the curtain falls upon the lovers kneeling to receive Don Pedro's
- blessing in attitudes of the most romantic grace.
- Tumultuous applause followed but received an unexpected check, for the
- cot bed, on which the dress circle was built, suddenly shut up and
- extinguished the enthusiastic audience. Roderigo and Don Pedro flew to
- the rescue, and all were taken out unhurt, though many were speechless
- with laughter. The excitement had hardly subsided when Hannah
- appeared, with "Mrs. March's compliments, and would the ladies walk
- down to supper."
- This was a surprise even to the actors, and when they saw the table,
- they looked at one another in rapturous amazement. It was like Marmee
- to get up a little treat for them, but anything so fine as this was
- unheard of since the departed days of plenty. There was ice cream,
- actually two dishes of it, pink and white, and cake and fruit and
- distracting French bonbons and, in the middle of the table, four great
- bouquets of hot house flowers.
- It quite took their breath away, and they stared first at the table and
- then at their mother, who looked as if she enjoyed it immensely.
- "Is it fairies?" asked Amy.
- "Santa Claus," said Beth.
- "Mother did it." And Meg smiled her sweetest, in spite of her gray
- beard and white eyebrows.
- "Aunt March had a good fit and sent the supper," cried Jo, with a
- sudden inspiration.
- "All wrong. Old Mr. Laurence sent it," replied Mrs. March.
- "The Laurence boy's grandfather! What in the world put such a thing
- into his head? We don't know him!" exclaimed Meg.
- "Hannah told one of his servants about your breakfast party. He is an
- odd old gentleman, but that pleased him. He knew my father years ago,
- and he sent me a polite note this afternoon, saying he hoped I would
- allow him to express his friendly feeling toward my children by sending
- them a few trifles in honor of the day. I could not refuse, and so you
- have a little feast at night to make up for the bread-and-milk
- breakfast."
- "That boy put it into his head, I know he did! He's a capital fellow,
- and I wish we could get acquainted. He looks as if he'd like to know
- us but he's bashful, and Meg is so prim she won't let me speak to him
- when we pass," said Jo, as the plates went round, and the ice began to
- melt out of sight, with ohs and ahs of satisfaction.
- "You mean the people who live in the big house next door, don't you?"
- asked one of the girls. "My mother knows old Mr. Laurence, but says
- he's very proud and doesn't like to mix with his neighbors. He keeps
- his grandson shut up, when he isn't riding or walking with his tutor,
- and makes him study very hard. We invited him to our party, but he
- didn't come. Mother says he's very nice, though he never speaks to us
- girls."
- "Our cat ran away once, and he brought her back, and we talked over the
- fence, and were getting on capitally, all about cricket, and so on,
- when he saw Meg coming, and walked off. I mean to know him some day,
- for he needs fun, I'm sure he does," said Jo decidedly.
- "I like his manners, and he looks like a little gentleman, so I've no
- objection to your knowing him, if a proper opportunity comes. He
- brought the flowers himself, and I should have asked him in, if I had
- been sure what was going on upstairs. He looked so wistful as he went
- away, hearing the frolic and evidently having none of his own."
- "It's a mercy you didn't, Mother!" laughed Jo, looking at her boots.
- "But we'll have another play sometime that he can see. Perhaps he'll
- help act. Wouldn't that be jolly?"
- "I never had such a fine bouquet before! How pretty it is!" And Meg
- examined her flowers with great interest.
- "They are lovely. But Beth's roses are sweeter to me," said Mrs.
- March, smelling the half-dead posy in her belt.
- Beth nestled up to her, and whispered softly, "I wish I could send my
- bunch to Father. I'm afraid he isn't having such a merry Christmas as
- we are."
- CHAPTER THREE
- THE LAURENCE BOY
- "Jo! Jo! Where are you?" cried Meg at the foot of the garret stairs.
- "Here!" answered a husky voice from above, and, running up, Meg found
- her sister eating apples and crying over the Heir of Redclyffe, wrapped
- up in a comforter on an old three-legged sofa by the sunny window.
- This was Jo's favorite refuge, and here she loved to retire with half a
- dozen russets and a nice book, to enjoy the quiet and the society of a
- pet rat who lived near by and didn't mind her a particle. As Meg
- appeared, Scrabble whisked into his hole. Jo shook the tears off her
- cheeks and waited to hear the news.
- "Such fun! Only see! A regular note of invitation from Mrs. Gardiner
- for tomorrow night!" cried Meg, waving the precious paper and then
- proceeding to read it with girlish delight.
- "'Mrs. Gardiner would be happy to see Miss March and Miss Josephine at
- a little dance on New Year's Eve.' Marmee is willing we should go, now
- what shall we wear?"
- "What's the use of asking that, when you know we shall wear our
- poplins, because we haven't got anything else?" answered Jo with her
- mouth full.
- "If I only had a silk!" sighed Meg. "Mother says I may when I'm
- eighteen perhaps, but two years is an everlasting time to wait."
- "I'm sure our pops look like silk, and they are nice enough for us.
- Yours is as good as new, but I forgot the burn and the tear in mine.
- Whatever shall I do? The burn shows badly, and I can't take any out."
- "You must sit still all you can and keep your back out of sight. The
- front is all right. I shall have a new ribbon for my hair, and Marmee
- will lend me her little pearl pin, and my new slippers are lovely, and
- my gloves will do, though they aren't as nice as I'd like."
- "Mine are spoiled with lemonade, and I can't get any new ones, so I
- shall have to go without," said Jo, who never troubled herself much
- about dress.
- "You must have gloves, or I won't go," cried Meg decidedly. "Gloves are
- more important than anything else. You can't dance without them, and
- if you don't I should be so mortified."
- "Then I'll stay still. I don't care much for company dancing. It's no
- fun to go sailing round. I like to fly about and cut capers."
- "You can't ask Mother for new ones, they are so expensive, and you are
- so careless. She said when you spoiled the others that she shouldn't
- get you any more this winter. Can't you make them do?"
- "I can hold them crumpled up in my hand, so no one will know how
- stained they are. That's all I can do. No! I'll tell you how we can
- manage, each wear one good one and carry a bad one. Don't you see?"
- "Your hands are bigger than mine, and you will stretch my glove
- dreadfully," began Meg, whose gloves were a tender point with her.
- "Then I'll go without. I don't care what people say!" cried Jo, taking
- up her book.
- "You may have it, you may! Only don't stain it, and do behave nicely.
- Don't put your hands behind you, or stare, or say 'Christopher
- Columbus!' will you?"
- "Don't worry about me. I'll be as prim as I can and not get into any
- scrapes, if I can help it. Now go and answer your note, and let me
- finish this splendid story."
- So Meg went away to 'accept with thanks', look over her dress, and sing
- blithely as she did up her one real lace frill, while Jo finished her
- story, her four apples, and had a game of romps with Scrabble.
- On New Year's Eve the parlor was deserted, for the two younger girls
- played dressing maids and the two elder were absorbed in the
- all-important business of 'getting ready for the party'. Simple as the
- toilets were, there was a great deal of running up and down, laughing
- and talking, and at one time a strong smell of burned hair pervaded the
- house. Meg wanted a few curls about her face, and Jo undertook to
- pinch the papered locks with a pair of hot tongs.
- "Ought they to smoke like that?" asked Beth from her perch on the bed.
- "It's the dampness drying," replied Jo.
- "What a queer smell! It's like burned feathers," observed Amy,
- smoothing her own pretty curls with a superior air.
- "There, now I'll take off the papers and you'll see a cloud of little
- ringlets," said Jo, putting down the tongs.
- She did take off the papers, but no cloud of ringlets appeared, for the
- hair came with the papers, and the horrified hairdresser laid a row of
- little scorched bundles on the bureau before her victim.
- "Oh, oh, oh! What have you done? I'm spoiled! I can't go! My hair,
- oh, my hair!" wailed Meg, looking with despair at the uneven frizzle on
- her forehead.
- "Just my luck! You shouldn't have asked me to do it. I always spoil
- everything. I'm so sorry, but the tongs were too hot, and so I've made
- a mess," groaned poor Jo, regarding the little black pancakes with
- tears of regret.
- "It isn't spoiled. Just frizzle it, and tie your ribbon so the ends
- come on your forehead a bit, and it will look like the last fashion.
- I've seen many girls do it so," said Amy consolingly.
- "Serves me right for trying to be fine. I wish I'd let my hair alone,"
- cried Meg petulantly.
- "So do I, it was so smooth and pretty. But it will soon grow out
- again," said Beth, coming to kiss and comfort the shorn sheep.
- After various lesser mishaps, Meg was finished at last, and by the
- united exertions of the entire family Jo's hair was got up and her
- dress on. They looked very well in their simple suits, Meg's in
- silvery drab, with a blue velvet snood, lace frills, and the pearl pin.
- Jo in maroon, with a stiff, gentlemanly linen collar, and a white
- chrysanthemum or two for her only ornament. Each put on one nice light
- glove, and carried one soiled one, and all pronounced the effect "quite
- easy and fine". Meg's high-heeled slippers were very tight and hurt
- her, though she would not own it, and Jo's nineteen hairpins all seemed
- stuck straight into her head, which was not exactly comfortable, but,
- dear me, let us be elegant or die.
- "Have a good time, dearies!" said Mrs. March, as the sisters went
- daintily down the walk. "Don't eat much supper, and come away at
- eleven when I send Hannah for you." As the gate clashed behind them, a
- voice cried from a window...
- "Girls, girls! Have you you both got nice pocket handkerchiefs?"
- "Yes, yes, spandy nice, and Meg has cologne on hers," cried Jo, adding
- with a laugh as they went on, "I do believe Marmee would ask that if we
- were all running away from an earthquake."
- "It is one of her aristocratic tastes, and quite proper, for a real
- lady is always known by neat boots, gloves, and handkerchief," replied
- Meg, who had a good many little 'aristocratic tastes' of her own.
- "Now don't forget to keep the bad breadth out of sight, Jo. Is my sash
- right? And does my hair look very bad?" said Meg, as she turned from
- the glass in Mrs. Gardiner's dressing room after a prolonged prink.
- "I know I shall forget. If you see me doing anything wrong, just
- remind me by a wink, will you?" returned Jo, giving her collar a twitch
- and her head a hasty brush.
- "No, winking isn't ladylike. I'll lift my eyebrows if any thing is
- wrong, and nod if you are all right. Now hold your shoulder straight,
- and take short steps, and don't shake hands if you are introduced to
- anyone. It isn't the thing."
- "How do you learn all the proper ways? I never can. Isn't that music
- gay?"
- Down they went, feeling a trifle timid, for they seldom went to
- parties, and informal as this little gathering was, it was an event to
- them. Mrs. Gardiner, a stately old lady, greeted them kindly and
- handed them over to the eldest of her six daughters. Meg knew Sallie
- and was at her ease very soon, but Jo, who didn't care much for girls
- or girlish gossip, stood about, with her back carefully against the
- wall, and felt as much out of place as a colt in a flower garden. Half
- a dozen jovial lads were talking about skates in another part of the
- room, and she longed to go and join them, for skating was one of the
- joys of her life. She telegraphed her wish to Meg, but the eyebrows
- went up so alarmingly that she dared not stir. No one came to talk to
- her, and one by one the group dwindled away till she was left alone.
- She could not roam about and amuse herself, for the burned breadth
- would show, so she stared at people rather forlornly till the dancing
- began. Meg was asked at once, and the tight slippers tripped about so
- briskly that none would have guessed the pain their wearer suffered
- smilingly. Jo saw a big red headed youth approaching her corner, and
- fearing he meant to engage her, she slipped into a curtained recess,
- intending to peep and enjoy herself in peace. Unfortunately, another
- bashful person had chosen the same refuge, for, as the curtain fell
- behind her, she found herself face to face with the 'Laurence boy'.
- "Dear me, I didn't know anyone was here!" stammered Jo, preparing to
- back out as speedily as she had bounced in.
- But the boy laughed and said pleasantly, though he looked a little
- startled, "Don't mind me, stay if you like."
- "Shan't I disturb you?"
- "Not a bit. I only came here because I don't know many people and felt
- rather strange at first, you know."
- "So did I. Don't go away, please, unless you'd rather."
- The boy sat down again and looked at his pumps, till Jo said, trying to
- be polite and easy, "I think I've had the pleasure of seeing you
- before. You live near us, don't you?"
- "Next door." And he looked up and laughed outright, for Jo's prim
- manner was rather funny when he remembered how they had chatted about
- cricket when he brought the cat home.
- That put Jo at her ease and she laughed too, as she said, in her
- heartiest way, "We did have such a good time over your nice Christmas
- present."
- "Grandpa sent it."
- "But you put it into his head, didn't you, now?"
- "How is your cat, Miss March?" asked the boy, trying to look sober
- while his black eyes shone with fun.
- "Nicely, thank you, Mr. Laurence. But I am not Miss March, I'm only
- Jo," returned the young lady.
- "I'm not Mr. Laurence, I'm only Laurie."
- "Laurie Laurence, what an odd name."
- "My first name is Theodore, but I don't like it, for the fellows called
- me Dora, so I made them say Laurie instead."
- "I hate my name, too, so sentimental! I wish every one would say Jo
- instead of Josephine. How did you make the boys stop calling you Dora?"
- "I thrashed 'em."
- "I can't thrash Aunt March, so I suppose I shall have to bear it." And
- Jo resigned herself with a sigh.
- "Don't you like to dance, Miss Jo?" asked Laurie, looking as if he
- thought the name suited her.
- "I like it well enough if there is plenty of room, and everyone is
- lively. In a place like this I'm sure to upset something, tread on
- people's toes, or do something dreadful, so I keep out of mischief and
- let Meg sail about. Don't you dance?"
- "Sometimes. You see I've been abroad a good many years, and haven't
- been into company enough yet to know how you do things here."
- "Abroad!" cried Jo. "Oh, tell me about it! I love dearly to hear
- people describe their travels."
- Laurie didn't seem to know where to begin, but Jo's eager questions
- soon set him going, and he told her how he had been at school in Vevay,
- where the boys never wore hats and had a fleet of boats on the lake,
- and for holiday fun went on walking trips about Switzerland with their
- teachers.
- "Don't I wish I'd been there!" cried Jo. "Did you go to Paris?"
- "We spent last winter there."
- "Can you talk French?"
- "We were not allowed to speak anything else at Vevay."
- "Do say some! I can read it, but can't pronounce."
- "Quel nom a cette jeune demoiselle en les pantoufles jolis?"
- "How nicely you do it! Let me see ... you said, 'Who is the young lady
- in the pretty slippers', didn't you?"
- "Oui, mademoiselle."
- "It's my sister Margaret, and you knew it was! Do you think she is
- pretty?"
- "Yes, she makes me think of the German girls, she looks so fresh and
- quiet, and dances like a lady."
- Jo quite glowed with pleasure at this boyish praise of her sister, and
- stored it up to repeat to Meg. Both peeped and criticized and chatted
- till they felt like old acquaintances. Laurie's bashfulness soon wore
- off, for Jo's gentlemanly demeanor amused and set him at his ease, and
- Jo was her merry self again, because her dress was forgotten and nobody
- lifted their eyebrows at her. She liked the 'Laurence boy' better than
- ever and took several good looks at him, so that she might describe him
- to the girls, for they had no brothers, very few male cousins, and boys
- were almost unknown creatures to them.
- "Curly black hair, brown skin, big black eyes, handsome nose, fine
- teeth, small hands and feet, taller than I am, very polite, for a boy,
- and altogether jolly. Wonder how old he is?"
- It was on the tip of Jo's tongue to ask, but she checked herself in
- time and, with unusual tact, tried to find out in a round-about way.
- "I suppose you are going to college soon? I see you pegging away at
- your books, no, I mean studying hard." And Jo blushed at the dreadful
- 'pegging' which had escaped her.
- Laurie smiled but didn't seem shocked, and answered with a shrug. "Not
- for a year or two. I won't go before seventeen, anyway."
- "Aren't you but fifteen?" asked Jo, looking at the tall lad, whom she
- had imagined seventeen already.
- "Sixteen, next month."
- "How I wish I was going to college! You don't look as if you liked it."
- "I hate it! Nothing but grinding or skylarking. And I don't like the
- way fellows do either, in this country."
- "What do you like?"
- "To live in Italy, and to enjoy myself in my own way."
- Jo wanted very much to ask what his own way was, but his black brows
- looked rather threatening as he knit them, so she changed the subject
- by saying, as her foot kept time, "That's a splendid polka! Why don't
- you go and try it?"
- "If you will come too," he answered, with a gallant little bow.
- "I can't, for I told Meg I wouldn't, because..." There Jo stopped, and
- looked undecided whether to tell or to laugh.
- "Because, what?"
- "You won't tell?"
- "Never!"
- "Well, I have a bad trick of standing before the fire, and so I burn my
- frocks, and I scorched this one, and though it's nicely mended, it
- shows, and Meg told me to keep still so no one would see it. You may
- laugh, if you want to. It is funny, I know."
- But Laurie didn't laugh. He only looked down a minute, and the
- expression of his face puzzled Jo when he said very gently, "Never mind
- that. I'll tell you how we can manage. There's a long hall out there,
- and we can dance grandly, and no one will see us. Please come."
- Jo thanked him and gladly went, wishing she had two neat gloves when
- she saw the nice, pearl-colored ones her partner wore. The hall was
- empty, and they had a grand polka, for Laurie danced well, and taught
- her the German step, which delighted Jo, being full of swing and
- spring. When the music stopped, they sat down on the stairs to get
- their breath, and Laurie was in the midst of an account of a students'
- festival at Heidelberg when Meg appeared in search of her sister. She
- beckoned, and Jo reluctantly followed her into a side room, where she
- found her on a sofa, holding her foot, and looking pale.
- "I've sprained my ankle. That stupid high heel turned and gave me a
- sad wrench. It aches so, I can hardly stand, and I don't know how I'm
- ever going to get home," she said, rocking to and fro in pain.
- "I knew you'd hurt your feet with those silly shoes. I'm sorry. But I
- don't see what you can do, except get a carriage, or stay here all
- night," answered Jo, softly rubbing the poor ankle as she spoke.
- "I can't have a carriage without its costing ever so much. I dare say
- I can't get one at all, for most people come in their own, and it's a
- long way to the stable, and no one to send."
- "I'll go."
- "No, indeed! It's past nine, and dark as Egypt. I can't stop here,
- for the house is full. Sallie has some girls staying with her. I'll
- rest till Hannah comes, and then do the best I can."
- "I'll ask Laurie. He will go," said Jo, looking relieved as the idea
- occurred to her.
- "Mercy, no! Don't ask or tell anyone. Get me my rubbers, and put
- these slippers with our things. I can't dance anymore, but as soon as
- supper is over, watch for Hannah and tell me the minute she comes."
- "They are going out to supper now. I'll stay with you. I'd rather."
- "No, dear, run along, and bring me some coffee. I'm so tired I can't
- stir."
- So Meg reclined, with rubbers well hidden, and Jo went blundering away
- to the dining room, which she found after going into a china closet,
- and opening the door of a room where old Mr. Gardiner was taking a
- little private refreshment. Making a dart at the table, she secured
- the coffee, which she immediately spilled, thereby making the front of
- her dress as bad as the back.
- "Oh, dear, what a blunderbuss I am!" exclaimed Jo, finishing Meg's
- glove by scrubbing her gown with it.
- "Can I help you?" said a friendly voice. And there was Laurie, with a
- full cup in one hand and a plate of ice in the other.
- "I was trying to get something for Meg, who is very tired, and someone
- shook me, and here I am in a nice state," answered Jo, glancing
- dismally from the stained skirt to the coffee-colored glove.
- "Too bad! I was looking for someone to give this to. May I take it
- to your sister?"
- "Oh, thank you! I'll show you where she is. I don't offer to take it
- myself, for I should only get into another scrape if I did."
- Jo led the way, and as if used to waiting on ladies, Laurie drew up a
- little table, brought a second installment of coffee and ice for Jo,
- and was so obliging that even particular Meg pronounced him a 'nice
- boy'. They had a merry time over the bonbons and mottoes, and were in
- the midst of a quiet game of _Buzz_, with two or three other young
- people who had strayed in, when Hannah appeared. Meg forgot her foot
- and rose so quickly that she was forced to catch hold of Jo, with an
- exclamation of pain.
- "Hush! Don't say anything," she whispered, adding aloud, "It's
- nothing. I turned my foot a little, that's all," and limped upstairs
- to put her things on.
- Hannah scolded, Meg cried, and Jo was at her wits' end, till she
- decided to take things into her own hands. Slipping out, she ran down
- and, finding a servant, asked if he could get her a carriage. It
- happened to be a hired waiter who knew nothing about the neighborhood
- and Jo was looking round for help when Laurie, who had heard what she
- said, came up and offered his grandfather's carriage, which had just
- come for him, he said.
- "It's so early! You can't mean to go yet?" began Jo, looking relieved
- but hesitating to accept the offer.
- "I always go early, I do, truly! Please let me take you home. It's all
- on my way, you know, and it rains, they say."
- That settled it, and telling him of Meg's mishap, Jo gratefully
- accepted and rushed up to bring down the rest of the party. Hannah
- hated rain as much as a cat does so she made no trouble, and they
- rolled away in the luxurious close carriage, feeling very festive and
- elegant. Laurie went on the box so Meg could keep her foot up, and the
- girls talked over their party in freedom.
- "I had a capital time. Did you?" asked Jo, rumpling up her hair, and
- making herself comfortable.
- "Yes, till I hurt myself. Sallie's friend, Annie Moffat, took a fancy
- to me, and asked me to come and spend a week with her when Sallie does.
- She is going in the spring when the opera comes, and it will be
- perfectly splendid, if Mother only lets me go," answered Meg, cheering
- up at the thought.
- "I saw you dancing with the red headed man I ran away from. Was he
- nice?"
- "Oh, very! His hair is auburn, not red, and he was very polite, and I
- had a delicious redowa with him."
- "He looked like a grasshopper in a fit when he did the new step. Laurie
- and I couldn't help laughing. Did you hear us?"
- "No, but it was very rude. What were you about all that time, hidden
- away there?"
- Jo told her adventures, and by the time she had finished they were at
- home. With many thanks, they said good night and crept in, hoping to
- disturb no one, but the instant their door creaked, two little
- nightcaps bobbed up, and two sleepy but eager voices cried out...
- "Tell about the party! Tell about the party!"
- With what Meg called 'a great want of manners' Jo had saved some
- bonbons for the little girls, and they soon subsided, after hearing the
- most thrilling events of the evening.
- "I declare, it really seems like being a fine young lady, to come home
- from the party in a carriage and sit in my dressing gown with a maid to
- wait on me," said Meg, as Jo bound up her foot with arnica and brushed
- her hair.
- "I don't believe fine young ladies enjoy themselves a bit more than we
- do, in spite of our burned hair, old gowns, one glove apiece and tight
- slippers that sprain our ankles when we are silly enough to wear them."
- And I think Jo was quite right.
- CHAPTER FOUR
- BURDENS
- "Oh, dear, how hard it does seem to take up our packs and go on,"
- sighed Meg the morning after the party, for now the holidays were over,
- the week of merrymaking did not fit her for going on easily with the
- task she never liked.
- "I wish it was Christmas or New Year's all the time. Wouldn't it be
- fun?" answered Jo, yawning dismally.
- "We shouldn't enjoy ourselves half so much as we do now. But it does
- seem so nice to have little suppers and bouquets, and go to parties,
- and drive home, and read and rest, and not work. It's like other
- people, you know, and I always envy girls who do such things, I'm so
- fond of luxury," said Meg, trying to decide which of two shabby gowns
- was the least shabby.
- "Well, we can't have it, so don't let us grumble but shoulder our
- bundles and trudge along as cheerfully as Marmee does. I'm sure Aunt
- March is a regular Old Man of the Sea to me, but I suppose when I've
- learned to carry her without complaining, she will tumble off, or get
- so light that I shan't mind her."
- This idea tickled Jo's fancy and put her in good spirits, but Meg
- didn't brighten, for her burden, consisting of four spoiled children,
- seemed heavier than ever. She had not heart enough even to make herself
- pretty as usual by putting on a blue neck ribbon and dressing her hair
- in the most becoming way.
- "Where's the use of looking nice, when no one sees me but those cross
- midgets, and no one cares whether I'm pretty or not?" she muttered,
- shutting her drawer with a jerk. "I shall have to toil and moil all my
- days, with only little bits of fun now and then, and get old and ugly
- and sour, because I'm poor and can't enjoy my life as other girls do.
- It's a shame!"
- So Meg went down, wearing an injured look, and wasn't at all agreeable
- at breakfast time. Everyone seemed rather out of sorts and inclined to
- croak.
- Beth had a headache and lay on the sofa, trying to comfort herself with
- the cat and three kittens. Amy was fretting because her lessons were
- not learned, and she couldn't find her rubbers. Jo would whistle and
- make a great racket getting ready.
- Mrs. March was very busy trying to finish a letter, which must go at
- once, and Hannah had the grumps, for being up late didn't suit her.
- "There never was such a cross family!" cried Jo, losing her temper when
- she had upset an inkstand, broken both boot lacings, and sat down upon
- her hat.
- "You're the crossest person in it!" returned Amy, washing out the sum
- that was all wrong with the tears that had fallen on her slate.
- "Beth, if you don't keep these horrid cats down cellar I'll have them
- drowned," exclaimed Meg angrily as she tried to get rid of the kitten
- which had scrambled up her back and stuck like a burr just out of reach.
- Jo laughed, Meg scolded, Beth implored, and Amy wailed because she
- couldn't remember how much nine times twelve was.
- "Girls, girls, do be quiet one minute! I must get this off by the
- early mail, and you drive me distracted with your worry," cried Mrs.
- March, crossing out the third spoiled sentence in her letter.
- There was a momentary lull, broken by Hannah, who stalked in, laid two
- hot turnovers on the table, and stalked out again. These turnovers were
- an institution, and the girls called them 'muffs', for they had no
- others and found the hot pies very comforting to their hands on cold
- mornings.
- Hannah never forgot to make them, no matter how busy or grumpy she
- might be, for the walk was long and bleak. The poor things got no other
- lunch and were seldom home before two.
- "Cuddle your cats and get over your headache, Bethy. Goodbye, Marmee.
- We are a set of rascals this morning, but we'll come home regular
- angels. Now then, Meg!" And Jo tramped away, feeling that the
- pilgrims were not setting out as they ought to do.
- They always looked back before turning the corner, for their mother was
- always at the window to nod and smile, and wave her hand to them.
- Somehow it seemed as if they couldn't have got through the day without
- that, for whatever their mood might be, the last glimpse of that
- motherly face was sure to affect them like sunshine.
- "If Marmee shook her fist instead of kissing her hand to us, it would
- serve us right, for more ungrateful wretches than we are were never
- seen," cried Jo, taking a remorseful satisfaction in the snowy walk and
- bitter wind.
- "Don't use such dreadful expressions," replied Meg from the depths of
- the veil in which she had shrouded herself like a nun sick of the world.
- "I like good strong words that mean something," replied Jo, catching
- her hat as it took a leap off her head preparatory to flying away
- altogether.
- "Call yourself any names you like, but I am neither a rascal nor a
- wretch and I don't choose to be called so."
- "You're a blighted being, and decidedly cross today because you can't
- sit in the lap of luxury all the time. Poor dear, just wait till I
- make my fortune, and you shall revel in carriages and ice cream and
- high-heeled slippers, and posies, and red-headed boys to dance with."
- "How ridiculous you are, Jo!" But Meg laughed at the nonsense and felt
- better in spite of herself.
- "Lucky for you I am, for if I put on crushed airs and tried to be
- dismal, as you do, we should be in a nice state. Thank goodness, I can
- always find something funny to keep me up. Don't croak any more, but
- come home jolly, there's a dear."
- Jo gave her sister an encouraging pat on the shoulder as they parted
- for the day, each going a different way, each hugging her little warm
- turnover, and each trying to be cheerful in spite of wintry weather,
- hard work, and the unsatisfied desires of pleasure-loving youth.
- When Mr. March lost his property in trying to help an unfortunate
- friend, the two oldest girls begged to be allowed to do something
- toward their own support, at least. Believing that they could not
- begin too early to cultivate energy, industry, and independence, their
- parents consented, and both fell to work with the hearty good will
- which in spite of all obstacles is sure to succeed at last.
- Margaret found a place as nursery governess and felt rich with her
- small salary. As she said, she was 'fond of luxury', and her chief
- trouble was poverty. She found it harder to bear than the others
- because she could remember a time when home was beautiful, life full of
- ease and pleasure, and want of any kind unknown. She tried not to be
- envious or discontented, but it was very natural that the young girl
- should long for pretty things, gay friends, accomplishments, and a
- happy life. At the Kings' she daily saw all she wanted, for the
- children's older sisters were just out, and Meg caught frequent
- glimpses of dainty ball dresses and bouquets, heard lively gossip about
- theaters, concerts, sleighing parties, and merrymakings of all kinds,
- and saw money lavished on trifles which would have been so precious to
- her. Poor Meg seldom complained, but a sense of injustice made her
- feel bitter toward everyone sometimes, for she had not yet learned to
- know how rich she was in the blessings which alone can make life happy.
- Jo happened to suit Aunt March, who was lame and needed an active
- person to wait upon her. The childless old lady had offered to adopt
- one of the girls when the troubles came, and was much offended because
- her offer was declined. Other friends told the Marches that they had
- lost all chance of being remembered in the rich old lady's will, but
- the unworldly Marches only said...
- "We can't give up our girls for a dozen fortunes. Rich or poor, we
- will keep together and be happy in one another."
- The old lady wouldn't speak to them for a time, but happening to meet
- Jo at a friend's, something in her comical face and blunt manners
- struck the old lady's fancy, and she proposed to take her for a
- companion. This did not suit Jo at all, but she accepted the place
- since nothing better appeared and, to every one's surprise, got on
- remarkably well with her irascible relative. There was an occasional
- tempest, and once Jo marched home, declaring she couldn't bear it
- longer, but Aunt March always cleared up quickly, and sent for her to
- come back again with such urgency that she could not refuse, for in her
- heart she rather liked the peppery old lady.
- I suspect that the real attraction was a large library of fine books,
- which was left to dust and spiders since Uncle March died. Jo
- remembered the kind old gentleman, who used to let her build railroads
- and bridges with his big dictionaries, tell her stories about queer
- pictures in his Latin books, and buy her cards of gingerbread whenever
- he met her in the street. The dim, dusty room, with the busts staring
- down from the tall bookcases, the cozy chairs, the globes, and best of
- all, the wilderness of books in which she could wander where she liked,
- made the library a region of bliss to her.
- The moment Aunt March took her nap, or was busy with company, Jo
- hurried to this quiet place, and curling herself up in the easy chair,
- devoured poetry, romance, history, travels, and pictures like a regular
- bookworm. But, like all happiness, it did not last long, for as sure
- as she had just reached the heart of the story, the sweetest verse of a
- song, or the most perilous adventure of her traveler, a shrill voice
- called, "Josy-phine! Josy-phine!" and she had to leave her paradise to
- wind yarn, wash the poodle, or read Belsham's Essays by the hour
- together.
- Jo's ambition was to do something very splendid. What it was, she had
- no idea as yet, but left it for time to tell her, and meanwhile, found
- her greatest affliction in the fact that she couldn't read, run, and
- ride as much as she liked. A quick temper, sharp tongue, and restless
- spirit were always getting her into scrapes, and her life was a series
- of ups and downs, which were both comic and pathetic. But the training
- she received at Aunt March's was just what she needed, and the thought
- that she was doing something to support herself made her happy in spite
- of the perpetual "Josy-phine!"
- Beth was too bashful to go to school. It had been tried, but she
- suffered so much that it was given up, and she did her lessons at home
- with her father. Even when he went away, and her mother was called to
- devote her skill and energy to Soldiers' Aid Societies, Beth went
- faithfully on by herself and did the best she could. She was a
- housewifely little creature, and helped Hannah keep home neat and
- comfortable for the workers, never thinking of any reward but to be
- loved. Long, quiet days she spent, not lonely nor idle, for her little
- world was peopled with imaginary friends, and she was by nature a busy
- bee. There were six dolls to be taken up and dressed every morning,
- for Beth was a child still and loved her pets as well as ever. Not one
- whole or handsome one among them, all were outcasts till Beth took them
- in, for when her sisters outgrew these idols, they passed to her
- because Amy would have nothing old or ugly. Beth cherished them all the
- more tenderly for that very reason, and set up a hospital for infirm
- dolls. No pins were ever stuck into their cotton vitals, no harsh
- words or blows were ever given them, no neglect ever saddened the heart
- of the most repulsive, but all were fed and clothed, nursed and
- caressed with an affection which never failed. One forlorn fragment of
- dollanity had belonged to Jo and, having led a tempestuous life, was
- left a wreck in the rag bag, from which dreary poorhouse it was rescued
- by Beth and taken to her refuge. Having no top to its head, she tied
- on a neat little cap, and as both arms and legs were gone, she hid
- these deficiencies by folding it in a blanket and devoting her best bed
- to this chronic invalid. If anyone had known the care lavished on that
- dolly, I think it would have touched their hearts, even while they
- laughed. She brought it bits of bouquets, she read to it, took it out
- to breathe fresh air, hidden under her coat, she sang it lullabies and
- never went to bed without kissing its dirty face and whispering
- tenderly, "I hope you'll have a good night, my poor dear."
- Beth had her troubles as well as the others, and not being an angel but
- a very human little girl, she often 'wept a little weep' as Jo said,
- because she couldn't take music lessons and have a fine piano. She
- loved music so dearly, tried so hard to learn, and practiced away so
- patiently at the jingling old instrument, that it did seem as if
- someone (not to hint Aunt March) ought to help her. Nobody did,
- however, and nobody saw Beth wipe the tears off the yellow keys, that
- wouldn't keep in tune, when she was all alone. She sang like a little
- lark about her work, never was too tired for Marmee and the girls, and
- day after day said hopefully to herself, "I know I'll get my music some
- time, if I'm good."
- There are many Beths in the world, shy and quiet, sitting in corners
- till needed, and living for others so cheerfully that no one sees the
- sacrifices till the little cricket on the hearth stops chirping, and
- the sweet, sunshiny presence vanishes, leaving silence and shadow
- behind.
- If anybody had asked Amy what the greatest trial of her life was, she
- would have answered at once, "My nose." When she was a baby, Jo had
- accidently dropped her into the coal hod, and Amy insisted that the
- fall had ruined her nose forever. It was not big nor red, like poor
- 'Petrea's', it was only rather flat, and all the pinching in the world
- could not give it an aristocratic point. No one minded it but herself,
- and it was doing its best to grow, but Amy felt deeply the want of a
- Grecian nose, and drew whole sheets of handsome ones to console herself.
- "Little Raphael," as her sisters called her, had a decided talent for
- drawing, and was never so happy as when copying flowers, designing
- fairies, or illustrating stories with queer specimens of art. Her
- teachers complained that instead of doing her sums she covered her
- slate with animals, the blank pages of her atlas were used to copy maps
- on, and caricatures of the most ludicrous description came fluttering
- out of all her books at unlucky moments. She got through her lessons
- as well as she could, and managed to escape reprimands by being a model
- of deportment. She was a great favorite with her mates, being
- good-tempered and possessing the happy art of pleasing without effort.
- Her little airs and graces were much admired, so were her
- accomplishments, for besides her drawing, she could play twelve tunes,
- crochet, and read French without mispronouncing more than two-thirds of
- the words. She had a plaintive way of saying, "When Papa was rich we
- did so-and-so," which was very touching, and her long words were
- considered 'perfectly elegant' by the girls.
- Amy was in a fair way to be spoiled, for everyone petted her, and her
- small vanities and selfishnesses were growing nicely. One thing,
- however, rather quenched the vanities. She had to wear her cousin's
- clothes. Now Florence's mama hadn't a particle of taste, and Amy
- suffered deeply at having to wear a red instead of a blue bonnet,
- unbecoming gowns, and fussy aprons that did not fit. Everything was
- good, well made, and little worn, but Amy's artistic eyes were much
- afflicted, especially this winter, when her school dress was a dull
- purple with yellow dots and no trimming.
- "My only comfort," she said to Meg, with tears in her eyes, "is that
- Mother doesn't take tucks in my dresses whenever I'm naughty, as Maria
- Parks's mother does. My dear, it's really dreadful, for sometimes she
- is so bad her frock is up to her knees, and she can't come to school.
- When I think of this _deggerredation_, I feel that I can bear even my
- flat nose and purple gown with yellow sky-rockets on it."
- Meg was Amy's confidant and monitor, and by some strange attraction of
- opposites Jo was gentle Beth's. To Jo alone did the shy child tell her
- thoughts, and over her big harum-scarum sister Beth unconsciously
- exercised more influence than anyone in the family. The two older
- girls were a great deal to one another, but each took one of the
- younger sisters into her keeping and watched over her in her own way,
- 'playing mother' they called it, and put their sisters in the places of
- discarded dolls with the maternal instinct of little women.
- "Has anybody got anything to tell? It's been such a dismal day I'm
- really dying for some amusement," said Meg, as they sat sewing together
- that evening.
- "I had a queer time with Aunt today, and, as I got the best of it, I'll
- tell you about it," began Jo, who dearly loved to tell stories. "I was
- reading that everlasting Belsham, and droning away as I always do, for
- Aunt soon drops off, and then I take out some nice book, and read like
- fury till she wakes up. I actually made myself sleepy, and before she
- began to nod, I gave such a gape that she asked me what I meant by
- opening my mouth wide enough to take the whole book in at once."
- "I wish I could, and be done with it," said I, trying not to be saucy.
- "Then she gave me a long lecture on my sins, and told me to sit and
- think them over while she just 'lost' herself for a moment. She never
- finds herself very soon, so the minute her cap began to bob like a
- top-heavy dahlia, I whipped the _Vicar of Wakefield_ out of my pocket,
- and read away, with one eye on him and one on Aunt. I'd just got to
- where they all tumbled into the water when I forgot and laughed out
- loud. Aunt woke up and, being more good-natured after her nap, told me
- to read a bit and show what frivolous work I preferred to the worthy
- and instructive Belsham. I did my very best, and she liked it, though
- she only said...
- "'I don't understand what it's all about. Go back and begin it,
- child.'"
- "Back I went, and made the Primroses as interesting as ever I could.
- Once I was wicked enough to stop in a thrilling place, and say meekly,
- 'I'm afraid it tires you, ma'am. Shan't I stop now?'"
- "She caught up her knitting, which had dropped out of her hands, gave
- me a sharp look through her specs, and said, in her short way, 'Finish
- the chapter, and don't be impertinent, miss'."
- "Did she own she liked it?" asked Meg.
- "Oh, bless you, no! But she let old Belsham rest, and when I ran back
- after my gloves this afternoon, there she was, so hard at the Vicar
- that she didn't hear me laugh as I danced a jig in the hall because of
- the good time coming. What a pleasant life she might have if only she
- chose! I don't envy her much, in spite of her money, for after all
- rich people have about as many worries as poor ones, I think," added Jo.
- "That reminds me," said Meg, "that I've got something to tell. It isn't
- funny, like Jo's story, but I thought about it a good deal as I came
- home. At the Kings' today I found everybody in a flurry, and one of
- the children said that her oldest brother had done something dreadful,
- and Papa had sent him away. I heard Mrs. King crying and Mr. King
- talking very loud, and Grace and Ellen turned away their faces when
- they passed me, so I shouldn't see how red and swollen their eyes were.
- I didn't ask any questions, of course, but I felt so sorry for them and
- was rather glad I hadn't any wild brothers to do wicked things and
- disgrace the family."
- "I think being disgraced in school is a great deal try_inger_ than
- anything bad boys can do," said Amy, shaking her head, as if her
- experience of life had been a deep one. "Susie Perkins came to school
- today with a lovely red carnelian ring. I wanted it dreadfully, and
- wished I was her with all my might. Well, she drew a picture of Mr.
- Davis, with a monstrous nose and a hump, and the words, 'Young ladies,
- my eye is upon you!' coming out of his mouth in a balloon thing. We
- were laughing over it when all of a sudden his eye _was_ on us, and he
- ordered Susie to bring up her slate. She was _parry_lized with fright,
- but she went, and oh, what _do_ you think he did? He took her by the
- ear--the ear! Just fancy how horrid!--and led her to the recitation
- platform, and made her stand there half an hour, holding the slate so
- everyone could see."
- "Didn't the girls laugh at the picture?" asked Jo, who relished the
- scrape.
- "Laugh? Not one! They sat still as mice, and Susie cried quarts, I know
- she did. I didn't envy her then, for I felt that millions of carnelian
- rings wouldn't have made me happy after that. I never, never should
- have got over such a agonizing mortification." And Amy went on with her
- work, in the proud consciousness of virtue and the successful utterance
- of two long words in a breath.
- "I saw something I liked this morning, and I meant to tell it at
- dinner, but I forgot," said Beth, putting Jo's topsy-turvy basket in
- order as she talked. "When I went to get some oysters for Hannah, Mr.
- Laurence was in the fish shop, but he didn't see me, for I kept behind
- the fish barrel, and he was busy with Mr. Cutter the fish-man. A poor
- woman came in with a pail and a mop, and asked Mr. Cutter if he would
- let her do some scrubbing for a bit of fish, because she hadn't any
- dinner for her children, and had been disappointed of a day's work.
- Mr. Cutter was in a hurry and said 'No', rather crossly, so she was
- going away, looking hungry and sorry, when Mr. Laurence hooked up a big
- fish with the crooked end of his cane and held it out to her. She was
- so glad and surprised she took it right into her arms, and thanked him
- over and over. He told her to 'go along and cook it', and she hurried
- off, so happy! Wasn't it good of him? Oh, she did look so funny,
- hugging the big, slippery fish, and hoping Mr. Laurence's bed in heaven
- would be 'aisy'."
- When they had laughed at Beth's story, they asked their mother for one,
- and after a moments thought, she said soberly, "As I sat cutting out
- blue flannel jackets today at the rooms, I felt very anxious about
- Father, and thought how lonely and helpless we should be, if anything
- happened to him. It was not a wise thing to do, but I kept on worrying
- till an old man came in with an order for some clothes. He sat down
- near me, and I began to talk to him, for he looked poor and tired and
- anxious.
- "'Have you sons in the army?' I asked, for the note he brought was not
- to me."
- "Yes, ma'am. I had four, but two were killed, one is a prisoner, and
- I'm going to the other, who is very sick in a Washington hospital.' he
- answered quietly."
- "'You have done a great deal for your country, sir,' I said, feeling
- respect now, instead of pity."
- "'Not a mite more than I ought, ma'am. I'd go myself, if I was any
- use. As I ain't, I give my boys, and give 'em free.'"
- "He spoke so cheerfully, looked so sincere, and seemed so glad to give
- his all, that I was ashamed of myself. I'd given one man and thought
- it too much, while he gave four without grudging them. I had all my
- girls to comfort me at home, and his last son was waiting, miles away,
- to say good-by to him, perhaps! I felt so rich, so happy thinking of
- my blessings, that I made him a nice bundle, gave him some money, and
- thanked him heartily for the lesson he had taught me."
- "Tell another story, Mother, one with a moral to it, like this. I like
- to think about them afterward, if they are real and not too preachy,"
- said Jo, after a minute's silence.
- Mrs. March smiled and began at once, for she had told stories to this
- little audience for many years, and knew how to please them.
- "Once upon a time, there were four girls, who had enough to eat and
- drink and wear, a good many comforts and pleasures, kind friends and
- parents who loved them dearly, and yet they were not contented." (Here
- the listeners stole sly looks at one another, and began to sew
- diligently.) "These girls were anxious to be good and made many
- excellent resolutions, but they did not keep them very well, and were
- constantly saying, 'If only we had this,' or 'If we could only do
- that,' quite forgetting how much they already had, and how many things
- they actually could do. So they asked an old woman what spell they
- could use to make them happy, and she said, 'When you feel
- discontented, think over your blessings, and be grateful.'" (Here Jo
- looked up quickly, as if about to speak, but changed her mind, seeing
- that the story was not done yet.)
- "Being sensible girls, they decided to try her advice, and soon were
- surprised to see how well off they were. One discovered that money
- couldn't keep shame and sorrow out of rich people's houses, another
- that, though she was poor, she was a great deal happier, with her
- youth, health, and good spirits, than a certain fretful, feeble old
- lady who couldn't enjoy her comforts, a third that, disagreeable as it
- was to help get dinner, it was harder still to go begging for it and
- the fourth, that even carnelian rings were not so valuable as good
- behavior. So they agreed to stop complaining, to enjoy the blessings
- already possessed, and try to deserve them, lest they should be taken
- away entirely, instead of increased, and I believe they were never
- disappointed or sorry that they took the old woman's advice."
- "Now, Marmee, that is very cunning of you to turn our own stories
- against us, and give us a sermon instead of a romance!" cried Meg.
- "I like that kind of sermon. It's the sort Father used to tell us,"
- said Beth thoughtfully, putting the needles straight on Jo's cushion.
- "I don't complain near as much as the others do, and I shall be more
- careful than ever now, for I've had warning from Susie's downfall,"
- said Amy morally.
- "We needed that lesson, and we won't forget it. If we do so, you just
- say to us, as old Chloe did in _Uncle Tom_, 'Tink ob yer marcies,
- chillen!' 'Tink ob yer marcies!'" added Jo, who could not, for the life
- of her, help getting a morsel of fun out of the little sermon, though
- she took it to heart as much as any of them.
- CHAPTER FIVE
- BEING NEIGHBORLY
- "What in the world are you going to do now, Jo?" asked Meg one snowy
- afternoon, as her sister came tramping through the hall, in rubber
- boots, old sack, and hood, with a broom in one hand and a shovel in the
- other.
- "Going out for exercise," answered Jo with a mischievous twinkle in her
- eyes.
- "I should think two long walks this morning would have been enough!
- It's cold and dull out, and I advise you to stay warm and dry by the
- fire, as I do," said Meg with a shiver.
- "Never take advice! Can't keep still all day, and not being a
- pussycat, I don't like to doze by the fire. I like adventures, and I'm
- going to find some."
- Meg went back to toast her feet and read _Ivanhoe_, and Jo began to dig
- paths with great energy. The snow was light, and with her broom she
- soon swept a path all round the garden, for Beth to walk in when the
- sun came out and the invalid dolls needed air. Now, the garden
- separated the Marches' house from that of Mr. Laurence. Both stood in
- a suburb of the city, which was still country-like, with groves and
- lawns, large gardens, and quiet streets. A low hedge parted the two
- estates. On one side was an old, brown house, looking rather bare and
- shabby, robbed of the vines that in summer covered its walls and the
- flowers, which then surrounded it. On the other side was a stately
- stone mansion, plainly betokening every sort of comfort and luxury,
- from the big coach house and well-kept grounds to the conservatory and
- the glimpses of lovely things one caught between the rich curtains.
- Yet it seemed a lonely, lifeless sort of house, for no children
- frolicked on the lawn, no motherly face ever smiled at the windows, and
- few people went in and out, except the old gentleman and his grandson.
- To Jo's lively fancy, this fine house seemed a kind of enchanted
- palace, full of splendors and delights which no one enjoyed. She had
- long wanted to behold these hidden glories, and to know the Laurence
- boy, who looked as if he would like to be known, if he only knew how to
- begin. Since the party, she had been more eager than ever, and had
- planned many ways of making friends with him, but he had not been seen
- lately, and Jo began to think he had gone away, when she one day spied
- a brown face at an upper window, looking wistfully down into their
- garden, where Beth and Amy were snow-balling one another.
- "That boy is suffering for society and fun," she said to herself. "His
- grandpa does not know what's good for him, and keeps him shut up all
- alone. He needs a party of jolly boys to play with, or somebody young
- and lively. I've a great mind to go over and tell the old gentleman
- so!"
- The idea amused Jo, who liked to do daring things and was always
- scandalizing Meg by her queer performances. The plan of 'going over'
- was not forgotten. And when the snowy afternoon came, Jo resolved to
- try what could be done. She saw Mr. Lawrence drive off, and then
- sallied out to dig her way down to the hedge, where she paused and took
- a survey. All quiet, curtains down at the lower windows, servants out
- of sight, and nothing human visible but a curly black head leaning on a
- thin hand at the upper window.
- "There he is," thought Jo, "Poor boy! All alone and sick this dismal
- day. It's a shame! I'll toss up a snowball and make him look out, and
- then say a kind word to him."
- Up went a handful of soft snow, and the head turned at once, showing a
- face which lost its listless look in a minute, as the big eyes
- brightened and the mouth began to smile. Jo nodded and laughed, and
- flourished her broom as she called out...
- "How do you do? Are you sick?"
- Laurie opened the window, and croaked out as hoarsely as a raven...
- "Better, thank you. I've had a bad cold, and been shut up a week."
- "I'm sorry. What do you amuse yourself with?"
- "Nothing. It's dull as tombs up here."
- "Don't you read?"
- "Not much. They won't let me."
- "Can't somebody read to you?"
- "Grandpa does sometimes, but my books don't interest him, and I hate to
- ask Brooke all the time."
- "Have someone come and see you then."
- "There isn't anyone I'd like to see. Boys make such a row, and my head
- is weak."
- "Isn't there some nice girl who'd read and amuse you? Girls are quiet
- and like to play nurse."
- "Don't know any."
- "You know us," began Jo, then laughed and stopped.
- "So I do! Will you come, please?" cried Laurie.
- "I'm not quiet and nice, but I'll come, if Mother will let me. I'll go
- ask her. Shut the window, like a good boy, and wait till I come."
- With that, Jo shouldered her broom and marched into the house,
- wondering what they would all say to her. Laurie was in a flutter of
- excitement at the idea of having company, and flew about to get ready,
- for as Mrs. March said, he was 'a little gentleman', and did honor to
- the coming guest by brushing his curly pate, putting on a fresh color,
- and trying to tidy up the room, which in spite of half a dozen
- servants, was anything but neat. Presently there came a loud ring,
- than a decided voice, asking for 'Mr. Laurie', and a surprised-looking
- servant came running up to announce a young lady.
- "All right, show her up, it's Miss Jo," said Laurie, going to the door
- of his little parlor to meet Jo, who appeared, looking rosy and quite
- at her ease, with a covered dish in one hand and Beth's three kittens
- in the other.
- "Here I am, bag and baggage," she said briskly. "Mother sent her love,
- and was glad if I could do anything for you. Meg wanted me to bring
- some of her blanc mange, she makes it very nicely, and Beth thought her
- cats would be comforting. I knew you'd laugh at them, but I couldn't
- refuse, she was so anxious to do something."
- It so happened that Beth's funny loan was just the thing, for in
- laughing over the kits, Laurie forgot his bashfulness, and grew
- sociable at once.
- "That looks too pretty to eat," he said, smiling with pleasure, as Jo
- uncovered the dish, and showed the blanc mange, surrounded by a garland
- of green leaves, and the scarlet flowers of Amy's pet geranium.
- "It isn't anything, only they all felt kindly and wanted to show it.
- Tell the girl to put it away for your tea. It's so simple you can eat
- it, and being soft, it will slip down without hurting your sore throat.
- What a cozy room this is!"
- "It might be if it was kept nice, but the maids are lazy, and I don't
- know how to make them mind. It worries me though."
- "I'll right it up in two minutes, for it only needs to have the hearth
- brushed, so--and the things made straight on the mantelpiece, so--and
- the books put here, and the bottles there, and your sofa turned from
- the light, and the pillows plumped up a bit. Now then, you're fixed."
- And so he was, for, as she laughed and talked, Jo had whisked things
- into place and given quite a different air to the room. Laurie watched
- her in respectful silence, and when she beckoned him to his sofa, he
- sat down with a sigh of satisfaction, saying gratefully...
- "How kind you are! Yes, that's what it wanted. Now please take the
- big chair and let me do something to amuse my company."
- "No, I came to amuse you. Shall I read aloud?" and Jo looked
- affectionately toward some inviting books near by.
- "Thank you! I've read all those, and if you don't mind, I'd rather
- talk," answered Laurie.
- "Not a bit. I'll talk all day if you'll only set me going. Beth says I
- never know when to stop."
- "Is Beth the rosy one, who stays at home good deal and sometimes goes
- out with a little basket?" asked Laurie with interest.
- "Yes, that's Beth. She's my girl, and a regular good one she is, too."
- "The pretty one is Meg, and the curly-haired one is Amy, I believe?"
- "How did you find that out?"
- Laurie colored up, but answered frankly, "Why, you see I often hear you
- calling to one another, and when I'm alone up here, I can't help
- looking over at your house, you always seem to be having such good
- times. I beg your pardon for being so rude, but sometimes you forget
- to put down the curtain at the window where the flowers are. And when
- the lamps are lighted, it's like looking at a picture to see the fire,
- and you all around the table with your mother. Her face is right
- opposite, and it looks so sweet behind the flowers, I can't help
- watching it. I haven't got any mother, you know." And Laurie poked the
- fire to hide a little twitching of the lips that he could not control.
- The solitary, hungry look in his eyes went straight to Jo's warm heart.
- She had been so simply taught that there was no nonsense in her head,
- and at fifteen she was as innocent and frank as any child. Laurie was
- sick and lonely, and feeling how rich she was in home and happiness,
- she gladly tried to share it with him. Her face was very friendly and
- her sharp voice unusually gentle as she said...
- "We'll never draw that curtain any more, and I give you leave to look
- as much as you like. I just wish, though, instead of peeping, you'd
- come over and see us. Mother is so splendid, she'd do you heaps of
- good, and Beth would sing to you if I begged her to, and Amy would
- dance. Meg and I would make you laugh over our funny stage properties,
- and we'd have jolly times. Wouldn't your grandpa let you?"
- "I think he would, if your mother asked him. He's very kind, though he
- does not look so, and he lets me do what I like, pretty much, only he's
- afraid I might be a bother to strangers," began Laurie, brightening
- more and more.
- "We are not strangers, we are neighbors, and you needn't think you'd be
- a bother. We want to know you, and I've been trying to do it this ever
- so long. We haven't been here a great while, you know, but we have got
- acquainted with all our neighbors but you."
- "You see, Grandpa lives among his books, and doesn't mind much what
- happens outside. Mr. Brooke, my tutor, doesn't stay here, you know,
- and I have no one to go about with me, so I just stop at home and get
- on as I can."
- "That's bad. You ought to make an effort and go visiting everywhere
- you are asked, then you'll have plenty of friends, and pleasant places
- to go to. Never mind being bashful. It won't last long if you keep
- going."
- Laurie turned red again, but wasn't offended at being accused of
- bashfulness, for there was so much good will in Jo it was impossible
- not to take her blunt speeches as kindly as they were meant.
- "Do you like your school?" asked the boy, changing the subject, after a
- little pause, during which he stared at the fire and Jo looked about
- her, well pleased.
- "Don't go to school, I'm a businessman--girl, I mean. I go to wait on
- my great-aunt, and a dear, cross old soul she is, too," answered Jo.
- Laurie opened his mouth to ask another question, but remembering just
- in time that it wasn't manners to make too many inquiries into people's
- affairs, he shut it again, and looked uncomfortable.
- Jo liked his good breeding, and didn't mind having a laugh at Aunt
- March, so she gave him a lively description of the fidgety old lady,
- her fat poodle, the parrot that talked Spanish, and the library where
- she reveled.
- Laurie enjoyed that immensely, and when she told about the prim old
- gentleman who came once to woo Aunt March, and in the middle of a fine
- speech, how Poll had tweaked his wig off to his great dismay, the boy
- lay back and laughed till the tears ran down his cheeks, and a maid
- popped her head in to see what was the matter.
- "Oh! That does me no end of good. Tell on, please," he said, taking
- his face out of the sofa cushion, red and shining with merriment.
- Much elated with her success, Jo did 'tell on', all about their plays
- and plans, their hopes and fears for Father, and the most interesting
- events of the little world in which the sisters lived. Then they got
- to talking about books, and to Jo's delight, she found that Laurie
- loved them as well as she did, and had read even more than herself.
- "If you like them so much, come down and see ours. Grandfather is out,
- so you needn't be afraid," said Laurie, getting up.
- "I'm not afraid of anything," returned Jo, with a toss of the head.
- "I don't believe you are!" exclaimed the boy, looking at her with much
- admiration, though he privately thought she would have good reason to
- be a trifle afraid of the old gentleman, if she met him in some of his
- moods.
- The atmosphere of the whole house being summerlike, Laurie led the way
- from room to room, letting Jo stop to examine whatever struck her
- fancy. And so, at last they came to the library, where she clapped her
- hands and pranced, as she always did when especially delighted. It was
- lined with books, and there were pictures and statues, and distracting
- little cabinets full of coins and curiosities, and Sleepy Hollow
- chairs, and queer tables, and bronzes, and best of all, a great open
- fireplace with quaint tiles all round it.
- "What richness!" sighed Jo, sinking into the depth of a velour chair
- and gazing about her with an air of intense satisfaction. "Theodore
- Laurence, you ought to be the happiest boy in the world," she added
- impressively.
- "A fellow can't live on books," said Laurie, shaking his head as he
- perched on a table opposite.
- Before he could more, a bell rang, and Jo flew up, exclaiming with
- alarm, "Mercy me! It's your grandpa!"
- "Well, what if it is? You are not afraid of anything, you know,"
- returned the boy, looking wicked.
- "I think I am a little bit afraid of him, but I don't know why I should
- be. Marmee said I might come, and I don't think you're any the worse
- for it," said Jo, composing herself, though she kept her eyes on the
- door.
- "I'm a great deal better for it, and ever so much obliged. I'm only
- afraid you are very tired of talking to me. It was so pleasant, I
- couldn't bear to stop," said Laurie gratefully.
- "The doctor to see you, sir," and the maid beckoned as she spoke.
- "Would you mind if I left you for a minute? I suppose I must see him,"
- said Laurie.
- "Don't mind me. I'm happy as a cricket here," answered Jo.
- Laurie went away, and his guest amused herself in her own way. She was
- standing before a fine portrait of the old gentleman when the door
- opened again, and without turning, she said decidedly, "I'm sure now
- that I shouldn't be afraid of him, for he's got kind eyes, though his
- mouth is grim, and he looks as if he had a tremendous will of his own.
- He isn't as handsome as my grandfather, but I like him."
- "Thank you, ma'am," said a gruff voice behind her, and there, to her
- great dismay, stood old Mr. Laurence.
- Poor Jo blushed till she couldn't blush any redder, and her heart began
- to beat uncomfortably fast as she thought what she had said. For a
- minute a wild desire to run away possessed her, but that was cowardly,
- and the girls would laugh at her, so she resolved to stay and get out
- of the scrape as she could. A second look showed her that the living
- eyes, under the bushy eyebrows, were kinder even than the painted ones,
- and there was a sly twinkle in them, which lessened her fear a good
- deal. The gruff voice was gruffer than ever, as the old gentleman said
- abruptly, after the dreadful pause, "So you're not afraid of me, hey?"
- "Not much, sir."
- "And you don't think me as handsome as your grandfather?"
- "Not quite, sir."
- "And I've got a tremendous will, have I?"
- "I only said I thought so."
- "But you like me in spite of it?"
- "Yes, I do, sir."
- That answer pleased the old gentleman. He gave a short laugh, shook
- hands with her, and, putting his finger under her chin, turned up her
- face, examined it gravely, and let it go, saying with a nod, "You've
- got your grandfather's spirit, if you haven't his face. He was a fine
- man, my dear, but what is better, he was a brave and an honest one, and
- I was proud to be his friend."
- "Thank you, sir," And Jo was quite comfortable after that, for it
- suited her exactly.
- "What have you been doing to this boy of mine, hey?" was the next
- question, sharply put.
- "Only trying to be neighborly, sir." And Jo told how her visit came
- about.
- "You think he needs cheering up a bit, do you?"
- "Yes, sir, he seems a little lonely, and young folks would do him good
- perhaps. We are only girls, but we should be glad to help if we could,
- for we don't forget the splendid Christmas present you sent us," said
- Jo eagerly.
- "Tut, tut, tut! That was the boy's affair. How is the poor woman?"
- "Doing nicely, sir." And off went Jo, talking very fast, as she told
- all about the Hummels, in whom her mother had interested richer friends
- than they were.
- "Just her father's way of doing good. I shall come and see your mother
- some fine day. Tell her so. There's the tea bell, we have it early on
- the boy's account. Come down and go on being neighborly."
- "If you'd like to have me, sir."
- "Shouldn't ask you, if I didn't." And Mr. Laurence offered her his arm
- with old-fashioned courtesy.
- "What would Meg say to this?" thought Jo, as she was marched away,
- while her eyes danced with fun as she imagined herself telling the
- story at home.
- "Hey! Why, what the dickens has come to the fellow?" said the old
- gentleman, as Laurie came running downstairs and brought up with a
- start of surprise at the astounding sight of Jo arm in arm with his
- redoubtable grandfather.
- "I didn't know you'd come, sir," he began, as Jo gave him a triumphant
- little glance.
- "That's evident, by the way you racket downstairs. Come to your tea,
- sir, and behave like a gentleman." And having pulled the boy's hair by
- way of a caress, Mr. Laurence walked on, while Laurie went through a
- series of comic evolutions behind their backs, which nearly produced an
- explosion of laughter from Jo.
- The old gentleman did not say much as he drank his four cups of tea,
- but he watched the young people, who soon chatted away like old
- friends, and the change in his grandson did not escape him. There was
- color, light, and life in the boy's face now, vivacity in his manner,
- and genuine merriment in his laugh.
- "She's right, the lad is lonely. I'll see what these little girls can
- do for him," thought Mr. Laurence, as he looked and listened. He liked
- Jo, for her odd, blunt ways suited him, and she seemed to understand
- the boy almost as well as if she had been one herself.
- If the Laurences had been what Jo called 'prim and poky', she would not
- have got on at all, for such people always made her shy and awkward.
- But finding them free and easy, she was so herself, and made a good
- impression. When they rose she proposed to go, but Laurie said he had
- something more to show her, and took her away to the conservatory,
- which had been lighted for her benefit. It seemed quite fairylike to
- Jo, as she went up and down the walks, enjoying the blooming walls on
- either side, the soft light, the damp sweet air, and the wonderful
- vines and trees that hung about her, while her new friend cut the
- finest flowers till his hands were full. Then he tied them up, saying,
- with the happy look Jo liked to see, "Please give these to your mother,
- and tell her I like the medicine she sent me very much."
- They found Mr. Laurence standing before the fire in the great drawing
- room, but Jo's attention was entirely absorbed by a grand piano, which
- stood open.
- "Do you play?" she asked, turning to Laurie with a respectful
- expression.
- "Sometimes," he answered modestly.
- "Please do now. I want to hear it, so I can tell Beth."
- "Won't you first?"
- "Don't know how. Too stupid to learn, but I love music dearly."
- So Laurie played and Jo listened, with her nose luxuriously buried in
- heliotrope and tea roses. Her respect and regard for the 'Laurence'
- boy increased very much, for he played remarkably well and didn't put
- on any airs. She wished Beth could hear him, but she did not say so,
- only praised him till he was quite abashed, and his grandfather came to
- his rescue.
- "That will do, that will do, young lady. Too many sugarplums are not
- good for him. His music isn't bad, but I hope he will do as well in
- more important things. Going? well, I'm much obliged to you, and I
- hope you'll come again. My respects to your mother. Good night, Doctor
- Jo."
- He shook hands kindly, but looked as if something did not please him.
- When they got into the hall, Jo asked Laurie if she had said something
- amiss. He shook his head.
- "No, it was me. He doesn't like to hear me play."
- "Why not?"
- "I'll tell you some day. John is going home with you, as I can't."
- "No need of that. I am not a young lady, and it's only a step. Take
- care of yourself, won't you?"
- "Yes, but you will come again, I hope?"
- "If you promise to come and see us after you are well."
- "I will."
- "Good night, Laurie!"
- "Good night, Jo, good night!"
- When all the afternoon's adventures had been told, the family felt
- inclined to go visiting in a body, for each found something very
- attractive in the big house on the other side of the hedge. Mrs. March
- wanted to talk of her father with the old man who had not forgotten
- him, Meg longed to walk in the conservatory, Beth sighed for the grand
- piano, and Amy was eager to see the fine pictures and statues.
- "Mother, why didn't Mr. Laurence like to have Laurie play?" asked Jo,
- who was of an inquiring disposition.
- "I am not sure, but I think it was because his son, Laurie's father,
- married an Italian lady, a musician, which displeased the old man, who
- is very proud. The lady was good and lovely and accomplished, but he
- did not like her, and never saw his son after he married. They both
- died when Laurie was a little child, and then his grandfather took him
- home. I fancy the boy, who was born in Italy, is not very strong, and
- the old man is afraid of losing him, which makes him so careful.
- Laurie comes naturally by his love of music, for he is like his mother,
- and I dare say his grandfather fears that he may want to be a musician.
- At any rate, his skill reminds him of the woman he did not like, and so
- he 'glowered' as Jo said."
- "Dear me, how romantic!" exclaimed Meg.
- "How silly!" said Jo. "Let him be a musician if he wants to, and not
- plague his life out sending him to college, when he hates to go."
- "That's why he has such handsome black eyes and pretty manners, I
- suppose. Italians are always nice," said Meg, who was a little
- sentimental.
- "What do you know about his eyes and his manners? You never spoke to
- him, hardly," cried Jo, who was not sentimental.
- "I saw him at the party, and what you tell shows that he knows how to
- behave. That was a nice little speech about the medicine Mother sent
- him."
- "He meant the blanc mange, I suppose."
- "How stupid you are, child! He meant you, of course."
- "Did he?" And Jo opened her eyes as if it had never occurred to her
- before.
- "I never saw such a girl! You don't know a compliment when you get
- it," said Meg, with the air of a young lady who knew all about the
- matter.
- "I think they are great nonsense, and I'll thank you not to be silly
- and spoil my fun. Laurie's a nice boy and I like him, and I won't have
- any sentimental stuff about compliments and such rubbish. We'll all be
- good to him because he hasn't got any mother, and he may come over and
- see us, mayn't he, Marmee?"
- "Yes, Jo, your little friend is very welcome, and I hope Meg will
- remember that children should be children as long as they can."
- "I don't call myself a child, and I'm not in my teens yet," observed
- Amy. "What do you say, Beth?"
- "I was thinking about our '_Pilgrim's Progress_'," answered Beth, who
- had not heard a word. "How we got out of the Slough and through the
- Wicket Gate by resolving to be good, and up the steep hill by trying,
- and that maybe the house over there, full of splendid things, is going
- to be our Palace Beautiful."
- "We have got to get by the lions first," said Jo, as if she rather
- liked the prospect.
- CHAPTER SIX
- BETH FINDS THE PALACE BEAUTIFUL
- The big house did prove a Palace Beautiful, though it took some time
- for all to get in, and Beth found it very hard to pass the lions. Old
- Mr. Laurence was the biggest one, but after he had called, said
- something funny or kind to each one of the girls, and talked over old
- times with their mother, nobody felt much afraid of him, except timid
- Beth. The other lion was the fact that they were poor and Laurie rich,
- for this made them shy of accepting favors which they could not return.
- But, after a while, they found that he considered them the benefactors,
- and could not do enough to show how grateful he was for Mrs. March's
- motherly welcome, their cheerful society, and the comfort he took in
- that humble home of theirs. So they soon forgot their pride and
- interchanged kindnesses without stopping to think which was the greater.
- All sorts of pleasant things happened about that time, for the new
- friendship flourished like grass in spring. Every one liked Laurie,
- and he privately informed his tutor that "the Marches were regularly
- splendid girls." With the delightful enthusiasm of youth, they took
- the solitary boy into their midst and made much of him, and he found
- something very charming in the innocent companionship of these
- simple-hearted girls. Never having known mother or sisters, he was
- quick to feel the influences they brought about him, and their busy,
- lively ways made him ashamed of the indolent life he led. He was tired
- of books, and found people so interesting now that Mr. Brooke was
- obliged to make very unsatisfactory reports, for Laurie was always
- playing truant and running over to the Marches'.
- "Never mind, let him take a holiday, and make it up afterward," said
- the old gentleman. "The good lady next door says he is studying too
- hard and needs young society, amusement, and exercise. I suspect she
- is right, and that I've been coddling the fellow as if I'd been his
- grandmother. Let him do what he likes, as long as he is happy. He
- can't get into mischief in that little nunnery over there, and Mrs.
- March is doing more for him than we can."
- What good times they had, to be sure. Such plays and tableaux, such
- sleigh rides and skating frolics, such pleasant evenings in the old
- parlor, and now and then such gay little parties at the great house.
- Meg could walk in the conservatory whenever she liked and revel in
- bouquets, Jo browsed over the new library voraciously, and convulsed
- the old gentleman with her criticisms, Amy copied pictures and enjoyed
- beauty to her heart's content, and Laurie played 'lord of the manor' in
- the most delightful style.
- But Beth, though yearning for the grand piano, could not pluck up
- courage to go to the 'Mansion of Bliss', as Meg called it. She went
- once with Jo, but the old gentleman, not being aware of her infirmity,
- stared at her so hard from under his heavy eyebrows, and said "Hey!" so
- loud, that he frightened her so much her 'feet chattered on the floor',
- she never told her mother, and she ran away, declaring she would never
- go there any more, not even for the dear piano. No persuasions or
- enticements could overcome her fear, till, the fact coming to Mr.
- Laurence's ear in some mysterious way, he set about mending matters.
- During one of the brief calls he made, he artfully led the conversation
- to music, and talked away about great singers whom he had seen, fine
- organs he had heard, and told such charming anecdotes that Beth found
- it impossible to stay in her distant corner, but crept nearer and
- nearer, as if fascinated. At the back of his chair she stopped and
- stood listening, with her great eyes wide open and her cheeks red with
- excitement of this unusual performance. Taking no more notice of her
- than if she had been a fly, Mr. Laurence talked on about Laurie's
- lessons and teachers. And presently, as if the idea had just occurred
- to him, he said to Mrs. March...
- "The boy neglects his music now, and I'm glad of it, for he was getting
- too fond of it. But the piano suffers for want of use. Wouldn't some
- of your girls like to run over, and practice on it now and then, just
- to keep it in tune, you know, ma'am?"
- Beth took a step forward, and pressed her hands tightly together to
- keep from clapping them, for this was an irresistible temptation, and
- the thought of practicing on that splendid instrument quite took her
- breath away. Before Mrs. March could reply, Mr. Laurence went on with
- an odd little nod and smile...
- "They needn't see or speak to anyone, but run in at any time. For I'm
- shut up in my study at the other end of the house, Laurie is out a
- great deal, and the servants are never near the drawing room after nine
- o'clock."
- Here he rose, as if going, and Beth made up her mind to speak, for that
- last arrangement left nothing to be desired. "Please, tell the young
- ladies what I say, and if they don't care to come, why, never mind."
- Here a little hand slipped into his, and Beth looked up at him with a
- face full of gratitude, as she said, in her earnest yet timid way...
- "Oh sir, they do care, very very much!"
- "Are you the musical girl?" he asked, without any startling "Hey!" as
- he looked down at her very kindly.
- "I'm Beth. I love it dearly, and I'll come, if you are quite sure
- nobody will hear me, and be disturbed," she added, fearing to be rude,
- and trembling at her own boldness as she spoke.
- "Not a soul, my dear. The house is empty half the day, so come and
- drum away as much as you like, and I shall be obliged to you."
- "How kind you are, sir!"
- Beth blushed like a rose under the friendly look he wore, but she was
- not frightened now, and gave the hand a grateful squeeze because she
- had no words to thank him for the precious gift he had given her. The
- old gentleman softly stroked the hair off her forehead, and, stooping
- down, he kissed her, saying, in a tone few people ever heard...
- "I had a little girl once, with eyes like these. God bless you, my
- dear! Good day, madam." And away he went, in a great hurry.
- Beth had a rapture with her mother, and then rushed up to impart the
- glorious news to her family of invalids, as the girls were not home.
- How blithely she sang that evening, and how they all laughed at her
- because she woke Amy in the night by playing the piano on her face in
- her sleep. Next day, having seen both the old and young gentleman out
- of the house, Beth, after two or three retreats, fairly got in at the
- side door, and made her way as noiselessly as any mouse to the drawing
- room where her idol stood. Quite by accident, of course, some pretty,
- easy music lay on the piano, and with trembling fingers and frequent
- stops to listen and look about, Beth at last touched the great
- instrument, and straightway forgot her fear, herself, and everything
- else but the unspeakable delight which the music gave her, for it was
- like the voice of a beloved friend.
- She stayed till Hannah came to take her home to dinner, but she had no
- appetite, and could only sit and smile upon everyone in a general state
- of beatitude.
- After that, the little brown hood slipped through the hedge nearly
- every day, and the great drawing room was haunted by a tuneful spirit
- that came and went unseen. She never knew that Mr. Laurence opened his
- study door to hear the old-fashioned airs he liked. She never saw
- Laurie mount guard in the hall to warn the servants away. She never
- suspected that the exercise books and new songs which she found in the
- rack were put there for her especial benefit, and when he talked to her
- about music at home, she only thought how kind he was to tell things
- that helped her so much. So she enjoyed herself heartily, and found,
- what isn't always the case, that her granted wish was all she had
- hoped. Perhaps it was because she was so grateful for this blessing
- that a greater was given her. At any rate she deserved both.
- "Mother, I'm going to work Mr. Laurence a pair of slippers. He is so
- kind to me, I must thank him, and I don't know any other way. Can I do
- it?" asked Beth, a few weeks after that eventful call of his.
- "Yes, dear. It will please him very much, and be a nice way of
- thanking him. The girls will help you about them, and I will pay for
- the making up," replied Mrs. March, who took peculiar pleasure in
- granting Beth's requests because she so seldom asked anything for
- herself.
- After many serious discussions with Meg and Jo, the pattern was chosen,
- the materials bought, and the slippers begun. A cluster of grave yet
- cheerful pansies on a deeper purple ground was pronounced very
- appropriate and pretty, and Beth worked away early and late, with
- occasional lifts over hard parts. She was a nimble little needlewoman,
- and they were finished before anyone got tired of them. Then she wrote
- a short, simple note, and with Laurie's help, got them smuggled onto
- the study table one morning before the old gentleman was up.
- When this excitement was over, Beth waited to see what would happen.
- All day passed and a part of the next before any acknowledgement
- arrived, and she was beginning to fear she had offended her crochety
- friend. On the afternoon of the second day, she went out to do an
- errand, and give poor Joanna, the invalid doll, her daily exercise. As
- she came up the street, on her return, she saw three, yes, four heads
- popping in and out of the parlor windows, and the moment they saw her,
- several hands were waved, and several joyful voices screamed...
- "Here's a letter from the old gentleman! Come quick, and read it!"
- "Oh, Beth, he's sent you..." began Amy, gesticulating with unseemly
- energy, but she got no further, for Jo quenched her by slamming down
- the window.
- Beth hurried on in a flutter of suspense. At the door her sisters
- seized and bore her to the parlor in a triumphal procession, all
- pointing and all saying at once, "Look there! Look there!" Beth did
- look, and turned pale with delight and surprise, for there stood a
- little cabinet piano, with a letter lying on the glossy lid, directed
- like a sign board to "Miss Elizabeth March."
- "For me?" gasped Beth, holding onto Jo and feeling as if she should
- tumble down, it was such an overwhelming thing altogether.
- "Yes, all for you, my precious! Isn't it splendid of him? Don't you
- think he's the dearest old man in the world? Here's the key in the
- letter. We didn't open it, but we are dying to know what he says,"
- cried Jo, hugging her sister and offering the note.
- "You read it! I can't, I feel so queer! Oh, it is too lovely!" and
- Beth hid her face in Jo's apron, quite upset by her present.
- Jo opened the paper and began to laugh, for the first words she saw
- were...
- "Miss March: "Dear Madam--"
- "How nice it sounds! I wish someone would write to me so!" said Amy,
- who thought the old-fashioned address very elegant.
- "'I have had many pairs of slippers in my life, but I never had any
- that suited me so well as yours,'" continues Jo. "'Heart's-ease is my
- favorite flower, and these will always remind me of the gentle giver.
- I like to pay my debts, so I know you will allow 'the old gentleman' to
- send you something which once belonged to the little grand daughter he
- lost. With hearty thanks and best wishes, I remain "'Your grateful
- friend and humble servant, 'JAMES LAURENCE'."
- "There, Beth, that's an honor to be proud of, I'm sure! Laurie told me
- how fond Mr. Laurence used to be of the child who died, and how he kept
- all her little things carefully. Just think, he's given you her piano.
- That comes of having big blue eyes and loving music," said Jo, trying
- to soothe Beth, who trembled and looked more excited than she had ever
- been before.
- "See the cunning brackets to hold candles, and the nice green silk,
- puckered up, with a gold rose in the middle, and the pretty rack and
- stool, all complete," added Meg, opening the instrument and displaying
- its beauties.
- "'Your humble servant, James Laurence'. Only think of his writing that
- to you. I'll tell the girls. They'll think it's splendid," said Amy,
- much impressed by the note.
- "Try it, honey. Let's hear the sound of the baby pianny," said Hannah,
- who always took a share in the family joys and sorrows.
- So Beth tried it, and everyone pronounced it the most remarkable piano
- ever heard. It had evidently been newly tuned and put in apple-pie
- order, but, perfect as it was, I think the real charm lay in the
- happiest of all happy faces which leaned over it, as Beth lovingly
- touched the beautiful black and white keys and pressed the bright
- pedals.
- "You'll have to go and thank him," said Jo, by way of a joke, for the
- idea of the child's really going never entered her head.
- "Yes, I mean to. I guess I'll go now, before I get frightened thinking
- about it." And, to the utter amazement of the assembled family, Beth
- walked deliberately down the garden, through the hedge, and in at the
- Laurences' door.
- "Well, I wish I may die if it ain't the queerest thing I ever see! The
- pianny has turned her head! She'd never have gone in her right mind,"
- cried Hannah, staring after her, while the girls were rendered quite
- speechless by the miracle.
- They would have been still more amazed if they had seen what Beth did
- afterward. If you will believe me, she went and knocked at the study
- door before she gave herself time to think, and when a gruff voice
- called out, "come in!" she did go in, right up to Mr. Laurence, who
- looked quite taken aback, and held out her hand, saying, with only a
- small quaver in her voice, "I came to thank you, sir, for..." But she
- didn't finish, for he looked so friendly that she forgot her speech
- and, only remembering that he had lost the little girl he loved, she
- put both arms round his neck and kissed him.
- If the roof of the house had suddenly flown off, the old gentleman
- wouldn't have been more astonished. But he liked it. Oh, dear, yes, he
- liked it amazingly! And was so touched and pleased by that confiding
- little kiss that all his crustiness vanished, and he just set her on
- his knee, and laid his wrinkled cheek against her rosy one, feeling as
- if he had got his own little granddaughter back again. Beth ceased to
- fear him from that moment, and sat there talking to him as cozily as if
- she had known him all her life, for love casts out fear, and gratitude
- can conquer pride. When she went home, he walked with her to her own
- gate, shook hands cordially, and touched his hat as he marched back
- again, looking very stately and erect, like a handsome, soldierly old
- gentleman, as he was.
- When the girls saw that performance, Jo began to dance a jig, by way of
- expressing her satisfaction, Amy nearly fell out of the window in her
- surprise, and Meg exclaimed, with up-lifted hands, "Well, I do believe
- the world is coming to an end."
- CHAPTER SEVEN
- AMY'S VALLEY OF HUMILIATION
- "That boy is a perfect cyclops, isn't he?" said Amy one day, as Laurie
- clattered by on horseback, with a flourish of his whip as he passed.
- "How dare you say so, when he's got both his eyes? And very handsome
- ones they are, too," cried Jo, who resented any slighting remarks about
- her friend.
- "I didn't say anything about his eyes, and I don't see why you need
- fire up when I admire his riding."
- "Oh, my goodness! That little goose means a centaur, and she called
- him a Cyclops," exclaimed Jo, with a burst of laughter.
- "You needn't be so rude, it's only a 'lapse of lingy', as Mr. Davis
- says," retorted Amy, finishing Jo with her Latin. "I just wish I had a
- little of the money Laurie spends on that horse," she added, as if to
- herself, yet hoping her sisters would hear.
- "Why?" asked Meg kindly, for Jo had gone off in another laugh at Amy's
- second blunder.
- "I need it so much. I'm dreadfully in debt, and it won't be my turn to
- have the rag money for a month."
- "In debt, Amy? What do you mean?" And Meg looked sober.
- "Why, I owe at least a dozen pickled limes, and I can't pay them, you
- know, till I have money, for Marmee forbade my having anything charged
- at the shop."
- "Tell me all about it. Are limes the fashion now? It used to be
- pricking bits of rubber to make balls." And Meg tried to keep her
- countenance, Amy looked so grave and important.
- "Why, you see, the girls are always buying them, and unless you want to
- be thought mean, you must do it too. It's nothing but limes now, for
- everyone is sucking them in their desks in schooltime, and trading them
- off for pencils, bead rings, paper dolls, or something else, at recess.
- If one girl likes another, she gives her a lime. If she's mad with
- her, she eats one before her face, and doesn't offer even a suck. They
- treat by turns, and I've had ever so many but haven't returned them,
- and I ought for they are debts of honor, you know."
- "How much will pay them off and restore your credit?" asked Meg, taking
- out her purse.
- "A quarter would more than do it, and leave a few cents over for a
- treat for you. Don't you like limes?"
- "Not much. You may have my share. Here's the money. Make it last as
- long as you can, for it isn't very plenty, you know."
- "Oh, thank you! It must be so nice to have pocket money! I'll have a
- grand feast, for I haven't tasted a lime this week. I felt delicate
- about taking any, as I couldn't return them, and I'm actually suffering
- for one."
- Next day Amy was rather late at school, but could not resist the
- temptation of displaying, with pardonable pride, a moist brown-paper
- parcel, before she consigned it to the inmost recesses of her desk.
- During the next few minutes the rumor that Amy March had got
- twenty-four delicious limes (she ate one on the way) and was going to
- treat circulated through her 'set', and the attentions of her friends
- became quite overwhelming. Katy Brown invited her to her next party on
- the spot. Mary Kingsley insisted on lending her her watch till recess,
- and Jenny Snow, a satirical young lady, who had basely twitted Amy upon
- her limeless state, promptly buried the hatchet and offered to furnish
- answers to certain appalling sums. But Amy had not forgotten Miss
- Snow's cutting remarks about 'some persons whose noses were not too
- flat to smell other people's limes, and stuck-up people who were not
- too proud to ask for them', and she instantly crushed 'that Snow
- girl's' hopes by the withering telegram, "You needn't be so polite all
- of a sudden, for you won't get any."
- A distinguished personage happened to visit the school that morning,
- and Amy's beautifully drawn maps received praise, which honor to her
- foe rankled in the soul of Miss Snow, and caused Miss March to assume
- the airs of a studious young peacock. But, alas, alas! Pride goes
- before a fall, and the revengeful Snow turned the tables with
- disastrous success. No sooner had the guest paid the usual stale
- compliments and bowed himself out, than Jenny, under pretense of asking
- an important question, informed Mr. Davis, the teacher, that Amy March
- had pickled limes in her desk.
- Now Mr. Davis had declared limes a contraband article, and solemnly
- vowed to publicly ferrule the first person who was found breaking the
- law. This much-enduring man had succeeded in banishing chewing gum
- after a long and stormy war, had made a bonfire of the confiscated
- novels and newspapers, had suppressed a private post office, had
- forbidden distortions of the face, nicknames, and caricatures, and done
- all that one man could do to keep half a hundred rebellious girls in
- order. Boys are trying enough to human patience, goodness knows, but
- girls are infinitely more so, especially to nervous gentlemen with
- tyrannical tempers and no more talent for teaching than Dr. Blimber.
- Mr. Davis knew any quantity of Greek, Latin, algebra, and ologies of
- all sorts so he was called a fine teacher, and manners, morals,
- feelings, and examples were not considered of any particular
- importance. It was a most unfortunate moment for denouncing Amy, and
- Jenny knew it. Mr. Davis had evidently taken his coffee too strong
- that morning, there was an east wind, which always affected his
- neuralgia, and his pupils had not done him the credit which he felt he
- deserved. Therefore, to use the expressive, if not elegant, language
- of a schoolgirl, "He was as nervous as a witch and as cross as a bear".
- The word 'limes' was like fire to powder, his yellow face flushed, and
- he rapped on his desk with an energy which made Jenny skip to her seat
- with unusual rapidity.
- "Young ladies, attention, if you please!"
- At the stern order the buzz ceased, and fifty pairs of blue, black,
- gray, and brown eyes were obediently fixed upon his awful countenance.
- "Miss March, come to the desk."
- Amy rose to comply with outward composure, but a secret fear oppressed
- her, for the limes weighed upon her conscience.
- "Bring with you the limes you have in your desk," was the unexpected
- command which arrested her before she got out of her seat.
- "Don't take all." whispered her neighbor, a young lady of great
- presence of mind.
- Amy hastily shook out half a dozen and laid the rest down before Mr.
- Davis, feeling that any man possessing a human heart would relent when
- that delicious perfume met his nose. Unfortunately, Mr. Davis
- particularly detested the odor of the fashionable pickle, and disgust
- added to his wrath.
- "Is that all?"
- "Not quite," stammered Amy.
- "Bring the rest immediately."
- With a despairing glance at her set, she obeyed.
- "You are sure there are no more?"
- "I never lie, sir."
- "So I see. Now take these disgusting things two by two, and throw them
- out of the window."
- There was a simultaneous sigh, which created quite a little gust, as
- the last hope fled, and the treat was ravished from their longing lips.
- Scarlet with shame and anger, Amy went to and fro six dreadful times,
- and as each doomed couple, looking oh, so plump and juicy, fell from
- her reluctant hands, a shout from the street completed the anguish of
- the girls, for it told them that their feast was being exulted over by
- the little Irish children, who were their sworn foes. This--this was
- too much. All flashed indignant or appealing glances at the inexorable
- Davis, and one passionate lime lover burst into tears.
- As Amy returned from her last trip, Mr. Davis gave a portentous "Hem!"
- and said, in his most impressive manner...
- "Young ladies, you remember what I said to you a week ago. I am sorry
- this has happened, but I never allow my rules to be infringed, and I
- never break my word. Miss March, hold out your hand."
- Amy started, and put both hands behind her, turning on him an imploring
- look which pleaded for her better than the words she could not utter.
- She was rather a favorite with 'old Davis', as, of course, he was
- called, and it's my private belief that he would have broken his word
- if the indignation of one irrepressible young lady had not found vent
- in a hiss. That hiss, faint as it was, irritated the irascible
- gentleman, and sealed the culprit's fate.
- "Your hand, Miss March!" was the only answer her mute appeal received,
- and too proud to cry or beseech, Amy set her teeth, threw back her head
- defiantly, and bore without flinching several tingling blows on her
- little palm. They were neither many nor heavy, but that made no
- difference to her. For the first time in her life she had been struck,
- and the disgrace, in her eyes, was as deep as if he had knocked her
- down.
- "You will now stand on the platform till recess," said Mr. Davis,
- resolved to do the thing thoroughly, since he had begun.
- That was dreadful. It would have been bad enough to go to her seat,
- and see the pitying faces of her friends, or the satisfied ones of her
- few enemies, but to face the whole school, with that shame fresh upon
- her, seemed impossible, and for a second she felt as if she could only
- drop down where she stood, and break her heart with crying. A bitter
- sense of wrong and the thought of Jenny Snow helped her to bear it,
- and, taking the ignominious place, she fixed her eyes on the stove
- funnel above what now seemed a sea of faces, and stood there, so
- motionless and white that the girls found it hard to study with that
- pathetic figure before them.
- During the fifteen minutes that followed, the proud and sensitive
- little girl suffered a shame and pain which she never forgot. To
- others it might seem a ludicrous or trivial affair, but to her it was a
- hard experience, for during the twelve years of her life she had been
- governed by love alone, and a blow of that sort had never touched her
- before. The smart of her hand and the ache of her heart were forgotten
- in the sting of the thought, "I shall have to tell at home, and they
- will be so disappointed in me!"
- The fifteen minutes seemed an hour, but they came to an end at last,
- and the word 'Recess!' had never seemed so welcome to her before.
- "You can go, Miss March," said Mr. Davis, looking, as he felt,
- uncomfortable.
- He did not soon forget the reproachful glance Amy gave him, as she
- went, without a word to anyone, straight into the anteroom, snatched
- her things, and left the place "forever," as she passionately declared
- to herself. She was in a sad state when she got home, and when the
- older girls arrived, some time later, an indignation meeting was held
- at once. Mrs. March did not say much but looked disturbed, and
- comforted her afflicted little daughter in her tenderest manner. Meg
- bathed the insulted hand with glycerine and tears, Beth felt that even
- her beloved kittens would fail as a balm for griefs like this, Jo
- wrathfully proposed that Mr. Davis be arrested without delay, and
- Hannah shook her fist at the 'villain' and pounded potatoes for dinner
- as if she had him under her pestle.
- No notice was taken of Amy's flight, except by her mates, but the
- sharp-eyed demoiselles discovered that Mr. Davis was quite benignant in
- the afternoon, also unusually nervous. Just before school closed, Jo
- appeared, wearing a grim expression as she stalked up to the desk, and
- delivered a letter from her mother, then collected Amy's property, and
- departed, carefully scraping the mud from her boots on the door mat, as
- if she shook the dust of the place off her feet.
- "Yes, you can have a vacation from school, but I want you to study a
- little every day with Beth," said Mrs. March that evening. "I don't
- approve of corporal punishment, especially for girls. I dislike Mr.
- Davis's manner of teaching and don't think the girls you associate with
- are doing you any good, so I shall ask your father's advice before I
- send you anywhere else."
- "That's good! I wish all the girls would leave, and spoil his old
- school. It's perfectly maddening to think of those lovely limes,"
- sighed Amy, with the air of a martyr.
- "I am not sorry you lost them, for you broke the rules, and deserved
- some punishment for disobedience," was the severe reply, which rather
- disappointed the young lady, who expected nothing but sympathy.
- "Do you mean you are glad I was disgraced before the whole school?"
- cried Amy.
- "I should not have chosen that way of mending a fault," replied her
- mother, "but I'm not sure that it won't do you more good than a bolder
- method. You are getting to be rather conceited, my dear, and it is
- quite time you set about correcting it. You have a good many little
- gifts and virtues, but there is no need of parading them, for conceit
- spoils the finest genius. There is not much danger that real talent or
- goodness will be overlooked long, even if it is, the consciousness of
- possessing and using it well should satisfy one, and the great charm of
- all power is modesty."
- "So it is!" cried Laurie, who was playing chess in a corner with Jo.
- "I knew a girl once, who had a really remarkable talent for music, and
- she didn't know it, never guessed what sweet little things she composed
- when she was alone, and wouldn't have believed it if anyone had told
- her."
- "I wish I'd known that nice girl. Maybe she would have helped me, I'm
- so stupid," said Beth, who stood beside him, listening eagerly.
- "You do know her, and she helps you better than anyone else could,"
- answered Laurie, looking at her with such mischievous meaning in his
- merry black eyes that Beth suddenly turned very red, and hid her face
- in the sofa cushion, quite overcome by such an unexpected discovery.
- Jo let Laurie win the game to pay for that praise of her Beth, who
- could not be prevailed upon to play for them after her compliment. So
- Laurie did his best, and sang delightfully, being in a particularly
- lively humor, for to the Marches he seldom showed the moody side of his
- character. When he was gone, Amy, who had been pensive all evening,
- said suddenly, as if busy over some new idea, "Is Laurie an
- accomplished boy?"
- "Yes, he has had an excellent education, and has much talent. He will
- make a fine man, if not spoiled by petting," replied her mother.
- "And he isn't conceited, is he?" asked Amy.
- "Not in the least. That is why he is so charming and we all like him
- so much."
- "I see. It's nice to have accomplishments and be elegant, but not to
- show off or get perked up," said Amy thoughtfully.
- "These things are always seen and felt in a person's manner and
- conversations, if modestly used, but it is not necessary to display
- them," said Mrs. March.
- "Any more than it's proper to wear all your bonnets and gowns and
- ribbons at once, that folks may know you've got them," added Jo, and
- the lecture ended in a laugh.
- CHAPTER EIGHT
- JO MEETS APOLLYON
- "Girls, where are you going?" asked Amy, coming into their room one
- Saturday afternoon, and finding them getting ready to go out with an
- air of secrecy which excited her curiosity.
- "Never mind. Little girls shouldn't ask questions," returned Jo
- sharply.
- Now if there is anything mortifying to our feelings when we are young,
- it is to be told that, and to be bidden to "run away, dear" is still
- more trying to us. Amy bridled up at this insult, and determined to
- find out the secret, if she teased for an hour. Turning to Meg, who
- never refused her anything very long, she said coaxingly, "Do tell me!
- I should think you might let me go, too, for Beth is fussing over her
- piano, and I haven't got anything to do, and am so lonely."
- "I can't, dear, because you aren't invited," began Meg, but Jo broke in
- impatiently, "Now, Meg, be quiet or you will spoil it all. You can't
- go, Amy, so don't be a baby and whine about it."
- "You are going somewhere with Laurie, I know you are. You were
- whispering and laughing together on the sofa last night, and you
- stopped when I came in. Aren't you going with him?"
- "Yes, we are. Now do be still, and stop bothering."
- Amy held her tongue, but used her eyes, and saw Meg slip a fan into her
- pocket.
- "I know! I know! You're going to the theater to see the _Seven
- Castles!_" she cried, adding resolutely, "and I shall go, for Mother
- said I might see it, and I've got my rag money, and it was mean not to
- tell me in time."
- "Just listen to me a minute, and be a good child," said Meg soothingly.
- "Mother doesn't wish you to go this week, because your eyes are not
- well enough yet to bear the light of this fairy piece. Next week you
- can go with Beth and Hannah, and have a nice time."
- "I don't like that half as well as going with you and Laurie. Please
- let me. I've been sick with this cold so long, and shut up, I'm dying
- for some fun. Do, Meg! I'll be ever so good," pleaded Amy, looking as
- pathetic as she could.
- "Suppose we take her. I don't believe Mother would mind, if we bundle
- her up well," began Meg.
- "If she goes I shan't, and if I don't, Laurie won't like it, and it
- will be very rude, after he invited only us, to go and drag in Amy. I
- should think she'd hate to poke herself where she isn't wanted," said
- Jo crossly, for she disliked the trouble of overseeing a fidgety child
- when she wanted to enjoy herself.
- Her tone and manner angered Amy, who began to put her boots on, saying,
- in her most aggravating way, "I shall go. Meg says I may, and if I pay
- for myself, Laurie hasn't anything to do with it."
- "You can't sit with us, for our seats are reserved, and you mustn't sit
- alone, so Laurie will give you his place, and that will spoil our
- pleasure. Or he'll get another seat for you, and that isn't proper
- when you weren't asked. You shan't stir a step, so you may just stay
- where you are," scolded Jo, crosser than ever, having just pricked her
- finger in her hurry.
- Sitting on the floor with one boot on, Amy began to cry and Meg to
- reason with her, when Laurie called from below, and the two girls
- hurried down, leaving their sister wailing. For now and then she
- forgot her grown-up ways and acted like a spoiled child. Just as the
- party was setting out, Amy called over the banisters in a threatening
- tone, "You'll be sorry for this, Jo March, see if you ain't."
- "Fiddlesticks!" returned Jo, slamming the door.
- They had a charming time, for _The Seven Castles Of The Diamond Lake_
- was as brilliant and wonderful as heart could wish. But in spite of the
- comical red imps, sparkling elves, and the gorgeous princes and
- princesses, Jo's pleasure had a drop of bitterness in it. The fairy
- queen's yellow curls reminded her of Amy, and between the acts she
- amused herself with wondering what her sister would do to make her
- 'sorry for it'. She and Amy had had many lively skirmishes in the
- course of their lives, for both had quick tempers and were apt to be
- violent when fairly roused. Amy teased Jo, and Jo irritated Amy, and
- semioccasional explosions occurred, of which both were much ashamed
- afterward. Although the oldest, Jo had the least self-control, and had
- hard times trying to curb the fiery spirit which was continually
- getting her into trouble. Her anger never lasted long, and having
- humbly confessed her fault, she sincerely repented and tried to do
- better. Her sisters used to say that they rather liked to get Jo into a
- fury because she was such an angel afterward. Poor Jo tried
- desperately to be good, but her bosom enemy was always ready to flame
- up and defeat her, and it took years of patient effort to subdue it.
- When they got home, they found Amy reading in the parlor. She assumed
- an injured air as they came in, never lifted her eyes from her book, or
- asked a single question. Perhaps curiosity might have conquered
- resentment, if Beth had not been there to inquire and receive a glowing
- description of the play. On going up to put away her best hat, Jo's
- first look was toward the bureau, for in their last quarrel Amy had
- soothed her feelings by turning Jo's top drawer upside down on the
- floor. Everything was in its place, however, and after a hasty glance
- into her various closets, bags, and boxes, Jo decided that Amy had
- forgiven and forgotten her wrongs.
- There Jo was mistaken, for next day she made a discovery which produced
- a tempest. Meg, Beth, and Amy were sitting together, late in the
- afternoon, when Jo burst into the room, looking excited and demanding
- breathlessly, "Has anyone taken my book?"
- Meg and Beth said, "No." at once, and looked surprised. Amy poked the
- fire and said nothing. Jo saw her color rise and was down upon her in
- a minute.
- "Amy, you've got it!"
- "No, I haven't."
- "You know where it is, then!"
- "No, I don't."
- "That's a fib!" cried Jo, taking her by the shoulders, and looking
- fierce enough to frighten a much braver child than Amy.
- "It isn't. I haven't got it, don't know where it is now, and don't
- care."
- "You know something about it, and you'd better tell at once, or I'll
- make you." And Jo gave her a slight shake.
- "Scold as much as you like, you'll never see your silly old book
- again," cried Amy, getting excited in her turn.
- "Why not?"
- "I burned it up."
- "What! My little book I was so fond of, and worked over, and meant to
- finish before Father got home? Have you really burned it?" said Jo,
- turning very pale, while her eyes kindled and her hands clutched Amy
- nervously.
- "Yes, I did! I told you I'd make you pay for being so cross yesterday,
- and I have, so..."
- Amy got no farther, for Jo's hot temper mastered her, and she shook Amy
- till her teeth chattered in her head, crying in a passion of grief and
- anger...
- "You wicked, wicked girl! I never can write it again, and I'll never
- forgive you as long as I live."
- Meg flew to rescue Amy, and Beth to pacify Jo, but Jo was quite beside
- herself, and with a parting box on her sister's ear, she rushed out of
- the room up to the old sofa in the garret, and finished her fight alone.
- The storm cleared up below, for Mrs. March came home, and, having heard
- the story, soon brought Amy to a sense of the wrong she had done her
- sister. Jo's book was the pride of her heart, and was regarded by her
- family as a literary sprout of great promise. It was only half a dozen
- little fairy tales, but Jo had worked over them patiently, putting her
- whole heart into her work, hoping to make something good enough to
- print. She had just copied them with great care, and had destroyed the
- old manuscript, so that Amy's bonfire had consumed the loving work of
- several years. It seemed a small loss to others, but to Jo it was a
- dreadful calamity, and she felt that it never could be made up to her.
- Beth mourned as for a departed kitten, and Meg refused to defend her
- pet. Mrs. March looked grave and grieved, and Amy felt that no one
- would love her till she had asked pardon for the act which she now
- regretted more than any of them.
- When the tea bell rang, Jo appeared, looking so grim and unapproachable
- that it took all Amy's courage to say meekly...
- "Please forgive me, Jo. I'm very, very sorry."
- "I never shall forgive you," was Jo's stern answer, and from that
- moment she ignored Amy entirely.
- No one spoke of the great trouble, not even Mrs. March, for all had
- learned by experience that when Jo was in that mood words were wasted,
- and the wisest course was to wait till some little accident, or her own
- generous nature, softened Jo's resentment and healed the breach. It
- was not a happy evening, for though they sewed as usual, while their
- mother read aloud from Bremer, Scott, or Edgeworth, something was
- wanting, and the sweet home peace was disturbed. They felt this most
- when singing time came, for Beth could only play, Jo stood dumb as a
- stone, and Amy broke down, so Meg and Mother sang alone. But in spite
- of their efforts to be as cheery as larks, the flutelike voices did not
- seem to chord as well as usual, and all felt out of tune.
- As Jo received her good-night kiss, Mrs. March whispered gently, "My
- dear, don't let the sun go down upon your anger. Forgive each other,
- help each other, and begin again tomorrow."
- Jo wanted to lay her head down on that motherly bosom, and cry her
- grief and anger all away, but tears were an unmanly weakness, and she
- felt so deeply injured that she really couldn't quite forgive yet. So
- she winked hard, shook her head, and said gruffly because Amy was
- listening, "It was an abominable thing, and she doesn't deserve to be
- forgiven."
- With that she marched off to bed, and there was no merry or
- confidential gossip that night.
- Amy was much offended that her overtures of peace had been repulsed,
- and began to wish she had not humbled herself, to feel more injured
- than ever, and to plume herself on her superior virtue in a way which
- was particularly exasperating. Jo still looked like a thunder cloud,
- and nothing went well all day. It was bitter cold in the morning, she
- dropped her precious turnover in the gutter, Aunt March had an attack
- of the fidgets, Meg was sensitive, Beth would look grieved and wistful
- when she got home, and Amy kept making remarks about people who were
- always talking about being good and yet wouldn't even try when other
- people set them a virtuous example.
- "Everybody is so hateful, I'll ask Laurie to go skating. He is always
- kind and jolly, and will put me to rights, I know," said Jo to herself,
- and off she went.
- Amy heard the clash of skates, and looked out with an impatient
- exclamation.
- "There! She promised I should go next time, for this is the last ice
- we shall have. But it's no use to ask such a crosspatch to take me."
- "Don't say that. You were very naughty, and it is hard to forgive the
- loss of her precious little book, but I think she might do it now, and
- I guess she will, if you try her at the right minute," said Meg. "Go
- after them. Don't say anything till Jo has got good-natured with
- Laurie, than take a quiet minute and just kiss her, or do some kind
- thing, and I'm sure she'll be friends again with all her heart."
- "I'll try," said Amy, for the advice suited her, and after a flurry to
- get ready, she ran after the friends, who were just disappearing over
- the hill.
- It was not far to the river, but both were ready before Amy reached
- them. Jo saw her coming, and turned her back. Laurie did not see, for
- he was carefully skating along the shore, sounding the ice, for a warm
- spell had preceded the cold snap.
- "I'll go on to the first bend, and see if it's all right before we
- begin to race," Amy heard him say, as he shot away, looking like a
- young Russian in his fur-trimmed coat and cap.
- Jo heard Amy panting after her run, stamping her feet and blowing on
- her fingers as she tried to put her skates on, but Jo never turned and
- went slowly zigzagging down the river, taking a bitter, unhappy sort of
- satisfaction in her sister's troubles. She had cherished her anger till
- it grew strong and took possession of her, as evil thoughts and
- feelings always do unless cast out at once. As Laurie turned the bend,
- he shouted back...
- "Keep near the shore. It isn't safe in the middle." Jo heard, but Amy
- was struggling to her feet and did not catch a word. Jo glanced over
- her shoulder, and the little demon she was harboring said in her ear...
- "No matter whether she heard or not, let her take care of herself."
- Laurie had vanished round the bend, Jo was just at the turn, and Amy,
- far behind, striking out toward the smoother ice in the middle of the
- river. For a minute Jo stood still with a strange feeling in her
- heart, then she resolved to go on, but something held and turned her
- round, just in time to see Amy throw up her hands and go down, with a
- sudden crash of rotten ice, the splash of water, and a cry that made
- Jo's heart stand still with fear. She tried to call Laurie, but her
- voice was gone. She tried to rush forward, but her feet seemed to have
- no strength in them, and for a second, she could only stand motionless,
- staring with a terror-stricken face at the little blue hood above the
- black water. Something rushed swiftly by her, and Laurie's voice cried
- out...
- "Bring a rail. Quick, quick!"
- How she did it, she never knew, but for the next few minutes she worked
- as if possessed, blindly obeying Laurie, who was quite self-possessed,
- and lying flat, held Amy up by his arm and hockey stick till Jo dragged
- a rail from the fence, and together they got the child out, more
- frightened than hurt.
- "Now then, we must walk her home as fast as we can. Pile our things on
- her, while I get off these confounded skates," cried Laurie, wrapping
- his coat round Amy, and tugging away at the straps which never seemed
- so intricate before.
- Shivering, dripping, and crying, they got Amy home, and after an
- exciting time of it, she fell asleep, rolled in blankets before a hot
- fire. During the bustle Jo had scarcely spoken but flown about,
- looking pale and wild, with her things half off, her dress torn, and
- her hands cut and bruised by ice and rails and refractory buckles. When
- Amy was comfortably asleep, the house quiet, and Mrs. March sitting by
- the bed, she called Jo to her and began to bind up the hurt hands.
- "Are you sure she is safe?" whispered Jo, looking remorsefully at the
- golden head, which might have been swept away from her sight forever
- under the treacherous ice.
- "Quite safe, dear. She is not hurt, and won't even take cold, I think,
- you were so sensible in covering and getting her home quickly," replied
- her mother cheerfully.
- "Laurie did it all. I only let her go. Mother, if she should die, it
- would be my fault." And Jo dropped down beside the bed in a passion of
- penitent tears, telling all that had happened, bitterly condemning her
- hardness of heart, and sobbing out her gratitude for being spared the
- heavy punishment which might have come upon her.
- "It's my dreadful temper! I try to cure it, I think I have, and then
- it breaks out worse than ever. Oh, Mother, what shall I do? What
- shall I do?" cried poor Jo, in despair.
- "Watch and pray, dear, never get tired of trying, and never think it is
- impossible to conquer your fault," said Mrs. March, drawing the blowzy
- head to her shoulder and kissing the wet cheek so tenderly that Jo
- cried even harder.
- "You don't know, you can't guess how bad it is! It seems as if I could
- do anything when I'm in a passion. I get so savage, I could hurt
- anyone and enjoy it. I'm afraid I shall do something dreadful some
- day, and spoil my life, and make everybody hate me. Oh, Mother, help
- me, do help me!"
- "I will, my child, I will. Don't cry so bitterly, but remember this
- day, and resolve with all your soul that you will never know another
- like it. Jo, dear, we all have our temptations, some far greater than
- yours, and it often takes us all our lives to conquer them. You think
- your temper is the worst in the world, but mine used to be just like
- it."
- "Yours, Mother? Why, you are never angry!" And for the moment Jo
- forgot remorse in surprise.
- "I've been trying to cure it for forty years, and have only succeeded
- in controlling it. I am angry nearly every day of my life, Jo, but I
- have learned not to show it, and I still hope to learn not to feel it,
- though it may take me another forty years to do so."
- The patience and the humility of the face she loved so well was a
- better lesson to Jo than the wisest lecture, the sharpest reproof. She
- felt comforted at once by the sympathy and confidence given her. The
- knowledge that her mother had a fault like hers, and tried to mend it,
- made her own easier to bear and strengthened her resolution to cure it,
- though forty years seemed rather a long time to watch and pray to a
- girl of fifteen.
- "Mother, are you angry when you fold your lips tight together and go
- out of the room sometimes, when Aunt March scolds or people worry you?"
- asked Jo, feeling nearer and dearer to her mother than ever before.
- "Yes, I've learned to check the hasty words that rise to my lips, and
- when I feel that they mean to break out against my will, I just go away
- for a minute, and give myself a little shake for being so weak and
- wicked," answered Mrs. March with a sigh and a smile, as she smoothed
- and fastened up Jo's disheveled hair.
- "How did you learn to keep still? That is what troubles me, for the
- sharp words fly out before I know what I'm about, and the more I say
- the worse I get, till it's a pleasure to hurt people's feelings and say
- dreadful things. Tell me how you do it, Marmee dear."
- "My good mother used to help me..."
- "As you do us..." interrupted Jo, with a grateful kiss.
- "But I lost her when I was a little older than you are, and for years
- had to struggle on alone, for I was too proud to confess my weakness to
- anyone else. I had a hard time, Jo, and shed a good many bitter tears
- over my failures, for in spite of my efforts I never seemed to get on.
- Then your father came, and I was so happy that I found it easy to be
- good. But by-and-by, when I had four little daughters round me and we
- were poor, then the old trouble began again, for I am not patient by
- nature, and it tried me very much to see my children wanting anything."
- "Poor Mother! What helped you then?"
- "Your father, Jo. He never loses patience, never doubts or complains,
- but always hopes, and works and waits so cheerfully that one is ashamed
- to do otherwise before him. He helped and comforted me, and showed me
- that I must try to practice all the virtues I would have my little
- girls possess, for I was their example. It was easier to try for your
- sakes than for my own. A startled or surprised look from one of you
- when I spoke sharply rebuked me more than any words could have done,
- and the love, respect, and confidence of my children was the sweetest
- reward I could receive for my efforts to be the woman I would have them
- copy."
- "Oh, Mother, if I'm ever half as good as you, I shall be satisfied,"
- cried Jo, much touched.
- "I hope you will be a great deal better, dear, but you must keep watch
- over your 'bosom enemy', as father calls it, or it may sadden, if not
- spoil your life. You have had a warning. Remember it, and try with
- heart and soul to master this quick temper, before it brings you
- greater sorrow and regret than you have known today."
- "I will try, Mother, I truly will. But you must help me, remind me,
- and keep me from flying out. I used to see Father sometimes put his
- finger on his lips, and look at you with a very kind but sober face,
- and you always folded your lips tight and went away. Was he reminding
- you then?" asked Jo softly.
- "Yes. I asked him to help me so, and he never forgot it, but saved me
- from many a sharp word by that little gesture and kind look."
- Jo saw that her mother's eyes filled and her lips trembled as she
- spoke, and fearing that she had said too much, she whispered anxiously,
- "Was it wrong to watch you and to speak of it? I didn't mean to be
- rude, but it's so comfortable to say all I think to you, and feel so
- safe and happy here."
- "My Jo, you may say anything to your mother, for it is my greatest
- happiness and pride to feel that my girls confide in me and know how
- much I love them."
- "I thought I'd grieved you."
- "No, dear, but speaking of Father reminded me how much I miss him, how
- much I owe him, and how faithfully I should watch and work to keep his
- little daughters safe and good for him."
- "Yet you told him to go, Mother, and didn't cry when he went, and never
- complain now, or seem as if you needed any help," said Jo, wondering.
- "I gave my best to the country I love, and kept my tears till he was
- gone. Why should I complain, when we both have merely done our duty
- and will surely be the happier for it in the end? If I don't seem to
- need help, it is because I have a better friend, even than Father, to
- comfort and sustain me. My child, the troubles and temptations of your
- life are beginning and may be many, but you can overcome and outlive
- them all if you learn to feel the strength and tenderness of your
- Heavenly Father as you do that of your earthly one. The more you love
- and trust Him, the nearer you will feel to Him, and the less you will
- depend on human power and wisdom. His love and care never tire or
- change, can never be taken from you, but may become the source of
- lifelong peace, happiness, and strength. Believe this heartily, and go
- to God with all your little cares, and hopes, and sins, and sorrows, as
- freely and confidingly as you come to your mother."
- Jo's only answer was to hold her mother close, and in the silence which
- followed the sincerest prayer she had ever prayed left her heart
- without words. For in that sad yet happy hour, she had learned not
- only the bitterness of remorse and despair, but the sweetness of
- self-denial and self-control, and led by her mother's hand, she had
- drawn nearer to the Friend who always welcomes every child with a love
- stronger than that of any father, tenderer than that of any mother.
- Amy stirred and sighed in her sleep, and as if eager to begin at once
- to mend her fault, Jo looked up with an expression on her face which it
- had never worn before.
- "I let the sun go down on my anger. I wouldn't forgive her, and today,
- if it hadn't been for Laurie, it might have been too late! How could I
- be so wicked?" said Jo, half aloud, as she leaned over her sister
- softly stroking the wet hair scattered on the pillow.
- As if she heard, Amy opened her eyes, and held out her arms, with a
- smile that went straight to Jo's heart. Neither said a word, but they
- hugged one another close, in spite of the blankets, and everything was
- forgiven and forgotten in one hearty kiss.
- CHAPTER NINE
- MEG GOES TO VANITY FAIR
- "I do think it was the most fortunate thing in the world that those
- children should have the measles just now," said Meg, one April day, as
- she stood packing the 'go abroady' trunk in her room, surrounded by her
- sisters.
- "And so nice of Annie Moffat not to forget her promise. A whole
- fortnight of fun will be regularly splendid," replied Jo, looking like
- a windmill as she folded skirts with her long arms.
- "And such lovely weather, I'm so glad of that," added Beth, tidily
- sorting neck and hair ribbons in her best box, lent for the great
- occasion.
- "I wish I was going to have a fine time and wear all these nice
- things," said Amy with her mouth full of pins, as she artistically
- replenished her sister's cushion.
- "I wish you were all going, but as you can't, I shall keep my
- adventures to tell you when I come back. I'm sure it's the least I can
- do when you have been so kind, lending me things and helping me get
- ready," said Meg, glancing round the room at the very simple outfit,
- which seemed nearly perfect in their eyes.
- "What did Mother give you out of the treasure box?" asked Amy, who had
- not been present at the opening of a certain cedar chest in which Mrs.
- March kept a few relics of past splendor, as gifts for her girls when
- the proper time came.
- "A pair of silk stockings, that pretty carved fan, and a lovely blue
- sash. I wanted the violet silk, but there isn't time to make it over,
- so I must be contented with my old tarlaton."
- "It will look nice over my new muslin skirt, and the sash will set it
- off beautifully. I wish I hadn't smashed my coral bracelet, for you
- might have had it," said Jo, who loved to give and lend, but whose
- possessions were usually too dilapidated to be of much use.
- "There is a lovely old-fashioned pearl set in the treasure chest, but
- Mother said real flowers were the prettiest ornament for a young girl,
- and Laurie promised to send me all I want," replied Meg. "Now, let me
- see, there's my new gray walking suit, just curl up the feather in my
- hat, Beth, then my poplin for Sunday and the small party, it looks
- heavy for spring, doesn't it? The violet silk would be so nice. Oh,
- dear!"
- "Never mind, you've got the tarlaton for the big party, and you always
- look like an angel in white," said Amy, brooding over the little store
- of finery in which her soul delighted.
- "It isn't low-necked, and it doesn't sweep enough, but it will have to
- do. My blue housedress looks so well, turned and freshly trimmed, that
- I feel as if I'd got a new one. My silk sacque isn't a bit the
- fashion, and my bonnet doesn't look like Sallie's. I didn't like to
- say anything, but I was sadly disappointed in my umbrella. I told
- Mother black with a white handle, but she forgot and bought a green one
- with a yellowish handle. It's strong and neat, so I ought not to
- complain, but I know I shall feel ashamed of it beside Annie's silk one
- with a gold top," sighed Meg, surveying the little umbrella with great
- disfavor.
- "Change it," advised Jo.
- "I won't be so silly, or hurt Marmee's feelings, when she took so much
- pains to get my things. It's a nonsensical notion of mine, and I'm not
- going to give up to it. My silk stockings and two pairs of new gloves
- are my comfort. You are a dear to lend me yours, Jo. I feel so rich
- and sort of elegant, with two new pairs, and the old ones cleaned up
- for common." And Meg took a refreshing peep at her glove box.
- "Annie Moffat has blue and pink bows on her nightcaps. Would you put
- some on mine?" she asked, as Beth brought up a pile of snowy muslins,
- fresh from Hannah's hands.
- "No, I wouldn't, for the smart caps won't match the plain gowns without
- any trimming on them. Poor folks shouldn't rig," said Jo decidedly.
- "I wonder if I shall ever be happy enough to have real lace on my
- clothes and bows on my caps?" said Meg impatiently.
- "You said the other day that you'd be perfectly happy if you could only
- go to Annie Moffat's," observed Beth in her quiet way.
- "So I did! Well, I am happy, and I won't fret, but it does seem as if
- the more one gets the more one wants, doesn't it? There now, the trays
- are ready, and everything in but my ball dress, which I shall leave for
- Mother to pack," said Meg, cheering up, as she glanced from the
- half-filled trunk to the many times pressed and mended white tarlaton,
- which she called her 'ball dress' with an important air.
- The next day was fine, and Meg departed in style for a fortnight of
- novelty and pleasure. Mrs. March had consented to the visit rather
- reluctantly, fearing that Margaret would come back more discontented
- than she went. But she begged so hard, and Sallie had promised to take
- good care of her, and a little pleasure seemed so delightful after a
- winter of irksome work that the mother yielded, and the daughter went
- to take her first taste of fashionable life.
- The Moffats were very fashionable, and simple Meg was rather daunted,
- at first, by the splendor of the house and the elegance of its
- occupants. But they were kindly people, in spite of the frivolous life
- they led, and soon put their guest at her ease. Perhaps Meg felt,
- without understanding why, that they were not particularly cultivated
- or intelligent people, and that all their gilding could not quite
- conceal the ordinary material of which they were made. It certainly
- was agreeable to fare sumptuously, drive in a fine carriage, wear her
- best frock every day, and do nothing but enjoy herself. It suited her
- exactly, and soon she began to imitate the manners and conversation of
- those about her, to put on little airs and graces, use French phrases,
- crimp her hair, take in her dresses, and talk about the fashions as
- well as she could. The more she saw of Annie Moffat's pretty things,
- the more she envied her and sighed to be rich. Home now looked bare
- and dismal as she thought of it, work grew harder than ever, and she
- felt that she was a very destitute and much-injured girl, in spite of
- the new gloves and silk stockings.
- She had not much time for repining, however, for the three young girls
- were busily employed in 'having a good time'. They shopped, walked,
- rode, and called all day, went to theaters and operas or frolicked at
- home in the evening, for Annie had many friends and knew how to
- entertain them. Her older sisters were very fine young ladies, and one
- was engaged, which was extremely interesting and romantic, Meg thought.
- Mr. Moffat was a fat, jolly old gentleman, who knew her father, and
- Mrs. Moffat, a fat, jolly old lady, who took as great a fancy to Meg as
- her daughter had done. Everyone petted her, and 'Daisey', as they
- called her, was in a fair way to have her head turned.
- When the evening for the small party came, she found that the poplin
- wouldn't do at all, for the other girls were putting on thin dresses
- and making themselves very fine indeed. So out came the tarlatan,
- looking older, limper, and shabbier than ever beside Sallie's crisp new
- one. Meg saw the girls glance at it and then at one another, and her
- cheeks began to burn, for with all her gentleness she was very proud.
- No one said a word about it, but Sallie offered to dress her hair, and
- Annie to tie her sash, and Belle, the engaged sister, praised her white
- arms. But in their kindness Meg saw only pity for her poverty, and her
- heart felt very heavy as she stood by herself, while the others
- laughed, chattered, and flew about like gauzy butterflies. The hard,
- bitter feeling was getting pretty bad, when the maid brought in a box
- of flowers. Before she could speak, Annie had the cover off, and all
- were exclaiming at the lovely roses, heath, and fern within.
- "It's for Belle, of course, George always sends her some, but these are
- altogether ravishing," cried Annie, with a great sniff.
- "They are for Miss March, the man said. And here's a note," put in the
- maid, holding it to Meg.
- "What fun! Who are they from? Didn't know you had a lover," cried the
- girls, fluttering about Meg in a high state of curiosity and surprise.
- "The note is from Mother, and the flowers from Laurie," said Meg
- simply, yet much gratified that he had not forgotten her.
- "Oh, indeed!" said Annie with a funny look, as Meg slipped the note
- into her pocket as a sort of talisman against envy, vanity, and false
- pride, for the few loving words had done her good, and the flowers
- cheered her up by their beauty.
- Feeling almost happy again, she laid by a few ferns and roses for
- herself, and quickly made up the rest in dainty bouquets for the
- breasts, hair, or skirts of her friends, offering them so prettily that
- Clara, the elder sister, told her she was 'the sweetest little thing
- she ever saw', and they looked quite charmed with her small attention.
- Somehow the kind act finished her despondency, and when all the rest
- went to show themselves to Mrs. Moffat, she saw a happy, bright-eyed
- face in the mirror, as she laid her ferns against her rippling hair and
- fastened the roses in the dress that didn't strike her as so very
- shabby now.
- She enjoyed herself very much that evening, for she danced to her
- heart's content. Everyone was very kind, and she had three
- compliments. Annie made her sing, and some one said she had a
- remarkably fine voice. Major Lincoln asked who 'the fresh little girl
- with the beautiful eyes' was, and Mr. Moffat insisted on dancing with
- her because she 'didn't dawdle, but had some spring in her', as he
- gracefully expressed it. So altogether she had a very nice time, till
- she overheard a bit of conversation, which disturbed her extremely.
- She was sitting just inside the conservatory, waiting for her partner
- to bring her an ice, when she heard a voice ask on the other side of
- the flowery wall...
- "How old is he?"
- "Sixteen or seventeen, I should say," replied another voice.
- "It would be a grand thing for one of those girls, wouldn't it? Sallie
- says they are very intimate now, and the old man quite dotes on them."
- "Mrs. M. has made her plans, I dare say, and will play her cards well,
- early as it is. The girl evidently doesn't think of it yet," said Mrs.
- Moffat.
- "She told that fib about her momma, as if she did know, and colored up
- when the flowers came quite prettily. Poor thing! She'd be so nice if
- she was only got up in style. Do you think she'd be offended if we
- offered to lend her a dress for Thursday?" asked another voice.
- "She's proud, but I don't believe she'd mind, for that dowdy tarlaton
- is all she has got. She may tear it tonight, and that will be a good
- excuse for offering a decent one."
- Here Meg's partner appeared, to find her looking much flushed and
- rather agitated. She was proud, and her pride was useful just then,
- for it helped her hide her mortification, anger, and disgust at what
- she had just heard. For, innocent and unsuspicious as she was, she
- could not help understanding the gossip of her friends. She tried to
- forget it, but could not, and kept repeating to herself, "Mrs. M. has
- made her plans," "that fib about her mamma," and "dowdy tarlaton," till
- she was ready to cry and rush home to tell her troubles and ask for
- advice. As that was impossible, she did her best to seem gay, and
- being rather excited, she succeeded so well that no one dreamed what an
- effort she was making. She was very glad when it was all over and she
- was quiet in her bed, where she could think and wonder and fume till
- her head ached and her hot cheeks were cooled by a few natural tears.
- Those foolish, yet well meant words, had opened a new world to Meg, and
- much disturbed the peace of the old one in which till now she had lived
- as happily as a child. Her innocent friendship with Laurie was spoiled
- by the silly speeches she had overheard. Her faith in her mother was a
- little shaken by the worldly plans attributed to her by Mrs. Moffat,
- who judged others by herself, and the sensible resolution to be
- contented with the simple wardrobe which suited a poor man's daughter
- was weakened by the unnecessary pity of girls who thought a shabby
- dress one of the greatest calamities under heaven.
- Poor Meg had a restless night, and got up heavy-eyed, unhappy, half
- resentful toward her friends, and half ashamed of herself for not
- speaking out frankly and setting everything right. Everybody dawdled
- that morning, and it was noon before the girls found energy enough even
- to take up their worsted work. Something in the manner of her friends
- struck Meg at once. They treated her with more respect, she thought,
- took quite a tender interest in what she said, and looked at her with
- eyes that plainly betrayed curiosity. All this surprised and flattered
- her, though she did not understand it till Miss Belle looked up from
- her writing, and said, with a sentimental air...
- "Daisy, dear, I've sent an invitation to your friend, Mr. Laurence, for
- Thursday. We should like to know him, and it's only a proper
- compliment to you."
- Meg colored, but a mischievous fancy to tease the girls made her reply
- demurely, "You are very kind, but I'm afraid he won't come."
- "Why not, Cherie?" asked Miss Belle.
- "He's too old."
- "My child, what do you mean? What is his age, I beg to know!" cried
- Miss Clara.
- "Nearly seventy, I believe," answered Meg, counting stitches to hide
- the merriment in her eyes.
- "You sly creature! Of course we meant the young man," exclaimed Miss
- Belle, laughing.
- "There isn't any, Laurie is only a little boy." And Meg laughed also
- at the queer look which the sisters exchanged as she thus described her
- supposed lover.
- "About your age," Nan said.
- "Nearer my sister Jo's; I am seventeen in August," returned Meg,
- tossing her head.
- "It's very nice of him to send you flowers, isn't it?" said Annie,
- looking wise about nothing.
- "Yes, he often does, to all of us, for their house is full, and we are
- so fond of them. My mother and old Mr. Laurence are friends, you know,
- so it is quite natural that we children should play together," and Meg
- hoped they would say no more.
- "It's evident Daisy isn't out yet," said Miss Clara to Belle with a nod.
- "Quite a pastoral state of innocence all round," returned Miss Belle
- with a shrug.
- "I'm going out to get some little matters for my girls. Can I do
- anything for you, young ladies?" asked Mrs. Moffat, lumbering in like
- an elephant in silk and lace.
- "No, thank you, ma'am," replied Sallie. "I've got my new pink silk for
- Thursday and don't want a thing."
- "Nor I..." began Meg, but stopped because it occurred to her that she
- did want several things and could not have them.
- "What shall you wear?" asked Sallie.
- "My old white one again, if I can mend it fit to be seen, it got sadly
- torn last night," said Meg, trying to speak quite easily, but feeling
- very uncomfortable.
- "Why don't you send home for another?" said Sallie, who was not an
- observing young lady.
- "I haven't got any other." It cost Meg an effort to say that, but
- Sallie did not see it and exclaimed in amiable surprise, "Only that?
- How funny..." She did not finish her speech, for Belle shook her head
- at her and broke in, saying kindly...
- "Not at all. Where is the use of having a lot of dresses when she
- isn't out yet? There's no need of sending home, Daisy, even if you had
- a dozen, for I've got a sweet blue silk laid away, which I've outgrown,
- and you shall wear it to please me, won't you, dear?"
- "You are very kind, but I don't mind my old dress if you don't, it does
- well enough for a little girl like me," said Meg.
- "Now do let me please myself by dressing you up in style. I admire to
- do it, and you'd be a regular little beauty with a touch here and
- there. I shan't let anyone see you till you are done, and then we'll
- burst upon them like Cinderella and her godmother going to the ball,"
- said Belle in her persuasive tone.
- Meg couldn't refuse the offer so kindly made, for a desire to see if
- she would be 'a little beauty' after touching up caused her to accept
- and forget all her former uncomfortable feelings toward the Moffats.
- On the Thursday evening, Belle shut herself up with her maid, and
- between them they turned Meg into a fine lady. They crimped and curled
- her hair, they polished her neck and arms with some fragrant powder,
- touched her lips with coralline salve to make them redder, and Hortense
- would have added 'a soupcon of rouge', if Meg had not rebelled. They
- laced her into a sky-blue dress, which was so tight she could hardly
- breathe and so low in the neck that modest Meg blushed at herself in
- the mirror. A set of silver filagree was added, bracelets, necklace,
- brooch, and even earrings, for Hortense tied them on with a bit of pink
- silk which did not show. A cluster of tea-rose buds at the bosom, and
- a ruche, reconciled Meg to the display of her pretty, white shoulders,
- and a pair of high-heeled silk boots satisfied the last wish of her
- heart. A lace handkerchief, a plumy fan, and a bouquet in a shoulder
- holder finished her off, and Miss Belle surveyed her with the
- satisfaction of a little girl with a newly dressed doll.
- "Mademoiselle is charmante, tres jolie, is she not?" cried Hortense,
- clasping her hands in an affected rapture.
- "Come and show yourself," said Miss Belle, leading the way to the room
- where the others were waiting.
- As Meg went rustling after, with her long skirts trailing, her earrings
- tinkling, her curls waving, and her heart beating, she felt as if her
- fun had really begun at last, for the mirror had plainly told her that
- she was 'a little beauty'. Her friends repeated the pleasing phrase
- enthusiastically, and for several minutes she stood, like a jackdaw in
- the fable, enjoying her borrowed plumes, while the rest chattered like
- a party of magpies.
- "While I dress, do you drill her, Nan, in the management of her skirt
- and those French heels, or she will trip herself up. Take your silver
- butterfly, and catch up that long curl on the left side of her head,
- Clara, and don't any of you disturb the charming work of my hands,"
- said Belle, as she hurried away, looking well pleased with her success.
- "You don't look a bit like yourself, but you are very nice. I'm nowhere
- beside you, for Belle has heaps of taste, and you're quite French, I
- assure you. Let your flowers hang, don't be so careful of them, and be
- sure you don't trip," returned Sallie, trying not to care that Meg was
- prettier than herself.
- Keeping that warning carefully in mind, Margaret got safely down stairs
- and sailed into the drawing rooms where the Moffats and a few early
- guests were assembled. She very soon discovered that there is a charm
- about fine clothes which attracts a certain class of people and secures
- their respect. Several young ladies, who had taken no notice of her
- before, were very affectionate all of a sudden. Several young
- gentlemen, who had only stared at her at the other party, now not only
- stared, but asked to be introduced, and said all manner of foolish but
- agreeable things to her, and several old ladies, who sat on the sofas,
- and criticized the rest of the party, inquired who she was with an air
- of interest. She heard Mrs. Moffat reply to one of them...
- "Daisy March--father a colonel in the army--one of our first families,
- but reverses of fortune, you know; intimate friends of the Laurences;
- sweet creature, I assure you; my Ned is quite wild about her."
- "Dear me!" said the old lady, putting up her glass for another
- observation of Meg, who tried to look as if she had not heard and been
- rather shocked at Mrs. Moffat's fibs. The 'queer feeling' did not pass
- away, but she imagined herself acting the new part of fine lady and so
- got on pretty well, though the tight dress gave her a side-ache, the
- train kept getting under her feet, and she was in constant fear lest
- her earrings should fly off and get lost or broken. She was flirting
- her fan and laughing at the feeble jokes of a young gentleman who tried
- to be witty, when she suddenly stopped laughing and looked confused,
- for just opposite, she saw Laurie. He was staring at her with
- undisguised surprise, and disapproval also, she thought, for though he
- bowed and smiled, yet something in his honest eyes made her blush and
- wish she had her old dress on. To complete her confusion, she saw Belle
- nudge Annie, and both glance from her to Laurie, who, she was happy to
- see, looked unusually boyish and shy.
- "Silly creatures, to put such thoughts into my head. I won't care for
- it, or let it change me a bit," thought Meg, and rustled across the
- room to shake hands with her friend.
- "I'm glad you came, I was afraid you wouldn't." she said, with her most
- grown-up air.
- "Jo wanted me to come, and tell her how you looked, so I did," answered
- Laurie, without turning his eyes upon her, though he half smiled at her
- maternal tone.
- "What shall you tell her?" asked Meg, full of curiosity to know his
- opinion of her, yet feeling ill at ease with him for the first time.
- "I shall say I didn't know you, for you look so grown-up and unlike
- yourself, I'm quite afraid of you," he said, fumbling at his glove
- button.
- "How absurd of you! The girls dressed me up for fun, and I rather like
- it. Wouldn't Jo stare if she saw me?" said Meg, bent on making him say
- whether he thought her improved or not.
- "Yes, I think she would," returned Laurie gravely.
- "Don't you like me so?" asked Meg.
- "No, I don't," was the blunt reply.
- "Why not?" in an anxious tone.
- He glanced at her frizzled head, bare shoulders, and fantastically
- trimmed dress with an expression that abashed her more than his answer,
- which had not a particle of his usual politeness in it.
- "I don't like fuss and feathers."
- That was altogether too much from a lad younger than herself, and Meg
- walked away, saying petulantly, "You are the rudest boy I ever saw."
- Feeling very much ruffled, she went and stood at a quiet window to cool
- her cheeks, for the tight dress gave her an uncomfortably brilliant
- color. As she stood there, Major Lincoln passed by, and a minute after
- she heard him saying to his mother...
- "They are making a fool of that little girl. I wanted you to see her,
- but they have spoiled her entirely. She's nothing but a doll tonight."
- "Oh, dear!" sighed Meg. "I wish I'd been sensible and worn my own
- things, then I should not have disgusted other people, or felt so
- uncomfortable and ashamed of myself."
- She leaned her forehead on the cool pane, and stood half hidden by the
- curtains, never minding that her favorite waltz had begun, till some
- one touched her, and turning, she saw Laurie, looking penitent, as he
- said, with his very best bow and his hand out...
- "Please forgive my rudeness, and come and dance with me."
- "I'm afraid it will be too disagreeable to you," said Meg, trying to
- look offended and failing entirely.
- "Not a bit of it, I'm dying to do it. Come, I'll be good. I don't like
- your gown, but I do think you are just splendid." And he waved his
- hands, as if words failed to express his admiration.
- Meg smiled and relented, and whispered as they stood waiting to catch
- the time, "Take care my skirt doesn't trip you up. It's the plague of
- my life and I was a goose to wear it."
- "Pin it round your neck, and then it will be useful," said Laurie,
- looking down at the little blue boots, which he evidently approved of.
- Away they went fleetly and gracefully, for having practiced at home,
- they were well matched, and the blithe young couple were a pleasant
- sight to see, as they twirled merrily round and round, feeling more
- friendly than ever after their small tiff.
- "Laurie, I want you to do me a favor, will you?" said Meg, as he stood
- fanning her when her breath gave out, which it did very soon though she
- would not own why.
- "Won't I!" said Laurie, with alacrity.
- "Please don't tell them at home about my dress tonight. They won't
- understand the joke, and it will worry Mother."
- "Then why did you do it?" said Laurie's eyes, so plainly that Meg
- hastily added...
- "I shall tell them myself all about it, and 'fess' to Mother how silly
- I've been. But I'd rather do it myself. So you'll not tell, will you?"
- "I give you my word I won't, only what shall I say when they ask me?"
- "Just say I looked pretty well and was having a good time."
- "I'll say the first with all my heart, but how about the other? You
- don't look as if you were having a good time. Are you?" And Laurie
- looked at her with an expression which made her answer in a whisper...
- "No, not just now. Don't think I'm horrid. I only wanted a little
- fun, but this sort doesn't pay, I find, and I'm getting tired of it."
- "Here comes Ned Moffat. What does he want?" said Laurie, knitting his
- black brows as if he did not regard his young host in the light of a
- pleasant addition to the party.
- "He put his name down for three dances, and I suppose he's coming for
- them. What a bore!" said Meg, assuming a languid air which amused
- Laurie immensely.
- He did not speak to her again till suppertime, when he saw her drinking
- champagne with Ned and his friend Fisher, who were behaving 'like a
- pair of fools', as Laurie said to himself, for he felt a brotherly sort
- of right to watch over the Marches and fight their battles whenever a
- defender was needed.
- "You'll have a splitting headache tomorrow, if you drink much of that.
- I wouldn't, Meg, your mother doesn't like it, you know," he whispered,
- leaning over her chair, as Ned turned to refill her glass and Fisher
- stooped to pick up her fan.
- "I'm not Meg tonight, I'm 'a doll' who does all sorts of crazy things.
- Tomorrow I shall put away my 'fuss and feathers' and be desperately
- good again," she answered with an affected little laugh.
- "Wish tomorrow was here, then," muttered Laurie, walking off,
- ill-pleased at the change he saw in her.
- Meg danced and flirted, chattered and giggled, as the other girls did.
- After supper she undertook the German, and blundered through it, nearly
- upsetting her partner with her long skirt, and romping in a way that
- scandalized Laurie, who looked on and meditated a lecture. But he got
- no chance to deliver it, for Meg kept away from him till he came to say
- good night.
- "Remember!" she said, trying to smile, for the splitting headache had
- already begun.
- "Silence a la mort," replied Laurie, with a melodramatic flourish, as
- he went away.
- This little bit of byplay excited Annie's curiosity, but Meg was too
- tired for gossip and went to bed, feeling as if she had been to a
- masquerade and hadn't enjoyed herself as much as she expected. She was
- sick all the next day, and on Saturday went home, quite used up with
- her fortnight's fun and feeling that she had 'sat in the lap of luxury'
- long enough.
- "It does seem pleasant to be quiet, and not have company manners on all
- the time. Home is a nice place, though it isn't splendid," said Meg,
- looking about her with a restful expression, as she sat with her mother
- and Jo on the Sunday evening.
- "I'm glad to hear you say so, dear, for I was afraid home would seem
- dull and poor to you after your fine quarters," replied her mother, who
- had given her many anxious looks that day. For motherly eyes are quick
- to see any change in children's faces.
- Meg had told her adventures gayly and said over and over what a
- charming time she had had, but something still seemed to weigh upon her
- spirits, and when the younger girls were gone to bed, she sat
- thoughtfully staring at the fire, saying little and looking worried.
- As the clock struck nine and Jo proposed bed, Meg suddenly left her
- chair and, taking Beth's stool, leaned her elbows on her mother's knee,
- saying bravely...
- "Marmee, I want to 'fess'."
- "I thought so. What is it, dear?"
- "Shall I go away?" asked Jo discreetly.
- "Of course not. Don't I always tell you everything? I was ashamed to
- speak of it before the younger children, but I want you to know all the
- dreadful things I did at the Moffats'."
- "We are prepared," said Mrs. March, smiling but looking a little
- anxious.
- "I told you they dressed me up, but I didn't tell you that they
- powdered and squeezed and frizzled, and made me look like a
- fashion-plate. Laurie thought I wasn't proper. I know he did, though
- he didn't say so, and one man called me 'a doll'. I knew it was silly,
- but they flattered me and said I was a beauty, and quantities of
- nonsense, so I let them make a fool of me."
- "Is that all?" asked Jo, as Mrs. March looked silently at the downcast
- face of her pretty daughter, and could not find it in her heart to
- blame her little follies.
- "No, I drank champagne and romped and tried to flirt, and was
- altogether abominable," said Meg self-reproachfully.
- "There is something more, I think." And Mrs. March smoothed the soft
- cheek, which suddenly grew rosy as Meg answered slowly...
- "Yes. It's very silly, but I want to tell it, because I hate to have
- people say and think such things about us and Laurie."
- Then she told the various bits of gossip she had heard at the Moffats',
- and as she spoke, Jo saw her mother fold her lips tightly, as if ill
- pleased that such ideas should be put into Meg's innocent mind.
- "Well, if that isn't the greatest rubbish I ever heard," cried Jo
- indignantly. "Why didn't you pop out and tell them so on the spot?"
- "I couldn't, it was so embarrassing for me. I couldn't help hearing at
- first, and then I was so angry and ashamed, I didn't remember that I
- ought to go away."
- "Just wait till I see Annie Moffat, and I'll show you how to settle
- such ridiculous stuff. The idea of having 'plans' and being kind to
- Laurie because he's rich and may marry us by-and-by! Won't he shout
- when I tell him what those silly things say about us poor children?"
- And Jo laughed, as if on second thoughts the thing struck her as a good
- joke.
- "If you tell Laurie, I'll never forgive you! She mustn't, must she,
- Mother?" said Meg, looking distressed.
- "No, never repeat that foolish gossip, and forget it as soon as you
- can," said Mrs. March gravely. "I was very unwise to let you go among
- people of whom I know so little, kind, I dare say, but worldly,
- ill-bred, and full of these vulgar ideas about young people. I am more
- sorry than I can express for the mischief this visit may have done you,
- Meg."
- "Don't be sorry, I won't let it hurt me. I'll forget all the bad and
- remember only the good, for I did enjoy a great deal, and thank you
- very much for letting me go. I'll not be sentimental or dissatisfied,
- Mother. I know I'm a silly little girl, and I'll stay with you till
- I'm fit to take care of myself. But it is nice to be praised and
- admired, and I can't help saying I like it," said Meg, looking half
- ashamed of the confession.
- "That is perfectly natural, and quite harmless, if the liking does not
- become a passion and lead one to do foolish or unmaidenly things.
- Learn to know and value the praise which is worth having, and to excite
- the admiration of excellent people by being modest as well as pretty,
- Meg."
- Margaret sat thinking a moment, while Jo stood with her hands behind
- her, looking both interested and a little perplexed, for it was a new
- thing to see Meg blushing and talking about admiration, lovers, and
- things of that sort. And Jo felt as if during that fortnight her
- sister had grown up amazingly, and was drifting away from her into a
- world where she could not follow.
- "Mother, do you have 'plans', as Mrs. Moffat said?" asked Meg bashfully.
- "Yes, my dear, I have a great many, all mothers do, but mine differ
- somewhat from Mrs. Moffat's, I suspect. I will tell you some of them,
- for the time has come when a word may set this romantic little head and
- heart of yours right, on a very serious subject. You are young, Meg,
- but not too young to understand me, and mothers' lips are the fittest
- to speak of such things to girls like you. Jo, your turn will come in
- time, perhaps, so listen to my 'plans' and help me carry them out, if
- they are good."
- Jo went and sat on one arm of the chair, looking as if she thought they
- were about to join in some very solemn affair. Holding a hand of each,
- and watching the two young faces wistfully, Mrs. March said, in her
- serious yet cheery way...
- "I want my daughters to be beautiful, accomplished, and good. To be
- admired, loved, and respected. To have a happy youth, to be well and
- wisely married, and to lead useful, pleasant lives, with as little care
- and sorrow to try them as God sees fit to send. To be loved and chosen
- by a good man is the best and sweetest thing which can happen to a
- woman, and I sincerely hope my girls may know this beautiful
- experience. It is natural to think of it, Meg, right to hope and wait
- for it, and wise to prepare for it, so that when the happy time comes,
- you may feel ready for the duties and worthy of the joy. My dear
- girls, I am ambitious for you, but not to have you make a dash in the
- world, marry rich men merely because they are rich, or have splendid
- houses, which are not homes because love is wanting. Money is a
- needful and precious thing, and when well used, a noble thing, but I
- never want you to think it is the first or only prize to strive for.
- I'd rather see you poor men's wives, if you were happy, beloved,
- contented, than queens on thrones, without self-respect and peace."
- "Poor girls don't stand any chance, Belle says, unless they put
- themselves forward," sighed Meg.
- "Then we'll be old maids," said Jo stoutly.
- "Right, Jo. Better be happy old maids than unhappy wives, or
- unmaidenly girls, running about to find husbands," said Mrs. March
- decidedly. "Don't be troubled, Meg, poverty seldom daunts a sincere
- lover. Some of the best and most honored women I know were poor girls,
- but so love-worthy that they were not allowed to be old maids. Leave
- these things to time. Make this home happy, so that you may be fit for
- homes of your own, if they are offered you, and contented here if they
- are not. One thing remember, my girls. Mother is always ready to be
- your confidant, Father to be your friend, and both of us hope and trust
- that our daughters, whether married or single, will be the pride and
- comfort of our lives."
- "We will, Marmee, we will!" cried both, with all their hearts, as she
- bade them good night.
- CHAPTER TEN
- THE P.C. AND P.O.
- As spring came on, a new set of amusements became the fashion, and the
- lengthening days gave long afternoons for work and play of all sorts.
- The garden had to be put in order, and each sister had a quarter of the
- little plot to do what she liked with. Hannah used to say, "I'd know
- which each of them gardings belonged to, ef I see 'em in Chiny," and so
- she might, for the girls' tastes differed as much as their characters.
- Meg's had roses and heliotrope, myrtle, and a little orange tree in it.
- Jo's bed was never alike two seasons, for she was always trying
- experiments. This year it was to be a plantation of sun flowers, the
- seeds of which cheerful land aspiring plant were to feed Aunt
- Cockle-top and her family of chicks. Beth had old-fashioned fragrant
- flowers in her garden, sweet peas and mignonette, larkspur, pinks,
- pansies, and southernwood, with chickweed for the birds and catnip for
- the pussies. Amy had a bower in hers, rather small and earwiggy, but
- very pretty to look at, with honeysuckle and morning-glories hanging
- their colored horns and bells in graceful wreaths all over it, tall
- white lilies, delicate ferns, and as many brilliant, picturesque plants
- as would consent to blossom there.
- Gardening, walks, rows on the river, and flower hunts employed the fine
- days, and for rainy ones, they had house diversions, some old, some
- new, all more or less original. One of these was the 'P.C.', for as
- secret societies were the fashion, it was thought proper to have one,
- and as all of the girls admired Dickens, they called themselves the
- Pickwick Club. With a few interruptions, they had kept this up for a
- year, and met every Saturday evening in the big garret, on which
- occasions the ceremonies were as follows: Three chairs were arranged
- in a row before a table on which was a lamp, also four white badges,
- with a big 'P.C.' in different colors on each, and the weekly newspaper
- called, The Pickwick Portfolio, to which all contributed something,
- while Jo, who reveled in pens and ink, was the editor. At seven
- o'clock, the four members ascended to the clubroom, tied their badges
- round their heads, and took their seats with great solemnity. Meg, as
- the eldest, was Samuel Pickwick, Jo, being of a literary turn, Augustus
- Snodgrass, Beth, because she was round and rosy, Tracy Tupman, and Amy,
- who was always trying to do what she couldn't, was Nathaniel Winkle.
- Pickwick, the president, read the paper, which was filled with original
- tales, poetry, local news, funny advertisements, and hints, in which
- they good-naturedly reminded each other of their faults and short
- comings. On one occasion, Mr. Pickwick put on a pair of spectacles
- without any glass, rapped upon the table, hemmed, and having stared
- hard at Mr. Snodgrass, who was tilting back in his chair, till he
- arranged himself properly, began to read:
- _________________________________________________
- "THE PICKWICK PORTFOLIO"
- MAY 20, 18--
- POET'S CORNER
- ANNIVERSARY ODE
- Again we meet to celebrate
- With badge and solemn rite,
- Our fifty-second anniversary,
- In Pickwick Hall, tonight.
- We all are here in perfect health,
- None gone from our small band:
- Again we see each well-known face,
- And press each friendly hand.
- Our Pickwick, always at his post,
- With reverence we greet,
- As, spectacles on nose, he reads
- Our well-filled weekly sheet.
- Although he suffers from a cold,
- We joy to hear him speak,
- For words of wisdom from him fall,
- In spite of croak or squeak.
- Old six-foot Snodgrass looms on high,
- With elephantine grace,
- And beams upon the company,
- With brown and jovial face.
- Poetic fire lights up his eye,
- He struggles 'gainst his lot.
- Behold ambition on his brow,
- And on his nose, a blot.
- Next our peaceful Tupman comes,
- So rosy, plump, and sweet,
- Who chokes with laughter at the puns,
- And tumbles off his seat.
- Prim little Winkle too is here,
- With every hair in place,
- A model of propriety,
- Though he hates to wash his face.
- The year is gone, we still unite
- To joke and laugh and read,
- And tread the path of literature
- That doth to glory lead.
- Long may our paper prosper well,
- Our club unbroken be,
- And coming years their blessings pour
- On the useful, gay 'P. C.'.
- A. SNODGRASS
- ________
- THE MASKED MARRIAGE
- (A Tale Of Venice)
- Gondola after gondola swept up to the marble
- steps, and left its lovely load to swell the
- brilliant throng that filled the stately halls of Count
- Adelon. Knights and ladies, elves and pages, monks
- and flower girls, all mingled gaily in the dance.
- Sweet voices and rich melody filled the air, and so
- with mirth and music the masquerade went on.
- "Has your Highness seen the Lady Viola tonight?"
- asked a gallant troubadour of the fairy queen who
- floated down the hall upon his arm.
- "Yes, is she not lovely, though so sad! Her
- dress is well chosen, too, for in a week she weds
- Count Antonio, whom she passionately hates."
- "By my faith, I envy him. Yonder he comes,
- arrayed like a bridegroom, except the black mask.
- When that is off we shall see how he regards the
- fair maid whose heart he cannot win, though her
- stern father bestows her hand," returned the troubadour.
- "Tis whispered that she loves the young English
- artist who haunts her steps, and is spurned by the
- old Count," said the lady, as they joined the dance.
- The revel was at its height when a priest
- appeared, and withdrawing the young pair to an alcove,
- hung with purple velvet, he motioned them to kneel.
- Instant silence fell on the gay throng, and not a
- sound, but the dash of fountains or the rustle of
- orange groves sleeping in the moonlight, broke the
- hush, as Count de Adelon spoke thus:
- "My lords and ladies, pardon the ruse by which
- I have gathered you here to witness the marriage of
- my daughter. Father, we wait your services."
- All eyes turned toward the bridal party, and a
- murmur of amazement went through the throng, for
- neither bride nor groom removed their masks. Curiosity
- and wonder possessed all hearts, but respect restrained
- all tongues till the holy rite was over. Then the
- eager spectators gathered round the count, demanding
- an explanation.
- "Gladly would I give it if I could, but I only
- know that it was the whim of my timid Viola, and I
- yielded to it. Now, my children, let the play end.
- Unmask and receive my blessing."
- But neither bent the knee, for the young bridegroom
- replied in a tone that startled all listeners
- as the mask fell, disclosing the noble face of Ferdinand
- Devereux, the artist lover, and leaning on the
- breast where now flashed the star of an English earl
- was the lovely Viola, radiant with joy and beauty.
- "My lord, you scornfully bade me claim your
- daughter when I could boast as high a name and vast a
- fortune as the Count Antonio. I can do more, for even
- your ambitious soul cannot refuse the Earl of Devereux
- and De Vere, when he gives his ancient name and boundless
- wealth in return for the beloved hand of this fair lady,
- now my wife."
- The count stood like one changed to stone, and
- turning to the bewildered crowd, Ferdinand added, with
- a gay smile of triumph, "To you, my gallant friends, I
- can only wish that your wooing may prosper as mine has
- done, and that you may all win as fair a bride as I have
- by this masked marriage."
- S. PICKWICK
- Why is the P. C. like the Tower of Babel?
- It is full of unruly members.
- _________
- THE HISTORY OF A SQUASH
- Once upon a time a farmer planted a little seed
- in his garden, and after a while it sprouted and became
- a vine and bore many squashes. One day in October,
- when they were ripe, he picked one and took it
- to market. A grocerman bought and put it in his shop.
- That same morning, a little girl in a brown hat
- and blue dress, with a round face and snub nose, went
- and bought it for her mother. She lugged it home, cut
- it up, and boiled it in the big pot, mashed some of it
- with salt and butter, for dinner. And to the rest she added
- a pint of milk, two eggs, four spoons of sugar, nutmeg,
- and some crackers, put it in a deep dish, and baked it
- till it was brown and nice, and next day it was eaten
- by a family named March.
- T. TUPMAN
- _________
- Mr. Pickwick, Sir:--
- I address you upon the subject of sin the sinner
- I mean is a man named Winkle who makes trouble in his
- club by laughing and sometimes won't write his piece in
- this fine paper I hope you will pardon his badness and
- let him send a French fable because he can't write out
- of his head as he has so many lessons to do and no brains
- in future I will try to take time by the fetlock and
- prepare some work which will be all commy la fo that
- means all right I am in haste as it is nearly school
- time.
- Yours respectably,
- N. WINKLE
- [The above is a manly and handsome acknowledgment of past
- misdemeanors. If our young friend studied punctuation, it
- would be well.]
- _________
- A SAD ACCIDENT
- On Friday last, we were startled by a violent shock
- in our basement, followed by cries of distress.
- On rushing in a body to the cellar, we discovered our beloved
- President prostrate upon the floor, having tripped and
- fallen while getting wood for domestic purposes. A perfect
- scene of ruin met our eyes, for in his fall Mr. Pickwick
- had plunged his head and shoulders into a tub of water,
- upset a keg of soft soap upon his manly form, and torn
- his garments badly. On being removed from this perilous
- situation, it was discovered that he had suffered
- no injury but several bruises, and we are happy to add,
- is now doing well.
- ED.
- _________
- THE PUBLIC BEREAVEMENT
- It is our painful duty to record the sudden and
- mysterious disappearance of our cherished friend, Mrs.
- Snowball Pat Paw. This lovely and beloved cat was the
- pet of a large circle of warm and admiring friends; for
- her beauty attracted all eyes, her graces and virtues
- endeared her to all hearts, and her loss is deeply felt
- by the whole community.
- When last seen, she was sitting at the gate, watching
- the butcher's cart, and it is feared that some villain,
- tempted by her charms, basely stole her. Weeks have passed,
- but no trace of her has been discovered, and we relinquish
- all hope, tie a black ribbon to her basket, set aside her
- dish, and weep for her as one lost to us forever.
- _________
- A sympathizing friend sends the following gem:
- A LAMENT
- (FOR S. B. PAT PAW)
- We mourn the loss of our little pet,
- And sigh o'er her hapless fate,
- For never more by the fire she'll sit,
- Nor play by the old green gate.
- The little grave where her infant sleeps
- Is 'neath the chestnut tree.
- But o'er her grave we may not weep,
- We know not where it may be.
- Her empty bed, her idle ball,
- Will never see her more;
- No gentle tap, no loving purr
- Is heard at the parlor door.
- Another cat comes after her mice,
- A cat with a dirty face,
- But she does not hunt as our darling did,
- Nor play with her airy grace.
- Her stealthy paws tread the very hall
- Where Snowball used to play,
- But she only spits at the dogs our pet
- So gallantly drove away.
- She is useful and mild, and does her best,
- But she is not fair to see,
- And we cannot give her your place dear,
- Nor worship her as we worship thee.
- A.S.
- _________
- ADVERTISEMENTS
- MISS ORANTHY BLUGGAGE, the accomplished
- strong-minded lecturer, will deliver her
- famous lecture on "WOMAN AND HER POSITION"
- at Pickwick Hall, next Saturday Evening,
- after the usual performances.
- A WEEKLY MEETING will be held at Kitchen
- Place, to teach young ladies how to cook.
- Hannah Brown will preside, and all are
- invited to attend.
- The DUSTPAN SOCIETY will meet on Wednesday
- next, and parade in the upper story of the
- Club House. All members to appear in uniform
- and shoulder their brooms at nine precisely.
- Mrs. BETH BOUNCER will open her new
- assortment of Doll's Millinery next week.
- The latest Paris fashions have arrived,
- and orders are respectfully solicited.
- A NEW PLAY will appear at the Barnville
- Theatre, in the course of a few weeks, which
- will surpass anything ever seen on the American stage.
- "The Greek Slave, or Constantine the Avenger," is the name
- of this thrilling drama!!!
- HINTS
- If S.P. didn't use so much soap on his hands,
- he wouldn't always be late at breakfast. A.S.
- is requested not to whistle in the street. T.T.
- please don't forget Amy's napkin. N.W. must
- not fret because his dress has not nine tucks.
- WEEKLY REPORT
- Meg--Good.
- Jo--Bad.
- Beth--Very Good.
- Amy--Middling.
- _________________________________________________
- As the President finished reading the paper (which I beg leave to
- assure my readers is a bona fide copy of one written by bona fide girls
- once upon a time), a round of applause followed, and then Mr. Snodgrass
- rose to make a proposition.
- "Mr. President and gentlemen," he began, assuming a parliamentary
- attitude and tone, "I wish to propose the admission of a new
- member--one who highly deserves the honor, would be deeply grateful for
- it, and would add immensely to the spirit of the club, the literary
- value of the paper, and be no end jolly and nice. I propose Mr.
- Theodore Laurence as an honorary member of the P. C. Come now, do
- have him."
- Jo's sudden change of tone made the girls laugh, but all looked rather
- anxious, and no one said a word as Snodgrass took his seat.
- "We'll put it to a vote," said the President. "All in favor of this
- motion please to manifest it by saying, 'Aye'."
- A loud response from Snodgrass, followed, to everybody's surprise, by a
- timid one from Beth.
- "Contrary-minded say, 'No'."
- Meg and Amy were contrary-minded, and Mr. Winkle rose to say with great
- elegance, "We don't wish any boys, they only joke and bounce about.
- This is a ladies' club, and we wish to be private and proper."
- "I'm afraid he'll laugh at our paper, and make fun of us afterward,"
- observed Pickwick, pulling the little curl on her forehead, as she
- always did when doubtful.
- Up rose Snodgrass, very much in earnest. "Sir, I give you my word as a
- gentleman, Laurie won't do anything of the sort. He likes to write,
- and he'll give a tone to our contributions and keep us from being
- sentimental, don't you see? We can do so little for him, and he does
- so much for us, I think the least we can do is to offer him a place
- here, and make him welcome if he comes."
- This artful allusion to benefits conferred brought Tupman to his feet,
- looking as if he had quite made up his mind.
- "Yes; we ought to do it, even if we are afraid. I say he may come, and
- his grandpa, too, if he likes."
- This spirited burst from Beth electrified the club, and Jo left her
- seat to shake hands approvingly. "Now then, vote again. Everybody
- remember it's our Laurie, and say, 'Aye!'" cried Snodgrass excitedly.
- "Aye! Aye! Aye!" replied three voices at once.
- "Good! Bless you! Now, as there's nothing like 'taking time by the
- fetlock', as Winkle characteristically observes, allow me to present
- the new member." And, to the dismay of the rest of the club, Jo threw
- open the door of the closet, and displayed Laurie sitting on a rag bag,
- flushed and twinkling with suppressed laughter.
- "You rogue! You traitor! Jo, how could you?" cried the three girls,
- as Snodgrass led her friend triumphantly forth, and producing both a
- chair and a badge, installed him in a jiffy.
- "The coolness of you two rascals is amazing," began Mr. Pickwick,
- trying to get up an awful frown and only succeeding in producing an
- amiable smile. But the new member was equal to the occasion, and
- rising, with a grateful salutation to the Chair, said in the most
- engaging manner, "Mr. President and ladies--I beg pardon,
- gentlemen--allow me to introduce myself as Sam Weller, the very humble
- servant of the club."
- "Good! Good!" cried Jo, pounding with the handle of the old warming
- pan on which she leaned.
- "My faithful friend and noble patron," continued Laurie with a wave of
- the hand, "who has so flatteringly presented me, is not to be blamed
- for the base stratagem of tonight. I planned it, and she only gave in
- after lots of teasing."
- "Come now, don't lay it all on yourself. You know I proposed the
- cupboard," broke in Snodgrass, who was enjoying the joke amazingly.
- "Never mind what she says. I'm the wretch that did it, sir," said the
- new member, with a Welleresque nod to Mr. Pickwick. "But on my honor,
- I never will do so again, and henceforth devote myself to the interest
- of this immortal club."
- "Hear! Hear!" cried Jo, clashing the lid of the warming pan like a
- cymbal.
- "Go on, go on!" added Winkle and Tupman, while the President bowed
- benignly.
- "I merely wish to say, that as a slight token of my gratitude for the
- honor done me, and as a means of promoting friendly relations between
- adjoining nations, I have set up a post office in the hedge in the
- lower corner of the garden, a fine, spacious building with padlocks on
- the doors and every convenience for the mails, also the females, if I
- may be allowed the expression. It's the old martin house, but I've
- stopped up the door and made the roof open, so it will hold all sorts
- of things, and save our valuable time. Letters, manuscripts, books,
- and bundles can be passed in there, and as each nation has a key, it
- will be uncommonly nice, I fancy. Allow me to present the club key,
- and with many thanks for your favor, take my seat."
- Great applause as Mr. Weller deposited a little key on the table and
- subsided, the warming pan clashed and waved wildly, and it was some
- time before order could be restored. A long discussion followed, and
- everyone came out surprising, for everyone did her best. So it was an
- unusually lively meeting, and did not adjourn till a late hour, when it
- broke up with three shrill cheers for the new member.
- No one ever regretted the admittance of Sam Weller, for a more devoted,
- well-behaved, and jovial member no club could have. He certainly did
- add 'spirit' to the meetings, and 'a tone' to the paper, for his
- orations convulsed his hearers and his contributions were excellent,
- being patriotic, classical, comical, or dramatic, but never
- sentimental. Jo regarded them as worthy of Bacon, Milton, or
- Shakespeare, and remodeled her own works with good effect, she thought.
- The P. O. was a capital little institution, and flourished
- wonderfully, for nearly as many queer things passed through it as
- through the real post office. Tragedies and cravats, poetry and
- pickles, garden seeds and long letters, music and gingerbread, rubbers,
- invitations, scoldings, and puppies. The old gentleman liked the fun,
- and amused himself by sending odd bundles, mysterious messages, and
- funny telegrams, and his gardener, who was smitten with Hannah's
- charms, actually sent a love letter to Jo's care. How they laughed
- when the secret came out, never dreaming how many love letters that
- little post office would hold in the years to come.
- CHAPTER ELEVEN
- EXPERIMENTS
- "The first of June! The Kings are off to the seashore tomorrow, and
- I'm free. Three months' vacation--how I shall enjoy it!" exclaimed
- Meg, coming home one warm day to find Jo laid upon the sofa in an
- unusual state of exhaustion, while Beth took off her dusty boots, and
- Amy made lemonade for the refreshment of the whole party.
- "Aunt March went today, for which, oh, be joyful!" said Jo. "I was
- mortally afraid she'd ask me to go with her. If she had, I should have
- felt as if I ought to do it, but Plumfield is about as gay as a
- churchyard, you know, and I'd rather be excused. We had a flurry
- getting the old lady off, and I had a fright every time she spoke to
- me, for I was in such a hurry to be through that I was uncommonly
- helpful and sweet, and feared she'd find it impossible to part from me.
- I quaked till she was fairly in the carriage, and had a final fright,
- for as it drove of, she popped out her head, saying, 'Josyphine, won't
- you--?' I didn't hear any more, for I basely turned and fled. I did
- actually run, and whisked round the corner where I felt safe."
- "Poor old Jo! She came in looking as if bears were after her," said
- Beth, as she cuddled her sister's feet with a motherly air.
- "Aunt March is a regular samphire, is she not?" observed Amy, tasting
- her mixture critically.
- "She means vampire, not seaweed, but it doesn't matter. It's too warm
- to be particular about one's parts of speech," murmured Jo.
- "What shall you do all your vacation?" asked Amy, changing the subject
- with tact.
- "I shall lie abed late, and do nothing," replied Meg, from the depths
- of the rocking chair. "I've been routed up early all winter and had to
- spend my days working for other people, so now I'm going to rest and
- revel to my heart's content."
- "No," said Jo, "that dozy way wouldn't suit me. I've laid in a heap of
- books, and I'm going to improve my shining hours reading on my perch in
- the old apple tree, when I'm not having l----"
- "Don't say 'larks!'" implored Amy, as a return snub for the 'samphire'
- correction.
- "I'll say 'nightingales' then, with Laurie. That's proper and
- appropriate, since he's a warbler."
- "Don't let us do any lessons, Beth, for a while, but play all the time
- and rest, as the girls mean to," proposed Amy.
- "Well, I will, if Mother doesn't mind. I want to learn some new songs,
- and my children need fitting up for the summer. They are dreadfully
- out of order and really suffering for clothes."
- "May we, Mother?" asked Meg, turning to Mrs. March, who sat sewing in
- what they called 'Marmee's corner'.
- "You may try your experiment for a week and see how you like it. I
- think by Saturday night you will find that all play and no work is as
- bad as all work and no play."
- "Oh, dear, no! It will be delicious, I'm sure," said Meg complacently.
- "I now propose a toast, as my 'friend and pardner, Sairy Gamp', says.
- Fun forever, and no grubbing!" cried Jo, rising, glass in hand, as the
- lemonade went round.
- They all drank it merrily, and began the experiment by lounging for the
- rest of the day. Next morning, Meg did not appear till ten o'clock.
- Her solitary breakfast did not taste good, and the room seemed lonely
- and untidy, for Jo had not filled the vases, Beth had not dusted, and
- Amy's books lay scattered about. Nothing was neat and pleasant but
- 'Marmee's corner', which looked as usual. And there Meg sat, to 'rest
- and read', which meant to yawn and imagine what pretty summer dresses
- she would get with her salary. Jo spent the morning on the river with
- Laurie and the afternoon reading and crying over _The Wide, Wide
- World_, up in the apple tree. Beth began by rummaging everything out
- of the big closet where her family resided, but getting tired before
- half done, she left her establishment topsy-turvy and went to her
- music, rejoicing that she had no dishes to wash. Amy arranged her
- bower, put on her best white frock, smoothed her curls, and sat down to
- draw under the honeysuckle, hoping someone would see and inquire who
- the young artist was. As no one appeared but an inquisitive
- daddy-longlegs, who examined her work with interest, she went to walk,
- got caught in a shower, and came home dripping.
- At teatime they compared notes, and all agreed that it had been a
- delightful, though unusually long day. Meg, who went shopping in the
- afternoon and got a 'sweet blue muslin', had discovered, after she had
- cut the breadths off, that it wouldn't wash, which mishap made her
- slightly cross. Jo had burned the skin off her nose boating, and got a
- raging headache by reading too long. Beth was worried by the confusion
- of her closet and the difficulty of learning three or four songs at
- once, and Amy deeply regretted the damage done her frock, for Katy
- Brown's party was to be the next day and now like Flora McFlimsey, she
- had 'nothing to wear'. But these were mere trifles, and they assured
- their mother that the experiment was working finely. She smiled, said
- nothing, and with Hannah's help did their neglected work, keeping home
- pleasant and the domestic machinery running smoothly. It was
- astonishing what a peculiar and uncomfortable state of things was
- produced by the 'resting and reveling' process. The days kept getting
- longer and longer, the weather was unusually variable and so were
- tempers; an unsettled feeling possessed everyone, and Satan found
- plenty of mischief for the idle hands to do. As the height of luxury,
- Meg put out some of her sewing, and then found time hang so heavily,
- that she fell to snipping and spoiling her clothes in her attempts to
- furbish them up a la Moffat. Jo read till her eyes gave out and she
- was sick of books, got so fidgety that even good-natured Laurie had a
- quarrel with her, and so reduced in spirits that she desperately wished
- she had gone with Aunt March. Beth got on pretty well, for she was
- constantly forgetting that it was to be all play and no work, and fell
- back into her old ways now and then. But something in the air affected
- her, and more than once her tranquility was much disturbed, so much so
- that on one occasion she actually shook poor dear Joanna and told her
- she was 'a fright'. Amy fared worst of all, for her resources were
- small, and when her sisters left her to amuse herself, she soon found
- that accomplished and important little self a great burden. She didn't
- like dolls, fairy tales were childish, and one couldn't draw all the
- time. Tea parties didn't amount to much, neither did picnics, unless
- very well conducted. "If one could have a fine house, full of nice
- girls, or go traveling, the summer would be delightful, but to stay at
- home with three selfish sisters and a grown-up boy was enough to try
- the patience of a Boaz," complained Miss Malaprop, after several days
- devoted to pleasure, fretting, and ennui.
- No one would own that they were tired of the experiment, but by Friday
- night each acknowledged to herself that she was glad the week was
- nearly done. Hoping to impress the lesson more deeply, Mrs. March, who
- had a good deal of humor, resolved to finish off the trial in an
- appropriate manner, so she gave Hannah a holiday and let the girls
- enjoy the full effect of the play system.
- When they got up on Saturday morning, there was no fire in the kitchen,
- no breakfast in the dining room, and no mother anywhere to be seen.
- "Mercy on us! What has happened?" cried Jo, staring about her in
- dismay.
- Meg ran upstairs and soon came back again, looking relieved but rather
- bewildered, and a little ashamed.
- "Mother isn't sick, only very tired, and she says she is going to stay
- quietly in her room all day and let us do the best we can. It's a very
- queer thing for her to do, she doesn't act a bit like herself. But she
- says it has been a hard week for her, so we mustn't grumble but take
- care of ourselves."
- "That's easy enough, and I like the idea, I'm aching for something to
- do, that is, some new amusement, you know," added Jo quickly.
- In fact it was an immense relief to them all to have a little work, and
- they took hold with a will, but soon realized the truth of Hannah's
- saying, "Housekeeping ain't no joke." There was plenty of food in the
- larder, and while Beth and Amy set the table, Meg and Jo got breakfast,
- wondering as they did why servants ever talked about hard work.
- "I shall take some up to Mother, though she said we were not to think
- of her, for she'd take care of herself," said Meg, who presided and
- felt quite matronly behind the teapot.
- So a tray was fitted out before anyone began, and taken up with the
- cook's compliments. The boiled tea was very bitter, the omelet
- scorched, and the biscuits speckled with saleratus, but Mrs. March
- received her repast with thanks and laughed heartily over it after Jo
- was gone.
- "Poor little souls, they will have a hard time, I'm afraid, but they
- won't suffer, and it will do them good," she said, producing the more
- palatable viands with which she had provided herself, and disposing of
- the bad breakfast, so that their feelings might not be hurt, a motherly
- little deception for which they were grateful.
- Many were the complaints below, and great the chagrin of the head cook
- at her failures. "Never mind, I'll get the dinner and be servant, you
- be mistress, keep your hands nice, see company, and give orders," said
- Jo, who knew still less than Meg about culinary affairs.
- This obliging offer was gladly accepted, and Margaret retired to the
- parlor, which she hastily put in order by whisking the litter under the
- sofa and shutting the blinds to save the trouble of dusting. Jo, with
- perfect faith in her own powers and a friendly desire to make up the
- quarrel, immediately put a note in the office, inviting Laurie to
- dinner.
- "You'd better see what you have got before you think of having
- company," said Meg, when informed of the hospitable but rash act.
- "Oh, there's corned beef and plenty of potatoes, and I shall get some
- asparagus and a lobster, 'for a relish', as Hannah says. We'll have
- lettuce and make a salad. I don't know how, but the book tells. I'll
- have blanc mange and strawberries for dessert, and coffee too, if you
- want to be elegant."
- "Don't try too many messes, Jo, for you can't make anything but
- gingerbread and molasses candy fit to eat. I wash my hands of the
- dinner party, and since you have asked Laurie on your own
- responsibility, you may just take care of him."
- "I don't want you to do anything but be civil to him and help to the
- pudding. You'll give me your advice if I get in a muddle, won't you?"
- asked Jo, rather hurt.
- "Yes, but I don't know much, except about bread and a few trifles. You
- had better ask Mother's leave before you order anything," returned Meg
- prudently.
- "Of course I shall. I'm not a fool." And Jo went off in a huff at the
- doubts expressed of her powers.
- "Get what you like, and don't disturb me. I'm going out to dinner and
- can't worry about things at home," said Mrs. March, when Jo spoke to
- her. "I never enjoyed housekeeping, and I'm going to take a vacation
- today, and read, write, go visiting, and amuse myself."
- The unusual spectacle of her busy mother rocking comfortably and
- reading early in the morning made Jo feel as if some unnatural
- phenomenon had occurred, for an eclipse, an earthquake, or a volcanic
- eruption would hardly have seemed stranger.
- "Everything is out of sorts, somehow," she said to herself, going
- downstairs. "There's Beth crying, that's a sure sign that something is
- wrong in this family. If Amy is bothering, I'll shake her."
- Feeling very much out of sorts herself, Jo hurried into the parlor to
- find Beth sobbing over Pip, the canary, who lay dead in the cage with
- his little claws pathetically extended, as if imploring the food for
- want of which he had died.
- "It's all my fault, I forgot him, there isn't a seed or a drop left.
- Oh, Pip! Oh, Pip! How could I be so cruel to you?" cried Beth, taking
- the poor thing in her hands and trying to restore him.
- Jo peeped into his half-open eye, felt his little heart, and finding
- him stiff and cold, shook her head, and offered her domino box for a
- coffin.
- "Put him in the oven, and maybe he will get warm and revive," said Amy
- hopefully.
- "He's been starved, and he shan't be baked now he's dead. I'll make
- him a shroud, and he shall be buried in the garden, and I'll never have
- another bird, never, my Pip! for I am too bad to own one," murmured
- Beth, sitting on the floor with her pet folded in her hands.
- "The funeral shall be this afternoon, and we will all go. Now, don't
- cry, Bethy. It's a pity, but nothing goes right this week, and Pip has
- had the worst of the experiment. Make the shroud, and lay him in my
- box, and after the dinner party, we'll have a nice little funeral,"
- said Jo, beginning to feel as if she had undertaken a good deal.
- Leaving the others to console Beth, she departed to the kitchen, which
- was in a most discouraging state of confusion. Putting on a big apron,
- she fell to work and got the dishes piled up ready for washing, when
- she discovered that the fire was out.
- "Here's a sweet prospect!" muttered Jo, slamming the stove door open,
- and poking vigorously among the cinders.
- Having rekindled the fire, she thought she would go to market while the
- water heated. The walk revived her spirits, and flattering herself
- that she had made good bargains, she trudged home again, after buying a
- very young lobster, some very old asparagus, and two boxes of acid
- strawberries. By the time she got cleared up, the dinner arrived and
- the stove was red-hot. Hannah had left a pan of bread to rise, Meg had
- worked it up early, set it on the hearth for a second rising, and
- forgotten it. Meg was entertaining Sallie Gardiner in the parlor, when
- the door flew open and a floury, crocky, flushed, and disheveled figure
- appeared, demanding tartly...
- "I say, isn't bread 'riz' enough when it runs over the pans?"
- Sallie began to laugh, but Meg nodded and lifted her eyebrows as high
- as they would go, which caused the apparition to vanish and put the
- sour bread into the oven without further delay. Mrs. March went out,
- after peeping here and there to see how matters went, also saying a
- word of comfort to Beth, who sat making a winding sheet, while the dear
- departed lay in state in the domino box. A straLanguage cannot describe
- nge sense of
- helplessness fell upon the girls as the gray bonnet vanished round the
- corner, and despair seized them when a few minutes later Miss Crocker
- appeared, and said she'd come to dinner. Now this lady was a thin,
- yellow spinster, with a sharp nose and inquisitive eyes, who saw
- everything and gossiped about all she saw. They disliked her, but had
- been taught to be kind to her, simply because she was old and poor and
- had few friends. So Meg gave her the easy chair and tried to entertain
- her, while she asked questions, criticized everything, and told stories
- of the people whom she knew.
- Language cannot describe the anxieties, experiences, and exertions
- which Jo underwent that morning, and the dinner she served up became a
- standing joke. Fearing to ask any more advice, she did her best alone,
- and discovered that something more than energy and good will is
- necessary to make a cook. She boiled the asparagus for an hour and was
- grieved to find the heads cooked off and the stalks harder than ever.
- The bread burned black; for the salad dressing so aggravated her that
- she could not make it fit to eat. The lobster was a scarlet mystery to
- her, but she hammered and poked till it was unshelled and its meager
- proportions concealed in a grove of lettuce leaves. The potatoes had
- to be hurried, not to keep the asparagus waiting, and were not done at
- the last. The blanc mange was lumpy, and the strawberries not as ripe
- as they looked, having been skilfully 'deaconed'.
- "Well, they can eat beef and bread and butter, if they are hungry, only
- it's mortifying to have to spend your whole morning for nothing,"
- thought Jo, as she rang the bell half an hour later than usual, and
- stood, hot, tired, and dispirited, surveying the feast spread before
- Laurie, accustomed to all sorts of elegance, and Miss Crocker, whose
- tattling tongue would report them far and wide.
- Poor Jo would gladly have gone under the table, as one thing after
- another was tasted and left, while Amy giggled, Meg looked distressed,
- Miss Crocker pursed her lips, and Laurie talked and laughed with all
- his might to give a cheerful tone to the festive scene. Jo's one
- strong point was the fruit, for she had sugared it well, and had a
- pitcher of rich cream to eat with it. Her hot cheeks cooled a trifle,
- and she drew a long breath as the pretty glass plates went round, and
- everyone looked graciously at the little rosy islands floating in a sea
- of cream. Miss Crocker tasted first, made a wry face, and drank some
- water hastily. Jo, who refused, thinking there might not be enough,
- for they dwindled sadly after the picking over, glanced at Laurie, but
- he was eating away manfully, though there was a slight pucker about his
- mouth and he kept his eye fixed on his plate. Amy, who was fond of
- delicate fare, took a heaping spoonful, choked, hid her face in her
- napkin, and left the table precipitately.
- "Oh, what is it?" exclaimed Jo, trembling.
- "Salt instead of sugar, and the cream is sour," replied Meg with a
- tragic gesture.
- Jo uttered a groan and fell back in her chair, remembering that she had
- given a last hasty powdering to the berries out of one of the two boxes
- on the kitchen table, and had neglected to put the milk in the
- refrigerator. She turned scarlet and was on the verge of crying, when
- she met Laurie's eyes, which would look merry in spite of his heroic
- efforts. The comical side of the affair suddenly struck her, and she
- laughed till the tears ran down her cheeks. So did everyone else, even
- 'Croaker' as the girls called the old lady, and the unfortunate dinner
- ended gaily, with bread and butter, olives and fun.
- "I haven't strength of mind enough to clear up now, so we will sober
- ourselves with a funeral," said Jo, as they rose, and Miss Crocker made
- ready to go, being eager to tell the new story at another friend's
- dinner table.
- They did sober themselves for Beth's sake. Laurie dug a grave under
- the ferns in the grove, little Pip was laid in, with many tears by his
- tender-hearted mistress, and covered with moss, while a wreath of
- violets and chickweed was hung on the stone which bore his epitaph,
- composed by Jo while she struggled with the dinner.
- Here lies Pip March,
- Who died the 7th of June;
- Loved and lamented sore,
- And not forgotten soon.
- At the conclusion of the ceremonies, Beth retired to her room, overcome
- with emotion and lobster, but there was no place of repose, for the
- beds were not made, and she found her grief much assuaged by beating up
- the pillows and putting things in order. Meg helped Jo clear away the
- remains of the feast, which took half the afternoon and left them so
- tired that they agreed to be contented with tea and toast for supper.
- Laurie took Amy to drive, which was a deed of charity, for the sour
- cream seemed to have had a bad effect upon her temper. Mrs. March came
- home to find the three older girls hard at work in the middle of the
- afternoon, and a glance at the closet gave her an idea of the success
- of one part of the experiment.
- Before the housewives could rest, several people called, and there was
- a scramble to get ready to see them. Then tea must be got, errands
- done, and one or two necessary bits of sewing neglected until the last
- minute. As twilight fell, dewy and still, one by one they gathered on
- the porch where the June roses were budding beautifully, and each
- groaned or sighed as she sat down, as if tired or troubled.
- "What a dreadful day this has been!" began Jo, usually the first to
- speak.
- "It has seemed shorter than usual, but so uncomfortable," said Meg.
- "Not a bit like home," added Amy.
- "It can't seem so without Marmee and little Pip," sighed Beth, glancing
- with full eyes at the empty cage above her head.
- "Here's Mother, dear, and you shall have another bird tomorrow, if you
- want it."
- As she spoke, Mrs. March came and took her place among them, looking as
- if her holiday had not been much pleasanter than theirs.
- "Are you satisfied with your experiment, girls, or do you want another
- week of it?" she asked, as Beth nestled up to her and the rest turned
- toward her with brightening faces, as flowers turn toward the sun.
- "I don't!" cried Jo decidedly.
- "Nor I," echoed the others.
- "You think then, that it is better to have a few duties and live a
- little for others, do you?"
- "Lounging and larking doesn't pay," observed Jo, shaking her head. "I'm
- tired of it and mean to go to work at something right off."
- "Suppose you learn plain cooking. That's a useful accomplishment,
- which no woman should be without," said Mrs. March, laughing inaudibly
- at the recollection of Jo's dinner party, for she had met Miss Crocker
- and heard her account of it.
- "Mother, did you go away and let everything be, just to see how we'd
- get on?" cried Meg, who had had suspicions all day.
- "Yes, I wanted you to see how the comfort of all depends on each doing
- her share faithfully. While Hannah and I did your work, you got on
- pretty well, though I don't think you were very happy or amiable. So I
- thought, as a little lesson, I would show you what happens when
- everyone thinks only of herself. Don't you feel that it is pleasanter
- to help one another, to have daily duties which make leisure sweet when
- it comes, and to bear and forbear, that home may be comfortable and
- lovely to us all?"
- "We do, Mother, we do!" cried the girls.
- "Then let me advise you to take up your little burdens again, for
- though they seem heavy sometimes, they are good for us, and lighten as
- we learn to carry them. Work is wholesome, and there is plenty for
- everyone. It keeps us from ennui and mischief, is good for health and
- spirits, and gives us a sense of power and independence better than
- money or fashion."
- "We'll work like bees, and love it too, see if we don't," said Jo.
- "I'll learn plain cooking for my holiday task, and the next dinner
- party I have shall be a success."
- "I'll make the set of shirts for father, instead of letting you do it,
- Marmee. I can and I will, though I'm not fond of sewing. That will be
- better than fussing over my own things, which are plenty nice enough as
- they are." said Meg.
- "I'll do my lessons every day, and not spend so much time with my music
- and dolls. I am a stupid thing, and ought to be studying, not
- playing," was Beth's resolution, while Amy followed their example by
- heroically declaring, "I shall learn to make buttonholes, and attend to
- my parts of speech."
- "Very good! Then I am quite satisfied with the experiment, and fancy
- that we shall not have to repeat it, only don't go to the other extreme
- and delve like slaves. Have regular hours for work and play, make each
- day both useful and pleasant, and prove that you understand the worth
- of time by employing it well. Then youth will be delightful, old age
- will bring few regrets, and life become a beautiful success, in spite
- of poverty."
- "We'll remember, Mother!" and they did.
- CHAPTER TWELVE
- CAMP LAURENCE
- Beth was postmistress, for, being most at home, she could attend to it
- regularly, and dearly liked the daily task of unlocking the little door
- and distributing the mail. One July day she came in with her hands
- full, and went about the house leaving letters and parcels like the
- penny post.
- "Here's your posy, Mother! Laurie never forgets that," she said,
- putting the fresh nosegay in the vase that stood in 'Marmee's corner',
- and was kept supplied by the affectionate boy.
- "Miss Meg March, one letter and a glove," continued Beth, delivering
- the articles to her sister, who sat near her mother, stitching
- wristbands.
- "Why, I left a pair over there, and here is only one," said Meg,
- looking at the gray cotton glove. "Didn't you drop the other in the
- garden?"
- "No, I'm sure I didn't, for there was only one in the office."
- "I hate to have odd gloves! Never mind, the other may be found. My
- letter is only a translation of the German song I wanted. I think Mr.
- Brooke did it, for this isn't Laurie's writing."
- Mrs. March glanced at Meg, who was looking very pretty in her gingham
- morning gown, with the little curls blowing about her forehead, and
- very womanly, as she sat sewing at her little worktable, full of tidy
- white rolls, so unconscious of the thought in her mother's mind as she
- sewed and sang, while her fingers flew and her thoughts were busied
- with girlish fancies as innocent and fresh as the pansies in her belt,
- that Mrs. March smiled and was satisfied.
- "Two letters for Doctor Jo, a book, and a funny old hat, which covered
- the whole post office and stuck outside," said Beth, laughing as she
- went into the study where Jo sat writing.
- "What a sly fellow Laurie is! I said I wished bigger hats were the
- fashion, because I burn my face every hot day. He said, 'Why mind the
- fashion? Wear a big hat, and be comfortable!' I said I would if I had
- one, and he has sent me this, to try me. I'll wear it for fun, and
- show him I don't care for the fashion." And hanging the antique
- broad-brim on a bust of Plato, Jo read her letters.
- One from her mother made her cheeks glow and her eyes fill, for it said
- to her...
- My Dear:
- I write a little word to tell you with how much satisfaction I watch
- your efforts to control your temper. You say nothing about your
- trials, failures, or successes, and think, perhaps, that no one sees
- them but the Friend whose help you daily ask, if I may trust the
- well-worn cover of your guidebook. I, too, have seen them all, and
- heartily believe in the sincerity of your resolution, since it begins
- to bear fruit. Go on, dear, patiently and bravely, and always believe
- that no one sympathizes more tenderly with you than your loving...
- Mother
- "That does me good! That's worth millions of money and pecks of
- praise. Oh, Marmee, I do try! I will keep on trying, and not get
- tired, since I have you to help me."
- Laying her head on her arms, Jo wet her little romance with a few happy
- tears, for she had thought that no one saw and appreciated her efforts
- to be good, and this assurance was doubly precious, doubly encouraging,
- because unexpected and from the person whose commendation she most
- valued. Feeling stronger than ever to meet and subdue her Apollyon,
- she pinned the note inside her frock, as a shield and a reminder, lest
- she be taken unaware, and proceeded to open her other letter, quite
- ready for either good or bad news. In a big, dashing hand, Laurie
- wrote...
- Dear Jo, What ho!
- Some English girls and boys are coming to see me tomorrow and I want to
- have a jolly time. If it's fine, I'm going to pitch my tent in
- Longmeadow, and row up the whole crew to lunch and croquet--have a
- fire, make messes, gypsy fashion, and all sorts of larks. They are
- nice people, and like such things. Brooke will go to keep us boys
- steady, and Kate Vaughn will play propriety for the girls. I want you
- all to come, can't let Beth off at any price, and nobody shall worry
- her. Don't bother about rations, I'll see to that and everything else,
- only do come, there's a good fellow!
- In a tearing hurry, Yours ever, Laurie.
- "Here's richness!" cried Jo, flying in to tell the news to Meg.
- "Of course we can go, Mother? It will be such a help to Laurie, for I
- can row, and Meg see to the lunch, and the children be useful in some
- way."
- "I hope the Vaughns are not fine grown-up people. Do you know anything
- about them, Jo?" asked Meg.
- "Only that there are four of them. Kate is older than you, Fred and
- Frank (twins) about my age, and a little girl (Grace), who is nine or
- ten. Laurie knew them abroad, and liked the boys. I fancied, from the
- way he primmed up his mouth in speaking of her, that he didn't admire
- Kate much."
- "I'm so glad my French print is clean, it's just the thing and so
- becoming!" observed Meg complacently. "Have you anything decent, Jo?"
- "Scarlet and gray boating suit, good enough for me. I shall row and
- tramp about, so I don't want any starch to think of. You'll come,
- Betty?"
- "If you won't let any boys talk to me."
- "Not a boy!"
- "I like to please Laurie, and I'm not afraid of Mr. Brooke, he is so
- kind. But I don't want to play, or sing, or say anything. I'll work
- hard and not trouble anyone, and you'll take care of me, Jo, so I'll
- go."
- "That's my good girl. You do try to fight off your shyness, and I love
- you for it. Fighting faults isn't easy, as I know, and a cheery word
- kind of gives a lift. Thank you, Mother," And Jo gave the thin cheek a
- grateful kiss, more precious to Mrs. March than if it had given back
- the rosy roundness of her youth.
- "I had a box of chocolate drops, and the picture I wanted to copy,"
- said Amy, showing her mail.
- "And I got a note from Mr. Laurence, asking me to come over and play to
- him tonight, before the lamps are lighted, and I shall go," added Beth,
- whose friendship with the old gentleman prospered finely.
- "Now let's fly round, and do double duty today, so that we can play
- tomorrow with free minds," said Jo, preparing to replace her pen with a
- broom.
- When the sun peeped into the girls' room early next morning to promise
- them a fine day, he saw a comical sight. Each had made such
- preparation for the fete as seemed necessary and proper. Meg had an
- extra row of little curlpapers across her forehead, Jo had copiously
- anointed her afflicted face with cold cream, Beth had taken Joanna to
- bed with her to atone for the approaching separation, and Amy had
- capped the climax by putting a clothespin on her nose to uplift the
- offending feature. It was one of the kind artists use to hold the
- paper on their drawing boards, therefore quite appropriate and
- effective for the purpose it was now being put. This funny spectacle
- appeared to amuse the sun, for he burst out with such radiance that Jo
- woke up and roused her sisters by a hearty laugh at Amy's ornament.
- Sunshine and laughter were good omens for a pleasure party, and soon a
- lively bustle began in both houses. Beth, who was ready first, kept
- reporting what went on next door, and enlivened her sisters' toilets by
- frequent telegrams from the window.
- "There goes the man with the tent! I see Mrs. Barker doing up the
- lunch in a hamper and a great basket. Now Mr. Laurence is looking up
- at the sky and the weathercock. I wish he would go too. There's
- Laurie, looking like a sailor, nice boy! Oh, mercy me! Here's a
- carriage full of people, a tall lady, a little girl, and two dreadful
- boys. One is lame, poor thing, he's got a crutch. Laurie didn't tell
- us that. Be quick, girls! It's getting late. Why, there is Ned
- Moffat, I do declare. Meg, isn't that the man who bowed to you one day
- when we were shopping?"
- "So it is. How queer that he should come. I thought he was at the
- mountains. There is Sallie. I'm glad she got back in time. Am I all
- right, Jo?" cried Meg in a flutter.
- "A regular daisy. Hold up your dress and put your hat on straight, it
- looks sentimental tipped that way and will fly off at the first puff.
- Now then, come on!"
- "Oh, Jo, you are not going to wear that awful hat? It's too absurd!
- You shall not make a guy of yourself," remonstrated Meg, as Jo tied
- down with a red ribbon the broad-brimmed, old-fashioned leghorn Laurie
- had sent for a joke.
- "I just will, though, for it's capital, so shady, light, and big. It
- will make fun, and I don't mind being a guy if I'm comfortable." With
- that Jo marched straight away and the rest followed, a bright little
- band of sisters, all looking their best in summer suits, with happy
- faces under the jaunty hatbrims.
- Laurie ran to meet and present them to his friends in the most cordial
- manner. The lawn was the reception room, and for several minutes a
- lively scene was enacted there. Meg was grateful to see that Miss
- Kate, though twenty, was dressed with a simplicity which American girls
- would do well to imitate, and who was much flattered by Mr. Ned's
- assurances that he came especially to see her. Jo understood why
- Laurie 'primmed up his mouth' when speaking of Kate, for that young
- lady had a standoff-don't-touch-me air, which contrasted strongly with
- the free and easy demeanor of the other girls. Beth took an
- observation of the new boys and decided that the lame one was not
- 'dreadful', but gentle and feeble, and she would be kind to him on that
- account. Amy found Grace a well-mannered, merry, little person, and
- after staring dumbly at one another for a few minutes, they suddenly
- became very good friends.
- Tents, lunch, and croquet utensils having been sent on beforehand, the
- party was soon embarked, and the two boats pushed off together, leaving
- Mr. Laurence waving his hat on the shore. Laurie and Jo rowed one
- boat, Mr. Brooke and Ned the other, while Fred Vaughn, the riotous
- twin, did his best to upset both by paddling about in a wherry like a
- disturbed water bug. Jo's funny hat deserved a vote of thanks, for it
- was of general utility. It broke the ice in the beginning by producing
- a laugh, it created quite a refreshing breeze, flapping to and fro as
- she rowed, and would make an excellent umbrella for the whole party, if
- a shower came up, she said. Miss Kate decided that she was 'odd', but
- rather clever, and smiled upon her from afar.
- Meg, in the other boat, was delightfully situated, face to face with
- the rowers, who both admired the prospect and feathered their oars with
- uncommon 'skill and dexterity'. Mr. Brooke was a grave, silent young
- man, with handsome brown eyes and a pleasant voice. Meg liked his
- quiet manners and considered him a walking encyclopedia of useful
- knowledge. He never talked to her much, but he looked at her a good
- deal, and she felt sure that he did not regard her with aversion. Ned,
- being in college, of course put on all the airs which freshmen think it
- their bounden duty to assume. He was not very wise, but very
- good-natured, and altogether an excellent person to carry on a picnic.
- Sallie Gardiner was absorbed in keeping her white pique dress clean and
- chattering with the ubiquitous Fred, who kept Beth in constant terror
- by his pranks.
- It was not far to Longmeadow, but the tent was pitched and the wickets
- down by the time they arrived. A pleasant green field, with three
- wide-spreading oaks in the middle and a smooth strip of turf for
- croquet.
- "Welcome to Camp Laurence!" said the young host, as they landed with
- exclamations of delight.
- "Brooke is commander in chief, I am commissary general, the other
- fellows are staff officers, and you, ladies, are company. The tent is
- for your especial benefit and that oak is your drawing room, this is
- the messroom and the third is the camp kitchen. Now, let's have a game
- before it gets hot, and then we'll see about dinner."
- Frank, Beth, Amy, and Grace sat down to watch the game played by the
- other eight. Mr. Brooke chose Meg, Kate, and Fred. Laurie took Sallie,
- Jo, and Ned. The English played well, but the Americans played better,
- and contested every inch of the ground as strongly as if the spirit of
- '76 inspired them. Jo and Fred had several skirmishes and once
- narrowly escaped high words. Jo was through the last wicket and had
- missed the stroke, which failure ruffled her a good deal. Fred was
- close behind her and his turn came before hers. He gave a stroke, his
- ball hit the wicket, and stopped an inch on the wrong side. No one was
- very near, and running up to examine, he gave it a sly nudge with his
- toe, which put it just an inch on the right side.
- "I'm through! Now, Miss Jo, I'll settle you, and get in first," cried
- the young gentleman, swinging his mallet for another blow.
- "You pushed it. I saw you. It's my turn now," said Jo sharply.
- "Upon my word, I didn't move it. It rolled a bit, perhaps, but that is
- allowed. So, stand off please, and let me have a go at the stake."
- "We don't cheat in America, but you can, if you choose," said Jo
- angrily.
- "Yankees are a deal the most tricky, everybody knows. There you go!"
- returned Fred, croqueting her ball far away.
- Jo opened her lips to say something rude, but checked herself in time,
- colored up to her forehead and stood a minute, hammering down a wicket
- with all her might, while Fred hit the stake and declared himself out
- with much exultation. She went off to get her ball, and was a long
- time finding it among the bushes, but she came back, looking cool and
- quiet, and waited her turn patiently. It took several strokes to
- regain the place she had lost, and when she got there, the other side
- had nearly won, for Kate's ball was the last but one and lay near the
- stake.
- "By George, it's all up with us! Goodbye, Kate. Miss Jo owes me one,
- so you are finished," cried Fred excitedly, as they all drew near to
- see the finish.
- "Yankees have a trick of being generous to their enemies," said Jo,
- with a look that made the lad redden, "especially when they beat them,"
- she added, as, leaving Kate's ball untouched, she won the game by a
- clever stroke.
- Laurie threw up his hat, then remembered that it wouldn't do to exult
- over the defeat of his guests, and stopped in the middle of the cheer
- to whisper to his friend, "Good for you, Jo! He did cheat, I saw him.
- We can't tell him so, but he won't do it again, take my word for it."
- Meg drew her aside, under pretense of pinning up a loose braid, and
- said approvingly, "It was dreadfully provoking, but you kept your
- temper, and I'm so glad, Jo."
- "Don't praise me, Meg, for I could box his ears this minute. I should
- certainly have boiled over if I hadn't stayed among the nettles till I
- got my rage under control enough to hold my tongue. It's simmering now,
- so I hope he'll keep out of my way," returned Jo, biting her lips as
- she glowered at Fred from under her big hat.
- "Time for lunch," said Mr. Brooke, looking at his watch. "Commissary
- general, will you make the fire and get water, while Miss March, Miss
- Sallie, and I spread the table? Who can make good coffee?"
- "Jo can," said Meg, glad to recommend her sister. So Jo, feeling that
- her late lessons in cookery were to do her honor, went to preside over
- the coffeepot, while the children collected dry sticks, and the boys
- made a fire and got water from a spring near by. Miss Kate sketched
- and Frank talked to Beth, who was making little mats of braided rushes
- to serve as plates.
- The commander in chief and his aides soon spread the tablecloth with an
- inviting array of eatables and drinkables, prettily decorated with
- green leaves. Jo announced that the coffee was ready, and everyone
- settled themselves to a hearty meal, for youth is seldom dyspeptic, and
- exercise develops wholesome appetites. A very merry lunch it was, for
- everything seemed fresh and funny, and frequent peals of laughter
- startled a venerable horse who fed near by. There was a pleasing
- inequality in the table, which produced many mishaps to cups and
- plates, acorns dropped in the milk, little black ants partook of the
- refreshments without being invited, and fuzzy caterpillars swung down
- from the tree to see what was going on. Three white-headed children
- peeped over the fence, and an objectionable dog barked at them from the
- other side of the river with all his might and main.
- "There's salt here," said Laurie, as he handed Jo a saucer of berries.
- "Thank you, I prefer spiders," she replied, fishing up two unwary
- little ones who had gone to a creamy death. "How dare you remind me of
- that horrid dinner party, when yours is so nice in every way?" added
- Jo, as they both laughed and ate out of one plate, the china having run
- short.
- "I had an uncommonly good time that day, and haven't got over it yet.
- This is no credit to me, you know, I don't do anything. It's you and
- Meg and Brooke who make it all go, and I'm no end obliged to you. What
- shall we do when we can't eat anymore?" asked Laurie, feeling that his
- trump card had been played when lunch was over.
- "Have games till it's cooler. I brought Authors, and I dare say Miss
- Kate knows something new and nice. Go and ask her. She's company, and
- you ought to stay with her more."
- "Aren't you company too? I thought she'd suit Brooke, but he keeps
- talking to Meg, and Kate just stares at them through that ridiculous
- glass of hers. I'm going, so you needn't try to preach propriety, for
- you can't do it, Jo."
- Miss Kate did know several new games, and as the girls would not, and
- the boys could not, eat any more, they all adjourned to the drawing
- room to play Rig-marole.
- "One person begins a story, any nonsense you like, and tells as long as
- he pleases, only taking care to stop short at some exciting point, when
- the next takes it up and does the same. It's very funny when well
- done, and makes a perfect jumble of tragical comical stuff to laugh
- over. Please start it, Mr. Brooke," said Kate, with a commanding air,
- which surprised Meg, who treated the tutor with as much respect as any
- other gentleman.
- Lying on the grass at the feet of the two young ladies, Mr. Brooke
- obediently began the story, with the handsome brown eyes steadily fixed
- upon the sunshiny river.
- "Once on a time, a knight went out into the world to seek his fortune,
- for he had nothing but his sword and his shield. He traveled a long
- while, nearly eight-and-twenty years, and had a hard time of it, till
- he came to the palace of a good old king, who had offered a reward to
- anyone who could tame and train a fine but unbroken colt, of which he
- was very fond. The knight agreed to try, and got on slowly but surely,
- for the colt was a gallant fellow, and soon learned to love his new
- master, though he was freakish and wild. Every day, when he gave his
- lessons to this pet of the king's, the knight rode him through the
- city, and as he rode, he looked everywhere for a certain beautiful
- face, which he had seen many times in his dreams, but never found. One
- day, as he went prancing down a quiet street, he saw at the window of a
- ruinous castle the lovely face. He was delighted, inquired who lived
- in this old castle, and was told that several captive princesses were
- kept there by a spell, and spun all day to lay up money to buy their
- liberty. The knight wished intensely that he could free them, but he
- was poor and could only go by each day, watching for the sweet face and
- longing to see it out in the sunshine. At last he resolved to get into
- the castle and ask how he could help them. He went and knocked. The
- great door flew open, and he beheld..."
- "A ravishingly lovely lady, who exclaimed, with a cry of rapture, 'At
- last! At last!'" continued Kate, who had read French novels, and
- admired the style. "'Tis she!' cried Count Gustave, and fell at her
- feet in an ecstasy of joy. 'Oh, rise!' she said, extending a hand of
- marble fairness. 'Never! Till you tell me how I may rescue you,' swore
- the knight, still kneeling. 'Alas, my cruel fate condemns me to remain
- here till my tyrant is destroyed.' 'Where is the villain?' 'In the
- mauve salon. Go, brave heart, and save me from despair.' 'I obey, and
- return victorious or dead!' With these thrilling words he rushed away,
- and flinging open the door of the mauve salon, was about to enter, when
- he received..."
- "A stunning blow from the big Greek lexicon, which an old fellow in a
- black gown fired at him," said Ned. "Instantly, Sir What's-his-name
- recovered himself, pitched the tyrant out of the window, and turned to
- join the lady, victorious, but with a bump on his brow, found the door
- locked, tore up the curtains, made a rope ladder, got halfway down when
- the ladder broke, and he went headfirst into the moat, sixty feet
- below. Could swim like a duck, paddled round the castle till he came
- to a little door guarded by two stout fellows, knocked their heads
- together till they cracked like a couple of nuts, then, by a trifling
- exertion of his prodigious strength, he smashed in the door, went up a
- pair of stone steps covered with dust a foot thick, toads as big as
- your fist, and spiders that would frighten you into hysterics, Miss
- March. At the top of these steps he came plump upon a sight that took
- his breath away and chilled his blood..."
- "A tall figure, all in white with a veil over its face and a lamp in
- its wasted hand," went on Meg. "It beckoned, gliding noiselessly
- before him down a corridor as dark and cold as any tomb. Shadowy
- effigies in armor stood on either side, a dead silence reigned, the
- lamp burned blue, and the ghostly figure ever and anon turned its face
- toward him, showing the glitter of awful eyes through its white veil.
- They reached a curtained door, behind which sounded lovely music. He
- sprang forward to enter, but the specter plucked him back, and waved
- threateningly before him a..."
- "Snuffbox," said Jo, in a sepulchral tone, which convulsed the
- audience. "'Thankee,' said the knight politely, as he took a pinch and
- sneezed seven times so violently that his head fell off. 'Ha! Ha!'
- laughed the ghost, and having peeped through the keyhole at the
- princesses spinning away for dear life, the evil spirit picked up her
- victim and put him in a large tin box, where there were eleven other
- knights packed together without their heads, like sardines, who all
- rose and began to..."
- "Dance a hornpipe," cut in Fred, as Jo paused for breath, "and, as they
- danced, the rubbishy old castle turned to a man-of-war in full sail.
- 'Up with the jib, reef the tops'l halliards, helm hard alee, and man
- the guns!' roared the captain, as a Portuguese pirate hove in sight,
- with a flag black as ink flying from her foremast. 'Go in and win, my
- hearties!' says the captain, and a tremendous fight began. Of course
- the British beat--they always do."
- "No, they don't!" cried Jo, aside.
- "Having taken the pirate captain prisoner, sailed slap over the
- schooner, whose decks were piled high with dead and whose lee scuppers
- ran blood, for the order had been 'Cutlasses, and die hard!' 'Bosun's
- mate, take a bight of the flying-jib sheet, and start this villain if
- he doesn't confess his sins double quick,' said the British captain.
- The Portuguese held his tongue like a brick, and walked the plank,
- while the jolly tars cheered like mad. But the sly dog dived, came up
- under the man-of-war, scuttled her, and down she went, with all sail
- set, 'To the bottom of the sea, sea, sea' where..."
- "Oh, gracious! What shall I say?" cried Sallie, as Fred ended his
- rigmarole, in which he had jumbled together pell-mell nautical phrases
- and facts out of one of his favorite books. "Well, they went to the
- bottom, and a nice mermaid welcomed them, but was much grieved on
- finding the box of headless knights, and kindly pickled them in brine,
- hoping to discover the mystery about them, for being a woman, she was
- curious. By-and-by a diver came down, and the mermaid said, 'I'll give
- you a box of pearls if you can take it up,' for she wanted to restore
- the poor things to life, and couldn't raise the heavy load herself. So
- the diver hoisted it up, and was much disappointed on opening it to
- find no pearls. He left it in a great lonely field, where it was found
- by a..."
- "Little goose girl, who kept a hundred fat geese in the field," said
- Amy, when Sallie's invention gave out. "The little girl was sorry for
- them, and asked an old woman what she should do to help them. 'Your
- geese will tell you, they know everything.' said the old woman. So she
- asked what she should use for new heads, since the old ones were lost,
- and all the geese opened their hundred mouths and screamed..."
- "'Cabbages!'" continued Laurie promptly. "'Just the thing,' said the
- girl, and ran to get twelve fine ones from her garden. She put them on,
- the knights revived at once, thanked her, and went on their way
- rejoicing, never knowing the difference, for there were so many other
- heads like them in the world that no one thought anything of it. The
- knight in whom I'm interested went back to find the pretty face, and
- learned that the princesses had spun themselves free and all gone and
- married, but one. He was in a great state of mind at that, and
- mounting the colt, who stood by him through thick and thin, rushed to
- the castle to see which was left. Peeping over the hedge, he saw the
- queen of his affections picking flowers in her garden. 'Will you give
- me a rose?' said he. 'You must come and get it. I can't come to you,
- it isn't proper,' said she, as sweet as honey. He tried to climb over
- the hedge, but it seemed to grow higher and higher. Then he tried to
- push through, but it grew thicker and thicker, and he was in despair.
- So he patiently broke twig after twig till he had made a little hole
- through which he peeped, saying imploringly, 'Let me in! Let me in!'
- But the pretty princess did not seem to understand, for she picked her
- roses quietly, and left him to fight his way in. Whether he did or
- not, Frank will tell you."
- "I can't. I'm not playing, I never do," said Frank, dismayed at the
- sentimental predicament out of which he was to rescue the absurd
- couple. Beth had disappeared behind Jo, and Grace was asleep.
- "So the poor knight is to be left sticking in the hedge, is he?" asked
- Mr. Brooke, still watching the river, and playing with the wild rose in
- his buttonhole.
- "I guess the princess gave him a posy, and opened the gate after a
- while," said Laurie, smiling to himself, as he threw acorns at his
- tutor.
- "What a piece of nonsense we have made! With practice we might do
- something quite clever. Do you know Truth?"
- "I hope so," said Meg soberly.
- "The game, I mean?"
- "What is it?" said Fred.
- "Why, you pile up your hands, choose a number, and draw out in turn,
- and the person who draws at the number has to answer truly any question
- put by the rest. It's great fun."
- "Let's try it," said Jo, who liked new experiments.
- Miss Kate and Mr. Brooke, Meg, and Ned declined, but Fred, Sallie, Jo,
- and Laurie piled and drew, and the lot fell to Laurie.
- "Who are your heroes?" asked Jo.
- "Grandfather and Napoleon."
- "Which lady here do you think prettiest?" said Sallie.
- "Margaret."
- "Which do you like best?" from Fred.
- "Jo, of course."
- "What silly questions you ask!" And Jo gave a disdainful shrug as the
- rest laughed at Laurie's matter-of-fact tone.
- "Try again. Truth isn't a bad game," said Fred.
- "It's a very good one for you," retorted Jo in a low voice. Her turn
- came next.
- "What is your greatest fault?" asked Fred, by way of testing in her the
- virtue he lacked himself.
- "A quick temper."
- "What do you most wish for?" said Laurie.
- "A pair of boot lacings," returned Jo, guessing and defeating his
- purpose.
- "Not a true answer. You must say what you really do want most."
- "Genius. Don't you wish you could give it to me, Laurie?" And she
- slyly smiled in his disappointed face.
- "What virtues do you most admire in a man?" asked Sallie.
- "Courage and honesty."
- "Now my turn," said Fred, as his hand came last.
- "Let's give it to him," whispered Laurie to Jo, who nodded and asked at
- once...
- "Didn't you cheat at croquet?"
- "Well, yes, a little bit."
- "Good! Didn't you take your story out of _The Sea Lion?_" said Laurie.
- "Rather."
- "Don't you think the English nation perfect in every respect?" asked
- Sallie.
- "I should be ashamed of myself if I didn't."
- "He's a true John Bull. Now, Miss Sallie, you shall have a chance
- without waiting to draw. I'll harrrow up your feelings first by asking
- if you don't think you are something of a flirt," said Laurie, as Jo
- nodded to Fred as a sign that peace was declared.
- "You impertinent boy! Of course I'm not," exclaimed Sallie, with an
- air that proved the contrary.
- "What do you hate most?" asked Fred.
- "Spiders and rice pudding."
- "What do you like best?" asked Jo.
- "Dancing and French gloves."
- "Well, I think Truth is a very silly play. Let's have a sensible game
- of Authors to refresh our minds," proposed Jo.
- Ned, Frank, and the little girls joined in this, and while it went on,
- the three elders sat apart, talking. Miss Kate took out her sketch
- again, and Margaret watched her, while Mr. Brooke lay on the grass with
- a book, which he did not read.
- "How beautifully you do it! I wish I could draw," said Meg, with
- mingled admiration and regret in her voice.
- "Why don't you learn? I should think you had taste and talent for it,"
- replied Miss Kate graciously.
- "I haven't time."
- "Your mamma prefers other accomplishments, I fancy. So did mine, but I
- proved to her that I had talent by taking a few lessons privately, and
- then she was quite willing I should go on. Can't you do the same with
- your governess?"
- "I have none."
- "I forgot young ladies in America go to school more than with us. Very
- fine schools they are, too, Papa says. You go to a private one, I
- suppose?"
- "I don't go at all. I am a governess myself."
- "Oh, indeed!" said Miss Kate, but she might as well have said, "Dear
- me, how dreadful!" for her tone implied it, and something in her face
- made Meg color, and wish she had not been so frank.
- Mr. Brooke looked up and said quickly, "Young ladies in America love
- independence as much as their ancestors did, and are admired and
- respected for supporting themselves."
- "Oh, yes, of course it's very nice and proper in them to do so. We
- have many most respectable and worthy young women who do the same and
- are employed by the nobility, because, being the daughters of
- gentlemen, they are both well bred and accomplished, you know," said
- Miss Kate in a patronizing tone that hurt Meg's pride, and made her
- work seem not only more distasteful, but degrading.
- "Did the German song suit, Miss March?" inquired Mr. Brooke, breaking
- an awkward pause.
- "Oh, yes! It was very sweet, and I'm much obliged to whoever
- translated it for me." And Meg's downcast face brightened as she spoke.
- "Don't you read German?" asked Miss Kate with a look of surprise.
- "Not very well. My father, who taught me, is away, and I don't get on
- very fast alone, for I've no one to correct my pronunciation."
- "Try a little now. Here is Schiller's Mary Stuart and a tutor who
- loves to teach." And Mr. Brooke laid his book on her lap with an
- inviting smile.
- "It's so hard I'm afraid to try," said Meg, grateful, but bashful in
- the presence of the accomplished young lady beside her.
- "I'll read a bit to encourage you." And Miss Kate read one of the most
- beautiful passages in a perfectly correct but perfectly expressionless
- manner.
- Mr. Brooke made no comment as she returned the book to Meg, who said
- innocently, "I thought it was poetry."
- "Some of it is. Try this passage."
- There was a queer smile about Mr. Brooke's mouth as he opened at poor
- Mary's lament.
- Meg obediently following the long grass-blade which her new tutor used
- to point with, read slowly and timidly, unconsciously making poetry of
- the hard words by the soft intonation of her musical voice. Down the
- page went the green guide, and presently, forgetting her listener in
- the beauty of the sad scene, Meg read as if alone, giving a little
- touch of tragedy to the words of the unhappy queen. If she had seen
- the brown eyes then, she would have stopped short, but she never looked
- up, and the lesson was not spoiled for her.
- "Very well indeed!" said Mr. Brooke, as she paused, quite ignoring her
- many mistakes, and looking as if he did indeed love to teach.
- Miss Kate put up her glass, and, having taken a survey of the little
- tableau before her, shut her sketch book, saying with condescension,
- "You've a nice accent and in time will be a clever reader. I advise
- you to learn, for German is a valuable accomplishment to teachers. I
- must look after Grace, she is romping." And Miss Kate strolled away,
- adding to herself with a shrug, "I didn't come to chaperone a
- governess, though she is young and pretty. What odd people these
- Yankees are. I'm afraid Laurie will be quite spoiled among them."
- "I forgot that English people rather turn up their noses at governesses
- and don't treat them as we do," said Meg, looking after the retreating
- figure with an annoyed expression.
- "Tutors also have rather a hard time of it there, as I know to my
- sorrow. There's no place like America for us workers, Miss Margaret."
- And Mr. Brooke looked so contented and cheerful that Meg was ashamed to
- lament her hard lot.
- "I'm glad I live in it then. I don't like my work, but I get a good
- deal of satisfaction out of it after all, so I won't complain. I only
- wished I liked teaching as you do."
- "I think you would if you had Laurie for a pupil. I shall be very
- sorry to lose him next year," said Mr. Brooke, busily punching holes in
- the turf.
- "Going to college, I suppose?" Meg's lips asked the question, but her
- eyes added, "And what becomes of you?"
- "Yes, it's high time he went, for he is ready, and as soon as he is
- off, I shall turn soldier. I am needed."
- "I am glad of that!" exclaimed Meg. "I should think every young man
- would want to go, though it is hard for the mothers and sisters who
- stay at home," she added sorrowfully.
- "I have neither, and very few friends to care whether I live or die,"
- said Mr. Brooke rather bitterly as he absently put the dead rose in the
- hole he had made and covered it up, like a little grave.
- "Laurie and his grandfather would care a great deal, and we should all
- be very sorry to have any harm happen to you," said Meg heartily.
- "Thank you, that sounds pleasant," began Mr. Brooke, looking cheerful
- again, but before he could finish his speech, Ned, mounted on the old
- horse, came lumbering up to display his equestrian skill before the
- young ladies, and there was no more quiet that day.
- "Don't you love to ride?" asked Grace of Amy, as they stood resting
- after a race round the field with the others, led by Ned.
- "I dote upon it. My sister, Meg, used to ride when Papa was rich, but
- we don't keep any horses now, except Ellen Tree," added Amy, laughing.
- "Tell me about Ellen Tree. Is it a donkey?" asked Grace curiously.
- "Why, you see, Jo is crazy about horses and so am I, but we've only got
- an old sidesaddle and no horse. Out in our garden is an apple tree
- that has a nice low branch, so Jo put the saddle on it, fixed some
- reins on the part that turns up, and we bounce away on Ellen Tree
- whenever we like."
- "How funny!" laughed Grace. "I have a pony at home, and ride nearly
- every day in the park with Fred and Kate. It's very nice, for my
- friends go too, and the Row is full of ladies and gentlemen."
- "Dear, how charming! I hope I shall go abroad some day, but I'd rather
- go to Rome than the Row," said Amy, who had not the remotest idea what
- the Row was and wouldn't have asked for the world.
- Frank, sitting just behind the little girls, heard what they were
- saying, and pushed his crutch away from him with an impatient gesture
- as he watched the active lads going through all sorts of comical
- gymnastics. Beth, who was collecting the scattered Author cards,
- looked up and said, in her shy yet friendly way, "I'm afraid you are
- tired. Can I do anything for you?"
- "Talk to me, please. It's dull, sitting by myself," answered Frank,
- who had evidently been used to being made much of at home.
- If he asked her to deliver a Latin oration, it would not have seemed a
- more impossible task to bashful Beth, but there was no place to run to,
- no Jo to hide behind now, and the poor boy looked so wistfully at her
- that she bravely resolved to try.
- "What do you like to talk about?" she asked, fumbling over the cards
- and dropping half as she tried to tie them up.
- "Well, I like to hear about cricket and boating and hunting," said
- Frank, who had not yet learned to suit his amusements to his strength.
- My heart! What shall I do? I don't know anything about them, thought
- Beth, and forgetting the boy's misfortune in her flurry, she said,
- hoping to make him talk, "I never saw any hunting, but I suppose you
- know all about it."
- "I did once, but I can never hunt again, for I got hurt leaping a
- confounded five-barred gate, so there are no more horses and hounds for
- me," said Frank with a sigh that made Beth hate herself for her
- innocent blunder.
- "Your deer are much prettier than our ugly buffaloes," she said,
- turning to the prairies for help and feeling glad that she had read one
- of the boys' books in which Jo delighted.
- Buffaloes proved soothing and satisfactory, and in her eagerness to
- amuse another, Beth forgot herself, and was quite unconscious of her
- sisters' surprise and delight at the unusual spectacle of Beth talking
- away to one of the dreadful boys, against whom she had begged
- protection.
- "Bless her heart! She pities him, so she is good to him," said Jo,
- beaming at her from the croquet ground.
- "I always said she was a little saint," added Meg, as if there could be
- no further doubt of it.
- "I haven't heard Frank laugh so much for ever so long," said Grace to
- Amy, as they sat discussing dolls and making tea sets out of the acorn
- cups.
- "My sister Beth is a very fastidious girl, when she likes to be," said
- Amy, well pleased at Beth's success. She meant 'facinating', but as
- Grace didn't know the exact meaning of either word, fastidious sounded
- well and made a good impression.
- An impromptu circus, fox and geese, and an amicable game of croquet
- finished the afternoon. At sunset the tent was struck, hampers packed,
- wickets pulled up, boats loaded, and the whole party floated down the
- river, singing at the tops of their voices. Ned, getting sentimental,
- warbled a serenade with the pensive refrain...
- Alone, alone, ah! Woe, alone,
- and at the lines...
- We each are young, we each have a heart,
- Oh, why should we stand thus coldly apart?
- he looked at Meg with such a lackadiasical expression that she laughed
- outright and spoiled his song.
- "How can you be so cruel to me?" he whispered, under cover of a lively
- chorus. "You've kept close to that starched-up Englishwoman all day,
- and now you snub me."
- "I didn't mean to, but you looked so funny I really couldn't help it,"
- replied Meg, passing over the first part of his reproach, for it was
- quite true that she had shunned him, remembering the Moffat party and
- the talk after it.
- Ned was offended and turned to Sallie for consolation, saying to her
- rather pettishly, "There isn't a bit of flirt in that girl, is there?"
- "Not a particle, but she's a dear," returned Sallie, defending her
- friend even while confessing her shortcomings.
- "She's not a stricken deer anyway," said Ned, trying to be witty, and
- succeeding as well as very young gentlemen usually do.
- On the lawn where it had gathered, the little party separated with
- cordial good nights and good-byes, for the Vaughns were going to Canada.
- As the four sisters went home through the garden, Miss Kate looked
- after them, saying, without the patronizing tone in her voice, "In
- spite of their demonstrative manners, American girls are very nice when
- one knows them."
- "I quite agree with you," said Mr. Brooke.
- CHAPTER THIRTEEN
- CASTLES IN THE AIR
- Laurie lay luxuriously swinging to and fro in his hammock one warm
- September afternoon, wondering what his neighbors were about, but too
- lazy to go and find out. He was in one of his moods, for the day had
- been both unprofitable and unsatisfactory, and he was wishing he could
- live it over again. The hot weather made him indolent, and he had
- shirked his studies, tried Mr. Brooke's patience to the utmost,
- displeased his grandfather by practicing half the afternoon, frightened
- the maidservants half out of their wits by mischievously hinting that
- one of his dogs was going mad, and, after high words with the stableman
- about some fancied neglect of his horse, he had flung himself into his
- hammock to fume over the stupidity of the world in general, till the
- peace of the lovely day quieted him in spite of himself. Staring up
- into the green gloom of the horse-chestnut trees above him, he dreamed
- dreams of all sorts, and was just imagining himself tossing on the
- ocean in a voyage round the world, when the sound of voices brought him
- ashore in a flash. Peeping through the meshes of the hammock, he saw
- the Marches coming out, as if bound on some expedition.
- "What in the world are those girls about now?" thought Laurie, opening
- his sleepy eyes to take a good look, for there was something rather
- peculiar in the appearance of his neighbors. Each wore a large,
- flapping hat, a brown linen pouch slung over one shoulder, and carried
- a long staff. Meg had a cushion, Jo a book, Beth a basket, and Amy a
- portfolio. All walked quietly through the garden, out at the little
- back gate, and began to climb the hill that lay between the house and
- river.
- "Well, that's cool," said Laurie to himself, "to have a picnic and
- never ask me! They can't be going in the boat, for they haven't got
- the key. Perhaps they forgot it. I'll take it to them, and see what's
- going on."
- Though possessed of half a dozen hats, it took him some time to find
- one, then there was a hunt for the key, which was at last discovered in
- his pocket, so that the girls were quite out of sight when he leaped
- the fence and ran after them. Taking the shortest way to the
- boathouse, he waited for them to appear, but no one came, and he went
- up the hill to take an observation. A grove of pines covered one part
- of it, and from the heart of this green spot came a clearer sound than
- the soft sigh of the pines or the drowsy chirp of the crickets.
- "Here's a landscape!" thought Laurie, peeping through the bushes, and
- looking wide-awake and good-natured already.
- It was a rather pretty little picture, for the sisters sat together in
- the shady nook, with sun and shadow flickering over them, the aromatic
- wind lifting their hair and cooling their hot cheeks, and all the
- little wood people going on with their affairs as if these were no
- strangers but old friends. Meg sat upon her cushion, sewing daintily
- with her white hands, and looking as fresh and sweet as a rose in her
- pink dress among the green. Beth was sorting the cones that lay thick
- under the hemlock near by, for she made pretty things with them. Amy
- was sketching a group of ferns, and Jo was knitting as she read aloud.
- A shadow passed over the boy's face as he watched them, feeling that he
- ought to go away because uninvited; yet lingering because home seemed
- very lonely and this quiet party in the woods most attractive to his
- restless spirit. He stood so still that a squirrel, busy with its
- harvesting, ran down a pine close beside him, saw him suddenly and
- skipped back, scolding so shrilly that Beth looked up, espied the
- wistful face behind the birches, and beckoned with a reassuring smile.
- "May I come in, please? Or shall I be a bother?" he asked, advancing
- slowly.
- Meg lifted her eyebrows, but Jo scowled at her defiantly and said at
- once, "Of course you may. We should have asked you before, only we
- thought you wouldn't care for such a girl's game as this."
- "I always like your games, but if Meg doesn't want me, I'll go away."
- "I've no objection, if you do something. It's against the rules to be
- idle here," replied Meg gravely but graciously.
- "Much obliged. I'll do anything if you'll let me stop a bit, for it's
- as dull as the Desert of Sahara down there. Shall I sew, read, cone,
- draw, or do all at once? Bring on your bears. I'm ready." And Laurie
- sat down with a submissive expression delightful to behold.
- "Finish this story while I set my heel," said Jo, handing him the book.
- "Yes'm." was the meek answer, as he began, doing his best to prove his
- gratitude for the favor of admission into the 'Busy Bee Society'.
- The story was not a long one, and when it was finished, he ventured to
- ask a few questions as a reward of merit.
- "Please, ma'am, could I inquire if this highly instructive and charming
- institution is a new one?"
- "Would you tell him?" asked Meg of her sisters.
- "He'll laugh," said Amy warningly.
- "Who cares?" said Jo.
- "I guess he'll like it," added Beth.
- "Of course I shall! I give you my word I won't laugh. Tell away, Jo,
- and don't be afraid."
- "The idea of being afraid of you! Well, you see we used to play
- Pilgrim's Progress, and we have been going on with it in earnest, all
- winter and summer."
- "Yes, I know," said Laurie, nodding wisely.
- "Who told you?" demanded Jo.
- "Spirits."
- "No, I did. I wanted to amuse him one night when you were all away,
- and he was rather dismal. He did like it, so don't scold, Jo," said
- Beth meekly.
- "You can't keep a secret. Never mind, it saves trouble now."
- "Go on, please," said Laurie, as Jo became absorbed in her work,
- looking a trifle displeased.
- "Oh, didn't she tell you about this new plan of ours? Well, we have
- tried not to waste our holiday, but each has had a task and worked at
- it with a will. The vacation is nearly over, the stints are all done,
- and we are ever so glad that we didn't dawdle."
- "Yes, I should think so," and Laurie thought regretfully of his own
- idle days.
- "Mother likes to have us out-of-doors as much as possible, so we bring
- our work here and have nice times. For the fun of it we bring our
- things in these bags, wear the old hats, use poles to climb the hill,
- and play pilgrims, as we used to do years ago. We call this hill the
- Delectable Mountain, for we can look far away and see the country where
- we hope to live some time."
- Jo pointed, and Laurie sat up to examine, for through an opening in the
- wood one could look cross the wide, blue river, the meadows on the
- other side, far over the outskirts of the great city, to the green
- hills that rose to meet the sky. The sun was low, and the heavens
- glowed with the splendor of an autumn sunset. Gold and purple clouds
- lay on the hilltops, and rising high into the ruddy light were silvery
- white peaks that shone like the airy spires of some Celestial City.
- "How beautiful that is!" said Laurie softly, for he was quick to see
- and feel beauty of any kind.
- "It's often so, and we like to watch it, for it is never the same, but
- always splendid," replied Amy, wishing she could paint it.
- "Jo talks about the country where we hope to live sometime--the real
- country, she means, with pigs and chickens and haymaking. It would be
- nice, but I wish the beautiful country up there was real, and we could
- ever go to it," said Beth musingly.
- "There is a lovelier country even than that, where we shall go,
- by-and-by, when we are good enough," answered Meg with her sweetest
- voice.
- "It seems so long to wait, so hard to do. I want to fly away at once,
- as those swallows fly, and go in at that splendid gate."
- "You'll get there, Beth, sooner or later, no fear of that," said Jo.
- "I'm the one that will have to fight and work, and climb and wait, and
- maybe never get in after all."
- "You'll have me for company, if that's any comfort. I shall have to do
- a deal of traveling before I come in sight of your Celestial City. If
- I arrive late, you'll say a good word for me, won't you, Beth?"
- Something in the boy's face troubled his little friend, but she said
- cheerfully, with her quiet eyes on the changing clouds, "If people
- really want to go, and really try all their lives, I think they will
- get in, for I don't believe there are any locks on that door or any
- guards at the gate. I always imagine it is as it is in the picture,
- where the shining ones stretch out their hands to welcome poor
- Christian as he comes up from the river."
- "Wouldn't it be fun if all the castles in the air which we make could
- come true, and we could live in them?" said Jo, after a little pause.
- "I've made such quantities it would be hard to choose which I'd have,"
- said Laurie, lying flat and throwing cones at the squirrel who had
- betrayed him.
- "You'd have to take your favorite one. What is it?" asked Meg.
- "If I tell mine, will you tell yours?"
- "Yes, if the girls will too."
- "We will. Now, Laurie."
- "After I'd seen as much of the world as I want to, I'd like to settle
- in Germany and have just as much music as I choose. I'm to be a famous
- musician myself, and all creation is to rush to hear me. And I'm never
- to be bothered about money or business, but just enjoy myself and live
- for what I like. That's my favorite castle. What's yours, Meg?"
- Margaret seemed to find it a little hard to tell hers, and waved a
- brake before her face, as if to disperse imaginary gnats, while she
- said slowly, "I should like a lovely house, full of all sorts of
- luxurious things--nice food, pretty clothes, handsome furniture,
- pleasant people, and heaps of money. I am to be mistress of it, and
- manage it as I like, with plenty of servants, so I never need work a
- bit. How I should enjoy it! For I wouldn't be idle, but do good, and
- make everyone love me dearly."
- "Wouldn't you have a master for your castle in the air?" asked Laurie
- slyly.
- "I said 'pleasant people', you know," and Meg carefully tied up her
- shoe as she spoke, so that no one saw her face.
- "Why don't you say you'd have a splendid, wise, good husband and some
- angelic little children? You know your castle wouldn't be perfect
- without," said blunt Jo, who had no tender fancies yet, and rather
- scorned romance, except in books.
- "You'd have nothing but horses, inkstands, and novels in yours,"
- answered Meg petulantly.
- "Wouldn't I though? I'd have a stable full of Arabian steeds, rooms
- piled high with books, and I'd write out of a magic inkstand, so that
- my works should be as famous as Laurie's music. I want to do something
- splendid before I go into my castle, something heroic or wonderful that
- won't be forgotten after I'm dead. I don't know what, but I'm on the
- watch for it, and mean to astonish you all some day. I think I shall
- write books, and get rich and famous, that would suit me, so that is my
- favorite dream."
- "Mine is to stay at home safe with Father and Mother, and help take
- care of the family," said Beth contentedly.
- "Don't you wish for anything else?" asked Laurie.
- "Since I had my little piano, I am perfectly satisfied. I only wish we
- may all keep well and be together, nothing else."
- "I have ever so many wishes, but the pet one is to be an artist, and go
- to Rome, and do fine pictures, and be the best artist in the whole
- world," was Amy's modest desire.
- "We're an ambitious set, aren't we? Every one of us, but Beth, wants
- to be rich and famous, and gorgeous in every respect. I do wonder if
- any of us will ever get our wishes," said Laurie, chewing grass like a
- meditative calf.
- "I've got the key to my castle in the air, but whether I can unlock the
- door remains to be seen," observed Jo mysteriously.
- "I've got the key to mine, but I'm not allowed to try it. Hang
- college!" muttered Laurie with an impatient sigh.
- "Here's mine!" and Amy waved her pencil.
- "I haven't got any," said Meg forlornly.
- "Yes, you have," said Laurie at once.
- "Where?"
- "In your face."
- "Nonsense, that's of no use."
- "Wait and see if it doesn't bring you something worth having," replied
- the boy, laughing at the thought of a charming little secret which he
- fancied he knew.
- Meg colored behind the brake, but asked no questions and looked across
- the river with the same expectant expression which Mr. Brooke had worn
- when he told the story of the knight.
- "If we are all alive ten years hence, let's meet, and see how many of
- us have got our wishes, or how much nearer we are then than now," said
- Jo, always ready with a plan.
- "Bless me! How old I shall be, twenty-seven!" exclaimed Meg, who felt
- grown up already, having just reached seventeen.
- "You and I will be twenty-six, Teddy, Beth twenty-four, and Amy
- twenty-two. What a venerable party!" said Jo.
- "I hope I shall have done something to be proud of by that time, but
- I'm such a lazy dog, I'm afraid I shall dawdle, Jo."
- "You need a motive, Mother says, and when you get it, she is sure
- you'll work splendidly."
- "Is she? By Jupiter, I will, if I only get the chance!" cried Laurie,
- sitting up with sudden energy. "I ought to be satisfied to please
- Grandfather, and I do try, but it's working against the grain, you see,
- and comes hard. He wants me to be an India merchant, as he was, and
- I'd rather be shot. I hate tea and silk and spices, and every sort of
- rubbish his old ships bring, and I don't care how soon they go to the
- bottom when I own them. Going to college ought to satisfy him, for if
- I give him four years he ought to let me off from the business. But
- he's set, and I've got to do just as he did, unless I break away and
- please myself, as my father did. If there was anyone left to stay with
- the old gentleman, I'd do it tomorrow."
- Laurie spoke excitedly, and looked ready to carry his threat into
- execution on the slightest provocation, for he was growing up very fast
- and, in spite of his indolent ways, had a young man's hatred of
- subjection, a young man's restless longing to try the world for himself.
- "I advise you to sail away in one of your ships, and never come home
- again till you have tried your own way," said Jo, whose imagination was
- fired by the thought of such a daring exploit, and whose sympathy was
- excited by what she called 'Teddy's Wrongs'.
- "That's not right, Jo. You mustn't talk in that way, and Laurie
- mustn't take your bad advice. You should do just what your grandfather
- wishes, my dear boy," said Meg in her most maternal tone. "Do your best
- at college, and when he sees that you try to please him, I'm sure he
- won't be hard on you or unjust to you. As you say, there is no one
- else to stay with and love him, and you'd never forgive yourself if you
- left him without his permission. Don't be dismal or fret, but do your
- duty and you'll get your reward, as good Mr. Brooke has, by being
- respected and loved."
- "What do you know about him?" asked Laurie, grateful for the good
- advice, but objecting to the lecture, and glad to turn the conversation
- from himself after his unusual outbreak.
- "Only what your grandpa told us about him, how he took good care of his
- own mother till she died, and wouldn't go abroad as tutor to some nice
- person because he wouldn't leave her. And how he provides now for an
- old woman who nursed his mother, and never tells anyone, but is just as
- generous and patient and good as he can be."
- "So he is, dear old fellow!" said Laurie heartily, as Meg paused,
- looking flushed and earnest with her story. "It's like Grandpa to find
- out all about him without letting him know, and to tell all his
- goodness to others, so that they might like him. Brooke couldn't
- understand why your mother was so kind to him, asking him over with me
- and treating him in her beautiful friendly way. He thought she was
- just perfect, and talked about it for days and days, and went on about
- you all in flaming style. If ever I do get my wish, you see what I'll
- do for Brooke."
- "Begin to do something now by not plaguing his life out," said Meg
- sharply.
- "How do you know I do, Miss?"
- "I can always tell by his face when he goes away. If you have been
- good, he looks satisfied and walks briskly. If you have plagued him,
- he's sober and walks slowly, as if he wanted to go back and do his work
- better."
- "Well, I like that? So you keep an account of my good and bad marks in
- Brooke's face, do you? I see him bow and smile as he passes your
- window, but I didn't know you'd got up a telegraph."
- "We haven't. Don't be angry, and oh, don't tell him I said anything!
- It was only to show that I cared how you get on, and what is said here
- is said in confidence, you know," cried Meg, much alarmed at the
- thought of what might follow from her careless speech.
- "I don't tell tales," replied Laurie, with his 'high and mighty' air,
- as Jo called a certain expression which he occasionally wore. "Only if
- Brooke is going to be a thermometer, I must mind and have fair weather
- for him to report."
- "Please don't be offended. I didn't mean to preach or tell tales or be
- silly. I only thought Jo was encouraging you in a feeling which you'd
- be sorry for by-and-by. You are so kind to us, we feel as if you were
- our brother and say just what we think. Forgive me, I meant it kindly."
- And Meg offered her hand with a gesture both affectionate and timid.
- Ashamed of his momentary pique, Laurie squeezed the kind little hand,
- and said frankly, "I'm the one to be forgiven. I'm cross and have been
- out of sorts all day. I like to have you tell me my faults and be
- sisterly, so don't mind if I am grumpy sometimes. I thank you all the
- same."
- Bent on showing that he was not offended, he made himself as agreeable
- as possible, wound cotton for Meg, recited poetry to please Jo, shook
- down cones for Beth, and helped Amy with her ferns, proving himself a
- fit person to belong to the 'Busy Bee Society'. In the midst of an
- animated discussion on the domestic habits of turtles (one of those
- amiable creatures having strolled up from the river), the faint sound
- of a bell warned them that Hannah had put the tea 'to draw', and they
- would just have time to get home to supper.
- "May I come again?" asked Laurie.
- "Yes, if you are good, and love your book, as the boys in the primer
- are told to do," said Meg, smiling.
- "I'll try."
- "Then you may come, and I'll teach you to knit as the Scotchmen do.
- There's a demand for socks just now," added Jo, waving hers like a big
- blue worsted banner as they parted at the gate.
- That night, when Beth played to Mr. Laurence in the twilight, Laurie,
- standing in the shadow of the curtain, listened to the little David,
- whose simple music always quieted his moody spirit, and watched the old
- man, who sat with his gray head on his hand, thinking tender thoughts
- of the dead child he had loved so much. Remembering the conversation of
- the afternoon, the boy said to himself, with the resolve to make the
- sacrifice cheerfully, "I'll let my castle go, and stay with the dear
- old gentleman while he needs me, for I am all he has."
- CHAPTER FOURTEEN
- SECRETS
- Jo was very busy in the garret, for the October days began to grow
- chilly, and the afternoons were short. For two or three hours the sun
- lay warmly in the high window, showing Jo seated on the old sofa,
- writing busily, with her papers spread out upon a trunk before her,
- while Scrabble, the pet rat, promenaded the beams overhead, accompanied
- by his oldest son, a fine young fellow, who was evidently very proud of
- his whiskers. Quite absorbed in her work, Jo scribbled away till the
- last page was filled, when she signed her name with a flourish and
- threw down her pen, exclaiming...
- "There, I've done my best! If this won't suit I shall have to wait
- till I can do better."
- Lying back on the sofa, she read the manuscript carefully through,
- making dashes here and there, and putting in many exclamation points,
- which looked like little balloons. Then she tied it up with a smart
- red ribbon, and sat a minute looking at it with a sober, wistful
- expression, which plainly showed how earnest her work had been. Jo's
- desk up here was an old tin kitchen which hung against the wall. In it
- she kept her papers, and a few books, safely shut away from Scrabble,
- who, being likewise of a literary turn, was fond of making a
- circulating library of such books as were left in his way by eating the
- leaves. From this tin receptacle Jo produced another manuscript, and
- putting both in her pocket, crept quietly downstairs, leaving her
- friends to nibble on her pens and taste her ink.
- She put on her hat and jacket as noiselessly as possible, and going to
- the back entry window, got out upon the roof of a low porch, swung
- herself down to the grassy bank, and took a roundabout way to the road.
- Once there, she composed herself, hailed a passing omnibus, and rolled
- away to town, looking very merry and mysterious.
- If anyone had been watching her, he would have thought her movements
- decidedly peculiar, for on alighting, she went off at a great pace till
- she reached a certain number in a certain busy street. Having found
- the place with some difficulty, she went into the doorway, looked up
- the dirty stairs, and after standing stock still a minute, suddenly
- dived into the street and walked away as rapidly as she came. This
- maneuver she repeated several times, to the great amusement of a
- black-eyed young gentleman lounging in the window of a building
- opposite. On returning for the third time, Jo gave herself a shake,
- pulled her hat over her eyes, and walked up the stairs, looking as if
- she were going to have all her teeth out.
- There was a dentist's sign, among others, which adorned the entrance,
- and after staring a moment at the pair of artificial jaws which slowly
- opened and shut to draw attention to a fine set of teeth, the young
- gentleman put on his coat, took his hat, and went down to post himself
- in the opposite doorway, saying with a smile and a shiver, "It's like
- her to come alone, but if she has a bad time she'll need someone to
- help her home."
- In ten minutes Jo came running downstairs with a very red face and the
- general appearance of a person who had just passed through a trying
- ordeal of some sort. When she saw the young gentleman she looked
- anything but pleased, and passed him with a nod. But he followed,
- asking with an air of sympathy, "Did you have a bad time?"
- "Not very."
- "You got through quickly."
- "Yes, thank goodness!"
- "Why did you go alone?"
- "Didn't want anyone to know."
- "You're the oddest fellow I ever saw. How many did you have out?"
- Jo looked at her friend as if she did not understand him, then began to
- laugh as if mightily amused at something.
- "There are two which I want to have come out, but I must wait a week."
- "What are you laughing at? You are up to some mischief, Jo," said
- Laurie, looking mystified.
- "So are you. What were you doing, sir, up in that billiard saloon?"
- "Begging your pardon, ma'am, it wasn't a billiard saloon, but a
- gymnasium, and I was taking a lesson in fencing."
- "I'm glad of that."
- "Why?"
- "You can teach me, and then when we play _Hamlet_, you can be Laertes,
- and we'll make a fine thing of the fencing scene."
- Laurie burst out with a hearty boy's laugh, which made several
- passers-by smile in spite of themselves.
- "I'll teach you whether we play _Hamlet_ or not. It's grand fun and
- will straighten you up capitally. But I don't believe that was your
- only reason for saying 'I'm glad' in that decided way, was it now?"
- "No, I was glad that you were not in the saloon, because I hope you
- never go to such places. Do you?"
- "Not often."
- "I wish you wouldn't."
- "It's no harm, Jo. I have billiards at home, but it's no fun unless
- you have good players, so, as I'm fond of it, I come sometimes and have
- a game with Ned Moffat or some of the other fellows."
- "Oh, dear, I'm so sorry, for you'll get to liking it better and better,
- and will waste time and money, and grow like those dreadful boys. I
- did hope you'd stay respectable and be a satisfaction to your friends,"
- said Jo, shaking her head.
- "Can't a fellow take a little innocent amusement now and then without
- losing his respectability?" asked Laurie, looking nettled.
- "That depends upon how and where he takes it. I don't like Ned and his
- set, and wish you'd keep out of it. Mother won't let us have him at
- our house, though he wants to come. And if you grow like him she won't
- be willing to have us frolic together as we do now."
- "Won't she?" asked Laurie anxiously.
- "No, she can't bear fashionable young men, and she'd shut us all up in
- bandboxes rather than have us associate with them."
- "Well, she needn't get out her bandboxes yet. I'm not a fashionable
- party and don't mean to be, but I do like harmless larks now and then,
- don't you?"
- "Yes, nobody minds them, so lark away, but don't get wild, will you?
- Or there will be an end of all our good times."
- "I'll be a double distilled saint."
- "I can't bear saints. Just be a simple, honest, respectable boy, and
- we'll never desert you. I don't know what I should do if you acted
- like Mr. King's son. He had plenty of money, but didn't know how to
- spend it, and got tipsy and gambled, and ran away, and forged his
- father's name, I believe, and was altogether horrid."
- "You think I'm likely to do the same? Much obliged."
- "No, I don't--oh, dear, no!--but I hear people talking about money
- being such a temptation, and I sometimes wish you were poor. I
- shouldn't worry then."
- "Do you worry about me, Jo?"
- "A little, when you look moody and discontented, as you sometimes do,
- for you've got such a strong will, if you once get started wrong, I'm
- afraid it would be hard to stop you."
- Laurie walked in silence a few minutes, and Jo watched him, wishing she
- had held her tongue, for his eyes looked angry, though his lips smiled
- as if at her warnings.
- "Are you going to deliver lectures all the way home?" he asked
- presently.
- "Of course not. Why?"
- "Because if you are, I'll take a bus. If you're not, I'd like to walk
- with you and tell you something very interesting."
- "I won't preach any more, and I'd like to hear the news immensely."
- "Very well, then, come on. It's a secret, and if I tell you, you must
- tell me yours."
- "I haven't got any," began Jo, but stopped suddenly, remembering that
- she had.
- "You know you have--you can't hide anything, so up and 'fess, or I
- won't tell," cried Laurie.
- "Is your secret a nice one?"
- "Oh, isn't it! All about people you know, and such fun! You ought to
- hear it, and I've been aching to tell it this long time. Come, you
- begin."
- "You'll not say anything about it at home, will you?"
- "Not a word."
- "And you won't tease me in private?"
- "I never tease."
- "Yes, you do. You get everything you want out of people. I don't know
- how you do it, but you are a born wheedler."
- "Thank you. Fire away."
- "Well, I've left two stories with a newspaperman, and he's to give his
- answer next week," whispered Jo, in her confidant's ear.
- "Hurrah for Miss March, the celebrated American authoress!" cried
- Laurie, throwing up his hat and catching it again, to the great delight
- of two ducks, four cats, five hens, and half a dozen Irish children,
- for they were out of the city now.
- "Hush! It won't come to anything, I dare say, but I couldn't rest till
- I had tried, and I said nothing about it because I didn't want anyone
- else to be disappointed."
- "It won't fail. Why, Jo, your stories are works of Shakespeare
- compared to half the rubbish that is published every day. Won't it be
- fun to see them in print, and shan't we feel proud of our authoress?"
- Jo's eyes sparkled, for it is always pleasant to be believed in, and a
- friend's praise is always sweeter than a dozen newspaper puffs.
- "Where's your secret? Play fair, Teddy, or I'll never believe you
- again," she said, trying to extinguish the brilliant hopes that blazed
- up at a word of encouragement.
- "I may get into a scrape for telling, but I didn't promise not to, so I
- will, for I never feel easy in my mind till I've told you any plummy
- bit of news I get. I know where Meg's glove is."
- "Is that all?" said Jo, looking disappointed, as Laurie nodded and
- twinkled with a face full of mysterious intelligence.
- "It's quite enough for the present, as you'll agree when I tell you
- where it is."
- "Tell, then."
- Laurie bent, and whispered three words in Jo's ear, which produced a
- comical change. She stood and stared at him for a minute, looking both
- surprised and displeased, then walked on, saying sharply, "How do you
- know?"
- "Saw it."
- "Where?"
- "Pocket."
- "All this time?"
- "Yes, isn't that romantic?"
- "No, it's horrid."
- "Don't you like it?"
- "Of course I don't. It's ridiculous, it won't be allowed. My
- patience! What would Meg say?"
- "You are not to tell anyone. Mind that."
- "I didn't promise."
- "That was understood, and I trusted you."
- "Well, I won't for the present, anyway, but I'm disgusted, and wish you
- hadn't told me."
- "I thought you'd be pleased."
- "At the idea of anybody coming to take Meg away? No, thank you."
- "You'll feel better about it when somebody comes to take you away."
- "I'd like to see anyone try it," cried Jo fiercely.
- "So should I!" and Laurie chuckled at the idea.
- "I don't think secrets agree with me, I feel rumpled up in my mind
- since you told me that," said Jo rather ungratefully.
- "Race down this hill with me, and you'll be all right," suggested
- Laurie.
- No one was in sight, the smooth road sloped invitingly before her, and
- finding the temptation irresistible, Jo darted away, soon leaving hat
- and comb behind her and scattering hairpins as she ran. Laurie reached
- the goal first and was quite satisfied with the success of his
- treatment, for his Atlanta came panting up with flying hair, bright
- eyes, ruddy cheeks, and no signs of dissatisfaction in her face.
- "I wish I was a horse, then I could run for miles in this splendid air,
- and not lose my breath. It was capital, but see what a guy it's made
- me. Go, pick up my things, like a cherub, as you are," said Jo,
- dropping down under a maple tree, which was carpeting the bank with
- crimson leaves.
- Laurie leisurely departed to recover the lost property, and Jo bundled
- up her braids, hoping no one would pass by till she was tidy again.
- But someone did pass, and who should it be but Meg, looking
- particularly ladylike in her state and festival suit, for she had been
- making calls.
- "What in the world are you doing here?" she asked, regarding her
- disheveled sister with well-bred surprise.
- "Getting leaves," meekly answered Jo, sorting the rosy handful she had
- just swept up.
- "And hairpins," added Laurie, throwing half a dozen into Jo's lap.
- "They grow on this road, Meg, so do combs and brown straw hats."
- "You have been running, Jo. How could you? When will you stop such
- romping ways?" said Meg reprovingly, as she settled her cuffs and
- smoothed her hair, with which the wind had taken liberties.
- "Never till I'm stiff and old and have to use a crutch. Don't try to
- make me grow up before my time, Meg. It's hard enough to have you
- change all of a sudden. Let me be a little girl as long as I can."
- As she spoke, Jo bent over the leaves to hide the trembling of her
- lips, for lately she had felt that Margaret was fast getting to be a
- woman, and Laurie's secret made her dread the separation which must
- surely come some time and now seemed very near. He saw the trouble in
- her face and drew Meg's attention from it by asking quickly, "Where
- have you been calling, all so fine?"
- "At the Gardiners', and Sallie has been telling me all about Belle
- Moffat's wedding. It was very splendid, and they have gone to spend
- the winter in Paris. Just think how delightful that must be!"
- "Do you envy her, Meg?" said Laurie.
- "I'm afraid I do."
- "I'm glad of it!" muttered Jo, tying on her hat with a jerk.
- "Why?" asked Meg, looking surprised.
- "Because if you care much about riches, you will never go and marry a
- poor man," said Jo, frowning at Laurie, who was mutely warning her to
- mind what she said.
- "I shall never '_go_ and marry' anyone," observed Meg, walking on with
- great dignity while the others followed, laughing, whispering, skipping
- stones, and 'behaving like children', as Meg said to herself, though
- she might have been tempted to join them if she had not had her best
- dress on.
- For a week or two, Jo behaved so queerly that her sisters were quite
- bewildered. She rushed to the door when the postman rang, was rude to
- Mr. Brooke whenever they met, would sit looking at Meg with a
- woe-begone face, occasionally jumping up to shake and then kiss her in
- a very mysterious manner. Laurie and she were always making signs to
- one another, and talking about 'Spread Eagles' till the girls declared
- they had both lost their wits. On the second Saturday after Jo got out
- of the window, Meg, as she sat sewing at her window, was scandalized by
- the sight of Laurie chasing Jo all over the garden and finally
- capturing her in Amy's bower. What went on there, Meg could not see,
- but shrieks of laughter were heard, followed by the murmur of voices
- and a great flapping of newspapers.
- "What shall we do with that girl? She never _will_ behave like a young
- lady," sighed Meg, as she watched the race with a disapproving face.
- "I hope she won't. She is so funny and dear as she is," said Beth, who
- had never betrayed that she was a little hurt at Jo's having secrets
- with anyone but her.
- "It's very trying, but we never can make her _commy la fo_," added Amy,
- who sat making some new frills for herself, with her curls tied up in a
- very becoming way, two agreeable things that made her feel unusually
- elegant and ladylike.
- In a few minutes Jo bounced in, laid herself on the sofa, and affected
- to read.
- "Have you anything interesting there?" asked Meg, with condescension.
- "Nothing but a story, won't amount to much, I guess," returned Jo,
- carefully keeping the name of the paper out of sight.
- "You'd better read it aloud. That will amuse us and keep you out of
- mischief," said Amy in her most grown-up tone.
- "What's the name?" asked Beth, wondering why Jo kept her face behind
- the sheet.
- "The Rival Painters."
- "That sounds well. Read it," said Meg.
- With a loud "Hem!" and a long breath, Jo began to read very fast. The
- girls listened with interest, for the tale was romantic, and somewhat
- pathetic, as most of the characters died in the end. "I like that about
- the splendid picture," was Amy's approving remark, as Jo paused.
- "I prefer the lovering part. Viola and Angelo are two of our favorite
- names, isn't that queer?" said Meg, wiping her eyes, for the lovering
- part was tragical.
- "Who wrote it?" asked Beth, who had caught a glimpse of Jo's face.
- The reader suddenly sat up, cast away the paper, displaying a flushed
- countenance, and with a funny mixture of solemnity and excitement
- replied in a loud voice, "Your sister."
- "You?" cried Meg, dropping her work.
- "It's very good," said Amy critically.
- "I knew it! I knew it! Oh, my Jo, I am so proud!" and Beth ran to hug
- her sister and exult over this splendid success.
- Dear me, how delighted they all were, to be sure! How Meg wouldn't
- believe it till she saw the words. "Miss Josephine March," actually
- printed in the paper. How graciously Amy criticized the artistic parts
- of the story, and offered hints for a sequel, which unfortunately
- couldn't be carried out, as the hero and heroine were dead. How Beth
- got excited, and skipped and sang with joy. How Hannah came in to
- exclaim, "Sakes alive, well I never!" in great astonishment at 'that
- Jo's doin's'. How proud Mrs. March was when she knew it. How Jo
- laughed, with tears in her eyes, as she declared she might as well be a
- peacock and done with it, and how the 'Spread Eagle' might be said to
- flap his wings triumphantly over the House of March, as the paper
- passed from hand to hand.
- "Tell us about it." "When did it come?" "How much did you get for it?"
- "What will Father say?" "Won't Laurie laugh?" cried the family, all in
- one breath as they clustered about Jo, for these foolish, affectionate
- people made a jubilee of every little household joy.
- "Stop jabbering, girls, and I'll tell you everything," said Jo,
- wondering if Miss Burney felt any grander over her Evelina than she did
- over her 'Rival Painters'. Having told how she disposed of her tales,
- Jo added, "And when I went to get my answer, the man said he liked them
- both, but didn't pay beginners, only let them print in his paper, and
- noticed the stories. It was good practice, he said, and when the
- beginners improved, anyone would pay. So I let him have the two
- stories, and today this was sent to me, and Laurie caught me with it
- and insisted on seeing it, so I let him. And he said it was good, and
- I shall write more, and he's going to get the next paid for, and I am
- so happy, for in time I may be able to support myself and help the
- girls."
- Jo's breath gave out here, and wrapping her head in the paper, she
- bedewed her little story with a few natural tears, for to be
- independent and earn the praise of those she loved were the dearest
- wishes of her heart, and this seemed to be the first step toward that
- happy end.
- CHAPTER FIFTEEN
- A TELEGRAM
- "November is the most disagreeable month in the whole year," said
- Margaret, standing at the window one dull afternoon, looking out at the
- frostbitten garden.
- "That's the reason I was born in it," observed Jo pensively, quite
- unconscious of the blot on her nose.
- "If something very pleasant should happen now, we should think it a
- delightful month," said Beth, who took a hopeful view of everything,
- even November.
- "I dare say, but nothing pleasant ever does happen in this family,"
- said Meg, who was out of sorts. "We go grubbing along day after day,
- without a bit of change, and very little fun. We might as well be in a
- treadmill."
- "My patience, how blue we are!" cried Jo. "I don't much wonder, poor
- dear, for you see other girls having splendid times, while you grind,
- grind, year in and year out. Oh, don't I wish I could manage things
- for you as I do for my heroines! You're pretty enough and good enough
- already, so I'd have some rich relation leave you a fortune
- unexpectedly. Then you'd dash out as an heiress, scorn everyone who
- has slighted you, go abroad, and come home my Lady Something in a blaze
- of splendor and elegance."
- "People don't have fortunes left them in that style nowadays, men have
- to work and women marry for money. It's a dreadfully unjust world,"
- said Meg bitterly.
- "Jo and I are going to make fortunes for you all. Just wait ten years,
- and see if we don't," said Amy, who sat in a corner making mud pies, as
- Hannah called her little clay models of birds, fruit, and faces.
- "Can't wait, and I'm afraid I haven't much faith in ink and dirt,
- though I'm grateful for your good intentions."
- Meg sighed, and turned to the frostbitten garden again. Jo groaned and
- leaned both elbows on the table in a despondent attitude, but Amy
- spatted away energetically, and Beth, who sat at the other window,
- said, smiling, "Two pleasant things are going to happen right away.
- Marmee is coming down the street, and Laurie is tramping through the
- garden as if he had something nice to tell."
- In they both came, Mrs. March with her usual question, "Any letter from
- Father, girls?" and Laurie to say in his persuasive way, "Won't some of
- you come for a drive? I've been working away at mathematics till my
- head is in a muddle, and I'm going to freshen my wits by a brisk turn.
- It's a dull day, but the air isn't bad, and I'm going to take Brooke
- home, so it will be gay inside, if it isn't out. Come, Jo, you and
- Beth will go, won't you?"
- "Of course we will."
- "Much obliged, but I'm busy." And Meg whisked out her workbasket, for
- she had agreed with her mother that it was best, for her at least, not
- to drive too often with the young gentleman.
- "We three will be ready in a minute," cried Amy, running away to wash
- her hands.
- "Can I do anything for you, Madam Mother?" asked Laurie, leaning over
- Mrs. March's chair with the affectionate look and tone he always gave
- her.
- "No, thank you, except call at the office, if you'll be so kind, dear.
- It's our day for a letter, and the postman hasn't been. Father is as
- regular as the sun, but there's some delay on the way, perhaps."
- A sharp ring interrupted her, and a minute after Hannah came in with a
- letter.
- "It's one of them horrid telegraph things, mum," she said, handling it
- as if she was afraid it would explode and do some damage.
- At the word 'telegraph', Mrs. March snatched it, read the two lines it
- contained, and dropped back into her chair as white as if the little
- paper had sent a bullet to her heart. Laurie dashed downstairs for
- water, while Meg and Hannah supported her, and Jo read aloud, in a
- frightened voice...
- Mrs. March:
- Your husband is very ill. Come at once.
- S. HALE
- Blank Hospital, Washington.
- How still the room was as they listened breathlessly, how strangely the
- day darkened outside, and how suddenly the whole world seemed to
- change, as the girls gathered about their mother, feeling as if all the
- happiness and support of their lives was about to be taken from them.
- Mrs. March was herself again directly, read the message over, and
- stretched out her arms to her daughters, saying, in a tone they never
- forgot, "I shall go at once, but it may be too late. Oh, children,
- children, help me to bear it!"
- For several minutes there was nothing but the sound of sobbing in the
- room, mingled with broken words of comfort, tender assurances of help,
- and hopeful whispers that died away in tears. Poor Hannah was the
- first to recover, and with unconscious wisdom she set all the rest a
- good example, for with her, work was panacea for most afflictions.
- "The Lord keep the dear man! I won't waste no time a-cryin', but git
- your things ready right away, mum," she said heartily, as she wiped her
- face on her apron, gave her mistress a warm shake of the hand with her
- own hard one, and went away to work like three women in one.
- "She's right, there's no time for tears now. Be calm, girls, and let
- me think."
- They tried to be calm, poor things, as their mother sat up, looking
- pale but steady, and put away her grief to think and plan for them.
- "Where's Laurie?" she asked presently, when she had collected her
- thoughts and decided on the first duties to be done.
- "Here, ma'am. Oh, let me do something!" cried the boy, hurrying from
- the next room whither he had withdrawn, feeling that their first sorrow
- was too sacred for even his friendly eyes to see.
- "Send a telegram saying I will come at once. The next train goes early
- in the morning. I'll take that."
- "What else? The horses are ready. I can go anywhere, do anything," he
- said, looking ready to fly to the ends of the earth.
- "Leave a note at Aunt March's. Jo, give me that pen and paper."
- Tearing off the blank side of one of her newly copied pages, Jo drew
- the table before her mother, well knowing that money for the long, sad
- journey must be borrowed, and feeling as if she could do anything to
- add a little to the sum for her father.
- "Now go, dear, but don't kill yourself driving at a desperate pace.
- There is no need of that."
- Mrs. March's warning was evidently thrown away, for five minutes later
- Laurie tore by the window on his own fleet horse, riding as if for his
- life.
- "Jo, run to the rooms, and tell Mrs. King that I can't come. On the way
- get these things. I'll put them down, they'll be needed and I must go
- prepared for nursing. Hospital stores are not always good. Beth, go
- and ask Mr. Laurence for a couple of bottles of old wine. I'm not too
- proud to beg for Father. He shall have the best of everything. Amy,
- tell Hannah to get down the black trunk, and Meg, come and help me find
- my things, for I'm half bewildered."
- Writing, thinking, and directing all at once might well bewilder the
- poor lady, and Meg begged her to sit quietly in her room for a little
- while, and let them work. Everyone scattered like leaves before a gust
- of wind, and the quiet, happy household was broken up as suddenly as if
- the paper had been an evil spell.
- Mr. Laurence came hurrying back with Beth, bringing every comfort the
- kind old gentleman could think of for the invalid, and friendliest
- promises of protection for the girls during the mother's absence, which
- comforted her very much. There was nothing he didn't offer, from his
- own dressing gown to himself as escort. But the last was impossible.
- Mrs. March would not hear of the old gentleman's undertaking the long
- journey, yet an expression of relief was visible when he spoke of it,
- for anxiety ill fits one for traveling. He saw the look, knit his heavy
- eyebrows, rubbed his hands, and marched abruptly away, saying he'd be
- back directly. No one had time to think of him again till, as Meg ran
- through the entry, with a pair of rubbers in one hand and a cup of tea
- in the other, she came suddenly upon Mr. Brooke.
- "I'm very sorry to hear of this, Miss March," he said, in the kind,
- quiet tone which sounded very pleasantly to her perturbed spirit. "I
- came to offer myself as escort to your mother. Mr. Laurence has
- commissions for me in Washington, and it will give me real satisfaction
- to be of service to her there."
- Down dropped the rubbers, and the tea was very near following, as Meg
- put out her hand, with a face so full of gratitude that Mr. Brooke
- would have felt repaid for a much greater sacrifice than the trifling
- one of time and comfort which he was about to take.
- "How kind you all are! Mother will accept, I'm sure, and it will be
- such a relief to know that she has someone to take care of her. Thank
- you very, very much!"
- Meg spoke earnestly, and forgot herself entirely till something in the
- brown eyes looking down at her made her remember the cooling tea, and
- lead the way into the parlor, saying she would call her mother.
- Everything was arranged by the time Laurie returned with a note from
- Aunt March, enclosing the desired sum, and a few lines repeating what
- she had often said before, that she had always told them it was absurd
- for March to go into the army, always predicted that no good would come
- of it, and she hoped they would take her advice the next time. Mrs.
- March put the note in the fire, the money in her purse, and went on
- with her preparations, with her lips folded tightly in a way which Jo
- would have understood if she had been there.
- The short afternoon wore away. All other errands were done, and Meg
- and her mother busy at some necessary needlework, while Beth and Amy
- got tea, and Hannah finished her ironing with what she called a 'slap
- and a bang', but still Jo did not come. They began to get anxious, and
- Laurie went off to find her, for no one knew what freak Jo might take
- into her head. He missed her, however, and she came walking in with a
- very queer expression of countenance, for there was a mixture of fun
- and fear, satisfaction and regret in it, which puzzled the family as
- much as did the roll of bills she laid before her mother, saying with a
- little choke in her voice, "That's my contribution toward making Father
- comfortable and bringing him home!"
- "My dear, where did you get it? Twenty-five dollars! Jo, I hope you
- haven't done anything rash?"
- "No, it's mine honestly. I didn't beg, borrow, or steal it. I earned
- it, and I don't think you'll blame me, for I only sold what was my own."
- As she spoke, Jo took off her bonnet, and a general outcry arose, for
- all her abundant hair was cut short.
- "Your hair! Your beautiful hair!" "Oh, Jo, how could you? Your one
- beauty." "My dear girl, there was no need of this." "She doesn't look
- like my Jo any more, but I love her dearly for it!"
- As everyone exclaimed, and Beth hugged the cropped head tenderly, Jo
- assumed an indifferent air, which did not deceive anyone a particle,
- and said, rumpling up the brown bush and trying to look as if she liked
- it, "It doesn't affect the fate of the nation, so don't wail, Beth. It
- will be good for my vanity, I was getting too proud of my wig. It will
- do my brains good to have that mop taken off. My head feels
- deliciously light and cool, and the barber said I could soon have a
- curly crop, which will be boyish, becoming, and easy to keep in order.
- I'm satisfied, so please take the money and let's have supper."
- "Tell me all about it, Jo. I am not quite satisfied, but I can't blame
- you, for I know how willingly you sacrificed your vanity, as you call
- it, to your love. But, my dear, it was not necessary, and I'm afraid
- you will regret it one of these days," said Mrs. March.
- "No, I won't!" returned Jo stoutly, feeling much relieved that her
- prank was not entirely condemned.
- "What made you do it?" asked Amy, who would as soon have thought of
- cutting off her head as her pretty hair.
- "Well, I was wild to do something for Father," replied Jo, as they
- gathered about the table, for healthy young people can eat even in the
- midst of trouble. "I hate to borrow as much as Mother does, and I knew
- Aunt March would croak, she always does, if you ask for a ninepence.
- Meg gave all her quarterly salary toward the rent, and I only got some
- clothes with mine, so I felt wicked, and was bound to have some money,
- if I sold the nose off my face to get it."
- "You needn't feel wicked, my child! You had no winter things and got
- the simplest with your own hard earnings," said Mrs. March with a look
- that warmed Jo's heart.
- "I hadn't the least idea of selling my hair at first, but as I went
- along I kept thinking what I could do, and feeling as if I'd like to
- dive into some of the rich stores and help myself. In a barber's
- window I saw tails of hair with the prices marked, and one black tail,
- not so thick as mine, was forty dollars. It came to me all of a sudden
- that I had one thing to make money out of, and without stopping to
- think, I walked in, asked if they bought hair, and what they would give
- for mine."
- "I don't see how you dared to do it," said Beth in a tone of awe.
- "Oh, he was a little man who looked as if he merely lived to oil his
- hair. He rather stared at first, as if he wasn't used to having girls
- bounce into his shop and ask him to buy their hair. He said he didn't
- care about mine, it wasn't the fashionable color, and he never paid
- much for it in the first place. The work put into it made it dear, and
- so on. It was getting late, and I was afraid if it wasn't done right
- away that I shouldn't have it done at all, and you know when I start to
- do a thing, I hate to give it up. So I begged him to take it, and told
- him why I was in such a hurry. It was silly, I dare say, but it
- changed his mind, for I got rather excited, and told the story in my
- topsy-turvy way, and his wife heard, and said so kindly, 'Take it,
- Thomas, and oblige the young lady. I'd do as much for our Jimmy any
- day if I had a spire of hair worth selling."
- "Who was Jimmy?" asked Amy, who liked to have things explained as they
- went along.
- "Her son, she said, who was in the army. How friendly such things make
- strangers feel, don't they? She talked away all the time the man
- clipped, and diverted my mind nicely."
- "Didn't you feel dreadfully when the first cut came?" asked Meg, with a
- shiver.
- "I took a last look at my hair while the man got his things, and that
- was the end of it. I never snivel over trifles like that. I will
- confess, though, I felt queer when I saw the dear old hair laid out on
- the table, and felt only the short rough ends of my head. It almost
- seemed as if I'd an arm or leg off. The woman saw me look at it, and
- picked out a long lock for me to keep. I'll give it to you, Marmee,
- just to remember past glories by, for a crop is so comfortable I don't
- think I shall ever have a mane again."
- Mrs. March folded the wavy chestnut lock, and laid it away with a short
- gray one in her desk. She only said, "Thank you, deary," but something
- in her face made the girls change the subject, and talk as cheerfully
- as they could about Mr. Brooke's kindness, the prospect of a fine day
- tomorrow, and the happy times they would have when Father came home to
- be nursed.
- No one wanted to go to bed when at ten o'clock Mrs. March put by the
- last finished job, and said, "Come girls." Beth went to the piano and
- played the father's favorite hymn. All began bravely, but broke down
- one by one till Beth was left alone, singing with all her heart, for to
- her music was always a sweet consoler.
- "Go to bed and don't talk, for we must be up early and shall need all
- the sleep we can get. Good night, my darlings," said Mrs. March, as
- the hymn ended, for no one cared to try another.
- They kissed her quietly, and went to bed as silently as if the dear
- invalid lay in the next room. Beth and Amy soon fell asleep in spite
- of the great trouble, but Meg lay awake, thinking the most serious
- thoughts she had ever known in her short life. Jo lay motionless, and
- her sister fancied that she was asleep, till a stifled sob made her
- exclaim, as she touched a wet cheek...
- "Jo, dear, what is it? Are you crying about father?"
- "No, not now."
- "What then?"
- "My... My hair!" burst out poor Jo, trying vainly to smother her
- emotion in the pillow.
- It did not seem at all comical to Meg, who kissed and caressed the
- afflicted heroine in the tenderest manner.
- "I'm not sorry," protested Jo, with a choke. "I'd do it again
- tomorrow, if I could. It's only the vain part of me that goes and
- cries in this silly way. Don't tell anyone, it's all over now. I
- thought you were asleep, so I just made a little private moan for my
- one beauty. How came you to be awake?"
- "I can't sleep, I'm so anxious," said Meg.
- "Think about something pleasant, and you'll soon drop off."
- "I tried it, but felt wider awake than ever."
- "What did you think of?"
- "Handsome faces--eyes particularly," answered Meg, smiling to herself
- in the dark.
- "What color do you like best?"
- "Brown, that is, sometimes. Blue are lovely."
- Jo laughed, and Meg sharply ordered her not to talk, then amiably
- promised to make her hair curl, and fell asleep to dream of living in
- her castle in the air.
- The clocks were striking midnight and the rooms were very still as a
- figure glided quietly from bed to bed, smoothing a coverlet here,
- settling a pillow there, and pausing to look long and tenderly at each
- unconscious face, to kiss each with lips that mutely blessed, and to
- pray the fervent prayers which only mothers utter. As she lifted the
- curtain to look out into the dreary night, the moon broke suddenly from
- behind the clouds and shone upon her like a bright, benignant face,
- which seemed to whisper in the silence, "Be comforted, dear soul!
- There is always light behind the clouds."
- CHAPTER SIXTEEN
- LETTERS
- In the cold gray dawn the sisters lit their lamp and read their chapter
- with an earnestness never felt before. For now the shadow of a real
- trouble had come, the little books were full of help and comfort, and
- as they dressed, they agreed to say goodbye cheerfully and hopefully,
- and send their mother on her anxious journey unsaddened by tears or
- complaints from them. Everything seemed very strange when they went
- down, so dim and still outside, so full of light and bustle within.
- Breakfast at that early hour seemed odd, and even Hannah's familiar
- face looked unnatural as she flew about her kitchen with her nightcap
- on. The big trunk stood ready in the hall, Mother's cloak and bonnet
- lay on the sofa, and Mother herself sat trying to eat, but looking so
- pale and worn with sleeplessness and anxiety that the girls found it
- very hard to keep their resolution. Meg's eyes kept filling in spite
- of herself, Jo was obliged to hide her face in the kitchen roller more
- than once, and the little girls wore a grave, troubled expression, as
- if sorrow was a new experience to them.
- Nobody talked much, but as the time drew very near and they sat waiting
- for the carriage, Mrs. March said to the girls, who were all busied
- about her, one folding her shawl, another smoothing out the strings of
- her bonnet, a third putting on her overshoes, and a fourth fastening up
- her travelling bag...
- "Children, I leave you to Hannah's care and Mr. Laurence's protection.
- Hannah is faithfulness itself, and our good neighbor will guard you as
- if you were his own. I have no fears for you, yet I am anxious that
- you should take this trouble rightly. Don't grieve and fret when I am
- gone, or think that you can be idle and comfort yourselves by being
- idle and trying to forget. Go on with your work as usual, for work is
- a blessed solace. Hope and keep busy, and whatever happens, remember
- that you never can be fatherless."
- "Yes, Mother."
- "Meg, dear, be prudent, watch over your sisters, consult Hannah, and in
- any perplexity, go to Mr. Laurence. Be patient, Jo, don't get
- despondent or do rash things, write to me often, and be my brave girl,
- ready to help and cheer all. Beth, comfort yourself with your music,
- and be faithful to the little home duties, and you, Amy, help all you
- can, be obedient, and keep happy safe at home."
- "We will, Mother! We will!"
- The rattle of an approaching carriage made them all start and listen.
- That was the hard minute, but the girls stood it well. No one cried,
- no one ran away or uttered a lamentation, though their hearts were very
- heavy as they sent loving messages to Father, remembering, as they
- spoke that it might be too late to deliver them. They kissed their
- mother quietly, clung about her tenderly, and tried to wave their hands
- cheerfully when she drove away.
- Laurie and his grandfather came over to see her off, and Mr. Brooke
- looked so strong and sensible and kind that the girls christened him
- 'Mr. Greatheart' on the spot.
- "Good-by, my darlings! God bless and keep us all!" whispered Mrs.
- March, as she kissed one dear little face after the other, and hurried
- into the carriage.
- As she rolled away, the sun came out, and looking back, she saw it
- shining on the group at the gate like a good omen. They saw it also,
- and smiled and waved their hands, and the last thing she beheld as she
- turned the corner was the four bright faces, and behind them like a
- bodyguard, old Mr. Laurence, faithful Hannah, and devoted Laurie.
- "How kind everyone is to us!" she said, turning to find fresh proof of
- it in the respectful sympathy of the young man's face.
- "I don't see how they can help it," returned Mr. Brooke, laughing so
- infectiously that Mrs. March could not help smiling. And so the journey
- began with the good omens of sunshine, smiles, and cheerful words.
- "I feel as if there had been an earthquake," said Jo, as their
- neighbors went home to breakfast, leaving them to rest and refresh
- themselves.
- "It seems as if half the house was gone," added Meg forlornly.
- Beth opened her lips to say something, but could only point to the pile
- of nicely mended hose which lay on Mother's table, showing that even in
- her last hurried moments she had thought and worked for them. It was a
- little thing, but it went straight to their hearts, and in spite of
- their brave resolutions, they all broke down and cried bitterly.
- Hannah wisely allowed them to relieve their feelings, and when the
- shower showed signs of clearing up, she came to the rescue, armed with
- a coffeepot.
- "Now, my dear young ladies, remember what your ma said, and don't fret.
- Come and have a cup of coffee all round, and then let's fall to work
- and be a credit to the family."
- Coffee was a treat, and Hannah showed great tact in making it that
- morning. No one could resist her persuasive nods, or the fragrant
- invitation issuing from the nose of the coffee pot. They drew up to
- the table, exchanged their handkerchiefs for napkins, and in ten
- minutes were all right again.
- "'Hope and keep busy', that's the motto for us, so let's see who will
- remember it best. I shall go to Aunt March, as usual. Oh, won't she
- lecture though!" said Jo, as she sipped with returning spirit.
- "I shall go to my Kings, though I'd much rather stay at home and attend
- to things here," said Meg, wishing she hadn't made her eyes so red.
- "No need of that. Beth and I can keep house perfectly well," put in
- Amy, with an important air.
- "Hannah will tell us what to do, and we'll have everything nice when
- you come home," added Beth, getting out her mop and dish tub without
- delay.
- "I think anxiety is very interesting," observed Amy, eating sugar
- pensively.
- The girls couldn't help laughing, and felt better for it, though Meg
- shook her head at the young lady who could find consolation in a sugar
- bowl.
- The sight of the turnovers made Jo sober again; and when the two went
- out to their daily tasks, they looked sorrowfully back at the window
- where they were accustomed to see their mother's face. It was gone,
- but Beth had remembered the little household ceremony, and there she
- was, nodding away at them like a rosyfaced mandarin.
- "That's so like my Beth!" said Jo, waving her hat, with a grateful
- face. "Goodbye, Meggy, I hope the Kings won't strain today. Don't
- fret about Father, dear," she added, as they parted.
- "And I hope Aunt March won't croak. Your hair is becoming, and it
- looks very boyish and nice," returned Meg, trying not to smile at the
- curly head, which looked comically small on her tall sister's shoulders.
- "That's my only comfort." And, touching her hat a la Laurie, away went
- Jo, feeling like a shorn sheep on a wintry day.
- News from their father comforted the girls very much, for though
- dangerously ill, the presence of the best and tenderest of nurses had
- already done him good. Mr. Brooke sent a bulletin every day, and as
- the head of the family, Meg insisted on reading the dispatches, which
- grew more cheerful as the week passed. At first, everyone was eager to
- write, and plump envelopes were carefully poked into the letter box by
- one or other of the sisters, who felt rather important with their
- Washington correspondence. As one of these packets contained
- characteristic notes from the party, we will rob an imaginary mail, and
- read them.
- My dearest Mother:
- It is impossible to tell you how happy your last letter made us, for
- the news was so good we couldn't help laughing and crying over it. How
- very kind Mr. Brooke is, and how fortunate that Mr. Laurence's business
- detains him near you so long, since he is so useful to you and Father.
- The girls are all as good as gold. Jo helps me with the sewing, and
- insists on doing all sorts of hard jobs. I should be afraid she might
- overdo, if I didn't know her 'moral fit' wouldn't last long. Beth is
- as regular about her tasks as a clock, and never forgets what you told
- her. She grieves about Father, and looks sober except when she is at
- her little piano. Amy minds me nicely, and I take great care of her.
- She does her own hair, and I am teaching her to make buttonholes and
- mend her stockings. She tries very hard, and I know you will be pleased
- with her improvement when you come. Mr. Laurence watches over us like
- a motherly old hen, as Jo says, and Laurie is very kind and neighborly.
- He and Jo keep us merry, for we get pretty blue sometimes, and feel
- like orphans, with you so far away. Hannah is a perfect saint. She
- does not scold at all, and always calls me Miss Margaret, which is
- quite proper, you know, and treats me with respect. We are all well
- and busy, but we long, day and night, to have you back. Give my
- dearest love to Father, and believe me, ever your own...
- MEG
- This note, prettily written on scented paper, was a great contrast to
- the next, which was scribbled on a big sheet of thin foreign paper,
- ornamented with blots and all manner of flourishes and curly-tailed
- letters.
- My precious Marmee:
- Three cheers for dear Father! Brooke was a trump to telegraph right
- off, and let us know the minute he was better. I rushed up garret when
- the letter came, and tried to thank god for being so good to us, but I
- could only cry, and say, "I'm glad! I'm glad!" Didn't that do as well
- as a regular prayer? For I felt a great many in my heart. We have
- such funny times, and now I can enjoy them, for everyone is so
- desperately good, it's like living in a nest of turtledoves. You'd
- laugh to see Meg head the table and try to be motherish. She gets
- prettier every day, and I'm in love with her sometimes. The children
- are regular archangels, and I--well, I'm Jo, and never shall be
- anything else. Oh, I must tell you that I came near having a quarrel
- with Laurie. I freed my mind about a silly little thing, and he was
- offended. I was right, but didn't speak as I ought, and he marched
- home, saying he wouldn't come again till I begged pardon. I declared I
- wouldn't and got mad. It lasted all day. I felt bad and wanted you
- very much. Laurie and I are both so proud, it's hard to beg pardon.
- But I thought he'd come to it, for I was in the right. He didn't come,
- and just at night I remembered what you said when Amy fell into the
- river. I read my little book, felt better, resolved not to let the sun
- set on my anger, and ran over to tell Laurie I was sorry. I met him at
- the gate, coming for the same thing. We both laughed, begged each
- other's pardon, and felt all good and comfortable again.
- I made a 'pome' yesterday, when I was helping Hannah wash, and as
- Father likes my silly little things, I put it in to amuse him. Give
- him my lovingest hug that ever was, and kiss yourself a dozen times for
- your...
- TOPSY-TURVY JO
- A SONG FROM THE SUDS
- Queen of my tub, I merrily sing,
- While the white foam rises high,
- And sturdily wash and rinse and wring,
- And fasten the clothes to dry.
- Then out in the free fresh air they swing,
- Under the sunny sky.
- I wish we could wash from our hearts and souls
- The stains of the week away,
- And let water and air by their magic make
- Ourselves as pure as they.
- Then on the earth there would be indeed,
- A glorious washing day!
- Along the path of a useful life,
- Will heart's-ease ever bloom.
- The busy mind has no time to think
- Of sorrow or care or gloom.
- And anxious thoughts may be swept away,
- As we bravely wield a broom.
- I am glad a task to me is given,
- To labor at day by day,
- For it brings me health and strength and hope,
- And I cheerfully learn to say,
- "Head, you may think, Heart, you may feel,
- But, Hand, you shall work alway!"
- Dear Mother,
- There is only room for me to send my love, and some pressed pansies
- from the root I have been keeping safe in the house for Father to see.
- I read every morning, try to be good all day, and sing myself to sleep
- with Father's tune. I can't sing 'LAND OF THE LEAL' now, it makes me
- cry. Everyone is very kind, and we are as happy as we can be without
- you. Amy wants the rest of the page, so I must stop. I didn't forget
- to cover the holders, and I wind the clock and air the rooms every day.
- Kiss dear Father on the cheek he calls mine. Oh, do come soon to your
- loving...
- LITTLE BETH
- Ma Chere Mamma,
- We are all well I do my lessons always and never corroberate the
- girls--Meg says I mean contradick so I put in both words and you can
- take the properest. Meg is a great comfort to me and lets me have
- jelly every night at tea its so good for me Jo says because it keeps me
- sweet tempered. Laurie is not as respeckful as he ought to be now I am
- almost in my teens, he calls me Chick and hurts my feelings by talking
- French to me very fast when I say Merci or Bon jour as Hattie King
- does. The sleeves of my blue dress were all worn out, and Meg put in
- new ones, but the full front came wrong and they are more blue than the
- dress. I felt bad but did not fret I bear my troubles well but I do
- wish Hannah would put more starch in my aprons and have buckwheats
- every day. Can't she? Didn't I make that interrigation point nice?
- Meg says my punchtuation and spelling are disgraceful and I am
- mortyfied but dear me I have so many things to do, I can't stop.
- Adieu, I send heaps of love to Papa. Your affectionate daughter...
- AMY CURTIS MARCH
- Dear Mis March,
- I jes drop a line to say we git on fust rate. The girls is clever and
- fly round right smart. Miss Meg is going to make a proper good
- housekeeper. She hes the liking for it, and gits the hang of things
- surprisin quick. Jo doos beat all for goin ahead, but she don't stop
- to cal'k'late fust, and you never know where she's like to bring up.
- She done out a tub of clothes on Monday, but she starched 'em afore
- they was wrenched, and blued a pink calico dress till I thought I
- should a died a laughin. Beth is the best of little creeters, and a
- sight of help to me, bein so forehanded and dependable. She tries to
- learn everything, and really goes to market beyond her years, likewise
- keeps accounts, with my help, quite wonderful. We have got on very
- economical so fur. I don't let the girls hev coffee only once a week,
- accordin to your wish, and keep em on plain wholesome vittles. Amy
- does well without frettin, wearin her best clothes and eatin sweet
- stuff. Mr. Laurie is as full of didoes as usual, and turns the house
- upside down frequent, but he heartens the girls, so I let em hev full
- swing. The old gentleman sends heaps of things, and is rather wearin,
- but means wal, and it aint my place to say nothin. My bread is riz, so
- no more at this time. I send my duty to Mr. March, and hope he's seen
- the last of his Pewmonia.
- Yours respectful,
- Hannah Mullet
- Head Nurse of Ward No. 2,
- All serene on the Rappahannock, troops in fine condition, commisary
- department well conducted, the Home Guard under Colonel Teddy always on
- duty, Commander in Chief General Laurence reviews the army daily,
- Quartermaster Mullet keeps order in camp, and Major Lion does picket
- duty at night. A salute of twenty-four guns was fired on receipt of
- good news from Washington, and a dress parade took place at
- headquarters. Commander in chief sends best wishes, in which he is
- heartily joined by...
- COLONEL TEDDY
- Dear Madam:
- The little girls are all well. Beth and my boy report daily. Hannah is
- a model servant, and guards pretty Meg like a dragon. Glad the fine
- weather holds. Pray make Brooke useful, and draw on me for funds if
- expenses exceed your estimate. Don't let your husband want anything.
- Thank God he is mending.
- Your sincere friend and servant, JAMES LAURENCE
- CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
- LITTLE FAITHFUL
- For a week the amount of virtue in the old house would have supplied
- the neighborhood. It was really amazing, for everyone seemed in a
- heavenly frame of mind, and self-denial was all the fashion. Relieved
- of their first anxiety about their father, the girls insensibly relaxed
- their praiseworthy efforts a little, and began to fall back into old
- ways. They did not forget their motto, but hoping and keeping busy
- seemed to grow easier, and after such tremendous exertions, they felt
- that Endeavor deserved a holiday, and gave it a good many.
- Jo caught a bad cold through neglect to cover the shorn head enough,
- and was ordered to stay at home till she was better, for Aunt March
- didn't like to hear people read with colds in their heads. Jo liked
- this, and after an energetic rummage from garret to cellar, subsided on
- the sofa to nurse her cold with arsenicum and books. Amy found that
- housework and art did not go well together, and returned to her mud
- pies. Meg went daily to her pupils, and sewed, or thought she did, at
- home, but much time was spent in writing long letters to her mother, or
- reading the Washington dispatches over and over. Beth kept on, with
- only slight relapses into idleness or grieving.
- All the little duties were faithfully done each day, and many of her
- sisters' also, for they were forgetful, and the house seemed like a
- clock whose pendulum was gone a-visiting. When her heart got heavy
- with longings for Mother or fears for Father, she went away into a
- certain closet, hid her face in the folds of a dear old gown, and made
- her little moan and prayed her little prayer quietly by herself.
- Nobody knew what cheered her up after a sober fit, but everyone felt
- how sweet and helpful Beth was, and fell into a way of going to her for
- comfort or advice in their small affairs.
- All were unconscious that this experience was a test of character, and
- when the first excitement was over, felt that they had done well and
- deserved praise. So they did, but their mistake was in ceasing to do
- well, and they learned this lesson through much anxiety and regret.
- "Meg, I wish you'd go and see the Hummels. You know Mother told us not
- to forget them." said Beth, ten days after Mrs. March's departure.
- "I'm too tired to go this afternoon," replied Meg, rocking comfortably
- as she sewed.
- "Can't you, Jo?" asked Beth.
- "Too stormy for me with my cold."
- "I thought it was almost well."
- "It's well enough for me to go out with Laurie, but not well enough to
- go to the Hummels'," said Jo, laughing, but looking a little ashamed of
- her inconsistency.
- "Why don't you go yourself?" asked Meg.
- "I have been every day, but the baby is sick, and I don't know what to
- do for it. Mrs. Hummel goes away to work, and Lottchen takes care of
- it. But it gets sicker and sicker, and I think you or Hannah ought to
- go."
- Beth spoke earnestly, and Meg promised she would go tomorrow.
- "Ask Hannah for some nice little mess, and take it round, Beth, the air
- will do you good," said Jo, adding apologetically, "I'd go but I want
- to finish my writing."
- "My head aches and I'm tired, so I thought maybe some of you would go,"
- said Beth.
- "Amy will be in presently, and she will run down for us," suggested Meg.
- So Beth lay down on the sofa, the others returned to their work, and
- the Hummels were forgotten. An hour passed. Amy did not come, Meg
- went to her room to try on a new dress, Jo was absorbed in her story,
- and Hannah was sound asleep before the kitchen fire, when Beth quietly
- put on her hood, filled her basket with odds and ends for the poor
- children, and went out into the chilly air with a heavy head and a
- grieved look in her patient eyes. It was late when she came back, and
- no one saw her creep upstairs and shut herself into her mother's room.
- Half an hour after, Jo went to 'Mother's closet' for something, and
- there found little Beth sitting on the medicine chest, looking very
- grave, with red eyes and a camphor bottle in her hand.
- "Christopher Columbus! What's the matter?" cried Jo, as Beth put out
- her hand as if to warn her off, and asked quickly. . .
- "You've had the scarlet fever, haven't you?"
- "Years ago, when Meg did. Why?"
- "Then I'll tell you. Oh, Jo, the baby's dead!"
- "What baby?"
- "Mrs. Hummel's. It died in my lap before she got home," cried Beth
- with a sob.
- "My poor dear, how dreadful for you! I ought to have gone," said Jo,
- taking her sister in her arms as she sat down in her mother's big
- chair, with a remorseful face.
- "It wasn't dreadful, Jo, only so sad! I saw in a minute it was sicker,
- but Lottchen said her mother had gone for a doctor, so I took Baby and
- let Lotty rest. It seemed asleep, but all of a sudden if gave a little
- cry and trembled, and then lay very still. I tried to warm its feet,
- and Lotty gave it some milk, but it didn't stir, and I knew it was
- dead."
- "Don't cry, dear! What did you do?"
- "I just sat and held it softly till Mrs. Hummel came with the doctor.
- He said it was dead, and looked at Heinrich and Minna, who have sore
- throats. 'Scarlet fever, ma'am. Ought to have called me before,' he
- said crossly. Mrs. Hummel told him she was poor, and had tried to cure
- baby herself, but now it was too late, and she could only ask him to
- help the others and trust to charity for his pay. He smiled then, and
- was kinder, but it was very sad, and I cried with them till he turned
- round all of a sudden, and told me to go home and take belladonna right
- away, or I'd have the fever."
- "No, you won't!" cried Jo, hugging her close, with a frightened look.
- "Oh, Beth, if you should be sick I never could forgive myself! What
- shall we do?"
- "Don't be frightened, I guess I shan't have it badly. I looked in
- Mother's book, and saw that it begins with headache, sore throat, and
- queer feelings like mine, so I did take some belladonna, and I feel
- better," said Beth, laying her cold hands on her hot forehead and
- trying to look well.
- "If Mother was only at home!" exclaimed Jo, seizing the book, and
- feeling that Washington was an immense way off. She read a page,
- looked at Beth, felt her head, peeped into her throat, and then said
- gravely, "You've been over the baby every day for more than a week, and
- among the others who are going to have it, so I'm afraid you are going
- to have it, Beth. I'll call Hannah, she knows all about sickness."
- "Don't let Amy come. She never had it, and I should hate to give it to
- her. Can't you and Meg have it over again?" asked Beth, anxiously.
- "I guess not. Don't care if I do. Serve me right, selfish pig, to let
- you go, and stay writing rubbish myself!" muttered Jo, as she went to
- consult Hannah.
- The good soul was wide awake in a minute, and took the lead at once,
- assuring that there was no need to worry; every one had scarlet fever,
- and if rightly treated, nobody died, all of which Jo believed, and felt
- much relieved as they went up to call Meg.
- "Now I'll tell you what we'll do," said Hannah, when she had examined
- and questioned Beth, "we will have Dr. Bangs, just to take a look at
- you, dear, and see that we start right. Then we'll send Amy off to
- Aunt March's for a spell, to keep her out of harm's way, and one of you
- girls can stay at home and amuse Beth for a day or two."
- "I shall stay, of course, I'm oldest," began Meg, looking anxious and
- self-reproachful.
- "I shall, because it's my fault she is sick. I told Mother I'd do the
- errands, and I haven't," said Jo decidedly.
- "Which will you have, Beth? There ain't no need of but one," aid
- Hannah.
- "Jo, please." And Beth leaned her head against her sister with a
- contented look, which effectually settled that point.
- "I'll go and tell Amy," said Meg, feeling a little hurt, yet rather
- relieved on the whole, for she did not like nursing, and Jo did.
- Amy rebelled outright, and passionately declared that she had rather
- have the fever than go to Aunt March. Meg reasoned, pleaded, and
- commanded, all in vain. Amy protested that she would not go, and Meg
- left her in despair to ask Hannah what should be done. Before she came
- back, Laurie walked into the parlor to find Amy sobbing, with her head
- in the sofa cushions. She told her story, expecting to be consoled,
- but Laurie only put his hands in his pockets and walked about the room,
- whistling softly, as he knit his brows in deep thought. Presently he
- sat down beside her, and said, in his most wheedlesome tone, "Now be a
- sensible little woman, and do as they say. No, don't cry, but hear what
- a jolly plan I've got. You go to Aunt March's, and I'll come and take
- you out every day, driving or walking, and we'll have capital times.
- Won't that be better than moping here?"
- "I don't wish to be sent off as if I was in the way," began Amy, in an
- injured voice.
- "Bless your heart, child, it's to keep you well. You don't want to be
- sick, do you?"
- "No, I'm sure I don't, but I dare say I shall be, for I've been with
- Beth all the time."
- "That's the very reason you ought to go away at once, so that you may
- escape it. Change of air and care will keep you well, I dare say, or
- if it does not entirely, you will have the fever more lightly. I
- advise you to be off as soon as you can, for scarlet fever is no joke,
- miss."
- "But it's dull at Aunt March's, and she is so cross," said Amy, looking
- rather frightened.
- "It won't be dull with me popping in every day to tell you how Beth is,
- and take you out gallivanting. The old lady likes me, and I'll be as
- sweet as possible to her, so she won't peck at us, whatever we do."
- "Will you take me out in the trotting wagon with Puck?"
- "On my honor as a gentleman."
- "And come every single day?"
- "See if I don't!"
- "And bring me back the minute Beth is well?"
- "The identical minute."
- "And go to the theater, truly?"
- "A dozen theaters, if we may."
- "Well--I guess I will," said Amy slowly.
- "Good girl! Call Meg, and tell her you'll give in," said Laurie, with
- an approving pat, which annoyed Amy more than the 'giving in'.
- Meg and Jo came running down to behold the miracle which had been
- wrought, and Amy, feeling very precious and self-sacrificing, promised
- to go, if the doctor said Beth was going to be ill.
- "How is the little dear?" asked Laurie, for Beth was his especial pet,
- and he felt more anxious about her than he liked to show.
- "She is lying down on Mother's bed, and feels better. The baby's death
- troubled her, but I dare say she has only got cold. Hannah says she
- thinks so, but she looks worried, and that makes me fidgety," answered
- Meg.
- "What a trying world it is!" said Jo, rumpling up her hair in a fretful
- way. "No sooner do we get out of one trouble than down comes another.
- There doesn't seem to be anything to hold on to when Mother's gone, so
- I'm all at sea."
- "Well, don't make a porcupine of yourself, it isn't becoming. Settle
- your wig, Jo, and tell me if I shall telegraph to your mother, or do
- anything?" asked Laurie, who never had been reconciled to the loss of
- his friend's one beauty.
- "That is what troubles me," said Meg. "I think we ought to tell her if
- Beth is really ill, but Hannah says we mustn't, for Mother can't leave
- Father, and it will only make them anxious. Beth won't be sick long,
- and Hannah knows just what to do, and Mother said we were to mind her,
- so I suppose we must, but it doesn't seem quite right to me."
- "Hum, well, I can't say. Suppose you ask Grandfather after the doctor
- has been."
- "We will. Jo, go and get Dr. Bangs at once," commanded Meg. "We can't
- decide anything till he has been."
- "Stay where you are, Jo. I'm errand boy to this establishment," said
- Laurie, taking up his cap.
- "I'm afraid you are busy," began Meg.
- "No, I've done my lessons for the day."
- "Do you study in vacation time?" asked Jo.
- "I follow the good example my neighbors set me," was Laurie's answer,
- as he swung himself out of the room.
- "I have great hopes for my boy," observed Jo, watching him fly over the
- fence with an approving smile.
- "He does very well, for a boy," was Meg's somewhat ungracious answer,
- for the subject did not interest her.
- Dr. Bangs came, said Beth had symptoms of the fever, but he thought she
- would have it lightly, though he looked sober over the Hummel story.
- Amy was ordered off at once, and provided with something to ward off
- danger, she departed in great state, with Jo and Laurie as escort.
- Aunt March received them with her usual hospitality.
- "What do you want now?" she asked, looking sharply over her spectacles,
- while the parrot, sitting on the back of her chair, called out...
- "Go away. No boys allowed here."
- Laurie retired to the window, and Jo told her story.
- "No more than I expected, if you are allowed to go poking about among
- poor folks. Amy can stay and make herself useful if she isn't sick,
- which I've no doubt she will be, looks like it now. Don't cry, child,
- it worries me to hear people sniff."
- Amy was on the point of crying, but Laurie slyly pulled the parrot's
- tail, which caused Polly to utter an astonished croak and call out,
- "Bless my boots!" in such a funny way, that she laughed instead.
- "What do you hear from your mother?" asked the old lady gruffly.
- "Father is much better," replied Jo, trying to keep sober.
- "Oh, is he? Well, that won't last long, I fancy. March never had any
- stamina," was the cheerful reply.
- "Ha, ha! Never say die, take a pinch of snuff, goodbye, goodbye!"
- squalled Polly, dancing on her perch, and clawing at the old lady's cap
- as Laurie tweaked him in the rear.
- "Hold your tongue, you disrespectful old bird! And, Jo, you'd better
- go at once. It isn't proper to be gadding about so late with a
- rattlepated boy like..."
- "Hold your tongue, you disrespectful old bird!" cried Polly, tumbling
- off the chair with a bounce, and running to peck the 'rattlepated' boy,
- who was shaking with laughter at the last speech.
- "I don't think I can bear it, but I'll try," thought Amy, as she was
- left alone with Aunt March.
- "Get along, you fright!" screamed Polly, and at that rude speech Amy
- could not restrain a sniff.
- CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
- DARK DAYS
- Beth did have the fever, and was much sicker than anyone but Hannah and
- the doctor suspected. The girls knew nothing about illness, and Mr.
- Laurence was not allowed to see her, so Hannah had everything her own
- way, and busy Dr. Bangs did his best, but left a good deal to the
- excellent nurse. Meg stayed at home, lest she should infect the Kings,
- and kept house, feeling very anxious and a little guilty when she wrote
- letters in which no mention was made of Beth's illness. She could not
- think it right to deceive her mother, but she had been bidden to mind
- Hannah, and Hannah wouldn't hear of 'Mrs. March bein' told, and worried
- just for sech a trifle.'
- Jo devoted herself to Beth day and night, not a hard task, for Beth was
- very patient, and bore her pain uncomplainingly as long as she could
- control herself. But there came a time when during the fever fits she
- began to talk in a hoarse, broken voice, to play on the coverlet as if
- on her beloved little piano, and try to sing with a throat so swollen
- that there was no music left, a time when she did not know the familiar
- faces around her, but addressed them by wrong names, and called
- imploringly for her mother. Then Jo grew frightened, Meg begged to be
- allowed to write the truth, and even Hannah said she 'would think of
- it, though there was no danger yet'. A letter from Washington added to
- their trouble, for Mr. March had had a relapse, and could not think of
- coming home for a long while.
- How dark the days seemed now, how sad and lonely the house, and how
- heavy were the hearts of the sisters as they worked and waited, while
- the shadow of death hovered over the once happy home. Then it was that
- Margaret, sitting alone with tears dropping often on her work, felt how
- rich she had been in things more precious than any luxuries money could
- buy--in love, protection, peace, and health, the real blessings of
- life. Then it was that Jo, living in the darkened room, with that
- suffering little sister always before her eyes and that pathetic voice
- sounding in her ears, learned to see the beauty and the sweetness of
- Beth's nature, to feel how deep and tender a place she filled in all
- hearts, and to acknowledge the worth of Beth's unselfish ambition to
- live for others, and make home happy by that exercise of those simple
- virtues which all may possess, and which all should love and value more
- than talent, wealth, or beauty. And Amy, in her exile, longed eagerly
- to be at home, that she might work for Beth, feeling now that no
- service would be hard or irksome, and remembering, with regretful
- grief, how many neglected tasks those willing hands had done for her.
- Laurie haunted the house like a restless ghost, and Mr. Laurence locked
- the grand piano, because he could not bear to be reminded of the young
- neighbor who used to make the twilight pleasant for him. Everyone
- missed Beth. The milkman, baker, grocer, and butcher inquired how she
- did, poor Mrs. Hummel came to beg pardon for her thoughtlessness and to
- get a shroud for Minna, the neighbors sent all sorts of comforts and
- good wishes, and even those who knew her best were surprised to find
- how many friends shy little Beth had made.
- Meanwhile she lay on her bed with old Joanna at her side, for even in
- her wanderings she did not forget her forlorn protege. She longed for
- her cats, but would not have them brought, lest they should get sick,
- and in her quiet hours she was full of anxiety about Jo. She sent
- loving messages to Amy, bade them tell her mother that she would write
- soon, and often begged for pencil and paper to try to say a word, that
- Father might not think she had neglected him. But soon even these
- intervals of consciousness ended, and she lay hour after hour, tossing
- to and fro, with incoherent words on her lips, or sank into a heavy
- sleep which brought her no refreshment. Dr. Bangs came twice a day,
- Hannah sat up at night, Meg kept a telegram in her desk all ready to
- send off at any minute, and Jo never stirred from Beth's side.
- The first of December was a wintry day indeed to them, for a bitter
- wind blew, snow fell fast, and the year seemed getting ready for its
- death. When Dr. Bangs came that morning, he looked long at Beth, held
- the hot hand in both his own for a minute, and laid it gently down,
- saying, in a low voice to Hannah, "If Mrs. March can leave her husband
- she'd better be sent for."
- Hannah nodded without speaking, for her lips twitched nervously, Meg
- dropped down into a chair as the strength seemed to go out of her limbs
- at the sound of those words, and Jo, standing with a pale face for a
- minute, ran to the parlor, snatched up the telegram, and throwing on
- her things, rushed out into the storm. She was soon back, and while
- noiselessly taking off her cloak, Laurie came in with a letter, saying
- that Mr. March was mending again. Jo read it thankfully, but the heavy
- weight did not seem lifted off her heart, and her face was so full of
- misery that Laurie asked quickly, "What is it? Is Beth worse?"
- "I've sent for Mother," said Jo, tugging at her rubber boots with a
- tragic expression.
- "Good for you, Jo! Did you do it on your own responsibility?" asked
- Laurie, as he seated her in the hall chair and took off the rebellious
- boots, seeing how her hands shook.
- "No. The doctor told us to."
- "Oh, Jo, it's not so bad as that?" cried Laurie, with a startled face.
- "Yes, it is. She doesn't know us, she doesn't even talk about the
- flocks of green doves, as she calls the vine leaves on the wall. She
- doesn't look like my Beth, and there's nobody to help us bear it.
- Mother and father both gone, and God seems so far away I can't find
- Him."
- As the tears streamed fast down poor Jo's cheeks, she stretched out her
- hand in a helpless sort of way, as if groping in the dark, and Laurie
- took it in his, whispering as well as he could with a lump in his
- throat, "I'm here. Hold on to me, Jo, dear!"
- She could not speak, but she did 'hold on', and the warm grasp of the
- friendly human hand comforted her sore heart, and seemed to lead her
- nearer to the Divine arm which alone could uphold her in her trouble.
- Laurie longed to say something tender and comfortable, but no fitting
- words came to him, so he stood silent, gently stroking her bent head as
- her mother used to do. It was the best thing he could have done, far
- more soothing than the most eloquent words, for Jo felt the unspoken
- sympathy, and in the silence learned the sweet solace which affection
- administers to sorrow. Soon she dried the tears which had relieved
- her, and looked up with a grateful face.
- "Thank you, Teddy, I'm better now. I don't feel so forlorn, and will
- try to bear it if it comes."
- "Keep hoping for the best, that will help you, Jo. Soon your mother
- will be here, and then everything will be all right."
- "I'm so glad Father is better. Now she won't feel so bad about leaving
- him. Oh, me! It does seem as if all the troubles came in a heap, and
- I got the heaviest part on my shoulders," sighed Jo, spreading her wet
- handkerchief over her knees to dry.
- "Doesn't Meg pull fair?" asked Laurie, looking indignant.
- "Oh, yes, she tries to, but she can't love Bethy as I do, and she won't
- miss her as I shall. Beth is my conscience, and I can't give her up.
- I can't! I can't!"
- Down went Jo's face into the wet handkerchief, and she cried
- despairingly, for she had kept up bravely till now and never shed a
- tear. Laurie drew his hand across his eyes, but could not speak till
- he had subdued the choky feeling in his throat and steadied his lips.
- It might be unmanly, but he couldn't help it, and I am glad of it.
- Presently, as Jo's sobs quieted, he said hopefully, "I don't think she
- will die. She's so good, and we all love her so much, I don't believe
- God will take her away yet."
- "The good and dear people always do die," groaned Jo, but she stopped
- crying, for her friend's words cheered her up in spite of her own
- doubts and fears.
- "Poor girl, you're worn out. It isn't like you to be forlorn. Stop a
- bit. I'll hearten you up in a jiffy."
- Laurie went off two stairs at a time, and Jo laid her wearied head down
- on Beth's little brown hood, which no one had thought of moving from
- the table where she left it. It must have possessed some magic, for
- the submissive spirit of its gentle owner seemed to enter into Jo, and
- when Laurie came running down with a glass of wine, she took it with a
- smile, and said bravely, "I drink-- Health to my Beth! You are a good
- doctor, Teddy, and such a comfortable friend. How can I ever pay you?"
- she added, as the wine refreshed her body, as the kind words had done
- her troubled mind.
- "I'll send my bill, by-and-by, and tonight I'll give you something that
- will warm the cockles of your heart better than quarts of wine," said
- Laurie, beaming at her with a face of suppressed satisfaction at
- something.
- "What is it?" cried Jo, forgetting her woes for a minute in her wonder.
- "I telegraphed to your mother yesterday, and Brooke answered she'd come
- at once, and she'll be here tonight, and everything will be all right.
- Aren't you glad I did it?"
- Laurie spoke very fast, and turned red and excited all in a minute, for
- he had kept his plot a secret, for fear of disappointing the girls or
- harming Beth. Jo grew quite white, flew out of her chair, and the
- moment he stopped speaking she electrified him by throwing her arms
- round his neck, and crying out, with a joyful cry, "Oh, Laurie! Oh,
- Mother! I am so glad!" She did not weep again, but laughed
- hysterically, and trembled and clung to her friend as if she was a
- little bewildered by the sudden news.
- Laurie, though decidedly amazed, behaved with great presence of mind.
- He patted her back soothingly, and finding that she was recovering,
- followed it up by a bashful kiss or two, which brought Jo round at
- once. Holding on to the banisters, she put him gently away, saying
- breathlessly, "Oh, don't! I didn't mean to, it was dreadful of me, but
- you were such a dear to go and do it in spite of Hannah that I couldn't
- help flying at you. Tell me all about it, and don't give me wine
- again, it makes me act so."
- "I don't mind," laughed Laurie, as he settled his tie. "Why, you see I
- got fidgety, and so did Grandpa. We thought Hannah was overdoing the
- authority business, and your mother ought to know. She'd never forgive
- us if Beth... Well, if anything happened, you know. So I got grandpa
- to say it was high time we did something, and off I pelted to the
- office yesterday, for the doctor looked sober, and Hannah most took my
- head off when I proposed a telegram. I never can bear to be 'lorded
- over', so that settled my mind, and I did it. Your mother will come, I
- know, and the late train is in at two A.M. I shall go for her, and
- you've only got to bottle up your rapture, and keep Beth quiet till
- that blessed lady gets here."
- "Laurie, you're an angel! How shall I ever thank you?"
- "Fly at me again. I rather liked it," said Laurie, looking
- mischievous, a thing he had not done for a fortnight.
- "No, thank you. I'll do it by proxy, when your grandpa comes. Don't
- tease, but go home and rest, for you'll be up half the night. Bless
- you, Teddy, bless you!"
- Jo had backed into a corner, and as she finished her speech, she
- vanished precipitately into the kitchen, where she sat down upon a
- dresser and told the assembled cats that she was "happy, oh, so happy!"
- while Laurie departed, feeling that he had made a rather neat thing of
- it.
- "That's the interferingest chap I ever see, but I forgive him and do
- hope Mrs. March is coming right away," said Hannah, with an air of
- relief, when Jo told the good news.
- Meg had a quiet rapture, and then brooded over the letter, while Jo set
- the sickroom in order, and Hannah "knocked up a couple of pies in case
- of company unexpected". A breath of fresh air seemed to blow through
- the house, and something better than sunshine brightened the quiet
- rooms. Everything appeared to feel the hopeful change. Beth's bird
- began to chirp again, and a half-blown rose was discovered on Amy's
- bush in the window. The fires seemed to burn with unusual cheeriness,
- and every time the girls met, their pale faces broke into smiles as
- they hugged one another, whispering encouragingly, "Mother's coming,
- dear! Mother's coming!" Every one rejoiced but Beth. She lay in that
- heavy stupor, alike unconscious of hope and joy, doubt and danger. It
- was a piteous sight, the once rosy face so changed and vacant, the once
- busy hands so weak and wasted, the once smiling lips quite dumb, and
- the once pretty, well-kept hair scattered rough and tangled on the
- pillow. All day she lay so, only rousing now and then to mutter,
- "Water!" with lips so parched they could hardly shape the word. All
- day Jo and Meg hovered over her, watching, waiting, hoping, and
- trusting in God and Mother, and all day the snow fell, the bitter wind
- raged, and the hours dragged slowly by. But night came at last, and
- every time the clock struck, the sisters, still sitting on either side
- of the bed, looked at each other with brightening eyes, for each hour
- brought help nearer. The doctor had been in to say that some change,
- for better or worse, would probably take place about midnight, at which
- time he would return.
- Hannah, quite worn out, lay down on the sofa at the bed's foot and fell
- fast asleep, Mr. Laurence marched to and fro in the parlor, feeling
- that he would rather face a rebel battery than Mrs. March's countenance
- as she entered. Laurie lay on the rug, pretending to rest, but staring
- into the fire with the thoughtful look which made his black eyes
- beautifully soft and clear.
- The girls never forgot that night, for no sleep came to them as they
- kept their watch, with that dreadful sense of powerlessness which comes
- to us in hours like those.
- "If God spares Beth, I never will complain again," whispered Meg
- earnestly.
- "If god spares Beth, I'll try to love and serve Him all my life,"
- answered Jo, with equal fervor.
- "I wish I had no heart, it aches so," sighed Meg, after a pause.
- "If life is often as hard as this, I don't see how we ever shall get
- through it," added her sister despondently.
- Here the clock struck twelve, and both forgot themselves in watching
- Beth, for they fancied a change passed over her wan face. The house was
- still as death, and nothing but the wailing of the wind broke the deep
- hush. Weary Hannah slept on, and no one but the sisters saw the pale
- shadow which seemed to fall upon the little bed. An hour went by, and
- nothing happened except Laurie's quiet departure for the station.
- Another hour, still no one came, and anxious fears of delay in the
- storm, or accidents by the way, or, worst of all, a great grief at
- Washington, haunted the girls.
- It was past two, when Jo, who stood at the window thinking how dreary
- the world looked in its winding sheet of snow, heard a movement by the
- bed, and turning quickly, saw Meg kneeling before their mother's easy
- chair with her face hidden. A dreadful fear passed coldly over Jo, as
- she thought, "Beth is dead, and Meg is afraid to tell me."
- She was back at her post in an instant, and to her excited eyes a great
- change seemed to have taken place. The fever flush and the look of
- pain were gone, and the beloved little face looked so pale and peaceful
- in its utter repose that Jo felt no desire to weep or to lament.
- Leaning low over this dearest of her sisters, she kissed the damp
- forehead with her heart on her lips, and softly whispered, "Good-by, my
- Beth. Good-by!"
- As if awaked by the stir, Hannah started out of her sleep, hurried to
- the bed, looked at Beth, felt her hands, listened at her lips, and
- then, throwing her apron over her head, sat down to rock to and fro,
- exclaiming, under her breath, "The fever's turned, she's sleepin'
- nat'ral, her skin's damp, and she breathes easy. Praise be given! Oh,
- my goodness me!"
- Before the girls could believe the happy truth, the doctor came to
- confirm it. He was a homely man, but they thought his face quite
- heavenly when he smiled and said, with a fatherly look at them, "Yes,
- my dears, I think the little girl will pull through this time. Keep
- the house quiet, let her sleep, and when she wakes, give her..."
- What they were to give, neither heard, for both crept into the dark
- hall, and, sitting on the stairs, held each other close, rejoicing with
- hearts too full for words. When they went back to be kissed and
- cuddled by faithful Hannah, they found Beth lying, as she used to do,
- with her cheek pillowed on her hand, the dreadful pallor gone, and
- breathing quietly, as if just fallen asleep.
- "If Mother would only come now!" said Jo, as the winter night began to
- wane.
- "See," said Meg, coming up with a white, half-opened rose, "I thought
- this would hardly be ready to lay in Beth's hand tomorrow if she--went
- away from us. But it has blossomed in the night, and now I mean to put
- it in my vase here, so that when the darling wakes, the first thing she
- sees will be the little rose, and Mother's face."
- Never had the sun risen so beautifully, and never had the world seemed
- so lovely as it did to the heavy eyes of Meg and Jo, as they looked out
- in the early morning, when their long, sad vigil was done.
- "It looks like a fairy world," said Meg, smiling to herself, as she
- stood behind the curtain, watching the dazzling sight.
- "Hark!" cried Jo, starting to her feet.
- Yes, there was a sound of bells at the door below, a cry from Hannah,
- and then Laurie's voice saying in a joyful whisper, "Girls, she's come!
- She's come!"
- CHAPTER NINETEEN
- AMY'S WILL
- While these things were happening at home, Amy was having hard times at
- Aunt March's. She felt her exile deeply, and for the first time in her
- life, realized how much she was beloved and petted at home. Aunt March
- never petted any one; she did not approve of it, but she meant to be
- kind, for the well-behaved little girl pleased her very much, and Aunt
- March had a soft place in her old heart for her nephew's children,
- though she didn't think it proper to confess it. She really did her
- best to make Amy happy, but, dear me, what mistakes she made. Some old
- people keep young at heart in spite of wrinkles and gray hairs, can
- sympathize with children's little cares and joys, make them feel at
- home, and can hide wise lessons under pleasant plays, giving and
- receiving friendship in the sweetest way. But Aunt March had not this
- gift, and she worried Amy very much with her rules and orders, her prim
- ways, and long, prosy talks. Finding the child more docile and amiable
- than her sister, the old lady felt it her duty to try and counteract,
- as far as possible, the bad effects of home freedom and indulgence. So
- she took Amy by the hand, and taught her as she herself had been taught
- sixty years ago, a process which carried dismay to Amy's soul, and made
- her feel like a fly in the web of a very strict spider.
- She had to wash the cups every morning, and polish up the old-fashioned
- spoons, the fat silver teapot, and the glasses till they shone. Then
- she must dust the room, and what a trying job that was. Not a speck
- escaped Aunt March's eye, and all the furniture had claw legs and much
- carving, which was never dusted to suit. Then Polly had to be fed, the
- lap dog combed, and a dozen trips upstairs and down to get things or
- deliver orders, for the old lady was very lame and seldom left her big
- chair. After these tiresome labors, she must do her lessons, which was
- a daily trial of every virtue she possessed. Then she was allowed one
- hour for exercise or play, and didn't she enjoy it?
- Laurie came every day, and wheedled Aunt March till Amy was allowed to
- go out with him, when they walked and rode and had capital times.
- After dinner, she had to read aloud, and sit still while the old lady
- slept, which she usually did for an hour, as she dropped off over the
- first page. Then patchwork or towels appeared, and Amy sewed with
- outward meekness and inward rebellion till dusk, when she was allowed
- to amuse herself as she liked till teatime. The evenings were the
- worst of all, for Aunt March fell to telling long stories about her
- youth, which were so unutterably dull that Amy was always ready to go
- to bed, intending to cry over her hard fate, but usually going to sleep
- before she had squeezed out more than a tear or two.
- If it had not been for Laurie, and old Esther, the maid, she felt that
- she never could have got through that dreadful time. The parrot alone
- was enough to drive her distracted, for he soon felt that she did not
- admire him, and revenged himself by being as mischievous as possible.
- He pulled her hair whenever she came near him, upset his bread and milk
- to plague her when she had newly cleaned his cage, made Mop bark by
- pecking at him while Madam dozed, called her names before company, and
- behaved in all respects like an reprehensible old bird. Then she could
- not endure the dog, a fat, cross beast who snarled and yelped at her
- when she made his toilet, and who lay on his back with all his legs in
- the air and a most idiotic expression of countenance when he wanted
- something to eat, which was about a dozen times a day. The cook was
- bad-tempered, the old coachman was deaf, and Esther the only one who
- ever took any notice of the young lady.
- Esther was a Frenchwoman, who had lived with 'Madame', as she called her
- mistress, for many years, and who rather tyrannized over the old lady,
- who could not get along without her. Her real name was Estelle, but
- Aunt March ordered her to change it, and she obeyed, on condition that
- she was never asked to change her religion. She took a fancy to
- Mademoiselle, and amused her very much with odd stories of her life in
- France, when Amy sat with her while she got up Madame's laces. She
- also allowed her to roam about the great house, and examine the curious
- and pretty things stored away in the big wardrobes and the ancient
- chests, for Aunt March hoarded like a magpie. Amy's chief delight was
- an Indian cabinet, full of queer drawers, little pigeonholes, and
- secret places, in which were kept all sorts of ornaments, some
- precious, some merely curious, all more or less antique. To examine and
- arrange these things gave Amy great satisfaction, especially the jewel
- cases, in which on velvet cushions reposed the ornaments which had
- adorned a belle forty years ago. There was the garnet set which Aunt
- March wore when she came out, the pearls her father gave her on her
- wedding day, her lover's diamonds, the jet mourning rings and pins, the
- queer lockets, with portraits of dead friends and weeping willows made
- of hair inside, the baby bracelets her one little daughter had worn,
- Uncle March's big watch, with the red seal so many childish hands had
- played with, and in a box all by itself lay Aunt March's wedding ring,
- too small now for her fat finger, but put carefully away like the most
- precious jewel of them all.
- "Which would Mademoiselle choose if she had her will?" asked Esther,
- who always sat near to watch over and lock up the valuables.
- "I like the diamonds best, but there is no necklace among them, and I'm
- fond of necklaces, they are so becoming. I should choose this if I
- might," replied Amy, looking with great admiration at a string of gold
- and ebony beads from which hung a heavy cross of the same.
- "I, too, covet that, but not as a necklace. Ah, no! To me it is a
- rosary, and as such I should use it like a good catholic," said Esther,
- eyeing the handsome thing wistfully.
- "Is it meant to use as you use the string of good-smelling wooden beads
- hanging over your glass?" asked Amy.
- "Truly, yes, to pray with. It would be pleasing to the saints if one
- used so fine a rosary as this, instead of wearing it as a vain bijou."
- "You seem to take a great deal of comfort in your prayers, Esther, and
- always come down looking quiet and satisfied. I wish I could."
- "If Mademoiselle was a Catholic, she would find true comfort, but as
- that is not to be, it would be well if you went apart each day to
- meditate and pray, as did the good mistress whom I served before
- Madame. She had a little chapel, and in it found solacement for much
- trouble."
- "Would it be right for me to do so too?" asked Amy, who in her
- loneliness felt the need of help of some sort, and found that she was
- apt to forget her little book, now that Beth was not there to remind
- her of it.
- "It would be excellent and charming, and I shall gladly arrange the
- little dressing room for you if you like it. Say nothing to Madame,
- but when she sleeps go you and sit alone a while to think good
- thoughts, and pray the dear God preserve your sister."
- Esther was truly pious, and quite sincere in her advice, for she had an
- affectionate heart, and felt much for the sisters in their anxiety.
- Amy liked the idea, and gave her leave to arrange the light closet next
- her room, hoping it would do her good.
- "I wish I knew where all these pretty things would go when Aunt March
- dies," she said, as she slowly replaced the shining rosary and shut the
- jewel cases one by one.
- "To you and your sisters. I know it, Madame confides in me. I
- witnessed her will, and it is to be so," whispered Esther smiling.
- "How nice! But I wish she'd let us have them now. Procrastination is
- not agreeable," observed Amy, taking a last look at the diamonds.
- "It is too soon yet for the young ladies to wear these things. The
- first one who is affianced will have the pearls, Madame has said it,
- and I have a fancy that the little turquoise ring will be given to you
- when you go, for Madame approves your good behavior and charming
- manners."
- "Do you think so? Oh, I'll be a lamb, if I can only have that lovely
- ring! It's ever so much prettier than Kitty Bryant's. I do like Aunt
- March after all." And Amy tried on the blue ring with a delighted face
- and a firm resolve to earn it.
- From that day she was a model of obedience, and the old lady
- complacently admired the success of her training. Esther fitted up the
- closet with a little table, placed a footstool before it, and over it a
- picture taken from one of the shut-up rooms. She thought it was of no
- great value, but, being appropriate, she borrowed it, well knowing that
- Madame would never know it, nor care if she did. It was, however, a
- very valuable copy of one of the famous pictures of the world, and
- Amy's beauty-loving eyes were never tired of looking up at the sweet
- face of the Divine Mother, while her tender thoughts of her own were
- busy at her heart. On the table she laid her little testament and
- hymnbook, kept a vase always full of the best flowers Laurie brought
- her, and came every day to 'sit alone' thinking good thoughts, and
- praying the dear God to preserve her sister. Esther had given her a
- rosary of black beads with a silver cross, but Amy hung it up and did
- not use it, feeling doubtful as to its fitness for Protestant prayers.
- The little girl was very sincere in all this, for being left alone
- outside the safe home nest, she felt the need of some kind hand to hold
- by so sorely that she instinctively turned to the strong and tender
- Friend, whose fatherly love most closely surrounds His little children.
- She missed her mother's help to understand and rule herself, but having
- been taught where to look, she did her best to find the way and walk in
- it confidingly. But, Amy was a young pilgrim, and just now her burden
- seemed very heavy. She tried to forget herself, to keep cheerful, and
- be satisfied with doing right, though no one saw or praised her for it.
- In her first effort at being very, very good, she decided to make her
- will, as Aunt March had done, so that if she did fall ill and die, her
- possessions might be justly and generously divided. It cost her a pang
- even to think of giving up the little treasures which in her eyes were
- as precious as the old lady's jewels.
- During one of her play hours she wrote out the important document as
- well as she could, with some help from Esther as to certain legal
- terms, and when the good-natured Frenchwoman had signed her name, Amy
- felt relieved and laid it by to show Laurie, whom she wanted as a
- second witness. As it was a rainy day, she went upstairs to amuse
- herself in one of the large chambers, and took Polly with her for
- company. In this room there was a wardrobe full of old-fashioned
- costumes with which Esther allowed her to play, and it was her favorite
- amusement to array herself in the faded brocades, and parade up and
- down before the long mirror, making stately curtsies, and sweeping her
- train about with a rustle which delighted her ears. So busy was she on
- this day that she did not hear Laurie's ring nor see his face peeping
- in at her as she gravely promenaded to and fro, flirting her fan and
- tossing her head, on which she wore a great pink turban, contrasting
- oddly with her blue brocade dress and yellow quilted petticoat. She
- was obliged to walk carefully, for she had on high-heeled shoes, and, as
- Laurie told Jo afterward, it was a comical sight to see her mince along
- in her gay suit, with Polly sidling and bridling just behind her,
- imitating her as well as he could, and occasionally stopping to laugh
- or exclaim, "Ain't we fine? Get along, you fright! Hold your tongue!
- Kiss me, dear! Ha! Ha!"
- Having with difficulty restrained an explosion of merriment, lest it
- should offend her majesty, Laurie tapped and was graciously received.
- "Sit down and rest while I put these things away, then I want to
- consult you about a very serious matter," said Amy, when she had shown
- her splendor and driven Polly into a corner. "That bird is the trial
- of my life," she continued, removing the pink mountain from her head,
- while Laurie seated himself astride a chair.
- "Yesterday, when Aunt was asleep and I was trying to be as still as a
- mouse, Polly began to squall and flap about in his cage, so I went to
- let him out, and found a big spider there. I poked it out, and it ran
- under the bookcase. Polly marched straight after it, stooped down and
- peeped under the bookcase, saying, in his funny way, with a cock of his
- eye, 'Come out and take a walk, my dear.' I couldn't help laughing,
- which made Poll swear, and Aunt woke up and scolded us both."
- "Did the spider accept the old fellow's invitation?" asked Laurie,
- yawning.
- "Yes, out it came, and away ran Polly, frightened to death, and
- scrambled up on Aunt's chair, calling out, 'Catch her! Catch her! Catch
- her!' as I chased the spider."
- "That's a lie! Oh, lor!" cried the parrot, pecking at Laurie's toes.
- "I'd wring your neck if you were mine, you old torment," cried Laurie,
- shaking his fist at the bird, who put his head on one side and gravely
- croaked, "Allyluyer! bless your buttons, dear!"
- "Now I'm ready," said Amy, shutting the wardrobe and taking a piece of
- paper out of her pocket. "I want you to read that, please, and tell me
- if it is legal and right. I felt I ought to do it, for life is
- uncertain and I don't want any ill feeling over my tomb."
- Laurie bit his lips, and turning a little from the pensive speaker,
- read the following document, with praiseworthy gravity, considering the
- spelling:
- MY LAST WILL AND TESTIMENT
- I, Amy Curtis March, being in my sane mind, go give and bequeethe all
- my earthly property--viz. to wit:--namely
- To my father, my best pictures, sketches, maps, and works of art,
- including frames. Also my $100, to do what he likes with.
- To my mother, all my clothes, except the blue apron with pockets--also
- my likeness, and my medal, with much love.
- To my dear sister Margaret, I give my turkquoise ring (if I get it),
- also my green box with the doves on it, also my piece of real lace for
- her neck, and my sketch of her as a memorial of her 'little girl'.
- To Jo I leave my breastpin, the one mended with sealing wax, also my
- bronze inkstand--she lost the cover--and my most precious plaster
- rabbit, because I am sorry I burned up her story.
- To Beth (if she lives after me) I give my dolls and the little bureau,
- my fan, my linen collars and my new slippers if she can wear them being
- thin when she gets well. And I herewith also leave her my regret that
- I ever made fun of old Joanna.
- To my friend and neighbor Theodore Laurence I bequeethe my paper mashay
- portfolio, my clay model of a horse though he did say it hadn't any
- neck. Also in return for his great kindness in the hour of affliction
- any one of my artistic works he likes, Noter Dame is the best.
- To our venerable benefactor Mr. Laurence I leave my purple box with a
- looking glass in the cover which will be nice for his pens and remind
- him of the departed girl who thanks him for his favors to her family,
- especially Beth.
- I wish my favorite playmate Kitty Bryant to have the blue silk apron
- and my gold-bead ring with a kiss.
- To Hannah I give the bandbox she wanted and all the patchwork I leave
- hoping she 'will remember me, when it you see'.
- And now having disposed of my most valuable property I hope all will be
- satisfied and not blame the dead. I forgive everyone, and trust we may
- all meet when the trump shall sound. Amen.
- To this will and testiment I set my hand and seal on this 20th day of
- Nov. Anni Domino 1861.
- Amy Curtis March
- Witnesses:
- Estelle Valnor, Theodore Laurence.
- The last name was written in pencil, and Amy explained that he was to
- rewrite it in ink and seal it up for her properly.
- "What put it into your head? Did anyone tell you about Beth's giving
- away her things?" asked Laurie soberly, as Amy laid a bit of red tape,
- with sealing wax, a taper, and a standish before him.
- She explained and then asked anxiously, "What about Beth?"
- "I'm sorry I spoke, but as I did, I'll tell you. She felt so ill one
- day that she told Jo she wanted to give her piano to Meg, her cats to
- you, and the poor old doll to Jo, who would love it for her sake. She
- was sorry she had so little to give, and left locks of hair to the rest
- of us, and her best love to Grandpa. She never thought of a will."
- Laurie was signing and sealing as he spoke, and did not look up till a
- great tear dropped on the paper. Amy's face was full of trouble, but
- she only said, "Don't people put sort of postscripts to their wills,
- sometimes?"
- "Yes, 'codicils', they call them."
- "Put one in mine then, that I wish all my curls cut off, and given
- round to my friends. I forgot it, but I want it done though it will
- spoil my looks."
- Laurie added it, smiling at Amy's last and greatest sacrifice. Then he
- amused her for an hour, and was much interested in all her trials. But
- when he came to go, Amy held him back to whisper with trembling lips,
- "Is there really any danger about Beth?"
- "I'm afraid there is, but we must hope for the best, so don't cry,
- dear." And Laurie put his arm about her with a brotherly gesture which
- was very comforting.
- When he had gone, she went to her little chapel, and sitting in the
- twilight, prayed for Beth, with streaming tears and an aching heart,
- feeling that a million turquoise rings would not console her for the
- loss of her gentle little sister.
- CHAPTER TWENTY
- CONFIDENTIAL
- I don't think I have any words in which to tell the meeting of the
- mother and daughters. Such hours are beautiful to live, but very hard
- to describe, so I will leave it to the imagination of my readers,
- merely saying that the house was full of genuine happiness, and that
- Meg's tender hope was realized, for when Beth woke from that long,
- healing sleep, the first objects on which her eyes fell were the little
- rose and Mother's face. Too weak to wonder at anything, she only
- smiled and nestled close in the loving arms about her, feeling that the
- hungry longing was satisfied at last. Then she slept again, and the
- girls waited upon their mother, for she would not unclasp the thin hand
- which clung to hers even in sleep.
- Hannah had 'dished up' an astonishing breakfast for the traveler,
- finding it impossible to vent her excitement in any other way, and Meg
- and Jo fed their mother like dutiful young storks, while they listened
- to her whispered account of Father's state, Mr. Brooke's promise to
- stay and nurse him, the delays which the storm occasioned on the
- homeward journey, and the unspeakable comfort Laurie's hopeful face had
- given her when she arrived, worn out with fatigue, anxiety, and cold.
- What a strange yet pleasant day that was. So brilliant and gay
- without, for all the world seemed abroad to welcome the first snow. So
- quiet and reposeful within, for everyone slept, spent with watching,
- and a Sabbath stillness reigned through the house, while nodding Hannah
- mounted guard at the door. With a blissful sense of burdens lifted
- off, Meg and Jo closed their weary eyes, and lay at rest, like
- storm-beaten boats safe at anchor in a quiet harbor. Mrs. March would
- not leave Beth's side, but rested in the big chair, waking often to
- look at, touch, and brood over her child, like a miser over some
- recovered treasure.
- Laurie meanwhile posted off to comfort Amy, and told his story so well
- that Aunt March actually 'sniffed' herself, and never once said "I told
- you so". Amy came out so strong on this occasion that I think the good
- thoughts in the little chapel really began to bear fruit. She dried
- her tears quickly, restrained her impatience to see her mother, and
- never even thought of the turquoise ring, when the old lady heartily
- agreed in Laurie's opinion, that she behaved 'like a capital little
- woman'. Even Polly seemed impressed, for he called her a good girl,
- blessed her buttons, and begged her to "come and take a walk, dear", in
- his most affable tone. She would very gladly have gone out to enjoy
- the bright wintry weather, but discovering that Laurie was dropping
- with sleep in spite of manful efforts to conceal the fact, she
- persuaded him to rest on the sofa, while she wrote a note to her
- mother. She was a long time about it, and when she returned, he was
- stretched out with both arms under his head, sound asleep, while Aunt
- March had pulled down the curtains and sat doing nothing in an unusual
- fit of benignity.
- After a while, they began to think he was not going to wake up till
- night, and I'm not sure that he would, had he not been effectually
- roused by Amy's cry of joy at sight of her mother. There probably were
- a good many happy little girls in and about the city that day, but it
- is my private opinion that Amy was the happiest of all, when she sat in
- her mother's lap and told her trials, receiving consolation and
- compensation in the shape of approving smiles and fond caresses. They
- were alone together in the chapel, to which her mother did not object
- when its purpose was explained to her.
- "On the contrary, I like it very much, dear," looking from the dusty
- rosary to the well-worn little book, and the lovely picture with its
- garland of evergreen. "It is an excellent plan to have some place
- where we can go to be quiet, when things vex or grieve us. There are a
- good many hard times in this life of ours, but we can always bear them
- if we ask help in the right way. I think my little girl is learning
- this."
- "Yes, Mother, and when I go home I mean to have a corner in the big
- closet to put my books and the copy of that picture which I've tried to
- make. The woman's face is not good, it's too beautiful for me to draw,
- but the baby is done better, and I love it very much. I like to think
- He was a little child once, for then I don't seem so far away, and that
- helps me."
- As Amy pointed to the smiling Christ child on his Mother's knee, Mrs.
- March saw something on the lifted hand that made her smile. She said
- nothing, but Amy understood the look, and after a minute's pause, she
- added gravely, "I wanted to speak to you about this, but I forgot it.
- Aunt gave me the ring today. She called me to her and kissed me, and
- put it on my finger, and said I was a credit to her, and she'd like to
- keep me always. She gave that funny guard to keep the turquoise on, as
- it's too big. I'd like to wear them Mother, can I?"
- "They are very pretty, but I think you're rather too young for such
- ornaments, Amy," said Mrs. March, looking at the plump little hand,
- with the band of sky-blue stones on the forefinger, and the quaint
- guard formed of two tiny golden hands clasped together.
- "I'll try not to be vain," said Amy. "I don't think I like it only
- because it's so pretty, but I want to wear it as the girl in the story
- wore her bracelet, to remind me of something."
- "Do you mean Aunt March?" asked her mother, laughing.
- "No, to remind me not to be selfish." Amy looked so earnest and
- sincere about it that her mother stopped laughing, and listened
- respectfully to the little plan.
- "I've thought a great deal lately about my 'bundle of naughties', and
- being selfish is the largest one in it, so I'm going to try hard to
- cure it, if I can. Beth isn't selfish, and that's the reason everyone
- loves her and feels so bad at the thoughts of losing her. People
- wouldn't feel so bad about me if I was sick, and I don't deserve to
- have them, but I'd like to be loved and missed by a great many friends,
- so I'm going to try and be like Beth all I can. I'm apt to forget my
- resolutions, but if I had something always about me to remind me, I
- guess I should do better. May we try this way?"
- "Yes, but I have more faith in the corner of the big closet. Wear your
- ring, dear, and do your best. I think you will prosper, for the
- sincere wish to be good is half the battle. Now I must go back to
- Beth. Keep up your heart, little daughter, and we will soon have you
- home again."
- That evening while Meg was writing to her father to report the
- traveler's safe arrival, Jo slipped upstairs into Beth's room, and
- finding her mother in her usual place, stood a minute twisting her
- fingers in her hair, with a worried gesture and an undecided look.
- "What is it, deary?" asked Mrs. March, holding out her hand, with a
- face which invited confidence.
- "I want to tell you something, Mother."
- "About Meg?"
- "How quickly you guessed! Yes, it's about her, and though it's a
- little thing, it fidgets me."
- "Beth is asleep. Speak low, and tell me all about it. That Moffat
- hasn't been here, I hope?" asked Mrs. March rather sharply.
- "No. I should have shut the door in his face if he had," said Jo,
- settling herself on the floor at her mother's feet. "Last summer Meg
- left a pair of gloves over at the Laurences' and only one was returned.
- We forgot about it, till Teddy told me that Mr. Brooke owned that he
- liked Meg but didn't dare say so, she was so young and he so poor.
- Now, isn't it a dreadful state of things?"
- "Do you think Meg cares for him?" asked Mrs. March, with an anxious
- look.
- "Mercy me! I don't know anything about love and such nonsense!" cried
- Jo, with a funny mixture of interest and contempt. "In novels, the
- girls show it by starting and blushing, fainting away, growing thin,
- and acting like fools. Now Meg does not do anything of the sort. She
- eats and drinks and sleeps like a sensible creature, she looks straight
- in my face when I talk about that man, and only blushes a little bit
- when Teddy jokes about lovers. I forbid him to do it, but he doesn't
- mind me as he ought."
- "Then you fancy that Meg is not interested in John?"
- "Who?" cried Jo, staring.
- "Mr. Brooke. I call him 'John' now. We fell into the way of doing so
- at the hospital, and he likes it."
- "Oh, dear! I know you'll take his part. He's been good to Father, and
- you won't send him away, but let Meg marry him, if she wants to. Mean
- thing! To go petting Papa and helping you, just to wheedle you into
- liking him." And Jo pulled her hair again with a wrathful tweak.
- "My dear, don't get angry about it, and I will tell you how it
- happened. John went with me at Mr. Laurence's request, and was so
- devoted to poor Father that we couldn't help getting fond of him. He
- was perfectly open and honorable about Meg, for he told us he loved
- her, but would earn a comfortable home before he asked her to marry
- him. He only wanted our leave to love her and work for her, and the
- right to make her love him if he could. He is a truly excellent young
- man, and we could not refuse to listen to him, but I will not consent
- to Meg's engaging herself so young."
- "Of course not. It would be idiotic! I knew there was mischief
- brewing. I felt it, and now it's worse than I imagined. I just wish I
- could marry Meg myself, and keep her safe in the family."
- This odd arrangement made Mrs. March smile, but she said gravely, "Jo,
- I confide in you and don't wish you to say anything to Meg yet. When
- John comes back, and I see them together, I can judge better of her
- feelings toward him."
- "She'll see those handsome eyes that she talks about, and then it will
- be all up with her. She's got such a soft heart, it will melt like
- butter in the sun if anyone looks sentimentlly at her. She read the
- short reports he sent more than she did your letters, and pinched me
- when I spoke of it, and likes brown eyes, and doesn't think John an
- ugly name, and she'll go and fall in love, and there's an end of peace
- and fun, and cozy times together. I see it all! They'll go lovering
- around the house, and we shall have to dodge. Meg will be absorbed and
- no good to me any more. Brooke will scratch up a fortune somehow, carry
- her off, and make a hole in the family, and I shall break my heart, and
- everything will be abominably uncomfortable. Oh, dear me! Why weren't
- we all boys, then there wouldn't be any bother."
- Jo leaned her chin on her knees in a disconsolate attitude and shook
- her fist at the reprehensible John. Mrs. March sighed, and Jo looked
- up with an air of relief.
- "You don't like it, Mother? I'm glad of it. Let's send him about his
- business, and not tell Meg a word of it, but all be happy together as
- we always have been."
- "I did wrong to sigh, Jo. It is natural and right you should all go to
- homes of your own in time, but I do want to keep my girls as long as I
- can, and I am sorry that this happened so soon, for Meg is only
- seventeen and it will be some years before John can make a home for
- her. Your father and I have agreed that she shall not bind herself in
- any way, nor be married, before twenty. If she and John love one
- another, they can wait, and test the love by doing so. She is
- conscientious, and I have no fear of her treating him unkindly. My
- pretty, tender hearted girl! I hope things will go happily with her."
- "Hadn't you rather have her marry a rich man?" asked Jo, as her
- mother's voice faltered a little over the last words.
- "Money is a good and useful thing, Jo, and I hope my girls will never
- feel the need of it too bitterly, nor be tempted by too much. I should
- like to know that John was firmly established in some good business,
- which gave him an income large enough to keep free from debt and make
- Meg comfortable. I'm not ambitious for a splendid fortune, a
- fashionable position, or a great name for my girls. If rank and money
- come with love and virtue, also, I should accept them gratefully, and
- enjoy your good fortune, but I know, by experience, how much genuine
- happiness can be had in a plain little house, where the daily bread is
- earned, and some privations give sweetness to the few pleasures. I am
- content to see Meg begin humbly, for if I am not mistaken, she will be
- rich in the possession of a good man's heart, and that is better than a
- fortune."
- "I understand, Mother, and quite agree, but I'm disappointed about Meg,
- for I'd planned to have her marry Teddy by-and-by and sit in the lap of
- luxury all her days. Wouldn't it be nice?" asked Jo, looking up with a
- brighter face.
- "He is younger than she, you know," began Mrs. March, but Jo broke in...
- "Only a little, he's old for his age, and tall, and can be quite
- grown-up in his manners if he likes. Then he's rich and generous and
- good, and loves us all, and I say it's a pity my plan is spoiled."
- "I'm afraid Laurie is hardly grown-up enough for Meg, and altogether
- too much of a weathercock just now for anyone to depend on. Don't make
- plans, Jo, but let time and their own hearts mate your friends. We
- can't meddle safely in such matters, and had better not get 'romantic
- rubbish' as you call it, into our heads, lest it spoil our friendship."
- "Well, I won't, but I hate to see things going all crisscross and
- getting snarled up, when a pull here and a snip there would straighten
- it out. I wish wearing flatirons on our heads would keep us from
- growing up. But buds will be roses, and kittens cats, more's the pity!"
- "What's that about flatirons and cats?" asked Meg, as she crept into
- the room with the finished letter in her hand.
- "Only one of my stupid speeches. I'm going to bed. Come, Peggy," said
- Jo, unfolding herself like an animated puzzle.
- "Quite right, and beautifully written. Please add that I send my love
- to John," said Mrs. March, as she glanced over the letter and gave it
- back.
- "Do you call him 'John'?" asked Meg, smiling, with her innocent eyes
- looking down into her mother's.
- "Yes, he has been like a son to us, and we are very fond of him,"
- replied Mrs. March, returning the look with a keen one.
- "I'm glad of that, he is so lonely. Good night, Mother, dear. It is
- so inexpressibly comfortable to have you here," was Meg's answer.
- The kiss her mother gave her was a very tender one, and as she went
- away, Mrs. March said, with a mixture of satisfaction and regret, "She
- does not love John yet, but will soon learn to."
- CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
- LAURIE MAKES MISCHIEF, AND JO MAKES PEACE
- Jo's face was a study next day, for the secret rather weighed upon her,
- and she found it hard not to look mysterious and important. Meg
- observed it, but did not trouble herself to make inquiries, for she had
- learned that the best way to manage Jo was by the law of contraries, so
- she felt sure of being told everything if she did not ask. She was
- rather surprised, therefore, when the silence remained unbroken, and Jo
- assumed a patronizing air, which decidedly aggravated Meg, who in turn
- assumed an air of dignified reserve and devoted herself to her mother.
- This left Jo to her own devices, for Mrs. March had taken her place as
- nurse, and bade her rest, exercise, and amuse herself after her long
- confinement. Amy being gone, Laurie was her only refuge, and much as
- she enjoyed his society, she rather dreaded him just then, for he was
- an incorrigible tease, and she feared he would coax the secret from her.
- She was quite right, for the mischief-loving lad no sooner suspected a
- mystery than he set himself to find it out, and led Jo a trying life of
- it. He wheedled, bribed, ridiculed, threatened, and scolded; affected
- indifference, that he might surprise the truth from her; declared he
- knew, then that he didn't care; and at last, by dint of perseverance,
- he satisfied himself that it concerned Meg and Mr. Brooke. Feeling
- indignant that he was not taken into his tutor's confidence, he set his
- wits to work to devise some proper retaliation for the slight.
- Meg meanwhile had apparently forgotten the matter and was absorbed in
- preparations for her father's return, but all of a sudden a change
- seemed to come over her, and, for a day or two, she was quite unlike
- herself. She started when spoken to, blushed when looked at, was very
- quiet, and sat over her sewing, with a timid, troubled look on her
- face. To her mother's inquiries she answered that she was quite well,
- and Jo's she silenced by begging to be let alone.
- "She feels it in the air--love, I mean--and she's going very fast.
- She's got most of the symptoms--is twittery and cross, doesn't eat,
- lies awake, and mopes in corners. I caught her singing that song he
- gave her, and once she said 'John', as you do, and then turned as red
- as a poppy. Whatever shall we do?" said Jo, looking ready for any
- measures, however violent.
- "Nothing but wait. Let her alone, be kind and patient, and Father's
- coming will settle everything," replied her mother.
- "Here's a note to you, Meg, all sealed up. How odd! Teddy never seals
- mine," said Jo next day, as she distributed the contents of the little
- post office.
- Mrs. March and Jo were deep in their own affairs, when a sound from Meg
- made them look up to see her staring at her note with a frightened face.
- "My child, what is it?" cried her mother, running to her, while Jo
- tried to take the paper which had done the mischief.
- "It's all a mistake, he didn't send it. Oh, Jo, how could you do it?"
- and Meg hid her face in her hands, crying as if her heart were quite
- broken.
- "Me! I've done nothing! What's she talking about?" cried Jo,
- bewildered.
- Meg's mild eyes kindled with anger as she pulled a crumpled note from
- her pocket and threw it at Jo, saying reproachfully, "You wrote it, and
- that bad boy helped you. How could you be so rude, so mean, and cruel
- to us both?"
- Jo hardly heard her, for she and her mother were reading the note,
- which was written in a peculiar hand.
- "My Dearest Margaret,
- "I can no longer restrain my passion, and must know my fate before I
- return. I dare not tell your parents yet, but I think they would
- consent if they knew that we adored one another. Mr. Laurence will
- help me to some good place, and then, my sweet girl, you will make me
- happy. I implore you to say nothing to your family yet, but to send
- one word of hope through Laurie to,
- "Your devoted John."
- "Oh, the little villain! That's the way he meant to pay me for keeping
- my word to Mother. I'll give him a hearty scolding and bring him over
- to beg pardon," cried Jo, burning to execute immediate justice. But
- her mother held her back, saying, with a look she seldom wore...
- "Stop, Jo, you must clear yourself first. You have played so many
- pranks that I am afraid you have had a hand in this."
- "On my word, Mother, I haven't! I never saw that note before, and
- don't know anything about it, as true as I live!" said Jo, so earnestly
- that they believed her. "If I had taken part in it I'd have done it
- better than this, and have written a sensible note. I should think
- you'd have known Mr. Brooke wouldn't write such stuff as that," she
- added, scornfully tossing down the paper.
- "It's like his writing," faltered Meg, comparing it with the note in
- her hand.
- "Oh, Meg, you didn't answer it?" cried Mrs. March quickly.
- "Yes, I did!" and Meg hid her face again, overcome with shame.
- "Here's a scrape! Do let me bring that wicked boy over to explain and
- be lectured. I can't rest till I get hold of him." And Jo made for the
- door again.
- "Hush! Let me handle this, for it is worse than I thought. Margaret,
- tell me the whole story," commanded Mrs. March, sitting down by Meg,
- yet keeping hold of Jo, lest she should fly off.
- "I received the first letter from Laurie, who didn't look as if he knew
- anything about it," began Meg, without looking up. "I was worried at
- first and meant to tell you, then I remembered how you liked Mr.
- Brooke, so I thought you wouldn't mind if I kept my little secret for a
- few days. I'm so silly that I liked to think no one knew, and while I
- was deciding what to say, I felt like the girls in books, who have such
- things to do. Forgive me, Mother, I'm paid for my silliness now. I
- never can look him in the face again."
- "What did you say to him?" asked Mrs. March.
- "I only said I was too young to do anything about it yet, that I didn't
- wish to have secrets from you, and he must speak to father. I was very
- grateful for his kindness, and would be his friend, but nothing more,
- for a long while."
- Mrs. March smiled, as if well pleased, and Jo clapped her hands,
- exclaiming, with a laugh, "You are almost equal to Caroline Percy, who
- was a pattern of prudence! Tell on, Meg. What did he say to that?"
- "He writes in a different way entirely, telling me that he never sent
- any love letter at all, and is very sorry that my roguish sister, Jo,
- should take liberties with our names. It's very kind and respectful,
- but think how dreadful for me!"
- Meg leaned against her mother, looking the image of despair, and Jo
- tramped about the room, calling Laurie names. All of a sudden she
- stopped, caught up the two notes, and after looking at them closely,
- said decidedly, "I don't believe Brooke ever saw either of these
- letters. Teddy wrote both, and keeps yours to crow over me with
- because I wouldn't tell him my secret."
- "Don't have any secrets, Jo. Tell it to Mother and keep out of
- trouble, as I should have done," said Meg warningly.
- "Bless you, child! Mother told me."
- "That will do, Jo. I'll comfort Meg while you go and get Laurie. I
- shall sift the matter to the bottom, and put a stop to such pranks at
- once."
- Away ran Jo, and Mrs. March gently told Meg Mr. Brooke's real feelings.
- "Now, dear, what are your own? Do you love him enough to wait till he
- can make a home for you, or will you keep yourself quite free for the
- present?"
- "I've been so scared and worried, I don't want to have anything to do
- with lovers for a long while, perhaps never," answered Meg petulantly.
- "If John doesn't know anything about this nonsense, don't tell him, and
- make Jo and Laurie hold their tongues. I won't be deceived and plagued
- and made a fool of. It's a shame!"
- Seeing Meg's usually gentle temper was roused and her pride hurt by
- this mischievous joke, Mrs. March soothed her by promises of entire
- silence and great discretion for the future. The instant Laurie's step
- was heard in the hall, Meg fled into the study, and Mrs. March received
- the culprit alone. Jo had not told him why he was wanted, fearing he
- wouldn't come, but he knew the minute he saw Mrs. March's face, and
- stood twirling his hat with a guilty air which convicted him at once.
- Jo was dismissed, but chose to march up and down the hall like a
- sentinel, having some fear that the prisoner might bolt. The sound of
- voices in the parlor rose and fell for half an hour, but what happened
- during that interview the girls never knew.
- When they were called in, Laurie was standing by their mother with such
- a penitent face that Jo forgave him on the spot, but did not think it
- wise to betray the fact. Meg received his humble apology, and was much
- comforted by the assurance that Brooke knew nothing of the joke.
- "I'll never tell him to my dying day, wild horses shan't drag it out of
- me, so you'll forgive me, Meg, and I'll do anything to show how
- out-and-out sorry I am," he added, looking very much ashamed of himself.
- "I'll try, but it was a very ungentlemanly thing to do, I didn't think
- you could be so sly and malicious, Laurie," replied Meg, trying to hide
- her maidenly confusion under a gravely reproachful air.
- "It was altogether abominable, and I don't deserve to be spoken to for
- a month, but you will, though, won't you?" And Laurie folded his hands
- together with such and imploring gesture, as he spoke in his
- irresistibly persuasive tone, that it was impossible to frown upon him
- in spite of his scandalous behavior.
- Meg pardoned him, and Mrs. March's grave face relaxed, in spite of her
- efforts to keep sober, when she heard him declare that he would atone
- for his sins by all sorts of penances, and abase himself like a worm
- before the injured damsel.
- Jo stood aloof, meanwhile, trying to harden her heart against him, and
- succeeding only in primming up her face into an expression of entire
- disapprobation. Laurie looked at her once or twice, but as she showed
- no sign of relenting, he felt injured, and turned his back on her till
- the others were done with him, when he made her a low bow and walked
- off without a word.
- As soon as he had gone, she wished she had been more forgiving, and
- when Meg and her mother went upstairs, she felt lonely and longed for
- Teddy. After resisting for some time, she yielded to the impulse, and
- armed with a book to return, went over to the big house.
- "Is Mr. Laurence in?" asked Jo, of a housemaid, who was coming
- downstairs.
- "Yes, Miss, but I don't believe he's seeable just yet."
- "Why not? Is he ill?"
- "La, no Miss, but he's had a scene with Mr. Laurie, who is in one of
- his tantrums about something, which vexes the old gentleman, so I
- dursn't go nigh him."
- "Where is Laurie?"
- "Shut up in his room, and he won't answer, though I've been a-tapping.
- I don't know what's to become of the dinner, for it's ready, and
- there's no one to eat it."
- "I'll go and see what the matter is. I'm not afraid of either of them."
- Up went Jo, and knocked smartly on the door of Laurie's little study.
- "Stop that, or I'll open the door and make you!" called out the young
- gentleman in a threatening tone.
- Jo immediately knocked again. The door flew open, and in she bounced
- before Laurie could recover from his surprise. Seeing that he really
- was out of temper, Jo, who knew how to manage him, assumed a contrite
- expression, and going artistically down upon her knees, said meekly,
- "Please forgive me for being so cross. I came to make it up, and can't
- go away till I have."
- "It's all right. Get up, and don't be a goose, Jo," was the cavalier
- reply to her petition.
- "Thank you, I will. Could I ask what's the matter? You don't look
- exactly easy in your mind."
- "I've been shaken, and I won't bear it!" growled Laurie indignantly.
- "Who did it?" demanded Jo.
- "Grandfather. If it had been anyone else I'd have..." And the injured
- youth finished his sentence by an energetic gesture of the right arm.
- "That's nothing. I often shake you, and you don't mind," said Jo
- soothingly.
- "Pooh! You're a girl, and it's fun, but I'll allow no man to shake me!"
- "I don't think anyone would care to try it, if you looked as much like
- a thundercloud as you do now. Why were you treated so?"
- "Just because I wouldn't say what your mother wanted me for. I'd
- promised not to tell, and of course I wasn't going to break my word."
- "Couldn't you satisfy your grandpa in any other way?"
- "No, he would have the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the
- truth. I'd have told my part of the scrape, if I could without
- bringing Meg in. As I couldn't, I held my tongue, and bore the
- scolding till the old gentleman collared me. Then I bolted, for fear I
- should forget myself."
- "It wasn't nice, but he's sorry, I know, so go down and make up. I'll
- help you."
- "Hanged if I do! I'm not going to be lectured and pummelled by
- everyone, just for a bit of a frolic. I was sorry about Meg, and
- begged pardon like a man, but I won't do it again, when I wasn't in the
- wrong."
- "He didn't know that."
- "He ought to trust me, and not act as if I was a baby. It's no use,
- Jo, he's got to learn that I'm able to take care of myself, and don't
- need anyone's apron string to hold on by."
- "What pepper pots you are!" sighed Jo. "How do you mean to settle this
- affair?"
- "Well, he ought to beg pardon, and believe me when I say I can't tell
- him what the fuss's about."
- "Bless you! He won't do that."
- "I won't go down till he does."
- "Now, Teddy, be sensible. Let it pass, and I'll explain what I can.
- You can't stay here, so what's the use of being melodramatic?"
- "I don't intend to stay here long, anyway. I'll slip off and take a
- journey somewhere, and when Grandpa misses me he'll come round fast
- enough."
- "I dare say, but you ought not to go and worry him."
- "Don't preach. I'll go to Washington and see Brooke. It's gay there,
- and I'll enjoy myself after the troubles."
- "What fun you'd have! I wish I could run off too," said Jo, forgetting
- her part of mentor in lively visions of martial life at the capital.
- "Come on, then! Why not? You go and surprise your father, and I'll
- stir up old Brooke. It would be a glorious joke. Let's do it, Jo.
- We'll leave a letter saying we are all right, and trot off at once.
- I've got money enough. It will do you good, and no harm, as you go to
- your father."
- For a moment Jo looked as if she would agree, for wild as the plan was,
- it just suited her. She was tired of care and confinement, longed for
- change, and thoughts of her father blended temptingly with the novel
- charms of camps and hospitals, liberty and fun. Her eyes kindled as
- they turned wistfully toward the window, but they fell on the old house
- opposite, and she shook her head with sorrowful decision.
- "If I was a boy, we'd run away together, and have a capital time, but
- as I'm a miserable girl, I must be proper and stop at home. Don't tempt
- me, Teddy, it's a crazy plan."
- "That's the fun of it," began Laurie, who had got a willful fit on him
- and was possessed to break out of bounds in some way.
- "Hold your tongue!" cried Jo, covering her ears. "'Prunes and prisms'
- are my doom, and I may as well make up my mind to it. I came here to
- moralize, not to hear things that make me skip to think of."
- "I know Meg would wet-blanket such a proposal, but I thought you had
- more spirit," began Laurie insinuatingly.
- "Bad boy, be quiet! Sit down and think of your own sins, don't go
- making me add to mine. If I get your grandpa to apologize for the
- shaking, will you give up running away?" asked Jo seriously.
- "Yes, but you won't do it," answered Laurie, who wished to make up, but
- felt that his outraged dignity must be appeased first.
- "If I can manage the young one, I can the old one," muttered Jo, as she
- walked away, leaving Laurie bent over a railroad map with his head
- propped up on both hands.
- "Come in!" and Mr. Laurence's gruff voice sounded gruffer than ever, as
- Jo tapped at his door.
- "It's only me, Sir, come to return a book," she said blandly, as she
- entered.
- "Want any more?" asked the old gentleman, looking grim and vexed, but
- trying not to show it.
- "Yes, please. I like old Sam so well, I think I'll try the second
- volume," returned Jo, hoping to propitiate him by accepting a second
- dose of Boswell's Johnson, as he had recommended that lively work.
- The shaggy eyebrows unbent a little as he rolled the steps toward the
- shelf where the Johnsonian literature was placed. Jo skipped up, and
- sitting on the top step, affected to be searching for her book, but was
- really wondering how best to introduce the dangerous object of her
- visit. Mr. Laurence seemed to suspect that something was brewing in
- her mind, for after taking several brisk turns about the room, he faced
- round on her, speaking so abruptly that Rasselas tumbled face downward
- on the floor.
- "What has that boy been about? Don't try to shield him. I know he has
- been in mischief by the way he acted when he came home. I can't get a
- word from him, and when I threatened to shake the truth out of him he
- bolted upstairs and locked himself into his room."
- "He did wrong, but we forgave him, and all promised not to say a word
- to anyone," began Jo reluctantly.
- "That won't do. He shall not shelter himself behind a promise from you
- softhearted girls. If he's done anything amiss, he shall confess, beg
- pardon, and be punished. Out with it, Jo. I won't be kept in the dark."
- Mr. Laurence looked so alarming and spoke so sharply that Jo would have
- gladly run away, if she could, but she was perched aloft on the steps,
- and he stood at the foot, a lion in the path, so she had to stay and
- brave it out.
- "Indeed, Sir, I cannot tell. Mother forbade it. Laurie has confessed,
- asked pardon, and been punished quite enough. We don't keep silence to
- shield him, but someone else, and it will make more trouble if you
- interfere. Please don't. It was partly my fault, but it's all right
- now. So let's forget it, and talk about the _Rambler_ or something
- pleasant."
- "Hang the _Rambler!_ Come down and give me your word that this
- harum-scarum boy of mine hasn't done anything ungrateful or
- impertinent. If he has, after all your kindness to him, I'll thrash
- him with my own hands."
- The threat sounded awful, but did not alarm Jo, for she knew the
- irascible old gentleman would never lift a finger against his grandson,
- whatever he might say to the contrary. She obediently descended, and
- made as light of the prank as she could without betraying Meg or
- forgetting the truth.
- "Hum... ha... well, if the boy held his tongue because he promised, and
- not from obstinacy, I'll forgive him. He's a stubborn fellow and hard
- to manage," said Mr. Laurence, rubbing up his hair till it looked as if
- he had been out in a gale, and smoothing the frown from his brow with
- an air of relief.
- "So am I, but a kind word will govern me when all the king's horses and
- all the king's men couldn't," said Jo, trying to say a kind word for
- her friend, who seemed to get out of one scrape only to fall into
- another.
- "You think I'm not kind to him, hey?" was the sharp answer.
- "Oh, dear no, Sir. You are rather too kind sometimes, and then just a
- trifle hasty when he tries your patience. Don't you think you are?"
- Jo was determined to have it out now, and tried to look quite placid,
- though she quaked a little after her bold speech. To her great relief
- and surprise, the old gentleman only threw his spectacles onto the
- table with a rattle and exclaimed frankly, "You're right, girl, I am!
- I love the boy, but he tries my patience past bearing, and I know how
- it will end, if we go on so."
- "I'll tell you, he'll run away." Jo was sorry for that speech the
- minute it was made. She meant to warn him that Laurie would not bear
- much restraint, and hoped he would be more forebearing with the lad.
- Mr. Laurence's ruddy face changed suddenly, and he sat down, with a
- troubled glance at the picture of a handsome man, which hung over his
- table. It was Laurie's father, who had run away in his youth, and
- married against the imperious old man's will. Jo fancied he remembered
- and regretted the past, and she wished she had held her tongue.
- "He won't do it unless he is very much worried, and only threatens it
- sometimes, when he gets tired of studying. I often think I should like
- to, especially since my hair was cut, so if you ever miss us, you may
- advertise for two boys and look among the ships bound for India."
- She laughed as she spoke, and Mr. Laurence looked relieved, evidently
- taking the whole as a joke.
- "You hussy, how dare you talk in that way? Where's your respect for
- me, and your proper bringing up? Bless the boys and girls! What
- torments they are, yet we can't do without them," he said, pinching her
- cheeks good-humoredly. "Go and bring that boy down to his dinner, tell
- him it's all right, and advise him not to put on tragedy airs with his
- grandfather. I won't bear it."
- "He won't come, Sir. He feels badly because you didn't believe him
- when he said he couldn't tell. I think the shaking hurt his feelings
- very much."
- Jo tried to look pathetic but must have failed, for Mr. Laurence began
- to laugh, and she knew the day was won.
- "I'm sorry for that, and ought to thank him for not shaking me, I
- suppose. What the dickens does the fellow expect?" and the old
- gentleman looked a trifle ashamed of his own testiness.
- "If I were you, I'd write him an apology, Sir. He says he won't come
- down till he has one, and talks about Washington, and goes on in an
- absurd way. A formal apology will make him see how foolish he is, and
- bring him down quite amiable. Try it. He likes fun, and this way is
- better than talking. I'll carry it up, and teach him his duty."
- Mr. Laurence gave her a sharp look, and put on his spectacles, saying
- slowly, "You're a sly puss, but I don't mind being managed by you and
- Beth. Here, give me a bit of paper, and let us have done with this
- nonsense."
- The note was written in the terms which one gentleman would use to
- another after offering some deep insult. Jo dropped a kiss on the top
- of Mr. Laurence's bald head, and ran up to slip the apology under
- Laurie's door, advising him through the keyhole to be submissive,
- decorous, and a few other agreeable impossibilities. Finding the door
- locked again, she left the note to do its work, and was going quietly
- away, when the young gentleman slid down the banisters, and waited for
- her at the bottom, saying, with his most virtuous expression of
- countenance, "What a good fellow you are, Jo! Did you get blown up?" he
- added, laughing.
- "No, he was pretty mild, on the whole."
- "Ah! I got it all round. Even you cast me off over there, and I felt
- just ready to go to the deuce," he began apologetically.
- "Don't talk that way, turn over a new leaf and begin again, Teddy, my
- son."
- "I keep turning over new leaves, and spoiling them, as I used to spoil
- my copybooks, and I make so many beginnings there never will be an
- end," he said dolefully.
- "Go and eat your dinner, you'll feel better after it. Men always croak
- when they are hungry," and Jo whisked out at the front door after that.
- "That's a 'label' on my 'sect'," answered Laurie, quoting Amy, as he
- went to partake of humble pie dutifully with his grandfather, who was
- quite saintly in temper and overwhelmingly respectful in manner all the
- rest of the day.
- Everyone thought the matter ended and the little cloud blown over, but
- the mischief was done, for though others forgot it, Meg remembered.
- She never alluded to a certain person, but she thought of him a good
- deal, dreamed dreams more than ever, and once Jo, rummaging her
- sister's desk for stamps, found a bit of paper scribbled over with the
- words, 'Mrs. John Brooke', whereat she groaned tragically and cast it
- into the fire, feeling that Laurie's prank had hastened the evil day
- for her.
- CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
- PLEASANT MEADOWS
- Like sunshine after a storm were the peaceful weeks which followed.
- The invalids improved rapidly, and Mr. March began to talk of returning
- early in the new year. Beth was soon able to lie on the study sofa all
- day, amusing herself with the well-beloved cats at first, and in time
- with doll's sewing, which had fallen sadly behind-hand. Her once
- active limbs were so stiff and feeble that Jo took her for a daily
- airing about the house in her strong arms. Meg cheerfully blackened
- and burned her white hands cooking delicate messes for 'the dear',
- while Amy, a loyal slave of the ring, celebrated her return by giving
- away as many of her treasures as she could prevail on her sisters to
- accept.
- As Christmas approached, the usual mysteries began to haunt the house,
- and Jo frequently convulsed the family by proposing utterly impossible
- or magnificently absurd ceremonies, in honor of this unusually merry
- Christmas. Laurie was equally impracticable, and would have had
- bonfires, skyrockets, and triumphal arches, if he had had his own way.
- After many skirmishes and snubbings, the ambitious pair were considered
- effectually quenched and went about with forlorn faces, which were
- rather belied by explosions of laughter when the two got together.
- Several days of unusually mild weather fitly ushered in a splendid
- Christmas Day. Hannah 'felt in her bones' that it was going to be an
- unusually fine day, and she proved herself a true prophetess, for
- everybody and everything seemed bound to produce a grand success. To
- begin with, Mr. March wrote that he should soon be with them, then Beth
- felt uncommonly well that morning, and, being dressed in her mother's
- gift, a soft crimson merino wrapper, was borne in high triumph to the
- window to behold the offering of Jo and Laurie. The Unquenchables had
- done their best to be worthy of the name, for like elves they had
- worked by night and conjured up a comical surprise. Out in the garden
- stood a stately snow maiden, crowned with holly, bearing a basket of
- fruit and flowers in one hand, a great roll of music in the other, a
- perfect rainbow of an Afghan round her chilly shoulders, and a
- Christmas carol issuing from her lips on a pink paper streamer.
- THE JUNGFRAU TO BETH
- God bless you, dear Queen Bess!
- May nothing you dismay,
- But health and peace and happiness
- Be yours, this Christmas day.
- Here's fruit to feed our busy bee,
- And flowers for her nose.
- Here's music for her pianee,
- An afghan for her toes,
- A portrait of Joanna, see,
- By Raphael No. 2,
- Who laboured with great industry
- To make it fair and true.
- Accept a ribbon red, I beg,
- For Madam Purrer's tail,
- And ice cream made by lovely Peg,
- A Mont Blanc in a pail.
- Their dearest love my makers laid
- Within my breast of snow.
- Accept it, and the Alpine maid,
- From Laurie and from Jo.
- How Beth laughed when she saw it, how Laurie ran up and down to bring
- in the gifts, and what ridiculous speeches Jo made as she presented
- them.
- "I'm so full of happiness, that if Father was only here, I couldn't
- hold one drop more," said Beth, quite sighing with contentment as Jo
- carried her off to the study to rest after the excitement, and to
- refresh herself with some of the delicious grapes the 'Jungfrau' had
- sent her.
- "So am I," added Jo, slapping the pocket wherein reposed the
- long-desired _Undine and Sintram_.
- "I'm sure I am," echoed Amy, poring over the engraved copy of the
- Madonna and Child, which her mother had given her in a pretty frame.
- "Of course I am!" cried Meg, smoothing the silvery folds of her first
- silk dress, for Mr. Laurence had insisted on giving it. "How can I be
- otherwise?" said Mrs. March gratefully, as her eyes went from her
- husband's letter to Beth's smiling face, and her hand caressed the
- brooch made of gray and golden, chestnut and dark brown hair, which the
- girls had just fastened on her breast.
- Now and then, in this workaday world, things do happen in the
- delightful storybook fashion, and what a comfort it is. Half an hour
- after everyone had said they were so happy they could only hold one
- drop more, the drop came. Laurie opened the parlor door and popped his
- head in very quietly. He might just as well have turned a somersault
- and uttered an Indian war whoop, for his face was so full of suppressed
- excitement and his voice so treacherously joyful that everyone jumped
- up, though he only said, in a queer, breathless voice, "Here's another
- Christmas present for the March family."
- Before the words were well out of his mouth, he was whisked away
- somehow, and in his place appeared a tall man, muffled up to the eyes,
- leaning on the arm of another tall man, who tried to say something and
- couldn't. Of course there was a general stampede, and for several
- minutes everybody seemed to lose their wits, for the strangest things
- were done, and no one said a word.
- Mr. March became invisible in the embrace of four pairs of loving arms.
- Jo disgraced herself by nearly fainting away, and had to be doctored by
- Laurie in the china closet. Mr. Brooke kissed Meg entirely by mistake,
- as he somewhat incoherently explained. And Amy, the dignified, tumbled
- over a stool, and never stopping to get up, hugged and cried over her
- father's boots in the most touching manner. Mrs. March was the first
- to recover herself, and held up her hand with a warning, "Hush!
- Remember Beth."
- But it was too late. The study door flew open, the little red wrapper
- appeared on the threshold, joy put strength into the feeble limbs, and
- Beth ran straight into her father's arms. Never mind what happened
- just after that, for the full hearts overflowed, washing away the
- bitterness of the past and leaving only the sweetness of the present.
- It was not at all romantic, but a hearty laugh set everybody straight
- again, for Hannah was discovered behind the door, sobbing over the fat
- turkey, which she had forgotten to put down when she rushed up from the
- kitchen. As the laugh subsided, Mrs. March began to thank Mr. Brooke
- for his faithful care of her husband, at which Mr. Brooke suddenly
- remembered that Mr. March needed rest, and seizing Laurie, he
- precipitately retired. Then the two invalids were ordered to repose,
- which they did, by both sitting in one big chair and talking hard.
- Mr. March told how he had longed to surprise them, and how, when the
- fine weather came, he had been allowed by his doctor to take advantage
- of it, how devoted Brooke had been, and how he was altogether a most
- estimable and upright young man. Why Mr. March paused a minute just
- there, and after a glance at Meg, who was violently poking the fire,
- looked at his wife with an inquiring lift of the eyebrows, I leave you
- to imagine. Also why Mrs. March gently nodded her head and asked,
- rather abruptly, if he wouldn't like to have something to eat. Jo saw
- and understood the look, and she stalked grimly away to get wine and
- beef tea, muttering to herself as she slammed the door, "I hate
- estimable young men with brown eyes!"
- There never was such a Christmas dinner as they had that day. The fat
- turkey was a sight to behold, when Hannah sent him up, stuffed,
- browned, and decorated. So was the plum pudding, which melted in one's
- mouth, likewise the jellies, in which Amy reveled like a fly in a
- honeypot. Everything turned out well, which was a mercy, Hannah said,
- "For my mind was that flustered, Mum, that it's a merrycle I didn't
- roast the pudding, and stuff the turkey with raisins, let alone bilin'
- of it in a cloth."
- Mr. Laurence and his grandson dined with them, also Mr. Brooke, at whom
- Jo glowered darkly, to Laurie's infinite amusement. Two easy chairs
- stood side by side at the head of the table, in which sat Beth and her
- father, feasting modestly on chicken and a little fruit. They drank
- healths, told stories, sang songs, 'reminisced', as the old folks say,
- and had a thoroughly good time. A sleigh ride had been planned, but the
- girls would not leave their father, so the guests departed early, and
- as twilight gathered, the happy family sat together round the fire.
- "Just a year ago we were groaning over the dismal Christmas we expected
- to have. Do you remember?" asked Jo, breaking a short pause which had
- followed a long conversation about many things.
- "Rather a pleasant year on the whole!" said Meg, smiling at the fire,
- and congratulating herself on having treated Mr. Brooke with dignity.
- "I think it's been a pretty hard one," observed Amy, watching the light
- shine on her ring with thoughtful eyes.
- "I'm glad it's over, because we've got you back," whispered Beth, who
- sat on her father's knee.
- "Rather a rough road for you to travel, my little pilgrims, especially
- the latter part of it. But you have got on bravely, and I think the
- burdens are in a fair way to tumble off very soon," said Mr. March,
- looking with fatherly satisfaction at the four young faces gathered
- round him.
- "How do you know? Did Mother tell you?" asked Jo.
- "Not much. Straws show which way the wind blows, and I've made several
- discoveries today."
- "Oh, tell us what they are!" cried Meg, who sat beside him.
- "Here is one." And taking up the hand which lay on the arm of his
- chair, he pointed to the roughened forefinger, a burn on the back, and
- two or three little hard spots on the palm. "I remember a time when
- this hand was white and smooth, and your first care was to keep it so.
- It was very pretty then, but to me it is much prettier now, for in this
- seeming blemishes I read a little history. A burnt offering has been
- made to vanity, this hardened palm has earned something better than
- blisters, and I'm sure the sewing done by these pricked fingers will
- last a long time, so much good will went into the stitches. Meg, my
- dear, I value the womanly skill which keeps home happy more than white
- hands or fashionable accomplishments. I'm proud to shake this good,
- industrious little hand, and hope I shall not soon be asked to give it
- away."
- If Meg had wanted a reward for hours of patient labor, she received it
- in the hearty pressure of her father's hand and the approving smile he
- gave her.
- "What about Jo? Please say something nice, for she has tried so hard
- and been so very, very good to me," said Beth in her father's ear.
- He laughed and looked across at the tall girl who sat opposite, with an
- unusually mild expression in her face.
- "In spite of the curly crop, I don't see the 'son Jo' whom I left a
- year ago," said Mr. March. "I see a young lady who pins her collar
- straight, laces her boots neatly, and neither whistles, talks slang,
- nor lies on the rug as she used to do. Her face is rather thin and
- pale just now, with watching and anxiety, but I like to look at it, for
- it has grown gentler, and her voice is lower. She doesn't bounce, but
- moves quietly, and takes care of a certain little person in a motherly
- way which delights me. I rather miss my wild girl, but if I get a
- strong, helpful, tenderhearted woman in her place, I shall feel quite
- satisfied. I don't know whether the shearing sobered our black sheep,
- but I do know that in all Washington I couldn't find anything beautiful
- enough to be bought with the five-and-twenty dollars my good girl sent
- me."
- Jo's keen eyes were rather dim for a minute, and her thin face grew
- rosy in the firelight as she received her father's praise, feeling that
- she did deserve a portion of it.
- "Now, Beth," said Amy, longing for her turn, but ready to wait.
- "There's so little of her, I'm afraid to say much, for fear she will
- slip away altogether, though she is not so shy as she used to be,"
- began their father cheerfully. But recollecting how nearly he had lost
- her, he held her close, saying tenderly, with her cheek against his
- own, "I've got you safe, my Beth, and I'll keep you so, please God."
- After a minute's silence, he looked down at Amy, who sat on the cricket
- at his feet, and said, with a caress of the shining hair...
- "I observed that Amy took drumsticks at dinner, ran errands for her
- mother all the afternoon, gave Meg her place tonight, and has waited on
- every one with patience and good humor. I also observe that she does
- not fret much nor look in the glass, and has not even mentioned a very
- pretty ring which she wears, so I conclude that she has learned to
- think of other people more and of herself less, and has decided to try
- and mold her character as carefully as she molds her little clay
- figures. I am glad of this, for though I should be very proud of a
- graceful statue made by her, I shall be infinitely prouder of a lovable
- daughter with a talent for making life beautiful to herself and others."
- "What are you thinking of, Beth?" asked Jo, when Amy had thanked her
- father and told about her ring.
- "I read in _Pilgrim's Progress_ today how, after many troubles,
- Christian and Hopeful came to a pleasant green meadow where lilies
- bloomed all year round, and there they rested happily, as we do now,
- before they went on to their journey's end," answered Beth, adding, as
- she slipped out of her father's arms and went to the instrument, "It's
- singing time now, and I want to be in my old place. I'll try to sing
- the song of the shepherd boy which the Pilgrims heard. I made the
- music for Father, because he likes the verses."
- So, sitting at the dear little piano, Beth softly touched the keys, and
- in the sweet voice they had never thought to hear again, sang to her
- own accompaniment the quaint hymn, which was a singularly fitting song
- for her.
- He that is down need fear no fall,
- He that is low no pride.
- He that is humble ever shall
- Have God to be his guide.
- I am content with what I have,
- Little be it, or much.
- And, Lord! Contentment still I crave,
- Because Thou savest such.
- Fulness to them a burden is,
- That go on pilgrimage.
- Here little, and hereafter bliss,
- Is best from age to age!
- CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
- AUNT MARCH SETTLES THE QUESTION
- Like bees swarming after their queen, mother and daughters hovered
- about Mr. March the next day, neglecting everything to look at, wait
- upon, and listen to the new invalid, who was in a fair way to be killed
- by kindness. As he sat propped up in a big chair by Beth's sofa, with
- the other three close by, and Hannah popping in her head now and then
- 'to peek at the dear man', nothing seemed needed to complete their
- happiness. But something was needed, and the elder ones felt it,
- though none confessed the fact. Mr. and Mrs. March looked at one
- another with an anxious expression, as their eyes followed Meg. Jo had
- sudden fits of sobriety, and was seen to shake her fist at Mr. Brooke's
- umbrella, which had been left in the hall. Meg was absent-minded, shy,
- and silent, started when the bell rang, and colored when John's name
- was mentioned. Amy said, "Everyone seemed waiting for something, and
- couldn't settle down, which was queer, since Father was safe at home,"
- and Beth innocently wondered why their neighbors didn't run over as
- usual.
- Laurie went by in the afternoon, and seeing Meg at the window, seemed
- suddenly possessed with a melodramatic fit, for he fell down on one
- knee in the snow, beat his breast, tore his hair, and clasped his hands
- imploringly, as if begging some boon. And when Meg told him to behave
- himself and go away, he wrung imaginary tears out of his handkerchief,
- and staggered round the corner as if in utter despair.
- "What does the goose mean?" said Meg, laughing and trying to look
- unconscious.
- "He's showing you how your John will go on by-and-by. Touching, isn't
- it?" answered Jo scornfully.
- "Don't say my John, it isn't proper or true," but Meg's voice lingered
- over the words as if they sounded pleasant to her. "Please don't
- plague me, Jo, I've told you I don't care much about him, and there
- isn't to be anything said, but we are all to be friendly, and go on as
- before."
- "We can't, for something has been said, and Laurie's mischief has
- spoiled you for me. I see it, and so does Mother. You are not like
- your old self a bit, and seem ever so far away from me. I don't mean
- to plague you and will bear it like a man, but I do wish it was all
- settled. I hate to wait, so if you mean ever to do it, make haste and
- have it over quickly," said Jo pettishly.
- "I can't say anything till he speaks, and he won't, because Father said
- I was too young," began Meg, bending over her work with a queer little
- smile, which suggested that she did not quite agree with her father on
- that point.
- "If he did speak, you wouldn't know what to say, but would cry or
- blush, or let him have his own way, instead of giving a good, decided
- no."
- "I'm not so silly and weak as you think. I know just what I should
- say, for I've planned it all, so I needn't be taken unawares. There's
- no knowing what may happen, and I wished to be prepared."
- Jo couldn't help smiling at the important air which Meg had
- unconsciously assumed and which was as becoming as the pretty color
- varying in her cheeks.
- "Would you mind telling me what you'd say?" asked Jo more respectfully.
- "Not at all. You are sixteen now, quite old enough to be my confidant,
- and my experience will be useful to you by-and-by, perhaps, in your own
- affairs of this sort."
- "Don't mean to have any. It's fun to watch other people philander, but
- I should feel like a fool doing it myself," said Jo, looking alarmed at
- the thought.
- "I think not, if you liked anyone very much, and he liked you." Meg
- spoke as if to herself, and glanced out at the lane where she had often
- seen lovers walking together in the summer twilight.
- "I thought you were going to tell your speech to that man," said Jo,
- rudely shortening her sister's little reverie.
- "Oh, I should merely say, quite calmly and decidedly, 'Thank you, Mr.
- Brooke, you are very kind, but I agree with Father that I am too young
- to enter into any engagement at present, so please say no more, but let
- us be friends as we were.'"
- "Hum, that's stiff and cool enough! I don't believe you'll ever say
- it, and I know he won't be satisfied if you do. If he goes on like the
- rejected lovers in books, you'll give in, rather than hurt his
- feelings."
- "No, I won't. I shall tell him I've made up my mind, and shall walk
- out of the room with dignity."
- Meg rose as she spoke, and was just going to rehearse the dignified
- exit, when a step in the hall made her fly into her seat and begin to
- sew as fast as if her life depended on finishing that particular seam
- in a given time. Jo smothered a laugh at the sudden change, and when
- someone gave a modest tap, opened the door with a grim aspect which was
- anything but hospitable.
- "Good afternoon. I came to get my umbrella, that is, to see how your
- father finds himself today," said Mr. Brooke, getting a trifle confused
- as his eyes went from one telltale face to the other.
- "It's very well, he's in the rack. I'll get him, and tell it you are
- here." And having jumbled her father and the umbrella well together in
- her reply, Jo slipped out of the room to give Meg a chance to make her
- speech and air her dignity. But the instant she vanished, Meg began to
- sidle toward the door, murmuring...
- "Mother will like to see you. Pray sit down, I'll call her."
- "Don't go. Are you afraid of me, Margaret?" and Mr. Brooke looked so
- hurt that Meg thought she must have done something very rude. She
- blushed up to the little curls on her forehead, for he had never called
- her Margaret before, and she was surprised to find how natural and
- sweet it seemed to hear him say it. Anxious to appear friendly and at
- her ease, she put out her hand with a confiding gesture, and said
- gratefully...
- "How can I be afraid when you have been so kind to Father? I only wish
- I could thank you for it."
- "Shall I tell you how?" asked Mr. Brooke, holding the small hand fast
- in both his own, and looking down at Meg with so much love in the brown
- eyes that her heart began to flutter, and she both longed to run away
- and to stop and listen.
- "Oh no, please don't, I'd rather not," she said, trying to withdraw her
- hand, and looking frightened in spite of her denial.
- "I won't trouble you. I only want to know if you care for me a little,
- Meg. I love you so much, dear," added Mr. Brooke tenderly.
- This was the moment for the calm, proper speech, but Meg didn't make
- it. She forgot every word of it, hung her head, and answered, "I don't
- know," so softly that John had to stoop down to catch the foolish
- little reply.
- He seemed to think it was worth the trouble, for he smiled to himself
- as if quite satisfied, pressed the plump hand gratefully, and said in
- his most persuasive tone, "Will you try and find out? I want to know
- so much, for I can't go to work with any heart until I learn whether I
- am to have my reward in the end or not."
- "I'm too young," faltered Meg, wondering why she was so fluttered, yet
- rather enjoying it.
- "I'll wait, and in the meantime, you could be learning to like me.
- Would it be a very hard lesson, dear?"
- "Not if I chose to learn it, but. . ."
- "Please choose to learn, Meg. I love to teach, and this is easier than
- German," broke in John, getting possession of the other hand, so that
- she had no way of hiding her face as he bent to look into it.
- His tone was properly beseeching, but stealing a shy look at him, Meg
- saw that his eyes were merry as well as tender, and that he wore the
- satisfied smile of one who had no doubt of his success. This nettled
- her. Annie Moffat's foolish lessons in coquetry came into her mind,
- and the love of power, which sleeps in the bosoms of the best of little
- women, woke up all of a sudden and took possession of her. She felt
- excited and strange, and not knowing what else to do, followed a
- capricious impulse, and, withdrawing her hands, said petulantly, "I
- don't choose. Please go away and let me be!"
- Poor Mr. Brooke looked as if his lovely castle in the air was tumbling
- about his ears, for he had never seen Meg in such a mood before, and it
- rather bewildered him.
- "Do you really mean that?" he asked anxiously, following her as she
- walked away.
- "Yes, I do. I don't want to be worried about such things. Father says
- I needn't, it's too soon and I'd rather not."
- "Mayn't I hope you'll change your mind by-and-by? I'll wait and say
- nothing till you have had more time. Don't play with me, Meg. I
- didn't think that of you."
- "Don't think of me at all. I'd rather you wouldn't," said Meg, taking
- a naughty satisfaction in trying her lover's patience and her own power.
- He was grave and pale now, and looked decidedly more like the novel
- heroes whom she admired, but he neither slapped his forehead nor
- tramped about the room as they did. He just stood looking at her so
- wistfully, so tenderly, that she found her heart relenting in spite of
- herself. What would have happened next I cannot say, if Aunt March had
- not come hobbling in at this interesting minute.
- The old lady couldn't resist her longing to see her nephew, for she had
- met Laurie as she took her airing, and hearing of Mr. March's arrival,
- drove straight out to see him. The family were all busy in the back
- part of the house, and she had made her way quietly in, hoping to
- surprise them. She did surprise two of them so much that Meg started
- as if she had seen a ghost, and Mr. Brooke vanished into the study.
- "Bless me, what's all this?" cried the old lady with a rap of her cane
- as she glanced from the pale young gentleman to the scarlet young lady.
- "It's Father's friend. I'm so surprised to see you!" stammered Meg,
- feeling that she was in for a lecture now.
- "That's evident," returned Aunt March, sitting down. "But what is
- Father's friend saying to make you look like a peony? There's mischief
- going on, and I insist upon knowing what it is," with another rap.
- "We were only talking. Mr. Brooke came for his umbrella," began Meg,
- wishing that Mr. Brooke and the umbrella were safely out of the house.
- "Brooke? That boy's tutor? Ah! I understand now. I know all about
- it. Jo blundered into a wrong message in one of your Father's letters,
- and I made her tell me. You haven't gone and accepted him, child?"
- cried Aunt March, looking scandalized.
- "Hush! He'll hear. Shan't I call Mother?" said Meg, much troubled.
- "Not yet. I've something to say to you, and I must free my mind at
- once. Tell me, do you mean to marry this Cook? If you do, not one
- penny of my money ever goes to you. Remember that, and be a sensible
- girl," said the old lady impressively.
- Now Aunt March possessed in perfection the art of rousing the spirit of
- opposition in the gentlest people, and enjoyed doing it. The best of
- us have a spice of perversity in us, especially when we are young and
- in love. If Aunt March had begged Meg to accept John Brooke, she would
- probably have declared she couldn't think of it, but as she was
- preemptorily ordered not to like him, she immediately made up her mind
- that she would. Inclination as well as perversity made the decision
- easy, and being already much excited, Meg opposed the old lady with
- unusual spirit.
- "I shall marry whom I please, Aunt March, and you can leave your money
- to anyone you like," she said, nodding her head with a resolute air.
- "Highty-tighty! Is that the way you take my advice, Miss? You'll be
- sorry for it by-and-by, when you've tried love in a cottage and found
- it a failure."
- "It can't be a worse one than some people find in big houses," retorted
- Meg.
- Aunt March put on her glasses and took a look at the girl, for she did
- not know her in this new mood. Meg hardly knew herself, she felt so
- brave and independent, so glad to defend John and assert her right to
- love him, if she liked. Aunt March saw that she had begun wrong, and
- after a little pause, made a fresh start, saying as mildly as she
- could, "Now, Meg, my dear, be reasonable and take my advice. I mean it
- kindly, and don't want you to spoil your whole life by making a mistake
- at the beginning. You ought to marry well and help your family. It's
- your duty to make a rich match and it ought to be impressed upon you."
- "Father and Mother don't think so. They like John though he is poor."
- "Your parents, my dear, have no more worldly wisdom than a pair of
- babies."
- "I'm glad of it," cried Meg stoutly.
- Aunt March took no notice, but went on with her lecture. "This Rook is
- poor and hasn't got any rich relations, has he?"
- "No, but he has many warm friends."
- "You can't live on friends, try it and see how cool they'll grow. He
- hasn't any business, has he?"
- "Not yet. Mr. Laurence is going to help him."
- "That won't last long. James Laurence is a crotchety old fellow and
- not to be depended on. So you intend to marry a man without money,
- position, or business, and go on working harder than you do now, when
- you might be comfortable all your days by minding me and doing better?
- I thought you had more sense, Meg."
- "I couldn't do better if I waited half my life! John is good and wise,
- he's got heaps of talent, he's willing to work and sure to get on, he's
- so energetic and brave. Everyone likes and respects him, and I'm proud
- to think he cares for me, though I'm so poor and young and silly," said
- Meg, looking prettier than ever in her earnestness.
- "He knows you have got rich relations, child. That's the secret of his
- liking, I suspect."
- "Aunt March, how dare you say such a thing? John is above such
- meanness, and I won't listen to you a minute if you talk so," cried Meg
- indignantly, forgetting everything but the injustice of the old lady's
- suspicions. "My John wouldn't marry for money, any more than I would.
- We are willing to work and we mean to wait. I'm not afraid of being
- poor, for I've been happy so far, and I know I shall be with him
- because he loves me, and I..."
- Meg stopped there, remembering all of a sudden that she hadn't made up
- her mind, that she had told 'her John' to go away, and that he might be
- overhearing her inconsistent remarks.
- Aunt March was very angry, for she had set her heart on having her
- pretty niece make a fine match, and something in the girl's happy young
- face made the lonely old woman feel both sad and sour.
- "Well, I wash my hands of the whole affair! You are a willful child,
- and you've lost more than you know by this piece of folly. No, I won't
- stop. I'm disappointed in you, and haven't spirits to see your father
- now. Don't expect anything from me when you are married. Your Mr.
- Brooke's friends must take care of you. I'm done with you forever."
- And slamming the door in Meg's face, Aunt March drove off in high
- dudgeon. She seemed to take all the girl's courage with her, for when
- left alone, Meg stood for a moment, undecided whether to laugh or cry.
- Before she could make up her mind, she was taken possession of by Mr.
- Brooke, who said all in one breath, "I couldn't help hearing, Meg.
- Thank you for defending me, and Aunt March for proving that you do care
- for me a little bit."
- "I didn't know how much till she abused you," began Meg.
- "And I needn't go away, but may stay and be happy, may I, dear?"
- Here was another fine chance to make the crushing speech and the
- stately exit, but Meg never thought of doing either, and disgraced
- herself forever in Jo's eyes by meekly whispering, "Yes, John," and
- hiding her face on Mr. Brooke's waistcoat.
- Fifteen minutes after Aunt March's departure, Jo came softly
- downstairs, paused an instant at the parlor door, and hearing no sound
- within, nodded and smiled with a satisfied expression, saying to
- herself, "She has seen him away as we planned, and that affair is
- settled. I'll go and hear the fun, and have a good laugh over it."
- But poor Jo never got her laugh, for she was transfixed upon the
- threshold by a spectacle which held her there, staring with her mouth
- nearly as wide open as her eyes. Going in to exult over a fallen enemy
- and to praise a strong-minded sister for the banishment of an
- objectionable lover, it certainly was a shock to behold the aforesaid
- enemy serenely sitting on the sofa, with the strongminded sister
- enthroned upon his knee and wearing an expression of the most abject
- submission. Jo gave a sort of gasp, as if a cold shower bath had
- suddenly fallen upon her, for such an unexpected turning of the tables
- actually took her breath away. At the odd sound the lovers turned and
- saw her. Meg jumped up, looking both proud and shy, but 'that man', as
- Jo called him, actually laughed and said coolly, as he kissed the
- astonished newcomer, "Sister Jo, congratulate us!"
- That was adding insult to injury, it was altogether too much, and
- making some wild demonstration with her hands, Jo vanished without a
- word. Rushing upstairs, she startled the invalids by exclaiming
- tragically as she burst into the room, "Oh, do somebody go down quick!
- John Brooke is acting dreadfully, and Meg likes it!"
- Mr. and Mrs. March left the room with speed, and casting herself upon
- the bed, Jo cried and scolded tempestuously as she told the awful news
- to Beth and Amy. The little girls, however, considered it a most
- agreeable and interesting event, and Jo got little comfort from them,
- so she went up to her refuge in the garret, and confided her troubles
- to the rats.
- Nobody ever knew what went on in the parlor that afternoon, but a great
- deal of talking was done, and quiet Mr. Brooke astonished his friends
- by the eloquence and spirit with which he pleaded his suit, told his
- plans, and persuaded them to arrange everything just as he wanted it.
- The tea bell rang before he had finished describing the paradise which
- he meant to earn for Meg, and he proudly took her in to supper, both
- looking so happy that Jo hadn't the heart to be jealous or dismal. Amy
- was very much impressed by John's devotion and Meg's dignity, Beth
- beamed at them from a distance, while Mr. and Mrs. March surveyed the
- young couple with such tender satisfaction that it was perfectly
- evident Aunt March was right in calling them as 'unworldly as a pair of
- babies'. No one ate much, but everyone looked very happy, and the old
- room seemed to brighten up amazingly when the first romance of the
- family began there.
- "You can't say nothing pleasant ever happens now, can you, Meg?" said
- Amy, trying to decide how she would group the lovers in a sketch she
- was planning to make.
- "No, I'm sure I can't. How much has happened since I said that! It
- seems a year ago," answered Meg, who was in a blissful dream lifted far
- above such common things as bread and butter.
- "The joys come close upon the sorrows this time, and I rather think the
- changes have begun," said Mrs. March. "In most families there comes,
- now and then, a year full of events. This has been such a one, but it
- ends well, after all."
- "Hope the next will end better," muttered Jo, who found it very hard to
- see Meg absorbed in a stranger before her face, for Jo loved a few
- persons very dearly and dreaded to have their affection lost or
- lessened in any way.
- "I hope the third year from this will end better. I mean it shall, if
- I live to work out my plans," said Mr. Brooke, smiling at Meg, as if
- everything had become possible to him now.
- "Doesn't it seem very long to wait?" asked Amy, who was in a hurry for
- the wedding.
- "I've got so much to learn before I shall be ready, it seems a short
- time to me," answered Meg, with a sweet gravity in her face never seen
- there before.
- "You have only to wait, I am to do the work," said John beginning his
- labors by picking up Meg's napkin, with an expression which caused Jo
- to shake her head, and then say to herself with an air of relief as the
- front door banged, "Here comes Laurie. Now we shall have some sensible
- conversation."
- But Jo was mistaken, for Laurie came prancing in, overflowing with good
- spirits, bearing a great bridal-looking bouquet for 'Mrs. John Brooke',
- and evidently laboring under the delusion that the whole affair had
- been brought about by his excellent management.
- "I knew Brooke would have it all his own way, he always does, for when
- he makes up his mind to accomplish anything, it's done though the sky
- falls," said Laurie, when he had presented his offering and his
- congratulations.
- "Much obliged for that recommendation. I take it as a good omen for
- the future and invite you to my wedding on the spot," answered Mr.
- Brooke, who felt at peace with all mankind, even his mischievous pupil.
- "I'll come if I'm at the ends of the earth, for the sight of Jo's face
- alone on that occasion would be worth a long journey. You don't look
- festive, ma'am, what's the matter?" asked Laurie, following her into a
- corner of the parlor, whither all had adjourned to greet Mr. Laurence.
- "I don't approve of the match, but I've made up my mind to bear it, and
- shall not say a word against it," said Jo solemnly. "You can't know
- how hard it is for me to give up Meg," she continued with a little
- quiver in her voice.
- "You don't give her up. You only go halves," said Laurie consolingly.
- "It can never be the same again. I've lost my dearest friend," sighed
- Jo.
- "You've got me, anyhow. I'm not good for much, I know, but I'll stand
- by you, Jo, all the days of my life. Upon my word I will!" and Laurie
- meant what he said.
- "I know you will, and I'm ever so much obliged. You are always a great
- comfort to me, Teddy," returned Jo, gratefully shaking hands.
- "Well, now, don't be dismal, there's a good fellow. It's all right you
- see. Meg is happy, Brooke will fly round and get settled immediately,
- Grandpa will attend to him, and it will be very jolly to see Meg in her
- own little house. We'll have capital times after she is gone, for I
- shall be through college before long, and then we'll go abroad on some
- nice trip or other. Wouldn't that console you?"
- "I rather think it would, but there's no knowing what may happen in
- three years," said Jo thoughtfully.
- "That's true. Don't you wish you could take a look forward and see
- where we shall all be then? I do," returned Laurie.
- "I think not, for I might see something sad, and everyone looks so
- happy now, I don't believe they could be much improved." And Jo's eyes
- went slowly round the room, brightening as they looked, for the
- prospect was a pleasant one.
- Father and Mother sat together, quietly reliving the first chapter of
- the romance which for them began some twenty years ago. Amy was drawing
- the lovers, who sat apart in a beautiful world of their own, the light
- of which touched their faces with a grace the little artist could not
- copy. Beth lay on her sofa, talking cheerily with her old friend, who
- held her little hand as if he felt that it possessed the power to lead
- him along the peaceful way she walked. Jo lounged in her favorite low
- seat, with the grave quiet look which best became her, and Laurie,
- leaning on the back of her chair, his chin on a level with her curly
- head, smiled with his friendliest aspect, and nodded at her in the long
- glass which reflected them both.
- So the curtain falls upon Meg, Jo, Beth, and Amy. Whether it ever
- rises again, depends upon the reception given the first act of the
- domestic drama called _Little Women_.
- LITTLE WOMEN PART 2
- In order that we may start afresh and go to Meg's wedding...
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
- GOSSIP
- In order that we may start afresh and go to Meg's wedding with free
- minds, it will be well to begin with a little gossip about the Marches.
- And here let me premise that if any of the elders think there is too
- much 'lovering' in the story, as I fear they may (I'm not afraid the
- young folks will make that objection), I can only say with Mrs. March,
- "What can you expect when I have four gay girls in the house, and a
- dashing young neighbor over the way?"
- The three years that have passed have brought but few changes to the
- quiet family. The war is over, and Mr. March safely at home, busy with
- his books and the small parish which found in him a minister by nature
- as by grace, a quiet, studious man, rich in the wisdom that is better
- than learning, the charity which calls all mankind 'brother', the piety
- that blossoms into character, making it august and lovely.
- These attributes, in spite of poverty and the strict integrity which
- shut him out from the more worldly successes, attracted to him many
- admirable persons, as naturally as sweet herbs draw bees, and as
- naturally he gave them the honey into which fifty years of hard
- experience had distilled no bitter drop. Earnest young men found the
- gray-headed scholar as young at heart as they; thoughtful or troubled
- women instinctively brought their doubts to him, sure of finding the
- gentlest sympathy, the wisest counsel. Sinners told their sins to the
- pure-hearted old man and were both rebuked and saved. Gifted men found
- a companion in him. Ambitious men caught glimpses of nobler ambitions
- than their own, and even worldlings confessed that his beliefs were
- beautiful and true, although 'they wouldn't pay'.
- To outsiders the five energetic women seemed to rule the house, and so
- they did in many things, but the quiet scholar, sitting among his
- books, was still the head of the family, the household conscience,
- anchor, and comforter, for to him the busy, anxious women always turned
- in troublous times, finding him, in the truest sense of those sacred
- words, husband and father.
- The girls gave their hearts into their mother's keeping, their souls
- into their father's, and to both parents, who lived and labored so
- faithfully for them, they gave a love that grew with their growth and
- bound them tenderly together by the sweetest tie which blesses life and
- outlives death.
- Mrs. March is as brisk and cheery, though rather grayer, than when we
- saw her last, and just now so absorbed in Meg's affairs that the
- hospitals and homes still full of wounded 'boys' and soldiers' widows,
- decidedly miss the motherly missionary's visits.
- John Brooke did his duty manfully for a year, got wounded, was sent
- home, and not allowed to return. He received no stars or bars, but he
- deserved them, for he cheerfully risked all he had, and life and love
- are very precious when both are in full bloom. Perfectly resigned to
- his discharge, he devoted himself to getting well, preparing for
- business, and earning a home for Meg. With the good sense and sturdy
- independence that characterized him, he refused Mr. Laurence's more
- generous offers, and accepted the place of bookkeeper, feeling better
- satisfied to begin with an honestly earned salary than by running any
- risks with borrowed money.
- Meg had spent the time in working as well as waiting, growing womanly
- in character, wise in housewifely arts, and prettier than ever, for
- love is a great beautifier. She had her girlish ambitions and hopes,
- and felt some disappointment at the humble way in which the new life
- must begin. Ned Moffat had just married Sallie Gardiner, and Meg
- couldn't help contrasting their fine house and carriage, many gifts,
- and splendid outfit with her own, and secretly wishing she could have
- the same. But somehow envy and discontent soon vanished when she
- thought of all the patient love and labor John had put into the little
- home awaiting her, and when they sat together in the twilight, talking
- over their small plans, the future always grew so beautiful and bright
- that she forgot Sallie's splendor and felt herself the richest,
- happiest girl in Christendom.
- Jo never went back to Aunt March, for the old lady took such a fancy to
- Amy that she bribed her with the offer of drawing lessons from one of
- the best teachers going, and for the sake of this advantage, Amy would
- have served a far harder mistress. So she gave her mornings to duty,
- her afternoons to pleasure, and prospered finely. Jo meantime devoted
- herself to literature and Beth, who remained delicate long after the
- fever was a thing of the past. Not an invalid exactly, but never again
- the rosy, healthy creature she had been, yet always hopeful, happy, and
- serene, and busy with the quiet duties she loved, everyone's friend,
- and an angel in the house, long before those who loved her most had
- learned to know it.
- As long as _The Spread Eagle_ paid her a dollar a column for her
- 'rubbish', as she called it, Jo felt herself a woman of means, and spun
- her little romances diligently. But great plans fermented in her busy
- brain and ambitious mind, and the old tin kitchen in the garret held a
- slowly increasing pile of blotted manuscript, which was one day to
- place the name of March upon the roll of fame.
- Laurie, having dutifully gone to college to please his grandfather, was
- now getting through it in the easiest possible manner to please
- himself. A universal favorite, thanks to money, manners, much talent,
- and the kindest heart that ever got its owner into scrapes by trying to
- get other people out of them, he stood in great danger of being
- spoiled, and probably would have been, like many another promising boy,
- if he had not possessed a talisman against evil in the memory of the
- kind old man who was bound up in his success, the motherly friend who
- watched over him as if he were her son, and last, but not least by any
- means, the knowledge that four innocent girls loved, admired, and
- believed in him with all their hearts.
- Being only 'a glorious human boy', of course he frolicked and flirted,
- grew dandified, aquatic, sentimental, or gymnastic, as college fashions
- ordained, hazed and was hazed, talked slang, and more than once came
- perilously near suspension and expulsion. But as high spirits and the
- love of fun were the causes of these pranks, he always managed to save
- himself by frank confession, honorable atonement, or the irresistible
- power of persuasion which he possessed in perfection. In fact, he
- rather prided himself on his narrow escapes, and liked to thrill the
- girls with graphic accounts of his triumphs over wrathful tutors,
- dignified professors, and vanquished enemies. The 'men of my class',
- were heroes in the eyes of the girls, who never wearied of the exploits
- of 'our fellows', and were frequently allowed to bask in the smiles of
- these great creatures, when Laurie brought them home with him.
- Amy especially enjoyed this high honor, and became quite a belle among
- them, for her ladyship early felt and learned to use the gift of
- fascination with which she was endowed. Meg was too much absorbed in
- her private and particular John to care for any other lords of
- creation, and Beth too shy to do more than peep at them and wonder how
- Amy dared to order them about so, but Jo felt quite in her own element,
- and found it very difficult to refrain from imitating the gentlemanly
- attitudes, phrases, and feats, which seemed more natural to her than
- the decorums prescribed for young ladies. They all liked Jo immensely,
- but never fell in love with her, though very few escaped without paying
- the tribute of a sentimental sigh or two at Amy's shrine. And speaking
- of sentiment brings us very naturally to the 'Dovecote'.
- That was the name of the little brown house Mr. Brooke had prepared for
- Meg's first home. Laurie had christened it, saying it was highly
- appropriate to the gentle lovers who 'went on together like a pair of
- turtledoves, with first a bill and then a coo'. It was a tiny house,
- with a little garden behind and a lawn about as big as a pocket
- handkerchief in the front. Here Meg meant to have a fountain,
- shrubbery, and a profusion of lovely flowers, though just at present
- the fountain was represented by a weather-beaten urn, very like a
- dilapidated slopbowl, the shrubbery consisted of several young larches,
- undecided whether to live or die, and the profusion of flowers was
- merely hinted by regiments of sticks to show where seeds were planted.
- But inside, it was altogether charming, and the happy bride saw no
- fault from garret to cellar. To be sure, the hall was so narrow it was
- fortunate that they had no piano, for one never could have been got in
- whole, the dining room was so small that six people were a tight fit,
- and the kitchen stairs seemed built for the express purpose of
- precipitating both servants and china pell-mell into the coalbin. But
- once get used to these slight blemishes and nothing could be more
- complete, for good sense and good taste had presided over the
- furnishing, and the result was highly satisfactory. There were no
- marble-topped tables, long mirrors, or lace curtains in the little
- parlor, but simple furniture, plenty of books, a fine picture or two, a
- stand of flowers in the bay window, and, scattered all about, the
- pretty gifts which came from friendly hands and were the fairer for the
- loving messages they brought.
- I don't think the Parian Psyche Laurie gave lost any of its beauty
- because John put up the bracket it stood upon, that any upholsterer
- could have draped the plain muslin curtains more gracefully than Amy's
- artistic hand, or that any store-room was ever better provided with
- good wishes, merry words, and happy hopes than that in which Jo and her
- mother put away Meg's few boxes, barrels, and bundles, and I am morally
- certain that the spandy new kitchen never could have looked so cozy and
- neat if Hannah had not arranged every pot and pan a dozen times over,
- and laid the fire all ready for lighting the minute 'Mis. Brooke came
- home'. I also doubt if any young matron ever began life with so rich a
- supply of dusters, holders, and piece bags, for Beth made enough to
- last till the silver wedding came round, and invented three different
- kinds of dishcloths for the express service of the bridal china.
- People who hire all these things done for them never know what they
- lose, for the homeliest tasks get beautified if loving hands do them,
- and Meg found so many proofs of this that everything in her small nest,
- from the kitchen roller to the silver vase on her parlor table, was
- eloquent of home love and tender forethought.
- What happy times they had planning together, what solemn shopping
- excursions, what funny mistakes they made, and what shouts of laughter
- arose over Laurie's ridiculous bargains. In his love of jokes, this
- young gentleman, though nearly through college, was a much of a boy as
- ever. His last whim had been to bring with him on his weekly visits
- some new, useful, and ingenious article for the young housekeeper. Now
- a bag of remarkable clothespins, next, a wonderful nutmeg grater which
- fell to pieces at the first trial, a knife cleaner that spoiled all the
- knives, or a sweeper that picked the nap neatly off the carpet and left
- the dirt, labor-saving soap that took the skin off one's hands,
- infallible cements which stuck firmly to nothing but the fingers of the
- deluded buyer, and every kind of tinware, from a toy savings bank for
- odd pennies, to a wonderful boiler which would wash articles in its own
- steam with every prospect of exploding in the process.
- In vain Meg begged him to stop. John laughed at him, and Jo called him
- 'Mr. Toodles'. He was possessed with a mania for patronizing Yankee
- ingenuity, and seeing his friends fitly furnished forth. So each week
- beheld some fresh absurdity.
- Everything was done at last, even to Amy's arranging different colored
- soaps to match the different colored rooms, and Beth's setting the
- table for the first meal.
- "Are you satisfied? Does it seem like home, and do you feel as if you
- should be happy here?" asked Mrs. March, as she and her daughter went
- through the new kingdom arm in arm, for just then they seemed to cling
- together more tenderly than ever.
- "Yes, Mother, perfectly satisfied, thanks to you all, and so happy that
- I can't talk about it," with a look that was far better than words.
- "If she only had a servant or two it would be all right," said Amy,
- coming out of the parlor, where she had been trying to decide whether
- the bronze Mercury looked best on the whatnot or the mantlepiece.
- "Mother and I have talked that over, and I have made up my mind to try
- her way first. There will be so little to do that with Lotty to run my
- errands and help me here and there, I shall only have enough work to
- keep me from getting lazy or homesick," answered Meg tranquilly.
- "Sallie Moffat has four," began Amy.
- "If Meg had four, the house wouldn't hold them, and master and missis
- would have to camp in the garden," broke in Jo, who, enveloped in a big
- blue pinafore, was giving the last polish to the door handles.
- "Sallie isn't a poor man's wife, and many maids are in keeping with her
- fine establishment. Meg and John begin humbly, but I have a feeling
- that there will be quite as much happiness in the little house as in
- the big one. It's a great mistake for young girls like Meg to leave
- themselves nothing to do but dress, give orders, and gossip. When I
- was first married, I used to long for my new clothes to wear out or get
- torn, so that I might have the pleasure of mending them, for I got
- heartily sick of doing fancywork and tending my pocket handkerchief."
- "Why didn't you go into the kitchen and make messes, as Sallie says she
- does to amuse herself, though they never turn out well and the servants
- laugh at her," said Meg.
- "I did after a while, not to 'mess' but to learn of Hannah how things
- should be done, that my servants need not laugh at me. It was play
- then, but there came a time when I was truly grateful that I not only
- possessed the will but the power to cook wholesome food for my little
- girls, and help myself when I could no longer afford to hire help. You
- begin at the other end, Meg, dear, but the lessons you learn now will
- be of use to you by-and-by when John is a richer man, for the mistress
- of a house, however splendid, should know how work ought to be done, if
- she wishes to be well and honestly served."
- "Yes, Mother, I'm sure of that," said Meg, listening respectfully to
- the little lecture, for the best of women will hold forth upon the all
- absorbing subject of house keeping. "Do you know I like this room most
- of all in my baby house," added Meg, a minute after, as they went
- upstairs and she looked into her well-stored linen closet.
- Beth was there, laying the snowy piles smoothly on the shelves and
- exulting over the goodly array. All three laughed as Meg spoke, for
- that linen closet was a joke. You see, having said that if Meg married
- 'that Brooke' she shouldn't have a cent of her money, Aunt March was
- rather in a quandary when time had appeased her wrath and made her
- repent her vow. She never broke her word, and was much exercised in
- her mind how to get round it, and at last devised a plan whereby she
- could satisfy herself. Mrs. Carrol, Florence's mamma, was ordered to
- buy, have made, and marked a generous supply of house and table linen,
- and send it as her present, all of which was faithfully done, but the
- secret leaked out, and was greatly enjoyed by the family, for Aunt
- March tried to look utterly unconscious, and insisted that she could
- give nothing but the old-fashioned pearls long promised to the first
- bride.
- "That's a housewifely taste which I am glad to see. I had a young
- friend who set up housekeeping with six sheets, but she had finger
- bowls for company and that satisfied her," said Mrs. March, patting the
- damask tablecloths, with a truly feminine appreciation of their
- fineness.
- "I haven't a single finger bowl, but this is a setout that will last me
- all my days, Hannah says." And Meg looked quite contented, as well she
- might.
- A tall, broad-shouldered young fellow, with a cropped head, a felt
- basin of a hat, and a flyaway coat, came tramping down the road at a
- great pace, walked over the low fence without stopping to open the
- gate, straight up to Mrs. March, with both hands out and a hearty...
- "Here I am, Mother! Yes, it's all right."
- The last words were in answer to the look the elder lady gave him, a
- kindly questioning look which the handsome eyes met so frankly that the
- little ceremony closed, as usual, with a motherly kiss.
- "For Mrs. John Brooke, with the maker's congratulations and
- compliments. Bless you, Beth! What a refreshing spectacle you are,
- Jo. Amy, you are getting altogether too handsome for a single lady."
- As Laurie spoke, he delivered a brown paper parcel to Meg, pulled
- Beth's hair ribbon, stared at Jo's big pinafore, and fell into an
- attitude of mock rapture before Amy, then shook hands all round, and
- everyone began to talk.
- "Where is John?" asked Meg anxiously.
- "Stopped to get the license for tomorrow, ma'am."
- "Which side won the last match, Teddy?" inquired Jo, who persisted in
- feeling an interest in manly sports despite her nineteen years.
- "Ours, of course. Wish you'd been there to see."
- "How is the lovely Miss Randal?" asked Amy with a significant smile.
- "More cruel than ever. Don't you see how I'm pining away?" and Laurie
- gave his broad chest a sounding slap and heaved a melodramatic sigh.
- "What's the last joke? Undo the bundle and see, Meg," said Beth, eying
- the knobby parcel with curiosity.
- "It's a useful thing to have in the house in case of fire or thieves,"
- observed Laurie, as a watchman's rattle appeared, amid the laughter of
- the girls.
- "Any time when John is away and you get frightened, Mrs. Meg, just
- swing that out of the front window, and it will rouse the neighborhood
- in a jiffy. Nice thing, isn't it?" and Laurie gave them a sample of
- its powers that made them cover up their ears.
- "There's gratitude for you! And speaking of gratitude reminds me to
- mention that you may thank Hannah for saving your wedding cake from
- destruction. I saw it going into your house as I came by, and if she
- hadn't defended it manfully I'd have had a pick at it, for it looked
- like a remarkably plummy one."
- "I wonder if you will ever grow up, Laurie," said Meg in a matronly
- tone.
- "I'm doing my best, ma'am, but can't get much higher, I'm afraid, as
- six feet is about all men can do in these degenerate days," responded
- the young gentleman, whose head was about level with the little
- chandelier.
- "I suppose it would be profanation to eat anything in this
- spick-and-span bower, so as I'm tremendously hungry, I propose an
- adjournment," he added presently.
- "Mother and I are going to wait for John. There are some last things
- to settle," said Meg, bustling away.
- "Beth and I are going over to Kitty Bryant's to get more flowers for
- tomorrow," added Amy, tying a picturesque hat over her picturesque
- curls, and enjoying the effect as much as anybody.
- "Come, Jo, don't desert a fellow. I'm in such a state of exhaustion I
- can't get home without help. Don't take off your apron, whatever you
- do, it's peculiarly becoming," said Laurie, as Jo bestowed his especial
- aversion in her capacious pocket and offered her arm to support his
- feeble steps.
- "Now, Teddy, I want to talk seriously to you about tomorrow," began Jo,
- as they strolled away together. "You must promise to behave well, and
- not cut up any pranks, and spoil our plans."
- "Not a prank."
- "And don't say funny things when we ought to be sober."
- "I never do. You are the one for that."
- "And I implore you not to look at me during the ceremony. I shall
- certainly laugh if you do."
- "You won't see me, you'll be crying so hard that the thick fog round
- you will obscure the prospect."
- "I never cry unless for some great affliction."
- "Such as fellows going to college, hey?" cut in Laurie, with suggestive
- laugh.
- "Don't be a peacock. I only moaned a trifle to keep the girls company."
- "Exactly. I say, Jo, how is Grandpa this week? Pretty amiable?"
- "Very. Why, have you got into a scrape and want to know how he'll take
- it?" asked Jo rather sharply.
- "Now, Jo, do you think I'd look your mother in the face and say 'All
- right', if it wasn't?" and Laurie stopped short, with an injured air.
- "No, I don't."
- "Then don't go and be suspicious. I only want some money," said
- Laurie, walking on again, appeased by her hearty tone.
- "You spend a great deal, Teddy."
- "Bless you, I don't spend it, it spends itself somehow, and is gone
- before I know it."
- "You are so generous and kind-hearted that you let people borrow, and
- can't say 'No' to anyone. We heard about Henshaw and all you did for
- him. If you always spent money in that way, no one would blame you,"
- said Jo warmly.
- "Oh, he made a mountain out of a molehill. You wouldn't have me let
- that fine fellow work himself to death just for want of a little help,
- when he is worth a dozen of us lazy chaps, would you?"
- "Of course not, but I don't see the use of your having seventeen
- waistcoats, endless neckties, and a new hat every time you come home. I
- thought you'd got over the dandy period, but every now and then it
- breaks out in a new spot. Just now it's the fashion to be hideous, to
- make your head look like a scrubbing brush, wear a strait jacket,
- orange gloves, and clumping square-toed boots. If it was cheap
- ugliness, I'd say nothing, but it costs as much as the other, and I
- don't get any satisfaction out of it."
- Laurie threw back his head, and laughed so heartily at this attack,
- that the felt hat fell off, and Jo walked on it, which insult only
- afforded him an opportunity for expatiating on the advantages of a
- rough-and-ready costume, as he folded up the maltreated hat, and
- stuffed it into his pocket.
- "Don't lecture any more, there's a good soul! I have enough all
- through the week, and like to enjoy myself when I come home. I'll get
- myself up regardless of expense tomorrow and be a satisfaction to my
- friends."
- "I'll leave you in peace if you'll only let your hair grow. I'm not
- aristocratic, but I do object to being seen with a person who looks
- like a young prize fighter," observed Jo severely.
- "This unassuming style promotes study, that's why we adopt it,"
- returned Laurie, who certainly could not be accused of vanity, having
- voluntarily sacrificed a handsome curly crop to the demand for
- quarter-inch-long stubble.
- "By the way, Jo, I think that little Parker is really getting desperate
- about Amy. He talks of her constantly, writes poetry, and moons about
- in a most suspicious manner. He'd better nip his little passion in the
- bud, hadn't he?" added Laurie, in a confidential, elder brotherly tone,
- after a minute's silence.
- "Of course he had. We don't want any more marrying in this family for
- years to come. Mercy on us, what are the children thinking of?" and Jo
- looked as much scandalized as if Amy and little Parker were not yet in
- their teens.
- "It's a fast age, and I don't know what we are coming to, ma'am. You
- are a mere infant, but you'll go next, Jo, and we'll be left
- lamenting," said Laurie, shaking his head over the degeneracy of the
- times.
- "Don't be alarmed. I'm not one of the agreeable sort. Nobody will
- want me, and it's a mercy, for there should always be one old maid in a
- family."
- "You won't give anyone a chance," said Laurie, with a sidelong glance
- and a little more color than before in his sunburned face. "You won't
- show the soft side of your character, and if a fellow gets a peep at it
- by accident and can't help showing that he likes it, you treat him as
- Mrs. Gummidge did her sweetheart, throw cold water over him, and get so
- thorny no one dares touch or look at you."
- "I don't like that sort of thing. I'm too busy to be worried with
- nonsense, and I think it's dreadful to break up families so. Now don't
- say any more about it. Meg's wedding has turned all our heads, and we
- talk of nothing but lovers and such absurdities. I don't wish to get
- cross, so let's change the subject;" and Jo looked quite ready to
- fling cold water on the slightest provocation.
- Whatever his feelings might have been, Laurie found a vent for them in
- a long low whistle and the fearful prediction as they parted at the
- gate, "Mark my words, Jo, you'll go next."
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
- THE FIRST WEDDING
- The June roses over the porch were awake bright and early on that
- morning, rejoicing with all their hearts in the cloudless sunshine,
- like friendly little neighbors, as they were. Quite flushed with
- excitement were their ruddy faces, as they swung in the wind,
- whispering to one another what they had seen, for some peeped in at the
- dining room windows where the feast was spread, some climbed up to nod
- and smile at the sisters as they dressed the bride, others waved a
- welcome to those who came and went on various errands in garden, porch,
- and hall, and all, from the rosiest full-blown flower to the palest
- baby bud, offered their tribute of beauty and fragrance to the gentle
- mistress who had loved and tended them so long.
- Meg looked very like a rose herself, for all that was best and sweetest
- in heart and soul seemed to bloom into her face that day, making it
- fair and tender, with a charm more beautiful than beauty. Neither silk,
- lace, nor orange flowers would she have. "I don't want a fashionable
- wedding, but only those about me whom I love, and to them I wish to
- look and be my familiar self."
- So she made her wedding gown herself, sewing into it the tender hopes
- and innocent romances of a girlish heart. Her sisters braided up her
- pretty hair, and the only ornaments she wore were the lilies of the
- valley, which 'her John' liked best of all the flowers that grew.
- "You do look just like our own dear Meg, only so very sweet and lovely
- that I should hug you if it wouldn't crumple your dress," cried Amy,
- surveying her with delight when all was done.
- "Then I am satisfied. But please hug and kiss me, everyone, and don't
- mind my dress. I want a great many crumples of this sort put into it
- today," and Meg opened her arms to her sisters, who clung about her
- with April faces for a minute, feeling that the new love had not
- changed the old.
- "Now I'm going to tie John's cravat for him, and then to stay a few
- minutes with Father quietly in the study," and Meg ran down to perform
- these little ceremonies, and then to follow her mother wherever she
- went, conscious that in spite of the smiles on the motherly face, there
- was a secret sorrow hid in the motherly heart at the flight of the
- first bird from the nest.
- As the younger girls stand together, giving the last touches to their
- simple toilet, it may be a good time to tell of a few changes which
- three years have wrought in their appearance, for all are looking their
- best just now.
- Jo's angles are much softened, she has learned to carry herself with
- ease, if not grace. The curly crop has lengthened into a thick coil,
- more becoming to the small head atop of the tall figure. There is a
- fresh color in her brown cheeks, a soft shine in her eyes, and only
- gentle words fall from her sharp tongue today.
- Beth has grown slender, pale, and more quiet than ever. The beautiful,
- kind eyes are larger, and in them lies an expression that saddens one,
- although it is not sad itself. It is the shadow of pain which touches
- the young face with such pathetic patience, but Beth seldom complains
- and always speaks hopefully of 'being better soon'.
- Amy is with truth considered 'the flower of the family', for at sixteen
- she has the air and bearing of a full-grown woman, not beautiful, but
- possessed of that indescribable charm called grace. One saw it in the
- lines of her figure, the make and motion of her hands, the flow of her
- dress, the droop of her hair, unconscious yet harmonious, and as
- attractive to many as beauty itself. Amy's nose still afflicted her,
- for it never would grow Grecian, so did her mouth, being too wide, and
- having a decided chin. These offending features gave character to her
- whole face, but she never could see it, and consoled herself with her
- wonderfully fair complexion, keen blue eyes, and curls more golden and
- abundant than ever.
- All three wore suits of thin silver gray (their best gowns for the
- summer), with blush roses in hair and bosom, and all three looked just
- what they were, fresh-faced, happy-hearted girls, pausing a moment in
- their busy lives to read with wistful eyes the sweetest chapter in the
- romance of womanhood.
- There were to be no ceremonious performances, everything was to be as
- natural and homelike as possible, so when Aunt March arrived, she was
- scandalized to see the bride come running to welcome and lead her in,
- to find the bridegroom fastening up a garland that had fallen down, and
- to catch a glimpse of the paternal minister marching upstairs with a
- grave countenance and a wine bottle under each arm.
- "Upon my word, here's a state of things!" cried the old lady, taking
- the seat of honor prepared for her, and settling the folds of her
- lavender moire with a great rustle. "You oughtn't to be seen till the
- last minute, child."
- "I'm not a show, Aunty, and no one is coming to stare at me, to
- criticize my dress, or count the cost of my luncheon. I'm too happy to
- care what anyone says or thinks, and I'm going to have my little
- wedding just as I like it. John, dear, here's your hammer." And away
- went Meg to help 'that man' in his highly improper employment.
- Mr. Brooke didn't even say, "Thank you," but as he stooped for the
- unromantic tool, he kissed his little bride behind the folding door,
- with a look that made Aunt March whisk out her pocket handkerchief with
- a sudden dew in her sharp old eyes.
- A crash, a cry, and a laugh from Laurie, accompanied by the indecorous
- exclamation, "Jupiter Ammon! Jo's upset the cake again!" caused a
- momentary flurry, which was hardly over when a flock of cousins
- arrived, and 'the party came in', as Beth used to say when a child.
- "Don't let that young giant come near me, he worries me worse than
- mosquitoes," whispered the old lady to Amy, as the rooms filled and
- Laurie's black head towered above the rest.
- "He has promised to be very good today, and he can be perfectly elegant
- if he likes," returned Amy, and gliding away to warn Hercules to beware
- of the dragon, which warning caused him to haunt the old lady with a
- devotion that nearly distracted her.
- There was no bridal procession, but a sudden silence fell upon the room
- as Mr. March and the young couple took their places under the green
- arch. Mother and sisters gathered close, as if loath to give Meg up.
- The fatherly voice broke more than once, which only seemed to make the
- service more beautiful and solemn. The bridegroom's hand trembled
- visibly, and no one heard his replies. But Meg looked straight up in
- her husband's eyes, and said, "I will!" with such tender trust in her
- own face and voice that her mother's heart rejoiced and Aunt March
- sniffed audibly.
- Jo did not cry, though she was very near it once, and was only saved
- from a demonstration by the consciousness that Laurie was staring
- fixedly at her, with a comical mixture of merriment and emotion in his
- wicked black eyes. Beth kept her face hidden on her mother's shoulder,
- but Amy stood like a graceful statue, with a most becoming ray of
- sunshine touching her white forehead and the flower in her hair.
- It wasn't at all the thing, I'm afraid, but the minute she was fairly
- married, Meg cried, "The first kiss for Marmee!" and turning, gave it
- with her heart on her lips. During the next fifteen minutes she looked
- more like a rose than ever, for everyone availed themselves of their
- privileges to the fullest extent, from Mr. Laurence to old Hannah, who,
- adorned with a headdress fearfully and wonderfully made, fell upon her
- in the hall, crying with a sob and a chuckle, "Bless you, deary, a
- hundred times! The cake ain't hurt a mite, and everything looks
- lovely."
- Everybody cleared up after that, and said something brilliant, or tried
- to, which did just as well, for laughter is ready when hearts are
- light. There was no display of gifts, for they were already in the
- little house, nor was there an elaborate breakfast, but a plentiful
- lunch of cake and fruit, dressed with flowers. Mr. Laurence and Aunt
- March shrugged and smiled at one another when water, lemonade, and
- coffee were found to be to only sorts of nectar which the three Hebes
- carried round. No one said anything, till Laurie, who insisted on
- serving the bride, appeared before her, with a loaded salver in his
- hand and a puzzled expression on his face.
- "Has Jo smashed all the bottles by accident?" he whispered, "or am I
- merely laboring under a delusion that I saw some lying about loose this
- morning?"
- "No, your grandfather kindly offered us his best, and Aunt March
- actually sent some, but Father put away a little for Beth, and
- dispatched the rest to the Soldier's Home. You know he thinks that
- wine should be used only in illness, and Mother says that neither she
- nor her daughters will ever offer it to any young man under her roof."
- Meg spoke seriously and expected to see Laurie frown or laugh, but he
- did neither, for after a quick look at her, he said, in his impetuous
- way, "I like that! For I've seen enough harm done to wish other women
- would think as you do."
- "You are not made wise by experience, I hope?" and there was an anxious
- accent in Meg's voice.
- "No. I give you my word for it. Don't think too well of me, either,
- this is not one of my temptations. Being brought up where wine is as
- common as water and almost as harmless, I don't care for it, but when a
- pretty girl offers it, one doesn't like to refuse, you see."
- "But you will, for the sake of others, if not for your own. Come,
- Laurie, promise, and give me one more reason to call this the happiest
- day of my life."
- A demand so sudden and so serious made the young man hesitate a moment,
- for ridicule is often harder to bear than self-denial. Meg knew that if
- he gave the promise he would keep it at all costs, and feeling her
- power, used it as a woman may for her friend's good. She did not speak,
- but she looked up at him with a face made very eloquent by happiness,
- and a smile which said, "No one can refuse me anything today."
- Laurie certainly could not, and with an answering smile, he gave her
- his hand, saying heartily, "I promise, Mrs. Brooke!"
- "I thank you, very, very much."
- "And I drink 'long life to your resolution', Teddy," cried Jo,
- baptizing him with a splash of lemonade, as she waved her glass and
- beamed approvingly upon him.
- So the toast was drunk, the pledge made and loyally kept in spite of
- many temptations, for with instinctive wisdom, the girls seized a happy
- moment to do their friend a service, for which he thanked them all his
- life.
- After lunch, people strolled about, by twos and threes, through the
- house and garden, enjoying the sunshine without and within. Meg and
- John happened to be standing together in the middle of the grass plot,
- when Laurie was seized with an inspiration which put the finishing
- touch to this unfashionable wedding.
- "All the married people take hands and dance round the new-made husband
- and wife, as the Germans do, while we bachelors and spinsters prance in
- couples outside!" cried Laurie, promenading down the path with Amy,
- with such infectious spirit and skill that everyone else followed their
- example without a murmur. Mr. and Mrs. March, Aunt and Uncle Carrol
- began it, others rapidly joined in, even Sallie Moffat, after a
- moment's hesitation, threw her train over her arm and whisked Ned into
- the ring. But the crowning joke was Mr. Laurence and Aunt March, for
- when the stately old gentleman chasseed solemnly up to the old lady,
- she just tucked her cane under her arm, and hopped briskly away to join
- hands with the rest and dance about the bridal pair, while the young
- folks pervaded the garden like butterflies on a midsummer day.
- Want of breath brought the impromptu ball to a close, and then people
- began to go.
- "I wish you well, my dear, I heartily wish you well, but I think you'll
- be sorry for it," said Aunt March to Meg, adding to the bridegroom, as
- he led her to the carriage, "You've got a treasure, young man, see that
- you deserve it."
- "That is the prettiest wedding I've been to for an age, Ned, and I
- don't see why, for there wasn't a bit of style about it," observed Mrs.
- Moffat to her husband, as they drove away.
- "Laurie, my lad, if you ever want to indulge in this sort of thing, get
- one of those little girls to help you, and I shall be perfectly
- satisfied," said Mr. Laurence, settling himself in his easy chair to
- rest after the excitement of the morning.
- "I'll do my best to gratify you, Sir," was Laurie's unusually dutiful
- reply, as he carefully unpinned the posy Jo had put in his buttonhole.
- The little house was not far away, and the only bridal journey Meg had
- was the quiet walk with John from the old home to the new. When she
- came down, looking like a pretty Quakeress in her dove-colored suit and
- straw bonnet tied with white, they all gathered about her to say
- 'good-by', as tenderly as if she had been going to make the grand tour.
- "Don't feel that I am separated from you, Marmee dear, or that I love
- you any the less for loving John so much," she said, clinging to her
- mother, with full eyes for a moment. "I shall come every day, Father,
- and expect to keep my old place in all your hearts, though I am
- married. Beth is going to be with me a great deal, and the other girls
- will drop in now and then to laugh at my housekeeping struggles. Thank
- you all for my happy wedding day. Good-by, good-by!"
- They stood watching her, with faces full of love and hope and tender
- pride as she walked away, leaning on her husband's arm, with her hands
- full of flowers and the June sunshine brightening her happy face--and
- so Meg's married life began.
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
- ARTISTIC ATTEMPTS
- It takes people a long time to learn the difference between talent and
- genius, especially ambitious young men and women. Amy was learning
- this distinction through much tribulation, for mistaking enthusiasm for
- inspiration, she attempted every branch of art with youthful audacity.
- For a long time there was a lull in the 'mud-pie' business, and she
- devoted herself to the finest pen-and-ink drawing, in which she showed
- such taste and skill that her graceful handiwork proved both pleasant
- and profitable. But over-strained eyes caused pen and ink to be laid
- aside for a bold attempt at poker-sketching. While this attack lasted,
- the family lived in constant fear of a conflagration, for the odor of
- burning wood pervaded the house at all hours, smoke issued from attic
- and shed with alarming frequency, red-hot pokers lay about
- promiscuously, and Hannah never went to bed without a pail of water and
- the dinner bell at her door in case of fire. Raphael's face was found
- boldly executed on the underside of the moulding board, and Bacchus on
- the head of a beer barrel. A chanting cherub adorned the cover of the
- sugar bucket, and attempts to portray Romeo and Juliet supplied
- kindling for some time.
- From fire to oil was a natural transition for burned fingers, and Amy
- fell to painting with undiminished ardor. An artist friend fitted her
- out with his castoff palettes, brushes, and colors, and she daubed
- away, producing pastoral and marine views such as were never seen on
- land or sea. Her monstrosities in the way of cattle would have taken
- prizes at an agricultural fair, and the perilous pitching of her
- vessels would have produced seasickness in the most nautical observer,
- if the utter disregard to all known rules of shipbuilding and rigging
- had not convulsed him with laughter at the first glance. Swarthy boys
- and dark-eyed Madonnas, staring at you from one corner of the studio,
- suggested Murillo; oily brown shadows of faces with a lurid streak in
- the wrong place, meant Rembrandt; buxom ladies and dropiscal infants,
- Rubens; and Turner appeared in tempests of blue thunder, orange
- lightning, brown rain, and purple clouds, with a tomato-colored splash
- in the middle, which might be the sun or a bouy, a sailor's shirt or a
- king's robe, as the spectator pleased.
- Charcoal portraits came next, and the entire family hung in a row,
- looking as wild and crocky as if just evoked from a coalbin. Softened
- into crayon sketches, they did better, for the likenesses were good,
- and Amy's hair, Jo's nose, Meg's mouth, and Laurie's eyes were
- pronounced 'wonderfully fine'. A return to clay and plaster followed,
- and ghostly casts of her acquaintances haunted corners of the house, or
- tumbled off closet shelves onto people's heads. Children were enticed
- in as models, till their incoherent accounts of her mysterious doings
- caused Miss Amy to be regarded in the light of a young ogress. Her
- efforts in this line, however, were brought to an abrupt close by an
- untoward accident, which quenched her ardor. Other models failing her
- for a time, she undertook to cast her own pretty foot, and the family
- were one day alarmed by an unearthly bumping and screaming and running
- to the rescue, found the young enthusiast hopping wildly about the shed
- with her foot held fast in a pan full of plaster, which had hardened
- with unexpected rapidity. With much difficulty and some danger she was
- dug out, for Jo was so overcome with laughter while she excavated that
- her knife went too far, cut the poor foot, and left a lasting memorial
- of one artistic attempt, at least.
- After this Amy subsided, till a mania for sketching from nature set her
- to haunting river, field, and wood, for picturesque studies, and
- sighing for ruins to copy. She caught endless colds sitting on damp
- grass to book 'a delicious bit', composed of a stone, a stump, one
- mushroom, and a broken mullein stalk, or 'a heavenly mass of clouds',
- that looked like a choice display of featherbeds when done. She
- sacrificed her complexion floating on the river in the midsummer sun to
- study light and shade, and got a wrinkle over her nose trying after
- 'points of sight', or whatever the squint-and-string performance is
- called.
- If 'genius is eternal patience', as Michelangelo affirms, Amy had some
- claim to the divine attribute, for she persevered in spite of all
- obstacles, failures, and discouragements, firmly believing that in time
- she should do something worthy to be called 'high art'.
- She was learning, doing, and enjoying other things, meanwhile, for she
- had resolved to be an attractive and accomplished woman, even if she
- never became a great artist. Here she succeeded better, for she was
- one of those happily created beings who please without effort, make
- friends everywhere, and take life so gracefully and easily that less
- fortunate souls are tempted to believe that such are born under a lucky
- star. Everybody liked her, for among her good gifts was tact. She had
- an instinctive sense of what was pleasing and proper, always said the
- right thing to the right person, did just what suited the time and
- place, and was so self-possessed that her sisters used to say, "If Amy
- went to court without any rehearsal beforehand, she'd know exactly what
- to do."
- One of her weaknesses was a desire to move in 'our best society',
- without being quite sure what the best really was. Money, position,
- fashionable accomplishments, and elegant manners were most desirable
- things in her eyes, and she liked to associate with those who possessed
- them, often mistaking the false for the true, and admiring what was not
- admirable. Never forgetting that by birth she was a gentlewoman, she
- cultivated her aristocratic tastes and feelings, so that when the
- opportunity came she might be ready to take the place from which
- poverty now excluded her.
- "My lady," as her friends called her, sincerely desired to be a genuine
- lady, and was so at heart, but had yet to learn that money cannot buy
- refinement of nature, that rank does not always confer nobility, and
- that true breeding makes itself felt in spite of external drawbacks.
- "I want to ask a favor of you, Mamma," Amy said, coming in with an
- important air one day.
- "Well, little girl, what is it?" replied her mother, in whose eyes the
- stately young lady still remained 'the baby'.
- "Our drawing class breaks up next week, and before the girls separate
- for the summer, I want to ask them out here for a day. They are wild
- to see the river, sketch the broken bridge, and copy some of the things
- they admire in my book. They have been very kind to me in many ways,
- and I am grateful, for they are all rich and I know I am poor, yet they
- never made any difference."
- "Why should they?" and Mrs. March put the question with what the girls
- called her 'Maria Theresa air'.
- "You know as well as I that it does make a difference with nearly
- everyone, so don't ruffle up like a dear, motherly hen, when your
- chickens get pecked by smarter birds. The ugly duckling turned out a
- swan, you know." and Amy smiled without bitterness, for she possessed
- a happy temper and hopeful spirit.
- Mrs. March laughed, and smoothed down her maternal pride as she asked,
- "Well, my swan, what is your plan?"
- "I should like to ask the girls out to lunch next week, to take them
- for a drive to the places they want to see, a row on the river,
- perhaps, and make a little artistic fete for them."
- "That looks feasible. What do you want for lunch? Cake, sandwiches,
- fruit, and coffee will be all that is necessary, I suppose?"
- "Oh, dear, no! We must have cold tongue and chicken, French chocolate
- and ice cream, besides. The girls are used to such things, and I want
- my lunch to be proper and elegant, though I do work for my living."
- "How many young ladies are there?" asked her mother, beginning to look
- sober.
- "Twelve or fourteen in the class, but I dare say they won't all come."
- "Bless me, child, you will have to charter an omnibus to carry them
- about."
- "Why, Mother, how can you think of such a thing? Not more than six or
- eight will probably come, so I shall hire a beach wagon and borrow Mr.
- Laurence's cherry-bounce." (Hannah's pronunciation of char-a-banc.)
- "All of this will be expensive, Amy."
- "Not very. I've calculated the cost, and I'll pay for it myself."
- "Don't you think, dear, that as these girls are used to such things,
- and the best we can do will be nothing new, that some simpler plan
- would be pleasanter to them, as a change if nothing more, and much
- better for us than buying or borrowing what we don't need, and
- attempting a style not in keeping with our circumstances?"
- "If I can't have it as I like, I don't care to have it at all. I know
- that I can carry it out perfectly well, if you and the girls will help
- a little, and I don't see why I can't if I'm willing to pay for it,"
- said Amy, with the decision which opposition was apt to change into
- obstinacy.
- Mrs. March knew that experience was an excellent teacher, and when it
- was possible she left her children to learn alone the lessons which she
- would gladly have made easier, if they had not objected to taking
- advice as much as they did salts and senna.
- "Very well, Amy, if your heart is set upon it, and you see your way
- through without too great an outlay of money, time, and temper, I'll
- say no more. Talk it over with the girls, and whichever way you
- decide, I'll do my best to help you."
- "Thanks, Mother, you are always so kind." and away went Amy to lay her
- plan before her sisters.
- Meg agreed at once, and promised her aid, gladly offering anything she
- possessed, from her little house itself to her very best saltspoons.
- But Jo frowned upon the whole project and would have nothing to do with
- it at first.
- "Why in the world should you spend your money, worry your family, and
- turn the house upside down for a parcel of girls who don't care a
- sixpence for you? I thought you had too much pride and sense to
- truckle to any mortal woman just because she wears French boots and
- rides in a coupe," said Jo, who, being called from the tragic climax of
- her novel, was not in the best mood for social enterprises.
- "I don't truckle, and I hate being patronized as much as you do!"
- returned Amy indignantly, for the two still jangled when such questions
- arose. "The girls do care for me, and I for them, and there's a great
- deal of kindness and sense and talent among them, in spite of what you
- call fashionable nonsense. You don't care to make people like you, to
- go into good society, and cultivate your manners and tastes. I do, and
- I mean to make the most of every chance that comes. You can go through
- the world with your elbows out and your nose in the air, and call it
- independence, if you like. That's not my way."
- When Amy had whetted her tongue and freed her mind she usually got the
- best of it, for she seldom failed to have common sense on her side,
- while Jo carried her love of liberty and hate of conventionalities to
- such an unlimited extent that she naturally found herself worsted in an
- argument. Amy's definition of Jo's idea of independence was such a
- good hit that both burst out laughing, and the discussion took a more
- amiable turn. Much against her will, Jo at length consented to
- sacrifice a day to Mrs. Grundy, and help her sister through what she
- regarded as 'a nonsensical business'.
- The invitations were sent, nearly all accepted, and the following
- Monday was set apart for the grand event. Hannah was out of humor
- because her week's work was deranged, and prophesied that "ef the
- washin' and ironin' warn't done reg'lar, nothin' would go well
- anywheres". This hitch in the mainspring of the domestic machinery had
- a bad effect upon the whole concern, but Amy's motto was 'Nil
- desperandum', and having made up her mind what to do, she proceeded to
- do it in spite of all obstacles. To begin with, Hannah's cooking
- didn't turn out well. The chicken was tough, the tongue too salty, and
- the chocolate wouldn't froth properly. Then the cake and ice cost more
- than Amy expected, so did the wagon, and various other expenses, which
- seemed trifling at the outset, counted up rather alarmingly afterward.
- Beth got a cold and took to her bed. Meg had an unusual number of
- callers to keep her at home, and Jo was in such a divided state of mind
- that her breakages, accidents, and mistakes were uncommonly numerous,
- serious, and trying.
- If it was not fair on Monday, the young ladies were to come on Tuesday,
- an arrangement which aggravated Jo and Hannah to the last degree. On
- Monday morning the weather was in that undecided state which is more
- exasperating than a steady pour. It drizzled a little, shone a little,
- blew a little, and didn't make up its mind till it was too late for
- anyone else to make up theirs. Amy was up at dawn, hustling people out
- of their beds and through their breakfasts, that the house might be got
- in order. The parlor struck her as looking uncommonly shabby, but
- without stopping to sigh for what she had not, she skillfully made the
- best of what she had, arranging chairs over the worn places in the
- carpet, covering stains on the walls with homemade statuary, which gave
- an artistic air to the room, as did the lovely vases of flowers Jo
- scattered about.
- The lunch looked charming, and as she surveyed it, she sincerely hoped
- it would taste well, and that the borrowed glass, china, and silver
- would get safely home again. The carriages were promised, Meg and
- Mother were all ready to do the honors, Beth was able to help Hannah
- behind the scenes, Jo had engaged to be as lively and amiable as an
- absent mind, and aching head, and a very decided disapproval of
- everybody and everything would allow, and as she wearily dressed, Amy
- cheered herself with anticipations of the happy moment when, lunch
- safely over, she should drive away with her friends for an afternoon of
- artistic delights, for the 'cherry bounce' and the broken bridge were
- her strong points.
- Then came the hours of suspense, during which she vibrated from parlor
- to porch, while public opinion varied like the weathercock. A smart
- shower at eleven had evidently quenched the enthusiasm of the young
- ladies who were to arrive at twelve, for nobody came, and at two the
- exhausted family sat down in a blaze of sunshine to consume the
- perishable portions of the feast, that nothing might be lost.
- "No doubt about the weather today, they will certainly come, so we must
- fly round and be ready for them," said Amy, as the sun woke her next
- morning. She spoke briskly, but in her secret soul she wished she had
- said nothing about Tuesday, for her interest like her cake was getting
- a little stale.
- "I can't get any lobsters, so you will have to do without salad today,"
- said Mr. March, coming in half an hour later, with an expression of
- placid despair.
- "Use the chicken then, the toughness won't matter in a salad," advised
- his wife.
- "Hannah left it on the kitchen table a minute, and the kittens got at
- it. I'm very sorry, Amy," added Beth, who was still a patroness of
- cats.
- "Then I must have a lobster, for tongue alone won't do," said Amy
- decidedly.
- "Shall I rush into town and demand one?" asked Jo, with the magnanimity
- of a martyr.
- "You'd come bringing it home under your arm without any paper, just to
- try me. I'll go myself," answered Amy, whose temper was beginning to
- fail.
- Shrouded in a thick veil and armed with a genteel traveling basket, she
- departed, feeling that a cool drive would soothe her ruffled spirit and
- fit her for the labors of the day. After some delay, the object of her
- desire was procured, likewise a bottle of dressing to prevent further
- loss of time at home, and off she drove again, well pleased with her
- own forethought.
- As the omnibus contained only one other passenger, a sleepy old lady,
- Amy pocketed her veil and beguiled the tedium of the way by trying to
- find out where all her money had gone to. So busy was she with her
- card full of refractory figures that she did not observe a newcomer,
- who entered without stopping the vehicle, till a masculine voice said,
- "Good morning, Miss March," and, looking up, she beheld one of Laurie's
- most elegant college friends. Fervently hoping that he would get out
- before she did, Amy utterly ignored the basket at her feet, and
- congratulating herself that she had on her new traveling dress,
- returned the young man's greeting with her usual suavity and spirit.
- They got on excellently, for Amy's chief care was soon set at rest by
- learning that the gentleman would leave first, and she was chatting
- away in a peculiarly lofty strain, when the old lady got out. In
- stumbling to the door, she upset the basket, and--oh horror!--the
- lobster, in all its vulgar size and brilliancy, was revealed to the
- highborn eyes of a Tudor!
- "By Jove, she's forgotten her dinner!" cried the unconscious youth,
- poking the scarlet monster into its place with his cane, and preparing
- to hand out the basket after the old lady.
- "Please don't--it's--it's mine," murmured Amy, with a face nearly as
- red as her fish.
- "Oh, really, I beg pardon. It's an uncommonly fine one, isn't it?"
- said Tudor, with great presence of mind, and an air of sober interest
- that did credit to his breeding.
- Amy recovered herself in a breath, set her basket boldly on the seat,
- and said, laughing, "Don't you wish you were to have some of the salad
- he's going to make, and to see the charming young ladies who are to eat
- it?"
- Now that was tact, for two of the ruling foibles of the masculine mind
- were touched. The lobster was instantly surrounded by a halo of
- pleasing reminiscences, and curiosity about 'the charming young ladies'
- diverted his mind from the comical mishap.
- "I suppose he'll laugh and joke over it with Laurie, but I shan't see
- them, that's a comfort," thought Amy, as Tudor bowed and departed.
- She did not mention this meeting at home (though she discovered that,
- thanks to the upset, her new dress was much damaged by the rivulets of
- dressing that meandered down the skirt), but went through with the
- preparations which now seemed more irksome than before, and at twelve
- o'clock all was ready again. Feeling that the neighbors were
- interested in her movements, she wished to efface the memory of
- yesterday's failure by a grand success today, so she ordered the
- 'cherry bounce', and drove away in state to meet and escort her guests
- to the banquet.
- "There's the rumble, they're coming! I'll go onto the porch and meet
- them. It looks hospitable, and I want the poor child to have a good
- time after all her trouble," said Mrs. March, suiting the action to the
- word. But after one glance, she retired, with an indescribable
- expression, for looking quite lost in the big carriage, sat Amy and one
- young lady.
- "Run, Beth, and help Hannah clear half the things off the table. It
- will be too absurd to put a luncheon for twelve before a single girl,"
- cried Jo, hurrying away to the lower regions, too excited to stop even
- for a laugh.
- In came Amy, quite calm and delightfully cordial to the one guest who
- had kept her promise. The rest of the family, being of a dramatic
- turn, played their parts equally well, and Miss Eliott found them a
- most hilarious set, for it was impossible to control entirely the
- merriment which possessed them. The remodeled lunch being gaily
- partaken of, the studio and garden visited, and art discussed with
- enthusiasm, Amy ordered a buggy (alas for the elegant cherry-bounce),
- and drove her friend quietly about the neighborhood till sunset, when
- 'the party went out'.
- As she came walking in, looking very tired but as composed as ever, she
- observed that every vestige of the unfortunate fete had disappeared,
- except a suspicious pucker about the corners of Jo's mouth.
- "You've had a loverly afternoon for your drive, dear," said her mother,
- as respectfully as if the whole twelve had come.
- "Miss Eliott is a very sweet girl, and seemed to enjoy herself, I
- thought," observed Beth, with unusual warmth.
- "Could you spare me some of your cake? I really need some, I have so
- much company, and I can't make such delicious stuff as yours," asked
- Meg soberly.
- "Take it all. I'm the only one here who likes sweet things, and it
- will mold before I can dispose of it," answered Amy, thinking with a
- sigh of the generous store she had laid in for such an end as this.
- "It's a pity Laurie isn't here to help us," began Jo, as they sat down
- to ice cream and salad for the second time in two days.
- A warning look from her mother checked any further remarks, and the
- whole family ate in heroic silence, till Mr. March mildly observed,
- "salad was one of the favorite dishes of the ancients, and Evelyn..."
- Here a general explosion of laughter cut short the 'history of salads',
- to the great surprise of the learned gentleman.
- "Bundle everything into a basket and send it to the Hummels. Germans
- like messes. I'm sick of the sight of this, and there's no reason you
- should all die of a surfeit because I've been a fool," cried Amy,
- wiping her eyes.
- "I thought I should have died when I saw you two girls rattling about
- in the what-you-call-it, like two little kernels in a very big
- nutshell, and Mother waiting in state to receive the throng," sighed
- Jo, quite spent with laughter.
- "I'm very sorry you were disappointed, dear, but we all did our best to
- satisfy you," said Mrs. March, in a tone full of motherly regret.
- "I am satisfied. I've done what I undertook, and it's not my fault
- that it failed. I comfort myself with that," said Amy with a little
- quiver in her voice. "I thank you all very much for helping me, and
- I'll thank you still more if you won't allude to it for a month, at
- least."
- No one did for several months, but the word 'fete' always produced a
- general smile, and Laurie's birthday gift to Amy was a tiny coral
- lobster in the shape of a charm for her watch guard.
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
- LITERARY LESSONS
- Fortune suddenly smiled upon Jo, and dropped a good luck penny in her
- path. Not a golden penny, exactly, but I doubt if half a million would
- have given more real happiness then did the little sum that came to her
- in this wise.
- Every few weeks she would shut herself up in her room, put on her
- scribbling suit, and 'fall into a vortex', as she expressed it, writing
- away at her novel with all her heart and soul, for till that was
- finished she could find no peace. Her 'scribbling suit' consisted of a
- black woolen pinafore on which she could wipe her pen at will, and a
- cap of the same material, adorned with a cheerful red bow, into which
- she bundled her hair when the decks were cleared for action. This cap
- was a beacon to the inquiring eyes of her family, who during these
- periods kept their distance, merely popping in their heads
- semi-occasionally to ask, with interest, "Does genius burn, Jo?" They
- did not always venture even to ask this question, but took an
- observation of the cap, and judged accordingly. If this expressive
- article of dress was drawn low upon the forehead, it was a sign that
- hard work was going on, in exciting moments it was pushed rakishly
- askew, and when despair seized the author it was plucked wholly off,
- and cast upon the floor. At such times the intruder silently withdrew,
- and not until the red bow was seen gaily erect upon the gifted brow,
- did anyone dare address Jo.
- She did not think herself a genius by any means, but when the writing
- fit came on, she gave herself up to it with entire abandon, and led a
- blissful life, unconscious of want, care, or bad weather, while she sat
- safe and happy in an imaginary world, full of friends almost as real
- and dear to her as any in the flesh. Sleep forsook her eyes, meals
- stood untasted, day and night were all too short to enjoy the happiness
- which blessed her only at such times, and made these hours worth
- living, even if they bore no other fruit. The divine afflatus usually
- lasted a week or two, and then she emerged from her 'vortex', hungry,
- sleepy, cross, or despondent.
- She was just recovering from one of these attacks when she was
- prevailed upon to escort Miss Crocker to a lecture, and in return for
- her virtue was rewarded with a new idea. It was a People's Course, the
- lecture on the Pyramids, and Jo rather wondered at the choice of such a
- subject for such an audience, but took it for granted that some great
- social evil would be remedied or some great want supplied by unfolding
- the glories of the Pharaohs to an audience whose thoughts were busy
- with the price of coal and flour, and whose lives were spent in trying
- to solve harder riddles than that of the Sphinx.
- They were early, and while Miss Crocker set the heel of her stocking,
- Jo amused herself by examining the faces of the people who occupied the
- seat with them. On her left were two matrons, with massive foreheads
- and bonnets to match, discussing Women's Rights and making tatting.
- Beyond sat a pair of humble lovers, artlessly holding each other by the
- hand, a somber spinster eating peppermints out of a paper bag, and an
- old gentleman taking his preparatory nap behind a yellow bandanna. On
- her right, her only neighbor was a studious looking lad absorbed in a
- newspaper.
- It was a pictorial sheet, and Jo examined the work of art nearest her,
- idly wondering what fortuitous concatenation of circumstances needed
- the melodramatic illustration of an Indian in full war costume,
- tumbling over a precipice with a wolf at his throat, while two
- infuriated young gentlemen, with unnaturally small feet and big eyes,
- were stabbing each other close by, and a disheveled female was flying
- away in the background with her mouth wide open. Pausing to turn a
- page, the lad saw her looking and, with boyish good nature offered half
- his paper, saying bluntly, "want to read it? That's a first-rate story."
- Jo accepted it with a smile, for she had never outgrown her liking for
- lads, and soon found herself involved in the usual labyrinth of love,
- mystery, and murder, for the story belonged to that class of light
- literature in which the passions have a holiday, and when the author's
- invention fails, a grand catastrophe clears the stage of one half the
- dramatis personae, leaving the other half to exult over their downfall.
- "Prime, isn't it?" asked the boy, as her eye went down the last
- paragraph of her portion.
- "I think you and I could do as well as that if we tried," returned Jo,
- amused at his admiration of the trash.
- "I should think I was a pretty lucky chap if I could. She makes a good
- living out of such stories, they say." and he pointed to the name of
- Mrs. S.L.A.N.G. Northbury, under the title of the tale.
- "Do you know her?" asked Jo, with sudden interest.
- "No, but I read all her pieces, and I know a fellow who works in the
- office where this paper is printed."
- "Do you say she makes a good living out of stories like this?" and Jo
- looked more respectfully at the agitated group and thickly sprinkled
- exclamation points that adorned the page.
- "Guess she does! She knows just what folks like, and gets paid well
- for writing it."
- Here the lecture began, but Jo heard very little of it, for while
- Professor Sands was prosing away about Belzoni, Cheops, scarabei, and
- hieroglyphics, she was covertly taking down the address of the paper,
- and boldly resolving to try for the hundred-dollar prize offered in its
- columns for a sensational story. By the time the lecture ended and the
- audience awoke, she had built up a splendid fortune for herself (not
- the first founded on paper), and was already deep in the concoction of
- her story, being unable to decide whether the duel should come before
- the elopement or after the murder.
- She said nothing of her plan at home, but fell to work next day, much
- to the disquiet of her mother, who always looked a little anxious when
- 'genius took to burning'. Jo had never tried this style before,
- contenting herself with very mild romances for _The Spread Eagle_. Her
- experience and miscellaneous reading were of service now, for they gave
- her some idea of dramatic effect, and supplied plot, language, and
- costumes. Her story was as full of desperation and despair as her
- limited acquaintance with those uncomfortable emotions enabled her to
- make it, and having located it in Lisbon, she wound up with an
- earthquake, as a striking and appropriate denouement. The manuscript
- was privately dispatched, accompanied by a note, modestly saying that
- if the tale didn't get the prize, which the writer hardly dared expect,
- she would be very glad to receive any sum it might be considered worth.
- Six weeks is a long time to wait, and a still longer time for a girl to
- keep a secret, but Jo did both, and was just beginning to give up all
- hope of ever seeing her manuscript again, when a letter arrived which
- almost took her breath away, for on opening it, a check for a hundred
- dollars fell into her lap. For a minute she stared at it as if it had
- been a snake, then she read her letter and began to cry. If the
- amiable gentleman who wrote that kindly note could have known what
- intense happiness he was giving a fellow creature, I think he would
- devote his leisure hours, if he has any, to that amusement, for Jo
- valued the letter more than the money, because it was encouraging, and
- after years of effort it was so pleasant to find that she had learned
- to do something, though it was only to write a sensation story.
- A prouder young woman was seldom seen than she, when, having composed
- herself, she electrified the family by appearing before them with the
- letter in one hand, the check in the other, announcing that she had won
- the prize. Of course there was a great jubilee, and when the story
- came everyone read and praised it, though after her father had told her
- that the language was good, the romance fresh and hearty, and the
- tragedy quite thrilling, he shook his head, and said in his unworldly
- way...
- "You can do better than this, Jo. Aim at the highest, and never mind
- the money."
- "I think the money is the best part of it. What will you do with such
- a fortune?" asked Amy, regarding the magic slip of paper with a
- reverential eye.
- "Send Beth and Mother to the seaside for a month or two," answered Jo
- promptly.
- To the seaside they went, after much discussion, and though Beth didn't
- come home as plump and rosy as could be desired, she was much better,
- while Mrs. March declared she felt ten years younger. So Jo was
- satisfied with the investment of her prize money, and fell to work with
- a cheery spirit, bent on earning more of those delightful checks. She
- did earn several that year, and began to feel herself a power in the
- house, for by the magic of a pen, her 'rubbish' turned into comforts
- for them all. The Duke's Daughter paid the butcher's bill, A Phantom
- Hand put down a new carpet, and the Curse of the Coventrys proved the
- blessing of the Marches in the way of groceries and gowns.
- Wealth is certainly a most desirable thing, but poverty has its sunny
- side, and one of the sweet uses of adversity is the genuine
- satisfaction which comes from hearty work of head or hand, and to the
- inspiration of necessity, we owe half the wise, beautiful, and useful
- blessings of the world. Jo enjoyed a taste of this satisfaction, and
- ceased to envy richer girls, taking great comfort in the knowledge that
- she could supply her own wants, and need ask no one for a penny.
- Little notice was taken of her stories, but they found a market, and
- encouraged by this fact, she resolved to make a bold stroke for fame
- and fortune. Having copied her novel for the fourth time, read it to
- all her confidential friends, and submitted it with fear and trembling
- to three publishers, she at last disposed of it, on condition that she
- would cut it down one third, and omit all the parts which she
- particularly admired.
- "Now I must either bundle it back in to my tin kitchen to mold, pay for
- printing it myself, or chop it up to suit purchasers and get what I can
- for it. Fame is a very good thing to have in the house, but cash is
- more convenient, so I wish to take the sense of the meeting on this
- important subject," said Jo, calling a family council.
- "Don't spoil your book, my girl, for there is more in it than you know,
- and the idea is well worked out. Let it wait and ripen," was her
- father's advice, and he practiced what he preached, having waited
- patiently thirty years for fruit of his own to ripen, and being in no
- haste to gather it even now when it was sweet and mellow.
- "It seems to me that Jo will profit more by taking the trial than by
- waiting," said Mrs. March. "Criticism is the best test of such work,
- for it will show her both unsuspected merits and faults, and help her
- to do better next time. We are too partial, but the praise and blame
- of outsiders will prove useful, even if she gets but little money."
- "Yes," said Jo, knitting her brows, "that's just it. I've been fussing
- over the thing so long, I really don't know whether it's good, bad, or
- indifferent. It will be a great help to have cool, impartial persons
- take a look at it, and tell me what they think of it."
- "I wouldn't leave a word out of it. You'll spoil it if you do, for the
- interest of the story is more in the minds than in the actions of the
- people, and it will be all a muddle if you don't explain as you go on,"
- said Meg, who firmly believed that this book was the most remarkable
- novel ever written.
- "But Mr. Allen says, 'Leave out the explanations, make it brief and
- dramatic, and let the characters tell the story'," interrupted Jo,
- turning to the publisher's note.
- "Do as he tells you. He knows what will sell, and we don't. Make a
- good, popular book, and get as much money as you can. By-and-by, when
- you've got a name, you can afford to digress, and have philosophical
- and metaphysical people in your novels," said Amy, who took a strictly
- practical view of the subject.
- "Well," said Jo, laughing, "if my people are 'philosophical and
- metaphysical', it isn't my fault, for I know nothing about such things,
- except what I hear father say, sometimes. If I've got some of his wise
- ideas jumbled up with my romance, so much the better for me. Now,
- Beth, what do you say?"
- "I should so like to see it printed soon," was all Beth said, and
- smiled in saying it. But there was an unconscious emphasis on the last
- word, and a wistful look in the eyes that never lost their childlike
- candor, which chilled Jo's heart for a minute with a forboding fear,
- and decided her to make her little venture 'soon'.
- So, with Spartan firmness, the young authoress laid her first-born on
- her table, and chopped it up as ruthlessly as any ogre. In the hope of
- pleasing everyone, she took everyone's advice, and like the old man and
- his donkey in the fable suited nobody.
- Her father liked the metaphysical streak which had unconsciously got
- into it, so that was allowed to remain though she had her doubts about
- it. Her mother thought that there was a trifle too much description.
- Out, therefore it came, and with it many necessary links in the story.
- Meg admired the tragedy, so Jo piled up the agony to suit her, while
- Amy objected to the fun, and, with the best intentions in life, Jo
- quenched the spritly scenes which relieved the somber character of the
- story. Then, to complicate the ruin, she cut it down one third, and
- confidingly sent the poor little romance, like a picked robin, out into
- the big, busy world to try its fate.
- Well, it was printed, and she got three hundred dollars for it,
- likewise plenty of praise and blame, both so much greater than she
- expected that she was thrown into a state of bewilderment from which it
- took her some time to recover.
- "You said, Mother, that criticism would help me. But how can it, when
- it's so contradictory that I don't know whether I've written a
- promising book or broken all the ten commandments?" cried poor Jo,
- turning over a heap of notices, the perusal of which filled her with
- pride and joy one minute, wrath and dismay the next. "This man says,
- 'An exquisite book, full of truth, beauty, and earnestness.' 'All is
- sweet, pure, and healthy.'" continued the perplexed authoress. "The
- next, 'The theory of the book is bad, full of morbid fancies,
- spiritualistic ideas, and unnatural characters.' Now, as I had no
- theory of any kind, don't believe in Spiritualism, and copied my
- characters from life, I don't see how this critic can be right.
- Another says, 'It's one of the best American novels which has appeared
- for years.' (I know better than that), and the next asserts that
- 'Though it is original, and written with great force and feeling, it is
- a dangerous book.' 'Tisn't! Some make fun of it, some overpraise, and
- nearly all insist that I had a deep theory to expound, when I only
- wrote it for the pleasure and the money. I wish I'd printed the whole
- or not at all, for I do hate to be so misjudged."
- Her family and friends administered comfort and commendation liberally.
- Yet it was a hard time for sensitive, high-spirited Jo, who meant so
- well and had apparently done so ill. But it did her good, for those
- whose opinion had real value gave her the criticism which is an
- author's best education, and when the first soreness was over, she
- could laugh at her poor little book, yet believe in it still, and feel
- herself the wiser and stronger for the buffeting she had received.
- "Not being a genius, like Keats, it won't kill me," she said stoutly,
- "and I've got the joke on my side, after all, for the parts that were
- taken straight out of real life are denounced as impossible and absurd,
- and the scenes that I made up out of my own silly head are pronounced
- 'charmingly natural, tender, and true'. So I'll comfort myself with
- that, and when I'm ready, I'll up again and take another."
- CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
- DOMESTIC EXPERIENCES
- Like most other young matrons, Meg began her married life with the
- determination to be a model housekeeper. John should find home a
- paradise, he should always see a smiling face, should fare sumptuously
- every day, and never know the loss of a button. She brought so much
- love, energy, and cheerfulness to the work that she could not but
- succeed, in spite of some obstacles. Her paradise was not a tranquil
- one, for the little woman fussed, was over-anxious to please, and
- bustled about like a true Martha, cumbered with many cares. She was
- too tired, sometimes, even to smile, John grew dyspeptic after a course
- of dainty dishes and ungratefully demanded plain fare. As for buttons,
- she soon learned to wonder where they went, to shake her head over the
- carelessness of men, and to threaten to make him sew them on himself,
- and see if his work would stand impatient and clumsy fingers any better
- than hers.
- They were very happy, even after they discovered that they couldn't
- live on love alone. John did not find Meg's beauty diminished, though
- she beamed at him from behind the familiar coffee pot. Nor did Meg
- miss any of the romance from the daily parting, when her husband
- followed up his kiss with the tender inquiry, "Shall I send some veal
- or mutton for dinner, darling?" The little house ceased to be a
- glorified bower, but it became a home, and the young couple soon felt
- that it was a change for the better. At first they played keep-house,
- and frolicked over it like children. Then John took steadily to
- business, feeling the cares of the head of a family upon his shoulders,
- and Meg laid by her cambric wrappers, put on a big apron, and fell to
- work, as before said, with more energy than discretion.
- While the cooking mania lasted she went through Mrs. Cornelius's
- Receipt Book as if it were a mathematical exercise, working out the
- problems with patience and care. Sometimes her family were invited in
- to help eat up a too bounteous feast of successes, or Lotty would be
- privately dispatched with a batch of failures, which were to be
- concealed from all eyes in the convenient stomachs of the little
- Hummels. An evening with John over the account books usually produced
- a temporary lull in the culinary enthusiasm, and a frugal fit would
- ensue, during which the poor man was put through a course of bread
- pudding, hash, and warmed-over coffee, which tried his soul, although
- he bore it with praiseworthy fortitude. Before the golden mean was
- found, however, Meg added to her domestic possessions what young
- couples seldom get on long without, a family jar.
- Fired a with housewifely wish to see her storeroom stocked with
- homemade preserves, she undertook to put up her own currant jelly. John
- was requested to order home a dozen or so of little pots and an extra
- quantity of sugar, for their own currants were ripe and were to be
- attended to at once. As John firmly believed that 'my wife' was equal
- to anything, and took a natural pride in her skill, he resolved that
- she should be gratified, and their only crop of fruit laid by in a most
- pleasing form for winter use. Home came four dozen delightful little
- pots, half a barrel of sugar, and a small boy to pick the currants for
- her. With her pretty hair tucked into a little cap, arms bared to the
- elbow, and a checked apron which had a coquettish look in spite of the
- bib, the young housewife fell to work, feeling no doubts about her
- success, for hadn't she seen Hannah do it hundreds of times? The array
- of pots rather amazed her at first, but John was so fond of jelly, and
- the nice little jars would look so well on the top shelf, that Meg
- resolved to fill them all, and spent a long day picking, boiling,
- straining, and fussing over her jelly. She did her best, she asked
- advice of Mrs. Cornelius, she racked her brain to remember what Hannah
- did that she left undone, she reboiled, resugared, and restrained, but
- that dreadful stuff wouldn't 'jell'.
- She longed to run home, bib and all, and ask Mother to lend her a hand,
- but John and she had agreed that they would never annoy anyone with
- their private worries, experiments, or quarrels. They had laughed over
- that last word as if the idea it suggested was a most preposterous one,
- but they had held to their resolve, and whenever they could get on
- without help they did so, and no one interfered, for Mrs. March had
- advised the plan. So Meg wrestled alone with the refractory sweetmeats
- all that hot summer day, and at five o'clock sat down in her
- topsy-turvey kitchen, wrung her bedaubed hands, lifted up her voice and
- wept.
- Now, in the first flush of the new life, she had often said, "My
- husband shall always feel free to bring a friend home whenever he
- likes. I shall always be prepared. There shall be no flurry, no
- scolding, no discomfort, but a neat house, a cheerful wife, and a good
- dinner. John, dear, never stop to ask my leave, invite whom you
- please, and be sure of a welcome from me."
- How charming that was, to be sure! John quite glowed with pride to
- hear her say it, and felt what a blessed thing it was to have a
- superior wife. But, although they had had company from time to time,
- it never happened to be unexpected, and Meg had never had an
- opportunity to distinguish herself till now. It always happens so in
- this vale of tears, there is an inevitability about such things which
- we can only wonder at, deplore, and bear as we best can.
- If John had not forgotten all about the jelly, it really would have
- been unpardonable in him to choose that day, of all the days in the
- year, to bring a friend home to dinner unexpectedly. Congratulating
- himself that a handsome repast had been ordered that morning, feeling
- sure that it would be ready to the minute, and indulging in pleasant
- anticipations of the charming effect it would produce, when his pretty
- wife came running out to meet him, he escorted his friend to his
- mansion, with the irrepressible satisfaction of a young host and
- husband.
- It is a world of disappointments, as John discovered when he reached
- the Dovecote. The front door usually stood hospitably open. Now it was
- not only shut, but locked, and yesterday's mud still adorned the steps.
- The parlor windows were closed and curtained, no picture of the pretty
- wife sewing on the piazza, in white, with a distracting little bow in
- her hair, or a bright-eyed hostess, smiling a shy welcome as she
- greeted her guest. Nothing of the sort, for not a soul appeared but a
- sanginary-looking boy asleep under the current bushes.
- "I'm afraid something has happened. Step into the garden, Scott, while
- I look up Mrs. Brooke," said John, alarmed at the silence and solitude.
- Round the house he hurried, led by a pungent smell of burned sugar, and
- Mr. Scott strolled after him, with a queer look on his face. He paused
- discreetly at a distance when Brooke disappeared, but he could both see
- and hear, and being a bachelor, enjoyed the prospect mightily.
- In the kitchen reigned confusion and despair. One edition of jelly was
- trickled from pot to pot, another lay upon the floor, and a third was
- burning gaily on the stove. Lotty, with Teutonic phlegm, was calmly
- eating bread and currant wine, for the jelly was still in a hopelessly
- liquid state, while Mrs. Brooke, with her apron over her head, sat
- sobbing dismally.
- "My dearest girl, what is the matter?" cried John, rushing in, with
- awful visions of scalded hands, sudden news of affliction, and secret
- consternation at the thought of the guest in the garden.
- "Oh, John, I am so tired and hot and cross and worried! I've been at
- it till I'm all worn out. Do come and help me or I shall die!" and the
- exhausted housewife cast herself upon his breast, giving him a sweet
- welcome in every sense of the word, for her pinafore had been baptized
- at the same time as the floor.
- "What worries you dear? Has anything dreadful happened?" asked the
- anxious John, tenderly kissing the crown of the little cap, which was
- all askew.
- "Yes," sobbed Meg despairingly.
- "Tell me quick, then. Don't cry. I can bear anything better than
- that. Out with it, love."
- "The... The jelly won't jell and I don't know what to do!"
- John Brooke laughed then as he never dared to laugh afterward, and the
- derisive Scott smiled involuntarily as he heard the hearty peal, which
- put the finishing stroke to poor Meg's woe.
- "Is that all? Fling it out of the window, and don't bother any more
- about it. I'll buy you quarts if you want it, but for heaven's sake
- don't have hysterics, for I've brought Jack Scott home to dinner,
- and..."
- John got no further, for Meg cast him off, and clasped her hands with a
- tragic gesture as she fell into a chair, exclaiming in a tone of
- mingled indignation, reproach, and dismay...
- "A man to dinner, and everything in a mess! John Brooke, how could you
- do such a thing?"
- "Hush, he's in the garden! I forgot the confounded jelly, but it can't
- be helped now," said John, surveying the prospect with an anxious eye.
- "You ought to have sent word, or told me this morning, and you ought to
- have remembered how busy I was," continued Meg petulantly, for even
- turtledoves will peck when ruffled.
- "I didn't know it this morning, and there was no time to send word, for
- I met him on the way out. I never thought of asking leave, when you
- have always told me to do as I liked. I never tried it before, and
- hang me if I ever do again!" added John, with an aggrieved air.
- "I should hope not! Take him away at once. I can't see him, and there
- isn't any dinner."
- "Well, I like that! Where's the beef and vegetables I sent home, and
- the pudding you promised?" cried John, rushing to the larder.
- "I hadn't time to cook anything. I meant to dine at Mother's. I'm
- sorry, but I was so busy," and Meg's tears began again.
- John was a mild man, but he was human, and after a long day's work to
- come home tired, hungry, and hopeful, to find a chaotic house, an empty
- table, and a cross wife was not exactly conducive to repose of mind or
- manner. He restrained himself however, and the little squall would
- have blown over, but for one unlucky word.
- "It's a scrape, I acknowledge, but if you will lend a hand, we'll pull
- through and have a good time yet. Don't cry, dear, but just exert
- yourself a bit, and fix us up something to eat. We're both as hungry
- as hunters, so we shan't mind what it is. Give us the cold meat, and
- bread and cheese. We won't ask for jelly."
- He meant it to be a good-natured joke, but that one word sealed his
- fate. Meg thought it was too cruel to hint about her sad failure, and
- the last atom of patience vanished as he spoke.
- "You must get yourself out of the scrape as you can. I'm too used up
- to 'exert' myself for anyone. It's like a man to propose a bone and
- vulgar bread and cheese for company. I won't have anything of the sort
- in my house. Take that Scott up to Mother's, and tell him I'm away,
- sick, dead, anything. I won't see him, and you two can laugh at me and
- my jelly as much as you like. You won't have anything else here." and
- having delivered her defiance all on one breath, Meg cast away her
- pinafore and precipitately left the field to bemoan herself in her own
- room.
- What those two creatures did in her absence, she never knew, but Mr.
- Scott was not taken 'up to Mother's', and when Meg descended, after
- they had strolled away together, she found traces of a promiscuous
- lunch which filled her with horror. Lotty reported that they had eaten
- "a much, and greatly laughed, and the master bid her throw away all the
- sweet stuff, and hide the pots."
- Meg longed to go and tell Mother, but a sense of shame at her own
- short-comings, of loyalty to John, "who might be cruel, but nobody
- should know it," restrained her, and after a summary cleaning up, she
- dressed herself prettily, and sat down to wait for John to come and be
- forgiven.
- Unfortunately, John didn't come, not seeing the matter in that light.
- He had carried it off as a good joke with Scott, excused his little
- wife as well as he could, and played the host so hospitably that his
- friend enjoyed the impromptu dinner, and promised to come again, but
- John was angry, though he did not show it, he felt that Meg had
- deserted him in his hour of need. "It wasn't fair to tell a man to
- bring folks home any time, with perfect freedom, and when he took you
- at your word, to flame up and blame him, and leave him in the lurch, to
- be laughed at or pitied. No, by George, it wasn't! And Meg must know
- it."
- He had fumed inwardly during the feast, but when the flurry was over
- and he strolled home after seeing Scott off, a milder mood came over
- him. "Poor little thing! It was hard upon her when she tried so
- heartily to please me. She was wrong, of course, but then she was
- young. I must be patient and teach her." He hoped she had not gone
- home--he hated gossip and interference. For a minute he was ruffled
- again at the mere thought of it, and then the fear that Meg would cry
- herself sick softened his heart, and sent him on at a quicker pace,
- resolving to be calm and kind, but firm, quite firm, and show her where
- she had failed in her duty to her spouse.
- Meg likewise resolved to be 'calm and kind, but firm', and show him his
- duty. She longed to run to meet him, and beg pardon, and be kissed and
- comforted, as she was sure of being, but, of course, she did nothing of
- the sort, and when she saw John coming, began to hum quite naturally,
- as she rocked and sewed, like a lady of leisure in her best parlor.
- John was a little disappointed not to find a tender Niobe, but feeling
- that his dignity demanded the first apology, he made none, only came
- leisurely in and laid himself upon the sofa with the singularly
- relevant remark, "We are going to have a new moon, my dear."
- "I've no objection," was Meg's equally soothing remark. A few other
- topics of general interest were introduced by Mr. Brooke and
- wet-blanketed by Mrs. Brooke, and conversation languished. John went
- to one window, unfolded his paper, and wrapped himself in it,
- figuratively speaking. Meg went to the other window, and sewed as if
- new rosettes for slippers were among the necessaries of life. Neither
- spoke. Both looked quite 'calm and firm', and both felt desperately
- uncomfortable.
- "Oh, dear," thought Meg, "married life is very trying, and does need
- infinite patience as well as love, as Mother says." The word 'Mother'
- suggested other maternal counsels given long ago, and received with
- unbelieving protests.
- "John is a good man, but he has his faults, and you must learn to see
- and bear with them, remembering your own. He is very decided, but
- never will be obstinate, if you reason kindly, not oppose impatiently.
- He is very accurate, and particular about the truth--a good trait,
- though you call him 'fussy'. Never deceive him by look or word, Meg,
- and he will give you the confidence you deserve, the support you need.
- He has a temper, not like ours--one flash and then all over--but the
- white, still anger that is seldom stirred, but once kindled is hard to
- quench. Be careful, be very careful, not to wake his anger against
- yourself, for peace and happiness depend on keeping his respect. Watch
- yourself, be the first to ask pardon if you both err, and guard against
- the little piques, misunderstandings, and hasty words that often pave
- the way for bitter sorrow and regret."
- These words came back to Meg, as she sat sewing in the sunset,
- especially the last. This was the first serious disagreement, her own
- hasty speeches sounded both silly and unkind, as she recalled them, her
- own anger looked childish now, and thoughts of poor John coming home to
- such a scene quite melted her heart. She glanced at him with tears in
- her eyes, but he did not see them. She put down her work and got up,
- thinking, "I will be the first to say, 'Forgive me'", but he did not
- seem to hear her. She went very slowly across the room, for pride was
- hard to swallow, and stood by him, but he did not turn his head. For a
- minute she felt as if she really couldn't do it, then came the thought,
- "This is the beginning. I'll do my part, and have nothing to reproach
- myself with," and stooping down, she softly kissed her husband on the
- forehead. Of course that settled it. The penitent kiss was better than
- a world of words, and John had her on his knee in a minute, saying
- tenderly...
- "It was too bad to laugh at the poor little jelly pots. Forgive me,
- dear. I never will again!"
- But he did, oh bless you, yes, hundreds of times, and so did Meg, both
- declaring that it was the sweetest jelly they ever made, for family
- peace was preserved in that little family jar.
- After this, Meg had Mr. Scott to dinner by special invitation, and
- served him up a pleasant feast without a cooked wife for the first
- course, on which occasion she was so gay and gracious, and made
- everything go off so charmingly, that Mr. Scott told John he was a
- lucky fellow, and shook his head over the hardships of bachelorhood all
- the way home.
- In the autumn, new trials and experiences came to Meg. Sallie Moffat
- renewed her friendship, was always running out for a dish of gossip at
- the little house, or inviting 'that poor dear' to come in and spend the
- day at the big house. It was pleasant, for in dull weather Meg often
- felt lonely. All were busy at home, John absent till night, and
- nothing to do but sew, or read, or potter about. So it naturally fell
- out that Meg got into the way of gadding and gossiping with her friend.
- Seeing Sallie's pretty things made her long for such, and pity herself
- because she had not got them. Sallie was very kind, and often offered
- her the coveted trifles, but Meg declined them, knowing that John
- wouldn't like it, and then this foolish little woman went and did what
- John disliked even worse.
- She knew her husband's income, and she loved to feel that he trusted
- her, not only with his happiness, but what some men seem to value
- more--his money. She knew where it was, was free to take what she
- liked, and all he asked was that she should keep account of every
- penny, pay bills once a month, and remember that she was a poor man's
- wife. Till now she had done well, been prudent and exact, kept her
- little account books neatly, and showed them to him monthly without
- fear. But that autumn the serpent got into Meg's paradise, and tempted
- her like many a modern Eve, not with apples, but with dress. Meg
- didn't like to be pitied and made to feel poor. It irritated her, but
- she was ashamed to confess it, and now and then she tried to console
- herself by buying something pretty, so that Sallie needn't think she
- had to economize. She always felt wicked after it, for the pretty
- things were seldom necessaries, but then they cost so little, it wasn't
- worth worrying about, so the trifles increased unconsciously, and in
- the shopping excursions she was no longer a passive looker-on.
- But the trifles cost more than one would imagine, and when she cast up
- her accounts at the end of the month the sum total rather scared her.
- John was busy that month and left the bills to her, the next month he
- was absent, but the third he had a grand quarterly settling up, and Meg
- never forgot it. A few days before she had done a dreadful thing, and
- it weighed upon her conscience. Sallie had been buying silks, and Meg
- longed for a new one, just a handsome light one for parties, her black
- silk was so common, and thin things for evening wear were only proper
- for girls. Aunt March usually gave the sisters a present of
- twenty-five dollars apiece at New Year's. That was only a month to
- wait, and here was a lovely violet silk going at a bargain, and she had
- the money, if she only dared to take it. John always said what was his
- was hers, but would he think it right to spend not only the prospective
- five-and-twenty, but another five-and-twenty out of the household fund?
- That was the question. Sallie had urged her to do it, had offered to
- lend the money, and with the best intentions in life had tempted Meg
- beyond her strength. In an evil moment the shopman held up the lovely,
- shimmering folds, and said, "A bargain, I assure, you, ma'am." She
- answered, "I'll take it," and it was cut off and paid for, and Sallie
- had exulted, and she had laughed as if it were a thing of no
- consequence, and driven away, feeling as if she had stolen something,
- and the police were after her.
- When she got home, she tried to assuage the pangs of remorse by
- spreading forth the lovely silk, but it looked less silvery now, didn't
- become her, after all, and the words 'fifty dollars' seemed stamped
- like a pattern down each breadth. She put it away, but it haunted her,
- not delightfully as a new dress should, but dreadfully like the ghost
- of a folly that was not easily laid. When John got out his books that
- night, Meg's heart sank, and for the first time in her married life,
- she was afraid of her husband. The kind, brown eyes looked as if they
- could be stern, and though he was unusually merry, she fancied he had
- found her out, but didn't mean to let her know it. The house bills
- were all paid, the books all in order. John had praised her, and was
- undoing the old pocketbook which they called the 'bank', when Meg,
- knowing that it was quite empty, stopped his hand, saying nervously...
- "You haven't seen my private expense book yet."
- John never asked to see it, but she always insisted on his doing so,
- and used to enjoy his masculine amazement at the queer things women
- wanted, and made him guess what piping was, demand fiercely the meaning
- of a hug-me-tight, or wonder how a little thing composed of three
- rosebuds, a bit of velvet, and a pair of strings, could possibly be a
- bonnet, and cost six dollars. That night he looked as if he would like
- the fun of quizzing her figures and pretending to be horrified at her
- extravagance, as he often did, being particularly proud of his prudent
- wife.
- The little book was brought slowly out and laid down before him. Meg
- got behind his chair under pretense of smoothing the wrinkles out of
- his tired forehead, and standing there, she said, with her panic
- increasing with every word...
- "John, dear, I'm ashamed to show you my book, for I've really been
- dreadfully extravagant lately. I go about so much I must have things,
- you know, and Sallie advised my getting it, so I did, and my New Year's
- money will partly pay for it, but I was sorry after I had done it, for
- I knew you'd think it wrong in me."
- John laughed, and drew her round beside him, saying goodhumoredly,
- "Don't go and hide. I won't beat you if you have got a pair of killing
- boots. I'm rather proud of my wife's feet, and don't mind if she does
- pay eight or nine dollars for her boots, if they are good ones."
- That had been one of her last 'trifles', and John's eye had fallen on
- it as he spoke. "Oh, what will he say when he comes to that awful
- fifty dollars!" thought Meg, with a shiver.
- "It's worse than boots, it's a silk dress," she said, with the calmness
- of desperation, for she wanted the worst over.
- "Well, dear, what is the 'dem'd total', as Mr. Mantalini says?"
- That didn't sound like John, and she knew he was looking up at her with
- the straightforward look that she had always been ready to meet and
- answer with one as frank till now. She turned the page and her head at
- the same time, pointing to the sum which would have been bad enough
- without the fifty, but which was appalling to her with that added. For
- a minute the room was very still, then John said slowly--but she could
- feel it cost him an effort to express no displeasure--. . .
- "Well, I don't know that fifty is much for a dress, with all the
- furbelows and notions you have to have to finish it off these days."
- "It isn't made or trimmed," sighed Meg, faintly, for a sudden
- recollection of the cost still to be incurred quite overwhelmed her.
- "Twenty-five yards of silk seems a good deal to cover one small woman,
- but I've no doubt my wife will look as fine as Ned Moffat's when she
- gets it on," said John dryly.
- "I know you are angry, John, but I can't help it. I don't mean to
- waste your money, and I didn't think those little things would count up
- so. I can't resist them when I see Sallie buying all she wants, and
- pitying me because I don't. I try to be contented, but it is hard, and
- I'm tired of being poor."
- The last words were spoken so low she thought he did not hear them, but
- he did, and they wounded him deeply, for he had denied himself many
- pleasures for Meg's sake. She could have bitten her tongue out the
- minute she had said it, for John pushed the books away and got up,
- saying with a little quiver in his voice, "I was afraid of this. I do
- my best, Meg." If he had scolded her, or even shaken her, it would not
- have broken her heart like those few words. She ran to him and held
- him close, crying, with repentant tears, "Oh, John, my dear, kind,
- hard-working boy. I didn't mean it! It was so wicked, so untrue and
- ungrateful, how could I say it! Oh, how could I say it!"
- He was very kind, forgave her readily, and did not utter one reproach,
- but Meg knew that she had done and said a thing which would not be
- forgotten soon, although he might never allude to it again. She had
- promised to love him for better or worse, and then she, his wife, had
- reproached him with his poverty, after spending his earnings
- recklessly. It was dreadful, and the worst of it was John went on so
- quietly afterward, just as if nothing had happened, except that he
- stayed in town later, and worked at night when she had gone to cry
- herself to sleep. A week of remorse nearly made Meg sick, and the
- discovery that John had countermanded the order for his new greatcoat
- reduced her to a state of despair which was pathetic to behold. He had
- simply said, in answer to her surprised inquiries as to the change, "I
- can't afford it, my dear."
- Meg said no more, but a few minutes after he found her in the hall with
- her face buried in the old greatcoat, crying as if her heart would
- break.
- They had a long talk that night, and Meg learned to love her husband
- better for his poverty, because it seemed to have made a man of him,
- given him the strength and courage to fight his own way, and taught him
- a tender patience with which to bear and comfort the natural longings
- and failures of those he loved.
- Next day she put her pride in her pocket, went to Sallie, told the
- truth, and asked her to buy the silk as a favor. The good-natured Mrs.
- Moffat willingly did so, and had the delicacy not to make her a present
- of it immediately afterward. Then Meg ordered home the greatcoat, and
- when John arrived, she put it on, and asked him how he liked her new
- silk gown. One can imagine what answer he made, how he received his
- present, and what a blissful state of things ensued. John came home
- early, Meg gadded no more, and that greatcoat was put on in the morning
- by a very happy husband, and taken off at night by a most devoted
- little wife. So the year rolled round, and at midsummer there came to
- Meg a new experience, the deepest and tenderest of a woman's life.
- Laurie came sneaking into the kitchen of the Dovecote one Saturday,
- with an excited face, and was received with the clash of cymbals, for
- Hannah clapped her hands with a saucepan in one and the cover in the
- other.
- "How's the little mamma? Where is everybody? Why didn't you tell me
- before I came home?" began Laurie in a loud whisper.
- "Happy as a queen, the dear! Every soul of 'em is upstairs a
- worshipin'. We didn't want no hurrycanes round. Now you go into the
- parlor, and I'll send 'em down to you," with which somewhat involved
- reply Hannah vanished, chuckling ecstatically.
- Presently Jo appeared, proudly bearing a flannel bundle laid forth upon
- a large pillow. Jo's face was very sober, but her eyes twinkled, and
- there was an odd sound in her voice of repressed emotion of some sort.
- "Shut your eyes and hold out your arms," she said invitingly.
- Laurie backed precipitately into a corner, and put his hands behind him
- with an imploring gesture. "No, thank you. I'd rather not. I shall
- drop it or smash it, as sure as fate."
- "Then you shan't see your nevvy," said Jo decidedly, turning as if to
- go.
- "I will, I will! Only you must be responsible for damages." and
- obeying orders, Laurie heroically shut his eyes while something was put
- into his arms. A peal of laughter from Jo, Amy, Mrs. March, Hannah,
- and John caused him to open them the next minute, to find himself
- invested with two babies instead of one.
- No wonder they laughed, for the expression of his face was droll enough
- to convulse a Quaker, as he stood and stared wildly from the
- unconscious innocents to the hilarious spectators with such dismay that
- Jo sat down on the floor and screamed.
- "Twins, by Jupiter!" was all he said for a minute, then turning to the
- women with an appealing look that was comically piteous, he added,
- "Take 'em quick, somebody! I'm going to laugh, and I shall drop 'em."
- Jo rescued his babies, and marched up and down, with one on each arm,
- as if already initiated into the mysteries of babytending, while Laurie
- laughed till the tears ran down his cheeks.
- "It's the best joke of the season, isn't it? I wouldn't have told you,
- for I set my heart on surprising you, and I flatter myself I've done
- it," said Jo, when she got her breath.
- "I never was more staggered in my life. Isn't it fun? Are they boys?
- What are you going to name them? Let's have another look. Hold me up,
- Jo, for upon my life it's one too many for me," returned Laurie,
- regarding the infants with the air of a big, benevolent Newfoundland
- looking at a pair of infantile kittens.
- "Boy and girl. Aren't they beauties?" said the proud papa, beaming
- upon the little red squirmers as if they were unfledged angels.
- "Most remarkable children I ever saw. Which is which?" and Laurie bent
- like a well-sweep to examine the prodigies.
- "Amy put a blue ribbon on the boy and a pink on the girl, French
- fashion, so you can always tell. Besides, one has blue eyes and one
- brown. Kiss them, Uncle Teddy," said wicked Jo.
- "I'm afraid they mightn't like it," began Laurie, with unusual timidity
- in such matters.
- "Of course they will, they are used to it now. Do it this minute,
- sir!" commanded Jo, fearing he might propose a proxy.
- Laurie screwed up his face and obeyed with a gingerly peck at each
- little cheek that produced another laugh, and made the babies squeal.
- "There, I knew they didn't like it! That's the boy, see him kick, he
- hits out with his fists like a good one. Now then, young Brooke, pitch
- into a man of your own size, will you?" cried Laurie, delighted with a
- poke in the face from a tiny fist, flapping aimlessly about.
- "He's to be named John Laurence, and the girl Margaret, after mother
- and grandmother. We shall call her Daisey, so as not to have two Megs,
- and I suppose the mannie will be Jack, unless we find a better name,"
- said Amy, with aunt-like interest.
- "Name him Demijohn, and call him Demi for short," said Laurie.
- "Daisy and Demi, just the thing! I knew Teddy would do it," cried Jo
- clapping her hands.
- Teddy certainly had done it that time, for the babies were 'Daisy' and
- 'Demi' to the end of the chapter.
- CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
- CALLS
- "Come, Jo, it's time."
- "For what?"
- "You don't mean to say you have forgotten that you promised to make
- half a dozen calls with me today?"
- "I've done a good many rash and foolish things in my life, but I don't
- think I ever was mad enough to say I'd make six calls in one day, when
- a single one upsets me for a week."
- "Yes, you did, it was a bargain between us. I was to finish the crayon
- of Beth for you, and you were to go properly with me, and return our
- neighbors' visits."
- "If it was fair, that was in the bond, and I stand to the letter of my
- bond, Shylock. There is a pile of clouds in the east, it's not fair,
- and I don't go."
- "Now, that's shirking. It's a lovely day, no prospect of rain, and you
- pride yourself on keeping promises, so be honorable, come and do your
- duty, and then be at peace for another six months."
- At that minute Jo was particularly absorbed in dressmaking, for she was
- mantua-maker general to the family, and took especial credit to herself
- because she could use a needle as well as a pen. It was very provoking
- to be arrested in the act of a first trying-on, and ordered out to make
- calls in her best array on a warm July day. She hated calls of the
- formal sort, and never made any till Amy compelled her with a bargain,
- bribe, or promise. In the present instance there was no escape, and
- having clashed her scissors rebelliously, while protesting that she
- smelled thunder, she gave in, put away her work, and taking up her hat
- and gloves with an air of resignation, told Amy the victim was ready.
- "Jo March, you are perverse enough to provoke a saint! You don't
- intend to make calls in that state, I hope," cried Amy, surveying her
- with amazement.
- "Why not? I'm neat and cool and comfortable, quite proper for a dusty
- walk on a warm day. If people care more for my clothes than they do
- for me, I don't wish to see them. You can dress for both, and be as
- elegant as you please. It pays for you to be fine. It doesn't for me,
- and furbelows only worry me."
- "Oh, dear!" sighed Amy, "now she's in a contrary fit, and will drive me
- distracted before I can get her properly ready. I'm sure it's no
- pleasure to me to go today, but it's a debt we owe society, and there's
- no one to pay it but you and me. I'll do anything for you, Jo, if
- you'll only dress yourself nicely, and come and help me do the civil.
- You can talk so well, look so aristocratic in your best things, and
- behave so beautifully, if you try, that I'm proud of you. I'm afraid
- to go alone, do come and take care of me."
- "You're an artful little puss to flatter and wheedle your cross old
- sister in that way. The idea of my being aristocratic and well-bred,
- and your being afraid to go anywhere alone! I don't know which is the
- most absurd. Well, I'll go if I must, and do my best. You shall be
- commander of the expedition, and I'll obey blindly, will that satisfy
- you?" said Jo, with a sudden change from perversity to lamblike
- submission.
- "You're a perfect cherub! Now put on all your best things, and I'll
- tell you how to behave at each place, so that you will make a good
- impression. I want people to like you, and they would if you'd only
- try to be a little more agreeable. Do your hair the pretty way, and
- put the pink rose in your bonnet. It's becoming, and you look too
- sober in your plain suit. Take your light gloves and the embroidered
- handkerchief. We'll stop at Meg's, and borrow her white sunshade, and
- then you can have my dove-colored one."
- While Amy dressed, she issued her orders, and Jo obeyed them, not
- without entering her protest, however, for she sighed as she rustled
- into her new organdie, frowned darkly at herself as she tied her bonnet
- strings in an irreproachable bow, wrestled viciously with pins as she
- put on her collar, wrinkled up her features generally as she shook out
- the handkerchief, whose embroidery was as irritating to her nose as the
- present mission was to her feelings, and when she had squeezed her
- hands into tight gloves with three buttons and a tassel, as the last
- touch of elegance, she turned to Amy with an imbecile expression of
- countenance, saying meekly...
- "I'm perfectly miserable, but if you consider me presentable, I die
- happy."
- "You're highly satisfactory. Turn slowly round, and let me get a
- careful view." Jo revolved, and Amy gave a touch here and there, then
- fell back, with her head on one side, observing graciously, "Yes,
- you'll do. Your head is all I could ask, for that white bonnet with
- the rose is quite ravishing. Hold back your shoulders, and carry your
- hands easily, no matter if your gloves do pinch. There's one thing you
- can do well, Jo, that is, wear a shawl. I can't, but it's very nice to
- see you, and I'm so glad Aunt March gave you that lovely one. It's
- simple, but handsome, and those folds over the arm are really artistic.
- Is the point of my mantle in the middle, and have I looped my dress
- evenly? I like to show my boots, for my feet are pretty, though my nose
- isn't."
- "You are a thing of beauty and a joy forever," said Jo, looking through
- her hand with the air of a connoisseur at the blue feather against the
- golden hair. "Am I to drag my best dress through the dust, or loop it
- up, please, ma'am?"
- "Hold it up when you walk, but drop it in the house. The sweeping
- style suits you best, and you must learn to trail your skirts
- gracefully. You haven't half buttoned one cuff, do it at once. You'll
- never look finished if you are not careful about the little details,
- for they make up the pleasing whole."
- Jo sighed, and proceeded to burst the buttons off her glove, in doing
- up her cuff, but at last both were ready, and sailed away, looking as
- 'pretty as picters', Hannah said, as she hung out of the upper window
- to watch them.
- "Now, Jo dear, the Chesters consider themselves very elegant people, so
- I want you to put on your best deportment. Don't make any of your
- abrupt remarks, or do anything odd, will you? Just be calm, cool, and
- quiet, that's safe and ladylike, and you can easily do it for fifteen
- minutes," said Amy, as they approached the first place, having borrowed
- the white parasol and been inspected by Meg, with a baby on each arm.
- "Let me see. 'Calm, cool, and quiet', yes, I think I can promise that.
- I've played the part of a prim young lady on the stage, and I'll try it
- off. My powers are great, as you shall see, so be easy in your mind,
- my child."
- Amy looked relieved, but naughty Jo took her at her word, for during
- the first call she sat with every limb gracefully composed, every fold
- correctly draped, calm as a summer sea, cool as a snowbank, and as
- silent as the sphinx. In vain Mrs. Chester alluded to her 'charming
- novel', and the Misses Chester introduced parties, picnics, the opera,
- and the fashions. Each and all were answered by a smile, a bow, and a
- demure "Yes" or "No" with the chill on. In vain Amy telegraphed the
- word 'talk', tried to draw her out, and administered covert pokes with
- her foot. Jo sat as if blandly unconscious of it all, with deportment
- like Maud's face, 'icily regular, splendidly null'.
- "What a haughty, uninteresting creature that oldest Miss March is!" was
- the unfortunately audible remark of one of the ladies, as the door
- closed upon their guests. Jo laughed noiselessly all through the hall,
- but Amy looked disgusted at the failure of her instructions, and very
- naturally laid the blame upon Jo.
- "How could you mistake me so? I merely meant you to be properly
- dignified and composed, and you made yourself a perfect stock and
- stone. Try to be sociable at the Lambs'. Gossip as other girls do,
- and be interested in dress and flirtations and whatever nonsense comes
- up. They move in the best society, are valuable persons for us to
- know, and I wouldn't fail to make a good impression there for anything."
- "I'll be agreeable. I'll gossip and giggle, and have horrors and
- raptures over any trifle you like. I rather enjoy this, and now I'll
- imitate what is called 'a charming girl'. I can do it, for I have May
- Chester as a model, and I'll improve upon her. See if the Lambs don't
- say, 'What a lively, nice creature that Jo March is!"
- Amy felt anxious, as well she might, for when Jo turned freakish there
- was no knowing where she would stop. Amy's face was a study when she
- saw her sister skim into the next drawing room, kiss all the young
- ladies with effusion, beam graciously upon the young gentlemen, and
- join in the chat with a spirit which amazed the beholder. Amy was taken
- possession of by Mrs. Lamb, with whom she was a favorite, and forced to
- hear a long account of Lucretia's last attack, while three delightful
- young gentlemen hovered near, waiting for a pause when they might rush
- in and rescue her. So situated, she was powerless to check Jo, who
- seemed possessed by a spirit of mischief, and talked away as volubly as
- the lady. A knot of heads gathered about her, and Amy strained her
- ears to hear what was going on, for broken sentences filled her with
- curiosity, and frequent peals of laughter made her wild to share the
- fun. One may imagine her suffering on overhearing fragments of this
- sort of conversation.
- "She rides splendidly. Who taught her?"
- "No one. She used to practice mounting, holding the reins, and sitting
- straight on an old saddle in a tree. Now she rides anything, for she
- doesn't know what fear is, and the stableman lets her have horses cheap
- because she trains them to carry ladies so well. She has such a
- passion for it, I often tell her if everything else fails, she can be a
- horsebreaker, and get her living so."
- At this awful speech Amy contained herself with difficulty, for the
- impression was being given that she was rather a fast young lady, which
- was her especial aversion. But what could she do? For the old lady
- was in the middle of her story, and long before it was done, Jo was off
- again, making more droll revelations and committing still more fearful
- blunders.
- "Yes, Amy was in despair that day, for all the good beasts were gone,
- and of three left, one was lame, one blind, and the other so balky that
- you had to put dirt in his mouth before he would start. Nice animal for
- a pleasure party, wasn't it?"
- "Which did she choose?" asked one of the laughing gentlemen, who
- enjoyed the subject.
- "None of them. She heard of a young horse at the farm house over the
- river, and though a lady had never ridden him, she resolved to try,
- because he was handsome and spirited. Her struggles were really
- pathetic. There was no one to bring the horse to the saddle, so she
- took the saddle to the horse. My dear creature, she actually rowed it
- over the river, put it on her head, and marched up to the barn to the
- utter amazement of the old man!"
- "Did she ride the horse?"
- "Of course she did, and had a capital time. I expected to see her
- brought home in fragments, but she managed him perfectly, and was the
- life of the party."
- "Well, I call that plucky!" and young Mr. Lamb turned an approving
- glance upon Amy, wondering what his mother could be saying to make the
- girl look so red and uncomfortable.
- She was still redder and more uncomfortable a moment after, when a
- sudden turn in the conversation introduced the subject of dress. One
- of the young ladies asked Jo where she got the pretty drab hat she wore
- to the picnic and stupid Jo, instead of mentioning the place where it
- was bought two years ago, must needs answer with unnecessary frankness,
- "Oh, Amy painted it. You can't buy those soft shades, so we paint ours
- any color we like. It's a great comfort to have an artistic sister."
- "Isn't that an original idea?" cried Miss Lamb, who found Jo great fun.
- "That's nothing compared to some of her brilliant performances. There's
- nothing the child can't do. Why, she wanted a pair of blue boots for
- Sallie's party, so she just painted her soiled white ones the loveliest
- shade of sky blue you ever saw, and they looked exactly like satin,"
- added Jo, with an air of pride in her sister's accomplishments that
- exasperated Amy till she felt that it would be a relief to throw her
- cardcase at her.
- "We read a story of yours the other day, and enjoyed it very much,"
- observed the elder Miss Lamb, wishing to compliment the literary lady,
- who did not look the character just then, it must be confessed.
- Any mention of her 'works' always had a bad effect upon Jo, who either
- grew rigid and looked offended, or changed the subject with a brusque
- remark, as now. "Sorry you could find nothing better to read. I write
- that rubbish because it sells, and ordinary people like it. Are you
- going to New York this winter?"
- As Miss Lamb had 'enjoyed' the story, this speech was not exactly
- grateful or complimentary. The minute it was made Jo saw her mistake,
- but fearing to make the matter worse, suddenly remembered that it was
- for her to make the first move toward departure, and did so with an
- abruptness that left three people with half-finished sentences in their
- mouths.
- "Amy, we must go. Good-by, dear, do come and see us. We are pining
- for a visit. I don't dare to ask you, Mr. Lamb, but if you should
- come, I don't think I shall have the heart to send you away."
- Jo said this with such a droll imitation of May Chester's gushing style
- that Amy got out of the room as rapidly as possible, feeling a strong
- desire to laugh and cry at the same time.
- "Didn't I do well?" asked Jo, with a satisfied air as they walked away.
- "Nothing could have been worse," was Amy's crushing reply. "What
- possessed you to tell those stories about my saddle, and the hats and
- boots, and all the rest of it?"
- "Why, it's funny, and amuses people. They know we are poor, so it's no
- use pretending that we have grooms, buy three or four hats a season,
- and have things as easy and fine as they do."
- "You needn't go and tell them all our little shifts, and expose our
- poverty in that perfectly unnecessary way. You haven't a bit of proper
- pride, and never will learn when to hold your tongue and when to
- speak," said Amy despairingly.
- Poor Jo looked abashed, and silently chafed the end of her nose with
- the stiff handkerchief, as if performing a penance for her misdemeanors.
- "How shall I behave here?" she asked, as they approached the third
- mansion.
- "Just as you please. I wash my hands of you," was Amy's short answer.
- "Then I'll enjoy myself. The boys are at home, and we'll have a
- comfortable time. Goodness knows I need a little change, for elegance
- has a bad effect upon my constitution," returned Jo gruffly, being
- disturbed by her failure to suit.
- An enthusiastic welcome from three big boys and several pretty children
- speedily soothed her ruffled feelings, and leaving Amy to entertain the
- hostess and Mr. Tudor, who happened to be calling likewise, Jo devoted
- herself to the young folks and found the change refreshing. She
- listened to college stories with deep interest, caressed pointers and
- poodles without a murmur, agreed heartily that "Tom Brown was a brick,"
- regardless of the improper form of praise, and when one lad proposed a
- visit to his turtle tank, she went with an alacrity which caused Mamma
- to smile upon her, as that motherly lady settled the cap which was left
- in a ruinous condition by filial hugs, bearlike but affectionate, and
- dearer to her than the most faultless coiffure from the hands of an
- inspired Frenchwoman.
- Leaving her sister to her own devices, Amy proceeded to enjoy herself
- to her heart's content. Mr. Tudor's uncle had married an English lady
- who was third cousin to a living lord, and Amy regarded the whole
- family with great respect, for in spite of her American birth and
- breeding, she possessed that reverence for titles which haunts the best
- of us--that unacknowledged loyalty to the early faith in kings which
- set the most democratic nation under the sun in ferment at the coming
- of a royal yellow-haired laddie, some years ago, and which still has
- something to do with the love the young country bears the old, like
- that of a big son for an imperious little mother, who held him while
- she could, and let him go with a farewell scolding when he rebelled.
- But even the satisfaction of talking with a distant connection of the
- British nobility did not render Amy forgetful of time, and when the
- proper number of minutes had passed, she reluctantly tore herself from
- this aristocratic society, and looked about for Jo, fervently hoping
- that her incorrigible sister would not be found in any position which
- should bring disgrace upon the name of March.
- It might have been worse, but Amy considered it bad. For Jo sat on the
- grass, with an encampment of boys about her, and a dirty-footed dog
- reposing on the skirt of her state and festival dress, as she related
- one of Laurie's pranks to her admiring audience. One small child was
- poking turtles with Amy's cherished parasol, a second was eating
- gingerbread over Jo's best bonnet, and a third playing ball with her
- gloves, but all were enjoying themselves, and when Jo collected her
- damaged property to go, her escort accompanied her, begging her to come
- again, "It was such fun to hear about Laurie's larks."
- "Capital boys, aren't they? I feel quite young and brisk again after
- that." said Jo, strolling along with her hands behind her, partly from
- habit, partly to conceal the bespattered parasol.
- "Why do you always avoid Mr. Tudor?" asked Amy, wisely refraining from
- any comment upon Jo's dilapidated appearance.
- "Don't like him, he puts on airs, snubs his sisters, worries his
- father, and doesn't speak respectfully of his mother. Laurie says he
- is fast, and I don't consider him a desirable acquaintance, so I let
- him alone."
- "You might treat him civilly, at least. You gave him a cool nod, and
- just now you bowed and smiled in the politest way to Tommy Chamberlain,
- whose father keeps a grocery store. If you had just reversed the nod
- and the bow, it would have been right," said Amy reprovingly.
- "No, it wouldn't," returned Jo, "I neither like, respect, nor admire
- Tudor, though his grandfather's uncle's nephew's niece was a third
- cousin to a lord. Tommy is poor and bashful and good and very clever.
- I think well of him, and like to show that I do, for he is a gentleman
- in spite of the brown paper parcels."
- "It's no use trying to argue with you," began Amy.
- "Not the least, my dear," interrupted Jo, "so let us look amiable, and
- drop a card here, as the Kings are evidently out, for which I'm deeply
- grateful."
- The family cardcase having done its duty the girls walked on, and Jo
- uttered another thanksgiving on reaching the fifth house, and being
- told that the young ladies were engaged.
- "Now let us go home, and never mind Aunt March today. We can run down
- there any time, and it's really a pity to trail through the dust in our
- best bibs and tuckers, when we are tired and cross."
- "Speak for yourself, if you please. Aunt March likes to have us pay
- her the compliment of coming in style, and making a formal call. It's a
- little thing to do, but it gives her pleasure, and I don't believe it
- will hurt your things half so much as letting dirty dogs and clumping
- boys spoil them. Stoop down, and let me take the crumbs off of your
- bonnet."
- "What a good girl you are, Amy!" said Jo, with a repentant glance from
- her own damaged costume to that of her sister, which was fresh and
- spotless still. "I wish it was as easy for me to do little things to
- please people as it is for you. I think of them, but it takes too much
- time to do them, so I wait for a chance to confer a great favor, and
- let the small ones slip, but they tell best in the end, I fancy."
- Amy smiled and was mollified at once, saying with a maternal air,
- "Women should learn to be agreeable, particularly poor ones, for they
- have no other way of repaying the kindnesses they receive. If you'd
- remember that, and practice it, you'd be better liked than I am,
- because there is more of you."
- "I'm a crotchety old thing, and always shall be, but I'm willing to own
- that you are right, only it's easier for me to risk my life for a
- person than to be pleasant to him when I don't feel like it. It's a
- great misfortune to have such strong likes and dislikes, isn't it?"
- "It's a greater not to be able to hide them. I don't mind saying that
- I don't approve of Tudor any more than you do, but I'm not called upon
- to tell him so. Neither are you, and there is no use in making
- yourself disagreeable because he is."
- "But I think girls ought to show when they disapprove of young men, and
- how can they do it except by their manners? Preaching does not do any
- good, as I know to my sorrow, since I've had Teddie to manage. But
- there are many little ways in which I can influence him without a word,
- and I say we ought to do it to others if we can."
- "Teddy is a remarkable boy, and can't be taken as a sample of other
- boys," said Amy, in a tone of solemn conviction, which would have
- convulsed the 'remarkable boy' if he had heard it. "If we were belles,
- or women of wealth and position, we might do something, perhaps, but
- for us to frown at one set of young gentlemen because we don't approve
- of them, and smile upon another set because we do, wouldn't have a
- particle of effect, and we should only be considered odd and
- puritanical."
- "So we are to countenance things and people which we detest, merely
- because we are not belles and millionaires, are we? That's a nice sort
- of morality."
- "I can't argue about it, I only know that it's the way of the world,
- and people who set themselves against it only get laughed at for their
- pains. I don't like reformers, and I hope you never try to be one."
- "I do like them, and I shall be one if I can, for in spite of the
- laughing the world would never get on without them. We can't agree
- about that, for you belong to the old set, and I to the new. You will
- get on the best, but I shall have the liveliest time of it. I should
- rather enjoy the brickbats and hooting, I think."
- "Well, compose yourself now, and don't worry Aunt with your new ideas."
- "I'll try not to, but I'm always possessed to burst out with some
- particularly blunt speech or revolutionary sentiment before her. It's
- my doom, and I can't help it."
- They found Aunt Carrol with the old lady, both absorbed in some very
- interesting subject, but they dropped it as the girls came in, with a
- conscious look which betrayed that they had been talking about their
- nieces. Jo was not in a good humor, and the perverse fit returned, but
- Amy, who had virtuously done her duty, kept her temper and pleased
- everybody, was in a most angelic frame of mind. This amiable spirit
- was felt at once, and both aunts 'my deared' her affectionately,
- looking what they afterward said emphatically, "That child improves
- every day."
- "Are you going to help about the fair, dear?" asked Mrs. Carrol, as Amy
- sat down beside her with the confiding air elderly people like so well
- in the young.
- "Yes, Aunt. Mrs. Chester asked me if I would, and I offered to tend a
- table, as I have nothing but my time to give."
- "I'm not," put in Jo decidedly. "I hate to be patronized, and the
- Chesters think it's a great favor to allow us to help with their highly
- connected fair. I wonder you consented, Amy, they only want you to
- work."
- "I am willing to work. It's for the freedmen as well as the Chesters,
- and I think it very kind of them to let me share the labor and the fun.
- Patronage does not trouble me when it is well meant."
- "Quite right and proper. I like your grateful spirit, my dear. It's a
- pleasure to help people who appreciate our efforts. Some do not, and
- that is trying," observed Aunt March, looking over her spectacles at
- Jo, who sat apart, rocking herself, with a somewhat morose expression.
- If Jo had only known what a great happiness was wavering in the balance
- for one of them, she would have turned dove-like in a minute, but
- unfortunately, we don't have windows in our breasts, and cannot see
- what goes on in the minds of our friends. Better for us that we cannot
- as a general thing, but now and then it would be such a comfort, such a
- saving of time and temper. By her next speech, Jo deprived herself of
- several years of pleasure, and received a timely lesson in the art of
- holding her tongue.
- "I don't like favors, they oppress and make me feel like a slave. I'd
- rather do everything for myself, and be perfectly independent."
- "Ahem!" coughed Aunt Carrol softly, with a look at Aunt March.
- "I told you so," said Aunt March, with a decided nod to Aunt Carrol.
- Mercifully unconscious of what she had done, Jo sat with her nose in
- the air, and a revolutionary aspect which was anything but inviting.
- "Do you speak French, dear?" asked Mrs. Carrol, laying a hand on Amy's.
- "Pretty well, thanks to Aunt March, who lets Esther talk to me as often
- as I like," replied Amy, with a grateful look, which caused the old
- lady to smile affably.
- "How are you about languages?" asked Mrs. Carrol of Jo.
- "Don't know a word. I'm very stupid about studying anything, can't
- bear French, it's such a slippery, silly sort of language," was the
- brusque reply.
- Another look passed between the ladies, and Aunt March said to Amy,
- "You are quite strong and well now, dear, I believe? Eyes don't
- trouble you any more, do they?"
- "Not at all, thank you, ma'am. I'm very well, and mean to do great
- things next winter, so that I may be ready for Rome, whenever that
- joyful time arrives."
- "Good girl! You deserve to go, and I'm sure you will some day," said
- Aunt March, with an approving pat on the head, as Amy picked up her
- ball for her.
- Crosspatch, draw the latch,
- Sit by the fire and spin,
- squalled Polly, bending down from his perch on the back of her chair to
- peep into Jo's face, with such a comical air of impertinent inquiry
- that it was impossible to help laughing.
- "Most observing bird," said the old lady.
- "Come and take a walk, my dear?" cried Polly, hopping toward the china
- closet, with a look suggestive of a lump of sugar.
- "Thank you, I will. Come Amy." and Jo brought the visit to an end,
- feeling more strongly than ever that calls did have a bad effect upon
- her constitution. She shook hands in a gentlemanly manner, but Amy
- kissed both the aunts, and the girls departed, leaving behind them the
- impression of shadow and sunshine, which impression caused Aunt March
- to say, as they vanished...
- "You'd better do it, Mary. I'll supply the money." and Aunt Carrol to
- reply decidedly, "I certainly will, if her father and mother consent."
- CHAPTER THIRTY
- CONSEQUENCES
- Mrs. Chester's fair was so very elegant and select that it was
- considered a great honor by the young ladies of the neighborhood to be
- invited to take a table, and everyone was much interested in the
- matter. Amy was asked, but Jo was not, which was fortunate for all
- parties, as her elbows were decidedly akimbo at this period of her
- life, and it took a good many hard knocks to teach her how to get on
- easily. The 'haughty, uninteresting creature' was let severely alone,
- but Amy's talent and taste were duly complimented by the offer of the
- art table, and she exerted herself to prepare and secure appropriate
- and valuable contributions to it.
- Everything went on smoothly till the day before the fair opened, then
- there occurred one of the little skirmishes which it is almost
- impossible to avoid, when some five-and-twenty women, old and young,
- with all their private piques and prejudices, try to work together.
- May Chester was rather jealous of Amy because the latter was a greater
- favorite than herself, and just at this time several trifling
- circumstances occurred to increase the feeling. Amy's dainty
- pen-and-ink work entirely eclipsed May's painted vases--that was one
- thorn. Then the all conquering Tudor had danced four times with Amy at
- a late party and only once with May--that was thorn number two. But
- the chief grievance that rankled in her soul, and gave an excuse for
- her unfriendly conduct, was a rumor which some obliging gossip had
- whispered to her, that the March girls had made fun of her at the
- Lambs'. All the blame of this should have fallen upon Jo, for her
- naughty imitation had been too lifelike to escape detection, and the
- frolicsome Lambs had permitted the joke to escape. No hint of this had
- reached the culprits, however, and Amy's dismay can be imagined, when,
- the very evening before the fair, as she was putting the last touches
- to her pretty table, Mrs. Chester, who, of course, resented the
- supposed ridicule of her daughter, said, in a bland tone, but with a
- cold look...
- "I find, dear, that there is some feeling among the young ladies about
- my giving this table to anyone but my girls. As this is the most
- prominent, and some say the most attractive table of all, and they are
- the chief getters-up of the fair, it is thought best for them to take
- this place. I'm sorry, but I know you are too sincerely interested in
- the cause to mind a little personal disappointment, and you shall have
- another table if you like."
- Mrs. Chester fancied beforehand that it would be easy to deliver this
- little speech, but when the time came, she found it rather difficult to
- utter it naturally, with Amy's unsuspicious eyes looking straight at
- her full of surprise and trouble.
- Amy felt that there was something behind this, but could not guess
- what, and said quietly, feeling hurt, and showing that she did,
- "Perhaps you had rather I took no table at all?"
- "Now, my dear, don't have any ill feeling, I beg. It's merely a matter
- of expediency, you see, my girls will naturally take the lead, and this
- table is considered their proper place. I think it very appropriate to
- you, and feel very grateful for your efforts to make it so pretty, but
- we must give up our private wishes, of course, and I will see that you
- have a good place elsewhere. Wouldn't you like the flower table? The
- little girls undertook it, but they are discouraged. You could make a
- charming thing of it, and the flower table is always attractive you
- know."
- "Especially to gentlemen," added May, with a look which enlightened Amy
- as to one cause of her sudden fall from favor. She colored angrily,
- but took no other notice of that girlish sarcasm, and answered with
- unexpected amiability...
- "It shall be as you please, Mrs. Chester. I'll give up my place here
- at once, and attend to the flowers, if you like."
- "You can put your own things on your own table, if you prefer," began
- May, feeling a little conscience-stricken, as she looked at the pretty
- racks, the painted shells, and quaint illuminations Amy had so
- carefully made and so gracefully arranged. She meant it kindly, but
- Amy mistook her meaning, and said quickly...
- "Oh, certainly, if they are in your way," and sweeping her
- contributions into her apron, pell-mell, she walked off, feeling that
- herself and her works of art had been insulted past forgiveness.
- "Now she's mad. Oh, dear, I wish I hadn't asked you to speak, Mama,"
- said May, looking disconsolately at the empty spaces on her table.
- "Girls' quarrels are soon over," returned her mother, feeling a trifle
- ashamed of her own part in this one, as well she might.
- The little girls hailed Amy and her treasures with delight, which
- cordial reception somewhat soothed her perturbed spirit, and she fell
- to work, determined to succeed florally, if she could not artistically.
- But everything seemed against her. It was late, and she was tired.
- Everyone was too busy with their own affairs to help her, and the
- little girls were only hindrances, for the dears fussed and chattered
- like so many magpies, making a great deal of confusion in their artless
- efforts to preserve the most perfect order. The evergreen arch
- wouldn't stay firm after she got it up, but wiggled and threatened to
- tumble down on her head when the hanging baskets were filled. Her best
- tile got a splash of water, which left a sepia tear on the Cupid's
- cheek. She bruised her hands with hammering, and got cold working in a
- draft, which last affliction filled her with apprehensions for the
- morrow. Any girl reader who has suffered like afflictions will
- sympathize with poor Amy and wish her well through her task.
- There was great indignation at home when she told her story that
- evening. Her mother said it was a shame, but told her she had done
- right. Beth declared she wouldn't go to the fair at all, and Jo
- demanded why she didn't take all her pretty things and leave those mean
- people to get on without her.
- "Because they are mean is no reason why I should be. I hate such
- things, and though I think I've a right to be hurt, I don't intend to
- show it. They will feel that more than angry speeches or huffy
- actions, won't they, Marmee?"
- "That's the right spirit, my dear. A kiss for a blow is always best,
- though it's not very easy to give it sometimes," said her mother, with
- the air of one who had learned the difference between preaching and
- practicing.
- In spite of various very natural temptations to resent and retaliate,
- Amy adhered to her resolution all the next day, bent on conquering her
- enemy by kindness. She began well, thanks to a silent reminder that
- came to her unexpectedly, but most opportunely. As she arranged her
- table that morning, while the little girls were in the anteroom filling
- the baskets, she took up her pet production, a little book, the antique
- cover of which her father had found among his treasures, and in which
- on leaves of vellum she had beautifully illuminated different texts.
- As she turned the pages rich in dainty devices with very pardonable
- pride, her eye fell upon one verse that made her stop and think.
- Framed in a brilliant scrollwork of scarlet, blue and gold, with little
- spirits of good will helping one another up and down among the thorns
- and flowers, were the words, "Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself."
- "I ought, but I don't," thought Amy, as her eye went from the bright
- page to May's discontented face behind the big vases, that could not
- hide the vacancies her pretty work had once filled. Amy stood a
- minute, turning the leaves in her hand, reading on each some sweet
- rebuke for all heartburnings and uncharitableness of spirit. Many wise
- and true sermons are preached us every day by unconscious ministers in
- street, school, office, or home. Even a fair table may become a
- pulpit, if it can offer the good and helpful words which are never out
- of season. Amy's conscience preached her a little sermon from that
- text, then and there, and she did what many of us do not always do,
- took the sermon to heart, and straightway put it in practice.
- A group of girls were standing about May's table, admiring the pretty
- things, and talking over the change of saleswomen. They dropped their
- voices, but Amy knew they were speaking of her, hearing one side of the
- story and judging accordingly. It was not pleasant, but a better
- spirit had come over her, and presently a chance offered for proving
- it. She heard May say sorrowfully...
- "It's too bad, for there is no time to make other things, and I don't
- want to fill up with odds and ends. The table was just complete then.
- Now it's spoiled."
- "I dare say she'd put them back if you asked her," suggested someone.
- "How could I after all the fuss?" began May, but she did not finish,
- for Amy's voice came across the hall, saying pleasantly...
- "You may have them, and welcome, without asking, if you want them. I
- was just thinking I'd offer to put them back, for they belong to your
- table rather than mine. Here they are, please take them, and forgive
- me if I was hasty in carrying them away last night."
- As she spoke, Amy returned her contribution, with a nod and a smile,
- and hurried away again, feeling that it was easier to do a friendly
- thing than it was to stay and be thanked for it.
- "Now, I call that lovely of her, don't you?" cried one girl.
- May's answer was inaudible, but another young lady, whose temper was
- evidently a little soured by making lemonade, added, with a
- disagreeable laugh, "Very lovely, for she knew she wouldn't sell them
- at her own table."
- Now, that was hard. When we make little sacrifices we like to have
- them appreciated, at least, and for a minute Amy was sorry she had done
- it, feeling that virtue was not always its own reward. But it is, as
- she presently discovered, for her spirits began to rise, and her table
- to blossom under her skillful hands, the girls were very kind, and that
- one little act seemed to have cleared the atmosphere amazingly.
- It was a very long day and a hard one for Amy, as she sat behind her
- table, often quite alone, for the little girls deserted very soon. Few
- cared to buy flowers in summer, and her bouquets began to droop long
- before night.
- The art table was the most attractive in the room. There was a crowd
- about it all day long, and the tenders were constantly flying to and
- fro with important faces and rattling money boxes. Amy often looked
- wistfully across, longing to be there, where she felt at home and
- happy, instead of in a corner with nothing to do. It might seem no
- hardship to some of us, but to a pretty, blithe young girl, it was not
- only tedious, but very trying, and the thought of Laurie and his
- friends made it a real martyrdom.
- She did not go home till night, and then she looked so pale and quiet
- that they knew the day had been a hard one, though she made no
- complaint, and did not even tell what she had done. Her mother gave
- her an extra cordial cup of tea. Beth helped her dress, and made a
- charming little wreath for her hair, while Jo astonished her family by
- getting herself up with unusual care, and hinting darkly that the
- tables were about to be turned.
- "Don't do anything rude, pray Jo; I won't have any fuss made, so let it
- all pass and behave yourself," begged Amy, as she departed early,
- hoping to find a reinforcement of flowers to refresh her poor little
- table.
- "I merely intend to make myself entrancingly agreeable to every one I
- know, and to keep them in your corner as long as possible. Teddy and
- his boys will lend a hand, and we'll have a good time yet." returned
- Jo, leaning over the gate to watch for Laurie. Presently the familiar
- tramp was heard in the dusk, and she ran out to meet him.
- "Is that my boy?"
- "As sure as this is my girl!" and Laurie tucked her hand under his arm
- with the air of a man whose every wish was gratified.
- "Oh, Teddy, such doings!" and Jo told Amy's wrongs with sisterly zeal.
- "A flock of our fellows are going to drive over by-and-by, and I'll be
- hanged if I don't make them buy every flower she's got, and camp down
- before her table afterward," said Laurie, espousing her cause with
- warmth.
- "The flowers are not at all nice, Amy says, and the fresh ones may not
- arrive in time. I don't wish to be unjust or suspicious, but I
- shouldn't wonder if they never came at all. When people do one mean
- thing they are very likely to do another," observed Jo in a disgusted
- tone.
- "Didn't Hayes give you the best out of our gardens? I told him to."
- "I didn't know that, he forgot, I suppose, and, as your grandpa was
- poorly, I didn't like to worry him by asking, though I did want some."
- "Now, Jo, how could you think there was any need of asking? They are
- just as much yours as mine. Don't we always go halves in everything?"
- began Laurie, in the tone that always made Jo turn thorny.
- "Gracious, I hope not! Half of some of your things wouldn't suit me at
- all. But we mustn't stand philandering here. I've got to help Amy, so
- you go and make yourself splendid, and if you'll be so very kind as to
- let Hayes take a few nice flowers up to the Hall, I'll bless you
- forever."
- "Couldn't you do it now?" asked Laurie, so suggestively that Jo shut
- the gate in his face with inhospitable haste, and called through the
- bars, "Go away, Teddy, I'm busy."
- Thanks to the conspirators, the tables were turned that night, for
- Hayes sent up a wilderness of flowers, with a loverly basket arranged
- in his best manner for a centerpiece. Then the March family turned out
- en masse, and Jo exerted herself to some purpose, for people not only
- came, but stayed, laughing at her nonsense, admiring Amy's taste, and
- apparently enjoying themselves very much. Laurie and his friends
- gallantly threw themselves into the breach, bought up the bouquets,
- encamped before the table, and made that corner the liveliest spot in
- the room. Amy was in her element now, and out of gratitude, if nothing
- more, was as spritely and gracious as possible, coming to the
- conclusion, about that time, that virtue was its own reward, after all.
- Jo behaved herself with exemplary propriety, and when Amy was happily
- surrounded by her guard of honor, Jo circulated about the Hall, picking
- up various bits of gossip, which enlightened her upon the subject of
- the Chester change of base. She reproached herself for her share of
- the ill feeling and resolved to exonerate Amy as soon as possible. She
- also discovered what Amy had done about the things in the morning, and
- considered her a model of magnanimity. As she passed the art table,
- she glanced over it for her sister's things, but saw no sign of them.
- "Tucked away out of sight, I dare say," thought Jo, who could forgive
- her own wrongs, but hotly resented any insult offered her family.
- "Good evening, Miss Jo. How does Amy get on?" asked May with a
- conciliatory air, for she wanted to show that she also could be
- generous.
- "She has sold everything she had that was worth selling, and now she is
- enjoying herself. The flower table is always attractive, you know,
- 'especially to gentlemen'." Jo couldn't resist giving that little slap,
- but May took it so meekly she regretted it a minute after, and fell to
- praising the great vases, which still remained unsold.
- "Is Amy's illumination anywhere about? I took a fancy to buy that for
- Father," said Jo, very anxious to learn the fate of her sister's work.
- "Everything of Amy's sold long ago. I took care that the right people
- saw them, and they made a nice little sum of money for us," returned
- May, who had overcome sundry small temptations, as well as Amy had,
- that day.
- Much gratified, Jo rushed back to tell the good news, and Amy looked
- both touched and surprised by the report of May's word and manner.
- "Now, gentlemen, I want you to go and do your duty by the other tables
- as generously as you have by mine, especially the art table," she said,
- ordering out 'Teddy's own', as the girls called the college friends.
- "'Charge, Chester, charge!' is the motto for that table, but do your
- duty like men, and you'll get your money's worth of art in every sense
- of the word," said the irrepressible Jo, as the devoted phalanx
- prepared to take the field.
- "To hear is to obey, but March is fairer far than May," said little
- Parker, making a frantic effort to be both witty and tender, and
- getting promptly quenched by Laurie, who said...
- "Very well, my son, for a small boy!" and walked him off, with a
- paternal pat on the head.
- "Buy the vases," whispered Amy to Laurie, as a final heaping of coals
- of fire on her enemy's head.
- To May's great delight, Mr. Laurence not only bought the vases, but
- pervaded the hall with one under each arm. The other gentlemen
- speculated with equal rashness in all sorts of frail trifles, and
- wandered helplessly about afterward, burdened with wax flowers, painted
- fans, filigree portfolios, and other useful and appropriate purchases.
- Aunt Carrol was there, heard the story, looked pleased, and said
- something to Mrs. March in a corner, which made the latter lady beam
- with satisfaction, and watch Amy with a face full of mingled pride and
- anxiety, though she did not betray the cause of her pleasure till
- several days later.
- The fair was pronounced a success, and when May bade Amy goodnight, she
- did not gush as usual, but gave her an affectionate kiss, and a look
- which said 'forgive and forget'. That satisfied Amy, and when she got
- home she found the vases paraded on the parlor chimney piece with a
- great bouquet in each. "The reward of merit for a magnanimous March,"
- as Laurie announced with a flourish.
- "You've a deal more principle and generosity and nobleness of character
- than I ever gave you credit for, Amy. You've behaved sweetly, and I
- respect you with all my heart," said Jo warmly, as they brushed their
- hair together late that night.
- "Yes, we all do, and love her for being so ready to forgive. It must
- have been dreadfully hard, after working so long and setting your heart
- on selling your own pretty things. I don't believe I could have done
- it as kindly as you did," added Beth from her pillow.
- "Why, girls, you needn't praise me so. I only did as I'd be done by.
- You laugh at me when I say I want to be a lady, but I mean a true
- gentlewoman in mind and manners, and I try to do it as far as I know
- how. I can't explain exactly, but I want to be above the little
- meannesses and follies and faults that spoil so many women. I'm far
- from it now, but I do my best, and hope in time to be what Mother is."
- Amy spoke earnestly, and Jo said, with a cordial hug, "I understand now
- what you mean, and I'll never laugh at you again. You are getting on
- faster than you think, and I'll take lessons of you in true politeness,
- for you've learned the secret, I believe. Try away, deary, you'll get
- your reward some day, and no one will be more delighted than I shall."
- A week later Amy did get her reward, and poor Jo found it hard to be
- delighted. A letter came from Aunt Carrol, and Mrs. March's face was
- illuminated to such a degree when she read it that Jo and Beth, who
- were with her, demanded what the glad tidings were.
- "Aunt Carrol is going abroad next month, and wants..."
- "Me to go with her!" burst in Jo, flying out of her chair in an
- uncontrollable rapture.
- "No, dear, not you. It's Amy."
- "Oh, Mother! She's too young, it's my turn first. I've wanted it so
- long. It would do me so much good, and be so altogether splendid. I
- must go!"
- "I'm afraid it's impossible, Jo. Aunt says Amy, decidedly, and it is
- not for us to dictate when she offers such a favor."
- "It's always so. Amy has all the fun and I have all the work. It isn't
- fair, oh, it isn't fair!" cried Jo passionately.
- "I'm afraid it's partly your own fault, dear. When Aunt spoke to me
- the other day, she regretted your blunt manners and too independent
- spirit, and here she writes, as if quoting something you had said--'I
- planned at first to ask Jo, but as 'favors burden her', and she 'hates
- French', I think I won't venture to invite her. Amy is more docile,
- will make a good companion for Flo, and receive gratefully any help the
- trip may give her."
- "Oh, my tongue, my abominable tongue! Why can't I learn to keep it
- quiet?" groaned Jo, remembering words which had been her undoing. When
- she had heard the explanation of the quoted phrases, Mrs. March said
- sorrowfully...
- "I wish you could have gone, but there is no hope of it this time, so
- try to bear it cheerfully, and don't sadden Amy's pleasure by
- reproaches or regrets."
- "I'll try," said Jo, winking hard as she knelt down to pick up the
- basket she had joyfully upset. "I'll take a leaf out of her book, and
- try not only to seem glad, but to be so, and not grudge her one minute
- of happiness. But it won't be easy, for it is a dreadful
- disappointment," and poor Jo bedewed the little fat pincushion she held
- with several very bitter tears.
- "Jo, dear, I'm very selfish, but I couldn't spare you, and I'm glad you
- are not going quite yet," whispered Beth, embracing her, basket and
- all, with such a clinging touch and loving face that Jo felt comforted
- in spite of the sharp regret that made her want to box her own ears,
- and humbly beg Aunt Carrol to burden her with this favor, and see how
- gratefully she would bear it.
- By the time Amy came in, Jo was able to take her part in the family
- jubilation, not quite as heartily as usual, perhaps, but without
- repinings at Amy's good fortune. The young lady herself received the
- news as tidings of great joy, went about in a solemn sort of rapture,
- and began to sort her colors and pack her pencils that evening, leaving
- such trifles as clothes, money, and passports to those less absorbed in
- visions of art than herself.
- "It isn't a mere pleasure trip to me, girls," she said impressively, as
- she scraped her best palette. "It will decide my career, for if I have
- any genius, I shall find it out in Rome, and will do something to prove
- it."
- "Suppose you haven't?" said Jo, sewing away, with red eyes, at the new
- collars which were to be handed over to Amy.
- "Then I shall come home and teach drawing for my living," replied the
- aspirant for fame, with philosophic composure. But she made a wry face
- at the prospect, and scratched away at her palette as if bent on
- vigorous measures before she gave up her hopes.
- "No, you won't. You hate hard work, and you'll marry some rich man,
- and come home to sit in the lap of luxury all your days," said Jo.
- "Your predictions sometimes come to pass, but I don't believe that one
- will. I'm sure I wish it would, for if I can't be an artist myself, I
- should like to be able to help those who are," said Amy, smiling, as if
- the part of Lady Bountiful would suit her better than that of a poor
- drawing teacher.
- "Hum!" said Jo, with a sigh. "If you wish it you'll have it, for your
- wishes are always granted--mine never."
- "Would you like to go?" asked Amy, thoughtfully patting her nose with
- her knife.
- "Rather!"
- "Well, in a year or two I'll send for you, and we'll dig in the Forum
- for relics, and carry out all the plans we've made so many times."
- "Thank you. I'll remind you of your promise when that joyful day
- comes, if it ever does," returned Jo, accepting the vague but
- magnificent offer as gratefully as she could.
- There was not much time for preparation, and the house was in a ferment
- till Amy was off. Jo bore up very well till the last flutter of blue
- ribbon vanished, when she retired to her refuge, the garret, and cried
- till she couldn't cry any more. Amy likewise bore up stoutly till the
- steamer sailed. Then just as the gangway was about to be withdrawn, it
- suddenly came over her that a whole ocean was soon to roll between her
- and those who loved her best, and she clung to Laurie, the last
- lingerer, saying with a sob...
- "Oh, take care of them for me, and if anything should happen..."
- "I will, dear, I will, and if anything happens, I'll come and comfort
- you," whispered Laurie, little dreaming that he would be called upon to
- keep his word.
- So Amy sailed away to find the Old World, which is always new and
- beautiful to young eyes, while her father and friend watched her from
- the shore, fervently hoping that none but gentle fortunes would befall
- the happy-hearted girl, who waved her hand to them till they could see
- nothing but the summer sunshine dazzling on the sea.
- CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
- OUR FOREIGN CORRESPONDENT
- London
- Dearest People, Here I really sit at a front window of the Bath Hotel,
- Piccadilly. It's not a fashionable place, but Uncle stopped here years
- ago, and won't go anywhere else. However, we don't mean to stay long,
- so it's no great matter. Oh, I can't begin to tell you how I enjoy it
- all! I never can, so I'll only give you bits out of my notebook, for
- I've done nothing but sketch and scribble since I started.
- I sent a line from Halifax, when I felt pretty miserable, but after
- that I got on delightfully, seldom ill, on deck all day, with plenty of
- pleasant people to amuse me. Everyone was very kind to me, especially
- the officers. Don't laugh, Jo, gentlemen really are very necessary
- aboard ship, to hold on to, or to wait upon one, and as they have
- nothing to do, it's a mercy to make them useful, otherwise they would
- smoke themselves to death, I'm afraid.
- Aunt and Flo were poorly all the way, and liked to be let alone, so
- when I had done what I could for them, I went and enjoyed myself. Such
- walks on deck, such sunsets, such splendid air and waves! It was
- almost as exciting as riding a fast horse, when we went rushing on so
- grandly. I wish Beth could have come, it would have done her so much
- good. As for Jo, she would have gone up and sat on the maintop jib, or
- whatever the high thing is called, made friends with the engineers, and
- tooted on the captain's speaking trumpet, she'd have been in such a
- state of rapture.
- It was all heavenly, but I was glad to see the Irish coast, and found
- it very lovely, so green and sunny, with brown cabins here and there,
- ruins on some of the hills, and gentlemen's countryseats in the
- valleys, with deer feeding in the parks. It was early in the morning,
- but I didn't regret getting up to see it, for the bay was full of
- little boats, the shore so picturesque, and a rosy sky overhead. I
- never shall forget it.
- At Queenstown one of my new acquaintances left us, Mr. Lennox, and when
- I said something about the Lakes of Killarney, he sighed, and sung,
- with a look at me...
- "Oh, have you e'er heard of Kate Kearney?
- She lives on the banks of Killarney;
- From the glance of her eye,
- Shun danger and fly,
- For fatal's the glance of Kate Kearney."
- Wasn't that nonsensical?
- We only stopped at Liverpool a few hours. It's a dirty, noisy place,
- and I was glad to leave it. Uncle rushed out and bought a pair of
- dogskin gloves, some ugly, thick shoes, and an umbrella, and got shaved
- _à la_ mutton chop, the first thing. Then he flattered himself that he
- looked like a true Briton, but the first time he had the mud cleaned
- off his shoes, the little bootblack knew that an American stood in
- them, and said, with a grin, "There yer har, sir. I've given 'em the
- latest Yankee shine." It amused Uncle immensely. Oh, I must tell you
- what that absurd Lennox did! He got his friend Ward, who came on with
- us, to order a bouquet for me, and the first thing I saw in my room was
- a lovely one, with "Robert Lennox's compliments," on the card. Wasn't
- that fun, girls? I like traveling.
- I never shall get to London if I don't hurry. The trip was like riding
- through a long picture gallery, full of lovely landscapes. The
- farmhouses were my delight, with thatched roofs, ivy up to the eaves,
- latticed windows, and stout women with rosy children at the doors. The
- very cattle looked more tranquil than ours, as they stood knee-deep in
- clover, and the hens had a contented cluck, as if they never got
- nervous like Yankee biddies. Such perfect color I never saw, the grass
- so green, sky so blue, grain so yellow, woods so dark, I was in a
- rapture all the way. So was Flo, and we kept bouncing from one side to
- the other, trying to see everything while we were whisking along at the
- rate of sixty miles an hour. Aunt was tired and went to sleep, but
- Uncle read his guidebook, and wouldn't be astonished at anything. This
- is the way we went on. Amy, flying up--"Oh, that must be Kenilworth,
- that gray place among the trees!" Flo, darting to my window--"How
- sweet! We must go there sometime, won't we Papa?" Uncle, calmly
- admiring his boots--"No, my dear, not unless you want beer, that's a
- brewery."
- A pause--then Flo cried out, "Bless me, there's a gallows and a man
- going up." "Where, where?" shrieks Amy, staring out at two tall posts
- with a crossbeam and some dangling chains. "A colliery," remarks
- Uncle, with a twinkle of the eye. "Here's a lovely flock of lambs all
- lying down," says Amy. "See, Papa, aren't they pretty?" added Flo
- sentimentally. "Geese, young ladies," returns Uncle, in a tone that
- keeps us quiet till Flo settles down to enjoy the _Flirtations of
- Captain Cavendish_, and I have the scenery all to myself.
- Of course it rained when we got to London, and there was nothing to be
- seen but fog and umbrellas. We rested, unpacked, and shopped a little
- between the showers. Aunt Mary got me some new things, for I came off
- in such a hurry I wasn't half ready. A white hat and blue feather, a
- muslin dress to match, and the loveliest mantle you ever saw. Shopping
- in Regent Street is perfectly splendid. Things seem so cheap, nice
- ribbons only sixpence a yard. I laid in a stock, but shall get my
- gloves in Paris. Doesn't that sound sort of elegant and rich?
- Flo and I, for the fun of it, ordered a hansom cab, while Aunt and
- Uncle were out, and went for a drive, though we learned afterward that
- it wasn't the thing for young ladies to ride in them alone. It was so
- droll! For when we were shut in by the wooden apron, the man drove so
- fast that Flo was frightened, and told me to stop him, but he was up
- outside behind somewhere, and I couldn't get at him. He didn't hear me
- call, nor see me flap my parasol in front, and there we were, quite
- helpless, rattling away, and whirling around corners at a breakneck
- pace. At last, in my despair, I saw a little door in the roof, and on
- poking it open, a red eye appeared, and a beery voice said...
- "Now, then, mum?"
- I gave my order as soberly as I could, and slamming down the door, with
- an "Aye, aye, mum," the man made his horse walk, as if going to a
- funeral. I poked again and said, "A little faster," then off he went,
- helter-skelter as before, and we resigned ourselves to our fate.
- Today was fair, and we went to Hyde Park, close by, for we are more
- aristocratic than we look. The Duke of Devonshire lives near. I often
- see his footmen lounging at the back gate, and the Duke of Wellington's
- house is not far off. Such sights as I saw, my dear! It was as good
- as Punch, for there were fat dowagers rolling about in their red and
- yellow coaches, with gorgeous Jeameses in silk stockings and velvet
- coats, up behind, and powdered coachmen in front. Smart maids, with
- the rosiest children I ever saw, handsome girls, looking half asleep,
- dandies in queer English hats and lavender kids lounging about, and
- tall soldiers, in short red jackets and muffin caps stuck on one side,
- looking so funny I longed to sketch them.
- Rotten Row means 'Route de Roi', or the king's way, but now it's more
- like a riding school than anything else. The horses are splendid, and
- the men, especially the grooms, ride well, but the women are stiff, and
- bounce, which isn't according to our rules. I longed to show them a
- tearing American gallop, for they trotted solemnly up and down, in
- their scant habits and high hats, looking like the women in a toy
- Noah's Ark. Everyone rides--old men, stout ladies, little
- children--and the young folks do a deal of flirting here, I saw a pair
- exchange rose buds, for it's the thing to wear one in the button-hole,
- and I thought it rather a nice little idea.
- In the P.M. to Westminster Abbey, but don't expect me to describe it,
- that's impossible, so I'll only say it was sublime! This evening we are
- going to see Fechter, which will be an appropriate end to the happiest
- day of my life.
- It's very late, but I can't let my letter go in the morning without
- telling you what happened last evening. Who do you think came in, as
- we were at tea? Laurie's English friends, Fred and Frank Vaughn! I
- was so surprised, for I shouldn't have known them but for the cards.
- Both are tall fellows with whiskers, Fred handsome in the English
- style, and Frank much better, for he only limps slightly, and uses no
- crutches. They had heard from Laurie where we were to be, and came to
- ask us to their house, but Uncle won't go, so we shall return the call,
- and see them as we can. They went to the theater with us, and we did
- have such a good time, for Frank devoted himself to Flo, and Fred and I
- talked over past, present, and future fun as if we had known each other
- all our days. Tell Beth Frank asked for her, and was sorry to hear of
- her ill health. Fred laughed when I spoke of Jo, and sent his
- 'respectful compliments to the big hat'. Neither of them had forgotten
- Camp Laurence, or the fun we had there. What ages ago it seems,
- doesn't it?
- Aunt is tapping on the wall for the third time, so I must stop. I
- really feel like a dissipated London fine lady, writing here so late,
- with my room full of pretty things, and my head a jumble of parks,
- theaters, new gowns, and gallant creatures who say "Ah!" and twirl
- their blond mustaches with the true English lordliness. I long to see
- you all, and in spite of my nonsense am, as ever, your loving...
- AMY
- PARIS
- Dear girls,
- In my last I told you about our London visit, how kind the Vaughns
- were, and what pleasant parties they made for us. I enjoyed the trips
- to Hampton Court and the Kensington Museum more than anything else, for
- at Hampton I saw Raphael's cartoons, and at the Museum, rooms full of
- pictures by Turner, Lawrence, Reynolds, Hogarth, and the other great
- creatures. The day in Richmond Park was charming, for we had a regular
- English picnic, and I had more splendid oaks and groups of deer than I
- could copy, also heard a nightingale, and saw larks go up. We 'did'
- London to our heart's content, thanks to Fred and Frank, and were sorry
- to go away, for though English people are slow to take you in, when
- they once make up their minds to do it they cannot be outdone in
- hospitality, I think. The Vaughns hope to meet us in Rome next winter,
- and I shall be dreadfully disappointed if they don't, for Grace and I
- are great friends, and the boys very nice fellows, especially Fred.
- Well, we were hardly settled here, when he turned up again, saying he
- had come for a holiday, and was going to Switzerland. Aunt looked sober
- at first, but he was so cool about it she couldn't say a word. And now
- we get on nicely, and are very glad he came, for he speaks French like
- a native, and I don't know what we should do without him. Uncle
- doesn't know ten words, and insists on talking English very loud, as if
- it would make people understand him. Aunt's pronunciation is
- old-fashioned, and Flo and I, though we flattered ourselves that we
- knew a good deal, find we don't, and are very grateful to have Fred do
- the '_parley vooing_', as Uncle calls it.
- Such delightful times as we are having! Sight-seeing from morning till
- night, stopping for nice lunches in the gay _cafes_, and meeting with
- all sorts of droll adventures. Rainy days I spend in the Louvre,
- revelling in pictures. Jo would turn up her naughty nose at some of
- the finest, because she has no soul for art, but I have, and I'm
- cultivating eye and taste as fast as I can. She would like the relics
- of great people better, for I've seen her Napoleon's cocked hat and
- gray coat, his baby's cradle and his old toothbrush, also Marie
- Antoinette's little shoe, the ring of Saint Denis, Charlemagne's sword,
- and many other interesting things. I'll talk for hours about them when
- I come, but haven't time to write.
- The Palais Royale is a heavenly place, so full of _bijouterie_ and
- lovely things that I'm nearly distracted because I can't buy them.
- Fred wanted to get me some, but of course I didn't allow it. Then the
- Bois and Champs Elysees are _tres magnifique_. I've seen the imperial
- family several times, the emperor an ugly, hard-looking man, the
- empress pale and pretty, but dressed in bad taste, I thought--purple
- dress, green hat, and yellow gloves. Little Nap is a handsome boy, who
- sits chatting to his tutor, and kisses his hand to the people as he
- passes in his four-horse barouche, with postilions in red satin jackets
- and a mounted guard before and behind.
- We often walk in the Tuileries Gardens, for they are lovely, though the
- antique Luxembourg Gardens suit me better. Pere la Chaise is very
- curious, for many of the tombs are like small rooms, and looking in,
- one sees a table, with images or pictures of the dead, and chairs for
- the mourners to sit in when they come to lament. That is so Frenchy.
- Our rooms are on the Rue de Rivoli, and sitting on the balcony, we look
- up and down the long, brilliant street. It is so pleasant that we
- spend our evenings talking there when too tired with our day's work to
- go out. Fred is very entertaining, and is altogether the most
- agreeable young man I ever knew--except Laurie, whose manners are more
- charming. I wish Fred was dark, for I don't fancy light men, however,
- the Vaughns are very rich and come of an excellent family, so I won't
- find fault with their yellow hair, as my own is yellower.
- Next week we are off to Germany and Switzerland, and as we shall travel
- fast, I shall only be able to give you hasty letters. I keep my diary,
- and try to 'remember correctly and describe clearly all that I see and
- admire', as Father advised. It is good practice for me, and with my
- sketchbook will give you a better idea of my tour than these scribbles.
- Adieu, I embrace you tenderly. _"Votre Amie."_
- HEIDELBERG
- My dear Mamma,
- Having a quiet hour before we leave for Berne, I'll try to tell you
- what has happened, for some of it is very important, as you will see.
- The sail up the Rhine was perfect, and I just sat and enjoyed it with
- all my might. Get Father's old guidebooks and read about it. I
- haven't words beautiful enough to describe it. At Coblentz we had a
- lovely time, for some students from Bonn, with whom Fred got acquainted
- on the boat, gave us a serenade. It was a moonlight night, and about
- one o'clock Flo and I were waked by the most delicious music under our
- windows. We flew up, and hid behind the curtains, but sly peeps showed
- us Fred and the students singing away down below. It was the most
- romantic thing I ever saw--the river, the bridge of boats, the great
- fortress opposite, moonlight everywhere, and music fit to melt a heart
- of stone.
- When they were done we threw down some flowers, and saw them scramble
- for them, kiss their hands to the invisible ladies, and go laughing
- away, to smoke and drink beer, I suppose. Next morning Fred showed me
- one of the crumpled flowers in his vest pocket, and looked very
- sentimental. I laughed at him, and said I didn't throw it, but Flo,
- which seemed to disgust him, for he tossed it out of the window, and
- turned sensible again. I'm afraid I'm going to have trouble with that
- boy, it begins to look like it.
- The baths at Nassau were very gay, so was Baden-Baden, where Fred lost
- some money, and I scolded him. He needs someone to look after him when
- Frank is not with him. Kate said once she hoped he'd marry soon, and I
- quite agree with her that it would be well for him. Frankfurt was
- delightful. I saw Goethe's house, Schiller's statue, and Dannecker's
- famous 'Ariadne.' It was very lovely, but I should have enjoyed it
- more if I had known the story better. I didn't like to ask, as
- everyone knew it or pretended they did. I wish Jo would tell me all
- about it. I ought to have read more, for I find I don't know anything,
- and it mortifies me.
- Now comes the serious part, for it happened here, and Fred has just
- gone. He has been so kind and jolly that we all got quite fond of him.
- I never thought of anything but a traveling friendship till the
- serenade night. Since then I've begun to feel that the moonlight
- walks, balcony talks, and daily adventures were something more to him
- than fun. I haven't flirted, Mother, truly, but remembered what you
- said to me, and have done my very best. I can't help it if people like
- me. I don't try to make them, and it worries me if I don't care for
- them, though Jo says I haven't got any heart. Now I know Mother will
- shake her head, and the girls say, "Oh, the mercenary little wretch!",
- but I've made up my mind, and if Fred asks me, I shall accept him,
- though I'm not madly in love. I like him, and we get on comfortably
- together. He is handsome, young, clever enough, and very rich--ever so
- much richer than the Laurences. I don't think his family would object,
- and I should be very happy, for they are all kind, well-bred, generous
- people, and they like me. Fred, as the eldest twin, will have the
- estate, I suppose, and such a splendid one it is! A city house in a
- fashionable street, not so showy as our big houses, but twice as
- comfortable and full of solid luxury, such as English people believe
- in. I like it, for it's genuine. I've seen the plate, the family
- jewels, the old servants, and pictures of the country place, with its
- park, great house, lovely grounds, and fine horses. Oh, it would be
- all I should ask! And I'd rather have it than any title such as girls
- snap up so readily, and find nothing behind. I may be mercenary, but I
- hate poverty, and don't mean to bear it a minute longer than I can
- help. One of us _must_ marry well. Meg didn't, Jo won't, Beth can't
- yet, so I shall, and make everything okay all round. I wouldn't marry
- a man I hated or despised. You may be sure of that, and though Fred is
- not my model hero, he does very well, and in time I should get fond
- enough of him if he was very fond of me, and let me do just as I liked.
- So I've been turning the matter over in my mind the last week, for it
- was impossible to help seeing that Fred liked me. He said nothing, but
- little things showed it. He never goes with Flo, always gets on my
- side of the carriage, table, or promenade, looks sentimental when we
- are alone, and frowns at anyone else who ventures to speak to me.
- Yesterday at dinner, when an Austrian officer stared at us and then
- said something to his friend, a rakish-looking baron, about '_ein
- wonderschones Blondchen'_, Fred looked as fierce as a lion, and cut his
- meat so savagely it nearly flew off his plate. He isn't one of the
- cool, stiff Englishmen, but is rather peppery, for he has Scotch blood
- in him, as one might guess from his bonnie blue eyes.
- Well, last evening we went up to the castle about sunset, at least all
- of us but Fred, who was to meet us there after going to the Post
- Restante for letters. We had a charming time poking about the ruins,
- the vaults where the monster tun is, and the beautiful gardens made by
- the elector long ago for his English wife. I liked the great terrace
- best, for the view was divine, so while the rest went to see the rooms
- inside, I sat there trying to sketch the gray stone lion's head on the
- wall, with scarlet woodbine sprays hanging round it. I felt as if I'd
- got into a romance, sitting there, watching the Neckar rolling through
- the valley, listening to the music of the Austrian band below, and
- waiting for my lover, like a real storybook girl. I had a feeling that
- something was going to happen and I was ready for it. I didn't feel
- blushy or quakey, but quite cool and only a little excited.
- By-and-by I heard Fred's voice, and then he came hurrying through the
- great arch to find me. He looked so troubled that I forgot all about
- myself, and asked what the matter was. He said he'd just got a letter
- begging him to come home, for Frank was very ill. So he was going at
- once on the night train and only had time to say good-by. I was very
- sorry for him, and disappointed for myself, but only for a minute
- because he said, as he shook hands, and said it in a way that I could
- not mistake, "I shall soon come back, you won't forget me, Amy?"
- I didn't promise, but I looked at him, and he seemed satisfied, and
- there was no time for anything but messages and good-byes, for he was
- off in an hour, and we all miss him very much. I know he wanted to
- speak, but I think, from something he once hinted, that he had promised
- his father not to do anything of the sort yet a while, for he is a rash
- boy, and the old gentleman dreads a foreign daughter-in-law. We shall
- soon meet in Rome, and then, if I don't change my mind, I'll say "Yes,
- thank you," when he says "Will you, please?"
- Of course this is all _very private_, but I wished you to know what was
- going on. Don't be anxious about me, remember I am your 'prudent Amy',
- and be sure I will do nothing rashly. Send me as much advice as you
- like. I'll use it if I can. I wish I could see you for a good talk,
- Marmee. Love and trust me.
- Ever your AMY
- CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
- TENDER TROUBLES
- "Jo, I'm anxious about Beth."
- "Why, Mother, she has seemed unusually well since the babies came."
- "It's not her health that troubles me now, it's her spirits. I'm sure
- there is something on her mind, and I want you to discover what it is."
- "What makes you think so, Mother?"
- "She sits alone a good deal, and doesn't talk to her father as much as
- she used. I found her crying over the babies the other day. When she
- sings, the songs are always sad ones, and now and then I see a look in
- her face that I don't understand. This isn't like Beth, and it worries
- me."
- "Have you asked her about it?"
- "I have tried once or twice, but she either evaded my questions or
- looked so distressed that I stopped. I never force my children's
- confidence, and I seldom have to wait for long."
- Mrs. March glanced at Jo as she spoke, but the face opposite seemed
- quite unconscious of any secret disquietude but Beth's, and after
- sewing thoughtfully for a minute, Jo said, "I think she is growing up,
- and so begins to dream dreams, and have hopes and fears and fidgets,
- without knowing why or being able to explain them. Why, Mother, Beth's
- eighteen, but we don't realize it, and treat her like a child,
- forgetting she's a woman."
- "So she is. Dear heart, how fast you do grow up," returned her mother
- with a sigh and a smile.
- "Can't be helped, Marmee, so you must resign yourself to all sorts of
- worries, and let your birds hop out of the nest, one by one. I promise
- never to hop very far, if that is any comfort to you."
- "It's a great comfort, Jo. I always feel strong when you are at home,
- now Meg is gone. Beth is too feeble and Amy too young to depend upon,
- but when the tug comes, you are always ready."
- "Why, you know I don't mind hard jobs much, and there must always be
- one scrub in a family. Amy is splendid in fine works and I'm not, but
- I feel in my element when all the carpets are to be taken up, or half
- the family fall sick at once. Amy is distinguishing herself abroad, but
- if anything is amiss at home, I'm your man."
- "I leave Beth to your hands, then, for she will open her tender little
- heart to her Jo sooner than to anyone else. Be very kind, and don't
- let her think anyone watches or talks about her. If she only would get
- quite strong and cheerful again, I shouldn't have a wish in the world."
- "Happy woman! I've got heaps."
- "My dear, what are they?"
- "I'll settle Bethy's troubles, and then I'll tell you mine. They are
- not very wearing, so they'll keep." and Jo stitched away, with a wise
- nod which set her mother's heart at rest about her for the present at
- least.
- While apparently absorbed in her own affairs, Jo watched Beth, and
- after many conflicting conjectures, finally settled upon one which
- seemed to explain the change in her. A slight incident gave Jo the
- clue to the mystery, she thought, and lively fancy, loving heart did
- the rest. She was affecting to write busily one Saturday afternoon,
- when she and Beth were alone together. Yet as she scribbled, she kept
- her eye on her sister, who seemed unusually quiet. Sitting at the
- window, Beth's work often dropped into her lap, and she leaned her head
- upon her hand, in a dejected attitude, while her eyes rested on the
- dull, autumnal landscape. Suddenly some one passed below, whistling
- like an operatic blackbird, and a voice called out, "All serene! Coming
- in tonight."
- Beth started, leaned forward, smiled and nodded, watched the passer-by
- till his quick tramp died away, then said softly as if to herself, "How
- strong and well and happy that dear boy looks."
- "Hum!" said Jo, still intent upon her sister's face, for the bright
- color faded as quickly as it came, the smile vanished, and presently a
- tear lay shining on the window ledge. Beth whisked it off, and in her
- half-averted face read a tender sorrow that made her own eyes fill.
- Fearing to betray herself, she slipped away, murmuring something about
- needing more paper.
- "Mercy on me, Beth loves Laurie!" she said, sitting down in her own
- room, pale with the shock of the discovery which she believed she had
- just made. "I never dreamed of such a thing. What will Mother say? I
- wonder if her..." there Jo stopped and turned scarlet with a sudden
- thought. "If he shouldn't love back again, how dreadful it would be.
- He must. I'll make him!" and she shook her head threateningly at the
- picture of the mischievous-looking boy laughing at her from the wall.
- "Oh dear, we are growing up with a vengeance. Here's Meg married and a
- mamma, Amy flourishing away at Paris, and Beth in love. I'm the only
- one that has sense enough to keep out of mischief." Jo thought intently
- for a minute with her eyes fixed on the picture, then she smoothed out
- her wrinkled forehead and said, with a decided nod at the face
- opposite, "No thank you, sir, you're very charming, but you've no more
- stability than a weathercock. So you needn't write touching notes and
- smile in that insinuating way, for it won't do a bit of good, and I
- won't have it."
- Then she sighed, and fell into a reverie from which she did not wake
- till the early twilight sent her down to take new observations, which
- only confirmed her suspicion. Though Laurie flirted with Amy and joked
- with Jo, his manner to Beth had always been peculiarly kind and gentle,
- but so was everybody's. Therefore, no one thought of imagining that he
- cared more for her than for the others. Indeed, a general impression
- had prevailed in the family of late that 'our boy' was getting fonder
- than ever of Jo, who, however, wouldn't hear a word upon the subject
- and scolded violently if anyone dared to suggest it. If they had known
- the various tender passages which had been nipped in the bud, they
- would have had the immense satisfaction of saying, "I told you so."
- But Jo hated 'philandering', and wouldn't allow it, always having a
- joke or a smile ready at the least sign of impending danger.
- When Laurie first went to college, he fell in love about once a month,
- but these small flames were as brief as ardent, did no damage, and much
- amused Jo, who took great interest in the alternations of hope,
- despair, and resignation, which were confided to her in their weekly
- conferences. But there came a time when Laurie ceased to worship at
- many shrines, hinted darkly at one all-absorbing passion, and indulged
- occasionally in Byronic fits of gloom. Then he avoided the tender
- subject altogether, wrote philosophical notes to Jo, turned studious,
- and gave out that he was going to 'dig', intending to graduate in a
- blaze of glory. This suited the young lady better than twilight
- confidences, tender pressures of the hand, and eloquent glances of the
- eye, for with Jo, brain developed earlier than heart, and she preferred
- imaginary heroes to real ones, because when tired of them, the former
- could be shut up in the tin kitchen till called for, and the latter
- were less manageable.
- Things were in this state when the grand discovery was made, and Jo
- watched Laurie that night as she had never done before. If she had not
- got the new idea into her head, she would have seen nothing unusual in
- the fact that Beth was very quiet, and Laurie very kind to her. But
- having given the rein to her lively fancy, it galloped away with her at
- a great pace, and common sense, being rather weakened by a long course
- of romance writing, did not come to the rescue. As usual Beth lay on
- the sofa and Laurie sat in a low chair close by, amusing her with all
- sorts of gossip, for she depended on her weekly 'spin', and he never
- disappointed her. But that evening Jo fancied that Beth's eyes rested
- on the lively, dark face beside her with peculiar pleasure, and that
- she listened with intense interest to an account of some exciting
- cricket match, though the phrases, 'caught off a tice', 'stumped off
- his ground', and 'the leg hit for three', were as intelligible to her
- as Sanskrit. She also fancied, having set her heart upon seeing it,
- that she saw a certain increase of gentleness in Laurie's manner, that
- he dropped his voice now and then, laughed less than usual, was a
- little absent-minded, and settled the afghan over Beth's feet with an
- assiduity that was really almost tender.
- "Who knows? Stranger things have happened," thought Jo, as she fussed
- about the room. "She will make quite an angel of him, and he will make
- life delightfully easy and pleasant for the dear, if they only love
- each other. I don't see how he can help it, and I do believe he would
- if the rest of us were out of the way."
- As everyone was out of the way but herself, Jo began to feel that she
- ought to dispose of herself with all speed. But where should she go?
- And burning to lay herself upon the shrine of sisterly devotion, she
- sat down to settle that point.
- Now, the old sofa was a regular patriarch of a sofa--long, broad,
- well-cushioned, and low, a trifle shabby, as well it might be, for the
- girls had slept and sprawled on it as babies, fished over the back,
- rode on the arms, and had menageries under it as children, and rested
- tired heads, dreamed dreams, and listened to tender talk on it as young
- women. They all loved it, for it was a family refuge, and one corner
- had always been Jo's favorite lounging place. Among the many pillows
- that adorned the venerable couch was one, hard, round, covered with
- prickly horsehair, and furnished with a knobby button at each end.
- This repulsive pillow was her especial property, being used as a weapon
- of defense, a barricade, or a stern preventive of too much slumber.
- Laurie knew this pillow well, and had cause to regard it with deep
- aversion, having been unmercifully pummeled with it in former days when
- romping was allowed, and now frequently debarred by it from the seat he
- most coveted next to Jo in the sofa corner. If 'the sausage' as they
- called it, stood on end, it was a sign that he might approach and
- repose, but if it lay flat across the sofa, woe to man, woman, or child
- who dared disturb it! That evening Jo forgot to barricade her corner,
- and had not been in her seat five minutes, before a massive form
- appeared beside her, and with both arms spread over the sofa back, both
- long legs stretched out before him, Laurie exclaimed, with a sigh of
- satisfaction...
- "Now, this is filling at the price."
- "No slang," snapped Jo, slamming down the pillow. But it was too late,
- there was no room for it, and coasting onto the floor, it disappeared
- in a most mysterious manner.
- "Come, Jo, don't be thorny. After studying himself to a skeleton all
- the week, a fellow deserves petting and ought to get it."
- "Beth will pet you. I'm busy."
- "No, she's not to be bothered with me, but you like that sort of thing,
- unless you've suddenly lost your taste for it. Have you? Do you hate
- your boy, and want to fire pillows at him?"
- Anything more wheedlesome than that touching appeal was seldom heard,
- but Jo quenched 'her boy' by turning on him with a stern query, "How
- many bouquets have you sent Miss Randal this week?"
- "Not one, upon my word. She's engaged. Now then."
- "I'm glad of it, that's one of your foolish extravagances, sending
- flowers and things to girls for whom you don't care two pins,"
- continued Jo reprovingly.
- "Sensible girls for whom I do care whole papers of pins won't let me
- send them 'flowers and things', so what can I do? My feelings need a
- 'vent'."
- "Mother doesn't approve of flirting even in fun, and you do flirt
- desperately, Teddy."
- "I'd give anything if I could answer, 'So do you'. As I can't, I'll
- merely say that I don't see any harm in that pleasant little game, if
- all parties understand that it's only play."
- "Well, it does look pleasant, but I can't learn how it's done. I've
- tried, because one feels awkward in company not to do as everybody else
- is doing, but I don't seem to get on", said Jo, forgetting to play
- mentor.
- "Take lessons of Amy, she has a regular talent for it."
- "Yes, she does it very prettily, and never seems to go too far. I
- suppose it's natural to some people to please without trying, and
- others to always say and do the wrong thing in the wrong place."
- "I'm glad you can't flirt. It's really refreshing to see a sensible,
- straightforward girl, who can be jolly and kind without making a fool
- of herself. Between ourselves, Jo, some of the girls I know really do
- go on at such a rate I'm ashamed of them. They don't mean any harm, I'm
- sure, but if they knew how we fellows talked about them afterward,
- they'd mend their ways, I fancy."
- "They do the same, and as their tongues are the sharpest, you fellows
- get the worst of it, for you are as silly as they, every bit. If you
- behaved properly, they would, but knowing you like their nonsense, they
- keep it up, and then you blame them."
- "Much you know about it, ma'am," said Laurie in a superior tone. "We
- don't like romps and flirts, though we may act as if we did sometimes.
- The pretty, modest girls are never talked about, except respectfully,
- among gentleman. Bless your innocent soul! If you could be in my place
- for a month you'd see things that would astonish you a trifle. Upon my
- word, when I see one of those harum-scarum girls, I always want to say
- with our friend Cock Robin...
- "Out upon you, fie upon you,
- Bold-faced jig!"
- It was impossible to help laughing at the funny conflict between
- Laurie's chivalrous reluctance to speak ill of womankind, and his very
- natural dislike of the unfeminine folly of which fashionable society
- showed him many samples. Jo knew that 'young Laurence' was regarded as
- a most eligible parti by worldly mamas, was much smiled upon by their
- daughters, and flattered enough by ladies of all ages to make a coxcomb
- of him, so she watched him rather jealously, fearing he would be
- spoiled, and rejoiced more than she confessed to find that he still
- believed in modest girls. Returning suddenly to her admonitory tone,
- she said, dropping her voice, "If you must have a 'vent', Teddy, go and
- devote yourself to one of the 'pretty, modest girls' whom you do
- respect, and not waste your time with the silly ones."
- "You really advise it?" and Laurie looked at her with an odd mixture of
- anxiety and merriment in his face.
- "Yes, I do, but you'd better wait till you are through college, on the
- whole, and be fitting yourself for the place meantime. You're not half
- good enough for--well, whoever the modest girl may be." and Jo looked a
- little queer likewise, for a name had almost escaped her.
- "That I'm not!" acquiesced Laurie, with an expression of humility quite
- new to him, as he dropped his eyes and absently wound Jo's apron tassel
- round his finger.
- "Mercy on us, this will never do," thought Jo, adding aloud, "Go and
- sing to me. I'm dying for some music, and always like yours."
- "I'd rather stay here, thank you."
- "Well, you can't, there isn't room. Go and make yourself useful, since
- you are too big to be ornamental. I thought you hated to be tied to a
- woman's apron string?" retorted Jo, quoting certain rebellious words of
- his own.
- "Ah, that depends on who wears the apron!" and Laurie gave an audacious
- tweak at the tassel.
- "Are you going?" demanded Jo, diving for the pillow.
- He fled at once, and the minute it was well, "Up with the bonnets of
- bonnie Dundee," she slipped away to return no more till the young
- gentleman departed in high dudgeon.
- Jo lay long awake that night, and was just dropping off when the sound
- of a stifled sob made her fly to Beth's bedside, with the anxious
- inquiry, "What is it, dear?"
- "I thought you were asleep," sobbed Beth.
- "Is it the old pain, my precious?"
- "No, it's a new one, but I can bear it," and Beth tried to check her
- tears.
- "Tell me all about it, and let me cure it as I often did the other."
- "You can't, there is no cure." There Beth's voice gave way, and
- clinging to her sister, she cried so despairingly that Jo was
- frightened.
- "Where is it? Shall I call Mother?"
- "No, no, don't call her, don't tell her. I shall be better soon. Lie
- down here and 'poor' my head. I'll be quiet and go to sleep, indeed I
- will."
- Jo obeyed, but as her hand went softly to and fro across Beth's hot
- forehead and wet eyelids, her heart was very full and she longed to
- speak. But young as she was, Jo had learned that hearts, like flowers,
- cannot be rudely handled, but must open naturally, so though she
- believed she knew the cause of Beth's new pain, she only said, in her
- tenderest tone, "Does anything trouble you, deary?"
- "Yes, Jo," after a long pause.
- "Wouldn't it comfort you to tell me what it is?"
- "Not now, not yet."
- "Then I won't ask, but remember, Bethy, that Mother and Jo are always
- glad to hear and help you, if they can."
- "I know it. I'll tell you by-and-by."
- "Is the pain better now?"
- "Oh, yes, much better, you are so comfortable, Jo."
- "Go to sleep, dear. I'll stay with you."
- So cheek to cheek they fell asleep, and on the morrow Beth seemed quite
- herself again, for at eighteen neither heads nor hearts ache long, and
- a loving word can medicine most ills.
- But Jo had made up her mind, and after pondering over a project for
- some days, she confided it to her mother.
- "You asked me the other day what my wishes were. I'll tell you one of
- them, Marmee," she began, as they sat along together. "I want to go
- away somewhere this winter for a change."
- "Why, Jo?" and her mother looked up quickly, as if the words suggested
- a double meaning.
- With her eyes on her work Jo answered soberly, "I want something new.
- I feel restless and anxious to be seeing, doing, and learning more than
- I am. I brood too much over my own small affairs, and need stirring
- up, so as I can be spared this winter, I'd like to hop a little way and
- try my wings."
- "Where will you hop?"
- "To New York. I had a bright idea yesterday, and this is it. You know
- Mrs. Kirke wrote to you for some respectable young person to teach her
- children and sew. It's rather hard to find just the thing, but I think
- I should suit if I tried."
- "My dear, go out to service in that great boarding house!" and Mrs.
- March looked surprised, but not displeased.
- "It's not exactly going out to service, for Mrs. Kirke is your
- friend--the kindest soul that ever lived--and would make things
- pleasant for me, I know. Her family is separate from the rest, and no
- one knows me there. Don't care if they do. It's honest work, and I'm
- not ashamed of it."
- "Nor I. But your writing?"
- "All the better for the change. I shall see and hear new things, get
- new ideas, and even if I haven't much time there, I shall bring home
- quantities of material for my rubbish."
- "I have no doubt of it, but are these your only reasons for this sudden
- fancy?"
- "No, Mother."
- "May I know the others?"
- Jo looked up and Jo looked down, then said slowly, with sudden color in
- her cheeks. "It may be vain and wrong to say it, but--I'm
- afraid--Laurie is getting too fond of me."
- "Then you don't care for him in the way it is evident he begins to care
- for you?" and Mrs. March looked anxious as she put the question.
- "Mercy, no! I love the dear boy, as I always have, and am immensely
- proud of him, but as for anything more, it's out of the question."
- "I'm glad of that, Jo."
- "Why, please?"
- "Because, dear, I don't think you suited to one another. As friends
- you are very happy, and your frequent quarrels soon blow over, but I
- fear you would both rebel if you were mated for life. You are too much
- alike and too fond of freedom, not to mention hot tempers and strong
- wills, to get on happily together, in a relation which needs infinite
- patience and forbearance, as well as love."
- "That's just the feeling I had, though I couldn't express it. I'm glad
- you think he is only beginning to care for me. It would trouble me
- sadly to make him unhappy, for I couldn't fall in love with the dear
- old fellow merely out of gratitude, could I?"
- "You are sure of his feeling for you?"
- The color deepened in Jo's cheeks as she answered, with the look of
- mingled pleasure, pride, and pain which young girls wear when speaking
- of first lovers, "I'm afraid it is so, Mother. He hasn't said
- anything, but he looks a great deal. I think I had better go away
- before it comes to anything."
- "I agree with you, and if it can be managed you shall go."
- Jo looked relieved, and after a pause, said, smiling, "How Mrs. Moffat
- would wonder at your want of management, if she knew, and how she will
- rejoice that Annie may still hope."
- "Ah, Jo, mothers may differ in their management, but the hope is the
- same in all--the desire to see their children happy. Meg is so, and I
- am content with her success. You I leave to enjoy your liberty till
- you tire of it, for only then will you find that there is something
- sweeter. Amy is my chief care now, but her good sense will help her.
- For Beth, I indulge no hopes except that she may be well. By the way,
- she seems brighter this last day or two. Have you spoken to her?'
- "Yes, she owned she had a trouble, and promised to tell me by-and-by.
- I said no more, for I think I know it," and Jo told her little story.
- Mrs. March shook her head, and did not take so romantic a view of the
- case, but looked grave, and repeated her opinion that for Laurie's sake
- Jo should go away for a time.
- "Let us say nothing about it to him till the plan is settled, then I'll
- run away before he can collect his wits and be tragic. Beth must think
- I'm going to please myself, as I am, for I can't talk about Laurie to
- her. But she can pet and comfort him after I'm gone, and so cure him
- of this romantic notion. He's been through so many little trials of
- the sort, he's used to it, and will soon get over his lovelornity."
- Jo spoke hopefully, but could not rid herself of the foreboding fear
- that this 'little trial' would be harder than the others, and that
- Laurie would not get over his 'lovelornity' as easily as heretofore.
- The plan was talked over in a family council and agreed upon, for Mrs.
- Kirke gladly accepted Jo, and promised to make a pleasant home for her.
- The teaching would render her independent, and such leisure as she got
- might be made profitable by writing, while the new scenes and society
- would be both useful and agreeable. Jo liked the prospect and was
- eager to be gone, for the home nest was growing too narrow for her
- restless nature and adventurous spirit. When all was settled, with
- fear and trembling she told Laurie, but to her surprise he took it very
- quietly. He had been graver than usual of late, but very pleasant, and
- when jokingly accused of turning over a new leaf, he answered soberly,
- "So I am, and I mean this one shall stay turned."
- Jo was very much relieved that one of his virtuous fits should come on
- just then, and made her preparations with a lightened heart, for Beth
- seemed more cheerful, and hoped she was doing the best for all.
- "One thing I leave in your especial care," she said, the night before
- she left.
- "You mean your papers?" asked Beth.
- "No, my boy. Be very good to him, won't you?"
- "Of course I will, but I can't fill your place, and he'll miss you
- sadly."
- "It won't hurt him, so remember, I leave him in your charge, to plague,
- pet, and keep in order."
- "I'll do my best, for your sake," promised Beth, wondering why Jo
- looked at her so queerly.
- When Laurie said good-by, he whispered significantly, "It won't do a
- bit of good, Jo. My eye is on you, so mind what you do, or I'll come
- and bring you home."
- CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
- JO'S JOURNAL
- New York, November
- Dear Marmee and Beth,
- I'm going to write you a regular volume, for I've got heaps to tell,
- though I'm not a fine young lady traveling on the continent. When I
- lost sight of Father's dear old face, I felt a trifle blue, and might
- have shed a briny drop or two, if an Irish lady with four small
- children, all crying more or less, hadn't diverted my mind, for I
- amused myself by dropping gingerbread nuts over the seat every time
- they opened their mouths to roar.
- Soon the sun came out, and taking it as a good omen, I cleared up
- likewise and enjoyed my journey with all my heart.
- Mrs. Kirke welcomed me so kindly I felt at home at once, even in that
- big house full of strangers. She gave me a funny little sky
- parlor--all she had, but there is a stove in it, and a nice table in a
- sunny window, so I can sit here and write whenever I like. A fine view
- and a church tower opposite atone for the many stairs, and I took a
- fancy to my den on the spot. The nursery, where I am to teach and sew,
- is a pleasant room next Mrs. Kirke's private parlor, and the two little
- girls are pretty children, rather spoiled, I fancy, but they took to me
- after telling them The Seven Bad Pigs, and I've no doubt I shall make a
- model governess.
- I am to have my meals with the children, if I prefer it to the great
- table, and for the present I do, for I am bashful, though no one will
- believe it.
- "Now, my dear, make yourself at home," said Mrs. K. in her motherly
- way, "I'm on the drive from morning to night, as you may suppose with
- such a family, but a great anxiety will be off my mind if I know the
- children are safe with you. My rooms are always open to you, and your
- own shall be as comfortable as I can make it. There are some pleasant
- people in the house if you feel sociable, and your evenings are always
- free. Come to me if anything goes wrong, and be as happy as you can.
- There's the tea bell, I must run and change my cap." And off she
- bustled, leaving me to settle myself in my new nest.
- As I went downstairs soon after, I saw something I liked. The flights
- are very long in this tall house, and as I stood waiting at the head of
- the third one for a little servant girl to lumber up, I saw a gentleman
- come along behind her, take the heavy hod of coal out of her hand,
- carry it all the way up, put it down at a door near by, and walk away,
- saying, with a kind nod and a foreign accent, "It goes better so. The
- little back is too young to haf such heaviness."
- Wasn't it good of him? I like such things, for as Father says, trifles
- show character. When I mentioned it to Mrs. K., that evening, she
- laughed, and said, "That must have been Professor Bhaer, he's always
- doing things of that sort."
- Mrs. K. told me he was from Berlin, very learned and good, but poor as
- a church mouse, and gives lessons to support himself and two little
- orphan nephews whom he is educating here, according to the wishes of
- his sister, who married an American. Not a very romantic story, but it
- interested me, and I was glad to hear that Mrs. K. lends him her
- parlor for some of his scholars. There is a glass door between it and
- the nursery, and I mean to peep at him, and then I'll tell you how he
- looks. He's almost forty, so it's no harm, Marmee.
- After tea and a go-to-bed romp with the little girls, I attacked the
- big workbasket, and had a quiet evening chatting with my new friend. I
- shall keep a journal-letter, and send it once a week, so goodnight, and
- more tomorrow.
- Tuesday Eve
- Had a lively time in my seminary this morning, for the children acted
- like Sancho, and at one time I really thought I should shake them all
- round. Some good angel inspired me to try gymnastics, and I kept it up
- till they were glad to sit down and keep still. After luncheon, the
- girl took them out for a walk, and I went to my needlework like little
- Mabel 'with a willing mind'. I was thanking my stars that I'd learned
- to make nice buttonholes, when the parlor door opened and shut, and
- someone began to hum, Kennst Du Das Land, like a big bumblebee. It was
- dreadfully improper, I know, but I couldn't resist the temptation, and
- lifting one end of the curtain before the glass door, I peeped in.
- Professor Bhaer was there, and while he arranged his books, I took a
- good look at him. A regular German--rather stout, with brown hair
- tumbled all over his head, a bushy beard, good nose, the kindest eyes I
- ever saw, and a splendid big voice that does one's ears good, after our
- sharp or slipshod American gabble. His clothes were rusty, his hands
- were large, and he hadn't a really handsome feature in his face, except
- his beautiful teeth, yet I liked him, for he had a fine head, his linen
- was very nice, and he looked like a gentleman, though two buttons were
- off his coat and there was a patch on one shoe. He looked sober in
- spite of his humming, till he went to the window to turn the hyacinth
- bulbs toward the sun, and stroke the cat, who received him like an old
- friend. Then he smiled, and when a tap came at the door, called out in
- a loud, brisk tone, "Herein!"
- I was just going to run, when I caught sight of a morsel of a child
- carrying a big book, and stopped, to see what was going on.
- "Me wants me Bhaer," said the mite, slamming down her book and running
- to meet him.
- "Thou shalt haf thy Bhaer. Come, then, and take a goot hug from him,
- my Tina," said the Professor, catching her up with a laugh, and holding
- her so high over his head that she had to stoop her little face to kiss
- him.
- "Now me mus tuddy my lessin," went on the funny little thing. So he
- put her up at the table, opened the great dictionary she had brought,
- and gave her a paper and pencil, and she scribbled away, turning a leaf
- now and then, and passing her little fat finger down the page, as if
- finding a word, so soberly that I nearly betrayed myself by a laugh,
- while Mr. Bhaer stood stroking her pretty hair with a fatherly look
- that made me think she must be his own, though she looked more French
- than German.
- Another knock and the appearance of two young ladies sent me back to my
- work, and there I virtuously remained through all the noise and
- gabbling that went on next door. One of the girls kept laughing
- affectedly, and saying, "Now Professor," in a coquettish tone, and the
- other pronounced her German with an accent that must have made it hard
- for him to keep sober.
- Both seemed to try his patience sorely, for more than once I heard him
- say emphatically, "No, no, it is not so, you haf not attend to what I
- say," and once there was a loud rap, as if he struck the table with his
- book, followed by the despairing exclamation, "Prut! It all goes bad
- this day."
- Poor man, I pitied him, and when the girls were gone, took just one
- more peep to see if he survived it. He seemed to have thrown himself
- back in his chair, tired out, and sat there with his eyes shut till the
- clock struck two, when he jumped up, put his books in his pocket, as if
- ready for another lesson, and taking little Tina who had fallen asleep
- on the sofa in his arms, he carried her quietly away. I fancy he has a
- hard life of it. Mrs. Kirke asked me if I wouldn't go down to the five
- o'clock dinner, and feeling a little bit homesick, I thought I would,
- just to see what sort of people are under the same roof with me. So I
- made myself respectable and tried to slip in behind Mrs. Kirke, but as
- she is short and I'm tall, my efforts at concealment were rather a
- failure. She gave me a seat by her, and after my face cooled off, I
- plucked up courage and looked about me. The long table was full, and
- every one intent on getting their dinner, the gentlemen especially, who
- seemed to be eating on time, for they bolted in every sense of the
- word, vanishing as soon as they were done. There was the usual
- assortment of young men absorbed in themselves, young couples absorbed
- in each other, married ladies in their babies, and old gentlemen in
- politics. I don't think I shall care to have much to do with any of
- them, except one sweetfaced maiden lady, who looks as if she had
- something in her.
- Cast away at the very bottom of the table was the Professor, shouting
- answers to the questions of a very inquisitive, deaf old gentleman on
- one side, and talking philosophy with a Frenchman on the other. If Amy
- had been here, she'd have turned her back on him forever because, sad
- to relate, he had a great appetite, and shoveled in his dinner in a
- manner which would have horrified 'her ladyship'. I didn't mind, for I
- like 'to see folks eat with a relish', as Hannah says, and the poor man
- must have needed a deal of food after teaching idiots all day.
- As I went upstairs after dinner, two of the young men were settling
- their hats before the hall mirror, and I heard one say low to the
- other, "Who's the new party?"
- "Governess, or something of that sort."
- "What the deuce is she at our table for?"
- "Friend of the old lady's."
- "Handsome head, but no style."
- "Not a bit of it. Give us a light and come on."
- I felt angry at first, and then I didn't care, for a governess is as
- good as a clerk, and I've got sense, if I haven't style, which is more
- than some people have, judging from the remarks of the elegant beings
- who clattered away, smoking like bad chimneys. I hate ordinary people!
- Thursday
- Yesterday was a quiet day spent in teaching, sewing, and writing in my
- little room, which is very cozy, with a light and fire. I picked up a
- few bits of news and was introduced to the Professor. It seems that
- Tina is the child of the Frenchwoman who does the fine ironing in the
- laundry here. The little thing has lost her heart to Mr. Bhaer, and
- follows him about the house like a dog whenever he is at home, which
- delights him, as he is very fond of children, though a 'bacheldore'.
- Kitty and Minnie Kirke likewise regard him with affection, and tell all
- sorts of stories about the plays he invents, the presents he brings,
- and the splendid tales he tells. The younger men quiz him, it seems,
- call him Old Fritz, Lager Beer, Ursa Major, and make all manner of
- jokes on his name. But he enjoys it like a boy, Mrs. Kirke says, and
- takes it so good-naturedly that they all like him in spite of his
- foreign ways.
- The maiden lady is a Miss Norton, rich, cultivated, and kind. She
- spoke to me at dinner today (for I went to table again, it's such fun
- to watch people), and asked me to come and see her at her room. She
- has fine books and pictures, knows interesting persons, and seems
- friendly, so I shall make myself agreeable, for I do want to get into
- good society, only it isn't the same sort that Amy likes.
- I was in our parlor last evening when Mr. Bhaer came in with some
- newspapers for Mrs. Kirke. She wasn't there, but Minnie, who is a
- little old woman, introduced me very prettily. "This is Mamma's friend,
- Miss March."
- "Yes, and she's jolly and we like her lots," added Kitty, who is an
- 'enfant terrible'.
- We both bowed, and then we laughed, for the prim introduction and the
- blunt addition were rather a comical contrast.
- "Ah, yes, I hear these naughty ones go to vex you, Mees Marsch. If so
- again, call at me and I come," he said, with a threatening frown that
- delighted the little wretches.
- I promised I would, and he departed, but it seems as if I was doomed to
- see a good deal of him, for today as I passed his door on my way out,
- by accident I knocked against it with my umbrella. It flew open, and
- there he stood in his dressing gown, with a big blue sock on one hand
- and a darning needle in the other. He didn't seem at all ashamed of
- it, for when I explained and hurried on, he waved his hand, sock and
- all, saying in his loud, cheerful way...
- "You haf a fine day to make your walk. Bon voyage, Mademoiselle."
- I laughed all the way downstairs, but it was a little pathetic, also to
- think of the poor man having to mend his own clothes. The German
- gentlemen embroider, I know, but darning hose is another thing and not
- so pretty.
- Saturday
- Nothing has happened to write about, except a call on Miss Norton, who
- has a room full of pretty things, and who was very charming, for she
- showed me all her treasures, and asked me if I would sometimes go with
- her to lectures and concerts, as her escort, if I enjoyed them. She
- put it as a favor, but I'm sure Mrs. Kirke has told her about us, and
- she does it out of kindness to me. I'm as proud as Lucifer, but such
- favors from such people don't burden me, and I accepted gratefully.
- When I got back to the nursery there was such an uproar in the parlor
- that I looked in, and there was Mr. Bhaer down on his hands and knees,
- with Tina on his back, Kitty leading him with a jump rope, and Minnie
- feeding two small boys with seedcakes, as they roared and ramped in
- cages built of chairs.
- "We are playing nargerie," explained Kitty.
- "Dis is mine effalunt!" added Tina, holding on by the Professor's hair.
- "Mamma always allows us to do what we like Saturday afternoon, when
- Franz and Emil come, doesn't she, Mr. Bhaer?" said Minnie.
- The 'effalunt' sat up, looking as much in earnest as any of them, and
- said soberly to me, "I gif you my wort it is so, if we make too large a
- noise you shall say Hush! to us, and we go more softly."
- I promised to do so, but left the door open and enjoyed the fun as much
- as they did, for a more glorious frolic I never witnessed. They played
- tag and soldiers, danced and sang, and when it began to grow dark they
- all piled onto the sofa about the Professor, while he told charming
- fairy stories of the storks on the chimney tops, and the little
- 'koblods', who ride the snowflakes as they fall. I wish Americans were
- as simple and natural as Germans, don't you?
- I'm so fond of writing, I should go spinning on forever if motives of
- economy didn't stop me, for though I've used thin paper and written
- fine, I tremble to think of the stamps this long letter will need.
- Pray forward Amy's as soon as you can spare them. My small news will
- sound very flat after her splendors, but you will like them, I know.
- Is Teddy studying so hard that he can't find time to write to his
- friends? Take good care of him for me, Beth, and tell me all about the
- babies, and give heaps of love to everyone. From your faithful Jo.
- P.S. On reading over my letter, it strikes me as rather Bhaery, but I
- am always interested in odd people, and I really had nothing else to
- write about. Bless you!
- DECEMBER
- My Precious Betsey,
- As this is to be a scribble-scrabble letter, I direct it to you, for it
- may amuse you, and give you some idea of my goings on, for though
- quiet, they are rather amusing, for which, oh, be joyful! After what
- Amy would call Herculaneum efforts, in the way of mental and moral
- agriculture, my young ideas begin to shoot and my little twigs to bend
- as I could wish. They are not so interesting to me as Tina and the
- boys, but I do my duty by them, and they are fond of me. Franz and
- Emil are jolly little lads, quite after my own heart, for the mixture
- of German and American spirit in them produces a constant state of
- effervescence. Saturday afternoons are riotous times, whether spent in
- the house or out, for on pleasant days they all go to walk, like a
- seminary, with the Professor and myself to keep order, and then such
- fun!
- We are very good friends now, and I've begun to take lessons. I really
- couldn't help it, and it all came about in such a droll way that I must
- tell you. To begin at the beginning, Mrs. Kirke called to me one day
- as I passed Mr. Bhaer's room where she was rummaging.
- "Did you ever see such a den, my dear? Just come and help me put these
- books to rights, for I've turned everything upside down, trying to
- discover what he has done with the six new handkerchiefs I gave him not
- long ago."
- I went in, and while we worked I looked about me, for it was 'a den' to
- be sure. Books and papers everywhere, a broken meerschaum, and an old
- flute over the mantlepiece as if done with, a ragged bird without any
- tail chirped on one window seat, and a box of white mice adorned the
- other. Half-finished boats and bits of string lay among the
- manuscripts. Dirty little boots stood drying before the fire, and
- traces of the dearly beloved boys, for whom he makes a slave of
- himself, were to be seen all over the room. After a grand rummage
- three of the missing articles were found, one over the bird cage, one
- covered with ink, and a third burned brown, having been used as a
- holder.
- "Such a man!" laughed good-natured Mrs. K., as she put the relics in
- the rag bay. "I suppose the others are torn up to rig ships, bandage
- cut fingers, or make kite tails. It's dreadful, but I can't scold him.
- He's so absent-minded and goodnatured, he lets those boys ride over him
- roughshod. I agreed to do his washing and mending, but he forgets to
- give out his things and I forget to look them over, so he comes to a
- sad pass sometimes."
- "Let me mend them," said I. "I don't mind it, and he needn't know.
- I'd like to, he's so kind to me about bringing my letters and lending
- books."
- So I have got his things in order, and knit heels into two pairs of the
- socks, for they were boggled out of shape with his queer darns.
- Nothing was said, and I hoped he wouldn't find it out, but one day last
- week he caught me at it. Hearing the lessons he gives to others has
- interested and amused me so much that I took a fancy to learn, for Tina
- runs in and out, leaving the door open, and I can hear. I had been
- sitting near this door, finishing off the last sock, and trying to
- understand what he said to a new scholar, who is as stupid as I am.
- The girl had gone, and I thought he had also, it was so still, and I
- was busily gabbling over a verb, and rocking to and fro in a most
- absurd way, when a little crow made me look up, and there was Mr. Bhaer
- looking and laughing quietly, while he made signs to Tina not to betray
- him.
- "So!" he said, as I stopped and stared like a goose, "you peep at me, I
- peep at you, and this is not bad, but see, I am not pleasanting when I
- say, haf you a wish for German?"
- "Yes, but you are too busy. I am too stupid to learn," I blundered
- out, as red as a peony.
- "Prut! We will make the time, and we fail not to find the sense. At
- efening I shall gif a little lesson with much gladness, for look you,
- Mees Marsch, I haf this debt to pay." And he pointed to my work 'Yes,'
- they say to one another, these so kind ladies, 'he is a stupid old
- fellow, he will see not what we do, he will never observe that his sock
- heels go not in holes any more, he will think his buttons grow out new
- when they fall, and believe that strings make theirselves.' "Ah! But I
- haf an eye, and I see much. I haf a heart, and I feel thanks for this.
- Come, a little lesson then and now, or--no more good fairy works for me
- and mine."
- Of course I couldn't say anything after that, and as it really is a
- splendid opportunity, I made the bargain, and we began. I took four
- lessons, and then I stuck fast in a grammatical bog. The Professor was
- very patient with me, but it must have been torment to him, and now and
- then he'd look at me with such an expression of mild despair that it
- was a toss-up with me whether to laugh or cry. I tried both ways, and
- when it came to a sniff or utter mortification and woe, he just threw
- the grammar on to the floor and marched out of the room. I felt myself
- disgraced and deserted forever, but didn't blame him a particle, and
- was scrambling my papers together, meaning to rush upstairs and shake
- myself hard, when in he came, as brisk and beaming as if I'd covered
- myself in glory.
- "Now we shall try a new way. You and I will read these pleasant little
- _marchen_ together, and dig no more in that dry book, that goes in the
- corner for making us trouble."
- He spoke so kindly, and opened Hans Anderson's fairy tales so
- invitingly before me, that I was more ashamed than ever, and went at my
- lesson in a neck-or-nothing style that seemed to amuse him immensely.
- I forgot my bashfulness, and pegged away (no other word will express
- it) with all my might, tumbling over long words, pronouncing according
- to inspiration of the minute, and doing my very best. When I finished
- reading my first page, and stopped for breath, he clapped his hands and
- cried out in his hearty way, "Das ist gut! Now we go well! My turn. I
- do him in German, gif me your ear." And away he went, rumbling out the
- words with his strong voice and a relish which was good to see as well
- as hear. Fortunately the story was _The Constant Tin Soldier_, which
- is droll, you know, so I could laugh, and I did, though I didn't
- understand half he read, for I couldn't help it, he was so earnest, I
- so excited, and the whole thing so comical.
- After that we got on better, and now I read my lessons pretty well, for
- this way of studying suits me, and I can see that the grammar gets
- tucked into the tales and poetry as one gives pills in jelly. I like
- it very much, and he doesn't seem tired of it yet, which is very good
- of him, isn't it? I mean to give him something on Christmas, for I
- dare not offer money. Tell me something nice, Marmee.
- I'm glad Laurie seems so happy and busy, that he has given up smoking
- and lets his hair grow. You see Beth manages him better than I did.
- I'm not jealous, dear, do your best, only don't make a saint of him.
- I'm afraid I couldn't like him without a spice of human naughtiness.
- Read him bits of my letters. I haven't time to write much, and that
- will do just as well. Thank Heaven Beth continues so comfortable.
- JANUARY
- A Happy New Year to you all, my dearest family, which of course
- includes Mr. L. and a young man by the name of Teddy. I can't tell you
- how much I enjoyed your Christmas bundle, for I didn't get it till
- night and had given up hoping. Your letter came in the morning, but
- you said nothing about a parcel, meaning it for a surprise, so I was
- disappointed, for I'd had a 'kind of feeling' that you wouldn't forget
- me. I felt a little low in my mind as I sat up in my room after tea,
- and when the big, muddy, battered-looking bundle was brought to me, I
- just hugged it and pranced. It was so homey and refreshing that I sat
- down on the floor and read and looked and ate and laughed and cried, in
- my usual absurd way. The things were just what I wanted, and all the
- better for being made instead of bought. Beth's new 'ink bib' was
- capital, and Hannah's box of hard gingerbread will be a treasure. I'll
- be sure and wear the nice flannels you sent, Marmee, and read carefully
- the books Father has marked. Thank you all, heaps and heaps!
- Speaking of books reminds me that I'm getting rich in that line, for on
- New Year's Day Mr. Bhaer gave me a fine Shakespeare. It is one he
- values much, and I've often admired it, set up in the place of honor
- with his German Bible, Plato, Homer, and Milton, so you may imagine how
- I felt when he brought it down, without its cover, and showed me my own
- name in it, "from my friend Friedrich Bhaer".
- "You say often you wish a library. Here I gif you one, for between
- these lids (he meant covers) is many books in one. Read him well, and
- he will help you much, for the study of character in this book will
- help you to read it in the world and paint it with your pen."
- I thanked him as well as I could, and talk now about 'my library', as
- if I had a hundred books. I never knew how much there was in
- Shakespeare before, but then I never had a Bhaer to explain it to me.
- Now don't laugh at his horrid name. It isn't pronounced either Bear or
- Beer, as people will say it, but something between the two, as only
- Germans can give it. I'm glad you both like what I tell you about him,
- and hope you will know him some day. Mother would admire his warm
- heart, Father his wise head. I admire both, and feel rich in my new
- 'friend Friedrich Bhaer'.
- Not having much money, or knowing what he'd like, I got several little
- things, and put them about the room, where he would find them
- unexpectedly. They were useful, pretty, or funny, a new standish on
- his table, a little vase for his flower, he always has one, or a bit of
- green in a glass, to keep him fresh, he says, and a holder for his
- blower, so that he needn't burn up what Amy calls 'mouchoirs'. I made
- it like those Beth invented, a big butterfly with a fat body, and black
- and yellow wings, worsted feelers, and bead eyes. It took his fancy
- immensely, and he put it on his mantlepiece as an article of virtue, so
- it was rather a failure after all. Poor as he is, he didn't forget a
- servant or a child in the house, and not a soul here, from the French
- laundrywoman to Miss Norton forgot him. I was so glad of that.
- They got up a masquerade, and had a gay time New Year's Eve. I didn't
- mean to go down, having no dress. But at the last minute, Mrs. Kirke
- remembered some old brocades, and Miss Norton lent me lace and
- feathers. So I dressed up as Mrs. Malaprop, and sailed in with a mask
- on. No one knew me, for I disguised my voice, and no one dreamed of
- the silent, haughty Miss March (for they think I am very stiff and
- cool, most of them, and so I am to whippersnappers) could dance and
- dress, and burst out into a 'nice derangement of epitaphs, like an
- allegory on the banks of the Nile'. I enjoyed it very much, and when
- we unmasked it was fun to see them stare at me. I heard one of the
- young men tell another that he knew I'd been an actress, in fact, he
- thought he remembered seeing me at one of the minor theaters. Meg will
- relish that joke. Mr. Bhaer was Nick Bottom, and Tina was Titania, a
- perfect little fairy in his arms. To see them dance was 'quite a
- landscape', to use a Teddyism.
- I had a very happy New Year, after all, and when I thought it over in
- my room, I felt as if I was getting on a little in spite of my many
- failures, for I'm cheerful all the time now, work with a will, and take
- more interest in other people than I used to, which is satisfactory.
- Bless you all! Ever your loving... Jo
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
- FRIEND
- Though very happy in the social atmosphere about her, and very busy
- with the daily work that earned her bread and made it sweeter for the
- effort, Jo still found time for literary labors. The purpose which now
- took possession of her was a natural one to a poor and ambitious girl,
- but the means she took to gain her end were not the best. She saw that
- money conferred power, money and power, therefore, she resolved to
- have, not to be used for herself alone, but for those whom she loved
- more than life. The dream of filling home with comforts, giving Beth
- everything she wanted, from strawberries in winter to an organ in her
- bedroom, going abroad herself, and always having more than enough, so
- that she might indulge in the luxury of charity, had been for years
- Jo's most cherished castle in the air.
- The prize-story experience had seemed to open a way which might, after
- long traveling and much uphill work, lead to this delightful chateau en
- Espagne. But the novel disaster quenched her courage for a time, for
- public opinion is a giant which has frightened stouter-hearted Jacks on
- bigger beanstalks than hers. Like that immortal hero, she reposed
- awhile after the first attempt, which resulted in a tumble and the
- least lovely of the giant's treasures, if I remember rightly. But the
- 'up again and take another' spirit was as strong in Jo as in Jack, so
- she scrambled up on the shady side this time and got more booty, but
- nearly left behind her what was far more precious than the moneybags.
- She took to writing sensation stories, for in those dark ages, even
- all-perfect America read rubbish. She told no one, but concocted a
- 'thrilling tale', and boldly carried it herself to Mr. Dashwood, editor
- of the Weekly Volcano. She had never read Sartor Resartus, but she had
- a womanly instinct that clothes possess an influence more powerful over
- many than the worth of character or the magic of manners. So she
- dressed herself in her best, and trying to persuade herself that she
- was neither excited nor nervous, bravely climbed two pairs of dark and
- dirty stairs to find herself in a disorderly room, a cloud of cigar
- smoke, and the presence of three gentlemen, sitting with their heels
- rather higher than their hats, which articles of dress none of them
- took the trouble to remove on her appearance. Somewhat daunted by this
- reception, Jo hesitated on the threshold, murmuring in much
- embarrassment...
- "Excuse me, I was looking for the Weekly Volcano office. I wished to
- see Mr. Dashwood."
- Down went the highest pair of heels, up rose the smokiest gentleman,
- and carefully cherishing his cigar between his fingers, he advanced
- with a nod and a countenance expressive of nothing but sleep. Feeling
- that she must get through the matter somehow, Jo produced her
- manuscript and, blushing redder and redder with each sentence,
- blundered out fragments of the little speech carefully prepared for the
- occasion.
- "A friend of mine desired me to offer--a story--just as an
- experiment--would like your opinion--be glad to write more if this
- suits."
- While she blushed and blundered, Mr. Dashwood had taken the manuscript,
- and was turning over the leaves with a pair of rather dirty fingers,
- and casting critical glances up and down the neat pages.
- "Not a first attempt, I take it?" observing that the pages were
- numbered, covered only on one side, and not tied up with a ribbon--sure
- sign of a novice.
- "No, sir. She has had some experience, and got a prize for a tale in
- the _Blarneystone Banner_."
- "Oh, did she?" and Mr. Dashwood gave Jo a quick look, which seemed to
- take note of everything she had on, from the bow in her bonnet to the
- buttons on her boots. "Well, you can leave it, if you like. We've
- more of this sort of thing on hand than we know what to do with at
- present, but I'll run my eye over it, and give you an answer next week."
- Now, Jo did _not_ like to leave it, for Mr. Dashwood didn't suit her at
- all, but, under the circumstances, there was nothing for her to do but
- bow and walk away, looking particularly tall and dignified, as she was
- apt to do when nettled or abashed. Just then she was both, for it was
- perfectly evident from the knowing glances exchanged among the
- gentlemen that her little fiction of 'my friend' was considered a good
- joke, and a laugh, produced by some inaudible remark of the editor, as
- he closed the door, completed her discomfiture. Half resolving never
- to return, she went home, and worked off her irritation by stitching
- pinafores vigorously, and in an hour or two was cool enough to laugh
- over the scene and long for next week.
- When she went again, Mr. Dashwood was alone, whereat she rejoiced. Mr.
- Dashwood was much wider awake than before, which was agreeable, and Mr.
- Dashwood was not too deeply absorbed in a cigar to remember his
- manners, so the second interview was much more comfortable than the
- first.
- "We'll take this (editors never say I), if you don't object to a few
- alterations. It's too long, but omitting the passages I've marked will
- make it just the right length," he said, in a businesslike tone.
- Jo hardly knew her own MS. again, so crumpled and underscored were its
- pages and paragraphs, but feeling as a tender parent might on being
- asked to cut off her baby's legs in order that it might fit into a new
- cradle, she looked at the marked passages and was surprised to find
- that all the moral reflections--which she had carefully put in as
- ballast for much romance--had been stricken out.
- "But, Sir, I thought every story should have some sort of a moral, so I
- took care to have a few of my sinners repent."
- Mr. Dashwoods's editorial gravity relaxed into a smile, for Jo had
- forgotten her 'friend', and spoken as only an author could.
- "People want to be amused, not preached at, you know. Morals don't
- sell nowadays." Which was not quite a correct statement, by the way.
- "You think it would do with these alterations, then?"
- "Yes, it's a new plot, and pretty well worked up--language good, and so
- on," was Mr. Dashwood's affable reply.
- "What do you--that is, what compensation--" began Jo, not exactly
- knowing how to express herself.
- "Oh, yes, well, we give from twenty-five to thirty for things of this
- sort. Pay when it comes out," returned Mr. Dashwood, as if that point
- had escaped him. Such trifles do escape the editorial mind, it is said.
- "Very well, you can have it," said Jo, handing back the story with a
- satisfied air, for after the dollar-a-column work, even twenty-five
- seemed good pay.
- "Shall I tell my friend you will take another if she has one better
- than this?" asked Jo, unconscious of her little slip of the tongue, and
- emboldened by her success.
- "Well, we'll look at it. Can't promise to take it. Tell her to make
- it short and spicy, and never mind the moral. What name would your
- friend like to put on it?" in a careless tone.
- "None at all, if you please, she doesn't wish her name to appear and
- has no nom de plume," said Jo, blushing in spite of herself.
- "Just as she likes, of course. The tale will be out next week. Will
- you call for the money, or shall I send it?" asked Mr. Dashwood, who
- felt a natural desire to know who his new contributor might be.
- "I'll call. Good morning, Sir."
- As she departed, Mr. Dashwood put up his feet, with the graceful
- remark, "Poor and proud, as usual, but she'll do."
- Following Mr. Dashwood's directions, and making Mrs. Northbury her
- model, Jo rashly took a plunge into the frothy sea of sensational
- literature, but thanks to the life preserver thrown her by a friend,
- she came up again not much the worse for her ducking.
- Like most young scribblers, she went abroad for her characters and
- scenery, and banditti, counts, gypsies, nuns, and duchesses appeared
- upon her stage, and played their parts with as much accuracy and spirit
- as could be expected. Her readers were not particular about such
- trifles as grammar, punctuation, and probability, and Mr. Dashwood
- graciously permitted her to fill his columns at the lowest prices, not
- thinking it necessary to tell her that the real cause of his
- hospitality was the fact that one of his hacks, on being offered higher
- wages, had basely left him in the lurch.
- She soon became interested in her work, for her emaciated purse grew
- stout, and the little hoard she was making to take Beth to the
- mountains next summer grew slowly but surely as the weeks passed. One
- thing disturbed her satisfaction, and that was that she did not tell
- them at home. She had a feeling that Father and Mother would not
- approve, and preferred to have her own way first, and beg pardon
- afterward. It was easy to keep her secret, for no name appeared with
- her stories. Mr. Dashwood had of course found it out very soon, but
- promised to be dumb, and for a wonder kept his word.
- She thought it would do her no harm, for she sincerely meant to write
- nothing of which she would be ashamed, and quieted all pricks of
- conscience by anticipations of the happy minute when she should show
- her earnings and laugh over her well-kept secret.
- But Mr. Dashwood rejected any but thrilling tales, and as thrills could
- not be produced except by harrowing up the souls of the readers,
- history and romance, land and sea, science and art, police records and
- lunatic asylums, had to be ransacked for the purpose. Jo soon found
- that her innocent experience had given her but few glimpses of the
- tragic world which underlies society, so regarding it in a business
- light, she set about supplying her deficiencies with characteristic
- energy. Eager to find material for stories, and bent on making them
- original in plot, if not masterly in execution, she searched newspapers
- for accidents, incidents, and crimes. She excited the suspicions of
- public librarians by asking for works on poisons. She studied faces in
- the street, and characters, good, bad, and indifferent, all about her.
- She delved in the dust of ancient times for facts or fictions so old
- that they were as good as new, and introduced herself to folly, sin,
- and misery, as well as her limited opportunities allowed. She thought
- she was prospering finely, but unconsciously she was beginning to
- desecrate some of the womanliest attributes of a woman's character.
- She was living in bad society, and imaginary though it was, its
- influence affected her, for she was feeding heart and fancy on
- dangerous and unsubstantial food, and was fast brushing the innocent
- bloom from her nature by a premature acquaintance with the darker side
- of life, which comes soon enough to all of us.
- She was beginning to feel rather than see this, for much describing of
- other people's passions and feelings set her to studying and
- speculating about her own, a morbid amusement in which healthy young
- minds do not voluntarily indulge. Wrongdoing always brings its own
- punishment, and when Jo most needed hers, she got it.
- I don't know whether the study of Shakespeare helped her to read
- character, or the natural instinct of a woman for what was honest,
- brave, and strong, but while endowing her imaginary heroes with every
- perfection under the sun, Jo was discovering a live hero, who
- interested her in spite of many human imperfections. Mr. Bhaer, in one
- of their conversations, had advised her to study simple, true, and
- lovely characters, wherever she found them, as good training for a
- writer. Jo took him at his word, for she coolly turned round and
- studied him--a proceeding which would have much surprised him, had he
- known it, for the worthy Professor was very humble in his own conceit.
- Why everybody liked him was what puzzled Jo, at first. He was neither
- rich nor great, young nor handsome, in no respect what is called
- fascinating, imposing, or brilliant, and yet he was as attractive as a
- genial fire, and people seemed to gather about him as naturally as
- about a warm hearth. He was poor, yet always appeared to be giving
- something away; a stranger, yet everyone was his friend; no longer
- young, but as happy-hearted as a boy; plain and peculiar, yet his face
- looked beautiful to many, and his oddities were freely forgiven for his
- sake. Jo often watched him, trying to discover the charm, and at last
- decided that it was benevolence which worked the miracle. If he had
- any sorrow, 'it sat with its head under its wing', and he turned only
- his sunny side to the world. There were lines upon his forehead, but
- Time seemed to have touched him gently, remembering how kind he was to
- others. The pleasant curves about his mouth were the memorials of many
- friendly words and cheery laughs, his eyes were never cold or hard, and
- his big hand had a warm, strong grasp that was more expressive than
- words.
- His very clothes seemed to partake of the hospitable nature of the
- wearer. They looked as if they were at ease, and liked to make him
- comfortable. His capacious waistcoat was suggestive of a large heart
- underneath. His rusty coat had a social air, and the baggy pockets
- plainly proved that little hands often went in empty and came out full.
- His very boots were benevolent, and his collars never stiff and raspy
- like other people's.
- "That's it!" said Jo to herself, when she at length discovered that
- genuine good will toward one's fellow men could beautify and dignify
- even a stout German teacher, who shoveled in his dinner, darned his own
- socks, and was burdened with the name of Bhaer.
- Jo valued goodness highly, but she also possessed a most feminine
- respect for intellect, and a little discovery which she made about the
- Professor added much to her regard for him. He never spoke of himself,
- and no one ever knew that in his native city he had been a man much
- honored and esteemed for learning and integrity, till a countryman came
- to see him. He never spoke of himself, and in a conversation with Miss
- Norton divulged the pleasing fact. From her Jo learned it, and liked
- it all the better because Mr. Bhaer had never told it. She felt proud
- to know that he was an honored Professor in Berlin, though only a poor
- language-master in America, and his homely, hard-working life was much
- beautified by the spice of romance which this discovery gave it.
- Another and a better gift than intellect was shown her in a most
- unexpected manner. Miss Norton had the entree into most society, which
- Jo would have had no chance of seeing but for her. The solitary woman
- felt an interest in the ambitious girl, and kindly conferred many
- favors of this sort both on Jo and the Professor. She took them with
- her one night to a select symposium, held in honor of several
- celebrities.
- Jo went prepared to bow down and adore the mighty ones whom she had
- worshiped with youthful enthusiasm afar off. But her reverence for
- genius received a severe shock that night, and it took her some time to
- recover from the discovery that the great creatures were only men and
- women after all. Imagine her dismay, on stealing a glance of timid
- admiration at the poet whose lines suggested an ethereal being fed on
- 'spirit, fire, and dew', to behold him devouring his supper with an
- ardor which flushed his intellectual countenance. Turning as from a
- fallen idol, she made other discoveries which rapidly dispelled her
- romantic illusions. The great novelist vibrated between two decanters
- with the regularity of a pendulum; the famous divine flirted openly
- with one of the Madame de Staels of the age, who looked daggers at
- another Corinne, who was amiably satirizing her, after outmaneuvering
- her in efforts to absorb the profound philosopher, who imbibed tea
- Johnsonianly and appeared to slumber, the loquacity of the lady
- rendering speech impossible. The scientific celebrities, forgetting
- their mollusks and glacial periods, gossiped about art, while devoting
- themselves to oysters and ices with characteristic energy; the young
- musician, who was charming the city like a second Orpheus, talked
- horses; and the specimen of the British nobility present happened to be
- the most ordinary man of the party.
- Before the evening was half over, Jo felt so completely disillusioned,
- that she sat down in a corner to recover herself. Mr. Bhaer soon joined
- her, looking rather out of his element, and presently several of the
- philosophers, each mounted on his hobby, came ambling up to hold an
- intellectual tournament in the recess. The conversations were miles
- beyond Jo's comprehension, but she enjoyed it, though Kant and Hegel
- were unknown gods, the Subjective and Objective unintelligible terms,
- and the only thing 'evolved from her inner consciousness' was a bad
- headache after it was all over. It dawned upon her gradually that the
- world was being picked to pieces, and put together on new and,
- according to the talkers, on infinitely better principles than before,
- that religion was in a fair way to be reasoned into nothingness, and
- intellect was to be the only God. Jo knew nothing about philosophy or
- metaphysics of any sort, but a curious excitement, half pleasurable,
- half painful, came over her as she listened with a sense of being
- turned adrift into time and space, like a young balloon out on a
- holiday.
- She looked round to see how the Professor liked it, and found him
- looking at her with the grimmest expression she had ever seen him wear.
- He shook his head and beckoned her to come away, but she was fascinated
- just then by the freedom of Speculative Philosophy, and kept her seat,
- trying to find out what the wise gentlemen intended to rely upon after
- they had annihilated all the old beliefs.
- Now, Mr. Bhaer was a diffident man and slow to offer his own opinions,
- not because they were unsettled, but too sincere and earnest to be
- lightly spoken. As he glanced from Jo to several other young people,
- attracted by the brilliancy of the philosophic pyrotechnics, he knit
- his brows and longed to speak, fearing that some inflammable young soul
- would be led astray by the rockets, to find when the display was over
- that they had only an empty stick or a scorched hand.
- He bore it as long as he could, but when he was appealed to for an
- opinion, he blazed up with honest indignation and defended religion
- with all the eloquence of truth--an eloquence which made his broken
- English musical and his plain face beautiful. He had a hard fight, for
- the wise men argued well, but he didn't know when he was beaten and
- stood to his colors like a man. Somehow, as he talked, the world got
- right again to Jo. The old beliefs, that had lasted so long, seemed
- better than the new. God was not a blind force, and immortality was
- not a pretty fable, but a blessed fact. She felt as if she had solid
- ground under her feet again, and when Mr. Bhaer paused, outtalked but
- not one whit convinced, Jo wanted to clap her hands and thank him.
- She did neither, but she remembered the scene, and gave the Professor
- her heartiest respect, for she knew it cost him an effort to speak out
- then and there, because his conscience would not let him be silent.
- She began to see that character is a better possession than money,
- rank, intellect, or beauty, and to feel that if greatness is what a
- wise man has defined it to be, 'truth, reverence, and good will', then
- her friend Friedrich Bhaer was not only good, but great.
- This belief strengthened daily. She valued his esteem, she coveted his
- respect, she wanted to be worthy of his friendship, and just when the
- wish was sincerest, she came near to losing everything. It all grew
- out of a cocked hat, for one evening the Professor came in to give Jo
- her lesson with a paper soldier cap on his head, which Tina had put
- there and he had forgotten to take off.
- "It's evident he doesn't look in his glass before coming down," thought
- Jo, with a smile, as he said "Goot efening," and sat soberly down,
- quite unconscious of the ludicrous contrast between his subject and his
- headgear, for he was going to read her the Death of Wallenstein.
- She said nothing at first, for she liked to hear him laugh out his big,
- hearty laugh when anything funny happened, so she left him to discover
- it for himself, and presently forgot all about it, for to hear a German
- read Schiller is rather an absorbing occupation. After the reading
- came the lesson, which was a lively one, for Jo was in a gay mood that
- night, and the cocked hat kept her eyes dancing with merriment. The
- Professor didn't know what to make of her, and stopped at last to ask
- with an air of mild surprise that was irresistible. . .
- "Mees Marsch, for what do you laugh in your master's face? Haf you no
- respect for me, that you go on so bad?"
- "How can I be respectful, Sir, when you forget to take your hat off?"
- said Jo.
- Lifting his hand to his head, the absent-minded Professor gravely felt
- and removed the little cocked hat, looked at it a minute, and then
- threw back his head and laughed like a merry bass viol.
- "Ah! I see him now, it is that imp Tina who makes me a fool with my
- cap. Well, it is nothing, but see you, if this lesson goes not well,
- you too shall wear him."
- But the lesson did not go at all for a few minutes because Mr. Bhaer
- caught sight of a picture on the hat, and unfolding it, said with great
- disgust, "I wish these papers did not come in the house. They are not
- for children to see, nor young people to read. It is not well, and I
- haf no patience with those who make this harm."
- Jo glanced at the sheet and saw a pleasing illustration composed of a
- lunatic, a corpse, a villain, and a viper. She did not like it, but
- the impulse that made her turn it over was not one of displeasure but
- fear, because for a minute she fancied the paper was the Volcano. It
- was not, however, and her panic subsided as she remembered that even if
- it had been and one of her own tales in it, there would have been no
- name to betray her. She had betrayed herself, however, by a look and a
- blush, for though an absent man, the Professor saw a good deal more
- than people fancied. He knew that Jo wrote, and had met her down among
- the newspaper offices more than once, but as she never spoke of it, he
- asked no questions in spite of a strong desire to see her work. Now it
- occurred to him that she was doing what she was ashamed to own, and it
- troubled him. He did not say to himself, "It is none of my business.
- I've no right to say anything," as many people would have done. He
- only remembered that she was young and poor, a girl far away from
- mother's love and father's care, and he was moved to help her with an
- impulse as quick and natural as that which would prompt him to put out
- his hand to save a baby from a puddle. All this flashed through his
- mind in a minute, but not a trace of it appeared in his face, and by
- the time the paper was turned, and Jo's needle threaded, he was ready
- to say quite naturally, but very gravely...
- "Yes, you are right to put it from you. I do not think that good young
- girls should see such things. They are made pleasant to some, but I
- would more rather give my boys gunpowder to play with than this bad
- trash."
- "All may not be bad, only silly, you know, and if there is a demand for
- it, I don't see any harm in supplying it. Many very respectable people
- make an honest living out of what are called sensation stories," said
- Jo, scratching gathers so energetically that a row of little slits
- followed her pin.
- "There is a demand for whisky, but I think you and I do not care to
- sell it. If the respectable people knew what harm they did, they would
- not feel that the living was honest. They haf no right to put poison
- in the sugarplum, and let the small ones eat it. No, they should think
- a little, and sweep mud in the street before they do this thing."
- Mr. Bhaer spoke warmly, and walked to the fire, crumpling the paper in
- his hands. Jo sat still, looking as if the fire had come to her, for
- her cheeks burned long after the cocked hat had turned to smoke and
- gone harmlessly up the chimney.
- "I should like much to send all the rest after him," muttered the
- Professor, coming back with a relieved air.
- Jo thought what a blaze her pile of papers upstairs would make, and her
- hard-earned money lay rather heavily on her conscience at that minute.
- Then she thought consolingly to herself, "Mine are not like that, they
- are only silly, never bad, so I won't be worried," and taking up her
- book, she said, with a studious face, "Shall we go on, Sir? I'll be
- very good and proper now."
- "I shall hope so," was all he said, but he meant more than she
- imagined, and the grave, kind look he gave her made her feel as if the
- words Weekly Volcano were printed in large type on her forehead.
- As soon as she went to her room, she got out her papers, and carefully
- reread every one of her stories. Being a little shortsighted, Mr.
- Bhaer sometimes used eye glasses, and Jo had tried them once, smiling
- to see how they magnified the fine print of her book. Now she seemed
- to have on the Professor's mental or moral spectacles also, for the
- faults of these poor stories glared at her dreadfully and filled her
- with dismay.
- "They are trash, and will soon be worse trash if I go on, for each is
- more sensational than the last. I've gone blindly on, hurting myself
- and other people, for the sake of money. I know it's so, for I can't
- read this stuff in sober earnest without being horribly ashamed of it,
- and what should I do if they were seen at home or Mr. Bhaer got hold of
- them?"
- Jo turned hot at the bare idea, and stuffed the whole bundle into her
- stove, nearly setting the chimney afire with the blaze.
- "Yes, that's the best place for such inflammable nonsense. I'd better
- burn the house down, I suppose, than let other people blow themselves
- up with my gunpowder," she thought as she watched the Demon of the Jura
- whisk away, a little black cinder with fiery eyes.
- But when nothing remained of all her three month's work except a heap
- of ashes and the money in her lap, Jo looked sober, as she sat on the
- floor, wondering what she ought to do about her wages.
- "I think I haven't done much harm yet, and may keep this to pay for my
- time," she said, after a long meditation, adding impatiently, "I almost
- wish I hadn't any conscience, it's so inconvenient. If I didn't care
- about doing right, and didn't feel uncomfortable when doing wrong, I
- should get on capitally. I can't help wishing sometimes, that Mother
- and Father hadn't been so particular about such things."
- Ah, Jo, instead of wishing that, thank God that 'Father and Mother were
- particular', and pity from your heart those who have no such guardians
- to hedge them round with principles which may seem like prison walls to
- impatient youth, but which will prove sure foundations to build
- character upon in womanhood.
- Jo wrote no more sensational stories, deciding that the money did not
- pay for her share of the sensation, but going to the other extreme, as
- is the way with people of her stamp, she took a course of Mrs.
- Sherwood, Miss Edgeworth, and Hannah More, and then produced a tale
- which might have been more properly called an essay or a sermon, so
- intensely moral was it. She had her doubts about it from the
- beginning, for her lively fancy and girlish romance felt as ill at ease
- in the new style as she would have done masquerading in the stiff and
- cumbrous costume of the last century. She sent this didactic gem to
- several markets, but it found no purchaser, and she was inclined to
- agree with Mr. Dashwood that morals didn't sell.
- Then she tried a child's story, which she could easily have disposed of
- if she had not been mercenary enough to demand filthy lucre for it.
- The only person who offered enough to make it worth her while to try
- juvenile literature was a worthy gentleman who felt it his mission to
- convert all the world to his particular belief. But much as she liked
- to write for children, Jo could not consent to depict all her naughty
- boys as being eaten by bears or tossed by mad bulls because they did
- not go to a particular Sabbath school, nor all the good infants who did
- go as rewarded by every kind of bliss, from gilded gingerbread to
- escorts of angels when they departed this life with psalms or sermons
- on their lisping tongues. So nothing came of these trials, and Jo
- corked up her inkstand, and said in a fit of very wholesome humility...
- "I don't know anything. I'll wait until I do before I try again, and
- meantime, 'sweep mud in the street' if I can't do better, that's
- honest, at least." Which decision proved that her second tumble down
- the beanstalk had done her some good.
- While these internal revolutions were going on, her external life had
- been as busy and uneventful as usual, and if she sometimes looked
- serious or a little sad no one observed it but Professor Bhaer. He did
- it so quietly that Jo never knew he was watching to see if she would
- accept and profit by his reproof, but she stood the test, and he was
- satisfied, for though no words passed between them, he knew that she
- had given up writing. Not only did he guess it by the fact that the
- second finger of her right hand was no longer inky, but she spent her
- evenings downstairs now, was met no more among newspaper offices, and
- studied with a dogged patience, which assured him that she was bent on
- occupying her mind with something useful, if not pleasant.
- He helped her in many ways, proving himself a true friend, and Jo was
- happy, for while her pen lay idle, she was learning other lessons
- besides German, and laying a foundation for the sensation story of her
- own life.
- It was a pleasant winter and a long one, for she did not leave Mrs.
- Kirke till June. Everyone seemed sorry when the time came. The
- children were inconsolable, and Mr. Bhaer's hair stuck straight up all
- over his head, for he always rumpled it wildly when disturbed in mind.
- "Going home? Ah, you are happy that you haf a home to go in," he said,
- when she told him, and sat silently pulling his beard in the corner,
- while she held a little levee on that last evening.
- She was going early, so she bade them all goodbye overnight, and when
- his turn came, she said warmly, "Now, Sir, you won't forget to come and
- see us, if you ever travel our way, will you? I'll never forgive you if
- you do, for I want them all to know my friend."
- "Do you? Shall I come?" he asked, looking down at her with an eager
- expression which she did not see.
- "Yes, come next month. Laurie graduates then, and you'd enjoy
- commencement as something new."
- "That is your best friend, of whom you speak?" he said in an altered
- tone.
- "Yes, my boy Teddy. I'm very proud of him and should like you to see
- him."
- Jo looked up then, quite unconscious of anything but her own pleasure
- in the prospect of showing them to one another. Something in Mr.
- Bhaer's face suddenly recalled the fact that she might find Laurie more
- than a 'best friend', and simply because she particularly wished not to
- look as if anything was the matter, she involuntarily began to blush,
- and the more she tried not to, the redder she grew. If it had not been
- for Tina on her knee. She didn't know what would have become of her.
- Fortunately the child was moved to hug her, so she managed to hide her
- face an instant, hoping the Professor did not see it. But he did, and
- his own changed again from that momentary anxiety to its usual
- expression, as he said cordially...
- "I fear I shall not make the time for that, but I wish the friend much
- success, and you all happiness. Gott bless you!" And with that, he
- shook hands warmly, shouldered Tina, and went away.
- But after the boys were abed, he sat long before his fire with the
- tired look on his face and the 'heimweh', or homesickness, lying heavy
- at his heart. Once, when he remembered Jo as she sat with the little
- child in her lap and that new softness in her face, he leaned his head
- on his hands a minute, and then roamed about the room, as if in search
- of something that he could not find.
- "It is not for me, I must not hope it now," he said to himself, with a
- sigh that was almost a groan. Then, as if reproaching himself for the
- longing that he could not repress, he went and kissed the two tousled
- heads upon the pillow, took down his seldom-used meerschaum, and opened
- his Plato.
- He did his best and did it manfully, but I don't think he found that a
- pair of rampant boys, a pipe, or even the divine Plato, were very
- satisfactory substitutes for wife and child at home.
- Early as it was, he was at the station next morning to see Jo off, and
- thanks to him, she began her solitary journey with the pleasant memory
- of a familiar face smiling its farewell, a bunch of violets to keep her
- company, and best of all, the happy thought, "Well, the winter's gone,
- and I've written no books, earned no fortune, but I've made a friend
- worth having and I'll try to keep him all my life."
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
- HEARTACHE
- Whatever his motive might have been, Laurie studied to some purpose
- that year, for he graduated with honor, and gave the Latin oration with
- the grace of a Phillips and the eloquence of a Demosthenes, so his
- friends said. They were all there, his grandfather--oh, so proud--Mr.
- and Mrs. March, John and Meg, Jo and Beth, and all exulted over him
- with the sincere admiration which boys make light of at the time, but
- fail to win from the world by any after-triumphs.
- "I've got to stay for this confounded supper, but I shall be home early
- tomorrow. You'll come and meet me as usual, girls?" Laurie said, as he
- put the sisters into the carriage after the joys of the day were over.
- He said 'girls', but he meant Jo, for she was the only one who kept up
- the old custom. She had not the heart to refuse her splendid,
- successful boy anything, and answered warmly...
- "I'll come, Teddy, rain or shine, and march before you, playing 'Hail
- the conquering hero comes' on a jew's-harp."
- Laurie thanked her with a look that made her think in a sudden panic,
- "Oh, deary me! I know he'll say something, and then what shall I do?"
- Evening meditation and morning work somewhat allayed her fears, and
- having decided that she wouldn't be vain enough to think people were
- going to propose when she had given them every reason to know what her
- answer would be, she set forth at the appointed time, hoping Teddy
- wouldn't do anything to make her hurt his poor feelings. A call at
- Meg's, and a refreshing sniff and sip at the Daisy and Demijohn, still
- further fortified her for the tete-a-tete, but when she saw a stalwart
- figure looming in the distance, she had a strong desire to turn about
- and run away.
- "Where's the jew's-harp, Jo?" cried Laurie, as soon as he was within
- speaking distance.
- "I forgot it." And Jo took heart again, for that salutation could not
- be called lover-like.
- She always used to take his arm on these occasions, now she did not,
- and he made no complaint, which was a bad sign, but talked on rapidly
- about all sorts of faraway subjects, till they turned from the road
- into the little path that led homeward through the grove. Then he
- walked more slowly, suddenly lost his fine flow of language, and now
- and then a dreadful pause occurred. To rescue the conversation from
- one of the wells of silence into which it kept falling, Jo said
- hastily, "Now you must have a good long holiday!"
- "I intend to."
- Something in his resolute tone made Jo look up quickly to find him
- looking down at her with an expression that assured her the dreaded
- moment had come, and made her put out her hand with an imploring, "No,
- Teddy. Please don't!"
- "I will, and you must hear me. It's no use, Jo, we've got to have it
- out, and the sooner the better for both of us," he answered, getting
- flushed and excited all at once.
- "Say what you like then. I'll listen," said Jo, with a desperate sort
- of patience.
- Laurie was a young lover, but he was in earnest, and meant to 'have it
- out', if he died in the attempt, so he plunged into the subject with
- characteristic impetuousity, saying in a voice that would get choky now
- and then, in spite of manful efforts to keep it steady...
- "I've loved you ever since I've known you, Jo, couldn't help it, you've
- been so good to me. I've tried to show it, but you wouldn't let me.
- Now I'm going to make you hear, and give me an answer, for I can't go
- on so any longer."
- "I wanted to save you this. I thought you'd understand..." began Jo,
- finding it a great deal harder than she expected.
- "I know you did, but the girls are so queer you never know what they
- mean. They say no when they mean yes, and drive a man out of his wits
- just for the fun of it," returned Laurie, entrenching himself behind an
- undeniable fact.
- "I don't. I never wanted to make you care for me so, and I went away
- to keep you from it if I could."
- "I thought so. It was like you, but it was no use. I only loved you
- all the more, and I worked hard to please you, and I gave up billiards
- and everything you didn't like, and waited and never complained, for I
- hoped you'd love me, though I'm not half good enough..." Here there was
- a choke that couldn't be controlled, so he decapitated buttercups while
- he cleared his 'confounded throat'.
- "You, you are, you're a great deal too good for me, and I'm so grateful
- to you, and so proud and fond of you, I don't know why I can't love you
- as you want me to. I've tried, but I can't change the feeling, and it
- would be a lie to say I do when I don't."
- "Really, truly, Jo?"
- He stopped short, and caught both her hands as he put his question with
- a look that she did not soon forget.
- "Really, truly, dear."
- They were in the grove now, close by the stile, and when the last words
- fell reluctantly from Jo's lips, Laurie dropped her hands and turned as
- if to go on, but for once in his life the fence was too much for him.
- So he just laid his head down on the mossy post, and stood so still
- that Jo was frightened.
- "Oh, Teddy, I'm sorry, so desperately sorry, I could kill myself if it
- would do any good! I wish you wouldn't take it so hard, I can't help
- it. You know it's impossible for people to make themselves love other
- people if they don't," cried Jo inelegantly but remorsefully, as she
- softly patted his shoulder, remembering the time when he had comforted
- her so long ago.
- "They do sometimes," said a muffled voice from the post. "I don't
- believe it's the right sort of love, and I'd rather not try it," was
- the decided answer.
- There was a long pause, while a blackbird sung blithely on the willow
- by the river, and the tall grass rustled in the wind. Presently Jo said
- very soberly, as she sat down on the step of the stile, "Laurie, I want
- to tell you something."
- He started as if he had been shot, threw up his head, and cried out in
- a fierce tone, "Don't tell me that, Jo, I can't bear it now!"
- "Tell what?" she asked, wondering at his violence.
- "That you love that old man."
- "What old man?" demanded Jo, thinking he must mean his grandfather.
- "That devilish Professor you were always writing about. If you say you
- love him, I know I shall do something desperate;" and he looked as if
- he would keep his word, as he clenched his hands with a wrathful spark
- in his eyes.
- Jo wanted to laugh, but restrained herself and said warmly, for she
- too, was getting excited with all this, "Don't swear, Teddy! He isn't
- old, nor anything bad, but good and kind, and the best friend I've got,
- next to you. Pray, don't fly into a passion. I want to be kind, but I
- know I shall get angry if you abuse my Professor. I haven't the least
- idea of loving him or anybody else."
- "But you will after a while, and then what will become of me?"
- "You'll love someone else too, like a sensible boy, and forget all this
- trouble."
- "I can't love anyone else, and I'll never forget you, Jo, Never!
- Never!" with a stamp to emphasize his passionate words.
- "What shall I do with him?" sighed Jo, finding that emotions were more
- unmanagable than she expected. "You haven't heard what I wanted to
- tell you. Sit down and listen, for indeed I want to do right and make
- you happy," she said, hoping to soothe him with a little reason, which
- proved that she knew nothing about love.
- Seeing a ray of hope in that last speech, Laurie threw himself down on
- the grass at her feet, leaned his arm on the lower step of the stile,
- and looked up at her with an expectant face. Now that arrangement was
- not conducive to calm speech or clear thought on Jo's part, for how
- could she say hard things to her boy while he watched her with eyes
- full of love and longing, and lashes still wet with the bitter drop or
- two her hardness of heart had wrung from him? She gently turned his
- head away, saying, as she stroked the wavy hair which had been allowed
- to grow for her sake--how touching that was, to be sure! "I agree with
- Mother that you and I are not suited to each other, because our quick
- tempers and strong wills would probably make us very miserable, if we
- were so foolish as to..." Jo paused a little over the last word, but
- Laurie uttered it with a rapturous expression.
- "Marry--no we shouldn't! If you loved me, Jo, I should be a perfect
- saint, for you could make me anything you like."
- "No, I can't. I've tried and failed, and I won't risk our happiness by
- such a serious experiment. We don't agree and we never shall, so we'll
- be good friends all our lives, but we won't go and do anything rash."
- "Yes, we will if we get the chance," muttered Laurie rebelliously.
- "Now do be reasonable, and take a sensible view of the case," implored
- Jo, almost at her wit's end.
- "I won't be reasonable. I don't want to take what you call 'a sensible
- view'. It won't help me, and it only makes it harder. I don't believe
- you've got any heart."
- "I wish I hadn't."
- There was a little quiver in Jo's voice, and thinking it a good omen,
- Laurie turned round, bringing all his persuasive powers to bear as he
- said, in the wheedlesome tone that had never been so dangerously
- wheedlesome before, "Don't disappoint us, dear! Everyone expects it.
- Grandpa has set his heart upon it, your people like it, and I can't get
- on without you. Say you will, and let's be happy. Do, do!"
- Not until months afterward did Jo understand how she had the strength
- of mind to hold fast to the resolution she had made when she decided
- that she did not love her boy, and never could. It was very hard to
- do, but she did it, knowing that delay was both useless and cruel.
- "I can't say 'yes' truly, so I won't say it at all. You'll see that
- I'm right, by-and-by, and thank me for it..." she began solemnly.
- "I'll be hanged if I do!" and Laurie bounced up off the grass, burning
- with indignation at the very idea.
- "Yes, you will!" persisted Jo. "You'll get over this after a while,
- and find some lovely accomplished girl, who will adore you, and make a
- fine mistress for your fine house. I shouldn't. I'm homely and awkward
- and odd and old, and you'd be ashamed of me, and we should quarrel--we
- can't help it even now, you see--and I shouldn't like elegant society
- and you would, and you'd hate my scribbling, and I couldn't get on
- without it, and we should be unhappy, and wish we hadn't done it, and
- everything would be horrid!"
- "Anything more?" asked Laurie, finding it hard to listen patiently to
- this prophetic burst.
- "Nothing more, except that I don't believe I shall ever marry. I'm
- happy as I am, and love my liberty too well to be in a hurry to give it
- up for any mortal man."
- "I know better!" broke in Laurie. "You think so now, but there'll come
- a time when you will care for somebody, and you'll love him
- tremendously, and live and die for him. I know you will, it's your
- way, and I shall have to stand by and see it," and the despairing lover
- cast his hat upon the ground with a gesture that would have seemed
- comical, if his face had not been so tragic.
- "Yes, I will live and die for him, if he ever comes and makes me love
- him in spite of myself, and you must do the best you can!" cried Jo,
- losing patience with poor Teddy. "I've done my best, but you won't be
- reasonable, and it's selfish of you to keep teasing for what I can't
- give. I shall always be fond of you, very fond indeed, as a friend,
- but I'll never marry you, and the sooner you believe it the better for
- both of us--so now!"
- That speech was like gunpowder. Laurie looked at her a minute as if he
- did not quite know what to do with himself, then turned sharply away,
- saying in a desperate sort of tone, "You'll be sorry some day, Jo."
- "Oh, where are you going?" she cried, for his face frightened her.
- "To the devil!" was the consoling answer.
- For a minute Jo's heart stood still, as he swung himself down the bank
- toward the river, but it takes much folly, sin or misery to send a
- young man to a violent death, and Laurie was not one of the weak sort
- who are conquered by a single failure. He had no thought of a
- melodramatic plunge, but some blind instinct led him to fling hat and
- coat into his boat, and row away with all his might, making better time
- up the river than he had done in any race. Jo drew a long breath and
- unclasped her hands as she watched the poor fellow trying to outstrip
- the trouble which he carried in his heart.
- "That will do him good, and he'll come home in such a tender, penitent
- state of mind, that I shan't dare to see him," she said, adding, as she
- went slowly home, feeling as if she had murdered some innocent thing,
- and buried it under the leaves. "Now I must go and prepare Mr.
- Laurence to be very kind to my poor boy. I wish he'd love Beth,
- perhaps he may in time, but I begin to think I was mistaken about her.
- Oh dear! How can girls like to have lovers and refuse them? I think
- it's dreadful."
- Being sure that no one could do it so well as herself, she went
- straight to Mr. Laurence, told the hard story bravely through, and then
- broke down, crying so dismally over her own insensibility that the kind
- old gentleman, though sorely disappointed, did not utter a reproach.
- He found it difficult to understand how any girl could help loving
- Laurie, and hoped she would change her mind, but he knew even better
- than Jo that love cannot be forced, so he shook his head sadly and
- resolved to carry his boy out of harm's way, for Young Impetuosity's
- parting words to Jo disturbed him more than he would confess.
- When Laurie came home, dead tired but quite composed, his grandfather
- met him as if he knew nothing, and kept up the delusion very
- successfully for an hour or two. But when they sat together in the
- twilight, the time they used to enjoy so much, it was hard work for the
- old man to ramble on as usual, and harder still for the young one to
- listen to praises of the last year's success, which to him now seemed
- like love's labor lost. He bore it as long as he could, then went to
- his piano and began to play. The windows were open, and Jo, walking
- in the garden with Beth, for once understood music better than her
- sister, for he played the '_Sonata Pathetique_', and played it as he
- never did before.
- "That's very fine, I dare say, but it's sad enough to make one cry.
- Give us something gayer, lad," said Mr. Laurence, whose kind old heart
- was full of sympathy, which he longed to show but knew not how.
- Laurie dashed into a livelier strain, played stormily for several
- minutes, and would have got through bravely, if in a momentary lull
- Mrs. March's voice had not been heard calling, "Jo, dear, come in. I
- want you."
- Just what Laurie longed to say, with a different meaning! As he
- listened, he lost his place, the music ended with a broken chord, and
- the musician sat silent in the dark.
- "I can't stand this," muttered the old gentleman. Up he got, groped
- his way to the piano, laid a kind hand on either of the broad
- shoulders, and said, as gently as a woman, "I know, my boy, I know."
- No answer for an instant, then Laurie asked sharply, "Who told you?"
- "Jo herself."
- "Then there's an end of it!" And he shook off his grandfather's hands
- with an impatient motion, for though grateful for the sympathy, his
- man's pride could not bear a man's pity.
- "Not quite. I want to say one thing, and then there shall be an end of
- it," returned Mr. Laurence with unusual mildness. "You won't care to
- stay at home now, perhaps?"
- "I don't intend to run away from a girl. Jo can't prevent my seeing
- her, and I shall stay and do it as long as I like," interrupted Laurie
- in a defiant tone.
- "Not if you are the gentleman I think you. I'm disappointed, but the
- girl can't help it, and the only thing left for you to do is to go away
- for a time. Where will you go?"
- "Anywhere. I don't care what becomes of me," and Laurie got up with a
- reckless laugh that grated on his grandfather's ear.
- "Take it like a man, and don't do anything rash, for God's sake. Why
- not go abroad, as you planned, and forget it?"
- "I can't."
- "But you've been wild to go, and I promised you should when you got
- through college."
- "Ah, but I didn't mean to go alone!" and Laurie walked fast through the
- room with an expression which it was well his grandfather did not see.
- "I don't ask you to go alone. There's someone ready and glad to go
- with you, anywhere in the world."
- "Who, Sir?" stopping to listen.
- "Myself."
- Laurie came back as quickly as he went, and put out his hand, saying
- huskily, "I'm a selfish brute, but--you know--Grandfather--"
- "Lord help me, yes, I do know, for I've been through it all before,
- once in my own young days, and then with your father. Now, my dear boy,
- just sit quietly down and hear my plan. It's all settled, and can be
- carried out at once," said Mr. Laurence, keeping hold of the young man,
- as if fearful that he would break away as his father had done before
- him.
- "Well, sir, what is it?" and Laurie sat down, without a sign of
- interest in face or voice.
- "There is business in London that needs looking after. I meant you
- should attend to it, but I can do it better myself, and things here
- will get on very well with Brooke to manage them. My partners do
- almost everything, I'm merely holding on until you take my place, and
- can be off at any time."
- "But you hate traveling, Sir. I can't ask it of you at your age,"
- began Laurie, who was grateful for the sacrifice, but much preferred to
- go alone, if he went at all.
- The old gentleman knew that perfectly well, and particularly desired to
- prevent it, for the mood in which he found his grandson assured him
- that it would not be wise to leave him to his own devices. So,
- stifling a natural regret at the thought of the home comforts he would
- leave behind him, he said stoutly, "Bless your soul, I'm not
- superannuated yet. I quite enjoy the idea. It will do me good, and my
- old bones won't suffer, for traveling nowadays is almost as easy as
- sitting in a chair."
- A restless movement from Laurie suggested that his chair was not easy,
- or that he did not like the plan, and made the old man add hastily, "I
- don't mean to be a marplot or a burden. I go because I think you'd feel
- happier than if I was left behind. I don't intend to gad about with
- you, but leave you free to go where you like, while I amuse myself in
- my own way. I've friends in London and Paris, and should like to visit
- them. Meantime you can go to Italy, Germany, Switzerland, where you
- will, and enjoy pictures, music, scenery, and adventures to your
- heart's content."
- Now, Laurie felt just then that his heart was entirely broken and the
- world a howling wilderness, but at the sound of certain words which the
- old gentleman artfully introduced into his closing sentence, the broken
- heart gave an unexpected leap, and a green oasis or two suddenly
- appeared in the howling wilderness. He sighed, and then said, in a
- spiritless tone, "Just as you like, Sir. It doesn't matter where I go
- or what I do."
- "It does to me, remember that, my lad. I give you entire liberty, but
- I trust you to make an honest use of it. Promise me that, Laurie."
- "Anything you like, Sir."
- "Good," thought the old gentleman. "You don't care now, but there'll
- come a time when that promise will keep you out of mischief, or I'm
- much mistaken."
- Being an energetic individual, Mr. Laurence struck while the iron was
- hot, and before the blighted being recovered spirit enough to rebel,
- they were off. During the time necessary for preparation, Laurie bore
- himself as young gentleman usually do in such cases. He was moody,
- irritable, and pensive by turns, lost his appetite, neglected his dress
- and devoted much time to playing tempestuously on his piano, avoided
- Jo, but consoled himself by staring at her from his window, with a
- tragic face that haunted her dreams by night and oppressed her with a
- heavy sense of guilt by day. Unlike some sufferers, he never spoke of
- his unrequited passion, and would allow no one, not even Mrs. March, to
- attempt consolation or offer sympathy. On some accounts, this was a
- relief to his friends, but the weeks before his departure were very
- uncomfortable, and everyone rejoiced that the 'poor, dear fellow was
- going away to forget his trouble, and come home happy'. Of course, he
- smiled darkly at their delusion, but passed it by with the sad
- superiority of one who knew that his fidelity like his love was
- unalterable.
- When the parting came he affected high spirits, to conceal certain
- inconvenient emotions which seemed inclined to assert themselves. This
- gaiety did not impose upon anybody, but they tried to look as if it did
- for his sake, and he got on very well till Mrs. March kissed him, with
- a whisper full of motherly solicitude. Then feeling that he was going
- very fast, he hastily embraced them all round, not forgetting the
- afflicted Hannah, and ran downstairs as if for his life. Jo followed a
- minute after to wave her hand to him if he looked round. He did look
- round, came back, put his arms about her as she stood on the step above
- him, and looked up at her with a face that made his short appeal
- eloquent and pathetic.
- "Oh, Jo, can't you?"
- "Teddy, dear, I wish I could!"
- That was all, except a little pause. Then Laurie straightened himself
- up, said, "It's all right, never mind," and went away without another
- word. Ah, but it wasn't all right, and Jo did mind, for while the
- curly head lay on her arm a minute after her hard answer, she felt as
- if she had stabbed her dearest friend, and when he left her without a
- look behind him, she knew that the boy Laurie never would come again.
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
- BETH'S SECRET
- When Jo came home that spring, she had been struck with the change in
- Beth. No one spoke of it or seemed aware of it, for it had come too
- gradually to startle those who saw her daily, but to eyes sharpened by
- absence, it was very plain and a heavy weight fell on Jo's heart as she
- saw her sister's face. It was no paler and but littler thinner than in
- the autumn, yet there was a strange, transparent look about it, as if
- the mortal was being slowly refined away, and the immortal shining
- through the frail flesh with an indescribably pathetic beauty. Jo saw
- and felt it, but said nothing at the time, and soon the first
- impression lost much of its power, for Beth seemed happy, no one
- appeared to doubt that she was better, and presently in other cares Jo
- for a time forgot her fear.
- But when Laurie was gone, and peace prevailed again, the vague anxiety
- returned and haunted her. She had confessed her sins and been
- forgiven, but when she showed her savings and proposed a mountain trip,
- Beth had thanked her heartily, but begged not to go so far away from
- home. Another little visit to the seashore would suit her better, and
- as Grandma could not be prevailed upon to leave the babies, Jo took
- Beth down to the quiet place, where she could live much in the open
- air, and let the fresh sea breezes blow a little color into her pale
- cheeks.
- It was not a fashionable place, but even among the pleasant people
- there, the girls made few friends, preferring to live for one another.
- Beth was too shy to enjoy society, and Jo too wrapped up in her to care
- for anyone else. So they were all in all to each other, and came and
- went, quite unconscious of the interest they excited in those about
- them, who watched with sympathetic eyes the strong sister and the
- feeble one, always together, as if they felt instinctively that a long
- separation was not far away.
- They did feel it, yet neither spoke of it, for often between ourselves
- and those nearest and dearest to us there exists a reserve which it is
- very hard to overcome. Jo felt as if a veil had fallen between her
- heart and Beth's, but when she put out her hand to lift it up, there
- seemed something sacred in the silence, and she waited for Beth to
- speak. She wondered, and was thankful also, that her parents did not
- seem to see what she saw, and during the quiet weeks when the shadows
- grew so plain to her, she said nothing of it to those at home,
- believing that it would tell itself when Beth came back no better. She
- wondered still more if her sister really guessed the hard truth, and
- what thoughts were passing through her mind during the long hours when
- she lay on the warm rocks with her head in Jo's lap, while the winds
- blew healthfully over her and the sea made music at her feet.
- One day Beth told her. Jo thought she was asleep, she lay so still,
- and putting down her book, sat looking at her with wistful eyes, trying
- to see signs of hope in the faint color on Beth's cheeks. But she
- could not find enough to satisfy her, for the cheeks were very thin,
- and the hands seemed too feeble to hold even the rosy little shells
- they had been collecting. It came to her then more bitterly than ever
- that Beth was slowly drifting away from her, and her arms instinctively
- tightened their hold upon the dearest treasure she possessed. For a
- minute her eyes were too dim for seeing, and when they cleared, Beth
- was looking up at her so tenderly that there was hardly any need for
- her to say, "Jo, dear, I'm glad you know it. I've tried to tell you,
- but I couldn't."
- There was no answer except her sister's cheek against her own, not even
- tears, for when most deeply moved, Jo did not cry. She was the weaker
- then, and Beth tried to comfort and sustain her, with her arms about
- her and the soothing words she whispered in her ear.
- "I've known it for a good while, dear, and now I'm used to it, it isn't
- hard to think of or to bear. Try to see it so and don't be troubled
- about me, because it's best, indeed it is."
- "Is this what made you so unhappy in the autumn, Beth? You did not feel
- it then, and keep it to yourself so long, did you?" asked Jo, refusing
- to see or say that it was best, but glad to know that Laurie had no
- part in Beth's trouble.
- "Yes, I gave up hoping then, but I didn't like to own it. I tried to
- think it was a sick fancy, and would not let it trouble anyone. But
- when I saw you all so well and strong and full of happy plans, it was
- hard to feel that I could never be like you, and then I was miserable,
- Jo."
- "Oh, Beth, and you didn't tell me, didn't let me comfort and help you?
- How could you shut me out, bear it all alone?"
- Jo's voice was full of tender reproach, and her heart ached to think of
- the solitary struggle that must have gone on while Beth learned to say
- goodbye to health, love, and life, and take up her cross so cheerfully.
- "Perhaps it was wrong, but I tried to do right. I wasn't sure, no one
- said anything, and I hoped I was mistaken. It would have been selfish
- to frighten you all when Marmee was so anxious about Meg, and Amy away,
- and you so happy with Laurie--at least I thought so then."
- "And I thought you loved him, Beth, and I went away because I
- couldn't," cried Jo, glad to say all the truth.
- Beth looked so amazed at the idea that Jo smiled in spite of her pain,
- and added softly, "Then you didn't, dearie? I was afraid it was so, and
- imagined your poor little heart full of lovelornity all that while."
- "Why, Jo, how could I, when he was so fond of you?" asked Beth, as
- innocently as a child. "I do love him dearly. He is so good to me,
- how can I help It? But he could never be anything to me but my
- brother. I hope he truly will be, sometime."
- "Not through me," said Jo decidedly. "Amy is left for him, and they
- would suit excellently, but I have no heart for such things, now. I
- don't care what becomes of anybody but you, Beth. You must get well."
- "I want to, oh, so much! I try, but every day I lose a little, and
- feel more sure that I shall never gain it back. It's like the tide,
- Jo, when it turns, it goes slowly, but it can't be stopped."
- "It shall be stopped, your tide must not turn so soon, nineteen is too
- young, Beth. I can't let you go. I'll work and pray and fight against
- it. I'll keep you in spite of everything. There must be ways, it
- can't be too late. God won't be so cruel as to take you from me,"
- cried poor Jo rebelliously, for her spirit was far less piously
- submissive than Beth's.
- Simple, sincere people seldom speak much of their piety. It shows
- itself in acts rather than in words, and has more influence than
- homilies or protestations. Beth could not reason upon or explain the
- faith that gave her courage and patience to give up life, and
- cheerfully wait for death. Like a confiding child, she asked no
- questions, but left everything to God and nature, Father and Mother of
- us all, feeling sure that they, and they only, could teach and
- strengthen heart and spirit for this life and the life to come. She
- did not rebuke Jo with saintly speeches, only loved her better for her
- passionate affection, and clung more closely to the dear human love,
- from which our Father never means us to be weaned, but through which He
- draws us closer to Himself. She could not say, "I'm glad to go," for
- life was very sweet for her. She could only sob out, "I try to be
- willing," while she held fast to Jo, as the first bitter wave of this
- great sorrow broke over them together.
- By and by Beth said, with recovered serenity, "You'll tell them this
- when we go home?"
- "I think they will see it without words," sighed Jo, for now it seemed
- to her that Beth changed every day.
- "Perhaps not. I've heard that the people who love best are often
- blindest to such things. If they don't see it, you will tell them for
- me. I don't want any secrets, and it's kinder to prepare them. Meg
- has John and the babies to comfort her, but you must stand by Father
- and Mother, won't you Jo?"
- "If I can. But, Beth, I don't give up yet. I'm going to believe that
- it is a sick fancy, and not let you think it's true." said Jo, trying
- to speak cheerfully.
- Beth lay a minute thinking, and then said in her quiet way, "I don't
- know how to express myself, and shouldn't try to anyone but you,
- because I can't speak out except to my Jo. I only mean to say that I
- have a feeling that it never was intended I should live long. I'm not
- like the rest of you. I never made any plans about what I'd do when I
- grew up. I never thought of being married, as you all did. I couldn't
- seem to imagine myself anything but stupid little Beth, trotting about
- at home, of no use anywhere but there. I never wanted to go away, and
- the hard part now is the leaving you all. I'm not afraid, but it seems
- as if I should be homesick for you even in heaven."
- Jo could not speak, and for several minutes there was no sound but the
- sigh of the wind and the lapping of the tide. A white-winged gull flew
- by, with the flash of sunshine on its silvery breast. Beth watched it
- till it vanished, and her eyes were full of sadness. A little
- gray-coated sand bird came tripping over the beach 'peeping' softly to
- itself, as if enjoying the sun and sea. It came quite close to Beth,
- and looked at her with a friendly eye and sat upon a warm stone,
- dressing its wet feathers, quite at home. Beth smiled and felt
- comforted, for the tiny thing seemed to offer its small friendship and
- remind her that a pleasant world was still to be enjoyed.
- "Dear little bird! See, Jo, how tame it is. I like peeps better than
- the gulls. They are not so wild and handsome, but they seem happy,
- confiding little things. I used to call them my birds last summer, and
- Mother said they reminded her of me--busy, quaker-colored creatures,
- always near the shore, and always chirping that contented little song
- of theirs. You are the gull, Jo, strong and wild, fond of the storm
- and the wind, flying far out to sea, and happy all alone. Meg is the
- turtledove, and Amy is like the lark she writes about, trying to get up
- among the clouds, but always dropping down into its nest again. Dear
- little girl! She's so ambitious, but her heart is good and tender, and
- no matter how high she flies, she never will forget home. I hope I
- shall see her again, but she seems so far away."
- "She is coming in the spring, and I mean that you shall be all ready to
- see and enjoy her. I'm going to have you well and rosy by that time,"
- began Jo, feeling that of all the changes in Beth, the talking change
- was the greatest, for it seemed to cost no effort now, and she thought
- aloud in a way quite unlike bashful Beth.
- "Jo, dear, don't hope any more. It won't do any good. I'm sure of
- that. We won't be miserable, but enjoy being together while we wait.
- We'll have happy times, for I don't suffer much, and I think the tide
- will go out easily, if you help me."
- Jo leaned down to kiss the tranquil face, and with that silent kiss,
- she dedicated herself soul and body to Beth.
- She was right. There was no need of any words when they got home, for
- Father and Mother saw plainly now what they had prayed to be saved from
- seeing. Tired with her short journey, Beth went at once to bed, saying
- how glad she was to be home, and when Jo went down, she found that she
- would be spared the hard task of telling Beth's secret. Her father
- stood leaning his head on the mantelpiece and did not turn as she came
- in, but her mother stretched out her arms as if for help, and Jo went
- to comfort her without a word.
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
- NEW IMPRESSIONS
- At three o'clock in the afternoon, all the fashionable world at Nice
- may be seen on the Promenade des Anglais--a charming place, for the
- wide walk, bordered with palms, flowers, and tropical shrubs, is
- bounded on one side by the sea, on the other by the grand drive, lined
- with hotels and villas, while beyond lie orange orchards and the hills.
- Many nations are represented, many languages spoken, many costumes
- worn, and on a sunny day the spectacle is as gay and brilliant as a
- carnival. Haughty English, lively French, sober Germans, handsome
- Spaniards, ugly Russians, meek Jews, free-and-easy Americans, all
- drive, sit, or saunter here, chatting over the news, and criticizing
- the latest celebrity who has arrived--Ristori or Dickens, Victor
- Emmanuel or the Queen of the Sandwich Islands. The equipages are as
- varied as the company and attract as much attention, especially the low
- basket barouches in which ladies drive themselves, with a pair of
- dashing ponies, gay nets to keep their voluminous flounces from
- overflowing the diminutive vehicles, and little grooms on the perch
- behind.
- Along this walk, on Christmas Day, a tall young man walked slowly, with
- his hands behind him, and a somewhat absent expression of countenance.
- He looked like an Italian, was dressed like an Englishman, and had the
- independent air of an American--a combination which caused sundry pairs
- of feminine eyes to look approvingly after him, and sundry dandies in
- black velvet suits, with rose-colored neckties, buff gloves, and orange
- flowers in their buttonholes, to shrug their shoulders, and then envy
- him his inches. There were plenty of pretty faces to admire, but the
- young man took little notice of them, except to glance now and then at
- some blonde girl in blue. Presently he strolled out of the promenade
- and stood a moment at the crossing, as if undecided whether to go and
- listen to the band in the Jardin Publique, or to wander along the beach
- toward Castle Hill. The quick trot of ponies' feet made him look up,
- as one of the little carriages, containing a single young lady, came
- rapidly down the street. The lady was young, blonde, and dressed in
- blue. He stared a minute, then his whole face woke up, and, waving his
- hat like a boy, he hurried forward to meet her.
- "Oh, Laurie, is it really you? I thought you'd never come!" cried Amy,
- dropping the reins and holding out both hands, to the great
- scandalization of a French mamma, who hastened her daughter's steps,
- lest she should be demoralized by beholding the free manners of these
- 'mad English'.
- "I was detained by the way, but I promised to spend Christmas with you,
- and here I am."
- "How is your grandfather? When did you come? Where are you staying?"
- "Very well--last night--at the Chauvain. I called at your hotel, but
- you were out."
- "I have so much to say, I don't know where to begin! Get in and we can
- talk at our ease. I was going for a drive and longing for company.
- Flo's saving up for tonight."
- "What happens then, a ball?"
- "A Christmas party at our hotel. There are many Americans there, and
- they give it in honor of the day. You'll go with us, of course? Aunt
- will be charmed."
- "Thank you. Where now?" asked Laurie, leaning back and folding his
- arms, a proceeding which suited Amy, who preferred to drive, for her
- parasol whip and blue reins over the white ponies' backs afforded her
- infinite satisfaction.
- "I'm going to the bankers first for letters, and then to Castle Hill.
- The view is so lovely, and I like to feed the peacocks. Have you ever
- been there?"
- "Often, years ago, but I don't mind having a look at it."
- "Now tell me all about yourself. The last I heard of you, your
- grandfather wrote that he expected you from Berlin."
- "Yes, I spent a month there and then joined him in Paris, where he has
- settled for the winter. He has friends there and finds plenty to amuse
- him, so I go and come, and we get on capitally."
- "That's a sociable arrangement," said Amy, missing something in
- Laurie's manner, though she couldn't tell what.
- "Why, you see, he hates to travel, and I hate to keep still, so we each
- suit ourselves, and there is no trouble. I am often with him, and he
- enjoys my adventures, while I like to feel that someone is glad to see
- me when I get back from my wanderings. Dirty old hole, isn't it?" he
- added, with a look of disgust as they drove along the boulevard to the
- Place Napoleon in the old city.
- "The dirt is picturesque, so I don't mind. The river and the hills are
- delicious, and these glimpses of the narrow cross streets are my
- delight. Now we shall have to wait for that procession to pass. It's
- going to the Church of St. John."
- While Laurie listlessly watched the procession of priests under their
- canopies, white-veiled nuns bearing lighted tapers, and some
- brotherhood in blue chanting as they walked, Amy watched him, and felt
- a new sort of shyness steal over her, for he was changed, and she could
- not find the merry-faced boy she left in the moody-looking man beside
- her. He was handsomer than ever and greatly improved, she thought, but
- now that the flush of pleasure at meeting her was over, he looked tired
- and spiritless--not sick, nor exactly unhappy, but older and graver
- than a year or two of prosperous life should have made him. She
- couldn't understand it and did not venture to ask questions, so she
- shook her head and touched up her ponies, as the procession wound away
- across the arches of the Paglioni bridge and vanished in the church.
- "Que pensez-vous?" she said, airing her French, which had improved in
- quantity, if not in quality, since she came abroad.
- "That mademoiselle has made good use of her time, and the result is
- charming," replied Laurie, bowing with his hand on his heart and an
- admiring look.
- She blushed with pleasure, but somehow the compliment did not satisfy
- her like the blunt praises he used to give her at home, when he
- promenaded round her on festival occasions, and told her she was
- 'altogether jolly', with a hearty smile and an approving pat on the
- head. She didn't like the new tone, for though not blase, it sounded
- indifferent in spite of the look.
- "If that's the way he's going to grow up, I wish he'd stay a boy," she
- thought, with a curious sense of disappointment and discomfort, trying
- meantime to seem quite easy and gay.
- At Avigdor's she found the precious home letters and, giving the reins
- to Laurie, read them luxuriously as they wound up the shady road
- between green hedges, where tea roses bloomed as freshly as in June.
- "Beth is very poorly, Mother says. I often think I ought to go home,
- but they all say 'stay'. So I do, for I shall never have another
- chance like this," said Amy, looking sober over one page.
- "I think you are right, there. You could do nothing at home, and it is
- a great comfort to them to know that you are well and happy, and
- enjoying so much, my dear."
- He drew a little nearer, and looked more like his old self as he said
- that, and the fear that sometimes weighed on Amy's heart was lightened,
- for the look, the act, the brotherly 'my dear', seemed to assure her
- that if any trouble did come, she would not be alone in a strange land.
- Presently she laughed and showed him a small sketch of Jo in her
- scribbling suit, with the bow rampantly erect upon her cap, and issuing
- from her mouth the words, 'Genius burns!'.
- Laurie smiled, took it, put it in his vest pocket 'to keep it from
- blowing away', and listened with interest to the lively letter Amy read
- him.
- "This will be a regularly merry Christmas to me, with presents in the
- morning, you and letters in the afternoon, and a party at night," said
- Amy, as they alighted among the ruins of the old fort, and a flock of
- splendid peacocks came trooping about them, tamely waiting to be fed.
- While Amy stood laughing on the bank above him as she scattered crumbs
- to the brilliant birds, Laurie looked at her as she had looked at him,
- with a natural curiosity to see what changes time and absence had
- wrought. He found nothing to perplex or disappoint, much to admire and
- approve, for overlooking a few little affectations of speech and
- manner, she was as sprightly and graceful as ever, with the addition of
- that indescribable something in dress and bearing which we call
- elegance. Always mature for her age, she had gained a certain aplomb
- in both carriage and conversation, which made her seem more of a woman
- of the world than she was, but her old petulance now and then showed
- itself, her strong will still held its own, and her native frankness
- was unspoiled by foreign polish.
- Laurie did not read all this while he watched her feed the peacocks,
- but he saw enough to satisfy and interest him, and carried away a
- pretty little picture of a bright-faced girl standing in the sunshine,
- which brought out the soft hue of her dress, the fresh color of her
- cheeks, the golden gloss of her hair, and made her a prominent figure
- in the pleasant scene.
- As they came up onto the stone plateau that crowns the hill, Amy waved
- her hand as if welcoming him to her favorite haunt, and said, pointing
- here and there, "Do you remember the Cathedral and the Corso, the
- fishermen dragging their nets in the bay, and the lovely road to Villa
- Franca, Schubert's Tower, just below, and best of all, that speck far
- out to sea which they say is Corsica?"
- "I remember. It's not much changed," he answered without enthusiasm.
- "What Jo would give for a sight of that famous speck!" said Amy,
- feeling in good spirits and anxious to see him so also.
- "Yes," was all he said, but he turned and strained his eyes to see the
- island which a greater usurper than even Napoleon now made interesting
- in his sight.
- "Take a good look at it for her sake, and then come and tell me what
- you have been doing with yourself all this while," said Amy, seating
- herself, ready for a good talk.
- But she did not get it, for though he joined her and answered all her
- questions freely, she could only learn that he had roved about the
- Continent and been to Greece. So after idling away an hour, they drove
- home again, and having paid his respects to Mrs. Carrol, Laurie left
- them, promising to return in the evening.
- It must be recorded of Amy that she deliberately prinked that night.
- Time and absence had done its work on both the young people. She had
- seen her old friend in a new light, not as 'our boy', but as a handsome
- and agreeable man, and she was conscious of a very natural desire to
- find favor in his sight. Amy knew her good points, and made the most
- of them with the taste and skill which is a fortune to a poor and
- pretty woman.
- Tarlatan and tulle were cheap at Nice, so she enveloped herself in them
- on such occasions, and following the sensible English fashion of simple
- dress for young girls, got up charming little toilettes with fresh
- flowers, a few trinkets, and all manner of dainty devices, which were
- both inexpensive and effective. It must be confessed that the artist
- sometimes got possession of the woman, and indulged in antique
- coiffures, statuesque attitudes, and classic draperies. But, dear
- heart, we all have our little weaknesses, and find it easy to pardon
- such in the young, who satisfy our eyes with their comeliness, and keep
- our hearts merry with their artless vanities.
- "I do want him to think I look well, and tell them so at home," said
- Amy to herself, as she put on Flo's old white silk ball dress, and
- covered it with a cloud of fresh illusion, out of which her white
- shoulders and golden head emerged with a most artistic effect. Her hair
- she had the sense to let alone, after gathering up the thick waves and
- curls into a Hebe-like knot at the back of her head.
- "It's not the fashion, but it's becoming, and I can't afford to make a
- fright of myself," she used to say, when advised to frizzle, puff, or
- braid, as the latest style commanded.
- Having no ornaments fine enough for this important occasion, Amy looped
- her fleecy skirts with rosy clusters of azalea, and framed the white
- shoulders in delicate green vines. Remembering the painted boots, she
- surveyed her white satin slippers with girlish satisfaction, and
- chassed down the room, admiring her aristocratic feet all by herself.
- "My new fan just matches my flowers, my gloves fit to a charm, and the
- real lace on Aunt's mouchoir gives an air to my whole dress. If I only
- had a classical nose and mouth I should be perfectly happy," she said,
- surveying herself with a critical eye and a candle in each hand.
- In spite of this affliction, she looked unusually gay and graceful as
- she glided away. She seldom ran--it did not suit her style, she
- thought, for being tall, the stately and Junoesque was more appropriate
- than the sportive or piquante. She walked up and down the long saloon
- while waiting for Laurie, and once arranged herself under the
- chandelier, which had a good effect upon her hair, then she thought
- better of it, and went away to the other end of the room, as if ashamed
- of the girlish desire to have the first view a propitious one. It so
- happened that she could not have done a better thing, for Laurie came
- in so quietly she did not hear him, and as she stood at the distant
- window, with her head half turned and one hand gathering up her dress,
- the slender, white figure against the red curtains was as effective as
- a well-placed statue.
- "Good evening, Diana!" said Laurie, with the look of satisfaction she
- liked to see in his eyes when they rested on her.
- "Good evening, Apollo!" she answered, smiling back at him, for he too
- looked unusually debonair, and the thought of entering the ballroom on
- the arm of such a personable man caused Amy to pity the four plain
- Misses Davis from the bottom of her heart.
- "Here are your flowers. I arranged them myself, remembering that you
- didn't like what Hannah calls a 'sot-bookay'," said Laurie, handing her
- a delicate nosegay, in a holder that she had long coveted as she daily
- passed it in Cardiglia's window.
- "How kind you are!" she exclaimed gratefully. "If I'd known you were
- coming I'd have had something ready for you today, though not as pretty
- as this, I'm afraid."
- "Thank you. It isn't what it should be, but you have improved it," he
- added, as she snapped the silver bracelet on her wrist.
- "Please don't."
- "I thought you liked that sort of thing."
- "Not from you, it doesn't sound natural, and I like your old bluntness
- better."
- "I'm glad of it," he answered, with a look of relief, then buttoned her
- gloves for her, and asked if his tie was straight, just as he used to
- do when they went to parties together at home.
- The company assembled in the long salle a manger, that evening, was
- such as one sees nowhere but on the Continent. The hospitable
- Americans had invited every acquaintance they had in Nice, and having
- no prejudice against titles, secured a few to add luster to their
- Christmas ball.
- A Russian prince condescended to sit in a corner for an hour and talk
- with a massive lady, dressed like Hamlet's mother in black velvet with
- a pearl bridle under her chin. A Polish count, aged eighteen, devoted
- himself to the ladies, who pronounced him, 'a fascinating dear', and a
- German Serene Something, having come to supper alone, roamed vaguely
- about, seeking what he might devour. Baron Rothschild's private
- secretary, a large-nosed Jew in tight boots, affably beamed upon the
- world, as if his master's name crowned him with a golden halo. A stout
- Frenchman, who knew the Emperor, came to indulge his mania for dancing,
- and Lady de Jones, a British matron, adorned the scene with her little
- family of eight. Of course, there were many light-footed,
- shrill-voiced American girls, handsome, lifeless-looking English ditto,
- and a few plain but piquante French demoiselles, likewise the usual set
- of traveling young gentlemen who disported themselves gaily, while
- mammas of all nations lined the walls and smiled upon them benignly
- when they danced with their daughters.
- Any young girl can imagine Amy's state of mind when she 'took the
- stage' that night, leaning on Laurie's arm. She knew she looked well,
- she loved to dance, she felt that her foot was on her native heath in a
- ballroom, and enjoyed the delightful sense of power which comes when
- young girls first discover the new and lovely kingdom they are born to
- rule by virtue of beauty, youth, and womanhood. She did pity the Davis
- girls, who were awkward, plain, and destitute of escort, except a grim
- papa and three grimmer maiden aunts, and she bowed to them in her
- friendliest manner as she passed, which was good of her, as it
- permitted them to see her dress, and burn with curiosity to know who
- her distinguished-looking friend might be. With the first burst of the
- band, Amy's color rose, her eyes began to sparkle, and her feet to tap
- the floor impatiently, for she danced well and wanted Laurie to know
- it. Therefore the shock she received can better be imagined than
- described, when he said in a perfectly tranquil tone, "Do you care to
- dance?"
- "One usually does at a ball."
- Her amazed look and quick answer caused Laurie to repair his error as
- fast as possible.
- "I meant the first dance. May I have the honor?"
- "I can give you one if I put off the Count. He dances divinely, but he
- will excuse me, as you are an old friend," said Amy, hoping that the
- name would have a good effect, and show Laurie that she was not to be
- trifled with.
- "Nice little boy, but rather a short Pole to support...
- A daughter of the gods,
- Devinely tall, and most divinely fair,"
- was all the satisfaction she got, however.
- The set in which they found themselves was composed of English, and Amy
- was compelled to walk decorously through a cotillion, feeling all the
- while as if she could dance the tarantella with relish. Laurie
- resigned her to the 'nice little boy', and went to do his duty to Flo,
- without securing Amy for the joys to come, which reprehensible want of
- forethought was properly punished, for she immediately engaged herself
- till supper, meaning to relent if he then gave any signs penitence. She
- showed him her ball book with demure satisfaction when he strolled
- instead of rushed up to claim her for the next, a glorious polka
- redowa. But his polite regrets didn't impose upon her, and when she
- galloped away with the Count, she saw Laurie sit down by her aunt with
- an actual expression of relief.
- That was unpardonable, and Amy took no more notice of him for a long
- while, except a word now and then when she came to her chaperon between
- the dances for a necessary pin or a moment's rest. Her anger had a
- good effect, however, for she hid it under a smiling face, and seemed
- unusually blithe and brilliant. Laurie's eyes followed her with
- pleasure, for she neither romped nor sauntered, but danced with spirit
- and grace, making the delightsome pastime what it should be. He very
- naturally fell to studying her from this new point of view, and before
- the evening was half over, had decided that 'little Amy was going to
- make a very charming woman'.
- It was a lively scene, for soon the spirit of the social season took
- possession of everyone, and Christmas merriment made all faces shine,
- hearts happy, and heels light. The musicians fiddled, tooted, and
- banged as if they enjoyed it, everybody danced who could, and those who
- couldn't admired their neighbors with uncommon warmth. The air was
- dark with Davises, and many Joneses gamboled like a flock of young
- giraffes. The golden secretary darted through the room like a meteor
- with a dashing French-woman who carpeted the floor with her pink satin
- train. The serene Teuton found the supper-table and was happy, eating
- steadily through the bill of fare, and dismayed the garcons by the
- ravages he committed. But the Emperor's friend covered himself with
- glory, for he danced everything, whether he knew it or not, and
- introduced impromptu pirouettes when the figures bewildered him. The
- boyish abandon of that stout man was charming to behold, for though he
- 'carried weight', he danced like an India-rubber ball. He ran, he
- flew, he pranced, his face glowed, his bald head shown, his coattails
- waved wildly, his pumps actually twinkled in the air, and when the
- music stopped, he wiped the drops from his brow, and beamed upon his
- fellow men like a French Pickwick without glasses.
- Amy and her Pole distinguished themselves by equal enthusiasm but more
- graceful agility, and Laurie found himself involuntarily keeping time
- to the rhythmic rise and fall of the white slippers as they flew by as
- indefatigably as if winged. When little Vladimir finally relinquished
- her, with assurances that he was 'desolated to leave so early', she was
- ready to rest, and see how her recreant knight had borne his punishment.
- It had been successful, for at three-and-twenty, blighted affections
- find a balm in friendly society, and young nerves will thrill, young
- blood dance, and healthy young spirits rise, when subjected to the
- enchantment of beauty, light, music, and motion. Laurie had a waked-up
- look as he rose to give her his seat, and when he hurried away to bring
- her some supper, she said to herself, with a satisfied smile, "Ah, I
- thought that would do him good!"
- "You look like Balzac's '_Femme Peinte Par Elle-Meme_'," he said, as he
- fanned her with one hand and held her coffee cup in the other.
- "My rouge won't come off." and Amy rubbed her brilliant cheek, and
- showed him her white glove with a sober simplicity that made him laugh
- outright.
- "What do you call this stuff?" he asked, touching a fold of her dress
- that had blown over his knee.
- "Illusion."
- "Good name for it. It's very pretty--new thing, isn't it?"
- "It's as old as the hills. You have seen it on dozens of girls, and
- you never found out that it was pretty till now--stupide!"
- "I never saw it on you before, which accounts for the mistake, you see."
- "None of that, it is forbidden. I'd rather take coffee than
- compliments just now. No, don't lounge, it makes me nervous."
- Laurie sat bold upright, and meekly took her empty plate feeling an odd
- sort of pleasure in having 'little Amy' order him about, for she had
- lost her shyness now, and felt an irrestible desire to trample on him,
- as girls have a delightful way of doing when lords of creation show any
- signs of subjection.
- "Where did you learn all this sort of thing?" he asked with a quizzical
- look.
- "As 'this sort of thing' is rather a vague expression, would you kindly
- explain?" returned Amy, knowing perfectly well what he meant, but
- wickedly leaving him to describe what is indescribable.
- "Well--the general air, the style, the self-possession,
- the--the--illusion--you know", laughed Laurie, breaking down and
- helping himself out of his quandary with the new word.
- Amy was gratified, but of course didn't show it, and demurely answered,
- "Foreign life polishes one in spite of one's self. I study as well as
- play, and as for this"--with a little gesture toward her dress--"why,
- tulle is cheap, posies to be had for nothing, and I am used to making
- the most of my poor little things."
- Amy rather regretted that last sentence, fearing it wasn't in good
- taste, but Laurie liked her better for it, and found himself both
- admiring and respecting the brave patience that made the most of
- opportunity, and the cheerful spirit that covered poverty with flowers.
- Amy did not know why he looked at her so kindly, nor why he filled up
- her book with his own name, and devoted himself to her for the rest of
- the evening in the most delightful manner; but the impulse that wrought
- this agreeable change was the result of one of the new impressions
- which both of them were unconsciously giving and receiving.
- CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
- ON THE SHELF
- In France the young girls have a dull time of it till they are married,
- when 'Vive la liberte!' becomes their motto. In America, as everyone
- knows, girls early sign the declaration of independence, and enjoy
- their freedom with republican zest, but the young matrons usually
- abdicate with the first heir to the throne and go into a seclusion
- almost as close as a French nunnery, though by no means as quiet.
- Whether they like it or not, they are virtually put upon the shelf as
- soon as the wedding excitement is over, and most of them might exclaim,
- as did a very pretty woman the other day, "I'm as handsome as ever, but
- no one takes any notice of me because I'm married."
- Not being a belle or even a fashionable lady, Meg did not experience
- this affliction till her babies were a year old, for in her little
- world primitive customs prevailed, and she found herself more admired
- and beloved than ever.
- As she was a womanly little woman, the maternal instinct was very
- strong, and she was entirely absorbed in her children, to the utter
- exclusion of everything and everybody else. Day and night she brooded
- over them with tireless devotion and anxiety, leaving John to the
- tender mercies of the help, for an Irish lady now presided over the
- kitchen department. Being a domestic man, John decidedly missed the
- wifely attentions he had been accustomed to receive, but as he adored
- his babies, he cheerfully relinquished his comfort for a time,
- supposing with masculine ignorance that peace would soon be restored.
- But three months passed, and there was no return of repose. Meg looked
- worn and nervous, the babies absorbed every minute of her time, the
- house was neglected, and Kitty, the cook, who took life 'aisy', kept
- him on short commons. When he went out in the morning he was
- bewildered by small commissions for the captive mamma, if he came gaily
- in at night, eager to embrace his family, he was quenched by a "Hush!
- They are just asleep after worrying all day." If he proposed a little
- amusement at home, "No, it would disturb the babies." If he hinted at
- a lecture or a concert, he was answered with a reproachful look, and a
- decided--"Leave my children for pleasure, never!" His sleep was broken
- by infant wails and visions of a phantom figure pacing noiselessly to
- and fro in the watches of the night. His meals were interrupted by the
- frequent flight of the presiding genius, who deserted him, half-helped,
- if a muffled chirp sounded from the nest above. And when he read his
- paper of an evening, Demi's colic got into the shipping list and
- Daisy's fall affected the price of stocks, for Mrs. Brooke was only
- interested in domestic news.
- The poor man was very uncomfortable, for the children had bereft him of
- his wife, home was merely a nursery and the perpetual 'hushing' made
- him feel like a brutal intruder whenever he entered the sacred
- precincts of Babyland. He bore it very patiently for six months, and
- when no signs of amendment appeared, he did what other paternal exiles
- do--tried to get a little comfort elsewhere. Scott had married and
- gone to housekeeping not far off, and John fell into the way of running
- over for an hour or two of an evening, when his own parlor was empty,
- and his own wife singing lullabies that seemed to have no end. Mrs.
- Scott was a lively, pretty girl, with nothing to do but be agreeable,
- and she performed her mission most successfully. The parlor was always
- bright and attractive, the chessboard ready, the piano in tune, plenty
- of gay gossip, and a nice little supper set forth in tempting style.
- John would have preferred his own fireside if it had not been so
- lonely, but as it was he gratefully took the next best thing and
- enjoyed his neighbor's society.
- Meg rather approved of the new arrangement at first, and found it a
- relief to know that John was having a good time instead of dozing in
- the parlor, or tramping about the house and waking the children. But
- by-and-by, when the teething worry was over and the idols went to sleep
- at proper hours, leaving Mamma time to rest, she began to miss John,
- and find her workbasket dull company, when he was not sitting opposite
- in his old dressing gown, comfortably scorching his slippers on the
- fender. She would not ask him to stay at home, but felt injured
- because he did not know that she wanted him without being told,
- entirely forgetting the many evenings he had waited for her in vain.
- She was nervous and worn out with watching and worry, and in that
- unreasonable frame of mind which the best of mothers occasionally
- experience when domestic cares oppress them. Want of exercise robs
- them of cheerfulness, and too much devotion to that idol of American
- women, the teapot, makes them feel as if they were all nerve and no
- muscle.
- "Yes," she would say, looking in the glass, "I'm getting old and ugly.
- John doesn't find me interesting any longer, so he leaves his faded
- wife and goes to see his pretty neighbor, who has no incumbrances.
- Well, the babies love me, they don't care if I am thin and pale and
- haven't time to crimp my hair, they are my comfort, and some day John
- will see what I've gladly sacrificed for them, won't he, my precious?"
- To which pathetic appeal Daisy would answer with a coo, or Demi with a
- crow, and Meg would put by her lamentations for a maternal revel, which
- soothed her solitude for the time being. But the pain increased as
- politics absorbed John, who was always running over to discuss
- interesting points with Scott, quite unconscious that Meg missed him.
- Not a word did she say, however, till her mother found her in tears one
- day, and insisted on knowing what the matter was, for Meg's drooping
- spirits had not escaped her observation.
- "I wouldn't tell anyone except you, Mother, but I really do need
- advice, for if John goes on much longer I might as well be widowed,"
- replied Mrs. Brooke, drying her tears on Daisy's bib with an injured
- air.
- "Goes on how, my dear?" asked her mother anxiously.
- "He's away all day, and at night when I want to see him, he is
- continually going over to the Scotts'. It isn't fair that I should
- have the hardest work, and never any amusement. Men are very selfish,
- even the best of them."
- "So are women. Don't blame John till you see where you are wrong
- yourself."
- "But it can't be right for him to neglect me."
- "Don't you neglect him?"
- "Why, Mother, I thought you'd take my part!"
- "So I do, as far as sympathizing goes, but I think the fault is yours,
- Meg."
- "I don't see how."
- "Let me show you. Did John ever neglect you, as you call it, while you
- made it a point to give him your society of an evening, his only
- leisure time?"
- "No, but I can't do it now, with two babies to tend."
- "I think you could, dear, and I think you ought. May I speak quite
- freely, and will you remember that it's Mother who blames as well as
- Mother who sympathizes?"
- "Indeed I will! Speak to me as if I were little Meg again. I often
- feel as if I needed teaching more than ever since these babies look to
- me for everything."
- Meg drew her low chair beside her mother's, and with a little
- interruption in either lap, the two women rocked and talked lovingly
- together, feeling that the tie of motherhood made them more one than
- ever.
- "You have only made the mistake that most young wives make--forgotten
- your duty to your husband in your love for your children. A very
- natural and forgivable mistake, Meg, but one that had better be
- remedied before you take to different ways, for children should draw
- you nearer than ever, not separate you, as if they were all yours, and
- John had nothing to do but support them. I've seen it for some weeks,
- but have not spoken, feeling sure it would come right in time."
- "I'm afraid it won't. If I ask him to stay, he'll think I'm jealous,
- and I wouldn't insult him by such an idea. He doesn't see that I want
- him, and I don't know how to tell him without words."
- "Make it so pleasant he won't want to go away. My dear, he's longing
- for his little home, but it isn't home without you, and you are always
- in the nursery."
- "Oughtn't I to be there?"
- "Not all the time, too much confinement makes you nervous, and then you
- are unfitted for everything. Besides, you owe something to John as
- well as to the babies. Don't neglect husband for children, don't shut
- him out of the nursery, but teach him how to help in it. His place is
- there as well as yours, and the children need him. Let him feel that
- he has a part to do, and he will do it gladly and faithfully, and it
- will be better for you all."
- "You really think so, Mother?"
- "I know it, Meg, for I've tried it, and I seldom give advice unless
- I've proved its practicability. When you and Jo were little, I went on
- just as you are, feeling as if I didn't do my duty unless I devoted
- myself wholly to you. Poor Father took to his books, after I had
- refused all offers of help, and left me to try my experiment alone. I
- struggled along as well as I could, but Jo was too much for me. I
- nearly spoiled her by indulgence. You were poorly, and I worried about
- you till I fell sick myself. Then Father came to the rescue, quietly
- managed everything, and made himself so helpful that I saw my mistake,
- and never have been able to get on without him since. That is the
- secret of our home happiness. He does not let business wean him from
- the little cares and duties that affect us all, and I try not to let
- domestic worries destroy my interest in his pursuits. Each do our part
- alone in many things, but at home we work together, always."
- "It is so, Mother, and my great wish is to be to my husband and
- children what you have been to yours. Show me how, I'll do anything
- you say."
- "You always were my docile daughter. Well, dear, if I were you, I'd
- let John have more to do with the management of Demi, for the boy needs
- training, and it's none too soon to begin. Then I'd do what I have
- often proposed, let Hannah come and help you. She is a capital nurse,
- and you may trust the precious babies to her while you do more
- housework. You need the exercise, Hannah would enjoy the rest, and
- John would find his wife again. Go out more, keep cheerful as well as
- busy, for you are the sunshine-maker of the family, and if you get
- dismal there is no fair weather. Then I'd try to take an interest in
- whatever John likes--talk with him, let him read to you, exchange
- ideas, and help each other in that way. Don't shut yourself up in a
- bandbox because you are a woman, but understand what is going on, and
- educate yourself to take your part in the world's work, for it all
- affects you and yours."
- "John is so sensible, I'm afraid he will think I'm stupid if I ask
- questions about politics and things."
- "I don't believe he would. Love covers a multitude of sins, and of
- whom could you ask more freely than of him? Try it, and see if he
- doesn't find your society far more agreeable than Mrs. Scott's suppers."
- "I will. Poor John! I'm afraid I have neglected him sadly, but I
- thought I was right, and he never said anything."
- "He tried not to be selfish, but he has felt rather forlorn, I fancy.
- This is just the time, Meg, when young married people are apt to grow
- apart, and the very time when they ought to be most together, for the
- first tenderness soon wears off, unless care is taken to preserve it.
- And no time is so beautiful and precious to parents as the first years
- of the little lives given to them to train. Don't let John be a
- stranger to the babies, for they will do more to keep him safe and
- happy in this world of trial and temptation than anything else, and
- through them you will learn to know and love one another as you should.
- Now, dear, good-by. Think over Mother's preachment, act upon it if it
- seems good, and God bless you all."
- Meg did think it over, found it good, and acted upon it, though the
- first attempt was not made exactly as she planned to have it. Of
- course the children tyrannized over her, and ruled the house as soon as
- they found out that kicking and squalling brought them whatever they
- wanted. Mamma was an abject slave to their caprices, but Papa was not
- so easily subjugated, and occasionally afflicted his tender spouse by
- an attempt at paternal discipline with his obstreperous son. For Demi
- inherited a trifle of his sire's firmness of character, we won't call
- it obstinacy, and when he made up his little mind to have or to do
- anything, all the king's horses and all the king's men could not change
- that pertinacious little mind. Mamma thought the dear too young to be
- taught to conquer his prejudices, but Papa believed that it never was
- too soon to learn obedience. So Master Demi early discovered that when
- he undertook to 'wrastle' with 'Parpar', he always got the worst of it,
- yet like the Englishman, baby respected the man who conquered him, and
- loved the father whose grave "No, no," was more impressive than all
- Mamma's love pats.
- A few days after the talk with her mother, Meg resolved to try a social
- evening with John, so she ordered a nice supper, set the parlor in
- order, dressed herself prettily, and put the children to bed early,
- that nothing should interfere with her experiment. But unfortunately
- Demi's most unconquerable prejudice was against going to bed, and that
- night he decided to go on a rampage. So poor Meg sang and rocked, told
- stories and tried every sleep-prevoking wile she could devise, but all
- in vain, the big eyes wouldn't shut, and long after Daisy had gone to
- byelow, like the chubby little bunch of good nature she was, naughty
- Demi lay staring at the light, with the most discouragingly wide-awake
- expression of countenance.
- "Will Demi lie still like a good boy, while Mamma runs down and gives
- poor Papa his tea?" asked Meg, as the hall door softly closed, and the
- well-known step went tip-toeing into the dining room.
- "Me has tea!" said Demi, preparing to join in the revel.
- "No, but I'll save you some little cakies for breakfast, if you'll go
- bye-bye like Daisy. Will you, lovey?"
- "Iss!" and Demi shut his eyes tight, as if to catch sleep and hurry the
- desired day.
- Taking advantage of the propitious moment, Meg slipped away and ran
- down to greet her husband with a smiling face and the little blue bow
- in her hair which was his especial admiration. He saw it at once and
- said with pleased surprise, "Why, little mother, how gay we are
- tonight. Do you expect company?"
- "Only you, dear."
- "Is it a birthday, anniversary, or anything?"
- "No, I'm tired of being dowdy, so I dressed up as a change. You always
- make yourself nice for table, no matter how tired you are, so why
- shouldn't I when I have the time?"
- "I do it out of respect for you, my dear," said old-fashioned John.
- "Ditto, ditto, Mr. Brooke," laughed Meg, looking young and pretty
- again, as she nodded to him over the teapot.
- "Well, it's altogether delightful, and like old times. This tastes
- right. I drink your health, dear." and John sipped his tea with an air
- of reposeful rapture, which was of very short duration however, for as
- he put down his cup, the door handle rattled mysteriously, and a little
- voice was heard, saying impatiently...
- "Opy doy. Me's tummin!"
- "It's that naughty boy. I told him to go to sleep alone, and here he
- is, downstairs, getting his death a-cold pattering over that canvas,"
- said Meg, answering the call.
- "Mornin' now," announced Demi in joyful tone as he entered, with his
- long nightgown gracefully festooned over his arm and every curl bobbing
- gayly as he pranced about the table, eyeing the 'cakies' with loving
- glances.
- "No, it isn't morning yet. You must go to bed, and not trouble poor
- Mamma. Then you can have the little cake with sugar on it."
- "Me loves Parpar," said the artful one, preparing to climb the paternal
- knee and revel in forbidden joys. But John shook his head, and said to
- Meg...
- "If you told him to stay up there, and go to sleep alone, make him do
- it, or he will never learn to mind you."
- "Yes, of course. Come, Demi," and Meg led her son away, feeling a
- strong desire to spank the little marplot who hopped beside her,
- laboring under the delusion that the bribe was to be administered as
- soon as they reached the nursery.
- Nor was he disappointed, for that shortsighted woman actually gave him
- a lump of sugar, tucked him into his bed, and forbade any more
- promenades till morning.
- "Iss!" said Demi the perjured, blissfully sucking his sugar, and
- regarding his first attempt as eminently successful.
- Meg returned to her place, and supper was progressing pleasantly, when
- the little ghost walked again, and exposed the maternal delinquencies
- by boldly demanding, "More sudar, Marmar."
- "Now this won't do," said John, hardening his heart against the
- engaging little sinner. "We shall never know any peace till that child
- learns to go to bed properly. You have made a slave of yourself long
- enough. Give him one lesson, and then there will be an end of it. Put
- him in his bed and leave him, Meg."
- "He won't stay there, he never does unless I sit by him."
- "I'll manage him. Demi, go upstairs, and get into your bed, as Mamma
- bids you."
- "S'ant!" replied the young rebel, helping himself to the coveted
- 'cakie', and beginning to eat the same with calm audacity.
- "You must never say that to Papa. I shall carry you if you don't go
- yourself."
- "Go 'way, me don't love Parpar." and Demi retired to his mother's
- skirts for protection.
- But even that refuge proved unavailing, for he was delivered over to
- the enemy, with a "Be gentle with him, John," which struck the culprit
- with dismay, for when Mamma deserted him, then the judgment day was at
- hand. Bereft of his cake, defrauded of his frolic, and borne away by a
- strong hand to that detested bed, poor Demi could not restrain his
- wrath, but openly defied Papa, and kicked and screamed lustily all the
- way upstairs. The minute he was put into bed on one side, he rolled
- out on the other, and made for the door, only to be ignominiously
- caught up by the tail of his little toga and put back again, which
- lively performance was kept up till the young man's strength gave out,
- when he devoted himself to roaring at the top of his voice. This vocal
- exercise usually conquered Meg, but John sat as unmoved as the post
- which is popularly believed to be deaf. No coaxing, no sugar, no
- lullaby, no story, even the light was put out and only the red glow of
- the fire enlivened the 'big dark' which Demi regarded with curiosity
- rather than fear. This new order of things disgusted him, and he
- howled dismally for 'Marmar', as his angry passions subsided, and
- recollections of his tender bondwoman returned to the captive autocrat.
- The plaintive wail which succeeded the passionate roar went to Meg's
- heart, and she ran up to say beseechingly...
- "Let me stay with him, he'll be good now, John."
- "No, my dear. I've told him he must go to sleep, as you bid him, and
- he must, if I stay here all night."
- "But he'll cry himself sick," pleaded Meg, reproaching herself for
- deserting her boy.
- "No, he won't, he's so tired he will soon drop off and then the matter
- is settled, for he will understand that he has got to mind. Don't
- interfere, I'll manage him."
- "He's my child, and I can't have his spirit broken by harshness."
- "He's my child, and I won't have his temper spoiled by indulgence. Go
- down, my dear, and leave the boy to me."
- When John spoke in that masterful tone, Meg always obeyed, and never
- regretted her docility.
- "Please let me kiss him once, John?"
- "Certainly. Demi, say good night to Mamma, and let her go and rest,
- for she is very tired with taking care of you all day."
- Meg always insisted upon it that the kiss won the victory, for after it
- was given, Demi sobbed more quietly, and lay quite still at the bottom
- of the bed, whither he had wriggled in his anguish of mind.
- "Poor little man, he's worn out with sleep and crying. I'll cover him
- up, and then go and set Meg's heart at rest," thought John, creeping to
- the bedside, hoping to find his rebellious heir asleep.
- But he wasn't, for the moment his father peeped at him, Demi's eyes
- opened, his little chin began to quiver, and he put up his arms, saying
- with a penitent hiccough, "Me's dood, now."
- Sitting on the stairs outside Meg wondered at the long silence which
- followed the uproar, and after imagining all sorts of impossible
- accidents, she slipped into the room to set her fears at rest. Demi
- lay fast asleep, not in his usual spreadeagle attitude, but in a
- subdued bunch, cuddled close in the circle of his father's arm and
- holding his father's finger, as if he felt that justice was tempered
- with mercy, and had gone to sleep a sadder and wiser baby. So held,
- John had waited with a womanly patience till the little hand relaxed
- its hold, and while waiting had fallen asleep, more tired by that
- tussle with his son than with his whole day's work.
- As Meg stood watching the two faces on the pillow, she smiled to
- herself, and then slipped away again, saying in a satisfied tone, "I
- never need fear that John will be too harsh with my babies. He does
- know how to manage them, and will be a great help, for Demi is getting
- too much for me."
- When John came down at last, expecting to find a pensive or reproachful
- wife, he was agreeably surprised to find Meg placidly trimming a
- bonnet, and to be greeted with the request to read something about the
- election, if he was not too tired. John saw in a minute that a
- revolution of some kind was going on, but wisely asked no questions,
- knowing that Meg was such a transparent little person, she couldn't
- keep a secret to save her life, and therefore the clue would soon
- appear. He read a long debate with the most amiable readiness and then
- explained it in his most lucid manner, while Meg tried to look deeply
- interested, to ask intelligent questions, and keep her thoughts from
- wandering from the state of the nation to the state of her bonnet. In
- her secret soul, however, she decided that politics were as bad as
- mathematics, and that the mission of politicians seemed to be calling
- each other names, but she kept these feminine ideas to herself, and
- when John paused, shook her head and said with what she thought
- diplomatic ambiguity, "Well, I really don't see what we are coming to."
- John laughed, and watched her for a minute, as she poised a pretty
- little preparation of lace and flowers on her hand, and regarded it
- with the genuine interest which his harangue had failed to waken.
- "She is trying to like politics for my sake, so I'll try and like
- millinery for hers, that's only fair," thought John the Just, adding
- aloud, "That's very pretty. Is it what you call a breakfast cap?"
- "My dear man, it's a bonnet! My very best go-to-concert-and-theater
- bonnet."
- "I beg your pardon, it was so small, I naturally mistook it for one of
- the flyaway things you sometimes wear. How do you keep it on?"
- "These bits of lace are fastened under the chin with a rosebud, so,"
- and Meg illustrated by putting on the bonnet and regarding him with an
- air of calm satisfaction that was irresistible.
- "It's a love of a bonnet, but I prefer the face inside, for it looks
- young and happy again," and John kissed the smiling face, to the great
- detriment of the rosebud under the chin.
- "I'm glad you like it, for I want you to take me to one of the new
- concerts some night. I really need some music to put me in tune. Will
- you, please?"
- "Of course I will, with all my heart, or anywhere else you like. You
- have been shut up so long, it will do you no end of good, and I shall
- enjoy it, of all things. What put it into your head, little mother?"
- "Well, I had a talk with Marmee the other day, and told her how nervous
- and cross and out of sorts I felt, and she said I needed change and
- less care, so Hannah is to help me with the children, and I'm to see to
- things about the house more, and now and then have a little fun, just
- to keep me from getting to be a fidgety, broken-down old woman before
- my time. It's only an experiment, John, and I want to try it for your
- sake as much as for mine, because I've neglected you shamefully lately,
- and I'm going to make home what it used to be, if I can. You don't
- object, I hope?"
- Never mind what John said, or what a very narrow escape the little
- bonnet had from utter ruin. All that we have any business to know is
- that John did not appear to object, judging from the changes which
- gradually took place in the house and its inmates. It was not all
- Paradise by any means, but everyone was better for the division of
- labor system. The children throve under the paternal rule, for
- accurate, steadfast John brought order and obedience into Babydom, while
- Meg recovered her spirits and composed her nerves by plenty of
- wholesome exercise, a little pleasure, and much confidential
- conversation with her sensible husband. Home grew homelike again, and
- John had no wish to leave it, unless he took Meg with him. The Scotts
- came to the Brookes' now, and everyone found the little house a
- cheerful place, full of happiness, content, and family love. Even
- Sallie Moffatt liked to go there. "It is always so quiet and pleasant
- here, it does me good, Meg," she used to say, looking about her with
- wistful eyes, as if trying to discover the charm, that she might use it
- in her great house, full of splendid loneliness, for there were no
- riotous, sunny-faced babies there, and Ned lived in a world of his own,
- where there was no place for her.
- This household happiness did not come all at once, but John and Meg had
- found the key to it, and each year of married life taught them how to
- use it, unlocking the treasuries of real home love and mutual
- helpfulness, which the poorest may possess, and the richest cannot buy.
- This is the sort of shelf on which young wives and mothers may consent
- to be laid, safe from the restless fret and fever of the world, finding
- loyal lovers in the little sons and daughters who cling to them,
- undaunted by sorrow, poverty, or age, walking side by side, through
- fair and stormy weather, with a faithful friend, who is, in the true
- sense of the good old Saxon word, the 'house-band', and learning, as
- Meg learned, that a woman's happiest kingdom is home, her highest honor
- the art of ruling it not as a queen, but as a wise wife and mother.
- CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
- LAZY LAURENCE
- Laurie went to Nice intending to stay a week, and remained a month. He
- was tired of wandering about alone, and Amy's familiar presence seemed
- to give a homelike charm to the foreign scenes in which she bore a
- part. He rather missed the 'petting' he used to receive, and enjoyed a
- taste of it again, for no attentions, however flattering, from
- strangers, were half so pleasant as the sisterly adoration of the girls
- at home. Amy never would pet him like the others, but she was very
- glad to see him now, and quite clung to him, feeling that he was the
- representative of the dear family for whom she longed more than she
- would confess. They naturally took comfort in each other's society and
- were much together, riding, walking, dancing, or dawdling, for at Nice
- no one can be very industrious during the gay season. But, while
- apparently amusing themselves in the most careless fashion, they were
- half-consciously making discoveries and forming opinions about each
- other. Amy rose daily in the estimation of her friend, but he sank in
- hers, and each felt the truth before a word was spoken. Amy tried to
- please, and succeeded, for she was grateful for the many pleasures he
- gave her, and repaid him with the little services to which womanly
- women know how to lend an indescribable charm. Laurie made no effort
- of any kind, but just let himself drift along as comfortably as
- possible, trying to forget, and feeling that all women owed him a kind
- word because one had been cold to him. It cost him no effort to be
- generous, and he would have given Amy all the trinkets in Nice if she
- would have taken them, but at the same time he felt that he could not
- change the opinion she was forming of him, and he rather dreaded the
- keen blue eyes that seemed to watch him with such half-sorrowful,
- half-scornful surprise.
- "All the rest have gone to Monaco for the day. I preferred to stay at
- home and write letters. They are done now, and I am going to Valrosa
- to sketch, will you come?" said Amy, as she joined Laurie one lovely
- day when he lounged in as usual, about noon.
- "Well, yes, but isn't it rather warm for such a long walk?" he answered
- slowly, for the shaded salon looked inviting after the glare without.
- "I'm going to have the little carriage, and Baptiste can drive, so
- you'll have nothing to do but hold your umbrella, and keep your gloves
- nice," returned Amy, with a sarcastic glance at the immaculate kids,
- which were a weak point with Laurie.
- "Then I'll go with pleasure." and he put out his hand for her
- sketchbook. But she tucked it under her arm with a sharp...
- "Don't trouble yourself. It's no exertion to me, but you don't look
- equal to it."
- Laurie lifted his eyebrows and followed at a leisurely pace as she ran
- downstairs, but when they got into the carriage he took the reins
- himself, and left little Baptiste nothing to do but fold his arms and
- fall asleep on his perch.
- The two never quarreled. Amy was too well-bred, and just now Laurie
- was too lazy, so in a minute he peeped under her hatbrim with an
- inquiring air. She answered him with a smile, and they went on
- together in the most amicable manner.
- It was a lovely drive, along winding roads rich in the picturesque
- scenes that delight beauty-loving eyes. Here an ancient monastery,
- whence the solemn chanting of the monks came down to them. There a
- bare-legged shepherd, in wooden shoes, pointed hat, and rough jacket
- over one shoulder, sat piping on a stone while his goats skipped among
- the rocks or lay at his feet. Meek, mouse-colored donkeys, laden with
- panniers of freshly cut grass passed by, with a pretty girl in a
- capaline sitting between the green piles, or an old woman spinning with
- a distaff as she went. Brown, soft-eyed children ran out from the
- quaint stone hovels to offer nosegays, or bunches of oranges still on
- the bough. Gnarled olive trees covered the hills with their dusky
- foliage, fruit hung golden in the orchard, and great scarlet anemones
- fringed the roadside, while beyond green slopes and craggy heights, the
- Maritime Alps rose sharp and white against the blue Italian sky.
- Valrosa well deserved its name, for in that climate of perpetual summer
- roses blossomed everywhere. They overhung the archway, thrust
- themselves between the bars of the great gate with a sweet welcome to
- passers-by, and lined the avenue, winding through lemon trees and
- feathery palms up to the villa on the hill. Every shadowy nook, where
- seats invited one to stop and rest, was a mass of bloom, every cool
- grotto had its marble nymph smiling from a veil of flowers and every
- fountain reflected crimson, white, or pale pink roses, leaning down to
- smile at their own beauty. Roses covered the walls of the house, draped
- the cornices, climbed the pillars, and ran riot over the balustrade of
- the wide terrace, whence one looked down on the sunny Mediterranean,
- and the white-walled city on its shore.
- "This is a regular honeymoon paradise, isn't it? Did you ever see such
- roses?" asked Amy, pausing on the terrace to enjoy the view, and a
- luxurious whiff of perfume that came wandering by.
- "No, nor felt such thorns," returned Laurie, with his thumb in his
- mouth, after a vain attempt to capture a solitary scarlet flower that
- grew just beyond his reach.
- "Try lower down, and pick those that have no thorns," said Amy,
- gathering three of the tiny cream-colored ones that starred the wall
- behind her. She put them in his buttonhole as a peace offering, and he
- stood a minute looking down at them with a curious expression, for in
- the Italian part of his nature there was a touch of superstition, and
- he was just then in that state of half-sweet, half-bitter melancholy,
- when imaginative young men find significance in trifles and food for
- romance everywhere. He had thought of Jo in reaching after the thorny
- red rose, for vivid flowers became her, and she had often worn ones
- like that from the greenhouse at home. The pale roses Amy gave him
- were the sort that the Italians lay in dead hands, never in bridal
- wreaths, and for a moment he wondered if the omen was for Jo or for
- himself, but the next instant his American common sense got the better
- of sentimentality, and he laughed a heartier laugh than Amy had heard
- since he came.
- "It's good advice, you'd better take it and save your fingers," she
- said, thinking her speech amused him.
- "Thank you, I will," he answered in jest, and a few months later he did
- it in earnest.
- "Laurie, when are you going to your grandfather?" she asked presently,
- as she settled herself on a rustic seat.
- "Very soon."
- "You have said that a dozen times within the last three weeks."
- "I dare say, short answers save trouble."
- "He expects you, and you really ought to go."
- "Hospitable creature! I know it."
- "Then why don't you do it?"
- "Natural depravity, I suppose."
- "Natural indolence, you mean. It's really dreadful!" and Amy looked
- severe.
- "Not so bad as it seems, for I should only plague him if I went, so I
- might as well stay and plague you a little longer, you can bear it
- better, in fact I think it agrees with you excellently," and Laurie
- composed himself for a lounge on the broad ledge of the balustrade.
- Amy shook her head and opened her sketchbook with an air of
- resignation, but she had made up her mind to lecture 'that boy' and in
- a minute she began again.
- "What are you doing just now?"
- "Watching lizards."
- "No, no. I mean what do you intend and wish to do?"
- "Smoke a cigarette, if you'll allow me."
- "How provoking you are! I don't approve of cigars and I will only
- allow it on condition that you let me put you into my sketch. I need a
- figure."
- "With all the pleasure in life. How will you have me, full length or
- three-quarters, on my head or my heels? I should respectfully suggest
- a recumbent posture, then put yourself in also and call it 'Dolce far
- niente'."
- "Stay as you are, and go to sleep if you like. I intend to work hard,"
- said Amy in her most energetic tone.
- "What delightful enthusiasm!" and he leaned against a tall urn with an
- air of entire satisfaction.
- "What would Jo say if she saw you now?" asked Amy impatiently, hoping
- to stir him up by the mention of her still more energetic sister's name.
- "As usual, 'Go away, Teddy. I'm busy!'" He laughed as he spoke, but
- the laugh was not natural, and a shade passed over his face, for the
- utterance of the familiar name touched the wound that was not healed
- yet. Both tone and shadow struck Amy, for she had seen and heard them
- before, and now she looked up in time to catch a new expression on
- Laurie's face--a hard bitter look, full of pain, dissatisfaction, and
- regret. It was gone before she could study it and the listless
- expression back again. She watched him for a moment with artistic
- pleasure, thinking how like an Italian he looked, as he lay basking in
- the sun with uncovered head and eyes full of southern dreaminess, for
- he seemed to have forgotten her and fallen into a reverie.
- "You look like the effigy of a young knight asleep on his tomb," she
- said, carefully tracing the well-cut profile defined against the dark
- stone.
- "Wish I was!"
- "That's a foolish wish, unless you have spoiled your life. You are so
- changed, I sometimes think--" there Amy stopped, with a half-timid,
- half-wistful look, more significant than her unfinished speech.
- Laurie saw and understood the affectionate anxiety which she hesitated
- to express, and looking straight into her eyes, said, just as he used
- to say it to her mother, "It's all right, ma'am."
- That satisfied her and set at rest the doubts that had begun to worry
- her lately. It also touched her, and she showed that it did, by the
- cordial tone in which she said...
- "I'm glad of that! I didn't think you'd been a very bad boy, but I
- fancied you might have wasted money at that wicked Baden-Baden, lost
- your heart to some charming Frenchwoman with a husband, or got into
- some of the scrapes that young men seem to consider a necessary part of
- a foreign tour. Don't stay out there in the sun, come and lie on the
- grass here and 'let us be friendly', as Jo used to say when we got in
- the sofa corner and told secrets."
- Laurie obediently threw himself down on the turf, and began to amuse
- himself by sticking daisies into the ribbons of Amy's hat, that lay
- there.
- "I'm all ready for the secrets." and he glanced up with a decided
- expression of interest in his eyes.
- "I've none to tell. You may begin."
- "Haven't one to bless myself with. I thought perhaps you'd had some
- news from home.."
- "You have heard all that has come lately. Don't you hear often? I
- fancied Jo would send you volumes."
- "She's very busy. I'm roving about so, it's impossible to be regular,
- you know. When do you begin your great work of art, Raphaella?" he
- asked, changing the subject abruptly after another pause, in which he
- had been wondering if Amy knew his secret and wanted to talk about it.
- "Never," she answered, with a despondent but decided air. "Rome took
- all the vanity out of me, for after seeing the wonders there, I felt
- too insignificant to live and gave up all my foolish hopes in despair."
- "Why should you, with so much energy and talent?"
- "That's just why, because talent isn't genius, and no amount of energy
- can make it so. I want to be great, or nothing. I won't be a
- common-place dauber, so I don't intend to try any more."
- "And what are you going to do with yourself now, if I may ask?"
- "Polish up my other talents, and be an ornament to society, if I get
- the chance."
- It was a characteristic speech, and sounded daring, but audacity
- becomes young people, and Amy's ambition had a good foundation. Laurie
- smiled, but he liked the spirit with which she took up a new purpose
- when a long-cherished one died, and spent no time lamenting.
- "Good! And here is where Fred Vaughn comes in, I fancy."
- Amy preserved a discreet silence, but there was a conscious look in her
- downcast face that made Laurie sit up and say gravely, "Now I'm going
- to play brother, and ask questions. May I?"
- "I don't promise to answer."
- "Your face will, if your tongue won't. You aren't woman of the world
- enough yet to hide your feelings, my dear. I heard rumors about Fred
- and you last year, and it's my private opinion that if he had not been
- called home so suddenly and detained so long, something would have come
- of it, hey?"
- "That's not for me to say," was Amy's grim reply, but her lips would
- smile, and there was a traitorous sparkle of the eye which betrayed
- that she knew her power and enjoyed the knowledge.
- "You are not engaged, I hope?" and Laurie looked very elder-brotherly
- and grave all of a sudden.
- "No."
- "But you will be, if he comes back and goes properly down on his knees,
- won't you?"
- "Very likely."
- "Then you are fond of old Fred?"
- "I could be, if I tried."
- "But you don't intend to try till the proper moment? Bless my soul,
- what unearthly prudence! He's a good fellow, Amy, but not the man I
- fancied you'd like."
- "He is rich, a gentleman, and has delightful manners," began Amy,
- trying to be quite cool and dignified, but feeling a little ashamed of
- herself, in spite of the sincerity of her intentions.
- "I understand. Queens of society can't get on without money, so you
- mean to make a good match, and start in that way? Quite right and
- proper, as the world goes, but it sounds odd from the lips of one of
- your mother's girls."
- "True, nevertheless."
- A short speech, but the quiet decision with which it was uttered
- contrasted curiously with the young speaker. Laurie felt this
- instinctively and laid himself down again, with a sense of
- disappointment which he could not explain. His look and silence, as
- well as a certain inward self-disapproval, ruffled Amy, and made her
- resolve to deliver her lecture without delay.
- "I wish you'd do me the favor to rouse yourself a little," she said
- sharply.
- "Do it for me, there's a dear girl."
- "I could, if I tried." and she looked as if she would like doing it in
- the most summary style.
- "Try, then. I give you leave," returned Laurie, who enjoyed having
- someone to tease, after his long abstinence from his favorite pastime.
- "You'd be angry in five minutes."
- "I'm never angry with you. It takes two flints to make a fire. You are
- as cool and soft as snow."
- "You don't know what I can do. Snow produces a glow and a tingle, if
- applied rightly. Your indifference is half affectation, and a good
- stirring up would prove it."
- "Stir away, it won't hurt me and it may amuse you, as the big man said
- when his little wife beat him. Regard me in the light of a husband or
- a carpet, and beat till you are tired, if that sort of exercise agrees
- with you."
- Being decidedly nettled herself, and longing to see him shake off the
- apathy that so altered him, Amy sharpened both tongue and pencil, and
- began.
- "Flo and I have got a new name for you. It's Lazy Laurence. How do you
- like it?"
- She thought it would annoy him, but he only folded his arms under his
- head, with an imperturbable, "That's not bad. Thank you, ladies."
- "Do you want to know what I honestly think of you?"
- "Pining to be told."
- "Well, I despise you."
- If she had even said 'I hate you' in a petulant or coquettish tone, he
- would have laughed and rather liked it, but the grave, almost sad,
- accent in her voice made him open his eyes, and ask quickly...
- "Why, if you please?"
- "Because, with every chance for being good, useful, and happy, you are
- faulty, lazy, and miserable."
- "Strong language, mademoiselle."
- "If you like it, I'll go on."
- "Pray do, it's quite interesting."
- "I thought you'd find it so. Selfish people always like to talk about
- themselves."
- "Am I selfish?" the question slipped out involuntarily and in a tone of
- surprise, for the one virtue on which he prided himself was generosity.
- "Yes, very selfish," continued Amy, in a calm, cool voice, twice as
- effective just then as an angry one. "I'll show you how, for I've
- studied you while we were frolicking, and I'm not at all satisfied with
- you. Here you have been abroad nearly six months, and done nothing but
- waste time and money and disappoint your friends."
- "Isn't a fellow to have any pleasure after a four-year grind?"
- "You don't look as if you'd had much. At any rate, you are none the
- better for it, as far as I can see. I said when we first met that you
- had improved. Now I take it all back, for I don't think you half so
- nice as when I left you at home. You have grown abominably lazy, you
- like gossip, and waste time on frivolous things, you are contented to
- be petted and admired by silly people, instead of being loved and
- respected by wise ones. With money, talent, position, health, and
- beauty, ah you like that old Vanity! But it's the truth, so I can't
- help saying it, with all these splendid things to use and enjoy, you
- can find nothing to do but dawdle, and instead of being the man you
- ought to be, you are only..." there she stopped, with a look that had
- both pain and pity in it.
- "Saint Laurence on a gridiron," added Laurie, blandly finishing the
- sentence. But the lecture began to take effect, for there was a
- wide-awake sparkle in his eyes now and a half-angry, half-injured
- expression replaced the former indifference.
- "I supposed you'd take it so. You men tell us we are angels, and say
- we can make you what we will, but the instant we honestly try to do you
- good, you laugh at us and won't listen, which proves how much your
- flattery is worth." Amy spoke bitterly, and turned her back on the
- exasperating martyr at her feet.
- In a minute a hand came down over the page, so that she could not draw,
- and Laurie's voice said, with a droll imitation of a penitent child, "I
- will be good, oh, I will be good!"
- But Amy did not laugh, for she was in earnest, and tapping on the
- outspread hand with her pencil, said soberly, "Aren't you ashamed of a
- hand like that? It's as soft and white as a woman's, and looks as if
- it never did anything but wear Jouvin's best gloves and pick flowers
- for ladies. You are not a dandy, thank Heaven, so I'm glad to see
- there are no diamonds or big seal rings on it, only the little old one
- Jo gave you so long ago. Dear soul, I wish she was here to help me!"
- "So do I!"
- The hand vanished as suddenly as it came, and there was energy enough
- in the echo of her wish to suit even Amy. She glanced down at him with
- a new thought in her mind, but he was lying with his hat half over his
- face, as if for shade, and his mustache hid his mouth. She only saw
- his chest rise and fall, with a long breath that might have been a
- sigh, and the hand that wore the ring nestled down into the grass, as
- if to hide something too precious or too tender to be spoken of. All in
- a minute various hints and trifles assumed shape and significance in
- Amy's mind, and told her what her sister never had confided to her.
- She remembered that Laurie never spoke voluntarily of Jo, she recalled
- the shadow on his face just now, the change in his character, and the
- wearing of the little old ring which was no ornament to a handsome
- hand. Girls are quick to read such signs and feel their eloquence.
- Amy had fancied that perhaps a love trouble was at the bottom of the
- alteration, and now she was sure of it. Her keen eyes filled, and when
- she spoke again, it was in a voice that could be beautifully soft and
- kind when she chose to make it so.
- "I know I have no right to talk so to you, Laurie, and if you weren't
- the sweetest-tempered fellow in the world, you'd be very angry with me.
- But we are all so fond and proud of you, I couldn't bear to think they
- should be disappointed in you at home as I have been, though, perhaps
- they would understand the change better than I do."
- "I think they would," came from under the hat, in a grim tone, quite as
- touching as a broken one.
- "They ought to have told me, and not let me go blundering and scolding,
- when I should have been more kind and patient than ever. I never did
- like that Miss Randal and now I hate her!" said artful Amy, wishing to
- be sure of her facts this time.
- "Hang Miss Randal!" and Laurie knocked the hat off his face with a look
- that left no doubt of his sentiments toward that young lady.
- "I beg pardon, I thought..." and there she paused diplomatically.
- "No, you didn't, you knew perfectly well I never cared for anyone but
- Jo," Laurie said that in his old, impetuous tone, and turned his face
- away as he spoke.
- "I did think so, but as they never said anything about it, and you came
- away, I supposed I was mistaken. And Jo wouldn't be kind to you? Why,
- I was sure she loved you dearly."
- "She was kind, but not in the right way, and it's lucky for her she
- didn't love me, if I'm the good-for-nothing fellow you think me. It's
- her fault though, and you may tell her so."
- The hard, bitter look came back again as he said that, and it troubled
- Amy, for she did not know what balm to apply.
- "I was wrong, I didn't know. I'm very sorry I was so cross, but I
- can't help wishing you'd bear it better, Teddy, dear."
- "Don't, that's her name for me!" and Laurie put up his hand with a
- quick gesture to stop the words spoken in Jo's half-kind,
- half-reproachful tone. "Wait till you've tried it yourself," he added
- in a low voice, as he pulled up the grass by the handful.
- "I'd take it manfully, and be respected if I couldn't be loved," said
- Amy, with the decision of one who knew nothing about it.
- Now, Laurie flattered himself that he had borne it remarkably well,
- making no moan, asking no sympathy, and taking his trouble away to live
- it down alone. Amy's lecture put the matter in a new light, and for
- the first time it did look weak and selfish to lose heart at the first
- failure, and shut himself up in moody indifference. He felt as if
- suddenly shaken out of a pensive dream and found it impossible to go to
- sleep again. Presently he sat up and asked slowly, "Do you think Jo
- would despise me as you do?"
- "Yes, if she saw you now. She hates lazy people. Why don't you do
- something splendid, and make her love you?"
- "I did my best, but it was no use."
- "Graduating well, you mean? That was no more than you ought to have
- done, for your grandfather's sake. It would have been shameful to fail
- after spending so much time and money, when everyone knew that you
- could do well."
- "I did fail, say what you will, for Jo wouldn't love me," began Laurie,
- leaning his head on his hand in a despondent attitude.
- "No, you didn't, and you'll say so in the end, for it did you good, and
- proved that you could do something if you tried. If you'd only set
- about another task of some sort, you'd soon be your hearty, happy self
- again, and forget your trouble."
- "That's impossible."
- "Try it and see. You needn't shrug your shoulders, and think, 'Much
- she knows about such things'. I don't pretend to be wise, but I am
- observing, and I see a great deal more than you'd imagine. I'm
- interested in other people's experiences and inconsistencies, and
- though I can't explain, I remember and use them for my own benefit.
- Love Jo all your days, if you choose, but don't let it spoil you, for
- it's wicked to throw away so many good gifts because you can't have the
- one you want. There, I won't lecture any more, for I know you'll wake
- up and be a man in spite of that hardhearted girl."
- Neither spoke for several minutes. Laurie sat turning the little ring
- on his finger, and Amy put the last touches to the hasty sketch she had
- been working at while she talked. Presently she put it on his knee,
- merely saying, "How do you like that?"
- He looked and then he smiled, as he could not well help doing, for it
- was capitally done, the long, lazy figure on the grass, with listless
- face, half-shut eyes, and one hand holding a cigar, from which came the
- little wreath of smoke that encircled the dreamer's head.
- "How well you draw!" he said, with a genuine surprise and pleasure at
- her skill, adding, with a half-laugh, "Yes, that's me."
- "As you are. This is as you were." and Amy laid another sketch beside
- the one he held.
- It was not nearly so well done, but there was a life and spirit in it
- which atoned for many faults, and it recalled the past so vividly that
- a sudden change swept over the young man's face as he looked. Only a
- rough sketch of Laurie taming a horse. Hat and coat were off, and
- every line of the active figure, resolute face, and commanding attitude
- was full of energy and meaning. The handsome brute, just subdued,
- stood arching his neck under the tightly drawn rein, with one foot
- impatiently pawing the ground, and ears pricked up as if listening for
- the voice that had mastered him. In the ruffled mane, the rider's
- breezy hair and erect attitude, there was a suggestion of suddenly
- arrested motion, of strength, courage, and youthful buoyancy that
- contrasted sharply with the supine grace of the '_Dolce far Niente_'
- sketch. Laurie said nothing but as his eye went from one to the other,
- Amy saw him flush up and fold his lips together as if he read and
- accepted the little lesson she had given him. That satisfied her, and
- without waiting for him to speak, she said, in her sprightly way...
- "Don't you remember the day you played Rarey with Puck, and we all
- looked on? Meg and Beth were frightened, but Jo clapped and pranced,
- and I sat on the fence and drew you. I found that sketch in my
- portfolio the other day, touched it up, and kept it to show you."
- "Much obliged. You've improved immensely since then, and I
- congratulate you. May I venture to suggest in 'a honeymoon paradise'
- that five o'clock is the dinner hour at your hotel?"
- Laurie rose as he spoke, returned the pictures with a smile and a bow
- and looked at his watch, as if to remind her that even moral lectures
- should have an end. He tried to resume his former easy, indifferent
- air, but it was an affectation now, for the rousing had been more
- effacious than he would confess. Amy felt the shade of coldness in his
- manner, and said to herself...
- "Now, I've offended him. Well, if it does him good, I'm glad, if it
- makes him hate me, I'm sorry, but it's true, and I can't take back a
- word of it."
- They laughed and chatted all the way home, and little Baptiste, up
- behind, thought that monsieur and madamoiselle were in charming
- spirits. But both felt ill at ease. The friendly frankness was
- disturbed, the sunshine had a shadow over it, and despite their
- apparent gaiety, there was a secret discontent in the heart of each.
- "Shall we see you this evening, mon frere?" asked Amy, as they parted
- at her aunt's door.
- "Unfortunately I have an engagement. Au revoir, madamoiselle," and
- Laurie bent as if to kiss her hand, in the foreign fashion, which
- became him better than many men. Something in his face made Amy say
- quickly and warmly...
- "No, be yourself with me, Laurie, and part in the good old way. I'd
- rather have a hearty English handshake than all the sentimental
- salutations in France."
- "Goodbye, dear," and with these words, uttered in the tone she liked,
- Laurie left her, after a handshake almost painful in its heartiness.
- Next morning, instead of the usual call, Amy received a note which made
- her smile at the beginning and sigh at the end.
- My Dear Mentor, Please make my adieux to your aunt, and exult within
- yourself, for 'Lazy Laurence' has gone to his grandpa, like the best of
- boys. A pleasant winter to you, and may the gods grant you a blissful
- honeymoon at Valrosa! I think Fred would be benefited by a rouser.
- Tell him so, with my congratulations.
- Yours gratefully, Telemachus
- "Good boy! I'm glad he's gone," said Amy, with an approving smile. The
- next minute her face fell as she glanced about the empty room, adding,
- with an involuntary sigh, "Yes, I am glad, but how I shall miss him."
- CHAPTER FORTY
- THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW
- When the first bitterness was over, the family accepted the inevitable,
- and tried to bear it cheerfully, helping one another by the increased
- affection which comes to bind households tenderly together in times of
- trouble. They put away their grief, and each did his or her part
- toward making that last year a happy one.
- The pleasantest room in the house was set apart for Beth, and in it was
- gathered everything that she most loved, flowers, pictures, her piano,
- the little worktable, and the beloved pussies. Father's best books
- found their way there, Mother's easy chair, Jo's desk, Amy's finest
- sketches, and every day Meg brought her babies on a loving pilgrimage,
- to make sunshine for Aunty Beth. John quietly set apart a little sum,
- that he might enjoy the pleasure of keeping the invalid supplied with
- the fruit she loved and longed for. Old Hannah never wearied of
- concocting dainty dishes to tempt a capricious appetite, dropping tears
- as she worked, and from across the sea came little gifts and cheerful
- letters, seeming to bring breaths of warmth and fragrance from lands
- that know no winter.
- Here, cherished like a household saint in its shrine, sat Beth,
- tranquil and busy as ever, for nothing could change the sweet,
- unselfish nature, and even while preparing to leave life, she tried to
- make it happier for those who should remain behind. The feeble fingers
- were never idle, and one of her pleasures was to make little things for
- the school children daily passing to and fro, to drop a pair of mittens
- from her window for a pair of purple hands, a needlebook for some small
- mother of many dolls, penwipers for young penmen toiling through
- forests of pothooks, scrapbooks for picture-loving eyes, and all manner
- of pleasant devices, till the reluctant climbers of the ladder of
- learning found their way strewn with flowers, as it were, and came to
- regard the gentle giver as a sort of fairy godmother, who sat above
- there, and showered down gifts miraculously suited to their tastes and
- needs. If Beth had wanted any reward, she found it in the bright
- little faces always turned up to her window, with nods and smiles, and
- the droll little letters which came to her, full of blots and gratitude.
- The first few months were very happy ones, and Beth often used to look
- round, and say "How beautiful this is!" as they all sat together in her
- sunny room, the babies kicking and crowing on the floor, mother and
- sisters working near, and father reading, in his pleasant voice, from
- the wise old books which seemed rich in good and comfortable words, as
- applicable now as when written centuries ago, a little chapel, where a
- paternal priest taught his flock the hard lessons all must learn,
- trying to show them that hope can comfort love, and faith make
- resignation possible. Simple sermons, that went straight to the souls
- of those who listened, for the father's heart was in the minister's
- religion, and the frequent falter in the voice gave a double eloquence
- to the words he spoke or read.
- It was well for all that this peaceful time was given them as
- preparation for the sad hours to come, for by-and-by, Beth said the
- needle was 'so heavy', and put it down forever. Talking wearied her,
- faces troubled her, pain claimed her for its own, and her tranquil
- spirit was sorrowfully perturbed by the ills that vexed her feeble
- flesh. Ah me! Such heavy days, such long, long nights, such aching
- hearts and imploring prayers, when those who loved her best were forced
- to see the thin hands stretched out to them beseechingly, to hear the
- bitter cry, "Help me, help me!" and to feel that there was no help. A
- sad eclipse of the serene soul, a sharp struggle of the young life with
- death, but both were mercifully brief, and then the natural rebellion
- over, the old peace returned more beautiful than ever. With the wreck
- of her frail body, Beth's soul grew strong, and though she said little,
- those about her felt that she was ready, saw that the first pilgrim
- called was likewise the fittest, and waited with her on the shore,
- trying to see the Shining Ones coming to receive her when she crossed
- the river.
- Jo never left her for an hour since Beth had said "I feel stronger when
- you are here." She slept on a couch in the room, waking often to renew
- the fire, to feed, lift, or wait upon the patient creature who seldom
- asked for anything, and 'tried not to be a trouble'. All day she
- haunted the room, jealous of any other nurse, and prouder of being
- chosen then than of any honor her life ever brought her. Precious and
- helpful hours to Jo, for now her heart received the teaching that it
- needed. Lessons in patience were so sweetly taught her that she could
- not fail to learn them, charity for all, the lovely spirit that can
- forgive and truly forget unkindness, the loyalty to duty that makes the
- hardest easy, and the sincere faith that fears nothing, but trusts
- undoubtingly.
- Often when she woke Jo found Beth reading in her well-worn little book,
- heard her singing softly, to beguile the sleepless night, or saw her
- lean her face upon her hands, while slow tears dropped through the
- transparent fingers, and Jo would lie watching her with thoughts too
- deep for tears, feeling that Beth, in her simple, unselfish way, was
- trying to wean herself from the dear old life, and fit herself for the
- life to come, by sacred words of comfort, quiet prayers, and the music
- she loved so well.
- Seeing this did more for Jo than the wisest sermons, the saintliest
- hymns, the most fervent prayers that any voice could utter. For with
- eyes made clear by many tears, and a heart softened by the tenderest
- sorrow, she recognized the beauty of her sister's life--uneventful,
- unambitious, yet full of the genuine virtues which 'smell sweet, and
- blossom in the dust', the self-forgetfulness that makes the humblest on
- earth remembered soonest in heaven, the true success which is possible
- to all.
- One night when Beth looked among the books upon her table, to find
- something to make her forget the mortal weariness that was almost as
- hard to bear as pain, as she turned the leaves of her old favorite,
- Pilgrims's Progress, she found a little paper, scribbled over in Jo's
- hand. The name caught her eye and the blurred look of the lines made
- her sure that tears had fallen on it.
- "Poor Jo! She's fast asleep, so I won't wake her to ask leave. She
- shows me all her things, and I don't think she'll mind if I look at
- this", thought Beth, with a glance at her sister, who lay on the rug,
- with the tongs beside her, ready to wake up the minute the log fell
- apart.
- MY BETH
- Sitting patient in the shadow
- Till the blessed light shall come,
- A serene and saintly presence
- Sanctifies our troubled home.
- Earthly joys and hopes and sorrows
- Break like ripples on the strand
- Of the deep and solemn river
- Where her willing feet now stand.
- O my sister, passing from me,
- Out of human care and strife,
- Leave me, as a gift, those virtues
- Which have beautified your life.
- Dear, bequeath me that great patience
- Which has power to sustain
- A cheerful, uncomplaining spirit
- In its prison-house of pain.
- Give me, for I need it sorely,
- Of that courage, wise and sweet,
- Which has made the path of duty
- Green beneath your willing feet.
- Give me that unselfish nature,
- That with charity divine
- Can pardon wrong for love's dear sake--
- Meek heart, forgive me mine!
- Thus our parting daily loseth
- Something of its bitter pain,
- And while learning this hard lesson,
- My great loss becomes my gain.
- For the touch of grief will render
- My wild nature more serene,
- Give to life new aspirations,
- A new trust in the unseen.
- Henceforth, safe across the river,
- I shall see forever more
- A beloved, household spirit
- Waiting for me on the shore.
- Hope and faith, born of my sorrow,
- Guardian angels shall become,
- And the sister gone before me
- By their hands shall lead me home.
- Blurred and blotted, faulty and feeble as the lines were, they brought
- a look of inexpressible comfort to Beth's face, for her one regret had
- been that she had done so little, and this seemed to assure her that
- her life had not been useless, that her death would not bring the
- despair she feared. As she sat with the paper folded between her
- hands, the charred log fell asunder. Jo started up, revived the blaze,
- and crept to the bedside, hoping Beth slept.
- "Not asleep, but so happy, dear. See, I found this and read it. I knew
- you wouldn't care. Have I been all that to you, Jo?" she asked, with
- wistful, humble earnestness.
- "_Oh_, Beth, so much, so much!" and Jo's head went down upon the pillow
- beside her sister's.
- "Then I don't feel as if I'd wasted my life. I'm not so good as you
- make me, but I have tried to do right. And now, when it's too late to
- begin even to do better, it's such a comfort to know that someone loves
- me so much, and feels as if I'd helped them."
- "More than any one in the world, Beth. I used to think I couldn't let
- you go, but I'm learning to feel that I don't lose you, that you'll be
- more to me than ever, and death can't part us, though it seems to."
- "I know it cannot, and I don't fear it any longer, for I'm sure I shall
- be your Beth still, to love and help you more than ever. You must take
- my place, Jo, and be everything to Father and Mother when I'm gone.
- They will turn to you, don't fail them, and if it's hard to work alone,
- remember that I don't forget you, and that you'll be happier in doing
- that than writing splendid books or seeing all the world, for love is
- the only thing that we can carry with us when we go, and it makes the
- end so easy."
- "I'll try, Beth." and then and there Jo renounced her old ambition,
- pledged herself to a new and better one, acknowledging the poverty of
- other desires, and feeling the blessed solace of a belief in the
- immortality of love.
- So the spring days came and went, the sky grew clearer, the earth
- greener, the flowers were up fairly early, and the birds came back in
- time to say goodbye to Beth, who, like a tired but trustful child,
- clung to the hands that had led her all her life, as Father and Mother
- guided her tenderly through the Valley of the Shadow, and gave her up
- to God.
- Seldom except in books do the dying utter memorable words, see visions,
- or depart with beatified countenances, and those who have sped many
- parting souls know that to most the end comes as naturally and simply
- as sleep. As Beth had hoped, the 'tide went out easily', and in the
- dark hour before dawn, on the bosom where she had drawn her first
- breath, she quietly drew her last, with no farewell but one loving
- look, one little sigh.
- With tears and prayers and tender hands, Mother and sisters made her
- ready for the long sleep that pain would never mar again, seeing with
- grateful eyes the beautiful serenity that soon replaced the pathetic
- patience that had wrung their hearts so long, and feeling with reverent
- joy that to their darling death was a benignant angel, not a phantom
- full of dread.
- When morning came, for the first time in many months the fire was out,
- Jo's place was empty, and the room was very still. But a bird sang
- blithely on a budding bough, close by, the snowdrops blossomed freshly
- at the window, and the spring sunshine streamed in like a benediction
- over the placid face upon the pillow, a face so full of painless peace
- that those who loved it best smiled through their tears, and thanked
- God that Beth was well at last.
- CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
- LEARNING TO FORGET
- Amy's lecture did Laurie good, though, of course, he did not own it
- till long afterward. Men seldom do, for when women are the advisers,
- the lords of creation don't take the advice till they have persuaded
- themselves that it is just what they intended to do. Then they act
- upon it, and, if it succeeds, they give the weaker vessel half the
- credit of it. If it fails, they generously give her the whole. Laurie
- went back to his grandfather, and was so dutifully devoted for several
- weeks that the old gentleman declared the climate of Nice had improved
- him wonderfully, and he had better try it again. There was nothing the
- young gentleman would have liked better, but elephants could not have
- dragged him back after the scolding he had received. Pride forbid, and
- whenever the longing grew very strong, he fortified his resolution by
- repeating the words that had made the deepest impression--"I despise
- you." "Go and do something splendid that will make her love you."
- Laurie turned the matter over in his mind so often that he soon brought
- himself to confess that he had been selfish and lazy, but then when a
- man has a great sorrow, he should be indulged in all sorts of vagaries
- till he has lived it down. He felt that his blighted affections were
- quite dead now, and though he should never cease to be a faithful
- mourner, there was no occasion to wear his weeds ostentatiously. Jo
- wouldn't love him, but he might make her respect and admire him by
- doing something which should prove that a girl's 'No' had not spoiled
- his life. He had always meant to do something, and Amy's advice was
- quite unnecessary. He had only been waiting till the aforesaid
- blighted affections were decently interred. That being done, he felt
- that he was ready to 'hide his stricken heart, and still toil on'.
- As Goethe, when he had a joy or a grief, put it into a song, so Laurie
- resolved to embalm his love sorrow in music, and to compose a Requiem
- which should harrow up Jo's soul and melt the heart of every hearer.
- Therefore the next time the old gentleman found him getting restless
- and moody and ordered him off, he went to Vienna, where he had musical
- friends, and fell to work with the firm determination to distinguish
- himself. But whether the sorrow was too vast to be embodied in music,
- or music too ethereal to uplift a mortal woe, he soon discovered that
- the Requiem was beyond him just at present. It was evident that his
- mind was not in working order yet, and his ideas needed clarifying, for
- often in the middle of a plaintive strain, he would find himself
- humming a dancing tune that vividly recalled the Christmas ball at
- Nice, especially the stout Frenchman, and put an effectual stop to
- tragic composition for the time being.
- Then he tried an opera, for nothing seemed impossible in the beginning,
- but here again unforeseen difficulties beset him. He wanted Jo for his
- heroine, and called upon his memory to supply him with tender
- recollections and romantic visions of his love. But memory turned
- traitor, and as if possessed by the perverse spirit of the girl, would
- only recall Jo's oddities, faults, and freaks, would only show her in
- the most unsentimental aspects--beating mats with her head tied up in a
- bandanna, barricading herself with the sofa pillow, or throwing cold
- water over his passion a la Gummidge--and an irresistable laugh spoiled
- the pensive picture he was endeavoring to paint. Jo wouldn't be put
- into the opera at any price, and he had to give her up with a "Bless
- that girl, what a torment she is!" and a clutch at his hair, as became
- a distracted composer.
- When he looked about him for another and a less intractable damsel to
- immortalize in melody, memory produced one with the most obliging
- readiness. This phantom wore many faces, but it always had golden
- hair, was enveloped in a diaphanous cloud, and floated airily before
- his mind's eye in a pleasing chaos of roses, peacocks, white ponies,
- and blue ribbons. He did not give the complacent wraith any name, but
- he took her for his heroine and grew quite fond of her, as well he
- might, for he gifted her with every gift and grace under the sun, and
- escorted her, unscathed, through trials which would have annihilated
- any mortal woman.
- Thanks to this inspiration, he got on swimmingly for a time, but
- gradually the work lost its charm, and he forgot to compose, while he
- sat musing, pen in hand, or roamed about the gay city to get some new
- ideas and refresh his mind, which seemed to be in a somewhat unsettled
- state that winter. He did not do much, but he thought a great deal and
- was conscious of a change of some sort going on in spite of himself.
- "It's genius simmering, perhaps. I'll let it simmer, and see what
- comes of it," he said, with a secret suspicion all the while that it
- wasn't genius, but something far more common. Whatever it was, it
- simmered to some purpose, for he grew more and more discontented with
- his desultory life, began to long for some real and earnest work to go
- at, soul and body, and finally came to the wise conclusion that
- everyone who loved music was not a composer. Returning from one of
- Mozart's grand operas, splendidly performed at the Royal Theatre, he
- looked over his own, played a few of the best parts, sat staring at the
- busts of Mendelssohn, Beethoven, and Bach, who stared benignly back
- again. Then suddenly he tore up his music sheets, one by one, and as
- the last fluttered out of his hand, he said soberly to himself...
- "She is right! Talent isn't genius, and you can't make it so. That
- music has taken the vanity out of me as Rome took it out of her, and I
- won't be a humbug any longer. Now what shall I do?"
- That seemed a hard question to answer, and Laurie began to wish he had
- to work for his daily bread. Now if ever, occurred an eligible
- opportunity for 'going to the devil', as he once forcibly expressed it,
- for he had plenty of money and nothing to do, and Satan is proverbially
- fond of providing employment for full and idle hands. The poor fellow
- had temptations enough from without and from within, but he withstood
- them pretty well, for much as he valued liberty, he valued good faith
- and confidence more, so his promise to his grandfather, and his desire
- to be able to look honestly into the eyes of the women who loved him,
- and say "All's well," kept him safe and steady.
- Very likely some Mrs. Grundy will observe, "I don't believe it, boys
- will be boys, young men must sow their wild oats, and women must not
- expect miracles." I dare say you don't, Mrs. Grundy, but it's true
- nevertheless. Women work a good many miracles, and I have a persuasion
- that they may perform even that of raising the standard of manhood by
- refusing to echo such sayings. Let the boys be boys, the longer the
- better, and let the young men sow their wild oats if they must. But
- mothers, sisters, and friends may help to make the crop a small one,
- and keep many tares from spoiling the harvest, by believing, and
- showing that they believe, in the possibility of loyalty to the virtues
- which make men manliest in good women's eyes. If it is a feminine
- delusion, leave us to enjoy it while we may, for without it half the
- beauty and the romance of life is lost, and sorrowful forebodings would
- embitter all our hopes of the brave, tenderhearted little lads, who
- still love their mothers better than themselves and are not ashamed to
- own it.
- Laurie thought that the task of forgetting his love for Jo would absorb
- all his powers for years, but to his great surprise he discovered it
- grew easier every day. He refused to believe it at first, got angry
- with himself, and couldn't understand it, but these hearts of ours are
- curious and contrary things, and time and nature work their will in
- spite of us. Laurie's heart wouldn't ache. The wound persisted in
- healing with a rapidity that astonished him, and instead of trying to
- forget, he found himself trying to remember. He had not foreseen this
- turn of affairs, and was not prepared for it. He was disgusted with
- himself, surprised at his own fickleness, and full of a queer mixture
- of disappointment and relief that he could recover from such a
- tremendous blow so soon. He carefully stirred up the embers of his
- lost love, but they refused to burst into a blaze. There was only a
- comfortable glow that warmed and did him good without putting him into
- a fever, and he was reluctantly obliged to confess that the boyish
- passion was slowly subsiding into a more tranquil sentiment, very
- tender, a little sad and resentful still, but that was sure to pass
- away in time, leaving a brotherly affection which would last unbroken
- to the end.
- As the word 'brotherly' passed through his mind in one of his reveries,
- he smiled, and glanced up at the picture of Mozart that was before
- him...
- "Well, he was a great man, and when he couldn't have one sister he took
- the other, and was happy."
- Laurie did not utter the words, but he thought them, and the next
- instant kissed the little old ring, saying to himself, "No, I won't! I
- haven't forgotten, I never can. I'll try again, and if that fails, why
- then..."
- Leaving his sentence unfinished, he seized pen and paper and wrote to
- Jo, telling her that he could not settle to anything while there was
- the least hope of her changing her mind. Couldn't she, wouldn't
- she--and let him come home and be happy? While waiting for an answer he
- did nothing, but he did it energetically, for he was in a fever of
- impatience. It came at last, and settled his mind effectually on one
- point, for Jo decidedly couldn't and wouldn't. She was wrapped up in
- Beth, and never wished to hear the word love again. Then she begged
- him to be happy with somebody else, but always keep a little corner of
- his heart for his loving sister Jo. In a postscript she desired him
- not to tell Amy that Beth was worse, she was coming home in the spring
- and there was no need of saddening the remainder of her stay. That
- would be time enough, please God, but Laurie must write to her often,
- and not let her feel lonely, homesick or anxious.
- "So I will, at once. Poor little girl, it will be a sad going home for
- her, I'm afraid," and Laurie opened his desk, as if writing to Amy had
- been the proper conclusion of the sentence left unfinished some weeks
- before.
- But he did not write the letter that day, for as he rummaged out his
- best paper, he came across something which changed his purpose.
- Tumbling about in one part of the desk among bills, passports, and
- business documents of various kinds were several of Jo's letters, and
- in another compartment were three notes from Amy, carefully tied up
- with one of her blue ribbons and sweetly suggestive of the little dead
- roses put away inside. With a half-repentant, half-amused expression,
- Laurie gathered up all Jo's letters, smoothed, folded, and put them
- neatly into a small drawer of the desk, stood a minute turning the ring
- thoughtfully on his finger, then slowly drew it off, laid it with the
- letters, locked the drawer, and went out to hear High Mass at Saint
- Stefan's, feeling as if there had been a funeral, and though not
- overwhelmed with affliction, this seemed a more proper way to spend the
- rest of the day than in writing letters to charming young ladies.
- The letter went very soon, however, and was promptly answered, for Amy
- was homesick, and confessed it in the most delightfully confiding
- manner. The correspondence flourished famously, and letters flew to
- and fro with unfailing regularity all through the early spring. Laurie
- sold his busts, made allumettes of his opera, and went back to Paris,
- hoping somebody would arrive before long. He wanted desperately to go
- to Nice, but would not till he was asked, and Amy would not ask him,
- for just then she was having little experiences of her own, which made
- her rather wish to avoid the quizzical eyes of 'our boy'.
- Fred Vaughn had returned, and put the question to which she had once
- decided to answer, "Yes, thank you," but now she said, "No, thank you,"
- kindly but steadily, for when the time came, her courage failed her,
- and she found that something more than money and position was needed to
- satisfy the new longing that filled her heart so full of tender hopes
- and fears. The words, "Fred is a good fellow, but not at all the man I
- fancied you would ever like," and Laurie's face when he uttered them,
- kept returning to her as pertinaciously as her own did when she said in
- look, if not in words, "I shall marry for money." It troubled her to
- remember that now, she wished she could take it back, it sounded so
- unwomanly. She didn't want Laurie to think her a heartless, worldly
- creature. She didn't care to be a queen of society now half so much as
- she did to be a lovable woman. She was so glad he didn't hate her for
- the dreadful things she said, but took them so beautifully and was
- kinder than ever. His letters were such a comfort, for the home
- letters were very irregular and not half so satisfactory as his when
- they did come. It was not only a pleasure, but a duty to answer them,
- for the poor fellow was forlorn, and needed petting, since Jo persisted
- in being stonyhearted. She ought to have made an effort and tried to
- love him. It couldn't be very hard, many people would be proud and
- glad to have such a dear boy care for them. But Jo never would act
- like other girls, so there was nothing to do but be very kind and treat
- him like a brother.
- If all brothers were treated as well as Laurie was at this period, they
- would be a much happier race of beings than they are. Amy never
- lectured now. She asked his opinion on all subjects, she was
- interested in everything he did, made charming little presents for him,
- and sent him two letters a week, full of lively gossip, sisterly
- confidences, and captivating sketches of the lovely scenes about her.
- As few brothers are complimented by having their letters carried about
- in their sister's pockets, read and reread diligently, cried over when
- short, kissed when long, and treasured carefully, we will not hint that
- Amy did any of these fond and foolish things. But she certainly did
- grow a little pale and pensive that spring, lost much of her relish for
- society, and went out sketching alone a good deal. She never had much
- to show when she came home, but was studying nature, I dare say, while
- she sat for hours, with her hands folded, on the terrace at Valrosa, or
- absently sketched any fancy that occurred to her, a stalwart knight
- carved on a tomb, a young man asleep in the grass, with his hat over
- his eyes, or a curly haired girl in gorgeous array, promenading down a
- ballroom on the arm of a tall gentleman, both faces being left a blur
- according to the last fashion in art, which was safe but not altogether
- satisfactory.
- Her aunt thought that she regretted her answer to Fred, and finding
- denials useless and explanations impossible, Amy left her to think what
- she liked, taking care that Laurie should know that Fred had gone to
- Egypt. That was all, but he understood it, and looked relieved, as he
- said to himself, with a venerable air...
- "I was sure she would think better of it. Poor old fellow! I've been
- through it all, and I can sympathize."
- With that he heaved a great sigh, and then, as if he had discharged his
- duty to the past, put his feet up on the sofa and enjoyed Amy's letter
- luxuriously.
- While these changes were going on abroad, trouble had come at home.
- But the letter telling that Beth was failing never reached Amy, and
- when the next found her at Vevay, for the heat had driven them from
- Nice in May, and they had travelled slowly to Switzerland, by way of
- Genoa and the Italian lakes. She bore it very well, and quietly
- submitted to the family decree that she should not shorten her visit,
- for since it was too late to say goodbye to Beth, she had better stay,
- and let absence soften her sorrow. But her heart was very heavy, she
- longed to be at home, and every day looked wistfully across the lake,
- waiting for Laurie to come and comfort her.
- He did come very soon, for the same mail brought letters to them both,
- but he was in Germany, and it took some days to reach him. The moment
- he read it, he packed his knapsack, bade adieu to his fellow
- pedestrians, and was off to keep his promise, with a heart full of joy
- and sorrow, hope and suspense.
- He knew Vevay well, and as soon as the boat touched the little quay, he
- hurried along the shore to La Tour, where the Carrols were living en
- pension. The garcon was in despair that the whole family had gone to
- take a promenade on the lake, but no, the blonde mademoiselle might be
- in the chateau garden. If monsieur would give himself the pain of
- sitting down, a flash of time should present her. But monsieur could
- not wait even a 'flash of time', and in the middle of the speech
- departed to find mademoiselle himself.
- A pleasant old garden on the borders of the lovely lake, with chestnuts
- rustling overhead, ivy climbing everywhere, and the black shadow of the
- tower falling far across the sunny water. At one corner of the wide,
- low wall was a seat, and here Amy often came to read or work, or
- console herself with the beauty all about her. She was sitting here
- that day, leaning her head on her hand, with a homesick heart and heavy
- eyes, thinking of Beth and wondering why Laurie did not come. She did
- not hear him cross the courtyard beyond, nor see him pause in the
- archway that led from the subterranean path into the garden. He stood
- a minute looking at her with new eyes, seeing what no one had ever seen
- before, the tender side of Amy's character. Everything about her mutely
- suggested love and sorrow, the blotted letters in her lap, the black
- ribbon that tied up her hair, the womanly pain and patience in her
- face, even the little ebony cross at her throat seemed pathetic to
- Laurie, for he had given it to her, and she wore it as her only
- ornament. If he had any doubts about the reception she would give him,
- they were set at rest the minute she looked up and saw him, for
- dropping everything, she ran to him, exclaiming in a tone of
- unmistakable love and longing...
- "Oh, Laurie, Laurie, I knew you'd come to me!"
- I think everything was said and settled then, for as they stood
- together quite silent for a moment, with the dark head bent down
- protectingly over the light one, Amy felt that no one could comfort and
- sustain her so well as Laurie, and Laurie decided that Amy was the only
- woman in the world who could fill Jo's place and make him happy. He
- did not tell her so, but she was not disappointed, for both felt the
- truth, were satisfied, and gladly left the rest to silence.
- In a minute Amy went back to her place, and while she dried her tears,
- Laurie gathered up the scattered papers, finding in the sight of sundry
- well-worn letters and suggestive sketches good omens for the future.
- As he sat down beside her, Amy felt shy again, and turned rosy red at
- the recollection of her impulsive greeting.
- "I couldn't help it, I felt so lonely and sad, and was so very glad to
- see you. It was such a surprise to look up and find you, just as I was
- beginning to fear you wouldn't come," she said, trying in vain to speak
- quite naturally.
- "I came the minute I heard. I wish I could say something to comfort
- you for the loss of dear little Beth, but I can only feel, and..." He
- could not get any further, for he too turned bashful all of a sudden,
- and did not quite know what to say. He longed to lay Amy's head down
- on his shoulder, and tell her to have a good cry, but he did not dare,
- so took her hand instead, and gave it a sympathetic squeeze that was
- better than words.
- "You needn't say anything, this comforts me," she said softly. "Beth
- is well and happy, and I mustn't wish her back, but I dread the going
- home, much as I long to see them all. We won't talk about it now, for
- it makes me cry, and I want to enjoy you while you stay. You needn't
- go right back, need you?"
- "Not if you want me, dear."
- "I do, so much. Aunt and Flo are very kind, but you seem like one of
- the family, and it would be so comfortable to have you for a little
- while."
- Amy spoke and looked so like a homesick child whose heart was full that
- Laurie forgot his bashfulness all at once, and gave her just what she
- wanted--the petting she was used to and the cheerful conversation she
- needed.
- "Poor little soul, you look as if you'd grieved yourself half sick!
- I'm going to take care of you, so don't cry any more, but come and walk
- about with me, the wind is too chilly for you to sit still," he said,
- in the half-caressing, half-commanding way that Amy liked, as he tied
- on her hat, drew her arm through his, and began to pace up and down the
- sunny walk under the new-leaved chestnuts. He felt more at ease upon
- his legs, and Amy found it pleasant to have a strong arm to lean upon,
- a familiar face to smile at her, and a kind voice to talk delightfully
- for her alone.
- The quaint old garden had sheltered many pairs of lovers, and seemed
- expressly made for them, so sunny and secluded was it, with nothing but
- the tower to overlook them, and the wide lake to carry away the echo of
- their words, as it rippled by below. For an hour this new pair walked
- and talked, or rested on the wall, enjoying the sweet influences which
- gave such a charm to time and place, and when an unromantic dinner bell
- warned them away, Amy felt as if she left her burden of loneliness and
- sorrow behind her in the chateau garden.
- The moment Mrs. Carrol saw the girl's altered face, she was illuminated
- with a new idea, and exclaimed to herself, "Now I understand it
- all--the child has been pining for young Laurence. Bless my heart, I
- never thought of such a thing!"
- With praiseworthy discretion, the good lady said nothing, and betrayed
- no sign of enlightenment, but cordially urged Laurie to stay and begged
- Amy to enjoy his society, for it would do her more good than so much
- solitude. Amy was a model of docility, and as her aunt was a good deal
- occupied with Flo, she was left to entertain her friend, and did it
- with more than her usual success.
- At Nice, Laurie had lounged and Amy had scolded. At Vevay, Laurie was
- never idle, but always walking, riding, boating, or studying in the
- most energetic manner, while Amy admired everything he did and followed
- his example as far and as fast as she could. He said the change was
- owing to the climate, and she did not contradict him, being glad of a
- like excuse for her own recovered health and spirits.
- The invigorating air did them both good, and much exercise worked
- wholesome changes in minds as well as bodies. They seemed to get
- clearer views of life and duty up there among the everlasting hills.
- The fresh winds blew away desponding doubts, delusive fancies, and
- moody mists. The warm spring sunshine brought out all sorts of
- aspiring ideas, tender hopes, and happy thoughts. The lake seemed to
- wash away the troubles of the past, and the grand old mountains to look
- benignly down upon them saying, "Little children, love one another."
- In spite of the new sorrow, it was a very happy time, so happy that
- Laurie could not bear to disturb it by a word. It took him a little
- while to recover from his surprise at the cure of his first, and as he
- had firmly believed, his last and only love. He consoled himself for
- the seeming disloyalty by the thought that Jo's sister was almost the
- same as Jo's self, and the conviction that it would have been
- impossible to love any other woman but Amy so soon and so well. His
- first wooing had been of the tempestuous order, and he looked back upon
- it as if through a long vista of years with a feeling of compassion
- blended with regret. He was not ashamed of it, but put it away as one
- of the bitter-sweet experiences of his life, for which he could be
- grateful when the pain was over. His second wooing, he resolved, should
- be as calm and simple as possible. There was no need of having a
- scene, hardly any need of telling Amy that he loved her, she knew it
- without words and had given him his answer long ago. It all came about
- so naturally that no one could complain, and he knew that everybody
- would be pleased, even Jo. But when our first little passion has been
- crushed, we are apt to be wary and slow in making a second trial, so
- Laurie let the days pass, enjoying every hour, and leaving to chance
- the utterance of the word that would put an end to the first and
- sweetest part of his new romance.
- He had rather imagined that the denoument would take place in the
- chateau garden by moonlight, and in the most graceful and decorous
- manner, but it turned out exactly the reverse, for the matter was
- settled on the lake at noonday in a few blunt words. They had been
- floating about all the morning, from gloomy St. Gingolf to sunny
- Montreux, with the Alps of Savoy on one side, Mont St. Bernard and the
- Dent du Midi on the other, pretty Vevay in the valley, and Lausanne
- upon the hill beyond, a cloudless blue sky overhead, and the bluer lake
- below, dotted with the picturesque boats that look like white-winged
- gulls.
- They had been talking of Bonnivard, as they glided past Chillon, and of
- Rousseau, as they looked up at Clarens, where he wrote his Heloise.
- Neither had read it, but they knew it was a love story, and each
- privately wondered if it was half as interesting as their own. Amy had
- been dabbling her hand in the water during the little pause that fell
- between them, and when she looked up, Laurie was leaning on his oars
- with an expression in his eyes that made her say hastily, merely for
- the sake of saying something...
- "You must be tired. Rest a little, and let me row. It will do me
- good, for since you came I have been altogether lazy and luxurious."
- "I'm not tired, but you may take an oar, if you like. There's room
- enough, though I have to sit nearly in the middle, else the boat won't
- trim," returned Laurie, as if he rather liked the arrangement.
- Feeling that she had not mended matters much, Amy took the offered
- third of a seat, shook her hair over her face, and accepted an oar.
- She rowed as well as she did many other things, and though she used
- both hands, and Laurie but one, the oars kept time, and the boat went
- smoothly through the water.
- "How well we pull together, don't we?" said Amy, who objected to
- silence just then.
- "So well that I wish we might always pull in the same boat. Will you,
- Amy?" very tenderly.
- "Yes, Laurie," very low.
- Then they both stopped rowing, and unconsciously added a pretty little
- tableau of human love and happiness to the dissolving views reflected
- in the lake.
- CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
- ALL ALONE
- It was easy to promise self-abnegation when self was wrapped up in
- another, and heart and soul were purified by a sweet example. But when
- the helpful voice was silent, the daily lesson over, the beloved
- presence gone, and nothing remained but loneliness and grief, then Jo
- found her promise very hard to keep. How could she 'comfort Father and
- Mother' when her own heart ached with a ceaseless longing for her
- sister, how could she 'make the house cheerful' when all its light and
- warmth and beauty seemed to have deserted it when Beth left the old
- home for the new, and where in all the world could she 'find some
- useful, happy work to do', that would take the place of the loving
- service which had been its own reward? She tried in a blind, hopeless
- way to do her duty, secretly rebelling against it all the while, for it
- seemed unjust that her few joys should be lessened, her burdens made
- heavier, and life get harder and harder as she toiled along. Some
- people seemed to get all sunshine, and some all shadow. It was not
- fair, for she tried more than Amy to be good, but never got any reward,
- only disappointment, trouble and hard work.
- Poor Jo, these were dark days to her, for something like despair came
- over her when she thought of spending all her life in that quiet house,
- devoted to humdrum cares, a few small pleasures, and the duty that
- never seemed to grow any easier. "I can't do it. I wasn't meant for a
- life like this, and I know I shall break away and do something
- desperate if somebody doesn't come and help me," she said to herself,
- when her first efforts failed and she fell into the moody, miserable
- state of mind which often comes when strong wills have to yield to the
- inevitable.
- But someone did come and help her, though Jo did not recognize her good
- angels at once because they wore familiar shapes and used the simple
- spells best fitted to poor humanity. Often she started up at night,
- thinking Beth called her, and when the sight of the little empty bed
- made her cry with the bitter cry of unsubmissive sorrow, "Oh, Beth,
- come back! Come back!" she did not stretch out her yearning arms in
- vain. For, as quick to hear her sobbing as she had been to hear her
- sister's faintest whisper, her mother came to comfort her, not with
- words only, but the patient tenderness that soothes by a touch, tears
- that were mute reminders of a greater grief than Jo's, and broken
- whispers, more eloquent than prayers, because hopeful resignation went
- hand-in-hand with natural sorrow. Sacred moments, when heart talked to
- heart in the silence of the night, turning affliction to a blessing,
- which chastened grief and strengthened love. Feeling this, Jo's burden
- seemed easier to bear, duty grew sweeter, and life looked more
- endurable, seen from the safe shelter of her mother's arms.
- When aching heart was a little comforted, troubled mind likewise found
- help, for one day she went to the study, and leaning over the good gray
- head lifted to welcome her with a tranquil smile, she said very humbly,
- "Father, talk to me as you did to Beth. I need it more than she did,
- for I'm all wrong."
- "My dear, nothing can comfort me like this," he answered, with a falter
- in his voice, and both arms round her, as if he too, needed help, and
- did not fear to ask for it.
- Then, sitting in Beth's little chair close beside him, Jo told her
- troubles, the resentful sorrow for her loss, the fruitless efforts that
- discouraged her, the want of faith that made life look so dark, and all
- the sad bewilderment which we call despair. She gave him entire
- confidence, he gave her the help she needed, and both found consolation
- in the act. For the time had come when they could talk together not
- only as father and daughter, but as man and woman, able and glad to
- serve each other with mutual sympathy as well as mutual love. Happy,
- thoughtful times there in the old study which Jo called 'the church of
- one member', and from which she came with fresh courage, recovered
- cheerfulness, and a more submissive spirit. For the parents who had
- taught one child to meet death without fear, were trying now to teach
- another to accept life without despondency or distrust, and to use its
- beautiful opportunities with gratitude and power.
- Other helps had Jo--humble, wholesome duties and delights that would
- not be denied their part in serving her, and which she slowly learned
- to see and value. Brooms and dishcloths never could be as distasteful
- as they once had been, for Beth had presided over both, and something
- of her housewifely spirit seemed to linger around the little mop and
- the old brush, never thrown away. As she used them, Jo found herself
- humming the songs Beth used to hum, imitating Beth's orderly ways, and
- giving the little touches here and there that kept everything fresh and
- cozy, which was the first step toward making home happy, though she
- didn't know it till Hannah said with an approving squeeze of the hand...
- "You thoughtful creeter, you're determined we shan't miss that dear
- lamb ef you can help it. We don't say much, but we see it, and the
- Lord will bless you for't, see ef He don't."
- As they sat sewing together, Jo discovered how much improved her sister
- Meg was, how well she could talk, how much she knew about good, womanly
- impulses, thoughts, and feelings, how happy she was in husband and
- children, and how much they were all doing for each other.
- "Marriage is an excellent thing, after all. I wonder if I should
- blossom out half as well as you have, if I tried it?, always
- _'perwisin'_ I could," said Jo, as she constructed a kite for Demi in
- the topsy-turvy nursery.
- "It's just what you need to bring out the tender womanly half of your
- nature, Jo. You are like a chestnut burr, prickly outside, but
- silky-soft within, and a sweet kernal, if one can only get at it. Love
- will make you show your heart one day, and then the rough burr will
- fall off."
- "Frost opens chestnut burrs, ma'am, and it takes a good shake to bring
- them down. Boys go nutting, and I don't care to be bagged by them,"
- returned Jo, pasting away at the kite which no wind that blows would
- ever carry up, for Daisy had tied herself on as a bob.
- Meg laughed, for she was glad to see a glimmer of Jo's old spirit, but
- she felt it her duty to enforce her opinion by every argument in her
- power, and the sisterly chats were not wasted, especially as two of
- Meg's most effective arguments were the babies, whom Jo loved tenderly.
- Grief is the best opener of some hearts, and Jo's was nearly ready for
- the bag. A little more sunshine to ripen the nut, then, not a boy's
- impatient shake, but a man's hand reached up to pick it gently from the
- burr, and find the kernal sound and sweet. If she suspected this, she
- would have shut up tight, and been more prickly than ever, fortunately
- she wasn't thinking about herself, so when the time came, down she
- dropped.
- Now, if she had been the heroine of a moral storybook, she ought at
- this period of her life to have become quite saintly, renounced the
- world, and gone about doing good in a mortified bonnet, with tracts in
- her pocket. But, you see, Jo wasn't a heroine, she was only a
- struggling human girl like hundreds of others, and she just acted out
- her nature, being sad, cross, listless, or energetic, as the mood
- suggested. It's highly virtuous to say we'll be good, but we can't do
- it all at once, and it takes a long pull, a strong pull, and a pull all
- together before some of us even get our feet set in the right way. Jo
- had got so far, she was learning to do her duty, and to feel unhappy if
- she did not, but to do it cheerfully, ah, that was another thing! She
- had often said she wanted to do something splendid, no matter how hard,
- and now she had her wish, for what could be more beautiful than to
- devote her life to Father and Mother, trying to make home as happy to
- them as they had to her? And if difficulties were necessary to
- increase the splendor of the effort, what could be harder for a
- restless, ambitious girl than to give up her own hopes, plans, and
- desires, and cheerfully live for others?
- Providence had taken her at her word. Here was the task, not what she
- had expected, but better because self had no part in it. Now, could she
- do it? She decided that she would try, and in her first attempt she
- found the helps I have suggested. Still another was given her, and she
- took it, not as a reward, but as a comfort, as Christian took the
- refreshment afforded by the little arbor where he rested, as he climbed
- the hill called Difficulty.
- "Why don't you write? That always used to make you happy," said her
- mother once, when the desponding fit over-shadowed Jo.
- "I've no heart to write, and if I had, nobody cares for my things."
- "We do. Write something for us, and never mind the rest of the world.
- Try it, dear. I'm sure it would do you good, and please us very much."
- "Don't believe I can." But Jo got out her desk and began to overhaul
- her half-finished manuscripts.
- An hour afterward her mother peeped in and there she was, scratching
- away, with her black pinafore on, and an absorbed expression, which
- caused Mrs. March to smile and slip away, well pleased with the success
- of her suggestion. Jo never knew how it happened, but something got
- into that story that went straight to the hearts of those who read it,
- for when her family had laughed and cried over it, her father sent it,
- much against her will, to one of the popular magazines, and to her
- utter surprise, it was not only paid for, but others requested.
- Letters from several persons, whose praise was honor, followed the
- appearance of the little story, newspapers copied it, and strangers as
- well as friends admired it. For a small thing it was a great success,
- and Jo was more astonished than when her novel was commended and
- condemned all at once.
- "I don't understand it. What can there be in a simple little story
- like that to make people praise it so?" she said, quite bewildered.
- "There is truth in it, Jo, that's the secret. Humor and pathos make it
- alive, and you have found your style at last. You wrote with no
- thoughts of fame and money, and put your heart into it, my daughter.
- You have had the bitter, now comes the sweet. Do your best, and grow
- as happy as we are in your success."
- "If there is anything good or true in what I write, it isn't mine. I
- owe it all to you and Mother and Beth," said Jo, more touched by her
- father's words than by any amount of praise from the world.
- So taught by love and sorrow, Jo wrote her little stories, and sent
- them away to make friends for themselves and her, finding it a very
- charitable world to such humble wanderers, for they were kindly
- welcomed, and sent home comfortable tokens to their mother, like
- dutiful children whom good fortune overtakes.
- When Amy and Laurie wrote of their engagement, Mrs. March feared that
- Jo would find it difficult to rejoice over it, but her fears were soon
- set at rest, for though Jo looked grave at first, she took it very
- quietly, and was full of hopes and plans for 'the children' before she
- read the letter twice. It was a sort of written duet, wherein each
- glorified the other in loverlike fashion, very pleasant to read and
- satisfactory to think of, for no one had any objection to make.
- "You like it, Mother?" said Jo, as they laid down the closely written
- sheets and looked at one another.
- "Yes, I hoped it would be so, ever since Amy wrote that she had refused
- Fred. I felt sure then that something better than what you call the
- 'mercenary spirit' had come over her, and a hint here and there in her
- letters made me suspect that love and Laurie would win the day."
- "How sharp you are, Marmee, and how silent! You never said a word to
- me."
- "Mothers have need of sharp eyes and discreet tongues when they have
- girls to manage. I was half afraid to put the idea into your head,
- lest you should write and congratulate them before the thing was
- settled."
- "I'm not the scatterbrain I was. You may trust me. I'm sober and
- sensible enough for anyone's confidante now."
- "So you are, my dear, and I should have made you mine, only I fancied
- it might pain you to learn that your Teddy loved someone else."
- "Now, Mother, did you really think I could be so silly and selfish,
- after I'd refused his love, when it was freshest, if not best?"
- "I knew you were sincere then, Jo, but lately I have thought that if he
- came back, and asked again, you might perhaps, feel like giving another
- answer. Forgive me, dear, I can't help seeing that you are very
- lonely, and sometimes there is a hungry look in your eyes that goes to
- my heart. So I fancied that your boy might fill the empty place if he
- tried now."
- "No, Mother, it is better as it is, and I'm glad Amy has learned to
- love him. But you are right in one thing. I am lonely, and perhaps if
- Teddy had tried again, I might have said 'Yes', not because I love him
- any more, but because I care more to be loved than when he went away."
- "I'm glad of that, Jo, for it shows that you are getting on. There are
- plenty to love you, so try to be satisfied with Father and Mother,
- sisters and brothers, friends and babies, till the best lover of all
- comes to give you your reward."
- "Mothers are the best lovers in the world, but I don't mind whispering
- to Marmee that I'd like to try all kinds. It's very curious, but the
- more I try to satisfy myself with all sorts of natural affections, the
- more I seem to want. I'd no idea hearts could take in so many. Mine
- is so elastic, it never seems full now, and I used to be quite
- contented with my family. I don't understand it."
- "I do," and Mrs. March smiled her wise smile, as Jo turned back the
- leaves to read what Amy said of Laurie.
- "It is so beautiful to be loved as Laurie loves me. He isn't
- sentimental, doesn't say much about it, but I see and feel it in all he
- says and does, and it makes me so happy and so humble that I don't seem
- to be the same girl I was. I never knew how good and generous and
- tender he was till now, for he lets me read his heart, and I find it
- full of noble impulses and hopes and purposes, and am so proud to know
- it's mine. He says he feels as if he 'could make a prosperous voyage
- now with me aboard as mate, and lots of love for ballast'. I pray he
- may, and try to be all he believes me, for I love my gallant captain
- with all my heart and soul and might, and never will desert him, while
- God lets us be together. Oh, Mother, I never knew how much like heaven
- this world could be, when two people love and live for one another!"
- "And that's our cool, reserved, and worldly Amy! Truly, love does work
- miracles. How very, very happy they must be!" and Jo laid the rustling
- sheets together with a careful hand, as one might shut the covers of a
- lovely romance, which holds the reader fast till the end comes, and he
- finds himself alone in the workaday world again.
- By-and-by Jo roamed away upstairs, for it was rainy, and she could not
- walk. A restless spirit possessed her, and the old feeling came again,
- not bitter as it once was, but a sorrowfully patient wonder why one
- sister should have all she asked, the other nothing. It was not true,
- she knew that and tried to put it away, but the natural craving for
- affection was strong, and Amy's happiness woke the hungry longing for
- someone to 'love with heart and soul, and cling to while God let them
- be together'. Up in the garret, where Jo's unquiet wanderings ended
- stood four little wooden chests in a row, each marked with its owners
- name, and each filled with relics of the childhood and girlhood ended
- now for all. Jo glanced into them, and when she came to her own,
- leaned her chin on the edge, and stared absently at the chaotic
- collection, till a bundle of old exercise books caught her eye. She
- drew them out, turned them over, and relived that pleasant winter at
- kind Mrs. Kirke's. She had smiled at first, then she looked
- thoughtful, next sad, and when she came to a little message written in
- the Professor's hand, her lips began to tremble, the books slid out of
- her lap, and she sat looking at the friendly words, as they took a new
- meaning, and touched a tender spot in her heart.
- "Wait for me, my friend. I may be a little late, but I shall surely
- come."
- "Oh, if he only would! So kind, so good, so patient with me always, my
- dear old Fritz. I didn't value him half enough when I had him, but now
- how I should love to see him, for everyone seems going away from me,
- and I'm all alone."
- And holding the little paper fast, as if it were a promise yet to be
- fulfilled, Jo laid her head down on a comfortable rag bag, and cried,
- as if in opposition to the rain pattering on the roof.
- Was it all self-pity, loneliness, or low spirits? Or was it the waking
- up of a sentiment which had bided its time as patiently as its
- inspirer? Who shall say?
- CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
- SURPRISES
- Jo was alone in the twilight, lying on the old sofa, looking at the
- fire, and thinking. It was her favorite way of spending the hour of
- dusk. No one disturbed her, and she used to lie there on Beth's little
- red pillow, planning stories, dreaming dreams, or thinking tender
- thoughts of the sister who never seemed far away. Her face looked
- tired, grave, and rather sad, for tomorrow was her birthday, and she
- was thinking how fast the years went by, how old she was getting, and
- how little she seemed to have accomplished. Almost twenty-five, and
- nothing to show for it. Jo was mistaken in that. There was a good
- deal to show, and by-and-by she saw, and was grateful for it.
- "An old maid, that's what I'm to be. A literary spinster, with a pen
- for a spouse, a family of stories for children, and twenty years hence
- a morsel of fame, perhaps, when, like poor Johnson, I'm old and can't
- enjoy it, solitary, and can't share it, independent, and don't need it.
- Well, I needn't be a sour saint nor a selfish sinner, and, I dare say,
- old maids are very comfortable when they get used to it, but..." and
- there Jo sighed, as if the prospect was not inviting.
- It seldom is, at first, and thirty seems the end of all things to
- five-and-twenty. But it's not as bad as it looks, and one can get on
- quite happily if one has something in one's self to fall back upon. At
- twenty-five, girls begin to talk about being old maids, but secretly
- resolve that they never will be. At thirty they say nothing about it,
- but quietly accept the fact, and if sensible, console themselves by
- remembering that they have twenty more useful, happy years, in which
- they may be learning to grow old gracefully. Don't laugh at the
- spinsters, dear girls, for often very tender, tragic romances are
- hidden away in the hearts that beat so quietly under the sober gowns,
- and many silent sacrifices of youth, health, ambition, love itself,
- make the faded faces beautiful in God's sight. Even the sad, sour
- sisters should be kindly dealt with, because they have missed the
- sweetest part of life, if for no other reason. And looking at them
- with compassion, not contempt, girls in their bloom should remember
- that they too may miss the blossom time. That rosy cheeks don't last
- forever, that silver threads will come in the bonnie brown hair, and
- that, by-and-by, kindness and respect will be as sweet as love and
- admiration now.
- Gentlemen, which means boys, be courteous to the old maids, no matter
- how poor and plain and prim, for the only chivalry worth having is that
- which is the readiest to pay deference to the old, protect the feeble,
- and serve womankind, regardless of rank, age, or color. Just recollect
- the good aunts who have not only lectured and fussed, but nursed and
- petted, too often without thanks, the scrapes they have helped you out
- of, the tips they have given you from their small store, the stitches
- the patient old fingers have set for you, the steps the willing old
- feet have taken, and gratefully pay the dear old ladies the little
- attentions that women love to receive as long as they live. The
- bright-eyed girls are quick to see such traits, and will like you all
- the better for them, and if death, almost the only power that can part
- mother and son, should rob you of yours, you will be sure to find a
- tender welcome and maternal cherishing from some Aunt Priscilla, who
- has kept the warmest corner of her lonely old heart for 'the best nevvy
- in the world'.
- Jo must have fallen asleep (as I dare say my reader has during this
- little homily), for suddenly Laurie's ghost seemed to stand before her,
- a substantial, lifelike ghost, leaning over her with the very look he
- used to wear when he felt a good deal and didn't like to show it. But,
- like Jenny in the ballad...
- "She could not think it he,"
- and lay staring up at him in startled silence, till he stooped and
- kissed her. Then she knew him, and flew up, crying joyfully...
- "Oh my Teddy! Oh my Teddy!"
- "Dear Jo, you are glad to see me, then?"
- "Glad! My blessed boy, words can't express my gladness. Where's Amy?"
- "Your mother has got her down at Meg's. We stopped there by the way,
- and there was no getting my wife out of their clutches."
- "Your what?" cried Jo, for Laurie uttered those two words with an
- unconscious pride and satisfaction which betrayed him.
- "Oh, the dickens! Now I've done it," and he looked so guilty that Jo
- was down on him like a flash.
- "You've gone and got married!"
- "Yes, please, but I never will again," and he went down upon his knees,
- with a penitent clasping of hands, and a face full of mischief, mirth,
- and triumph.
- "Actually married?"
- "Very much so, thank you."
- "Mercy on us. What dreadful thing will you do next?" and Jo fell into
- her seat with a gasp.
- "A characteristic, but not exactly complimentary, congratulation,"
- returned Laurie, still in an abject attitude, but beaming with
- satisfaction.
- "What can you expect, when you take one's breath away, creeping in like
- a burglar, and letting cats out of bags like that? Get up, you
- ridiculous boy, and tell me all about it."
- "Not a word, unless you let me come in my old place, and promise not to
- barricade."
- Jo laughed at that as she had not done for many a long day, and patted
- the sofa invitingly, as she said in a cordial tone, "The old pillow is
- up garret, and we don't need it now. So, come and 'fess, Teddy."
- "How good it sounds to hear you say 'Teddy'! No one ever calls me that
- but you," and Laurie sat down with an air of great content.
- "What does Amy call you?"
- "My lord."
- "That's like her. Well, you look it," and Jo's eye plainly betrayed
- that she found her boy comelier than ever.
- The pillow was gone, but there was a barricade, nevertheless, a natural
- one, raised by time, absence, and change of heart. Both felt it, and
- for a minute looked at one another as if that invisible barrier cast a
- little shadow over them. It was gone directly however, for Laurie
- said, with a vain attempt at dignity...
- "Don't I look like a married man and the head of a family?"
- "Not a bit, and you never will. You've grown bigger and bonnier, but
- you are the same scapegrace as ever."
- "Now really, Jo, you ought to treat me with more respect," began
- Laurie, who enjoyed it all immensely.
- "How can I, when the mere idea of you, married and settled, is so
- irresistibly funny that I can't keep sober!" answered Jo, smiling all
- over her face, so infectiously that they had another laugh, and then
- settled down for a good talk, quite in the pleasant old fashion.
- "It's no use your going out in the cold to get Amy, for they are all
- coming up presently. I couldn't wait. I wanted to be the one to tell
- you the grand surprise, and have 'first skim' as we used to say when we
- squabbled about the cream."
- "Of course you did, and spoiled your story by beginning at the wrong
- end. Now, start right, and tell me how it all happened. I'm pining to
- know."
- "Well, I did it to please Amy," began Laurie, with a twinkle that made
- Jo exclaim...
- "Fib number one. Amy did it to please you. Go on, and tell the truth,
- if you can, sir."
- "Now she's beginning to marm it. Isn't it jolly to hear her?" said
- Laurie to the fire, and the fire glowed and sparkled as if it quite
- agreed. "It's all the same, you know, she and I being one. We planned
- to come home with the Carrols, a month or more ago, but they suddenly
- changed their minds, and decided to pass another winter in Paris. But
- Grandpa wanted to come home. He went to please me, and I couldn't let
- him go alone, neither could I leave Amy, and Mrs. Carrol had got
- English notions about chaperons and such nonsense, and wouldn't let Amy
- come with us. So I just settled the difficulty by saying, 'Let's be
- married, and then we can do as we like'."
- "Of course you did. You always have things to suit you."
- "Not always," and something in Laurie's voice made Jo say hastily...
- "How did you ever get Aunt to agree?"
- "It was hard work, but between us, we talked her over, for we had heaps
- of good reasons on our side. There wasn't time to write and ask leave,
- but you all liked it, had consented to it by-and-by, and it was only
- 'taking time by the fetlock', as my wife says."
- "Aren't we proud of those two words, and don't we like to say them?"
- interrupted Jo, addressing the fire in her turn, and watching with
- delight the happy light it seemed to kindle in the eyes that had been
- so tragically gloomy when she saw them last.
- "A trifle, perhaps, she's such a captivating little woman I can't help
- being proud of her. Well, then Uncle and Aunt were there to play
- propriety. We were so absorbed in one another we were of no mortal use
- apart, and that charming arrangement would make everything easy all
- round, so we did it."
- "When, where, how?" asked Jo, in a fever of feminine interest and
- curiosity, for she could not realize it a particle.
- "Six weeks ago, at the American consul's, in Paris, a very quiet
- wedding of course, for even in our happiness we didn't forget dear
- little Beth."
- Jo put her hand in his as he said that, and Laurie gently smoothed the
- little red pillow, which he remembered well.
- "Why didn't you let us know afterward?" asked Jo, in a quieter tone,
- when they had sat quite still a minute.
- "We wanted to surprise you. We thought we were coming directly home,
- at first, but the dear old gentleman, as soon as we were married, found
- he couldn't be ready under a month, at least, and sent us off to spend
- our honeymoon wherever we liked. Amy had once called Valrosa a regular
- honeymoon home, so we went there, and were as happy as people are but
- once in their lives. My faith! Wasn't it love among the roses!"
- Laurie seemed to forget Jo for a minute, and Jo was glad of it, for the
- fact that he told her these things so freely and so naturally assured
- her that he had quite forgiven and forgotten. She tried to draw away
- her hand, but as if he guessed the thought that prompted the
- half-involuntary impulse, Laurie held it fast, and said, with a manly
- gravity she had never seen in him before...
- "Jo, dear, I want to say one thing, and then we'll put it by forever.
- As I told you in my letter when I wrote that Amy had been so kind to
- me, I never shall stop loving you, but the love is altered, and I have
- learned to see that it is better as it is. Amy and you changed places
- in my heart, that's all. I think it was meant to be so, and would have
- come about naturally, if I had waited, as you tried to make me, but I
- never could be patient, and so I got a heartache. I was a boy then,
- headstrong and violent, and it took a hard lesson to show me my
- mistake. For it was one, Jo, as you said, and I found it out, after
- making a fool of myself. Upon my word, I was so tumbled up in my mind,
- at one time, that I didn't know which I loved best, you or Amy, and
- tried to love you both alike. But I couldn't, and when I saw her in
- Switzerland, everything seemed to clear up all at once. You both got
- into your right places, and I felt sure that it was well off with the
- old love before it was on with the new, that I could honestly share my
- heart between sister Jo and wife Amy, and love them dearly. Will you
- believe it, and go back to the happy old times when we first knew one
- another?"
- "I'll believe it, with all my heart, but, Teddy, we never can be boy
- and girl again. The happy old times can't come back, and we mustn't
- expect it. We are man and woman now, with sober work to do, for
- playtime is over, and we must give up frolicking. I'm sure you feel
- this. I see the change in you, and you'll find it in me. I shall miss
- my boy, but I shall love the man as much, and admire him more, because
- he means to be what I hoped he would. We can't be little playmates any
- longer, but we will be brother and sister, to love and help one another
- all our lives, won't we, Laurie?"
- He did not say a word, but took the hand she offered him, and laid his
- face down on it for a minute, feeling that out of the grave of a boyish
- passion, there had risen a beautiful, strong friendship to bless them
- both. Presently Jo said cheerfully, for she didn't want the coming
- home to be a sad one, "I can't make it true that you children are
- really married and going to set up housekeeping. Why, it seems only
- yesterday that I was buttoning Amy's pinafore, and pulling your hair
- when you teased. Mercy me, how time does fly!"
- "As one of the children is older than yourself, you needn't talk so
- like a grandma. I flatter myself I'm a 'gentleman growed' as Peggotty
- said of David, and when you see Amy, you'll find her rather a
- precocious infant," said Laurie, looking amused at her maternal air.
- "You may be a little older in years, but I'm ever so much older in
- feeling, Teddy. Women always are, and this last year has been such a
- hard one that I feel forty."
- "Poor Jo! We left you to bear it alone, while we went pleasuring. You
- are older. Here's a line, and there's another. Unless you smile, your
- eyes look sad, and when I touched the cushion, just now, I found a tear
- on it. You've had a great deal to bear, and had to bear it all alone.
- What a selfish beast I've been!" and Laurie pulled his own hair, with a
- remorseful look.
- But Jo only turned over the traitorous pillow, and answered, in a tone
- which she tried to make more cheerful, "No, I had Father and Mother to
- help me, and the dear babies to comfort me, and the thought that you
- and Amy were safe and happy, to make the troubles here easier to bear.
- I am lonely, sometimes, but I dare say it's good for me, and..."
- "You never shall be again," broke in Laurie, putting his arm about her,
- as if to fence out every human ill. "Amy and I can't get on without
- you, so you must come and teach 'the children' to keep house, and go
- halves in everything, just as we used to do, and let us pet you, and
- all be blissfully happy and friendly together."
- "If I shouldn't be in the way, it would be very pleasant. I begin to
- feel quite young already, for somehow all my troubles seemed to fly
- away when you came. You always were a comfort, Teddy," and Jo leaned
- her head on his shoulder, just as she did years ago, when Beth lay ill
- and Laurie told her to hold on to him.
- He looked down at her, wondering if she remembered the time, but Jo was
- smiling to herself, as if in truth her troubles had all vanished at his
- coming.
- "You are the same Jo still, dropping tears about one minute, and
- laughing the next. You look a little wicked now. What is it, Grandma?"
- "I was wondering how you and Amy get on together."
- "Like angels!"
- "Yes, of course, but which rules?"
- "I don't mind telling you that she does now, at least I let her think
- so, it pleases her, you know. By-and-by we shall take turns, for
- marriage, they say, halves one's rights and doubles one's duties."
- "You'll go on as you begin, and Amy will rule you all the days of your
- life."
- "Well, she does it so imperceptibly that I don't think I shall mind
- much. She is the sort of woman who knows how to rule well. In fact, I
- rather like it, for she winds one round her finger as softly and
- prettily as a skein of silk, and makes you feel as if she was doing you
- a favor all the while."
- "That ever I should live to see you a henpecked husband and enjoying
- it!" cried Jo, with uplifted hands.
- It was good to see Laurie square his shoulders, and smile with
- masculine scorn at that insinuation, as he replied, with his "high and
- mighty" air, "Amy is too well-bred for that, and I am not the sort of
- man to submit to it. My wife and I respect ourselves and one another
- too much ever to tyrannize or quarrel."
- Jo liked that, and thought the new dignity very becoming, but the boy
- seemed changing very fast into the man, and regret mingled with her
- pleasure.
- "I am sure of that. Amy and you never did quarrel as we used to. She
- is the sun and I the wind, in the fable, and the sun managed the man
- best, you remember."
- "She can blow him up as well as shine on him," laughed Laurie. "Such a
- lecture as I got at Nice! I give you my word it was a deal worse than
- any of your scoldings, a regular rouser. I'll tell you all about it
- sometime, she never will, because after telling me that she despised
- and was ashamed of me, she lost her heart to the despicable party and
- married the good-for-nothing."
- "What baseness! Well, if she abuses you, come to me, and I'll defend
- you."
- "I look as if I needed it, don't I?" said Laurie, getting up and
- striking an attitude which suddenly changed from the imposing to the
- rapturous, as Amy's voice was heard calling, "Where is she? Where's my
- dear old Jo?"
- In trooped the whole family, and everyone was hugged and kissed all
- over again, and after several vain attempts, the three wanderers were
- set down to be looked at and exulted over. Mr. Laurence, hale and
- hearty as ever, was quite as much improved as the others by his foreign
- tour, for the crustiness seemed to be nearly gone, and the
- old-fashioned courtliness had received a polish which made it kindlier
- than ever. It was good to see him beam at 'my children', as he called
- the young pair. It was better still to see Amy pay him the daughterly
- duty and affection which completely won his old heart, and best of all,
- to watch Laurie revolve about the two, as if never tired of enjoying
- the pretty picture they made.
- The minute she put her eyes upon Amy, Meg became conscious that her own
- dress hadn't a Parisian air, that young Mrs. Moffat would be entirely
- eclipsed by young Mrs. Laurence, and that 'her ladyship' was altogether
- a most elegant and graceful woman. Jo thought, as she watched the
- pair, "How well they look together! I was right, and Laurie has found
- the beautiful, accomplished girl who will become his home better than
- clumsy old Jo, and be a pride, not a torment to him." Mrs. March and
- her husband smiled and nodded at each other with happy faces, for they
- saw that their youngest had done well, not only in worldly things, but
- the better wealth of love, confidence, and happiness.
- For Amy's face was full of the soft brightness which betokens a
- peaceful heart, her voice had a new tenderness in it, and the cool,
- prim carriage was changed to a gentle dignity, both womanly and
- winning. No little affectations marred it, and the cordial sweetness of
- her manner was more charming than the new beauty or the old grace, for
- it stamped her at once with the unmistakable sign of the true
- gentlewoman she had hoped to become.
- "Love has done much for our little girl," said her mother softly.
- "She has had a good example before her all her life, my dear," Mr.
- March whispered back, with a loving look at the worn face and gray head
- beside him.
- Daisy found it impossible to keep her eyes off her 'pitty aunty', but
- attached herself like a lap dog to the wonderful chatelaine full of
- delightful charms. Demi paused to consider the new relationship before
- he compromised himself by the rash acceptance of a bribe, which took
- the tempting form of a family of wooden bears from Berne. A flank
- movement produced an unconditional surrender, however, for Laurie knew
- where to have him.
- "Young man, when I first had the honor of making your acquaintance you
- hit me in the face. Now I demand the satisfaction of a gentleman," and
- with that the tall uncle proceeded to toss and tousle the small nephew
- in a way that damaged his philosophical dignity as much as it delighted
- his boyish soul.
- "Blest if she ain't in silk from head to foot; ain't it a relishin'
- sight to see her settin' there as fine as a fiddle, and hear folks
- calling little Amy 'Mis. Laurence!'" muttered old Hannah, who could
- not resist frequent "peeks" through the slide as she set the table in a
- most decidedly promiscuous manner.
- Mercy on us, how they did talk! first one, then the other, then all
- burst out together--trying to tell the history of three years in half
- an hour. It was fortunate that tea was at hand, to produce a lull and
- provide refreshment--for they would have been hoarse and faint if they
- had gone on much longer. Such a happy procession as filed away into
- the little dining room! Mr. March proudly escorted Mrs. Laurence. Mrs.
- March as proudly leaned on the arm of 'my son'. The old gentleman took
- Jo, with a whispered, "You must be my girl now," and a glance at the
- empty corner by the fire, that made Jo whisper back, "I'll try to fill
- her place, sir."
- The twins pranced behind, feeling that the millennium was at hand, for
- everyone was so busy with the newcomers that they were left to revel at
- their own sweet will, and you may be sure they made the most of the
- opportunity. Didn't they steal sips of tea, stuff gingerbread ad
- libitum, get a hot biscuit apiece, and as a crowning trespass, didn't
- they each whisk a captivating little tart into their tiny pockets,
- there to stick and crumble treacherously, teaching them that both human
- nature and a pastry are frail? Burdened with the guilty consciousness
- of the sequestered tarts, and fearing that Dodo's sharp eyes would
- pierce the thin disguise of cambric and merino which hid their booty,
- the little sinners attached themselves to 'Dranpa', who hadn't his
- spectacles on. Amy, who was handed about like refreshments, returned
- to the parlor on Father Laurence's arm. The others paired off as
- before, and this arrangement left Jo companionless. She did not mind
- it at the minute, for she lingered to answer Hannah's eager inquiry.
- "Will Miss Amy ride in her coop (coupe), and use all them lovely silver
- dishes that's stored away over yander?"
- "Shouldn't wonder if she drove six white horses, ate off gold plate,
- and wore diamonds and point lace every day. Teddy thinks nothing too
- good for her," returned Jo with infinite satisfaction.
- "No more there is! Will you have hash or fishballs for breakfast?"
- asked Hannah, who wisely mingled poetry and prose.
- "I don't care," and Jo shut the door, feeling that food was an
- uncongenial topic just then. She stood a minute looking at the party
- vanishing above, and as Demi's short plaid legs toiled up the last
- stair, a sudden sense of loneliness came over her so strongly that she
- looked about her with dim eyes, as if to find something to lean upon,
- for even Teddy had deserted her. If she had known what birthday gift
- was coming every minute nearer and nearer, she would not have said to
- herself, "I'll weep a little weep when I go to bed. It won't do to be
- dismal now." Then she drew her hand over her eyes, for one of her
- boyish habits was never to know where her handkerchief was, and had
- just managed to call up a smile when there came a knock at the porch
- door.
- She opened with hospitable haste, and started as if another ghost had
- come to surprise her, for there stood a tall bearded gentleman, beaming
- on her from the darkness like a midnight sun.
- "Oh, Mr. Bhaer, I am so glad to see you!" cried Jo, with a clutch, as
- if she feared the night would swallow him up before she could get him
- in.
- "And I to see Miss Marsch, but no, you haf a party," and the Professor
- paused as the sound of voices and the tap of dancing feet came down to
- them.
- "No, we haven't, only the family. My sister and friends have just come
- home, and we are all very happy. Come in, and make one of us."
- Though a very social man, I think Mr. Bhaer would have gone decorously
- away, and come again another day, but how could he, when Jo shut the
- door behind him, and bereft him of his hat? Perhaps her face had
- something to do with it, for she forgot to hide her joy at seeing him,
- and showed it with a frankness that proved irresistible to the solitary
- man, whose welcome far exceeded his boldest hopes.
- "If I shall not be Monsieur de Trop, I will so gladly see them all.
- You haf been ill, my friend?"
- He put the question abruptly, for, as Jo hung up his coat, the light
- fell on her face, and he saw a change in it.
- "Not ill, but tired and sorrowful. We have had trouble since I saw you
- last."
- "Ah, yes, I know. My heart was sore for you when I heard that," and he
- shook hands again, with such a sympathetic face that Jo felt as if no
- comfort could equal the look of the kind eyes, the grasp of the big,
- warm hand.
- "Father, Mother, this is my friend, Professor Bhaer," she said, with a
- face and tone of such irrepressible pride and pleasure that she might
- as well have blown a trumpet and opened the door with a flourish.
- If the stranger had any doubts about his reception, they were set at
- rest in a minute by the cordial welcome he received. Everyone greeted
- him kindly, for Jo's sake at first, but very soon they liked him for
- his own. They could not help it, for he carried the talisman that
- opens all hearts, and these simple people warmed to him at once,
- feeling even the more friendly because he was poor. For poverty
- enriches those who live above it, and is a sure passport to truly
- hospitable spirits. Mr. Bhaer sat looking about him with the air of a
- traveler who knocks at a strange door, and when it opens, finds himself
- at home. The children went to him like bees to a honeypot, and
- establishing themselves on each knee, proceeded to captivate him by
- rifling his pockets, pulling his beard, and investigating his watch,
- with juvenile audacity. The women telegraphed their approval to one
- another, and Mr. March, feeling that he had got a kindred spirit,
- opened his choicest stores for his guest's benefit, while silent John
- listened and enjoyed the talk, but said not a word, and Mr. Laurence
- found it impossible to go to sleep.
- If Jo had not been otherwise engaged, Laurie's behavior would have
- amused her, for a faint twinge, not of jealousy, but something like
- suspicion, caused that gentleman to stand aloof at first, and observe
- the newcomer with brotherly circumspection. But it did not last long.
- He got interested in spite of himself, and before he knew it, was drawn
- into the circle. For Mr. Bhaer talked well in this genial atmosphere,
- and did himself justice. He seldom spoke to Laurie, but he looked at
- him often, and a shadow would pass across his face, as if regretting
- his own lost youth, as he watched the young man in his prime. Then his
- eyes would turn to Jo so wistfully that she would have surely answered
- the mute inquiry if she had seen it. But Jo had her own eyes to take
- care of, and feeling that they could not be trusted, she prudently kept
- them on the little sock she was knitting, like a model maiden aunt.
- A stealthy glance now and then refreshed her like sips of fresh water
- after a dusty walk, for the sidelong peeps showed her several
- propitious omens. Mr. Bhaer's face had lost the absent-minded
- expression, and looked all alive with interest in the present moment,
- actually young and handsome, she thought, forgetting to compare him
- with Laurie, as she usually did strange men, to their great detriment.
- Then he seemed quite inspired, though the burial customs of the
- ancients, to which the conversation had strayed, might not be
- considered an exhilarating topic. Jo quite glowed with triumph when
- Teddy got quenched in an argument, and thought to herself, as she
- watched her father's absorbed face, "How he would enjoy having such a
- man as my Professor to talk with every day!" Lastly, Mr. Bhaer was
- dressed in a new suit of black, which made him look more like a
- gentleman than ever. His bushy hair had been cut and smoothly brushed,
- but didn't stay in order long, for in exciting moments, he rumpled it
- up in the droll way he used to do, and Jo liked it rampantly erect
- better than flat, because she thought it gave his fine forehead a
- Jove-like aspect. Poor Jo, how she did glorify that plain man, as she
- sat knitting away so quietly, yet letting nothing escape her, not even
- the fact that Mr. Bhaer actually had gold sleeve-buttons in his
- immaculate wristbands.
- "Dear old fellow! He couldn't have got himself up with more care if
- he'd been going a-wooing," said Jo to herself, and then a sudden
- thought born of the words made her blush so dreadfully that she had to
- drop her ball, and go down after it to hide her face.
- The maneuver did not succeed as well as she expected, however, for
- though just in the act of setting fire to a funeral pyre, the Professor
- dropped his torch, metaphorically speaking, and made a dive after the
- little blue ball. Of course they bumped their heads smartly together,
- saw stars, and both came up flushed and laughing, without the ball, to
- resume their seats, wishing they had not left them.
- Nobody knew where the evening went to, for Hannah skillfully abstracted
- the babies at an early hour, nodding like two rosy poppies, and Mr.
- Laurence went home to rest. The others sat round the fire, talking
- away, utterly regardless of the lapse of time, till Meg, whose maternal
- mind was impressed with a firm conviction that Daisy had tumbled out of
- bed, and Demi set his nightgown afire studying the structure of
- matches, made a move to go.
- "We must have our sing, in the good old way, for we are all together
- again once more," said Jo, feeling that a good shout would be a safe
- and pleasant vent for the jubilant emotions of her soul.
- They were not all there. But no one found the words thoughtless or
- untrue, for Beth still seemed among them, a peaceful presence,
- invisible, but dearer than ever, since death could not break the
- household league that love made dissoluble. The little chair stood in
- its old place. The tidy basket, with the bit of work she left
- unfinished when the needle grew 'so heavy', was still on its accustomed
- shelf. The beloved instrument, seldom touched now had not been moved,
- and above it Beth's face, serene and smiling, as in the early days,
- looked down upon them, seeming to say, "Be happy. I am here."
- "Play something, Amy. Let them hear how much you have improved," said
- Laurie, with pardonable pride in his promising pupil.
- But Amy whispered, with full eyes, as she twirled the faded stool, "Not
- tonight, dear. I can't show off tonight."
- But she did show something better than brilliancy or skill, for she
- sang Beth's songs with a tender music in her voice which the best
- master could not have taught, and touched the listener's hearts with a
- sweeter power than any other inspiration could have given her. The
- room was very still, when the clear voice failed suddenly at the last
- line of Beth's favorite hymn. It was hard to say...
- Earth hath no sorrow that heaven cannot heal;
- and Amy leaned against her husband, who stood behind her, feeling that
- her welcome home was not quite perfect without Beth's kiss.
- "Now, we must finish with Mignon's song, for Mr. Bhaer sings that,"
- said Jo, before the pause grew painful. And Mr. Bhaer cleared his
- throat with a gratified "Hem!" as he stepped into the corner where Jo
- stood, saying...
- "You will sing with me? We go excellently well together."
- A pleasing fiction, by the way, for Jo had no more idea of music than a
- grasshopper. But she would have consented if he had proposed to sing a
- whole opera, and warbled away, blissfully regardless of time and tune.
- It didn't much matter, for Mr. Bhaer sang like a true German, heartily
- and well, and Jo soon subsided into a subdued hum, that she might
- listen to the mellow voice that seemed to sing for her alone.
- Know'st thou the land where the citron blooms,
- used to be the Professor's favorite line, for 'das land' meant Germany
- to him, but now he seemed to dwell, with peculiar warmth and melody,
- upon the words...
- There, oh there, might I with thee,
- O, my beloved, go
- and one listener was so thrilled by the tender invitation that she
- longed to say she did know the land, and would joyfully depart thither
- whenever he liked.
- The song was considered a great success, and the singer retired covered
- with laurels. But a few minutes afterward, he forgot his manners
- entirely, and stared at Amy putting on her bonnet, for she had been
- introduced simply as 'my sister', and no one had called her by her new
- name since he came. He forgot himself still further when Laurie said,
- in his most gracious manner, at parting...
- "My wife and I are very glad to meet you, sir. Please remember that
- there is always a welcome waiting for you over the way."
- Then the Professor thanked him so heartily, and looked so suddenly
- illuminated with satisfaction, that Laurie thought him the most
- delightfully demonstrative old fellow he ever met.
- "I too shall go, but I shall gladly come again, if you will gif me
- leave, dear madame, for a little business in the city will keep me here
- some days."
- He spoke to Mrs. March, but he looked at Jo, and the mother's voice
- gave as cordial an assent as did the daughter's eyes, for Mrs. March
- was not so blind to her children's interest as Mrs. Moffat supposed.
- "I suspect that is a wise man," remarked Mr. March, with placid
- satisfaction, from the hearthrug, after the last guest had gone.
- "I know he is a good one," added Mrs. March, with decided approval, as
- she wound up the clock.
- "I thought you'd like him," was all Jo said, as she slipped away to her
- bed.
- She wondered what the business was that brought Mr. Bhaer to the city,
- and finally decided that he had been appointed to some great honor,
- somewhere, but had been too modest to mention the fact. If she had
- seen his face when, safe in his own room, he looked at the picture of a
- severe and rigid young lady, with a good deal of hair, who appeared to
- be gazing darkly into futurity, it might have thrown some light upon
- the subject, especially when he turned off the gas, and kissed the
- picture in the dark.
- CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
- MY LORD AND LADY
- "Please, Madam Mother, could you lend me my wife for half an hour? The
- luggage has come, and I've been making hay of Amy's Paris finery,
- trying to find some things I want," said Laurie, coming in the next day
- to find Mrs. Laurence sitting in her mother's lap, as if being made
- 'the baby' again.
- "Certainly. Go, dear, I forgot that you have any home but this," and
- Mrs. March pressed the white hand that wore the wedding ring, as if
- asking pardon for her maternal covetousness.
- "I shouldn't have come over if I could have helped it, but I can't get
- on without my little woman any more than a..."
- "Weathercock can without the wind," suggested Jo, as he paused for a
- simile. Jo had grown quite her own saucy self again since Teddy came
- home.
- "Exactly, for Amy keeps me pointing due west most of the time, with
- only an occasional whiffle round to the south, and I haven't had an
- easterly spell since I was married. Don't know anything about the
- north, but am altogether salubrious and balmy, hey, my lady?"
- "Lovely weather so far. I don't know how long it will last, but I'm
- not afraid of storms, for I'm learning how to sail my ship. Come home,
- dear, and I'll find your bootjack. I suppose that's what you are
- rummaging after among my things. Men are so helpless, Mother," said
- Amy, with a matronly air, which delighted her husband.
- "What are you going to do with yourselves after you get settled?" asked
- Jo, buttoning Amy's cloak as she used to button her pinafores.
- "We have our plans. We don't mean to say much about them yet, because
- we are such very new brooms, but we don't intend to be idle. I'm going
- into business with a devotion that shall delight Grandfather, and prove
- to him that I'm not spoiled. I need something of the sort to keep me
- steady. I'm tired of dawdling, and mean to work like a man."
- "And Amy, what is she going to do?" asked Mrs. March, well pleased at
- Laurie's decision and the energy with which he spoke.
- "After doing the civil all round, and airing our best bonnet, we shall
- astonish you by the elegant hospitalities of our mansion, the brilliant
- society we shall draw about us, and the beneficial influence we shall
- exert over the world at large. That's about it, isn't it, Madame
- Recamier?" asked Laurie with a quizzical look at Amy.
- "Time will show. Come away, Impertinence, and don't shock my family by
- calling me names before their faces," answered Amy, resolving that
- there should be a home with a good wife in it before she set up a salon
- as a queen of society.
- "How happy those children seem together!" observed Mr. March, finding
- it difficult to become absorbed in his Aristotle after the young couple
- had gone.
- "Yes, and I think it will last," added Mrs. March, with the restful
- expression of a pilot who has brought a ship safely into port.
- "I know it will. Happy Amy!" and Jo sighed, then smiled brightly as
- Professor Bhaer opened the gate with an impatient push.
- Later in the evening, when his mind had been set at rest about the
- bootjack, Laurie said suddenly to his wife, "Mrs. Laurence."
- "My Lord!"
- "That man intends to marry our Jo!"
- "I hope so, don't you, dear?"
- "Well, my love, I consider him a trump, in the fullest sense of that
- expressive word, but I do wish he was a little younger and a good deal
- richer."
- "Now, Laurie, don't be too fastidious and worldly-minded. If they love
- one another it doesn't matter a particle how old they are nor how poor.
- Women never should marry for money..." Amy caught herself up short as
- the words escaped her, and looked at her husband, who replied, with
- malicious gravity...
- "Certainly not, though you do hear charming girls say that they intend
- to do it sometimes. If my memory serves me, you once thought it your
- duty to make a rich match. That accounts, perhaps, for your marrying a
- good-for-nothing like me."
- "Oh, my dearest boy, don't, don't say that! I forgot you were rich
- when I said 'Yes'. I'd have married you if you hadn't a penny, and I
- sometimes wish you were poor that I might show how much I love you."
- And Amy, who was very dignified in public and very fond in private,
- gave convincing proofs of the truth of her words.
- "You don't really think I am such a mercenary creature as I tried to be
- once, do you? It would break my heart if you didn't believe that I'd
- gladly pull in the same boat with you, even if you had to get your
- living by rowing on the lake."
- "Am I an idiot and a brute? How could I think so, when you refused a
- richer man for me, and won't let me give you half I want to now, when I
- have the right? Girls do it every day, poor things, and are taught to
- think it is their only salvation, but you had better lessons, and
- though I trembled for you at one time, I was not disappointed, for the
- daughter was true to the mother's teaching. I told Mamma so yesterday,
- and she looked as glad and grateful as if I'd given her a check for a
- million, to be spent in charity. You are not listening to my moral
- remarks, Mrs. Laurence," and Laurie paused, for Amy's eyes had an
- absent look, though fixed upon his face.
- "Yes, I am, and admiring the mole in your chin at the same time. I
- don't wish to make you vain, but I must confess that I'm prouder of my
- handsome husband than of all his money. Don't laugh, but your nose is
- such a comfort to me," and Amy softly caressed the well-cut feature
- with artistic satisfaction.
- Laurie had received many compliments in his life, but never one that
- suited him better, as he plainly showed though he did laugh at his
- wife's peculiar taste, while she said slowly, "May I ask you a
- question, dear?"
- "Of course, you may."
- "Shall you care if Jo does marry Mr. Bhaer?"
- "Oh, that's the trouble is it? I thought there was something in the
- dimple that didn't quite suit you. Not being a dog in the manger, but
- the happiest fellow alive, I assure you I can dance at Jo's wedding
- with a heart as light as my heels. Do you doubt it, my darling?"
- Amy looked up at him, and was satisfied. Her little jealous fear
- vanished forever, and she thanked him, with a face full of love and
- confidence.
- "I wish we could do something for that capital old Professor. Couldn't
- we invent a rich relation, who shall obligingly die out there in
- Germany, and leave him a tidy little fortune?" said Laurie, when they
- began to pace up and down the long drawing room, arm in arm, as they
- were fond of doing, in memory of the chateau garden.
- "Jo would find us out, and spoil it all. She is very proud of him,
- just as he is, and said yesterday that she thought poverty was a
- beautiful thing."
- "Bless her dear heart! She won't think so when she has a literary
- husband, and a dozen little professors and professorins to support. We
- won't interfere now, but watch our chance, and do them a good turn in
- spite of themselves. I owe Jo for a part of my education, and she
- believes in people's paying their honest debts, so I'll get round her
- in that way."
- "How delightful it is to be able to help others, isn't it? That was
- always one of my dreams, to have the power of giving freely, and thanks
- to you, the dream has come true."
- "Ah, we'll do quantities of good, won't we? There's one sort of
- poverty that I particularly like to help. Out-and-out beggars get
- taken care of, but poor gentle folks fare badly, because they won't
- ask, and people don't dare to offer charity. Yet there are a thousand
- ways of helping them, if one only knows how to do it so delicately that
- it does not offend. I must say, I like to serve a decayed gentleman
- better than a blarnerying beggar. I suppose it's wrong, but I do,
- though it is harder."
- "Because it takes a gentleman to do it," added the other member of the
- domestic admiration society.
- "Thank you, I'm afraid I don't deserve that pretty compliment. But I
- was going to say that while I was dawdling about abroad, I saw a good
- many talented young fellows making all sorts of sacrifices, and
- enduring real hardships, that they might realize their dreams. Splendid
- fellows, some of them, working like heros, poor and friendless, but so
- full of courage, patience, and ambition that I was ashamed of myself,
- and longed to give them a right good lift. Those are people whom it's
- a satisfaction to help, for if they've got genius, it's an honor to be
- allowed to serve them, and not let it be lost or delayed for want of
- fuel to keep the pot boiling. If they haven't, it's a pleasure to
- comfort the poor souls, and keep them from despair when they find it
- out."
- "Yes, indeed, and there's another class who can't ask, and who suffer
- in silence. I know something of it, for I belonged to it before you
- made a princess of me, as the king does the beggarmaid in the old
- story. Ambitious girls have a hard time, Laurie, and often have to see
- youth, health, and precious opportunities go by, just for want of a
- little help at the right minute. People have been very kind to me, and
- whenever I see girls struggling along, as we used to do, I want to put
- out my hand and help them, as I was helped."
- "And so you shall, like an angel as you are!" cried Laurie, resolving,
- with a glow of philanthropic zeal, to found and endow an institution
- for the express benefit of young women with artistic tendencies. "Rich
- people have no right to sit down and enjoy themselves, or let their
- money accumulate for others to waste. It's not half so sensible to
- leave legacies when one dies as it is to use the money wisely while
- alive, and enjoy making one's fellow creatures happy with it. We'll
- have a good time ourselves, and add an extra relish to our own pleasure
- by giving other people a generous taste. Will you be a little Dorcas,
- going about emptying a big basket of comforts, and filling it up with
- good deeds?"
- "With all my heart, if you will be a brave St. Martin, stopping as you
- ride gallantly through the world to share your cloak with the beggar."
- "It's a bargain, and we shall get the best of it!"
- So the young pair shook hands upon it, and then paced happily on again,
- feeling that their pleasant home was more homelike because they hoped
- to brighten other homes, believing that their own feet would walk more
- uprightly along the flowery path before them, if they smoothed rough
- ways for other feet, and feeling that their hearts were more closely
- knit together by a love which could tenderly remember those less blest
- than they.
- CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
- DAISY AND DEMI
- I cannot feel that I have done my duty as humble historian of the March
- family, without devoting at least one chapter to the two most precious
- and important members of it. Daisy and Demi had now arrived at years
- of discretion, for in this fast age babies of three or four assert
- their rights, and get them, too, which is more than many of their
- elders do. If there ever were a pair of twins in danger of being
- utterly spoiled by adoration, it was these prattling Brookes. Of
- course they were the most remarkable children ever born, as will be
- shown when I mention that they walked at eight months, talked fluently
- at twelve months, and at two years they took their places at table, and
- behaved with a propriety which charmed all beholders. At three, Daisy
- demanded a 'needler', and actually made a bag with four stitches in it.
- She likewise set up housekeeping in the sideboard, and managed a
- microscopic cooking stove with a skill that brought tears of pride to
- Hannah's eyes, while Demi learned his letters with his grandfather, who
- invented a new mode of teaching the alphabet by forming letters with
- his arms and legs, thus uniting gymnastics for head and heels. The boy
- early developed a mechanical genius which delighted his father and
- distracted his mother, for he tried to imitate every machine he saw,
- and kept the nursery in a chaotic condition, with his 'sewinsheen', a
- mysterious structure of string, chairs, clothespins, and spools, for
- wheels to go 'wound and wound'. Also a basket hung over the back of a
- chair, in which he vainly tried to hoist his too confiding sister, who,
- with feminine devotion, allowed her little head to be bumped till
- rescued, when the young inventor indignantly remarked, "Why, Marmar,
- dat's my lellywaiter, and me's trying to pull her up."
- Though utterly unlike in character, the twins got on remarkably well
- together, and seldom quarreled more than thrice a day. Of course, Demi
- tyrannized over Daisy, and gallantly defended her from every other
- aggressor, while Daisy made a galley slave of herself, and adored her
- brother as the one perfect being in the world. A rosy, chubby,
- sunshiny little soul was Daisy, who found her way to everybody's heart,
- and nestled there. One of the captivating children, who seem made to
- be kissed and cuddled, adorned and adored like little goddesses, and
- produced for general approval on all festive occasions. Her small
- virtues were so sweet that she would have been quite angelic if a few
- small naughtinesses had not kept her delightfully human. It was all
- fair weather in her world, and every morning she scrambled up to the
- window in her little nightgown to look out, and say, no matter whether
- it rained or shone, "Oh, pitty day, oh, pitty day!" Everyone was a
- friend, and she offered kisses to a stranger so confidingly that the
- most inveterate bachelor relented, and baby-lovers became faithful
- worshipers.
- "Me loves evvybody," she once said, opening her arms, with her spoon in
- one hand, and her mug in the other, as if eager to embrace and nourish
- the whole world.
- As she grew, her mother began to feel that the Dovecote would be
- blessed by the presence of an inmate as serene and loving as that which
- had helped to make the old house home, and to pray that she might be
- spared a loss like that which had lately taught them how long they had
- entertained an angel unawares. Her grandfather often called her
- 'Beth', and her grandmother watched over her with untiring devotion, as
- if trying to atone for some past mistake, which no eye but her own
- could see.
- Demi, like a true Yankee, was of an inquiring turn, wanting to know
- everything, and often getting much disturbed because he could not get
- satisfactory answers to his perpetual "What for?"
- He also possessed a philosophic bent, to the great delight of his
- grandfather, who used to hold Socratic conversations with him, in which
- the precocious pupil occasionally posed his teacher, to the undisguised
- satisfaction of the womenfolk.
- "What makes my legs go, Dranpa?" asked the young philosopher, surveying
- those active portions of his frame with a meditative air, while resting
- after a go-to-bed frolic one night.
- "It's your little mind, Demi," replied the sage, stroking the yellow
- head respectfully.
- "What is a little mine?"
- "It is something which makes your body move, as the spring made the
- wheels go in my watch when I showed it to you."
- "Open me. I want to see it go wound."
- "I can't do that any more than you could open the watch. God winds you
- up, and you go till He stops you."
- "Does I?" and Demi's brown eyes grew big and bright as he took in the
- new thought. "Is I wounded up like the watch?"
- "Yes, but I can't show you how, for it is done when we don't see."
- Demi felt his back, as if expecting to find it like that of the watch,
- and then gravely remarked, "I dess Dod does it when I's asleep."
- A careful explanation followed, to which he listened so attentively
- that his anxious grandmother said, "My dear, do you think it wise to
- talk about such things to that baby? He's getting great bumps over his
- eyes, and learning to ask the most unanswerable questions."
- "If he is old enough to ask the question he is old enough to receive
- true answers. I am not putting the thoughts into his head, but helping
- him unfold those already there. These children are wiser than we are,
- and I have no doubt the boy understands every word I have said to him.
- Now, Demi, tell me where you keep your mind."
- If the boy had replied like Alcibiades, "By the gods, Socrates, I
- cannot tell," his grandfather would not have been surprised, but when,
- after standing a moment on one leg, like a meditative young stork, he
- answered, in a tone of calm conviction, "In my little belly," the old
- gentleman could only join in Grandma's laugh, and dismiss the class in
- metaphysics.
- There might have been cause for maternal anxiety, if Demi had not given
- convincing proofs that he was a true boy, as well as a budding
- philosopher, for often, after a discussion which caused Hannah to
- prophesy, with ominous nods, "That child ain't long for this world," he
- would turn about and set her fears at rest by some of the pranks with
- which dear, dirty, naughty little rascals distract and delight their
- parent's souls.
- Meg made many moral rules, and tried to keep them, but what mother was
- ever proof against the winning wiles, the ingenious evasions, or the
- tranquil audacity of the miniature men and women who so early show
- themselves accomplished Artful Dodgers?
- "No more raisins, Demi. They'll make you sick," says Mamma to the
- young person who offers his services in the kitchen with unfailing
- regularity on plum-pudding day.
- "Me likes to be sick."
- "I don't want to have you, so run away and help Daisy make patty cakes."
- He reluctantly departs, but his wrongs weigh upon his spirit, and
- by-and-by when an opportunity comes to redress them, he outwits Mamma
- by a shrewd bargain.
- "Now you have been good children, and I'll play anything you like,"
- says Meg, as she leads her assistant cooks upstairs, when the pudding
- is safely bouncing in the pot.
- "Truly, Marmar?" asks Demi, with a brilliant idea in his well-powdered
- head.
- "Yes, truly. Anything you say," replies the shortsighted parent,
- preparing herself to sing, "The Three Little Kittens" half a dozen
- times over, or to take her family to "Buy a penny bun," regardless of
- wind or limb. But Demi corners her by the cool reply...
- "Then we'll go and eat up all the raisins."
- Aunt Dodo was chief playmate and confidante of both children, and the
- trio turned the little house topsy-turvy. Aunt Amy was as yet only a
- name to them, Aunt Beth soon faded into a pleasantly vague memory, but
- Aunt Dodo was a living reality, and they made the most of her, for
- which compliment she was deeply grateful. But when Mr. Bhaer came, Jo
- neglected her playfellows, and dismay and desolation fell upon their
- little souls. Daisy, who was fond of going about peddling kisses, lost
- her best customer and became bankrupt. Demi, with infantile
- penetration, soon discovered that Dodo like to play with 'the bear-man'
- better than she did him, but though hurt, he concealed his anguish, for
- he hadn't the heart to insult a rival who kept a mine of chocolate
- drops in his waistcoat pocket, and a watch that could be taken out of
- its case and freely shaken by ardent admirers.
- Some persons might have considered these pleasing liberties as bribes,
- but Demi didn't see it in that light, and continued to patronize the
- 'the bear-man' with pensive affability, while Daisy bestowed her small
- affections upon him at the third call, and considered his shoulder her
- throne, his arm her refuge, his gifts treasures surpassing worth.
- Gentlemen are sometimes seized with sudden fits of admiration for the
- young relatives of ladies whom they honor with their regard, but this
- counterfeit philoprogenitiveness sits uneasily upon them, and does not
- deceive anybody a particle. Mr. Bhaer's devotion was sincere, however
- likewise effective--for honesty is the best policy in love as in law.
- He was one of the men who are at home with children, and looked
- particularly well when little faces made a pleasant contrast with his
- manly one. His business, whatever it was, detained him from day to
- day, but evening seldom failed to bring him out to see--well, he always
- asked for Mr. March, so I suppose he was the attraction. The excellent
- papa labored under the delusion that he was, and reveled in long
- discussions with the kindred spirit, till a chance remark of his more
- observing grandson suddenly enlightened him.
- Mr. Bhaer came in one evening to pause on the threshold of the study,
- astonished by the spectacle that met his eye. Prone upon the floor lay
- Mr. March, with his respectable legs in the air, and beside him,
- likewise prone, was Demi, trying to imitate the attitude with his own
- short, scarlet-stockinged legs, both grovelers so seriously absorbed
- that they were unconscious of spectators, till Mr. Bhaer laughed his
- sonorous laugh, and Jo cried out, with a scandalized face...
- "Father, Father, here's the Professor!"
- Down went the black legs and up came the gray head, as the preceptor
- said, with undisturbed dignity, "Good evening, Mr. Bhaer. Excuse me for
- a moment. We are just finishing our lesson. Now, Demi, make the
- letter and tell its name."
- "I knows him!" and, after a few convulsive efforts, the red legs took
- the shape of a pair of compasses, and the intelligent pupil
- triumphantly shouted, "It's a We, Dranpa, it's a We!"
- "He's a born Weller," laughed Jo, as her parent gathered himself up,
- and her nephew tried to stand on his head, as the only mode of
- expressing his satisfaction that school was over.
- "What have you been at today, bubchen?" asked Mr. Bhaer, picking up the
- gymnast.
- "Me went to see little Mary."
- "And what did you there?"
- "I kissed her," began Demi, with artless frankness.
- "Prut! Thou beginnest early. What did the little Mary say to that?"
- asked Mr. Bhaer, continuing to confess the young sinner, who stood upon
- the knee, exploring the waistcoat pocket.
- "Oh, she liked it, and she kissed me, and I liked it. Don't little
- boys like little girls?" asked Demi, with his mouth full, and an air of
- bland satisfaction.
- "You precocious chick! Who put that into your head?" said Jo, enjoying
- the innocent revelation as much as the Professor.
- "'Tisn't in mine head, it's in mine mouf," answered literal Demi,
- putting out his tongue, with a chocolate drop on it, thinking she
- alluded to confectionery, not ideas.
- "Thou shouldst save some for the little friend. Sweets to the sweet,
- mannling," and Mr. Bhaer offered Jo some, with a look that made her
- wonder if chocolate was not the nectar drunk by the gods. Demi also
- saw the smile, was impressed by it, and artlessy inquired. ..
- "Do great boys like great girls, to, 'Fessor?"
- Like young Washington, Mr. Bhaer 'couldn't tell a lie', so he gave the
- somewhat vague reply that he believed they did sometimes, in a tone
- that made Mr. March put down his clothesbrush, glance at Jo's retiring
- face, and then sink into his chair, looking as if the 'precocious
- chick' had put an idea into his head that was both sweet and sour.
- Why Dodo, when she caught him in the china closet half an hour
- afterward, nearly squeezed the breath out of his little body with a
- tender embrace, instead of shaking him for being there, and why she
- followed up this novel performance by the unexpected gift of a big
- slice of bread and jelly, remained one of the problems over which Demi
- puzzled his small wits, and was forced to leave unsolved forever.
- CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
- UNDER THE UMBRELLA
- While Laurie and Amy were taking conjugal strolls over velvet carpets,
- as they set their house in order, and planned a blissful future, Mr.
- Bhaer and Jo were enjoying promenades of a different sort, along muddy
- roads and sodden fields.
- "I always do take a walk toward evening, and I don't know why I should
- give it up, just because I happen to meet the Professor on his way
- out," said Jo to herself, after two or three encounters, for though
- there were two paths to Meg's whichever one she took she was sure to
- meet him, either going or returning. He was always walking rapidly, and
- never seemed to see her until quite close, when he would look as if his
- short-sighted eyes had failed to recognize the approaching lady till
- that moment. Then, if she was going to Meg's he always had something
- for the babies. If her face was turned homeward, he had merely
- strolled down to see the river, and was just returning, unless they
- were tired of his frequent calls.
- Under the circumstances, what could Jo do but greet him civilly, and
- invite him in? If she was tired of his visits, she concealed her
- weariness with perfect skill, and took care that there should be coffee
- for supper, "as Friedrich--I mean Mr. Bhaer--doesn't like tea."
- By the second week, everyone knew perfectly well what was going on, yet
- everyone tried to look as if they were stone-blind to the changes in
- Jo's face. They never asked why she sang about her work, did up her
- hair three times a day, and got so blooming with her evening exercise.
- And no one seemed to have the slightest suspicion that Professor Bhaer,
- while talking philosophy with the father, was giving the daughter
- lessons in love.
- Jo couldn't even lose her heart in a decorous manner, but sternly tried
- to quench her feelings, and failing to do so, led a somewhat agitated
- life. She was mortally afraid of being laughed at for surrendering,
- after her many and vehement declarations of independence. Laurie was
- her especial dread, but thanks to the new manager, he behaved with
- praiseworthy propriety, never called Mr. Bhaer 'a capital old fellow'
- in public, never alluded, in the remotest manner, to Jo's improved
- appearance, or expressed the least surprise at seeing the Professor's
- hat on the Marches' table nearly every evening. But he exulted in
- private and longed for the time to come when he could give Jo a piece
- of plate, with a bear and a ragged staff on it as an appropriate coat
- of arms.
- For a fortnight, the Professor came and went with lover-like
- regularity. Then he stayed away for three whole days, and made no
- sign, a proceeding which caused everybody to look sober, and Jo to
- become pensive, at first, and then--alas for romance--very cross.
- "Disgusted, I dare say, and gone home as suddenly as he came. It's
- nothing to me, of course, but I should think he would have come and bid
- us goodbye like a gentleman," she said to herself, with a despairing
- look at the gate, as she put on her things for the customary walk one
- dull afternoon.
- "You'd better take the little umbrella, dear. It looks like rain,"
- said her mother, observing that she had on her new bonnet, but not
- alluding to the fact.
- "Yes, Marmee, do you want anything in town? I've got to run in and get
- some paper," returned Jo, pulling out the bow under her chin before the
- glass as an excuse for not looking at her mother.
- "Yes, I want some twilled silesia, a paper of number nine needles, and
- two yards of narrow lavender ribbon. Have you got your thick boots on,
- and something warm under your cloak?"
- "I believe so," answered Jo absently.
- "If you happen to meet Mr. Bhaer, bring him home to tea. I quite long
- to see the dear man," added Mrs. March.
- Jo heard that, but made no answer, except to kiss her mother, and walk
- rapidly away, thinking with a glow of gratitude, in spite of her
- heartache, "How good she is to me! What do girls do who haven't any
- mothers to help them through their troubles?"
- The dry-goods stores were not down among the counting-houses, banks,
- and wholesale warerooms, where gentlemen most do congregate, but Jo
- found herself in that part of the city before she did a single errand,
- loitering along as if waiting for someone, examining engineering
- instruments in one window and samples of wool in another, with most
- unfeminine interest, tumbling over barrels, being half-smothered by
- descending bales, and hustled unceremoniously by busy men who looked as
- if they wondered 'how the deuce she got there'. A drop of rain on her
- cheek recalled her thoughts from baffled hopes to ruined ribbons. For
- the drops continued to fall, and being a woman as well as a lover, she
- felt that, though it was too late to save her heart, she might her
- bonnet. Now she remembered the little umbrella, which she had
- forgotten to take in her hurry to be off, but regret was unavailing,
- and nothing could be done but borrow one or submit to a drenching. She
- looked up at the lowering sky, down at the crimson bow already flecked
- with black, forward along the muddy street, then one long, lingering
- look behind, at a certain grimy warehouse, with 'Hoffmann, Swartz, &
- Co.' over the door, and said to herself, with a sternly reproachful
- air...
- "It serves me right! what business had I to put on all my best things
- and come philandering down here, hoping to see the Professor? Jo, I'm
- ashamed of you! No, you shall not go there to borrow an umbrella, or
- find out where he is, from his friends. You shall trudge away, and do
- your errands in the rain, and if you catch your death and ruin your
- bonnet, it's no more than you deserve. Now then!"
- With that she rushed across the street so impetuously that she narrowly
- escaped annihilation from a passing truck, and precipitated herself
- into the arms of a stately old gentleman, who said, "I beg pardon,
- ma'am," and looked mortally offended. Somewhat daunted, Jo righted
- herself, spread her handkerchief over the devoted ribbons, and putting
- temptation behind her, hurried on, with increasing dampness about the
- ankles, and much clashing of umbrellas overhead. The fact that a
- somewhat dilapidated blue one remained stationary above the unprotected
- bonnet attracted her attention, and looking up, she saw Mr. Bhaer
- looking down.
- "I feel to know the strong-minded lady who goes so bravely under many
- horse noses, and so fast through much mud. What do you down here, my
- friend?"
- "I'm shopping."
- Mr. Bhaer smiled, as he glanced from the pickle factory on one side to
- the wholesale hide and leather concern on the other, but he only said
- politely, "You haf no umbrella. May I go also, and take for you the
- bundles?"
- "Yes, thank you."
- Jo's cheeks were as red as her ribbon, and she wondered what he thought
- of her, but she didn't care, for in a minute she found herself walking
- away arm in arm with her Professor, feeling as if the sun had suddenly
- burst out with uncommon brilliancy, that the world was all right again,
- and that one thoroughly happy woman was paddling through the wet that
- day.
- "We thought you had gone," said Jo hastily, for she knew he was looking
- at her. Her bonnet wasn't big enough to hide her face, and she feared
- he might think the joy it betrayed unmaidenly.
- "Did you believe that I should go with no farewell to those who haf
- been so heavenly kind to me?" he asked so reproachfully that she felt
- as if she had insulted him by the suggestion, and answered heartily...
- "No, I didn't. I knew you were busy about your own affairs, but we
- rather missed you, Father and Mother especially."
- "And you?"
- "I'm always glad to see you, sir."
- In her anxiety to keep her voice quite calm, Jo made it rather cool,
- and the frosty little monosyllable at the end seemed to chill the
- Professor, for his smile vanished, as he said gravely...
- "I thank you, and come one more time before I go."
- "You are going, then?"
- "I haf no longer any business here, it is done."
- "Successfully, I hope?" said Jo, for the bitterness of disappointment
- was in that short reply of his.
- "I ought to think so, for I haf a way opened to me by which I can make
- my bread and gif my Junglings much help."
- "Tell me, please! I like to know all about the--the boys," said Jo
- eagerly.
- "That is so kind, I gladly tell you. My friends find for me a place in
- a college, where I teach as at home, and earn enough to make the way
- smooth for Franz and Emil. For this I should be grateful, should I
- not?"
- "Indeed you should. How splendid it will be to have you doing what you
- like, and be able to see you often, and the boys!" cried Jo, clinging
- to the lads as an excuse for the satisfaction she could not help
- betraying.
- "Ah! But we shall not meet often, I fear, this place is at the West."
- "So far away!" and Jo left her skirts to their fate, as if it didn't
- matter now what became of her clothes or herself.
- Mr. Bhaer could read several languages, but he had not learned to read
- women yet. He flattered himself that he knew Jo pretty well, and was,
- therefore, much amazed by the contradictions of voice, face, and
- manner, which she showed him in rapid succession that day, for she was
- in half a dozen different moods in the course of half an hour. When
- she met him she looked surprised, though it was impossible to help
- suspecting that she had come for that express purpose. When he offered
- her his arm, she took it with a look that filled him with delight, but
- when he asked if she missed him, she gave such a chilly, formal reply
- that despair fell upon him. On learning his good fortune she almost
- clapped her hands. Was the joy all for the boys? Then on hearing his
- destination, she said, "So far away!" in a tone of despair that lifted
- him on to a pinnacle of hope, but the next minute she tumbled him down
- again by observing, like one entirely absorbed in the matter...
- "Here's the place for my errands. Will you come in? It won't take
- long."
- Jo rather prided herself upon her shopping capabilities, and
- particularly wished to impress her escort with the neatness and
- dispatch with which she would accomplish the business. But owing to the
- flutter she was in, everything went amiss. She upset the tray of
- needles, forgot the silesia was to be 'twilled' till it was cut off,
- gave the wrong change, and covered herself with confusion by asking for
- lavender ribbon at the calico counter. Mr. Bhaer stood by, watching
- her blush and blunder, and as he watched, his own bewilderment seemed
- to subside, for he was beginning to see that on some occasions, women,
- like dreams, go by contraries.
- When they came out, he put the parcel under his arm with a more
- cheerful aspect, and splashed through the puddles as if he rather
- enjoyed it on the whole.
- "Should we no do a little what you call shopping for the babies, and
- haf a farewell feast tonight if I go for my last call at your so
- pleasant home?" he asked, stopping before a window full of fruit and
- flowers.
- "What will we buy?" asked Jo, ignoring the latter part of his speech,
- and sniffing the mingled odors with an affectation of delight as they
- went in.
- "May they haf oranges and figs?" asked Mr. Bhaer, with a paternal air.
- "They eat them when they can get them."
- "Do you care for nuts?"
- "Like a squirrel."
- "Hamburg grapes. Yes, we shall drink to the Fatherland in those?"
- Jo frowned upon that piece of extravagance, and asked why he didn't buy
- a frail of dates, a cask of raisins, and a bag of almonds, and be done
- with it? Whereat Mr. Bhaer confiscated her purse, produced his own,
- and finished the marketing by buying several pounds of grapes, a pot of
- rosy daisies, and a pretty jar of honey, to be regarded in the light of
- a demijohn. Then distorting his pockets with knobby bundles, and
- giving her the flowers to hold, he put up the old umbrella, and they
- traveled on again.
- "Miss Marsch, I haf a great favor to ask of you," began the Professor,
- after a moist promenade of half a block.
- "Yes, sir?" and Jo's heart began to beat so hard she was afraid he
- would hear it.
- "I am bold to say it in spite of the rain, because so short a time
- remains to me."
- "Yes, sir," and Jo nearly crushed the small flowerpot with the sudden
- squeeze she gave it.
- "I wish to get a little dress for my Tina, and I am too stupid to go
- alone. Will you kindly gif me a word of taste and help?"
- "Yes, sir," and Jo felt as calm and cool all of a sudden as if she had
- stepped into a refrigerator.
- "Perhaps also a shawl for Tina's mother, she is so poor and sick, and
- the husband is such a care. Yes, yes, a thick, warm shawl would be a
- friendly thing to take the little mother."
- "I'll do it with pleasure, Mr. Bhaer." "I'm going very fast, and he's
- getting dearer every minute," added Jo to herself, then with a mental
- shake she entered into the business with an energy that was pleasant to
- behold.
- Mr. Bhaer left it all to her, so she chose a pretty gown for Tina, and
- then ordered out the shawls. The clerk, being a married man,
- condescended to take an interest in the couple, who appeared to be
- shopping for their family.
- "Your lady may prefer this. It's a superior article, a most desirable
- color, quite chaste and genteel," he said, shaking out a comfortable
- gray shawl, and throwing it over Jo's shoulders.
- "Does this suit you, Mr. Bhaer?" she asked, turning her back to him,
- and feeling deeply grateful for the chance of hiding her face.
- "Excellently well, we will haf it," answered the Professor, smiling to
- himself as he paid for it, while Jo continued to rummage the counters
- like a confirmed bargain-hunter.
- "Now shall we go home?" he asked, as if the words were very pleasant to
- him.
- "Yes, it's late, and I'm _so_ tired." Jo's voice was more pathetic than
- she knew. For now the sun seemed to have gone in as suddenly as it
- came out, and the world grew muddy and miserable again, and for the
- first time she discovered that her feet were cold, her head ached, and
- that her heart was colder than the former, fuller of pain than the
- latter. Mr. Bhaer was going away, he only cared for her as a friend,
- it was all a mistake, and the sooner it was over the better. With this
- idea in her head, she hailed an approaching omnibus with such a hasty
- gesture that the daisies flew out of the pot and were badly damaged.
- "This is not our omniboos," said the Professor, waving the loaded
- vehicle away, and stopping to pick up the poor little flowers.
- "I beg your pardon. I didn't see the name distinctly. Never mind, I
- can walk. I'm used to plodding in the mud," returned Jo, winking hard,
- because she would have died rather than openly wipe her eyes.
- Mr. Bhaer saw the drops on her cheeks, though she turned her head away.
- The sight seemed to touch him very much, for suddenly stooping down, he
- asked in a tone that meant a great deal, "Heart's dearest, why do you
- cry?"
- Now, if Jo had not been new to this sort of thing she would have said
- she wasn't crying, had a cold in her head, or told any other feminine
- fib proper to the occasion. Instead of which, that undignified
- creature answered, with an irrepressible sob, "Because you are going
- away."
- "Ach, mein Gott, that is so good!" cried Mr. Bhaer, managing to clasp
- his hands in spite of the umbrella and the bundles, "Jo, I haf nothing
- but much love to gif you. I came to see if you could care for it, and
- I waited to be sure that I was something more than a friend. Am I?
- Can you make a little place in your heart for old Fritz?" he added, all
- in one breath.
- "Oh, yes!" said Jo, and he was quite satisfied, for she folded both
- hands over his arm, and looked up at him with an expression that
- plainly showed how happy she would be to walk through life beside him,
- even though she had no better shelter than the old umbrella, if he
- carried it.
- It was certainly proposing under difficulties, for even if he had
- desired to do so, Mr. Bhaer could not go down upon his knees, on
- account of the mud. Neither could he offer Jo his hand, except
- figuratively, for both were full. Much less could he indulge in tender
- remonstrations in the open street, though he was near it. So the only
- way in which he could express his rapture was to look at her, with an
- expression which glorified his face to such a degree that there
- actually seemed to be little rainbows in the drops that sparkled on his
- beard. If he had not loved Jo very much, I don't think he could have
- done it then, for she looked far from lovely, with her skirts in a
- deplorable state, her rubber boots splashed to the ankle, and her
- bonnet a ruin. Fortunately, Mr. Bhaer considered her the most
- beautiful woman living, and she found him more "Jove-like" than ever,
- though his hatbrim was quite limp with the little rills trickling
- thence upon his shoulders (for he held the umbrella all over Jo), and
- every finger of his gloves needed mending.
- Passers-by probably thought them a pair of harmless lunatics, for they
- entirely forgot to hail a bus, and strolled leisurely along, oblivious
- of deepening dusk and fog. Little they cared what anybody thought, for
- they were enjoying the happy hour that seldom comes but once in any
- life, the magical moment which bestows youth on the old, beauty on the
- plain, wealth on the poor, and gives human hearts a foretaste of
- heaven. The Professor looked as if he had conquered a kingdom, and the
- world had nothing more to offer him in the way of bliss. While Jo
- trudged beside him, feeling as if her place had always been there, and
- wondering how she ever could have chosen any other lot. Of course, she
- was the first to speak--intelligibly, I mean, for the emotional remarks
- which followed her impetuous "Oh, yes!" were not of a coherent or
- reportable character.
- "Friedrich, why didn't you..."
- "Ah, heaven, she gifs me the name that no one speaks since Minna died!"
- cried the Professor, pausing in a puddle to regard her with grateful
- delight.
- "I always call you so to myself--I forgot, but I won't unless you like
- it."
- "Like it? It is more sweet to me than I can tell. Say 'thou', also,
- and I shall say your language is almost as beautiful as mine."
- "Isn't 'thou' a little sentimental?" asked Jo, privately thinking it a
- lovely monosyllable.
- "Sentimental? Yes. Thank Gott, we Germans believe in sentiment, and
- keep ourselves young mit it. Your English 'you' is so cold, say
- 'thou', heart's dearest, it means so much to me," pleaded Mr. Bhaer,
- more like a romantic student than a grave professor.
- "Well, then, why didn't thou tell me all this sooner?" asked Jo
- bashfully.
- "Now I shall haf to show thee all my heart, and I so gladly will,
- because thou must take care of it hereafter. See, then, my Jo--ah, the
- dear, funny little name--I had a wish to tell something the day I said
- goodbye in New York, but I thought the handsome friend was betrothed to
- thee, and so I spoke not. Wouldst thou have said 'Yes', then, if I had
- spoken?"
- "I don't know. I'm afraid not, for I didn't have any heart just then."
- "Prut! That I do not believe. It was asleep till the fairy prince
- came through the wood, and waked it up. Ah, well, 'Die erste Liebe ist
- die beste', but that I should not expect."
- "Yes, the first love is the best, but be so contented, for I never had
- another. Teddy was only a boy, and soon got over his little fancy,"
- said Jo, anxious to correct the Professor's mistake.
- "Good! Then I shall rest happy, and be sure that thou givest me all.
- I haf waited so long, I am grown selfish, as thou wilt find,
- Professorin."
- "I like that," cried Jo, delighted with her new name. "Now tell me
- what brought you, at last, just when I wanted you?"
- "This," and Mr. Bhaer took a little worn paper out of his waistcoat
- pocket.
- Jo unfolded it, and looked much abashed, for it was one of her own
- contributions to a paper that paid for poetry, which accounted for her
- sending it an occasional attempt.
- "How could that bring you?" she asked, wondering what he meant.
- "I found it by chance. I knew it by the names and the initials, and in
- it there was one little verse that seemed to call me. Read and find
- him. I will see that you go not in the wet."
- IN THE GARRET
- Four little chests all in a row,
- Dim with dust, and worn by time,
- All fashioned and filled, long ago,
- By children now in their prime.
- Four little keys hung side by side,
- With faded ribbons, brave and gay
- When fastened there, with childish pride,
- Long ago, on a rainy day.
- Four little names, one on each lid,
- Carved out by a boyish hand,
- And underneath there lieth hid
- Histories of the happy band
- Once playing here, and pausing oft
- To hear the sweet refrain,
- That came and went on the roof aloft,
- In the falling summer rain.
- "Meg" on the first lid, smooth and fair.
- I look in with loving eyes,
- For folded here, with well-known care,
- A goodly gathering lies,
- The record of a peaceful life--
- Gifts to gentle child and girl,
- A bridal gown, lines to a wife,
- A tiny shoe, a baby curl.
- No toys in this first chest remain,
- For all are carried away,
- In their old age, to join again
- In another small Meg's play.
- Ah, happy mother! Well I know
- You hear, like a sweet refrain,
- Lullabies ever soft and low
- In the falling summer rain.
- "Jo" on the next lid, scratched and worn,
- And within a motley store
- Of headless dolls, of schoolbooks torn,
- Birds and beasts that speak no more,
- Spoils brought home from the fairy ground
- Only trod by youthful feet,
- Dreams of a future never found,
- Memories of a past still sweet,
- Half-writ poems, stories wild,
- April letters, warm and cold,
- Diaries of a wilful child,
- Hints of a woman early old,
- A woman in a lonely home,
- Hearing, like a sad refrain--
- "Be worthy, love, and love will come,"
- In the falling summer rain.
- My Beth! the dust is always swept
- From the lid that bears your name,
- As if by loving eyes that wept,
- By careful hands that often came.
- Death canonized for us one saint,
- Ever less human than divine,
- And still we lay, with tender plaint,
- Relics in this household shrine--
- The silver bell, so seldom rung,
- The little cap which last she wore,
- The fair, dead Catherine that hung
- By angels borne above her door.
- The songs she sang, without lament,
- In her prison-house of pain,
- Forever are they sweetly blent
- With the falling summer rain.
- Upon the last lid's polished field--
- Legend now both fair and true
- A gallant knight bears on his shield,
- "Amy" in letters gold and blue.
- Within lie snoods that bound her hair,
- Slippers that have danced their last,
- Faded flowers laid by with care,
- Fans whose airy toils are past,
- Gay valentines, all ardent flames,
- Trifles that have borne their part
- In girlish hopes and fears and shames,
- The record of a maiden heart
- Now learning fairer, truer spells,
- Hearing, like a blithe refrain,
- The silver sound of bridal bells
- In the falling summer rain.
- Four little chests all in a row,
- Dim with dust, and worn by time,
- Four women, taught by weal and woe
- To love and labor in their prime.
- Four sisters, parted for an hour,
- None lost, one only gone before,
- Made by love's immortal power,
- Nearest and dearest evermore.
- Oh, when these hidden stores of ours
- Lie open to the Father's sight,
- May they be rich in golden hours,
- Deeds that show fairer for the light,
- Lives whose brave music long shall ring,
- Like a spirit-stirring strain,
- Souls that shall gladly soar and sing
- In the long sunshine after rain.
- "It's very bad poetry, but I felt it when I wrote it, one day when I
- was very lonely, and had a good cry on a rag bag. I never thought it
- would go where it could tell tales," said Jo, tearing up the verses the
- Professor had treasured so long.
- "Let it go, it has done its duty, and I will haf a fresh one when I
- read all the brown book in which she keeps her little secrets," said
- Mr. Bhaer with a smile as he watched the fragments fly away on the
- wind. "Yes," he added earnestly, "I read that, and I think to myself,
- She has a sorrow, she is lonely, she would find comfort in true love.
- I haf a heart full, full for her. Shall I not go and say, 'If this is
- not too poor a thing to gif for what I shall hope to receive, take it
- in Gott's name?'"
- "And so you came to find that it was not too poor, but the one precious
- thing I needed," whispered Jo.
- "I had no courage to think that at first, heavenly kind as was your
- welcome to me. But soon I began to hope, and then I said, 'I will haf
- her if I die for it,' and so I will!" cried Mr. Bhaer, with a defiant
- nod, as if the walls of mist closing round them were barriers which he
- was to surmount or valiantly knock down.
- Jo thought that was splendid, and resolved to be worthy of her knight,
- though he did not come prancing on a charger in gorgeous array.
- "What made you stay away so long?" she asked presently, finding it so
- pleasant to ask confidential questions and get delightful answers that
- she could not keep silent.
- "It was not easy, but I could not find the heart to take you from that
- so happy home until I could haf a prospect of one to gif you, after
- much time, perhaps, and hard work. How could I ask you to gif up so
- much for a poor old fellow, who has no fortune but a little learning?"
- "I'm glad you are poor. I couldn't bear a rich husband," said Jo
- decidedly, adding in a softer tone, "Don't fear poverty. I've known it
- long enough to lose my dread and be happy working for those I love, and
- don't call yourself old--forty is the prime of life. I couldn't help
- loving you if you were seventy!"
- The Professor found that so touching that he would have been glad of
- his handkerchief, if he could have got at it. As he couldn't, Jo wiped
- his eyes for him, and said, laughing, as she took away a bundle or
- two...
- "I may be strong-minded, but no one can say I'm out of my sphere now,
- for woman's special mission is supposed to be drying tears and bearing
- burdens. I'm to carry my share, Friedrich, and help to earn the home.
- Make up your mind to that, or I'll never go," she added resolutely, as
- he tried to reclaim his load.
- "We shall see. Haf you patience to wait a long time, Jo? I must go
- away and do my work alone. I must help my boys first, because, even
- for you, I may not break my word to Minna. Can you forgif that, and be
- happy while we hope and wait?"
- "Yes, I know I can, for we love one another, and that makes all the
- rest easy to bear. I have my duty, also, and my work. I couldn't enjoy
- myself if I neglected them even for you, so there's no need of hurry or
- impatience. You can do your part out West, I can do mine here, and
- both be happy hoping for the best, and leaving the future to be as God
- wills."
- "Ah! Thou gifest me such hope and courage, and I haf nothing to gif
- back but a full heart and these empty hands," cried the Professor,
- quite overcome.
- Jo never, never would learn to be proper, for when he said that as they
- stood upon the steps, she just put both hands into his, whispering
- tenderly, "Not empty now," and stooping down, kissed her Friedrich
- under the umbrella. It was dreadful, but she would have done it if the
- flock of draggle-tailed sparrows on the hedge had been human beings,
- for she was very far gone indeed, and quite regardless of everything
- but her own happiness. Though it came in such a very simple guise, that
- was the crowning moment of both their lives, when, turning from the
- night and storm and loneliness to the household light and warmth and
- peace waiting to receive them, with a glad "Welcome home!" Jo led her
- lover in, and shut the door.
- CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
- HARVEST TIME
- For a year Jo and her Professor worked and waited, hoped and loved, met
- occasionally, and wrote such voluminous letters that the rise in the
- price of paper was accounted for, Laurie said. The second year began
- rather soberly, for their prospects did not brighten, and Aunt March
- died suddenly. But when their first sorrow was over--for they loved
- the old lady in spite of her sharp tongue--they found they had cause
- for rejoicing, for she had left Plumfield to Jo, which made all sorts
- of joyful things possible.
- "It's a fine old place, and will bring a handsome sum, for of course
- you intend to sell it," said Laurie, as they were all talking the
- matter over some weeks later.
- "No, I don't," was Jo's decided answer, as she petted the fat poodle,
- whom she had adopted, out of respect to his former mistress.
- "You don't mean to live there?"
- "Yes, I do."
- "But, my dear girl, it's an immense house, and will take a power of
- money to keep it in order. The garden and orchard alone need two or
- three men, and farming isn't in Bhaer's line, I take it."
- "He'll try his hand at it there, if I propose it."
- "And you expect to live on the produce of the place? Well, that sounds
- paradisiacal, but you'll find it desperate hard work."
- "The crop we are going to raise is a profitable one," and Jo laughed.
- "Of what is this fine crop to consist, ma'am?"
- "Boys. I want to open a school for little lads--a good, happy,
- homelike school, with me to take care of them and Fritz to teach them."
- "That's a truly Joian plan for you! Isn't that just like her?" cried
- Laurie, appealing to the family, who looked as much surprised as he.
- "I like it," said Mrs. March decidedly.
- "So do I," added her husband, who welcomed the thought of a chance for
- trying the Socratic method of education on modern youth.
- "It will be an immense care for Jo," said Meg, stroking the head of her
- one all-absorbing son.
- "Jo can do it, and be happy in it. It's a splendid idea. Tell us all
- about it," cried Mr. Laurence, who had been longing to lend the lovers
- a hand, but knew that they would refuse his help.
- "I knew you'd stand by me, sir. Amy does too--I see it in her eyes,
- though she prudently waits to turn it over in her mind before she
- speaks. Now, my dear people," continued Jo earnestly, "just understand
- that this isn't a new idea of mine, but a long cherished plan. Before
- my Fritz came, I used to think how, when I'd made my fortune, and no
- one needed me at home, I'd hire a big house, and pick up some poor,
- forlorn little lads who hadn't any mothers, and take care of them, and
- make life jolly for them before it was too late. I see so many going
- to ruin for want of help at the right minute, I love so to do anything
- for them, I seem to feel their wants, and sympathize with their
- troubles, and oh, I should so like to be a mother to them!"
- Mrs. March held out her hand to Jo, who took it, smiling, with tears in
- her eyes, and went on in the old enthusiastic way, which they had not
- seen for a long while.
- "I told my plan to Fritz once, and he said it was just what he would
- like, and agreed to try it when we got rich. Bless his dear heart,
- he's been doing it all his life--helping poor boys, I mean, not getting
- rich, that he'll never be. Money doesn't stay in his pocket long
- enough to lay up any. But now, thanks to my good old aunt, who loved
- me better than I ever deserved, I'm rich, at least I feel so, and we
- can live at Plumfield perfectly well, if we have a flourishing school.
- It's just the place for boys, the house is big, and the furniture
- strong and plain. There's plenty of room for dozens inside, and
- splendid grounds outside. They could help in the garden and orchard.
- Such work is healthy, isn't it, sir? Then Fritz could train and teach
- in his own way, and Father will help him. I can feed and nurse and pet
- and scold them, and Mother will be my stand-by. I've always longed for
- lots of boys, and never had enough, now I can fill the house full and
- revel in the little dears to my heart's content. Think what luxury--
- Plumfield my own, and a wilderness of boys to enjoy it with me."
- As Jo waved her hands and gave a sigh of rapture, the family went off
- into a gale of merriment, and Mr. Laurence laughed till they thought
- he'd have an apoplectic fit.
- "I don't see anything funny," she said gravely, when she could be
- heard. "Nothing could be more natural and proper than for my Professor
- to open a school, and for me to prefer to reside in my own estate."
- "She is putting on airs already," said Laurie, who regarded the idea in
- the light of a capital joke. "But may I inquire how you intend to
- support the establishment? If all the pupils are little ragamuffins,
- I'm afraid your crop won't be profitable in a worldly sense, Mrs.
- Bhaer."
- "Now don't be a wet-blanket, Teddy. Of course I shall have rich
- pupils, also--perhaps begin with such altogether. Then, when I've got
- a start, I can take in a ragamuffin or two, just for a relish. Rich
- people's children often need care and comfort, as well as poor. I've
- seen unfortunate little creatures left to servants, or backward ones
- pushed forward, when it's real cruelty. Some are naughty through
- mismanagment or neglect, and some lose their mothers. Besides, the best
- have to get through the hobbledehoy age, and that's the very time they
- need most patience and kindness. People laugh at them, and hustle them
- about, try to keep them out of sight, and expect them to turn all at
- once from pretty children into fine young men. They don't complain
- much--plucky little souls--but they feel it. I've been through
- something of it, and I know all about it. I've a special interest in
- such young bears, and like to show them that I see the warm, honest,
- well-meaning boys' hearts, in spite of the clumsy arms and legs and the
- topsy-turvy heads. I've had experience, too, for haven't I brought up
- one boy to be a pride and honor to his family?"
- "I'll testify that you tried to do it," said Laurie with a grateful
- look.
- "And I've succeeded beyond my hopes, for here you are, a steady,
- sensible businessman, doing heaps of good with your money, and laying
- up the blessings of the poor, instead of dollars. But you are not
- merely a businessman, you love good and beautiful things, enjoy them
- yourself, and let others go halves, as you always did in the old times.
- I am proud of you, Teddy, for you get better every year, and everyone
- feels it, though you won't let them say so. Yes, and when I have my
- flock, I'll just point to you, and say 'There's your model, my lads'."
- Poor Laurie didn't know where to look, for, man though he was,
- something of the old bashfulness came over him as this burst of praise
- made all faces turn approvingly upon him.
- "I say, Jo, that's rather too much," he began, just in his old boyish
- way. "You have all done more for me than I can ever thank you for,
- except by doing my best not to disappoint you. You have rather cast me
- off lately, Jo, but I've had the best of help, nevertheless. So, if
- I've got on at all, you may thank these two for it," and he laid one
- hand gently on his grandfather's head, and the other on Amy's golden
- one, for the three were never far apart.
- "I do think that families are the most beautiful things in all the
- world!" burst out Jo, who was in an unusually up-lifted frame of mind
- just then. "When I have one of my own, I hope it will be as happy as
- the three I know and love the best. If John and my Fritz were only
- here, it would be quite a little heaven on earth," she added more
- quietly. And that night when she went to her room after a blissful
- evening of family counsels, hopes, and plans, her heart was so full of
- happiness that she could only calm it by kneeling beside the empty bed
- always near her own, and thinking tender thoughts of Beth.
- It was a very astonishing year altogether, for things seemed to happen
- in an unusually rapid and delightful manner. Almost before she knew
- where she was, Jo found herself married and settled at Plumfield. Then
- a family of six or seven boys sprung up like mushrooms, and flourished
- surprisingly, poor boys as well as rich, for Mr. Laurence was
- continually finding some touching case of destitution, and begging the
- Bhaers to take pity on the child, and he would gladly pay a trifle for
- its support. In this way, the sly old gentleman got round proud Jo,
- and furnished her with the style of boy in which she most delighted.
- Of course it was uphill work at first, and Jo made queer mistakes, but
- the wise Professor steered her safely into calmer waters, and the most
- rampant ragamuffin was conquered in the end. How Jo did enjoy her
- 'wilderness of boys', and how poor, dear Aunt March would have lamented
- had she been there to see the sacred precincts of prim, well-ordered
- Plumfield overrun with Toms, Dicks, and Harrys! There was a sort of
- poetic justice about it, after all, for the old lady had been the
- terror of the boys for miles around, and now the exiles feasted freely
- on forbidden plums, kicked up the gravel with profane boots unreproved,
- and played cricket in the big field where the irritable 'cow with a
- crumpled horn' used to invite rash youths to come and be tossed. It
- became a sort of boys' paradise, and Laurie suggested that it should be
- called the 'Bhaer-garten', as a compliment to its master and
- appropriate to its inhabitants.
- It never was a fashionable school, and the Professor did not lay up a
- fortune, but it was just what Jo intended it to be--'a happy, homelike
- place for boys, who needed teaching, care, and kindness'. Every room
- in the big house was soon full. Every little plot in the garden soon
- had its owner. A regular menagerie appeared in barn and shed, for pet
- animals were allowed. And three times a day, Jo smiled at her Fritz
- from the head of a long table lined on either side with rows of happy
- young faces, which all turned to her with affectionate eyes, confiding
- words, and grateful hearts, full of love for 'Mother Bhaer'. She had
- boys enough now, and did not tire of them, though they were not angels,
- by any means, and some of them caused both Professor and Professorin
- much trouble and anxiety. But her faith in the good spot which exists
- in the heart of the naughtiest, sauciest, most tantalizing little
- ragamuffin gave her patience, skill, and in time success, for no mortal
- boy could hold out long with Father Bhaer shining on him as
- benevolently as the sun, and Mother Bhaer forgiving him seventy times
- seven. Very precious to Jo was the friendship of the lads, their
- penitent sniffs and whispers after wrongdoing, their droll or touching
- little confidences, their pleasant enthusiasms, hopes, and plans, even
- their misfortunes, for they only endeared them to her all the more.
- There were slow boys and bashful boys, feeble boys and riotous boys,
- boys that lisped and boys that stuttered, one or two lame ones, and a
- merry little quadroon, who could not be taken in elsewhere, but who was
- welcome to the 'Bhaer-garten', though some people predicted that his
- admission would ruin the school.
- Yes, Jo was a very happy woman there, in spite of hard work, much
- anxiety, and a perpetual racket. She enjoyed it heartily and found the
- applause of her boys more satisfying than any praise of the world, for
- now she told no stories except to her flock of enthusiastic believers
- and admirers. As the years went on, two little lads of her own came to
- increase her happiness--Rob, named for Grandpa, and Teddy, a
- happy-go-lucky baby, who seemed to have inherited his papa's sunshiny
- temper as well as his mother's lively spirit. How they ever grew up
- alive in that whirlpool of boys was a mystery to their grandma and
- aunts, but they flourished like dandelions in spring, and their rough
- nurses loved and served them well.
- There were a great many holidays at Plumfield, and one of the most
- delightful was the yearly apple-picking. For then the Marches,
- Laurences, Brookes and Bhaers turned out in full force and made a day
- of it. Five years after Jo's wedding, one of these fruitful festivals
- occurred, a mellow October day, when the air was full of an
- exhilarating freshness which made the spirits rise and the blood dance
- healthily in the veins. The old orchard wore its holiday attire.
- Goldenrod and asters fringed the mossy walls. Grasshoppers skipped
- briskly in the sere grass, and crickets chirped like fairy pipers at a
- feast. Squirrels were busy with their small harvesting. Birds
- twittered their adieux from the alders in the lane, and every tree
- stood ready to send down its shower of red or yellow apples at the
- first shake. Everybody was there. Everybody laughed and sang, climbed
- up and tumbled down. Everybody declared that there never had been such
- a perfect day or such a jolly set to enjoy it, and everyone gave
- themselves up to the simple pleasures of the hour as freely as if there
- were no such things as care or sorrow in the world.
- Mr. March strolled placidly about, quoting Tusser, Cowley, and
- Columella to Mr. Laurence, while enjoying...
- The gentle apple's winey juice.
- The Professor charged up and down the green aisles like a stout
- Teutonic knight, with a pole for a lance, leading on the boys, who made
- a hook and ladder company of themselves, and performed wonders in the
- way of ground and lofty tumbling. Laurie devoted himself to the little
- ones, rode his small daughter in a bushel-basket, took Daisy up among
- the bird's nests, and kept adventurous Rob from breaking his neck.
- Mrs. March and Meg sat among the apple piles like a pair of Pomonas,
- sorting the contributions that kept pouring in, while Amy with a
- beautiful motherly expression in her face sketched the various groups,
- and watched over one pale lad, who sat adoring her with his little
- crutch beside him.
- Jo was in her element that day, and rushed about, with her gown pinned
- up, and her hat anywhere but on her head, and her baby tucked under her
- arm, ready for any lively adventure which might turn up. Little Teddy
- bore a charmed life, for nothing ever happened to him, and Jo never
- felt any anxiety when he was whisked up into a tree by one lad,
- galloped off on the back of another, or supplied with sour russets by
- his indulgent papa, who labored under the Germanic delusion that babies
- could digest anything, from pickled cabbage to buttons, nails, and
- their own small shoes. She knew that little Ted would turn up again in
- time, safe and rosy, dirty and serene, and she always received him back
- with a hearty welcome, for Jo loved her babies tenderly.
- At four o'clock a lull took place, and baskets remained empty, while
- the apple pickers rested and compared rents and bruises. Then Jo and
- Meg, with a detachment of the bigger boys, set forth the supper on the
- grass, for an out-of-door tea was always the crowning joy of the day.
- The land literally flowed with milk and honey on such occasions, for
- the lads were not required to sit at table, but allowed to partake of
- refreshment as they liked--freedom being the sauce best beloved by the
- boyish soul. They availed themselves of the rare privilege to the
- fullest extent, for some tried the pleasing experiment of drinking milk
- while standing on their heads, others lent a charm to leapfrog by
- eating pie in the pauses of the game, cookies were sown broadcast over
- the field, and apple turnovers roosted in the trees like a new style of
- bird. The little girls had a private tea party, and Ted roved among
- the edibles at his own sweet will.
- When no one could eat any more, the Professor proposed the first
- regular toast, which was always drunk at such times--"Aunt March, God
- bless her!" A toast heartily given by the good man, who never forgot
- how much he owed her, and quietly drunk by the boys, who had been
- taught to keep her memory green.
- "Now, Grandma's sixtieth birthday! Long life to her, with three times
- three!"
- That was given with a will, as you may well believe, and the cheering
- once begun, it was hard to stop it. Everybody's health was proposed,
- from Mr. Laurence, who was considered their special patron, to the
- astonished guinea pig, who had strayed from its proper sphere in search
- of its young master. Demi, as the oldest grandchild, then presented
- the queen of the day with various gifts, so numerous that they were
- transported to the festive scene in a wheelbarrow. Funny presents,
- some of them, but what would have been defects to other eyes were
- ornaments to Grandma's--for the children's gifts were all their own.
- Every stitch Daisy's patient little fingers had put into the
- handkerchiefs she hemmed was better than embroidery to Mrs. March.
- Demi's miracle of mechanical skill, though the cover wouldn't shut,
- Rob's footstool had a wiggle in its uneven legs that she declared was
- soothing, and no page of the costly book Amy's child gave her was so
- fair as that on which appeared in tipsy capitals, the words--"To dear
- Grandma, from her little Beth."
- During the ceremony the boys had mysteriously disappeared, and when
- Mrs. March had tried to thank her children, and broken down, while
- Teddy wiped her eyes on his pinafore, the Professor suddenly began to
- sing. Then, from above him, voice after voice took up the words, and
- from tree to tree echoed the music of the unseen choir, as the boys
- sang with all their hearts the little song that Jo had written, Laurie
- set to music, and the Professor trained his lads to give with the best
- effect. This was something altogether new, and it proved a grand
- success, for Mrs. March couldn't get over her surprise, and insisted on
- shaking hands with every one of the featherless birds, from tall Franz
- and Emil to the little quadroon, who had the sweetest voice of all.
- After this, the boys dispersed for a final lark, leaving Mrs. March and
- her daughters under the festival tree.
- "I don't think I ever ought to call myself 'unlucky Jo' again, when my
- greatest wish has been so beautifully gratified," said Mrs. Bhaer,
- taking Teddy's little fist out of the milk pitcher, in which he was
- rapturously churning.
- "And yet your life is very different from the one you pictured so long
- ago. Do you remember our castles in the air?" asked Amy, smiling as
- she watched Laurie and John playing cricket with the boys.
- "Dear fellows! It does my heart good to see them forget business and
- frolic for a day," answered Jo, who now spoke in a maternal way of all
- mankind. "Yes, I remember, but the life I wanted then seems selfish,
- lonely, and cold to me now. I haven't given up the hope that I may
- write a good book yet, but I can wait, and I'm sure it will be all the
- better for such experiences and illustrations as these," and Jo pointed
- from the lively lads in the distance to her father, leaning on the
- Professor's arm, as they walked to and fro in the sunshine, deep in one
- of the conversations which both enjoyed so much, and then to her
- mother, sitting enthroned among her daughters, with their children in
- her lap and at her feet, as if all found help and happiness in the face
- which never could grow old to them.
- "My castle was the most nearly realized of all. I asked for splendid
- things, to be sure, but in my heart I knew I should be satisfied, if I
- had a little home, and John, and some dear children like these. I've
- got them all, thank God, and am the happiest woman in the world," and
- Meg laid her hand on her tall boy's head, with a face full of tender
- and devout content.
- "My castle is very different from what I planned, but I would not alter
- it, though, like Jo, I don't relinquish all my artistic hopes, or
- confine myself to helping others fulfill their dreams of beauty. I've
- begun to model a figure of baby, and Laurie says it is the best thing
- I've ever done. I think so, myself, and mean to do it in marble, so
- that, whatever happens, I may at least keep the image of my little
- angel."
- As Amy spoke, a great tear dropped on the golden hair of the sleeping
- child in her arms, for her one well-beloved daughter was a frail little
- creature and the dread of losing her was the shadow over Amy's
- sunshine. This cross was doing much for both father and mother, for
- one love and sorrow bound them closely together. Amy's nature was
- growing sweeter, deeper, and more tender. Laurie was growing more
- serious, strong, and firm, and both were learning that beauty, youth,
- good fortune, even love itself, cannot keep care and pain, loss and
- sorrow, from the most blessed for ...
- Into each life some rain must fall,
- Some days must be dark and sad and dreary.
- "She is growing better, I am sure of it, my dear. Don't despond, but
- hope and keep happy," said Mrs. March, as tenderhearted Daisy stooped
- from her knee to lay her rosy cheek against her little cousin's pale
- one.
- "I never ought to, while I have you to cheer me up, Marmee, and Laurie
- to take more than half of every burden," replied Amy warmly. "He never
- lets me see his anxiety, but is so sweet and patient with me, so
- devoted to Beth, and such a stay and comfort to me always that I can't
- love him enough. So, in spite of my one cross, I can say with Meg,
- 'Thank God, I'm a happy woman.'"
- "There's no need for me to say it, for everyone can see that I'm far
- happier than I deserve," added Jo, glancing from her good husband to
- her chubby children, tumbling on the grass beside her. "Fritz is
- getting gray and stout. I'm growing as thin as a shadow, and am
- thirty. We never shall be rich, and Plumfield may burn up any night,
- for that incorrigible Tommy Bangs will smoke sweet-fern cigars under
- the bed-clothes, though he's set himself afire three times already.
- But in spite of these unromantic facts, I have nothing to complain of,
- and never was so jolly in my life. Excuse the remark, but living among
- boys, I can't help using their expressions now and then."
- "Yes, Jo, I think your harvest will be a good one," began Mrs. March,
- frightening away a big black cricket that was staring Teddy out of
- countenance.
- "Not half so good as yours, Mother. Here it is, and we never can thank
- you enough for the patient sowing and reaping you have done," cried Jo,
- with the loving impetuosity which she never would outgrow.
- "I hope there will be more wheat and fewer tares every year," said Amy
- softly.
- "A large sheaf, but I know there's room in your heart for it, Marmee
- dear," added Meg's tender voice.
- Touched to the heart, Mrs. March could only stretch out her arms, as if
- to gather children and grandchildren to herself, and say, with face and
- voice full of motherly love, gratitude, and humility...
- "Oh, my girls, however long you may live, I never can wish you a
- greater happiness than this!"
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